Coming Up Roses: The Bachelor

Sean Lowe and Catherine Giudici Talk About Finding Love and 'DWTS'

2013-03-12T11:14:39-04:00

The newest couple from "The Bachelor", Sean Lowe and Catherine Giudici, took some time to speak with me about their love story and what's next for them following their appearance on "Live with Kelly and Michael" this morning!

They are just as sweet as can be and in LOVE! They didn't stop holding hands the entire time I spoke to them. In fact, I asked them what they were looking forward to doing once they were done with all of the press for the show and they said just holding hands and going to the movies and dinner.

WATCH THE INTERVIEW BELOW

Catherine does plan to move to Dallas to live with Sean, but for the short-term, they'll be staying in Los Angeles together while Sean competes on "Dancing with the Stars"! The funny thing is, Sean has no dance experience while Catherine actually loves to dance and is probably pretty good at it. Hopefully she can give him some pointers!

Check out this bling! It's a Neil Lane cushion cut diamond engagement ring. Catherine said that she's thrilled with the ring and is excited to plan her TV dream wedding with Sean. They both say they want a traditional style wedding and just want to make sure there is a lot of fun for their guests.

We'll have to stay tuned to find out when this wedding will take place. ABC is working out the details to find air-time that works with the couple's schedule. One thing's for sure, we'll have to wait until after this season of "DWTS" and then I'm sure they'll need a little planning time.

Best of luck to the happy couple!

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

'Bachelor' Sean Lowe to Dance on 'Dancing with the Stars'!

2013-03-12T09:05:29-04:00

This just in from ABC! -

Sean Lowe is going from “T he Bachelor” to the ballroom. The newly-engaged “Bachelor” will compete on the new season of “Dancing With The Stars.”

The announcement was made live on “Good Morning America” today after Monday night's dramatic three-hour finale where Lowe dropped down on one knee and proposed to finalist Catherine Guidici. Guidici accepted the proposal and the sparkling Neil Lane diamond engagement ring that Lowe presented her at the final rose ceremony in Thailand.

“I am so tired of keeping secrets, but now they’re all out,” Lowe said today on “GMA,” referring to his new “Dancing” gig and to having to keep his relationship with Guidici a secret for months.

Now that he’s found a real-life partner, Lowe will pair up on “DWTS” with professional dancer Peta Murgatroyd on the dance floor. Murgatroyd, who has competed with Gilles Marini, won the mirror ball trophy on season 14 with contestant Donald Driver.

Lowe joins 11 other celebrity contestants who will take to the dance floor on the season 16 premiere on Monday, March 18 on ABC. Music legend Wynonna Judd, former “Idol” finalist Kellie Pickler, reality TV star Lisa Vanderpump, comedian Andy Dick, and NFL star Jacoby Jones are among the headliners.

Wow, he is a busy, busy guy! Don't forget, a little later this morning, I'll have a full interview with Sean and Catherine so please check back!

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

Sean Lowe Finds Love on "The Bachelor"

2013-03-11T23:28:15-04:00

The big finale kicked off in Thailand and Sean’s family was there to meet both of the remaining ladies: Catherine and Lindsay.

Catherine was up first to meet his parents, sister, brother-in-law and niece. She talked about how she played football on an all boys team in 6^th grade. Her conversation with them was short-lived as Sean’s mom pulled Catherine away to see if she could figure out if there was passion between them. Catherine told mom about how she gave him notes and how that sparked their relationship. She told his mom that if he were to propose, she would say YES! His mother said that she would love her to be part of the family. Later she said that she wants Sean to spend more time with her or Lindsay before actually proposing to either of them.

Catherine told Sean’s dad that she has a great time with Sean and it completely consumed by him and that she does believe in “The Bachelor” process. She says that she wants to fight for their relationship and wants a best friend for life. His dad told her that he would love her like his daughter if it is her that Sean picks and that he’s her biggest fan. Wow. Dad is totally on board.

Lindsay had her turn with the family. They had read about her coming out of the limo in a wedding dress and they asked her about that right away in a light-hearted manner. Lindsay spoke with Sean’s dad one-on-one right away and he asked her a lot of marriage counseling questions basically. But he quickly switched gears and said that when Sean was born, they prayed for his future wife every day and wondered if she might have been the person they were praying for. WOW, that is heavy! She asked for his dad’s blessing and he said, “If it’s cool with him, you got it baby”. Ha!

Sean’s mom wanted to know if they had the kind of relationship where they can not only have fun but have serious conversations. She said that she liked that Lindsay has a lot of the same values as Sean and that’s really important to her. Lindsay said that meeting his family made her very emotional because he’s so amazing and then add in his wonderful family and it’s just over the top. His mom said that she loved her right off the bat.

His family told him that they loved them both. They really couldn’t give him a clear-cut answer. His mother said that she wants him to be 100% sure before he proposes and she doesn’t think he knows what he wants to do at this point. His mom started to cry and told him it is a huge decision and she just really wants him to think about it. His mom said they would love whoever he chooses, but if it were her, she wouldn’t be able to make this kind of a decision in just three days.

Lindsay had her last date with Sean first. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or bad thing. I think that maybe being the last date is better because you are more on his mind? They went for a little raft ride on a river and sipped champagne. I think the cameras have made them immune to the idea of when PDA is acceptable ha. The poor guys rowing the raft got quite the make out show.

Later, they had some alone time back at Sean’s room and talked about how much they like each other and how they both have every aspect that they want in a husband or wife. Too perfect? Or a perfect match? Sean is doing a lot of forehead kissing…and he told her not to be nervous about losing him. I think the only time they are kissing kissing is when she goes in for it. I just think this doesn’t look great for her. It was super cute when Lindsay took out some floating lanterns that they lit up and released into the sky with their wishes wrote on them. And with that, they floated off into the night sky.

Sean said that going into his date with Catherine he was looking for a sign. He did feel like he was falling in love with Lindsay though and that was confusing to him. An elephant walked right up to them and they got to ride the elephant! They rode it to a place where they could spend some time talking. Catherine told him that thinking about the future together is really fun especially when in the next few months they could have having engagement parties and stuff, and Sean smiled and seemed to be on the same page.

Later, Catherine prepared to bare her soul to Sean. Sean told her it was one of the coolest days of his life. She told Sean that was nervous to put herself out there because he can’t fully express how he feels, but because there is so much on the line she wanted to tell him how she felt and that she is comfortable with him. She told him meeting his family blew her mind. He told her that she is constantly on his mind and that he pictures his life with her and that he thinks she is incredible. She told him that she can’t see it going any other way then her accepting his proposal in the end. He was kissing her face hardcore.

In the hallway, she finally whispered to him, “Sean, I love you.” It was so sweet. She really does. She said that she was hoping to see a glimmer in his eye or something, but she didn’t. She said she feels like something is coming down on her and it is painful. He followed after her as he saw her walking back and she was crying and he asked her what was the matter, and didn’t they have fun. Well of course Sean, but it is so hard! She doesn’t know if you are going to dump her! Catherine was then thrown off and she felt like she needed some reciprocation. Catherine said she doesn’t want to go back home and live alone again. How sad! She has to remember that he can’t say it back yet until the final day.

Then it was time for the Neil Lane commercial, ahem, I mean, it was time for Sean to pick out an engagement ring for the lady he chooses. They are BEAUTIFUL rings! He picked the cushion cut ring in the pave setting. That’s the one I would have picked too! Sean said that he feels full of joy and happiness and he’s ready to dedicate his life to one woman.

Lindsay looked beautiful in her silvery dress, and I especially liked her earrings. She seems very confident that Sean is going to pick her. Catherine wore a gold one shouldered dress and she was completely FREAKED out. She wants to be excited she says but she is overwhelmed. She’s scared to go into an unknown situation.

It was time for the car rides…who will get out first?! Sean said it’s the first time that he has to break up with someone and he has no reason to give her. He said he’s dreading seeing the look of disappointment on her face. The car pulled up and Lindsay got out! OH! Poor Lindsay! She thinks it’s the best day of her life, but it’s really the worst day, ugh! It is just heartbreaking. He told her that she was such a surprise, he didn’t see her coming and didn’t know the depth that he would find with her.

Then he said UM…and you could see the look on her face. He told her it was the toughest thing he has ever had to do, he said he wants to give her his heart, but his heart is leading him somewhere else. He said he didn’t know what he was going to do as of yesterday, but he thinks he’s gotten some clarity and that he has to say goodbye to her. He told her that he loves her, he knows he does, but he’s sorry. She graciously said its ok, and then said, please just don’t but it’s ok. She asked him if it was her and he promised her it wasn’t her, and that he can’t think of one thing about her that it wasn’t, but he just said sorry. She said she was just going to leave because it’s a nightmare, but that she couldn’t imagine her life without him and she needs to figure that out. She took her shoes off and walked to the car with him. He told her he was sorry and that he was blessed to know her and she continued to walk with Chris Harrison to the car and he just stood in the walkway crying.

In the car, Lindsay cried of course, and said that she knows this feeling she’s felt it 100 times and that she feels like an idiot because she fell in love and her heart got broken. She said it wasn’t fair because he dangled everything she’s ever wanted in front of her and then broke up with her and took it away. She said it’s really sad. She said that she’s happy for them but she wants to grow old with someone and have a family.

Chris Harrison came back out and told him that he had a letter for him from Catherine. It was a letter saying how perfect she thinks he is and how she wants to be a wife and not only a wife but his wife. She just laid it all on the line and told him that she would move to Dallas for him and that he has her heart and she will love him forever if he will let her. It was a sweet letter!

Catherine walked towards Sean and he smiled when he saw her. She was really scared as she walked up to him, but right away, Sean was smiling and told her that it was a crazy journey and that he knew from the beginning that she was someone he wants to be around. He told her that he thinks the world of her and that he misses her every time they say goodbye and that he doesn’t want to say goodbye anymore. He said, “Catherine I want to spend the rest of my life telling you that I love you and making you feel like the most special beautiful woman in the world.” Then he got down on one knee and asked her to marry him!!!! She said “YES!”

He told her that he loves her so much and they were so happy kissing! It was one of the best “Bachelor” moments ever! She told him that she’s so addicted to him. Then he picked up the rose and asked her if she would accept his final rose and she said “Yes” again! He also told her that he loved her letter. Ha, then an elephant showed up and they rode off into the sunset on an elephant.

And the crowd went wild. It was a LIVE “After the Final Rose” special, and Chris Harrison promised surprises! He also announced that they would tell everyone who the new “Bachelorette” is!

Sean came out and said that he can’t wait for Catherine to come out and be with her all the time because they had to be in hiding since the show wrapped. He also said that he found it hard to find the words to say to Lindsay when he was breaking up with her. He said he still doesn’t have a reason other than that he is in love with Catherine.

Lindsay came out to face Sean and looked beautiful. She said that she’s doing well but it’s a lot to take in. She said it’s hard to see him again. He told her that she is phenomenal in every way but he fell in love with Catherine and wants to spend his life with her. She added that she was happy for him, but “What made “us” not exactly what you wanted?” Lindsay asked. Sean said that he prayed a lot and said that there was something about Catherine that just made him not want to say goodbye to her. He told her he knew after their final one-on-one date. He said it wasn’t anything in particular he just knew that Catherine was the one.

Catherine came out and had her ring on! She said she was just so excited to be public with their engagement. They talked about how happy they are! It was very sweet. It was kind of funny that they were both mentioning how much they couldn’t wait to watch the playback of his proposal and their engagement. When he was asked about the note, he said that it took him two paragraphs to realize that it was a good letter and not a breakup letter.

After watching the video of their engagement, Sean and Catherine announced that they would have their wedding on TV! Yay! We get another “Bachelor” wedding! They are working on coordinating a date. I was secretly hoping that they would get married tonight, but I think that would probably not be enough airtime ha ha. Chris Harrison said that he is ordained and egged them on to get married tonight, but they said they want their friends and family there. Chris Harrison commented that not many people come off the show, if any, ready to get married right out of the gate.

Desiree came out next and guess what? She’s the new “Bachelorette”! Let’s hope her brother doesn’t ruin this for her too! I think she will be a wonderful “Bachelorette”!

Thanks for reading this season, I’ll be back tomorrow with an interview with Sean and Catherine! I’m so excited to bring you that, and of course, any updates as I get them.

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

It's He Said, She Said, on 'The Women Tell All'

2013-03-04T22:15:52-05:00

It’s the episode most fans love to hate, “The Women Tell All”. It started off with the studio audience cheering for Sean and cheering for the fact that he takes his shirt off so much. Then, Sean and Chris Harrison showed videos of them surprising viewers at their “Bachelor” viewing parties! That would be really fun to watch with them! The best was when they surprised a sorority house…think “Oprah’s Favorite Things” surprised ha ha!

Next, the ladies were all introduced. Some of them I have zero recollection of. They all started to talk about Tierra and it was basically what you would expect.

Then, Tierra came out to try and defend herself. She basically blamed her ridiculous behavior on being nervous. Um, ok. She also blames getting the first rose for putting a target on her back. Chris Harrison asked her if she is often misunderstood and she said no. She also said there is nothing she wants to apologize for.

The ladies quickly fired back at her. Robyn called her delusional. Jackie said that Tierra was just there to be fake. Selma said that she tried to protect her, but then once she was so rude to her she gave up. She basically said hello to her and Tierra ignored her. Tierra said that she just doesn’t remember.

She and AshLee also spoke about her telling Sean about her problems with all of the women in the house. Tierra tried to tell AshLee that she lied to her, and Tierra was like, “Whatever I say, it’s always wrong.” I find this whole segment annoying. Tierra’s annoying and this drama is so back and forth it’s crazy.

Tierra confirmed that she is now engaged. She said that she already knew this man. She said that after they broke up, she did the show, and then got engaged after. She didn’t want to comment when Chris Harrison asked her when she got engaged. After saying that and the crowd seemingly sighing, she said back in January.

Sarah was in the hot seat next. She said it was hard to watch her journey on the show. She added that she loved that Sean didn’t pay much attention to the fact that she has just one arm and that can be hard to find. She really thought that he could have been her future husband. She’s such a sweet girl.

Desiree said that she just wants to make someone happy and she’s sure she could have made Sean happy. I want her to think a little more about herself and feel a little more entitled to something great than just hoping it will happen for her. She said her brother was very protective and skeptical and he does regret the way he acted apparently.

AshLee said that she loved Sean and if he had proposed to her she would have said “yes” in a heartbeat. AshLee said she left without saying anything to him because she was so upset and he had been telling her that he saw a life with her. She added that she’s not in love with him anymore and she’s reeled in her feelings. She thought that he was a gentleman with her and acted like a “frat boy” with some of the others.

When Sean came out, she asked him what happened. He complimented her hair, but told her that she was his frontrunner in the beginning. But, he felt like he couldn’t find laughter with her and he wants someone who can really be his best friend. He said he hated seeing her leave the way she did. She said she left like that because she didn’t know what to say and she said that she wishes he would have told her sooner. She was also upset that he never checked on her to see how she was in Curacao. He said that he knew she would be ok and thought it would have made things worse.

She asked him why he said absolutely no feelings for them (meaning the other two). She said “Twice you never said that?” He denied it and he said, “come on”. She said that he said, “There’s nothing between us (the other two women)?” and AshLee said that she wasn’t making it up, and Sean said he never said it and he’s not agreeing with what she said, “On the record”. Wow, that’s crazy. As they went to break you could hear him saying, “I have absolutely no idea what you were talking about” to AshLee.

They went back and forth and back and forth. She said she would never call him out for that if it wasn’t true. She says he also said, “I’ll tell you every day” in reference to what he said after she told him that she loved him. He added once the break was over that he must have said “something” that misled AshLee and that he was sorry.

To Desiree, he said that he loves how positive and happy she is. He said that after she was sent home everyone beat him up on social media. He told her that “sometimes she would hide things behind her smile” and she wouldn’t let him in completely. Even with the brother he thinks it was the right decision at the time and in the end.

After a recap of his final two ladies, Catherine and Lindsay, the show was over. Next week looks like it’s going to have a very dramatic finale. I just had a thought, maybe the letter is from his mother? Let’s hope he finds his love! It’s a three-hour finale starting at 8 p.m. next Monday.

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

First Look at Finale Photos, and the Final Two Ladies' Dresses!

2013-02-28T20:40:23-05:00

The big "Bachelor" finale is coming up in about a week and a half, and we're getting a first look at some preview photos from the big finale!

First, here's Sean. I'm guessing this is just after he said "goodbye" to the woman he didn't pick. He looks kind of upset there and if you'll notice the rose is still behind him!

Then there is Lindsay, she looks beautiful in her silvery blue dress.

Catherine chose a gold, one-shouldered style dress to wear.

Which woman is walking towards a proposal and which will have to take the awkward walk back to the limo to get driven away while crying? We won't know until Monday, March 11. This Monday we will hear from all of the women Sean didn't pick in "The Women Tell All" special.

Feel free to leave your comments by clicking COMMENT below!

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,
Jennifer Matarese

A Tough Goodbye For Sean as he Narrows the Field to Two Women

2013-02-25T22:10:16-05:00

It’s time for the fantasy overnight dates in the South of Thailand!

Sean’s first date was with Lindsay. They took a ride in a motorcycle cart around town and did a lot of kissing, that poor driver, it’s like he wasn’t even there! They went to a local market place and they saw some neon painted chicks, tried some strange fruits and bought some local goods. Everything was going fine until Sean took Lindsay to a stand that had bowls full of cooked bugs! Disgusting! If he doesn’t love you regardless of whether or not you try the bugs, he’s not the guy for you! Seriously, this girl wants to marry Sean so bad! She ate the bug! Barf! How can they want to kiss each other after eating those bugs!?

They left the market when it started to rain and they walked along the beach to an open spot and plopped down for a picnic. The weather didn’t look so great, but they didn’t seem to mind. Sean told her that she’s the best friend that he’s been looking for. Wow, that is a big statement! You can tell she is just over-the-moon happy with him. They also got to feed monkeys on the beach! They took the food right out of their hands! It was amazing! It really was a perfect date and it seems like the other ladies have their work cut out for them.

In the evening, they went to a lit up garden and had a special dinner. Sean told her that he thinks that they had a perfect date and he hoped for more of the same in the evening. Just as Lindsay is about to tell Sean her feelings, a bunch of dancers come out and put on a show. After they left, Sean gave her the date card that offered the fantasy suite. She accepted, saying that she would love to spend more time with him. It was a beautiful room and opting for it will give them time to get to know each other without all the cameras around. Lindsay had a hard time saying the words, but she finally said, “I love you”. He said, “I love hearing you say that.” OK, that is not what I would want to hear back, but I realize he can’t say it back.

Next on the roster was AshLee. Sean picked her up in a boat and whisked her away in the water. They headed to a cave! It did look very scary! AshLee of course was terrified. She is just a little too serious I think. Nothing ever seems “fun” with her. They go through the cave and it was pretty cool inside. Finally, they found the light and headed out of the tunnel and onto a private beach.

Once it was dark out, they had a romantic beachside dinner by candlelight. Sean told her that he can see the rest of his life with her more and more every time she’s with him. He’s really saying a lot of nice things to these ladies, but I hope he’s keeping in mind that he’s going to have to send one of them home! She seemed a little unsure about what to do about the fantasy suite card, but Sean told her that he just wanted to stay up all night talking. AshLee said that she worried that she didn’t want a boundary to be crossed and she said that she thought they both knew where each other stands and she totally trusts him, so she accepted the suite!

Lastly, it was time for Catherine’s fantasy date! They set sail on a huge sailboat! They spent a lot of time talking on the boat about how they love being silly together, but then it turned to Catherine reassuring Sean that she is ready for a long-term commitment. She said her friends are a better judge of her than her sister and that because she feels she can be herself 100% around him she feels much better about her ability to commit to him. He seemed to really love her answer.

At the dinner, Catherine said that it was frustrating that he couldn’t tell her how he feels and that she just has to put herself out on the line. He told her, “I can tell you that I could see myself marrying you.” She was a little taken aback by that! That was something he hasn’t said so bluntly to the other girls. It’s hard for Catherine to be the pursuer rather than the one being chased, but if she wants to be with him she’s going to have to put herself all out there. She also decided to accept the fantasy suite card and they spent some time in the pool kissing! They seem very at ease together, there’s definitely something there!

All of a sudden, Chris Harrison broke up the flow of the show to give a preview of “Oz, the Great and Powerful”. After that preview, Chris Harrison had a sit down with Sean in Thailand. He spoke to Chris about who he planned to send home and said that he was sure about who he wanted to send home and that it’s going to be very difficult. It kills him inside and that she’s one of the sweetest women he’s ever met in his life. No one likes to break people’s hearts or be a jerk, but sometimes you have to. That’s the name of the game here.

Each of thegirls left Sean a video before the big elimination, and Sean was visibly upset while watching AshLee’s video. AshLee cried several times and said that she was no longer broken because of him and that she will always love him…does this mean trouble for her? Or was he just taking in all of the videos?

Then it was upon him. He had to make his big decision. He said he was let go by Emily at this point and that he was blindsided. He said he felt awful that he was about to do the same thing to one of them and it kills him. As he picked up a rose, Lindsay let out an expletive…classy. Nevertheless, Lindsay got the first rose. The second and final rose went to Catherine. He took FOREVER to say her name. I would have yelled, “Just say it already!” Poor AshLee makes the walk of shame this week.

Without a word, she walked towards Sean and headed for the car. She told him, just say there and yet he followed after her. He told her that he thought it was her from the very beginning and that she hoped he knew where he was coming from and that he didn’t want to hurt her. She stood there glaring at him and then just said, “Alright” and got in the car.

Inside the car she said it wasn’t about a silly game to her and laughter and having fun. Well, maybe if she had a little more fun she would still be there. It was way too heavy of a situation on each and every date with her. She’s just way more serious of a personality than what Sean is looking for. I think he wants someone to have fun with and be lighthearted with.

Next week, it’s “The Women Tell All” episode. Of course there’s a lot of talk about Tierra, we get to see if Sarah is still heartbroken, Desiree gets to ask him some more questions, and AshLee will have her chance to have closure with Sean as well. Then in two weeks, it’s the big finale! Who do you think will get the final rose?

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

Sean Tells All!

2013-02-19T22:05:04-05:00

There are just three women left, Lindsay, Catherine and AshLee, and next week Sean will travel with them to Thailand. But tonight, Chris Harrison sat down with Sean to find out where his head is at and why he made some of the decisions he has made along the way so far.

They revisited last night’s confrontation with Desiree’s brother Nate and Sean said that in that circumstance he really wanted to punch the guy. He said attacking his character is the fastest way to get him heated. The weird thing is he actually had a great conversation with Sean in the beginning of the night, but then later he changed his tune for some reason. That’s why Sean was really thrown for a loop. Sean said, “Ultimately, I just chalked it up to him being a jackass.” Sean said that although he wishes it didn’t influence his decision, it did. He didn’t want to be a part of a family with him in it. He also said that there were some areas of his relationship with Desiree that were lacking a little bit, but not being able to see himself in her family was the biggest reason. Poor Desiree.

Then Sean talked about his time with Sarah. He talked about how much he admired her and how he felt bad that she couldn’t balance well on the roller derby date because she has one arm. She did a great job on the date anyway. Sean talked about how he really admired her but he didn’t feel like he loved her because when they kissed, there was no passion. He said it broke his heart when he watched the show back and she talked about how she knew exactly what Sean was going to say and how she worried that she would never meet someone. He said again that he knows that she will meet someone amazing.

Sean spoke about his chemistry with Selma and how he still had to let her go. He said that he respected the fact that she couldn’t kiss him due to her culture. They did Eskimo kisses and eyelash butterfly kisses, but on the night he sent her home, she kissed him! Sean said that he didn’t expect her to kiss him because they could have so many other times. He said unfortunately he already realized that she wasn’t going to be his wife. He even thought that after their one-on-one she might be the one, but later he didn’t think that it would work out long-term.

Lesley had a very long; in fact the longest on-screen kiss with Sean. It’s in the record books! Sean said that he loved the kiss so much it felt like 30 seconds instead of 3 minutes. They showed a funny moment when they were eating brownies. It was hilarious that they were talking dirty over brownies. Everything seemed so perfect, so Chris Harrison asked him what went wrong? Sean said that it became awkward because she wouldn’t express herself as far as her feelings go. So, she had to go.

Sean’s sister was instrumental in finally getting Tierra to go home. She provided him the clarity in that situation that he needed. He thought he needed a third party assessment and when he went to get her, he walked into a hornets nets. He assured people that he wishes he would have kept Jackie on the 2-on-1 date instead of Tierra. He said that he feels like a fool looking back but there was a lot, A LOT, that he didn’t see when he was in the situation.

Then there was a bunch of outtakes and scenes that didn’t make the show. It was fun to watch but nothing to important to talk about. However, they got back down to business and talked about what he plans to do with his fantasy suite dates and will he get physical. To that question he answered, “It’s really none of your business.” True, true, but we needy fans want to know every detail!

In a preview of the last two episodes, it showed a lot of kissing with the final three ladies. It looks like there are going to be some very tough decisions ahead for Sean but it seems he had a pretty easy time deciding who the final one would be. He picks out a ring but someone gives him a letter. I wonder if it is the woman he picks or if it is the woman he knows he wants to let go anyway. Then, they ended the show with Sean taking a shower for a full minute or so. I’m not kidding. It was fabulous.

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,

Jennifer Matarese

Hometown Dates are Game Changers for Sean

2013-02-18T22:10:31-05:00

It is hometown date week on “The Bachelor”! Hooray, these are always the best, or worst!

AshLee was up first with her date in Houston, Texas. They started with a traditional picnic in a field with AshLee’s little dog Bailey ready to give Sean lots of kisses. They talked a lot about what they like about each other and after kissing each other a lot (smooch, smooch, SMOOCH) he asked AshLee to trust him with her heart. Moving forward, they skipped through the field with the dog and then headed to her parents house.

Later, they met AshLee’s parents who seemed very welcoming and sweet. They had a nice time chatting with her parents about their “Polar Bear Plunge”…and then it got really awkward. She started telling her parents about how they were “rolling around in the sand” on the beach together and they got quite intimate. Yikes! Her mother point blank asked him if he planned to break her heart. He said he did not, and let’s hope he’s true to his word! Something tells me mom was easy and dad is going to be the tough one!

Dad told him that he wanted to know if he loved her and he said that he is crazy about her but did not say “love”. Dad also told him that he hopes he never bumps into him around town because he would have to hurt him if he breaks up with AshLee. They talked about how he signed the papers to allow a 17-years-old AshLee get married to her boyfriend when she was in high school. Sean asked her father if he could propose to AshLee if that’s where their relationship is going, and he told Sean they would welcome him to the family. It was a great conversation!

Her dad also shared the story about the first time he met AshLee and what led for them to adopt her. It brought tears to my eyes! He just wants the man who marries her to instantly fall in love with her the way he did and just be good to her. She has a wonderful family! This hometown date is going to be a tough one to beat.

Sean headed to Seattle next for his date with Catherine. Seattle is a super fun city! Sean said, “When I’m with Catherine, I can see my wife.” Wow, that’s a strong statement! Sean caught some fish at the Public Market and didn’t miss once. It’s very smelly but fun there! Then Catherine had to go and she dropped the first one, but then got the next one one-handed! Not bad! They walked around and seemed like a “real couple”. They have so much fun together, it’s crazy! I really think that could last in the “real world” too.

Sean met Catherine’s two sisters, her mom and her grandmother. He took part in a lot of their Filipino traditions and learned about her family’s culture. He really seemed to have a great time with her grandmother too! Catherine was a little disappointed that she had to spend a lot of time defending her relationship with Sean to her sisters when she just wanted to be excited and happy. She then got worried that they might ruin her chances with him.

The sisters told Sean that they didn’t see Catherine wanting children right away, but that if someone supports all of her dreams she will be all into the relationship. He also thought they had a long pause when he asked them if she was ready for something serious. They told him that she’s messy and very moody with extreme highs and lows. Yikes! That’s not exactly an endorsement.

Her mom told him that she doesn’t want her to get hurt and Sean said that he thinks the world of her. He agreed that he would not lead her on. He asked for her mother’s blessing, and she basically said there are three other women still so let’s just see what happens. He never really got the blessing because her family seemed very skeptical. Sean said he hated the things that her sisters told him and he became unsure about how to move forward with things.

Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri was Sean’s third stop. Lindsay’s dad is a Major General so he had to go meet up with her on an Army base. They spent some time walking around the town. He said that he felt like a couple with her as they went through the town. He added that he thinks that she’s ready to get married and ready to have a family. He was worried about what to call her dad, Mr., General, hey you…there were a lot of options there.

Lindsay made Sean change into some Army workout clothes and do some boot camp exercises, although there certainly was a lot of kissing in between! Then, they headed off to meet her dad, mom, and brother.

Lindsay told her parents that she got out of the limo on the first night in a wedding dress and they laughed so much. He explained to her parents how he just appreciates her sense of humor. Her mom told Sean she noticed that “things are happening” and when her mom asked him if he was in love with Lindsay, he said he’s not in a position to say that yet because when he does he wants it to be to the woman he plans to marry.

Her dad told Sean he doesn’t want to see his daughter get hurt. Sean told him that he basically can’t guarantee anything at this point but he wanted to know if he could have his blessing should he propose to Lindsay. The general said that it was a tough question and he wasn’t sure that he had an answer to it, but told him if that’s what they want to do then he has his blessing. As long as Lindsay says yes of course! Sean said that he found the general to be a great guy. Her dad even gave Sean some identification “dog” tags to remember his visit there. What a wonderful visit! Just when you think it couldn’t get any better, Lindsay dropped the “L” bomb!

Lastly, Sean met up with Desiree in Los Angeles. She decided to take him on a hike, which should be right up his alley. They had a great time together and spent a lot of time taking in the sites and kissing.

That night they headed over to her house and she showed him that she did all of the artwork at her house! It’s really good! They cooked dinner for her family together which was really sweet. Then, there was a knock at the door. It was apparently an old boyfriend who was telling her that he loves her and then Sean stepped in and was like “I’m standing right here” and his heart was racing. Then, Desiree revealed that it was all a prank to get back at him for that whole breaking the sculpture on their first one-on-one date! Ha! She got him good. The guy was just an actor.

At last, her family arrived. It was her mom, dad and brother, Nate that came to meet Sean. Her parents were very cute although her brother seemed to have a chip on his shoulder since the minute he walked in the door. Her mom seemed very excited about the prospects of this relationship. Sean had a great talk with her father who said that he thought Sean would be a great son-in-law.

Desiree had a chat with her brother and she told him that she felt that like she had the most stable, real relationship with Sean. He told his sister that he didn’t think that this was real, it was stupid, and if it was her in the end, he didn’t see it working out. Then Nate asked Sean if he could talk to him.

They went outside and Nate told him that he didn’t see the reciprocation in his feelings towards his sister. He said he didn’t see a connection. Sean tried to be nice about it and told him he’s sorry he’s picking up on those vibes. Nate told him that he thinks that he’s a playboy and he’s having fun with the circumstances. Sean told him that’s not him and Nate said he’s not buying it. Wow. This really sucks for him. Sean told him that his character and his integrity is number one for him and he’s being genuine.

Sean and Nate went back inside and mom and Desiree were like, “Did you scare Sean?” and Sean said, “Everything is fine”. Desiree told her brother to stop being “honest” and just leave it alone. So then Desiree’s poor parents tried to make things mellow out by talking about the weather and they seemed very embarrassed by their son’s behavior. Sean said it’s hard not to picture how things would be as a member of her family with a brother that he doesn’t get along with. It was really rough. Poor Desiree and her jerk of a brother. Her dad even defended Sean to Nate after he left and told him, “You’re way off the mark”. If Desiree does get hurt it will be partly because of Nate so I hope he’s happy with himself.

Once back at the mansion, Sean talked with Chris Harrison about his week. He said it comes down to Catherine and Desiree. He said that the situation with Nate rattled him and the things Catherine’s sisters said about her worry him and that she is very independent and a lot of career goals. He’s just not sure if she is ready to settle down.

Time for roses! But wait, Desiree pulled Sean aside and told him that she needed to apologize for her brother’s rudeness and she just cried. Sean said he knew that it wasn’t her, it was her brother’s actions, and he gave her a hug.

Sean gave roses to: AshLee, Lindsay, and lastly…there was another surprise. Sean just puts down the last rose and walks out of the room! He goes back into the deliberation room and starts staring at Catherine and Desiree’s pictures. Sean told Chris that he’s got two wonderful women and he can see his life with both of them and he doesn’t know who to send home. Chris told him to take his time and get it right and they would be waiting out in the room for him.

Sean walked back into the room, picked up the rose, and without saying anything else just uttered Catherine. She accepted the rose and poor Desiree just stood there. Chris Harrison even had to breathe a heavy sigh after that one! He told her to take a moment and say her goodbyes and then Sean walked her out. She told him that she thinks that he is making a big mistake and he said he might be. He said he has to trust the decision he is making is the best for her and for him. Again, she told him that “100%” he was making a huge mistake and she got into the limo and left. He told her that he is going to miss her so much and she said, “Then don’t let me go”, but he did. And Desiree, that’s how you know he’s not for you, he let you go!

This process is certainly getting harder for Sean. He had to stand outside for quite a while to collect himself before he went back inside. Desiree is a sweet girl and she will find someone who is right for her I’m sure. Tomorrow night, Sean Tells All. It begins at 9 p.m. on ABC. They also showed a preview of next week’s dates in Thailand and it looks like it’s going to be a wild, emotional ride.

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,
Jennifer Matarese

Finally! Sean Comes to His Senses!

2013-02-11T22:16:49-05:00

This is the last episode before the crucial hometown dates next week. This is a very big week and these ladies need to make a big impression. Tierra, being the drama queen that she is, set up a cot in the living room of the hotel suite so she didn’t have to share space with the other women. How petty.

The first date card was for AshLee and it said, “Let’s get carried away”. Tierra was being really critical of AshLee being 32 and not being married yet. Something tells me that Tierra might be much older than that by the time she gets married and she should watch what she says. Sean and AshLee swam out to a boat. She said in her interview that she just loves and adores who he is…aww!!! AshLee did tell Sean what she thinks about Tierra and gave him the best explanation yet as to why Tierra is not for him. He said he actually does believe what she is saying about Tierra.

There was some steamy beach kissing between AshLee and Sean! Wow! They are so sweet together!

Another date card arrived. It was for Tierra, “Let’s explore our love on the streets of St. Croix.” Tierra was not excited about her date. She said she doesn’t want to get bit by bugs and would rather go on a boat. SHEESH! There’s no pleasing some people.

Back on AshLee’s one-on-one with Sean; they had a romantic dinner on the beach. AshLee broke the news to Sean that 15 years ago she had a boyfriend at the time and while things were difficult with her parents, she got married when she was 17 years old. She told him that she doesn’t want poor mistakes in her past to affect her future. She was with her ex from freshman year of high school, got married their junior year, and got divorced by her senior year. Sean took it all in stride and told her that she’s perfect the way she is and he doesn’t think she is “broken” and wants her to take that word out of her vocabulary.

Sean said that he was going into his one-on-one with Tierra with a lot of questions and he wanted to figure out if she was a sweet girl or not. They went shopping in the town and she said that she was having a great time shopping with Sean. He bought her a bunch of things and that made her happy. They danced in an impromptu parade going down the street and she got to show off her fake carefree side. They got some snow cones and sat down to talk. She blamed all of the drama on the girls and he just shook his head like he understood. UGH.

Tierra said that she thought that the vibe was a little off on their date. She told him this at dinner and wanted to know why he was being so distant. He told her the drama in the house set them back a bit. She tried to save face by telling him that she’s falling for him and that she hopes he takes that into consideration. She whispered in his ear that she’s falling in love with him. I think all of America just threw up a little. Sean said he felt some sparks and thinks that she doesn’t like the other women but she’s nice to him and genuine with him so that’s all that matters. Ok buddy, just keep telling yourself that.

Catherine, Desiree and Lindsay, got the group date! Their card said, “Love is on the horizon.” That meant Lesley got the last one-on-one date. Sean came in and woke the three up early, early in the morning and they had no makeup on! Sean thought they looked great and said they looked better than him. Lindsay commented that she didn’t even have time to shave her armpits…charming!

They hopped out of Sean’s jeep and watched the sun rise! That was really cool! They were off to explore the rest of the island together. They saw all the sights. It was a day road trip. I would have barfed. Good thing I was never on this show, I don’t have the stomach for it ha-ha. It looked like they had a great time zipping all over. One of their last stops in the afternoon was a really cool tree house where they all had a lot of fun climbing and hanging out.

Lindsay said she was caught off guard by how outgoing Desiree was being with Sean and how she was really trying to get every minute with him. She’s good at the game! Take lessons ladies! They went swimming and hung out until it was time for the sunset. Sean said that he’s crazy about “the girl in the wedding dress” Lindsay and that he’s developed really strong feelings for her! Who would have guessed?! Catherine had a talk with Sean about how her dad lives in China and how he has battled depression for a long time. She added that he had a suicide attempt when she was a teenager and she told him that it’s hard for her to deal with. She said that she wanted him to know in case he wanted to meet him on her hometown date should she get one.

Desiree cried a lot when she got a chance to talk to Sean. She said it is a big deal for her to bring someone home and she wants for him to meet them. I think she came off a little nuts here, but I still like her and I think Sean does too. Despite that, Sean gave the date rose to Lindsay! So we’ll be seeing Lindsay’s hometown!

Lesley’s one-on-one date card said, “I hope our love stands the test of time.” They went and hung out in a beautiful garden to have a picnic and even picked their own avocados off of a tree! Lesley said that she’s falling in love with Sean and she plans to tell him that. He asked her about who he would meet if he goes to Arkansas and she told him about how much fun they are. He asked if there is anything that he needs to know before he goes to meet them (really if he goes there) and she took that opportunity to tell him that she has a lot of passion for him but then chickened out with dropping the L-bomb.

He was wondering why she wasn’t being that affectionate towards him and he said that he hopes things pick up. There was some kissing as they took their walk.

Sean’s sister Shay showed up and he told her about each of the women that he is dating, but he needs to go from six to four. He told her that he could see the possibility of marriage with all of them but that so far just two have told him that they love him so far, Tierra and AshLee. She told him not to end up with the one where she is watching and yelling, “Don’t end up with THAT ONE, no!” Ha ha, did she just describe Tierra word for word or what?

Tierra asked AshLee if there was anything that she wanted to share with her. She said not in particular, but Tierra kept on pressing her and telling her that she thought it was horrible that she was sabotaging her relationship. She told Tierra that men love her and that they are just jealous of her. Then there was just a lot of yelling back and forth.

Sean was still talking to his sister and he decided to go get Tierra to meet his sister. He walked in and asked where Tierra was, when he walked in he saw Tierra crying on her cot. He asked her to go with him to meet someone. She just kept telling him that she’s so scared of this whole process and she has such a big heart…blah, blah, blah. Usually when someone says they have a good heart or feel the need to talk about it, it might not be true. She told Sean that she confronted AshLee about sabotaging their relationship and Sean felt really torn at that moment I think. He seems to be sick of this whole situation.

His sister did tell him that if a girl can’t get along with other girls, that’s a big red flag. I’m glad she said that to him because enough is enough!

After walking outside to think for a few minutes, Sean went back inside and told Tierra he couldn’t keep her there knowing how hard it was for her. I’m surprised she didn’t even put up a fight! He asked her if she was OK and she said that she wasn’t. He just didn’t even know what to say. He did admit that he wasn’t shocked and it finally clicked that she wasn’t the one for him. He put her in a blue van and off she went! She cried that she couldn’t believe that he did that to her and that she wanted to go home. She said, “I hope the girls got what they wanted.” His sister was like, wow what happened? And he told his sister that Tierra was an emotional mess. “Nobody is going to take my sparkle away” were Tierra’s last words hahaha.

Funny enough, just before the rose ceremony, the other ladies did not know that Tierra had even left! They were shocked when they saw Sean walk in alone. He explained to them that he sent her home because he knew that she was a source of drama and he’s not looking for that in a partner so he had to send her home. He didn’t want a cocktail party and he said that he would see them in a few minutes to hand out roses.

Aside from Lindsay who already has a rose, roses went to Desiree, Catherine, and AshLee. Phew, she was worried she stirred up to much drama with Tierra but Sean knew who the real drama queen was. I felt bad for Lesley but their relationship just wasn’t at the same level as it was with the other girls. Catherine was crying because she thinks that Lesley had more in common with him that even she did and Lesley going home threw her for a loop.

Next week, Sean visits the hometowns and oh my goodness, it looks like Desiree’s brother doesn’t like Sean and things actually could turn into a physical confrontation! Yikes! I can’t wait for next week!

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,
Jennifer Matarese

Full Transcript of Interview with Sarah

2013-02-08T15:40:52-05:00

Here is the full transcript of the interview with Sarah from "The Bachelor"! I've highlighted in PURPLE Bill King's portion of the conference call.

Question: So, I was actually - when I - my - first of all my heart broke for you. You just - you seemed so genuinely upset in this episode. And it made me wonder like - I really - because the last time we talked to you also, you seemed so pretty genuinely not regretful about your experience. And you know - so I'm wondering if that had changed by this point in the show. And then if it had changed by this point in the show, and if you regretted it, have you kind of come 360 to not regretting it again? Or are you feeling like this was not the right decision to go on the show - or was it the right decision to go on the show?

Sarah Herron: Oh, absolutely not. Like, I have never ever regretted one moment of participating on The Bachelor. It was a really, really incredible experience for me. And you know, I like to say how a lot of times I think this show gets you know, poked fun at for using words like journey and experience and...

So, what I was just going to say about that is it actually is really and truly this life changing journey, and there's no better way to put it. And for me, it was every bit of a life changing experience. And it was very cathartic and self actualizing. And I learned so much about myself and what I'm looking for. And it - you know, (it's helped me) understand me better. And so, in no way do I regret any of the process. I think it all has helped me become who I am today. And you know, that's - it's just part of the learning curve of life. And I don't regret any second of participating on the show.

Question: Do you have a feeling at all that that week or you know, that was your - the end of your time there, that even if you had made it to - even if he let you go to the rose ceremony, that that was the time you would be going home? Or did you feel kind of completely blindsided at the moment, like it was not what you were expecting?

Sarah Herron: I definitely did not expect to be going home. I felt - I was very surprised and very caught off guard. And I did have every intention of wanting to bring Sean home and take him to Colorado and introduce him to my family. However, the week before in Montana, Sean you know, made his speech and said that he'd felt his relationship had taken a step back with a few girls and a step forward with a few other girls.

And there was a part of me, deep down, that was concerned I was - I might have been one of those girls that he was talking about. Because we were now you know, five weeks into the process or so, and it becomes difficult to continue to develop these relationships while he's developing relationships with the other girls.

So, I definitely was a little uneasy when he said he felt his relationships had taken a step back. And that's why, in Canada, I felt it - extremely important to reassure him why I was there and that I had the right intentions and that my heart was in it and I wanted to take it to the next step.

Question: So, I just want to ask you a little bit about you know, why you were so upset when Sean eliminated you. You said in your final words that you know, you were very embarrassed but I guess, was that the only reason or was there more to it than that? Like, had you actually fallen in love with Sean at that point, and is that what made you so upset?

Sarah Herron: I had very strong feelings for Sean. And I think it's just - it's human nature to feel embarrassed when you're - you know, dumped on television and you cry, and you let yourself be as vulnerable as I let myself be. You know, I don't think I've ever let America - or let alone my coworkers and friends see me as vulnerable as I was on the show. And so, you just feel a little embarrassed that you put it all out there and somebody didn't want to take it all in. And so, it was just - it was hard. And yes, it's just - it was a little embarrassing.

Question: And you know, Sean kind of thought he was doing you a favor by sending you home two days early. But at the same time, you know, he kind of singled you out and you know, kind of put you in front of the girls and (it might) - obviously, you said it was embarrassing for you, so I guess - do you agree with Sean's theory that it was best for you, in the end, to let you go two days early? Or looking back on things, do you kind of wish (he just) had stuck you around and allowed you to go through the rose ceremony and kind of go quietly? Do you know what I mean?

Sarah Herron: Absolutely not. I think Sean handled it the best way. He and I actually did have a conversation. And I said you know, if I'm one of these girls that you ever feel our relationship is taking a step back, I want to talk about it, and I want to know about it. And I think we can communicate about what's going on. And please just - I don't want to be the last girl standing at a rose ceremony without a rose, without an explanation, just you know, completely shocked.

So, he knew that I was asking for an explanation. And I think that's what he gave me. And he said here's a girl who doesn't want to be you know, strung along, and she wants to be told how it is. And he respected that. And I think it's great. And I - even though I'm not happy with the way things turned out, I respect the way he handled it. And he - I don't think he could have done it any better.

Question I wanted to ask you about Tierra's little medical emergency on the last episode. Did you believe...she was suffering from hypothermia? You were you know - since you were right there watching it all?

Sarah Herron: I think - we were all very, very cold. And knowing Tierra the way I know her now, I think she's just a very high (and sensitive) person. And she was under a lot of stress and a lot of pressure. And I think the circumstances of the group date, combined with everything that she's probably going through emotionally and psychologically, it just kind of all combusted.

And whether she overreacted or actually had hypothermia, I'm not sure. And quite frankly, at this point, I don't even really care anymore, because it just seems like every week, something - it was something else. Whereas, you know, the rest of us had no problem just embracing the cold and absorbing the adrenalin you were getting from it. It seemed - it just seemed overdramatic when she got sick.

Question: So, yes, that's how it appeared on TV. And then, obviously, you don't really know what was going through his mind, but it was such a surprise to see that Sean sent Selma home. And I was wondering if you thought that had to do with the fact that she decided not to take part in the polar bear plunge?

Sarah Herron: Yes. I have no idea what Sean's real reasonings were for sending Selma home. I think there's probably more to it than I know or any of the other girls understand or America. And definitely, maybe not participating in the polar bear plunge contributed to it, because I thing Sean really wants a girl that can you know, go with the flow and is down for some adventure. And Selma wasn't really having it.

But at the same time, like, I can't blame her. And I don't think Sean blames her, (that's just not) who she is. And she was not - she wasn't sorry about it. And she stuck to her guns. And you have to respect that. And you know I - for whatever reason they didn't work out. I'm not sure, but I'm sure there's plenty of (good reason).

Question: OK, so we want to know who you feel is best for Sean to end up with and why? And do you think they will last?

Sarah Herron: Oh, you know, watching back, I'm really starting to see the chemistry build between Sean and Catherine, which I didn't (see a whole) lot of while I was you know, in the filming process. And watching it back, I'm seeing like this really special connection between the two of them that's undeniable. And I think - I think it's great. What I'm seeing between Sean and Catherine looks pretty great.

And as far as him lasting with whoever he chooses, I think it - he will, because Sean said you know, he only wants to be engaged once. And he's not in it to mess around. He's really looking for his wife. So, I think Sean is the type of guy who's going to be very selective in who he chooses and then he's going to nurture and make sure that the relationship can withstand anything. I think, you know, he'll make it work.

Question: OK. And with all the drama with Tierra, do you think - do you still think Sean will be able to find lasting love?

Sarah Herron: With Tierra?

Question: Yes.

Sarah Herron: I don't see Tierra and Sean being much of a match at all. I think - I think he's probably very surprised, watching it back now, because I don't think he saw much of what we saw Tierra as in the house. You know, he wasn't - he wasn't seeing that. He made that clear in Tuesday's episode that he was starting to realize - he was getting a different Tierra than the girls in the house were. So, I don't - I don't personally feel a lasting connection between the two of them.

Bill King: So, a lot of what we saw of you on the show revolved around your arm. And it seemed like yourself consciousness about it came up pretty frequently, particularly with the various physical activities. Now, obviously, something you've dealt with your entire life, and I'm just wondering if that's something that actually affects your confidence on a daily basis? Or if it's something that you're more or less at peace with and it was more or less for TV?

Sarah Herron: That's a good question. Definitely, having one arm has always, always affected my self confidence. And it's definitely given me insecurities. But I have come (to peace) with it. And I know how to be myself and you know, not let it be an obstacle in my life.

And on the show, I think it came - it became a big topic, because we constantly were in these physical activities. I mean let's be honest, every single group date was you know, ok, let's milk a goat. Well, guess what, you have to have two hands to milk a goat. And canoeing, you know, I did it, but it was tough.

It - you know, nothing came easy for me. And that's ok. And I expected that that might have happened, going into the show. But you know, really, I can't say oh the show made it look like I was always talking about my arm, because really and truly, I was in situations where my arm affected my ability to participate. And it affected my confidence with Sean. So, it just was kind of unusual and unfortunate how often it came to light. But really, my day to day life is not revolved around the fact that I have one arm.

Bill King: OK. And, I think that - I mean, the viewers and America really took a liking to you. And I'm wondering if the opportunity came up to be the bachelorette, if that would be something that you would be interested in? Or if you're kind of done with the TV love thing?

Sarah Herron: I think I would have to (seriously) consider it, because, as I mentioned earlier, the experience was probably one of the most life changing experiences of my life. And like I said, I learned more about myself than I could have ever imagined. And I became more vulnerable than I've ever - being with anybody in my life.

I mean you have to consider that up until this show, I never walked around talking about my arm to anybody, anybody. And now, I can open - really talk about it. And you know, my coworkers suddenly feel more comfortable and confident talking to me about questions they might have always had, but never felt comfortable asking me.

And I feel like the show has been an outlet for just a lot of like, self discovery. On - however, I don't - I don't want to just sit around talking about my arm forever. And I don't know if I could do another whole season of that, but at the same time, like I still want to find love. Let's look at the big picture here, I'm still single. And I do want a boyfriend. And I want a husband. And I want to find that special guy. So, you know, there's still a lot to consider.

Question: So, Sean kind of seemed to determine he wanted to eliminate you when it kind of hit home for him that he may not be ready to meet your family, after you showed him all those photos. So, do you think things might have played out differently had you waited to show him the pictures until a little later on? Or, have you thought about that at all?

Sarah Herron: Yes. I've definitely thought about that. And I don't think it would have changed Sean's mind. I think Sean had a pretty good idea about his feelings for me, and his feelings for the other women. And you know, the process of this show, it moves so fast, and you need to be confident and sure of how you're feeling.

And whether I showed him photos of my family on night one or you know, at the fantasy suite, I don't think those photographs changed how he was feeling about me. I think he knew how he felt. And the photographs just probably made him realize, ok, I need to be honest with this girl sooner than later, because I don't want to hurt her.

Question: (All right). And you said in your final words, it's just sad to think about why Sean, you know, saw something in you and felt something for you at the beginning of the season, and I'm sure you've often reflected on your experience since then, and probably replayed things in your mind over the past few months, so, do you kind of a theory...on why Sean might have had the change of heart? Like it sounds like you started thinking his feelings might have changed during the week in Montana, based upon what you're saying. So, was it just because maybe you hadn't got in a lot of alone time with him at that point?

Sarah Herron: Yes. I think - I think honestly, getting the first one on one date, as incredible and magical as it was, I think it was kind of a curse, because we've - had an amazing connection right off the bat, and then I had to sit back and you know, just wait for him to develop these relationships with all of the other women, who each week, I'm sure, a new girl is like stepping into the - into the forefront.

And so, it was just like with each week it became more and more difficult to sustain a connection while he was being introduced to all these other women. And it just - it got - it gets really hard. And I don't have the answer and that's why I was so confused. And it's hard to understand how somebody can like you so much in the beginning and feelings fizzle.

I mean I think that's true for anybody in any relationship that's not worked out. You're always left wondering why. Well, why not? Like, you used to like me so much. You used to love me, and why do you not now? So, it's just a very, very confusing and sad feeling.

Bill King: I'm just wondering with Tierra kind of being the center of attention so much, how difficult is it to kind of ignore her and not get distracted by the antics and focus on Sean? And is that something that you all discussed in the house to kind of stay focused and not let it you know, make you as - look like the drama queens instead of Tierra?

Sarah Herron: Absolutely. I mean, we'd all just - we discussed, numerous times, how not just pertaining to Tierra, but just each other. We didn't want to get involved in anyone's issues in the house. And we tried very hard just to stay focused on our individual connections with Sean and keep the house politics separate.

But at the same time, like I was Tierra's roommate when we were traveling. And I was there with her through a lot of her like struggles and her you know, melt downs. And I saw a different side to Tierra. So, I didn't - you know - I didn't want to ignore her, because in a sense she was my friend and we befriended each other, but you just got to stay out of that. I you know, I never once talked to Sean about Tierra. That's not what I was there to do. I don't think any of us really ever wanted to talk to Sean about Tierra, so (you) just kind of ignore it, you try your hardest.

Question: You mentioned you weren't (aware) of the connection that Sean had with Catherine until now when you're watching the season unfold. What can you tell us about Catherine, because until this week, viewers also haven't gotten to see much of her and she had never gotten a one on one date until recently?

Sarah Herron: Yes. Catherine was kind of like - until this point, has been a little of a dark horse. You know, she hasn't gotten too much airtime, and in the house, she wasn't even getting much time with Sean. So, it's really interesting and exciting to see it all unfold. And I'm happy for her, because you know, it's hard to see Sean developing these feelings with girls, but I watched their date in Canada, and it's just hard - it's - I don't know, it warms me inside to watch them and know that they were developing this great connection, because they didn't see it in the house.

She was one of the last girls to get a one on one. And so it just makes me happy to see that they were - they were building those feelings. And Catherine is such a down to earth real, real girl that it just makes me happy to see she got to open up with Sean.

Question: OK. And what about some of the other girls? You've talked a little bit about Tierra already, so what about like (Ashley), Lindsay, Lesley and Desiree? I guess - do you have any general thoughts on those girls? Do any of them stand out to us as being better for Sean than the others?

Sarah Herron: I always have thought Lesley is a great connection for Sean. You know, it's so interesting now that I am no longer on it and I don't know what happens, but I think Leslie is great. And I think Lindsay's tremendous. Lindsay was probably one of my better friends in the house. She's such a sweet girl and has the biggest heart. She's just like this tiny ball of fun and so, she's wonderful.

And (Ashley) has the biggest heart, obviously, everyone is seeing that. And Desiree's fun and spunky and very real. Daniella is awesome, but she - I think she went home after me too, I guess so - who - am I (missing) anybody? They're all - I mean the girls are all so great. I loved all of them.

Question: OK. And just one thing quick, you know, a lot of viewers have been saying that they think (Ashley) might be a little too intense for Sean, I guess - what are your - what are your thoughts on that? Do you agree, disagree?

Sarah Herron: I could see that. I could definitely see that. (Ashley) is a very sincere, big hearted woman, but she's serious. And she's not a group follower. She's not loads of fun so I mean I - she's just not like super energetic. She's just more like a calm, reserved, eloquent person, and that's great. But I think Sean really is looking for someone to bring the adventure and the fun. So, I'm not sure how that's going to play out very well?

Question: Hey, there. I don't want to beat a dead horse about this Tierra thing, but for me, it's like people keep saying oh, well - and by people I mean the girls in the house, keep saying you know, oh, he sees a different side of her. And she's not showing him his true colors. But to me, I watch it and I think - I don't know what he even sees in her with what she is showing him, because she just seems crazy and needy and full of drama.

So, what do you think it is that Sean sees in her and keeps her around for anyway? I mean other than what you guys - you know, the side of her that you guys saw, and the fact that there are - seem to be two different sides, what is it you think that he - is it just that you think he's attracted to her physically? Or is it something else, because to me I just don't get it at all.

Sarah Herron: I am not sure. Honestly, like, I am just as much in the dark as you are. I don't - she's sweet. And you know, she can be beautiful and - but I don't know. I don't know what it is. And I saw in the promo for next week's episode that he says he's crazy about her, and that just blows my mind. I don't know - I don't know what it is. I've - I don't know what their connection is. I wish I could tell you. I wish I had some insight to it. I don't know.

Question: And then you know, when your - I guess break up - for lack of a better term, was happening, you - you know, you kind of said you know, I'm tired of this happening. Like, I know what you're going to say I mean...it kind of seemed like you felt like this was the same old story, just another time, you know, different dude, same story.

Sarah Herron: Yes.

Question: Do - what was it about that that you felt like was you know, common to other break ups? Or do you kind of think - as you think back on it now, that that's not - wasn't his intention or that wasn't the same story, different dude?

Sarah Herron: No, I think it was same story different dude. Honestly, I have - I - it - it saddened me to think that I've been through that situation so many times. But I can't tell you how many times I will begin to date a guy and start going down this road and get the same story you know, several weeks into it. You're great. You're funny. You're sweet. You have the biggest heart, but there just isn't a connection. Or you know, I'm not right for you. And you (deserve) someone so much better and you deserve someone who's going to treat you amazing.

I've been told that more times than I can count. And I think a lot of girls can relate to that. We've probably all been told that at some point. But I feel like, for whatever reason, it just happens all the time to me. And so, I knew where Sean was going. And the second he sat me down, I knew what he was going to do. I knew he was sending me home.

And it's just like is aid on the show, I knew what he was going to say but I wanted to hear his explanation because I'm just - it was like dŽjˆ vu. I've been there. I've sat in that very same place so many times, and I always get the same answer. And so, I just wanted to hear it again, I guess to - I don't know - just - I just don't know why - I don't know why I keep getting told that.

Question: Do you think that if Sean - I mean I've met Sean on a couple of occasions. I certainly don't know him as well as you know, other people and - but he does come off as a very earnest person to me. And he does sort of come off as someone who is really truly looking for a wife and wants a family and wants to do all these things.

So, do you feel like maybe with other guys, that has been sort of a fall back line, but maybe with Sean, he really truly was just like I'm not feeling a connection, and yet I respect this girl. And I want to let her down softly and as quickly as I know, because I don't want to lead her on and I don't want to hurt her feelings?

Sarah Herron: Yes, I mean I don't think it's like a fall back line for a lot of guys. I think they do usually feel that way, and they do have respect for me. And I think Sean did. And let me tell you, there are no hard feelings. I'm not mad at Sean. And like I said, I respect that he was honest with me and that he didn't string me along. And he's only human. And I know the objective why he was on the show.

You know, we all know he's there looking for his wife and so, I can't blame him for not feeling it with me. I think it's not fair to say like oh, he was just you know, giving me the same line that every guy does, because I know that's what I said. But he deserves more credit than that. He was sweet and honest about it.

But I'm just saying from a personal standpoint, I am confused why I always get told that. Like, I'm confused why none of the guys in my life have ever felt like I am that guy that deserves you. And I'm going to be the guy that treats you amazing. That's what confuses me and makes me sad. So, there's no hard feelings toward Sean. And I don't blame him, like I said, I just - I'm confused, from my perspective you know, who this guy is going to be and when he's going to come along.

Question: Well, I wish you luck in finding him...

Sarah Herron: Thank you.

Also, in case you haven't heard, on Tuesday, February 19th there will be a special "The Bachelor: Sean Tell's All" special on from 9 p.m. - 10 p.m. on ABC! Double "Bachelor" week again! Woo-hoo!

Hugs, Kisses & Roses,
Jennifer Matarese