Chocolate Nights

More Tightly

2014-09-18T23:54:00.000+04:30

And finally...
I'm glad to see the beautiful days in which I'm good. Everything looks OK and I'm happy that going to forget the bitter taste of loneliness. I feel good and I feel great whenever we talk.

Having conversation seems like a hill to mount. the first steps is slow and you feel like carrying a heavy pack, but when you reach the top, a great view, green outlook and beautiful scene appears. You start to run, while holding her/his hands and sing and dance freely. In the end you look at your buddy's eyes, breathe deeply and hold her/his hands more tightly...

Drown

2013-09-07T16:14:00.001+04:30

I have lots of issues to discuss, which are killing me. Mental nodes or something like this. And there is no response but repeated words. I think I'm gonna fall deeply...

A Professional Interviewee

2013-08-26T19:55:00.002+04:30

In this two years, I've had several different interviews depend on university stuff and applying for a job, some of which had 2 or 3 levels interview.

Now I consider myself a professional interviewee, who enter calmly, speak fluently, answer frankly, and behave dominantly :)

In one of recent ones, except the friendly atmosphere, I appeared simply good that the interviewers openly showed their satisfaction with their smiles and admiration. Although I need to pass another interview to get this job entirely, the result was good enough to avoid me seeking job again and again. Hope all things get on successfully.

Men vs. Women

2012-10-27T19:50:00.001+03:30

Men And women are different in several aspects; one of them is the way they react when a problem arises.

Men often prefer to be silent for a while, and think about the whole situation, until finally they come up with a good solution. Women, in contrast, start talking about the complex situation not only to stimulate others sympathy, but also to rearrange their mind. Maybe they are not aware of this process, but even unconsciously, by speaking, they are seeking the head of the twisted clue to rearrange their mind and find the solution at the end.

For me, writing does the same. Sometimes when I prefer not to speak to anybody about the situation, I start writing to open the knot in my mind. Since I think, most of the time, friends, by their sympathy, do make the problems much more serious in the mind...

the Deepest Love Is the Simplest

2012-07-30T18:46:00.002+04:30

I never thought I would enjoy watching a movie even in third time. Normally I'm not into movies. But I think It was amazing.

I guess, maybe, that's because I feel it totally. I mean I totally can understand how such a simple, but deep relationship can be adorable. Since a special time in my life, I've thought there is no need to happen something strange or odd or even special to shape a real, deep love. I experienced the deepest love in my life, through a very very simple words, with doing nothing but speak. And sometimes without any word! And I know how passionate it would be, just if you love someone purely and for him/herself alone.

Maybe that's why I understand this movie entirely by my heart.

I miss this feeling… I really miss it.

What's wrong?

2012-05-12T10:45:00.000+04:30

I'm starting to feel less interested in learning English. I don't know exactly why, but I'm not pleased with this large amount of homework anymore.
I don't know what I can do to evoke the tendency of learning English... And It's not a good sign at all.
I'll appreciate any suggestion.

Beg or Bargain?

2012-04-29T00:24:00.000+04:30

What do you think about bargaining? Do you think it's fair? Do you think it's an enjoyable ritual?

I hate it! The seller offer a price higher than the real cost and the buyer try or sometimes struggle to reduce it. It's ridiculous! But they tend to this game with complete satisfaction.

I hate it because I don't consider it as an honest fact, nor I enjoy pushing someone to accept my suggestion. I hate it because I think it's kind of begging money in an unfair way.

I prefer sellers face me in an honest attitude, and offer me the real price, and I pay the exact worth… And if I cannot offer it, so, that's my problem! I can buy something lower in price or I'll stay until assembling enough money to buy that special thing.

I just hope people let bargaining go away!

Spring

2012-03-12T17:17:00.002+03:30

It's the first time I've managed my life like this.

There are always some obligatory tasks in the life that their necessitate makes them unpleasant to do. I have some the same. But recently I could manage them in a way all of them are being done and also I enjoy doing them.

Furthermore something is becoming different in me which makes me kind of stronger and more relaxed.

It seems that my spring has begun almost two months earlier, since my birthday eve.

Didn't

2012-01-31T01:22:00.002+03:30

It died, before the birth...!

A gift

2012-01-13T18:42:00.001+03:30

I'm feeling something strange in me. It's achy but lovely. I don't know what exactly is going to happen, but I think if I pass it, it can be a great and shiny point in whole my life.

I feel, these days, something is going to be given to me, sent from Heaven. The incident is really hard to me, but delightful. Isn't it marvelous?

The Little Women

2012-01-08T14:47:00.002+03:30

Children have changed a lot. Whenever I go to the English institute, I see so many teen girls who have no similarity to the girls before. You seldom can see that cute, innocence appearance. They have changed in a way which seems it's going to be omitted the teen years from their whole life. Apparently they are going to grow adult after a very short childhood.

They are being involved in adultness period without preparation. They are going to be the same as adults they love to, in appearance and behavior. Making up and dressing up the same as women, they act like matures.

They are little girls in women disguise. "The little women".

P.S. It was my first publishing via mobile phone.

Afterward...

2012-01-04T00:16:00.002+03:30

I miss here so much. I miss writing my heart in English; in a such sweet language which I'd started when my heart was beating cheerfully... What an amazing creature the Human is!

I'm glad those days had passed though. Those years, now, seem like odd days in my eyes. I was forcing the world to the way I want. I was pushing myself, the life, the fate, and God also to the astray direction! Poor ex-Kosar!

Now I feel calmer. Although I've had such hard days like before, like everyone; but I feel different. I'm thankful to God, cause he is looking after me carefully (as he was before).

The Life

2011-07-07T01:30:00.002+04:30

I think one of my most negative quality is not being sociable. I prefer to have a limit number of friends with a deep relationship. Going to lots of parties and visiting new people never make me happy. It's uncomfortable to participate in a party I don't know anybody. Although I could improve the ability of making new friends, I still prefer to communicate with a short number of people.

Well... Actually it was not what I wanted to say. In fact there are somethings I cannot say. I need to speak to someone most of the time, but I shouldn't... or maybe I couldn't... and maybe I never can. There are lots of things around me annoying but... It seems that it is the LIFE.

Dolmeh

2011-06-08T15:52:00.007+04:30

One of the most favorite food in Iran is Dolmeh. It's mainly made of the fresh and thin leaves of grape vine.

And since it's made of fresh leaves, it's available just in about one month a year. So maybe it's the main reason of it's popularity!

The recipe is mixed of ingredients which contain half-baked rice and split pea, fried minced meat and onion, vegetables, salt and spices. Then you may put a small amount of it into scalded leaves.

Wrap the leave by putting the edges of leave carefully on each other and try to secure it and put it in a pot. After you cove the pan with one layer of Dolmeh, put some greengages and a bit of sugar on it and then put the next layer with extra wrapped leaves.

At the end pour a glass of water and oil in the pan, and let it stew on a low heat for about an hour and half.

well, now Dolmeh is ready! Eat & enjoy. :)

A great unknown man

2011-06-04T00:04:00.003+04:30

Today is the anniversary of Imam Khomeini, the founder of Islamic Republic of Iran. A noble man who was supporter of poor and inspired people all over the world.

He has had an outstanding childhood that we generally do not know much about it. As a child, He was being very smart and calm and loved learning new things.

He used to spend long time every day thinking and pondering. He started to read political news since a very early teenage years.

His aunt and elder brother who supported him in religious sciences and politics, showed him the way that helped him to think in a higher level than his age.

Considering his biography, I think he started his great movement just when he was a child by pondering, learning and reacting against rich land lords who used to govern people's properties at the time and were treating the poor farmers totally in a cruel manner.

He is one of my favorite heroes whom I respect and try to follow.

Happy Nowruz!

2011-04-03T18:03:00.002+04:30

Nowruz is one of the greatest feasts in Iran. It is during the beginning of spring and the first day of spring is in fact the first day of the year in Iranian calendar.

We celebrate first 13 days of new year and pay a visit to almost whole family members, relatives & friends to congratulate new year and renew friendships.

The meetings first start with visiting elderly i.e grandparents; An effective tradition which links folks together.

The first 5 days are public holiday. For student, educational systems and most of private companies the whole 13 days are off.

One of the most amazing thing is the changes that happen in the nature within these days. When you are back to work/school after these two weeks, you can find so many changes in the nature. The lifeless trees and plants grow green and you can see buds and blooms everywhere. I love this shifting character of nature.

Vitality and vibrance are spread in both the human life and nature and you can completely feel the freshness and passion in everyone to once again start a new year.

You can read more here about Nowruz.

Iran supreme leader's Nowruz Message

Iran president's Nowruz message

Going to Be Wiser

2010-10-29T13:16:00.005+03:30

To be kind is not enough. In order to be useful you need to be wise too.

I really don't know why I repeated the previous mistake. I should not rely on my friends. It's really comforting to have a reliable one to confabulate, but it makes you awfully weak, specially when you are enduring somehow similar pains.

Every time I rely on a friend in my problems, I become very breakable and sensitive. Whenever I do this, I break down.

I should set up my relationship with my friends. I need to make my private space much wider. Nobody won't enter in. I should manage by own.

And I know that I can. All the time that I've been alone to resolve my problem, I've handled relatively well! I've found out that I always know the best solution better than the others. But I don't know why I do not count on myself sometimes.

In some situations, I stupidly try to put my own mind down. My mind warns me that my friend's concern and sympathetic and even their offers is not true, but I don't care at all. And then my problem goes to be worse and worse, and I become weaker and weaker!

Yes! I should manage my self on my own. I can manage my emotions wisely. I would let my heart get heavy, grieve or even cry, but I won't let it control me!

It isn't the first time I'm testing myself. Every time, I count on myself and do not speak about my problem to anyone, I think far more better and get off the hook very soon!

In some issues, I'm really the only one who can help myself.

A Bud

2010-10-26T05:44:00.010+03:30

I was little free and wondering what I can do.

It was a good idea to update my blog!

The good point to say is that today I was really talkative in my morning class.

The lesson was about inventions and I knew enough about one of these inventions: World Wide Web!

During the class I spoke a piece about Internet usage, surfing the webs, social network services specially Facebook and Friendfeed, also about the cyber army and Iranian hackers. Further about how to find subtitles of the movies in order to help the movie freaks in the class!

I found myself much better than before in speaking. But I think I'm really weak in speaking yet and I need to speak more. I still forget some words whenever I start speaking.

Fortunately I have a good relationship with my classmates and they ask me their questions as the best classmate. After all I got the best score at the midterm exam! ;)

My Teacher showed her satisfaction of my writing these way: "It was very good. Very good"!

And I know that this blog really helps me to write in correct way and learning some new words and remembering the words I've used here easily.

The above passage was written on Monday. And yesterday, when I was chatting a friend in English, I made lots of mistakes! Somehow a disaster! :D

But actually I think It was not that bad at least for early chats.

I'm really eager to learn much faster than now. I wish I had a good partner to workout...

New Day

2010-10-03T06:55:00.007+03:30

Guess what?!

I love the paragraphs starting with "Guess what?". It's full of energy. Isn't it?

Remember when I wrote I'm tired of doing nothing and how boring the life is and so on? It was almost a month ago. And now I don't have even time to do homework of my classes!

I think after years I finally got the job I'm really interested in. Of course I loved most of careers I've ever had, but this is an exception!

It's a job which deals with teenagers, beside the lovely and believer coworkers, lots of creativity and things to learn, with a strong cultural and educational base, and the most important part is a very skilled and experienced interior manager.

Thursday I had a difficult interview with the general manager and the interior manager who was the one recommended me to them. And yesterday I started my work.

My position is something like the expert of cultural and social affairs. It needs lots of thoughts, creativity, providence, study, search and far too energy and of course patience.

Oh! How anxious I am! What if I can't manage the tasks? What if the workspace would not be what I had thought? ...

Hey! Why am I not concerned about them not be pleased with my work? :D Good point, eh? At least I'm so confident about myself!

Anyhow for a while, I will work with the expert manager whom I'm really admiring. This is a great chance to learn many things from his experience and rich information, and to grow my moral and professional qualities.

Oh God! Help me, Please! Help me to adjust my classes, my works and my personal life and to do my best!

New Changes

2010-09-23T13:33:00.005+03:30

There are some changes which are going to happen in my life.

Recently, I've decided to do things which fortunately God made me to find the best way to achieve them, ways that had never crossed my mind.

Of course that's what I see now, hopefully it will be all well upto end.

In Need of Change

2010-09-08T23:21:00.005+04:30

I feel too tired of doing nothing special!

I'm so bored that I can't even prepare my dissertation.

I was thinking how much it would be excellent if I went abroad for a few months. I really need to change whole my environment.

I'm in need of visiting new people.

But it's clear that I can't…

Cracked

2010-08-31T17:02:00.009+04:30

I'm wondering

when

I'll be

lively

and

cheery

again?

Next English Teacher

2010-08-29T00:32:00.008+04:30

It's time to tell you about my second English teacher.

She was a Pakistani cute girl named Faezah and we were calling her Aunt; "Khale Faezeh". She was majoring in medicine and lived with her mother and brother. Her father had passed away long ago.

She was very kind and we really loved her.

We were living upstairs and to learn English we had to go downstairs to their house.

Sometimes she would get help from English-Urdu dictionary to tell us meaning of the words. Because Urdu shares some words with Persian.

We also loved her mother (we used to call her Madar) and her brother named Mr.Ziad. He got married when we were living there, while she was single yet.

Actually she was not just my English teacher, she was also my good friend. I have lots of memories with her. She taught me the musical notes. She had a spinet and she taught me a very short opus in order to help me to memorize the notes. That was it: do re mi, re mi fa, mi fa mi fa, sol sol, sol la si la.

I don't know where she is and what she is doing now. Sometimes I really miss them.

Spiritual Trip

2010-07-29T01:19:00.003+04:30

It's an unbelievable incident… I'm going to Mecca.

Saturday my family and I are going to perform Umrah, Inshallah.

Since it's near Ramadan, our trip is 16 days; 6 days in Medina and 10 days in Mecca. So we'll be able to fast almost 4 days of Ramadan in Mecca.

I can't believe it! It's the best present ever from God… It's too big for me!

I hope I'll get the best out of this spiritual trip.

Elma

2010-07-25T01:03:00.005+04:30

I was taught English since I was 9 years old.

My first English teacher was a Canadian woman named Elma. She was a nice woman with two children and a Pakistani husband we called him Mr.Muzaffar.

She had been converted to Muslim. They named their son Basit, and their daughter Noora.

I remember her blond pigtail-style hair and her especial delightful perfume. Also I remember that her house was always clean and full of light.

Although their children were little yet, they'd learnt to speak in 8 various foreign languages. Mr.Muzaffar and Elma each knew some foreign languages which they had taught them to children.

She was also teaching my brother, my father and slightly my mother besides me.

They used to live in our neighborhood and when after a year we moved from there, we had to change our teacher. (I'll tell you about my second English teacher later.)

Unfortunately I don't have any photo of them except the images I have in my mind.