What happen was this is a new office; there are a lot of things waiting to set up. I was working at home due to no internet connection yet in the office. Yesterday, I was told that office internet is ready, so I go to the office today.

Connect, connect, Failed. Tried to connect to the internet for half an hour, but none succeed. Even the nearest Wireless @SG didn’t work for me. I can’t do anything. I need internet for my work. No internet = DIE. I am the only one in the office, no one to talk to, and no one to joke with. Then I thought of MSN and chat with friends. Signing In into MSN…..Failed. Oh man! I forgot that MSN need internet connection.

This let me thought of, had technology overtook us? Are we relying on technology?

Damn, hope Shawn will reach office soon.

Time now 10:36am SGT. typed this post using Microsoft Word. Only thing accompany me now are the Aircon, lights, some foods and coffee, lastly, the Mio Box that doesn’t work for me.

Work is okay so far, though I still find it weird that the boss is a close friend of mine. Ha! Somehow, when there is a meeting going on today, I got nervous. LOL. Guess I have a long time never meet new people.

This work gave me something I wanted - New experience, new knowledge.

First Day – I learn about setting up a new office isn’t easy. Got to measure this and that, then need to get office system. I also learn about “if you are unsure, ask”.

(Just for laugh: the very first thing when I heard the term “Office System”, I thought is database or server! It actually just means office table and chairs.)

Second Day – I learned something which I think I still cannot get hold of it after a year in poly; which is meeting and leadership skills. I reflected today and found that in school’s project meeting, I keep interrupt people while people are talking and giving their inputs – Just because I want to be heard. I am not a good leader; neither am I a good member in this area. I should be more respect on others people input and ideas. Shall work on it when school reopens.

Also, I learned about CONCENTRATION, something which a lot of poly student are lacking of. 99% of our meeting become gaming session or Facebook session. 99% of the time while trying to finish a project or assignment, I ended up in MSN, blogs, facebook, games. But in real life, when working, you can’t do that. So this is something I find that I am lacking of and I should work on it.

Just for laugh Part 2:

I was assigned a task regarding prepare a list of “potential customer” but because I am new to this whole industry, I wasn’t really sure what the company is providing and etc. I ended up producing list of “potential competitors” -__-|||

Till now, this task wasn’t complete yet, and I still quite unsure what am I suppose to do.  

Long learning journey ahead!

BUSINESS LAW - A

BUSINESS MANAGEMENT - A

DECISION SUPPORT WITH SPREADSHEETS - A+

FUNDAMENTALS OF FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING - A

INDIVIDUAL AND THE COMMUNITY - B

LIFE MANAGEMENT SKILLS - B+

MACROECONOMICS - B+

CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE: 3.7917

Saw the result and was happy about it. But I think I can do better though.

Got to do some science revision and go to sleep, need to wake up early tomorrow.

May I pray that Shawn get better, and my studies continue to improve, to do what I want to do.

Life is going get busy soon, Friday morning I got a camp meeting. Not sure can I be in the camp or not. I found a job though, job kindly given by Shawn. Work will make me busy during the holiday, where got time to plan camp? At least working allows me to earn some pocket money to spend. Oh, I don’t really spend money, most likely I will eat the money (a.k.a spend it on food)

On Saturday I got my Sailing training, Sunday got a school event, in next few weeks I got a one day course to attend, Ah!!!!! At least I think I never wasted my holidays.

Still, my dear SGEduLab.com is in my plan. I got some things in mind. Not sure will it work, but I need to get SGEduLab working.

Evelyn, Audrey Anna and the rest are in China. Man, which to be there too. All the best girls! They said they saw me in the Airport the another day. Ha! But surely confirm saw the wrong one. (Lucky none of them read my blog! Hehehe)

An overview in my schedule for the next 6 weeks

Friday (13/3) – Camp Meetings in the morning to afternoon
Friday (13/3) – Meet up some friends
Saturday (14/3) – Sailing Training (I WANT MY SEA!!!!!)
Sunday (15/3) – Cash flow Game
Monday (16/3) – Official start working!
Friday (20/3) – release of exam results (Please…No C!)

Kind of pleased to got the position of treasurer in my CCA. It is not an easy job! Just these few days I am stress that no one can make payment on time and ended me cannot make payment to the SAF on time. Haiz… Glad things should be solved.

Talking about work, I am glad I know Shawn, Ha! I am determined not to mix things up and hopefully I can do a good job. After all, he will be my boss.

This period of my life would be a challenging and rewarding one! Glad that god treat me not bad, I am given a lot of chance to learn a lot of things. Handle people, relationship, feelings and work. I got a feeling that, I had grown up.

7 March 2009

Is the 7^th day HE chooses that path. I don’t know, I still confused. 50% of me want HIM to choose that path, but another 50% of me wish this won’t happen. I really don’t know what I want.

Glad that I didn’t go anywhere today. A $50 note helped me able to meet HIM for a short while. Was nervous and excited and wanted to tell HIM a lot of things when I know HE reached my place. Inside the car, I passed him the $50 and exchange a few words. AHHHHH I was melted.  Words that I want to tell him from my bottom of my heart can’t come out from my mouth. Just listen to HIM talking. It just melted my heart and soul. I wanted to tell him EVERYTHING but I reserved. I can’t do it, I just can’t do it. How am I possible to do it?

Although it is just as short as 2 min in the car and HE got to leave. Everything was just wonderful. Memories flashes back as I was walking in the rain. How the first time I met him, the first time we met face to face. The scenario, the feeling, everything feels so like yesterday.

When can I let HIM go? Suddenly, I find that HE mean too much in my life. I won’t be who I am without him.

Heard this song from Melvin’s blog (http://www.melvinnnnn.blogspot.com/) – “Because you Loved me”

I think this song best descript what I want to say to HIM

Because you loved me - Celine Dion

I am stress. Stress with the cycle. I need to let all out. I need to.

HE is no longer HE was. Sorry, I need to handle myself.

HE brought a lot of memories, so much that Tan can’t count them.
But HE brings pains too, whenever Tan thought that one day HE need to leave.

Tan can’t image life without HIM;
But Tan can’t image life without knowing HIM.

Finally, at 4 am in the morning I finished revising my DSS – A Microsoft Excel Program Module.

That exam was suppose to hold last Monday, but I was down with Chickenpox and thus I got to take sub-paper held on Monday, crashes with my Macroeconomics paper.

Nervous is my word. Because the lecturer set the DSS paper just for me – in other words, the only student sitting for the paper I am taking on Monday for DSS is only me, Tan Yong Kian (Lionel).

That would also mean that I created many trouble for the lecturer. I just afraid that they set a paper that topics are hardly covered in tutorial. Most of the major topics are already cover in the exam held last Monday. And I heard so many ramous about “Sub-paper is not for human do one.” Just pray hard that I am taking the same standard of paper.

It’s late now. Got to wake up early tomorrow and study for my Macroeconomics paper. Sigh. Me so lack of time management.

In another note, I *think* I did well for my Law paper on Friday.

I am touched. Throughout my whole Poly life, so far I find that poly is quite a cold-blooded place.

But today, I am touched. In fact I was touched throughout my chickenpox case. The tutors and lecturer was making sure I am doing okay; BLaw tutor had helped a lot by arranging my exams in a separate room and give me lots of advice in many issues. Consultation over the phone because I cannot go to school, even while she was on course. She even replied my email regarding some questions in my revision at home late at night. Wah, was totally speechless, and don’t know how to express my gratefulness to her.

Guess my exam result will be the only way to thank her, no point saying many thank you. Actions speak louder than words.

Suddenly, I find that if I don’t get a decent grade this time round, I will be sorry to all the lecturer and tutors who helped me a lot this time.

Still, after 2 hours, still in the state of shock for the email replied to me at 11pm, a time where most lecturers are sleeping.

Poly, maybe I had the wrong impression in the first place. It is my fault. Poly is not cold blooded place, it is a heart-warming place.