Caught in a Chemical Romance

Terrified

2012-01-31T21:42:00.005+08:00

Katharine McPhee - Terrified (Ft. Zachary Levi)

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And nothing is worse than knowing

You're holding back

I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

Zachary Levi playing Chuck. Gonna miss the show after it came to end last week after 5 seasons. Maybe I'm gonna make a post on the series.

Physical Torture

2011-11-11T19:09:00.006+08:00

For those of you who have been seeing me post some weird and painful-sounding status on Facebook recently, here's the reason to that:

Well, that's my mouth. And those tiny little things that you see there... are ulcers. Multiples of them! Frankly, that's one hell of a torture I'm going through and this is the worst throat infection that I've ever had in my whole life.

At first I was like,

And then I

To make things worst, I'm entering my study week soon. How can I expect to study if I keep on having distracting pain in my throat? Even swallowing food makes my throat pain aka dysphagia (a medical term for difficulty in swallowing).

These are my meds. The doctor says they will take around a week to clear. I was like WTF? Damn, at least if the pain reduce I'll be more than grateful. After I'm healed completely, I'll never take food for granted anymore. How I've missed putting them into my mouth and swallow them without feeling any pain.

But I try to make it a matter of mind over body, like how Barney Stinson does it. "When I start feeling sick, I stop being sick and be awesome instead. True story".

Wish me the best.

My November

2011-11-02T21:53:00.007+08:00

November couldn't have gotten off to a better start for me. I was announced as the winner of LUKEYisHandsome.com's iPad giveaway contest!

This is one of the rarest moments that I've won something from a contest, and a first from a blogging competition. This was my entry. Man, I couldn't believe my luck, so

A REALLY BIG THANKS to Cher Hong for his generousity for deciding to give away his no-longer-in-use iPad. Even though it's a secondhand iPad, I think it's good enough for me as it's basically the same as iPad2 except for its thickness and the availability of a built-in camera.

On a sour note, I'll be having my semester exams at the end of this month, in less than 3 weeks. Seriously fml. Anyway I have to squeeze in a appreciation post for expressing my thanks to Cher Hong.

I don't think I'll be updating my blog for some time now till the exams are over.

Friends or Foes?

2011-10-29T08:58:00.010+08:00

Sometimes it's funny to see how things turned out in our lives. Things change, just like the leaves changing colours.

I think I'm a someone that gets too attached to things and people when I'm around them for a long time. It's kinda true though. But then the bad thing is, once they leave me, I'll start getting miserable. It's like whatever that have happened before never really matters.

People that I once thought were my friends, started turning their backs on me. I placed my trust in them, but some only realized that I exist in their eyes when they needed my help. I look like a nice guy right? The one who looks like he's willing to do anything to help? Well sometimes, all I wanted to do is to say "F**K YOU" in your face. 'Cause sometimes when I asked back for help instead, I get turned away. I was like, "WTF man? Can't you just repay me the favour for helping you the other day?"
People that I once shared a special feeling and connection, started ignoring and distancing away from me. It was like whatever happened before this never took place and didn't matter anymore. I still remember the times we had, what could have been had things not gone this way. It reminds me of Tom from (500) Days of Summer. He fell in love with Summer, hang out with her, do things together that couples usually do and he thought she was really into him. But alas no, she decided that it's best for both of them to remain 'just friends'. Shot through the heart.
It was a really nice film, thanks to a recommendation from a friend of mine. She just won't stop pestering me to watch it so I decided to give it a go. Not your typical love story, but a story about love, and a good one at that.

Sometimes I think I care too much about other people's feelings till I forgot to care for my own feelings as well. Maybe I should stop giving a damn about how others feel and be a selfish jerk on my own. But even if I do care (no matter how hard I refrain from doing so), I'll make it a point to not make it obvious. People take you for granted in such things you know? But I wish not to hurt other people's feelings, as I know how it feels like like on my own.

Take Dr House for example. Always looking miserable and never really give a single damn about others and only do what he does best: treating diseases. To him, getting too attached and close to people around him will turn out to be nothing good once they start leaving you. And when he cares, he makes an attempt to ensure no one knows that it was him. But deep inside, he feels lonely but yet refuses to acknowledge it. Frankly, I'm scared of turning into him myself if things don't change soon. Yeah, sometimes I do feel #foreveralone, but so what? I'm still human you know?

Taking inspiration from Barney Stinson, sometimes I tried to divert away all my sadness and try to be awesome instead. But the difference between me and Barney: He has his awesome and best friends around him. While for me, my awesome and best friends are all scattered around Malaysia. Thank God we still manage to keep in touch and meet up once in a while, not like that bunch who hang out at the MacClaren's bar every night. Even my effort for trying to forget my sadness and be awesome is ridiculed by others.

So the best solution for now is: Just feel good about myself and care less about other people who don't appreciate my existence. Taking an advice from my friend: Enjoy life and f**k around (figuratively, not literally la).

Those people that I've described above, nah... They don't really read my blog. So they won't really stumbled into this. Even if they do, are they gonna realize that they are the ones mentioned here? I doubt so.

Haters gonna hate

Missing U - Positive Feedback Mechanism

2011-10-28T13:19:00.008+08:00

DISCLAIMER: This article is not written by me and is solely the idea of a senior medical student in my college few years ago (I wasn't even a med student yet that time!). Somehow I just stumbled upon it today on Facebook and I decided it's kinda nice to share it out (with some minor tweaks here and there). What a creative theory created by him. This theory has not been proven scientifically yet but that doesn't mean it's not true, right?

How is the feeling of missing someone regulated by our body? Have you ever thought about this? I really hope that it is a negative feedback inhibition so that those feelings will not be stronger and can be reduced as time passes. Unfortunately, it is regulated through a positive feedback mechanism. What on earth is this, you may ask. Well, let me explain to you by using a simple diagram (Medical students will understand this easier as we have learned this endocrine physiology concept before).Based on the diagram, a so-called Missing Centre (located in an imaginary part of our brain) is the main regulatory centre. When this centre is stimulated by certain stimuli (e.g: at night, lonely, desperate??!!), it will release a type of hormone. I have named it as the Missingic hormone. The hormone is produced in a specialized neuron, called Nuclei of Valentine in Missing Centre. Missingic hormone is a powerful hormone and the only hormone that can act on every single cells in the body.

Then through an unknown mechanism, the hormone enters the cells. It can enter the cells without any obstructions via any types of transportation and it binds to the DNA molecules in the nucleus. After the transcription and translation of the gene, a new molecule is produced, called Missing-U molecule. Because of this molecule, we start to miss someone. The higher its concentration, the stronger the feeling.

When the concentration of Missing-U molecules is high, it actually exerts a positive feedback mechanism on the Missing Centre. (Positive feedback mechanism means when the concentration of certain molecule is high, it stimulates the centre which produces it). As a result, The Missingic hormone is produced rapidly and more in a never-ending cycle. Therefore, the feeling of missing is stronger each time.

According to the research done, there is no enzyme to digest or hydrolyze the Missing-U Molecules. However, it is believed that time can reduce its amount (Perhaps the molecules need time to self-degenerate). If it is not degenerated, it will stay in the body for a life time.

So, do you understand now? In conclusion, it is not your fault to miss someone because it cannot be controlled or reduced by our body. We were born this way.

This is my reaction to this article when I first read it:

2011-10-26T23:12:00.005+08:00

Rain drops trickling down the window pane

With every drop that hit the ground

Another part of my heart is lost

No complains

I had it coming

I should have known better

People change

Just like the leaves changing colours

Kinda hard to believe, right?

But what's the worst that I could say?

Well I have been holding on tonight

Why I Want an iPad

2011-10-15T01:36:00.005+08:00

Well, it's been a long time since I've updated my blog with some awesome posts (remember those Hogwarts, Merdeka, Facebook post?).

Now, I finally found myself something to write about. I'm writing a blog post for a contest which is the author of LukeyisHandsome.com, with the prize being an iPad! How awesome is that? So these are the reasons why I want an iPad.

1. Challenge Accepted

When my friends said that my blog sucks and I don't stand a chance of winning the iPad, I just simply said, 'Challenge Accepted' and decided to prove them wrong

2. Laptop is too mainstream...and bulky for a medical student like me. It's kinda inconvenient for me to bring my laptop around for my assignments and notes. Having an iPad will certainly make things easier and I don't have to make my bag heavier.

3. Saving the environment

Talking bout the notes, instead of printing them we can actually save the trees by reading my notes in their soft copies via pdf reader. Less trees gonna be chopped down and blah blah blah (all those stuff la, you know what I mean).
Ok, enough of those medical course-related stuff that I've mentioned above. Surely those reasons are lame enough to bore you. So, let us...

4. Impress some girls!

Contrary to popular belief, girls actually have a thing or two on these tech geeks. Nice guys may finish last, but tech geeks have more advantages over them with at least some gadgets around them , and an iPad fits nicely. But then why not get an iPad2 you ask me? Well for one reason, please refer to reason #9 later. Then you can do the following steps.

5. For Steve Jobs

Without him, this iPad will not be available to be given away at all. Sadly I've never in my whole life ever owned an Apple product before. Owning one now would be a nice tribute to the man. At least I know who Steve Jobs is, not like some pathetic fellas who don't but yet still own Apple products themselves.

You know what? I actually had a hunch that his last product iPhone 4S was named such way instead of iPhone 5 maybe because the 4S means "4(for) Steve".

6. Even kids have them
Kids my generation used to have only Game Boy console to play with, but kids these days some even have an iPad of their own! So if they have iPad, why can't a young adult like me own one as well? Besides I do more than just play with them ok?Those parents really spoiled their kids these days. Haizz.. Too bad I don't have Lucius Malfoy as my dad, if not I'll be going around saying:

7. To fulfill my destiny as the ultimate stalker!
With the new Facebook layout, it's almost impossible to not know what's your friends are doing on FB. What's a better way to stalk your friends then having an iPad wherever you go so you can just know what that hot chick in your class is doing. Or better still, see where the place she where she has just checked into and 'accidentally bump into' her. Awesome.

8. Angry Birds
To play Angry Birds on an iPad. It's probably the one with the largest screen to play compared to other Apple products, Android phones or tablets. I don't feel that comfortable often borrowing my friends' stuff just to play Angry Birds. I guess some has even gotten mad at me for unlocking all the levels before they can do so. So, it's better I can get one of my own instead..In the future, maybe I could play 'Angry Birds Asia' if there's such version! Looks more like 'Angry Fruits' to me..

9. I'm a typical Malaysian

Aiya, Malaysia people memang like that wan la. See anything free sure want one. Whether got use or no use. That's why you keep on hearing people getting getting cheated off their money due to some scams. But rest assured, this blogging competition isn't a scam at all. I'm so typical Malaysian that I so malas wanna make a picture for this reason #9

And last but not least,

10. Convenient to surf LukeyIsHandsome.com!
Now practically at any where and anytime (provided there's Wifi around), I can entertain myself with Lukey's (almost daily) doses of narcissism on his blog. What's the point of getting the iPad if you don't visit the the blog which belongs to the owner of the iPad?

This contest is open to all bloggers, whether are you friends with him or not. To know more details on the contest, you can go to http://www.lukeyishandsome.com/2011/10/rain-or-shine-ipad-goes.html to join!

2011-09-22T18:54:00.006+08:00

Girl: Lets just remain friends again. Goodbye.

Boy: Why? :'(

Girl: I found someone better.

Boy: I found someone better too. But I closed my eyes just to stay with you.

True story.

Why Hogwarts?

2011-09-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

4th September is gonna be a new step for many up-and-coming university students in the nation. Somehow MOHE has decided to make the new term to start in Sept this year instead of July all these years before this. I don't get the rationale of trying to synchronize our tertiary education timetable with those overseas.

On an irrelevant note, on 1st of September the Hogwarts' Express is taking another new batch of excited 11-year-old wizards and witches to Hogwarts' School of Witchcraft and Wizardy. Don't you think it's awesome having the opportunity to study at Hogwarts? Here are some reasons why Hogwarts is a great place to study, rather than the boring educational system we have here.

Voldemort's dead
The most evil and greatest dark wizard of all time has been defeated and is dead. So safety is not an issue here.

Awesome meal times
At Hogwarts, you can never get hungry. During meal times, loads of food appeared from below the table and you can eat all you want. Once in a while if you're smart enough, you can even steal from the kitchen.

Eat all you want!!!

Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes
This may not be at Hogwarts, but at least it's related to the magical world. Where else can you can joke items but here? Founded by the Weasley twins, you can get all sort of stuff to prank your friends. They may be weird and funny, but they are guaranteed to make you laugh.

Never be afraid of ghosts anymore
You're pretty much surrounded by ghost (such as Nearly Headless Nick and Helena Ravenclaw) around Hogwarts, so you kinda get used to it after some time.

Learning useful spells
You're studying at your table. You made a mistake, and you need an eraser (Wait, we don't use erasers at Hogwarts. We use parchment quills to write. Oh yeah, never mind. It's just an example) and you couldn't find it. Instead of getting irritated, you just shout 'Accio eraser!' and your eraser comes flying at you. Summoning charm is kinda useful huh?
And learning how to Apparate and Disapparate is gonna save us a lot on travelling. We can just get from one place to another in just a few seconds, provided you did it correctly.

Quidditch!!!Quidditch even makes football looks lame by comparison. This sport is awesome!!! Why? 'Cause it involves flying on a broomstick! Quidditch is so enticing that even Muggles tried to play it (on the ground) as seen here below.

You can never get puberty wrong at Hogwarts
These pictures say it all.

Anyway, all the best to those who are gonna experience new lives in universities after this. Take care, and may be the force be with you..

10 Commandments For Girls

2011-09-01T16:17:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: This post is for humour purposes and does not mean to be sexist or whatsoever. If any of you (be it boys or girls) find this offensive, I apologize in advance and you may choose not to proceed reading.
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A question struck me the other day and got me thinking, what will I do if I were a girl? Well for guys there's the Bro Code, maybe I'll make something up and call it The 10 Commandments For Girls.

1. Thou shall treat nice guys better
Yeah you heard it. Nice guys finish last. But have you heard the second part? Nice girls finish first. 'Cause they are usually taken by the first guys. That's why nice girls are 'finished' once they choose these bad boys. And they kept on complaining boys are jerks.

2. Thou shall not be a slut/bitch
Act like a one, and you will be treated like one. You may think guys like it. We don't. Even if we do, it won't be for long. And never ever be a third party in a relationship.

3. Thou shall not wear high heels
Trust me, I'm a medic student and high heels are definitely a no-no. They may make you slightly taller and accentuate the shape of your butt, but it's bad for your body posture, foot, health blah blah blah some boring details. If you still want to bore yourself out, read here.

4. Thou shall wear less make-up
A little once in a while for some big occasion is acceptable, but sometimes boys just prefer you just the way you look without any make-up on. Simplicity is the best policy. If you have watched Christina Aguilera in the movie Burlesque, then you'll get my meaning.

5. Thou shall love Severus Snape, not Justin Bieber
Why: Snape has appeared in more movies than Bieber, though he acted like a jerk in all except the last one. He even has a spin-off movie of his own: Always Say Always.Like Bieber, Snape composed a song as well about the girl who broke his heart, Lily Evans.

6. Thou shall learn more about football
When I say football, I mean football, not those hot and handsome football players. Even if you have only, let say 5% knowledge of football, you're awesome.

7. Thou shall give boys an easier time
Come on, stop giving us gestures and signals for us to decipher. We aren't blessed with the intelligence to do that. It's like asking a kindergarten kid to solve a secondary level maths problem.

8. Thou shall not think too much
Girls think too much. Even the simplest things tend to be over analyzed. Chill out. Not everything will turn out in the worst possible way.

9. Thou shall never walk in groups all the time
Seriously, groups of girls will freak boys out as they will never dare to approach you. And it can mislead the others due to the Cheerleader Effect: "It's when you see a group of girls/guys and they look hot, but when you see each person individually they are NOT. This effect is because they look hot only in groups".

10. Thou shall follow the hot-crazy scale
As quoted by Barney Stinson: "A girl is allowed to be crazy as long as she is equally hot". Video tutorial here:

What Merdeka Means To Me

2011-08-30T12:32:00.019+08:00

This year, the nation's gonna celebrate their 54th year of independence. Everywhere, you can see the Jalur Gemilang being hanged and waving proudly in the skies. That got me thinking, what does Merdeka mean to me this year?

When I was 5
I get kinda excited in the morning 'cause there will be a live broadcast of the Merdeka celebration parade on televisionBut nowAll I want is just a few more hours of well-deserved sleep in the morning.

When I was 7
Those kids (including me) will be waving our miniature Malaysian flags proudly around the school. The more the better!
But nowThe only thing being held in my hand is a grenade (at least in the Counter Strike game)

When I was 10
I would happily participate in Merdeka celebration in the school and sing those patriotic songs.But nowI spend my time listening to rock and pop songs instead

When I was 13
It's gonna be an awesome day, 'cause it's public holiday and there will be no school that day!But now31st August is in the middle of the school holiday break. What's the difference?

When I was 16
I got first prize in a patriotic essay writing competition in my school. Ironically if I'm not mistaken, the given title was: 'What Merdeka means to me', which happens to be the title of this post!But now
I'm rambling random stuff bout Merdeka on my blog.

How things have changed eh?

Hey. Don't judge me too quick and label me unpatriotic. Even though I'm not showing it but deep inside, I love my country. Just the country ok? Don't get me wrong.Hey, I support the national football squad also, ok? I was sad as well when they couldn't get pass Singapore in the World Cup qualifying round few weeks back.

Or maybe I will go and catch the upcoming and soon-to-be-released movie, Captain Malaysia: The First 1Malaysia! Sources from Kenwooi News Network said that it is a highly-anticipated sequel to the American blockbuster.Wow. I do admire his awesome Photoshop skills. Pictures courtesy of kenwooi.com

Anyway, Happy 54th Independence day Malaysia!!! God bless us.

Facebook: The Aftermath

2011-08-29T20:23:00.010+08:00

Have you heard the news? No, not the one bout Steve Jobs resigning. Who actually cares if he decided to do an iQuit stunt? At least not for me. I do no own any of his Apple products yet. But what I do own now is a Facebook account. Talking bout FB, let's get back to what I was saying earlier. Recently, Hackivist group Anonymous has released a video statement claiming an incoming attack on the FB site.

I think it's kind of a good thing actually. Imagine those things that happen once FB no longer plays a part in our lives.

1. Freedom from our self-imposed jail!!!

2. No more camwhorers
They are awful to be looked at, aren't they?

3. No more people advertising themselves
Truth be told, suddenly these fellas will become very good friends of yours on FB and ask for your help to 'like' or vote their pics in some competitions.

4. I'm gonna spend more time on Tumblr
A picture says a thousand words. That's what Tumblr is all about. And it's less boring than FB too.

5. China will be laughing their ass off
In case you don't know, China has banned FB in the country and has another social networking site called renren.com. When translated, it simply means 'people people'. So whether FB is still around or not, it doesn't matter much to them.

6. Malaysia tried to join in the fun but...
As usual, people aren't really in favour of such things.

7. Students will start studying again..
It's time to face real books now instead.

8. Guys gonna learn how to talk face-to-face with girls

And this is where Barney Stinson comes into the picture. He'll teach you all you need to know to go after a girl, rather than posting cheezy and lame stuff on her FB wall and photos. Suit up!!!

I LOVE YOU

2011-08-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

I bet most of you have came across this before: "The shortest word is I, the sweetest word is LOVE, and the cutest person is YOU". Saying 'I love you' to someone else can be one of the sweetest thing a human being can do to another, especially among those couples who are in love with each other.

But then, I've noticed recently that this phrase is being overused and overrated. Not attempting to pour cold water on anyone but in my opinion, the phrase 'I love you' seems to have lost its true and beautiful meaning.

Call me old-fashioned whatsoever, I don't think anyone should just simply blurt out 'I love you' to anyone of the opposite sex, even though you think you're madly in love with them. The phrase carries a much deeper meaning and should not be taken lightly.

Come on, you don't throw those words 'I love you' around as if you're saying 'Hello' to someone else. It is not something that we should take granted for, if not one day you'll realized that you have been making a fool out of yourself all these while.

My advice is, say those words when you're ready. If not you'll feel like a fool when you finally got back to your senses. Besides, you don't tell someone after your first date that you're in love with them like Ted Mosby in 'How I Met Your Mother'.
Robin: I think I like your olive theory
Ted: I think I like your new French horn
Robin: I think I like your nose
Ted: I think I'm in love with you

That totally freaked Robin out. But they do hooked up later as a couple. But sadly they broke up, citing different personal aims in lives. Too bad, they were a great couple.

So guys and girls, the lesson is: Don't abuse the usage of 'I love you'. Excessive usage will somehow take away its beautiful meaning, unless you both are already together for some time.

This post is merely a personal opinion and is not aimed personally at anyone that I knew. Just a blog post speaking from experience.

The Light To Shine You Out???

2011-08-09T19:34:00.004+08:00

When your soul feels empty

Whatever you tried to attempt

Seems to go wrong or fail miserably

I was never okay

Stop asking me that again

'Cause you're interrupting my performance

In case you don't know

That's the only thing that I've managed to do well so far

Keeping a straight face in front of everyone

Before I Sleep

2011-08-04T00:46:00.003+08:00

It's a quarter to one

It's amazing we do the deepest thoughts

When we're lying on our bed

It's also when our darkest and worst are released

I do a lot of thinking

Before I go to sleep

I practice the things I wanna say

I have endless "what IFs"

I think of what could be for the next day

I think of all the people I miss

I think of all the ones I dislike

I think of what went wrong

I ask myself a lot of questions

Questions that left unanswered

Even after I opened my eyes the next morning

Old Facebook Chat

2011-07-30T20:29:00.014+08:00

If it ain't broken, don't fix it. Apparently Mark Zuckerberg doesn't get this. One of the most recent changes he made on Facebook recently is the new chat system. Kinda sucks. Wanna know why?

This format only allows us to view the online status of only a few of our 'most interacted friends' recently. For those who are 'not that close', well sorry for ya. If you wish to search for a particular friend to see whether are they online or not, you'll have to type and search for his/her name at the bottom. Kinda troublesome eh?

But fortunately, I stumbled upon the solution on FB!!! One my friends posted it. However it only applies to Google Chrome browser. Through these few simple steps, we can revert back into the old Facebook sidebar chatbox (click on the pic to enlarge):

First click the SETTINGS icon on your Chrome browser. Then go to TOOLS and select EXTENSION.

A page like this will appear. Type in the search box the following keywords: facebook chat sidebar disabler

Then choose FACEBOOK CHAT SIDEBAR DISABLER and click on it

Click INSTALL

Refresh your page and voila!!! Your Facebook sidebar chatbox is back to the old and original format!!!

Now I can browse my online friends (including those who are idle) according to different friend lists that I've created.

But if some of you still prefer the new format, you can always disable the extension by going back to the extension page.

But then READ THIS!!!! I'm not really sure on how will it affect the video chat feature after reverting back to this old format. Anyway, enjoy it!!!

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

Closer To The Edge

2011-07-29T11:35:00.001+08:00

In case you didn't notice, 30 Seconds To Mars came to Malaysia last weekend for the MTV World Stage. But then, I didn't have the chance to meet them live as was preoccupied with other stuff.

But then, I'm starting to love this band after listening to them a few months back. And this is one of the best I've came across, with awesome lyrics:

I don't remember a moment I tried to forget
I lost myself, is it better not said
Now I'm closer to the edge

It was a thousand to one and a million to two
Time to go down in flames and I'm taking you
Closer to the edge

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll make it (One day maybe we'll meet again)
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No no no no

Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free
The birth of a sun, the death of a dream
Closer to the edge

This never ending story paid for with pride and fate
We all fall short of glory
Lost in our fate

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No no no no

No no no no
I will never forget
No no
I will never regret
No no
I will live my life

No no no no
I will never forget
No no
I will never regret
No no
I will live my life

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No no no no

Closer to the edge
Closer to the edge
No no no no
Closer to the edge
Closer to the edge
No no no no
Closer to the edge

Pics For Thoughts

2011-07-24T06:49:00.007+08:00

Found some interesting pictures from Tumblr recently. Thought it would be nice to share it out..

The Greatest Irony of Love

2011-07-20T21:43:00.005+08:00

Disclaimer: This post taken is taken from here. Not my original post.

Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What’s important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try.

You’ll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, then you won’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you; that’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk and if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love.

Awesome post. Don't you agree?

Harry Potter 7 Part 2 Review

2011-07-17T16:43:00.013+08:00

~~Disclaimer: Spoilers ahead. If you haven't watch the movie, please stop reading at this moment.~~

What spoilers? Come on, the book has been already released a few years ago. Everyone knows how things gonna end; The-Boy-Who-Lived continues to live, Voldemort dies, Snape dies and so on. Actually, we already know the ending right? So keep on reading will ya???

As always, movie adaptation of books rarely lives up to expectation. Well it can be said that the HP movie this time has improved a lot compared to the last few, still something is missing from the book. I've read it 3 times by the way.

The movie changes a lot of things from the book.

One thing is, a favourite conversation of mine from the book is not in the movie. The one when they were hiding in Hog's Head
Ron: The silver doe! Was that you too?
Aberforth:What are you talking about?
Ron: Someone sent a doe Patronus to us!
Aberforth: Brains like that, you could be a Death Eater, son. Haven’t I just proved my Patronus is a goat?
Ron: Oh.. yeah..
I actually find this kinda funny.

And when they managed to sneak into Hogwarts after that, things changes alot. In the book, he kept his re-appearance from most of the students, except members of the DA and Prof McGonagall and search for Ravenclaw's diadem with Luna Lovegood while concealed under his Invisibility Cloak.

But in the movie, he make his reappearance public by showing himself up at the Great Hall where Snape has asked the students to gather. Hmm... showing himself up at this time didn't really make much sense, is it?

Besides, there are some fight scenes in the movie which are not depicted as epic as it was described in the book. When Prof McGonagall awake those statues and armoured suits to defend Hogwarts, well I must say the scene was way below my expectation. I thought they will be throughout the perimeter of the school in large numbers, but they weren't.I thought there will be more of these all over the school

When the Death Eaters launched their first attack on the Protective Charms surrounding Hogwarts, it reminds me of something else. It was if they were attacking ala-Angry Bird style. Haha. If you've seen that scene you'll know what I mean.

Another disappointing scene is the one where Harry looks into the Pensieve to see Snape's memories. If it weren't for the book, I think I'll have a hard time knowing what was happening. Everything was quick and without much explanation on Snape's true allegiances.

And when Harry was struck by the Killing Curse, his mind was in a state of limbo (I don't know how to describe it. I was influenced by Inception I guess) and he ended up at the King's Cross. Well, I thought he's supposed to be naked when he first got there? Food for thought. Don't get it wrong. I didn't say anything 'bout me wanting to see him naked.

It's great that the director decided to include "Not my daughter, you bitch!!!" in the movie. This must be my second most favourite lines after the one I mentioned above. But well, the fight scene between Mrs Weasley and Bellatrix is too short and lack of action.

And finally, the battle where Harry and Voldemort face each other!!! Well, the fight couldn't have been more different. Well, it's good for a change, but I guess that the director change some of this to make the 3D effect much more cooler.
But then again in the book, their final face off was witnessed by the almost everyone in the Great Hall, not only both of them alone somewhere outside. And Voldemort died without knowing the reason why he was never really the true master of the Elder Wand. Instead of having Harry explaining it to Voldemort, the director decided that Harry were to tell that to Ron and Hermione during the aftermath. Come on, why do that???

And this scene over here reminds me so much of Titanic, though the lines used are different.

Further shocks await me as Harry decided to snap the Elder Wand into two and throw it away. That's okay, he never really wanted that wand to cause more trouble anyway. BUT HE WAS SUPPOSED TO REPAIR HIS OWN BROKEN WAND BEFORE THAT!!! Whose wand he's gonna use now, eh? The one he got from Draco? I don't think it hurts to include a few seconds of that scene, just to make it complete.

Finally the epilogue, which is set 19 years later. Harry, Ron and Draco looks fat. Only Hermione looks normal. And someone in the cinema said that Albus Severus Dumbledore looks like Justin Bieber. I was like, "WTF?"

And of all the things the director decided to change in the movie, why can't he prevent Fred Weasley from being killed???!!! Come on!! Seriously he one of the most loved characters in the series and though Rowling did a cruel job of killing him off, why not let him live in the movie instead?

But there are some parts of the movie I considered it kinda okay. The dragon scene where the trio escaped Gringotts was done nicely. I guess this was the only part where I can feel the 'action' from the book.
If there was one change that the director did that really make my day, is the line Prof McGonagall said after casting the Piertotum Locomotor spell: "I've always wanted to use that spell!"

If I were to rate this movie, I would give it a score of 8 out of 10 in terms of the movie being done himself. But if I were to rate it in comparison with the book, I think it deserves only a 4.5.

2011-07-16T19:46:00.005+08:00

Mrs Witwicky: All I'm saying is, do you love this girl?
Sam: She's the one.
Mrs Witwicky: Then you gotta go get her. I mean, your dad and I when we had trouble, he move heaven and earth to find me. Said what you said. Say it.
Mr Witwicky: I will follow you to the end of time.

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Carly: Sam, you found me.
Sam: I'd find you anywhere.

The Barrier

2011-07-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

It's kinda true when they said 'we are our own worst enemies'. No one can deny the fact that despite all he challenges in our lives, the first one that we must breached through is our own state of mind, our own personal mental block.

It may seems easy talking bout it, but it really needs a great deal of self-confidence and perseverance to pull through. As of now, me myself is facing a personal demon within me and it can be said that it's affecting my relationship with the people that I care for.

Suffice to said, I haven't been able to express my feelings out completely to them. There are things that I know I'm capable of, some that I should but I couldn't put them into action. I haven't been living up to my own personal expectations and I fear that I will disappoint those who are close around me, which I think I already did to one or two.

I don't know how long that I need to overcome this. It must be my fear of being hurt again in another relationship that has been the one holding me back from opening up my heart fully again to another girl. Though I've developed feelings for another girl in recent months, I still couldn't bring myself to express my feelings for her in ways that I know I'm capable of. There's something holding me back, a barrier, but yet I couldn't think of a way to penetrate it.

I'm sincerely sorry to those that I've disappointed especially her. I know she's not being treated unfairly by me, despite my best efforts to hide away my weaknesses and vulnerability. Hey come on, even guys will have such feelings too, okay? Despite some of our attempt to conceal them, bits of them are actually visible through our actions and they way they treat others.

Her, on the other hand is not ready commit in a relationship yet. I understand that, actually. She's someone that actually enjoys her own freedom and free will. I think that she fear that by allowing someone else into her life, she will lose all of happy-go-lucky life. What's more, I haven't been actually convincing to her, so it's my fault as well actually. That's why I decided to comply to her and let her go. Even though I fear that I may lose her to someone else.

Technically, I've never told anyone of this so far. It feels sort of a relief for me to express it out here, though I'm skeptical that anyone would read this. If they do, I doubt that they would actually understand the situation here.

I think the best possible solution yet for now is to lay low. It's best to allow both sides to actually ready before deciding to go any further, if fate permits. I hope that there's still a chance...

2011-07-14T21:32:00.003+08:00

Clear skies, gloomy weather

I hear people say

It's calm before the storm

Well this storm that hit me

I didn't expected the aftermath to be in such way

Tinge of regret as I pondered my decision

That allowed my grasp to loosen

As I might never had another chance

To cling on to another hope

The Chamber

2011-07-01T17:17:00.001+08:00

The room was easy to be located

Or chamber, as it preferred to be called

Day in, day out

People just make their way through to get to the other side

But there was someone who left an impression

Footprints of her own

The guardian never minded though

He was glad that there are souls

Who cared enough to appreciate the existence of the chamber

The secrets within the walls

But the infatuation ends as fast as it had come

Departure was just a matter of time

And it happen in undesirable consequences

And he was left with a task

One he couldn't but should be

Cleaning up the mess and the footprints left

For it was torturous

Scrapping away pieces of dirt and memories

Proof that the chamber has been visited before

With every footprint removed

A scratch mark is left behind

The guardian finally finished it

But he was unsure

He hesitated 'bout letting people entering the chamber again

After all that he's been through

Once bitten, twice shy they said

But the inevitable remains inevitable

Eventually he has to open the doors again

And so he did

And not long after, someone came

She entered, much to the guardian's delight

He could see her footprints covering those scratch marks

But something was amiss

As the clock ticks by

He realized some of those footprints are not too deep

Some disappeared away on their own

He was worried

Worried the possibility of another disappointment...

SPM vs Medical students

2011-06-30T12:24:00.006+08:00

For the past few weeks, I've been reading the news that there many complaints regarding the Public Service Department (PSD) and their policies on awarding scholarships to the nation's top scorers in public examination.

The thing is, many people are disillusioned that if they do well in SPM, they can technically do well for the rest of lives in any examination thrown at them. What I can say is, kick that mindset away. You may do extremely well in your SPM or whatsoever, but that doesn't mean that you're capable enough to do well in what you called those 'prestigious, high-class' courses such as medic, law, engineering etc.

You expect the government to simply give out scholarships to each and everyone of you to send you fellas overseas? Come on, even they themselves know that the standard of SPM is below par. You just simply grab a textbook, flip through the pages, memorize them hard enough and voila! You get yourself an A (in my days there aren't any A+ yet).

Here's a comic strip to illustrate the difference between SPM and medical students. This idea originated from this blog post.

Ain't that true???