Comments for BipolarChick.net: Reflections of a Crazy Life http://bipolarchick.net/blog 'we all go a little mad sometimes' Thu, 05 Jan 2012 07:38:32 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 Comment on Bipolar TV Characters by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/jqyLPkMR2Tc/ BipolarChick Thu, 05 Jan 2012 07:38:32 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1768#comment-678 It seems we have quite a bit in common... kindred spirits... I always love hearing from others like me :) I miss mania and hypomania too. Like you, my depressive episodes are more prevalent. I stopped taking the mood stabilizer and only take a moderate dose of one anti-depressant now. I've noticed a lot of improvement. I don't have the high-highs anymore but I also don't go deep into depression very often anymore either. My moods are still unpredictable, but they are far less extreme. It seems we have quite a bit in common… kindred spirits… I always love hearing from others like me :)

I miss mania and hypomania too. Like you, my depressive episodes are more prevalent. I stopped taking the mood stabilizer and only take a moderate dose of one anti-depressant now. I’ve noticed a lot of improvement. I don’t have the high-highs anymore but I also don’t go deep into depression very often anymore either. My moods are still unpredictable, but they are far less extreme.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2011/12/bipolar-tv-characters/#comment-678 Comment on Bipolar TV Characters by roses4u http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/zHg7McAPq8A/ roses4u Tue, 27 Dec 2011 03:41:26 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1768#comment-677 You have been such a help to me. I've had Bi-Polar Disorder since I was 14. Sometimes so 'manic' that I completely lost who I was, I told people outrageous things, made promises I couldn't in a million years be able to keep, I have a very high IQ and have always been attractive to men. I abused them mentally. I didn't realize what I was doing...but when I came down, I was so humiliated, and thought that I caused so much destruction that I wanted to die. Really wanted to die. I'm on a number of meds and they keep me down, depressed and I found myself wanting to have a small manic episode! I still have manic episodes,but not as bad or as long, but the depressed or down time has been more prevalent. I liked the T shirt that said "what do we want" "A cure for Bi-Polar Disorder" "When do we want it?" "Never" I totally understand. You have been such a help to me. I’ve had Bi-Polar Disorder since I was 14. Sometimes so ‘manic’ that I completely lost who I was, I told people outrageous things, made promises I couldn’t in a million years be able to keep, I have a very high IQ and have always been attractive to men. I abused them mentally. I didn’t realize what I was doing…but when I came down, I was so humiliated, and thought that I caused so much destruction that I wanted to die. Really wanted to die. I’m on a number of meds and they keep me down, depressed and I found myself wanting to have a small manic episode! I still have manic episodes,but not as bad or as long, but the depressed or down time has been more prevalent. I liked the T shirt that said “what do we want” “A cure for Bi-Polar Disorder” “When do we want it?” “Never” I totally understand.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2011/12/bipolar-tv-characters/#comment-677 Comment on Where Have I Been? by pbrite http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/BdaYtJyBa5M/ pbrite Mon, 16 May 2011 03:46:23 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1683#comment-666 Glad you've been busy doing positive things! I'm interested in helping promote the webzine. Perhaps we can exchange links at my site? www.bipolarlovedones.com THanks! Paul Glad you’ve been busy doing positive things! I’m interested in helping promote the webzine. Perhaps we can exchange links at my site? http://www.bipolarlovedones.com

THanks!

Paul

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2011/04/where-have-i-been/#comment-666 Comment on My DirecTV Personnel File by DT1401 http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/CA_O8Cu8X1k/ DT1401 Sat, 30 Apr 2011 05:54:49 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=467#comment-665 I am currently having issues with DirecTV appealing my unemployment claim. I worked there for six years and was a Case Manger since day one. I have never had any written warnings; I worked on projects off the clock, and was very respect by my team leaders and co-workers. We were up for a shift bid and I made a comment on Robert Wood’s (AKA: Austin Wood) FaceBook about how I was not looking forward to it and hope I don't get Melody Tucker. I mentioned that she was going around making sure her team had their tools up. I then said, “well I guess she does not realize that her team didn't just walk off the short bus in front of the building behind EMSA.” Well one of my co-works was possibly offend by what I said and took it to HR. (Possibly Austin or someone else) I was walked into HR the following day and they confronted be on it. I said I was sorry for what I wrote and it was unprofessional for me to say what I said. Well I went back to work and finished the day. Then worked the half of the next day and got walked back into HR. Both Jennifer Ha and Bill Lee were there. They said based on what they reviewed and that they discovered that I was pre-filling my time card I was going to be terminated. They showed my badge in/outs and my time card. It showed me coming in 4 min's late and 7 ‘s late. Then they walked me out the door. I felt like all the extra work I have done on my own and hard work I have done was unappreciated. A pimp slap in the face. I could not believe it, it was like a dream. I was one of the best employees they had in the department. What the hell is wrong with these people… Two Weeks later I went and applied for my unemployment two weeks later. Then 3 weeks later I get a 409A (Fact Finding Q:'s) they said I admitted to time card fraud and unprofessional-ism. They made me sound like a true jackass. Well I did my research, responded to each questions including the references to the DirecTV employee handbook Social Media Policy. I did not post or say anything related to DirecTV’s products, services, customer information, troubleshooting, customer complaints, or pricing as listed in the DirecTV Employee Handbook. Two days after that I went to file my weekly unemployment claim, it said I was denied for my benefits dues to state law. You better dam well believe I was pissed. I hardly ever claimed the overtime after my calls, always spent time after logged out of the phone at the end of my shift finishing required documentation and field escalations. Then for them to say this crap… So I called Jennifer Ha requesting the last 6 months badge time in/out, time cards, month end performance reviews, and my 2010 annual review. She said that she would get back with me. The next day she called and said that she could not give me that information. I was expecting this. I just said well that's ok and I am working on an appeal. I will just go ahead and finish filing my appeal. Then I will subpoena these documents and subpoena Rebecca Goodman (my team leader) to appear in an in-person hearing. I know when you file a denied benefit appeal in Oklahoma they will schedule a phone hearing. However, I know I have the right to request an in-person hearing after the phone hearing has been scheduled. I am sure they don't want to attend an in-person hearing and require my previous team leader to have to go appear in person as well. Hopefully they will just drop it. However, if they don't, I am not backing down. I will keep you posted. I hope this information will be beneficial to other DirecTV employee’s who have been spit to the curb. They look at it like they’re doing us a favor to provide a job to people. I am currently having issues with DirecTV appealing my unemployment claim. I worked there for six years and was a Case Manger since day one. I have never had any written warnings; I worked on projects off the clock, and was very respect by my team leaders and co-workers. We were up for a shift bid and I made a comment on Robert Wood’s (AKA: Austin Wood) FaceBook about how I was not looking forward to it and hope I don’t get Melody Tucker. I mentioned that she was going around making sure her team had their tools up. I then said, “well I guess she does not realize that her team didn’t just walk off the short bus in front of the building behind EMSA.” Well one of my co-works was possibly offend by what I said and took it to HR. (Possibly Austin or someone else) I was walked into HR the following day and they confronted be on it. I said I was sorry for what I wrote and it was unprofessional for me to say what I said. Well I went back to work and finished the day. Then worked the half of the next day and got walked back into HR. Both Jennifer Ha and Bill Lee were there. They said based on what they reviewed and that they discovered that I was pre-filling my time card I was going to be terminated. They showed my badge in/outs and my time card. It showed me coming in 4 min’s late and 7 ‘s late. Then they walked me out the door. I felt like all the extra work I have done on my own and hard work I have done was unappreciated. A pimp slap in the face. I could not believe it, it was like a dream. I was one of the best employees they had in the department. What the hell is wrong with these people…

Two Weeks later

I went and applied for my unemployment two weeks later. Then 3 weeks later I get a 409A (Fact Finding Q:’s) they said I admitted to time card fraud and unprofessional-ism. They made me sound like a true jackass. Well I did my research, responded to each questions including the references to the DirecTV employee handbook Social Media Policy. I did not post or say anything related to DirecTV’s products, services, customer information, troubleshooting, customer complaints, or pricing as listed in the DirecTV Employee Handbook. Two days after that I went to file my weekly unemployment claim, it said I was denied for my benefits dues to state law.

You better dam well believe I was pissed. I hardly ever claimed the overtime after my calls, always spent time after logged out of the phone at the end of my shift finishing required documentation and field escalations. Then for them to say this crap… So I called Jennifer Ha requesting the last 6 months badge time in/out, time cards, month end performance reviews, and my 2010 annual review. She said that she would get back with me. The next day she called and said that she could not give me that information.

I was expecting this. I just said well that’s ok and I am working on an appeal. I will just go ahead and finish filing my appeal. Then I will subpoena these documents and subpoena Rebecca Goodman (my team leader) to appear in an in-person hearing.

I know when you file a denied benefit appeal in Oklahoma they will schedule a phone hearing. However, I know I have the right to request an in-person hearing after the phone hearing has been scheduled. I am sure they don’t want to attend an in-person hearing and require my previous team leader to have to go appear in person as well. Hopefully they will just drop it. However, if they don’t, I am not backing down.

I will keep you posted. I hope this information will be beneficial to other DirecTV employee’s who have been spit to the curb. They look at it like they’re doing us a favor to provide a job to people.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2008/07/my-directv-personnel-file/#comment-665 Comment on Old Habits by whitannpaige http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/IEBjmr3n1rg/ whitannpaige Tue, 08 Feb 2011 12:06:23 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=605#comment-663 I'm bipolar and I've struggled with suicidal thoughts for a couple of years now and I can never bring myself to do it or even try because I'd hate to see what turmoil I'd cause the people I'm closest to but I find the actual thoughts so relieving .. it's somewhat disturbing. No amount of therapy has been able to rid me of these thoughts completely. The slightest upset has me plotting my death, the thoughts flow so seamlessly and peacefully that it almost seems normal. I'd love to be able to rise above such a horrible thought process. This is bound to be a constant struggle for me, overcoming something that's so comforting yet self destructive. I hope you come out on top in regards to you overcoming a similar thought process as mine. I’m bipolar and I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts for a couple of years now and I can never bring myself to do it or even try because I’d hate to see what turmoil I’d cause the people I’m closest to but I find the actual thoughts so relieving .. it’s somewhat disturbing. No amount of therapy has been able to rid me of these thoughts completely. The slightest upset has me plotting my death, the thoughts flow so seamlessly and peacefully that it almost seems normal.
I’d love to be able to rise above such a horrible thought process. This is bound to be a constant struggle for me, overcoming something that’s so comforting yet self destructive.
I hope you come out on top in regards to you overcoming a similar thought process as mine.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2008/08/old-habits/#comment-663 Comment on INFP Careers by mikeg http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/aa30ConIsCo/ mikeg Sat, 18 Dec 2010 19:00:11 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=557#comment-660 Carmen. That's ridiculous. If you feel like that, then maybe you are failing time and time again and are feeling guilty about it. I mean, if you never finish something, people are going to notice. I'm an INFP, I don't finish a lot of stuff and people definitely notice. But, I know that I'm in the wrong career. I kind of agree that cookie cutter career lists aren't going to magically tell you what you should be doing. But they'll give you an idea of what MIGHT be working. The real key, it seems, is to do a lot of these various types of tests and understand your strengths and weaknesses so that you can understand where you could fit better. It won't be easy, but there are definitely INFPs who are happy with their careers. Carmen. That’s ridiculous. If you feel like that, then maybe you are failing time and time again and are feeling guilty about it. I mean, if you never finish something, people are going to notice. I’m an INFP, I don’t finish a lot of stuff and people definitely notice. But, I know that I’m in the wrong career. I kind of agree that cookie cutter career lists aren’t going to magically tell you what you should be doing. But they’ll give you an idea of what MIGHT be working. The real key, it seems, is to do a lot of these various types of tests and understand your strengths and weaknesses so that you can understand where you could fit better. It won’t be easy, but there are definitely INFPs who are happy with their careers.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2007/07/infp-careers/#comment-660 Comment on Appeal Letter to the Short-term disability Company by Kandra http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/OmttXnwmsxw/ Kandra Wed, 17 Nov 2010 10:17:24 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=87#comment-657 Superb write-up. Thank you for posting this. I can't tell you how long I've searching for this information. You outline some excellent factors as well. Also I'm sure it's a bit off topic but I like how your website looks are you able to let me know the place you found the design or did you develop it yourself? And again, superb post! Superb write-up. Thank you for posting this. I can’t tell you how long I’ve searching for this information. You outline some excellent factors as well. Also I’m sure it’s a bit off topic but I like how your website looks are you able to let me know the place you found the design or did you develop it yourself? And again, superb post!

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2005/09/appeal/#comment-657 Comment on Communication is Fucking Hard by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/Jh5AUpEL2ZQ/ BipolarChick Tue, 09 Nov 2010 01:08:14 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1208#comment-641 yeah... little did I know it was implantation bleeding and not my period. If I figured it out sooner things would be a lot different. *sigh* yeah… little did I know it was implantation bleeding and not my period. If I figured it out sooner things would be a lot different. *sigh*

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2009/12/communication-is-fucking-hard/#comment-641 Comment on Self-Hatred by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/C5EjpP4UG3M/ BipolarChick Thu, 04 Nov 2010 08:25:00 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=108#comment-40 I'm thrilled that you decided against taking your own life and I agree that knowing you're not alone and that there are people that actually know what you're going through makes a huge difference in our ability to cope with this illness. When I began this blog it was mostly for me to have an avenue to express things about myself and a bit of self-therapy, but I soon realized it gave me a purpose and a chance to help other people, either those with the same illness or those who love people who have bipolar disorder. Since that realization I have said if my blog helps just one person it makes all the hard work worth it. You have just made it worth it all. Thank you very much and if you get to that low point again please don't hesitate to contact me. I’m thrilled that you decided against taking your own life and I agree that knowing you’re not alone and that there are people that actually know what you’re going through makes a huge difference in our ability to cope with this illness.

When I began this blog it was mostly for me to have an avenue to express things about myself and a bit of self-therapy, but I soon realized it gave me a purpose and a chance to help other people, either those with the same illness or those who love people who have bipolar disorder. Since that realization I have said if my blog helps just one person it makes all the hard work worth it.

You have just made it worth it all. Thank you very much and if you get to that low point again please don’t hesitate to contact me.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2006/06/harm4/#comment-40 Comment on Self-Hatred by Rspeelman http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/IunLe0RnYrY/ Rspeelman Wed, 03 Nov 2010 13:47:35 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=108#comment-39 I am so glad that I found your site. Just 4 days ago, I was ready to end it all. I am a wife and mother of 3 awesome daughters. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 1 1/2 years ago. Once in awhile, I have had suicidal thoughts. They were not that often though. I have been going to a doctor and have had my medications monitored. This past Sunday, everything seemed to have crashed. I was falling fast and I could not reverse the downward fall. I was used to closing myself in my room to keep the depression and issues away from my kids. I would always fall asleep so that I could escape the horrible feelings and thoughts that were consuming me. On Sunday, I went a step further. I looked through my room and located several objects that I could use to kill myself. I went to google.com to research some information about my medications and how much to overdose with. I also looked up bipolar disorder and I found your website. As I was reading, something stood out to me. I wasn't the only one who was battling everyday with this horrible disease. Though I know that counseling is an important part of coping with being bipolar, knowing that I am not alone gives me the will to make things better. Thanks so much for being here on the internet so that I could find your site just in the knick of time. I am so glad that I found your site. Just 4 days ago, I was ready to end it all. I am a wife and mother of 3 awesome daughters.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 1 1/2 years ago. Once in awhile, I have had suicidal thoughts. They were not that often though. I have been going to a doctor and have had my medications monitored.

This past Sunday, everything seemed to have crashed. I was falling fast and I could not reverse the downward fall. I was used to closing myself in my room to keep the depression and issues away from my kids. I would always fall asleep so that I could escape the horrible feelings and thoughts that were consuming me.

On Sunday, I went a step further. I looked through my room and located several objects that I could use to kill myself. I went to google.com to research some information about my medications and how much to overdose with. I also looked up bipolar disorder and I found your website. As I was reading, something stood out to me. I wasn’t the only one who was battling everyday with this horrible disease.

Though I know that counseling is an important part of coping with being bipolar, knowing that I am not alone gives me the will to make things better.

Thanks so much for being here on the internet so that I could find your site just in the knick of time.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2006/06/harm4/#comment-39 Comment on Things NOT to Say to Someone with a Mental Illness by The Bipolar Diva http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/chy0KFipY5o/ The Bipolar Diva Sun, 25 Apr 2010 00:29:53 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=277#comment-184 I just came across your blog tonight. The one my husband says that I hate the most is "wow, if you think you've had it hard, I've had to live with you for 22 years!" Thank you for your writings, I will be back! I just came across your blog tonight. The one my husband says that I hate the most is "wow, if you think you've had it hard, I've had to live with you for 22 years!"
Thank you for your writings, I will be back!

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2007/08/what-not-to-say-to-someone-with-mental-illness/#comment-184 Comment on Self-Injury by Cazey http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/C-psZQ9eZH4/ Cazey Mon, 22 Feb 2010 09:42:57 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/flashbacks/2007/02/19/selfinjury/#comment-113 thanx well i really didnt have anything that i enjoyed b4 either and iv tried everything from writting to all the littlw coping skills none work 4 me and i have even ben hospitalized 4 it and i still cnt stop thanx well i really didnt have anything that i enjoyed b4 either and iv tried everything from writting to all the littlw coping skills none work 4 me and i have even ben hospitalized 4 it and i still cnt stop

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2007/02/selfinjury/#comment-113 Comment on Happiness Has Abandoned Me Yet Again by Tallulahgirl http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/vzMxBWF5yQQ/ Tallulahgirl Fri, 12 Feb 2010 21:44:15 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1236#comment-655 I am very sorry to hear this, Jen. I will be sending you some positive thoughts and energy. Take care, Gal. I am very sorry to hear this, Jen. I will be sending you some positive thoughts and energy. Take care, Gal.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/02/happiness-has-abandoned-me-yet-again/#comment-655 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by Tallulahgirl http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/AaYZiIWx58Y/ Tallulahgirl Fri, 12 Feb 2010 21:40:42 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-648 Mrs. Flintstone: Just gotta say that bipolar runs RAMPANT in my family. Out of four females on my birthmother's side, three of us have "issues" and even my birthmother herself is on medication. Don't you realize that these disorders "run" in the family? Do you know what kind of "hell" it is like to have such a disorder and then not get diagnosed for years on end, only to then have it take TEN years to get squared away with meds and counseling??? You think this is OK for us to pass on to yet another generation? I don't think so. It's like passing on some other hopeless disease like Woody Guthrie had. Why do you think it is OK to do this? Do you understand that if I were to have a child, they would probably inherit my issues, along with my alcoholism and addictive issues??? Mrs. Flintstone: Just gotta say that bipolar runs RAMPANT in my family. Out of four females on my birthmother's side, three of us have "issues" and even my birthmother herself is on medication. Don't you realize that these disorders "run" in the family? Do you know what kind of "hell" it is like to have such a disorder and then not get diagnosed for years on end, only to then have it take TEN years to get squared away with meds and counseling??? You think this is OK for us to pass on to yet another generation? I don't think so. It's like passing on some other hopeless disease like Woody Guthrie had. Why do you think it is OK to do this? Do you understand that if I were to have a child, they would probably inherit my issues, along with my alcoholism and addictive issues???

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/paul-passed-a-major-test/#comment-648 Comment on Happiness Has Abandoned Me Yet Again by th999 http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/tmjk5EK36pc/ th999 Mon, 08 Feb 2010 20:59:07 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1236#comment-654 did i just try and chat up myself? that's coz i don't understand the internet. I'm going to pretend i've taken my appendix out, it's believable and won't kill me. I'd never do that to my wonderful mum. there will be lots of blood though. x did i just try and chat up myself? that's coz i don't understand the internet. I'm going to pretend i've taken my appendix out, it's believable and won't kill me. I'd never do that to my wonderful mum. there will be lots of blood though. x

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/02/happiness-has-abandoned-me-yet-again/#comment-654 Comment on Happiness Has Abandoned Me Yet Again by th999 http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/VfaWJyzFuDs/ th999 Mon, 08 Feb 2010 20:52:19 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1236#comment-653 i think i replied to this, but i can't find my kind of answer on the board. I would really love to comfort you, but strange men can't do that that; so all I can say is find someone you trust and let them help you. X By the way, I'M 5 foot five and sexy as a sewer rat, call me, or leave cheese down the toilet, I make danger mouse look like an ugmo. x i think i replied to this, but i can't find my kind of answer on the board. I would really love to comfort you, but strange men can't do that that; so all I can say is find someone you trust and let them help you. X By the way, I'M 5 foot five and sexy as a sewer rat, call me, or leave cheese down the toilet, I make danger mouse look like an ugmo. x

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/02/happiness-has-abandoned-me-yet-again/#comment-653 Comment on Happiness Has Abandoned Me Yet Again by th999 http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/vPM8x2q8T-g/ th999 Mon, 08 Feb 2010 20:17:49 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1236#comment-652 I am a man, I can never truly understand what you are going through, I can only imagine; I have lost friends, family, and I know that's not the same, but I feel for you although I can't feel what you feel. Be strong, you matter as much to someone else as others do to you. You are important. Try to hold on. I am a man, I can never truly understand what you are going through, I can only imagine; I have lost friends, family, and I know that's not the same, but I feel for you although I can't feel what you feel. Be strong, you matter as much to someone else as others do to you. You are important. Try to hold on.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/02/happiness-has-abandoned-me-yet-again/#comment-652 Comment on Update on Shawna the Abominable Cunt by th999 http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/2SMIYIrwmD0/ th999 Mon, 08 Feb 2010 18:50:23 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1232#comment-651 By getting so angry, (i would as well), you lose sight of what you need/want to get from the situation. Stop seeing her as a devil women and start seeing her as the misguided, troubled, and fragile person she has become. Work out the best way forward for you, try to reason with her, if that doesn't work use the courts. Don't let someone else's problems destroy you. By getting so angry, (i would as well), you lose sight of what you need/want to get from the situation. Stop seeing her as a devil women and start seeing her as the misguided, troubled, and fragile person she has become. Work out the best way forward for you, try to reason with her, if that doesn't work use the courts. Don't let someone else's problems destroy you.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/update-on-shawna-the-abominable-cunt/#comment-651 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/3GE7cTgdR2E/ BipolarChick Tue, 02 Feb 2010 01:48:27 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-647 Oh yeah, sorry about the username/password issue. I deleted all the users so I could weed out Shawna's fake profiles. Oh yeah, sorry about the username/password issue. I deleted all the users so I could weed out Shawna's fake profiles.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/paul-passed-a-major-test/#comment-647 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/heKfmbvD_ng/ BipolarChick Tue, 02 Feb 2010 01:47:28 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-646 You are right, Carah, I have definitely lived out my wild years. I am finally ready to settle down and start a family... I always had a feeling it would happen after I turned thirty. I know motherhood isn't easy. I fulfilled that role more than a couple times in my lifetime. As for the partying, I'm close to partied out. I'd be fine with partying a night a month or less. I can handle it. Paul also has practice with the daddy role, even though he doesn't have his own biological children. You've met Paul a few times so far and so has everyone in the family except Brad and David. So far, no one is talking shit about him that I know about, even Tori likes him... that's saying a lot. His family likes me and I like them too. Our relationship seems so easy and natural and yet remains passionate and loving. I can't even properly describe the happiness I feel, and I'm confident a baby would magnify our joy and I know we will be great parents. You are right, Carah, I have definitely lived out my wild years. I am finally ready to settle down and start a family… I always had a feeling it would happen after I turned thirty. I know motherhood isn't easy. I fulfilled that role more than a couple times in my lifetime. As for the partying, I'm close to partied out. I'd be fine with partying a night a month or less. I can handle it. Paul also has practice with the daddy role, even though he doesn't have his own biological children.

You've met Paul a few times so far and so has everyone in the family except Brad and David. So far, no one is talking shit about him that I know about, even Tori likes him… that's saying a lot. His family likes me and I like them too. Our relationship seems so easy and natural and yet remains passionate and loving. I can't even properly describe the happiness I feel, and I'm confident a baby would magnify our joy and I know we will be great parents.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/paul-passed-a-major-test/#comment-646 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/s2awcAxEbeM/ BipolarChick Tue, 02 Feb 2010 01:36:11 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-645 I read your comments a couple days ago, I wanted to think things over a bit before responding. Not so long ago, I had decided not to have children and I had long sworn-off marriage. I decided not to have children because I didn’t want to risk the child having bipolar disorder and because I was terrified of not being able to get pregnant, or even worse that I’d miscarry again. I had rejected marriage because I didn’t want to expose another person to the daily horror that is I. For years I had a yearning to truly connect with other people but I was so afraid of getting hurt that I denied those desires. I’m done with that. The most important thing I’ve learned, as cliché as it may be, is: Shit happens, but it is always for a purpose, and things work out as they should. I have endured a lot of terrible shit in my lifetime, it was rarely easy, but I made it through. And the past few months have been so wonderful. In the past, when I was this happy it was usually a hypomanic episode, but I know I have real happiness now. It just happened all of a sudden and I feel so rewarded. I have so much love to give and I want to have a baby with Paul. He doesn’t have bipolar disorder, so our child(ren) would only have a 25% risk of being bipolar. Bipolar has a tendency to appear in people who have traumatic childhoods, among other things. Even if our child became bipolar later, I could help him or her through it. We all have our crosses to bear. Paul and I aren’t like timing my cycle or ovulation (yet, lol), but we haven’t been taking any precautions to avoid pregnancy. We’re not really trying, but we’re not blocking it either. If it happens, it happens, we are leaving it to go where it will. I read your comments a couple days ago, I wanted to think things over a bit before responding. Not so long ago, I had decided not to have children and I had long sworn-off marriage.
I decided not to have children because I didn’t want to risk the child having bipolar disorder and because I was terrified of not being able to get pregnant, or even worse that I’d miscarry again.
I had rejected marriage because I didn’t want to expose another person to the daily horror that is I. For years I had a yearning to truly connect with other people but I was so afraid of getting hurt that I denied those desires.
I’m done with that. The most important thing I’ve learned, as cliché as it may be, is: Shit happens, but it is always for a purpose, and things work out as they should.
I have endured a lot of terrible shit in my lifetime, it was rarely easy, but I made it through. And the past few months have been so wonderful. In the past, when I was this happy it was usually a hypomanic episode, but I know I have real happiness now. It just happened all of a sudden and I feel so rewarded. I have so much love to give and I want to have a baby with Paul. He doesn’t have bipolar disorder, so our child(ren) would only have a 25% risk of being bipolar. Bipolar has a tendency to appear in people who have traumatic childhoods, among other things. Even if our child became bipolar later, I could help him or her through it. We all have our crosses to bear.
Paul and I aren’t like timing my cycle or ovulation (yet, lol), but we haven’t been taking any precautions to avoid pregnancy. We’re not really trying, but we’re not blocking it either. If it happens, it happens, we are leaving it to go where it will.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/paul-passed-a-major-test/#comment-645 Comment on Update on Shawna the Abominable Cunt by BipolarChick http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/sMT6uJx5bL4/ BipolarChick Mon, 01 Feb 2010 22:49:43 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1232#comment-650 LOL, Carah, you are so right. I'm glad you're not letting that bitch win by allowing her to fuck with your marriage and happiness. I wish she'd grow the fuck up too, but that is like asking a leopard to change it's spots. It's in her nature to be a manipulative, venomous, slutbag whore. I've accepted it finally, and that is why I've cut her out of my life. I feel sorry for her kids, they can't stand her and she is oblivious to it. David is getting to the point where he can't stand her either, he's just holding on for the kids' sakes. If I find out she is still trying to start shit or cyberstalking me I won't hesitate to file charges against her. She should still know me well enough to know I'm not bluffing by any means. LOL, Carah, you are so right. I'm glad you're not letting that bitch win by allowing her to fuck with your marriage and happiness.

I wish she'd grow the fuck up too, but that is like asking a leopard to change it's spots. It's in her nature to be a manipulative, venomous, slutbag whore. I've accepted it finally, and that is why I've cut her out of my life.

I feel sorry for her kids, they can't stand her and she is oblivious to it. David is getting to the point where he can't stand her either, he's just holding on for the kids' sakes.

If I find out she is still trying to start shit or cyberstalking me I won't hesitate to file charges against her. She should still know me well enough to know I'm not bluffing by any means.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/update-on-shawna-the-abominable-cunt/#comment-650 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by Mrs Flintstone http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/vSzkfmrIq38/ Mrs Flintstone Mon, 01 Feb 2010 18:28:14 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-644 I have to disagree on this. I don't think having a "sickness" or "disease" or "disorder" should stop you from having kids. It's not like you are 18 and getting pregnant. You have lived your "wild" life and I think you know you are ready to be a mother. You know what you have to do to keep your "disorder" in check and I think as long as you can control it and know what you need, you will be fine as a mother. It is hard...please please please don't think it is easy. You can no longer be selfish. Everything is not about you...or Paul...anymore. No more partying all night. No more wake n bake...not for awhile anyway. Lots of crying...no more peaceful nights...but that baby is well worth it. My kids may drive me crazy but I wouldn't trade the world for them. Be yourself Jen and don't let anything change that. I have to disagree on this. I don't think having a "sickness" or "disease" or "disorder" should stop you from having kids. It's not like you are 18 and getting pregnant. You have lived your "wild" life and I think you know you are ready to be a mother. You know what you have to do to keep your "disorder" in check and I think as long as you can control it and know what you need, you will be fine as a mother. It is hard…please please please don't think it is easy. You can no longer be selfish. Everything is not about you…or Paul…anymore. No more partying all night. No more wake n bake…not for awhile anyway. Lots of crying…no more peaceful nights…but that baby is well worth it. My kids may drive me crazy but I wouldn't trade the world for them. Be yourself Jen and don't let anything change that.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/paul-passed-a-major-test/#comment-644 Comment on Update on Shawna the Abominable Cunt by Mrs Flintstone http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/mehhUM2UR8M/ Mrs Flintstone Mon, 01 Feb 2010 18:18:24 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1232#comment-649 Of course I will testify that she is a crazy cunt. She is the reason men came up with the word CUNT. There isn't anything else to describe her. CUNT CUNT CUNT... Shawna... potato...potato... lmao! (think on that one) Our marriage is just fine. There is nothing I can do to change anything...just live with it. You make it much easier for us all by being such a "big girl" about it :) Now if only Shawna could get a pair of big girl panties the world would be a much better place to live in. Her kids might actually have a mother worth something. She has no house, no job, and no life. David needs to get out of there as soon as possible. You need to just send her ass to jail. She doesn't deserve to be anywhere else. Of course I will testify that she is a crazy cunt. She is the reason men came up with the word CUNT. There isn't anything else to describe her. CUNT CUNT CUNT… Shawna… potato…potato… lmao! (think on that one) Our marriage is just fine. There is nothing I can do to change anything…just live with it. You make it much easier for us all by being such a "big girl" about it :) Now if only Shawna could get a pair of big girl panties the world would be a much better place to live in. Her kids might actually have a mother worth something. She has no house, no job, and no life. David needs to get out of there as soon as possible. You need to just send her ass to jail. She doesn't deserve to be anywhere else.

]]> http://bipolarchick.net/blog/2010/01/update-on-shawna-the-abominable-cunt/#comment-649 Comment on Paul Passed a Major Test by Tallulahgirl http://feedproxy.google.com/~r/CommentsForBipolarchick/~3/ngLClqXe6ZY/ Tallulahgirl Thu, 28 Jan 2010 09:39:14 +0000 http://bipolarchick.net/blog/?p=1230#comment-643 P.S. In your last post before this one, you said that your relationship had hit a "few snags." Remember - this was only a couple of weeks ago. It really takes awhile before you see the true side of someone else. I love my husband to death but there are a lot of things I did not see for months, even years of living with him. Hope you don't get mad at me, this is just the opinion of someone who has been there/done that, and like you, did not get married till later on in life (age 44, to be exact.) Hugs, Gal! P.S. In your last post before this one, you said that your relationship had hit a "few snags." Remember – this was only a couple of weeks ago. It really takes awhile before you see the true side of someone else. I love my husband to death but there are a lot of things I did not see for months, even years of living with him.

Hope you don't get mad at me, this is just the opinion of someone who has been there/done that, and like you, did not get married till later on in life (age 44, to be exact.)

Hugs, Gal!

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