Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life

It is a Beautiful world

2011-02-08T08:47:00.002-05:00

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember the peace that can exist in silence.

Without surrender, as far as possible on good terms with all persons. Tell your truth quietly and clearly. Listen to others, even the simple-minded and ignorant, they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are

vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, there are always bigger and smaller than you. Enjoy your achievements as well as your accomplishments. Do not be blind with regard virtue there.

Be yourself.

Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love not because it is in front of any disenchantment, as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years and gracefully surrendering your youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. You have the right to be here. And if it is clear to you or not, the universe is unfolding as it probably should. Whatever your work and your dreams are, keep in the noisy distress of life, peace in your yard. With all its sham and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Try to be happy.

2011-01-26T09:59:00.000-05:00

Stability Ball Hamstring Curls

Start: Lie floor with your hands by your side.
Place the stability ball under your heels with your legs fully extended. Your butt should be touching the floor.
Begin the motion: Draw in your core. Pull the ball towards your body with your heels and raise your hips up towards the ceiling in one continuous motion.
The top of the motion your hips should be as high as possible while you maintain a neutral spine (no arch).
n one continuous motion, lower yourself back to the original position. You also have the option to plantar flex (push your toes in ball for calf raise) your toes into the ball.
Modifications: Change hand positions and / or use 1 foot at a time to increase the difficulty of the stability ball hamstring curl. This increases difficulty for these stability ball exercises because more stabilization or strength is needed.

Elevated Split Squats

Elevated split squats or stationary lunges are versatile exercise which you can use as one of the best hamstring exercises.
Start: Put your front foot up on an elevated surface. Position your knee so the middle of the knee joint is right on top of your ankle. Hold a pair of dumbbells in the low or high hang position.
Scoot your back foot back until your can create around a 90 degree angle with your back leg to match your front leg. The balls of your back foot should be on the floor. Draw in your core and keep your shoulders retracted.
Begin the motion: Slowly lower your torso straight down towards the floor. Your upper body should remain upright with a neutral back.
Since you are trying to make these the best hamstring exercises, your front knee can slide forward slightly. When your back knee approaches the floor pause for a second and lunge back up to the top position. Try to squeeze your hamstrings.
Modifications: A controlled unstable surface for your front foot will make these best hamstrings exercises more difficult. A BOSU ball would be a good choice. These are also an excellent exercise to use in combination with upper body exercises such as shoulder presses or biceps curls.

Best Hamstring Exercises

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Here are Some of the Best Hamstring Exercises which use Multiple Joints

Romanian Dead Lifts

The RDL or Romanian Dead Lift is one of the best hamstring exercises even though the hamstrings are not contracting.
For the many people with tight hamstrings, the RDL is the best exercise to help correct that muscle imbalance which could lead to posture problems. Form is crucial so make sure you get it right.
Start: You can either have a loaded barbell or dumbbells on the floor or in a low hang position. Keep your legs in a slightly bent position for the duration of the movement.
It is essential to have your shoulders stabilized in a retracted (together in back) position for the duration of the movement as well.
Begin the motion: It is essential to have a super tight drawn in core as you begin this motion. Stick your butt backwards lowering the bar or dumbbells as close too your body as possible.

Only lower the bar to where you can keep the strict form. Raise the weight back up, at the top of the motion it is very important you retract your shoulder blades (squeeze them together) and contract your glutes.

The benefits of Kundalini Yoga

2011-01-21T12:26:00.005-05:00

Kundalinin Yoga

AHHHH!!!!!

I can't describe the energy I have today!!

Try it it's worth every breath, it's your life, your happiness, you health, your energy!

It is the revelation of the true YOU :)

The system of exercises and meditations of Kundalini Yoga claims to provide extensive benefits for personal spiritual growth as well as improving mental and physical well-being. Believers claim that the physiological benefits cover a wide spectrum of ailments, including healing treatments for memory problems, asthma, diabetes, pain, stress-related diseases, rehabilitating addictive behavior, and treating mental disorders.

According to some traditions Kundalini techniques are only communicated from master to disciple once the disciple is deemed ready In these cases, yogic masters believe that in ascetic settings ignorance or refusal to follow instructions of a master can lead to harmful effects, However, in a few instances teachers from India encouraged students to update and spread the teachings to the West, thereby putting doubt to this claim.

Sovatsky, a scholar of Yoga associated with transpersonal psychology, adapts a developmental and evolutionary perspective in his interpretation of Kundalini Yoga. That is, he interprets Kundalini Yoga as a catalyst for psycho-spiritual growth and bodily maturation. According to this interpretation of yoga,the body bows itself into greater maturation [...], none of which should be considered mere stretching exercises.

Medical research

Venkatesh et al. studied twelve kundalini (chakra) meditators, using the Phenomenology of Consciousness Inventory. They found that the practice of meditation "appears to produce structural as well as intensity changes in phenomenological experiences of consciousness".

Preliminary research on the effects of a Kundalini Yoga meditation taught by Yogi Bhajan known as Kirtan Kriya on retrieving memory and cognitive functions have been encouraging. Limitations of this research can be addressed in future studies with more
Manocha et al. used temperature readings to verify that coolness experienced on the palms of the hands resulted from the Sahaja Yoga technique of kundalini meditation.

detailed analyses.

Why do men fall in love with ugly women?

2011-01-20T16:39:00.002-05:00

You may be familiar with this situation:A very attractive man finds himself with a woman who has obviously no quality. Considered selfish and not really appreciated especially by other women.
In addition, this "witch" is not even really pretty.Oddly, this kind of woman is often successful in winning the man of their dreams. It even happens that men leave women and children for this kind of woman.Nobody seems to understand what happens in the mind of men.Why do men chase women who clearly are NOT nice, helpful and considerate?
Dear female friends,
In recent years, I wondered why we men fall in love with women who obviously care more for themselves than others,
when we forsake women often "nice" because we find them too "boring."It is often said the nice girls go to heaven and the wicked go where they want.But what does that really mean?The bad guys have different qualities that have extremely attractive to men. It's not that we find appealing the negative side, namely their self-centeredness or selfishness, but these women have a quality that is losing sight of the downside.The attraction that causes this kind of woman is not a decision taken by a man. The feelings just appear in men without voluntary action on their part. We find a similar phenomenon in women attracted to men "inaccessible".When you're attracted to someone, it is unclear why very often ...The qualities present in these women "bad" that make a man feel attracted so magnetic that it almost like it or not are: Their unpredictability, their uncontrollability, the challenge, the game with their own ego.The man in question does not really know what the woman thinks of him, what she feels for him.Strange as it may seem, is precisely what men find attractive, especially in the discovery phase.The problem is that the story is quite contrary to the character of most women think only of themselves. I do not want to suggest you transform yourself into a praying mantis and you do not behave as selfish and arrogant manner toward men or use them to achieve your goals.However, during my research, I constantly asked the same question:is there not a way to be nice and helpful woman who wants to support her husband and still have all her love and attention?(You'll note the irony underlying ...) This means there ...But you notice that a dilemma that lies behind this phenomenon. This is crucial, it is that what makes "bad" attractive women perform this magical attraction on men and that makes them leave a nice, loving woman, especially that these women know what they want!
They do not ask if they are the most beautiful, if a man cease to love them because they have not done this or that. They just take what they want. That's it!!
In fact, this kind of woman is not very popular. But they often recover very nice type with all women covet the attention ...Incredible, isn't it?The secret mechanism behind this case is very simple:Type "I-know-what-I-want" has a huge potential for attraction to men.Men love when they can not control a woman.Men love a woman does make her own way.

WHAT YOU WANT:
Embed this behavior to your personality and you will be amazed at how people (yours too) react!JUST DO WHAT YOU WANT!Stop and ask if you do not mind someone else.Best of all this is that you'll be doubly pleased. This will make your man love you (automatically) and you can do whatever you want from now!By having this, you wake up feeling primarily in men: curiosity. They want to know exactly who you are ... LOVE IS MADE TO THREE QUARTERS OF CURIOSITY - (Giacomo Girolamo Casanova)

Sincerely, Christian Saint-Andre

Book of the day!

2011-01-20T10:53:00.002-05:00

Read it!!!! it's amazing!!!
Religious Science, also known as Science of Mind, was founded in 1927 by Ernest Holmes (1887–1960) and is a spiritual, philosophical and metaphysical religious movement within the New Thought movement. In general, the term "Science of Mind" applies to the teachings, while the term "Religious Science" applies to the organizations. However, adherents often use the terms interchangeably. Ernest Holmes stated "Religious Science is a correlation of laws of science, opinions of philosophy, and revelations of religion applied to human needs and the aspirations of man." He also stated that Religious Science/Science of Mind (RS/SOM) is not based on any "authority" of established beliefs, but rather on "what it can accomplish" for the people who practice it.

Core concepts

According to The Science of Mind, the ten core concepts of RS/SOM (as taught in the "Foundations of Science of Mind" class) are:^[22]

There is One Cosmic Reality Principle and Presence in the Universe — commonly called "God". All creation originates in this One Source.EXPLANATION: God is not one thing, but rather is an Energy Source or Infinite Intelligence present in everything in the Cosmos (i.e. everything seen and unseen in this and all other parallel dimensions of the Universe).
God is threefold (triune) in nature, having three aspects or modes of being within the One: Spirit, Soul and Body. This is God seen as the Universal Macrocosm. EXPLANATION: The term "Universal Macrocosm" is another term for all dimensions of the Universe.
Spirit is the great Causative Power of the Universe. The Word, or thought, of God eternally initiates the Divine Creative Process. In this process, Law is continuously set in motion to create, from the Unformed Substance, innumerable forms which follow the thought-patterns of Spirit. EXPLANATION: God consciously initiates creation with thought and thereby forms all things from unformed substance by using Its "Soul" (i.e. the impersonal Law of Cause and Effect — that is "What you sow is what you reap." See further explanation in the second paragraph of this "Teachings and Practices" Section. Since God is in everything (see #1), humans include God; and humans can use that God-energy to create, on the human level.
In the Infinite Nature of God, all conceivable Good is eternally available, ready to flow into human experience. Through some cosmic Process, this flow of Good is activated and/or increased by human belief, faith, and acceptance. The expression of this essential belief, faith, and acceptance is prayer.EXPLANATION: "Prayer" is "Spiritual Mind Treatment" (see third paragraph of this section, above). This is the main Religious Science technique to tap into God (defined in #1 as "present in everything" — i.e. Its "Infinite Nature") to create all the good we desire on the human level, analogous to God creating on the Universe level (see #3). This requires faith in the knowledge that the technique is working right now.
This is a Universe of Wholeness, Allness, Oneness. Spirit is a transcendent, perfect Wholeness that, in Its infinite inclusivity, harmoniously embraces all seeming opposites. EXPLANATION: Since God is present throughout the Universe these are some of the attributes of God.
This is a Universe of infinite abundance, spiritual, mental, and physical. This Bounty of Spirit, this Allness of Good, is limitless and can never be depleted. EXPLANATION: These are some more of the attributes of God.
This is a reciprocal Universe. For every visible form, there is an invisible counterpart. Everything in nature tends to equalize itself, to keep its balance true. EXPLANATION: This is the Law of Cause and Effect (See further explanation in the second paragraph of this "Teachings and Practices" Section).
The Universe exists in the Eternal Now, each moment complete and perfect within itself. In this Universal Harmony, justice without judgment is always automatic, an infallible Universal Principle. There can be no place for Divine anger, unforgiveness, or punishment. EXPLANATION: God's and human's thoughts, actions, and manifestations can only occur in the present. The Law of Cause and Effect is always working. We make our "Heaven and Hell" experiences every moment in the present, with the choices we make. To the extent that mankind achieves the Divine attributes, it evolves into God's attributes.
Immortality is a Universal Principle, not a "belief' or a bargain made with the Universe for good behavior. God knows only Life, its eternal continuity, evolution, and expansion. EXPLANATION: Religious Scientists know (rather than believe) that life evolves in this as well as all other dimensions, even after our souls make their transition into those dimensions. In this case, the term "Universal" means "no exceptions."
The mystic concept of the Cosmic Christ is not that of a person, but of a Principle, a Universal Presence ... the Universal Image of God present in all creation ... the "pattern that connects." EXPLANATION: The term "Cosmic Christ" here is a metaphor for that God-like consciousness that was and is present in all the Prophets and other enlightened people who have and are using this Principle to assist in the positive evolution of mankind, society, and/or their own personal lives. "Christ" was not Jesus' last name, but rather a title for an enlightened person, or "anointed one" that was created and given to him before the 12th century A.D.^[23] Early Hebrew kings were given the title "Christ."

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: Book of the day!

2011-01-20T10:53:00.001-05:00

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: Book of the day!: "Read it!!!! it's amazing!!! Religious Science, also known as Science of Mind, was founded in 1927 by Ernest Holmes (1887–1960..."

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: The secret of Happiness

2011-01-20T09:54:00.000-05:00

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: The secret of Happiness: "Many of us are starting a new lifestyle or reinforcing the progress that we have made. Lots of uncertainty mixed with doubt and maybe a litt..."

The secret of Happiness

2011-01-20T09:53:00.001-05:00

Many of us are starting a new lifestyle or reinforcing the progress that we have made. Lots of uncertainty mixed with doubt and maybe a little fear. So maybe a couple of tips that have helped me make some of my changes permanent (if 5 years can be considered permanent).

1. Believe in yourself - it is your journey and you must make it successful.

2. Lean on and allow others to support you. Tell people what you are doing - it helps you commit to this new course of action. People want you to be healthier and will generally support you - some people will not support you - find someone who will. As you make progress you may influence others around you to live a healthier lifestyle as well.

3. Make moderate but continuing change in your lifestyle - work to improve a little every day.

4. Stay away from problem areas - get out of the house, stay out of the office break room.

5. Be more active, take the steps, park further away, walk outside, walk at a mall. Walking is low impact on joints but has significant health benefits. Move a little more each day. Replace eating or drinking temptations, or sitting for long period of times with activity. You notice I did not use the work exercise - it can be a scary word - start with activity - exercise will follow - and it won't be scary.

6. Be patient - really - I mean it - this takes time - you are changing habits you have used for a long time - you can change them - but it will take time. Stick to your plan. There will be hiccups, bumps and bruises along the way - it is okay! Don't give up when you fall down - minimize the damage and get back to your improved self. Just keep up with the good work

BREATHE IT, HAPPINESS IS INSIDE OF YOU

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: Robert Plant in concert in NY

2011-01-19T16:40:00.000-05:00

Chocolate Hena - Cherish the gift of life: Robert Plant in concert in NY: "Robert Plant & The Band of JoyBeacon TheatreNew York, NYSat, Jan 29, 2011 08:00 PM Get your tickets now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..."

Enjoy Reading

2011-01-19T16:23:00.002-05:00

This is one the best invention of the 21st century!!
I'll never leave with out it!! it's light it fits and it's great to have few books with me and not to carry the weight.
If you're planing a trip, vacation or just if you're a commuter like me this is one MUST buy!! Enjoy Reading :)

Robert Plant in concert in NY

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Robert Plant & The Band of Joy
Beacon Theatre

New York, NY

Sat, Jan 29, 2011 08:00 PM

Get your tickets now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Energy in few minutes

2011-01-18T13:50:00.001-05:00

YOGA MOVES FOR A PICK-ME-UP

Put down the coffee and forget the power nap. These poses will get you more energy

Studies show that some yoga poses reduce fatigue and adjust the hormone cortisol—too little of which can zap your energy. "This sequence engages your core and energizes your system from the inside out," says Women's Health yoga expert Tara Stiles. The poses also require balance, which sharpens your focus, as well as lots of deep breaths, which increase your oxygen intake to help you feel more alert.

Do each of these moves in order, holding the poses for 10 deep breaths. Repeat the sequence on the other side, and continue alternating until you've done the routine three times on each side.

Move 1: Modified Down-Dog Split

Start in a pushup position, lift your hips, and move into downwardfacing dog. Take five breaths. Raise your right heel toward the ceiling as high as you can, then slowly lower your left forearm to the floor. Keep both palms flat on the floor.

Move 2: Warrior 3

Straighten your left arm and put your right foot between your hands. Shift your weight onto your right foot as you raise your left leg. At the same time, raise your torso until it is parallel to the floor and reach your arms forward.

Move 3: Modified Half-Moon Arch

Place hands on the floor beneath your shoulders. Rotate your hips to the left and raise your left arm toward the ceiling. Bend your left knee back, and reach your left hand behind you to hold your foot.

Move 4: Tree

From half-moon arch, turn your hips and shoulders back toward the floor, then use your core muscles to roll your body up to standing. Place the sole of your left foot on your right inner thigh. Lift your arms straight up above your shoulders

Raja Yoga Meditation

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Daily mental exercises. The act of Raja Yoga meditation for at least 15 minutes in the early morning will have a positive effect during the entire day.

Upon waking have the thought; I am a peaceful soul, my aim today is to radiate peace to every person that I come into contact with.

These meditations have been taken from the knowledge as taught by the Brahma Kumaris Raja Yoga meditation organization. The organization is unique because the main administrators are women.

Raja Yoga meditation

Try to experience the stillness of mind of being a peaceful soul as other thoughts emerge in the mind do not judge or focus on them but repeat ............

I am a peaceful soul .............
I am a peaceful soul ............
My mind is filled with peace ..............
I radiate peace to the world ...............
I feel the gentle waves of peace flowing across my mind ...........
As these peaceful thoughts emerge in my mind I feel the stillness and silence envelopes my mind .................
I am the peaceful soul ......
I am a peaceful loving soul ............
My mind feels light and free from worries ...........
I realize my real nature is peace ..........
Peaceful thoughts flow through the mind and I feel the self becoming light ......................
I am a being of light shining like a star .......................
I radiate peace and light to the world ......................
The light and peace envelopes me and the waves of peace and light shine like a lighthouse.............................................
This is the wonderful journey of self discovery.

Raja Yoga Meditation philosophy

The basis for attaining an experience in raja yoga meditation in to understand the self and the mind. The human mind is the most creative, powerful and wonderful "instrument" we possess. Using this energy called mind we have been able to search the deepest oceans, send humans to the moon and scan the molecular fabric of the building blocks of nature. But have we found our true self? We have become the most educated and civilized society in our history, but are we civil towards each other?

The soul has three main faculties; the mind or consciousness, the intellect and the subconscious.

Thoughts flow from the sub conscious mind to the conscious mind. Feelings and emotions form in accordance with the montage of thoughts flowing in the mind. Therefore our state of mind at any given moment is determined by the thoughts in our consciousness, and also with the feelings that we associate with those thoughts. Since our sub consciousness contains all our previous thoughts and experiences, it is necessary to selectively control the flow of thoughts that emerges from the sub conscious mind.

The intellect is the controller which is used to discriminate so that only positive and benevolent thoughts flow into our mind. With meditation or deep contemplation, the individual is able to strengthen and sharpen the intellect. The end result is a constant state of well being. If we are able to understand the self as the source of energy that creates our feelings, then the following will become our aims.

Become aware of our state of mind and of the thoughts that flows into the mind from our subconscious.
Strengthen the intellect so that the individual can discriminate and thereby only allow positive and peaceful thoughts to flow into the mind.
Through this process of self development the individual develops more control over the mind.

These meditations have been taken from the knowledge as taught by the Brahma Kumaris Raja Yoga meditation organization. Raja Yoga meditation organization

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The benefits of meditation are endless. It has been known to help with anxiety, depression, lower blood pressure and so much more. New studies have recently come out stating that meditation can actually change neural pathways in your brain, making it healthier!

Pure Light can help you learn to meditate and lead you through some visualizations that will help your overall attitude and outlook on life.

Clear your mind

2011-01-17T11:37:00.002-05:00

If we were to wipe all thoughts and clear all air from our lungs wouldn't it be wonderful to start a day with a new breath and mind set?

Well then let's do it!!

15 minutes meditation in the morning will guide you all day long, will keep you away from negative thoughts, misconception of situations and will lead you towards what's real around you. It will mirror your positive energy to people in your atmosphere.

Be the magnet for good, be the ray of sunshine in your life to your family, children and friends, be the one people want to be around :)

Clear your mind

The power in me

2011-01-10T15:03:00.002-05:00

I was a great dreamer :)...
I hit bottom many times...I got up every time don't ask how??
I know though one thing today:
It's then and in my paralyzing weakness I found my strength, my peace and my freedom.
I am strong because I whole.
I am peaceful because I accept
I am free because I love

History, Art & Pride

2011-01-10T14:45:00.001-05:00

CAIRO— Zahi Hawass, the ubiquitous, media-savvy Egyptian antiquities director whose blockbuster King Tut exhibition just finished its United States tour over the weekend, cannot be accused of resting on his laurels. After having convinced theMetropolitan Museum of Art to return 19 small artifacts that he said were taken illegally from Egypt, he's now turning his sights to bigger game in the museum's backyard — Cleopatra's Needle, the 3,500-year-old obelisk that resides next to the Met in Central Park, and which Hawass now accuses the Parks Department of failing to properly maintain.

Despite its moniker, the obelisk was not built under the famous Egyptian queen's reign, but by her predecessor of a century and a half, Thutmose III, around 1450 B.C. Its provenance is not in question — the Egyptian Khedive (or viceroy) gave it as a gift to New York City in 1877, and it was erected near the newly-established museum in 1881. But Hawass claims that the city has allowed the monument's hieroglyphics to deteriorate, LiveScience reported.

"I have a duty to protect all Egyptian monuments whether they are inside or outside of Egypt," the antiquities chief stated in a letter to Mayor Bloomberg and the president of the Central Park Conservancy (it's also posted on Hawass's blog). "If the Central Park Conservancy and the City of New York cannot properly care for this obelisk, I will take the necessary steps to bring this precious artifact home and save it from ruin." Hawass does not make any recommendations in his letter for better preservation of the ancient artifact.

Jonathan Kuhn, director of art and antiquities for the Parks Department, told local blog DNAinfo that in the 1980s a Met study found that the granite of the obelisk was "largely inert and that damage to its inscriptions on two sides, as well as the base of the monument, occurred at identifiable moments in the distant past, prior to the 20th century." In a statement, Kuhn also stated that parks officials "have been working in recent years with the Metropolitan Museum and the Central Park Conservancy to further analyze the condition of the obelisk and monitor its condition. There is no evidence at this point of any significant ongoing erosion."

An entry on Central Park in the U.S. Geological Survey, however, has a dramatically different assessment. "Photographs taken near the time the obelisk was erected in the park show that the inscriptions were still quite legible," it states. "The stone had lain in the Egyptian desert for nearly 3,000 years but undergone little weathering. In a little more than a century in the climate of New York City, pollution and acid rain have heavily pitted its surfaces."

Famous for turning antiquities issues into charged political stand-offs regarding Egyptian patrimony, Hawass has a wish list of artifacts that he would like to see repatriated to his country, including theRosetta Stone in the British Museum. Meanwhile, although 11 officials have been sentenced to jail time for negligence, the theft of a Vincent van Gogh painting valued at over $50 million from Cairo'sMahmoud Khalil Museum in August remains unsolved.

Lables

2011-01-08T12:20:00.001-05:00

Why labeling a simple get together a date? Who needs to know? it just bothers me!
Should we call it even "our first date"? The first of a series?? Are we already scheduling our future?
Puff!! non-sense!! I'm already headed the other way running from so many uncertainties wasting my precious time! Deep irrational and not intelligent functioning!!
Just let's not call it anything!!
Let's just keep it to it's original pure and adequate sense:
Tow people enjoying the same interest and interacting together.
Leave it to "Madame la Providence", leave it to whatever happens...
Let me tell you something else, if you just let go of the expectations, the fantasy world, and your fears, you'll discover a whole different world!! The REAL one :)! the one we live in. Don't just go covering the truth with layers of what if"s. Let's just be independent and discover. there's so much into discovering the new, much more enriching and rewarding.
Don't label, just leave it alone. Let each moment be born with its own special character. Discover the beauty of each moment as it comes to you. Embrace it and let it take you away to wonderland
Live everyday to it's best and make each moment of it joyable and fresh, green grass and daisies :)...

Just cherish this short moment, leave your baggage where it belongs and enjoy the presence of a male friend to its best ;)

The truth

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The interdependence of all mateiral, thoughts, and actions are the ingredients for a life situation.
Don't try to focus on who to blame, it's a waist...
Better use use positive energy on working for better times, making a better world.
Acceptance!
Accepting ourselves and each-other for who we are is a good start!
We're not forced to be with one another, we're not forced to be or to act in any shape or way that doesn't pleases us; or love people we don't wish to worship.
We have power on our mind and body so let's be selective surrounding ourselves only with the things we like and people we love.
Let's leave out all the bad energy far away for who ever it suits

Sense of logic

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Speak your mind always!
The one who cares will listen, challenge, share opinion, might try to convince or to control your thoughts, but the one who listens with care will hear your pain, your fear, your pulse, your breath first and will only share if you allow them.

When Enough is Enough?

2011-01-07T15:21:00.013-05:00

When do you start saying NO!
STOP!!! Enough is Enough!

When is it OK to compromise? And when is it OK to sacrifice?

Why shouldn't be all balanced at all time? They say communicate, but how to communicate if one is deaf to the speech, weeps and pain?

"Insensitive!!!"

Is he? really? how to believe? is he really this man I loved so much!! Is he capable of such great hurt...

I'm not sure?! confused for months, out of balance...shaky.....It was alienating!

I heard him many times accusing me of being the predator of our fights: " you're abusive! you abuse me! you hurt me!"screaming at me, and this is when the worst would come out of him! he would attack me verbally saying to most horrible down words possible, destroying any self confidence, or joy in me...

I frankly found his behavior very disturbing and totally irrational!! trying to control the situation, manipulating me, making me feel guilty because I refused his mean and hurtful comments. I would spend hours, days thinking about it doubting myself as a woman, a professional, a mom, a human being. He would attack any little side in me to just extinguish all life in it!! It was suffocating, it created a panic status and several panic attacks. I couldn't breath, there was a powerful energy inside of me repelling all of this refusing it, the greave over such destruction of our beautiful life, the chance that we had for being happy together. We actually had everything we needed, love, health, money, a future I thought, and he was killing it!!
All of these recurrent horrible and cruel words were meant to hurt me purposely, to make me weak to control my emotions. He just felt stronger! the more he would put me down, the more he would feel in control! I think he took pleasure seeing me weak so he could control me better. I felt raped every day till I got used to it... I got used to the rape of my soul... How cruel is this...
He was continuously destroying me and making my life a living hell everyday now, not caring how much my health was deteriorating. I had hot flashes as if someone had poured hot oil on me from head to toe, I had cold sweat attacks, followed by panic attacks, developing cholesterol, ulcer, and just general weakness in my muscles. I follow a strong martial art training which kept me going, Thank God!! it was my only way out!!!
I just kept going, keeping up with my only escapade from my misery, my workout!
The truth is always hard to see from the inside and and even more to accept!
Weaker and weaker everyday, I didn't have the energy to fight back anymore, I got used to the abuse and lived for other things disregarding the dis-functionality of my couple!
I hid it from my friends, my family and even from myself!
The worse part is that we were not alone, we were three, my daughter Amelia (12 y, from previous marriage)

lived with us and heard most of the fights... The tension he would create in the household would terrorize us. We lived in fear. He could just erupt as a volcano at anytime and ruin any simple pleasurable moment. For example we would be having the most common time, like watching a family movie on a sunday night, we were not allowed to move or speak or use the bathroom while the movie was on. He would just snap!! and stop the movie, making us feel bad as if we did something really wrong and ruined the moment!! to him he was never the predator of negative energy, but we were!!! There was absolutely no way he could relate to the fact that he's terrorizing us!! for him we were the ones disturbing the movie from running!
I tried many time to speak my mind calmly, with reason, asked friends and family to transmit the message of peace. There was NO way for him to understand. He would get even more aggravated...The situation was from bad to worse.
The emotional abuse he would use against us was intolerable, I had to do something!!

At first my thoughts were for my daughter Amelia (12 years old) I've raised with love and care, to whom I've taught kindness respect and three languages (I'm so proud of her :)!). He was destroying everything we've had:
each other!
She started resenting me and feeling always stressed from coming back home...I felt the threat and the fear of losing her...

We had lived all together for 4 years. I've had two years where i compromised all I had worked for before I met him, and for two more I've sacrificed myself and almost my daughter's sake!
But why? Why did I go so wrong???

Well because I was just too afraid to let go! I was too proud, I was afraid from solitude and the feeling of ffailure, disappointment. I would rather live in terror than lonely and miserable was my reasoning then.

I was SOOOO Wrong!!!

I just couldn't find the strength I needed to get out of there, till we've both as a couple destroyed everything we had, the love, the respect for each other and almost a child's future.
Why?? did I stay for so long?? why was I so attached to this destroying relationship! what was there I loved so much! why do I still have those feelings for him, how can I still love a monster?

I just didn't believe I could be happy alone. Just didn't believe in ME!
I've pulled all what was left in me of courage and I've asked him to leave!
(...)
Painfully he left 3 months ago.
At first I couldn't manage my thoughts I was even more scared and confused! I needed to be convinced, even with all the painful time we had I still emotionally wasn't convinced I was doing the right thing. But everyday when my daughter would come back from school her smile would change my vision. At night we would cook dinner together and enjoy our time without the fear of being rejected or yelled at. We were in peace, finally a normal dinner :)!
The humming bird was there for 3 months. I kept asking myself the same questions, beating my-self up everyday over and over and over again, trying to remember, to understand -
I needed to know I wouldn't repeat the same mistakes again! I thought if I could find the source of the failure I'd be certain to avoid it.
How?

Isn't it by trying to understand, analyzing, pealing layers, digging deeper, writing a journal, keeping track is the way? Go back to it and repeating the process, keep doing the same thing again, and again and again...till infinity, till we understand..."l'histoire de l'homme se repete" (history repeats itself)
Then one day I just got bored...I found myself just redundant....So I've made the decision to move on!!!!
I've decided to stop!!
"Come on, repeat after me: S-T-O-P"!!

I've stopped beating myself up in analyzing my mistakes because I know what they are now!! I still don't know what made me make them, frankly I don't need to know anymore!! I just need to know I'm capable of recognizing my weaknesses and faults in me I need to adjust. I am who I am, I just need to accept myself and my mistakes.
Today I'm piling all of them in one sack, tagging it the sack of shit!!
Leave it to dry itself up while I'm having fun starting a new life :)!
I won't let my mistakes dry me up while trying to find the mystery behind!! (Pufff!)

I'm free, accepting my faults and who I am this is my biggest reward.
I am confident I've done the best for myself today, I've learned a lesson.

Speak your fears your pains your sorrows and never hide your joy!!

I've decided to go on towards only what I like and totally reject what I don't like, no more!
Enough is Enough!

We are human and we have a brain, what's the point in digging if what we're looking for is part of what we'll never find? for God's sake we have a brain that barely functions, take it easy on yourselves!

I've decided to leave the unknown for the unknown and just listen to my body.

I want to only listen to my heart, to the beat of each pulse, to my breath, to my laughs and my weeps too.

Yes I will hurt again and I will love again because this is who I am: HUMAN

I will never compromise nor sacrifice, I will communicate only to the one who listens.

Yes you should speak your mind always, who cares will listen, challenge, share opinion, might try to convince or to control your thoughts, but the one who listens with care will hear your pain, your fear, your pulse, your breath first and will only share if you allow them.

I can move on now because I WANT TO!

I love my daughter, I love my friends and my family. I want to be happy for them and for me :) too.

So I'm here, with a smile on my face taking it day by day, loving my time, cherishing each moment, and expecting nothing but the same for everyday: PEACE & LOVE

to our daughters and sons