tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063Wed, 14 Feb 2018 22:49:24 +0000Artistic ExpressionsEvolving Identityritual abuseMemory WorkDissociative Identity DisorderProgramming/ConditioningMusings on Christianitymind controldissociationThe OccultProcessing the PainSimply the BestPoetry and LyricsprogrammingEducation and AdvocacyHealing and RedemptionLighter FareintegrationpolyvoreDreams and VisionsSurvivor VideoUpdatespiritual warfareBook ReviewsIlluminatiLiteracySurvivor Supportconspiracyhuman traffickinginternal landscapemusic therapyPodcastsSpiritual AbusedreamsEliana's StoryGame ReviewSurface Game ReviewforgivenesspoetryMy life has seemed to be some sort of cosmic "Plan B". When nothing is as it should be and a soul is in shambles, how does one fill in the lines? They must break the assumed boundaries and find a way. My life has been that: finding a way where there seems to be none.http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)Blogger133125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-3587838001600563304Sun, 10 Mar 2013 23:58:00 +00002013-03-10T16:58:54.349-07:00dissociationDissociative Identity DisorderEliana's StoryEvolving Identitymind controlritual abuseSurvivor SupportI haven't posted on this blog lately because I've been working on three stand alone pages that tell my life story so far. These pages can be found at the top of this blog. I am writing them from three angles, if  you will, viewing my life. These pages are to provide background and context for things I mean to write about in the future. "The Outside Story" is an abridged version of my life story http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2013/03/my-life-story-in-three-parts.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5185337489592505725Wed, 02 Jan 2013 04:33:00 +00002013-01-01T20:33:50.127-08:00Artistic ExpressionsMusings on ChristianityPoetry and Lyrics My life is darkThey say the night is darkest before the dawnExcept I've lost count of how many times someone has said that to me, or how many times I've tried to buoy my despair with that thought. My life: One solid dark night but with a constant moon. Sometimes fullSometimes a sliverSometimes absentBut there nonethelessA constant source of dim lightIt doesn't lighten my life but only seems http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2013/01/dark.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-946999633944205697Sun, 19 Aug 2012 22:48:00 +00002012-08-20T10:50:06.744-07:00dissociationDissociative Identity DisorderEducation and AdvocacyGame Reviewinternal landscapeLighter FareSurface Game ReviewI am a big fan of casual games, and hidden object/adventure games in particular. They allow one to get some fun brain exercise, and are usually not very frustrating. Casual games are a great way to take a break from the hard work of trauma recovery and ride out the tough spots. I just finished one of these games where the topic of the story is about a girl who has DID (Dissociative Identity http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2012/08/surface-noise-she-couldnt-make-game.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-4672988220038875958Fri, 10 Aug 2012 18:54:00 +00002012-08-10T11:54:00.870-07:00conspiracyDissociative Identity DisorderIlluminatimind controlprogrammingProgramming/Conditioningritual abuseI've been meaning to write about my changing views regarding conspiracy theories concerning the Illuminati. Of course, my main realm of experience is with ritual abuse and organized mind control, so I will mainly stick with those aspects of this topic. One thing I have come to understand through my recovery from all of the abuse I have endured over the years,  is that  memories and deliberate http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2012/08/the-myth-of-illuminati.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5574139840056669234Tue, 08 May 2012 01:53:00 +00002012-05-07T18:53:46.816-07:00Artistic ExpressionsDissociative Identity DisorderEvolving Identity This is a term I have recently begun to apply to  myself. It is an expression of how I have come to see myself, through and through.  quantum  (ˈkwɒntəm)  — n  , pl -ta 1. physics a. the smallest quantity of some physical property, such asenergy, that a system can possess according to the http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2012/05/shes-quantum-enigma.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-4468929959250835525Wed, 14 Mar 2012 17:46:00 +00002012-05-07T18:30:56.694-07:00forgivenessHealing and RedemptionMusings on ChristianitySpiritual Abuse When it comes to forgiveness,  I have exercised this out of sheer obedience to God. He really has broken through to me in very clear ways and has had me do this.  The first time was way back in 1992, I think. This was at the beginning of my memories breaking through and I only knew the shadows of what had happened. Still, God led me to a book by Stormie Omartin where I learned of the power of http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2012/03/forgiveness-freedom-blessing-and-wrath.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-1154922135872963163Thu, 10 Nov 2011 19:39:00 +00002012-05-07T18:18:45.094-07:00Artistic ExpressionsDissociative Identity Disorderdreams This is a representation of a recurring dream I have. The dream always involves forgotten cats and kittens in someone's basement. I am always trying to rescue them and take them home and I am always worried that my husband won't like it if I bring them home and I worry about how I will care for them. My suspicion if that the cats and kittens are symbolic of my lost, split off selves. I think http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/this-is-representation-of-recurring.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-1259316831123360006Thu, 10 Nov 2011 19:35:00 +00002012-05-07T18:19:04.815-07:00Artistic ExpressionsMusings on Christianity I wait for you, my Master.... I wait. I keep my lamp lit through the darkness of this world The light in my lamp reminds me that there is hope Preserve my chastity, Master, while I wait Tears dry in time For abundance of sorrow my hope fades and my oil dwindles Fill my lamp, O sovereign One Light my flame Give me patience to wait... and to stay wise.http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/i-wait-for-you-my-master.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-8717424394674387723Thu, 10 Nov 2011 19:27:00 +00002012-08-10T11:55:30.879-07:00Artistic ExpressionsconspiracyIlluminatiprogrammingProgramming/Conditioning I used to avoid anything to do with butterflies because of reading about "Monarch Programming". But now I am skeptical that any programming method goes by this name as the source of this name is not a credible one and can't be found anywhere else. There are several authors who talk about this programming, but I believe all of them get their source material from Fritz Springmeiger who can't be http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/metamorphosis.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-7361891087696562872Thu, 10 Nov 2011 04:29:00 +00002012-08-10T11:56:57.689-07:00Artistic Expressionsmind controlprogrammingProgramming/Conditioning What They Did To My Head by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com This is what the end product feels like when one has been subjected to systematic fragmentation and mind control programming.  http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/what-they-did-to-my-head.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5622476285865857730Thu, 10 Nov 2011 01:42:00 +00002012-05-07T18:31:29.781-07:00Artistic ExpressionsMemory Workritual abuseThe Occult The Fire Mistress by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/fire-mistress.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-6964508099407573429Tue, 08 Nov 2011 08:36:00 +00002012-05-07T18:21:38.458-07:00Artistic ExpressionsHealing and Redemption Beautiful People by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/beautiful-people.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5578540648179396000Sun, 06 Nov 2011 15:51:00 +00002012-05-07T18:24:14.373-07:00Artistic ExpressionsDissociative Identity Disorderinternal landscapeprogramming Doors by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com I feel surrounded by closed doors most of the time. I know the parts of myself that doors are closed most securely to. The trouble is, I can't be whole or put the past where it belongs when memories and parts of me are in suspended animation behind these doors. In front of groups of doors inside there is always a guardian that keeps things secure forhttp://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/doors.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-7753375082673856871Sat, 05 Nov 2011 05:32:00 +00002012-05-07T18:25:15.248-07:00Artistic Expressionsritual abuseThe Occult Black Wedding by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/black-wedding.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5451188371261494199Sat, 05 Nov 2011 04:55:00 +00002012-05-07T18:26:17.412-07:00Artistic Expressionshuman traffickingProcessing the Painritual abuse RUINATION by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/11/ruination.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-603443237096264090Sun, 30 Oct 2011 10:56:00 +00002012-05-07T18:27:19.333-07:00Artistic Expressionsprogramming Rising Consciousness by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/rising-consciousness.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5113440315790887545Sun, 30 Oct 2011 10:04:00 +00002012-05-07T18:28:23.020-07:00Artistic ExpressionsLighter Fare Happy Halloween by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/happy-halloween.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-9049751549449554874Fri, 28 Oct 2011 06:35:00 +00002012-05-07T18:29:25.208-07:00Artistic ExpressionsMemory Workritual abuseThe Occult The Emerald Serpent by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com I've been trying to come up with a way to portray this literally for years. I think I've finally gotten it right. This set depicts a memory of a ritual trial I had to undergo during the adolescent years. It was in a Greek temple setting and involved Green Mamba venomous snakes. The object of the trial was to completely control one's http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/emerald-serpent.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-6193657413510029108Fri, 28 Oct 2011 04:53:00 +00002012-05-07T18:30:35.879-07:00Artistic ExpressionsProcessing the Painritual abuseSpiritual AbuseThe Occult Jesus Wept I by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/jesus-wept-i_27.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-7381077463184523797Tue, 25 Oct 2011 19:13:00 +00002012-05-07T18:37:15.501-07:00Artistic ExpressionsEvolving Identityprogramming Quantum Enigma by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com The Emerging Self. http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/quantum-enigma.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-903927129221598801Mon, 24 Oct 2011 09:54:00 +00002012-05-07T18:55:01.673-07:00Artistic ExpressionsMemory Workprogrammingritual abuse Dance of the Furies by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/dance-of-furies.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-3346434408467747581Mon, 24 Oct 2011 09:19:00 +00002012-05-07T18:59:29.905-07:00Artistic ExpressionsdissociationMemory Work Stroiki Requiem by elianahephzibah featuring diamond rings The word "Stroiki" kept coming to me out of the blue tonight. I googled it and found out it is Polish for "wedding". Interesting. Then it provoked or inspired this collage. In this journey through the archaeology of my mind and the emergence of things lost sometimes just a concept, a word, or a name will emerge without any http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/stroiki-requiem.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-3113062822795509137Sun, 16 Oct 2011 05:26:00 +00002012-05-07T20:32:33.350-07:00Artistic ExpressionsDissociative Identity Disorderinternal landscapeprogramming Internal Hierarchy Borders by elianahephzibah on polyvore When a person has been subjected to formal, deliberate, and standardized mind control programming practiced by the US government intelligence black projects and others, their system of alter groups are organized according to color. In fact if a DID person expressed their interior persons in terms of groupings according to color, I http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/internal-hierarchy-borders.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-1489453916069158011Sun, 16 Oct 2011 02:58:00 +00002011-10-15T20:01:10.732-07:00Artistic Expressionspolyvoreprogramming Internal Hierarchy by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com This is a portrayal of internal system color coded hierarchy with associated imagery. Purple is highest and represents the most power and high spiritual plane. Blue is a kind of everyday gateway system who tends to be spiritually oriented as well. The branching represents how purple came from the blue section somehow. Green is the http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/internal-hierarchy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8276063.post-5090539568399778515Sun, 16 Oct 2011 01:41:00 +00002011-10-15T20:01:52.066-07:00Artistic ExpressionspolyvoreProgramming/Conditioningritual abuse Walk of Doom by elianahephzibah on polyvore.com IU Cinema Groundbreaking and Theatre and Drama Renovation Celebration indiana.edu Red Room gxzone.com CoyDreamer - music brush imghouse.net wavelight/psd gxzone.com Marble-frame-psd gxzone.com Flames gxzone.com tubes fantastiques - Page 13 purplefolie.centerblog.net tubes fantastiques - Page 7 http://mysteriousjourneys.blogspot.com/2011/10/walk-of-doom.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Eliana Hephzibah)0