CRaSoNie CLoVer

Some Days, Old Days

2012-01-12T18:31:00.001+08:00

If wasn't because of you

If wasn't because of what happened last time

I might not be the Crason now

Story continued as I looked through some of my stuff

I found the below, something that give me a weird feeling

I was smiling a little, staring at it for a few moments,

Started to recall, and I sat still, kept reminiscing

Therefore, once upon a time..

Crason was doing this.. Experincing life..

I was with this looking mixed fella, born in 1987

His sister looks like a mixed too

She wanted to be a model, and so she copied her photos (mostly syiok sendiri)

To this disc and asked of my help to send to this agency email address

I can't believe I did not throw away this

As I ended my relationship with this slut on year 2007

That is not exactly I wanted to tell

Look at the number 131005

I laugh at myself at all of a sudden, I remember it now

I started with him on 13th Oct 2005 aka 131005

I text 2131005 3131005 6131005 9131005

Finally "9" replied, she asked for RM 150

I bought it and went all the way to give it to my ex

Saying silly lovely things "I want you to always cherish this relationship!"

OMG.. this is so the innocent, Crason was so, right? lol

7 years ago, a RM 150 means a lot to a student who can't even afford to have a meal in TGIF

Something to reminisce when you see it, will you feel the same?

A 1 year 7 months relationship with you, thank you but no next time hahhahahhaha!!

I don't need to wish you well, you will do better in whatever you are doing anyway lol

Different mind set, a total opposition of our aim in life

I am sure you will have your dream come true a day

Which I can never understand

** THROW IT AWAY!! BOOOOK! It's gone by now, BYE~~~~ **

AIA!! American International Assurance!!

I was there in year 2007 (don't remember the date and month) till FEB 2008

Broke up in between, was devastated

Had a really weird frienship with my frend Miss K, I mean, she is a girl man!

Remember I grabbed her boobs before and she offered to suck my dick lol

Gosh, what a hilarious memory!

From the bottom of my heart, I would like to thank those who purchased a plan from me

Thank you most of all, Elroy, thanks man, you supported me

I'm sorry that I failed you, cuz I didn't continue this career path, sorry my friend

I assure you, the plan you purchased, is definitely a good one

Because~ I have two plans of those hahhaha!!

And I wanna thank you some of them, don't remember their names

Thanks for the support, hopefully you guys are still paying the premium

Insurance is not exactly compulsory but if you afford buying it, you are being protected!

One more thing, there was a lady with the name Liza

She cooked everyday for me, for my lunch break

I was god damn broke, with income 1k per month, how to survive?

There was also a month or two, I earned only RM 500 per month

Dear Liza, I will never forget about your kindness, you are so the mama alike

Thank you so so so much, you warm up my heart when I was down

Encourage me to be a better person, want me to be brave and all

Thank you for your shoulder, I cried kinda a lot in front of you

Must find you one day, to show how good I am now

Your kindness means the world to me, thank you Liza

** BTW, this name card? BOOOOOOOOOK gone already~ **

Aaaaaah, finally is your turn

A serious attitude problem fella, born in 1989

Okay, my laptop was infected by virus

Real slow and all, I had one original version of Windows XP disc

I gave it to this fella, and he left me a piece of pirated version installation disc

He was about to leave M'sia, to France, doing his degree course in Engineering

And so, after he left, things changed 180 degree, immediately

Of course I was upset but it's all over, can't really picture how bad was I feel

Human tends to have selective memory I guess?

I have already chosen not to remember, that's why I forgot it completely

I wonder why would I always lower down my defence and security measurement

Willingly letting this asshole to hurt my feeling

I can be so sure to say that, no more next time sorry~~~ bye~~~~

Anyway, you willl do real good, I know

Just don't show up, don's wish to see you :p

** BYE BYE BYE~~~ BOOOK throw it away, what you waiting for? **

Those days lol

I came into Malaysia Airlines Academy, started my class on 15th Oct 2008

To have a better linking, faster connection to my batch mates

I organized this, "Dear Guys/Girls, pls provide your xxxxxx details"

Initially we have 20 of us, but after 2 years, one by one leaving this company

Up to now, we have only 12 or maybe 11 left

It's stranger, a bunch of nerd getting trained in this academy

Strike to become the world's best cabin crew

During training, instructors kept reminding us to appreciate each of us

I did not understand until I started to fly

Oh yeah, that's really rare to fly with your own batch mates

When I am doing Hong Kong, some might be in Dubai, Shanghai, Delhi and all

The pure friendship, the slightly touching heart was just about to begin

And now, we are all in all over the places

Yeah, I still remember how it feels to be in the class with you all

I wish we all will fly higher n higher, better income every month

That's what matters anyway lol

** Anyway, I still throw it away lol **

Kinda hate to see this

But it means my heart and soul, so wanted to go there

As you can see, Crason is not a dump ass that can only stay in Malaysia

I fought all my way to the final and got myself a medical check up

Sadly, I couldn't make it in the end

Don't ask why, it's something I couldn't speak about

Now that my two beloved ex housemates are there

Wayne and Ivy, a 3 years and 2 years ex housemate

Pls remember what I said

I borrow my pair of eyes to you both

Please see the world on behalf of me, come back and tell me how beautiful those places are

You go girls, earn big loads of money and come back here

Dabao foods for me just like how I always do when you guys are here :)

** THROW la.. No need to keep it anymore **

Nothing much to say

It's just someone recorded an Xmas wish for me on year 2010

I am so sorry, I am an ass

I lied about I watched it but I actually didn't

I watched it after 2 months you gave me to be honest lol

I'm keeping this, want to watch it for one last time in future

Laugh till I roll on the floor and I will throw it away

But thanks! I just couldn't keep laughing when I think of this

At least something pleasant in my bunch of waste, this is something else

Yeah yeah~ Some happy stuff to share

This is my new Credit Card

Plantinum ONE card from UOB

Look at it, look at it, can you see... PLATINUM?? lol

This mother fucker, I applied this card for more than 3 times

1st attempt was on year 2008, then tried again on 2010

Last year 2011, finally you give it to me huh??

So nice this card!! The texture is completely different from a normal classic card

Love it and I use it like never ending

Happy Happy~~

OMG OMG OMG!!

You serious!!? lol hahhahahhahahhaha

My mushroom head on year 2007 and now different hair style

But looking at it carefully, I actually didn't change much huh

In between this 5 years, so many things happened ok

And I like to say so many cuz it means I live my life with a meaning

I believe they are some people, who live their life without a purpose and that's so sad

I wish I can have my baby face every day, every year, until I'm old

If only I could have a baby face, which mean OLD this word does not exist in my world

Hahaa... stop to be berangan ok!

Cheers~

Through all the ups and downs

Life is still good, it's still you and your life, clock is ticking still

Therefore, I want to thank you

You made me cried, made me smiled, made me felt the love is true

And you made me sad, made me depressed, made me felt the corner end

These all helped to shape the current Crason

I can be so sure to tell you that I'm happy to be the now Crason

Thanks for the memories, I'm sure I don't need all these things to remember you

If you are worth to be remembered, you will always be

With love

Don't you feel like flipping through your bunch of waste

To look for something that would remind you of someone?

That weird feeling will give you a bitter sweet smile

Trust me!

Phew, finish this post finally

It took me almost 2 hours

May my spirit to blog keeps going!

Love each day
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Roll Your Gear! 2012

2012-01-10T20:44:00.001+08:00

Here we are in year 2012, a brand new year

I'm still a little hard to converse about year 2011

Things happened might be just a few days ago

I need to use "last year december" this word to story morry

Which might mislead some misunderstanding

YES! I mean year 2011, last year, not last year 2010 anymore

And so my last flight of the year 2011

31st December 2011, a turnaround flight to Xiamen

Pretty tiring as the flight time was 4 hours plus up and down

Came back from flight, rushed back to Kepong

To look for Evon & Elroy

We are gonna celebrate New Year together! It was exciting :)

Left to Desa Park City, a classy resident area

Heard there will be fire works on going

Don't have to jam yourself in KL area

By the time you reach there, you might end up watching the beautiful view in the car

Spotted an unusual scene

Someone put on the fire balloon aka KongMing lantern

You can write your wish on it, let it fly

But if it falls down, which mean it won't come true?

Some told me, you fly it up the balloon is for the God to see your wish clearer

By praying is so outdated <--- Really?!!

Count down from 10.. 9.. 8.. until 1

Here it comes the fire works

It was small at first

Okay it looks quite adequate

Oops sorry this is a little blurry

And now here we go!

This was a little shocking I remember

Everyone screamed and yelled with excitement of course

Different shapes, different sizes, different colours

It kept going and going

Don't you think it looks like hibiscus flower?

This is awesome

I love this thousand million falling stars :)

Electricity shockwaves??

Giant fire balls?

Waaaaaaah Huuuuuuuuuu Yeeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhhh

The fireworks were so cool

Didn't expect to celebrate with you all though

The whole fire works show lasted about 10 minutes

When it came to about 5 minutes that long

Crowd started to just watch and it become less noise

However, there was a bunch of teenagers beside us

Did not give up to scream for excitement

Though the throat was already dry

The voice has become husky

Okay.. I have seen it enough

Thank you~~~

And so before the end of the show

I manage to snap a pic of us

One was blurry, one was headless, one was ghost looking

Another one bloated waterry face

And big mouth me :p

Yeah~ Happy New Year 2012 lad!

In this brand new year

What is your resolution?

What do you wish for? What is your plan? Or better what ARE those planS?

Some words for my dearest

Let's start from the most senior

Miss Evon

You will get busier and busier as your freelance job, your sales will be increasing

Your pocket can't handle those cash, you beg your clients pay you by cheque

Aunty will be always happy + fat fat feed by you, healthy and wealthy too

And you and your love Mr. W will hold hand, hold mine and Elroy's too

Walk together to receive Year 2013

Dear, I love ya!

Mr Elroy

You will be promoted to a higher position

That you know only how to sit, and point the fingers to your juniors

Money coming in like water that you need a tank, more tanks to store them

Your family is always proud of you, and you will get your house soon!

And the youngest fella in our group "E" will always listen to you

E, you better be good! lol

Let's celebrate the coming new year 2013 together alright?

Love you much my dear!

W + E

Welcome to this family lol

Not exactly a family but I hope it gives you a warm feeling whenever we are together

Working adult will have a good career path, money money money lick lick

Studying kid, please study ok? No more acting like an adult lol

Pass all subjects with flying over the rainbow colours

Receive sponsorship from a big firm and spend us a big dinner!

Sayang you both too!

p/s: Pay me back the red wine, cheese, ice cream and all the foods one day :p

As for my baby D

I'm so happy to see you when you are back

Remember the facial expression you gave me when I fetch you from the airport?

It's true baby, I cried when I think of it

Baby, may you get promoted very very soon

Earn big big big money so that I don't have to work anymore haha!!

Kiss kiss, love you ^^

Nevertheless

Everything will be just smooth and happy in Chai's mansion

Papa, may this year a good year for you, work is fine and stay healthy always

Mama, your son and daughter will sayang you maximum, hehe, always happy and fat fat :)

Sis, study is always not a problem for you, good luck in your ACCA, good girl always

Brother, a better future is always ahead there waiting, gain back your confidence in life k?

Myself!!

Earn more money, better and better income

A little wish for my current company, don't go down just yet! You will rise with sunshine!

Bought a house, feeling like a man with full responsibility

Just want my family, friends and baby are always happy and I'll keep them warm always

This year is gonna be a holiday year, will plan some venues soon

Let's cherish this happy year 2012!

Year 2012, it must be a happy year :)

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Melbourne, Australia

2011-12-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

It's a surprise that I'm being rostered to fly to Melbourne

Was not feeling excited until someone told me

Aussie's big day is Christmas, it should be fun

Aye aye, I hope so~

Flight time up and down is 8 hours plus plus

Damn, it feels like it will never end during the flight

Malaysia Airlines passenger meal tray

Since it is an aussie route, it includes Cheese and Cracker!

Yummy yummy, love it!!

There is a place named Alice Springs and the other is Broken Hill

Sound fun, wish to visit those places

Finally, I'm here in Melbourne!!

Staying in Novotel at Flinders

Looking at the street, full of people

I was so excited!

The view from my room

Melbourne, a strange city for me

Where should I go?

Comfy bed

Minibar, don't get eat any of them!

Fucking expensive!

A bottle of mineral water costs you AUD7.50 which is almost MYR 24

What la...!

The excited Crason snapping himself a pic :p

The bathtub is small though

OMG.. over posing!!

Okay, time to explore!

Collins street

This is so cool!!

Really love the scene here

A fairly small back street but filled with people

Bar, restaurant, cafe.. Everything

Oink Oink

Horse wheel, I wonder how much it costs a person

Some random performer on the street

He is among the best caught too much attention

Some are dancers, violin players, guitars and so on

Seriously, I thought aussie would be different

The decorations are really simple

Unlike what we see in Pavilion KL so the over

Ugly post lol

Melbourne China Town, a small one

Chinese restaurant

Nothing much, too expensive to eat here

Noodle & Rice bar?

Let's ready to eat!

Elaine, my senior who brought me out, is a little too shy with camera :)

Super big portion man

How to finish it?

Mine looks like poo poo of eating too many chilis lol

It costs AUD 10 = MYR 30 a meal, better finish it

Tired tired face

Tired bird = Hungry bird = Angry bird

Another ugly post

No comment, it's just my personal preference

Always have a crush on this kind of building :)

Went to super market

Aussie boobs are bigger than my palm of hand

I'm sure aussie nanny will get herself a nice bra from here lol

Colourful, juicy cherries

Too expensive...!!

This market is not that cheap

We get more stuff from here

More discounts in Woolworths

Merry Xmas everyone~

One of the biggest church around Collins

This is what I would like to talk about

Excuse me kids, how young are both of you?

You come here bitch, stop kissing over there!

Your boy is mine, okay? You fuck off!

LOL syiok sendiri drama here anyway

Oh dear.. so the tired

Eyes hardly can open

Went back rest a while and start my camwhore

OMG.. a serious camwhore

Even I feel speechless looking at these pic lol

Okay, cool, let's take a walk again

Love to fit in myself in a stranger city

Wanna feel what it is like in aussie

Tall, colourful, simple buildings are to be found everywhere

It gives you the peaceful feeling

Train in aussie, they name it Tram

Yeah yeah Merry Xmas

Merry Xmas!!

Not an unusual thing to see

Quite a lot of chubby around lol

I just told my sister if I become as chubby as him, I'll sure kill myself

Yes............... Merry Xmas again!!

The whole Flinders station

Welcome to aussie

Nice and hot butt for sniff

Anyone wanna sniffs his fingers?

This is the street that I talk about earlier on

Very cool, right?

Flinders Street Station

Standing in front of it

The view is kinda awesome

Oh yeah, I'll be back to Melbourne on 2nd Jan

Still New Year perhaps :)

Didn't know aussie would have Teh Tarik river too

Melbourne Public Club

Life is too important to be taken seriously

Love it!

If it is not too expensive, I'll sure drink here in Melbourne

Though the colour isn't a nice one

But the view is still breathtaking

The sun light is too strong

Warm sun light, unlike in KL that hot lol

It looks like a city and a village is just a forest distance away

Standing here can see different things

First of all, local aussie dressing

Another one is riding his bike

Nevertheless horse wheel again~

Now I know why they like jogging

Can you see a hot chick jogging from far?

Dare not to take close shot

Aussies are outspoken and they might just tell me off directly

This is a muzium if I'm not mistaken

Dawn is here

Love the sun light being covered by a little cloud

Looks like angels coming down from Heaven

Princes walk

Only prince can walk here, really?

Drinking drinking

They drink at day, at night, at any time

iPhone isn't that bad

Capture a pic like this, so cool

I sit down on the greeny grass and start smoking lol

Peaceful

So this is aussie garbage street

Full of colourful 'decorations'

Overseas moon is always brighter, I think it looks cool still lol

One day I'm gonna earn a lot

And have my meal in this place

Thank you Thank you

But I don't like to stay in aussie

Everyone must smoke at downstairs

Room no smoking at all, or else will be fined AUD 250 = MYR 750!

It's always nice to share your experience with somene you care for

This is what I'm gonna share with my babe, Elroy, Evon and my sis

Nothing much, just something to eat

Hope you guys will like it :)

Aaaaaaaahhhhhh finally I've done this post

So the tired today

Helping out moving things from Kepong here to my new house

Been working for 4 days, only 1 day off but still have no time to relax

This time.. Crason is too exhausted

I'm sure this post is boring because I don't really have the mood to finish it

Been to Perth, Brisbane and now Melbourne

Perhaps the next would be Adelaide or Sydney

But.. I'm not quite satisfied with the aussie Customs

Seriously, they arrange special kind of dog to sniff all our baggages and body

They are too strict, it makes me not comfortable

You think I like to come to your country? Come on la!!!

Melbourne is full of asians

Easily can see Japanese, Korean, Chinese and many many more races

And, aussie mostly are not handsome lol hahhahaha!!

Not too surprise, they smell too!

They love red meats, and the weather mostly is cold, seldom take bathe

Erhm.. I prefer my babe a lot more :p

Would love to blog about what am I gonna do next year

See you, next post! :)

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Been Waiting for This Moment!

2011-12-24T20:49:00.001+08:00

It's coming to the end of Year 2011
I trust that each and everyone of you must have gone through something
Which I'm also one of you all, gone through this and that
Each time when these things happen, I tell myself I must post it in my blog
And so.. Now you can see what I have been through :p

Navi / navI
The very first guy, let's name him Navi
Born in 1991, same age with my sister
A guy who worships beauty and trend
Seeks the fame of becoming a star
There's nothing wrong, except totally not my type of guy

Apologise for not showing his real face
It has never been good to write about someone you bumped into
Especially someone who was sweet at first but ended up a disaster

Navi was a very sweet lover, really tried his best to accept who I am
I must apologise for scolding him, yelling at him, giving him hard time and so on
I was an evil when I was with him, sigh, hurt him badly I guess?

Can't deny that my bunch of buddies love him a lot
Seldom see my friends siding others although I am doing wrong stuff
Navi has definitely earned their favourism

However, when things turned sour
He said this to me in weibo, a kinda famours apps originated from China
To be honest, I was hurt too

Nope, I wasn't seeking people's attention
I wrote those in Facebook was to get your attention
Yeah, although it was hurtful but half of the above are true enough
It's better that we broke up since we are never meant to be
Sigh, do you have to write something like this? Just to hurt me?

And this too..
Why man..

Even your friends commented about I "squeezed" you dry?
Hah? Okay..Fine, laugh at me then.
Don't think I didn't know that you were seeing Nitsuj before we broke up
And soon, very soon not even 2 weeks, you guys were coupled
Lol.. I met Nitsuj when you guys were together, I know what was the story though :p

Hey, but still thanks to you
I realised how bad was my temper
And I do understand we are not compatible in many ways
I can't do what you want me to, and you can't fulfill me too
Heard you are heart broken of your recent ex, who is not Nitsuhj, is someone else :p
Get well soon dude, you will be fine
And I do hope you can be a star soon, all the best!
Thanks for all the gifts and memories:)
Lasted nearly 4 months

Ocsob / ocsoB
When I was still upset of the broken apart with Navi
I met a mixed races fella in Hong Kong
A Thai mixed with HKie, serious tanned skin fella
He has got a really impressive job, a life guard in the beach!!

He took me out in HK
Here and there, took bus, ferry, train and all
Opened wide my sight, seen a lot of things in HK

That was my birthday month
He bought me a bracelet, I still remember HKD 550
A stranger like me, who only chatted with him in Facebook before flying to HK
He is kind enough, lovely enough to buy me a birthday gift

Thanks a lot Ocsob, you are so kind
You told me something, something that encouraged me to move forward
Appreciate that :)
Lasted.. about 1 month?

Divad / divaD
Story continued, a sincere lover
Divad told me, he has been admiring me for long
He heard too much gossips bout me, he dare not to go near me
But coincidentally we chatted, he invited me out for a drink
Went to The Library in Puchong, grabbed 2 towers of beer
We started chit chatting, very fluent, very smooth
And he said something else in the end

Look at him first will ya? He is a gymer, I know Wayne loves him so much lolx
So he admitted he thought we are gonna do no string attached fun
But he fell for me, after he talked to me :P

I was in transition of recovery at that time after what happened to me and Navi
But this sweet fella Divad always shine out his sun shine smile and be with me
Wayne likes to say, he is like MY FM 贴心空间 haha!

Things didn't work out in the end
I guess there is a word called chemistry?
Which cannot be forced and it will come naturally
Thank you for all the love given to me
Though we are no longer together, but you still care so much about me and my friends
I am sure you are a good husband, you will find someone who treasures you in the end
Don't lose your faith in love, keep your sunshine smile on your face alright?
Thanks for the perfume, haven't got a chance to say it :)
Lasted 2 months

Nerrad / nerraD
It was a dream
I at first thought you must be a playboy
Mistaken, you are actually a good guy
But who wouldn't? When you can post the whole upper trunk pic lol

Of course things didn't work out too
But that's ok, because we both have our own lover now
Man, your body is so hot, can kill everyone in 1 second
Keep it up! And your business will be doing better and better

People do like to say things like that huh?
And I do like to reply ike this too
Seriously, remain as friend? lol.. You gotta be kidding me man
We have nothing in common, just a beautiful dream
We all will forget bout this eventually :)
Thanks for the gifts too! And yeah, thanks for encouraging me to have 6 packs
But I am sure I won't have it cuz I eat like a pig :p
Lasted about 3 weeks?

These are what happened previously
Love is full of passion, at the same time, full of hatred too
We all should throw all those hatred away
Hard to do? It takes time, eventually you will learn how to forgive and forget
We won't know what's gonna happen in future
But do your best to secure what's the best at this very true moment

I thank you for teaching me some lessons, whether the good or the bad
I can some of your words are lingering in my mind sometimes
Not the sweet talk, I mean those advices :p
I'm sure each and every one us lives the way we want to
Nothing is more comfortable to be ourself, the real you

I'm pretty sure the above 4 persons said this before
" I like your smile "

The commercial Crason smile
But this time is a little like smiling in pain lol
It's called bitter sweet memory, I think it's the most accurate word to say
Merry Xmas & Happy New Year 2012 in advance
May you all happy, take care there :)

Lonely Lonely Xmas

2011-12-24T18:13:00.003+08:00

Yeah.. I am all alone now

My babe left to HKG and TPE for work

And me here alone in my room, all by myself

The feeling is just not nice :(

I actually arrived yesterday noon and stayed back to accompany my babe before he departed

I woke up at 5am and did 3 sectors, it was pretty exhausting

I was looking like a zombie alive, with all the eye bags and all

Feeling god damn sleepy, wanted to go home badly but thinking..

Hey my babe is leaving for 11 days and will only be back on 3rd Jan 2012

No matter how, die die I have to stay awake and chatty to make him comfortable

And so we took a few pic, this one we both agreed

Hey B, I miss you here, miss you being noisy keep on imitating me

Miss you sleeping like a pig and always say 2 minutes 2 minutes before willingly got up

Miss your everything..

It is true that money can't buy everything, at least not my happiness at this moment

Keep back my emo *grab* OKAY, it's cool to earn that amount of money for just 11 days

I am jealous of you babe, it's really great for this DEC 2011 that you earn double of my salary

It's just, this year is our first year Xmas and the only year of 2012 New Year

But again, it's ok babe, I can do this all alone this time

Next year end, we do it ok? Promise?

Money is not everything but it is something

Something that you use to buy a house, a car, a better living

And as a partner must be strong enough to accept this

We can always celebrate anytime, right?

When everyday can be a valentine's day, why not everyday Xmas day and new year?

Oops, no way, every year new year which means I get older every day!!!

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh~~~!! I miss you badly my babe!
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我想我懂了

2011-12-17T00:26:00.001+08:00

謝謝你的這首歌

長鏡頭沒留下太多淚流
只有涼風藍天和沙丘
到那天碰頭

鏡頭並沒有停下
仍然繼續拍著

這一晚
我一個人度過

真心的祝福

2011-12-16T19:31:00.001+08:00

臨走前
一定要寫封信
沒甚麼就只是想讓你記得我
好啦走了是時候收拾心情了

漏夜寫了三面信
感覺有點詞窮埋頭還是寫了
心裡的話哪可用字眼表達
謝謝你說到看者我的信泛淚但卻笑了
還說那就是我的作風

各自的黑眼圈
徹夜未眠？聽說離別前都會這樣
蔡鎮聰要真正地去面對你的離去
相信陸勇智會將我銘記於心
這段友誼會繼續的
因為你不再住在這兒
住在我心裡

克雷聖你要加油！

Missing you..

2011-12-16T18:35:00.001+08:00

Wayne, you have left about 3 days
Today I came back here for a flight tomorrow
While walking towards the house
I begin to think, are you home?
Which is a such a stupid question
You are home but in Singapore..

Jealous of me
Your hand writing is really good
So sweet of you left notes for me
Which successfully made me cry whole night long

Yeah how did you know?
I for sure will visit your room
The 2nd note that was placed in his room
He knew that I'll definitely walk into his room
Ok.. Another crying session :(

I know you are not always at home
I'm used to smoke alone, hang around at home alone too
But this time, it feels extra ordinary empty
This time, you are really a distant away for real
It's just too hard to accept this..

Sorry Wayne
I went inside and emo again
Your room is so dead
Without your smell :(
No smile, no laughter, no nothing..

To best describe my current feeling
A pic can tell, I guess?
Wayne, I want to cry again..

You left all these behind for me
These body lotions I can use for years
And two perfumes were left behind too
Thanks Wayne..

The little elephant which has been hanging at the door handle
I bet he misses you too..

Wayne ah Wayne
What is this? Really left for me?
Or you want me to throw all of them?
I'm sure I'll dig them all out one day
Not today, my mood isn't good still..

The dirty toilet that we use daily
It becomes so clean and clear
Seriously..
I would rather it's a dirty toilet
It means you are still staying with me
Don't want it to be clean.. Can I?

Even this modem reminds me of you
It's dead now as well, for you have deactivated the phone line
It stays with us 3 years together too
Witnesses all of us here, our doings whether it is good or bad

Silly Wayne
You left behind your external hard disk
A lot of your pictures inside
Not just yours, some contain me and others too
Why you left behind us? Don't wanna think about us anymore?
Btw, seeing all these Chinese words
It shows you are really literature kinda person
Erhm, you are special

Checked a few of these pic folders
Miss you even more
If you are here now, I'm gonna shoot any angle of you

Sigh what is this face
Wanna act cute but I'm sure the sadness inside of me shows all over
From the day you stepped away
I should have ready myself to face the fact
But the sweet memories that lingering in my mind
Keeps haunting me, add in more miserable feeling

Thank you to you too Wayne..
3 years housemate
Been through a lot, gain a lot
It's time to put down my selfish feeling
I should be happy that you found a better job
To leave me, you are not happy too right? :(

This is how a person saying goodbye
With loads of unwillingness and sadness

Witnessed you leaving KLIA
Must snap a pic or two
Still can smile like that huh?
No choice kan? Our job is to smile

Now that I'm staying alone
I promise you, I'll be good
And you must take good care of yourself alright?
Just suffer for 6 months and you will start earning money like thaaaaaaaaat lot
Hold on to it, if I have the time
I'll fly over there to visit you

認識你真好陸勇智
Can't believe that I'm crying again
I have no one to talk to in this house
To blog it, release myself, is that ok?
Come on, I'm a really sad person here
Give me a little mercy and comfort pls?

一輩子的朋友
A friend forever
Girl, I promise you

Im at home alone now Wayne
It feels so horrible, I hate this feeling
You are different ah! You are in a new environment
So much to explore, so much to see
While me here seeing only the empty house
Don't even know how to explain my feeling..
It's gonna drown me, feel suffocated..
Hate you.. Make me feel this way
And I love you for leaving me so many great memories
We will definitely meet again right?

Before he left he said this
"我有個願望要你實現
你的工作好眾所週知你的廣播好不雅於我（perasan)
答應我以後的每一班機都要做最好的廣播
心裡默念我要比那個做作的陸永智好
直到有人說你取代了陸永智 (perasan maximum)"

克雷聖快哭死了**

親愛的我會記得你說的話
兩個人能走在一起是緣分
兩個人在一起走就是幸福
我們緣分幸福都有
愛你，在新國要加油噢

Goodbye Wayne, Bon Voyage

2011-12-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

I will always remember you
My lovely housemate for 3 years, 2008-2011
Thank you for all the sweet memories

Take care there my dearest
We will meet again, definitely :)
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Elroy Big Day~

2011-12-08T14:09:00.001+08:00

Yo, again someone's birthday

It doesn't matter, I only celebrate birthdays whose are my beloved

We actually planned to go up to Cameron Highlands

On 2nd thought, we changed to Genting instead

Everything was last minute include booking hotels and so on

Morning Genting view

Not too bad huh? Thick cloud and the awesome moutain view

And in this place

We spent our quality time together

Though driving all the way up was quite tiring but it didn't kill our mood

6 of us

It's weird, normally would be just Evon, Elroy and me

I begin to like 6 of us hanging out together

My poor babe was sick!

He slept all the way up to Genting

My apology to drag you into this celebration :(

Excuse me Eric Lim!!

Don't smile that sunshine please? Overshine me ok!

Watched a 3D movie in Genting

With lousy GSC 3D spec

Hello~~~ Why is Evon her mouth is closing while me and Elroy.. Crocodile?

My babe looks so cute here

So the anak ikan :p

Horny!! :p

Okay, finally we are here

The birthday cake, to be exact Oreo Cheese cake was baked by someone

With his sweat and his saliva I guess? :p

Eric Lim. enough of your innocent smiling face!!

Wincent, the most junior :)

Hey forgot to tell you

The other day Korean BBQ you looked slimmer! Diet ah? :p

Oh of course

The cuet Crason hahhahhahahha!!

A pic with Evon and Elroy just three of us is a must

Love you two :)

Hey, what's that smiling face?

Too happy? ^^

And we went back to the Genting Leg Bottom to taste this

Which we all love

Big Big prawn with noodle soup

OMG OMG superb delicious

Thai style fried Tofu

Sweet sauce with deep fried pork

The only spicy dish

Asam Fish which costs only RM 28

See? This is so fucking big~!!

While waiting everyone to pack their stuff

I was all the way cam whoring

And actually got caught

That's ok because I think I look good in it hahhhahhhaahahhaa!!

Don't do this too often

Wrinkles appear earlier lol

But don't stop smiling k?

Oh Elroy said he has never seen my facial expression like this before

Erhm.. not too ugly right? It's kinda acting cute actually hahha

It was only a short night

I hope you all enjoyed like I did

First time 6 of us going for a short trip

Makes me wanna go for holiday with you all again

Promise that we will be like this? 6 of us together? :)

Allow me to say something

When you are so happy spending time with someone

Have you ever thought of how you wish the one beside you is someone else

I mean, maybe someone who left you or someone whom you left behind?

Bearing the guilt in you, if only you treated that person better

He/She might be still beside of you enjoying the happy moments?

It seems like I am not saying but asking huh? Excuse me bitch haha

To be honest, I would

But just one second after, I realise whoever beside me right now

Is definitely the one suits me the best for now

Back to what is life, life is like that huh?

People come people go, only the true one stays :)

Hey dear Elroy, happy birthday again

Looking at these pic, I am so glad that we are friends

And it is gonna be friendship forever

Cheers~ Love ya! May all your dreams come true :)

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Ladies & Gentlemen

2011-12-07T21:23:00.001+08:00

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This is what I did recently
A mandarin crew announcement rating class
Trained by UCSI, a kinda famous college nearby the biggest pasar malam Cheras

The trainer is a mainland china girl
A really cute name Zhu Xiao Xiao
Her email address is damn funny zxxlb@hotmail.com
We were wondering why is it so diffcult to put on a decent name in email address
She explained, it's easy man, just ZhuXiaoXiaoLittleBaby =.=
Little ker? Baby ker? Look at your size please haha!
Btw, why it is DEC-NOV? It's not like Dec 2010 to Nov 2011
It's actually NOV 2011 - DEC 2011 okay!

This crazy big eyes bitch is my housemate Wayne
He is about to leave to SQ very soon
He joined us for fun which I feel like slapping him :P

Nothing much to eleborate
We learned from the bottom
Bo Po Mo Fo De Te Ne Le and so on

When a steward and a stewardess is out his/her uniform
We all look as normal as those who work in office

According to Miss Zhu (想念猪) <-- 不好笑
She needs to take out photo to show her boss
I think she is actually trying to advertise how good looking we are hahhahah!!!

We decided to take a funny shot, free style, no more smiling like we do in the aircraft
Please zoom in this pic, the girl in red is so the over hahahhaha!!

At the back is the biggest aircraft in the world Airbus 380
Our MH A380 is coming in on July 2012, kinda late huh? :P

Just a bunch of crazy fellas went for 2 days class
It was not as boring as I initially thought
In fact, we were kinda getting closer to each and other :)

Oh ya, btw, I scored 8.8 for my rating out of 10
So make sure you book a flight with Malaysia Airlines and hear me singing inflight ^^

Malaysia Airlines, I like ~
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Birthday King

2011-12-07T20:48:00.001+08:00

Since it is your birthday

I shall call you my King lolx

When you are reading my blog, which mean you are a human being

We as a human being were all born to this world

Date & Time maybe selected by our parents

However, our birth date means a lot to us

First to our parents, sooner later it becomes your GF/BF responsibility

Ask yourself, do you get mad when your GF/BF don't bother about your birthday?

:) I do care, my King

This cute fella was born in 05 December 1985

Finally turn to be 26 years old lately (Elder than me :P)

First round was with his best friends in this maverlous Ribs restaurant

Morganfield's in Pavillion

OMG.. Saliva keeps dripping

It was awesome, love it till it's last bite

Literally licking my own fingers though

I randomly ran to a waitress and informed her that we are celebrating birthday

She did her best to share the happiness

A free birthday cake for you my King~

Your 2nd piece of birthday cake in the same night

Told cha, cheese goes with Red Wine is divine~

The next day we dress up like a pair of CNY doll

All red and went to this restaurant

Daorae Korean restaurant in Desa Sri Hartamas

As usual, many many side dishes which are refillable

Kimchi is our favourite :)

Bib Bim Bab

I hope I spell it correctly

This cannot be missed

BBQ!! Pork & chicken! Quite a sinful night for all of us

Wincent is sleeping while taking pic? lolx

Eric is showing don't-know-how-to-describe smiling face :P

Lastly, we went all the way up to Bentong the so called Genting Leg Bottom 云顶山脚

Had a 3 days big big meal, even myself is damn happy and FAT too

Hey my King, happy birthday again

I dare not to write too much, I'm scared the next time when I open up this page

I might cry my lungs out

But honestly speaking, I am always happy with you

And I hope what we hope for would come true

That I am gonna celebrate your birthday the next year, next next year, future years :)

Love ya! I hope I did give you one unforgettable birthday celebration

Muaczkz! Be good, will ya? :)

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Big Boy liao?

2011-12-07T19:59:00.001+08:00

Long long long time didn't update my blog

Have been really suffocated but I do keep my thoughts in mind

Waiting for a chance to post here

And so the story actually begins from I have finally achieved what I aim for

In my age of 25 years old, Crason has finally bought his very first house

Thought buying a house should be a thrilling feeling, filled with happiness

In actual fact, more and more burdens are waiting ahead

I started to feel the pressure and it's kinda scary..

A 25 years old dude but still pretends to be cute

I guess this is what people always say, even an old man has a hidden kid personality beneath

Woke up in the morning, got myself prepared and went to bank

Since I don't have a current account therefore I need to get myself a bank draft

Payable to the owner, the balance of 8% deposit

Look at it again? It is not TWO THOUSAND

It is RM 22,400.00 TWENTY TWO THOUSAND for god sake

My heart was like.. crying maybe? :(

And the cash.. RM 1000 is for the initial payment of lawyer fees

The total of the abovesaid fees are actually RM 7,956

Seriously, why do we have to pay so much for hiring a lawyer to do the paper work?

I wonder =.="

I remember, it was about 10.30am

The traffic was still kinda bad, I thought office job is 9am-5pm?

You know how it kills me to see all the cars lining up like no body business

Finally arrived to the lawyer firm, met up with my handling lawyer Mr. Eric Lee

Who actually gave me a look that I didn't know anything about buying a new property

Excuse me, it's my first time ok!

Me this kind of low incomer, cannot compare with you big money sucker vampire

God knows maybe you have more than 10 property by squeezing citizens' hard earn money?!

In December alone, I have spent way too much

2 insurance policies total cost me RM 4,106

Sister's ACCA exam fees cost me RM 868

That RM 22,400 and this RM 1,000 for the new house

See? Money is everything..

I'm having a big sigh now *haih....*

Money Money Money.. I must work harder, earn more

Nothing much, just want to have a better life

Just like everyone else..

And so.. Am I a big boy now?

This statement is quite wrong actually, I should call myself a man now!

Yeah man, how many people can get a house in his age of 25?

You have no idea how I go through all the stuff by my own

I am lucky enough to achieve my so called ultimate goal

I need to thank my family members especially my parents

Nevertheless my 2 best friends who constantly giving me supports

How they do it? I just borrow their ears and keep talking bout my job and money

And I got all the courages to fight everyday, that's a kind of love, a kind of support to me

Crason, big boy liao? Yeah, big boy liao lor~ Congrats to myself

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做一辈子的朋友

2011-11-21T16:47:00.001+08:00

昏昏欲睡当中你拨电来
其实心里准备已非常充足
冷冷地挂掉电话心里不禁晃出一片空白
你要走了我该说什么？
还是什么都不说比较适当？

三年前的我们
携手说到我们住在一起吧
三年后大家燕纷飞
这就是天下不散之宴席人总是要往前看吗？
可是我希望我可以吵吵闹闹哭哭啼啼地像个小孩子一样地
嘴里挂着不要不要我不要这样
总比装作坚强嘴巴很硬地说
你要幸福哦！来的好吧
于是我选择了哭着吵着拥抱你然后说你要幸福哦
坏人弄哭我了讨厌你
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Flying Career

2011-11-18T00:42:00.009+08:00

A little clap for myself , I have been flying for 3 years!

Yuhuu~~ A little couldn't believe this

This is the longest period of time that I stay in a company man :p

When I flew with those nice person, pretty one especially

Love taking pictures to freeze the joyful moments

Believe me, when I look at these pictures, I smile :)

Mei Foong and Cecelia

I guess Mei Foong was not ready for the photo shoot

While me and Cecelia posing like a star already hahahhaaa!!

He is one of the handsome malay steward

Name? Oops.. I couldn't remember

She is one of my favourite Leading Stewardess

Memory is still vivid that the first time I saw her

With her french twisted hair that tall, I told myself "This must be a bitchy superivisor"

Turn out we become so close and we even drink together and get wasted :)

Daphanie Key, with love! many many ^^

Who is this guy?

A badminton player who is more senior than Dato Lim

His name is Wong something something

Can easily tell from his face, he was drinking a lot on board

Wine and Beer, can't believe that he is already late 30's

While he looks like about my age

This is cool

And most importantly I look cute hahhaha!!!

She is Suet Ni, please call her Sue lol

And he is Keith Lam

So another pic of 4 of us together

Seriously.. Cecelia is so pretty :)

From the left is Leading Stewardess Marini

She looks like she is trying to hide herself somewhere else haha

An artist Going-To-Be Nurul, she is now with Siti Norhaliza Academy

I am so happy to see this pic

Totally capture the happy moments we spent together ^^

Btw, why is she drinking while she knows that we are taking picture?

Suet Ni, Sue

Suet Ni, Sue lolx

Thank god, the LOMO effect did not affect me

I am looking good while both of them look like the ghost

Who is a sister of Juon lol

Accidentally bumped into collegues in civilian clothe

Ok.. I understand why a crew would not look like a crew when out of uniform

Haha!! From the left, a crazy stewardess Yin Wei

Korean stewardess, oops! Forgot her name

And the malay steward, oops again! Too many crew, can't remember all

Maaf yerrrrrrr :p

Am I gonna kill her or something?

My hands are weird lol

Another crazy stewardess Ann

I know what is she trying to do hahhaha!!

Pls yerrrrrr are you seriously think that I don't know you are hiding your XXX with your handbag??

Hahhha!!!

Pretty girl, her name is Shirly

Nice make up, eyes are a lot bigger, way bigger than mine lol

This gila punye perempuan Hartini

If I don't know her in person, I might be mistaken her as a lesbian

For she is so macho and really really loud

Miss you girl, love the way you shouted being impatient while waiting for passenger to board

Hhahahhahaha!!!

This is Eric Lau

My eyes bag, gosh!!!

Sexy stewardess Teresa Lee

Muackz, miss you girl!

Girl girl, Jasmin Tsai

Same surname but different in between Chai and Tsai

You are like my little sister except.. We are almost the same height!

No wonder so many ppl ask me how come I can be a steward hahha!!

Wah wah wah~~~ So happy to upload all these pictures

I still love flying, love to meet new people, love to travel

Wondering can I keep this job until I am old?

For your information, steward retirement age is 55 years old

And they are trying to extend to 58 years old

Imagine myself in whole white hair, OMG!

Love your job

Love yourself

Someone told me that :)

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Revolution!

2011-11-17T23:47:00.003+08:00

Isn't it true that we somehow have to grow up?

Through time, through some incidents

We all have to accept the facts which are commonly cruel

And move on with a heart that believes to be stronger

Anyway this post is not about any disaster happened to me

It's just Crason is getting a new image!

I think keeping a fringe is a practise of me for a very long time

The picture above shows that I am such a cute baby hahhahaha!!

Looking young and cute ahahhaaha!!

Even this picture looks not bad too

Though I woke up at 5am in the morning and prepare myself for flight

Was in a serious sleepy mood though

Welcome the new Crason

Who is now looking more chubby, old, Flower Horn fish forehead

My god.. My face is so meaty!

And the innocence of my face, all gone!

I wonder should I start keeping back my fringe or maintain this new hair style

Btw.. Is only 1 month time, how could I become so chubby?!

Gosh...:(

Perhaps it is never a bad matter to get yourself a revolution

So long you are comfortable I guess

After changing this new image, I receive feedbacks are mostly negative

I begin to wonder, why do you have to put me down?

My image is none of your business, am I right?

Or maybe you are just giving your opinions

Which you failed to realise how much it hurts to say that..

I am chubby, fat, ugly, old, matured, old ass....

I am hurt :(

Anyway Crason is still Crason

I will never die and I still smile this like :)

Haha.. so the over my smile but I like to stare at my picture and tell myself

Oh baby, you are cute! (I know how it sounds, so the shameless XP)

The clock is ticking, time do not wait and sit still

And I shall accept who I am and move on

Just keep smiling will ya? :)

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Will You be Back?

2011-10-18T18:48:00.001+08:00

I'm writing this to you
I hate to admit it but I know I do love you
And I hope you will receive my msg
I'm begging you to return
Please....?
I miss the old you..

I understand you must have been gone through some difficulties
You seem pretty difficult to get over it
And again I understand, it has never been easy to start over again
After a failure and another
I do sympathy you..
I just wish you could be stronger..

To get ready to blog about something
Pictures are the essential items that require to express my feeling
I went through your facebook
Copied a few of them
I started to tear a little
Let's go back to the school time
We were all innocent but naughty
We ate a lot played a lot
But I guess we have never forgotten about our dream
Maybe you wanted to be a policeman? Maybe a doctor?
Looking at the situation now
I guess we have never ever thought once that we would become like what we are right now
I can give up what I have now to turn back the time
To enable you to start all over again
Maybe I won't be the Crason now
But I hope you can be someone better..

See how naive you are?

You sure did something real bad that makes me hate you a lot
You could gang up others to bully me
Witnessing your friend slapping me in the school canteen when I was only 13yo
Blowing fire, adding in salt and pepper to the benefit of getting my mama angry
And finally whack me like no body business
Do I hate you? Yes I do!!
For all that you have done to me, I wish you could carry the guilt and be guilty of it
Why were you so unreasonable?
Kept putting me down?
And that's exactly the reason why we were never close to each other

I love this pic
Though I look ugly in it
I guess.. I just like how 5 of us blend in with all those fights, tears, joys and happiness
You!! Better start waking up already
Don't drown yourself in the past
Let it be gone like wind
You have a far more important future ahead
No one should tell you what you should do
You should know by now but however if you ever need attention..
You can cry over my shoulder and say all those kind of silly words
I promise
Just like how I did when I was 16yo breaking up with my first scandal

Remember I asked you?
"Gor, can I hug you? At least I know there is someone still sayang me?"

OMG.. I'm tearing already :(
B asked me to show you and text you how much I care for you
I can't.. I do love you but you gotta be strong ok?

Gor come back to us
Let's put everything behind and start over again
We all love you
You are a piece of this family
And.. It's so hard to say this
I do love you Gor, please come back soon..

And Gor..
Will you be back one day?

Stick with You my Baby

2011-10-14T13:53:00.001+08:00

Strangely, it feels so different
Everyday I've been thinking about my baby Dan
It feels so sweet to have someone to stick with
At the same time, it gives me some moments of fear too

I used to laugh at ppl
Those gays who are mostly berangan cantik posted status or statement that they will love someone forever
Down to road not even a year, bye-bye~ breaking up
Whenever I look at those statement, so sweet and meaningful
I smirk and I say "see how long you guys can tahan"
Erhm.. Now I'm posting this kind of statement, it gives me some kind of fear :(

I am truly in love with you baby
I know I'm such a bad ass who has so much of flaws
Thank you for accepting me..
In return, I love you full heartedly

Yo, you ppl out there
May I have your blessing?
This guy Dan, I wish I could hold his hand till the day I die
Grow old together and I would make coffee for him every morning still..
Perhaps still argue but lovely just like the first day we met
I'm praying..

I love you baby Dan
Wonder why I feel worried at times
Perhaps I'm worried I don't have enough time to love you enough
Freeze the time *freezeeee*
& I just want to stick with you

Evon's Big Day! 26/09/11

2011-10-09T19:28:00.005+08:00

Back to blogging finally after being gone for so long
Seriously, to edit a bunch of pictures need times and efforts
Beautify the picture and the person inside is kinda tiring
Thank god I am not into photography or graphic industry though haha!

Btw, I wonder why are some of my pictures either upside down and it just couldn't turn straight
Maybe the owner is gay, the pictures are not straight too, turning gay?? Haha!

Let's get to the topic now, Happy Birthday Evon
It feels like just yesterday when I am looking at all these pictures
I smile, sweet a little, looking at these pictures, we truly enjoyed our time baby
Gonna quote from what Evon said "Lets the pic tell the story" Hahha!!!


Welcome to Kampung Malim Nawar, my hometown :) This idea might be kinda random but I guess we all like it though

Waterfall scene is the one must not miss
I love waterfall so so much!

Stopping by at R&R and snapped a little picture

This is the picture we want to screw Danny my B so so much
We all were making funny + scary pose and he there?
Hello!! Pls yerrrrr just want to look good in the pic is it!?

I have to do this bcuz I don't want my big tummy doing live show lol

This is better :)

Oh birthday girl, we love you, forever! :)

Bunch of crazy fella visit my hometown
And I hope you guys did actually enjoy this rural place

Okay, picture started to turn to the left
Which I don't even know how to fix it
But it won't ruin the good quality and the charming person in the pic :P

Hahha... What a pic, love this :)

Present to you my lovely grandma
I call her Ah Ma all the time and I love her so much

Can't you see that she is so damn gorgeous in her 69yo?
Ah Ma, I will marry you!!!

I just couldn't stop taking picture with Ah Ma
She is so cute^^

Oh yes there was this sex maniac at the waterfall too
He kept peeping on whoever has pussy, his eyes stared and won't looked away
Scary hamsap uncle!!
I stood beside of him, pee in the water and did this
Sway the water + urine to him lol!

I had no choice but to cover my big tummy
It is still sweet kan in the picture? :P

Went to this restaurant to spend a big dinner for Evon's big day

The dressing of the table seems like chinese couple getting married

A beer for birthday celebration? It's a must :)

OMG such a nice soft shell crab becomes like unknown upside down crab
It takes good especially dip with mayonnaise!!

Deep fried crispy sotong~

Thai sauced Red Snapper~~

This is called.. Paku Pakis? Nice with belacan :P

After the dinner, stopped by here

Welcome again~
A moment to remember that finally you guys came over to my hometown!

Back to home, freshen up and waited for the time to come
When the Cinderella has to go home 00:00 midnight

I love these picture so much sadly they are not straight :(

Lovely Ah Ma prepared the Mango Pudding~
A little gift for you dear~~

Okay.. all of a sudden this pic seems to jump it's queue
It's taken when we drove to Ipoh
Sweet couple? :p

Evon you did look like a ghost though lol

With me!!!

Eric.. don't smile like me ok? U can't do it!!

B looked like a small boy here haha!

Making a wish?
Dear ah, I wonder did you wish our friendship forever lol

Ah Ma also want to join??? :p
Like grandma like grandson :)

Happy huh??? :)

Love this pic but my tummy looks like a big hard rock!!!
Grrrrr!!!

Clear blue sky~

Aaaah~~~ This picture is so nice~~~~ ^^

Love this too~~
I should have seated nearer to Evon :)

Big girls~~ Don't manja~~

Before heading back to KL
Stopped by the famous Bidor Pun Chun delicacy shop

We were all very tired
But I guess my smile still so charming huh? hahhaha!!!

OMG OMG OMG!!!
Another must try!!!!
Yam cake or Taro cake they called
If I am not on diet, I'll swallow the whole plate!!

Nothing fancy, just sincerely from my heart, bottoms up wanted to wish you
Happy birthday Evon the big meow~
Wish you another wise year, another lucky year
Love you always :)

Man, recently I've been busy spending time with a guy
That I have decided to declare him as my BF
When I changed my relationship status and posted a pic there
This was what happened!

The notification rings like hell man
It won't stop for few seconds then it hits again the bell
It has reached 212 likes and 33 comments, not bad not bad lol
Thank you for all the wishes there!
Seriously, I don't hope I have to post this kind of status for another time
I want a steady relationship now, hopefully everything goes smoothly
Let's pray ^^

Love myself in this kind of crazy smiling face
And the waterfall could really help to forget about all your problems
Let's do it again another time shall we?
I love waterfall ^^

Recently, life has been good
I love my job (Kau Ade?)
Let's just go back to work and work again
I'll blog again, I promise :p

The old believes in everything;
The middle-aged suspects everything;
The young? They know everything..

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I want to be your SLUT!

2011-09-13T01:10:00.006+08:00

我 Hold 住了! Lolx
Perhaps the statement above means something to you
For the recent Hold 住姐 is kinda famous of her very own style
And recently I did feel like I am being Hold 住 :p

I went for a 6 days trip
Been to Kota Bharu, KK and Taipei
Having a same set of crew, 5 of us went through together for these 6 days
At first, I did not have any good feeling cuz I will be away for 6 days that long
Seeing the same set of crew, the same faces
It's kinda sickening BUT...!
It all turned out to be so damn smooth and fun
I have begun to think about all those good memories
And I wanna say.. I miss all of you~

Please allow me to introduce this pretty stewardess, Darliyana
She is one hot chick that at first impressed me with her bitchy face
I dare not to talk to her at all cuz this would be the first time flying with her
As time goes by, I found that she is actually one crazy girl
We gossiped a lot, talked too much, at the same time
We carried out really warm and excellent service to all passengers HAHA!!
Really love this girl a lot a lot!!

Seriously, next month would be my 3rd year with this company
As I signed in into the system, I found that I'm actually the most junior
Hello~~ 3rd years still a junior huh? I was shivering a little
Scared of all seniors might just give me any hard time whenever they can
And I was so wrong! Everyone is nice and they do treat me fair and square
Thank you thank you~ You guys, I really wish we could fly together again
To the other 3 more crews, I didn't upload the pic this time
I'll do it next time alright? Erhm.. Sincerely from my heart, I love all of you

Before this trip, I started picking up the habit to play my psp again!
My routine day was like, going for flight, worked my ass off,
Came back, take a cold shower then put on moisturizer,
Lay back, relax, and start Di Di Di my psp until my eyes couldn't take it,
Take a short nap, Di Di Di again, totally falling in love with my psp

See? How happy I am with my psp? Haha!
Oh man, I extremely love RPG game, do you love games too? lol

This pic was taken in Taipei
See how hot is this chick?? Oh man, I would love to F*** her!!
I kinda told myself, if I'm ever a straight guy (which is quite impossible)
I'll totally marry her and make her screams her lung out everyday
Orgasm? You bet, bitch~~

This would be the first time I tried taking a pic like this
Erhm.. Not to be ashamed at all, I think I'm kinda cute hahhahaha!!!
Lately I just couldn't stop dieting, I have indeed slim down for 5KG
And whenever I got a chance to look at mirror
"Oh man.. This kid is so cute" (I mean myself, the kid) LOLx!!!!
After all, I seriously think I look better when I'm slimmer

=.=" Acting cute
Anyway, this is how exactly I feel
There is something I forgot to tell you
You got the right present! The present I always wanted
I wanted a doll, something to hug when I go to bed
Although I often throw it away when I'm deeply asleep
As I wake up I would see the doll is missing and it's actually at a far end corner lol
I really love it, giraffe, no wonder his name is Fefe :)

Can I say.. Thank you very much??
Thank you a lot.. I really appreciate whatever you are doing right now
You asked me, why haven't I change from SINGLE to In A RELATIONSHIP
Dear ah dear, I was serious about my words,
Nothing is so called guaranteed, that's why there is no insurance for love
You can't buy love, nor you can pay back a lost love with money
Love is a voluntary action, an action that comes from your willingness
And I just want to say.. I want to be your slut!!
I want to sleep with you day and night, and that's only you~
Only you~ I'm your slut, and the only slut~

Everything seems back to the right track now
I finally found who I want to be, what am I looking forward to,
The lost Crason begins to swirl back to the original track,
Rather a correct track of life, I guess
I'm happy recently (^.^)v
I wish all of you are happy too~!!
Muackz! A kiss from me, as I'm kissing you all from Hong Kong here
Yeah! Tomorrow brunch, the infamous HK Dim Sum!!! :)

p/s: (Elroy says, p/s is supposed to be short! :p)
To whom I have loved before, you must be in your utmost finest condition
(Don't waste my love and efforts on you!)
To whom I have hurt before, you sure understand sometimes love is just sucks
(I didn't mean to hurt you! It has never been your problem, it's mine.. )
To whom I am loving right now.. You have a huge responsibility!
(To love me more, sayang me and never leave me, alright? :) )
OMG.. Elroy will kill me cuz my p/s is like 6 paragraphs that long!! :p

Will upload my happy smiling face more soon :)
Cheers to love, love completes your world!

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Oh yeah~ It's time to blog again

2011-09-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

I am now in Taipei
Arrived about 3 hours ago
Journey to hotel is a little far, come on my lovely company
Please change it to a nearer town area but not that far pls?
You wanna save cost, I do understand but pls do not forfeit our benefit pls?

So, this trip is a 6 days trip
Will be staying overnight at Kota Bharu, KK, Taipei
It's only the 3rd day and I am feeling so fucking homesick
Seriously, can I go home now pls? I don't wanna stay out for so long :(
Hotel is nice for sure, I could mess the room upside down
No one cares, isn't it? But it will never be as warm as I'm home
Thinking bout home, I think bout my family members again :(
Popo ah, I know you are in town
It's just too bad I'm away, I wanted to bring you out for a meal badly :(
I'm sorry that I'm still out of town, couldn't bring you anywhere
End of this month, I'm gonna celebrate Evon's birthday
And we plan it at my hometown, Malim Nawar
Waterfall, hot weather, farm, foods, Iced ABC
I promise I'll take a pic or two with you Popo, please wait for me..

Normally, I do hate long trip
Facing same group of crew, same face same attitude
This time, I'm the most junior, I was not feeling alright
For next month, it's gonna be 3rd year with this "lovely" company
By right, 3rd year shouldn't be the most junior anymore right?
Sadly, it happens in my "lovely" company..
You want to be a senior? It has got to be at least 6 years!!!!!! What a joke right?

However, this time my crew they are totally sweet
Sweet to have a handsome steward, pretty stewardess, a tall stewardess
And also... Nevertheless a very nagging supervisory crew
I am like.. "Hello~~~ Could you pls shut your fuck up and fuck off pls???"
Should be thankful as he is not bullying us
Just too much to share and it's just.. Kinda annoying

Me myself on the other hand, the most junior
Have to act like I know nothing and I am so less of experience
For they are at least 6 years and above which I think.. "Do I care?"
It's just tough not to be urself, isn't it?
I am such a direct and straight forward person
Bcuz of hoping to survive in this airlines, I better act like a coward
So.. In work, we have to be a little fake huh? Hopefully not totally fake :(

iiisssssshhhh... Enough of getting naked all the time
As I'm drinking right now, mind has gone tipsy a little
Don't mind me crapping yeah~~
Oh yeah, something to tell, there is a guy, his name is B
Evon Elroy, at least he is not D anymore kan??? hahha!!
Oh yeah, this B told me, I have to gain more weight!!
??????????????????
Hello, Crason is genetically a fat ass!!! How dare you?!!
To see people can have KFC as lunch everyday, to have dessert all the time
U seriously think I am not jealous at all?!!
U see, we arrive Taipei, others busy ordering fried foods
Deep fried mushroom, chicken drumstick, squid, fish cake
While me standing aside, dripping saliva and hearing my stomach playing drums
Wait, he doesn't mean he wants me to be chubby

B wanted me to be muscular..
That's even more crazy!!!!
Crason, a 166-168cm in height to be muscular?!?
Hello.. You must be crazy!!!!
I know there are ppl like that, love to be bulky muscular but not Crason ok?
Crason prefers to dip anything with hot water
To get rid of oily foods and prefer to have vegie more than anything else
I just lost about 5kg, pls, don't let me go back to the chubby Crason ok?

You just don't understand, don't you?
Crason is who he is, no one can really change him
B, I guess you are just another person passing by
Good luck to you looking for someone muscular
You have totally omitted something! Something which matters the most
Is his heart and his sould :)

I got dressed up finally
To tonight, in Taipei, cheers! Bottoms up a glass of red wine
Tomorrow is my day off in Taipei,
Gonna get you.. Someone who's birthday this month, a present
And I wanna tell you.. I love you~ Pls stay at my side at all time :)
After so long of being emo, tonight I'm totally fine to be single
B said I am so desperate, wanted to have a BF
You are so wrong, I'm not desperate at all..
Do you seriously think that I'll be upset for not having a BF?
I am so good to be alone, to be single, pls......~~~~
You and you and you there, not compatible with me, DO I CARE??!
Like I said, ADA AKU KISAH ker nyah?!?!

For me this kind of specially created human being
You don't deserve me!
Or maybe.. I'm way too weird created in this world
Maybe I don't deserve to have anyone either :(
Ppl said... 你選人人也在選你...
Gi mampus la pukimak punye so called relationship
I have no nice body shape, I have no branded clothing
But I have a rich heart and a rich pocket lol...!!
And nevertheless a very rich personality :) hahahhaa!!!

OMG enough for tonight,
I want to sleep already~~~~~
Good night world~~~~~
Happy happy cuz tomorrow I'm gonna spend so much money on shopping~~~
Time to use a little money,
Earn money, must know how to use money~~~~
Cheers~~~~

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Upside Down, It's a Good Life

2011-09-04T01:38:00.007+08:00

Recently it has been sucks in my life
Everything seems not going smoothly
My little baby Kancil has admitted to vehicle repair shops for several times
They got it repainted, changed a spare part or two
It took about a month to fix the painting
And few days for the changing of parts
But still.. Complications arose and it had got worsen
My little baby Kancil was like burning in hell, white smokes coming out
It was.. fucking embarrassing as I stopped my foot at traffic junction
The so called "Kind hearted" driver at my side, rolled down the window
And.... Shouted "Fire! Fire! Your car engine is on fire!!"
Cool, Chill! It's only because of the dark oil or black oil leaking
Leaked on engine and it produced one kind of white smoke
Which could easily mislead ppl that my engine is on fire
And this is such an embarrassing experience.. :(

But thank god though
My car is not back in the perfect condition
Though it has a little smell, the smoke smell, still...
Better than before! I told myself.. I shouldn't have complained too much
It's an old car man, it has been with me since I was 17yo
Ppl will get older, car will get worsen, it's a very very very normal thing in life
And I'll get bored of sickening relationship..
So it is a better option for me to choose to be single?

And so.. I made this face (btw, this is originally what am I doing right now)
Go to hell man, I'm fucking emo right now
After a long flight, drink a little Vodka + Orange and I started to be emo..
What the hell is going on? Why others could have a really sweet relationship
While I am always single? What the Fuck!!!
I am such a dude whom you are dying to bring home to see your parents
Okay.. I'm just being crazy right now, I better stop right here
Sorry about it :P My sincere apology

I love this pic! Simply bcuz I love Evon and Elroy
It's okay that I'm single.. It's okay bcuz two of them for sure will stand by me
Elroy, don't ever say that you won't worry bout me
I need care and comfort sometimes.. And it is so tiring to act that I'm OKAY all the time
And Evon, let's get in love again okay?
I'm pretty sure you will get a BF faster than I do
I'm just nobody that no one would love
Perhaps I'm more suitable to be single for I have such a destructive personality
Whoever comes near me will get hurt more
So.. Fucking leave me alone and let me die alone
It's okay to let me die alone, provided you guys donate loads of money to my family :P
Wakakkakaakak.. such an emo post
Let's take a shot!

I'm just being emo for I am single right now
I want to love again, please?
There will be a day, I believe so
Till then, I shall blog about myself being emo
If you are not interested to read my blog anymore..
Please press ALT+F4 for windows user
And press Command+Q for mac user

Dear ah, I really want to love again..
Will it be a day? I want to cry....................

OMG.. seriously an emo post
I don't mind letting others to see the real me
Bcuz I'm Crason.. Nothing to fake about, nothing to be ashamed of
Love me? Hate me? Ignore me? It's your choice
Let's call it a night, time to take a bathe
And I'm now at Renaissance Hotel Kota Bharu :)
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Devils Wear Prada, the Me

2011-08-19T20:07:00.006+08:00

Ok ok, fine.. I give up ok?
I met up with my besties last night, finally after so long though
Talked bout stuffs, you know, our stuffs
Erhm, they are quite a teaser, teasing me all the way (true?)
Quoted from Evon, "You better don't go back to the Emo Crason!"
And Eric, "Or else your admirers will flip their eyes balls!"
Excuse me both of you!! Enough!!
Sorry dear, I can't help but to feel lonely right now
To make these days, a moment to be remembered
I shall post them here, remind myself what kind of shit I have done these days
You won't blame me right? :P

It seems like I have not truly been single since last year November onwards
I hopped from this I to D, in between there were few scandals
(Thinking hard to recall) K? C? E? A? D? oh man, I'm such a slut
Ok, the things are, I was carried away by all the attentions given to me
And I thought I am so hot! (Which is so wrong!!)
I am kinda used to put blame on them, accused them, tortured them (scary!!)
For such a workaholic like me, rest period is important
I'll definitely go crazy when they ask me to spend the whole day with them
I tend to be tired whenever I see them too long in a day
And when I see my bed, I would be "Oh man, this is my heaven!"
I love it especially when I hit on my own sack, pick up my iPhone white (<--again)
Mahjong Maniac, F. Fantasy, Defender, Sango Kingdoms.. All sorts of game ^^
Thus, I feel even more tired after spending a few hours on games
Erhm.. What am I talking bout? It's dragging too far away
I want to say I thought I was in need of freedom
I got it all now, so free, so much freedom, a huge space to breathe
But..
But...
But....

I miss you... badly :(

Whatsapp with Jasmin Tsai just now, my colleague, a cute one
I kept telling her how lonely I felt, I did text Evon too this morning
Don't ask me to look forward
You know how it feels when you are stubbornly digging a hole
Don't ask me to rest more
You do know the kind of abnormal heartbeat beats fast
As if you are worried and anxious

Dear ah, I am not happy here.. How ah? Help me please?
Shit, it is my fault, I should not have done that, can I turn back the time?
I thought I am ok to be single that I won't miss him
But now.. I miss he nagging at me, calling me, whatsapp me, hugging me..
I have so much to talk to him, so much to share

- sigh =.=" -
My bad huh?

Don't mind me talking to myself ok? Let's roll the engine
Ok, all that you need is time, time and TIME
Perhaps you should avoid all kinds of distraction right now
Yes, there are many hottie out there and they are kinda irresistible
But you know you are not ready for all this, at least for now
Just that you know, to be single is so cool
You can sleep whole day long, hit all the games like nobody business
I know you want to feel that you belong to someone
You can text Evon? Elroy? (if that's ok with them :P)
When you get busy, you will forget bout this and keep it that way!
Keep yourself busy still, be a little good boy
The right moment will appear in no time, without your realizing :)
(Yuck, this is so disgusting to say things like that to myself)

I told Jasmin "Hey bitch, ain't I know very well how to describe my feeling?"
"I can be a writer!" I smiled after I wrote this :)
In such a bad mood, I could even camwhore, I guess.. I'll be fine

One last time talking to myself, is that ok? :P (annoying!!)
Alright, now that I am single
I swear I am gonna be the shining beacon that I am so uniquely a single lad
Not a dead rock ok? I will smile each day to attract more happiness
I would work out the best of me to make myself feel better
And I will be so ready and capable, one day, to finally meet the right one
Cool? This is self motivation! Come on, don't vomit ok?
Actually I'm bout to throw out too! YUCKIE!!! XD

Phew, Crason is feeling much better now, Thanks~~~~~

A day is a gift, love each day! :)

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Crossing An Unknown Street

2011-08-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

Just got back from 6 days work
Been to Shanghai, Guangzhou, K.Kinabalu & Hong Kong
Pls, spare me a life
Don't tell me "Wow! Ur life is fun!"
It's just a job and I'm getting more & more bored of it
If it is not because of the money, I could have quit a long time ago

Tell me what went wrong pls?
I supposed to be someone blissfully living in this world
Holding my iPhone white & keep texting someone started with "D"
It's just like a sudden lightning strikes on me
A second of finger snaps "SNAPzzz", everything has changed!
I couldn't live with this, but what choice do I have?

Oh well certainly life is about choices you make
You can be obedient, loyal, a bitch, a whore, a slut, a drama queen
It's all up to you, what is your preference?
When I ask "Would you like to have Chicken or Fish?"
Don't even try to ask me "Beef?"
You won't want a slap on your face isn't it?

Thus, I has chosen to be single
I fled the scene which might turn out to be a heavenly paradise
And it takes only a few days, to think and to re-consider
Of course I did ask myself "What do you really want?" I certainly did
If you don't like cheese cake, you of course can reject the offer without a second thought
But if you don't like to work, can you? Sometimes you might just force yourself to work
Talking bout L.O.V.E, that's another tricky and yet difficult question
Can anyone here live without love? I suppose there might be
But me? This never-get-lonely person, seems pretty hard these days
I want to be loved, I want to be cared, I want to be hugged
But are you the one who is right for me? That.. I couldn't answer..
Ask me, pls ask me, do I wish to get married with you?
A part of me YES! A part of me.. Erhm.. maybe ask me another time?
Can't you see? My heart doesn't seem want to commit a relationship right now
I have only a word or two for you.. My apology, pls forgive me..

If I say, I wanna play more, can you find me some other time?
If I confess, I kinda like you but not to the extend that I would die for you, how?
If I say, you are so sweet and lovely and yet not up to my ideal type of guy?
If I confess, it's not that I don't want you, it's just I'm not ready, pls let me go?
If I ask, will you wait for me?
If I question you, why would you turn me off sometimes, am I rude?
If I were to be frank, we should have never met each other
Ain't I am the asshole now?
Yeah.. I am the asshole, I did shitty things and I am hideous
I am sad, I want to cry, where can I find a shoulder? Or maybe a tissue pls?

Oh come on, how old are you right now? 25yo?
Why am I acting like I am 15yo? Still emo about stuff like this?
Actually, deep down I do know and I know it very well
It's just.. about the compatibility of two different characters
For instant, a Taurus matches with A Virgo but goes against A Sagittarius?
Or maybe a famous chinese proverb, Mars hits Earth, Oil VS Water?
Simple as that, I guess so? Erhm.. I am just being too rational right now
Not exactly though, it's about chemistry too, the fire sparks
Some sparks last a few seconds, some last a few years, some lasts a century too
And my sparks with you? Last that long, only we both know very well
Hey baby, I am sorry ok?
I don't mean to do anything, say anything to hurt you
It's just.. I did it and it's too late for me to even hold you back with my arms
So I guess.. I shall really let you go, walk thru this unknown street without me
Can't you see the bright star ahead? You would be good
I don't see my bright star yet, I will still walk alone, there will be one ahead
I am sure! :)

See? It has never been easy to be dumped or to dump someone
This time, it kinda recalls how helpless I used to feel
And yet, I need to adapt to a single life, again? That's totally hard to imagine
I have an answer for myself
Oh sweetheart, you will be just fine, to be a single lad is nothing bad at all
We always get this when we broke up, isn't it?

For an unknown reason, I have been eating like a hungry pig
I thought I only eat a lot when I am happy
And now, I don't even know how to describe my own feeling
And I eat and eat, never let go any single dish, any single snack
What's going on? For I have gained about 4kg, time to do something huh?
Not to diet, is to neutralize my inner feeling
That includes sadness, fear, anxiousness, anger, hatred and a lot more
Tell you something, I have been working like a slumber slug lately
No sense of urgency, no smiling face, no cheerful facial expression
And Crason is gonna declare, he is officially emotionally break down
I have about 2 days and a half to cure myself
Time does wonder huh? I hope so, pls, I need a rejuvenating potion right now!

"Hey baby, how are you doing?"
I can't even text that person this way, and this is so sad
I wish you.. A really happy life without me, a really good future without me
Don't say that you need time, because I am sad to walk away too
And.. I need time too :(
"Hey baby, I miss you here"
I can't text you this either.. and that's so sad..

"Hey baby.. you are gonna be alright, and we just have to move on.."