Coffee with Yaya

Thank you Lord for my life!!!

2012-02-09T10:48:00.000-05:00

I have to thank you Lord for my life!
I am here because you love me!
There is so much you have done for me. Thank you that your promises are true.
Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What else can say but to sing to you "My Tribute and a bunch of other songs to say MIL Gracias!!! Senor Te Gracias porque me has dado la vida!!!!
I thank you Lord my song worships you! In you Lord I am! In Lord I am fearfully made and guess what Wonderfully made! You Lord are more precious than jewels and when I stay in you, I am at Rest!!!
http://youtu.be/8S8XH6VPs_s

Thankful

2012-02-02T10:47:00.000-05:00

Thankful that God has blessed me with life!

It springs forth do you not perceive it?
Thankful for the new models
for the many women and men that seek you faithfully!
Thankful that even for a time you bring particular people to help me
You are making a way......
Thankful that God has put http://www.fbcwestfield.org/media.php?pageID=16 a word this morning that speaks to me.
Speak Lord for your servant is listening for how you would have me to act in the midst of injustices.
Thank you Lord for you have called me by name!!! As I continue to be in this season of reflection I am grateful for the small today!!!

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2011-12-27T12:26:00.002-05:00

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Pelvic and Sexual Health Institute

2011-11-15T07:42:00.000-05:00

Pelvic and Sexual Health Institute: "Pelvic Floor Dysfunction (PFD)

there are two types of Pelvic Floor Dysfunction (PFD); low-tone PFD and high-tone PFD. Low-tone PFD refers to an inability to isolate and contract the pelvic floor musculature in the presence of weak or atrophic musculature, frequently resulting in impairment of muscle isolation, contraction and relaxation. Some resultant manifestations include, voiding dysfunction, urinary frequency, urgency and pelvic pain.
Fecal Incontinen"

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You Are Never Alone....

2011-11-03T08:28:00.000-04:00

Seriously!!! I really feel these words are for me and the older I get the more I understand these words.

Jesus' Family - Mark 3:31-35

Then Jesus' mother and brothers came. They stood outside and sent a person in to tell Jesus to come out. Many people were sitting around Jesus. They said to him, "Your mother and brothers are waiting for you outside." Jesus asked, "Who is my mother? Who are my brothers?" Then Jesus looked at those people sitting around him. He said, "These people are my mother and my brothers! My true brother and sister and mother are those people that do the things God wants." (ERV)

It really has been the church that has been my family since I became a Christian now 20 years ago. While now in ministry that changes, seriously it is the family in Christ that makes the difference. The family that God gives us ... Today my heart is heavy and I know we all have family troubles which is why I am sharing because we are not alone. God has promised to not leave us or forsake us. Human beings disappoint but God is faithful and Just. And , as sure as my name is YANA I promise you You Are Never Alone!!!!! Maybe my birth father new something about my life when he gave me that name. but seriously the world will make you feel lonely but seek the Lord . Seek him , in anger, hurt, in whatever it is you feel God is faithful. Like Vickie Winans sings as long as I got King Jesus!!!!!

So Hugs to you today and may you feel the Love of God today even in the smallest of ways.

Baptismal waters.....19 years today as a Baptist but also as Baby

2011-10-17T08:37:00.000-04:00

Today 19 years ago I entered the Baptismal waters where I was worried they would drown me because my sins were many. But I realize that it is a process that was my public declaration to God of my love for him because so much had happened that I needed that reminder as 16 year old adult that I was. I mean it was a romantic idea that I could be a new creation in Christ and start again. God brought me to a Baptist church but I never denied my Catholic up-bringing becasue there I learned reverence. But in these last few days as I have conversations with many wonderful catholic people I think this society makes Catholics feel like that is not legit. It is in my book. Gosh do I remember my first communion and I still hold on to that invitation that Christ made to me to partake in this blessed sacrament. I guess what I am saying is we all need a moment like a wedding, baptism, graduation a post mark of an achievement. But the important thing for me even 19 years later is that I am a daughter of God and that DAILY I SEEK TO HAVE A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP. Because guess what I am a sinner saved by grace. I am in need of God and his GRACE is sufficient for me and all of us who seek him! So seek your God and dare to find faith, hope and love!!!!

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You - YouTube

2011-10-11T19:00:00.000-04:00

Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You - YouTube:

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A letter to those who have left an imprint, named and unnamed....

2011-10-09T09:12:00.000-04:00

October 2011

Dearest Friend,

May the Lord be with you as you read this letter. May this find you in good health and those you care for as well. It has been on my heart for some time to sit down and write kind of a newsletter about my life these last few years but also an apology in some ways because I realize to some I fell off the map. To some of you more than others but the reasons are many and while I may not mention them all, I feel that I am being obedient to let you know you are not forgotten.

Let me start with the present because it may be easier to say I am Professor Pagan over at Esperanza College of Eastern University. It’s amazing, teaching Justice in a Pluralistic Society; after all I was a high school drop-out when I started this journey. It is an adjunct position and there are not always guarantees to when I will teach but wow what an experience and honor. I feel like it is my new challenge in ministry because we live in a world of many injustices but God calls us to love, kindness and Justice. I would love to keep telling you stories about this chapter because it is amazing. I get invited to preach every so often which is awesome because that is another passion. Recently I have been asked to do a few weddings which is different but good to keep me busy. This brings me to share that some of you are not aware that I fractured my tailbone July 28, 2009 in my own house what a PAIN in every way. It has changed things for me in so many ways, I lost almost 30 pounds and gained some back as I have had to change my diet and deal with some real disabling realities. No, full-time work although I have tried but that leaves me to be a full-time wife which is a treat because I set my own schedule and am able to explore some new opportunities.

That brings me to Angel and I, we just celebrated our 12^th wedding anniversary, and we are doing good thank God. We are learning once again what it means to be a couple again because we really hit some ugly wounds for awhile when in August of 2006 we learned we cannot have children of our own. What a dessert, cave valley experience and friends infertility is no joke. It affects the individual, the marriage, the extended family and friendships but Angel and I are church sweethearts and were taught long ago God first then each other. Our love and the mercy of God-Immanuel (with us) and to celebrate each other and maybe finally hoping we are going on a cruise to Belize in December. We are intentionally seeking a healthy, happy marriage and fumbling together in loveJ what more can I say. I know some have asked about adoption and all that we have talked about it but we need some time just for us and in the meanwhile we give our love; to our nieces, nephews, god-children and adopted grandchildren which especially means Jaden who is now five and in kindergarten.

We actually had our beautiful and eldest niece Shania stay with us for the first time and we can’t wait for her to come back. We had our eldest nephew Anthony Ray have a beautiful baby girl Gianna Serenity just like her mom. Our other nephew Noah extended his few weeks stay to a month which was great especially since he got to participate in Yes and Camp! Angel’s baby sister Lidia Nelly had a baby boy now in July and he sure is a cutie and we just came from his church dedication. As I mention family that has been a trial in itself both of our sides have been dealing with illness. My brothers’ son Luke just got diagnosed with something called PCD and my handsome seven year old nephew has to wear a vest thing that is going to hopefully prevent him from getting so many lung infections. My Abuela that raised me has been battling cancer and it has been a battle in so many ways for all of us. Keep our families in prayer, please God knows the details.

I think that is why many of you feel that I dropped off the map because I have been dealing with such heavy grief, loss, illness and it has felt like it has come from every direction. The only thing I knew to do was to seek the Lord in the valley of despair I found myself in. After being ordained by my Upper Merion Baptist Church family and thinking that it was time to begin my ministry. Financial issues hit, ministry questions arose and then soon after I seriously injured myself and couldn’t even sit. But I believe that while there still will be battles the Spirit of the Lord is upon me. Which is why I write this letter in testimony of my God and Savior who is with me in every storm and sometimes we need to seek solitude away from the crowds. It is nothing personal Jesus did it too! I am getting things in more of a balance than they have been in a long time. And I thank God for every storm, every mountain, in the words of the song by the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir…I got so much to thank God for…For every mountain You've brought me over. For every trial You've seen me through. For every blessing, hallelujah; for this I give You praise.

And I thank God for you! I thank God for La Iglesia Bautista de Soundview, For Eastern College, For Palmer Seminary, For Central Baptist Wayne, For Oxford Presbyterian, For the ministry of being a student Chaplain and then later a Chaplain at Jefferson Hospital, For Upper Merion Baptist Church, For Calvary Baptist of Norristown, For La Segunda Igelisa Bautisa de Philadelphia and for every person that dared to journey with me… I thank God for the countless women that have dared to go before me and for all the men that have supported me. I thank God for each of these churches, relationships, for making me a Baptist even as I seek to follow Christ in a personal way. I thank God because I would not be woman I am today had it not been for my path crossing yours, so whether you are mentioned or not believe me I thank God for the Henderson family, for the Brinson’s, the Maness, Munsons, Hurst, the Bruno’s, the Rhodes, Arroyo’s, For the Rodriguez Clan, the Montes-Rivera familia, for the Castaneda’s and so many strong women and men that helped me. The many pastors, professors and servants of the Lord from whose Model I have learned. For My Abuelita and my Titi Mami, For mami & papi Pagan, for Rev. Dr. Loida Martell-Otero, For my first Pastor Rafael Martell and all those practical stories, for Rev. Dr. Elizabeth Conde-Frazier, Rev. Mindy Baez, For sisters Flora, Rafella, Maria, Fela, Arline, Evelyn, Eleanor, Nerida, Maria Cruz, Martha, Mayra, Sheri, Carol, Gretchen, Helen, Mary, Dawn, Ana, gosh so many women of the churches who shared their stories with me. For Rev. Adlin Quiles, for Esther, for my boyz, for my Susa, my brothers and so many whom God has used to remind I am not alone! Thank you! Thank you for sharing your life story with me and I am sorry if in any way in this time frame of the last let’s say five years I hurt you in any way. I am still a work in progress! Striving to become a woman daily after my Lords’ heart and will always be grateful for the imprint you have left in my heart…….

Sincerely y con much carino, Yana, Yaya or Rev. Professor, Mrs. Your sister in ChristJ

Songs helping me in this moment as I remember I am!!!!!

2011-10-07T11:52:00.000-04:00

My heart is so heavy today. No one but my God can fully understand the broken feeling I am experiencing I had to write because as I listen to a particular playlist just to stay in the moment. I have to process this because I been kinda stuck today is the first time in months I cried. You see I think we have all become so busy its easy to ignore the pain, grief and those dark places of life. It is these places that God wants to bring healing but.....
I think sometimes its just easier be angry because feeling rejected is not nice. But Well I have to admit it may seem like I am coming out of left field but I am not really willing to go into details but this is what I will say life sucks at times! Thats' the thing it doesn't always have to be that way. I know it gets rough and sometimes things seem hopeless and you may question why am I even alive but as Pink would say your F--Perfect. I am not trying to encourage more self absorption that has left me to where I am right now but what I am trying to say is that stuff with family and any relationship is complicated and as we try to "clean out our closet" we have to stop worrying who we hurt when we finally tell our story. After all it is my story and I can't please everyone, nor can i be PC all the time have you met me, I am me not YOU! Kelly Clarkson says Because of you she realizes she reacts to current relationships because of her upbring in that song. And that is the thing we need to figure out why do we think what we think. We need to ask the questions, even if those questions are about our belief in God. Our past really develops our present but it ain't going to determine my future..... NO WAY JOSE!!!! A phrase I would say as a kid, but still hold true God loves me, God has a plan for me.
Healing is a process....
Life is a process.....
Sometimes we are not okay and that is when one person can make the world of a difference. And, I and maybe you need to learn to stay away from people and things that are toxic to becoming whom we dream of being. God you know I want to make you proud because in you I am woman loved, fearfully, wonderfully made and you got me Lord so thank you!!!

2011-10-06T15:15:00.002-04:00

So much has happened in the last two years alone but I found this collage and thought I would start with pictures as I get the courage to write the rest.

Another digital collage by Smilebox

Griefsupport

2011-08-22T10:30:00.000-04:00

"Blessed is the woman/man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him" (James 1:12).

Father, it is only by Your grace that I can stand through this trial. Open the doors of help for me and strengthen me to walk through them. Amen.

Easy dismissal = Pure ignorance & Thoughtless Notions. « The Rambling's Of An IC Patient

2011-08-16T19:02:00.000-04:00

thank you for writing this you rock!

this article is so good that I cried because you really expressed my life these last two years if not more because that was only when I got diagnosed.

Please visit the blog!!!!

Easy dismissal = Pure ignorance & Thoughtless Notions. « The Rambling's Of An IC Patient

Share, bookmark, email "Mutual submission" - AddToAny

2011-08-11T16:00:00.000-04:00

Share, bookmark, email "Mutual submission" - AddToAny

thinking out loud...God all the days of my life

2011-08-03T15:58:00.000-04:00

MORE THAN ENOUGH ( the brooklyn tabernacle choir )

2011-07-30T14:47:00.000-04:00

Who I Am in Christ

2011-06-24T15:29:00.000-04:00

Who I Am in Christ

Found this website while working on my sermon for Sunday titled JUST DO IT! based on John 5:1-9 there is a lot to it but I have to say we need to stop making excuses and remember who we are in Christ! This website gives verses we should memorize! Put them where you can be reminded! http://www.geftakysassembly.com/Articles/BiblicalExposition/WhoIAmInChrist.htmI fall but I get up, even if it takes me a few......I make mistakes learn from them! I am a sinner Forgiven by the blood of Jesus Christ, and His mercies are new ever moment and so I am not a victim or statistic.........I am Victor!

I am a new creation!!!! Thank you Jesus! Thank you for EVERYTHING!!! Thank you for this inspiration may it motivate me to TAKE UP MY MAT AND WALK! TO JUST DO IT AND WALK BY FAITH (by Yaya)

- Bryn Mawr Chiropractic Acupressure Ardmore Relaxation - Blog

2011-05-26T14:01:00.000-04:00

- Bryn Mawr Chiropractic Acupressure Ardmore Relaxation - Blog

Realizing what a big difference they have made in me getting healthier. I realized that I have lost 24 lbs in this past year which is a big deal for me. Just wanted to share and say sometimes we have to be open to all the gifts the Creator has given to us to become the whole individuals he is calling us to be.

I am grateful because God continues to bless me!!!

my tribute 05/23/1992

2011-05-24T14:08:00.000-04:00

YouTube - crystal lewis--my tribute

Thank you Lord for my life and for all you do, doing and have done my life is yours!!!!

pressing on.....becoming!

2011-05-16T10:30:00.000-04:00

I have been inspired by the word of God, to live in its promises!!! Life is hard, 35 years of trauma, loss and just stuff has taught me that. But this May 23 is 19 years since I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and savior and no I am not perfect. I have sinned but I strive to be the woman God has dreamed for me to be. I press on towards the goal of a higher calling. And while I may have regrets I think today I will cut myself a break. Then I opened up google and saw this quote: "What you get by reaching your destination is not nearly as important as what you will become by reaching your destination." - Zig Ziglar
Life has me feeling kinda down...but God is my hope!

Psalm 42:5 (New International Version)

⁵ Why, my soul, are you downcast?
   Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
   for I will yet praise him,
   my Savior and my God.

trials, troubles, ohhh my

2011-03-25T00:44:00.000-04:00

I feel like a mess! it is weird how things just sneak out from one incident to another...Life happens!!! No one warns you that relationships are hard especially if you don't want to keep the unhealthy patterns of the past. No one warns you that life is hard when you try to follow the right path.
When it rains it does poor which is crazy...especially when you find yourself overwhelmed with because life is!
Well I don't have any wise things to say I feel like sharing that trials and troubles are apart of life no matter.

Celebration time!!! Happy Birthday, 35 watch out!!!

2011-02-13T14:40:00.000-05:00

Thank you to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, for my life! That I am more than a statistic in Christ Jesus! That I am alive in spite of being involved in the world of darkness for many reasons. That I am more than a conquerer even in sickness for the LORD IS MY STRENGTH. Thank you Lord for being my song, for giving me a voice to sing and reason to sing your praises. That in everystorm I trust you! I love you Lord till the day I die and I thnank you for the people you have allowed to cross my path. You know I ain't perfect lord so for all the times I mess up I see your face and you are true to your word even in my weakest, darkest moment no testing has seized me. I thank you!
To you my friends and to everyone! For prayers, support, love, notes, calls, text, etc, etc (in my king & I voice)! Thank you! The Lord is amazing and I am sure that this 35th birthday the Lord will continue to bless my life and those around me:=)
As for the job I will start as a f/t counselor at the Norris Square Civic Association nscaonline.org/ and I have to say that I am excited. Much love and blessing to all in this New DAY, NEW YEAR to take advantage of the good things life has to offer.
I am so grateful! Thank you for celebrating with me in various ways.

Shakira - Loca [HQ 480p] OFFICIAL 2010

2011-02-03T10:25:00.000-05:00

ISFP & Highly Senstive Person...crazy mix

2011-02-02T19:39:00.000-05:00

ISFP - "Artist". Interested in the fine arts. Expression primarily through action or art form. The senses are keener than in other types. 8.8% of total population.

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a fighter... I am me!

2011-02-02T11:26:00.000-05:00

It is crazy th things one can think about on a day like today! Today is not yesterday but it is a new day! I am a survivor. Unsure of what the future hold but trusting in my faith in GOD. That is the only thing I am sure of. I am a mess but I am a Fighter and I am not every girl; I am Yana. god only knows but my story I will tell. That of a victor not no freakin victim. My good days and bad days I am me!!!
Fighter Lyrics: by Christina A.....
After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
'Cause you made me that much stronger

Well I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you, cause it...

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies cause you're wanted to haunt me
But that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me

I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enoughhhhhh

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget
But I, I remember
I'll remember, I'll remember

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Category:Music Tags:Christina Aguilera .....Fighter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWJ_P-TdEJ0 .......Pink rocks and this video is hot!

Music and its expression

2011-01-31T13:01:00.000-05:00

I am taking this Psychology class finally doing something for counseling that makes sense. And, I am writing this paper about my life.... Should be easy right!!! But no way this sucks!
but its interesting that as i preparing for my birthday and just a bunch of stuff music is helping me expressing myself. Gosh! the post of As I am by Mary J. B. and artist like pink, shakira, reba and so many others help me to really feel what I need to. I also know that as I think about singing hymns and positive music make such a big difference. I guess what i am saying is that we need to revisit music and the words it expresses because it is important.