Cancer hasn't killed me, though it's done it's level best. Our house in Mississippi was actively my enemy for many reasons and one day, in the next century, I will blog about why we sold the lot and decided to move back to Vancouver. But for now, suffice it to say that on the way, my car burned to the ground on a mountain pass in California (while I sat in it believing it was just over-heated and some kind man stopped and literally pulled me and Sadie out about 2 minutes before flames engulfed the front seat). No worries, everyone is safe (D and the kids were in the recently acquired mini-van). But I'm just sayin: After the last year and a half, I feel like I can say with confidence that I could hand Chuck Norris his ass and get on with my day.

So much to tell you once we get where we're going. Hope 2010 is being good to you.

Hey, let's just agree on something. When there is drama lurking either with family or known sociopaths on these here internets and the blog suddenly says Password Protected or I pull all my archives and announce I am going to a password protected blog? Ignore it. The drama will pass with family and creepy assholes who live in Virginia and frankly, I am too lazy for the whole password thing. As an added plus there is nothing I have to say about the aforementioned dramaz that I won't say right here (HI VIRGINIA!! Stalk much?) because unlike some, I don't have a single thing to hide. Meh, it's a character flaw I will take over being a creepy asshole any day so in my book: I WIN!!! Archives to be restored shortly. And plus and also and furthermore and in other news and this just in, vague references to dramaz will be filled in also because you effers are not even going to BEEEE-LIEVE the mischief and mayhem some people like to cause in the lives of others. Is good stuff (I mean good in the salacious-y gossip and OMFGWTFBBQ trainwreck way the internet was invented to support), swear.

Anyway, just a quick update. The last few weeks have been incredibly hard. I have been really sick from treatment more so than I remember being before but I also didn't have any help last time around so maybe being able to stop, drop and nap so often has made me more aware of it, I don't know. Whatever it is, D's mom and my mother have been alternating care-taking of me and mine and it has made all the difference in the world.

We're hoping by this time next month I will be on track to be ALL DONE with this cancer bullshit and getting on with getting on. For now, we're having a small, quiet Christmas and I, me, personally am counting down the days until I can dropkick the oldest three out the door and back into the loving (or at least moderately interested) arms of public school. Winter break is working my nerves is what I'm telling you. On a brighter note, I could not ask for happier more joyful kids, overall than these four. They are healthy enough to be pains in my ass and really, end of the day, what more can I want. I mean other than 10 solid minutes wherein they are not trying to brain each other. Other than that: ALL GOOD and thankful. I hope this holiday season finds you the same and if you're hurting, I hope 2010 is better for you, for us all. Because I am not even bothering to fire 2009 come December 31st, I am just going to QUIT IT and leave it for a sexier new year!!

I have decided for the time being, meaning until say the 4th of December, to password protect my blog. If you would like a sign in name/password, please e-mail D.

Consider this a preemptive palette cleansing for the next post which I assure you will leave a bad taste in your mouth (not in regard to my health or treatment, just so we're clear). Apologies in advance and please accept precious puppy pictures to console your wounded psyche.