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27| Bengal dreams

2013-05-24T10:52:00.001-07:00

Last night my hubby had the weirdest dream...

From what he could remember, he came across a white Bengal Tiger with beautiful white fur and green eyes. It was out hunting, and it had a rain slicker on.

My hubby asked him, "why are you wearing that?"

The Tiger replied, "I don't want to get dirt and blood on my coat."

lol Strange things that dreams are huh?

26| Hubby moments.

2013-05-23T09:19:00.000-07:00

Yes! I do this all the time to the hubby! I'm a frisky type and love doing... 'primal' things to my husband.

Sometimes when I see him in the patio watching the cars go by, I give an (extremely realistic) bored meow.

When I wanted something cooked or made, he can tell what i want just by the sounds I make.

And sometimes when the hubby sees me all to myself, playing on my ipad, he stops by and pats me on the butt or shoulder.

Thigh Gap Pose

2013-05-22T19:41:00.002-07:00

So I found out via tumblr some time ago about how to do the "Thigh Gap" pose.

" Push your hips back, knees slightly apart. Tada! You have now given hundreds of girls a delusional hatred for their body and made them think something is seriously wrong with them just because their thighs touch. "

I love that there's a way to take this kind of photo. It gives me a bit of hope to take it. Will I ever have a thigh gap? Not really. Does it bother me? Not at all!

I'm just excited over the prospect of taking a "tumblr famous" type photo.

025| Wig Cap too small? Just stretch it!

2013-05-20T17:22:00.001-07:00

Hello Dolls!

Just browsing through the Hime Gyaru tag on tumblr, and I hit the jackpot!

I didn't even known you could stretch a wig. Just learning something new every day.

Pixel--kitten 1st Giveaway!

2013-05-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

What you'll win~
1. Latest issue of (ane)Ageha magazine
2. A choice of tshirt from my store
3. Diamond Lash in Angel eye
4. Melliesh blush in no.1 Elegant rose
5. Candy doll translucent face powder
6. Tony Moly Bunny gloss bar in Juicy Apple
7. Tony Moly cat wink chu lipstick in Peach Vanilla
8. Japanese lash glue
9. Random pair of eyelashes
10. Japanese candy Nerunerunerune in grape flavour
11. Handful of samples

Check It Out

024|Remove the dead, so the healthy can grow

2013-05-19T09:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I did the hardest thing I've ever done...

I told someone i couldn't trust them. This was really hard for me, because I try to see the better in people. Even when people have talked badly, called me out, and tried dragging me through mud, I've always looks for the sliver lining.

No more.

I'm tried of trying to make the best out of situations that indirectly effect me. I've given too much power away. Also, I've given up on certain friends who have never done anything negative to me, but were just another number added to my friends list.

The way I see things, is that if I no things are going to go sour, I step away before it gets to that point. And there's two of you out there that know that. And one of you probably hasn't excepted that yet.

Let's take a look and the following quote:

I've come to realize now that "People" includes those who 'care' about you as well. If you don't like anyone's opinion of you, friend or not, it doesn't define you. Honestly, I've come to realize that the only opinion that matters most to me is that of my husband. And that's only when I'm asking.

Over-thinking is my worse asset, cautiously planning every step and path. Worrying over every detail, factoring in every person/obstacle. Worrying if someone is truly on my side or not.

Source

I think that the worse thing for me is not being allowed to experience my emotions. They are my emotions, don't make me feel guilty for having them. If I'm sad, don't tell me to cheer up and count my blessings. I do that every single day. And just because you're not there to keep track doesn't mean I'm not doing it.

I realize now that the people that I've asked for help on to understand things, were the wrong people. Always ask the teacher, not your fellow classmate. They could be just as, or more, lost than you are.

I'm glad the people I've chosen to associate with are teachers, and not students.

Granny Agejou Make UP!

2013-05-17T07:41:00.000-07:00

I came across this video on tumblr today in the Ageha tag...

It's safe to say I was amazed and tickled by it. I've often joke with friends of past about a Granny Gal retirement home, where are exercise would be para para and having an unlimited supply of makeup, lenses, hair. But of course, i was also studying how the applied everything to the mima in question.

I've never seen someone apply lenses to another person. I would assume that's unsanitary. But as long as they don't touch the inside part of the lenses I guess that's okay. I wish I knew enough Japanese to understand what the Grandma was saying, she looks like a very witty person, as most are.

This makes me want to get my grandma dressed up in gal. But I'm extremely afraid to. Her church is a competitive place when it comes to style. It would be anarchic to even put something remotely gal in my mima's look. But... I think I will anyways. I've been meaning to make a Hime/Agejou style Church hat for her to wear on Sunday it's going to be a mix of La Parfait and Jesus Diamante with a hint of sparkle. *Chuckles* I'll probably have to make sure she buys a new outfit with it. I don't think she owns any pink.

Would you dress your Mima, Mother, or Aunt in Gal? Have you done it before?

Kabuku Magazine: First Issue!!!

2013-05-12T06:00:00.000-07:00

Kabuku Magazine is a brand spanking new Japanese Fashion magazine based in the United Kingdom.

This little gem popped up in my rss feed today and I was quite trilled to see a Jfash magazine starting out. And the best thing about it is that they have River and a manba/banba featured sectioned in here!

I hope you all check it out.

SAMI★SPOON 3yr Blog Anniversary!!!

2013-05-11T21:11:00.000-07:00

First things first, CONGRATS ON ANOTHER SUCCESSFUL BLOG YEAR!!!!

Our blog anniversaries are only a few days apart. I can only hope I can be as successful as you are Sami (＾－＾)V.

Now on to business! Sami is having a giveaway for her third anniversary. Check out that beautiful prize pack (see her facebook album for the full picture spread):

Moon necklace and earring set provided by Lunar Descent
$20 Gift Voucher provided by Sincerely, Maeko

4 Pairs of Circle Lenses provided by MukuCHU (^ω^人)

6 gifts provided by Randomeyes Boutique

Decoden Pill Box provided by Luxi♥Loli

2 Necklaces provided by Di Depux

Tattoo Tights
Cat face tote bag

Oreo shaped mirror

Cat socks from TopShop

Pack of false eyelashes
Heart Shaped sunglasses
Rhinestone Cat Ear headband
TonyMoly Lip gloss stick in Grape

Geradium lipstick from Lime Crime

Blogger necklace from Bete Noire Customs

Eyelashes, gloss and nail polish from MUA

Pink Diamond Pill Box necklace from Me&Zena

Plus a whole bunch of other little surprises and even sweets! Nom nom

Did you See anything you like? Then head on down to Sami's post and submit your entries!

「023」I have feels, So I must be fake

2013-05-11T12:52:00.001-07:00

I've been sitting here in serious contemplation about my fashion and beauty influences. Honestly... I understand how the hipsters and scene kids must feel.

You work so hard to be something, but you're not allowed to openly admit it without seeming like a poseur.

I love gyaru so much because it reflects the style I've always wanted to do. It shows what I desire to look like. But it seems that finding non toxic, like minded people is a one of those epic quests that tends to lead to a shitty Easter egg.

Luckily for me, the journey and the egg was worthwhile. Not only have I found a few people that I don't have to worry about stabbing me in the back, but they are doing things for themselves. Every 'real' gal that I've met (online and in person) are in some kind of business for themselves, or we are working together to make money. And the support I receive is beautiful.

Yesterday, I discovered that being associated with me online is the equivalent of having a contagion. And really, who thinks like this? If someone is paying you decent money to do what you love, would you reject the work?

Anything you see on here that is commissioned, I drop any where from $100-$200 a piece to have made. In a previous post, I stated that I do my part for gal by paying for product/services from a gal before going to a company.

It makes sense right? You're trying to buy brand and live "the life." You can't be about that life if you don't have the paper to do so right? So why are you upset that I'm not buying from you? I'll put it this way..

If you sell a product or service that I like, and I know you're appreciative of my business, I will drop money on you.

It's that simple. There are a lot of things I would like to buy, and plan on buying at a certain point. But if I find out that it costs too much in drama, bullshit, stress, let alone the money, I won't even bat an eyelash at you.

It's weird when you have undercover gals as friends. And I mean, its to the point to where I'm afraid of promoting products some times because of the very few who start shit and the sheep that follow without looking at the whole picture.

I do understand that the prettier the face, the more credibility you have, but why not use that influence for the greater good?

Slowly but surely I'm drifting away from this community. Actually no, I take that back. I've been out of the community for a while now. Right after the first Black Diamond fiasco I was done. I slowly transitioned out of all of the groups.

There was one group I wanted to join... but I couldn't get an invite so I just took it as another sign that the GalComm wasn't for me. It really is a shame that Ricoche is invite only, but it's probably because we gaijin ruined it. Anyways...

I know that I'm Gal by Japanese definition. It just seems that I'm not a 'gaijin' gyaru, because I don't fit the mold that has been... created, broken, fixed, repeat.

I've even noticed that a lot of my favorite gyaru models don't call themselves gal. Just that they are a model of {insert gyaru magazine name here}.

If anything, I only think labels like Gyaru, gal mama, and gaijin gal, are only good for those who are trying to find a specific look or person. It's no longer a proper form of identity. No longer special.

Honestly, the best gals are the ones that have evolved from the 'gaijin' label. I could name names, but where's the fun in that?

There was a point in all of this, wasn't there? lol Looks like it wen't out the window again.

「022」Beauty Inspirations S/S 2013 (pic heavy)

2013-05-10T21:04:00.000-07:00

Unlike most of my fellow Gyaru, my inspirations come from a particular formula:

Tumblr Beauty + Celeb Beauty + Ageha Beauty = My beauty Inspo.

My methodology for inspiration is a few step process

Discovery

This is the time I see something interesting, funny, or mesmerizing. I try my hardest to find as many photos and information as I can on the subject and download a ton of media and data to my computer, evernote, dropbox, Google Drive, etc.

Disregard

I'll let the photos sit in my hard drive for some time. This is usually because I'm moving on to the next interesting thing. Or somehow drama ensues and I'm unhappy. I won't develop my look without being in a happy mind frame This can take days to weeks. The longest it's ever gone was 6 months. And that was when I was first interested in gal.

renaissance

I tend to clean out my archives about once every 6 months. It's more often lately since I have a clear focus of what I want. And when I do I see so much promise in what I have, it's like falling in love with the style again and reassessing everything. Under this phase I do the following:

Research

Taking a day to fully breakdown the look and find the appropriate tutorials and bloggers to correspond with it.

Application

Testing out different looks and getting the opinions of my local friends and family.

Decision

I decide whether to love it out leave it. It's as simple as that!

First off, let's talk about...

tumblr beauty

Keeping in mind I prefer celeb looks, nothing say tumblr beauty to me like:

KandyKoatedXTC
FixatedonFashion
http://shesbombb.us/
UkrainianBarbieDoll
http://ultimatebeauties.com/
Flyest Females - The best tumblr of all of them because they showcase real beauty without a lot of photoshop.

Next we have...

Ageha beauty

Aside from looking in Ane Ageha and Ageha magazine, I look to the curated tumblrs that my friends have made...

iLoveGyaru - ran by Lizzie
tata9cove Kuro Taylor is someone I've newly followed in the past month. She has an excellent taste and I appreciate her re-blogs.
Miyu Yoshida you can't think of anything involving egg or black diamond without thinking of Miyu. When I refer to Miyu in conversation, I call her the 'Gyaru Historian.' Always go to her if you need background information on Gal.

Here's a few photos I'm using; you might see a few people you may know...

And of course, for a more neutral look I peek in on the onee mags as well...

I won't go into Celebeauty because you can see that makeup reflected in the photos above.

This is my main focus for this season. But rest assured, I find inspiration in everything. I hope you liked this peak into my archives.

Here's a MV a friend of mine introduced me to today:

Gyaru Interview Series

2013-05-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

When I first thought of these interviews, I wanted to show, from different style POV's, that all gals wants the same things. I believe I have met that goal. And since i'm taking this off of the sidebar. I thought I would put these all together so you can find them easier.

Usagi-pyon
Purin
RivRiv
Shiro Gyaru

Quick note: Works Cited

2013-05-08T21:52:00.000-07:00

Tip for all my student readers: if you’re too lazy to use a bibliography creator like NoodleBib or RefWorks, let Google generate your bibliography entries for you. All you have to do is google the article/book title in Google Scholar, click “cite” at the bottom of the search result, and copy either the MLA, APA, or Chicago cite into your word document.

Source

「021」Amazing things I've seen today

2013-05-07T16:51:00.000-07:00

「020」Week at a glance

2013-05-04T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! I just wanted to do a quick recap of what has happened this week:

Here's the inspiration (from IFB) that helped me through my week:

First off, I'm surprised and excited at Mitsu's Latest post, What's New and Trending in Gyaru Makeup for 2013. Pictured below is Aina Tanaka from Egg magazine. Her look has changed so drastically in my eyes, but I love it. I never really fancied it before, being more of a Yumachi fan. Looks like I'll be updating my makeup more.

And speaking of makeup, I finally got a look at Abisag's contouring video. I'm so behind with this, but here's the video:

I enjoyed this video. I REALLY enjoyed this video. Because I felt like I was right there, sitting next to Abi. I'm going to attempt doing this make up look this weekend. I have a May 9th deadline to meet so I think this will greatly help me out.

Another blog posts that has captured my attention is the White Spring look by Rii. I've been seeing scans of it around the Gyaru tag on tumblr, and I thought it would be nice to show you want I found interesting:

GYDA, and it's designer Yuria, is a personal favorite of mine. :3

I may be weird, but I don't really like the idea of wearing all white, just seeing it on others. And I would love to see this paired with Koneko's Mermaid Hair.

Also, I hung out with Jamie on Thursday (5/2/13)! And she gave me a gift! I was so happy when I received it. I've always tried to send out letters to pen pals in the past. And I wasn't successful (or a lil lazy). So the fact that I received a pen pal type gift made me so happy. And the best thing about it is that Jamie knows me so well... I'll upload a lil haul video when youtube stops being a bitch.

Also, I was watching Mark Wahlberg on Jimmy Kimmel, and I think he looks my husband...

I'm mainly saving these here because I know my hubby will want the information in the interview. Mark talks about how he had to manipulate his weight for a few movies he filmed this year. Ironically enough it's what my husband has been doing, but I guess he needed that confirmation.

「019」The Gyaru Blogger: Cover Art Sneak Preview

2013-05-02T00:55:00.000-07:00

Hello all my lovelies!

I'm happy to share with you more news. First of all.... TA DOW!

Behold the WIP Cover art for "The Gyaru Blogger" What you see here is the hime gal version of my character in my header. She's in her room, relaxed and blogging. Saiharii has done beautifully with the finished product.

I'm just so excited, this is really happening! I will publish and sell a book I wrote. That I thought of myself, by myself, and didn't have some buddy with me along the way.

I wrote this book in a month, and now I'll be able to sell it within 4 months later. I paid for all the artwork, I paid for the publishing. And This will be another fantastic accomplishment I made being a Gyaru.

「018」Clarity, Confidence, Consistency

2013-04-29T15:04:00.003-07:00

So Good news!

The Artwork for 'The Gyaru Blogger' is almost complete. Which means I'm a step closer to sharing with all of you my little masterpiece.

Now I'm planning on sending the book out to a few people to read, experience and review.

I had a short list of people to have look over the book. But after recent events beyond my control, I'm rechecking that list and making it shorter.

That's it for today.

Gaijin Gyaru Award 2013 Nominees!!!

2013-04-24T11:04:00.002-07:00

The time has come! Lady Li has posted the nominee video...

I'm so happy! I was nominated twice! Best Gal Mama and Best Overall Blog content. The voting is now open! Here's the link:

http://www.esurveyspro.com/App/Polls/DirectPoll.aspx?id=11423

Please vote for me along with your favorites! I would really appreciate it if you did.

Also, Lady Li is searching for Talent and Greeting Videos!

「016」Mobile Friendships are scary

2013-04-22T23:51:00.001-07:00

I have decided to design the mobile version of my site. I've already gotten the pretty part out of the way. But I don't know which would be better. I wanted to simply have the header, an embedded video, and my social media buttons. I designed it with the iPhone and iPad in mind:

So what do you think? I like A because it's my branding from back to front. B is more minimal of course. No busy background and you can simply focus on the content.

Also, I'm planning on re-adding an old element to my blog I believe was a unique element to my blog. I know you will all be happy when it comes back. It saves times and shows what magazines i like.

You know, I've often thought about Friendship. Friends are people outside of family that you like to spend time with, feel safe with, and they support you (and have the balls to make sure you don't do stupid shit).

Over the past 5 years I've experienced interesting encounters and online friendships. I've met my husband, had a baby and I've settled into a lifestyle that can only get better. It obvious that I've regretted one attempted friendship, but as I sit here, gazing at this screen, I wonder what exactly do I have?

In life we are often taught to recognize the losses, to prepare for the worst. They were wrong, these people. We are supposed to look at what we have left. Appreciate what's real and right in front of us.

I have a wonderful husband with two beautiful children. He and I get along so well. Now many people can say that about their spouses. I just know that, if i was born a man, I'd be my hubby.

I have acquaintances around the world that teach me more about myself than I could imagine. I have Jamie. She understands me on a level that no one, outside of my husband, ever will.

Do you have people in your life that makes you smile when you think of them?

「015」I find comfort in the Aquarian

2013-04-21T14:15:00.001-07:00

Here's today's selca:

I was really happy this morning and I just had to share it with the world.

Today I made a header for a private Facebook group I'm apart of:

I used this flyer for inspiration:

Also, I will be participating in the stop CISPA protest by maintaining internet silence tomorrow (Monday April 22, 2013). anything you see from me online is automated. See you on Tuesday.

「014」

2013-04-19T22:16:00.000-07:00

First things first! Today's makeup:

This time I used actual lower lashes. I'm not sure if you can see them, but I'm happy. I also changed up my top lash routine. It's a combo of Diamond Lash Glamorous Eye with a pair of accent lashes (Similar to Koakuma eye) from the Daiso section of Oto's.

Next, I was supposed to be apart of a live stream party with Shawnee, celebrate her 5000th subbie on youtube. But, some weird shit happened and I could join the hangout. Which greatly upset me. I was literally at tears over the whole situation. I've been waiting a long time, and really looked forward to my first live stream party. But in the end I couldn't get on, and I just finished up Assassin's Creed revelations instead.

That's pretty much it. Hope all of you had a great day today.

「013」hanging out with Jamie, and finally gaining the insight I needed.

2013-04-17T17:00:00.000-07:00

So I hung out the today with my friend Jamie.

It's kind of surreal because it was our second time going into Oto's Market. And because I'm nostalgic I took pictures and did a similar pose of later comparison.

I didn't get a chance to take photos of my makeup before leaving my flat, so you have me here taking to take a photo in natural sunlight. I'm pretty happy with how my makeup turned out. I was trying something different. and Since it worked pretty well, I'm going to refine it with smaller lower lashes.

Sake!!!

Asahi and sapporo!

Does anyone remember when i took a photo similar to this? I think I've lost a lot of weight since then lol.

And now for the insight. I've been on a personal journey to get rid of the fears I have that are holding me back from my successes. I've tried to seek out help, or team up with someone in order to reach my journey's end with someone. I realize now that not a good idea. I'm stubborn and I have to figure out things for myself.

But I had so many questions. and "look in the book, its there" wasn't a good enough answer for me. Then I received an email from The Daily Love and it held this:

"This is the other secret that real artists know and wannabe writers don't. When we sit down each day and do our work, power concentrates around us. The Muse takes note of our dedication. She approves. We have earned favor in her sight. When we sit down and work, we become like a magnetized rod that attracts iron filings. Ideas come. Insights accrete."

Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul. That's why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there'd be no Resistance."

"Are you paralyzed with fear? That's a good sign. Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. Remember one rule of thumb: the more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it."- Steven Pressfield

THAT answered my questions. I hated the idea of having to devoid myself of most emotions. Because i felt like a failure when I would yell at my kids, or get irritated over my family. I was getting depressed because I was being depressed. But now I know what I need to do, and that emotions are okay.

⌊012⌉ Finding relief in being the villain

2013-04-16T08:45:00.001-07:00

I'm writing the piece for the Villain in the Wonderland Project. I saved the below passage for my inspiration. It's very moving to be because sometimes I can relate to it.

“A villain must be a thing of power, handled with delicacy and grace. He must be wicked enough to excite our aversion, strong enough to arouse our fear, human enough to awaken some transient gleam of sympathy. We must triumph in his downfall, yet not barbarously nor with contempt, and the close of his career must be in harmony with all its previous development.” - Repplier, Agnes

I find writing for her a bit difficult, because you don't realize that's she's a villain until the very end of the story. (no I'm not giving anything away, just discussing it in a manner to pique interest). I don't have any control over the character design, only able to give a jist of what I want Saiharii to convey, so it's interesting trying to create the ultimate Gal Evil (with is a mix between Lawful and Chaotic Evil) and wrap it in a pretty coating with a plain bow. It's like eating a cookie so rich and flavorful, you'll have diabetes before you finish the last crumb.

Likewise, I must give this villain the hero's garb. So I'm looking at this quote for reference:

“Down these mean streets a man must go who is not himself mean, who is neither tarnished nor afraid. He is the hero, he is everything. He must be a complete man and a common man and yet an unusual man. He must be, to use a rather weathered phrase, a man of honor, by instinct, by inevitability, without thought of it, and certainly without saying it. He must be the best man in his world and a good enough man for any world.” -Rebecca Harding Davis

Honestly, I think this will be an easy character to develop. Wish me luck!

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

Today's Post was written while listening to:

⌊011⌉ I need a new name for my book! Please help!

2013-04-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

So, after posting for about 10 days in a row i disappear. Well, I can definitely attest to Shark Week. Which is weird because at one point I thought I was pregnant. Which is something I don't want.

Don't get me wrong I love children, but I have two already and that's enough. I've seen a lot of women in my area lose their common sense after having that third child.I don't want to be that person. And besides, I haven't even gotten my daughter's bed out of my room, I'm sure as hell not going to add another bed.

Any ways, I'm not preggo and it's a relief.

Next, I should tell you about the Buddha statue we just got... If you've been following this blog, you'll know that I have a marble statue of an elephant. But i don't think there's been pictures of it. So I might as well include a photo of both.

This is a photo of the Elephant Big Buddha, and the medium Buddha shrine I have.

And this is the Coat rack transformed into another little shrine. But I think I need to add a piece of cloth under Quan Kun. Just to give it a strong foundation (can you tell I'm into feng shui?).

Also, for an Update on the Wonderland Project Manga, the script for the First chapter has been finalized! It's time for me to write the second chapter and plan the third. There's no Concept Art so far. But I'm sure I can share a couple of pieces when there are some. If Sai Allows Its.

And finally, about the Gyaru Blogger Book I have an outline to do, and I'm waiting for for Artwork to be completed. I need a Better name honestly. Maybe I can hold a contest for it. I need you advice on it.

⌊010⌉ Evil Spoon Magic

2013-04-10T07:54:00.002-07:00

I'm just going to leave this here.