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#2 write a short fanfiction

2012-01-29T01:44:00.001+08:00

Disclaimer: JK Rowlings is responsible for the creation of characters used in this story, I'm just using her world and change it a bit. Rating: G
Please DO NOT copy my work without my consent. TQ.

Inspired by Katy Perry's The One That Got Away.

And in another life, I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

“Ron, do you have time now?” asked Hermione hopefully.

“Sorry, I got Quidditch practice now, what is it?”

“But you practiced the whole day yesterday…we barely hang out!”

“Hermione, we barely have enough time for the match against Durmstrang. What is it that you want to tell me that’s more important than this? I don’t want to get bloody beaten up by those blokes. You know how much I despise them,” Ron said impatiently

“Oh, never mind!” Hermione said and run hurriedly out of Gryffindor Common Room.

Lately, Harry and Ron have been up and about with the match that they barely have time for Hermione. It’s not that she can’t hang out with Lavender Brown and the Patil’s sisters. It’s just that, she is more comfortable with Harry and Ron. They have been inseparable since their first year at Hogwarts. Ginny on the other hand spends more time with Dean Thomas. Although they invited her to hang with them but the thought of being a third party and seeing their public displays of affection makes her curl.

Now, in their final year, Ron joined Harry as the Quidditch keeper, they spend most of their time in the field together. Of course Hermione visit them occasionally, cheering them on the stand, but when it’s over they are too tired to even have small talk with her. That made her upset. Plus, Hermione heard Ron talking to Neville about being a Quidditch player seriously. Although Ron joked about it, he at least has thought about it. Hermione remembered in their fifth year when Harry lead them in Dumbledore’s Army, while practicing their Patronus charm in the Room of Requirement, they made a packed to serve the wizarding world as Aurors. The more Hermione thought about it, the more upset she became. She didn’t realize she was slamming Charms for the Advanced book on the table that everyone was looking at her and the librarian gave her a deadly look.

Hermione was about to turn the pages when she felt as if someone was looking at her. She looks up and only saw Draco Malfoy alone with a book. Draco wasn’t looking at her, his eyes were fixed on the book. She quickly gaze away, she doesn’t want Draco to notice her watching him. She despised the Twitchy Ferret, a name that has then stuck whenever the three of them referring to Draco in a conversation thanks to the incident in their second year when Ron accidently turn Draco into a ferret when he called her a Mudblood. But she still felt someone was eyeing her, too upset, she ignores and quickly lost in the book.

*******

Draco Malfoy floo to his manor and he accidently heard his parents talking in the library.

“Narcissa, how much longer do you want to keep this from the Dark Lord? Draco is big enough to handle a mission. The Dark Lord kept asking for him and I have run out of excuses!” Lucius voice echoed in the library.

“Draco is just a boy. He is our only child. Do you want him dead Lucius?” Narcissa started sobbing.

“Have you gone out of your mind? Of course I don’t want him dead. Have you not trust the Dark Lord’s power? He is stronger than ever now. Draco’s safety is more guaranteed once he becomes one of us!”

Narcissa continue sobbing uncontrollably. She doesn’t have the nerve to go against her husband’s words. It looks like Lucius has made up his mind.

Draco hurriedly floo back to Slytherin’s Common Room. The room is empty, everyone is at classes. Suddenly, a rage quickly build up, unknowingly he throws a glass against the wall, the glass shattered across the room. Sitting facing the fireplace, he stares deeply at the flickering flames. The bright red flames change to orange then brown. His gaze fixed upon the flames and suddenly an image appears. It looks like a thick brown hair dance in the wind, a giggle was heard, when the head is about to turn to face him, the image vanishes. Someone has entered the common room. Draco quickly rubs his eyes and the flames return to bright red.

“I must be going out of my mind,” he finally said, shook his head, stepping on the broken glasses, he head to the boys’ bathroom to wash his face.

Draco heads out of the common room, deciding to take some air. The scene of his parents discussing in the manor’s library keep playing on his mind, their voice echoed almost giving him a headache. He ignored when Crabbe and Goyle stop him asked where he was and why didn’t he attend Potion class. His feet finally stop and he found himself standing in front of the library.

He has never been to the library, he never comes to this part of the school. The library is hardly occupied by students, it was quiet and he can hear the wind gushing in from a small hole in the window, the sunlight pouring into the library and from the window the lake is in clear blue. He never knew that the library was a calming place, he notice the smell of old books and decided to grab a book and sit in the corner. For once since starting this final year, his mind was elsewhere and he felt like he could run away from any burden.

Suddenly, he heard a loud sound of big book being smashed onto the table. He was in rage, who on earth could spoil this moment? He found a girl sitting with a sour face. Her face seems sad and upset. Her curly brown hair was golden under the sunlight and a breeze was blowing her hair out from her face. Her cheeks were red perhaps from being upset. She bites her red lips and cross her arms. Several thick books were piling neatly in front of her.

“Who is she? I’ve never seen her before,” Draco said to himself quietly. His gaze is now on her and then realization hit him. This beautiful creature is none other than the muggleborn that hang out with Pothead and Weasle. What potion could turn her this beautiful? Her hair is no longer bushy, freckles are no longer visible across her face. She has grown taller and filled up in all the right places. Suddenly, his face feels warm and his heart beats faster.

He realized she was about to turn her eyes on him. He quickly looks down, his eyes are now focusing on the words on the book but his mind was thinking of her. He saw a few girls walk pass him and stop at her table, they say a few words to her and she giggled and quickly covers her mouth to suppress her laughter. Her giggles seem familiar and Draco quickly remembered the image he saw in the flames.

“It cannot be. I must be going mental,” he stand abruptly, the book fell of his laps and he storms out of the library almost knocking the girls off to the side.

He hurriedly went back to Slytherin Common Room where he found Crabbe and Goyle talking with the other Slytherins. Draco stares at them while walking towards the bedroom, they suddenly stop talking and look at him questionably. Draco slams the door after him and throws himself on the bed.

“Draco…,” he could hear a sweet voice calling his name.

“Oh Draco…,” he turn his head, searching for the person who has been calling his name.

He found himself sitting under a tree, in the middle of a large field with daisies and daffodils grow everywhere. The sun was bright but didn’t hurt his eyes. The wind was blowing gently and birds chirping merrily.

“Draco, did you not hear me calling you?” a hand touches his shoulder gently. He looks up and sees the figure of a girl wearing a large hat. He could not see her face clearly as she was sitting in front of him with her back facing the sun. Ringlets of hair dance playfully across her face.

She comes closer and kisses his forehead. Draco closes his eyes, savouring her kiss. When he opens his eyes, he saw Hermione smiling sweetly at him. He was about to open his mouth when he suddenly woke up. He was in the boys’ bedroom, Crabbe was snoring loudly on the bed next to him. He looks out the window and sees moonlight shine across the lake making the water sparkle. He quickly remembered Hermione’s eyes in his dream and sigh heavily.

#1 write an autobiography

2012-01-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

An autobiography is the story of a person’s life written by himself.

I was born the eldest of four in Johor Bahru, a state in the southern part of Malaysia. Both my parents are Johoreans working in a government linked company since before they got me until now. I received my earliest education at Taski al-Ummah 7 located within the neighbourhood. It is an education that stressed on Islamic teaching to children at an early age. Later, I enrolled in a primary school also within the neighbourhood, Sekolah Kebangsaan Kompleks Uda from age 7 until 12. Later, I enrolled to one of Johor Bahru’s premier secondary school after achieving a good result for UPSR, Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan I.J. Convent from age 13 until 17. I was having difficulties adjusting in a school of intelligent girls because for the first time I really have to compete to be one of the top students. Later, I study for STPM at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultan Ibrahim for a short period of time and did not sit for STPM as I was offered a place in a local university located in eastern part of Malaysia. Before I enrolled, I got my first part-time job in a textile shop located in a mall 5 minutes drive from my house. I bought some essentials for my first term living in Terengganu with my salary. Honestly, the place was a total stranger for me even though it is within Malaysia. I did not adjust well and often get homesick. Most of my classmates were originally from the eastern part of Malaysia and they speak a heavy accent that I have trouble to clearly understand. In my first semester, I was elected as the class representative and clearly most of them are not pleased since I wasn’t from around there. Soon, I was well-accepted since I portray a well-received act of leadership and they see that I have developed a good relationship with the lecturers that benefit us especially when we achieved a mutual understanding regarding assignments and projects with the lecturers. Diploma years went by almost with a blink of an eye and soon I found myself eager to start Degree years. I got accepted by the same local university but this time it was in Shah Alam, the headquarter, if I may say so. I deviated from my original course and studied business for 2 years and 6 months of internship. I was not actively involved in various university events as I was in Terengganu back then. During the first semester, I started missing the actions involving in various university events and even more with gamelan. Later, I found myself busy coping with studies and I engaged myself with 2 persons who are not only classmates, but also best friends. We were busy coping with studies as well as having fun together. Now that we have graduated, we haven’t lost contact ever since. Although we are miles apart, but we still talk every now and then and we decided that this short break is like semester break and we will eventually reunited. I have none bad memories received in my degree years, all good ones that top each other each year. The best time of my life so far…

new look for new year

2012-01-24T21:09:00.001+08:00

I long planned to change my blog's look but was too lazy to get it done, so today I finally did. The older version was sweet and demure looking, this time it was all vintage. Love it!

old template

I played around with Photoshop and manipulated some pictures, combine and arranged them to fit into a tiny space called banner. I do not own any of those pictures.

first attempt (too crowded)

second attempt (too empty)

After third attempt, I came up with this:

I like the blue bird addition.

random pic: sims social FB

2012-01-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

My hard work and dedication =P

the crybaby

2012-01-21T11:45:00.001+08:00

Being in LDR kind of relationship truly tests your ability to stay loyal and honest. Everyone can declare that they possess these traits but to be able to keep and maintain them need perseverance and hard work.

Every now and then, we each take turn to be a crybaby. Take me for instance, when I was not in a relationship, I am dependent and able to handle anything on my own but once I’m in a relationship, I realized I’ve someone that I can depend who listen to my blabbering about life, my dissatisfaction on things and occasions that happen in my life. I’ve become a drama queen because I know there is someone who will listen and coax me, totally spoil me. Mostly, the crybaby role will be played by the girl and the guy will be calm and listens. During the crybaby state, the person will become whiny, defensive and severely emotional. I know this because I am one, plus I’ve observed some of my friends’ behavior. But not all guys can stand a crybaby. When there is too much drama going on, he will eventually become bored with it and get away from the drama scene.

I found that being in a long distance relationship, has turned me into a cry baby and a drama queen. Since my boyfriend is not around to coax me, I will end up being frustrated and angry. After some time, I’ve to coax myself and be self-motivated. It made me thinking, the point of us having a relationship is so that we have someone whom we can pour our heart to, share our happiness and sorrows, become spoilt all we want. But I realized, I’ve difficulties achieving those with him. The most annoying thing a guy/girl can do in a relationship is fail to be there for each other when needed. It is not advisable to be MIA because you’re encouraging your bf/gf to confide to other people. If you don’t feel comfortable with the idea of it, play your role as a bf/gf seriously. In my opinion, you will become closer, and you are able to get to know each other without him/her explaining what’s he/she like when you confide with each other, telling each other stories, share joys and woes rather than you spend time hanging out together everyday. When he/she confides with you, he/she is opening up to you, it is the matter of heart, something that people have troubled expressing.

I’ve post about this LDR matter before but I feel that I’ve to make mental notes and apply them more since I can’t depend on him entirely. It made me think, if I can’t depend on him, then what else to it? I shall not discuss this private matter here but I’d like to highlight ways of keeping a relationship especially the LDR kind.

Awareness

Become the observer of your thoughts, your emotions, your needs, and your ego. A question that you should be asking yourself is ‘what is it I want at this moment?’

I want someone who will be there for me no matter what, who I can depend on anytime without question asked.

Express

Don’t bottle up emotion. I’ve become nothing but honest with him. I’ve speak my mind freely but composing suitable words that will make him think about what I said. I know the truth hurts, but if he understands me, even try to, it will end up fine as long as he is true to his word about being mature. In my opinion, if you take responsibility for your word, speaks with thoughts and respect, he will find the honesty and sincerity of your message. By expressing, I’ve realized this has release me of my mental load.

Desperately seeking attention

This is why we become a crybaby. In this state, we become irrational and like a kid we need attention. We do know why baby cries, this is because he/she needs to be attend to. I think we need to be a crybaby sometime because this is the only excuse we have to get closer to him/her. But this role should be kept minimal.

Try putting yourself in each other situation

By doing this, I will be able to understand him more because I am trying to feel what it’s like to be him in that situation. But to be able to do this, he must be able to open up to me.

Lastly, I should remember to

Forgive and accept his behaviour as long as he apologize and explain. Vice versa.

Skin Care 101

2012-01-08T14:40:00.001+08:00

Did you know skin is body’s biggest organ?

Skin plays an important role in protecting us against pathogens (things that causes disease) and excessive water loss. The skin covers and protects everything inside the body. It helps keep body at just the right temperature and allow us to have the sense of touch.

The skin keeps infections out of the body and keeps us from getting sick. Thus, it is crucial that we take extreme measures in taking care of our skin. By doing so, you are helping your skin do its job. Early care of your skin will help prevent future problems like wrinkles and even skin cancer. Most people dream to have skin that is healthy inside and radiant outside. They concentrate on skin care for their face because it is most noticeable and the most sensitive part of the skin.

Clean skin is happy skin. The easiest way to keep your skin happy is by keeping your hands clean. This is important because our hands can spread germs to the skin. Another way of keeping our skin healthy is by doing a daily skin care regimen. A daily skin care regimen should include:

Cleansing

Cleaning twice day to remove plain dirt, pollutants and all that ends up on your face.

Exfoliate

Dead surface skin cells give skin a dull look. Do this 2-3 times a week.

Tone

A good toner is essential to refine pores and tone the skin. It should be used each day after cleansing and after removing a mask. A toner will also help to remove any stray makeup or dirt which may have been missed by the cleanser.

Moisturize

Moisturizing your skin help keeps the skin cells hydrated, thus making the skin softer and more youthful. Apply moisturizer after every cleansing. It is a misconception that people with oily skin doesn’t need moisturizing because everyone’s skin needs moisturizing. They should know that one of the reasons their skin is oily is because it is lacking moisture and it is trying to compensate. When you apply foundation, it glides on smoother and is less streaky looking.

Protect

Skin needs daily protection from the sun and environmental pollution. A good foundation with SPF (sun protection factor) will help protect the skin from damage.

When talking about skin care regimen, most people will think of everyday skin care routine. But apart from that, you should also include your diet and water intake in your skin regimen. When doing skin care regimen, the products used must be suitable for your skin type. Your skin type is determined by how much or how little oil your skin produces. Genes, diet, stress level, medication and even daily skin care regimen all determine how much oil your skin produces. Rona Berg, the author of best-selling Beauty:The New Basics suggests a skin test to see which type your skin belongs to. Wash the face, pat it dry, take a few pieces of tissue paper and press on different spots on the face. Generally there are 5 basic skin types;

Normal

If skin is normal type, the tissue will not reveal any traces of oil. It looks clean and smooth and has a good circulation and healthy complexion.

Dry

If the tissue doesn’t stick or pick up any oily spots, your skin is dry. If skin is dry type, your face will feel flaky, dry and tight after you wiped it. It can easily develop wrinkles, fine pores and also prone to aging and irritating.

Oily

If your skin is oily, the paper will stick, pick up oily spots and become translucent. Problematic area of oily skin is the cheeks, nose and forehead. The skin looks greasy, thick, coarse and shiny. It has enlarged pores and tends to break into acne. On the bright side, oily skin is not prone to aging and wrinkling.

Combination

When you wipe your face, people with combination skin will have traces of oil coming from the nose and forehead but will be clean in the areas that touched the cheeks. This type of skin has patches of both dry and oily skin and it requires different types of care.

Sensitive

The skin is usually very dry, tends to feel tight and becomes inflamed and irritated easily. It develops reddish and scaly areas, can be itchy and tingly, and prone to breaking into spots. It is most problematic and fragile type of skin.

If you use the right products regularly, you will go a long way toward protecting your skin.

source: skinway

my 2011 review

2011-12-29T16:22:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah 2011 is almost over. I can’t believe I got through this year safely.LOL.

2011 left with bittersweet memories.

This is the year, which I lose someone whom I thought would be my best friend forever and turned out she’s a backstabber with multiple masks only to hide her true awful self. I really ought to kick myself for believing in her and almost ignore my mom’s advice about getting too attached to her. It started small then it turned out big. If only there’s a bigger sign in the beginning. She played me well and for that I can’t forgive her. She’s out of my life and for that ALHAMDULILLAH. I’m through, don’t want to think of her or talk about her or see her and I banned her forever. Yet, I feel obligated telling closest people that the she and I share relationship with. I feel sorry for those who haven’t been played by her. But then again, I think it’s not my place. I don’t want to be in the same level as her. She is low enough. Sometimes I feel that she chose to stab me in the back because I’m an easy target. She knew I love her and our friendship that she took the chance and left me feeling dumb. Early 2011 started awful but the awfulness gradually subsides

Enough about her already, this post is not about her…it’s my review of the year 2011.

Apart from my unlucky and shi*ty encounter early this year, miraculously I forget about that fateful incident because I’m looking forward (not really) to finish my studies and officially become an undergraduate finally. All those years, from kindergarten reading ABC and counting 123 till I got to stand in front of my family and friends receiving my degree in a ceremonious event last October. It was overwhelming and I still can feel the excitement and the sugar rush. Everyone was like “this is it…finally”. Mother was thrilled and fussing on my robe and graduation cap and Father was all proud snapping pictures with his DSLR. When it came to my turn to receive the scroll from the Chancellor, I let out a big sigh and I feel light and as I walk towards him I feel like I was walking on cloud almost flying. I was beaming and I can’t stop smiling but I didn’t cry like I’m expected to because I’m too excited to bother about crying and although it seems like this journey has ended, I feel like there are still time to take it all the way. Receiving my degree doesn’t feel like an obligation, it is more like a satisfaction of achieving something. Now I’m on my way embarking on a new journey of working life. Though I received a few job offers but I’m still looking. I don’t think being picky is wrong although it is time consuming, but I want what is best for myself and I don’t want to feel dreadful doing the job and forcing myself to do something I don’t like. So far, my parents are worried and we’re not on the same page about my plan but for once, I’m sticking to it without giving in to parents’ preferences. I hope I get the job that pays well and makes me happy. If not, there is always teaching position. 0__0

Talking about being happy, I am currently happily in a loving relationship with a guy whom I respect and admire. He totally dotes on me and we have a lot of things in common. We share the same point of view most of the times, and he always has ways to cheer me up. He gives advices in gentle tone but firm manner, we laugh at each other’s jokes, sometimes finish each other’s sentence. Although we don’t hate the same thing like he absolutely loves spicy food and coffee and I detest spicy food and prefer tea but the rest is fine. I have this feeling that this relationship will be a long one, because I feel and I know that I can depend on him because he is wise and patient and I am childish and carefree, it’s like we complete each other. My heart told me to stick to this man because something good will happen one day. I’m not sharing anything more about me and him because our story is only for us and not for sharing.

In conclusion, happy memories beat bad memory. 2011 has been kind to me and I will never forget the experiences I have gained which taught me to be careful, to think wisely before act, to cherish the people around you, to be thankful for what you have, to not take things for granted and to believe if you are patient and kind, Allah swt will reward you at the end of the day.

Famous Story - a mother's sacrifice

2011-12-19T10:48:00.001+08:00

This is a true story of Mother’ s Sacrifice during the Japan Earthquake. After the Earthquake had subsided, when the rescuers reached the ruins of a young woman’s house, they saw her dead body through the cracks. But her pose was somehow strange that she knelt on her knees like a person was worshiping; her body was leaning forward, and her two hands were supporting by an object. The collapsed house had crashed her back and her head. With so many difficulties, the leader of the rescuer team put his hand through a narrow gap on the wall to reach the woman’s body. He was hoping that this woman could be still alive. However, the cold and stiff body told him that she had passed away for sure. He and the rest of the team left this house and were going to search the next collapsed building. For some reasons, the team leader was driven by a compelling force to go back to the ruin house of the dead woman. Again, he knelt down and used his had through the narrow cracks to search the little space under the dead body. Suddenly, he screamed with excitement,” A child! There is a child! “ The whole team worked together; carefully they removed the piles of ruined objects around the dead woman. There was a 3 months old little boy wrapped in a flowery blanket under his mother’ s dead body. Obviously, the woman had made an ultimate sacrifice for saving her son. When her house was falling, she used her body to make a cover to protect her son. The little boy was still sleeping peacefully when the team leader picked him up. The medical doctor came quickly to exam the little boy. After he opened the blanket, he saw a cell phone inside the blanket. There was a text message on the screen. It said ,” If you can survive, you must remember that I love you.” This cell phone was passing around from one hand to another. Every body that read the message wept.

(taken from a wall post in Facebook)

the wait

2011-12-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

The wait is only worth it when you know what exactly you are waiting for. If you can’t see what is at the end of the journey, then there is no point in waiting.

Sophia-Bella: 12 Days of Hogwarts

2011-12-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

I'm a total Youtube junkies. Youtube videos have taught me a lot, learning on almost everything from putting on false eyelashes to beading. Apart from that, I also get to watch videos of people from all over the world documenting their every day lives. Youtube videos are more real than fake act on tv and eventhough they sometimes shows useless random videos, I still enjoy watching them just because they're fun to watch. I subscribe to few channels such as michellephan on make-up tutorial, some girls doing tutorial on how to wear stylish hijab, also geofg channel, an American who video-taping his cute Japanese-American daughter, Nina and not forgetting Sophia and Bella of mugglesam channel. Following previous post on Harry Potter jokes, I came across a video of sisters, Sophia and Bella from Canada singing the 12 days of Hogwarts. I found these little girls charming and singing a made-up song about Hogwarts, I cannot resist posting the video on my blog. Here is the video, (credit goes to mugglesam who wrote the song):

On my first day at Hogwarts

Oh, nothing frightens me!

Not a very old whomping willow tree!

Two Trolls in the dungeon

Three unforgivable curses

Four Dementor's kisses

Five Bertie Bott's every flavour beans!

Six moving staircases

Seven you know who's horcruxes

Eight Weasley's Wizard Wheezes

Nine easily offended Hippogriffs

Ten mischief-making pixies

Eleven Umbridge Detentions

On my twelfth day at Hogwart's

Yes! Something frightened me!

Nearly Headless Nick!

Harry Potter jokes

2011-12-02T22:19:00.008+08:00

Okay, before I started this blog, my initial plan was to create a blog on anything Harry Potter because I'm a huge fan. I started obsessing with Harry Potter since I was 16 (still am), me and my buddy used to gather at the back of the class and exchange stories, make jokes and comments on anything about Harry Potter. I even started a RPG forum where I'm the headmistress teaching care of magical creatures. The forum even reached 100 members. We did the sorting houses, have openings where we interview those who wanted to be professors in Hogwarts...we had fun imagining we're in Hogwarts. I shut down the forum because I've no longer have time to play RPG since I left school to further studies. Plus, the internet is not as easily accessible at the dorm.

Check out some of my avatars in Harry Potter RPG forum:

I always got sorted into Ravenclaw, thus the blue scarf avatar.

My time is not as ample as before because now I'm being more preoccupied than usual. Thus, the plan of having a blog dedicated to all Harry Potter has long gone out the window. Now, I enjoy having a laugh at Harry Potter jokes on Tumblr and cruising for Harry Potter related news. Therefore, in this entry I'm going to post some hilarious jokes about Harry Potter that I collected by surfing the web. Enjoy =)

To those who don't get the jokes, well except the last one, you are most likely not a Harry Potter fan.

p/s: RPG is role-playing game: a game in which players assume the roles of characters in a fictional setting (source wikipedia)

graduation pictures

2011-12-02T21:56:00.004+08:00

As promised from last post, graduation pictures of me and my two angels...

a poem about us

2011-11-27T21:14:00.005+08:00

I am full of emotions today, I can’t really do anything…as I scribble his name on a piece of paper, I didn’t realize I let down a tear. Somehow I manage to compose a poem, the story of us so far and I hope our story will never end.

August is when we meet again
In a funny way
I have a new friend
To light up my day

September was full of stories
Of bitter and sweet
That washes away my worries
Of promises to meet

October came with challenges
With trick and treats
But nothing ever change
Even if you’re far than eyes could meet

Now November almost gone
But of you I still fond
The thought of losing you make me shudder
As I sense you now grow colder

December is coming near
How I wish I have you here
To brush away my tear
Make me believe and show no fear
Believe in the love, for you will always be my dear

fb games that im addicted to

2011-11-27T16:09:00.001+08:00

grumpy vs happy

2011-11-27T15:05:00.003+08:00

Things that make me light up:

Chocolate
Playful cat
Happy ending
Pleasant surprise
Videos of cute baby
Breakfast with loved ones
Reminiscing sweet memories
When someone tell me that they love me
Random people who smile sincerely at me
Finally completing something either chores, projects

Things that get on my nerves:

Moody people

Liars and cheaters

People who cut in line

Signs in the back of the car

People who put others down

Long repeating commercial breaks

Shop assistants who do not assist

Know-it-all when actually they don’t have a clue

Things that are not what they seem as advertised

Email spam telling you won a lottery/inherited something

longing

2011-11-27T01:18:00.004+08:00

Cheering up and try not to think about it too much... I can't focus on anything.

this is me in current state

this is what i wish for

images credit to dashsharon.com

my take on black pepper beef stir fry

2011-11-19T17:47:00.003+08:00

Sorry no picture, I refuse to post a bad picture of the dish as I only use the camera on my handphone.

Ingredients:

Beef fillet - I slice the beef into thin strips, I like it this way because they will cook faster and easier to chew

2-3 cloves of garlic - minced

Cili padi - minced. Apparently, in English it's called bird's eye chilli, the amount of cili padi used is entirely up to you.

A bit of ginger - minced

1 onion - chopped into rings

Soy sauce

Oyster sauce

About 1 tbs of ground black pepper

1/2 cup of water

Salt to taste

You can also add in veggies, such as bell pepper/snow pea

Method:

Heat wok with medium heat, toss in minced garlic, ginger and cili padi. Cook them for awhile.

Toss in the beef, add in oil if necessary. Pour some water so that the beef is moist and cook until the water become almost dry.

Add ground black pepper, 1-2 tbs of oyster sauce, a bit soy sauce and salt.

Lastly, toss in onion rings and your choice of veggies.

love confession in stardust

2011-11-16T22:39:00.007+08:00

I watched Stardust for 5 times now, it's my kind of movie. The best part is when Yvaine (Claire Danes) confess her love to Tristan (Charlie Cox) when he was turn to mouse by a witch who captured his mother. Here is her monologue about love and her love confession:

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

I completely agree, my sentiment exactly. Sometimes love can be complicated, there is no words to describe what love is or what love meant. This short monologue pretty much summarize all the things I've experienced of love and I simply will say the exact same thing to him.

p/s to him: you don't need to say or remind me you love me everyday, I know that you do.

her diary his diary

2011-11-16T21:56:00.005+08:00

So..today I had a quick chat on YM with papa bear. We seldom talk and always find ways to get in touch. I thought since we're in LDR, communication is crucial. At one point in our quick chat, he blurted how one of his female friend has a scandal with someone living in my neighbourhood. He added, his friend once asked if he would like to have a casual relationship with her. My response was, if he did or consider having a relationship with her behind my back, I won't confront him or listen to his explanation, I would just disappear from his life without trace and he won't ever hear one single news about me. I went on and on and told him what I would do and he just kept quiet. Suddenly, he gave me this link and I instantly felt embarrassed.

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It's actually quite funny...how I babel about insecurity and all he did was gave me a link and let me figure out what he meant. He didn't say much because he knew that this small matter will go on and maybe will eventually turn to argument. It surprised me how he knew me that well, my heart melts.

Kuda Kepang & Barongan

2011-11-16T21:24:00.002+08:00

I had a chance to witness the most fascinating, breath-taking, out of this world performance of kuda kepang.

Kuda Kepang is a horse trance dance from Jawa, Indonesia. It is said that it was created by the Wali Songo in spreading the religion of Islam in Indonesian island of Jawa for the dance dramatizes tales of holy wars won for Islam. The dancers are usually all men, they sits astride a mock horse and re-enact the battles according to the beat of percussion ensemble consisting of mainly drums, gongs, bonang and angklung. A dancer known as Danyang will take the lead by directing the other dancers using a whip. It is believed that the dance have strong links to the spirit world. The mock horse is said to harbour spirits which have to be appeased in a pre-dance ceremony.

Before the performance begins, the court is opened by a medicine man or tok bomoh by setting a fire incense or kemenyan and offering materials which mainly consist of coconut, banana, chicken eggs, perfume and others.

My cousin and her husband - a Malay wedding with Javanese influence

On November 11, my cousin tied a knot with her colleague at her house in Simpang Renggam, Johor. The theme is Javanese wedding, which I really fond of because I prefer traditional wedding than modern or English style that fast become popular these days. She wore a traditional Javanese wedding dress with a modern twist because the traditional Javanese dress shows a lot of skins, she wanted to avoid that because first and foremost we are Muslims. The groom was escorted by his relatives with dancer and performer of Seri Tanjung Kuda Kepang. Before the arrival, the guests are serves with performance of Barongan.

Barongan is closely related to Kuda Kepang, the instruments used are similar with the exception of angklung. Legend has it that the Barongan is a mystical creature which was once a man. The man turned into Barongan because a spell had been cast upon him by fairies whom he teased to amuse himself. The Barongan man was ordered to follow the Kuda Kepang forever which is why the Kuda Kepang dance is followed by a Barongan in a performance.

Before the groom get to enter the house and sit beside his bride, he has to get through a roadblock of men consists of the elderly. I believe that this act symbolizes that the groom is ready to overcome any obstacles that may come to protect his bride. It is also a form of entertainment to tease the groom before he can get his bride. Everyone get a good laugh out of it. Then he gets to sit and watch silat performances, a manly act signaling the groom and his escorts are brave enough and worthy to sit beside his bride at the throne.

The highlight of the show was the kuda kepang ritual which happen that night starting at 9. The ritual starts with a group of men do the kuda kepang dances for about one hour together with music. Later, as the music became louder and faster, so does the dance act which became faster and wilder until one of them was possessed and started dancing wildly and soon afterwards, more men were possessed as the smoke from kemenyan with a bit of scented oil spreads fast around the house.

The possessed men dances with their eyes closed, some in a circle of their own, some started disturbing the crowds, while others peel off the coconuts with their bare teeth, smashed and drink the water inside. A few went overboard and started ran amok, so there are a few older men who has more experienced in the ritual start controlling them by making a piercing sound of whips by bashing the whips on the ground. Kind of like you whip the horse to control them. The ritual will eventually ends when none are possessed and they will stop the kemenyan from emitting smoke and slow down the music. Some who have been revived by the older men, were possessed again and had to be revived. When they are revived, they will start vomiting and was themselves again but they are in a weak state.

I was unable to record a video of this fascinating yet scary ritual because it was dark and there are not enough light around the house since my cousin lives in a rural area, you can’t even get a good picture of the ritual even if you set it in night mode. Not many can experience this ritual firsthand, and I believe most experience it on television or the internet. Although there are many opinions towards this ritual in Islam perspectives, but they still keep doing it so that the tradition will never dies.

My encounter with a loser who has the biggest ego but the tiniest brain

2011-11-10T22:20:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I had a disturbing chat with a stranger in facebook. I was chatting with my boyfriend on YM while playing Sims Social, and suddenly this person D.N…I don’t know if that even his real name, said hi and start asking questions like he wanted to get to know me. He thinks it is okay to skip the introduction part and so sure that I’m interested to get to know him since it was in facebook where you get to know people. He started asking me some personal questions that I really am not comfortable about. Judging from his questions, he probably went through my info page and asks if I already got a job. I was thinking that maybe he wanted to offer me a job but when I ask why he wanted to know he said, “I just want to know”. I didn’t really want to share something that isn’t certain because I’m still in line with other candidates for the second interview so I said “Well, I don’t think I want to share that information with you (I put a smiley face so that he understands it)”…suddenly he was pissed and said there is no reason for me to keep it a secret and he said that with that kind of attitude, I wouldn’t go far in any job. I replied why should I tell you because I want to keep it a secret and if I tell you where I applied the job can you reassure that I get that job? I don’t tell people about this why should I tell you, a complete stranger and why the hell you want to be pissed about it? He was not satisfied and added that not all degree graduates are smart and just because I got a degree doesn’t mean that I’m not stupid. You barely know me and you call me stupid, I was pissed but I keep myself compose because I think maybe he just had a rough day or pitiful life and he was envy of how I accomplished something in my life and he does not so he pick a random victim so that he can act all superior and ticks other people to reassure he was not the only one who is miserable in this world. I said to myself, who the hell is this maniac who claims that he was right and got all the wisdom from experience and I’m a fresh meat who still got a lot to learn which I totally agree and he is in the right place to give me advices since he was smarter because he got a lot experience and all I got is a piece of degree??? He claimed that he doesn’t get a chance to further study in any university so what right he has saying I’m stupid? Clearly he doesn’t know how much a student has to endure to get a degree? He talks as in my 18 years effort to get a degree is nothing and simply come into conclusion that I’m stupid? He has no right to say that because he doesn’t even know me and doesn’t he realize calling people stupid is belittling Allah SWT works? He doesn’t pay for my courses and did not experience the hardwork that I put into, does that make him able to say those hurtful things to people he barely knows? He is actually belittle the effort of every student who work hard and sacrifice a lot so that he can satisfy his pathetic ego! He said that I shouldn’t be angry when he calls me stupid because he was right, because he has more experience than I do. I then ask if I call you stupid, would you be angry? When I called him stupid, he was crazily angry and said that I should repent and he pitied me for studying so far but has little brain. I tell you, what my lecturer said…having lots of experience doesn’t make you smart, when older people like your parents tell you what to do and don’t do things they don’t like you to is simply because they made more mistakes and have become stupid first to become smart about things later. That’s why they don’t want you to repeat the same mistakes they did because they have experience the outcomes. Calling people stupid doesn’t make you smart, it shows how stupid you are because you saying things you don’t even know and you say it to make you look smart, but really, you don’t.

Whoever wants to read our chats, I will gladly email it to you…at least you learn how to avoid people like that…and I’m so agree that the world will be a much better place if there are no people who think they are smart and say wrong things and resulted to disaster. I personally think this type of people is the one who starts the wars. They want to show how superior they are by stepping other people and ruin other people’s lives. Shame on you and please grow up before you advising people.

Do you know the difference between education and experience? Education is when you read the fine print; experience is what you get when you don't.
-Pete Seeger

muslims fashion that I found cool but afraid to try

2011-11-08T17:41:00.003+08:00

Bright colour looks fun and looks like you are promoting yourself for people to look at you. A muslimah is encourage to be modest not attracting people. Clothes like long skirt and tight leggings look fashionable. Pair a really loose blouse with a tight leggings sure look cool but it's body-hugging which is not encourage. Plus, long skirt looks nice with long sleeve tee tuck in but the silhouette of your buttocks is showing. Loose blouse is encourage when it covers the rear end. You look like a doll wearing short dress ballerina-like skirt...of course you have to wear inner but inner is body-hugging and I think the point of putting on inner is so that you are able to wear sheer material so that people cannot see your body parts. Leather jacket looks nice if its body-hugging and not baggy. I sure loves muslimah fashion these days but I need to be careful which to follow and which not, not that I'm a fashion follower..I wear what I feel comfortable with, which I also need to be careful of.

Like my cousin said, I don't want to look hot now, because I'm afraid I will feel hot hereafter..

my job interview experience

2011-11-08T16:42:00.006+08:00

Great interviews come from hardwork. I believe everyone can ace job interview if they did their homework; this includes company's profile and background, understanding of job requirements, facts and current issues about the company, etc...

For today interview, I did a thorough check on the company and its job requirement. I also read about some useful tips on what should or what not before, during and after the interview session. I even practice on what to say to my potential employer on how to promote myself and make myself employable. Among many questions ask is "tell me about yourself". It is the most ancient but almost a must in every interview meeting. I came upon a tip on how to tackle this sort of question. It's kinda a trick question, although it is not specific...you can't go randomly talking about your life. Potential employer didn't really ask about your hobbies, relationship status and how you spend your free time. They really want to hear about your previous employment (if any), work/academic achievements, what you want to get out of the job you are currently applying, your strengths...in short, you have to promote yourself and tell the employer why you are the best candidate for the job.

It is really important to come at least 20mins early before the time stated. This is because, you never know what last minute business that might occur, for example, my friend arrive about an hour early to his interview meeting, he got lost finding HR department as the email he received about the venue is not specific, once he got there, he realize he lost his resume...he thought it might have slipped while he was busy looking for the venue, thus he rush to the nearest cybercafe and print out his resume. By the time he arrive, he was still 15mins early. As for me, I arrive 35mins early. I panicked when the road is heavy with traffic jams and thankfully I made it as planned. It took me 15mins to go around looking for the office. By the time I arrived, I was panting and all the facts about the company that I've memorized, slipped away. I took a seat with the rest of the candidates, calm myself and retrieve information that I've already memorized..but most importantly, never be late for an interview. If you get a strict future employee, you can say goodbye to your application because first impression is always important.

During the interview, I did what I read on interview tips. But as they say, you can plan but you never know what's gonna happen. The interviewer at first seem impressed on how I answer his question and how I deliver it. I was confident but not overly confident, I was calm and collected. But then, the interviewer seems to be interested on what I did during my break because I've been jobless for almost half a year. So I blabber about my online business and I accidently said that I don't want to work under people forever, I want to have my own business at an early age and so. It's too late to take it all back. I worriedly think that he must be thinking that I only work so that I can support my business which is not good. I hurriedly said that I don't want to stop the business if anything happen, because if I start committing to something, I'm all out and I give my best and I don't like things that are halfway done. I hope that repair the damage.

After the session ended, I got confuse on the outcome. He said that I have to undergo another interview, to discuss which department I will be assigned to. Did I get the job?

to be cont....

what a girl wants

2011-10-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

a day before convocation

2011-10-24T01:35:00.004+08:00

What's so syiok on the 25th? It's my convocation of course! YAY!

I'm currently super duper excited about it and went on googling convocation. Apparently, convocation means "calling together" in Latin.

It's 1:30 in the morning and I'll be in shah alam for approximately in another 12 hours. To tell how overly excited I am about my convocation, I can't sleep, thus I decided to tried on countless hijab style to wear on the Big Day. I go through loads of youtube videos showing hijab tutorial and ended up with my own style. I picked points from here and there. I guess you can't really copycat others' style of wearing hijab as we are physically different. I tried loads of style but none really suits me. Alright then, I'm off packing bags now.
I'll be wearing purple. Will post pics of my Big Day.