Jim and Edna are both patients in a mental hospital.

One day while they are walking past the hospital swimming pool, Jim suddenly jumps into the deep end. He sinks to the bottom of the pool and stays there

Edna promptly jumps in to save him. She swims to the bottom and pulls Jim out. When the hospital director becomes aware of Edna's heroic act, he considers her to be mentally stable. He goes to tell Edna the news and says, "Edna, I have good news and bad news.

"The good news is you're being discharged; since you were able to rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of another patient, I have concluded that your act displays sound mindedness.

"The bad news is that Jim, the patient you saved, hung himself in his bathroom with his robe belt right after you saved him. I am sorry, but he's dead."

Edna replies, "He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry. How soon can I go home?"

This is a joke, but it is closer to how it is than you think.

We (all) live in a world of our own design. We create or accept meanings, and then they become the "reality" of our world.

The currency of created worlds is meaning.

We are born innocent, and we are born without things meaning anything. Slowly but surely the world teaches us what things should mean, and entrap us in their own miserable world: hey, misery loves company.

When, occasionally, they find a human who was brought up by animals (or savages) they start to teach them the meanings we all supposed to know... and then the innocent world of the now grown man is shattered and they either go mad or kill themselves, like John in the book, Brave New World.

But things do not carry an inherent, innate meaning: they in fact don't mean anything.

All the meaning comes from you. And therefore all the misery comes from you too.

It's layers upon layers upon layers of meanings that are covering reality like guano (pigeon turd) covers the rocks.

We don't have time to remove the meanings that millenia of human mind activity put on reality. The only escape we have, today, is to move back, step back to no-mind.

When you look at the world from no-mind, the world is beautiful. People are beautiful. Or funny. Or hysterical.

There is no horrible in death, there is no scathing in my speaking upon correcting a student, and there is no threat in your boss talking to you.

They are all meanings that keep you stuck, keep you miserable, only pretending to want to grow, become all you can be.

What you mean, really, is "all I can be inside this prison I have built for myself and you."

The prison is build brick by brick from meanings. There is no light, there is no chance for happiness, fulfillment, satisfaction, creation, intimacy, courage, adventure, growth in it.

If you want to really grow, you may want to try this no-mind place... it is lovely, and it is learnable.

It needs you though: it is your birth right but it won't come to you. You have to come and claim it.

I teach it on the connection classes, in my activator classes, in every class I teach. And soon, I hope, I will have another empathic person be able to teach more classes so we can accommodate more people.

The new humanity, and the new world is going to be able to tell the difference between mirage and reality.

It's not as gory or depressing as they show it in the Matrix. In fact mirage is depressing and reality is lovely.

I promise.

Yesterday, the theme in my 2nd Phase Activator Class was compassion: That compassion is not for the other person's sake; just like love is not for the other person's sake.

Compassion (and love) is for YOU!

When you can transform hatred, pity, or anger, resentment, or regret to compassion, you become free. (Not even mentioning the fact that love and compassion is only felt by the giver, never by the receiver. It warms up the giver, maybe shines on the recipient, but no nurturing there.)

Anyway, I downloaded the activators, and felt that I needed them too. But didn't know for what...

I woke up in the morning and was still reeling from the attacks, the pressure, running short-handed (my little brother, who is my technical assistant, is in the hospital recovering from a heart surgery: hopefully.) So I am doing his work, I am doing my work, and I am working around the clock to repair the damage the attacks are causing.

And then it hit me: Trivedi, although from my point of you he is a perpetrator, he is, in fact a victim.

Let me explain: if you read yesterday's article and also the article I linked to, you know that there is a rapidly growing scamworld in the internet arena.

What you don't know is this: marketers are like scientists. For them marketing is the main purpose, what they peddle is immaterial. Scientists are the same way: otherwise there would be no Monsanto genetically engineered destruction of the planet, there would have been no hydrogen or atomic bomb.

Scientists are left brain machines, completely oblivious about Life. Marketers are left brain machines, completely oblivious about Life.

Werner Erhard used to say: if you peel a person, like an onion, at the very core you will find the desire to make a difference, to contribute. When that desire is thwarted, there are two paths available to the individual:

1. forever teenager... let's have fun!
2. becoming a criminal

What is the common characteristic in those two: they don't care about life, about people, about another.

Scientists and marketers are people whose desire to contribute to Life was thwarted, in one way or another.

Now, what does this have to do with Trivedi, you ask? Plenty.

When Trivedi came to this country, he had an honest desire to make a difference. Then he mixed up with this marketing group, Fred and Debra Poneman. Those two are the mad scientist architects of this destructive phenomenon, Trivedi Foundation.

They are marketeers extraordinaire: squeezing Trivedi dry. He is their cash cow. He is a pawn. He is a victim.

If he ever wanted to make a difference: forget about it. It's all fake now, all publicity stunts, the cows, the wedding, the wifey's being gifted, all of it.

If they didn't have Gopal who is, at this stage, incorruptible, they would have no value to offer, none at all.

Is Trivedi going to have the courage to get off this merry-go-round? I doubt it. He is too deep in.

And my compassion goes to him. Although he is sending destructive energies my way, my person, my water, my sites all suffer, but that's nothing compared to his suffering.

He sold out, and he is finished. In the world of mafias he is earning his breath now. His permission to be alive.

But not to do real work. The work he was born to do. No, that he can't do. For that he needs an uncorrupted soul. Even if you are Trivedi

Ever since I was a little girl, I could be sent into a deep depression with any story about scams, conspiracies.

The idea that I was duped, or could be duped, that we are walking on a minefield only safe for a moment and can be blown up any moment sent me hurling into depression.

I know that my wording is dramatic: I can be very dramatic about certain topics, to my own detriment.

Where is this from, this sudden "interest" in this topic again?

Well, this is a recurring theme: every few years it comes up, the money mongers, the psychological games, all that happy horse-shit... I am not saying that they are not true, I am only saying that I am better off keeping my distance from them.

You may know this story, but it is worth telling for those that haven't:

Autobiography in Five Chapters

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost... I am hopeless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I'm in the same place.
But it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in... it's a habit
My eyes are open
I know where I am
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

What is the origin of this "depression"?

When I was three and a half I made an error in judgment. I got hurt as a result. I repeated the error a few more times, and today I don't have to make that mistake again. But yet, something must have stayed there, because just the idea of being duped (euphemism for being stupid, lol) triggers a depression for me.

Today's trigger was an email I got from someone to check out a page.

Here is the email

I am thinking about starting a "syndicate" as Kern describes in this - except no unethical sales tactics. I want the right people in it and you came to mind.

What do you think?

http://www.theverge.com/2012/5/10/2984893/scamworld-get-rich-quick-schemes-mutate-into-an-online-monster

So you see, there are two angles here:

1. there is an evil world of scammers out there, only wanting to get rich by making people poor. They are merciless
2. I was invited to participate in something that will bring me unearned benefits.

Why is this double trigger lethal?

Because human being is built on the foundation of animals, and we are ruled by animal instinct unless suppressed or transmuted or transfigured... but to one degree or other the instincts are there...

Greed is one of them.

Greed is one of the strongest and least understood instincts. I know it inside and out. I have tamed it many times.

The trouble with greed is that it, much like the wolf in the story "Little Red Riding hood" dresses up in disguise so you don't have to take responsibility for your choices.

It masquerades. It justifies itself. It pretends to be good.

Greed is always a poison, no matter what you greed for (is that English?) or lust for.

The scammers can only scam you because of your greed.

Greed is not always about money. Greed can also be about safety, about power, and even lust is a form of greed. Being a lush, being a glutton is a kind of greed. Or we could turn it around and say that Lust is the basic animalistic instinct and it shows up in all areas.

Read the article. I don't want to paraphrase it, it's a long article with quite a few videos on the page, but it is worth reading it. It will come to many of you as a wakeup call.

The article talks about scams over the internet, but there are scams everywhere. Worthless products in the self-development industry, in spirituality, in religion, politics, drugs, sex, alcohol... everywhere.

Gurus lusting for world dominance and destroying (or attempting to, lol) anyone who stands in their way.

Believe me when I tell you, there is no human being without those lower (evil) inclinations. Some suppress them and then they explode in the most inopportune moments, molest little kids, or go crazy.

Some manage the evil inclinations, and deal with them as they come up. I belong to this second group. As an empath I can feel YOUR greed, your lust, your vengefulness, your anger, your belligerence, your slothfulness... they are all evil inclinations.

Go visit that website and come back. Let's talk. It will never become manageable unless it comes out to the open. When those inclinations can hide, they proliferate. They can survive the light and the attention.

Energize your Water: About the Source Energized Water... 70% of your body is water

Most of what we know, or think we know is Tree of Knowledge.

Tree of Knowledge means that we didn't have a direct experience of what we are talking about. We guessed, or someone else guessed and sold it to us as the truth.

That is the case with most of history, the Bible, and most of science.

Now, let's get back to direct experience: it is a tricky area.

I need to add something important: direct experience of something that is not open to interpretation.

Example: I was 9 years old when the so called "revolution" happened in Hungary. I listened to Voice of America, I had my father called at 3 am to go and fight. I had my brother stand in line for 7 hours to get a loaf of bread. I had my mother and brother go to the Austrian Embassy for some food: they had to go in the backyards of houses to be protected from gunfire.

I had two thugs shoot at me in the second floor window and I had the bullet to prove.

Now, that is Tree of Life knowledge... I was there and it happened to me.

Example #2: I am at the chiropractor and someone is complaining of night-time cramps. The chiropractor says: Magnesium. I muscle test and it's Potassium that the person needs.

Another person walks in with a bad rash. He says he ate avocado. The chiropractor gives him a homeopathic remedy when I can feel _1 that the guy has a congested liver, and all he needs is a liver flush that he can get for seven bucks on this site: it's an energetic liver flush, plenty times more convenient and easy than what others recommend.

Another thing this chiropractor recommends is drinking plenty of water.

But this is what I really wanted to talk about: your water.

You see, tap water vibrates at 70~80 on the vibrational scale. Spring water, bottled, vibrates at 120-180. Your physical body, the cell water, vibrates around 300 when healthy. The vibrational numbers show both integrity and energy.

You need your drinking water to vibrate at least at 300 to contribute to your health... otherwise it goes the other way around: your body needs to energize your drinking water.

Did you notice that people just don't want to drink water? Their body cringes: but they can fool their body by adding flavor, heat, etc. to the water in the form of tea, coffee, juices, sodas.

Orange, for example, vibrates at 250. That is still under the body's vibration.

My guess is this is why health nuts don't live longer than couch potatoes: they put the same de-energizing liquids in their bodies. But the health nuts need more liquids: so they destroy their health with all the liquids they do put in their bodies.

You can't win, right?

Yeah right, until this time in history.

A Florida company sells a product, Lifeforce water, that vibrates at 600. They have a proprietary process. The owner is 90 years old, he is planning to take the secret to the grave with him... lol.

Factor in yours truly, me. I had been buying this company's products, but then something happened, and I didn't like the direction they were going. So I asked Source: Can you duplicate this? The answer was yes. How? You just hold your hand on water and say: "Energize"

I was afraid to do it. After all why would it work? Who do I think I am to just say Energize and the water energizes.

But, as I built confidence, I decided one day to try it. Lo and behold, the water energized.

I know it two ways:

1. Energized water is silky. It tastes good, doesn't have that "chunky" feeling when you drink it. I can just put two fingers into it and can tell the energy of the water, it is so obvious.
2. I can muscle test its vibration.

Found out that the Energizer® takes the water to a vibration of 650: that is, it seems, the highest vibration the water can hold and pass on: it comes from the change in the structure of the water, a vibrational shift. I tested the Trivedi energy and, combined with the Energizer, it raises the vibration of the water to 650, but the Trivedi energy doesn't get passed on to some other water with entrainment.

What is entrainment? It's an energetic phenomenon: vibration, or cycles harmonize when in close vicinity. Pendulum clocks, menstruating women, heart cells... all have a cycle, and the cycles harmonize. That is what's called entrainment.

When you put the water energized with the Energizer next to non-energized water, over time the non-energized water gets energized too. The original Energized water works like an energizer to the new water.

Using that principle, I have energized gel inserts to a special type of pitcher, and the water in the pitcher gets energized in about 4-6 hours to 600 on the vibrational scale.

What other uses are for this process?

Pain reduction. You can energize a gel pillow or gel pack and the body part you hold it against will heal faster.

What happens to you when you drink this energized water, or other liquids energized with this energy?

I can only tell you from memory: I used to have bad skin. My skin has been clear since I am using this method.
When I travel without my energizing insert, I get very very very tired, and I get a fever blister or a cold every time I am without my energy water for a day or two.

Interestingly, the airport X-ray machine reduces energized water's vibration, but not the Gel insert's. Why? I don't know.

What does it mean to the end user? That the energizer insert can be shipped with any shipping company: it will arrive fully charged. The Florida company claims that their product has to be shipped with UPS, because UPS doesn't scan their boxes. So often the shipping used to be more expensive than the product itself. Not any more.

So, how can you get you some of this goodness? (did you get my downhome accent in this last sentence? lol)

I sell the pitcher, I sell the energized inserts, and soon I will sell the gel-packs that you can use for pain and other bad bodily stuff.

Check out the page that sells it: http://www.yourvibration.com/energywater/

Suggestions for other uses? Don't hesitate to leave me a comment. Or if you have used these products, please leave a comment on your experience with them. Let's energize!

1. I am an empath, remember? I can connect to a person, present or not, in a sec and feel, reliably, what is going on there.

Most of us are in this work, teacher and student alike, to raise our vibration. In my programs the specific purpose is to develop a core group of the New Humanity through a combination of raising the vibration and new ways of being.

But some people, students and gurus alike, are in this work for their own purposes, personal significance, money, world dominance... everybody has their purpose and reason.

This past week I needed everyone in the Second Phase Activator course to sign a non-disclosure/confidentiality agreement. As it seems, one of the students shared sensitive information with the wrong people, without malicious intent. That inflamed and enraged a "competitor" guru... and we all suffered this week heavy attacks. I had to work to repair damages, for about 20 hours this week, that's why there are barely any articles this week. No time...

Generally, in the world, in every program where the information is proprietary AND can be easily duplicated, you need to sign an agreement like that, and a non-competing agreement as well.

In Landmark Education you needed to sign those agreements every time you did a course. Why? Because knowledge is a lot like money: you can steal it and use it for your own purposes. It's much like in industry or science: it sometimes takes a lot of money and a lot of time to develop something really new and valuable.

But I didn't need to have people sign an agreement to protect proprietary information, or intellectual property.

Energies can't just be knocked off. Energies are like gold: you need to be a serious alchemist to make gold from crap. lol. You need Source's cooperation, and you need a noble purpose. _1

Even when I was practicing the Omega Shakti System, a system of arcane but unusually strong energies, only some of the "practitioners" could do more than just follow instructions... or use the energies creatively. I was always one of them. Energies love me, energies come to me. I never use them for selfish reasons, I always respect them... you know, energies have preferences too... they are like living entities.

The agreement came as a result of someone leaking out what we are doing and how I obtain some of the energies I use in the programs.

For example, I find something, like the raw coco beans in the movie Chocolat.

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My favorite effect is where the character played by Jean Reno (of The Professional fame) finds the little bag with the raw coco beans and gets turned on... suddenly becomes alive, feeling, a definite quickening...

I asked Source: Can you duplicate that? Yes. Can I have it? Yes. Is it an energy? No. So how do you do it? You direct an energy you already have...

That's how the "Get Turned On" or "Come Alive" energy was born. I haven't decided on the name yet.

This is my standard practice. As I have said it elsewhere: I am an innovator. I don't try to re-invent the wheel. I just make it work for what I want it to work. You can use a wheel in an ordinary way, or an extraordinary way: I do the second.

But if I were stupid... The creators of Chocolat could sue me. Juliette Binoche (the creator of the coco beans) could attack me and render me dead or discouraged.

Depending whether you are on the Light's side or the Dark Side: you will come from scarcity or from abundance.

Some of the energies I innovated on have made a lucrative living for their "owners." Except that you can't own energies.

They can't sue me, so they do the next best: make it impossible for me to be alive... Or they can try to kill me. They can try to take away my ability to make a living. I know they can, I have seen people use weaker Omega energies to hurt others, a world apart, physically.

This is what's been happening for quite some time, and this week was a real crescendo in that.

Ranging from sending energy to my person with such force that I needed to stay in bed one day. Disabling my internet server (my sites), disturbing my phone lines, and reducing the vibration of all waters in my house...

If I were any reactive, I would quit: who wants to die... right? But I am not reactive. I am practicing non-resistance. I am practicing being a blade of grass... bend and come back once the storm passes.

I can repair my web servers, I can talk less on the phone, I can afford to spend a day in bed, I can recharge the water... let them have fun.

They will stop: after all you can't do this (attacking me and mine) while you are trying to make a bundle, can you?

So, why do we have the non-disclosure, confidentiality agreement? To protect the participants.

I can be ok, but I don't expect a student to be able to withstand energetic attacks like I do. So, who is in the courses is confidential information. What they say in the courses is confidential information. And even what I say... after all I don't want to invite more of the same. I was stupid but I don't have to stay that way!

My conclusion: If you find yourself worried that someone will copy you, or your guru is worried about them being copied: just know that you are on the Dark Side, you live in a world of scarcity.

This is a big world. Lots of people.

I understand some gurus are aiming at world dominance: they should just think what happened to Hitler, Stalin, or even Alexander the Great.

You think you own something, but it ends up owning you. It is a wretched way to live.

And it is counter to the Original Design. So you'll have cancer, horrible cough, your penis will break off, and you'll have nightmares... because that is how it is. You are out of sync with how it is: you need to pay.

There are no happy tyrants. There are no happy despots. There are no happy bailiffs. You gain some, you lose some.

You lose what's most important: your humanity. I'd rather be stupid.

1. Our purpose is to create the seed of a new humanity that lives according to the Original Design. Just a thousand living that way can avert the catastrophe that is threatening the Earth right now. We are at 6 now. According to the law of past performance, we need to reach 100,000 people to achieve the 1,000 number. What about the 99,000? They have a strong reason too: these 1,000 people will accomplish their work on the shoulder of the 99,000 that are trying unsuccessfully. They are indispensable: you can't do this work in a vacuum.

If a person witnesses any form of hatred—on his own street or anywhere in the world—it means this person still has some measure of hatred lingering in his own soul.

If we harbor even the slightest bit of hatred or animosity for another person-for any reason whatsoever, valid or invalid, whether we're aware of it or whether we're in self-denial —we still bring. destruction to the world.
By cleansing. the hatred in our own hearts, we can remedy all the world's problems at once at the level of their root cause.

Spiritual Practice:
Be painfully honest! Acknowledge every person or group of people toward whom you feel anger, envy, malice, total disgust, or any combination thereof. With the Light of this Name, drop those negative feelings like a load of wet laundry!

The basis of this hatred is the mind. The mind will not accept anyone or anything as valid...

What there is to do is: step out of the mind and become innocent. For an innocent person there is nothing and no one to hate.

Step back into your Self, the part of you that wasn't born when you were born, and won't die when you die.

When you look at the world from there, there is no past, there is no similarity and dissimilarity. There is no color, and there is no sexual orientation. There is nothing to protect, nothing to attack.

Go there as often as you can.

When The Monster Comes Out And Starts Doing Monster Stuff: What Will You Do? How will you raise your vibration back up?

Let me explain: in the book, The Journeys of Socrates (by Dan Millman) one of the main characters is Dmitri. He was an orphan, taught by his adoptive parents that Jews were bad people. In one nasty argument he finds out that he is Jewish... and kills both adoptive parents.

In his memory, in his imagination, a monster came and did all those things. He is riddled with nightmares of that fateful night... his whole life was used by that memory: hiding that he was the monster.

Why am I talking about this now? What does this have to do with raising your vibration?

I had the monster part of me come out on a connection call this afternoon, and it was slash-slash-slashing on the call... Insulting people, publicly, etc. How did that happen that a teacher like me was taken over by my dark side, by my shadow side, by my monster hiding persona?

I just had a little conflict... I am not kidding you. I had a conflict: I wanted to be somewhere else and I had to be on this call...

Why is this useful to you if you want to raise your vibration?

Shadow side, dark side of your personality, is normal. It is never going to go away.

For some of you it is fear. For some of you it is superiority, condescension. Being judgmental, being vulgar, etc. My weakest point is being caught between two things: call waiting: Being in conflict about

1. talking to either of the parties while the other is waiting;
2. having to be somewhere and somewhere else at the same time (like today I had a course I paid a lot of money for, and didn't realize it would be a 6 hour course instead of the one hour I expected),

and I drop the ball.

With a lot of self-training (years!), I have managed to learn to handle call waiting, but the conflict situation I encountered this afternoon was something I wasn't prepared for.

After 10 minutes of suffering and being in conflict, I finally ended the connection call and returned to the paid course I left to take care of the connection call... that's how I "resolved" the conflict. To make matters worse, on the paid course, when I resumed it, they were talking about being likeable... lol... yeah, right! Not.

So, what is there to do if and when the "monster" comes out and take over?

Just watch it. There is no stopping a monster, at least I have never managed to stop it... And then don't go where you always go: running, hiding, quitting, blaming, justifying, none of it.

Own up to it, take notes and start targeting that dark side.

I will put myself into this predicament more often to learn to be peaceful, choose, breathe, step back, in the face of unusual tension...

And promise the people you hurt that you know what you did, and you do your darned best not to do it again.

Ask what they need from you to be well, and to trust you again.

And do what they ask of you. It is probably much less than you would offer them... most people are much hardier than you give them credit to.

Don't beat yourself up. When you beat yourself up, you have to feel bad about them too... Just get that you are not perfect, that you will never be perfect, that life will not be a neat little package, and make peace with that.

Be intelligent.

That is what I plan on doing. It will raise my vibration back to where it was before, or maybe even higher.

PS: One more thing: when you are in a program that uses powerful and transformative energies, expect your dark side to surface. Because you can't catch what you don't see, what you need to catch will start showing up. Like Celeste says in her comment, and other students said elsewhere: raising your vibration is not a walk in the park, it is going to take facing the dark side, blinking, recognizing it for what it is, and committing to catching it next time.

That's how you raise your vibration.

It's Sunday, so I permit myself a little more time to find out what is other people's agenda... i.e. I read some emails in my inbox.

I do it randomly: I allow the spirit to move my hand that holds the mouse.

I think my conscious mind is completely disengaged: I am not looking for anything in particular: I have more on my plate than I can handle, thank you very much.

THE HAND opens a video. Brendon Burchard pitch video for High Performance Academy. Something about getting things done.

It auto-starts... I scramble for my headset. I catch the tail end of his introduction... I am drawn into the video... and then, suddenly, I need to go to the bathroom, blah blah blah.

Hm. I always pay attention when something is "suddenly".

Resistance.

No matter what he is going to say, it is going to upset the apple cart. No matter how long it's taken me to arrange the apples on the cart, what he is going to say will force me to re-arrange the whole darn thing: is it worth it?

Not only that, if I want to be listening, I will need to listen from nothing, which means I need to declare myself incompetent... and I am the most productive person I know... but still.

And not only that, in what he is teaching, I will be a beginner. And I will need to bring all the changes to all the areas of my life, including my teaching: is it worth it?

Familiar lurches of fear, anxiety, anguish, fear of failure perform their light show in my stomach and chest... I am still on the potty, taking my time. Going back to the computer means decision time, and I am not ready...

Maybe everyone is like me: maybe I should allow my students to run to the bathroom and in the peace of the smallest room of an apartment, allow them to choose to be trained, choose them to allow me to upset the apple cart, again and again and again.

I come back and watch the video. Of course it upset the apple cart.

I don't know what I am learning, but I definitely retained one thing: people don't only want you to care about them: they want you to care about whether they will learn what you are teaching or not. Wow, I never thought about that. Do I care? Do they know I care?

I really hope so.

I have been teaching (coaching is teaching!) for about 25 years, and only just recently have I been able to experience being effective. I think I care that they learn more than they care! And yet... Maybe I wasn't caring about them enough?

Whatever the case, something changed and I, we are experiencing real learning, us, the handful of students that set out to be pathfinders for the new humanity.

We are a diverse bunch, on all different levels with all different issues. And we are moving.

I take a mental note to share this with the group: don't forget to care. Don't forget to be present with people. Don't think you can get anywhere with people feeling left behind.

It's probably not a coincidence that this week I had to perform six psychic surgeries.

Don't ask me what it means, I can only share the experience: I have someone on the call. They are blocking an activator download, or even the Heaven on Earth download. I check and it's one person, and the blockage is in a specific area of their body.

I ask if it is a Dark Side attack, if it is limited to them, if it is aimed at us.

Then I ask if I can remove it... If the answer is yes, I remove it. It is much like how Neo reaches into his girl friend's body and directly squeezes her heart in one Matrix movie.

I reach in, I grab the intruder, I start to pull, and pull and pull, until all of it is outside of the body of the effected. Many are 30-40 yards long, much like a long long worm or snake. I clap my hands, and continue doing the session. I have a fleeting moment of fear that the "thing" may get into me, but I brush it off, and I am fine.

Six of these in a week.

I have identified that all of these were from their haughty behavior, being condescending, acting as superior.

I completely identify with the anger and vengefulness of those let down by my students. I h-a-t-e being put down myself! Don't you?

You are not superior, you need to see the best and the divine in people. We are all in all different places, and none of us are better.

Work on doing YOUR work, and work on appreciating others. Life will be much better, and I won't have to do psychic surgeries, instead of teaching you.

Allow me to upset the apple cart... you don't know how to put people at ease just yet.

1. apple cart stands here for the status quo, what you know and how you do things

In 1998 I needed a major surgery. I had been ill for almost a year then. No insurance, no money, no family.

I had a magazine that was just sitting there: I wasn't well enough to actually do the work and publish new issues. My staff long gone, I was silently dying. I was losing blood at an alarming rate, and my mind was going foggier by the day.

An advertiser of my dead magazine decided that he was going to be good Samaritan, and sent a limo to pick me up to take me to his friend who owed him a favor.

The friend, a surgeon, immediately took me to the hospital and had me admitted. I needed a surgery, but a gynecological surgery: not his specialty.

The gynecologist refused to operate on me: I was a charity case. She sent me home to die.

My advertising client found out, and sent the limousine again. The regular surgeon found a willing medical resident (a student. The hospital was a teaching hospital...) and the two of them, two non-experts operated on me for three and a half hours: it wasn't an easy job.

I came out of the surgery with a serious case of vertigo, and a major brain damage.

My chances of survival, in a world where you need to make money to live, were very low.

Some former advertisers came and asked me to do some work for them, and I accepted. Another advertiser gave me a $37 advertisement in the state newspaper, and the fees I made were a whopping $100.

That was my starting capital. For 8 months, every night, when I counted my money, I had exactly $100: that is what remained after expenses. But I was alive, and that was an accomplishment.

And then the $100 became $105, $110, etc.

After another 4 years I magically was lead to a method that snapped my brain out of the state where it didn't know it was damaged. It started to heal itself.

Today I have 95% of my brain back, and here I am, a teacher, an innovator, happy, and loved.

Why am I telling you this story?

Because last night, as I was looking to put my $100 into loans, I saw that several women in the Philippines were asking for a $100 loan. I gave one the whole $100 and wept.

I wept at her courage. I wept at the magnificence of the human spirit. And I wept at the magic, where $100 can start someone on their journey up and high...

I then checked "my little group", the ten people that followed suit and accepted my invitation to give a loan to women like I was 13 years ago: give them a chance. I am moved. I am touched. I am inspired by who you are.

The new humanity begins this way. With the right mindset, with the right actions.

Giving charity is saying that you are better, that they are inferior. Wrong mindset.

Giving money to support those that want to fly opens up something in you that is about flying.

Remember: "The spirit only wants that there be flying. Who is doing the flying, the spirit only has a passing interest."

Causing flying will cause YOU to fly. Don't be mistaken about that.

Causing prosperity will cause YOU to enjoy prosperity. The path? Can't be predicted, but I think this action frees up a part of you that is now too busy complaining that it isn't given enough, that people don't love you enough, and turn that part of you into a flying spirit that is willing to do something in the world.

The 2nd phase activators are about that too: free you up so you can be flying.

Congratulations to the ten that heard the call! You've started on your journey up.

It is coming full circle now... I have another blog, get unstuck, and it's been largely abandoned by me, snubbed by my students as a lower grade of my work, older... lol. BTW, on Amazon it is quite popular, it is in kindle format.

And, lo and behold, the whole class is getting to the same point: they need to learn how to get unstuck.

alleluia!

Of course, my approach, in addition to validating what I have written before, is going to be a little bit different.

When I interview people what they consider being stuck, they always talk about the big stuff. Ha-hah! But no one is stuck in the big stuff: it is just the top layer, the layer that everyone can see.

For one, you are stuck in how you view yourself: as if you were your top, visible layer.

Imagine you trying to move a pile of carpets. The pile is 12 carpets high. The pile is not moving.

If you are clueless, like most people, you keep on trying to drag the whole pile to no avail.

If you are intelligent, hey, maybe you are! who knows, right? Then you will remove the top carpet and try again. Then you'll lift the layers, one by one, until you get to the layer that somehow makes the whole pile stick to the floor.

And no, it is not always the bottom layer that keeps things stuck. How do you know? How do you test? If you can rotate the pile, for example, chances are it is not the bottom layer... got it?

Once you get to the stuck thread, a pin, a price tag, whatever, you can see it, and you can remove it without damaging the floor, the carpets, yourself.

That is the essence of unsticking yourself. But it is never visible without removing the layers.

So, let's make it clear: am I asking you to analyze everything in the heat of the moment... and remove the layers?

No, I am not doing that.

Remember the slogan: how you do anything is how you do everything (really!).

When you can do the work in a course setting, for example, where you are supported, loved, coached, and listened to, you can get to the 2-3 spots that are always sticky.

There is, ultimately, one sticky point, what we will call linchpin, but it is not that easy to get to it: it may be tied in a story that doesn't want to release its captive too easily.

But once you get the 2-3 spots, behaviors, attitudes, assumptions, fixations, you learn them well.

You will use the color exercise on them, so you can recognize them even at driving at speed limit, behind a half closed garage door... all meaning fast without effort.

You'll practice until you catch hard to catch occurrences, don't stop too early.

Then, when in the heat of the moment they come up, you can let them go.

There are only a handful of ways to let go of a sticky point, and we'll learn them all.

Where? In the 2nd phase activator series... I have realized that it's not enough to give you the activators, I'd better teach you some dance-moves of the new humanity, so you can dance through life, dance through the ascension, and have fun doing it.

Kiva Loan as a vehicle to take you to a higher vibration

This will be a short post. The length of a post doesn't indicate its significance, and in this case it definitely doesn't.

I have been tracing it in my life and in my students life: when you are able to circulate money the energy will bring back, with itself, unexpected and welcome benefits.

When I first tested this out, I was scared. I made a commitment to a monthly donation to the Kabbalah Centre, and it was beyond my means.

Four days later, out of the blue, I was gifted 9 thousand dollars. I used some of it to pay the next 12 months worth of prepaid check go away... that was a bad move.

In circulating the money, small pushes work best. If you give money that you don't quite consider yours, it may circulate money, but it won't come back to you.

I have made all kinds of experiments, how much, how frequently, and with what "excuse" I give money.

So far what works best for me is lending money through Kiva, a micro-lending hub of sorts. Kiva allows you to lend money to a borrower of your choice and you get paid back.

I am giving a gift of life, not a gift of money. I honor and "reward" what is most important to me: the courage and the will to do better. Some borrowers ask for thousands of dollars. Others for a few hundred dollars.

I give all my loans to women, in countries of the Caucasian mountains, Tajikistan, Uzbekistan, Armenia, those tiny countries where after a long time of oppression by the Soviet Union, people are struggling to make ends meet and to regain their dignity. And the Philippines... courageous bunch as well.

I have over 20 loans that get paid back and then I just re-loan it. A standard loan is 25 bucks and it takes a few months for the loans to be re-paid.

Kiva has some free loan trials available now, and I want you to try what it's like to be a benefactor of someone who is less fortunate than you, but probably has a lot more courage and gumption.

Allow what they have, courage, determination, ambition, to penetrate you. Soak it up, make it your own. Be them, emulate them. Watch as they pay you back from their profits, and learn from their example. Very inspiring.

This will take you out of your head and into your heart.

Here is the link to get a free Kiva trial: I don't know how it works: you will find out. No risk, no glory.

If you never take risks, your vibration will never rise. Guaranteed.

Update: A number of you have accepted my invitation. I even have access to see who you are supporting with your loans.

A few words about how I make my choices that I get the most out of my transactions:

1. I don't care what the person is going to do with the money: I trust the system.
2. I care that this is my deal with Source, not with those people. My money needs to work fast and furious. So I select the borrowers by the following criteria
   • gender. must be a woman. why? because that is the future, women liberating themselves but staying women
   • the loan needs to be urgent and make the most difference. Most of the time i pick by "ending soon" and help the loan to be fully financed in a jiffy. My money will start repaying within a few days and I can re-lend it when it is paid back... I got the most bang out of my buck
3. When you make choices by like or not like, a lot of the persona (that keeps you the same) is involved and you will end up not gaining anything from the transaction: in fact it strengthens who you don't want to be: it is all about you, your preferences, what you like, how great you are, and all that crap, not a clean transaction for raising your vibration

I hope this is making things clearer... I want you to win

I don't know everything. In fact, I know very little. And what I know is somewhat sketchy.

I just finished muscle testing the vibrational numbers of the second phase activator class. I was expecting to see who is doing the work of earning their light and who isn't by the way their vibration was comparing to the numbers two weeks ago.

What I found didn't make sense, which is a good thing.

When something makes sense, it means that the knowledge is coming from the Tree of Knowledge. It means that I didn't access anything beyond what everybody should suspect; and the majority is always wrong. Always.

So, in a sense, I was happy that my findings didn't make sense.

I get answers two ways:

1. Direct knowing. I just suddenly know. Where is it coming from? Intuition, says Osho. I don't know. It has nothing before it... no history, no reason, no track record. Discontinuous. Seemingly.

2. I get an insight through something happening.

The second happened today. When in doubt, play Freecell... that is my philosophy, and has been for years now.

Freecell has been my vehicle to connect and channel knowledge. Freecell has been my vehicle to take myself out of the reactive mode, and into the creative mode, the receptive mode, out of the mind, into the no-mind.

I watch my behavior, I watch the game, I watch my feelings, I watch the automatic thoughts.

My instinctive nature is jumpy, reactive, never looks around, lunges, goes for the easy pickings, very dumb. Wants to shake responsibility, detests and runs from any kind of opportunity to be made wrong, made feel less than...

So, in the beginning my instinctive nature was moving my hands, and I am watching.

The thoughts say: you screwed up. It's over. You can't save this one... you dumb thing...

The emotions follow the thoughts, precisely: anxiety, discouragement, despair come in quick succession.

"Maybe it is time to take over this game? Look before I leap? Let's do that." This thought also comes from the mind, but it's not automatic. It comes from intelligence.

I look at the screen, and seemingly the cards change. A pattern emerges. A bunch of connections that were hidden while the instinctive self was playing, suddenly show up.

The game that could not be saved smoothly resolves itself.

Now, how does this relate to the question, why some students jumped to a much higher vibration, and others have been stagnating?

Pretty closely, in fact.

Take a student that didn't jump vibrationally: they watch themselves, maybe even catch themselves, but don't call onto the deeper intelligence for a different way of being. They play and continue playing in the arena of the instinctive self, where it's about winning, it's about looking good, doing it right, being liked, feeling good, having fun.

The students that had a significant jump, probably, had a quickening: they went beyond the pedestrian level (instinctive nature) and brought on intelligence. At least some of the time.

That opened them up to alignment with the Original Design... that is what I learned from playing Freecell today right after I asked the question.

So what does this mean to you if you are here to raise your vibration?

It means that some of the practices are so tiny alterations, no fanfare, no dance and song, you may not even notice.

I had an alteration, in fact a series of alterations in behavior, that went on completely out of my conscious awareness.

As I mentioned in previous articles, I am a dyslexic, I had a major brain damage, and I have a difficulty standing longer than a minute or two, without getting pain in my right side.

Going to the laundromat became one of those nightmarish experiences. Cleaning the house... oh no. Putting away clothes... no way.

About two months ago something moved in me, because I, imperceptibly, started to take care of my physical environment, a few minutes at a time. I did most of the stuff under the level of my conscious awareness. While I was doing "important" things, like being on the phone, or listening to a recording or a call.

The place is still messy, but functional messy. Like a place where someone works 24/7. Not like an abandoned building... lol.

Some of the changes that cause a jump in vibration are like that: under the level of your conscious awareness.

Others you will need to consciously work on. I'll talk about one of those tools for raising your vibration, play, in another article.

If you want to experience raising your vibration, the best tool I have is the audio recordings of the Second Phase Activators. No meditation, no other teaching compare, they are unique and effective.

You can sign up today and become a part of a community of people that are working on the same thing, each their own way, each with varying success. You don't need to do it alone.

I am noticing that no matter what question I ask, people, unconsciously, translate the question to a Tree of Knowledge, pedestrian question, and then answer their own question.

Asking the same questions leave you unconscious and your life unchanged.

The power is in the questions that make you pick up your head and say: What?

The two paradigms, the pedestrian paradigm, and the elevated paradigm mostly differ, not in their answers, but in their questions.

The four questions (all four need to be answered, not just one!) create a several story jump... unless, of course, you turn it into a pedestrian question.

When I first started to work on raising my vibration, there were no tools. There were only courses, and most people used them as brain candy, to be smarter in conversation with their peeps.

As I am learning disabled, and a foreigner, and a certified loner, I had to chew on each sentence, until I got it. Being hard of understanding is a definite advantage in this type of work. The sharper and quicker the person, the more superficial and pedestrian the understanding.

Most of the people that taught courses or seminars for Landmark, for example, were the quick-witted ones... fast and superficial.

The better someone's command of the English language, the less depth they had in their understanding.

Then they taught you veneer... ugghhh. I always marveled at the foreign course leaders' profound grasp of the depths of the distinctions... or the leader who helped me most: who had to work for seven years to become a leader because he was slow, like me.

He needed to create illustrations, analogies, metaphors to even grasp what was being said: and in his unique way taught students better than any of the smooth talker smarties.

I am one of those dummies... lol. Slower and dumber than the slowest leader.

I had to teach everything twenty-thirty times before I would get it. But then it became mine...

If you are one of the quick-witted ones, please slow down, and consider that you are only seeing the obvious... and that is the booby prize... worthless. Go deeper.

Now, returning to the questions in the title: at any moment you can ask the four questions... You can be on your own, by the way, you don't need another person, just you, yourself and you. You can be on stage. You can be someone whose boy friend is picking on you. You can be someone whose children are being children, god forbid... lol... in any life situation. The questions can be asked and shed light to what's underneath the veneer.

Ponder those questions. Map out who and what is speaking, and who and what is listening.

You'll learn more about yourself in the process than any other time, I guarantee it.

If this whole thing is like Chinese to you... maybe you want to get more distinctions, and get smarter in the Activators Class... Become self-aware instead of self-conscious, impervious instead of reactive, decisive instead of bumbling and fumbling and seeking and not finding.

A student of mine watched a movie last night. In the movie she heard the following dialogue:

"Thank you for saving my life" "Don’t waste it."

She cried. Later her husband was picking a fight with her. She stepped back _1 and didn't react.

An hour later the husband came downstairs. She offered him tea. He apologized for his behavior.

Why am I sharing this with you? Because one way or another we are all wasting our life, or most of it.

The most useful question I have found to snap me out of this wasteful way of being is:

What is using your perfectly good life right now?

Here are some examples. All are life-wasters that you can eliminate by doing the work we do, especially the activators.

1. Blaming
2. Worrying
3. Thinking about the future
4. Thinking about the past
5. Wondering what it means... (whatever it is at the moment)
6. Wondering what they mean
7. Wondering what you should be doing with your life
8. Getting angry
9. Being anxious
10. Planning what you should say, what you should do. Strategizing
11. Being distracted
12. Being stressed... calm and collected _2 and actually doing something: oh, that hasn't occurred to you?
13. Being in your head
14. Sacrificing your life for another, doing things they can do for themselves
15. Giving advice, calling it coaching
16. Complaining
17. Getting agreement from others on how terrible it is, he is, etc.
18. Avoid saying anything negative... in fact avoiding anything!
19. Shopping, eating, sexing to fill yourself up
20. Considering anyone a friend who you can reach on the phone
21. Doing stuff because you think it will help you, because Oprah said it, because Dr. Oz said it... because I said it! lol
22. Trying to do anything. Do it or don't do it.
23. Retelling your story
24. Justifying anything
25. Avoiding domination
26. Resisting
27. Arguing
28. Proving that you are superior/inferior
29. Hating
30. Being offended (my version is: who do they think they are to do this to me? lol)
31. Looking for stuff in your head
32. Asking questions to get a yes or no answer
33. Daydreaming
34. Trying to have fun
35. Trying to please people
36. Helping (this one is big, and I'll probably need to write a whole article about this)
37. Gossiping, just to talk about people is gossiping
38. Being right, avoid being wrong
39. Try to be well thought of by doing things, anything! Mrs. Roosevelt said it best: Their opinion of me is their business, not mine.
40. Bringing creativity to mundane stuff. One of my students brings creativity to his assignment, which is to remind me to record the webinar. He is so intent on saying it always different, that he never checks if I got the message or not. It is all about him. He wants to hear his name on the call... it validates him.
41. Calling someone on the phone to tell them how great you are, how miserable you are, how unlucky you are

Enough examples for you? No? Do you have your own? Please add it in the comments section. Believe me, just adding it and acknowledging it as something that uses your life will open you up for a breakthrough. Will you have a breakthrough? Probably not.

Breakthrough is a technology, not a result of an insight. But some insights are life altering, like the one I had that something is using my life for its own purposes, other than my purposes.

With the activators, you awaken the part of you that makes sure you use your life for you, not for c-r-a-p.

You can sign up to the course: it is one recording per week, and it's life altering.

You'll be able to see how, gradually, you'll get back the reins, how gradually you'll get back your life, to use for something that's worth using a perfectly good life: yours.

1. she'd learned how to in the Second Phase Activators course
2. get the Heaven on Earth... in the sidebar. It works!

Motto: Mentor: Someone whose hindsight can become your foresight

Remember who you are

In 1981 I got a letter from a man from Israel. He claimed to be a second cousin to me. He was coming to an educational symposium (big conference) in Hungary. He came with his wife.

We spent time together, they were staying with me, in my one-bedroom high-rise apartment in Budapest. He visited with every member of my family, and experience their contempt for me first hand.

He offered to be family to me if I decided to go to Israel.

I year later I packed a suitcase and left Hungary illegally. It was winter in Hungary when I left, in fact it was below 15 minus, very cold. It was about 80 degrees in Israel when I arrived, penniless. I didn't know even one word of Hebrew, though I had heard the word Shalom, I didn't know what it meant.

I enrolled in an 'ulpan,' a free language school paid by the government as part of the Law of Return: every Jew has the right to get support to return to Israel.

I was horrible at the ulpan. I am dyslexic, and it became worse than normal: the writing is from right to left, and it was a curve ball for my brain... lol. _1

School ended an 1 pm, I walked across town and started my second shift: doing drafting for an architect... I am an architect myself.

On the weekends I cooked for a rich religious American. After a month or two I could buy used lighter clothing.

I spoke with everyone English, but in my dorm room I was tireless in learning Hebrew. I borrowed tapes, I watched the news and took notes: I wrote down every word I didn't catch, and then spent hours trying to find them in the Hebrew-English dictionary.

I wasn't going to let Hebrew or Israel beat me: I saw too many that were beaten down, returned to their country: I had no place to go.

After exactly six months I said my first sentence in Hebrew: grammatically incorrect, but I spoke. I got a job at the City Planning Department of Jerusalem, and started to work there as an architect.

After 9 months my boss got sick and someone needed to represent the City at a hearing: I took it on myself to do it.

In front of hundreds of people I represented the City of Jerusalem, in Hebrew. Probably bad Hebrew... by the way.

Why am I telling you this? To brag? No. There was a secret I'd like to share, that is useful, and that is still the foundation of my life AND my teaching:

I heard in some lecture (in English) that the embryo, the unborn child knows Hebrew, knows who they are, but just before they are born an angel smacks them above the lip (therefore that dip between your nose an your lips, lol) and they forget everything.

I was devoutly unreligious at the time, but I liked the story. It had potential, it "dinged" within me.

So when I was watching the news, my context for listening was: "I knew what they were saying before, so I only need to be reminded."

So, whenever I successfully found a word in the dictionary (not that easy, lol) I nodded and said, "Oh yeah, I remember."

Effortless... I never actually had to learn words, just find words I wanted to remember.

My results were unusual, even for me: just 9 months from nothing to fluency... not your usual result.

Today I am doing activation of capacities... with the activators.

Can you see the similarity? An activator doesn't add anything. It reminds you. And it doesn't matter how many years you didn't remember: not at all. The moment you are willing to assume the attitude: Oh, I remember now... you will not resist, you will not set up barriers, you will not need to learn the "new" capacities like impervious, powerful, unconditional love, or humility.

You will just not, and start using them, just like you get on the bicycle and start pedaling... after a few uncertain, tentative pushes you are riding as if you had never stopped.

Connecting, on the other hand, is a little trickier.

Humanity was never informed that they are supposed to do something... instead they made up likely scenarios, likely stories of how it was... and so far all religions, all "modalities" are off: all made up, and all fancy, interesting, fascinating, but as far from the simple and elegant Original Design as you can get.

And, of course, connecting is an unusual "movement", there is no model, there is no memory... but luckily some rare individuals did connect, Moses, King David, Jesus, some kabbalists, a few Eastern saints (not many) Vianna and myself.

Coming to the calls with the attitude "I'll remember" and jump across the abyss between not knowing and knowing.

Let me check it for you and then you'll be certain. I have been refining the checking process: it is even more reliable now.

And get the activators, also with the attitude of "I'll remember..."

Your life will never be the same!

1. All my childhood I was called stupid by my parents because dyslexia wasn't, and still isn't recognized in Hungary. My younger brother is also dyslexic. I can read well in bed where there is no distraction and I can hold my head in a fixed position. Not well on the computer: I use software that reads what I need to read, if it is longer than a few sentences. It takes an immense amount of ambition and curiosity to beat dyslexia, but it's possible. I am still learning disabled, by the way, I think that is my advantage in life. People who understand things easily never invest the work that is needed to become an expert.

Be Nice! I love you but... You are rude on the calls, where is the Heaven on Earth that you promise?

From My Mailbox:

I already love you and care for you bc _1 i can feel your heart...way big. The challenge is that the ego is still getting in the way of your delivering the Heaven on Earth and your special talents bringing down energy.

The meditations are rather distracting and the tone you offer to the participants is a turn off.

My wife is not going to be getting on any more bc it was more unsettling (the demeanor with some girl on the call and others) than beneficial.

I am telling you this bc if you are like me you will process this and come up with a more loving solution for your meditations. I felt the same thing Tuesday and my interest weaned in what can truly be a Heaven on Earth. Please understand this is offered with love and not really interested in challenging you to help you grow..just how and what my wife observed. Love

My Answer, Or Better My Musings:

I find it really useful to note that much criticism, most deadly blows come with a disclaimer: I love you, but...

That is the extent our love for our fellow human beings.

This is why the Unconditional Love Activator is such a godsend: it frees you us to just express your displeasure without a disclaimer. That leaves the other person whole and complete, not a rotten apple...

People who use meditation as a nice experience are using it as a drug, and are addicted, probably, to other means of feeling nice, I have no doubt about that.

The main question here is what is the purpose of meditation, and what is the purpose of coming to my calls.

If you are coming to have a nice time, a nice experience, you are better off going to Christie Marie Sheldon. She will serve you well.

I have no commitment to you enjoying the calls. It's OK with me if you do, it is my preference that you do, but no commitment there.

What am I committed to if I am not committed to your experience in the sessions?

I am committed to waking you up. I am committed to call a quickening, an awakening in you. I am doing my darned best to do that. Including strengthening your capacity to stay well and unphased, unfrazzled, untouched when things happen in your environment that are maybe upsetting, like someone being thrown off a call.

All my work, all my products are designed to bring you out of your childish expectation that the world is supposed to be a nice fair place. It isn't: it is not ever going to be.

My flag bears the goal: "A world that works for everyone." But is that statement about changing the world? No. It is changing you! Your perception of reality, your awareness, your way of looking at things.

When your "sky" is that it should be a nice southern style nice-nice, polite, politically correct world, the clouds my sessions are going to be nasty and not what you want. But if you look behind the fake nice-nice, people are back stabbing, and the KKK _2 is from the South too... right?

I teach you, train you, poke you, activate you, and help you with the Heaven on Earth energy bundle to have a blue sky, no shoulds, on which the clouds, dark, fuzzy, pretty, stormy, whatever clouds pass across, but your sky stays the same. No conflict.

But, of course, you need to change to change the sky!

If you are coming to me to help you be happy while staying the same, I will strike you as unreasonable, harsh, and unfriendly.

Like the people on that particular call:

not doing what they were supposed to do... expecting me to do it for them
not reading the sales letter expecting this to a general advice call... and getting upset that it isn't
bringing dark blocking energies to the call, preventing my work to be done, and cursing me out when I ask them to leave

You see, if I could have this work done nice-nice, I would. I wouldn't feel like a tank just ran over my body after every call!

I don't expect this work to be a walk in the park, neither for me, nor for you.

Heaven on Earth on the call equals hell everywhere else!

I'd rather that you consider my classes base camp, boot camp for life: for a great life where you have all the power.

By the way: from now on I am screening the applicants and won't admit anyone whose vibration is under 190.

Both you and your wife are under 190.

Why 190? Because under 190 all you are concerned with is you. You can't see the big picture, and therefore you are not trainable.

I'd prefer to set the threshold lower, but my best student, when she started with me, was at 190... so I don't want to exclude my next best student. By the way, she is at 330 now, after two months.

She came for what's possible, not for a peaceful respite. That's the difference. And I am even nice some of the time, lol.

PS: By the way, my beloved teacher, Robert Plank, is anything but a nice guy. He, in fact, is a real prickly one. So why do I love him so much? Because he forced me to do the work, and because he was more committed to that than being nice.

Nice keeps you the same. "Prickly" has a chance to push you over the resistance and get you moving... so thank you, I don't want to be nice: I want you to be moving.

1. because, abbreviated
2. Ku-Klux-Klan, a racist organization for linching blacks

I wanted to learn php programming from him, because I didn't know what I wanted to do in life, so learning programming sounded like a good idea.

I had been learning marketing, mindset, everything and anything... when you don't know where you are going, every path takes you there... lol.

I remember being on the first webinar with him. I didn't know I was an empath and I could feel the tension between the two partners like my own, and I was rooting for Robert. He stammered, he talked to fast, he was eager and loved teaching!

I could not learn anything in the first course, nothing in the second course, ditto the third course, but I was coming back.

Then on the fourth course I could do three out of the 10 assignments, and I knew I found a home.

Doing the assignments is both a capacity issue and a mindset issue.

The capacity is clear, it is the answer to the question: is the skill and knowledge involved available or not, right?

The mindset is not clear for most: unless you have a reason, an inner reason, you won't find the ambition to do the work. But where does ambition come from?

Believe it or not, ambition comes from Ego.

Every religion, every self-improvement modality blames the ego for your troubles, but Ego is very useful.

Ego is the aspect of you that gives you the energy to get up and go.

You, your Self needs to give direction to the Ego, but the energy doesn't come from your Self: it comes from your Ego.

But what about the Soul?

The Soul is only interested in one thing: in earning its light through your actions. But the Soul knows only two moves:

1. nagging
2. nudging

Nagging is what it sounds like. It comes from displeasure, and it has an urgency. It is like a 3-year old pulling on your pants... unless you give it attention it won't stop.

Nudging is gentler and it has a direction. It has a guidance in the nudging. Go there, open this, say no, run... simple actions like that. For the most part we have no idea what it is trying to make us do, even if we know that nudging may come from the Soul.

Why is that? Because the subconscious has a similar language, except it has a lot more energy. Why? because the subconscious is full of repressed and suppressed stuff: mostly suppressed and repressed for cultural or religious reasons.

A result of the cultural indoctrination is that we are now making decisions from what we know (Tree of Knowledge), instead of our nature. We pick foods to eat, times to eat, times to drink, times to sleep, not from our physical nature, (Tree of Life) but from newspaper articles, television doctors, television gurus, that are themselves as wretched as we are. Or some, maybe, even more, lol.

So, how did I bridge this tremendous gap between not having the skill and not having the mindset to growing my skills with the correct mindset?

I can't say that my method will work for everyone, but it will work for some, and that is better than most gurus' one-size-fit-all solution that doesn't work for anyone.

This is what I did:

I allowed AMBITION, the desire to be bigger, better, or different from other people on the call to come and play. I allowed my AMBITION to win, win contests, win accolades, win prizes to get the BEST of me to cooperate and work together. (Robert Plank makes every assignment a contest that you can win!)

It worked so well that within a few months I won every contest, I started to learn by doing EVERYTHING, I started to see money coming in, I rose myself to a minor guru status while I was teaching what I needed to learn most! lol.

Another thing happened that was totally unexpected: until yesterday I didn't spend a nickel on other people's programs, even though I hadn't been in a Robert Plank live program per se for over two years.

This is how long it's taken me to turn all that training into gold, a lifestyle, a growth vehicle, and not an "event."

I am, today, effectively, as much a "child" of Robert Plank as I am a child of my birth parents. Maybe more.

My birth parents gave me physical life, and an opportunity to grow up into a mature physical specimen. They also sent me to school, scolded me, or whatever they did to indoctrinate me into this wretched culture we are living in.

But a teacher, a real teacher, can give you your life. You love them not because you have to, but because you do. You love them with gratitude in your heart. Overflowing gratitude.

I haven't spoken with Robert Plank since I last saw him at a seminar a year and a half ago. But in my heart I hear his voice, I talk to him, I want him to be proud of me. Whenever I do something new, I offer it up to him as a payment of gratitude. Not in physical reality, no. In my heart. It is as much my result as it is his. He now lives and is immortal through his work with me.

I have changed as a human being as a result of being a student of this guy: I have become more interested in producing results for you than anything in my teaching.

I want to be YOUR Robert Plank. I want you to hear my voice in your head and I want you to want to make me proud of you.

I dropped all do-gooding, (ok, most, lol), I stopped coaching that allowed people to stay the same. I stopped stooping down to people: now I allow them to reach up and pull themselves up, if they want to stay around me.

I have a lot of time for my own work. I have time to grow, personally, and grow my business. I have time to be well. I am not needy of someone liking me, listening to me, agreeing with me, validating me. And I want you to learn that from me.

Of course, the Unconditional Love Activator had more to do with this last paragraph than Robert Plank... it has set me free. Free from other people. Free from you and your opinion of me. Even from Robert Plank's opinion of me. ((I can see him shaking his head saying to himself: what does this chick want from me?! lol. Nothing Robert, this has nothing to do with you, really!) Free from even my lower self. Free. Come and experience it yourself. Sign up to the re-recording of the Unconditional Love Activator: it will be a line of demarcation for you like Robert Plank was for me; guaranteed.

Activators interfere with the status quo. Depending on your disposition, it will wreak havoc immediately or later.

How does it work?

Imagine a covered sewer pit, whatever they call those in your back yard. Or imagine a compost pile. Both have stuff no one wants to look at... right?

Your subconscious is like that. Really. Nothing pretty there. Nothing smelling like roses.

I come along and I do a Wipe and an Implant.

Wipe meaning: I use the WipeTheSlate® energy directly on your subconscious. Implant meaning: I download, while you are connected, with Source energy, a carefully crafted series of statements, in the language of the subconscious, straight into the little space that opened up as a result of the Wipe.

There are two major types, or dispositions, as far as I can tell:

1. the Wipe is surface.
2. the Wipe is deep.

1. If you are in group 1: you can go and enjoy goodies every time I do a Wipe, but in order to do fundamental and revolutionary work on you, you need to dig deep, yourself. On your own. The energy isn't doing it.Your results, real results will come from you volunteering to face the tiger... dig, and dig deep.Most people are in this group, and you can get better, feel better, get better results in life. You won't be the pioneers of the new breed of humans. It's OK, most people don't want to be anyway, right?

• If you are in group 2: the energy digs deep and stirs the pot, so to say. You'll get symptoms, both physically and emotionally. You'll kick the cat. You'll re-experience emotions that you thought you have solved long before.

I belong to the second group.

Every time I do an activation, I go through hell. I do an activation 6 days a week. Thursday is my recovery day.

Is it worth it? Yes. With the capacities I have downloaded, especially the Unreasonable and the Impervious activators, I can just observe the symptoms and not be touched. But they are there, so be prepared.

Going to the next evolutionary level as a human being won't be a walk in the park.

Is it worth it? You call the shot. No one will blame you if you quit: you cannot be dragged to heaven: you need to choose the road that takes you there.

What are you choosing?

Life on Earth, at present, is hell. Your mind keeps you in hell, all you can do is sleep through your life, to tolerate it.

You are unsuited to respond powerfully to any kind of threat: you are a reaction machine.

If, by any chance, there will be a catastrophe: you will be in the group "didn't make it".

That group will have billions in it. So we won't erect you a giant wall with your name on it. The handful of people that did make it will be busy living in heaven.

Sorry pal, ugly truth, but truth nevertheless. Get the second phase activators, if you are 1 in a million...

After last night's call, I have some questions for you.

-I wanted to ask you what you actually mean, instead of what I interpreted when you gave me soul correction + flaw. In terms of actually doing my soul work, what does it mean that I have Silent Partner and flaw of Pretense? (I thought I knew until I read one of the posts by aaron online). I suspect this will hurt like a band aid coming off to hear, but I'd rather find out exactly what you mean instead of thinking I know. Then I can go about catching it

Answer

Each character flaw is a pretense.

You are made of the same stuff as Source, and that is powerless beyond measure. You live in the world of scarcity, but that doesn't mean that your powers disappeared, they are limited by the physicality, that's all.

But humans behave if they had no access to power inside themselves, they look for power outside of themselves. That is a pretense.

The Silent Partner addresses this character flaw directly, the other soul corrections through a specific application of this denial of power.

The issue with the Silent Partner is accessing your power. Magical thinking will work a little bit, but not much. The adage, fake it till you make it, is perfect here, you need to take steps you would not take without knowing that you have the power, but of course at this point you don't. I do, but I am a little ahead of you on this journey.

Behaving like you can't is your flaw to correct.

Question:

You mentioned on the call last night that being a "helper" is the worst. My job is actually being an assistant! Is that under the same umbrella of what you were referring to? I must say however, that your articles have since motivated me to see my work as training to do the job on my own and eventually be my own boss.

Answer:

Being an assistant is a wonderful job. You don't need to be the boss of all, you just need to be the boss of yourself.

Wallace D Wattles says it best in his The Science of Getting Rich: start where you are. use the will correctly. put all power into every action. become too big for the job you have. don't just become the best at it: that will keep you stuck. become too big for it!

You'll know when you are ready... but do you know what you are training for?

I do a lot of work for people that I consider training, even now. But I am very clear what it is I am training for, so I don't become a helper.

Until you are clear about that, just do the "job" better than required, in a somewhat beyond what's required way. As if it were your own business.

Question

-It sounded from your articles that the 1st phase activation could take people to 299, but not everyone did. Obviously, neither did I since I am at 200. Is there a reason I didn't/couldn't get to 299 and what can I do about it? I would very much like to not be in the "miserable wretch" category as you call it.

Answer:

I am a little hesitant to admit, but the first phase activation without removing at least some of what was there, was a little too early. Luckily I caught the dark side, by accident and eliminated it, but it is starting to grow back. It was around 50% before that activation, and now only 2%, but on the individual level, the activation didn't do much.

You are doing the right thing by being in the 2nd Phase Activation Course, that is your ticket out of "wretched".

Question:

Regarding being an empath and your article on Heaven on Earth for weight loss: Recently I realized that not only have I been living other people's stuff, but I've also been carrying their weight. I was always baffled because the math of calorie/exercise did not add up with how I look. Since then when I see myself (and despair) I say something along the lines of "it's not my weight, return it to Source." So far (I've only started 2 weeks ago), results are not there. I also take H.O.E. unrelentingly. Do you have any other advice?

Answer:

I muscle tested your statement about carrying other people's weight for them, and it is not true. I struggle with my weight too, and in my case, I am clear that my metabolism is so slowed down from carrying other people's feelings, that I can actually maintain my weight at 500 Calories a day. Ridiculous.

What is the explanation? I think it is holding the breath. The food needs oxygen to burn, and without oxygen it is poison and it must be stored.

A few years ago I did a breathing regimen, I forgot what it was called, by Greer Childers. It's a 20-minute breathing regimen with about 10 positions stretching. I lost 30 pounds in 40 days, without changing anything else. Buy the book on ebay for a buck, "Be a loser" and start doing it. Even if you don't do it the way it is supposed to be done, you'll be surprised that you'll shed the weight. Guaranteed

Question:

Another empath question. One of your articles you say "I have gone through the mad stage, I have gone through the useless hermit stage. After 60 years, I have got myself to the stage where this ability is useful." I felt a painful jolt of recognition. I also feel I went through mad stage and am stuck in "useless hermit." It is also very much like you said on last night's call - the people who never have fun. Is this something that the empath group will help with or do you have anything else I can do?

Answer

If the current empath group is any indication, it is nothing short of a miracle when an empath becomes conscious. I need more applicants to actually do another group.

Question

On the healing calls, I don't see the text boxes so I don't know if people request healing on their various aches and pains or if you are tuning in and picking up on what is collectively in need of healing for the group. I was concerned about the bladder and tumor situation as I was having bladder pain the other day. But I wasn't sure if that was specific to someone else on the call. If you are taking requests, I would ask for help with allergies. I'm sure I'm not alone in dealing with hay fever right now.

Answer

Both, people make requests, and I am tuning in.

I don't have any allergies, so I am a little clueless as to what to do about those, sorry

Sorry, lots of questions. I have been thinking about them for some time.

Thank you,

L.

Most humility that we know as humility is a pretense. It is designed by us to dupe people into thinking that they don't need to beat us over the head for us to get what they say or to think well of us, blah blah blah. That humility we know is an outside job. Real humility is an inside job. And very very very selfish! (Did I tell you to prepare to be surprised?)

Real humility (I should be an expert on this, after all this is my soul correction!) is very different.

Humility is a great hearing aid for helping us become open to guidance (from Source, from Soul, from other people). But sometimes we don’t hear because we have a process to go through. And sometimes it's the process that creates the humility to hear.

Most people need to be broken in order for the messages to enter.

Why would being broken work? The ego that wants you to stay the same, that wants to perpetuate the status quo, good or bad, useless or useful, has to wake up to the new reality: you are beaten, you are broken, it needs to allow change.

Does it always work? No. Unless there is support from your conscious mind, your subconscious mind, your soul, it is going to become an "oscillating structure" where you are going to go back and forth... improvement, back where you started.

The ego is going to create a Sisyphus "syndrome;" read the footnotes for story... _1

So what can you do instead, so you can grow, so you can become all you can be?

In one of the trainings on training I had 25 years ago, we were taught that you need to declare yourself incompetent in order to be trained.

First off: am I saying you are incompetent? No, I am saying something totally different. You need to create yourself an empty vessel, and empty cup, so you can be filled. You can sort through the new stuff once the training is done.

Is that humility? Yes, that is humility of the highest degree!

You disengage your know-it-all, your 3-year old: have you noticed that you can't explain anything to a 3-year old: they already know everything. The next know-it-all stage comes when they become a teenager... then, for most of us, it stays. Even the best of us can't hear anything the way it's said, the best we can do is try to

agree/disagree,
like/not like,
true/false judge the new information, and if it passes our muster, if it is compatible with what we already know, then we'll fit it into the brick wall of what we already know.

What is the problem with this picture?

Several!

One: we are not listening. We are not hearing. We are busy thinking. That is the definition of arrogance: thinking that YOUR MUSTER, your opinion, your knowledge is definitive.

This is why most people never learn, consciously, anything new. Unconsciously, of course, you learn all kinds of useless garbage. That is going to form the basis of your judgment to accept or reject the new knowledge.

Which means something really BIG for the readers of this site: You will never raise your vibration, you will never become a happier human being, no matter what someone teaches you.

Whether you like the person's style, their hair-do, the teaching, won't matter. Really!

Lots of people come here that like me. How many actually learn something instrumental? _2 One half of a percent, maybe.

Lots of people come here that don't like me. They like somebody else. How many actually learn something instrumental from those teachers? One half of a percent, maybe.

Humility is what's missing, and humility is saying:

"What I already know got me to where I am.

If what I already know can take me where I want to go: what am I doing here? Let's get out of here... I don't need anything else.

If what I already know got me here, but won't take me where I am going: let me empty my cup and hear if this takes me further. Maybe it will take me backwards for a little bit, to a point where I chose what I know that got me here but can't take me further.

And if I don't like where I am at: I am definitely going to empty my mind, empty my cup, and get what's here, in its entirety: I can always get rid of it, if it doesn't work. I did it once, I can do it again."

Now, the real question is: do you have this much control over your mind? I assert that you probably have NO control over your mind at all. Try to stop your thinking. Now! How did you do?

This is why I needed to ask Source to create this new energy, called WipeTheSlateClean. It is a mind-wiper... lol. It allows you to learn something new. _3

Does it work? It does and it doesn't.

If the person is too fearful of learning, changing, then even the WipeTheSlateClean won't work for them.

One needs to have an honest desire to learn something new. And urgency.

If your mind says: I have time for that! then you won't learn.

If your life expectancy, according to your parents, is 90 years, then at 50 you will have the feeling that you have time.

That's where urgency comes in. I didn't mean emergency: we all know that emergency makes us do things we would not consider without the emergency.

No, urgency is created. It is a caused, a self-caused inner phenomenon.

You say to yourself: I can die at any minute and I can be sure of only one thing: I am alive this minute. And this minute I will go full out, and even if there are no more minutes left, I will do my life's work in this one minute. I will do my soul correction, fully, completely, no holds barred.

Even putting aside all you already know, all that makes you sure of who you are, all that got you where you are, all that has kept you safe... For what's possible.

THAT IS HUMILITY. Moment to moment.

1. Sisyphus' story is part of Greek Mythology. The myth is that this dude, Sisyphus, was condemned to attempt to roll a huge boulder to the top of the mountain each day, only for it to roll back to the bottom at the end of the day. Others say that Sisyphus is a symbol of the sun that rises every morning, and sets every night... But the popular interpretation, what I am really referring to here is 'starting and starting and starting and never accomplishing anything...' nasty stuff.
2. I emphasize 'instrumental' because the type of knowledge that just sits in your head making you an even bigger smart-ass won't do you any good!
3. It is available in my paid activator courses and the activator downloads. Right after you do the wipe, you need to put in the information you've been resisting. Very important. All the programs that offer wiping, audios, etc. are ineffective, because they miss this crucial step. The cheapest product you can get with the wiper energy is the Unconditional Love Activator, the most expensive is the Second Phase Activators series.