C'est la vie

The ever glorious new design museum.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sat, 17 Dec 2016 21:44:00 +0000

Design museum with chicas-

so the museum has been relocated to High St Kensington. I went to previous one, twas okay but smaller than the newly-opened building.

I decided to take my global pal students to design museum as we all are in graphics, it would probably be relevant to us at some point. we agreed to spend a day sightseeing around galleries & museums in London but only got to cover 2 on the day itself (sad emoji face pls)

anywhooo, these are some of the shots I managed to capture on the day. ya'll get a brief glance on the interior of the museum but ya'll need to be there to see it for yourself lol. the museum is DOPE.

yours truly,

I bake when I'm sad.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 24 Jul 2016 17:57:00 +0000

Look at what I made last night! they were amazing. I made about 12 batches of them, recipe by my fav queen, Jemma wilson @jemmacupcakes. so to tell you the story behind making this, I was so sad yesterday. An odd feeling I usually get when I lose something. It was the exact same feeling from the time when I lost my 2 lovely cats in 2012 or losing my bestfriend (not to death but we sort of not click anymore and each of us on our own now) The kind of feeling that you get when someone you that you liked finally responded back,

with a wedding invitation.

I turned down his invitation, due to the fact that I am 12000 miles away from home. but then, even if were at home like right now, I'd still be so reluctant to go. It feels so odd. I love him, he loves her. seeing them walking down the aisle is just weird. I don't know. He was my classmate during high school. I guess I just didn't put so much of efforts hence the invitation. or I'm just a tad bit late, or we're just not meant to be. to tell you the truth, the feeling is not intense but I could feel as if I was bleeding inside when I got invited. Apparently he loves her for quite a while, so maybe it's just me, catching feelings of my own. it got me mad and sad and heartbroken, possibly demotivated too. I used to tell 1 person about this thing, which was..well my bestfriend. the fact that we're drifting apart now, I can't cry on her shoulder anymore. no more sharing pain, sharing tears. oh well.

So the cuppies are basically driven by a heartbroken. I decided to cheer myself up by making those. I've been taking refuge in baking lately from this mad world, largely inspired by my favorite baker Raiza costa & Jemma wilson. they both are amazing <3

When something bad happens to me, I usually over-contemplate the whole situation, trying to make sense out of it. and usually, it doesn't end very well, I make it look like it's all about me. it was all my fault. I didn't put so much of effort on this and that, if i were to do this then this should have happened instead, you know. that kind of a resentment. I realize that it's not GOOD to put myself down, my conscience hit me hard enough everytime I do that like ~~bitch~~ really, no one's going to help you when you put yourself down.

So i blasted Lenka's playlist while baking & sipping coffee last night and pretend that life's good, all went well, i'm fine. I woke up this morning with neck ache (ugh yea, life's good right?) I guess i gotta absorb all of these emotions to know what real life feels like. meanwhile, I'll get to finish 12 batches of cuppies on my own.

P/S : I JUST SPILLED A BOWL OF CARBONARA FOR A PAIR OF SPOON & FORK EARLIER, YES. I'm not sure if i just turn out to be so clumsy or life's being lowkey bitch to me but hey. it's still good, isn't it? I didn't die. so..

life's good, life's good life's good (gotta chant this million times until life's being genuine good to me)

MOBILE SAUNA IN LONDON

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Wed, 20 Jul 2016 10:24:00 +0000

Hello again!

I have so much time at home now, quite chilling but NOT chilly.

I swear yesterday had almost got me killed. the heatwave was so enormous that I couldn't tell whether I was in the UK or back home!

Okay one reason could of be that because I have had a terrible homesick issue, idk lol. but to tell you the truth, i had a monologue throughout the day from "sunny-to-lovely-to-okay that's cool london we all been enjoying the sun now you can shade yourself-to-omg wow i know you're chuffed to see us all but really, it's starting to heat up here in london-to-PLEASE STAHP i'm meltinggg". My face was flustered red yesterday you could almost tell that it felt like a sauna. Apparently yesterday was the hottest day of the year, it was the same in Bristol. I got home when it was already dark and the kitchen felt like someone has left the hob open for 24 hours! I got up today and decided to leave the kitchen door open to cool it down a bit. (the perks of having no window in your kitchen)
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anyways, coming back. yesterday was the most impromptu trip over the history of impromptu trip that I had so far in my life. I booked the coach ticket on Monday and hop on the bus on tuesday but to tell you the truth, London isn't hard at all if you even think of coming there by yourself, as long as you have underground app on your right and oyster card (travel card) on your left hand!

I had been longing to pay a visit to Tate for Mona Hatoum's exhibition. I was informed that she works mostly on large-scale installations and performances, something peculiar from what I would normally do as a student but then again, our careers are different. she's an artist and i'm a designer. I have been reminded to always seek inspirations from creative people that do works outside of my nature so I was pretty excited to see what does she have to offer. Apart from bearing the heat ever since I got into the bus at 7.45 AM (lol yes, not even kidding), everything was pretty amazing. My first destination yesterday was uniqlo in oxford st as I needed to exchange a dress. so right after that, I got onto a train from Bond St to St Pauls cathedral as there is a bridge (Millenium bridge) that connects directly to Tate Modern)

(some goods that I purchased from my trip to London yesterday except for the small booklet, I got it for free prior to entering the exhibition)

(Walking from St Pauls cathedral to Tate via milennium bridge. Tate is the building on the perspectives, the one that has a panel of 3 holes)

(scenery from the bridge. I have this picture on instagram, much nicer than this one i suppose haha, of course. with a touch of vscocam and voilah, you'll get the most hipster image in the history of hipster images. so you can see some of the landmarks here and of course, that includes tower bridge)

(there there, you can see the banner!)

I was so ready with my camera when I was reminded by the guard in the entrance that no pictures allowed. aw man. I went in nevertheless and spent a good 35 minutes there. (though the time allowed was only half an hour)

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My experience and rating for the exhibition was 7/10 which is good! I enjoyed it, despite a few incomprehensible concepts and tiny bit of explicit contents (I didn't understand their connections) but the rest got me astounded, no jokes. obviously because of the huge installations and concepts that provoke the way I think, it doesn't always go parallel with my ideology but that's what exhibition meant to teach you! and because camera was not allowed, i didn't get to share my sights inside the exhibition but I would recommend this exhibition to art enthusiast! If i were to share the concept that Hatoum brings forward then I may need a whole new post dedicate to it but to simply put here, £12.70 for an exhibition that I really enjoyed was not a waste.

I left the hall feeling the need to purchase something as a proof that I was there. So I got myself a digital print of Inaash Twelve windows, one of her installations in the hall. (print on the first image).

next destination would be V&A museum in South Kensington. I got on to the same tube that brought me to Tate from St Pauls stop all the way to south kensington. so along waiting for the train, I had no idea that it will be blazing hot af that people in suit & tie decided to loosen up their ties and roll up their sleeves. (cuci mata kaw2, i swear) I'm not sure about other people but I personally find it attractive for a man to do stunts like that (okay apart from seeing their peluh la kan) BUT, not that I did not lower my gaze or anything, it was more like skimming the station and accidentally caught them while doing that. Muka memang la buat poker face tp dalam hati i was like piss off mate whyyy SO. HOT. okay dah jangan pandang, eh terpandang lak. eh terpandang lagi. SHIZ STOP IT alreadyyy."

right.

so when the train was finally there, i got onto it and off to south kensington. I arrived at the stop and walk underground to the museum, it was a LONG.BLOODY.WALK like wow. i did not expect that but okay, I kept on walking. long story short, I scanned the room of V&A, amazed by Napoleon & Josephine's belongings in the room, walked more, encountered with islamic middle east hall but unfortunately it was closed for maintenance. will re-open on July 23rd. to be honest, my experience in V&A was not as nice as tate. I was expecting more for this museum but the bookshop itself was appalling. probably because there was nothing that caught my attention in a second but also, the fact that it is a public museum that keeps past archives and not of contemporary art, that didn't get so much of my attention. I would personally rate 5/10. but again, getting to see belongings by past leaders were amazing! it made me contemplate and take me back to the era when the leaders were still alive! (hence the reason why I gave half, else it could be lower than that)

I just regret the fact that the middle eastern hall was closed because if it was open then maybe I could have stayed longer in V&A.

and so, after a long, no chill walks to V&A museums, covent garden, borough market (my favorite spot!) I'm back to Victoria. but I left V&A around 4ish PM yesterday and looking at how much time left there, I decided to cancel my plan to Camden because it's about 10 rides & 1 transit away. the peak hours in london are something you DO NOT want to risk. really. I went back to Victoria about an hour early so plenty of time there to get something to eat. (my mom nagged me for not taking at least breakfast but I sort of understand her frustration though lol and it was my fault anyway.)

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I think the most favourite thing that I like about coming to London is observing the community and people who are on and off the train. London is a multi-cultural city, somehow it makes me feel good that everyone embraces anyone who come to the city with open hands because honestly, it's not the same in every city in the UK. My train rides yesterday were good despite the sauna (yes, I got out with puddles underneath my baju kurung.) I think it's rather peculiar to start talking to strangers in the train, sometimes I feel the urge to try but never get to do so. I just do not want to get labelled odd. maybe it's not the norm trend in a big city like London, maybe I think too much about getting judged or maybe I'm not used to starting a conversation with strangers. MAYBE. right. I hope each one who reads my blog will get to see the world as much as I do because really, experience is the best teacher.

The question that gets me everytime.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 17 Jul 2016 20:45:00 +0000

Probably the only time that I get to blog about my life before hibernating for (let's say...) another 6 months?

oh hello everyone.

I know it's been aaaages since I had my last post. life has really taken its toll on me, I guess I really enjoy observing people's life (til this day, yes) that i sometimes forgot to attend to my own and document my life. not like a great documentation but you know, basically blog about it.

Anyway, I'll do my best whilst still have the chance to do so--

I'll just cut to the chase for this one because I probably wouldn't have much time to pay attention to my words bit by bit to explain.

I'm working right now as of summer break, which started about a month and a half ago. i've been working for at least a month now I guess? I work from house to house, doing cleaning and babysitting. And for anyone who knows me well, babysitting job is almost too impossible for me to begin with. a couple of legit reasons that I can think of right now would be:-

• I hate kids, no offence. no wait, hate is such a strong word. I highly dislike kids.
• I can't attend to their needs as much as I do to myself, obviously due to our age gaps but then I'm sensing that I'm not as complicated as kids maybe?
• I highly dislike kids. (again, goes to show how I can't form a strong connection with kids, really.)

and basically right now, I do babysitting and cleaning. sorry I thought i'd repeat that just so you guys can remember and try to connect the dots. now coming to the explaining bit, I had to accept the job as I'm looking to purchase an iPad, a reading & designing tool for me, i find it quite essential to engage with digital tools such as that. another reason would be to of course, pay my bills and food. I thought it would be really fun and challenging (which it DOES) for me to try a new job so I was like okay why not.

turn out it was as complicated as i THOUGHT, yes. (FML, right?)

I only require to work during the weekends (Saturday & sunday) so I guess it's not that bad at all. Only issue that I find so hard to deal with is the kids themselves, I guess I kinda could tell from the very first day that I may not be able to form a strong connection with them. Most of the time I just let them do their own thing -- basically on an Xbox or computer but problem relies on their attention & attitude. they are 9 & 7, a boy and a girl respectively. They're nice and behaved well so far, of course they've had arguments between them (this is the interesting bit) to which I try not to side either one and sometimes it went from "guys, knock it off" calmly to "y'all are seriously getting on my nerves now" calmly. too bad the "calm" mood in this case is because I have a serious "malas nak layan" attitude so whenever they go from #siblinggoals to cranky and beast mode, I would just "pape la korang, asalkan jangan baling pisau." (that's how bad my malas-nak-layan attitude)

long story short, I sat down with their mom earlier and we spoke. sisters conversation, they're a muslim family. as we finish our food, the mom suddenly goes

"Why are you so quiet?"

woah, thank god I've finished my food when she asked that.i've had mixed feelings-- not knowing what to answer.

and I have to admit, that this is the question that gets me everytime.

I may not know how to answer this, the words seem to tangle to each other in my mind. they're like cluster of random toys in a chest box that when I try to pick the right one, I end up picking a different toy and upset myself that I am unable to pick the right word to say it.

I'm not sure about you guys but what I see in someone is that, if a person mostly don't talk much or not being talkative or basically *quite* an introvert in this sense, the person may have encountered with many things in her life by observing or she had a first experience herself. and even if this is half-true, it's completely true for ME.

I have no accurate answer as to why I am who I am now but the leading factors are somehow everything that I went through from 2012 - now. I guess early to mid 20s are the peak stage where you learn so much about life that you may end up calibrating yourself into..idk, someone new? This may not be the same case to everyone but I could tell some people who are on the same boat as me. coming back to what I just said from the beginning, i enjoy looking at people's life attentively (though they may not realize this but the smallest details out of their life, yep. I can see and remember them)

Coming back to the conversation, I smiled and simply answered "I guess I'm a listener. I like to listen to people more than do the talking. Another thing is because I pick my word carefully so I wouldn't mumble or fall into that category when I talk to people."

I'm not sure (again) if this had happened to anyone of you out there but sometimes when I am eager to talk (which rarely happens to new people that I just met about 20 minutes ago?) I sometimes had a pang in the head saying "oh my god dini you start to mumble now. you shouldn't have said that, now you need to continue this bullshit into something you do not wish to tell people." and sometimes, I even end up spilling my own secret (oops.)

I genuinely hope that the situation above won't happen to anyone that I just met, imagine how awkward it can get to start pouring too much of shits to people, that even start judging you?

Last but not least, I've been into so much of bullshits lately. I guess my silence is just part of learning not to care anymore. I guess I'm just so used to adapting this new habit into my life that whenever people are expecting me to do the talking, I'll just sit there and look at them like ..

I hope that explains. feel free to drop a comment down below if you think my post does make sense to you (something you can relate to your life or reflect to yourself, maybe?)

2015 and anything in between.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sat, 02 Jan 2016 21:10:00 +0000

hey guys!

now that the year has wrapped up, I'm actually glad mainly because I think last year was the worst year of all time. If I could describe it in 3 words, it would be TEARS AND JOY. I guess excluding my time in Malaysia, I didn't enjoy the year so much but they were getting better towards the end. Fuh. The early phase of the year was so different from the previous years mainly because (i think) I had to learn on the real deal of getting my shit together. I say that almost everyday. but far from what I would have expected. things are easier said than done, aren't they? also, my financial crisis earlier last year was too bad. I remember not eating for a couple days because my bank account has dropped to negative (JUST IMAGINE THAT MAN) I don't know how the hell did i survive but I did. a while after that, I went to Amsterdam with nisa, francesca & Nadia. also, i did a short film for UWE promotion for Taylor's. this was another embarrassing moment of my life lol. I attempted a couple of word with the best accent i could imitate but they just failed miserably. I wouldn't want to see myself in ANY sort of video in future anymore, thankfully my part was really short. so I don't have to endure so much of a shame fame out of it. I hope no one would show it to me anymore, not until I've finally graduated from UWE lol. (i hate myself) - Apparently another friend of mine showed it to me just now. I haven't seen myself in the video for like months now and the arsehole was just there ready to ruin my day -.- thanks so much. some other things like my friendship with people around me. some of them turned pretty well, some of them just drifting apart. That happens in mid 20s so whatev. also, the fact that I'm drifting apart from my best friend of 5 years was another reason for me to hate 2015. the last time we talked was in November 2014, he did not reply to my last message (I should have sent those to The Last Message Received on Tumblr) so none of us has actually had initiated any sort of conversation after that. I don't know why. I hope he doesn't read this but if he does, don't blame me. I do not know where did it go wrong. We talked again last night and that was because I needed to talk to someone. I might have fallen myself to a mild level of depression since winter break. I miss my family, I miss my best friend. I'm starting to hate life (not completely, but you know. when life puts me down) and those embarrassing moments that made me just want to kill myself.

Thanks 2015.
I've grown bigger, better, bolder and stronger.

sincerely,
dini H.

Food photography attempt 1

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Tue, 29 Dec 2015 00:37:00 +0000

Hey guys!

I've been wanting to master a food photography skills looking at how mutual our relationship is to each other. (I mean, I love food to the extend I figure out I would do just fine if i don't end up getting hitched. I've been trying so many recipes ever since the holiday started which got me extra joyous because I know I can definitely make something for myself without having to spend extra cash. Some of the recipes that I've tried for the past couple of weeks include

• MEXICAN FLAN (this is what this post will be about! hang on)

• Victoria Sponge (recipe by BBC Food)

• Madeilene

• Roasted Chicken (this is basic but I did make this during christmas dinner with my flatmates)

• Hainanese Chicken Rice (i can't unsee the asian in me, can't i?)

I'm very happy knowing that I've done something useful for my own survival. I think when I finally good at cooking and baking, I would wanna try (or DREAM, haha) of having my own cooking show :D (still getting there, I hope someone out there would NOTICE me) and to start doing that is by constantly improve and document my skills on the ever so famous platform, MY BLOG. I think I would wanna try to make my own website of food and recipe. (i mean like, WHY NOT?)

coming back to the first thing,

This is what I made today. Actually, there's a sad story behind what drove me to make this. I was supposed to be having a private spanish lesson from this guy named Javier. It took me about 2 hours to finally get this done and I have several batches made in the kitchen just to serve this tutor guy a meal. Long story short, he didn't turn up. actually he did, but he left 2 MINUTES AFTER I SHOWED UP. (what an ordeal, right?)
I was wondering why but I did left my phone number to him and of course, I was expecting a call. but he did not call me. partly because i think it was my fault, I told him 5 minutes prior to 1 that I'd be turning up abit late (which ISN'T suppose to be a major misunderstanding) and mostly because of his fault. he did not have the credit to ring me or well, you know. go to facebook to check my messages. I don't have his phone number as well which is the major disaster. I have the feeling that I'm not going to be so click with this guy so I don't know. i might cancel my lessons with this guy. apart of having an impatient attitude, I don't think I will ever be click with him. EVER. so I guess the whole incident just turned my first impression of this guy bad. I mean, my accommodation is in the city centre and this guys could have had bought a small credit out of courtesy to call me and let me know? I don't know. I just don't feel like I will want to deal with this guy again.

so that's the story. call me a snowflake, whatever you want. but the first time always matter to me. if you don't show a good attitude on the first basis then, there's nothing good about you on the second, third, fourth or thousand times.

sooo, coming back to my food. I feel like this is somewhat a blessing in disguise. I've been wanting to make this again since the last christmas dinner but I feel like I will make a huge mess in the kitchen haha, so I delayed. and delayed. annnd it's dec 29th. woah. what? 2 days before 2016? aw man. I'm so not ready yet ready for future challenges. whops. sorry I get distracted easily haha. about food, yeap.

You can always get the recipe online, I got mine from Allrecipes.com (HERE, Sweetie)and to be perfectly honest, I'm mostly in favour with BBC Food and Allrecipes.com or sometimes a youtube channel. I have a few on my fav list, one of them is laura's kitchen. good stuff there and a great chef too.

so it's called mexican flan because obviously, that's where it came from. I saw the spanish version of this flan (well, don't even get me started with the colonization history between these 2 places, you can always google it up) as you may (or not) predicted from the picture, flan has a jiggly texture almost like creme brulee or caramel pudding, difference is, it's easier to make than both latter compared! they're also

• Alcohol-free
• Gelatin free
• Suitable for vegetarian because it only used the by product of animals.(no, NOT VEGAN)

You guys should definitely try it. on the other hand, I think food photography attempt should have NOT used filter at all. I just want to see the fade effect in it (from lightroom) and I kinda like it. What do you guys think? actually, this isn't actually my first attempt. I have had a food post a couple months ago (yes! you should check!) where I tried to quickly prepare props on the table and of course, applied a bit of FADE effect on it as well. (i sound like I'm addicted of using effect on my photography but not really err. *LIE) but yeah. have a joyous new year everyone!

sincerely,

Dini H.

Home Alone.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 20 Dec 2015 13:30:00 +0000

Hey guys!

I was left alone in the flat basically. My housemates are mostly going home for Christmas & vacation AND.. i guess i'm just not ready to take a solo trip like right about now (well, at least the excuse right now is to save some pennies coz I'm going to Spain next month lol)

I generally take times like this as a therapy for me to do something that will make myself happy without being dependent on the other souls. My closest housemate, Sarah-Jane just left to Dublin yesterday so today marks the first "therapy" day for me.

I decided to take a walk to city centre & (possibly) drop my laundry at the nearest launderette, with supervision. ya know, like the usual "dobi" (as it is known in malaysia) It's one of my fav sweater that I got from Uniqlo and I know I might actually ruin it if I wash it by myself so I needed help. whatevs. It was raining when i left the house. I decided to get back home and pray, 10 minutes after, the rain stopped and I walked out of the house again. (oh wow, am i giving some sort of timeline here?) no actually, I just wanted to explain how my day went by today lel.

Project today is to get them ovens grind with some baking projects (actually, just a basic choc chip cookies). So I went to about 3 places to get some ingredients (actually, the other one was irrelevant but let's just say I've had a fruitful day by actually going around to a few places this morning)

about 2 hours and a half later (or maybe more) I have my ingredients ready and food stocks up to 2 weeks, jamie told me that no stores would be operating during christmas time so I guess i just did myself a favour. She told me that right after I'm done with my shopping :D :D (instinct says it all)

so long story short, I'm in the kitchen with my measuring scale ready to make something for movies tonight (movie la konon, I had a rather bad headache last night so no :( )

pictures pictures.

first batch. i got so excited to even DISREGARD the lighting consistency haha. I'm sort of feeling festive right now because hey, that's what a winter time for! I guess everything that I make for myself usually works out well, I made my first batch of M&M cookies back in malaysia and it tasted gross. (yuck! probably because of the excessive butter that yields too much of water)

second batch (baked). I'm so happy I get to do things like this without having anyone to judge me about how much time do i have in my hands to prepare a rather tedious ingredients, from scratch. I mean, that's okay if you don't feel like making a comfort food for yourself but never EVER look down on someone who takes effort this far to make food for happy tummy okay. people always have something to talk about in a very disapproval manner. Though they usually aren't meant to belittle my effort, I feel as if they were thinking that it's not something I should think about or make effort for because YOU HAVE 99 PROBLEMS AND THIS AINT ONE. aw come on. I mean, I take every single & littlest things seriously. is that even a problem?

phew. Excuse the short rant. I got too carried away.

The point of this post is not about how one could enjoy a day by small things. (well, that of course could be) but the most important element in survival skill is to enjoy the company of your own-self. You don't need to have someone to make you happy, to make comfort food for and with, (yes i know I've been saying this thing for so many times). I'm still learning. this is one of the things that I learn. friends are friends but of course, if you get to see someone that doesn't go parallel to your relevancy then maybe..just maybe you should start seeking the solitude therapy. i'm so glad ( Alhamdulillah) that I've learned this since day 1 in the uk. This might be an overstatement but you gotta need it, sooner or later.

now folks, with that being said, I'm done with my rant. I'm planning to make cupcakes & (possibly) planting an indoor succulents. Here's a sad story of my flower that I bought from tesco. no, not the quality that I want to share but how careless I am to not water the plant since i am being forgetful and always on the go. I wake up in the morning, goes somewhere (arnolfini/bower) do things of my own that isn't necessarily has to do with the plant and the next thing that I know .. the plant is DEAD

(imagine a mourning scene in a black suit, dark background)

I'm afraid to even get more plants now (having seen how irresponsible I can be)

until next time.
always remember to put yourself first before anyone else. (I AM REMINDING MYSELF, NO BUTTHURT REMARKS INTENDED HERE)

additional remarks will be added somehow. who knows?

2016 in less than 3 weeks.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Wed, 16 Dec 2015 17:47:00 +0000

hey guys!

I seriously cannot believe myself that I'm standing (in this case, writing) at the end of 2015. wow. It feels like yesterday that I just met with new people, living together with my germany & spanish housemates. I don't know whether this should be a good thing; not realizing that a year has gone by and what?

THE JOURNEY OF MY LIFE HASN'T EVEN STARTED.

Like, the journey that totally changed my life perspective. I know I have been saying things like oh how I think UK has been the changing point where I could finally see things differently. Of course it does! I mean, with each new destination, you'd get a new experience yourself, amiright? I'm 22 and as chanted by Taylor swift, I know i should have done something really OUTRAGEOUS-yet-paradoxically fun like changing the world (that's too ambitious, keep your head down.)

but i really mean it though. I'm 22 right now and I have not done something that could potentially help the world to make a better place or just simply become a better ME by taking that leap adventurous of my life. I shall do it by 23, really. and that's why, fellow readers, I'm writing this just to let myself (foremost) aware that I have soo so much to achieve that I have 7 years away from becoming 30. I want to achieve so many things yet so little time. (Everyone says that) and that's why you can't cross of your bucket list once at a time. you have to do it multiple at once! like what?

JOURNEY TO NEW YORK. (Summer 2016)

Yes. I think I'm very certain by this. I need to go to New York and feel my 'Merican dream by 23. I need to see the world, well at least at certain places that I'm familiar with when I was a child like San Francisco, Manhattan, Los Angeles, Washington D.C, Dallas, Mexico (Oh wow, did i just list down the whole continent? lel)

But yeah, I gotta do it. It's once in a lifetime experience. And if I can't do it with someone then I'll do it by myself. (wooo) like how bad can it be if i go by myself? Not trying to underestimate the struggles, rather look at the positive view.

Next big thing would be..

INTERNSHIP EITHER IN LONDON OR NEW YORK OR BRISTOL

I need to try this, step up my design challenges and get another marvellous experience fo sho. I know i sound a bit too crazy about NY, I've been wanting to go there for like ages! I feel like there's something about NY that I need to see, shame that I don't live in the 70s nor 60s era because that's when NY rose to fame and being the talk of the town so much (breakfast at Tiffany's right?)

PART TIME JOB IN BRISTOL

this has got to be real realistic. If i need to see the world, I gotta earn some cash. In order to earn some cash, I gotta look for a part time job right? Imma try this, like this is my alternative plan if I couldn't get any internship here. i'll try my best to stay in Bristol, afford my own living cost and do whatever that is left undone before I finally graduated. (omg, this is too hard to churn because I don't wanna)

SECURE MY JOB OPPORTUNITY ABROAD AFTER GRADUATING

still a long way to go but i gotta start make that GIANT leap starting next year. I will work twice harder than I did to achieve whatever that I could and make sure that I can finally be someone out there, a graphic designer who knows her way to achieve a great design outcome and perfectly capable under any circumstances.

finally, maybe..just finally. (If i ever am ready)

SETTLE DOWN WITH A PURELY LOVING AND UNDERSTANDING HUSBAND WITH MAYBE 2 KIDS OF MY OWN..

NOT.

I don't think I'll ever be ready for this so let's skip that, shall we? I'll focus on more things to be done in 23 so yea..

this is going to be a long list so I'll continue more soon when I've finally come to my senses and know what I'm doing.

(To be updated..)

Once in a blue moon.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Tue, 15 Dec 2015 16:29:00 +0000

Hey guys,

I haven't been able to write anything lately due to my schedules (to which i hope I did not worry nor bother anyone here GIVEN that I really have an actual audience waiting for my post once in a while ha!)

fecourse, I have a plenty handful of updates to chuck in my post today :D I've just finished watching the very old classical-culturally-acclaimed movie, Breakfast at Tiffany's. You guys don't know how much I am addicted to Audrey Hepburn right now. Like, just that 1 movie and the next thing that I know is that I'm looking for more of her films! She has the attitude that reflects who i am in Breakfast at Tiffany's to which I guess, maybe it's the time to embrace my TRUE self. (right, guys?)

so if you haven't watched BAT (yes, breakfast at tiffany's fecourse), pleaseee grab a handful of popcorn now and just sit for that 1 movie. oh and guess what, (spoiler alert!), I was crying like a baby at the very last scene when she let go her poor little slob ginger cat under the pouring rain :'( (goes to show my love for felineees guys!)

that of course, being the first update.

2nd one, I'm working REAL hard (like, i mean deeply, intensely with handful of stress minus depressed) to at least get an intern opportunity in New York or like (you know) a real JOB so I would finally get to settle down in 'Merica. BAT really does affect me in my life decision though haha. Actually, I happen to decide that I wanted to stay in New York before the movie so that's just another icing on the cake, really. :D :D May He ease me, In shaa Allah.

3rd one, I know it's a bit too late to mention this but my academy block is no longer in Bower Ashton now. It's in the Arnolfini, which is right by the harbourside. the breezy weather there sometimes drives me crazy but I just love the place! very conducive and accessible to pretty much anything. also, because I get to avoid that one guy *cough cough* that I've had no much of interest in but he seems to not get any hints (poor lil man :()

4th, I'm starting a business real soon! (or not too REAL, but hey. I've something my mind right now!) I might be venturing into some sort of graphics / planting business given that I've had quite an experience working in the sector before. I'm just glad that I've done a brief part time in NC, i've really had polished some sort of skills over there.

5th, OOTD! yeah. This is real hard to even come out with, I've finally had the guts to try turban given the cold weather right now.

This was taken by my partner in crime alas flatmate, sarah-jane. She's so used taking this sort of OOTD so i guess she deserves the credit! :D

soo, from top to bottom

1. Primark - Turban / loop scarf
2. H&M - a very cosy and warm black scarf wrapping my neck. I got this from H&M Malaysia before my Beijing trip back in 2013. I rarely use it i swear but this is just about the right time for me to wear it.
3. Topman - Maroon jacket (guess what? only £3! good bargain i knoww)
4. Padini - pants. (i swear I don't remember whether it's Padini or the small company within Padini but I know i got this from SCM, Malaysia)
5. Buttonsmybuttons - a pair of my fav denim shoes since July 2015. I think it's almost worn out now that I've been wearing it everyday but hey! if there's a way to fix it, I think i would haha. Call me spoilt kid but this is my first pair of shoes using my own cash. I think that's why I value it so much?

I have moooore updates to chuck in here but I can't seem to recall, really. I'll try increase the level of tendency to post stuff here since (I knoww) it's been too long since my last post haha.

Ciao!

http://www.dinihairuddin.com

KRABI 2015

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Fri, 21 Aug 2015 12:51:00 +0000

I haven't been writing stuff for quite a while though most of the time, I feel the need to tell everyone what's going on in my life. So recently, I went for a short vacation to Krabi with a number of new friends and a friend from Taylor's. It didn't took us long to get to know each other and started making a bad jokes on each other lol. I'm like the quietest among the rest coz my jokes aren't that cool and I don't joke about people so much coz I'll feel bad right after. And the trip gathered us from a different background (Design, Health Science, Environmental Science & Engineering) which is good because I think we complement to each other, don't you think? coming back to the story, the vacation was fun! Wish I could go back, really.

Flower To The People 2015

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Fri, 07 Aug 2015 05:51:00 +0000

Hello everyone!

I would like to apologize for the long hiatus for I am busy with some remarkable events of my life (which also include RAYA celebration / eid with the fam) and MOST of the time, I'm just plain lethargic after coming back from work (though it shouldn't be the CASE here heuuww. It's one of many reasons why I stopped writing for a while so I hope it does sound reasonable.)

Moving on.

I don't know what has gotten into my mind since I arrived in Malaysia (technically 2 and a half months ago) I blew my savings doing things that I like to do here (note : PASSION) which includes

1. paying for KRABI trip from 16/8- 19/8 (YES I'M STOKED!)

2. Paying for a bespoke bouquet workshop about last week (2/8/2015) which I will be covering about in a bit.

I was going to list down the 3rd reason why I run out of savings but then I wouldn't know whether I will go for it? (psst, It's another trip to Adeilade)

and technically, I'm living a careless teenager life at the moment. Even my dad will get pissed if i ever disclose about some of the things that I did lol (insert teary-laughing emoji here)

And the huge issue over here is

I regret NOTHING at all.

Those are some of the things that I like to do, I'm psyched about learning new things though it takes my (accumulated) savings but I wonder what else you could save the money for if it's not for your passion? Passion is define to be something that is strongly felt with the heart. I believe when you get to do things that you like, you wouldn't regret a single second spend for it. and of course, You don't live twice in the world. (though spiritually I believe that we live twice and die once but NOT in this world)

You can save as much money as you want but you can never 'SAVE' as much time as you want. It's impossible. every single second that has passed in your life will make you older and bring you closer to death. (to which I don't want to regret anything ever in my death bed) so folks, I know the discussion has taken us way too serious but that's what I'm holding onto. Experience and time are 2 things you need to take care of rather than Money. it's not that I'm belittling the power of money. Of course, with cash we get to achieve so many things in life. You really need to adjust time / experience / money evenly.

Moving on.

Floral bespoke bouquet.

The workshop was held by and at Snackfood, Bangsar. That was my first time actually dropping by the store and I was greeted by a kind staff / comforting view and very eccentric, almost uniquely made goods that you could only find in 1 - 2 store around Malaysia. (our people dislike collecting vintage and eccentric goods). The workshop was handled by A stands for Aida Azwar & E, stands for Edan Hassan. (as you can see above)

the 3 hours workshop was joined by 10 participants (including me) and surprisingly, I was the only malay who joined the workshop! I did not know whether the previous day has had a malay but yeah.

I don't know why this fact actually made me happy lol (insert teary-laughing emoji)

The remarkable bouquet of mine has a monstera leaf, as seen on the picture. but if you can't quite see it, here's another photo

Ultimately, I was fairly satisfied with my new skill of arranging flowers (which ain't so good but I will find some time to polish it)

and despite one douche participant that made me feel bad about myself (obviously, not gonna share what she did to me) it was okay. and I enjoyed it so much.

My upcoming post will cover on my krabi trip so I wish everyone a nice day and stay safe!

XOXO,
Dini H.

The perks of studying A....broad. (failed pun lol)

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 19 Jul 2015 02:16:00 +0000

A while ago, I was asked about how exactly I feel to be able to step out of my place to further my degree in the UK. I think I did mention about the ups and downs of taking such decision. Despite having to re-write the experience and the quest of studying abroad on my blog (because not everyone has a great deal of a time to even scroll to my previous post but I do encourage you guys to do so).

so here's the gist of it, the post may not completely resembles to the previous one because there might be some thing i would add that you wouldn't find there.

1. Mad surviving skills are indubitably essential for you (which includes your ability to DISTINGUISH between people who are genuinely there to assist you in times of difficult from the ones who aren't.

My first week in the UK was perfect until I moved into a new house. I got to admit that i might have caused much nuisance to a group of friends whom I thought were going to be there to help me with this sort of thing (assuming I was still new on that time.) Had to also admit that I didn't like my new house right after i settled in because I was a tad bit insecure for having to stay with lads under one roof. I got way too freaked out that I had to lock my door every single time and of course, wear tudung everytime I needed to get something that required me to walk out of my room. I went to sleep at a friend's for a couple times and bawled my eyes out over my decision (meh :/) I stopped sleeping at her place right after I

long story short, you can't always rely to your friends when it comes to adapting yourself to a new environment. everytime you fall, you gotta stand back up by yourself. and skills, are vital my friend.

2. Avoid sneering down your new environment.

I can name a few things that are completely unfamiliar and almost exotic (as I may call it) in Malaysia because no one has ever had that. so for things you have never seen or heard back in your place yet it exists like a growing mushroom after the rain in your new place, suck it up and adapt to it. this applies to the new modules // courses you have never heard in Malaysia due to a low demand and people in Malaysia do not potentially see the course as a living source (ASIAN's demand), look at it as something you can learn from and avoid (AT ALL COST!) whining about it expecially to your local friends. They might be doing the same but make sure you are not the one who start it. You'll get to learn a few practical modules that will require you to walk out of the classroom and may be explore the whole continental (jk, your school won't be that mad) or less than that, take it as a new thing and almost a blessing in disguise -- :)

3. Make as much friends as you can across the globe!

Connections are undeniably important when you are staying thousands miles away from your family. Of course, you gotta make sure that your friends are good but i would say connect first, get to know them later. Without further due, I hope my message is crystal clear here.

4. EXPLORE!

It doesn't matter where you study, America, Europe, Asia, Antartica (as if), explore the places as much as you can! You may not get the chance to explore as much as you can while studying -- save some pennies and do it! Chances are, you get to discover places you wouldn't think exist as well as understanding a new culture. (pssst -- Who knows your soulmate belongs to a new place you're about to go down for a trip) If you ever come to think twice about exploring or travelling, churn this fact : YOU DON'T HAVE ALL TIME TO DO THIS. so folks, step up your travelling game and do it!

5. Stay moderate & avoid boasting on your whereabouts.

yeap this one right here is TOP important but you can almost apply this back in your home. Understand your root and your people. some of your friends can't make it to the place where you are now (name it out of their qualifications, financial struggles or family issue) do not flaunt about your experiences (that they might as well don't want to hear about) and to be able to explore to a new place, make friends and everything on top before you come to this point because chances are, these people are among green-eyed pricks who will use your information against you or they might just be among ordinary group who will keep on contemplating their fate in life. (berdosa tau kalau sampai diorang ni persoalkan takdir diorang) so don't do that UNLESS they started the topic first / they ask you / they need an information.

6. (This one applies to a non-scholar student) Avoid asking too much from your parents.

Understand their struggles. The usual allowances (in the UK) from your parents,if you happen to come from Malaysia are about 400 - 500 GBP (NOT inclusive your monthly rent). and of course, currency exchange plays a vital role on this matter -- If you happen to get about that much from your parents, that's about 3000 - 4000 in Malaysian Ringgit! If your family is huge and your parent is the sole breadwinner of the family, AVOID ASKING FOR MORE because having to send you that much is already TOO EXPENSIVE for them. Also, fret not. the living expenses in the UK isn't expensive at all, you can get a bread, bananas and a box of cereal for only 5 pounds. Hence, it depends on how you save and spend. UNLESS your parents are rich and have a zero care about sending you more cash in pounds, then you might want to find a part-time job if you feel like your spending beats Malaysian PM's wife *cough cough* make them happy with your achievements and stay content though you are staying in a foreign land. I learn to manage my financial struggles the hard way, really. There was one time around February - March where my allowance amount dropped below 10 pounds and I had about 3 weeks more before getting my next allowance! My first year was really something, i tell you. I was pretty amateur in almost every single aspect and had to have a bitter experience beforehand. so folks, SPEND AND SAVE WISE.

so the 6 points that I highlighted above are somewhat very important to me hence i share on my blog and to everyone i know so they are aware with it and even if they are not, there's always a way to retract that. All you gotta do is to learn.

(Underground Tube on the way to Shoreditch, London)

(Nadia's struggling with her bike in Hyde Park. hihi)

(the unforgettable Amsterdam trip somewhere on April)

(Keukenhof Tulip Lisse, Netherland)

Hard work paid off guys! so travel as frequent as you can! :)

More pictures coming soon. xo

terrariums again!

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Thu, 02 Jul 2015 06:52:00 +0000

Hey guys! my posts have been quite about terrariums lately. I find it rather amusing for me to have a new hobby that has something to do with planting because I have never had such hobby before! and even if i did, it's been a while (tbh) for me to get my hands dirty with soils, pebbles and plants! all i did when i was a kid was sowing fruit seed because I thought I'd always wanna harvest fruit from my orchard one day and never have to buy fruit from market again (LOL)

But i figured out that it would do good for me to have this kind of an interest because my house needs a tiny decoration (and I hooope that I can commit to keep the terrariums alive :( )

What I did in NC is basically to assist customers into customizing terrariums based on their likes. The best part about assisting people into doing things that is fairly new to me (as well!) is learning from my mistakes and I can finally make terrariums on my own without any helps. Some of the pictures that I have here is what you can see on my instagram as well.

the picture above is one terrarium made by the staff here for a coffee shop just a couple blocks away from NC. They made this so gorgeously ~~I ALMOST CRIED!~~ i'll be working until the end of august so if you guys happen to read this and want to try making your own terrariums ( you can even personalize it! ) kindly swing over the store!

#30DAYSRAMADHAN CHALLENGE : Day 9 - Hijab Tutorial inspired by dUck!

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Tue, 30 Jun 2015 02:38:00 +0000

Hey guys! so I come up with a hijab tutorial that has long been used by people in my place ~~(MALAYSIAN!)~~ I thought the look is very convenient in a hot and dry place like Malaysia but it also can be worn in a 4 seasons country! this is my first attempt of trying this kind of a hijab. i guess I can try it back in the UK soon? so here's the video of it!

#30DAYSRAMADHANCHALLENGE - Day 3

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Mon, 29 Jun 2015 07:29:00 +0000

Hey guys! apology for the late post. I can't quite keep track with this blog challenge ( that i made sh*t up myself ) SORRYSORRYSORRYSORRYSORRY.

I've left about 5 posts behind now so the solution that I will be taking forward is to squeeze all the missed posts together in one day so I can do the next post tomorrow. It's definitely gonna get quite lengthy but that's how it is :( (sorry again!)

#1 - Terrariums & the love for succulents.

ever since I land myself at NC as a part-timer, I discover multiple pretty and littlest things you can appreciate, ya know. something like succulents and doing terrariums -- I swear it doesn't cost much! all you need to have basically is your commitment and effort to make one! Too bad I'm gonna be back to the place where I meant to be on September unless there is someone who'll be kind enough to take care of this thing. But that doesn't mean i stop doing this all the way! I guide people on how to make one along the way and I can pretty much brag that I'm an expert with this! (cough cough I have a book to help cough)

So that's one thing! i would also make sure that i get more exposed to this kind of thing -- littlest thing that makes you happy. :)

#2 Priorities!

So upon learning the fact that there are many happiness that don't cost you too much out there (surely there are things or two that will rip you off but i personally don't care to invest that much for things that I love!), I kinda know exactly what my priorities are now. I used to think that Baju Raya is a definite must annually because hey! It's raya man! it feels different to me this year. Raya is raya but you don't have to spend so much like there are other things you could save for and goes a long way than spree. so my aim today is no longer thinking about having one (baju raya i mean) but to share the happiness with my fellow brothers and sisters in Malaysia who aren't fortunate enough to have a baju raya be it donation, pay them a visit or maaaybe make one terrariums for them. see? it does go a long way! #tamakpahala by Syed Azmi.

#3 CASS ART AMBASSADOR PROGRAMME 2015 / 2016

So I received an email about this one programme i participated by filling up a form about 2 months ago! i genuinely did not expect them to come back to me with a couple more questions for them to get my name shortlisted among the ambassador! I'm honestly flattered with this opportunity but at the same time it'll be one hella challenging for me to speak up for myself because I can't even describe what I'm like (like my bio and stuff) and now I have to prepare myself for an interview (if my name gets shortlisted, amin!) but however challenging this may seem, I figure out that this thing will be good to enhance my skill and prepare a good CV. my CV is almost empty with only a few companies I've worked for on the previous experience section. this is due to my dad as well who doesn't allow me to work for other companies, we had a long argument upon this thing and I don't ever think that he has surrendered on this rather ~~stupid~~ illiterate argument. but i think the biggest factor was also due to my fear. I fear to even get a job because I know how my dad would react. so long story short, I've finished my first year now with almost zero experience with working for different companies. (and november culture is just..recently)

Essentially, I hope my name will be chosen as one of the ambassadors!

#4 PHOTOGRAPHY GETS RUSTY

I haven't done this for so long, taking pictures using my Nikon D5100 for experimenting. ~~and changing to a new fb dp~~. Another thing i would be so proud to introduce to you guys is the filter preset that I get from VSCOCAM for lightroom! This one is a trial unit for only 2 weeks ~~sobsss~~ but i get to try on the feature (dah memadai la tu. nanti ada duit, beli la ori) I find it rather amusing to have a professional (kinda) DP for social networks that you have, having a photography skill is a plus point for you to have such thing so why keep it? Seriously though.

#5 Connection and community.

I'm trying to expand my circle as large as possible to connect with people so the probabilities for me to exchange thoughts are fairly larger, as well as building community (coz I think this works well for my major) -- Gonna be explaining more on this soon!

#6 (last but not least) This year is all about free your spirit and decorate it with kindness!

I guess that would be the most ideal theme for me right now since I've identified my actual priorities (the happiness of my life) This might sound cliche but I'm looking forward to achieving so many good things in my life and driving myself better this year.

#30DAYSRAMADHANCHALLENGE : Day 2

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sat, 20 Jun 2015 09:35:00 +0000

I'm on my second day of the challenge! (that i made for myself *cough cough*).

Today I'm gonna be covering on food waste that ought to happen during Ramadhan. I understand the extra fierce of the appetite you're having over there but you gotta chill, really.. besides it may harm your stomach to consume more than what it can handle, you may experience fatigue, sleepy or maybe woozy a little and!.. LAZY to get your arse working! I read it somewhere on how our stomach can only fill up to 1/3 food, 1/3 air, 1/3 water so do your own maths. as much as you consume your food must be as much as you drink water, (food portion = water portion) if you nibble on too much means you'll be taking a little space for your water.

Now now, coming back to food wastage, this actually happens to my family as well (tbh though) even my dad does the same and my mom usually buys food from the bazaar more than we usually can eat (and that's how i usually end up arguing with my mom). albeit seeing this incident annually, mom will always be a mom lol. this year is slightly different i may say, might be because my mom trying to respect me from various angle, idk. I haven't seen her for 9 months and that could be another reason. she just want to see me happy. (at least from what I observe)

I happened to share a post from IKIM.FM Facebook, it was a morning discussion slot where they posted a picture that synced to the discussion.

if you guys happen to look at the million tabs up there (lol), sorry that was just my attempt into becoming a perfect multitasker. :>

So what do you guys thinkg about the food wastage during ramadhan? I don't have any legit statistic at the moment because this is merely my opinion but i will somehow provide a little statistic (just in case this post went viral and people justify my argument here)

#30DAYSRAMADHANCHALLENGE - Day 1

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Fri, 19 Jun 2015 09:36:00 +0000

Day 1

Hey guys! I apology for the delay. Was running errand for the past few days but I figure out that I will still need to spend some time for blogging! I shared about my determination on having a ramadhan challenge for the next 30 days (minus today would be 29 left!)

So the first challenge of the month would be restraining myself against MEAT. I have been thinking for quite some time that I would wanna turn into a (possibly) pescetarian -- vegetarian which only consumes fishes -- veggies in my diet. I'm allowed to consume a dairy product such as Milk -- Eggs -- Cheese and any derivation of animal products, basically.

I might be struggling with this but that's basically a challenge for, right? this will take place about a week starting from the 2nd day of Ramadhan (19/06/2015 - 25/06/2015) and I will update my progress on the 25th! :)

P/s - Trying out a new trial version of VSCOCAM on lightroom. it was all presets but the quality defo speaks!

Starting off the #30daysramadhanchallenge

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Thu, 18 Jun 2015 04:53:00 +0000

Even though I did emphasize on how I should blog about stuff frequently (by means frequently is literally EVERYDAY) I'm still slacking off my time here doing nothing towards that manner -- Nevertheless, I'm here to update about what I'm up to lately. I'm doing a part-time job in November Culture as well as nourishing my skill as a graphic student who wants to becoming perfectly capable in multidisciplinary ( be it a petty job such as doing packaging, designing something that would suit the standard of the store as well as handling terrariums workshop).

I just thought that it would be nice to find something that I like to do over the summer than idling at home doing nothing. Not literally doing nothing but I could have spent the time doing multiple things and getting paid at the same time. ever since I started my degree in the UK, I've came to realization that the struggles of earning cash for myself is real. Eventhough my dad is paying for my study over there, I feel bad to ask him for money (though i have to starve myself to death cough cough). So I'm doing a part time job now to make sure that I have at least prepared few quids if my parents have yet to transfer my allowance. also, I'm planning to start saving for my Hajj (pilgrimage) so i MIGHT be signing up for tabung haji after raya (despite their corrupted system with what had happened between TH and TRX property). Secondly, albeit not everyone is going to read this (anyway), I've decided to start the #30DAYSRAMADHANCHALLENGE tag and post my progress on the blog :) It can be anything ranging from my tilawah, fasting, behaviour progress and heaven suree I'm gonna be uploading just anything about it here. Blog is actually a fairly nice platform for myself to get improving. it works marvellously like your personal diary, except that you allow the public to read it. Diary is sooo yesterday (poyo setinggi gunung lol) But i got to be honest myself that I still own a diary. (Except the fact that someone had read it and use it against my will to provoke me -.-)

aaand I'm starting off my 1st of Ramadhan in Malaysia which delighted me the most because this is the time when i get to spend with my family by having our dinner together. (ifthar basically)

and guys! kindly track my post to check on the #30DAYSRAMADHANCHALLENGE (Hint : Nothing older than this post!)

Selfie and more updates.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Wed, 10 Jun 2015 13:46:00 +0000

Hey guys!

I forgot to add into my previous post how I've been slacking off time since i got back to Malaysia. Sooo, I might be starting VLOGGING (again, after a year break) and I seriously can't wait to finally get started again. I actually have a couple videos on my vlog (this is my degree stuff) and Youtube (youtube's basically for my personal vlog)

This video covers on my past recent trip to London, Nadia was sooo so kind to come along with me to the DIY market where i found DIYs at sucha ripoff prices but I got to see (basically have some ideas) on how to work on marking prices for DIY things. I keep on mentioning about my etsy stuff but I have yet starting any :(( ish! okay I'm seriousss rn, I'll defo start asap. my upcoming video will be about returning to Malaysia (as per request by Nisa using Enrique Iglesias song, rhythm divine just coz he happened to mention Kuala Lumpur lolol.)

Before i forgettt,

Here's my recent selfies, about last week. Hihi "> Haven't posted up any picture lately so here it goes.

2nd day in Malaysia :>

4th day in Malaysia :>

5th day in Malaysia :>

That's all folks! ;)

Just a couple updates.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Wed, 10 Jun 2015 00:17:00 +0000

Hey!

Just a couple updates I wouldn't mind to share with people (just coz I happen to write it on my blog, other than that, nah. I don't engage with people so much)

1. I think my consistency to update blogs (Which includes this one, my tumblr, my website as well as my tumblr to showcase my degree projects) and stuff that i do throughout my degree period should ALWAYS be maintained! I have a friend who does this for every single week. Okay maybe not week but at least she has a fairly good amount of things to talk about on her blog! It does feel quite challenging to me but that's how you push yourself to work outside the comfort zone. no? You guys tell me about it!

2. I'm gonna be starting a few creative projects throughout the summer break as well as doing my internship in November Culture (More like a part-time opportunity for me) albeit the littlest pay I might be receiving over the entire working period. Some of the projects include

I. Making prints for greeting cards (Etsy etsy!)

II. Making stamps (Hidayah AS have inspired me to do this, I shall give it a go!)

III. *Continuing no 2 projects : Producing a wrapping paper out of the stamp.

IV. SUMMER INTERIM TASK > Ha! I'd defo need to peruse the task through before leaving for UK again on Sep 15

3. Starting to save up for my postgrad studies and some other things I feel like trying on like

I. Nose Piercing
II. Umrah
III. US Trip.
IV. Europe Trip

Starting Over.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 31 May 2015 23:07:00 +0000

Hey guys.

I feel like starting all over again with my blog. Not that I suddenly feel the need to have a fresher look on the blog itself, merely embarrassed by my old posts (omg please don't stalk). in the midst of convincing myself that I wanted to start again, suddenly my inner self starting to have this kind of conversation in my head.

uncanny-self : Hey. psst. I'm here. Doesn't personal have to be personal?

myself : Whatchu talking about mate?

uncanny-self : Why do you feel the need to delete your post i mean like come on, other people had written cringe stuff cringier than you. *starts reminiscing of every blog I've came across to*

myself : No no. not that.. just ..

uncanny-self : Starting to doubt yourself?

myself : kind of..

uncanny-self : then?

myself : I don't know man. stop provoking.

uncanny-self : You do know that moments matter to you?

myself : *break down*

and that's about it.

I'm still deciding whether to keep the old post or not (despite my really really bad grammars, given that those bad english days I decided to write something on the blog, wrong timing, right feeling)

Anyway, I'm leaving for Malaysia in 2 days. Couldn't be more happier to finally get to see and connect with the family again especially my mom and siblings. Also, my internship (more like a part-time job, i suppose) application has been accepted by NC. Ha! Stay tuned to know what company it is.

(Hint: Owned by a superstar)

I think I've made some of my plans for 3 months in Malaysia but just in case I've forgotten, I'll make an actual list out of it (fo sho! priorities matter) Great thing is, by the time I'm home, I no longer afraid to drive by my own (the results of committing my responsibilities as a daughter for the past 2 months prior to leaving for the UK last year haha.

aaaaand at the end of the post, I'm still deciding whether to KEEP the old post or DELETE it. HELP ME GUYS!

*I know I'm sucha indecisive little (briting slang acting up) brat.

TEET.

How I Spend My Easter Break.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sat, 25 Apr 2015 19:24:00 +0000

Basically, Easter Break was the worth 2 weeks off for me as I went to get fresher air in Amsterdam, got my family some stuff, got to know my friends a lil bit more (I shall say)

anyway, the very reason why I land myself to writing a post today because i can't do a single ~~shit~~ at the moment! I'm pretty much done with my Monday and Tuesday stuff (though i shall provide some space to tweak my design (publication) but hey! I don't want to talk about my school work here.

but just..on top of that, i feel like screaming to the world that ~~I WANT TO SKIP SUBMISSION AND GET MY A** BACK HOME~~ *Hoisting malaysian flag* :((

coming back to my easter break story, here's some pictures that i took using my Nikon D5100

there goes! 24 pics and 1 video. :) x
hope you guys enjoy looking at it as much as i enjoy spending my time taking and spending my easter break there.

Dearly beloved.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Fri, 13 Mar 2015 22:18:00 +0000

Dearly beloved, if this love only exist in my dream, don't wake me up.

Why I Don't Find The Need To Glorify My Birthday On Social Media.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Mon, 09 Mar 2015 00:10:00 +0000

sooo weeks after my birthday, a bunch of friends came to my house for filming (they opted to do it in my house as it looks kind of proper house-ish surrounding). They got into my room and saw a balloon from my birthday surprise planned by lovely nisa, talented nadia & swetest k.sya. One of them of whom i made a birthday surprise to last december was surprised as to why I didn't let everyone knows about it. I offered a smile and just told her that I turned off my birthday notification on facebook anyway so there's just like a couple of people who actually knew this. she kept asking me since then and I'm no longer sure if i should get offended or let it off bounce me but here's the legit answer i could give at the moment.

Dear who ever needs to know why I didn't let my birthday becoming viral,

1. I appreciate honesty. If you happen to know my birthday from my facebook notification and not from the small details that I told you when we had a conversation then you might as well forget it completely :) Like don't even bother to remember it anyway. Honesty means to display genuine attitude and i would say to remember small details from your friends is basically a genuine attitude you could offer as to being a friend yeah. If you simply think that small details isn't making a good friend, possibly the friendship won't last long. > This is based on my personal experience.

2. LIFE, PAIN AND EXPERIENCE are my 3 alma maters. I'm blending too well with these 3 that I feel like I've learnt not to trust anyone. ANYMORE. so I'd probably say that I have a serious issue with my trust issues with people. (see how complicated this thing is? That's definitely one way to look at it). I have 3 best friends in malaysia and of course, my birthday is something to look forward to when I'm with my bestfriend. It's so happen that I find none like them. JUST YET.
Hence I don't find the need to let everyone knows my birthday because it feels COMPLETELY different with people who are not going to appreciate you as a good friend. Birthday means a lot more than just celebrating with a piece of cake, candles, crowns and people. I would rather celebrate mine with small bunch of people than in a crowd. I hate crowd.

3. I'm absolutely fine with people sending me a personal card/message/text message but not on public. and i'd rather say Imma tad bit conservative when it comes to this matter. Good friends and family are the best gift i could ever get and should defo cherish them more than anything else in the world. They're your worse, they're your better. May Allah helps to ease their journey as much as they ease my journey to becoming a better person.

Of course, I'm not a bitch. (at least I'm hindering myself from turning into one lol) Birthday means a lot to me. In fact, I do celebrate it...WITH people i would prefer to celebrate it with.

I hope this will clarify the matter and SORRY. It's none of my intention to offend anyone. :) x <3

22 on 22/2.

noreply@blogger.com (Rahmadini Hairuddin) — Sun, 22 Feb 2015 14:31:00 +0000

I feel that the numbers i'm affiliated with right now bring so much responsibilities that I'm not even sure if the number deserves me and vice versa.

Assalamualaikum. I'm 22 this year and at this very moment, the day I was born 22 years ago, I'm sulking in bed while writing this entry. It's not that I'm not fancy about going out today, more like i have no absolute cash due to the bank issue. i'd probably need to wait until Tuesday to get it right in my bank account. The incident that's happening to me at the moment made me realize that money is almot about everything yet NOT REALLY.

also, I'm figuring out ways to celebrate my birthday:

1. Without involving so many people.
2. Without cash.
3. Without getting wishes out of numbers of friends that I have on social network because afterall, I appreciate people who really mean it when they say it.

Taking all those 3 into consideration, I stopped by one conclusion that I'm just gonna do it my way. yeap. What i did yesterday strangely gave me a pleasant feeling. I shut off my birthday notification by changing my date of birth. (Yea I'll switch it again after some time) Seems like the only way for me to get rid of tonnes wishes on facebook. (Zuckerberg really needs to fix this feature on facebook though. I'm mentally disappointed by the privacy setting itself. If only I could deactivate my account without having to feel guilty to my affiliations :/)