CELTIC SPRITE SEEKING KNOWLEDGE

Finally Coming Up For Air

2009-03-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to grasp the intricate machinations of this new job. There are still many parts for me to learn; the outline of the job is locked into memory & now becoming second nature. This lesson absolutely threw me up against the wall for 2 solid months & I finally got to the point I needed help so went to the Dr to help me with the stress, anxiety & sleepless nights. I tried more exercise & was eating healthfully however it was not enough for me. I also found I was so fried I could only sleep for 4 hours at a time. Thus I went for help & received the information & medication needed. The lesson for me is to always listen to my body & follow it's lead.

In the Deep End & Can't Swim

2009-01-07T19:08:00.000-08:00

Learning a new job while training someone else is trial by fire. I am a lousy teacher because I need to do what I'm teaching first; then have the student do it. Because I'm used to doing the job it's a lot like looking into a mirror & trying to cut the the back of my hair everything feels reversed & the harder I try the more disoriented I become. I'm sure if I taught more often it wouldn't seem so difficult.
The job I'm learning is a roller coaster & as soon as I start feeling I'm getting a handle on it; the rug gets pulled out from under me. The PC application is also not working properly adding to the stress, this makes me so appreciate things that Work. I also find I can only learn so much at a given time & the 10th hour isn't a good time to address a new part of the job.I realize the more I do it it will be easier, until then I will continue to BREATHE & run the stairs to decompress & cry if I need to release more built up toxic energy. Of course there is a reason why this timing of the perfect storm is happening now. I'm just too close to see why right now. Working 11 hour days are certainly taking their toll even on 8 hours of sleep. Hopefully the new job will start to filter in & start to gel :). I know I can do this! Patience with self is a big lesson for me. I just keep telling myself "I Love You Kerry"

In Memory of Tweety

2008-12-16T18:18:00.000-08:00

Tweety Passed at 5:15pm Tuesday evening. Her behavior as of late was strange wanting to sleep in her food container. She was doglike as she would almost lie down so I could pet her. She loved learning new tricks like climbing her ladder & going into her fleece tent. She was a good & patient friend. I miss her already.