Conscious Flex

The Freedom From Resistance

2012-02-10T15:27:00.000-07:00

Trying to defend what I think really happened, is my way to keep resisting what is. When others are allowed to be exact as they are (with their thoughts of what they think really happened), only then am I free from the resistance.

When we sincerely allow freedom to others, we free ourselves.
The guru of life hides the gift of freedom in EVERY person we resist.

The Listening: It wants us to face every idea we hold

2012-01-21T07:14:00.008-07:00

Hello there, I want to extend myself in gratitude to each and everyone of you for reading my articles and taking this journey into life with me, following me and exploring this adventure together. Sharing of life and reaching into each others lives as we awakening to who and what we are, is such a fulfillment and brings me deep pleasure to connect in this way. As we reach out and touch love, a mirror of the love we are completes the circle and true sharing can take place from great compassion and deep caring. So, thank you for this opportunity.

The Listening
I touched a deeper phenomenal essence of what it means to be human recently, something I like to call "the listening" and it would bring me deep joy to share it with you.

I call it "the listening" because that's exactly what it does. There is a felt sense of what this moment is and what is happening in it. Much like if you just happened to drop into this body and knew nothing about it, then started describing what you feel, see, and experience without ideas of wrong or right or having any meanings attached. Just a listening to the feelings you are experiencing and describing it, out of great curiosity about what this life is and what this human being is in this experience. Like an adventure and wonder and excitement of just being. The listening is very interested in what is happening, no matter what it is because it's interesting to discover what this life is and who you are in it.

The listening has a very subtle but unmissable quality to it, you can hear and feel its essence. It's like it knows itself and feels at home remembering itself. In fact, it is you and all you're doing is listening. Like now, listen, do you hear that?

That's the focus that is needed. You know when one says "shhhhhhh, listen, do you hear that?" and you stop what you are doing and try to listen for this faint sound to see if you can hear it. Only this is not audible, it's a feeling sense. A feeling sense that hears into the moment and is honest about what is there, no matter what it looks like.

It is very interested in the human. It wants to know everything about the human so it listens to everything the human is experiencing and is fascinated by what it thinks, says, and does. It is very intimately curious of this human aspect of itself. The human being is the essence of its expression but it seems the human forgot how to be this, be what it is, just be.

I am reminded of this movie I watched not too long ago where I recognized this listening but didn't know how to put it into words. It's this movie called "My Dinner with Andre" and I would very much wish to share it with you.

My Dinner with Andre [1981] - Full movie:

In this movie, listen to Andre, he is doing what the listening does throughout the whole conversation in the movie. A bit further into the movie the main characters starts speaking from this listening too.

Perhaps you can notice it, remember it, and start speaking from the listening too. It's very easy, you just stop, listen, and describe what you are feeling, seeing, thinking, and experiencing without any filters of what it means, to listen and honestly describe what is there.

Listen in to the energy of Andre, it's open and not hiding anything. He doesn't mind expressing whatever is there to express. No matter how weird it may seem or how his friend might judge him, or if he will be understood. These ideas don't seem to penetrate his expression, he is only sharing for the joy to share, no matter what that looks like. There is a curiosity in his voice, a sense of wonder and you can feel him, his excitement, his interest in his experience, his words, his free-flow energy. He is not speaking with ideas and meaning that filter what he is saying.

Notice how human it is. It's not truth talk or repeating anything that was learned or second-hand knowledge, just the description of his pure experience as it is. The listening is the only truth because it tells the truth in the moment by listening into the moment and describing the felt essence of what is happening. This is exactly what the listening looks like, feels like, and sounds like. The energy that comes with it is unmistakeable. It's always curious about what it is thinking, feeling, and experiencing.

Always interested, no matter what, even if the experience is sad, grief, angry, painful, frustration, etc... It's never bored because it's always listening into what is here. It sees exactly what boredom is, why it is experienced, and the meanings that cause the experience of boredom. So as long as you are listening and allowing yourself to listen into boredom (or whatever it may be) then there can't be boredom because the listening doesn't experience boredom, it describes what boredom is and therefore can't be the experience of boredom because it sees the boredom. Nothing can sustain itself in the listening for the very fact the listening hears it and in that hearing dissolves it. Then the only truth remains, which is it, the listening.

The listening is always here, but there can be an experience of seemingly forgetting how to listen, even though it's the most natural experience of what you are. It can seem to take an extreme effort to listen into the moment and be honest about what is happening. It can seem like we can forget how to be honest because of the ideas we have around what this human experience is.

Human Honesty
For example, at one point I was very curious about this thing we call "conscious lying" and I wanted to share this experience with another and explore it together and see if we experience the same thing. But my thoughts and ideas about how someone might respond stopped me from trying to explore it with them. Based on what I know about myself and what I have seen in others, I have this feeling that if I said: "Hey, I am very interested in exploring this thing call conscious lying with you, how often do you notice yourself consciously lying?" and tried to explain the listening, they would likely become very defensive: "What are you trying to get at? Are you calling me a lair?" Even though it's a common part of the human experience, we defend ourselves since it's not talked about then it becomes a threat.

All the ideas we have around lying and what it means to tell the truth of that experience, even though it's a very sacred experience to share such a beautiful open investigation with another and even to offer yourself to share with another in a such a vulnerable way is a profound gift.

We miss the gift because we think "I am bad if I am a lair", or "what if I am found out then nobody will believe me when I am being honest", or there is this other thing that happens where we defend the lying "but everyone does it and white lies are okay because you can't tell the truth all the time, it would hurt someones feelings." We have to defend lying to feel better about it because we take this human experience very seriously and personally. We all lie because we forgot to listen.

The listen doesn't need to lie, it listens within the experience of itself and knows exactly what to say to ease the discomfort around the ideas we carry because it hears these ideas in itself and responds to another knowing that the same ideas are in all others. It knows the feeling of hurt and it has seen what hurts is and why, so it knows how to ease the hurt in another and still tell the complete truth without filtering it. You see, because it tells the complete truth about the hurt too. It brings a humility to the situation by expressing its own hurt and the hurt you may feel even before saying what might hurt and expressing what that hurt is and why we all feel it.

You can't really experience hurt when you see the ideas that cause the feeling of hurt. So when you speak all the ideas around the hurt and you speak them completely then there is no room for the feeling of hurt since you see the ideas we hold behind the feeling and you expose the thoughts before the thoughts are believed, which always trigger the feelings.

Now that is something significant, it defuses everything that seems real and personal, it brings it to light where nothing is hidden. When two people can stand completely pure and naked without filtering these experience through ideas, the joy of being remains because the joy of being is exactly what we are. When everything else falls away this joy is the only experience and it's known to always be here behind the ideas we hold.

Most of the articles on this site that are focused on nonduality or enlightenment are based on something touched but mostly are just more ideas. It's so easy to speak truth related ideas and think we are experiencing something true, but the essence of the listening, what it does, the feeling sense and open energy in it's communication are unmistakeable to itself since it hears into what is here. Always deepening and picking up on more subtitles of what can be heard, yet it remains always listening and joyful unless or until another idea arises.

Any experience out of alinement with the joy of being is just a clue that listening is not being heard. Fortunately we can listen again at any moment since the listening is always there ready to hear more, fascinated with what is happening; if only we are willing and ready to face the ideas we carry.

The most scariest thing in life is to face the ideas we hold because it's all we know and we are so familiar with our ideas that just to admit the ideas we hold, even privately to ourselves, can seem an extreme challenge, to say the least (let alone sharing it with another), but I promise you behind every idea is a joyful being excited to explore life. It wants to jump right-in and tell the truth of every experience no matter what it looks like because it knows that it can only experience the joy of being by exposing what we hide from and what we deny the existence of in ourselves. It's ready to show us the truth of any experience no matter how true our ideas feel.

It wants us to face every idea we hold because it wants us to experience what we are as this joyful being. It's calling all of us home to it and that is the only thing ever happening.

Any painful experience is a plead for you to remember who you are, it's only asking that we listen. In listening we drop in and experience ourselves fresh and new, like for the first time. In the listening we get curious about our experience as a human and see with new eyes what is happening, we describe to ourselves what we are thinking and feeling. The listening asks us to listen to what we are saying and question why we say the things we do, feel into what we are feeling and expose it to ourselves, face every mistaken belief we hold about reality and who we think we are, be honest with ourselves and stop denying what we are experiencing, notice when and why we speak for approval, when and why we try to fit in... it's all revealed in the listening. It's asking us to just listen, to listen, it will do the rest. It will hear what is there and listen to it so we don't feel like we are it.

It wants us to listen for it, listen for the listening, be the listening, remember it, remember yourself as it. Hear the good news, it says: that none of our ideas are real and the joy of being, which the feeling of bliss, peace, love; is the only true reality that is always here waiting for your invitation so it can take you into itself, a infinite field of loving embrace beyond all ideas. Washing us clean of every false belief we ever had and delivering us into the joy of being alive. For we are life itself .... and the essence of what life is, is more beautiful than we ever dreamed of in our wildest ideas. No idea can touch this. To touch this, we must listen.

I will leave you with this final video. Notice the open energy, free flowing conversation. No filters. Do you feel into this sense of listening? Adya and Loch both speak from the listening with a very keen ear. I feel it is very apparent in this video. Much like Andre in the first video. Do you see and feel the similarities?

It's not about what they are communicating, it's a felt sense of the communication itself and the energy behind it. Anything can be spoken about in this (even what seems to be mundane experiences), not just "truth" or "awakening" experiences- those things only happen through the listening. Truth is only revealed through listening since the listening is what truth points to.

You can feel that they are listening as they speak. Not from memory or something learned or second-hand knowledge. A felt sense of listening in the moment. The conversation is full; they are listening to each other and feeling into what the other is saying. Feeling into themselves the same thing that the other is feeling and communicating as they speak from that feeling. Since everything is spoken from the spontaneousness of feeling within, the conversation is alive and takes on a fun dynamic to share in. There is a complete meeting in feeling and being. It's not this dead back and forth yacking at each other or waiting your turn to talk, or feeling that you have something more important to share... all these conversations habits we have through ideas are not there in the listening energy.

Enjoy (In joy)!

For more videos of this nature, please visit: http://www.satsangtube.blogspot.com/ and please submit videos of people you hear speaking from the listening. :)

Here is Adya's description speaking about the energy of what I call 'the listening': http://satsangtube.blogspot.com/2006/07/energy-of-free-being-adyashanti.html

Also, please join my new group on facebook: Satsang Tube

People Can Teach Themselves New Skills in Dreams

2011-12-22T19:56:00.003-07:00

As an update and continuation of the article: "Life Feels the Dreamer Fly: Learning How to Fly Again" I had one of many dreams of flying, but it leaked over into the feeling of being able to fly while awake. I still have this same feeling that I had back when the article above was written. Just like the example I used, when I step on the gas pedal of a car and expect it to move. That feeling of flying is there and as strong as the night I had that dream.

I have not been visualizing it and thinking about it much since it started, in fact rarely; but every once in a while when I think of it, I notice the feeling is equally and strongly there as it was in the beginning of the "dream leakage". I find this article: "Your Brain Does NOT Know the Difference!" is still valid in the nature of what reality is.

It seems science is slowly beginning to catch up with the fact that dreams and "reality" are not separate. As this article indicates: "Inception becomes reality: People can teach themselves new skills in dreams".

As the article suggests, lucid dreaming is directly connected to influences on reality. If you are interested in lucid dreaming; a good place to start would be here: "How to Easily Experience Lucid Dreams".

The End of the Money System Is Near

2011-10-27T02:26:00.002-06:00

Have you noticed that when you watch a movie set in the future, you always see one of two scenarios?:
1. One scenario is set in a primitive society where there is extreme human suffering.
2. The other scenario is set in an technology advanced society where machines benefit humanity.

We are standing on a shift where one of these two reality's are to become our existence.

"You will someday be able to mark August 1st, 2011 as a major shift in the worldwide labor force where the balance between man and machine collide. Read More >>>

Occupy - It's NOT Dec 25, 2012.... It's Oct 28th, 2011

2011-10-07T19:27:00.006-06:00

Most say Dec 25, 2012 is a new beginning (or end), Maya Majix says Oct 28, 2011 is the new beginning.

There are 10,000's of people rising together everyday as the Occupy protests spread throughout the world.

From the looks of it, on Oct 15, 2011 there are going to be millions of people rising together like never before! And by the end of the month there are so many Occupy events planned across the globe that I foresee a singularity.

Here is a list of how to find all the events related to Occupy protests: Occupy Together Events and Facebook Events and Meetup Events and 200+ Events.

Has the Maya Majix already predict this (source of image below):

Image Viewing Instructions: Click on Image (it will open in a new window) then click on the image again to Enlarge:

Here is a 10 min video explaining what this image is and its significance:

If you like to watch the whole series, here is the first video. There are many similar lectures Ian Lungold has done on the planned evolution of consciousness before his death. (Here are some more: July,16 2002, Sometime in 2003, November 16, 2005, More)

If you want to know what to expect next, watch this one in the series.

It's good to know that Life as Consciousness has been evolving since the 'beginning of time' and has a perfect plan for itself, if this is not known then I guess it can be pretty scary... please share! :)
Many blessings.

Are You Paying Attention? Occupy Wall Street Global Revolution

2011-10-06T08:56:00.017-06:00

You will NOT know about this from mainstream media, but this is very interesting!

Perhaps you heard a little bit on the news about "Occupy Wall Street" (their other website and here) protests?

These protests started in New York on Wall Street and now it has grown statewide throughout America and this same movement is slowly moving globally as well! You can see groups of every state joining together for the same cause at: http://www.occupytogether.org/ and http://www.meetup.com/occupytogether/ and 200+ Events.

If you have a facebook account, you can find groups of "Occupy Protesters" in every state throughout the USA. The amount of support and likes for these groups are profound (have a quick look, you don't need to have a facebook account):
http://www.facebook.com/search.php?q=occupy&init=quick&tas=...search_preload&search_first_focus=1317887441343

In short, these protests are about the 99% of people across the globe who feel the financial pressures. Poverty is increasing, foreclosures on homes are increasing, jobs are decreasing; 99% of the population around the world are effected.

The protesters feel that the monetary system is no longer ethical based. References to the banks bailouts, the left and right sides of political payoffs, and unfair system due to corporate entities, capitalism, and misuse of power by the top 1% of wealthiest leaders; started the protester movements. Their idea is that the power is really in the 99% of the population and if we come together, we can stop playing this game and unite for a decent system. Their motto and slogan is "We are the 99%".

Here's Michael Moore's take on it (a very wealthy film maker who is in favor of the protests):

It is interesting to note that the mainstream media's are giving spotty coverage on this mass movement. The protesters say that the mainstream media are the same corporate entities of the 1%, so you will not hear about this revolutionary uprising that is happening nationwide from state to state and slowly moving globally. This movement started on September 17, 2011 and has been growing ever since.

Occupy Wall Street and all the "Occupy Protests" movements are keenly focused on the power of nonviolence. Using words like: peaceful nonresistance, fighting without force, and nonviolent movement. This movement also references people who have made great change with nonviolence (below are some examples used):

1. Mahatma Gandhi, who was a leader of the nonviolent resistance movement against British colonial rule in India during the first half of the 20th century. Here is a short clip from a movie that was based on how he lead his people into a revolutionary change without any form of violence. This clip is referenced on Occupy Wall Street's Live Stream Video Feed when it's not live.

2. Martin Luther King, who is best known for being an iconic figure in the advancement of civil rights in the United States and around the world, using nonviolent methods following the teachings of Mahatma Gandhi. Here is a short clip of him speaking about how nonviolence is the most powerful weapon.

3. Charlie Chaplin, who is best known for his silent films, made his first talking picture; "The Great Dictator" (1940), which was an act of defiance against Nazism. It was filmed and released in the United States one year before the U.S. entry into World War II. Here is a short clip of him (in the film above) talking about dictatorships and the need for helping people through uniting for the democracy of a decent world. This clip is also referenced on Occupy Wall Street's Live Stream Video Feed when it's not live.

Even as these nonviolent protesters have been peacefully fighting without force or harm, they have been treated violently by being abused, maced, pepper-strayed, dragged, thrown, pushed, and treated like deliberately cruel animals by the New York Police Department. Watch this video, where three women are trapped in an orange police net and pepper-strayed in the face (Sep 25, 2011):

Here is a slow motion video of the one above, clearly showing exactly what happened. Why was the pepper spray used?

There are 100's of videos where the NYPD are treating the Occupy Wall Street nonviolent protesters in similar manners.

You may have heard a brief mainstream news cast about 700+ protesters being arrested on the Brooklyn Bridge (Oct 1st, 2011):

What you may have NOT known is that while the Brooklyn Bridge arrests were taking place, JPMorgan Chase & Co. (a multinational banking corporation) give a 4.6 million dollar donation to the New York Police Department. Which can be found on the JPMorgan Chase website saying: "JPMorgan Chase recently donated an unprecedented $4.6 million to the New York City Police Foundation. The gift was the largest in the history of the foundation" read more here. Protesters say this is no coincidence:

You might have heard from the mainstream media that this movement is just a bunch of hippies, collage students, and anarchists... yet these are a mix of the 99% including working class Americans, American soldiers, and librarians:

If you are interested in keeping up-to-date with these movements, consider alternative media sources like RT America ... Current TV with Keith Olbermann .. (Current TV Youtube Channel)... The Occupy Wall Street Press ... Occupy Youtube TV ... Daily Video from Occupy Wall Street (and of course the links to Occupy Wall Street in the beginning of this article).

You will also hear on mainstream media that the protesters are unorganized but see yourself, they are completely organized from A to Z:

The mainstream media questions their demands and say they don't have an organized list of demands, yet it is very clear what they want collectively when you listen to alternative news: Keith Olbermann reads the first collective statement of Occupy Wall Street

Powiull Sleep - Why Do I Mention This?

2011-10-03T04:09:00.000-06:00

If you are not sure what Powiull sleep is, I explained it in this article. It's something I discovered while proceeding to adopt polyphasic sleep for a second time.

Polyphasis sleep is where one takes a nap every 4 hours around the clock, the naps are only 15-30 minutes long. That means you are only getting 1-2 hours of sleep every 24 hours. My first attempt was successfully adopted , lasted 273 days, and ended 8/25/2007.

My second attempt started on 1/3/2009 and after my 5th day, I discovered Powiull sleep. Powiull sleep lasted 70 days (ended when a glimpse of true nature stepped in or whatever you want to call it). Here is a list of all the Polyphasic Sleep & Powiull Sleep Logs.

Why Do I Mention This?

For everyone who is interested. I been conversing with someone who is planing to attempt an adaptation to the Powiull sleep. For support and encouragement, if you are interested, please follow along with his blog entries. Here is his blog and introduction.

If you decide to follow along, leave some comments on his posts to let him know you are following along. Knowing people were curiously following along, contributed as an important aspect of my success.

So I mention this for anybody who is curious in the potentiality of sleeping patterns and as a way to show my support to "Freedom Seeker" who wishes to remain anonymous, more about this on his blog: http://adaptatingtopowiull.blogspot.com/.

"The Journey After Awakening" ~Adyashanti & Loch Kelly

2011-09-29T00:50:00.003-06:00

Adyashanti, author of Emptiness Dancing, The Impact of Awakening, and True Meditation, dares all seekers of peace and freedom to take the possibility of liberation seriously. His spontaneous and direct teachings have opened the door for many seekers to awaken to their true nature and live an awakened life. http://www.adyashanti.org

Loch Kelly, founder of the natural Wakefulness Center in New York City, has practiced nondual psychotherapy and taught meditation for twenty years. Invited to teach the direct path by Adyashanti, Loch offers a unique experiential teaching to assist in the recognition, realization, and full embodiment of our true nature. http://www.lochkelly.org

http://satsangtube.blogspot.com/2007/05/journey-after-awakening-adyashanti-loch.html

Life Feels the Dreamer Fly: Learning How to Fly Again

2011-09-07T22:11:00.002-06:00

I have always been interested in dreams ever since I noticed what they are. Dreams seem to be a reflection of our moment to moment life. Our fears, our desires, our confusions, etc... all show up in our dreams. Dreams are another way to get to know what we are and often show hidden parts of ourselves.

I have had a tremendous amount of flying dreams throughout my life. I recently had an intense dream of this nature and like a journal I would like to write what I noticed. Who knows where it will unfold, I am just following my hearts desire in this moment.

The feeling of flying with the mind in a dream can come easily or with practice depending on the moment in life it is dreamt.

Yet, the feeling of flying in a dream is like the same feeling you get when you press the gas pedal in a car and expect it to go. When flying in a dream, the mind controlling the body is an expectation, it's not even noticed that it cant be done. In other words, I have not had a flying dream where I questioned the nature of flying as impossible. Some dreams it took a lot of effort, practice, and trial & error, but not questioned.

The thing I want to jot down here and share with myself to remember (since it feels important) is that the FEELING to fly with my mind in the dream, is still here while awake. The same feeling is as active now as it was in the dream. How curious that a feeling like this can remain while awake. It feels very much like the gas pedal example. I KNOW this feeling. This feeling has always been here, I just haven't noticed it since in wake reality it never felt important to notice it.

It never felt important because there is this thought when awake that is attached to an expectation that it will not happen. In fact, this thought comes with such an arrogance that it knows what it is and what life is with such conviction, that it says even to ponder the notion of flying with the mind is a waste of time and is not going to lead anywhere.

Yet this is not my awaking experience 100% of the time. More and more I am noticing an experience where I am so 'disorientated' that I FEEL as if anything is possible and anything can happen at any time.

Another interesting fact to note, is that when flying in the dream, I noticed a thought immediately upon flying (with a feeling of unsafety or fear) saying “What will people think of this?”. In other words, there was fear in how people will respond to seeing me fly, not fear in flying itself.

The way my mind predicted my safety and then made it okay to fly was that in the dream I was a vampire and was in a store that only vampires knew how to enter. Before the flying occurred, no thought of being a vampire was represented in the dream. It seems the mind was making things up in the dream in order to renationalized what can and cant happen. Since I was already lifting off, the mind had to make-up a rule as to why it is safe to fly when people might respond with fear to the flying and therefore render me unsafe to fly.

In other words, the quickest my mind could give a reason why it is safe to fly is based on the information I already had about vampires: vampires can fly and it is safe to fly in front of other vampires because they can fly too, they will not react with fear.

The flying seemed automatically there and before I even did it, I had the feeling of what it would be like. In the same way you have the feeling of what a glass cup feels like even before you pick the glass cup up.

Life and dreams seem to be communicating that everything is coded with information of a feeling language. Everything in our experience is made alive through feeling. Before that point, life is completely unscented as anything known. Nothing can be known without feeling it.

It always seems very transparent and flexible to any feeling. As if it's converges life to mimic the feeling you are having and makes that a reality. In other words, our complete experience is totally and fully made real through any feeling in the moment.

For example, I spend a lot of my time alone. I am surrounded by the same four walls, the same objects, the same thoughts, the same environment and overall the same experience of myself and everything around me. Yet all that can be change just by the act of feeling. Through the feeling filter of sadness, these four walls feel hopeless. Through the feeling of contentment, these four walls feel relaxed. Through the feeling of love for life, these four walls feel like a miracle.

The feelings color life and bring it to life. It doesn't matter the feeling, every feeling is the essence that brings life to life. Life comes alive through feeling. It seems without feeling, life is not really here. Without feeling, there is this silence that is dead to any conscious aliveness. A silence without feeling what the silence really is. That silence is full of feeling and flavors of infinite potential and that infinite potential comes alive through feeling.

We have gone so long without feeling that we forgot what it feels like to feel. There is something magical about feelings that can't be explained but I feel it everywhere in our world today. Everything from law of attraction, intuition, following heart, living in the moment, etc... it's all pointing to feeling again.

I had a feeling to write about this feeling of flying. It lead to this important seeing and reminder to myself and feel that blessing of that expression. I didn't intend to write this, I had no idea why the feeling was there, I just followed it.

This feeling of knowing how to fly and the feeling of it is still here. I had this dream about a week ago. As I walk, I can feel the feeling to just lift off the ground. As I lay here on my bed typing this, I can feel the feeling to float. It is there, so strong, so activated. It feels so easy. Sometimes in the mist of the feeling, my mind wonders why it's not seeing my body levitate.

I don't know what any of this means or what it is for. I just have this feeling and I am following it. I am not letting the mind make things up in order to renationalized what can be felt and what can't. I am not letting doubt, logic, or limited beliefs about what my mind thinks this is stop me from freely drawing upon my feelings in the moment and acting on them. I have no agenda, no goal, no reason... just a strong feeling that is fun to play with and curiously delighting in the feeling of it. :)

Where it goes from here is not for me to decide, it may fade the next moment. It may have lived its purpose, or it may open into something else. Who is to say, I don't.

Only will continue to follow the feeling.

"Awakening To No Identity" Ebook Revised

2011-08-22T03:48:00.009-06:00

Hello there :)

As you can tell I have some exciting news to share.

No introduction, just a little guide on the options you have to freely read it:

1. You can read the book in your internet browser, simply by clicking this link:
"Awakening to no Identity" Ebook Revised

2. If you want to save it to your computer, you can click this link and select "File" (in the top-left hand side of your internet browser) then select 'Save Target/Link As...'

3. You can download it to your computer and read it in Adobe's Acrobat Reader (click the link to download the Reader for free) by RIGHT clicking this link and selecting 'Save Target As...' or 'Save Link As...'

Enjoy!

Unrevised version can still be downloaded here.

Awakened Heart

2010-12-12T08:25:00.008-07:00

This is a copy and paste from a document called "Awakened Heart" (click link to download)
Enjoy!

Questioner: If there is only one awareness, how is it that only I can be aware of my physical pain and you cant be aware of my pain?

Nicholas: There are many (even infinite) points in awareness. Yet not one of these points are the center of awareness. Awareness doesn't have a center. 'Your' awareness is not the center, 'my' awareness is not the center. Awareness can only be separate if there are two different centers. There are only points of one awareness, no center to any point. Awareness cannot be contained. Especially in an idea about it.

Questioner: You mean no-self? There is no-self to awareness. I often hear people claim that there is no-self.

Nicholas: A self must have a center to exist as a self. Awareness is self-less. Compassion is selfless. The two are one of the same. There is nothing to claim in compassion. Compassion is a natural quality of awakening to what we are.

Questioner: This reminds me of something I once heard about awakening to the heart. Is this what you are speaking of? It seems to me that many claim awakening and they seem very awake but something seems missing.

Nicholas: Yes, there has been said to be a progress from the awakened mind into the awakened heart.

The awakened mind is awake to all the right words, it is awake to the knowledge. There is much freedom in the awakened mind, so most stop there, thinking that is it. A practice can seem to go on, but the awakened mind uses its knowledge to avoid touching the heart.

The heart is where the real work starts. It gets very challenging because it's no longer about just learning the knowledge. It's no longer about covering up the real work with the knowledge.

Once you face what you're are not and what you are not is seen, the protecting gets turned on. With this trigger activated, most will use the knowledge to avoid the feeling.

Opening up to the feeling, is the doorway to the heart. This is where true compassion is awakened as selfless. The awakened mind can be very compassionate, but it's not completely self-less. It not true compassion from the heart. The heart is selfless.

What we are truly is felt as a resonance that is known. It's not based on knowledge, only feeling. It is intuitive, instinctive, and heartfelt.

Questioner: So the feeling of something missing is accurate? I often have a difficult time knowing the difference from my mind and my intuition. But I think I am pretty good at telling if someone is coming from the awakened mind or the awakened heart.

Nicholas: We are feeling beings. Our true nature is a feeling nature. Deep down inside we all know what we are. It can be sensed. It can't be questioned. It can be sensed as a knowing without knowing how it knows because it's not based on knowledge of the mind. It is a mysterious knowing and seeing.

The fundamental clear seeing of what we are is truly seeing what everyone else is as well.

You not only know what you are but you see clearly who everyone else is too. You're either awake or not. There is no in-between. If you're awake, everyone else is seen to be that too.

Questioner: I get that everybody is already awake. But there are still ones that are awake to the mind and ones that are awake to the heart, right? I see the paradox of both being true. Everybody is awake, yet not everyone is awake.

Nicholas: Things can only look paradoxical to the mind. There is no paradox where clear seeing is seen. All paradoxes drop away because all ideas drop away. When two ideas that look opposite are both seen to be true, then there is a paradox.

However, when both ideas are dropped, there is no paradox, only truth. This is what is meant by "everything is true". When only truth remains.

Truth is simple, clear, and obvious. Paradoxes are complex, unclear, and confusing.

In the end, all ideas are dropped. Even the ideas of awakened mind and awakened heart. There are no ideas in truth. Truth speaks for itself, without saying a word.

Questioner: I heard that the point to life is to awaken. You say there is no in-between, you're awake or you're not. But how can one make that claim if they are awake?

Because you also say that if you are awake, you see everyone else as awake. So if the point is to awaken, one must be able to discern who is awake and who is not, right? If you don't know who is awake and who is not (since once awake, you see everyone as awake) then the point of awakening cannot awake others since everyone is seen to be awake.

Nicholas: If awakening is the point of life then life will see that through. Awakening others doesn't depend on an individual who is awake, since there are no individuals, there is only life. When you awaken there is nobody else to awake, everything is seen truly.

You no longer believe the thought stories in your mind, so you no longer believe the thought stories in anybody else's mind. You meet yourself and everybody else exactly as they are and what they are; life. Only life is seen.

From such a clear seeing, what life does or doesn't do is done or not done by life itself. There are no ideas of an individual that is out to awaken other individuals from their stories. There is only life simply moving.

Life simply moving doesn't move to change anything. Yet oddly enough, this undivided consciousness, this unchanging movement; changes everything and has the most impact on the whole of life.

It's not what someone says or does that changes things, it is the consciousness in which things are said and done that has tremendous awakening effects.

Therefore, even when something is not being said or done, the whole of consciousness is wholly changed.

This is why it is said "the greatest service one can do is to realize self". The greatest service is to be wholly conscious. When consciousness is wholly conscious, no separation is seen and therefore nothing is separated from that seeing. Your clear seeing, heals all distorted seeing; literally.

Every change that quantum leaped human consciousness was thanks to one human consciousness seeing itself as the one consciousness that humanity is.

One can literally change the world by doing nothing, just by being what they are. You can sit in your room and 'elevate' the consciousness of humanity just by being the one consciousness that you are. All lives are changed where the one life is seen. All lives are connected where the one life is being lived. Then what you do comes from a pure sense of what you are and changing the world through action may arise but it comes from an undivided consciousness.

If there is an urge in you or anybody to really be of service to all others, there will be a natural urge to want to awaken to what you really are, to fully awake. It is natural because the two are not separate.

Questioner: Well that seems a very powerful and rare awakening. What happened to the ordinary living of knowing what you are? Why does it have to be something extraordinary and life changing?

Nicholas: It is the only true power. True power is effortless, forceless. This power has no agenda, it is just naturally there when one clearly sees what they are.

However, it is not rare. From the perspective of the mind, it can seem too much. The mind cannot contain this, it doesn't feel worthy of it, it feels like too much expansiveness. It is impossible for the mind to even conceive of, but it is the most natural way of being.

In this natural way of being everything makes sense so an ordinary life is lived. It is ordinary in the sense that everything is naturally seen as it is, simply. There is nothing to figure out since it is the most ordinary seeing. All questions drop away since there is no questioner separate from life. It's all simply a mysterious miracle and everything makes sense as that, so no knowledge of what you are is needed. It is known as mysterious and unknowable.

All the nonduality knowledge can be set down because what speaks is not speaking from knowledge but from clear seeing.

A simple and obvious seeing, where the ordinary miracle is being seen from an extraordinary mysterious source of being. The most ordinary natural way of being. A being that can dance without pondering what the moon means, it simply enjoys the pleasure and beauty of the moon. It is grateful. Dancing in the moonlight, with the moonlight, as the moonlight.

Notifications of the Next Scheduled Satsangs

2010-11-01T08:17:00.002-06:00

Due to a spike in interest to the group 'satsang' (pointing to nonduality, enlightenment, self-realization etc...) on skype, if you are interested in receiving a notice when the satsangs will be (dates/times), please click here (http://truthgathering.blogspot.com/) to subscribe by email.

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Consciousness Being Conscious of Itself as Consciousness ~Satsang Recording 10/28/10

2010-10-28T22:35:00.000-06:00

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The Experience of Smoking as Awareness ~ Satsang Recording 10/13/10

2010-10-14T18:42:00.008-06:00

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Topics of Recorded 'Satsang': The Experience of Smoking as Awareness/ Opening Life through Listening/ The Conditioned self/ Living Consciously/ The Life Honesty/ Fully Integrated/ Living as the Awareness Completely/ The Fullness of the Presence

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Deeping the Honest Listening ~ Satsang Recording 10/10/10

2010-10-12T11:16:00.008-06:00

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Topics of Recorded 'Satsang': Listening Honesty/ Meeting Resistance/ Intelligently Approaching Repeated Conflicts/ Challenges and Difficulties/ Continuously Listening with Presence/ Meeting yourself In 'others"/ Recognizing Others as Self/ Honest Self-inquiry

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Introduction to an Honest Listening ~ Satsang Recording 9/25/10

2010-09-25T02:30:00.000-06:00

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Topics of Recorded 'Satsang': What is Time? / How To Practically Live this Knowing / Bringing Everything Back to Self / Meeting this Eternal Presence Honestly / One Awareness Perspective / Noticing to Notice / Living from the Heart / Burning Illusions

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Available for Holding Live Conference Calls on Skype about Self-Realization

2010-09-19T12:51:00.004-06:00

During the past several months many people have requested to have a live conference on skype to answer questions in a direct manner voice to voice. During the time of these requests I didn't have an available quiet space to give the calls the full attention they deserve. However, I am now accepting anyone who is interested in skyping (free phone calls over the internet) about nonduality (enlightenment, oneness, self-realize, no-self, etc...)

This is a free service I am offering, however, do to the time involved I will be asking for donations (if you have it). The amount you donate is entirely up to you based on the beneficial experience of the conference call.

For now, if you're interested, add my username: "nicholaspowiull" (without quotes) on skype and we can connect live when we are both online. Or we can arrange a date and time through the skype text chat (which is likely more productive depending on response).

Are You the Body?

2010-09-12T11:04:00.004-06:00

What claims the body/mind as being who you are? It seems the portion of thought, which is only part of the body/mind experience claims the whole body/mind as it. How can a small portion of what the body/mind is claim the whole of the body/mind as it?

This would be like the seed of an apple claiming that it is the whole apple. Yet the seed is only a small part of the whole apple. How can a part claim to be the whole? How can a thought claim the body?

Perhaps this tiny pointer can point to how false it is to claim yourself as the body through thought.

To Share or Not to Share, that is the Question.

2010-08-27T20:47:00.000-06:00

"Hi Nicholas,

To write about waves that discover water. I never can write about my absence. But you have tempted me to succumb to my vanity.
An “I” cannot say or write or claims about its non presence, or it's non-existence because there is not any need for it anymore or any "I" left to write about it's own absence. A wave that is writing about its essence the water, on the most it results in more waves and words and concepts which is all not true and useless. That what want to express its' story about awakening and the guidelines is false "i".
The side affect of writing blogs about non dual stuff and so that it is stuff merely words causing discussions in any effort trying to describe it. The purpose in to become a non thing. Impossible.
Once this is read it always give the impression there is a writer despite ones discovery. Language and concepts, opposites all the domain of language and mind.
What I am I cannot speak about, let alone talk or write about. So why then all these words and blogs? Vanity of course.
The abuse of discovery to share non-dual discovery or awakening, is vanity and always persona. There is nothing wrong or good about that, only that it is keeping the myth alive. Another dream for public attraction in name of the Rose or in name of non dual or Advaita.
Joy of existence, being, I am (without I and Am), does not feel any needs to express itself. "It" is not busy with "o lets see I want to express non duality because its fun/lol and amazing stuff"
It has then become part of the Being/the becoming - from here to there - business. As result "it" has become a concept in the enthusiasm of the writer who is not able to avoid the use of words and making new concepts and beliefs. Replaced one belief for a true living being experience (super belief:) of something or nothing; which is impersonal and does not feel anything or any needs to express its own perfection.
Fun/Lol that is trying to express it's self has nothing to do with the simple joy for there is not any need for that. That which finds its fun/lol or feels a need to write is merely the tendency; the expression of ego as vanity.
Expression of the Self does never exist cause Self does not ever express itself or find a need or a human feeling for it.
I can't know what to write about or to say about any discovery, which is an abstraction and is an object as form in time and space, like a wave, still centered as label."

In this experience here, it all equally arises and every arising is embraced since none of it is personal. Rather that arising looks like vanity or ego/persona or both or neither.. I am not concerned with any of it because none of it is of my doing. None of is personal to me.

There is a natural love to share here. A natural love that is storyless of reason or why. It seems here that there is no responsibility but a non-personal responsibility does arise with seeing the same awareness of yourself being aware everywhere. When no sufferer is seen, it moves to ease suffering. Not because suffering is real but because being aware of suffering does sometimes appear to be personal and in that appearance it does feel real and is experienced as real. It seems natural here that the universe (for lacking a better word) speaks to itself, for itself, of itself out of the love it has for itself.

Even though the sharing, the words, the concepts, the explaining; are not the cause of itself seeing itself; there is something to be said in sharing it. There seemingly appears to be a high percentage of 'happenings' unfolding of itself seeing itself from such sharing. That is how it seemed appear here.

However, as I mention, it speaks of itself to itself out of an unexplainable love for itself. It is not trying to solve or fix a problem. It's just natural, it seems, at least here. As natural as the sharing that 'you' just shared.

Audio Library

2010-08-19T13:33:00.067-06:00

Consciousness Being Conscious of Itself as Consciousness ~Satsang Recording 10/28/10

Noticing What Goes Unnoticed by Listening to the Noticing ~ Satsang Recording 10/18/10

The Experience of Smoking as Awareness ~ Satsang Recording 10/13/10

Deeping the Honest Listening ~ Satsang Recording 10/10/10

Introduction to an Honest Listening ~ Satsang Recording 9/25/10

"Man is not the doer. The depth of understanding reflects in the quality of speech." Really?

2010-08-12T20:34:00.000-06:00

"Man is not the doer. The depth of understanding reflects in the quality of speech."

Can you really understand what you are directly experiencing? In my direct experience here, I can't understand (intellectually) what I am experiencing, but it is self-evident that experience is here. It doesn't have to be understood. Understand it or not, it's still obviously here. Rather you can intellectually articulate that experience or not, it is still here. Simple and obvious, no understanding, no quality of speech needed.

Rather there is a doer or a non-doer, I have no concern with either one. I am free of having to refer to myself as a non-doer. In this experience, both are perspectives and both perspectives arise here as equal phenomenons in which I have no idea about. Rather there seems to be a doer here or not, doesn't change the raw experience that is here. I still don't know what the direct experience here is. Rather I claim a non-doer or not, it doesn't change the fact of experience being here. One can not rid of the experience or presence or hereness (whatever word you resonate with). It comes on full force without effort and therefore no effort is needed to see it.

Do You Understand?

2010-08-06T20:06:00.001-06:00

"In response to your video on NeverNotHere:

"Practicing silence" is illusory and misleading, for silence is nothing which could be perceived. This is what is repeated again and again and Nicholas is not ready to listen, because he lives in the dream of "nothing matters".

It matters, whether man understands or not that EVERY thought is illusory and not real, and this includes "practicing silence" too.

Spiritual teachers, which are supposed to be awakened, are trapped in "Nothing matters", "It is obvious", "It is your direct experience", "Let's meet in silence" and they are not aware that this is an incomplete understanding. Therefore such phrases remain as knowledge in the mind of the listener. This is how life maintains the illusory world as real to the ego. Understand mind as sound.

Do you understand?"

I never claimed "nothing matters", I never claimed to understand or have knowledge of anything, I never claimed to be a spiritual teacher.

I don't mind these labels either but it only reflect your interpretation. Which is not right or wrong, it is just another finite interpretation in the infinite interpretation that can unfold. I am not locked in on one interpretation or another, I am open to them all.

There seems to be a process to 'awakening' which has a duration, but there is no final arrival point. The closest point to an ultimate realization is realizing that there is no final arrival point. Nothing can ever be known for sure, the experiences that unfold are infinite. Truth is equally every infinite experience. There is nowhere to land or reference-point to say that you know or understand anything for sure.

There can be a resonating to what is said or not. But we cannot know for sure if our subjective experiences match since there is no way to prove subjective experience and there is no way to confirm if our subjective experiences are correct even to ourselves. Therefore nothing can ever be known for sure or trusted to be actual, even direct experience. Since experiences always come and go and yet experience itself still seems to unfold, the only conclusion there is, is that there is no conclusion. Haha Very strange but ultimately the only absolute free-fall.

The vastness of any experience is much fuller than any interpretation you can have about it. The inherent infinite nature of reality is unresolved. I see the fullness in the question mark. I leave it wide open to be as it is, whatever that is. If everything in life makes sense to you, I would question your mental health. Even what is known is questioned here because I can't know if what I know is known at all, since there is no knower to know it.

You can say that "It matters, whether man understands or not that EVERY thought is illusory and not real" but another way would be to see that the intelligence of being works by not solving anything, but by incorporating everything and working from that space of wholeness rather than separation of who understands and who doesn't.

Nicholas did not wake-up to enlightenment, nobody does. The biggest duality is that there are some who understand and some who do not understand. Everyone is being exact what they are and there is perfection in that, for how it is work any other way than the way it is working?

I just do my part in what I can and I leave the rest to the universe, for the universe is the only thing here and the only doer and yet reality is even more subtler than any idea you can have about it. It is even subtler than both ideas of doer and non-doer.

Can you fall into the not-understanding or not-knowing and free fall into that?

Of course the question is not directly to you, for nothing being said is personal and yet it can seem that way until it doesn't and no amount of "understanding words as sound" or "practicing silence" or anything else you (or I) can say or do is going to bring that about.

Why? Why? Why?

2010-08-01T17:47:00.005-06:00

If you think you know something about what is here, then you can feel sane. Only once you feel sane or label yourself as that, can you question 'other' as being insane.

Yet what is here can't be known and it is totally insanity that anybody could ever think this life is something sane. Always trying to make sense of what can not be made sense of. It is chaos here even in its simplicity.

People say that there is something stable here and hereness is a way to point to that. But even hereness is not ever really here. It's gone as soon as it is noticed as here. Where did it go to? Here. Now it is Here. Try to see the stableness of here and you will see how equally it is gone. There is nothing solid in here. Notice here and now it is here. There is not moments of time in which one moment passes into another moment. It is always here but here is so fresh and newly here that here is not the same here as it is when it is here, now it is here, fresh now, fresh here. Even the slightest noticing of what is here, is a fresh here. Here is not stable at all! Nothing here is stable, so how can one expect self to be anything stable or sane. There is nothing that is constant, not even here. Not even this presence, it's not consistently present because it's always freshly present.

If you can really get a sense of this from your direct experience, you mind will eat itself, go in shock, or give up in awe, you might than begin to question your own sanity. This is truly what not knowing is.

If you haven't questioned your own sanity, you know too much. Question the deep corner of your mind and see how far back into the corners you can go... question it until the mind folds upon itself.

This whole thing is insane. What insanity life is. And I don't even know if that is true, maybe the insanity is just here. I question it, I question everything! I know nothing for certain, NOTHING! It's crazy and nuts and nonsense, but here it is, whatever it is. Holy shit! Fuck! Wow! This whole thing is weird! What the hell is this? I just don't know! I can't know, what is to know.

"Dear Nicholas,
I like your letter - sincere and honest, it's coming from the heart, and that is why I am tempted to reply. What I want to say is that life is NOT insane, nor is it weird, or even sane per say, and this is not as complicated as it seems to be. It is simple, truly, really simple, and you DO know this as the truth. You Do know, but chose to forget. Of course, nothing “you” can do to know “what is to know” - because “you” made it, you believe in it. But the good news is what you made can be undone FOR you, and then you know the Truth as your own Self. Just know – with no question or thought of it. Simple as that."

Actually it's just a way of pointing to the subtleness of reality. The weirdness of it is just one finite subtle aspect of the infinite fullness of experiences that can unfold.

Nothing I say is truth because that cannot be spoken, one can only give representations of seeing what is already here and the truth may be directly seen but never described. Therefore nothing I say is believed or actual, yet words to give that impression.

"Thanks for your response, Nicholas!
I agree with what you say – the statements and conclusions are sophisticated and deep enough, but... totally dead. Nothing I would add here, except that just ask -why are we so tempted time after time after time to repeating our circle of suffering? Why don’t we just stop for a moment to see that what we are doing – going in circles - is indeed insane? Why don’t we just get off of that rollercoaster we are so exhausted from riding but keep doing it anyway? Why do we keep talking and thinking and arguing and agreeing, and describing ... what have you, about the truth instead of just knowing the Truth and be glad? Just firkin why???"

We all have own why's but none of them touch the vastness and fullness of what is here. The vastness of any experience is much fuller than any interpretation we can have about it. The inherent infinite nature of 'reality' is not resolvable. There seems to be a process that unfolds in realizations, but there is no final arrival point. The realizations are infinite. The closest point to an 'ultimate' realization (or seeing) is realizing that there is no final arrival point (just a constant movement of complex 'energies' in which we simplify into finite interpretations). Every realization is just a finite incompleteness of the infinite unfolding that is here. Nothing can ever be known for sure, the experiences that unfold are infinite. Truth is equally every finite experience in the whole that experience itself is. There is nowhere to land or reference-point to say that I know or understand anything for sure other than that this, whatever it is, is.

In my direct experience here, I can't understand what I am experiencing, but it is self-evident that experience is here. It doesn't have to be understood. Understand it or not, it's still obviously here. Rather you can intellectually articulate that experience or not by answering the questions of why, it is still here. Simple and obvious, no understanding needed, no why questions need answers. One can not rid of the experience or presence or hereness (whatever word you resonate with). It comes on full force without effort and therefore no effort is needed to see it. Everything else is an 'overlay' of the simple effortlessness of this.

"Dear Nicholas. The least I would expect as a response to my “Why people keep talking about the Truth rather than just knowing the Truth and be glad?” was an another sophisticated and long answer. Amazing! Yes, the Truth CAN be known, and needs to be known – not intellectually, but directly. All we need to do is just shut up and listen"

In my experience here, I used to talk about it for many reasons that were ego stimulated.

Yet, when the 'heart awoken' (as a way of speaking), there's a natural love that automatically, naturally, and spontaneously effortlessly flows out. In this experience here, it's a love that can't be described since it is storyless without reason or why, but it seems to move in the direction of sharing itself with itself (for lack of better words).

However, I am quite content with not sharing since I see I am not needed, but sharing happens or it doesn't, there is no why. I see you're still sharing too and I am delighted of that. :)

"Of course we share

Why are you saying you are not needed? How do you know that? Sharing is a great and rewarding thing - only sharing can be satisfactory. But there is a fine line though – a razor edge. Coming from the ego, the idea of so called “sharing” becomes a trap giving a false impression of being the epicenter of all the true and the best for humanity – maniac idea that causes tyranny, wars and everything else of this sort. This is a realm of hell. When trying to share, see for yourself whether it gives you joy or otherwise – be honest and sincere in your inquiry."

Not needed, I don't mean that in a apathy sense. It's just a seeing that I am not the center of the universe and without 'me' the universe still universes. I am not here because I am needed. I am here like that of a flower, quite naturally.

Yes what I am calling love, you are calling joy; same thing. Love is joy in a manner of speaking.

"Love is joy in a manner of speaking" - perfectly said!

Interviewed by Richard Miller at NeverNotHere

2010-07-13T15:17:00.003-06:00

This video interview is about 1 hour and 20 minutes. In order to support Richard, his site, and this interview, please post your comments about the video on his site. I will reply 'personally' to every comment:

http://www.nevernothere.com/forum/friendship-18-nicholas-powiull

A Simple Exercise: Seeing the Love that You Are

2010-07-08T18:42:00.002-06:00

"i don't understand how to get loved?
i always want to know what to do if you know that you are not wrong than also all the person in circle of you were saying you had done wrong. if i want to do something good for them they take it in wrong way and say you are selfish. you had discussed about perspective, but what if your perspective of life cant fit with anyone's mind? if i always had to face the situation in which you are shouting but no one listening to your view, instead they try to make you feel that you are worth for nothing."

You can't get love from others, it's a lost cause. Either love is there or it is not. The problem isn't one of "nobody loving me" it's one of mistaken identity. Next time a thought comes up that "nobody loves me because they think I am wrong" look at that thought and notice what is aware of that thought. Don't move to do anything with that thought, just let the thought be and just notice it being. Notice how the thought is thought and then it fades away. When there is no effort to do anything with it or manipulate it in any way, there seems to be nothing attached to it. Notice how quickly it dissolves when you just become aware of it.

Keep doing this with all thoughts, just let them be and notice what is aware of them being. Notice how without this awareness the thoughts couldn't be because this awareness is the opening in which allows every thought. It just allows every thought. It doesn't think about what is thought, it doesn't try to get rid of the thought, it doesn't move to make the thought feel better.... it just simply notices the thought and watches it fade.

Eventually there will be this seeing that all thoughts are temporary but what notices all thoughts is not temporary, it is permanent and it is whole, complete, full, and unconditionally loving to everything it witnesses. It doesn't need love outside itself because it loves everything outside itself and it is the giving of love. That giving of love is so abundant that it doesn't need love, it is love itself.

I know this is difficult to see from the perspective of how the world looks to you right now, but give this exercise a try:

Everytime you can consciously think of it, rest as the witness that sees the thoughts and yet do nothing with them. You will begin to see that it's not about your perspective of life not fitting with anyone else s mind, but that it's thought being identified with as more than just thought.

Notice how when you believe the thoughts that happen, immediately there is an intense emotion that comes with it. However, when you just notice the thoughts and do nothing with them, they seem dead and hold no energy. Notice how free you are of what anybody else thinks of you because you don't believe your thoughts. Notice how the only problem is believing thoughts and how there is nothing wrong when thoughts are just being aware of. You are free to be in this world just as you are and others are free to be as they are too and there is no conflict because resting as the witness of every thought, this world is no longer made-up of what thoughts seem to be happening, but made up of the space in which notices thoughts.

Try this first thing in the morning, in the afternoon, on your way home, and everytime in between. Rest as awareness everytime you think about it. Notice how every thought is proof-positive that there is an awareness seeing it. Without awareness there would be nothing aware of any thought. It is the foundation and it never moves.

Be sure to let me know how it goes. :)