Conscious Flex

The Beingness of This

2009-12-01T12:37:00.009-07:00

It doesn't matter what is here now. The direct awareness that is aware of this life, doesn't have a preference as to how this life unfolds. It doesn't have an opinion, view, belief, goal, judgment, or perspective. This direct awareness in your direct experience right now, doesn't have a purpose for itself, it is totally and completely directionless and pathless. It has no control, choice, or freewill to change anything. Without cause or reason, it only has the ability to be what it is. There is no how, why, or logical understanding to it. Like a camera filming, cares not what is filmed; awareness just witnesses and observes without effort or focus. It is the most obvious and simple noticing.

The good news, is that this awareness is you. Better news, is that even if "you" identify with the body, that body operates the same exact way. What was described above as awareness, is also how the body is always being. The body is always being itself, as what it is, without effort. It's just this being this. What choice does the body have but to be what it is always being? There is no doing, there is just being. Being does without doing. The body is effortlessly doing as equally as it is effortlessly being. Effortless because there is no-one in there doing it.

Are you doing the seeing, or does seeing effortlessly happen without you?

Whatever is arising, rather it looks like effort or not, is effortlessly happening. You cannot not be and the beingness of the body is always doing something. The body is always being and being what it is, is always moving. The awareness that is aware of the body being, is always aware rather that body is being in awareness or not. Being what awareness is, it is always being aware. Awareness is eternal with no beginning or end. The body which does have a beginning and an end, is always being what it is effortless til the end.

The mind which also has an end, is always being what it is conditioned to be. It has many preferences, opinions, views, beliefs, goals, judgments, and perspectives. The minds conditions happen effortless. The mind does nothing expect what it is conditioned to be. The beingness of the mind is contently being. The nature of the mind is to be constantly thinking. There is nothing wrong with the mind and nothing needs to be changed about it. It is going to be what it is, rather it likes it or not. In the same way that awareness is always going to be effortlessly aware and the body is always going to be being in its beingness until it expires; the mind is simply going to be what it is.

The mind unlike awareness or the body, is conditioned to desire change even from itself. The mind seeks to change itself. The mind seeks to better itself and everything else it can observe. It does so quite effortlessly. The mind does this because that is how the mind knows how to be. There is nobody in the mind doing what it does, it is just effortlessly being what it is. The mind is always being and being what it is, is always trying to change something. The mind has no control, choice, or freewill to stop wanting to change things. Without cause or reason, it only has the ability to be wanting to change something, anything, everything. There is no how, why, or logical understanding to it, it just wants things to be different.

However, since the mind is continuously wanting something else rather than what is here now, which is the definition of insanity even to the mind; it has infinite reasons, hows, whys and logical understandings as to why it is always being what it is and these whys are also always changing.

There is no changing the mind from always wanting something else. This now moment, no matter how beautifully it is unfolding, will never be enough to the mind. It is infinitely seeking to change something and in that it is changeless. Only the mind would want to change the mind from being what it is conditioned to be.

The mind is the balance for the body. The body and the mind are in perfect harmony for this life to be what it is. Life doing what it does through the beingness of the body and mind. The body being what it is and the mind being what it is completes the beingness of this mystery we label life.

Seeing the mind for what it is, stops the mind from being an influential aspect, so it hides behind itself by giving itself a purposeful reason as to why it wants certain things changed, even itself. The mind keeps itself busy so that it always feels like it is being for a reason. Without reason, it dies, because it stops listening to itself. It is seen to be nothing to itself, so it allows itself to think thoughts of seeking change/control/something else. When the mind is not seen as a problem, then it is allowed to just be. The being of mind is allowed to be what it is without it judging itself and even if it judges itself, it is allowed to do that too. The mind is no longer in the way of itself being what it is.

Many would say that the mind of thoughts is the whole "problem" as to why nonduality can not be seen. In 'past' articles this has been the suggestion from this mind too, but what does it matter? This is the way the mind is, so what does it matter that it is that way? Who is it that cares what the mind is being, other than the mind?

Try not to understand this, just be it, because it is already being that anyhow. There is no way to get this wrong. There is no right way to the beingness of life being what it is. The beingness of this, is this, quite naturally. Beingness is always being itself no matter what is unfolding. This is it, as always.

Awakening to No Identity: The End of the World as You Know it....Buy my NEW eBook for ONLY $2.99.

2009-11-19T16:45:00.011-07:00

Even though I don’t take credit for this eBook (there is a feeling of it writing itself), there is still an excitement that arises here with introducing it. Not sure to whom this eBook is being introduced or who is introducing it, but here it is never-the-less.

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As an introduction, here is an excerpt from the preface:

“Why in the World would anybody not want to have an identity? First of all, there is nothing wrong with having an identity. I am not against the concept of identifying. There is a magnificent and beautiful presence that naturally unfolded a condition. This condition sparked life into the grace of limiting itself to a particular location. This concept of a fixed location appeared to stabilize an identity as the foundation of the so-called ‘individual life’.

This ‘individual life’ viewpoint is a precious gift that life flowered from itself and to itself. Even the flower springs naturally an unfolding of itself from the dark, enclosed, limited ground in order to gracefully move into the light, spacious, unlimited groundless surface. Comparable to the flower, the identification with the individual viewpoint is much like the dark, enclosed, limited ground.

Resting the identification, unfolds an awakening into no identity. Awakening to yourself as no identity is comparable to the flower's light, spacious, unlimited groundless surface. The only difference with awakening to no identity, is that you are seen as being both the ground and the groundless. The ground and the groundless are seen as both equally and simultaneously happening right now in this eternal present moment.

Heaven on Earth is here as you read these words. It seems as if a condition naturally planted the identification with Earth only. Heaven is not seen in a future time upon death. However, you do have to die into this life to see Heaven as always being here in this eternal moment and never moved. The physical death of this body/mind is not the only opportunity to Heaven; you can die while still alive by awakening to no identity."

About the eBook

This should give you an idea of what the eBook contains. The eBook is a little over 5,000 words in length, hence it’s called a “mini eBook”. However, this mini eBook is also the first in a series of many mini eBooks to come, a collection of small eBooks that are designed to be read in order. Not sure how many mini eBooks will be written in this collection, but the subject matter is literally pointing to everything/nothing in existence/nonexistence. Therefore, in actuality, this series of mini eBooks could go on and on as long as this body/mind is still here to write them.

eBook vs. Blog

This eBook only contains a small portion of what can be found in the articles pointing to enlightenment (or whatever label you prefer) on this site/blog. It allows the ability to go into depth and detail which just cannot be reached through a blog of articles.

After Reading the eBook

If you have any questions after reading the eBook, you’re welcome to contact me and most likely your question will be answered in the following series of mini eBooks to come. I emailed a draft of this eBook to a few seekers I know in order to garner their feedback, and all of them responded basically in the same way but with different words. In general, all of them replied that they had no questions after reading it.

Although the mind loves questions and most likely questions will form once the words of the eBook fade, but the point is that this eBook seems to stop the mind from seeking. Of course something has to be seen beyond the words to have the mind stop completely; it only takes a moment of stopping to have a clear seeing.

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The End, The Beginning: A Silent Post

2009-11-15T15:44:00.003-07:00

This article was inspired by being directed to a post in a blog called "Blog Without a Name"

The artist of this incredible piece of work is unknown. If you know who it is, please let me know so I can give them credit. I am not sure the name that was given to this piece of art, but I thought it was perfect to express this idea.

Hopefully the people I tagged will keep this post going, it's fun to see all the different ideas.

Life is Danced, Nobody Dances

2009-10-31T06:38:00.005-06:00

Life is like an enjoyable dance...

Most miss the dance
They are looking for something else
Anything else except this moment

The dance is not enjoyed
They are on the dance floor looking for something else
A something else that will never be found
Never be fulfilled

Stop looking for that something
Whatever it might be
Or not, no choice to stop

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

The music moves the body
And life is seen to be lived by nobody

Always has been that way...

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

The music of life moves the body
The body enjoys the flow of dance
The body is danced
Danced by nobody

Music needs no purpose
The body moving to the music needs no reason to move

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

Why does a flower spring from a seed?
Why does a plant follow the Sun?
Why does the Earth rotate around the Sun?
Why does the body feel the urge to move to music?

There is no answer to any why, it just is

As natural as the growth of flower, it just is
As automatic as the plant turning to face the Sun, it just is
As conditioned as the Earth rotating around the Sun, it just is
As there is nobody in there causing the urge to happen, it just is

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

What notices the urge?
What is claiming that it has a choice to dance or not?
What notices that claiming?

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

Between the thoughts
Is the gap
The gap of noticing
Noticing what notices
Or noticing thoughts claiming choices

Is the simple continuous belief of choice seen?
Does life see itself?
Does it matter?
What is claiming that it matters?
What notices this claiming?

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

It's a mystery, this life

Nothing to figure out
Nothing to believe
Nothing to hold onto
Nothing to do
Nothing to seek
Nothing to find
Nothing to get
Nothing to realize
No experience to obtain
No state to manage
Nothing to improve on

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

It's this, this mystery

The you is looking for what is looking
The you is looking for nothing
The you is looking for just this
This mystery
This now
This here
Whatever it is that is here now

What life situations unfolds
It unfolds not by you

The heart beats
The blood pumps
The lungs breathe
The mind thinks
No control

It feels like there is still control, this must not be it
This is it, just as it is

It doesn't feel perfect, this must not be it
This is it, despite appearance

I still feel like a self, this must not be it
This is it, no matter what thoughts think

No matter
Dance
Enjoy

This mystery that dances

Life is danced, nobody dances...

Where Have I Been?

2009-09-24T13:47:00.003-06:00

UPDATE: Thank you all for all the fantastic support! I did manage to find a place to live with someone who can benefit with me being there too and the means travel down there! :) I am really grateful to know such fantastic people with big hearts and so eager to help. I will never forget every single one of you who offered to help in one or another, you are all greatly needed in this world at this time and if there is anything you ever need from me, please do not hesitate to ask! Florida here I come...

I apologize for not producing articles. I know most everyone who is a long-term reader of this blog look forward to each article and feel a connection to the words written. I would love nothing more than to keep producing articles which inspire perspectives to a life of ease, yet at this point in life there has been some changes that has stopped that flow from continuing.

Long story short, I was living with my cousin and she had her boyfriend move in and he took over what I was helping her with, so she didn't need me anymore to support her in the way that I was, she just needed an excuse to kick me out and she found one. With no compassion from her of letting me find somewhere else to go first, I was left on the streets with nowhere to go, no phone, no nothing; just the clothes on my back. I decided to commit myself to a mental hospital so I had a place to stay while I figured things out, where I was staying for a little over three weeks. I do have a roof over my head now from a very support friend online, I am in debt to her support in some many areas, but finical means are low and I have nine days left to find somewhere. Now I am looking for a place to stay. I just need some place to be that will give me some time to figure out how I can set myself up with a means to support myself. I am an entrepreneur at heart and have the skills to set things up to have an online business, just need a little support and time to get it going.

I did have the opportunity, time, and skills to set this up where I was living and when the mind looks back on it now, it feels as if it wasted a perfect moment. Yet, beyond the mind there is this trust in life to know that it all unfolds perfectly. This life does what it does on it's own, it's not MY life, it's life being played out naturally and spontaneously. It couldn’t have happened any other way or else it would have happened that way.

Awareness has this tremendous love in recognizing itself everywhere and the enjoyment of recognizing itself in anything observable is where words form to speak about it to itself. There is the realization that there is joy in pointing to itself and serving itself through talking about itself, in fact, when it sees itself everywhere, it realizes that it is nowhere particular so serving is the no only let to do. Based on this, one idea that forms here is writing a book, creating an audio CD, and creating a membership site dedicated to awareness waking-up to itself. Anything and everything involved with awakening, ascension, liberation, enlightenment, non-duality, advaita, self-realization, true nature, nirvana, oneness, no-self, or whatever label you prefer to use; it’s all pointing to the same one thing.

Therefore, if you support these ideas, any help that anyone can offer will be welcomed with unspeakable appreciation. Rather it’s a place to stay, means and services to get to any place offered, donations, advice, or anything else that unfolds. I don't ask for much at all; just a roof over my head, little something to eat, and a shower. We could even type up a legal living arrangements contract if such an offer unfolds. I am open to anything really. I am quite easy going.

I just like to mention one last thing, any help provided is not just helping me, it is helping everyone who reads this blog or will read this blog, because it means I can keep writing these free articles as I work on the entrepreneur ideas. Everything and everybody is connected to the support you are willing to provide.

The Awareness Perspective

2009-08-01T16:25:00.004-06:00

This article is about what things look like from the perspective of awareness.

Awareness is the foundation. It comes first before anything else, because it is the closest thing to pointing to your true nature.

The Only Aware of Sight Exercise
Imagine that you were not aware of anything except for sight. If you were only aware of sight, then when the body walked, you would not feel it, therefore, you wouldn't think that it is you who is walking. It would look very much like you were not moving, but instead the images on the screen of awareness are changing. It wouldn't feel like you were going anywhere, it would seem to awareness that there are appearances passing the awareness but the awareness is still and unmoving. As if everything is coming to awareness, rather then awareness moving. Much like what this video is trying to explain:

If all you had was sight, you wouldn't fear anything because you would know that no image, no matter how scary, could harm you because it's just an appearance coming at an unmoving, unchanging, unharmed, nondestructible, and always-present awareness.

Notice in the video that what is being aware is shapeless and can't be recognized as anything because it is the seeing of everything. It can't see itself, it can only be aware of what it is seeing. If we had to name it perhaps words like void, blackhole, nothingness, empty, space, silence, timeless, etc. Have you ever heard "You are the space in which everything appears."? or "Everything arises out of nothing."? What is being pointed to here is that the awareness which is shapeless; is you. That shapeless space is what allows everything to be viewed, therefore everything is arising out of nothing; you. The paradox is that everything this nothing (you) views, is equally you too because what is viewing and what is being viewed is the same exact one thing. Hence you will hear that there is nothing here or that everything is here as one thing. Both are simultaneously the case.

In the video he suggests that the world is moving and you are still. I would suggest that there is no world and nothing is moving. Much like a movie screen (everything is on the screen of awareness), what is seen does not take up any actual space; it is a just a series of changing images that look like motion. Thinking of it this way, helps to illustrate that it's all just images/appearances on the screen of awareness.

Also notice that it is one screen and the images on the screen are like a picture, no images in the picture are actually separate, it just looks that way when other senses are viewing the picture from different angles. If all you ever known was the sense of sight, you would not think in separate terms.

One more point here is that the screen and the images on the screen can not be separated. There is no way to turn off the screen or the awareness of the screen, they are both eternal connected as one because there is only one thing. What is looking, is the same thing as what is being seen. Obviously eyes can be closed or the apparent body can so call die, but that doesn't separate anything, the image is only changed again. Nothing, is still an image of nothingness. Just because you are seeing the image of nothing, doesn't mean that you are not aware. As far as awareness is concerned, "nothing" is still an image of something, it's the image of nothing. Nothing is being viewed on the screen of awareness. Again, there is no way to stop the screen or the awareness because there is only one thing there.

The Only Being Aware of Sensations Exercise
Now imagine that the only sense you had, was the sense of physical feeling. If you only had the physical sensations of body, you wouldn't be able to understand yourself as anything except random sensations. If the body was walking, you wouldn't think you were walking; all that would be happening are sensations arising and falling on the screen of awareness.

This "only-the-sense-of-feeling" is a bit more difficult to imagine, but take a moment and really feel it out. If you had no idea what the body looked like, then swinging your arms and bumping it into something is not going to help determine shape. Neither is taking both hands and following the outline of the body because you wouldn't know that it is two hands with too separate sensations happening and another sensation happening on the body from being felt with your hands. There is only one awareness being aware of the sensations and therefore; depth, distance, and shape couldn't be known. All these sensations appearing and disappearing would be very random and would seem spontaneously. There would be no way to know how to operate. Eventually with enough patience and practice, the brain can recognize patterns in the arising and falling of sensations, but you would never recognize yourself as a body, only the awareness in which sensations happen.

You also wouldn't notice a limit to yourself because there would be no way of knowing where you begin and where you end. You could feel how the sensations in the hand (although you wouldn't know it was a hand) spark another sensation in the body (no body known) at the same time giving two different sensations at one time but anything you feel, even an object, is still felt as an sensation, only difference is that only one sensation is happening when feeling an object (no object can be known). As far as awareness is concerned, sensations are always happening no matter what, so you are everywhere and everything, no beginning or end; you continuously feel sensations no matter what or where you are. The sensations of griping, motion, texture, etc... would have no meaning. You would only understand that some sensations are comfortable and other sensations uncomfortable.

Have you ever had the experience of laying in your bed at night and feeling like your arms are miles apart? While laying in bed with your eyes closed; have you ever had the experience that you were really huge, then the next moment very tiny? It usually happens when the mind settles-down. This has happened to me a lot as a child. Many times I would have to open my eyes to make sure everything was still 'normal'. If you know the feeling, then you know what it would be like to only have the sense of sensations. Basically you feel like you are not limited by the boundaries of the skin and you feel like you are a bundle of random sensations that spontaneously happen without you; you are only aware of it happening.

Another thing that you would notice is that there wouldn't be the distinction of sensations verse no-sensation. The sensation of no-sensation would still be the sensation of "nothing". From the perspective of only awareness, there is always only the appearance of sensations changing. Just because you are aware of the sensation labeled no-sensation, doesn't mean you stop being aware. Sensations are just another image on the screen of awareness, another view point of the screen; you can't separate the screen from the awareness.

Like with the image of viewing nothing, is still viewing something on the screen of awareness; the sensation of sensing no-sensation, is still sensing something called no-sensation. If the view went to nothing and the sensation sensed no-sensation, it doesn't mean that that view or sensation are turned off and it also doesn't mean that there is no awareness there. What is being pointed to, is that what you are, you were this before so-called life. The only difference is that you were aware of viewing the screen of nothing and sensing the sensation of no-sensations. You can return to that viewless view and that non-sensation sensation at any time, through meditation or deep sleep.

Death
If death was real, you would die every-time you did meditation or went to sleep. What is seen from here, is that this body is not my identity, this body and this keyboard are equally me. Since they are both EQUALLY me, then how can this body be more me then the keyboard (or anything else awareness can be aware of)? Breaking the keyboard to bits can arise and whatever I am will still be here and since this keyboard is EQUALLY me as the body is me, then it only makes sense that if the body breaks (also known as dieing), whatever I am (which I am labeling awareness) will still be here. It seems that the awareness will be taking form from another space (since I am not only form, I am the space in which form arises), rather that be another location, body, or place (or all locations, all bodies, and all places everywhere; why should it be limited when there is only one thing and I am that?). How can I die, when everything being viewed and the viewing of everything is me? From here, what is seen is that the only death that can happen, is the death to the idea that I am only the body.

The Only Being Aware of Sounds Exercise
You can also imagine what it would be like to only have the sense of hearing. You would have no way of knowing sounds as distance because every sound would be instant. You would only notice loud or soft sounds but every sound would sound as if it were connected to you and just randomly appearing in you. You would be aware of the sounds not as something outside you, but as you. It takes a little practice but if you close your eyes, and listen, you can hear sounds as if the sounds were the ears themselves, there is no distance to sounds, just different pitches that cause one to think there is distance by the way the sound is coming through.

If you were only aware of sounds, you would not think of silence as the opposite of sound, you would think of sound as different pitches of silence. You wouldn't think of sounds as sounds at all because you would notice that silence is the backdrop of every sound and based on that logic you would think sound is nothing more than a foreground of the silence that you are. Basically, whatever sounds were happening, you would be able to still notice the silence because there would be no distinction of sound verse silence. In other words, silence is constant and sounds arise out of the silence. There is no way to create silence, silence is always there as a continuous constant. You can create sound in the foreground but the backdrop of silence never actually vanishes, even in the foreground of loud noisy obnoxious sounds. It is all on the screen of awareness.

Awareness and silence are different words for the same thing because they both are never-changing and ever-present. You could drown your awareness in sound and still be aware of silence because silence is not the opposite of sound, it's as much you as awareness is. In fact everything you describe awareness as, you can also describe silence as: unmoving, unharmed, undestructible, never-changing, always-present, void, blackhole, nothingness, empty, space, timeless, etc..

Why the Exercises?
So why did I break everything down into what it would be like if you (as awareness) were only aware of one sense at a time? Basically, I wanted to share with you in an understandable way, the perspective that is seen from here.

It's going to look odd, silly, naive, and paradoxical by just outlining the key points, but if you forget how the key point fits in, go back and read the above part that relates again, to make sense of it.

Therefore, let's review each sense:
►1. Sight

There is no fear of any changing image.
The body walks but it's not me who is walking, the picture is changing on me (the screen).
Nothing is separated from me, the picture is always whole and complete.
What is looking, is the same thing as what is being seen: Whole and complete.
Everything changes except me. I am unmoving, unchanging, unharmed, nondestructible, and always-present awareness.
What is being aware (me) is shapeless and can't be recognized as anything.
I am the space in which everything appears.
Everything arises out of the nothing that I am.

►2. Sensation

I can't know myself as any depth, distance, and shape. Everything is random and spontaneously happening without me.
When walking happens, I am not walking, the sensations on the screen of who I am are changing. I am the screen, not the change.
I am everywhere and everything, no beginning or end to me.
I am not limited.
Anything I touch (even objects) are me because everything I touch is felt. Sometimes it is one sensation and sometimes two, but everything is me because everything that is felt gives me a sensation.
I am only aware, everything else is spontaneously happening.

Death
I am eternal, immortal, and can't die; everything I see is equally me.

►3. Sound

There is no distance. I am as much here and there as anywhere, there is no distance into here and there at all. Everything is instantly me.
I am the silence in which everything happens.
I can be found even in the most loud noisy and obnoxious appearance because I am that in which all things appear.
There is no opposite to me. I am the backdrop and the foreground.
There is no distinction of me verse anything else.

The Power of One

2009-07-26T19:11:00.017-06:00

It has been about a month since the last article. In reference to the last article: I have been researching, testing that research, talking to others, reviewing cases, getting knowledgeable of the ignorance, and the conclusion is this:

Yes there is an illusory system in place, yes we have been deceived, yes it seems to be the cause of every 'problem'.

However, there are no victims to this because nothing on the screen of awareness is there by accident. There are solutions to this, but it is not an outer solution. When you try to change things based on outer circumstances; it works some of the time, for some people, in some places, but the solutions are confusing and always changing because the loopholes are shortly fixed after that loophole works.

No outer change is going to sustain because the solution is an inner one. The only reason we allow others to control us and have authority over us, is based on our inner fear (bear with me, there are a lot of concepts in this article).

The only reason we ever worked as slaves to simply earn our right to be here, is because we feared what will happen if we didn't. We ignored what our heart was saying about working all those hours just to survive and listened to the fear.

The only reason we didn't question what we were taught in school, is because we saw what happened to the ones that questioned and as far as we were concerned we were there to make friends, not stand out from the crowd.

The only reason we competed against others even though we knew someone else had to lose in order for us to win, is because we wanted to feel approved of by our parents who seemed to disown us if we were not successful in their eyes.

The only reason we subconsciously disowned our children, is because it was all we have known from our parents.

We were all taught of what we must do (rather subconsciously or consciously):
►You must achieve success (You must accumulate many rewards, metals, high grades, stable job, degrees, certificates, get married, have children, etc...)
►You must attain material possessions (spacey house, fancy car, high-tech gadgets, etc...)
►You must be presentable (fashionable style, clean house, good behavior, manageable children, etc...)
►You must be number one (biggest achiever, first winner, best toys, hardest worker, bundle of money, etc...)
►You must follow guidelines (don't get a divorce, goto church, don't drop out of school, have a job, keep up with the media/news/sports, eat this amount of food, sleep this amount of time, be this label, take this based on your label, fit in, etc...)
►You must be ordinary (don't do that it's not possible, don't think like that it's crazy, don't say that it doesn't make any logic sense, don't be that way it's not normal, don't ask questions like that it's too disturbing, don't do that it's too risky, etc...)
►You must have mainstream beliefs (survival of the fittest, you must defend yourself, there are victims, you are separate from everyone, nothing is perfect, accidents and coincidences happen, common knowledge is truth and anything outside this understanding is impossible, your past is fact, everyone has alternative motives, there are others to blame, love is limited to only certain people: romantic relationships & family, being alone is a bad thing, you must change your environment/others to feel happy, life is about rewards and punishments, your perspective has nothing to do with reality, you only have two choices: science or religion, etc...)

And the whole time we were ignoring the most natural occurrences of: instincts, intuitions, insights (inner sight), listening to the heart, higher-self, that small voice within, etc (whatever label you which to use).

We were never taught that there is only one thing here and whatever you label this one thing, that label would be everything.

If you label that one thing separate, then everything is separate and that exactly what life feels like from the separate self perspective. Life seems limited, painful, fearful, threading, and depressing when life is seen from that perspective.

If you label it as purposeful, then everything is contained of and around the purpose give by that perspective and it feels like a mission with an underlining purpose to fulfill. There is a purposeful intent to everything.

If you label that one thing love, then everything is love. From the perspective of love, love is all there is and love is seen even in the most 'darkest places'. The perspective that love gives, is one of complete connection (unless that love is based on and around the perspective of fear, then that love seems limited).

If you label it God, then that is what is seen. From the perspective of God, there are no victims (unless it's from the perspective of most religious Gods, the perspective is of a parent, not much different to how our own parents were perceived).

If you label it Energy, then everything is seen from the perspective of vibrations. From the perspective of energy, there is the vibration of love and a least degree of love labeled fear. Fear vibrates at the slowest rate known and love vibrates at the fastest speed possible (one partical literally vibrating to create all this seemly separate things). And a mixture of infinite speeds which creates this seemingly life.

If you label it awareness, then everything is awareness, and from the perspective of awareness; there is only one awareness split into 7 billion perspectives (and more including things, animals, insects, etc.. quite infinite really). Awareness is the everything and when you trace awareness back to itself, awareness is nothingness.

If you label it nothingness, then everything is nothingness. This is the outlook of quantum physics (or the label of a Buddhist, depending on the angle of the perspective). When you look at a partical, each time you look at a smaller piece, there is nothing there, there only looks like something could have been there but it's 99.9% empty. From this perspective things only seem solid because an observer observes it and that observer is the controller of what is seen based on the filters of what one beliefs they should be seeing.

Whatever label you give it, is only a tiny perspective of the whole. No label by itself can name it, it's unnameable and untouchable. It is the combination of infinite and eternal perspectives.

The perspective that is seen, from here, is to have no perspective yet allow all infinite perspectives to arise. From this perspective, you are every perspective and therefore no particular perspective. Hence you are everything and everybody (everything & everybody is self) and simultaneously you are nothing (no-self, no certain perspective).

Whatever can be said about this is true because this is everything as one thing (the part is the whole and the whole is the part, hence you come from a perspective of love and love is automatically seen everywhere or whatever label), but whatever is said is only the tiniest perspective. Just talking about it reduces it and limits it (although it can't really be limited, it can seem to be limited based on perspective). Every perspective is a seemly limit, even no perspective. It is every label and no label simultaneously. It is every paradox and contradiction known and unknown.

For a small example of what is being pointed to, here is a brief example:
In this video, we have Charlie & Danny. At this time, they have 32 videos. In every video they basically do the same thing. They disobey the authority of the police. Out of all their videos, Charlie is the only one that has been to jail for doing this and he was only in there once, for a very brief amount of time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCPKzzGHfIQ

In this video, we have Darren. Who never spoke out like Charlie & Danny, until recently (although he has filmed the police). The first time he spoke-out, he was arrested and nine days later he was rearrested.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7i56kET7mU

Both are from the same country, both know their rights (Darren approached the police differently, but I watched the video very closely and based on my extensive research; he did everything correctly, he said all the right things to them, never once consented, and was still arrested).

However, watching the two videos, you can get a point-of-view as to the difference in Charlie's & Danny's perspective verse Darren's perspective. And this is what has the power behind it. The perspective is everything.

In this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dxc_2dvU2c at 1:53, Darren says (and I quote) "I do fear for my own personal safety, with the police. I do believe they are out to stitch me." Which I do admit was said after he was arrested the first time (which you can see through his actions in the first video, that perhaps the fear perspective was there before the arrest) and before he was arrested the second time, but it goes to show that what is believed is seen. What is seen on the screen of awareness always matches what is believed (not that there is anybody there who can choose to believe something or not, but beliefs arise).

After the second arrest, a day later (and a week from the first arrest), he was released (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXCA2k1fDX8) with all charges dropped because he does know his rights, but mainly because in his heart he knows what is right and that perspective (following your heart) opens up all kinds of possibilities despite your continuous perspective.

In short what is being said, is that the perspective you hold, will determine the outcome. Yet oddly enough, you don't choose your perspective, since there is no you, there is nobody there choosing anything. It's just oneness reacting based on conditioned responses.

During this extensive research, I have seen all kinds of videos, read all kinds of books, talked to all kinds of people, and I can honestly say if you want to make the biggest shift in being the solution; spread love and oneness. Since this is an inner problem, it has an inner solution and that is to realize that the appearances are nothing more than an outcome of the inner.

I dislike to say it, but the people who focus on the fake law and illusory system set in place through design by the New World Order (exposing the outer system), are part of the problem, not the solution, because they are spreading fear.

Fear has arisen here more times in this research and in this short amount of 'time' then can be recalled in any other moment of life. I consider depression the lowest form of fear and I was a depressive most my life, so that should tell you something.

It really is of no consequence here now because the fear is seen to be just an arising in awareness, rather than a fear arising for a someone (there is nobody here to claim the fear). Therefore, the fear is not sticky (hence the conclusion of spreading love, rather than fear talking)

Indeed that fear gets people to take action, but outer revolutionary action without an inner revolution, is no action at all. If anything, the fear of it, makes it real (the whole system is illusory). To fear something, you must believe it is real or the fear would be seen as false and there would be no fear.

There is no denying the actions that may be taken by the NWO, elite, illuminati, powers-to-be (whatever label you call them) but no matter how fearful those actions may be, if an inner change was to shift, no outer circumstances could ever harm you (the possibility is just not there).

Perspective is everything.

Given what Oneness is, any so-called change that the seemly you makes, that change, must change every apparent part of the One, since there is only One here. Hence everything is really One thing, therefore, perspective 'changes' everything, since One perspective is One 'part' that contains the whole of everything.

The Power of One.

P.S. Just because I promote oneness, doesn't mean I promote a one world government or a one world currency. The whole world in the hands of one government can only have one outcome: "Power corrupts; absolute power corrupts absolutely." As stated, the only reason we have government at all, is do to inner fear expressing itself outwardly.

I Am Crying Right Now As I Write This!

2009-06-25T18:39:00.008-06:00

I am crying because I know this message will NOT be heard, let alone shared!

What I am about to tell you is the most important message you will EVER hear in your LIFE! Anybody who is a reader of this blog, knows that I use explanation marks and capitalized words with extreme rarity because I am not about: selling hype, getting attention, or causing drama. However, this article is rare since the message contained here applies to EVERYBODY in the WORLD.

The reason the information in this article is of the most urgent concern, is because it will point to the direct source and 'cause' of EVERY 'problem' in the world. The very root of every problem that has ever happened, is happening, and everything you can imagine as a problem.

Pay close attention to what I am about to say because I am going to show you how everything you think is real and has value, is an illusion designed very cleverly to trick you. It deceives you into thinking that you (as a magnificent human being) must earn your right to be living (on this incredible planet) in this mystery we call life. I am only going to be stating the facts that are provable in my own experience and can be proven to yourself by testing the information I am about to share. I am not trying to convince you of anything and I hope you do NOT take my word for any of this; prove it for yourself. All it takes is a little investigation, phone calls, and questioning.

I have spend the last two weeks (up all night and most of the days, I couldn't sleep once I seen this), researching into this and testing this research to see if it holds true. Anybody can be enlightened by seeing through the illusion of how this world is being conducted. Truth is very simple, the conduct in how the world is being conducted is what forces the attention away from truth.

(With the next paragraph, you are likely going to close this out and stop reading this. I only ask that you keep an open-mind and hear all the information first. The future of humanity does depend on it.)

You do not have to earn your right to be living here on this planet. Money, courts, officers, judges, bills, debts, feds, laws, banks, jobs, identifications, and anything else that you consider you need to survive in this world; is all an illusion that doesn't apply to you as a living human being.

You are already free of debt, you owe nothing. You never owed anybody any money. When you were born, you were born a freeman on a free land, every item you could ever want is pre-paid because there is nothing to pay.

I know many people prefer to 'pay' for everything, prefer to earn the right to live, prefer to work for the items they want, and to gain even as others have to lose at the profit of you gaining. Yet it doesn't matter who prefers to live the way it is conducted because it is not going to last and here is why:

You, as a living human being, have been tied to paper and are identified by everything on paper. Birth certificates, identifications cards, credit cards, checks, so-called 'bills', applications, registrations, insurance, security cards, property, houses, vehicles, and everything that you claim as being you and belonging to you; none of this is you and none of this belongs to you as the living human being.

You don't even own your own bodies or your children anymore! Who is it that claims you don't have a right to put certain chemicals in your own body? Who is it that claims they can take your own children away if you don't follow their rules? Who is it that can take away your car, house, property, and everything you think you own, if you don't submit to their demands? These are all corporations that are all tied together (every corporation is designed for profit, a profit that doesn't exist expect to people who believe it and make it real by allowing it to happen). The reason they have a right to do all this, is because you have been deceived into believing that the person on the paper is you. Yet all that paper (money is paper too) is causing the illusion of the economy to crash.

I was going to explain the whole thing here in this article. I was going to narrow it down and sum it all up. I have found hundreds of articles, blogs, websites, videos, e-books, books, etc... that contain the proof I recently clarified in my own experience. I wanted one source that puts all the information into a well packaged place because I know people don't have time to gather all this information and will not take the time to go into it (even though it will be the only time they have left, if they do not). However, I realized that it doesn't matter how the general population will react because it's up to me to point this out to the leaders (since that is how life is dancing me right now, a leader who tells the truth and informs other leaders, that is actually willing to do something about this).

Therefore, I am pointing to you leaders to a free e-book that contains all the information you will need to spread. This e-book is 92 pages long and as a leader I know you will follow your heart and take the time to read it.

As a leader once said: “The most powerful force in the universe is compound interest”. All it is going to take is to have an interest in this and compound this information by spreading it to other leaders and followers of those leaders. "A true leader is not the one with the most followers, but one who creates the most leaders." and that is what I am doing here.

To the followers of this blog, I consider you as a leader already just by reading this blog, since leaders attract leaders. By spreading this information to your family, friends, loved ones, co-workers. You can even spread this information by posting it around your neighborhood: churches, courts, libraries, stores, newspapers, radio and television if you could get through that corporation (it is said that only 6 people are in control of everything that goes on air, I wonder who they might be?), anywhere.

Here is the link to the free e-book containing the information you need to spread: http://thecrowhouse.com/Documents/mary-book.pdf

Remember only about 20% of people (if that) are involved in this and everyone else are helping them to do this by NOT knowing the consequences of their actions (puppets doing their job out of fear of what will happen if they don't because they don't understand what is coming if they keep doing it). If the police knew what they are actually supporting and forcing, if the lawyers knew the game they have been duped into playing, if the judges knew the people they were helping, if the workers of banks knew that the processes they are making are not lawful (only legal, which is huge difference), if people knew that they were reporting news on air to focus attention away from this truth, and if all the people that work for living were showed this information; that is all this would take.

If you have a lot of fear in this, hand this information to someone who you know is fearless, ones who you know will take action, ones who have always had a big mouth. We all know people like that and if you are not one of them, you might just be one after you realize what is happening and where it is heading. There is no other way around this, this is a call to face all your fears. Like it or not, we are heading in that direction. You can't hide from truth forever, obviously a very long time (since this has been happening for decades upon decades), but not forever. It's coming to a conclusion by force (forced to do as you're told since they own your body with the legal system and your children!) or will (be willing to make a stand before force happens).

Although the e-book focuses on the corporations of United States and Canada, this is happening globally to everyone that is made to work. Even if you don't consider what you do is 'work' you are still involved as a puppet if you use any form of paperwork (money is paper) http://thecrowhouse.com/Documents/mary-book.pdf

I will continue to produce articles on this blog that will show you what to do about court summons, how to clear your debt the lawful way (without paying), how to copyright and trademark the legal fiction that is your name, how to get the lawful right of your child back and your own body, how to lawfully move around in this world without the inconvenience of the legal system, how to get your land back and prove that the land you are on is yours, how to prove that you don't have to pay taxes on anything, how to get in contact with others in your area that know about all this, etc... Please subscribe to this blog if interested.

However, all it will take is to let as many people know: http://thecrowhouse.com/Documents/mary-book.pdf It doesn't have to be complicated. Just make it your 'job' to spread this information everywhere and continuously.

Who are you, if you are not defined by: your name, job, status, income, state, nation, etc...? This is what people fear the most. Who you are can not be defined, but who you are not can be seen through and once that is seen through, then you are free of it.

UPDATE: This is perhaps the most popular article that has been written and it was only posted 4 hours ago. Mainly people are not liking the content change. Last time the content changed, about 100 subscribers unsubscribed (there is no worry about that here). People seem to be unhappy with the way this article was written and how the words were formed. They say I must have lost the sense of oneness or enlightenment (or believed my thoughts to cause me to cry).

However, if you are creative, you probably can contest that there is no I when you're fully engaged with life. Life starts living the 'you'. Therefore, there is no control (or illusion of control) over what will be said.

There is an awareness here that is aware that this article makes it look like there is a separation of us verse them type of situation, but that awareness doesn't play the game of being enlightened or unenlightened. For all it knows, it created a system out of greed and now it is creating a way to see through it's own greed and bring down the game of greed it started in the first place (who knows, it might start it back up).

To this awareness, it doesn't matter how it's danced. It allows any and every dance to be danced through it because there is no fixation on how it should be danced. This is just the way the dance is moving now and there is no I here to know if it will continue to dance this way or not.

All that is being pointed here is that everything you think is real, is an illusion, so there is nothing to fear. Once 'people' (just a word) see that everything they once feared is laughable, then the illsuion of separation may begin to dissolve.

The pointing here (or what others would call teaching) what is seen the most, is that people do not see past the separation because of how the world is being conducted. If you can see that the world is being conducted in false, fictional, illusionary separation, then what is there to fear? The dance here is just seeing that it seems to be dancing itself out of itself, but who can know?

The Thought Created self, Trying to Become More Than Thought

2009-06-09T14:54:00.005-06:00

The 'problem' with pointing, is that it always implies to the mind that something needs to be done about 'something else' in order to 'get' what is being pointed at. Here is a list of frequently asked questions that this article will attempt to answer:

Do thoughts create the reality that I am experiencing?
If I am everything, then I created all of this reality, right?
Is this reality all an illusion?
Once enlightenment is experienced, does reality change?
How do I live more in the moment?
How do I let go of my past and see them as nothing but stories?
How do I become more unconditionally loving?
Hoe do I become more aware?
How do I become more closer to enlightenment?
How can I have more of an innocent look on life, to see this?
How do I become more connected to who I really am?
How do I see through more illusions?
How do I see more of the absolute?
How do I access more meditation while living my waking life?
How do I remember more of my true self?
How do I see more consciousness?
How do I become more sensitive to awareness?
How can I become more happy?
How do I see more oneness?
How do I remove noise to be more in silence?
How do I become more of the witness and less of the self?
How do I become less greedy?
How do I drop all beliefs?
How do I become less mean?
How do I become less guilty?
How do I become less dualistic?
How do I become less logical (so true nature can be seen)?
How do I see less suffering?
How do I remove concepts from the mind?
How do I stop believing stories?
How do I stop believing thoughts?
How can I see no distinction from subject verse object?
How can I be less of the small self?
How do I drop the sense of doership?
How do I vanish the ego?
How do I get rid of baggage?
How do I have less memory?
How do I become less religious?
How do I drop identity?
How do I get rid of separation?
How do I stop taking things personal?
How do I get rid of myself so I can see others as me?
How do I be less of a worrier and see more of things as not mattering?
Insert any question here: _________________________?

Becoming Questions
Most of these questions arises out the idea about becoming less or more of something (the rest of the questions will be answered by the end of this article), yet there is no becoming. You can not ever become more loving or less greedy (or anything else that thought can think of). Nothing needs to be changed because nothing ever changes. You can not create more of one thing and less of another thing, ever.

Why not?

Because there is no past that connects events. The only reason thought would ever think that it needs to become less or more of something, is because it believes that the thought-created-past is what makes up the present moment. For thought to believe that it is greedy, it must be looking at past situations as if they apply right now.

"I hurt this person a year ago by taking more for myself!", "Then a month ago, I preformed a greedy act of cutting that person off in traffic because my job is more important than where they were going!", "And about a week ago, I bought myself a sandwich, when I knew that homeless person hasn't even ate for days!", "All these past events means I am a very greedy person, I need to become less greedy!".

The fact is that the past is die and gone. You can never get the past back because it's no more real or unreal than anything else. The past is stuck in the past as nothing more than a memory. The only way to bring the past back up as something real today, is to believe a thought about the past. Who you are right now is not tied to the past. Are you performing something you would consider greedy right now? This moment means nothing more than how you interpret it, but you are not interpreting it, thought is. Yet it seems thoughts have the ability to interpret the now and think thoughts of being right (whatever that is) with another thought about the first thought that thought had.

In other words, you are not choosing to believe thoughts or not. The self that you claim yourself to be, is only thought claiming thought with another thought. The self is nothing more than layers and layers of thoughts (yet in this moment, only one thought happens at a time). Now saying that, thought will think: "Well how do I undo all the layers of thought?" But that is nothing more than thought thinking it must do something to get rid of itself.

Thought has nothing to do. All that is happening here, is happening, and that is it. This moment seems to change based on how thought interprets it, then believing itself about what it is interpreting.

Answering All the Other Questions
All the questions at the beginning of this article, are questions that thought thinks when it hears this pointing. There is nobody here or there to care what thoughts are doing, what thoughts seem to create, or how thoughts interpret the now. Thoughts are thinking thoughts and thought thinking about what thoughts thought to think.

The layers of thoughts are no problem. There is no problem with anything. The thoughts don't have to figure anything out or see through itself as thoughts. The thoughts are no different than a cloud arising in the sky, a car moving down the street, the hum of the fan, the bird singing in 'the background', the body feeling tired, or anything else that can be observed.

What is happening is happening as this now and the only way to separate or observe something being different, is thought thinking that what is happening is different from this or that (this or that is just more thoughts creating the idea of this or that). Whatever is arising, is arising and it's all here as what it is and nobody is here to know what this is, but thought seems to think it knows. Thought has infinite thoughts about what thought thinks this is.

There is no difference between what is observing (whatever observing is) and what is being observed (whatever the so-called observer is seemly observing), until a thought thinks and thinks itself to be thinking what it thought; as being a thought as a self. Yet there is nothing wrong with thought doing this, thought thinks, that's what it does and that is what is happening. There is nobody here to even know what a thought is or how to interpret thought or if thought is any different than anything else.

What is happening is just this and there is nobody here who can know if this is even happening at all. What does it mean for something to happen or not happen? What is the difference between noise or silence? There is no way to decide or answer any question that arises because the only thing that can pretend to know is a thought, the only thing that can ask a question is a thought (if it can be said to be a thing at all), the only way to interpret anything is through thought, and thought is only whatever it is. Who can know what thought is without another thought about what it is?

Whatever this is, whatever is arising, whatever is happening is whatever it is (if one can say it is even a happening) and there is no way what-so-ever to ever solve this mystery, except with a thought, but who cares if thought does that?

So whatever thought is arising, that is what is arising now. Who cares what is arising now? Thought seems to care, but is there really a who in thought? This is just the extraordinary mystery, that has an ordinary weirdness to it. The unfamiliar familiarity of it, yet it's not even that because that is only an interpretation of this mystery. Nothing can be said about this, that is accurate or true. Nothing can solve this mystery because this is what it is, as it is.

It's All Stories
Pointing is nothing more than adding another story to this mystery by talking about whatever this is. Anything that can be said is just a story and no story is more valid than another other story. No opinion is better than another opinion, no belief is closer than another belief, no concept is ever more or less than another concept, no view is any more correct than any other view, nothing arising is better than anything else arising. Opinions, beliefs, concepts, views, etc.. nothing but stories (stories are thought created).

Therefore, tell all the stories you want, believe any story, fall in love with stories, hold stories close, create a story that you will have no stories, or anything else that arises for you because the you that you think you are, is just a story (you) adding a story ('something else' other than a so-called you).

The Story of Oneness
Oneness is just a story that arises when all the interpretations are seen through. Seeing through all the interpretations is yet another story, it doesn't solve the mystery, it doesn't solve anything. It seems to make life more simpler, but simpler is just a story. Simpler is just a opinion that whatever this is can be said as an interpretation to be simpler, usually this arises as an idea that whatever this is can be compared to something else called difficult, but difficult is yet another interpretation about this, as if this can be something and as if this something can be compared to a so-called something else.

It seems to make life less painful when interpretations drop, but life less painful is just another story. Even the story that whatever this is, is a life; is a story. Even that what this is can be something painful, is just a concept being interpreted as pain. Even having less is an idea that whatever this is, can be less or more of whatever this is; is an interpretation by thought that whatever this is can be interpreted as something.

Therefore, the story that whatever this is, can't be said to be anything, other than whatever the hell this is; is just a story about whatever the hell this mystery is. Whatever story can be had about this, can't explain this.

The Story of You (the self)
Thought can only ever create more thought. In fact, thought doesn't even know what the hell it is because there is nobody here to know what thought is. Yet thought thinking creates thought stories. The biggest story thought has created, is the story of self. In order for thought to know what thought is, thought created a thought box. A pattern of thoughts that does nothing more than pointing to more thoughts. Now thought can think thoughts of a self. The thought created self. Thought created you. 'You' is nothing more than a collection of patterned thoughts, that over time thought started to believe thought.

The Story of Beliefs
A belief is nothing more than a huge collection of thought after thought that no longer has to think certain thoughts to be convinced. Thought is quite certain that the self that thought created is more than just thought. Thought believes thought to be a self, which translates into: you.

The Story of Thought Created Identities
Now the you of thoughts can identity with more thoughts that don't look like thoughts. The identities are infinite. Thought says to thought (remember 'I' is always being used as nothing more than thought): "I am a mother"(thought is something a concept that thought created call mother), "I am a man"(thought is thinking thought to be something it created as a so-called man), "I am a nurse" (thought referring to thought as the thought: nurse), "I am in pain" (thought is in something that it thought up: pain), "I am the creator of my reality" (thought is the thought-concept: creator. Thought creating more thought), "I can think more thoughts to create what I want" (thought can think more thoughts to so-called create what thought so-called wants), "I am spiritual" (thought thinking thoughts as being 'spiritual' thoughts), "I am a Christian" (thought thinking that thought can be something other than thought).

Can you see how silly the idea of the thought created 'I' is? Who is this that is reading this, more thought? What else could this be, but more thought? Could it be just a mystery?

The Story of Judgment
Not only is the 'I' thought created, but now that thought has an identity. Thought can now identify the thought created self with more thoughts that seem to be outside thinking. "I am a spiritual person, but that person out there is not" (thought thinking that there is such a thing as a spiritual thought as compared to not a spiritual thought), "I am positive person and that person out there is not positive" (thought thinking that there are levels of thinking that one thought is good and another thought is bad).

Whatever the thoughts are, it's just a thought and no thought is ever better or worse than any other thought (Opinions, beliefs, concepts, views, identities, stories, etc.. nothing but thoughts about whatever the hell this is).

Whenever thought has an identity, thought always has thoughts of thinking thoughts that look like similarities and differences between so-called things (things are more thoughts). In this way thought can seemly know whatever the hell it is, through a comfortable identity and whatever the hell everything else is because of the seemly identity it apparently has.

The Story of the Enlightened Awareness
All that can said about whatever this is, is that whatever this is seems to be aware (whatever this awareness is) of whatever this is. Whatever this is that is aware, is aware of whatever this is. There is no difference between whatever is being aware of this and whatever this is because there is no way to know what either one is (or to know even if there is a difference between them or if there is a them or two things at all) and without knowing what anything is, it all seems to be one thing or no-thing, or all things, or both, or either, or whatever is arising is arising as this. This is it, whatever this is, whatever is arising without interpretation about what this is; this is said to be the concept/idea/story of enlightenment.

Knowing the mind of thoughts, the next thought that will arise is "How can I see what this is, without interpreting it?" and thought can't seem to see that interpreting this, is still 'part' of whatever this is. Whatever this is seems to be interpreted and that is this too. Whatever arises in this, is this, as it is; whatever this is. So the story of thoughts go on, while it is seemly chasing after another story called enlightenment. The cosmic joke.

What Does Enlightenment Feel Like? The Concept of Déjà Vu

2009-06-04T04:53:00.002-06:00

Some questions can not really be answered, without adding more confusion into the mix, but here is an attempt anyhow.

While in New Zealand, I had some alligator pizza. Knowing this, some people will ask what it tastes like. It tasted like nothing I ever tried before, but if I had to compare it to something, then I would say chicken. Of course, it doesn't taste like chicken, but that is as close as I can come to comparing it to something else that is commonly ate.

When the question "What does enlightenment feel like?" arises, I used to just come as close as possible with words by saying "it feels like nothing and everything simultaneously". There really is no way to answer it in a context that can be understood, so it can only be pointed to.

There are different ways of pointing and the way of pointing that seems to arise here most, is what I would label as intellectual pointing. Which simply means that 'people' are met where they are and pointed out of it. Basically it boils down to: grabbing the attention of the mind, leading it out of one concept, into another concept, then getting rid of both concepts; so the mind has nowhere to stand.

Another way of pointing is what I label direct pointing, which basically means talking around truth as close as possible with words and never leave room for the mind to understand anything. This kind of pointing is designed to frustrate the mind and cause it to give up. Through the mind exhausting itself, what is revealed is true nature.

There are many more seemly different types of pointing and it really doesn't matter which one is used, because what is being pointed to is spontaneously unpredictable and can never be pined-down. It can 'happen' through no-pointing at all, at any time, under any circumstance and either way it doesn't matter because all of this is it.

However, intellectual pointing is about seeing what concept is being held to arise the question. In this case, the concept that arose the question, is the concept that enlightenment feels different than living an ordinary life. Enlightenment is very ordinary and doesn't feel any different than everyday living, yet there is something that apparently happens. A realization is recognized.

In order to explain the feeling of this realization, I am going to use the concept of déjà vu. Remember that déjà vu is just a concept I am using to explain the feeling of the realization. Like the beginning of this article, using chicken to explain the taste of alligator, it's not quite right, but it's close.

Déjà vu is French, meaning, 'already seen'. This is the experience of feeling no-doubt that the same experience has happened in the past already. It's usually an intense feeling that the past is repeating itself exactly as before, except you're unsure as to what happened before, you just somehow know that whatever is happening, in that instance, is duplicated precisely as a previous experience that was already experienced.

The experience of déjà vu described above is from the perspective of the mind. When in fact, déjà vu is not the past being presently perceived, yet it's awareness seeing itself everywhere. It's like looking in the mirror and recognizing the appearance you see. "Oh, I already seen that appearance." Of course you seen that appearance already, because that appearance is you. You literally recognize every observable appearance as you and that is something the mind can not understand because the mind has a remarkable ability: to separate appearances into objects, label seemly every object, and recall the seemly labels in the present moment through recognizing past patterns of such appearances.

In other words, déjà vu is seen to be the feeling of an exact past experience being perceived again because that is how the mind filters every experience (through patterns of the past). If déjà vu was experienced without the filter of the mind, then you would have the feeling of enlightenment (awareness recognizing itself in everything it observes).

Therefore, déjà vu is the closest thing to the feeling of the 'enlightenment' shift, but it's not the same because usually always déjà vu is experienced through the filter of the mind, which gives the experience of déjà vu a fixed perspective (which translates the experience of it as being past).

Through the experience of déjà vu without the filter of the mind, there is no fixed perspective. Awareness recognizes itself everywhere it observes and simultaneously since it recognizes itself everywhere, it realizes that it's every perspective and no-perspective. When you realize yourself to be every perspective, then you recognize that you are no specific perspective, therefore, you are no-perspective. Hence you are everywhere, but you are not there to be everywhere. Everything (you) is occurring on its own accord without you (no-you).

As mentioned, déjà vu is just a concept of the feeling experience that shifts the perspective into enlightenment. However, enlightenment is not about sustaining a state or experience because awareness is not limited to any temporary state or passing experience, in fact, awareness is all states/experiences, as one. All changing states and experiences are only there to show awareness to itself. After the showing of an state/experience that shifts perspective into no-perspective, it doesn't matter what state or experience come and go because they are all seen as one state/experience.

As a result, after so-called enlightenment, life is mostly very ordinary. The only difference is that the illusion is seen through, so if the illusion is seemly there, it doesn't matter. In other words, after awakening to enlightenment (which can happen gradually or suddenly or anything else in between) the feeling of life is mostly very ordinary, with a shift of perspective in the background. The states/experiences range from an intense déjà vu, to such a subtle feeling that the sense of an individual self seems to have come back, but the seeing of this shift, is seeing that the illusion is not real, rather it's there or not. In other words, it's seen that there is no-self there to care what states/experiences come and go because all state/experience are one state/experience seemly appearing as different states/experiences.

Consequentially, this is not about searching for a déjà vu experience, I only tell you this so you have an idea about what it's like in the feeling of the shift. However, having said that, it's not limited to such an experience. Enlightenment can reveal itself (awareness realizing itself everywhere) at ANYTIME and under ANY circumstance.

In fact, right now, as you consider yourself from the perspective of an individual self, awareness is realizing itself in everything it observers, it's there very subtle in the background. This is about accepting that things look separate. By accepting it and realizing that things will always feel in a somewhat ordinary way as states/experiences come and go, you can begin to accept the apparent separateness, but feel the subtle background of oneness in the seemly separate things.

The nature of the beautiful and magnificent mind is to separate things, there is no way around that construct completely. Yet there can be a perspective shift that allows something else to be noticed. It's just about bringing it from the background, to the foreground, but you can't do it, awareness does it, on its own accord, you have no choice in the matter.

Sometimes something very subtle and slight will be noticed, sometimes something fully intense like déjà vu will be noticed, and anything and everything between. Usually it's very spontaneous and unexpected, but it can gradually come too. You never know what to expect, so don't expect anything. Just relax, have fun, and be playful while investigating and experimenting with awareness.

Radio Adyashanti - Next Live Broadcast: Wednesday June 03

2009-06-02T06:05:00.002-06:00

UPDATE: Next live Broadcast on July 1st 2009, I will keep you informed when the time is close.

If you are interested in: Oneness, Awakening, Ascension, Liberation, Enlightenment, Non-duality, Self-Realization, Nirvana, Living in the Now, Egolessness, God-Consciousness, Subjective Reality, Unconditional Love, Absolute Truth, Formless Existence (or whatever label resonates with you, it's all pointing to the same one thing)... then there is a World-Wide access through online radio with Adyashanti on Wednesday June 03 at 6:00PM Pacific Daylight Savings Time (if you are unsure what time that will be in your part of the world: click here to get the exact secluded time where you are). It will last for about one hour and 30 minutes.

Adyashanti will start with an introduction that last about 30 minutes and the next hour will be open for free calls. It's a free call for anybody, anywhere in the world. The broadcast can be found at Cafe Dharma. Just click the link on the secluded time and the broadcast will load automatically, you don't need to click anything else (the free numbers for the U.S.A. and International will be provided on the site at the secluded time).

However you do need the free Quicktime download (19 megabytes) installed on your computer to stream the radio feed, so make sure you give yourself enough time to download and install it, if you don't already have it.

I am using Firefox Browser on a Vista computer and for some reason with this specific broadcast, Quicktime doesn't stream the show in Firefox on Vista computers (I tested it on another Vista with Firefox Browser installed and it didn't work there either), so if you use Firefox (rather than Internet Explorer) on a Vista computer (rather than Windows XP) then open the Cafe Dharma link in Internet Explorer to fix the problem (one hour pre-program music is provided before the broadcast begins, therefore you have an hour to see if Quicktime is working correctly) .

(link to photo) Adyashanti is the author of "Emptiness Dancing", "The Impact of Awakening", & "My Secret is Silence". He offers spontaneous and direct nondual teachings that have been compared to those of the early Zen masters and Advaita Vedanta sages. More about Adya, books stores, events, and teachings can be found on his website: http://www.adyashanti.org/ and a few free audio downloads can be found here.

I found Ayda on youtube (youtube is a free video service), his youtube channel with many quality direct pointings, can be found here: http://www.youtube.com/user/Adyashanti

I would highly recommend Ayda to anyone interested in the labels listed at the beginning of this article. It was through Adya and his pointing on one of his youtube videos that the awakening was realized here.

Like I said the live radio broadcast will be about 1 hour and 30 minutes, rather then a 6-10 minute video on youtube and you can call in with any questions for free.

For more awakened teachers, I gathered a collection of 50+ youtube videos (and growing) of many different teachers, that point to this same thing, in different ways. This collection can be found at: http://www.youtube.com/user/nicholaspowiull

The Conditioned Body/Mind Organism

2009-05-25T01:07:00.004-06:00

If I asked you "Are you the doer of your thoughts? Do you have control over your thoughts?", then you might take the time to think about it, before you answered. You might answer right away with whatever comes out. You might change the subject or not answer. But in all cases you never know what your thought will be, before you have it.

Asking the question itself, brought up the next thinking thought you had. Thinking can only ever be stimulus in response to what is happening around you in any given point of time. Even if you so-called choose to start thinking positive, you are not choosing that based on a choice you have, that is being done automatically by something in the environment to stimulate the need to think positive.

All unfoldings overlap each other and everything you come in contact with will stimulate the next thought you have. Even if you come across something that reminds you to start thinking positive again, that memory was triggered by the outside circumstances. Everything is conditioned to be the way it is by the surrounding environment.

The only way to not be affected by conditioning is to not buy into anything from the outside environment, but even these words are outside of you telling you to not buy into conditions. If you buy into this condition, then you are still conditioned. There is no way around conditions, even this article is being written from a conditioned response to an invitation I received to "Thinking Positive for Life".

Most people think they are their thoughts. Since you are not choosing your thoughts, what else are you choosing? The only way to know what else you can choose, is to know it through a thought and you are not choosing thoughts, so therefore, you are not choosing anything.

You may think that you have a choice in how you are going to respond to your surrounding environment (whatever that may be at any point in time), but however you respond will be done through conditioning. Conditioned to say nice things, conditioned to think before you respond, conditioned to do, say, or think whatever it is that you are conditioned to think, say, and do.

Conditioning is not something that happens over time, it happens in the moment too. Based on this article you may decide to jump up and down, make a weird face, say some utterances that doesn't make sense, and pull on your ears all at the same-time; in order to rise about the conditioning, but you are only trying to rise above the conditioning based on the words you are reading now. Therefore, no matter what it is that you think, say, or do; you are not doing (the thinking or the saying) at all, the surrounding environment is arising and you are responding spontaneously and naturally through conditioning to whatever is arising. You have no choice.

There is nothing wrong or right with conditioning, it is just this life. The all of reality is conditioned, continuously, and constantly; there is no escaping it. It's all condition, the whole appearance is a condition, operating based on all conditions. Nature, animals, the world, the universe; are all conditioned responses.

Nobody or thing is doing it. It's all spontaneously and naturally unfolding. The way an animal responses to its environment, the way a machine is programmed to response to the program, the way the Earth is conditioned to revolve around the Sun, all the conditions that allow life to be here; no different to the way human beings respond. The only seemly difference is that humans conditioning unfolded in such a manner that the illusion of a self was create and the only way a self (patterned thoughts) can be created, is if it thinks 'itself' to be separate (thought thinking thought). Thoughts are the only thing that created such an appearance. Patterned thought loops, the thoughts causing labels (labels are just another thought) that separate (the idea of separation: thought), the thoughts driving so called 'people' (thoughts driving thoughts) to seek something outside a thought, thoughts conjuring up the ideas that the past is real and the future is threatening. It's all thought believing thought, it's all thought believing itself. It's all conditioning that conditioned itself.

Conditioning is happening, but nobody is doing it. There is nobody here except a patterned thought thinking itself up to be more than thought. This could have happened to anything in an unfolding environment. A machine, if given enough time in a stable environment, could be conditioned through patterns to develop thought and think itself as a self (in fact this a major fear with most 'people' because they know, that all they are, is thought believing thought and if it can happen here, then it can happen anywhere).

Thought has been believing itself for centuries and in order to keep itself alive, has been programming other body/mind organisms to have thought and believe thought (hence the 'sins' are passed-down generation to generation). Body/mind organisms are not born with thought, they are born with an living intelligence that knows 'itself' to be the whole. Everything and nothing simultaneously.

Everything is everything, then a thought comes and the everything starts thinking itself as a self. Thinking itself into existence. Thinking itself as something in particular, certain, localized, defined, identified, something with a point of reference. Yet, all this is, is a program, a manipulation, a condition.

There is this body/mind organism and there is an awareness of it. Yes, this awareness seems to be attached to this particular body/mind organism, there is no denying that. Yet that is appearance, just an appearance. What is being pointed to here, is that when the sense of self drops away, then self is seen everywhere awareness observes.

Sometimes it's an intense seeing, sometimes it's more subtle, and sometimes it's everything in between, but what is shown, is that it's always there (always has been) even if it's so subtle that the sense of self may seem to come back. Yet once truly seen through, that illusion of self, is laughable. Even if that illusion came back, there is nobody here to care.

Therefore self is seen everywhere that awareness observes, but that awareness that is observing is empty, the source of that awareness can not found. What is found, is this void, this vast eternal formless space of nothingness. Awareness is everything it observes, yet awareness arises out of nothing. Awareness is everything, yet awareness can only be aware and not do anything. Awareness is everything, doing nothing.

Awareness is never-changing and always-present to all the conditions that arise. Aware of all the conditioning and is unaffected by any of it. It simply witnesses everything arising and realizes that whatever is arising, is itself. Underneath all the conditioning, this awareness is the same awareness. Underneath all 'your' conditioning, the same exact awareness is there in 'everybody': this void, this vast eternal formless space of nothingness. It is watching these words being written and it's watching these words being read right now. Same. One awareness.

When you meet 'somebody' for the first time, 'you' are not meeting 'them', you are meeting all their conditioning. All the books they read, all their education, every environment they were ever in, all their influences, beliefs, thoughts, ideas, knowledge, information, concepts, etc... When people meet you for the first time, they are meeting your conditioning too.

Yet to the awakened awareness, the unconditioned awareness realizing itself; there is no so-called 'people' or 'selves'. Awareness is just meeting awareness. Unconditioned awareness meeting unconditioned awareness, yet awareness seeing itself in the conditioned simultaneously. Therefore, there is no conditioned or unconditioned, there is just what is. Real and unreal. Same. One. All the so-called 'conditioning' are accepted, since it's all awareness.

In this awakened realization, life is still so-called 'conditioned', there is no way around that, but most of the conditioning is dropped, since it's seen through. No more reason to buy into purpose, beliefs, thoughts, ideas, knowledge, information, concepts, etc... yet those things may still arise. Anything and everything can still arise, but it's seen as stories, no more or less than stories. No story is ever better than another story because all stories are still awareness: empty .

These words, every word, every sentence, every article, every book, every experience, everything observable to awareness; all stories. Some stories may seem more fun than other stories, but fun or non-fun, entertaining or boring, or any other opposite and anything in between are all stories of equal value, since none of it is valuable. In order to provide value there would have to be something outside of everything to provide value to the everything. Since everything is awareness and awareness is nothing; no value can be attained by anybody or anything.

'Everyone' who has ever awoken to this realization, always say the same-thing in different words. The way the words are colored have to do with 'their own' conditioning, yet it's just the stimulus response of their conditioning in that moment. The words always point to the same-thing, since awareness is the only one thing being aware, yet doing nothing. Being everything, doing nothing. Seemly everything (one awareness) arising out of nothing (the emptiness of awareness).

Losing Yourself, Yet Gaining the Universe

2009-05-20T18:56:00.003-06:00

What is enlightenment?

Enlightenment is a label to refer to something that can't be explained. It can only be pointed to and talked around. It's the living realization that there is only one thing, one event, one life, one everything, one nothing, one all. It's waking-up from the dream of separation, division, and realizing true nature. Realization, true nature, enlightenment, it's all the same. Even separation and division is part of this, is waking-up to that too.

Then it can be explained. I can understand that its all one.

Understanding intellectually is perhaps a door-way to it (yet no understanding at all can lead to realization, there are no rules to how it unfolds), but it's not a complete understanding. When you see that you understand but you're not sure it can ever be understood because it is a living realization, then no understanding is necessary. When self-realized, it can't be understood because there is nothing to understand and you see in your living seemly unfolding experience, that there is no you there to understand it. You realize that you are everything, but you are not doing anything because there is no you there to choose anything.

So I don't exist? It sure feels like I do.

You exist, but you are that which is unexisting and existing simultaneously. Real and unreal. Moving and unmoved. You just don't exist as you understand yourself to be. You feel you exist as separate.

But I realize I am not separate.

It's not realized unless you can see in your own experience that you can not be defined or known, since you are everything and nothing simultaneously. When you can realize that you have no-choice EVER because there is nobody here to choose anything. You can understand that somehow you are not separate, but that understanding is based on a belief. What I am stating here, is not a belief. Belief, faith, and anything of the sort, will fall away upon seeing this.

Are you saying there is no free-will? I make choices everyday.

You believe you are not separate, but if nothing is separate, then that means you are everything. If you are everything, then that means you are nothing because there is nothing here to compare yourself to anything else. If you are everything, then you would have the power to control all aspects of yourself as everything. You can't control anything, because you are nothing. Nobody is there to make a choice to choose something.

I am everything, but I am limited to this aspect in this life and in this aspect of this body, I do have choice to choose what will happen. I am everything because I come from a Source that connects us all. Therefore, I have choice in this body, right?

To imply that everything is connected, there would have to be two (or more in this case: everybody else). The belief that you are everything, gets you nowhere expect to seeing an illusion that you still have choice. If you as everything/everybody is connected to a Source, then the Source would seemly be the only one thing choosing, but if you are connected to that Source, then you are that Source itself. You are implying that the Source lets you choose for It, but if you are It, then that implies that It is choosing through you. So who has the power here? Who is actually choosing: you or the Source?

I guess it would be both, since we are connected.

Yes, but if you're connected as one thing, then there is not two there. Only One, therefore neither is making choices because there is no distinction. Being everything, there is nothing simultaneously. Nothing is appearing as something else. Nothing can't decide anything, because nothing is the only thing. Everything in this world, is seemly to appear as an unfolding from nothing, nobody, no-one and that is why this can not be explained since it's happening, it's not happening. Nobody is doing it, but it is unfolding. That is why I say you are everything but you're not doing anything. Everything you observe is you because there is only one here, yet it derives out of Nothing since there is nothing else to compare everything to. Everything=One, One can't be compared to anything else, therefore it's nothing. Nothing=One. Everything/Nothing is It.

Okay, so I am everything and nothing. What is the point?

You are everything and nothing, but you are not here to claim that as your identity. You are nothing so there is nobody here to claim the everything. Oneness appearing as everything and doing nothing. There is only one here, doing nothing, so where is there to go? What is there to do? What is there to be gained? What is there to be learned? Who is there to grow ones self? There is no point. Quite pointless. It is 'all' irrelevantly seemly 'here and there'.

Isn't there something to be learned about the everything/nothing I am?

There is nobody there to learn it or anything else, yet the seemly appearance of learning may arise, but you are not there to make the choice to learn or not. Learning may arise, but the learning is pointless. Where are you going to take that learning and who is there to benefit from it? There is nothing of value happening. Everything/nothing means eternally everything and nothing, therefore, if something appears to be something new, that is you too. You were it before it seemly appeared for the first time in the so-called world. You may not have been aware of it as you before it seemly appeared, so there seems to be an evolving, learning, unfolding taking place, but what does that matter? It doesn't add to who you are, you are eternally everything/nothing.

How depressing. If there is no purpose to any of this, then why am I aware of any of it?

That is the mystery that can't be solved, but once this is fully-embodiment as a living realization and not just a belief, it's not depressing at all. It's quite liberating. In fact, in many cases, searching and seeking for purpose has lead to such an extreme-case of depression, that one awakes to this and the depression is seen as this one event that doesn't matter. When you see that everything is this, even depression, the depression no longer holds any emotional value (no attachment to the depression that is arising) for you (since it's seen that you are not there to be depressed, nobody is there to be the depression).

How do I fully embody this realization?

You are not there to choose to do something to realize this. Choosing arises but not by you, so there is nothing you can do. Either this is realized or its not. Nobody can tell you how because there is no how. In fact, trying to do something to realize this will perpetuate this since realization and non-realization are not two different things. Not realizing this, is this too.

There seems to be techniques and methods that arise, that can act as 'door-ways' to glimpses of this, but there are no guarantees. The eternal/infinite is unpredictable and undefined, some techniques work for 'some' and not 'others'. Some have even been seeking this for decades and find nothing because they are looking for something else other than what is arising now.

What would you suggest?

Everything I suggest will become just a task to do something. It will imply that there is something to get and somebody to get it. The fact is that this is it, whatever is arising is it. Realization doesn't happen for a 'somebody' in a 'future time', it's who you are now.

Many realized 'people' have suggested things like: live in the now, stick with the awareness that is aware of everything being observed, sit quietly like meditation but don't try to stop your thoughts or manipulate anything arising, look within your own experience and see if you can find the answer to the question "who am I?" or "what am I?" and realize it can never be answered with a thought, notice where the I-thought is coming from and trace it back to the source, be aware of the identifications you make as who you are: a mother, a doctor, a spiritual person, an addict, an activist, a christian, a professional, a nobody, a self, etc... Let go, don't resist anything arising, and the list goes-on.

Those suggestions have arose here too and many of them are pointed to in detail through this site: http://consciousflex.blogspot.com/ under the label: enlightenment. However, all this implies that there is a you there to make a choice to do these things. There may be a reading of this and a stimulus-response may arise to what appears like a choice to do these things and that is fine, everything is this, even the seemingly 'separate person' who is appearing to make a choice. All of it, is this, so either way whatever arises, happens spontaneously and naturally on its own accord.

For a variety of different 'realized people' who point to this in different ways, there is a list of recommendations on the very bottom left-hand corner of that site.

You say realization is who I am, but I don't feel realized. Why is that?

There is really no reason or causality or purpose to this or anything else. Eternal means timelessness, always here, no beginning or end, therefore, nothing causes anything else. But many things have been suggested as to why the seemly appearance of a separate self arose:

1. We were born into this world with this realization because it's who we are. At around the age of two, we were all conditioned to believe in a separate self. The terrible-twos is a sign of this identity taking place. "My toy!".
2. The mind is designed to separate things for survival purposes. The mind has to know the difference and similarity between things in order to keep the game of life unfolding. If you didn't see the difference between a car and yourself, unfolding yourself couldn't happen.
3. The never-changing ever-present awareness that is everything innocently confused itself by gradually recognizing opposites and claiming one as more itself and another as a lesser degree of self until it trapped itself.
4. This mystery can not be solved and a fear arose out seeing this everything/nothing of not knowing what this life is or who/what it is being aware of this life that it is, causing an identification to occur, in order to resolve the first arising fear.

However, those are just stories that unfold in this and because it's there, it's part of this too. But the stories never tell truth. Truth can only be pointed to, talked around, or realized.

Whatever is happening, is happening the way it should or it would not be happening.

Then there is some sort of purpose! Why would you say everything is happening the way it should?

All the seemly opposites that exist, are not opposites at all, it's one thing. Therefore, there is no right or wrong with whatever is arising. This life is, but nothing in this life is wrong and nothing is right about it either. It is what it is without purpose, but purpose may seemly appear and arise. Seeing the appearance of purpose is this too, but in realization, what is seen, is that there is no purpose or agenda of where this is going or why it's here.

What happens after life? What happens when you die?

What is realized is that life has no opposite, death is the opposite of birth. Life is eternal. No beginning and no end. This moment right now is timeless. This moment right now is not moving. The appearance of time arises in this and that is this too, but it's the unmoved mover. The only death that occurs is the death to the illusion of the separate self.

I need this body to be aware of this. When this body is not there, then this is not being aware of. So how is this life eternal?

Awareness is the timelessness, it is the everything/nothing. Awareness is not separate from this or anything else. You are aware of the body, therefore, the body is within the awareness and the body is also the awareness itself. What is seen, is that this timeless awareness is aware and unaware simultaneously. This awareness is the nothingness is which gives rise to the seemly everythingness. It is the nothingness and everthingness, one thingness.

Is this timeless awareness intelligent?

It is the intelligence, since it is everything/nothing.

Well, if it is everything/nothing, then that means it's intelligent and unintelligent, right?

The question itself is quite irrelevant because it implies that if there is an intelligence then it has an intelligent agenda or purpose to itself. It is what it is, it doesn't question itself because it doesn't answer itself.
There is nobody or thing there to question and nobody or thing to answer. For a question to arise, there has to be something else there to compare itself to. It would have to see something else other then itself and question the something else that appeared (which is the only thing in this, that is impossible, it is everything/nothing so it can't ever find anything that it is not; yet the seemly appearance of different things may arise) and there would have to be something else for an answer to arise out of it.

So here 'we' have it, a seemly 'you' to question and a seemly 'me' to answer. Yet, when it realizes itself, all questions stop, because it's seen that there is no questioner, nobody to question and nobody to answer.

Questions may arise in this and that is this too, questions can even arise for the realized, but for the realized there is never an answer because there is nobody to answer back. Even the question that arises to the realized, realizes that there is no questioner questioning anything, it's just a question arising. No different then anything else arising since everything that arises is this: one thing.

You say some weird things, but it makes sense! How do I know you are realized? How do I know you are enlightened?

You're aware right? You are aware of these words and you are aware of everything you are observing right?

Well, yeah?

Is that awareness enlightened or unenlightened?

What do you mean?

I mean enlightenment is just a label, refer to the beginning of this conversation.

All these so-called answers are designed to dissolve the so-called questioner, perhaps if you read this conversation again, that may arise.

I just don't want you to be right. I want this life to have purpose and meaning!

If that is the case then you don't want this realization, you want the appearance of something else and that is what you will find, if that is what you want.

There is a part of 'you' that knows all these 'answers'. You are this, therefore you resonate with these words and you know this next answer: every realized being doesn't want something else, because it's seen that there is nothing else and that is the most liberating, most peaceful, most blissful and most contentment realization in the whole of the universe. You lose yourself, but you gain the universe.

Radio Adyashanti - Next Live Broadcast: Wednesday May 20

2009-05-19T11:50:00.009-06:00

If you are interested in: Oneness, Awakening, Ascension, Liberation, Enlightenment, Non-duality, Self-Realization, Nirvana, Living in the Now, Egolessness, God-Consciousness, Subjective Reality, Unconditional Love, Absolute Truth, Formless Existence (or whatever label resonates with you, it's all pointing to the same one thing)... then there is a World-Wide access through online radio with Adyashanti on Wednesday May 20 at 6:00PM Pacific Daylight Savings Time (if you are unsure what time that will be in your part of the world: click here to get the exact secluded time where you are). It will last for about one hour and 30 minutes.

Adyashanti will start with an introduction that last about 30 minutes and the next hour will be open for free calls. It's a free call for anybody, anywhere in the world. The broadcast can be found at Cafe Dharma. Just click the link on the secluded time and the broadcast will load automatically, you don't need to click anything else (the free numbers for the U.S.A. and International will be provided on the site at the secluded time).

However you do need the free Quicktime download (19 megabytes) installed on your computer to stream the radio feed, so make sure you give yourself enough time to download and install it, if you don't already have it.

I am using Firefox Browser on a Vista computer and for some reason with this specific broadcast, Quicktime doesn't stream the show in Firefox on Vista computers (I tested it on another Vista with Firefox Browser installed and it didn't work there either), so if you use Firefox (rather than Internet Explorer) on a Vista computer (rather than Windows XP) then open the Cafe Dharma link in Internet Explorer to fix the problem (one hour pre-program music is provided before the broadcast begins, therefore you have an hour to see if Quicktime is working correctly) .

(link to photo) Adyashanti is the author of "Emptiness Dancing", "The Impact of Awakening", & "My Secret is Silence". He offers spontaneous and direct nondual teachings that have been compared to those of the early Zen masters and Advaita Vedanta sages. More about Adya, books stores, events, and teachings can be found on his website: http://www.adyashanti.org/ and a few free audio downloads can be found here.

I found Ayda on youtube (youtube is a free video service), his youtube channel with many quality direct pointings, can be found here: http://www.youtube.com/user/Adyashanti

I would highly recommend Ayda to anyone interested in the labels listed at the beginning of this article. It was through Adya and his pointing on one of his youtube videos that the awakening was realized here.

Like I said the live radio broadcast will be about 1 hour and 30 minutes, rather then a 6-10 minute video on youtube and you can call in with any questions for free.

For more awakened teachers, I gathered a collection of 50+ youtube videos (and growing) of many different teachers, that point to this same thing, in different ways. This collection can be found at: http://www.youtube.com/user/nicholaspowiull

We are NOT all One - There is Only One

2009-05-17T04:00:00.008-06:00

To a mind the title of this article may seem like a contradiction or a paradox. Yet the first phrase in the title derived from a common spiritual phrase used now-a-days: "We are all One". In a certain light that does speak truth, but it implies that there are separate people and those separate people are somehow all connected. The second phrase in the title is more accurate (as far as words go).

When I was a spiritual seeker (if it can even be called that, more like the seeking does itself), I often heard that we are all one and it resonated with me, so I can understand the confusion that the mind has picking-up resonating concepts and believing them. I imagine that the phrase: "We are all one", was picked-up on after hearing those words in a 'teaching'. Knowing how the mind works, I imagine that phrase was not the complete message that was being translated. Yet, the mind will ignore the parts it can't understand and only take the parts it can understand.

The reason the mind can understand that 'we are all one' and not 'there is Only One' is because the mind needs to separate existence in order to exist. The job of the mind is to separate and it's a very useful tool, but not so useful when used to understand the true nature of reality (for more information on the mind and how it works click here). The whole assumption about life in general is that who we are is limited within a body/mind organism. When you look at a chair, you can see where it starts and where it ends. When you look at the body, you can see where it starts and where it ends, so naturally if you assume you are a body, then you will assume you are limited to where the body resides. Assuming this limit, is why the idea of a separate individual personal self is so widely excepted.

However, let's look at this more closely. Every body/mind organism refers to itself as I. If you think of yourself as the body, then you say "I am this body". Yet is this I an objective source that can be found? Can you find a start and end to this "I"? If there is no start or end to I, then how do you know that the I is limited to the body?

Consequentially, either the I is everything and there is nothing else (One Self) or there is no I at all (no-self) or both or neither. Either way the conclusion is the same: there is only one. This is the part where the mind has a difficult time. This is where fear might arise. The minds job now becomes useless and purposeless, if nothing is separate then that means there is no meaning. No God and Satan fighting over your soul. No higher or lower levels to move from or to. No learning something to take it somewhere better. No experience means anything at all. All experiences are the same one experience. Nowhere to go and nothing to do. Nobody to make anything better. No improving self. If you learned everything, remembered everything, experienced everything, bettered yourself on every level of your being; then where are you going to take it to and what are you going to do with it? No limit means there is no growth or expanding because infinite is unlimited. Infinite is everything or nothing or both or neither. No matter how the mind looks at it: one is one is one is one...

If you stop the world-wide assumption that you are a separate limited individual self, something interesting starts to happen. You see yourself everywhere and in everything. I mean that quite literally. The computer screen I am looking at, is quite literally me. Something else interesting happens too, everything stops being you doing it (no reference-point). Quite literally these words are typing themselves. This body is an empty shell running on stimulus response that has no choice in what happens.

I know that seems paradoxical, how can everything be you, when you are not there? How can self be everywhere and self not controlling any part of it? All this is just What It Is. This Is It. One. One being everything and doing nothing. It's only paradoxical to the mind. When the mind realizes its uselessness in understanding any of this, it gives up and something quite natural and spontaneous reveals itself. In fact, it always was and is always there being natural and spontaneous. The mind is the only thing that gives rise to the illusion of choice, self, separation, individuality, and all the things that you think your reality consists of.

This is not something new, this is the same old message that has been taught ever since language was developed in the appearance of 'time' and from all apparent 'places' across the so called globe. This one same message: Jesus taught, Buddha taught, Krishna taught, all the people offering satsangs everywhere today, and apparent 'people' 'you' will never hear of.

Yet, the mind takes this message and tries to understand it. That is why religions are formed out of it. The mind can only understand concepts and ideas. This message is 'dangerous' for minds (not like it matters much more than anything else). You know what the word God means? It means the same-thing as One or Oneness, Awakening, Ascension, Liberation, Enlightenment, Non-duality, Advaita, Self-Realization, True Nature, Nirvana, No-self, I Am that I Am, Nothingness, Pure Awareness, Divine, Spirit, Presence, Eternal Now, Isness, Egolessness, Transcending, Subjective Reality, Prime Source, Unconditional Love, Absolute Truth, Collective Consciousness, Formless Existence (and the list goes on)... all these things are pointing to the same one thing that the mind can never understand. One is One is One is One...

Truth Speaks

2009-05-15T04:11:00.001-06:00

It's humorous how easily the mind of thought identifies with an idea or concept in order to keep itself alive with illusion. Illusion is perhaps the most remarkable thing known to human beings. Truth is simple and obvious in all cases, it's the illusions that complicates life into something other than what It Is.

Truth may be the most simple and obvious thing because truth is known without doubt. A knowing that can not be touched or grasped. Truth can't be tampered with, talked about, or shown. Truth can only be pointed to, talk around, and self-realized because it's the only thing that Is without anything else. Truth is simple and obvious because it's always there just waiting to reveal Itself to Itself. Illusions can not hide truth, illusions are only temporary phenomenons. Truth is the only thing that is always unchanging and always present. Which is why it's so easily dismissed.

Truth has a certain way to It, yet it's a way that can't be known conceptually. Truth flows, moves, speaks, and is known by Itself to be a certain way. A certain way that is uncertain and can't be categorized but is known to one who flows, moves, and speaks from a place of Absolutely knowing Truth. It quite naturally knows when It sees Itself fully and knows exactly where another is flowing from, moving from, and speaking from. Either Truth is known or It is unknown, but Truth always knows without a doubt if Truth is being Being because It's the same Truth for anybody and everybody. Anybody and everybody is the same Truth because there is only One Truth and Truth knows it when you know and when you don't. Anyone who has Fully self-realized the Truth can sense this, even if they are unaware of this sensing. It's an extremely subtle and mostly unconscious thing once Truth is Fully Embodied with the Wholeness of Being.

The mind of thought and ego-traps are even more remarkable in the subtleness, yet Truth can't not be fooled EVER. Illusions are doomed to fail eventually because the nature of Truth is to destruct illusions and pull Truth (Itself) back to Itself.

After the last article (The Map to Enlightenment), I have gotten many email's with people expressing how they have been following the recent articles and have awoken. Yet, through the expression of how the words were formed, I could see where they were coming from. Truth can and does happen in one spontaneous realization, but it is really rare. Most of the time it's a process of gradual realizations. The ego sneaks back in through all these subtle forms, where one can get stuck. I am grateful that Truth didn't happen that way here, in fact every subtle trap that the ego can grasp into, I fell for and since that happened Truth can see where the process of gradual realizations are for others.

Yet, this is just the way Truth moves here, I am not in the business of saving or helping anybody anymore. In fact, I know that there is nobody there to be saved or helped. Truth just flows, moves, and speaks this way from the Silence. Truth is the Silence in which these words are formed. When Truth is Fully Embraced, It forms thoughts, words, and actions out of Complete Whole Still Silence. The Silence in which everything ever did arise, ever will arise, and that which is ever presently arising; uses everything at Its disposal as a tool. Thoughts of the mind are the tool in which Silence now uses to move, instead of thoughts moving 'you'. There is no over-thinking, there is no knowing what is going by typed before it's typed, everything is just spontaneously happening.

If you can get a sense of those words, you are not getting a sense of the words themselves, you are getting a sense of the Silent Presence in which the words are formed. If Truth ever is Truth, It's spontaneous, natural, unconditional, one with whatever is arising. Truth is always One with whatever is arising in the Timeless Eternal Now because Truth is One with Itself (the Truth).

However, Truth is infinite and expresses Itself in authentic terms to where It's arising. In other words, the more Truthful you can be with where you are at right now, the more unfolding expressions of realization It can reveal. Truth is a sensing that takes care of Itself by Itself. The more genuine you are with yourself in this Timeless Moment, the more Truth unfolds Itself.

Speak your highest Truth moment to moment, take your most Truthful action, be your highest Truth. Highest is not being used here as saintly, highest is simply the most truest Truth, genuine, and authentic with yourself. There is an innocence and embracement to Truth when It's expressed without guilt, shame, or fear. Yet, be-aware that your highest Truth is never out to hurt anybody, get revenge, or put someone down.

For example, your highest Truth may arise in a moment of anger, but merge with the anger, be one with the anger, and fully embrace the anger. When you allow your Truth to be and be true to your highest Truth then the Truth will free you. Anger arises, you allow it to be, and it fades away (you resist it and it stays). Once anything temporary arises and allowed to live itself out (embraced), then can fade away. Once anything temporary fades, the highest Truth of All Truths always reveals Itself again and again. The Highest Truth of All Truths is Love. Love and Truth are interchangeable and one always leads to the other. In the mist of your deepest anger, love is there waiting to be revealed.

The only reason rage ever arises is because anger is repressed. The only reason panic ever arises is because fear is resisted. The only reason depression ever arises is because sadness is held-back. The only reason jealousy ever arises is because envy is bottled-in. Yet if rage, panic, depression, or jealousy arises then merge with that. You are an Infinite Vastness of Silence Nothingness that destroys anything temporary, once you allow it to be. You are Truth and that is what Truth does, It destructs, destroys, dissolves, undoes, and puts to death anything temporary, illusionary, false, or untrue.

If you want the Truth, if you are of earnest, if you have a burning desire for the Truth and not for anything else but for Truth Itself, then Truth will reveal Itself. Yet Truth will not reveal Itself to you. If anything, Truth will dissolve you. Truth will become so much you that you will not exist because in Truth you do not and never did exist as an individual separate being.

However, nobody can tell you what Truth is, not even these words. No word here is of Truth. Truth is something that can only be known through self-realization; to yourself, for yourself, and by yourself. Truth can't be mapped out, Truth can't give you step-by-step instructions, Truth is never what you imagine It to be. Only you know what is Truth for you, but don't fool yourself, Truth is never a belief, concept, idea, thing, opinion, expectation, perspective, thought, mind, answer, and it can never be grasped, identified, held, understood. Truth is Infinitely Eternal and Ironically Paradoxical, that can never be understood or perceived with your mind.

The Map to Enlightenment

2009-04-23T02:11:00.001-06:00

There is a book called Power Verse Force by David Hawkins (click here to read it for free). Recently someone asked my view of the book. I read it a while ago, but recently picked it back up, it's quite a magnificently profound and accurate book on my experience with the 'levels of consciousness' towards enlightenment.

***This is just my personal story of enlightenment (including the research of common experiences of the enlightened). Enlightenment can be 'seen' by "anyone" at any moment, despite so called 'levels'.***

In the book, David Hawkins describes the top levels as something that is difficult to obtain and compared to all the levels in his chart, that is true, but chances are if you are reading this site, then you are likely in these top levels.

In this article I am going to focus on the top portion of this chart and explain in detail the challenges of the top levels and how to keep 'moving up' to enlightenment. This is based on the story of 'my experience' and similar qualities of most any 'enlightened individual'.

God-view.....Life-view...Level..............Log..........Emotion
Self..................Is...................Enlightenment..700-1000..Ineffable
All-Being........Perfect...........Peace.................600............Bliss
One.................Complete.......Joy.....................540............Serenity
Loving............Benign...........Love....................500...........Reverence
Wise...............Meaningful....Reason...............400...........Understanding

Reason
The Level called: Reason (on the very bottom of the map above) is the highest form of logic and logged at 400. At 499 you would be considered a genius because that is as far as the mind of logic will take you. In order to move on to the Level of Love at 500, you need to be willing to drop logic into the background and that is a very difficult thing to do when one identifies with mind/thoughts as who they are.

Signs of Someone in This Level:
►They are always experimenting to see what works and what doesn't work.
►Their main concern is finding answers.
►They often have some type of influence in society.
►They feel the need to research, read, and are information driven.
►Often very creative.

Love
Once you can drop conventional logic and mental construction to the background, then the heart opens up. You start seeing the world through 'your heart' and you can see how everyone is seeking Love in many different ways.

The trap with this level is that one can see through the eyes of the heart, but they are hesitant to make the full leap to loving EVERYONE unconditionally because at this point there is still some pain issues and they are unaware of how to observe the pain but not be in the pain observed. They are unaware of the self that is Never-Changing and Always-Present (not just the awareness that they are, but the Awareness Aware of Itself).

In order to move up from this level, one has to have heart-logic. In other words they have to map out for themselves a way of knowing why love is ALWAYS the answer. Once you know why, the how becomes easier. If you feel stuck on this level, read this article: "Nobody Understands Me..." (it will help to explain why love is the answer in every situation and how to apply it).

Signs of Someone in This Level:
►They often focus on love and fear being the foundation of life.
►They are often positive, upbeat, and happy.
►Often meditation is a big part of their lives.
►They relate to a heart-logic understanding of oneness and often talk about how everything is oneness.

Joy
At the Level of Love, oneness is often talked about from a heart-logic, but at the Level of Joy, you deeply intuitively know what Oneness really is. True Love is seen in this level as love for no other reason than realizing the One expressing the One (there is no how or why but it seems the heart-logic in the level of Love has to understand the why in its own heart-logical way to move onto this level).

At this level Oneness is a shift that is felt on all levels of your being. A seeing beyond senses open up. A sudden, spontaneous, profound, and unexpected showing that you are not only the body/mind. This is the point where you become aware of the Never-Changing Always-Present Awareness (not just an awareness, but an Awareness Aware of Itself). Along with this comes a feeling that this life is enough, everything is well, and always has been.

Most people call this enlightenment, but this is just a taste of non-duality through seeing the One of Oneness. Your whole entire consciousness and body feel different and even strange (nothing actually changes except a wider perspective beyond the five senses and through this 'perspective shift' a sense of something new arises). Overtime one gets used to this new strange feeling and they often feel like they lost what they were shown (or the mind puts this Non-conceptual Perspective into a conception understanding).

Sometimes out of confusion, one will try to get that strange feeling back and seek for an experience like that again (the mind can think it was an experience due to its conceptual tendencies). In order to uncloud the Non-conceptual Perspective, one has to realize that nothing was lost. When one clings onto an experience, they are forming an identity perspective that completely stops 'progress'.

However there is many traps in this level. This level is about transcending mind completely (not being stuck on the identity of mind/thoughts). This level is where the ego/mind sneaks in the back door and with no awareness of what is happening consciously (Awareness is always Aware of Itself but doesn't always realize Itself.), the ego/mind claims itself as being enlightened, no-self, nothing, etc...(in order to move on, one has to realize that Oneness can't be claimed)

Claiming Oneness at this level is very subtle and innocently unnoticeable.

For example, I am going to tell you of how this unfolded in my story of experience:
I realized that nothing was lost and I began to form a collection of videos on youtube (http://www.youtube.com/user/nicholaspowiull) of people who I felt have had this realization of enlightenment awareness. I was judging almost everyone: "That person is not enlightened because they don't point to it directly.", "That person is not enlightened because they are not talking slow with ease.", "That person is not enlightened because they are still seeking different ways of understanding this, there is no understanding this.", "That person is not enlightened because they are talking about enlightenment as if there is more to it.", "That person is not enlightened because I can see their ego."

The thoughts were not as obvious as what I just described (much more subtle and unnoticeable), but this was my ego trying to claim enlightenment. Since I was claiming myself as being enlightened (egoless) and repressing my ego, I saw almost everyone else who talked about enlightenment as not being enlightened (ego). In short, my repressed ego starting showing up in others.

The key thing is to remember that whatever you are repressing, you will start to see it everywhere else except yourself. If there is still conflict for you after seeing Oneness beyond the senses, the conflict is a sure sign that repressing is taking place.

Repressing can and does happen on the lower too in a very dramatic way, this level is much more subtle.

This level is a two fold process: Oneness can NOT be loss or claimed.

Signs of Someone in This Level:
►If you question the authority of someone at this level, there will be a conflict. They will be causing the conflict then projecting it on you. "There is no conflict here, you don't have to prove anything to me. Why are you being defensive?"
►They will often stick on the idea that this can't be explained (it can't be explained, but once you reach higher levels, that stops being a factor) and they will judge some words as misleading/conditioning and other words as better (that is true but when the mind is stuck in this identity it feels more real, rather than something lightly held).
►They often think that there is only one way to enlightenment. They judge other ways of pointing that don't point the way they do.
►They will often trip over their words. "There is no-self here and when I decide to.. well not I because there is no-self here."
►They will think that they are 'helping people' and do not see that they secretly want something out of it.

Sometimes it takes a while to get used to this level, you can feel like a schizophrenic. It becomes way too much expansion and infinite boundlessness, that the mind/ego will fight it the whole way (many times a lot of fear will surface).

This level is the last selfish act. The last fixated physical identity to be dropped.

Peace
At this level there is another new 'perspective shift' that is felt intensely. In the Joy Level, there is an intuitive Knowing and Non-conceptual Perspective that there is only One here and all is well, but the Perfection of this wellness was not clear (so to speak) on the level of Joy.

In other words, the clearness of this Perfection is seen at this level so clear: that not even a dust particle is out of place. This allows one to drop the selfish-self completely and only leaving a slight shadow non-self. You see that you don't matter. You see that cause and effect have no substance. There is no causality to anything. There is no doer. Time becomes timeless because there is no mental idea of time flowing from past to future (nothing changes with time and how it's used, you can just see through the illusion of time in a very dramatic way, very intense).

At this level it's common that people will remove themselves from the game of life and just sit back watching it unfold without them. They see the Perfection of It All so clearly that they are unaware of how this body is part of the life flow of this One. For people at this level, they claim there is never a set perspective of where they exist (although there is an unnoticeable lean to the Absolute). They is no central point of Awareness or localized reference that confirms who they are (except a small shadow element that they are nothing).

At the level of Joy, you meet the Awareness that is Aware of Itself as Always-Present Never-Changing (also known as God/Source/Formless/Emptiness/Oneness/Vastness/etc..) which confirms Oneness. At this level of Peace, you see that the Perfection of Oneness is perfectly operating without you. Since you can't find a localized reference-point as you, this body becomes just another appearance on the screen of Awareness. All duality: labels, concepts, ideas, names, and separation are removed completely.

At this level there is no going back down to lower levels, you are forced to move up or remain stuck here. The trap with this level is that there is a tendency to check-out from the game of life, just siting back and soaking-up the Bliss/Perfection of It All. You see that you don't matter and that everything is and always will unfold perfectly, so what is the point to do anything?

At the level of Peace you let go of yourself, but there is still a little bit of the 'creature in the machine' (so to speak). To 'move on' from this level, you need to realize that now that you don't matter, the only thing left is allowing the One to arise through you as the One. The shadow non-self can show up in many ways but a good term is: nonacting (or nonheart) egolessness. At the level of Joy a good term is: ego hiding in the egolessness.

Once this nonacting/nonheart is let go of, a new perspective of unconditional love arises (the nonheart or one-heart opens up into the unconditional loving heart) and action is born, which always seem to move as service or pointing.

Signs of Someone in This Level:
►They are willing to lose everything.
►They are content with any situation.
►Nothing physical matters to them.
►They are fixated in calling the world an illusion.
►They are often described as: dull (non-fixed to form) but interesting.

This level is the last selfish non-act. The last fixated absolute identity to be dropped.

Enlightenment
At the level of Peace, there is an unnoticeable lean to the Absolute (also known as Awareness/God/Source/Formless/Emptiness/Oneness/Vastness/etc..) and a drop of the images/appearances on the screen of Awareness (also known as the physical/relative/form/limit/etc..)

At the level of Enlightenment, there is no lean to one or the other, unless in the moment it feels right to do so. This level is about being 100% flexible in allowing whatever Is to be what It Is in the changing Eternal Moment. All you see is Isness.

There is just what Is as what Is. The 'creature in the machine' (so to speak) is completely gone and now what moves just moves the way It arises. There is no identity until there is.

Signs of Someone in This Level:
►Since there is no-one in the machine, the words and actions that arise come forth from the Isness Source Itself. Words sometimes arise like: "I am the Light and the Way.", "I am the One speaking and the One listening to the speaker.", "I am God, God and I are the One, you are God, God and you are the One, I am you, you are me, we are the One", "I am Everything That Is and Everything That Is Not." The reason these words arise is because the enlightened see their true nature and when one sees their true nature they realize the true nature of everybody else. They realize that the body is only a mask (oneness wearing a mask as a speaker and oneness wearing a mask as a listener).
►There is no conflict with any expression because every expression is the One.
Everything/Nothing is seen as Non-Truth Truths. There is no landing on one or the other or neither or both unless the urge of the moment is there.
►Absolute Paradox and Irony become the non-real reality.
►Life is the Infinite Intelligence meeting Itself through Itself but not adding to Itself.
►Beingness of the One Life is the Infinite Intelligence bringing Its Infinite Knowledge to Beingness through the One Life which is translated as the Unknown Mystery of Unknown Knowledge Being Beingness or Lifeness.

A Basic Map
At the Level of Reason: Logic is moved to the forefront. To move on, Logic must be dropped into the background.
At the Level of Love: The Heart is opened and to move on, Heart-Logic must be found.
At the Level of Joy: Oneness is known beyond senses. In order to move on, the idea of losing Oneness and owning Oneness must be transcended (leave ego completely).
At the Level of Peace: Now that ego is completely gone, the Perfection of Oneness is seen and the physical is left behind. In order to move on, the Absolute must be transcended (returning to the physical).
At the Level of Enlightenment: The Absolute and the physical is seen in balance and is held very lightly. Life is lived in complete unconditional trust to the Absolute and the physical: in the Eternal Now. You have no self/ego concerns.

Light Identity
At the Level of Enlightenment it's about being extremely flexible/light with identities. There is always an Aliveness to any identity taken in any moment, Aliveness through any identity and even no identity. Awareness can not be pined-down by any box or label, It is Free to move as It appears.

Identities are just what is arising and it's allowed. However Oneness (God) wants to move, It is allowed to move as That. Since a Viewless View Perspective is free, then any View Perspective that arises is always allowed and is held very relaxed. In other words because flexibility is the key: Viewless View begets View begets Viewless View begets...repeat.

Example of How Identity, Views, & Perspectives Work for the Enlightened
In the viewless view there is Emptiness, but this Emptiness is Vastly Intelligent, the Ultimate Intelligence (also known as God/Source/Formless/Oneness/Vastness/etc..). The enlightened trust this viewless view (Ultimate Intelligence) to lead them into the view they need for that moment.

If they feel the urge to hold a view/identity/perspective it is held very lightly because they know that the Ultimate Intelligent Emptiness often asks them to be viewless and if the mind starts cling onto a view/identity/perspective, the Ultimate Intelligent Emptiness will lead them to an experience that allows them to see how they are clinging (going through the level of Joy & Peace is very helpful in noticing these clingings quickly).

If one has children, then the parent identity shows up often. If one is in a relationship, then the relationship identity shows up often. If one has a job, then the work identity shows up often. If one has animals, then the pet owner identity shows up often. In other words, nothing really changes to much except the flexibility about the identity of who you are in the Eternal Moment.

Anger, Emotions, & Balance
This goes with all levels of being. If anger arises in the moment, then the identity with anger shows up and it can also show up often too but the difference is when at the Level of Enlightenment the anger arises from a place for humanity, rather than for self.

For example, you may be angry that your life is not working the way you want it to, you may be angry that everyone seems to be walking all over you, you may be mad that nobody is listening to you.

At the Enlightenment level that same anger will arise without self: you may be angry that the innocence of humans are so easily disrupted, you may be mad that people don't listen to each other.

Until they are not angry for only humanity, enlightenment is about no limits, whatever arises is allowed to arise (even if it is about self concerns). Enlightenment can not be pinned down into a label or concept. Enlightenment is about giving you a concept and using another concept to disregard the first concept, in such a way that neither concept can be used. Enlightenment is always a paradox: ALWAYS.

Therefore, if you are angry for selfish reasons, it's perfect that you do: always be one with emotions and honest with how you really feel. If you are not one with your selfish emotions, then you are denying the Ultimate Intelligent Emptiness to work through you (as you). Your anger will always lead you to exactly the right place, so listen to it when it arises and be one with it completely. It might inspire something that is needed at that time.

Of course if a person is not being one with their emotions, then it's perfect that they do not and if you feel inspired to coach them to be one with their emotions, then it's perfect that you do.

However don't walk around with the concept that everything is perfection so you can do whatever you desire because that is not being true with yourself or your integrity. The mind loves to have an excuse to do whatever it pleases based on trusting the word of a concept. Don't trust anything I say, find out for yourself. Yes if you decide to not listen to that warning, then it's perfect that you don't, but balance will sometimes show up in hash ways when you are intentionally not being ethical to your values.

Unfolding Perfectly
I just trust life to know that it all unfolds perfectly and this is what is seen at the level of Peace (this life does what it does on it's own, it's not MY life, it's life being played out naturally and spontaneously). "I" don't always see the perfection because I don't cling into that identity, but I don't need to keep seeing that identity in order to know it. Going through the Peace level is about knowing that identity so you can drop it and allow trust unconditionally. If you're always holding the identity of perfection then you would not be willing to take on any other identities that you are called upon (this is why the level of Peace is challenging, seeing perfection everywhere/all the time, is heaven). As an example, I can't always see the perfection and sometimes anger will arise, but it's perfect that it does because it might help to share a better article.

In fact, this article would have never been written if I was not flexible enough to listen to the natural and spontaneous urges that are unheard in the level of perfection. Someone asked my view on the book called Power Verse Force by David Hawkins and I felt an natural impulse to pick it back up based on that asking. Can you see how all levels work together to create the balance?

Another example of how this works, I was listening to Adyashanti speaking of reincarnation on an audio called "Seeing Through the Core Story" and the way he described reincarnation I felt an urge to hold the same perspective because it made sense at the time (not to have the answers, figure anything out, or for personal gain, but because I naturally & spontaneously felt the urge to play with that perspective).

As I was listening to the audio and holding that perspective/identity, I got an email (I have a program that is connected to my inbox, so every-time a new email arrives, it notifies me within that instant), so I paused the audio and checked the email. In the email someone was asking my view on reincarnation and since I felt the urge to hold a view/identity/perspective/concept about it at that time, I shared that view/identity/perspective/concept.

After I sent a reply to the email, I finished listening to the audio and by the end of the audio I felt the urge to not hold that view/identity/perspective about reincarnation anymore.

The Balance
If I was not listening to that audio then I would have had no view perspective and whatever the Emptiness wanted to share with this person through email, would have not been shared (or at least not through this vessel). I know this might seem insignificant and coincidental, but at that time it was crucial that the identity/concept was held and shared. Once it was shared, then it could be let go of and allow the Mystery to unfold how It sees fit.

In my experience this Intelligent Emptiness does this to 'meet people' (Itself really) where they are at on 'the levels' and helping them to 'upgrade' (so to speak) to the next stepping stone that they are able to reach. 'Reaching' (so to speak) enlightenment from any level (even Peace, maybe especially Peace) is quite a difficult transformation.

It can be done, but it's very rare, however I will say this: it doesn't matter what level one is on, if they are open and willing to hear; they can jump to the level of Joy or Peace by simply being aware of the Never-Changing Always-Present Awareness (not just an awareness, but an Awareness Aware of Itself) that they really are. The way to be aware of this is by direct non-duality pointing. Here are some good examples: The Enlightened Awareness, The Secret of All Life Revealed!, Life As it is, Rather Than How it's Believed to Be

What was seen in the level of Peace is that not even a piece of dust is out of place, what is seen at the level of Enlightenment is that everything is perfectly happening and never out of place because of the spontaneous balance like the example described above.

Using the example above, for some reason unknown to me, that 'person' at that time needed to hear that perspective/identity/concept. The reason is always unknown, but the why is always the same: to keep balance in the collective consciousnesses of the planet.

Let's say you believe in reincarnation and that belief is really getting you depressed and you see no way around it, through this process, now you have a chance to look at reincarnation in a different light, so you can move on to the next 'stepping stone'. Eventually you might be lead to drop the belief all together (that seems to be where everyone is always being lead in the end: back to the mystery).

If an enlightened one is in a viewless view perspective and someone asks for their view or has a question about enlightenment, the enlightened will either instantly have a memory of an experience that relates (in this way they have an example of how to provide an answer and at the same-time use that example to point to the non-conceptual awareness beyond the answer), they will have an inspirational thought of how to point to the answer (not a conceptual thought, but a way of seeing without thought that gives a content to explain and using this way of explaining to point the questioner out of the confusion), or they will use direct pointing (infinite ways really).

Direct pointing is a way of explaining non-conceptual awareness. This kind of pointing leaves no room for the mind to get stuck on an conceptual idea. This kind of pointing doesn't provide an answer, it invites you to drop the question completely, since in the truest manner: no question can lead you to the answer (although some questions can lead you to a place that break down all questions) and no answer can lead you to non-conceptual awareness.

Whatever the way the pointing comes about, it is coming from the truth itself. They may use ideas or concepts but they are not speaking from the place of ideas or concepts. They are speaking from their own knowing and direct experience, their own realization of truth. The words ALWAYS arise out of the truth of their true nature.

The job (so to speak) of the enlightened is to be an instrument to allow anything to flow through at any moment straight out of the Ultimate Intelligent Emptiness. The Emptiness just simply knows what view/identity/perspective to hold through you (you as Emptiness) at anytime because it just feels natural at that time (no different than the parent identity or the pet owner identity).

In fact everybody's job (so to speak) is to keep the balance by being integrious and ethical to their own views and how they really feel in every moment. Consciousness (no matter what 'level') is always giving Itself exactly what It needs in each Fresh Moment (rather it's through the enlightened or not).

What Do I Know?
In this article I know I am making it sound like there is a purpose to life, but if there is a purpose, the only purpose is for you to reach enlightenment (or better put: realize there is no you to reach enlightenment).

Therefore, don't try to take on the qualities of the Enlightenment Level because it doesn't work that way. I don't try to hold a veiwless view, it just comes naturally and spontaneously. When I do hold a view, it comes naturally and spontaneously. When I let go of a view and return to the veiwless view, it is done naturally and spontaneously, I don't have a choice in the matter. I never force, practice, or try because there is 'no-me in the machine' and when you know that then the illusion of it holds nothing, it's just what is happening.

I don't know if life has a purpose or if life is purposeless because there is no-self trying to figure everything out, there is no-me pretending to run the machine. The reason there is no-me pretending to have a choice is because the levels I went through showed me that nobody is there: no separate person in control (the same is true for you and if you been reading the recent articles on this site: The Enlightened Awareness, you may have discovered this).

Skipping the Levels to Enlightenment
Now that this article mapped out the levels to enlightenment, you can take the concept of levels and throw that concept out the window, they do not exist, but hopefully a pointer that helps you to realize your actual nature.

Really there only two levels that you are on at any given moment: the level of knowing your true nature (enlightenment) or the level of thinking yourself to be an illusion. The illusion is always the same, you are identifying with a concept. The concept is always the same: identifying with any label, idea, name, separation, belief, knowledge, past, future, experience, story, etc... anything and everything observable or not, if you are stuck in an identification then you are stuck in illusion. Be who you really are: naturally flexible to anything that arises.

However, your true nature is always there and when it's not seemly there, it's just the illusion hiding it. Really the only level is your true nature (enlightenment) and everything else is feeding an illusion. No illusion has power unless you believe it. Enlightenment doesn't stop the illusions, the illusions NEVER stop, you just see through them.

Until you don't see through the illusions, but even when you are not seeing through the illusions, you can still accept illusions as something that is happening now. There is nothing wrong with illusions, it's just an illusion, it only becomes a problem when you believe the illusion to be real.

Enlightenment is not an experience, it can seem like an experience to the mind, but it's a recognization of your true being/ true nature or an experience that reveals the Emptiness of the experiencer.

In This Moment
Right now in this moment, my view is this: We are not here to figure this life out, we are here to allow this life to naturally unfold. Living in the mystery is when life really begins. The more you try to understand the mystery of this life, the more life will lead you right back to the mystery of it. The more you seek, the more you will think you know, but the less happy you will be.

Truth
Nothing anybody can say will ever be the truth because truth is who you really are: Never-changing Always-present Awareness (not just an awareness, but an Awareness Aware of Itself). Truth can only be pointed to, I never accept what I am saying is the truth. Words can never be truth, NEVER. Truth can not be held or found because once you know the truth, the truth will dissolve you (the seemly separate individual).

However, words have there place and can be very powerful. Some words phrased in the right way when one is ready to hear them, can awaken one to their true nature. Sometimes the spaces between the words can snap one awake to their true nature. There are infinite ways awakening can happen, but don't be stuck on the ways: Truth is Unlimited.

My perception of Ultimate Reality is more limited than I thought, and Truth is more unlimited than I can imagine.

Loving Itself
Awareness Loves to recognize Itself and the enjoyment of recognizing Itself is where words form to speak about It to Itself. Moving from the Level of Peace into Enlightenment is the realization that there is joy in pointing to Itself and serving Itself through talking about Itself. Limiting Itself to an identity for a moment, just to Unlimit itself again, is also this same joy. There is a Light (so to speak) that happens in noticing Itself and re-noticing Itself again and again in every New Fresh Moment. It seems to Love the Mystery in which It is.

And Now, in this Timeless Moment, it goes on: Fresh and New. No end, No beginning, No conclusion. It just continues to Unfold and remains in the Mystery (Viewless) until It doesn't.

The Enlightened Awareness

2009-04-19T01:58:00.002-06:00

There is an old saying: "If you don't believe in something, you'll fall for anything."... I used to believe that as well.

Everyone must believe in something, right? If you are spiritual then you must believe in an afterlife. If you are an atheist then you must believe in no afterlife. If you believe in yourself then you must believe in self-confidence. If you believe in another then you must believe they will not let you down.

It's very structured and seems very logical.

However, consider for one moment: no matter what you belief in, that belief will eventually change. Perhaps not the underlining belief, but the settleness of the belief itself. For example, you may belief in God, but your belief in what God is, will likely change over time. You may have believed in a person, a job, a type of vehicle, a church, a faith, an opportunity, a get rich quick program, type of computer, a flavor, a singer, a lifestyle, a way of being, a routine, a expectation, a lover, a relationship, etc... then without notice it changes and you no longer believe in what you thought was unchangeable.

Have you experienced this?

You likely can see how beliefs change. Beliefs change because life changes, people change, you change, experiences change, circumstances change, etc... Beliefs are never constant. Life is always changing and therefore beliefs are always changing.

There seems to be a drive in all body/minds that we want to find a belief that is never-changing, always-constant, and always-present. You desire to find a belief that is persistent and can always be relayed on, but what belief is there that can offer unconditional support? At best people trade one belief for another belief in hopes that the new belief will finally be the one and only belief that will last.

What in life does last? Even this body will expire sometime. Even the body which allows you to have beliefs in the first place. If the body will even fail you, what could you possibly belief in that will be lasting?

This may seem like a catch-22. This may seem hopeless and no way around it. However, there is a solution, but many people are not ready for the solution because it goes against everything they believe.

We have all been told that belief is the most powerful thing in life. "You must believe in something!" We have all heard that the most powerful belief one can have: is the belief in self. If that is true, then why doesn't it work? How come you can belief in yourself but the the moment someone else don't believe in you, then you question yourself? Even if you love yourself, why does not everyone love you? "I love me, why don't you love me too!?"

The solution is obvious but it's the most difficult thing to hear.

What happens if you turn that old saying into: "If you believe in something, then you will fall into disappointment."? In other words, if you believe in something then you are deciding to become dependent on that belief.

The logic behind this is: if you are willing to choose to believe in something, then you are pulling yourself into an identity as who you are. Every-time you identify something as being who you are, you have to defend that belief from others who attack the belief itself. Belief + you = who you are. As an example, let's say you are confident, you believe in yourself. Confidence + you = who you are. Therefore, if someone attacks your confidence, then they are attacking you.

The problem is that we all desire security, sustainability, unbreakable, lasting: happiness. Yet that kind of happiness can only happen when you realize who you really are. Who you really are needs no belief in you. You can realize and be who you really are, only by dropping all beliefs.

Who you really are is untouched by beliefs. Who you really are can see who you are and needs no belief about you. Who you really are is above and beyond any belief. Who you really are knows exactly who you are. When you know, who needs belief?

Beliefs Verse Knowledge
Let's say you know something. You know it without a doubt. It's a strong knowingness. In fact, you know this knowledge as truth. Your conclusion to this knowledge is powerful. Your feelings to this knowledge is unmistakable.

What happens when someone questions the knowledge you know? Do you feel a sense to protect the knowledge you know? Do you desire others to know? What do you feel when someone attacks the knowledge you know? Do you try to convince them? If you know it, then why does it matter if others know or not? If you feel convinced by the knowledge you know, then why is there any conflict?

Do you see the pattern repeating itself again? The same pattern with beliefs? Knowledge + you = who you are. Therefore, if someone attacks your knowledge, then they are attacking you. Knowledge changes because life changes, people change, you change, experiences change, circumstances change, etc... Knowledge is never constant. Life is always changing and therefore knowledge is always changing.

How did you come to know what you know?

Experience? Experiences always change. You can never know anything concrete. Even concrete gets weathered over time, it changes form. Therefore all knowings and knowledge is still an underlining change.

The solution is difficult to hear, because we all must know something. Not-knowing goes against everything we know. We all lived on this Earth for many years, we have to gather some type of knowledge, right? Yet, how can we know anything, without knowing who we are first? Once you know who you really are, do you need that knowledge to add to who you really are? Once it's seen, do you even need to remember it?

Why is knowledge so important? Knowledge seems to be important because without knowledge we feel we couldn't function in this world, but who are we? Who is this you that you refer to? You don't need to remember knowledge to know who you are. However, don't take me word for it, investigate it for yourself. Who is this I? When you say "I", who is that?

Even 1+1=2 is not concrete in my experience. Even the logic of something so knowledgeable and widely accepted as numbers. Now I see that 1+1=1, all I see is oneness everywhere and it has nothing to do with belief, knowledge, remembering, or logic. It was only seen once I dropped everything I thought I knew.

The Challenge
It was once common knowledge that the world was flat. It was once common knowledge that anyone who had intuition was a witch. It was once common knowledge that the sun rotated around the Earth.

Now I challenge you to question the common knowledge of who you are. This is the only way to find happiness, peace, bliss, everlasting constant unshakable freedom. Who you really are is untouched by anything of this world, inside yourself or outside yourself.

That sounds strange huh? Everything of this world 'even inside your own self' is untouched. People say go within yourself and you will find everything within. Within yourself. Where is that? Where is within yourself? Who is this 'yourself'? Is there a within that can be found in this self?

Within
People say 'within' as a pointer, but it's a concept that got over used and now people say it without questioning it. "Oh, within, yes you're right!" Question it: within where? Within this person? Within who you are? Who are you? Who is this you that you're looking for within? Within means nothing without knowing who you are first.

Body
Within with body? Is that who you are? Are you this body? Body + you = who you are? What happens when someone attacks your body? What if someone calls your body a name? "You're fat!"... that can hurt if you identify with your body as who you are. If someone calls your outward body fat, then you begin to feel fat within. What can you find within when you identify without? Now you must change the outward to feel good inward. That must not be who you are if you can be so easily hurt.

Who is looking out those eyes? Most people think they are this little person inside the head that sees out the eyes. Can this person be found? What are the eyes connected to? The eyes are stimulus in response to the brain. Are you the brain? The brain is stimulus in response, there is nobody in the brain. Who is this observing through the eyes? You are obviously aware, but who is aware of all this? Who is there?

Soul
Some people say: "The eyes are the window to the soul." That is another pointer that has been overused. Without knowing who you are, how can you know a soul? You can say you are a soul, but we are right back to the same questioning: who is this soul? How is this soul aware? Where is this awareness coming from? Who is aware of this awareness?

Thoughts
If you are trying to answer these questions, you may have many thoughts running through your awareness. None of those thoughts will have the answers. To answer these questions you don't need imagination. Don't imagine. Don't refer to your past knowledge, your experience, your thoughts, your beliefs, your assumptions. The answer has no logical mental answer. The answer is above and beyond any ideas, concepts, or thoughts.

A Hint
Here is a hint: the answer is quite empty. Even thoughts arise out of this emptiness and disappear into the emptiness in which they came.

Looking for Yourself
You are not seeing out those eyes. There is awareness being aware of vision. There is an awareness and that is obvious, but what is aware of being aware? When I look, I find nobody being aware, yet awareness is happening. Do you sense the same-thing? Is that true in your experience?

What is being aware? I have no idea and that is the mystery of life. Welcome to life, where nobody knows what this is. Literally nobody because there is nobody aware, awareness is just happening.

Experimenting With Awareness
You may feel the body having sensations and you can say you're aware of that, but you are not being aware of that, awareness is just being aware. Awareness being aware of the body. However, can you say that the awareness begins and ends in the body? You are aware of the body in your awareness, correct? You see the body and are aware of it, therefore the body is inside your awareness.

Most people assume that awareness is limited to the body, but how could that be if the body is inside your awareness? People assume that if the body dies, awareness will die, yet if awareness is aware of the body inside awareness then how do you know for sure that awareness is limited to the body?

Expanding Awareness
It's the believe that the body causes awareness that gives rise to the perspective that awareness is limited. That belief alone will limit awareness in your experience and that is a major block as to why awareness is not aware of itself as what it is.

In other words, your belief is stopping you from being aware of who you are. Who you are is this awareness but that awareness can be expanded beyond the body when that belief is dropped. That is not the only belief causing awareness to limit itself from expanding to enlightenment, it's all beliefs. Beliefs limit experience of this awareness.

What is Awareness?
Awareness is unlimited, but it has the ability to limit itself by fixating itself onto an object in its awareness. These objects are everything within awareness: thoughts, emotions, body, ideas, beliefs, concepts, assumptions, etc... The number of objects that awareness can focus on are unlimited because awareness is aware of everything it observes in reality.

What Other People?
If you are following this article, then you can begin to see that there is nobody being aware, awareness is just happening. When you look and find that nothing is there except awareness, then you start to see that nobody or no-people are anywhere.

In other words, if you can see for yourself that you have no idea what or who is aware, awareness is just happening, then you realize that there is nobody (or no-who) being aware in any other body/mind. Awareness is just happening and within other body/minds awareness is just happening.

The conclusion is that at its essence, this awareness is the same awareness. Fully aware in this body/mind and fully aware in any other body/mind orgasm. The only reason this awareness seems different in others, is because they (and/or you) are fixated on different objects within that awareness (thoughts, emotions, body, ideas, beliefs, concepts, assumptions, etc...).

Now, I am only assuming that the other body/minds in my awareness are aware, that can't be known for sure if they are aware, but the conclusion is still the same: there is only one awareness here. One awareness that is being aware within other body/minds or not, it's still one awareness.

The Enlightened Awareness
When one can take an innocent look at life and realize that this is a mystery that can not be solved, then awareness seems to open up into realizing itself as everything within awareness. This is what people call enlightenment. Awareness then begins to stop fixating on objects within awareness and observes everything lightly. The awareness becomes aware of all objects within awareness and is aware that it is all the objects within awareness as well, therefore is sees there is no point to cling onto any part of itself as if it's limited to only that object.

When you say "I am a father (mother).", you realize that might be true, yet it's not fully who you are because who you are is just aware, aware of being a father (mother). When awareness gets fixated on the object/identity of "I am a father (mother)." then it limits itself to being aware of itself as more. Obviously "I am a father (mother)" is not completely true because if you take that away from your awareness, the awareness is still there.

The awareness is always there and it is aware of everything in its awareness, so how can awareness be completely one thing or another? Awareness is just aware. I am that I am.

This is really such a simple and obvious awareness, that even to say anything about it makes it 100% complicated. Even the saying as short and sweet as: "Be present", those two words alone are as direct as you can point to this awareness, but its complex just be saying that because awareness is an non-conceptual understanding and it's always present.

Basically don't be fixated onto the concept "I am _________ (fill in the blank)". Usually thoughts fill in the blank. Thoughts are fine and there is nothing to them, they are just part of awareness. They have no meaning, any more or less than anything else. Yet, when awareness believes the thoughts it's being aware of, then thoughts become fixated as something of value and awareness limits itself.

It's no wonder why there seems to be a drive in all body/minds that we want to find a belief that is never-changing, always-constant, and always-present because the only belief that can be found with such qualities is who we really are. Yet, it's not a belief, it's not even a knowing; it's awareness being aware of itself.

The Secret of All Life Revealed!

2009-04-10T00:11:00.002-06:00

Through the recent articles (all recent articles categorized under the label: enlightenment) what I have been pointing to is this ever-present never-changing awareness. This is who you are, unaffected by observing the images/appearances of life. In this article I am going to point to how this awareness is ever-present, how this awareness is unaffected by observing everything in life, what the mind does, what life is, what death is, how fear is self created, what the purpose of life is, if goals matter, why there is no growth, and more.

In order to point to this awareness, I am going to a metaphor that closely relates to how this awareness perceives life.

The Movie Screen Metaphor
This awareness is stuck, it has nowhere to go and nothing to do. It's comparable to watching a movie screen. All of life is this playing movie on the screen of awareness. To the awareness the whole of life is the totality of the movie screen.

For example, when you walk, to the awareness you are not walking at all. To awareness, when you so called: walk, all that is happening is the images/appearances on the screen are changing. Nothing else is happening except the images/appearances changing. In other words, when you see your legs moving, you are not walking, you're just noticing the screen of the movie. When you're watching a movie, you're not going anywhere, the movie screen is just changing the view that you see. If you were to take your finger and feel the screen, it would be flat, just like a picture on the computer screen.

All senses even feeling are like this to the awareness. When you feel your leg touch the ground (while the other leg is in the air not feeling the ground yet), to awareness all that is happening is the feeling of the screen is changing it's image/appearance of the feeling sense.

To better understand this, take your finger and place it between two keys on your keyboard. Do you notice the space between the keys because the solidness of the two keys between the finger? Or do you notice the space between the two keys on the keyboard because the space is there? In other words, is it the space that gives rise to the feeling of the keys, or is it the keys that give rise to the space? There is no way to distinguish between the two because there is only one awareness being aware of it. To awareness when you feel something, all that is happening is the feeling of the screen is changing. The awareness does not change, the screen changes. To awareness it does not matter if something is felt or not because either way awareness is still there. The awareness does not change, the screen that awareness is viewing changes. Rather the view of the movie is changing through seeing or feeling, the screen is still just a screen.

If you comprehend this correctly then you realize that it doesn't matter what you do or where you go in life because life is still the same movie screen. There is no way to escape or change awareness, awareness is stuck in the theater watching the movie screen. This is why all is life is one thing because it's all the movie screen. The body you see is part of that movie screen, the people you see are part of that movie screen, everything you can observe is the movie screen. When you move your head, the head is not moving, the images/appearances are moving on the movie screen.

To awareness (which is who you really are) there is no such thing as spiritual truth because it's all on the screen. People spend most their lives seeking truth, thinking they are getting somewhere, but they are not moving, they are not going anywhere and every truth they find is just part of the image/appearance on the movie screen. There is no image/appearance on the movie screen that can be truth because the truth of who you are is the viewer of the images/appearances on the movie screen.

The Keyboard Example
That awareness is aware of both the keyboard keys and the space between the keys simultaneously because both are the same-thing (on the movie screen), they both are the same-thing because there is only one thing being aware, your awareness doesn't separate the difference between these two things by observing it. The mind separates things by thinking that it is observing something different and this is what causes suffering.

The Mind Separates the Movie
You don't go to watch movie that has nothing but joy in it, you like to watching the conflict/sorrow because you know that it's temporary and makes the joy parts much more fun to watch. You like sitting there watching the movie, because you do it out of entertainment value. You accept whatever images arise on the screen because you know you're unaffected by it.

The problem here is that people have forgotten that they are only watching a movie and at best they think they are watching a series of movies, so they divide the movie into segments. When one 'segment' of the movie 'ends' (pain), they rate the movie. Yet that was not the end of the movie, you can't rate a movie until you watched the whole thing. That pain was leading up to some joy but they missed the joy all together because they focused on the pain. All pains will eventually lead to joy because the movie is always changing.

The suffering starts when you start trying to change the movie. When you stop trying to change it then pain is allowed and when pain is allowed, then it's moved through quite quickly and now the joy can come faster.

People experience more pain then joy because they hold onto that 'segment' of the movie: they keep talking about it, they keep remembering it, they keep bringing it back up, they keep showing to others, they keep replaying it over and over again. That part of the movie was not meant to be played over and over again, let the movie keep playing.

Just enjoy the movie: it could be a horror, a comedy, a drama, a inspirational film, etc... but whatever is playing, enjoy it by knowing that it can't be changed by you. Learn to enjoy all the varieties of movies, you can't have an inspirational movie playing all the time, eventually that would cause boredom, that is why you can't have joy without sorrow.

This Life (Movie) is Only Possible Thanks to Opposites Appearing
This movie would not be playing at all if it were not for the opposites of everything being there.

If everything was empty-space, then there would be no forms to experience the empty-space. And likewise, if everything was solid-form then there would be no empty-space for the form to be aware of itself as something. Take away one and the other could no exist, therefore neither is independently there on its own. Take away all the solid-forms and nothing would exist. Take away all the empty-space and the solid-forms could not exist. They need each other to be anything. Everything/nothing complimenting each other. Take away one and the other is not there.

In other words, if everything was only joy, then no joy could appear on the movie screen. The concept of joy wouldn't even be fathomable. It's through the appearance of sorrow on the screen of awareness that allows the appearance of joy to exist.

Life is the Only Thing Existing, Everything Else is Appearance
The only thing that doesn't have an opposite is life (life is the awareness of who you are). People assume that the opposite to life: is death, but really the opposite to death is birth. Nobody knows what this present moment right now means. If one could take all the ideas, concepts, beliefs, and all the assumptions they have about life and discard them, they would see that life (this movie screen) right now holds everything.

In other words, this life (this movie screen) can not be understood, it's a mystery that can't be solved. The mind likes to solve things, understand things, and see meaning/purpose. It sees meaning through labels: "This is a computer screen" now it has a label, a meaning to it. This thing you're seemingly looking at is not a computer screen (or piece of paper, if you decide to print this off), it's an appearance on the movie screen of awareness.

The mind can intellectually understand what I am pointing to, but understanding it and having a direct experience of it is vastly different. People who point to enlightenment/awakening/ascension/nonduality/liberation/nirvana/advaita, etc.. , they are living in a world of paradox, everything that has an opposite to anything else is one thing (one movie screen) and because everything has an opposite, either or choice becomes irrelevant. They cancel each other out.

When you really realize this, you will not care what happens on the movie screen because you will see that you don't have control over how the movie plays itself out. The whole movie of images/appearances will become irrelevant because once you try to change the movie, you will cause the movie image/appearance of suffering to take place.

Death
When you realize this, you will see that this awareness of who you are is there even if there are no images/appearances arising. This awareness is infinitely boundless. Beyond this awareness where there are no images/appearances of anything arising on the screen, you will be unaware and aware at the same-time because this is the place you came from, it's above and beyond any logic or understanding: it's pure unmanifestation. Everyone has awareness, but in the larger sense, this awareness is one awareness.

In other words, 'everyone' seeing different images/appearances on their movie screen is the same one awareness that derived from this same one unmanifestation. There is only one of us here viewing the images/appearances from another perspective of itself (another seemly location in the seemly world of the same one movie screen). This unmanifestation is the all of everything, it is the everything/nothing that allows the one awareness to be aware of seemly individual movie screens, yet it's the same movie screen appearing. Therefore, the awareness being aware of the images/appearances from its own perspective, is a limited perspective but only limited by that perspective. The perspective doesn't limit the awareness because the one awareness is the whole of everything viewing the one screen. The one unmanifestation and the one awareness are the same one thing.

You can intuitively sense this through the awareness that is aware of all the images/appearances. The direct experience of this intuitive knowingness is found by realizing yourself as this awareness and as the awareness of images/appearance on the movie screen of awareness.

Therefore, upon so called death, all that is happening is that the movie screen of appearances/images changes to viewing the unmanfestation. The awareness is who you are and that awareness can not do anything except be what it is, when there is no movie screen being viewed, then unmanfestation will be viewed.

No fear
There is nothing to fear what-so-ever on the movie screen because it's just a screen. Even the fear of death is ridiculous, but 'instincts' will arise on the screen of awareness in order to keep the movie screen playing. Other than that, there are no other fears that arise when this is seen.

Purpose
I can't see any purpose to any of this from here, other then experiencing oneness as oneness itself. In the unmanifested/awareness that oneness can not be experienced as something because it's known as everything/nothing as it is. Experience can only happen on the movie screen and from the images/appearances on the screen changing. Having said that, I can't say it's purposeless, it just doesn't seem to matter to form a conclusion of purpose or purposeless.

However, the more I experience this movie screen from sitting in the seat perspective of knowing myself as awareness, there seems to be a purpose that is provided through having fun with the images/appearances.

In other words, it's like having a lucid dream (being aware that you are asleep in your bed having a dream) and when a lucid dream happens you can do almost anything. I like trying to fly in my lucid dreams because I realize it as a dream and I know even if I fall from the air, the pain is not real. It's much like a lucid dream, there seems to be aspects that can be shifted.

Goals
Now realizing it's just a movie screen in which you have no control, doesn't mean that goals don't arise (life goes on much the same, what arises on the image/appearance screen still arise). Goals can be quite rewarding in the image/appearance, but don't be disappointed if the goal doesn't appear the way you imagined. When the image/appearance of desire arise on the movie screen of awareness: have fun planning to accomplish that new appearance (hence goal), have fun working towards creating that appearance, have fun with all the appearances you have now while you work toward that new appearance. Life can be fun when you realize it's all appearances. The whole point seems to be saying 'enjoy this life while it's here'.

Growth
Everything covered in this article is pointing to you as infinite awareness and since awareness is the whole of everything, you are already complete, perfect, infinite, full. There is nothing to add to you here on this movie screen.

Therefore, don't get lost in the concept that any goal is going to add to you or cause you to grow in anyway. There is nothing to learn, nobody to grow, nobody is growing, nothing that you can experience will add to yourself. You do not grow through life experiences (How can you grow through an image/appearance?).

You are not here to remember anything, in fact forget everything you know and you will see the truth of you as described here. As conscious as you are of this life (movie screen), consciousness does not grow because the awareness behind consciousness is you and that awareness is the one of everything.

Unmanifestation Verse Manifestation
This life is awareness being manifested as images/appears on the movie screen (life is the movie screen). This life is fun when it's seen as that because the unmanifestation is seen as well.

In the unmanifestation, there is oneness, just like the manifestation. The only difference is that awareness is viewing the oneness of the one movie screen, rather then viewing oneness as everything/nothing or uneverything/unnothing. When there is nothing to view, no images/appearances, then nothing/everything is happening as unnothing/uneverything. As you can imagine, that is a very unlive/living place to reside, you are always residing there but when it's unknown that you are still there because the movie screen is distracting you, then you can now play. Can you see how life is a gift to yourself for yourself to experience yourself as seemly separate parts of yourself?

Life's Secret
The secret of life is that there are no secrets, everything in this article was starring you in the face the whole time. None of the explanations in this article were ever kept hidden from you. How can oneness hide from itself? Everything that seemed hidden was only an illusion. Illusions are not real so how can illusions hide the truth of you. Illusions are only possible if you buy into the illusion being real and that was the whole point. How could oneness experience itself as oneness without this movie screen?

Any Questions?
Not like I have all the answers, in fact I know nothing, which is where the explanations in this article derived from. Anyone coming from a place of not knowing anything and innocently looking at what is appearing, would arrive to the same conclusions in this article because the truth of your being can not hide in the illusions forever.

Life As it is, Rather Than How it's Believed to Be

2009-04-06T05:11:00.001-06:00

Due to the overwhelming response to my inbox from the last post, it seems that the major of people feel resonance to the recent changes in content. In this article I am going to attempt to answer most of the questions by bringing it all together.

Life
There can be many ways to describe THIS, some terms are: enlightenment, non-duality, liberation, awakening, no-self, ascension, etc. However, for the sake of the content in this article let's just call it life.

That is all those terms are pointing to, a invitation to see life as it is, rather than how it's believed to be. This is about dropping all assumptions and belief systems about what life is and just seeing for yourself without those ideas clouding the experience of life itself.

Innocence
We were all programmed to believe something about life before we even got a chance to experience life in its innocence. All of life is innocent and we are no exception. You can literally program a child to believe anything, even without being aware doing so since you yourself were programmed as a child by everyone in your surrounding environment. The brain is a very powerful thing, yet it is innocent too. The brain has no measuring device on how to tell the truth from falsehood. Yet every brain honestly and completely feels that it has the truth, since that is the program being ran. The brain is like a computer that can upload any program. This invitation is about formatting (removing) all the uploaded programs and restoring the computer to new.

The Core Root
In the core essence of every program, there is a similar essential root. The root is believing that concepts are things. In other words, when you look at something, the seeing of that something is a concept. For example, have a look at your hand. If you didn't know that was a hand, then what would it be? Without the assumption of the label: hand, you really have no idea what that thing is. It just is what it is and you are aware of it. Everything is just what it is and you are aware of it.

Isness
Now let's take this a step further, without any labels, concepts, ideas, or assumptions then really everything is one thing.

How so?

Well, the only thing separating your hand from your computer screen is empty-space, yet if that empty-space is not labeled, then it's not separate because it is part of this isness too. Empty-space is the only thing separating one thing from another thing and empty-space is just another thing called: nothing. However if you didn't know to call that: nothing and other things: something, then it all becomes:
thingness
or
one thing
or
nothing
or
everything.

Awareness
Now you may understand that on an intellect level just sitting there looking around and noticing how it's all connected this way, but when you start walking around then the intellect will still assume that it is the body because this body seems to follow your awareness around. However, the body is in this awareness too, just like the empty-space is connecting your hand to the computer screen, the empty-space is also connecting your body to everything else.

In other words, you are aware of this body, not the body is aware of you. People assume that it's the body that gives rise to the awareness of the body, yet how could a body do that when the body is connected to everything else? We already established that everything is connected through no labeling the 'empty-space'.

All assumptions aside, the only thing that anybody truly knows about life, is that there is an awareness happening and that awareness is the source of everything. An awareness of the senses, emotions, and thoughts are happening within this awareness.

Thoughts
Since concepts are not things, then every thought you have is not true because every thought is formed out of words/labels. Thoughts/words/labels are good to communicate but why do you have to explain thoughts-out into words when thinking to yourself? Of course you know what you're seeing/experiencing, so why do we talk to ourselves in word/sentence format? Do you have to form words in your head to know what you mean to communicate to yourself?

It's obvious that thoughts are irrelevant and happen without the cause of you. If you were the cause of thoughts, then you would be able to stop communicating in word for word format when thinking to yourself because that is obvious useless since words are only needed when communicating with someone else.

Thoughts are that way and there is no wrong with it but just notice for yourself what is happening. If you didn't have the label of: thoughts, then you would see them for what they are. It's something chatting in the mind, just utterances, just noises, just voiceless sounds. Nothing special going on there.

Intellectually Verse Intuitively
If you intellectually can comprehend the content in this article, then you now are able to understand the innocence of life. Life is just this isness and this is exactly what enlightenment, non-duality, liberation, awakening, no-self, ascension, etc is pointing to. Just be this awareness and observe for yourself the content of this article, the more you can sit and perceive life in this untouched/unlabeled manner, the more this will dawn on you. That's all it takes.

In other words, keep this pure innocent in your consciousness as often and as long as it takes (be the awareness, realize what thoughts are), then something will open-up. This opening-up will be the intuitive knowing of this. At first this might seem strange and you will feel different somehow (nothing is really changing except your true nature is coming more to the surface).

Strange Feeling Fading
You may notice that this strange feeling does not last and the mind/thoughts will come in and think that what was seen is not there anymore (at least in my experience). However that strange feeling doesn't have to last for you to know what opened-up, it only feels strange at first because every first thing does.

As I explained in How 'Awakening' to 'Enlightenment' Happens: After 'awakening' it's common that it seems to not last (but that is only you attaching to thoughts as something of value again) or feeling as if you're not sensing the same experience as before. The whole point is to be realized. After that 'realized-state' happens and settles, everything will seem the same, the only difference now is that you have an understanding of what this is. It's just life without labeling through thoughts. The mind feels it has lost something because it feels that it can grasp this or hold it for itself. That is the mind trying to put this unlabeling into a new label (since that is the nature of mind/thoughts).

Just remember, there is nothing to get. This is just a very simple/innocent looking at life and through this looking, life becomes what it is already, what is always has been, and what it always will be.

Truth for Nothing Else But Truth Itself

2009-04-04T04:35:00.008-06:00

If you been following this site for a while, you can see that the content of this site changed. The content changed due to my recent experience of life. I been pondering on how to proceed from here and I realized that the content does not have to change.

When this change first happened, I was not sure how to function in the world anymore. I was not sure if I would even continue with this site.

When you experience everything as one thing and you can see the perfection in that one thing as all things in existence, then you see that there is nothing to do, nowhere to go, no progress or process to achieve anything. It has an extreme impact on the way you see others, the world, and yourself. In fact, such a tremendous impact that I saw everything I did (including designing this site and writing articles) or have ever done as meaningless compared to the perfection of it all.

I am not saying that this website has not been helpful to individual people or even the collective of humanity that reads it, I am saying that it's not what you do that matters, it's the level of consciousness (all consciousnesses are on the same playing field level, but for content sake I am going to use that term) in which you reside that gives birth to helping without action. In other words, since everything is consciousness, every individual that reaches 'higher consciousnesses' (again, higher does not mean better) automatically helps individual people and the collective of humanity without even taking any action.

The paradox about the statements made in the above paragraph is that if people didn't take action, then the question arises:

How do others reach 'higher states of consciousnesses' without the guidance of these people in 'higher consciousnesses' taking action?

The problem with this question is that is comes from the mind that is based on connecting events in a linear way. The mind thinks things happen due to causes being the source everything that happens. Actually everything that happens, does so on its own accord, without cause.

For example, most people think that they are their own thoughts. If you are your own thoughts then command your thoughts to stop. There is no way you can stop your thoughts based on your own commend because you are not your thoughts, thoughts happen on their own, quite spontaneously and you are not the cause of them. If you were the cause of your thoughts then you would be-able to stop them at will.

There are techniques you can use to stop thoughts like through a variety of meditations, because you are unraveling yourself from the layers:
Layer One: The consciousness of thoughts (the consciousness that gives you the ability to observe thoughts).
Layer Two: The awareness in which holds consciousness (the awareness which allows the consciousness of thoughts).
Layer Three: The unmanifested in which holds the awareness (the unmanifested which allows you as awareness to be) The unmanifested is unaware and aware simultaneously because it's above and beyond both (this is your truest nature).

In short, the unmanifested holds everything in it (the collective consciousness of everything in the universe) and in this place of who you are, thoughts are not perceived because in this place thoughts are not yet formed. Only the container of consciousness allows thoughts to be formed.

Through my research in most meditation techniques layer two is typical (no consciousness of thoughts) and layer three (no awareness in which awareness can arise or no awareness witnessing to be conscious of forming thoughts: pure unmanifestation) comes with years (if not decades) of practice.

However, when one reaches a certain level of consciousness, what I described above becomes obvious (yet difficult to put into words, this is just a map I am using to define the content) and at this point the ability to stop thoughts can be done even without going into meditation because you can see where the thoughts arise from.

I should mention that I have a very limited amount of experience with meditation, I speak about this through my experience of 'higher consciousnesses' and not my experience of meditation. In other words, through these 'higher consciousnesses' you intuitive recognize meditation, since you actually rise to the point where meditation was invented. The discovery of meditation as a technique was introduced and created as a form to teach others how to reach such 'higher consciousnesses'.

Which brings us back to the original question:

If meditation was never introduced as a technique then how are others able to be guided to 'higher consciousnesses'?

The point I am trying to make is that meditation and all other techniques, were not introduced as a cause, but as the consequence. Ideas, inventions, and creations happen on there own accord, due to the potentialities of the infinite consciousness as a whole. In other words, consciousness is infinite and through that infinite potential everything happens, nothing or nobody is the cause of it happening except the infinite consciousness of the unmanifested. All the power contains in the unmanifested, not in an individual or even the collective of humanity. The unmanifested of consciousness goes beyond just the collective of humanity consciousnesses.

Perfect Tasted Through Direct Experience
When this is seen as an experience, you see that everything that has ever happened was never in your control and never has been. None of this life was ever in anybody's control. Everything that has happened and ever will happen, is based on the design of the infinite consciousness through the unmanfested and that design is perfect. I did write an article about the perfection of the universe two years ago, but it was only a deep belief that was felt, never experienced. When it's experienced, it stops you dead in your tracks at the magnificence and gentleness of it as a whole.

You literally feel the sense to do nothing and therefore you don't know how to function in the world. All your personal desires vanish, all your goals, all your passion, all your achievement to get anywhere. All you can do is sit in the wonder of it and soak up the perfection of it all and the freedom in being free from it all. At this point everything you ever thought you knew becomes irrelevant and it's like starting fresh and that is exactly what I had to do which lead to the content shift. However, for the highest purpose of all, I am reevaluating that approach.

The New Approach
The first article I wrote while being in this 'higher consciousness' was written from the point of view of this unmanifested (I also termed this no-self or enlightenment and before I experienced those terms, I used universal knowledge).

After that, I continued to write articles that reflect the truth of the 'higher consciousnesses' only. However, I realize that the experience of those truths are fairly uncommon and therefore do not resonate with others.

Consequentially, I am going to shift back into writing based on all the levels of consciousnesses through the unmanifested and bring everyone together on the same page. In this way, we can work together to benefit the whole of humanity.

On that note if you have a topic or question please make a comment, submit it in the inquiry section, or you can contact me here.

After all, this whole site is about the truth only for truth itself and truth comes in many different size, shapes, experiences, perceptions, beliefs, and it also goes beyond all that into a domain that is unspeakable. Yet, together we can attempt to speak of it and have fun with it. :)

The Mind uses 10% Ability. How to Access the Other 90% of the Brains Potential

2009-03-27T07:34:00.010-06:00

When doing dishes do you think "I am going to take this dish and put it in this sink of water.", "Now I am going to take another dish and put it in the sink of water.", "This sink is full of dishes, now I am going to pick up a dish and take this clothe to clean the food off this dish."?

Of course not, that would be a very slow process in everything you do. You would have to wait for a thought to happen in order to do anything. You would be waiting to finish a thought before you took any action. You would be like a robot that doesn't do anything without the instructions of a thought. You would spend the majority of your life waiting for a thought to happen.

This is a very overexaggerated point, but it's similar to how humans operate through the mind comparable to the maximum potential that humans have. The mind is part of the brain was developed shortly after language was discovered (brain and mind are just concepts I am using, in order to simplify the context in this article). The mind has a four fold process to it:

1. It's first job is to separate everything it observes in reality.
2. Through separating everything, it now recognizes similarities and differences in everything that it separates (hence everything in reality you can observe).
3. By recognizing the similarities and differences between everything, it now puts a label on everything.
4. Now that everything has a label, the mind can use language easily. Hence thoughts can be formed through the structure of words and sentences.

For example, there are many different chairs in this world. There are all kinds of chairs, all different sizes, all different shapes, all different structures, all different patterns, all different designs. Yet, every chair has similar qualities to them. Hence the mind knows what a chair is through these similarities and now all chairs have the label of being a chair. With this label/word, the mind can use it in a sentence to form a thought and express that thought to others.

The Mind Slows Everything Down
This is a wonderful discovery and the mind is very useful in processing everything in this manner. However, throughout the years of constantly doing this, the mind has formed a pattern that is quite destructive and slows down the process in making spontaneous choices. The brain makes it's choices quite naturally and spontaneously, but the mind overlooks these spontaneous choices and thinks itself to be the brain. The mind sees itself to be the thinker of all choices that happen. Today people relate to the mind of thought as if the thoughts are who they are.

The Mind Development of the Fifth Process
The mind only had a four fold process to it, but over time it developed a fifth process that is very destructive. The mind developed what I am terming a 'repatterned memory'. I am not referring of memory that comes from the brain storing data. I am referring to memory here as a repeating thought pattern.

For example, if you take a rechargeable battery and you don't let the stored energy of that battery fully die before recharging it again (repeating this process again and again), eventually it will develop a memory and the maximum full range of that battery can no longer be used because it can't fully charge. This is known as memory effect, it restricts the battery from recharging to its maximum potential. In other words, if you only use 10% of the battery power then recharge it again and repeat this process many times, eventually you will be able to access only 10% of that battery powers potential. Once this memory takes place, even if you start draining the battery energy completely before recharging it, the developed memory will still takeover.

The Destructive Pattern that the Mind Developed
Who you are is not the mind or the thoughts that the mind has, but this is how we were all taught. Due to this teaching, our focus is on the mind (the thoughts). With most of our focus on the mind, that has become a dominant factor in our lives. What you focus on grows and develops, through this focus is how the development happened.

The mind developed a 'repatterned memory' and started recognizing patterns. In other words, instead of the mind only recognizing the similarities and differences in what it observes, it started to recognize the patterns in the similarities and differences of those observed things.

Why is this a problem?

The problem is that the patterns that are recognized, are based on the past. For example, before this 'repatterned memory' took place, the mind would see a chair and label it a chair, but now it's taking that label and relating it to every chair it ever seen through it's past observations. In other words, it started taking the job of the brain. The brains job is to store the data that the mind gives it and use that data for it's spontaneous choices. The minds job is only to see the similarities and differences in things and pass that data to the brain.

The Brain Verse the Mind
This a very dangerous position for the mind to be in because it thinks it can predict what will happen by recognizing these patterns from the past (again this is the brains job, it does this automatically and spontaneously without a thought about it).

The mind relates everything it observers in your present reality as a link to the past in someway or another. For example, the computer screen you are looking at to read these words, the mind remembers through 'repatterned memory': when you bought the screen, where you bought the screen, why you bought the screen, etc... and it is likely that once you observe it, the mind will form thoughts about it.

However, the brain doesn't have a thought about the computer screen because the memory that the brain stores is only used for purpose. In other words, the brain has no reason to use math skills unless a math problem presents itself in the moment. The mind will form thoughts about everything it observes because the 'repatterned memory' of the mind is looking for a purpose in all the things it observers.

The mind started doing this through our focus out of a survival technique to avoid pain based on the labels. For example, when you hear the word love, the mind will take the label of love and recall all the experiences from your past that relate to the label of love. Now it has a reference-point of the past, based on the label of love and it decides if that label is threatening or not. If the label is a threat, the mind will take a position to it and identify it as being painful.

However, the brain doesn't take a position to anything, it doesn't identify anything as being a threat because the brain stores data in a way that allows it to naturally avoid pain without recalling the past or having a thought about the past. The brain is completely present at all times to make sure that the result of pain is automatically avoided. If the brain was not present and lived in the past like the mind, then the brain would have a very difficult time living life in a natural manner. You would be the robot mentioned at the beginning of this article.

The problem is that the mind sees everything as a potential threat. For example, if you have ever had a computer screen short-out on you, the mind will see all computer screens as faulty, especial the label that was given to that specific screen (Hewlett Packard, Dell, Acer, etc.. whatever the label happened to be). Like-wise, if you have been in a car accident in your life, the mind will make a threat out of every label called a car, especially the position you were in at the moment of impact. In some cases, if you were the driver, you might stop driving completely. Every-time you put yourself in the drivers seat position, the mind will have thoughts of fear "Danger, danger... remember what happened last time?". The mind does that continuously throughout your waking existence and with everything it observes.

However, the brain gathers unfathomable amounts of data in such a way that it automatically knows exactly what to do in a very accurate and precise manner within any given experience. In fact, chances are that you were in that car accident because the mind of thoughts were distracting you (or the other driver) from being completely present with driving. If the driver was completely present, the brain would have fired-up all that unfathomable data before the accident occurred (also known as intuition).

The Mind Causes History to Repeat Itself
Since the mind is continuously and constantly living in the past, the mind is what keeps people in the past and keeps people connected to the past. The mind brings the past into the now and causes people to relive the past over and over again.

Right now this present moment has nothing to do with the past. The past is not alive until the mind brings it about. This is why it's said that history repeats itself. History doesn't naturally repeat itself. History is repeated by bringing old patterns of the past into the present moment. The mind patterns are a repeating pattern of the past. The past is not alive except in the routine of the mind 'repatterned memory' caused by comparing the past with the now. This is the mind trying to see a patten in order to avoid pain.

The mind is always aligning itself to past events and making a bridge to connect the past to the present. In this way, nothing is ever going to seem new to the mind. Life seems like an old routine to the mind.

The only thing that happens which the mind relates to NEW, is when it experiences something that it has no experience of in the past. For example, like having a new job, where you have to learn new skills. Yet even this is never fully a new experience to the mind because there are always things around in the environment that the mind labels and relates to the past.

However, nothing is ever routine and it's always new and fresh when the brain is allowed to be completely present (without the mind), where intuition resides and arises. In this way, the past becomes dead and stays in the past. The mind doesn't like this because the mind feels that it's there to help avoid old past pains. Yet, the mind is the very tool that is causing the pains in the first place. Using the example above, the mind tells you not to drive that car, but it was the mind that caused the car accident in the first place.

Of course the brain does routine things and sees patterns in life through the unfathomable data it gathers, but it does this automatically without referring you to a thought about it. Hence your experience is new and fresh in every moment, life stops operating in patterns for you. There is no need for you (the mind) to see the patterns when you realize the brain does this in perfect, precise, and accurate manner without you.

The Mind Created Past & Future
The mind made a connection to the past and sees that the past repeats itself, yet the mind is the only thing causing the past to repeat itself by bring the past into this present moment. It's amazing because a pattern that the mind sees of the past (which is all it knows) brings all ideas of the future too. The mind determined that life keeps going from past to past in a line (past keeps moving) and repeats in that way. It keeps seeing the past moving in a line and this moving from past to past in a line is a pattern it labeled future. Since the mind sees everything as a potential threat, it's ideas of the future are potential threats too. This brings about thoughts of fear to a future event, by recognizing patterns of the past as always moving.

Using the car example above, the mind gave you the thought "Danger, danger... remember what happened last time?". It's comparing the past to the future. It thinks the past will happen again in the future. This is a very logical understanding to the mind. To the mind, the future is going to be relatable to the past and the now is always relatable to the past in someway. Based on this 'logic' is how the mind makes its decisions.

The Brain Decisions Verse the Mind Decisions
For the brain, everything is the product of automatically deciding. It's exactly how experiences of intuition arise. Do you remember a time when you had an intuition experience? There are different levels of intuition, but I would describe them all as an instant knowing or deciding.

There was no thinking or guessing what to say or do, you just knew exactly within that moment what the best possible choice was within that given situation or perhaps you instinctively knew who was calling before you answered the phone.

Alternatively, you could have made a choice without consciously being aware of why you made that choice. For example, you been planning to go to that party all week and all of sudden for no reason known to you, you decide not to go. Later you find out that the ceiling of the house that the party was at collapsed, injuring or taking the life of nearly everyone there.

Usually people experience intuition in a time where their life is threatened and they must make a quick choice to do something in order to survive. For most people, these are incredible and unbelievable things that happen.

Intuition is always there and ready at all times with infinite capabilities. It is very natural to be in a state of full awareness by being completely present.

The mind is a tool. For many people they mistakenly use intuition (the brain) as the tool and identify the mind as who they are.
The mind is a slow decision making process, but intuition is a decision making process as well, yet it is not limited like the mind. The brain has infinite potential, but when filtered through the mind then the brain becomes limited by the minds limit. The mind only allows minimum processing of information in each moment.

Try This Exercise
Hold a memory in your mind. At this time without losing that memory, hold a completely different memory next to it. Now keep holding more and more memories in your mind at the same-time until you cannot manage to hold anymore different memories within your focus.

For most people even holding two different memories at the same-time makes it difficult, let alone continuing the exercise.

Intuition (the brain) on the other hand has access to every memory ever stored simultaneously in every instant. Not only is the process immediate, but also every decision is accurate, precise and exact because of the unfathomable data available.

Intuition only seems to happen when ones life is in danger and the mind doesn't have time to respond. This happens quite naturally and automatically when your life is danger and there is no time for the mind to link itself to a past event about something. In fact the intuition seems to know all the past without ever linking itself there. It sees patterns from the past and connects it to the now without a thought about it. When intuition happens, you can observe that you didn't have to think about it, it just happened. That's because intuition is doing the thinking WITHOUT YOU. In these moments you only observe these events happening.

Afterward when the mind comes back in, you might feel fear "What if this happened...", "I could have died!", that's the mind connecting what happened (the past) with the now. The mind also might claim what happened as its doing, "Yep, I just did what I had to do."... yet the mind or you were not even present. There was no you doing it because you as who you think you are 'the thinking mind' was not present. The mind likes to claim it as if it was you because the mind thinks of itself as in charge of events and has a choice in the matter. When intuition happens, there was no you to claim anything, it just happened and you just noticed it happen because that's who you really are: the one who notices, the witness, the present observer. Always in the now, always present.

The Mind is Never Present
The mind never sees the now as it really is. It misses the now completely because it's always seeing the now as something relatable to the past. You are literally living the past right now in your thoughts (every thought is of the mind). When this is truly grasped, then you will realize that no thought you have is ever going to be true. Every thought you have in the present moment, is going to be from a mind that doesn't understand the present moment. The mind thinks it has everything figured out, but the one thing it can not figure out is this present moment. To the mind this present moment is relatable to the past. The past is only an idea of something that happened to the mind. The past is a label that the mind recognizes as reality.

However, the past has no affect on anybody in this present moment. The past only has a significant meaning to you if you are listening to your thoughts. The past is nothing more or less than a thought from the mind. The future is also an idea of the mind and has no affect on anybody. The future only has an important purpose to you if you are paying attention to your thoughts. The future is nothing more or less than a thought from the mind. This is the foundation of all fear.

No Fear Without the Mind
Fear can not arise in the present moment when there is no link to the past or future. The mind lives in the past by recognizing patterns in the past and brings it into the now (which gives ideas of the future). How can you fear anything if you had no 'repatterned memory' of a past? Fear is created by the mind thinking that the past is going to happen again. Are you beginning to see that no thoughts holds any value for you? This present moment is the only thing that holds any value for anybody. In this present moment all things are possible, you are only limited by the thoughts you have.

Connecting to Intuition (The Brain)
The way to connect to your intuition is by being in the now and observing the thoughts without giving the thoughts energy. Just observe the thoughts that come and go, as nothing more than the imagination. This imagination is the mind, the mind of thoughts, the mind of past. Intuition happens quite naturally when there is no link to the past. When you can fully embrace the now without giving the past significance, then you are fully aligned with intuition.

Why be in the now and align with intuition when intuition is not needed?

Intuition is always needed in order to experience life as exciting, free, content, blissful, new, mysterious, full of wonder, and fun... without routine, old, boring, stressful, worry-some, and fearful.

The reason people worry is because they bring the past into the now and worry about the past becoming the future, yet the past can only become the future when the mind is allowed to bring the past into the now.

The only reason people stress is because they see every single thing in the now as a past event. When there are many things happening in one moment and in that moment everything is being relatable to the past experiences, then the now becomes painful and the mind can't keep up with it's own self. It can't keep up through its own process of connecting everything now into the past (that is the only thing that causes stress).

The only reason people experience fear in the now is because they are connecting the now into the past and thinking this now has something to do with the past of painful events or thinking the past is going to happen in the future.

The only reason people experience the now as routine, old, and boring is because the mind sees past in everything, everything is past.

You may not label the now as past in such an obvious way, it's more like a constant way without even noticing it. Become the observer of thoughts and it's very noticeable.

Thoughts happen, thought arise, there is nothing you can do about that. Yet, you can be in the present and observe the thoughts happening without connecting to those thoughts as something real. The past is gone, totally dead, never here, you can't get the past back, the past is just that: the past. It's never alive, only a miss understanding of perspective of the mind being forced into the now, is the only link. That link limits you and your potential to do anything new. There is nothing new in the present when the mind is involved. By new, I am meaning: what people consider miracles. By miracles, I am meaning: something that can't be defined by the mind.

Intuition only operates in the now, right now, everything else is an idea of what this now means and the only way to provide meaning into this now, is to bring the past into this now. The now is never anything else than what it is, it's when you attach meaning to the now that the past becomes something of significance.

Living Without Knowing
Can you live your life without knowing what this life means? Can you live your life without giving it meaning? Can you live your life without providing a purpose to it? Can you live your life without having to know what's all about?

If you can do that then you can put yourself into a position of living the miracle of what life really is. The miracle of this life can only be found without giving it purpose because the only why to give this life purpose is to link it to something you already know. Everything you know is linked to the past. You can't know anything in life without linking it to past events and experiences you have already had.

The only way to know what this life is all about without linking to past experiences, is to trust someone to tell you what it's about, but notice that anybody who tells you what life is all about, is always linking to their own past and telling you how it is through their past experiences. In fact, the trust you give to people to tell you how life works, is really trusting their past experiences about life. Their past limits them, just as much as your own past limits you.

The point is that nobody knows for sure what this moment now is all about because to know what this moment now is about, you must have some sort of link to the past in someway or another.

How can we ever know what life is about if all we know about life is linked to the past?

We are not meant to know. To know, you must bring the past up. To know you must remember something in the now that relates to the past. Yet intuition knows without linking to a past. If you put your trust into the intuition, then you allow the intuition to know without you. Therefore you allow your life to be played-out through connecting to the intuition of yourself. In this you may begin to see what life really is about, but you will never know what it is about that can be explained into words because words are for the mind and the mind links things to the past

Living Without Logic
The moment you try to express what your intuition had shown you, you are attempting to connect that intuition (that now) to the past. In doing so you will be misunderstood by others because all others are always connecting to past. The past (the mind) has shown them that everything you are trying to define does not make logic sense. Their logic is based on taking the past and seeing a pattern in the now and therefore the now is never seen as it really is because it is seen as the past. The people of minds will tell you of the past and how the past has a pattern that has occurred.

No explanation you give is ever going to satisfy unless you can get them to connect with their own intuition and see that the now moment is unlimited by the past. Only through direct experience can anybody understand what intuition shows.

Living Without a Past
When you stop trying to know the now through the past then the now becomes something of a miracle. That miracle is a lived experience and direct applying. You start to see that anything is possible because all the teachings and learning's you had are undone. You unlearned everything you thought you knew and came to place of the now where nothing is known and it's all mysterious. Where the past has no hold on you and the present moment is the only thing available. Through this one moment of now anything is possible because you don't know what is possible and what is not possible. There is no way to know because there is no link to the past, where everything you thought you knew is not active in the now. Who can know without a past?

Living the Paradox of Both Opposites
Every moment is now and new. It's like you were just now born into this world and you are experiencing everything for the first time, so there is nothing to know because you know nothing. You have nothing to refer back to in order to know what this is. You accept that this is what it is without knowing what it is. This moment could be good, it could be bad, but there is no way to know. Both of the opposites of everything become irrelevant because you know nothing of anything.

The Funny Mind
The mind might say, "But how do I live a normal life without knowing?" Isn't it funny how the mind always has to know? Why? When your living in intuition (in the moment without giving attention to thoughts) everything that occurs, it occurs naturally. Your intuition knows and you trust that because it is all knowing. It will provide you with everything you need to know without knowing it through a past. This is actually a very natural way of living life. Not normal, but natural.

The mind might say "This life is not a miracle, it's based on patterns and if you don't recognize this, you will be living in pain!". Isn't it funny how the mind wants to tear down everything in order to make itself right? The power of intuition (your brain), is unfathomablely powerful and it doesn't need a mind to function. The mind has no answers. Intuition has shown time and time again that it has all the answers and you intuitively know that IT has all the answers (not you). Therefore everything you know becomes a knowing without knowing why you know. Another way to say that is: everything that happens, happens intuitively and there is no you involved (a knowing without you).

Living in Complete Trust
Usually when you ask someone how they know something, they will tell you of their past and how they come to adopt what they know, but intuition is about knowing without an explanation. Knowing without a past. Intuition is a knowing without you. The intuition knowing is intimate yet not personal. Not an intellectual knowing, but a whole knowing without cause. A complete trust because there is nothing not to trust about it.

In order for the mind to trust, it has to experience (rather it be a person, environment, or life itself) many times over and over again in order to see a pattern and if it sees a pattern that is worthy of trust then it can trust. Doing this, the mind learns to trust nothing especially life.

However, intuition trust doesn't need that because it takes a form of whole complete knowing. There is no development that leads to this trust because it comes from of place that is all knowing. In fact it's such a complete and total whole knowing that you give your own life to it. You allow yourself to let go of all the past and allow this intuition to take over every part of your life without fear because what is shown, is that this life can not be mastered through the mind. You can try to master it all you want, but you will notice that you will still have routine, old, boring, stressful, worry-some, and fearful thoughts (these thoughts will seem significant). It's because you're trying to master life through a tool that is not completely whole.

Trading 10% Potential for 100%
Have you heard that the brain uses only 10% of it's potential? It's no wonder people only use 10% of their brain potential when they are filtering the brain through the mind. Where is the other 90%? Intuition knows where it's at. The mind is only 10% of the equation of life. That is to say the past only has 10% to do with the totality of what life actually is. It's no wonder life is seen the way it is, when your only seeing 10% of it. However, when living in the moment, the other 90% is revealed. This does not mean you now have the ability to master life, it means there is no you there anymore to master life. Life runs quite naturally, automatically, and spontaneously without you (without the mind, without giving thoughts focus, without giving the past power).

Practice, Practice, Practice
The mind (thought) has been the focal-point for such a longtime, that this is going to take practice. Living in the present moment is not so natural anymore. In fact, people are happy sitting there doing nothing as long as they have thoughts to entertain them. If someone is sitting there doing nothing and having no thoughts to entertain, boredom becomes a dominate factor.

To the mind, intuition (being still and quite) is boredom. To the mind, intuition (observing everything without attaching thought) is boredom.

The mind needs to be entertained, it needs to be searching, it needs to be labeling, it needs to be finding meaning, and it needs to think. The less attention you give to your mind, the more it will die. Not die in the sense of no thoughts, but die in the sense that the thoughts no longer matter.

Therefore, the more you can be the observer of thoughts, the more presence (intuition) you will have.
The more you can see the thoughts as irrational, the less you will listen to them and the more intuition you will be aligned with.

The more you can see the past stories that the mind plays, the less the past will have meaning to you and the more you can be here in the present.

The Goal of Life for Everyone
I have been using 'the brain' and 'intuition' as labels here to make a point, but they are still labels for the mind, so be careful that you don't attach to these words as being who you are. You are not some label or conceptual idea that can fit into words. In fact, intuition or brain is just a word to describe the same-thing that everyone speaks about. It's all the same-thing and only a label to point something that can't be explained with words, but is known through direct awareness and observing everything without the mind.

Say Good-Bye to Your Future and Past

2009-03-22T02:52:00.002-06:00

In this article, I would like to offer a method on how to simplify your life. Please keep in mind that this is only a method. I am not offering a belief system, only a simple way to live life.

In order to apply this method, one has to drop all common knowledge, logic, and assumptions about life. Once all these are dropped (which is easier to do then you might imagine), it allows a way of being that is simple, wondrous, curious, new, and fresh.

Leaving all common knowledge, logic, and assumptions about life behind: what do you have left? What can you know for sure without a doubt? That you exist in this moment now, right?

Of course you can have all kinds of theories, but all those are just concept about what this moment is and what it's about. Let's drop all those concepts too. Let's apply this method by realizing that this moment right now is your experience... period. You are consciously aware of this moment and that's all you can know without bringing up any other concepts about it.

There could be all kinds of things arising in this moment: ideas, thoughts, emotions, forms, etc.. without labeling what these things mean, lets just be aware of them happening. Let's see them arise and fade away, as other things arise in there place. Simply just be aware of all the things happening in this moment.

For example, you may be having thoughts like "I have to get that done before I head back to work."... just be aware of that thought and observe it happening. Remind yourself that it's just a thought in this moment. Thoughts are just ideas happening in this moment.

For most people, they are not aware of witnessing their thoughts because they get lost inside the thoughts and follow the thoughts as they arise. In this way, they are not being the observer of their thoughts, they are being carried away by their thoughts. Using this method, you allow yourself to stay in the moment of being the observer of thoughts and everything around you.

Why is This Important
Now let me explain how being the observer of the moment as it arises, can serve you:

►1. It allows you to be 100% with anything and everything that arises. This is important because without noticing what is arising now, you may be repressing something that is causing you to suffer. In this article: "What In Your Life is Truly Real? Understanding the 'Spiritual Loop'" I offered a method on how this happens:

You can begin to get out of the trap of the 'spiritual loop' by using this method, but it's only a method.

Adding a Story to the Dream
Your dream (reality) is what it is. In other words, when you dream at night, then you are having a dream and there is nothing in that dream that is not the dream. It's just a dream that you are having, there is nothing to it, it's just a dream.

The dream only becomes complicated and you start to experience suffering, when you decide to add meaning to the dream itself. For example, let's say in your dream, you start feeling disappointed, well disappointment happens in dreams because that is part of the dream world. Disappointment is just happening, however, when you add a story to the disappointment, then the dream becomes more real.

For example, you might say "I am disappointed because of this character in my dream". Now, because you added a story and through this story it gave the dream the ability to be experienced as something real. Now instead of just having a dream, you empowered the dream. Yet not only did you empower the dream but you empowered the character in your dream and disempowered yourself by allowing that dream character to be the position/identity of your disappointment.

All of this dream (reality) is being produced in the manner described above.

How Positions/Identities Are Formed
The only way to put someone else in a position of identifying them as being the source of your experience, is by repressing the position/identity in yourself.

For example, disappointment happens, but when you feel that the disappointment is bad and shouldn't be experienced, then you can't fully be with the disappointment. Disappointment arises then it falls away. It will never fall way if you don't allow yourself to experience it, in fact it will keep showing up as everybody else in your dream.

In other words, when you don't allow disappointment to exist, then you suppress it and now because it's suppressed, it appears as if everybody in your experience is the cause of disappointment. All the dream is showing you, is that the story you added to the dream characters is false, it's about your dream, what are you suppressing? What are you hiding from experiencing?

When the dream is seen through, this becomes a very simple way of living and staying in the moment of now becomes the base of everything because only in the now is when you can catch the stories before they are played out.

►2. When you allow whatever is happening to happen, then you can fully embrace whatever it is. In other words, the reason people don't desire to experience sadness, is because they have an idea of the memory related to happiness and would rather experience that.

When you are experiencing sadness, a thought comes in and says "Happiness is better, don't experience this sadness.". When you are the observer of this moment, then you notice that thought, but you realize it's only an idea arising in the moment. You don't follow that idea because it's just an idea, just the imagination of a thought.

If in this moment you are experiencing sadness, it's because in this moment, that's what is arising. There is nothing else but sadness and everything else is only an idea, therefore you're liberated to allow whatever is happening. Nothing else could happen or something else would have arose. You can not experience happiness when sadness is happening. The only way to move on and allow something else to arise in the next moment, is to allow whatever is arising right now to happen.

►3. In the moment something arises and you allow it to happen, there is a release from everything else. In this release, whatever is happening right now feels good since it's the only thing there is.

In other words, when all the ideas about everything is dropped, then whatever is happening is fully allowed and fully experienced. When things are fully experience, it feels good, whatever it may be because it's all you know in the moment. There are no other concepts getting in the way to cloud whatever is happening to happen.

For example, let's imagine that you woke up on an island with no memory of anything. All you know for sure, is that you're aware. You have no memories of other people, what you look like, no concepts or ideas about anything. The feeling of being lonely may arise but you have no idea or concept to compare it to. You have no idea what it means to be lonely because you don't remember what it's like to be in the company of others. For all you know, you are all that exists and all that will ever exist.

Therefore loneliness is just a feeling that arises, but you don't know any opposite feeling to loneliness, so you let the feeling of being lonely, be what it is. You attach no meaning or ideas to being lonely because you don't know what the feeling means.

Living in the moment is very much like this since every opposite idea that appears, is seen as only an idea and nothing more. Just like the idea of loneliness when no opposite is known. Since there is no opposite being known, then what you are experiencing can't be known as something with meaning. What does it mean to be lonely, when that's all you know? You don't know what it means to be lonely if that's all you ever had. It's just something that arises in the moment.

►4. Everything becomes new, fresh, full of wonder, mysterious, and curiously there. Much like a child. To children everything is new and fresh in the moment. Nothing is ever old or routine, because they don't pretend like they know something. Everything is new and exciting because they don't claim and stick to ideas about anything.

Live in the moment and you will rediscover your childlike wonder, everything will be a mystery that doesn't need to be solved. Everything will be experienced as wonderful, even if something like sadness.

Children get over sadness rather quickly because they don't see it as a bad thing (until they are taught that it's bad and shouldn't be experienced). Every-time sadness arises, children allow themselves to experience it, then they are off experiencing something else. They don't care what is arising. Whatever is arising for children, it's acceptable and allowed (usually around age two, is when the conditioning starts to take place).

►5. When living in now, you can find contentment with whatever is arising. There is tremendous bliss (inner peacefulness) in every moment of now because nothing else exists. You don't have to search or seek for something better. There is no worry about the future or resentment to the past since those are seen as imaginative ideas that don't exist in the now.

You will understand the meaning of freedom, as meaning nothing except fully being present in whatever this moment brings. All tasks will be seen as fresh and new, chores become arts of existing as what is happening. All things no matter how mundane or boring the idea may be, arise as the only thing in the existence of now and therefore you are fully engaged and fully accepting.

For example, let's say you are washing dishes. While being in the present, you only have to wash one dish. There is no looking at the stack of dishes and seeing a big pile that you have to get through (that is the idea of the future). In every moment it's only one dish. You are only ever washing one dish.

Your focus is on your breathing, your heartbeat, the feel of the water and soap on your hands, the feel of the textured cloth as you glide it over the smoothness of the dish, the sight of the bubbles popping, the sound of the water rushing out into the sink as you rinse the dish, the squeaky clean feel as you dry it off, the view out the kitchen window, the lovely sight of everything you see. The gorgeous song the birds sing. The wonderful sense of being alive.

It all becomes the dance of life in the moment. It all becomes a meditation of all the things in the moment of now. A rhythm and harmony with all that is happening. A going with the flow of what is, as it arises. A deep gratitude with what is there now. An unspeakable beauty of being one with whatever is.

►6. When you fully embrace the moment, you will notice opportunities that can only been seen while fully engaged in the present. Opportunities that inspire new ways of being. Opportunities of creativity and inventions that could not be seen otherwise. Opportunities that seem so simple and obvious, but have the potential to change your world. Opportunities that invite you to things that can not be put into words. Opportunities that most would consider impossible. Life changing opportunities.

►7. When you are completely present, you will start to notice that all the things you labeled became non-important, the instant you labeled them. For example, take a look at the moon, a tree, your hand. Really look at it and observe it, see it as if you are looking at it for the first time. You will notice that it's not just a label, but it's much more. It's something that can't be defined by mere words (labels) alone.

When you truly are present, all things turn into a magical experience since all labels, ideas, thoughts, and concepts become less important. They are recognized as nothing more than a way of not fully seeing something. People want to find something else that can be label magnificent. Yet, everything is magnificent; the glory and mundane alike. This is seen once you fully accept things as they are, without giving it a meaning (a label). Labels cause the meaningful, to become meaningless.

Mindless
Being present is to become mindless, or as I like to say: I don't mind. Don't let the mind categorize things into a label. Just don't mind the mind. That is to say: don't mind what is happening.

This is actually a very natural and simple way of being. Once you give it a try, you will notice how easy it is to apply. The more you do it, the more you will notice the list above becoming part of your experience.

Being Aware
All it takes is a simple noticing of what is happening:

Every-time you notice you are losing the moment by being lost in the moment of thoughts, that awareness brings you right back to the present.
Every-time you have music playing and you observe that you are not really listening to it, that observing brings you right back to the now.
Every-time you are having a conversation with someone and you see that you are not listening, that seeing brings you right back to the moment.
Every-time you are doing a task and you witness that you are not fully engaging with what you are doing, that witnessing brings you back to what is happening.
Every-time you are aware that you are not being completely here, that awareness brings you right back to whatever is arising.

You are a conscious being and it's just a natural thing to be conscious of this. This is all there is. This right now.

Be With Silence

2009-03-21T01:11:00.001-06:00

If I had to pick one piece of advice that could change your life, that would be it.

Just stop in this moment.

Not later, not when you have time, not after you arrive somewhere. Here, now, in this moment. Close your eyes and clear your mind. Go with the silence, that silence holds a profound secret about you... and it's there right now. Without waiting for something to happen or holding it off another day. Be with silence. Now.

What In Your Life is Truly Real? Understanding the 'Spiritual Loop'

2009-03-15T00:26:00.004-06:00

In the story of experience (thoughts about something), there is no truth in anything, no truth 'in and of itself'. Truth never stands alone. In other words, whatever one chooses to believe is what they will see in reality. If you believe something then that believe will provide evidence of it being true. That's all it takes, which is why so many people believe is so many infinite things.

Whenever I stopped believing in something, there was no evidence of it being true anymore and once I start believing something, there are many evidences of it being true. Truth in my experience is created. Nothing more or less then that.

Given this experience, everyone has the opportunity to only choose to believe in things that they desire to see as true and real. Free will can be seen as a choice to choose to experience what is believed and in this way selves have complete control over their reality and what they experience (I have a different conclusion, which I will express later in this article that I call the 'spiritual loop').

The Story of Nicholas Powiull
I can give you examples of my own experience and how I came to the conclusion that belief creates reality and therefore defines reality as being true. Perhaps it will set a foundation and in the conclusion of this article, I will express a way out of the trap and maybe give you different idea of how to finally relax in this moment, rather than believing that you are searching for the truth of reality.

Age 7
I grew up into a Pentecostal religion until around the age of seven. At seven years old, I stopped going to church since my mother (who introduced it to me) stopped going. At this point I believed in a God outside myself that rewarded me and punished me based on how good I was being (or course there are many aspects in the Pentecostal belief, but I am only going to focus on one part of each belief system I adopted through the years). Much like a parent figure and the experience I had from my parent (my mother was the only one raising my sisters and I). Everything I did or didn't do, I saw myself being punished or rewarded by the things that came into my life. I believed these things coming into my life were acts of God to show me how good or bad I was being. I believed this to be the only truth and if I can get this right then my life would be perfect.

Age 13
By age thirteen, I found myself being quite fond of chat-rooms and connecting with all kinds of people across the world through the medium of the internet. Through this connection of people I was introduced to a psychic named Sylvia Browne. Her teachings seemed to resonate with me more then believing in a God that rewards and punishes me. I slowly began to believe that God was something within us all and this God had no reason to punish its own creations.

Although the beliefs of the Pentecostal church was still very dominate in my life (even though I was not going to church, I still attended Pentecostal group meetings that were held in the home of one of my good friends by his mother), I was beginning to form different beliefs around the Pentecostal belief concepts through the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne's books.

Now I experienced God as something inside of me that doesn't punish me, but provides lessons. I no longer experienced God punishing me, I believed life to be a school and this school became a little more fun in my experience. It's more fun to think I can choose to learn the lessons or not at my own pace, rather then being forced to reap bad experiences due to my bad actions. I slowly began to drop the belief concepts of the Pentecostal church and started merging into Sylivia Browne's belief concepts. I then believed this to be what I was finally looking for and if I could only learn all my lessons, then my life would be somehow perfect in every-way. My experiences then showed the lessons of life that I had to learn.

At around same exact time that I was picking up Sylvia Browne's books, I was also reading channeled books like Teachings from the Pleiadians by Barbara Marciniak. These books still resonated with me, but I was hooked onto the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne. I ignored everything in the Pleadian's belief concepts that didn't fit into Sylvia Browne's belief concepts.

As time went on, slowly I started to drop the belief concepts of Sylvia Browne and merged into taking-in more of the Pleiadian's belief concepts. Now I believed God to be something within myself and all others, but there are no lessons to learn because we all know everything (just like God), there is only remembering what we forgot while being in this body. Now I believed that if I could just remember everything that I forgot, then my life would somehow be perfect. I started experiencing life as a remembering process.

The channeled books of Barbara Marciniak lead me to start reading many more channeled books. I slowly started merging into believing every New Age belief concept, but the Conversations with God books by Neale Donald Walsch seemed to resonate with me. It seemed to take the understandings of all religions (including Pentecostal religion) and put it into a context that I could understand, but I was still hanging onto the belief concepts of the Pleiadians.

In fact at the time, I thought Neale Donald Walsch was not channeling God, but channeling another higher intelligence that was coming out in the form of God, through the understanding that we are all one (which is what all channel pieces seemed to express). I now believed that we are all Gods and we are here to experience our Godness through form. I believed myself to have the ability to create my own reality as I saw fit. I experienced myself as creating my own reality and I saw others experiencing the creation of their reality, even if they were unaware of doing it (they were creating through their thoughts about things). I thought if I could just keep my thoughts on exactly what I want, then I can create anything I desire and my life would be perfect somehow.

I was stuck in the trap of the "create your own reality" idea for a very long time, especially with things coming out like: The Secret, Abraham Hicks, Ramtha, Steve Pavlina, etc... and they are all right, they have all successfully created the reality they prefer. The law of attraction works, I have seen it work in my own experience.

The Spiritual Loop
That is a very compacted version of my experience, but my point is only to express an alternative route. There is nothing wrong with all the other routes, they are all valid and acceptable, but if you are tired and exhausted of what I call the 'spiritual loop', which means: always searching/seeking a better reality, never being satisfied with this moment, always feeling the need to save people into creating the reality they desire, always defending your position/ideas/identity, always trying to focus your thoughts to make sure you create what you intent, etc... then keep reading.

When You Die
Science has discovered that everything is energy and energy can't die, it can only change form. When you die (leave the physical), you can take nothing of this world with you. You can gather as much as you like and make that the point of life and that is valid. However, realize what is truly real and what is only of this world. The things that you can take with you when you leave this body is what is truly real.

What is that? What can you take with you?

(Don't get lost in this next part of the article because it doesn't really matter since chances are you don't directly experience things this way, however I felt is was important to conclude it as what you can look forward to if you decide to jump off the 'spiritual loop'.)

Love
Consciousness and everything it contains within it is what you take with after death.

Lets start with love. Love can be seen as an emotion reaction to a stimulus response in the body/mind, but love can also be seen as a State of Being that is within consciousness. Love at that level doesn't love because of something outside self, it loves because it is seen that nothing/everything is it and therefore it loves just because it is love itself.

From a emotion reaction to love, love happens because it is seen that there are things outside of the body/mind that it doesn't love. It is then conditioned to love because it only loves based on the outside circumstance.

From the State of Being love, it can't not love because there is nothing it doesn't see as being not love (more expressed on how love sees love in everything here: "Nobody Understands Me, There is NO Hope for Tomorrow, Nobody Knows the Real Me, & I Am All Alone")

Infinite
Consciousness is infinite, this is something that the mind can not grasp because it doesn't think in infinite terms. The mind thinks it is this body form and dispels the formless that allows it to be form. In other words, your form/body, is only able to be a form because of the empty space/nothingness/formlessness that allows it to move freely in this world. If everything was form then everything would be solid and nothing could move. It is the formless that allows the form to be a form and likewise form allows formless to be formless. In other words, if everything was empty space then there would be no forms to experience.

Infinite consciousness is you, you are form and the formless between that make up all forms. In other words, when you die, the consciousness that seems trapped in this body/mind will expand to experience itself in everything/nothing which is the love I was describing above.

One Moment
When you die, you will have no thoughts of past or future, you will see that everything is only one moment and in that one moment everything/nothing is being created. In other words, the form and the formless are both being instantly manifested in only one moment and all the past events and future ideas will be seen as nothing be concepts of the mind. Everything/nothing is infinite consciousness which is only seeing One moment, the only moment of now. Everything right now form/formless is being created in this only moment. This is also something the mind can never grasp because it's job is to think in linear terms. At death you will be completely satisfied with this moment or any moment because it's all One moment.

The Good News
The good news is that you don't have to die (per say) or leave this body to experience what is truly real because what is truly real, is always real and always has been.

So how do you experience this real truth without dieing (leaving the body)?

The Dream
Let us define this reality in a new context. If reality is experienced based on your beliefs to it and everyone experiences reality differently because we all have different beliefs, then really there is no reality. How can there be a reality when the reality changes based on who is perceiving it? To have a reality, it has to be solid with no exceptions to the rule. Yet there is no rules to reality and if there is a rule then it would be: what you believe is what you will experience. What kind of rule is that?

In this case, reality can be perceived as a dream. When you lay down at night and have a dream, you experience that dream as if it's real, until you 'awaken' ;) and everyone has a different experience of dreams, just like reality is experienced differently depending on the person dreaming it.

Taking things in this context, it's easier to explain what I mean by real truth and hopefully it will give you a content to work from, in order to start viewing true reality without leaving this body. You can begin to get out of the trap of the 'spiritual loop' by using this method, but it's only a method.

Adding a Story to the Dream
Your dream (reality) is what it is. In other words, when you dream at night, then you are having a dream and there is nothing in that dream that is not the dream. It's just a dream that you are having, there is nothing to it, it's just a dream.

The dream only becomes complicated and you start to experience suffering, when you decide to add meaning to the dream itself. For example, let's say in your dream, you start feeling disappointed, well disappointment happens in dreams because that is part of the dream world. Disappointment is just happening, however, when you add a story to the disappointment, then the dream becomes more real.

For example, you might say "I am disappointed because of this character in my dream". Now, because you added a story and through this story it gave the dream the ability to be experienced as something real. Now instead of just having a dream, you empowered the dream. Yet not only did you empower the dream but you empowered the character in your dream and disempowered yourself by allowing that dream character to be the position/identity of your disappointment.

All of this dream (reality) is being produced in the manner described above.

How Positions/Identities Are Formed
The only way to put someone else in a position of identifying them as being the source of your experience, is by repressing the position/identity in yourself.

For example, disappointment happens, but when you feel that the disappointment is bad and shouldn't be experienced, then you can't fully be with the disappointment. Disappointment arises then it falls away. It will never fall way if you don't allow yourself to experience it, in fact it will keep showing up as everybody else in your dream.

In other words, when you don't allow disappointment to exist, then you suppress it and now because it's suppressed, it appears as if everybody in your experience is the cause of disappointment. All the dream is showing you, is that the story you added to the dream characters is false, it's about your dream, what are you suppressing? What are you hiding from experiencing?

When the dream is seen through, this becomes a very simple way of living and staying in the moment of now becomes the base of everything because only in the now is when you can catch the stories before they are played out. Even the memories of your past will become nothing but a story in the dream.

I will give two more example using my own experience in hopes that you can embed this method more fully.

Personal Examples from the Nicholas Powiull Story
When I was holding onto the idea that everything is oneness, I suppressed the idea of separation and anybody who was talking in separation terms, was seen as a person who needs to view the dream as I saw it.

Oneness become my identity and anybody who was not talking about oneness: was lost, needed to be reminded, was an enemy of oneness, was misinformed, etc... I felt personality responsible to make them see how I was seeing it and anybody who didn't see it was labeled.

I slowly realized that both ideas are correct and in fact it doesn't matter what another is dreaming because it's still One dream.

Defending Ideas
This is actually the cause of all wars, all suffering, all killings, all torturing, and all the mistreatment of anybody else (individually and universally). The reason why planes get cashed into buildings, the reason why religions fight among each other, the reason for race against race, gender against gender, politics against politics, religion against science, science against religion, and religion against religion.

All of it is because the idea of something is taken on a position that is identified with and through that identification, one must defend the idea.

Ideas are fine, there is nothing wrong with ideas, ideas are harmless, it's when one feels that they must defend that idea because they took a position to it and they accepted it as an identity and now they have to defend it from others.

Example Two
Many people that read this site have considered me a teacher, they label me a teacher and they are happy to do that because they liked what I had to say, but I never took it as me being a teacher. I saw it as a sharing or invitation to see with me. I always saw both a teacher and student in everybody and we are all here to remind each other of what we have forgotten. Since we all remember certain things, then everyone is a gift in reminding differently.

I got to the point where I saw teaching as being a bad thing and I no longer wanted to see myself as a teacher, so I suppressed the idea of being a teacher and only tried to be the student and because I suppressed the idea of being a teacher, I saw people who appeared to be teachers to me and I labeled them: "that person is wrong because they are taking on the teacher energy and that person over there I didn't like because they will not be a student like me... etc"

It's like the very thing I was trying not to be, I saw it everywhere else in people except me because I was suppressing it. When both ideas of teacher and student are allowed then they cancel each other out and both ideas become irrelevant. The ideas themselves become nothing but ideas.

Allowing Anything in your Dream
What does it matter that someone else doesn't agree with your dream? When it's seen as a dream then anything is allowed in the dream because it's just a dream. You allow yourself to stay focused in the moment of the dream and as long as the dream is not causing conflict in your experience (by not adding stories to the dream), then who cares what others dream? Then the dream becomes playful, it becomes silly, and out of your playfulness/silliness you might write an article like this one to add more playfulness/silliness to your dream and in a way all the other charACTERs might find playfulness/silliness to their dream, but you never get stuck on the idea and identify with a story that says their dream matters.

Just focus on your dream and through the playfulness/silliness of your dream perhaps all the other dreams will be dreaming the same dream, but who cares if they don't? As long as your dream is seen as a dream then every other dream is perfectly okay, your not bothered by it and that is freedom/bliss/love.

When I am dreaming and I realize it's a dream, I care not what is experienced in the dream because it's just a dream and yes you may want to control the dream through lucid dreaming and that is valid but either way it's still just a dream so what does it matter if we experience how the dream naturally occurs or how we create it to occur, it's still the same: a dream.

Dream Characters That Awoken to the Dream
You may find in your dream, dream characters with names like: Mahatma Gandhi, Ramana Masharshi, Krishnamurti, Eckhart Tolle, Jesus Christ, Gautama Buddha, Mother Teresa, etc... and see that all those dream characters have something in common: other dream characters are drawn to them, despite: their religions, how they live their life, their moral stands, their reality.

I would suggest the reason is because they saw this as a dream and didn't/don't bother themselves with other characters dreams. Yet even as they don't/didn't care about others and their dream, they still are seen as the most unconditional loving characters because their consciousness is/was set to the infinite consciousness described about. Their consciousness was not one of division, but one of unity because they saw it as their dream. They just did what they did because of the playfulness/silliness of their dream. They were/are not trying to be leaders, worshiped, followed, etc... they were/are only being in the moment of the their dream and being one with their own dream. They were/are not against anything in their dream.