So thoughtful…

I’m here

Thank you for saying that, Ellen. I’m so sorry you lost your daughter. That is a vicious death. We lost a young woman here recently to anorexia, and those last weeks were so unbearable, and I wasn’t her mom. She didn’t look the same and there was no reversing the illness by that point. And I did get your other message by the way and you will see that I heard you.

Devastating. As a mom whose son was addicted and died by suicide it’s natural we question everything. You could not have done more. But I know wrestling with the guilt is part of the healing process.

Addiction at age 13 is extremely hard to turn around. It gets imprinted on their brains. And you can’t live with that. By the way my first cousin died of an overdose. In his dad’s home in his room. So they can die out there and they can die at home. There is no ideal answer here. And rehabs should be held more accountable for results. They don’t have percentages of success, they don’t get paid. That’s what I think.

I just lost my 23 year old daughter to anorexia. The pain is unbearable but I have found your site practically helpful.

Thank you
Ellen

So many unnecessary deaths.

Damn that just sucks. It makes me angry to find out now what those power tripping adults did to feed their egos. I am so f-ing sorry. I pulled charles out of there. But when he went it wasn’t as bad as when you attended. I have heard all kinds of horrors from those days. As my son said in one of his rap songs that they duped us Desperate parents into thinking we were helping.

DAVID IS MY YOUNGER BROTHER. HE’S TALKING ABOUT ME GOING THERE FIRST. HE DIED ONE YEAR AGO AT THE AGE OF 39 FROM A HEROINE OVERDOSE. GOD REST HIS SOUL. I HOPE HE HAS PEACE NOW. LOVE YOU BROTHER. *CRY*
R.I.P. 12/13/1985 – 08/11/2025

I was at “that place” from 1998 till I graduated in 2000. Ask anyone who went there about me and they will always say they had never seen one person on so many “Sanctions: at once. I lost count after 23 and needing 2 index cards (front and back) full just to remember them all. Besides every second of my life being humiliating there was the power trips from peers too….. it felt good but only because the spotlight wasn’t on you at that meal or for a moment you could hide from the wrath from people like Paul G. (FAM 6) and his counter part Christine. We were all pitted and divided. Bringing up someone else’s shortcomings ment the heat was off of you. It was all a sick nightmare that never ends. My own brain has done everything it can to protect me and block it out. I’ll never forgive and never forget. Time doesn’t mend all wounds. Scars are permanent it’s just that enough time passes that you move on or in the cases of many of my peers don’t move on and see no other way out……. RIP 🙏 to all my friends who were in such pain and poisoned that life no longer had sunshine or value. I feel your pain we all carry that for the rest of our lives. God bless you all.

It took me a while to figure out what was going on.

My friend wrote this, we have the same name people at school are bullying me thinking i wrote this, we both want this taken down pls thanks, all the other ones too

Good lord, it’s hard work. I wanted to fold up like a taco, find a cave, and come out only when all of it was resolved. Of course, that is not possible. I find the comments healing, too. Because it validates how confused everyone else is. And I think it shows how many ways people have to bring some measure of peace into the chaos.

That is true.