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Ana

2013-11-14T10:20:00.001+08:00

It has been a while since I have written an acrostic.. This is my seventh and this is for the friend whose name is spelled out below. :)

Amidst the pain

Notwithstanding the fear

A maiden under the rain

Mis'ries are given

Among the living

Reckon with it dear maiden

It will soon be going

Even infinity has its ending

So stand up, fight for your life

Underneath is pure freedom

Be brave and be your pride

A maiden warrior is no random

Agony may be a reality

Never let it be your boundary

Break free and feel the earth

Along with uncertainty is mirth

Let go and rule yourself

A hermit crab even outgrows its shelf

No man is bound for others

All humans are set for wonders

You only live once, make the most of it

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Broken Core

2011-12-11T11:08:00.001+08:00

twas a fateful night

under the seeming moonlight

as the clock ticked the time away

it was the beginning of someday

was it a crime,

to be a slave of time?

or was it a tragedy,

to be trapped in normalcy?

a broken core

foretold in a folklore

i did not imagine

it was in deep carmine

encrypted words

stashed with swords

no, it was not

it did not hit the spot

run into hiding

it was more than humiliating

burned from shame

engulfed by the flame

fail and surrender

it was meant to be sever

set loose and go on

it was ordained for a reason

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eXhausted

2011-11-10T14:46:00.000+08:00

When right is right,

and wrong is wrong

How should I know

to get along

I could not ride

the highest tide

And all I can do

is just hide

This pain, these tears

These doubts, these fears

So exhausted, so stressed

My emotions are so pressed

I wish to break free

Let loose and emancipate me

This struggle which seemed forever

Cut it short, let it sever

Bits and pieces

Disconnected from the sources

Send me back to the road

Where burdens can be unload

Crap!

This is the wrap.

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m o v i n g o n

2011-10-21T15:56:00.002+08:00

guard my heart, shield my soul
oh my dear self, keep thy control
as the pain ascends
and bursts out in the open
guard my heart, shield my soul
please my dear self, keep thy control

hope may have left, and you in bereft
your invincibility had already been patent
so smile amidst the inevitable dire
eventually you'd get through the wire

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Rain's Quarter

2011-07-31T15:56:00.001+08:00

as these regrets chase me in the darkness
i wait for the rain to come and wash me
as i save myself from this foolishness
i wonder if i can still reclaim the sanity

so let the rain fall despite the silence
it is its tour de force in this broken world
let the rain fall and revert my existence
so that from these odds I would be hurdled

another cycle, another history repeating
yet the learning has never been grasped
perhaps the reason for my heart breaking
when will the yearning be clasped?

hush, my rain; yes my dear, hush
it was not my intention to fall to the trap
yes dear rain, i will refrain from being slush
just help me get out from this mishap

it's the quarter now and i have to calm down
it is no use drying my eyes with these tears
i should let go of the hurt and get rid of the frown
it's time to burn now the hopes and the fears

so where do i go and what should i do?
these are the questions i prefer to unshackle
i have gone tired of the blue
i am now leaving the pinnacle

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Raincheck

2011-07-27T20:32:00.006+08:00

Raincheck please, raincheck.

As this head of mine are filled with questions,
Slowly I am devoured by my self-preservations.

Thus here I am beseeching thee an inquiry:
If affection and destiny would not coincide,
I ask thee --- where dost thou think I should abide?

As I let these tears of mine wash away yours,
Would you care to accompany me in this course?
But why is it that you are fading away from me,
Tell me, is this really how it should meant to be?

Oh no! You just did not know ---
Thoughts of you are now imprinting a smile on my face,
A memory which I don't think I can dare to erase.
It may be so senseless, yet I think it would be my grace -
To be with you, together with me, in that sweet embrace.

But raincheck dear, I beg thee raincheck.
Why am I retreating, I can sense a coming wreck.
I can hear it within, I can hear it loud and clear,
My cynicism's surfacing inflaming the fear.
Oh why, oh why? 'Tis horror is chasing me.
I wonder if I can bear it; let me see, let me see.

With these vexations, I pause and I stop.
I don't think it's possible, I fall and I drop.
Was it you, was it me, or was the feeling just a fancy
It's time for me, I guess, to let go of this fantasy.
So I decided to walk towards my solitude,
Praying and wishing for my own fortitude:
Sooner or later, I will be granted beatitude.

As I trudge alone this rocky journey,
Along the road I have found a key.
At first I was wounded then I was terrified,
How could I ever abandon the little of my pride?
So I asked for Death to be mine for a while
So that I can be freed but not from this life
Liberated from the assumptions that I've been breathing for this time
Assumptions that will surely bring me to my own demise

With messed up thoughts and messed up emotions
I am too ashamed to look at my ruined reflections
I have committed a crime which is too grim for mercy
A crime I have committed which now pulls me back to misery
So this is the phase where I hate myself much
How could I ever concede with the touch?
I have betrayed myself, an act so deleterious
An embarassment that is too grave and serious
Oh no! This is too dangerous!

So raincheck dear, raincheck.
Lest my body will be laid down on that tormented deck.
I plea for the rain to come and be hurry
For only the rain can wash away this idiocy.
As I gather myself from this tremendous fall,
I am now more aware that I can't really have it all.
It's sad, true, absolutely catastrophic!
But no, no --- there will never be a magic.
To my fateful life, save me but not from the tragedy
But from the certainty of my preordained folly.

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these insecurities

2011-07-20T19:13:00.003+08:00

as glum as the weather
how can it be?
the feeling of despair
strengthens the melancholy

tis already a familiar phase
a road by now had been taken
only this time is a new face
perhaps a lesson would be ascertain

with this, i breathe my sigh
for soon it'll be outdone
oh when the pain is drawing nigh
but no, it will never go beyond

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Coffee + Rain = 23

2011-02-26T03:29:00.001+08:00

A cup of coffee
In a chilly evening
Along with the melody
Of the rain pouring.

Ah, 'tis life!
What a bliss,
Beauty in rife
None should amiss!

Not the coldness,
Nor the disquietude,
Fill the emptiness
But with beautitude.

As the star is its own,
And so is humanity;
That must be sown
Not only individuality.

One sip towards serenity,
Let it be the pleasure;
Away from the vanity,
From the so-called treasure

Hear now the rain
Be with its ease;
Listen not with vain,
And it shall cease.

Feel the wind,
Breathe the air;
Do not be pinned,
By the bare.

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shame

2011-02-18T13:12:00.002+08:00

This fleeting sensation
Although very shallow
Has cast a confusion
With a very great blow

Despite the complexity
I proceeded unguarded
Hence the melancholy
I, myself, inflicted

What an obvious end!
What a pitiful tragedy!
Nothing new in the trend
Thus the same misery

So I pray for the rainfall
Wash away the stupidity
I just think I stand tall
And reclaim my dignity

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mUsIc

2010-09-29T00:40:00.000+08:00

keep the music flowing
energy invigorating
taking back my life
out from the strife

as the lyrics hit the notes
the soul within me floats
leaving everything behind
as they retrieve my mind

letting the thought speaks out loud
letting it go against the crowd
as the music goes louder and louder
the fire in me is getting stronger and stronger

dancing to the rhythm of reality
harmony seeping into my individuality
yes, this is how it should be..
life is music, life is free!

^_^

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Forever

2010-07-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

I know..
'twas just a dream,
and nothing but a dream...
and soon it'd go.

It's funny...
but life is like that,
really like that..
a world of parody.

Looking back...
it's already the past,
and will always be the past...
no need for sidetrack.

Go ahead...
no need to worry,
there's no need to worry...
everything's in good stead.

Just remember...
you'll never be forgotten,
will never be forgotten...
not even in forever.

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prejudiced

2010-04-02T13:02:00.001+08:00

with these pretensions i breathe

with these frustrations i live

with so much pain i wonder

with so much anger i remember

discontentment in the box i release

in the silence i scream my pleas

when what was sought is never found

in this hatred i shall be forever bound

those who will hear will surely judge

for on the surface it is a grudge

but does it matter what others believe

when what they see is not what Thy perceive

defiance is only superficial

for what is inside is the most essential

when faith alone is never intact

for with deeds the greater the impact

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seeKing

2010-04-01T16:36:00.000+08:00

One question I dare not to ask

For mine is one abominable task

Where art thou oh my dear death

Cease me now, seize my final breath

To prove Thy might may be preposterous

To rely in the world may be dangerous

But where is this heading remains uncertain

For what is fated still remains hidden

To uncover the truth is a mystery

To lean on the lies is a misery

When the option is given which should be chosen

A careful thought is never written

Blind me now so that I can see

What is behind in this reality

Deafen me now so that I can hear

What is behind in all this fear

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Lito

2010-04-01T16:26:00.001+08:00

Wala lang...

Gusto ko lang magsulat

Magsulat nang magsulat

Hanggang sa maubos

Ang nasa pusong kabos

Ano pa ba?

Hindi ko rin alam

Wala rin namang nakakaalam

Sa kabila ng mga pangyayari

Lilitaw at lilitaw din sa huli

Bakit naman kasi...

Hindi madaling maintindihan

Ang katotohanan at kasinungalingan

Isang malaking palaisipan

Na mahirap paniwalaan

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judged

2010-03-30T11:48:00.002+08:00

What is more tragic
Than being judged
For what you think
Not even the logic
Could ever budge
What's on the brink
When one refuses to see
What is behind reality
And all its mystery
Just leave it be
And let it be
For it is the destiny
When superficialities encompass
The perspective of a being
Blinded by the worldliness
One could never surpass
The obstacles of living
In profound senselessness
If one does not conform
With the standards and the rules
Set by human perception
It is not the eye of the storm
That really pulls
The dull convention
What is unfathomable
Will be and always will be
Better left unanswered
One will soon be able
Find the veracity
Of what has been tampered

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Yolkless Egg

2010-01-26T13:27:00.001+08:00

the clock ticks twelve and i am hungry
i should make my lunch else my stomach would be angry
i then placed the pan over the fire
and cracked two eggs but to my mire!
one has a yolk and the other has not
i wonder if the egg has gotten rot
so i put the yolkless egg on the platter
asking myself if i could eat it later

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MEMORY

2009-11-18T04:18:00.000+08:00

it's November once again
it was way back when
the heart was filled with love
and it couldn't seem to be enough

but when December's coldness came
Forever was cut short then became
the heart was filled with pain
there was laughter in the rain

when the dream turned into reality
there was pureness in felicity
when the reality turned back to nightmare
the heartache was too much to bear

as the ache seems to disappear
everything is becoming to clear
letting go is the only way
for the memories to stay

i seek no more for veracity
leaving it to mystery
a thought i wish to remain
as i go along with the most wonderful pain

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O.O aMazED

2009-11-18T02:27:00.001+08:00

the riddle of resolution
left me one question
was it worth the risk?
marked by brisk

the wonders of romantically inclined
with their emotions declined
was it the work of magic
that led them to tragic

wandering souls then lovers
she cries while he quivers
yet it was not enough
for it could be a bluff

the pain, i reckon
might be the reason
that holds them
in their stem

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dELUDe

2009-11-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

so many frustrations
so little gratifications
what is the use of ratification
when everything is a rejection

hush for a moment
silence for a while
seek for fulfillment
even in a smile

it was not supposed to be
despite the treachery
blame not the misery
for thy own catastrophe

hush for a moment
silence for a while
leave the contentment
start to beguile

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Rain Torments v. 22

2009-07-31T08:54:00.002+08:00

emptiness haunts
as reality flaunts
when will i learn
stop the yearn?
nothing’s new
still in grayed hue
insecurities widening
courage faltering
yet…
the rain continues
smearing their views
the rain comforts
reorganizing all sorts
when did the rain halt
after the storm’s assault
left me crying over the rainbow
where will i go?
can you see it?
can you feel it?
can you hear it?
can you sense it?
the rain piercing my heart
tormenting the part
is it self-inflicted?
or thought-incited?
let me weep in silent
as the rain could not prevent
let me die in secret
while the rain is not set

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empty

2009-03-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

the emptiness of silence
sinks in my skin
haunted by the absence
of the voice within

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21st RainFall

2009-03-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

your cold shoulders
giving me the chills
your replies in terse
undoing all the seals

you have pulled the trigger
now you are holding back
you left me to hover
until i finally lost track

or

could

it

be

that...

my cold shoulders
gave you the chills
my replies in terse
have undone the seals

but i tried to reach out,
yet you make me felt unseen
i have even let go of the doubt
hence, my pain is very keen

so i wish...

for the rain to fall
to heal my heart
to lose it all
for a brand new start

so for the moment...
i will just...

drop a tear
to wash away the pain
embrace the fear
until i meet the rain

goodbye sweet love
'til then
goodbye dear love
never again

i drop
rain fall

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hungry....

2009-03-06T19:41:00.000+08:00

this quatrain was written when my stomach was grudging while taking a call.... i asked my team captain if i could take a break but he said that the auxes were disabled... i was left with no choice but toe the line....

i was hungry but did not eat
i battled with time and eventually lost it
so i sat on the chair and waited
until i gave up and conceded

I could no longer remember what time and date i have scribbled this one... but this was saved on my computer on the 6th of march...

Eventually... :(

2009-02-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

I have written this poem the night after having a fun time with team Oakland Athletics. I don't know what prompted me to write this when I was feeling so cheerful before I came home. Few days after, we received a disheartening and saddening news from our team captain --- he will be transferred to another team. Although we were supposed to be proud and happy for him because it was actually a promotion but we just could not stop feeling so lonely knowing that he will be leaving us.

eventually, our paths will part
eventually, our tears will fall
eventually, we'll seek for the start
eventually, we'll lose it all

eventually, the longing will fade
eventually, the fate will be accepted
eventually, we'll forget the shade
eventually, we'll become wretched

the irony of meeting you in me
i wished for the world to stop
the irony of living in reality
i wished for the rain to drop

the pain of building friendship
the pain of building love
the pain that we have to keep
the pain of the above

eventually, everything will pass
eventually, the lesson will be learn
eventually, we will surpass
eventually, we will be stern

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rainconciliation.19

2008-06-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

as i stand under the naked tree
waiting for you to come to me
i realized i have learned to defy
your goodness by and by

i sit down and waited for your fall
all the memories i tried to recall
you feel for me when i couldn't do it anymore
yet i have chosen to forget and worst closed the door

i watch as i hear your coming
amazed by the mystery you bring
you came then you fell
i remorse but no one could tell

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