Child Abuse Survivor

It Goes On

MikeM — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 01:16:21 +0000

I saw this quote from Robert Frost the other day and I thought that it was one of the one-liners that really explains exactly how the healing and recovery process continues, even when it doesn’t appear to be.

In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.

I couldn’t have seen it better myself. No matter how much today may seem to be a struggle, life will continue and tomorrow will be another day. It may be easy to get caught on the rollercoaster of struggling and healing, and struggling again, but if you can keep the big picture in mind during all of that, you’ll realize that while all of that is going on in your days, life just keeps going, and will continue to keep going, no matter what your day is like.

There’s so much hope in that, knowing that life will continue to go on, with all the changes, joys, sadness, and everything else that goes along with it. I hope you can see that as well.

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First Carnival Against Child Abuse of 2010

MikeM — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 02:51:43 +0000

Paul, from Mind Parts does a great job, not just in hosting the Carnival this month, but also explaining why the Carnival is very cool:

The purpose of the Carnival is to be a place where important posts are shared with others who may not be frequent readers of an author’s blog. I, myself, have realized that I cannot follow all the blogs I want to follow, so the monthly Carnival gives me a chance to see what else is out there. There are so many wonderful bloggers and you are all doing a wonderful service not only to yourselves, but to the cause of ending child abuse and recovering from child abuse. My sincere thanks to all of you.

I couldn’t agree more, and I’ll be over to his post to check out the other entries in this month’s edition!

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New Groups on the Survivors Network

MikeM — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 02:45:46 +0000

As you know, from time to time, I like to post here about new things that are happening over on the Child Abuse Survivors Network, just as a reminder to those of you who don’t make regular stops over, or as a way to let those of you who aren’t members know what’s going on.

Today, we’ve had a couple of folks step up and create their own sub-groups on the network, “Support for under-18s” and “Girl Talk for Survivors”.

Obviously, being well over 18, and male, I’m going to entrust overseeing the groups and monitoring things to their creators, but if you happen to fit in one of those demographics, or know a survivor who does, and who might benefit from chatting with folks in a similar situation, let them know to come on by!

Now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

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Healing Isn’t a Smooth Timeline

MikeM — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 05:03:10 +0000

One of the things I frequently hear from survivors when they are struggling in an area of their healing is “I’ve been at this for ‘x’ years, shouldn’t I be past this?”, or other similar sentiments. Or, sometimes they will talk about how things with their healing were going along nicely, and for the last month, or more, it just seems to have hit a wall and everything is a struggle and they are feeling overwhelmed.

At these times, I find it important to point out that healing journeys are rarely ever a straight line. Not only are all of our paths to healing different from one another, but they tend to work in fits and starts, more than in a straight line of progress.

When I think about my own healing, I can clearly see the times where there was a great amount of progress in very little time, and also those times where progress seemed to be always out of reach, and even the times where there was regression instead of progress. We’re complicated creatures, and dealing with childhood abuse is a long process. For every sudden realization that changes our perspective almost overnight, there are just as many day in and day out struggles to simply cope with the information we are processing. I spent a few years in and out of therapy, on and off medication, working and seeing progress, then suddenly giving up, only to wind up back in the same place until the one session where a concept suddenly clicked for me, and healing seemed to come almost overnight.

Granted it wasn’t really overnight, it took many long months after that to start to build an adult life for myself, and it took years of work and struggle to even reach that point, but the progress I was making sped up dramatically after the day I finally saw myself as a capable, responsible adult instead of a victim. That progress wouldn’t have come, and couldn’t possibly have been that quick, without all the other struggle that came before it. That slow time, and all of those times where I didn’t think I was ever going to get anywhere, were part of my process. The very same process that changed my outlook and my life within a short year or so. I couldn’t have had one without the other, and all of you fellow survivors, are on a similar journey. You’ll have times of great progress in a short amount of time, and times of great struggle that can last for a very long time. That’s pretty typical, actually.

It’s not a race, and the pace will change as your life, and your health dictates. The important thing is that you follow the advice of Winston Churchill. “When you’re going through hell, keep going!”

Keep working, no matter how slow the progress is, it’s better than giving up.

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Let the Fault Lie Where it Should

MikeM — Mon, 11 Jan 2010 02:45:38 +0000

I was thinking earlier this week about why many victims of child abuse, or domestic violence, continue to believe they deserved what happened to them. One of the themes I very often see is actually immaturity. The reason I say that is, immature people see themselves as the center of everything that happens, mature people understand their true place in the universe, and understand that other people make their own decisions, and are responsible for their own decisions.

Think of it this way, many little children blame themselves for parents divorcing, or other things that go wrong within the family, mistakenly believing that if they had just been better, things wouldn’t have happened this way. When they grow up, they realize that what their parent’s decided to do had nothing to do with them at all, they make their own decisions. Too many survivors continue with this belief, well past the physical age of maturity. They continue to believe that all the bad things that other people do are somehow a result of them not being good enough to stop it, or some sort of punishment for their own sins.

That couldn’t be more wrong headed. It’s time for all of us to grow up a little here and recognize that life is bigger than any one of us, and that people are only responsible for their own individual decisions. When another human being makes a decision to act, that’s exactly what it is, their own decision. Just because another person chooses to do harmful, destructive things, doesn’t mean you have the power to change it, or that you caused that decision. It is their decision, and their responsibility. Do the mature thing, and understand that not everything is a statement about you.

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Another Anniversary

MikeM — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 02:38:35 +0000

I was actually not aware of this until I was working on things behind the scenes around here last week and caught site of the first blog post, but it has been eight years now that I’ve been blogging about being a survivor of child abuse. It occurs to me that, on top of the other reasons I’ve been unable to blog here as much as I’d like to this year, I do often get an idea, or the very beginnings of an idea and struggle to say something I haven’t said before!

After that much time, and close to 600 posts, I do feel like I don’t have many original thoughts left. Then again, I’m not ready to simply quit writing here either. I know that lots of you read these posts and find value in them, so I’m going to continue to do that, and give myself the freedom to write what’s on my mind, regardless of whether it’s a topic I’ve covered, and as time allows. So, hopefully I’ll still be covering some original ground, but I’ll also probably be covering some things that are familiar to anyone who’s been reading for a long time. Sorry about that, but then again, there are probably just as many people finding this blog for the first time too. Maybe if I update it more often, they’d even come back!

Seriously though, reading that there are 39 millions sexual abuse survivors in the US alone, reminds me why, even if it takes time and energy to write this blog, or keep up with the Survivors Network, it’s worth it.

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A Little Insight into my Thinking

MikeM — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 03:15:57 +0000

Don’t be scared off by the title.

I thought I would take a few minutes and help you all understand some of the new things I’ve been doing around the site while I had some spare time over the holidays. Overall, the thought is to make it as easy as possible for anyone who is interested in this site to follow along. In light of the fact that life has gotten busy, and that has kept me away from writing here as much as I’d like to, I wanted to find ways to make it easier to share things here, and for you all to know when something new is here without having to drop by every day.

So, I created RSS feeds for comments, added an email subscription list and a Facebook fan page.

I had toyed with the idea of creating a Facebook group, or fan page last year, opting instead to create the Survivors Network on Ning because it allowed me to let the members enjoy some privacy. It is important to me that survivors have a place they can share as much, or as little, information about themselves as they felt safe. Facebook doesn’t really allow that. You have to give up some personally identifiable information, that’s sort of the whole point of Facebook, and so having a Survivors group there meant that all the members would be tied to that information.

On the other hand, I know there are lots of people who read this site, who also use Facebook. Some of whom would love to share some of the content here with their Facebook network or who just want to keep in touch with myself and other readers of the site while they’re spending their time on Facebook. I didn’t think my personal profile was the place to do that. I use my Facebook profile for a number of other reasons, professionally and to keep in touch with family and friends all over the country. Trying to force the connections I have here, and the things I write about here onto that profile wasn’t something I was comfortable doing. Not because I’m hiding anything, I use my real name here and link the site from my other profiles, but because it would mean mixing together things in a way that everyone might not enjoy. I didn’t want everyone who knows me professionally, or through my family, to be forced to see me contemplating child abuse, depression, mental illness, etc, nor did I want folks to know me from this site to have to see me talking about technology and eDiscovery if they aren’t interested. By creating a fan page for both of my websites, I can give you the option to follow what you like. If you’re a big fan of either sites, but don’t care about the interactions I have with family, friends, and coworkers, you can simply became a fan of either site and interact that way. If you want to interact with other survivors on the Facebook platform, you can do so there. If you need more privacy, or want to interact in a safer environment, the Ning network is probably where you want to go. Or you can be part of both. Again, you have options this way.

One other new thing I’ve added, and will be working to update, is the Delicious links. They’re on the sidebar of both blogs of this site, and will be included each day on the Facebook page. They’re also included if you subscribe to the News and Reviews feed or email lists. That’s been a good tool on my other site to easily share articles and other links of interest without having to take the time to write up new blog posts, so my hope is to provide the same service to this community.

I want to thank the folks who have already signed up to be fans on Facebook, who have subscribed to the different feeds, or who continue to come back to the site and read, leave comments etc. It’s not like I have any advertising budget for any of these services. People only find them because you all spread the word, and they only work because everyone is willing to be part of the community, especially on the Network. None of this would be as valuable without you.

So, however you choose to be part of things here, thanks!

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Have a Very Merry Christmas!

MikeM — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 01:25:10 +0000

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New Ways to Follow The Site

MikeM — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 21:36:42 +0000

A couple of new ways, and a reminder of the other ways you can get new posts from the site without actually having to visit the site and check for new entries. Of course, you are always encouraged to come to the site and leave comments!

For the Child Abuse Survivor Blog, you can

Subscribe by email

Subscribe in an RSS Reader

Subscribe to Comments in an RSS Reader

For the Survivors News and Reviews blog:

Subscribe by email

Subscribe in an RSS Reader

Subscribe to Comments in an RSS Reader

You can also get notified on the SurvivorNetwork Twitter account for new entries to both blogs, or the brand new fan page on Facebook.

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My Holiday Survival Tip

MikeM — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 21:30:50 +0000

We all know that, as survivors and just about anyone else, the holidays can be fraught with all sorts of bad memories, awkward time spent with family, depression, and mourning for the family we never had. I’ve seen a number of folks listing tips for surviving the holidays, and I absolutely encourage all of you to do whatever you need to do to take care of yourselves during this time, and always.

In light of that, I thought I’d share something that has helped me. I can sum up the attitude in a sentence I spoke to my wife last night regarding something outside the scope of this, but somewhat relevant too.

“You take care of the people who take care of you.”

What that means to me, is that I spend a lot of time during December trying to fine small gifts, tokens, or other things I can do that will brighten the days for the people I most care about. Instead of dreading all of the things there are to dread about the holidays, or spending my time hoping for things that I’ll probably end up being disappointed about, I try very hard to concern myself with showing appreciation to the people who deserve it. I make sure and spend time with my wife, and allow her to enjoy all the things about the holidays that she always has enjoyed. I spend time going through the holiday cards my wife designs for us each year and figure out which one each of the people on my list would appreciate the most. I make time to have lunch with friends I need to catch up with. I buy small gifts for friends, not so much for the gift itself, but to show them that they’re important to me, and that in the midst of holiday craziness I thought about them for a few minutes.

Usually, by the time I’ve done all these things, like now as we close in on Christmas day, I’ve been so rewarded by the smiles, hugs, and appreciation of the people who are really important to me, that the rest is easy. I know where my support is, I know who’s important to me, and whatever comes from the next week or two is nothing compared to the strength I have within myself, and gather from the awesome people in my life, even those of you who I only know online.

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