Chilli Padi Athlete

40 Days

2014-02-12T08:06:00.002-08:00

It's been so long since.

The pain of loving someone else makes it easier to walk away.

I can see myself swaying to the beats of the heart, as and when it wishes.

My gut feel isn't strong.

I need to build it back up.

Over the past few days, C showed me love.

Love that I an incapable of knowing.

C showed me so much love, care and sacrifice

It's impossible that anyone can supersede that.

I failed to realise how wonderful of a partner C is.

I regret.

I regret...

Dear God,

2014-02-07T08:49:00.000-08:00

It has been so long since we last saw each other. The more days that pass, the more I think of the things I could have done for you. I do wish so many times on so many occasions that I wish you were here with me, by my side.

I live in regret now, for the words that i said, for the actions that I did, and the feelings that I felt. I am so mad at myself. I feel like I hate myself more than ever. I don't know if I will make it through to the end of this month.

I am not angry with you. Neither do I resent you.

I remember out late night ice-cream conversations, and on my worst days, it hits me at the most random times, like when I see a Magnum, or hear one of your favorite songs. I remember everything you said, how I felt, and I cannot help but be mad at myself for pushing you away.

I miss you so much more than I ever realized.

The Lady Who Didn't Live Another Day

2014-02-02T08:31:00.001-08:00

She loved to laugh. She was fun to be around, but she knew when to be serious.
You could count on her. She was usually early and always prepared for what needed to be done.
She was smart.
She enjoyed books, but struggled with finding enough time to read them.
She loved children.
She did not indulge in shallow relationships; therefore, her circle of friends was small, but close.
She was beautiful.
Her heart was big – some might say too big – because things bothered her, but they were the sorts of things that ought to bother a person, like injustice, over-consumption, or violence against the meek.
She was strong.
She will be missed, whoever she was.

Ever been emotionally/mentally abused? Read this.

2013-08-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

What about abuse? You may not think that you suffered any mental or emotional abuse unless it was blatantly obvious. It’s unimaginable until it’s put into context for you. Have you personally been told any of these before by an authority figure?

“You’re upset about that? Seriously?”

“Stop crying.”

“How could you make that mistake?”

“Deal with it.”

“There’s nothing to be afraid of. Don’t be a baby.”

“What are you, stupid?”

Those are the statements of pervasive bullying. They’re also common phrases used on children by what society would consider to be “typical, healthy parents.” They’re also mild forms of mental and emotional abuse.

These statements (and others like them), spoken by authority figures on a regular basis, cause deep and lasting psychological damage. And these are light compared to what most people experience. If this was the extent of the hurt you suffered, you have a massive head start.

Source: http://rebootedbody.com/health-fitness-dead/

Midnight Scare

2012-11-09T20:51:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 140am with a sharp pain on my lower right abdomen area. I felt my whole area being pulled apart and being stabbed with. At that point, I couldn't even stand up straight. I was crouched over to the right like a spineless zombie.

I got out of bed towards the sofa and just laid down. Knees to my chest. Head in my hands. I felt cold. Tried to distract myself from the pain. Immediately informed my clients of the day that I am not well and apologized for it.

Really glad and thank goodness for S who was online. Chatted with her for a bit and she was ready to take me to the hospital immediately. But after an hour, I realised the pain had subsided and I could somewhat bear the pain. Occasionally, there was some pain at the lower back area too.

There was no more sharp pain, but an uncomfortable nagging sour pain on the right side just next to the hip bone. I stayed on the couch til 4am and finally retreated back to bed. Till 7am I was tossing and turning with that pain still nagging me.

Texted Dr Sanjay and booked 9am. Went to see him. Did the regular abdominal check etc and blood check for fear of kidney stones. I haven't been diligent in drinking enough water recently and perhaps that could be a reason of the pain. But I was more worried about having appendicitis and having to undergo keyhole surgery. That would take my training time away.

So after the check and all, I was given muscle relaxants as Dr said it was tense/tight muscles acting up.

I went back and rested.

3 things I thought about when I was lying on the sofa in pain:
1) Nothing matters at that point - not even my sessions, what my boss thinks, or whether I'll hit my target.
2) If I die today, I wish my parents and partner will be able to accept this.
3) I just want to know what is the cause of this!!!

Have you ever seen a kidney stone? Here is what it looks like:

Now that I am back home, with egg tarts for my loved ones, I need some rest.

Mental and physical rest.

Cheer YOUR TEAM

2012-11-09T02:14:00.002-08:00

Hope Solo doing tire flips.

Taiping International Marathon 2012

2012-09-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

Congrats to my mom and dad for completing their events at the Taiping International Marathon 2012!

Mom ran the 10km and Dad ran the Half Marathon (22.3km)!

They are so amazing. 60 years old and still running strong!

Love them to bits!

2012 Squash Australian Open

2012-08-19T02:05:00.002-07:00

Nicol Ann David

Champion for the 2nd time!

Beijing!

2012-08-14T18:59:00.001-07:00

Da-dong Peking Duck

This is TOTALLY AWESOME DUCK!!!!

At Mutianyu's side of the Great Wall of China

Viva CrossFit!!!

With Pepe!

Juventus' famous soccer player!

Eat, Pray, Love

2012-08-01T01:45:00.003-07:00

"A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master.."

~ Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

~~~

Would you know if you have found your soulmate?

Weightlifting Champ!

2012-07-30T20:24:00.003-07:00

Kim Un Guk of DPR Korea

Men's 62kg Weightlifting on Day 3 of the London 2012 Olympic Games

Thought

2012-07-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

Today, I asked someone for something randomly.
And the answer and response was positive, YES.
I was excited! A YES!!!

But.
Unfortunately a naysayer came by,
And brushed me away.

I felt silly,
I felt small.
She made me feel like a wall.

Why did I feel that way?
How did I allow her to intrude my heart?

I wish she'd apologize.
I wish she'd just say "I'm sorry, I over-reacted".

I think I may be wrong.
I think I need to be more patient.
Let me go and sleep it off.

Good night peeps.

Korean Lunch!

2012-05-20T23:48:00.003-07:00

Japanized!

2012-05-20T23:11:00.005-07:00

No no no. This is not right!

Though I must say this is the largest assets that I've ever owned!

Double Trouble!

2012-05-17T20:18:00.004-07:00

This is what happens when we do a CrossFit Drinking WOD combined with braised spiced chicken.

All happens only in Korea!

Camille Leblanc Bazinet

2012-05-16T19:07:00.002-07:00

During Workout 4, Reebok CrossFit Games 2012 Canada East Regionals

Little Beast!

2012-05-14T21:35:00.000-07:00

"Last but not least, get...strong...as...hell little beast. I saw your performance and you can rule this game or scare the shit out of a lot of competitors. "

Event 1: Reebok CrossFit Games 2012 Asia Regionals

2012-05-14T18:36:00.000-07:00

Head to Floor Handstand Push Ups

"Dianne"

21-15-9 for time of::

Deadlifts @ 70kg

Handstand Push Ups (HTF)

Preview: Reebok CrossFit Games Asia 2012

2012-05-09T21:03:00.000-07:00

Just got back from Korea after competing in the Reebok CrossFit Games Asia Regionals 2012.

Will post up pics and write up soon!

Tough Love.

2012-04-22T08:30:00.000-07:00

I long to see you every day when you get home from work.

Knowing and understanding your priorities, and knowing where I can support you.

Only the best, for you, and nothing less than that.

Go To THAT Place!

2012-04-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

Sexy beast you!

2012-02-15T18:28:00.000-08:00

Workout Nutrition!

2012-01-28T09:39:00.001-08:00

Reunion Dinner!

2012-01-22T18:38:00.000-08:00

This was what we had last night! Heaps of pork and pork!

I had just an egg, a scoop of mushrooms and some joo hu char. My indigestion the morning had set in and I was feeling very uneasy. Had to sit up straight like an 8-mth preggers and breathed like I was doing 3RM back squats. I left early and headed back to bed with many visits to the jamban. I think i used up 5 gallons of water for the flush. Lost alot of water....

I guess this is the fastest way to get lean!

Revisiting Bukit Gasing

2012-01-22T01:39:00.001-08:00

1-inch Ant

Giant mozzie!