clicheisokay

my twins are tortured!

2012-02-13T15:31:00.000-08:00

it's not a fairy tale

2012-01-15T23:18:00.000-08:00

just read my previous posts. how angry i was!gosh, i should 've known.but well it would be a lie if i say i am completely recovered now.but i would say i'm getting much better.much much better. 3 months ago, i even considered to go to psychiatrist. well i guess when problems revolve around your own family, it will be quite helpless. because you love them deeply.because love can be bitch. because everyone is so ego to leave their shoes and walk in others'. because you can't even close your eyes for a second and figure things out.

i don't know if one day i could shout these things out quite clearly.i don't want anyone to get hurt.but i don't want me to get hurt either! though i'm bleeding now.

that chapter ends now!

2011-12-28T20:17:00.000-08:00

it's time for another chapter.

time to wake up

well

might be hard

but what the hell!

the fallen kingdom

2011-12-26T17:50:00.000-08:00

so now.i

couldn't write. it 's not a disability. it's the pain.

couldn't say. because of their hearts. not mine

couldn't speak . to save their tears. to shed mine

i'm done with this

i'm done with the dramas

you are just not

2011-10-22T00:53:00.000-07:00

i myself was craving for a reason why i didn't blog for so long..i' ve found why..

it is whenever you feel being ignorant is the best option..

it is whenever you feel to forget those painful feelings..

it is whenever you feel you 've lost your best thing

it is whenever you feel you are tired of being an angel for them

it is whenever you can feel again how it 's like to be a sacrifice

it is whenever you feel you are against wind, tornado!

it is whenever you feel they never know no matter how bad you want them to

they are too busy with their new wonderful lives

too busy to notice this doesn't have to end this way

too hard to figure out they were there, once

i guess that's what people do

live to find their own lives

true indeed

well, go!

have your great lives..

because that's what you should be doing long time ago

guess they themselves can't recognise this

so i say

there are lots more out there..and you are not even at a starting point yet

torch bearer, such a fake

2011-10-04T13:57:00.000-07:00

there are million things in you head,

but only thousand of them can be spoken out

and only hundred of them can be accepted ..

so the rest

where do they belong to?

and....

everyone wants to be like light..

because it shines

but switching other lights off, so you can glitter,

it 's not a right thing to do

plus

you are just a torchlight with no battery in it..

my humble advice is

if u are desperately exhausted for attention,

seriously

don't be too hard on yourself..

yes, i wrote this specifically for YOU
so you can UNDERSTAND!

narcissism is cool sometimes

2011-06-23T18:02:00.000-07:00

i know there are people who patiently waiting for this blog to be updated..haha..are you one of them??yeah!!gotcha!!!

ok i know i'm a little narcissistic.

but whatever!..just bear with this temporary annoying habit..

well, at least it'better than feeling unsecured of yourself..isn't it?

subuh is at 2.24, so, i still have to kill some more time.. i can't sleep if i don't want to end up with subuh gajah..

what should i do now???

anyway,

i don't know why do i always take pics of nature nowadays...

well, i mean it is a good thing..

but why does it happen all of a sudden

whatever!

these are some of my favourite nature photos

rye, easst sussex(at lamb house garden)

surprisingly large!

westgate garden, canterbury. i like this one the most

taken at westgate as well

spotted tourists!

rye, east sussex

customer service message

2011-06-15T17:18:00.001-07:00

blog is under construction..please mind the gap

excusable

2011-06-15T17:15:00.000-07:00

heath issues, exams, assignments, moving out from student village

you might think these are easy..

but they never be

whatever

strange planet

2011-06-04T10:20:00.000-07:00

some people still live with their old stories..

some have moved on..

some feel satisfied..

some feel empty..

and sometimes we are just in between..

have you ever wondered why does someone sing?

have you ever wondered why does someone commit suicide?

have you wondered why does someone smile?

have you ever wondered why does someone cry?

have you ever wondered why does some one say hi?

have you wondered why does someone say bye?

these things happen everyday..some kind of regular basis..and you become familiar with them..

but one- sentence question can have 1000-word-essay answer..

(only if you ever wondered)

another geek's story

2011-05-04T19:32:00.000-07:00

i hv no intention 2 be anti -socialise or what..but now,it seems like i truly am!

i spend so many times in front of my lappy, which i consider one of the anti-socialising symptoms..

n things get even worse since i only have maximum 4 hours of lecture per week..

ie: i only spend 4 hours socialising??!

for real?

folks!

you know what, i'm addicted to web series called 'the guild"..

well..

it's a story about geeks..

check this out!

it's awesome!

codex's avatar is super cool!

this is codex..(felicia day)

she won the award..wuhuu!!!

congrats felicia!

orait..

that's it..

got elt class at 9..

waaaaaa..wanna go back!!malaysia , i miss you so badly!!!

milk the way

2011-04-23T18:49:00.000-07:00

CLICK THE LINK BELOW BEFORE U PROCEED READING

OR U WILL UNDERSTAND NOTHING

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xV6p0n6dayg&feature=related

hehe

joking

the link has nothing to do with this post..

pdn muka!!

@_@

cn i start?

got a question for you....

you know what is the most annoying word for students when they are on holiday?

*ASSIGNMENT!*

this is the nastiest word I 've ever known (at least as a student)

3 more to go!

- 200-word rationale

-1250 -word essay

-finalise drama essays

strangely,

i still hv time 4 blogging, shopping and even worse travelling!

this is not awesome

oh yeah,

i was just thinking to clear up my closet..

it 's toooo

legenddd

wait for it!!!!!

MESSY..

LEGENDMESSY!!

(just made up the word few seconds ago)

ok whatever..

leave this part

hey,

just curious,

when was the last time u guys draw your National flag????

haha!

gotcha..

u can't even remember..

me too...

it's a shame right?

and u know what

i was supposed to do a set of hot potatoes exercise on a topic of 'Proud to be Malaysian'

and i figured out that i had to draw a flag
(msian flag)

guess what?

instead of drawing it like this

i wrongly did it

like this

malaysia , i didn't mean too..

i luv u..

this is just a technical prob..

forgive me

and u know what,

i miss u!!!!

waaa....!!

wanna go back ma..

let them speak

2011-04-15T09:38:00.000-07:00

pictures taken in keukenhof,holland

p/s: i need dslr!!!!

do ur grocery man! u look hot that way!

2011-04-10T03:20:00.000-07:00

shall i start?

orite

here's the story

i went back from a holiday a few days ago..

(show off)

#-#

and seriously

amsterdam is awesome!!!!

belgium as well

(show off, again)

^_^

well, speaking of eurotrip reminds me of those european men

guys, i don't have to say it out loud..

those men are bestowed!

a very fine skin complexion, their beautiful accent, their height..blah..blah..blah..

well

i'm a girl, ok?

bear with the fact

guys out there

if u happen to read this

i tell you something

you know what,

apart of those physical traits

there is one other main thing

which makes girls drooling

whenever they see you

(i mean this is just my humble opinion, don't over-generalise it)

^_*

guys

do your own grocery shopping.

trust me, it makes u look a way hotter than those pale vampires..

(well, u maybe argue they are not, but girls definitely think they are)

here, in the uk

seeing guys pushing a trolley with full of fish, milk, fruits etc etc is not a rare thing

but back then

i mean in malaysia

it's pretty rare..

do it guys

because rare is cool!!

(that's the best explanation that i could think of)
*_^

*****CAUTION*****

*DO IT SINCERELY!*

cheers

keukenhof, holland

in train

from amsterdam back to brussels
(not a good quality video,sorry)

fyi, i hv no explanation why suddenly talked about this stuff

snow white lion

2011-03-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

i don't know why i'm so obsessed with lion..

back then, before no one told me about Christian, Tao, Napoleon or even Zamba, I was already obsessed with the beast..

i remember one day faten, sihah and me used to hang out together at a cafe. out of nowhere, 'favourite animal' became our topic that day..haha!.i know it was pretty lame..we were 19 that time..probably at this age, topics like boys, fashion or even that stupid fake reality show suited us better..but somehow, we were really engaged with the topic...

'favourite animal'

as usual,faten and sihah proved to me their unconditional love towards cat..which i was not so fond of...well, i still am..

fyi, cats and me are never meant together..they are scarry!!!they hate me!!!devillish!!demonic!!!

cats are nasty!!!!

opss..sorry..where am i??

oh yeah, they told me how much they love cats..yeah, i knew it guys...

@_@!

our discussion went on and on..

then, it was a silence..

that was my turn to do the sharing now

i said

"ak nk peluk singa"...

haha!!

finally,

i revealed my dirty little secret..

both of them starred at me cluelessly..

don't know what to say

day dreamer probably is the best word,guys

whatever!

^-^

but,

seriously

i really want to hug lion!

the thing is

it is so ironic why i like lion so much as it is also categorised as feline (cat family)

which is the same family with cat the enemy!!

kevin richarson, i envy u!!!!

beauty and the beast

2011-03-14T16:21:00.000-07:00

i guess matlutfi has read my mind

some of my points (from http://clicheisokay.blogspot.com/2011_01_04_archive.html) were mentioned here..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8N4BLv0-fc&feature=player_embedded

haha!

not even white lie

2011-03-04T17:44:00.000-08:00

in this short borrowed life, we always wonder about a lot of things..

some of our questions can be easily figured out..

some are not.

but

if we think a little bit harder,

we will soon realise

all questions have answers

before i came to uk, i couldn't stop thinking about hijab stuff..

yeah..hijab stuff

"owh,once you wear hijab, people would easily know your religion, which is islam

and since muslim is so- called terrorist, wouldn't it be dangerous to do so"

this kind of monologue kept my brain busy

but still

"majority of muslims in uk wear hijab

( no citation,only based on my observation)"

the thing is

why

"aren't they scared?????"

since fashion industry develops rapidly nowadays,

and there are lots of 'not -so -obvious hijabs' created

why does no one even border to change thir hijab style

"it's a precaution sisters!"

"come on!!"

i used to think this stuff is important

brilliant rite??

it prevents abuse, isn't it

pretty cool,huh.......

....................................................................................................................................................................

but then

one morning i woke up

i realised

"it may help..but,i'm muslim..and i am really proud to be one"

so, why should i hide it

"look at me world!!"

"i am muslim"

"and i'm on the right track"

ameen

^_^

cheers

assalamu'alaikum

a rebel i am not

2011-02-22T02:33:00.000-08:00

i got some questions to you world,

sorry for putting you on the spot..

hehe..

orait

1st question,

opss

this is specially for anwarhadi

do you have any idea how awesome you are????

*_*!!!

2nd

to my parents

dear ma

i remember back then when i was in primary school, i opened a BOOK..and it is not a TEXTBOOK, you saw me.. then,you came to me n said..

'x yh dk baco la buku 2..x msuk prekso pn'...

just want to clarify,

ma,

did you mean

"do read TEXTBOOKS but don't read BOOKS"???

*_#

non- textbook materials were strictly forbidden in our house

haha..

funny, isn't it?

but

why??

yeah,

it's great to have a programmed child..

for sure

it's less painful..

yes

less painful

but................................................

there are thousand buts

dear abah

hmmm..

difficult one

ok..

i got so many questions to ask you..

when i said 'many' i mean a LOT...

but,first of all

i don't quite understand the fact that everything you do is questionable for us..

is this our fault??

is this your fault??

is this no one's fault??

can somebody tell me what is it?????

3rd

dear dean winchester..

can i be your date, pls?

what???
yes???
but, with a gun on the table???

whatever dean

just date me!

seems desperate???

just in your case

*****wait!!!!!!******

******am i insane????*******

yeah, that is me

@_@!

so,
that's it..

adios

till we meet again,
cheers

p/s: i won't ask the questions directly to the individuals above

why???

first, i don't know anwarhadi..

i mean i know him in cyber life

not in real life

second

if i pointed those questions directly to my parents.

i don't know what their reaction would be

upset, maybe

and i try my best not to upset them..

lastly,

dean winchester..

haihhh

how i wish i could ask you that question..

but you'r just fiction..

and you will always be

parham road fairy tale

2011-02-20T13:45:00.000-08:00

"excuse me, may i have your number, pls?"..

guys,after read d dialogue above,

i know most of u would think that i'll write about love story..

fairy tale story

a story which both hero and heroin would live happily ever after

a really sweet story

but

sadly

you are wrong!!

u have no idea of what that sweet question's implied meaning..

rite..let's start from the beginning

(it's a shame that the story is not what you think it is..so,to make it less disappointing, i'll try my best to use fairy tale language throughout the narration)

at least, we 'have fairy tale setting!*_^

happy reading, princess!!^_*

once upon a time(yeah, u'r rite..this is a famous opening line in fary tale stories)..

there was a princess who lived in a small village (weird huh?princess lived in a village???@#$%)this is fiction, clear?:P

rite

the village where the princess lived was known as Parham Road Student Village..she lived happily with her five other beautiful sisters..their names were(opps,before that, i should warn u guys,those few lines are unimportant line, feel free to skip if u'r lazy to read)

now,let's continue

her 5 beautiful sisters were

Princess Jenny, who was the oldest one..she was the wisest among all..many princes admired her because of her intelligence..

the second one was called Princess Honey..

she was adorable..she was the sweetest among all..that's why she was called honey..

the third sister was Princess Sammy..she was the cutest..she had a brown hair(not original), small lips, and a very fair complexion...she was in love with prince jang geun seuk.he was from other world..so, their love was a forbidden love

the third sister was Siha (i put 'Y' in all princess' names, and i planned to make siha's name becomes sihay..but, it sounds too awkward^_^)..she was known as the talented one..Princess Siha was really good at editing pics(even though there was no photoshop software during that time, she always managed to edit pics well)

the youngest princess was Shabbie..she was the naughtiest one..(always skipped class) but, she was doing fine..she was in love with many princes...prince jaejung, prince changmin, prince ect..she grew up to be a thoughtful princess

wait!!!

(guys, did i mentioned the main character's name???owh..i didn't ??rite..the princess name was G (euww..yeah i know ..the word never suits me..but for the sake of the story, just bear with it, ok readers:P)

rite, the story started when princess G (again,euwwww!!)told princess Sammy that she wanted to go to Asda Castle..fyi, Asda Castle was a beautiful castle..it was very well-known among the villagers..

sadly, princess sammy said she had something to do(skype-ing with her mum)..so, she would not be able to accompany princess G..

princess G said

"it's ok..i g sorang je la sam"

then , she went to the castle alone..everything was fine..

but!!!

on her way back,

she found White Prince

the princess knew he hated her..it was a long story..a very long story

he was in a car..he made eye contact with the princess..his face was full of hatred..one important thing you should know about him is he really hated people who paka telekong

and the princess did!

then

cynically

the prince said

"excuse me, may i have your number, pls?"..

which actually means

ko pehal kt cni??awat ko pakai cm 2 ??buruk beno..udoh r mg neh..hg la dk wt keje x btoi 2..hang la...
(alih bahasa ..maaf loghat x bpa btoi)

he never told the princess the implied meaning..

she just knew

everyone knew

but!!!!

they forgot one vital thing

that is

God knows even better

Asda Castle

Parham Road Student Village

looks horrible means horrible?

2011-02-18T12:31:00.000-08:00

i never look good in pics

(in real life as well, but i won't talk about that)

. it's out of topic.

**today's keyword is**

i look horrible in every pic

want a proof?

dont ask for an 'a'!!!!

because i have bunch!!

seriously, what's wrong with everyone's camera?!ok..i know blamed\ d innocent ones..but arghhh..is there a chip in the cameras?? which purposely installed to make you look horrible??oh my!!what a sweet invention!

honestly guys, i planned to upload those photos..but they terribly annoy me whenener i glance at them..so, i decided not to..

and i was just thinking that if every pic of mine looks that way,

it clearly shows that it's just what i look like..

h.o.r.r.i.b.l.e..

hoho

orait..

whatever

***today's moral value is***

don't blame others too fast.rationalise everything first..

hoho..

i should consider to make some sort of motivation blog..

@_@

ok..joking..

owwh..

if you guys are curious to see those annoying pics, i think i would probably upload them and make you say"oh god!!she's rite!!she's horrible!!!

#_#

again, whatever

rite..thanks for spending ur time to read this junk

cheers

^_*

how did shakespeare say 'you are damn stupid!!!!'???

2011-02-07T15:17:00.000-08:00

guys, is this a biological reaction??whenever u hv bunch of assignments to do, ur hormone to update ur blog becomes drastically increase????????????????????

orait guys..

u don't hv to think so deep..

it's just a rhetorical question..

what am i going to write??

*thinking*

oo,ok,before that,

can anyone alert me whenever u see any promotions of any airlines???????
mas,emirates,brunei,singapore..
whatever they are,

inform me pls!!!

malaysia!!!!!
here i come!
@_@

now

back to business

.got no particular topic.

*_*

but here are few points i guess worth sharing

scroll down

****3 not-so-clever points are waiting to be read*****

1)are you getting bored right now??feeling irritated with everyone???it's ok..sometimes, we just turn out to be "somebody who hates everybody"..u know what, it's bad to feel that way, but whenever it happens, it shows that you are still teenager..(quite cool,rite) you know why?because teenage hates everybody

(armond, 2010)..hohooo..

gosh!!!i guess no one can see my point!!..

(#_#)

orait..

never mind

my point is, do check these vlogs(especially if you are malaysians)..

awesome!!

do check anwarhadi's vlogs

there are loads of his..

gosh..

this guy is cool!

^_*

2) i just wonder how some people can speak so politely,though the main point of his talk is actually to say'u r idiot!!!'....(T______T).....last week, i met my tutor..mike(michael conway)

and

he was like, "g, you are doing good(though my mark is terrible)...u did well..i think your pronunciation is very good..hmmmm..good..good..excellent..hmm..very well..good..good..very good

(kept repeating those fake praising words)

"BUT!!!"

"obviously you have problems!!"

yeah, i know mike..you dont't have to be so poetic to tell me reality..

i know

my mark is terribly, horribly,absolutely ------thumbs down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(T____________________________________T)!

3)got no idea..

*..sadness kills the human being...*

indeed.

#_#

orait,,got to stop..hv to finish kevin's homework

special message 2 michael conway:

mike,define 'very good' pls

cheers

crash and burn

2011-01-28T16:03:00.000-08:00

guys, i might have to tell you beforehand..this video clip may make you feel kinda uncomfortable (it happened to me when i listened to it for the first time.(to be honest,.i don't know why it did).so, before u decide to click the play button, it is better for you to think twice (in case, we are in the same boat)

(#_#)

gosh!!!!i couldn't believe it myself

i posted this song in my blog!!!!

and do you have any idea of how i desperately tried to find this song????

blame dean winchester for all these things

he sang it...

and believe me it was awesome..

haha..he's the reason!!!!

gosh..i'm in love with him..

i know he's just a fictional character

but i hv been horribly spelled!!!!

to be clear,

i never support human cloning,

but scientists out there, if you guys were so into it, make one dean winchester for me.@_@

yeah...i sound insane, i know

she was born to be hot

2011-01-27T13:23:00.000-08:00

dedicated to ~baby

this entry is made when i'm not supposed to do so

(got so many portfolios to be finished before this easter break)

but still, i'm here..in front of my laptop..writing these words down....

i was just feeling a little bit homesick n badly missing baby..she's 6 now..many people say she looks lots like me..but of course, she's way much more hotter!!!!(^_*)..i know it sounds stupid to compare your physical appearance with your little baby sister..but, that 's the fact..baby was born to be hot!!!and her big sis was born to be a geek!!^_^..

we may seem close..

but bear in mind,

hottie and geek would never be the same..^_^

i remember back then when i was in reception (kindergarten), i never had any intention to apply make-up on my face..i mean it was normal right?5 years old kid is not supposed to care that much about her appearance..

but baby...she cares a lot..about make up, about everything..

one day, she woke up early..and she dressed up herself to go to her kindergarten..but then, it was almost 9 a.m (her class starts at 9)..she haven't finished..she was applying make -up on her fair flawless skin...n my mum asked her..

"baby..by wat gapo?x siap ag ko make-up??..brapo lapih nah by paka bedok?"...

and guess what was her answer...

"3 lapih jah......!"

that's so baby!!!
@_@

versus

confession

2011-01-22T11:34:00.000-08:00

to begin with, i seriously don't have any idea how to write about this..it 's always awkward whenever you want to confess things..but still, i want to do this..

very often, i feel that i can cope with anyone..i mean in friendship thingy...no matter who they really are, i can still deal with them..but,sometimes, there 's some sort of feeling, telling me that i am never meant to be with these people..i mean, at least we need a little bit adjustment in friendship..then, i realise i sometimes overact and another times, i am too passive.. i don't know how to put this in words to make you guys understand..but the thing is, i'm not good at confessing..and apologizing as well..i don't know..

so,here i am!!!confessing!!

these are people who i extremely should say sorry for

wanie-

u've been a good rum8..it's just that ,i don't know..maybe we can't live together or something..but,one thing you should know is that, i'm terribly sorry..i mean, for all things..but now, i can get along with you quite well..it's so comfortable to talk with you now..it's just okay..so, whatever it is,once again,i'm so sorry..

saidak-

im quite sure she won't read this...we lost contact..she was my best friend..(i never told her before, and, i'm sorry).somehow, we didn't contact each other, till now..it 's not that i never tried..but every time i did, there was a connection problem.yeah, rite..blame your super classic handphone..sorry dak..but you know i miss you..i still remember the last day in school, you badly wish u can visit your mum's grave before you went back to sabah..but,because of some problems, you couldn't..and that moment, you cried..and i'm sorry i was not a comfy shoulder for you to cry on..

fared-

haha...i wrote your name!and you would ask me what i mean by 'i'm sorry fared'.. you know what, the day you called me when you were badly crying over that girl was the funniest thing happened in my life..and it still is..so,now you r clear what i apologize for??haha..i could't help it fared..i know you cried so hard..but,watching you cried makes me feel that it is not so you (oh, i actly, i just heard, not watched)^_*

maybe there are thousands people i should apologise to..or even more than that,but,the thing is, i am sometimes too ignorant..i'm sorry..and

I WANT TO CHANGE

please help me

p/s:dis guy drives me crazy!!!^_^

a way back into love

2011-01-19T08:12:00.000-08:00

***nothing important 's to be told in this entry***

**and the title has nothing to do with the content **

*don't have to read..it's not interesting at all*

but this is a true story...

................................................

i happened to be the laziest person to wake up every morning..and i still am...

every single morning,the very first thing came out into my mind when i woke up was

"uni's so far away!!"

it 's not that far actually..it's approximately 15-20 minutes-walk..

but then,

the moment i started walking away from the door, i felt great..

reason??

i 'm not sure

but

those are completely strangers which always make my day...

1.)'uniform' lady and her cute dog-

usually i would meet her in Sturry Road..she always wears uniform-which looks like a guard uniform..(not really sure)..her dog has a white curly fur..it's a small and cute dog !!(*_^)trust me,even that small creature can make your day!

2.) a black woman with her two children-

if one day, i didn't see them, i would feel weird..i don't know where they are staying..but they are always in rush because they have to catch a bus in Sturry Road.. i like that woman very much...she always smiles at me..:)

3.) the 'jogging' lady

this lady is not so friendly compared to the black woman.. she jogs every day, i guess..and i don't know why i feel a little scared of her..:P..it's her fierce face, perhaps..but, thinking of the fact that how possibly i can feel frightened to that stranger makes me smile..

4.)the coat lady

usually,i would see her just in front of Parham Road.. she 's quite old..50, i suppose...but , she walks faster than me (all english people actly walk faster than me @_@)..i wonder where she is working..and one day, i found out that she 's an officer in christchurch..:P

some day, i want to take their pictures..and put them here..but, i don't know how to do it secretly..

living in others' country makes me think that

it's amazing how strangers can give me strength

and it is so much more amazing the fact that how being a STRANGER actually gives me STRENGTH!!!