COLD TURKEY VISION

Starting out my 228 project (2011.12)

2012-02-01T17:12:00.001+08:00

228事件肖像（工作室作品照片）自從我得到228基金會的協助取得一些受難者的照片，至今大概有4年了。尚未做出什麼像樣的作品，真是太慚愧了！（悲呀，我的青春小鳥兒一去就不復返～）我的人生（至今仍）屬於嚴重分裂，一點重心都沒有，在討好與取巧與懶惰與迷失自我之間搖搖擺擺，如一片落葉，偶爾被腳踩到還會發出清脆的響聲。。。(哎呀~) 228是我身為台灣人最想挖掘的歷史事件，因為它代表台灣民主成長的痛，當中有許多人因此犧牲。讓人不捨的是許多犧牲者都是台灣難得一見的知識份子和才智雙全的人物。（嗚嗚嗚，至少也留些優秀的基因下來，造福現代被外籍新娘填滿的台灣。）還好台中文化局的女性藝術家聯展讓我燃起一股奮鬥的火花！

Goodbye school.

2011-10-12T17:57:00.001+08:00

image by chi 槍與兒童太陽噴灑金屬碰撞的光在微暗的天空漫行燙出刺眼的軌痕市內公車吐出成群細緻的小學男童每隻襯著金光的小手都握有一塊黑鐵如相片的汙點輕盈又沉重他們在等車的隊伍前停下一字排開面對三個穿白衣黑褲的外國傳教士男孩帶著笑瞇起眼瞄準這些碩大的金色頭顱任由他們左右搖晃猶疑「砰-------！」火藥迅速燃燒串啟甜蔗香汗味鮮血鐵塊焦肉筆直射破後面的太陽踏著整齊的步伐男童守秩序地朝捷運站前進

Goodbye chicken.

2011-10-12T17:21:00.003+08:00

image by chi So the essence of sexuality has embedded on the exotic form of deformity. The skin has been infected. The dried blood casts a rusted shadow over the mute spine. Contaminated by its own organic pool, the lust armature "crawls" and prays for the grace of God. The weight of shadow perceives nothing but everything reflect it.

The Answer Is You (Michael Bernard Beckwith)

2011-10-03T21:33:00.005+08:00

I guess the whole idea is so exciting is because it makes us feel we are back in control. Most of the negative feelings came hand in hand when things have gotten "out of control". You feel you don't have enough power to cope with the "problem" and the despair raises. But with this strategy, the route to the solution is even closer than religion. You don't have to turn to a remote

感謝函：邵明仁老師我愛你！

2011-10-03T18:04:00.003+08:00

邵明仁老師是一位加拿大的神父，任職於台中私立衛道中學（天主教學校，具有高中和國中部）。他是一個超級認真，無敵可愛，曾幫許多人突破語言障礙的英文老師！首先他的個人風格非常濃厚：身穿夏威夷的花襯衫，腳踩如鴨嘴獸般可愛的皮鞋，操著一口流利的加拿大腔國語，濃厚的眉毛下是一雙銳利又溫暖的灰色眼睛，配上可以看遠又看近的深色眼鏡。。。。從我們剛認識他開始，老師就說自己非常老了。算是爺級的跨時代人物，不是現今補習班的那種不知從哪冒出來的輕浮外國年輕人能比擬的。平常遇到令他讚嘆的事就會來一句："我的天～～～～" ，他矮胖的身材跨上重型機車時，會不經意顯露出西部牛仔冒險的英姿。最讓人佩服的就是邵老師從不用坊間的參考書，因為他都用"最好的"：自己編的教材。（我還記得以前那本的書皮是粉紅色的～）那真的是我用過最好的英文參考書！不但清楚把文法重點列出來，還有非常多的練習題，因為老師的重點在於讓學生充分練習

Thank you, Deborah Craig

2011-09-23T16:02:00.003+08:00

Thank you Deborah, for taking me to the Music Night and hanged out with the band members at Greg's place. It was really great. I love that crazy music!! I felt so privileged to be there. Thank you! Thank you for taking me to meet your dad. I really enjoyed eating very healthy lunch (that you prepared) with him. Thank you for being so kind to me at school. Thank you for believing in me.

Thank you, Luna Maia

2011-09-23T15:40:00.002+08:00

Thank you Luna, for being there to support me. Thank you for teaching me how to burn marshmallow with lighter and spaghetti. Thank you for sharing with me your bottle of Jack Daniel. Thank you for listening to my troubles and telling me yours. Thank you for teaching me how to bind a book and introducing me to Tori Amos, The Cure and Dave McKean. Thank you for being my roommate! I LOVE YOU,

感謝函：基督教家庭的溫暖--- 岱立姐

2011-09-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

在美國時我為了省房租，從原本的套房搬出來，於是就在中文報紙上找便宜的地方。這時候找到了岱立姐的房子。岱立姐擁有一些出租房，她很積極的從地鐵站載我去看房子（幸好我遇到的是好人，弟弟妹妹不要學喔）。岱立姐後來說，因為看到我很乖的樣子（其實是蠢），加上背包上又有破洞，於是她提議我可以去住她家地下室。而且因為岱立姐本身也是鋼琴家（從小就是天才型的那種），在家也都會教導學生，家裡有好幾架琴，因此如果我去住她家的話，還可以免費彈琴喔～（岱立姐有說她對住進自己家的人都是很挑的）當時我覺得太開心了！想不到遇到台灣人之外，對方又如此親切～而且岱立姐有說她偶爾要去大賣場買東西，我也可以一起去。於是我就順理成章搬到岱立姐岱立姐家住囉（雖然離學校有段距離）！家裡的成員平常只有岱立姐和她先生兩人，還有一隻名為 Shadow 的黑色長毛貓（好像還有另一隻白貓吧）。是很單純的基督教家庭，

graphic practice

2011-08-18T17:24:00.002+08:00

感謝函: JUJU 黃怡儒 (光助大房)

2011-08-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

寫在前面：我最近感覺人生中有很多事，不是單靠自己努力就能有所成就的。其中必須仰賴太多太多的人幫忙，太多太多的湊巧和時機，這些很多不是自己能掌控的種種，事後想想其實特別值得感謝。尤其是對我人生幫助很大的貴人！寫下感謝函是想提醒我自己，這些人對我的照顧，值得我時時記在心中，來日報答之；自己的人生並不是真的暗濛濛一片，完全孤單的；同時也期望自己未來能成為別人的貴人（挺胸～），能給需要的人幫助和影響力。所以我有必要在此公開推崇感謝他們的好～～！叩謝我的貴人團!!! 感恩呀大人~~~~~~~~~ ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 感謝我過去在研究所的同學：JuJu 黃怡儒。他現在已經是知名公司「光助大房」的大老闆（真係犀利）。

Goodbye getting bald, old and . . .

2011-08-05T16:31:00.001+08:00

濕熱的夜地瓜的剖面出現迷宮圖案貝殼般的齒咬住老人捲曲的肢體緊貼永遠消失的地平線

Goodbye happy birthday.

2011-08-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

自從我過了25歲之後聽到蟬鳴就穿上工作服像一張敞開的白色床單散發出乾淨的味道天氣好得沒話說如果我沒記錯的話破掉的紗窗外擺著一株小小的盆栽 99元那天是星期四大賣場買的金錢樹將臥室窗口邊照得發燙深綠色的厚片努力朝上伸展正好是工作的日子

Goodbye the desire of eating well.

2011-08-05T15:24:00.003+08:00

(image by chi) 很久很久以前，在一個破鐵皮屋裡住了一個貧窮的小孩，他的肚子常餓得咕嚕咕嚕叫的。但每天晚上媽媽回家後，只會煮一顆豆子的湯給他喝。媽媽白天要出門時，會把小孩關在鐵籠裡：「你要乖乖聽話才會長大喔!」媽媽這樣告訴他。有一天，外面來了一隻大野狼，牠肚子餓得發慌，聞到小孩的味道就跑了進來：「你是我美味的午餐!」大野狼這樣對小孩說。大野狼三兩下就把籠子打開，牠一把抓住小孩，裂開牠的大嘴。但小孩的嘴巴張得比野狼還大，一下子，小孩就把大野狼吃進肚裡去了。那天下午小孩還吃了昨天剩下的豆子湯，兩顆燈泡，三件媽媽的羊毛衣，四塊腐爛的木板，跟外頭整片的野花野草。傍晚媽媽回家發現路燈都壞了，家外面的草地也都荒蕪了。家裡被弄得亂七八糟，籠子也被推倒在旁。媽媽看到地上野狼的腳印，不禁放聲哭了出來。

Goodbye Chinese Panda Spies.

2011-08-03T15:23:00.003+08:00

Inside every spider's head was a white room. Each morning, when the delicious glittering dew dripped onto the intricate web form, the dark body would go quietly to absorb these vibrating beams from the slowly awakened world. Meditating as it seemed, the furry legs clutched together neatly. The spider learned to let thoughts fly as other wise men would do among the snowy Tibet mountains.

Thank you, My Crazy Head Ana Martinez (Part 2)

2011-08-01T18:13:00.012+08:00

Soon after my arrival to home, my little wings have been ripped down and flushed to an eternal shit hole. Ana came to my rescue. (image by chi, video in Mexico, 2001) She offered me a working opportunity in Mexico City. Though I had to carry the tremendous guilt to South America, I found my way to paradise. Tequila, real authentic tacos, fresh chilies and cactus sang with lime. Though the air

感謝函: Thank you, my crazy head Ana Martinez (part 1)

2011-08-01T16:30:00.015+08:00

(image by chi, 2000) How did we get together and become best friends? It was absolutely madness like a random collage you wouldn't normally associate. I was this timid but angry bastard just finished my BFA in California, applying St. Martin's at the very last minute and was lucky enough to get onto the student exchange train to Prague (where I dreamed to be). I knew nothing. All I relied on

Goodbye lens with heavy scratches.

2011-08-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

The first night they found each other at the ends of two worlds. There was a white line stretched to the infinity.They stood on either side of the line, within their own worlds, observing. Around them was the darkness wrapped in many hidden identities, unknown. Alternatively, discreet sound of metal sheet dragging along concrete walls faded in and out. She tried to squeeze a smile: ;> Text

Goodbye any social, political, worldly consciousness.

2011-07-29T16:13:00.004+08:00

001, 004, 009進場蒙住雙眼. 這裡是哪呀? 有種氣味 . . . . 是女人!是性器官!是死屍!是肉湯!是發霉的床墊! 拿出皮鞭, 抽打地面. 最深切的苦難將刺破我們無知的耳鼓, 衝破愉悅猥褻的笑, 讓我們流血, 入侵黑暗體驗恐懼的純粹, 流感變肺炎, 我們的偉大國家需要你母親衰弱的子宮, 勇敢的站出來吧! 早已浮腫的臉孔.

Goodbye peanuts, cookies, sugary afternoon snacks.

2011-07-29T16:07:00.002+08:00

一隻很棒的小豬穿著搭配她膚色的漂亮粉色洋裝到市場去--- 三個馬鈴薯，兩個番茄，一根香蕉... 紛紛裝進了她的菜藍; 購物途中小豬看到了一塊被陽光照得閃亮亮的粉紅肉塊, "好漂亮的顏色哪!" 因而停下了腳步. 同樣的櫥窗裡還吊著原本住在他家隔壁, 已經失蹤好幾個月的小比利, 他的臉頰顯得有些腫脹和變形. 屠夫隔著玻璃和她招手打招呼, 一邊支解小比利的肢體, 從中取出更多美麗的肉塊. 鮮血從工作檯上滴落, 直直流進地板的木頭縫隙裡.

Goodbye "see you again".

2011-07-29T15:56:00.003+08:00

一群不同花色的中大型犬,在空曠的停車空地上踱步或玩耍, 牠們有的在巨大的鷹架下乘涼, 有的在草叢中啃咬垃圾, 並朝可疑的陰影乾吠兩聲. 偶爾抬起頭望向上方趴在鐵欄杆,老朝著牠們瞧的公車族. 那些無毛猿類的體溫,叫喊聲和氣味,還好都已被乾冷的空氣稀釋. 燦爛的陽光下,牠們只管簇擁著同伴,吞食一截截深紅色的雞爪骨.

Goodbye all the modern technical shit.

2011-07-29T15:48:00.001+08:00

She started this But now she wanted to end it For she was obsessed with pressing the button No one else can replace her index finger Drop down your weapon!We all know you are as trivial as a slice of orangeSo inaccurateSo full of prideSo desperate to be close to theWarmth of the throatTo be swallowed in withHer salty tearsAndHis tonguePierced into her earDripping wetOrangeLeaving a track

Goodbye mom and dad.

2011-07-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

聽不見生鏽的舌頂著一株枯萎的菩提樹一間計程車招呼站一隻傲慢的老狗和一個未知的年代在天人合一的冥思裡裸上身銳利刻畫出一縷縷的夕陽

Goodbye mosquitoes.

2011-07-22T17:25:00.003+08:00

image by chi 向海的狂風吹送貓的體毛一位磨著刀的老婦 dried up 猛烈抨擊孩童稚嫩的臉龐國旗綻放得像朵薔薇

感謝函: 東家畫廊 Boss Gallery

2011-07-22T15:40:00.007+08:00

感謝東家畫廊的張國權大哥，在完全沒見過我的時候，就被我幼齒的聲音給欺騙，好心幫我印製了攝影小本子。（眼中泛淚光～ ) 後來還邀請我到長榮飯店參加展覽！！跪地！真是我近年的首位大恩人呀！！！！叩謝膜拜～說起這段因緣真是很微妙。。。。。 2010年底我終於體認到本人一生中最期待的時光終於快過完，內心充滿了焦慮與不安，恐慌症又發作了好多次。以往都會自己用印表機印一些有的沒的，這時決定要詢問出版社願不願意出我的攝影作品集！！！！（終於瘋了）因為恐慌症瀕臨死亡的可怕經驗逼迫我，我在噗浪上問了一個唯一認識的文化人：鐵山豬....... 想不到他是出版社的編輯，而且更奇蹟式的非常熱心！！！ T-T 太感動了！山豬也是我的貴人！！（跪地狂吻豬蹄～）他還幫我牽了幾條線，讓我可以問問其他出版社的意願......... 因此我在2010年底開始過著有夢想積極的日子

Goodbye not knowing where I am.

2011-07-21T17:34:00.005+08:00

Goodbye not knowing where I am. (by chi) (by chi) 發狂日記 No. 1 街燈對我一點意義也沒有，戴著野狗的頭狂奔，我像瞎了一樣狠命亂竄，直到穿越界線為止，穿過屬於他的界線 . . . . 大賣場的購物車似乎在這時候會很管用，放下，我說。具體的字眼。火車。房子。水龍頭。橡皮管。繞在女人脖子上被月光勒住。游泳池裡她漂著。血流進耳朵。冒煙。用你的折價卷換取我的思緒吧--- 介於啃富士蘋果第一口和第二口之間，或寧可用一只真正的桃子交換。發狂日記 No. 2 曾一度屬於這面濕潤牆壁的磚塊剝落在她膝頭前。請跪下來尊敬的輕舔這片青苔，暴燥的乳頭如明月般發亮。 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------