Dark Wiccan

PBP 2012 Week 4 brought to you by the letter Bb

2012-01-27T06:05:00.001-05:00

This week for the letter 'Bb' I have picked the colour black.

When people think of Witches they think of black cats, black cloaks, black boots, black cats etc. Kind of like this...

The Witches of MacBeth

I personally have always loved the colour black and that was long before I became a witch. Mind you, I do have a black cloak, black hat, black shoes and of course have a deep love for cats especially my outdoor neighbourhood black cat we named Hecate. However it is not always a BAD colour to be associated with.

According to a colour chart I have for witchcraft; Black is associated with the following,

Signifies: Negation without reflecting, unlocking when stuck, banishing evil or negativity.
Holiday- Samhain
Planet- Saturn
Day - Saturday
Deities- The Crone
Astrological Sign: Scorpio & Capricorn

I am in the Crone aspect of life having had a hysterectomy, being 47 and being wiser than the younger generation (sometimes). I don't look like the typical 'Crone' nor do my other friends in the same period of their lives who are Pagan/Wiccan/Druid etc. Samhain IS and always will be my favorite Sabbat and Hecate is one of my patron Deities - also associated with the colour.

I do not do Black magick I do not put hexes on people which some think is associated with Black however I do use it to keep negative energies from my home, I use it for scrying and some of my favorite stones are black.

Tourmaline

Hematite

Obsidian

Of course there are so many more and according to the International Colored Gemstone Association, there are more than 40 different varieties of gemstones, such as diamonds, sapphires and pearls and include both precious and semi-precious stones. Out of all these colored stones, black is the color chosen by designers and fashion forward people alike as a basic staple for any wardrobe.

Another colour correspondence lists the colour as Black - Dramatic, committed, serious. Mysterious, containing potentials, restful or fearful.

Black is associated with mystery and the great unknown. It is believed that wearing black or grey stones in jewelry, or clothing, suppresses and protects the emotions while portraying the wearer as mysterious, sexy, and sophisticated.

Black banishes and absorbs negativity, it is symbolic of outer space and the universe. Black is the absence of all color. In some cultures black represented fertility, in others it represented wisdom. It is often linked with evil and in many cultures, black is the color of mourning.
According to http://www.spellwork.net/ *found while surfing* In candle magick: Black candles, which are ruled by Saturn, can be potent in all forms of banishing magic, for leaving behind old sorrows and redundant relationships, for acknowledging grief and for rituals of parting. Black, like brown, is the color of acceptance, whether of a restriction or of the frailties of self or others, and so it is a candle color of forgiveness. Black is another earth color, containing both male and female energies. Rituals using these candles are best practiced on a Saturday. Use with jet, obsidian, tourmaline and onyx.

So people, give us a break, we don't wear our ritual clothes or witch's garb everyday and to say the colour black means evil... go in your closet, TOSS OUT the following items then... Black blazer, dress pants, that little black dress, skirts, jeans, t-shirts, purses and shoes because well if black is EVIL then maybe you shouldn't wear it so often!

looks like my cat Buddy

Cats in Hats LOvE this

Amazing Robe!

A future tattoo

love this picture

May the God and Goddess bless and keep you well this week, until we meet again.. as is said, Merry Meet, Merry Part and Merry Meet again...

B is for Believe in yourself!

2012-01-20T01:47:00.004-05:00

Belief in yourself and in your abilities is so important in the craft...

isn't she pretty!

I should have written this yesterday when I had a firm belief in my abilities as a witch and an over abundant amount of trust in my use of my pendulum.

You see, this one pendulum has never steered me wrong, since I started working with it, it was like it was made for me and me alone. Always answered my questions with great accuracy and family always asked me to use it for finding out the answer of things. I was asked by my witch daughter to figure out the sex of her baby when she was barely pregnant and I was right and so proud of myself for Believing in my abilities and others believing in me.

Until today... my daughter in-law asked me if their 7 week old fetus was ok as she had a bad feeling and she is prone to miscarrying.

I pulled out my purple amethyst chevron pendulum and we did the routine asking of test questions then moved on to that question and it was swinging front to back swiftly saying YES the pregnancy was fine...

5 hours later she was rushed by ambulance to the hospital as she had started to cramp and bleed...

They lost the baby and not only did i loose my Grandbaby, who my pendulum said was a boy, but also my Belief in my abilities.

PBP2012 week 2 Angels appearing in our lives

2012-01-13T02:00:00.002-05:00

Angels Walking Among Us in Daily Life...

Archangel Michael

Crystal angel

I attended a workshop at my favorite shop, White Flame Candle Co. in Hamilton, Ontario last week and the owner's daughter is a dear witch who I have a great deal of love and respect for and have gotten to know very well. We were talking about Prosperity and almost crying I was telling her about how the day before the breaks went on my truck and I was not financially in a place to get them fixed, however I need my truck to get me back and forth to my job. She wrote down a number gave me the man's name and held my hands, looked into my eyes and said, 'Sherry, call this number he is my mechanic and tell him you are a friend of mine'. So the next day I did and although he couldn't see me until Monday he assured me all would be fine and to bring it in so he could see it and figure out a plan of action.

Saturday I borrowed my witch sister's car for work and Sunday my dear friend Michelle drove me to and from work, keep in mind I work 8PM to 7AM. I am so lucky I have these friends, who would get up and drive to the next city in order to pick up someone at 7am during rush hour traffic? She even drove behind me up the mountain to where his shop was in case I had a problem.
I am a firm believer in Angels and how they are always around but make their presence known when it is really needed, however I don't really recall a time I met one in person, until Monday.

Chris called me and said it was going to be THIS MUCH MONEY to fix everything wrong with my truck, I thought I was going to throw up! However, the 'what had to be done NOW' he could do for $550.00. I had driven my back breaks right off my truck, the caliper had fallen off which is why I didn't have breaks anymore. So I checked the bank and I could do that but it would leave me with nothing, but shit I needed my truck. So Michelle drove me back up with money in hand and he told me that he put on all new back breaks, fixed a wire on my engine for free, did oil and fluids for free and only charged me labour of 1 hour! He is also looking for some used tires in decent condition so I can get through the winter without killing myself or someone else since mine are so bald. Again, for FREE! So I go to pay him, and he hands me back some money and says to me, 'now take this over to Rhonda's shop and P.I.F. spend it there' So I did and felt so wonderful that I could help her business and that he had done all he had to help in my much needed time!

Without these Angels in my life, I would have reverted back into my many panic attacks and cried until I lost all hope and given up, but Rhonda, Michelle and Chris well they are 3 very strong angels who provided me with what I needed and will forever be grateful to them.

Really, in this day and age with the economy the way it is, who does things like this? Free parts, labour, tires, etc. I believe strongly that there are many Angels walking on Mother Earth who are put in your life for reason's unknown until something happens and they are there helping you up on your feet and putting belief in your heart again for humankind. I never thought it would happen to me, I guess the truth is I didn't feel worthy of such a gift.

I will support both of these businesses when I can, and well, Michelle my witch angel she came into my life when she moved into the apartment on the top floor of the house we both rent. She has become one of my best friends and is an Angel who is always there even if it is just for a tea and a shoulder to cry on, to make me laugh daily and she empowers me to be a better witch! The funny thing is she is young enough to be my daughter and I am so blessed her fiance has asked me to go with them next year when they get married in Cuba!

I had started reading about bring Angels into your life with a great book by Sonia Choquette called 'Ask your Guides' and because I was reading it on my lunches at work I couldn't delve into it as deeply as required. I am going to pick this back up and start reading it again and do the exercises this time, I believe there is something pushing me to this and who am I to shove back! lol

I know this is a personal story and it may not really qualify as a blog for the Pagan Blog Project 2012, however it is something I knew I had to share. Watch for your Angels, ask them for help and remember to thank them for their help when it is given.

Everyday, I am lighting a white candle and thanking my Angels for being in my life and then I thank them in my prayers when I go to bed. Like God and Goddess, they need to be treated with love and respect and the more help we have in this lifetime, the better, at least I believe it to be this way.

I found this great site and borrowed the following from it, and of course linked it back to them.

Study Holistic in the UK

Guardian Angel

We all have our own guardian angel. Every person living has their own angel, no matter what their circumstances. For instance even murderers and evil people will still have their guardian angel. However, because this type of person may work in the negative they may never choose to make contact with their angel. Your angel loves you unconditionally and knows you better than yourself. This angel will be present with you from the moment your soul decided to inhabit earth, and will stay with you throughout this lifetime. It is said that in your next incarnation, your next angel will be a different one to accompany you. It is always our free choice whether we listen to our angel or not.

Connecting With Your Angel

The best way to learn to connect with your angel directly is through meditation. There are many different techniques and you will need to find one that suits you. Some people find yoga very helpful to aid connection, or you can just sit in a quite space and ask your angels to be with you. Angels cannot come to our aid without us asking. This is one of the rules the angels have. You can also ask others angels to help, for instance if you wanted to help heal someone, you can ask for their guardian angel to be present and help you heal the person.

As long as you are asking for the good of the person then their angel will be happy to assist.

Angel Therapy

Angel therapy is based on the notion that communicating with angels is the key to healing. Angel therapists believe they help to heal their patients by getting in touch with the angel who will guide the patient in the right direction for them. It is not necessary to be clairvoyant or a medium to experience the joy and pleasure of angels. You do not need to actually see the angels to experience them. The majority of people know that we are never completely alone and can feel their presence enfolding us and guiding us, they help bring us comfort, healing and wisdom.

Blessed Be!

Week 1 'A' is for Air!

2012-01-05T15:54:00.001-05:00

Some may say I selected Air because it was easy... not as much as you would think. I sat with stacks of books and almanac's around me reading all the DIFFERENT correspondances with Air. Who knew there were so many? I selected Air because I am an Aquarius as is my oldest, my youngest is Gemini and his best friend who adopted me as his Mom is a Libra... and that pretty much says we are all full of AIR! lol sorry bad joke I know.

Mike, Joe, Ryan

From Dorothy Morrison's Everyday Magic I have borrowed the following:
Come to me Air, so fresh and so clean,
Grant mental power - keep my thoughts
Sharp and keen
Bring creativity, bring clarity, too
Lend your positive aspects to all that I do.

I selected 1 God and 1 Goddess although there are more that are the patron deities of Air.
Goddess - Arianrhod she is a Welsh/Celtic Goddess of 'The Silver Wheel' the moon and the stars. She represents deep Soul knowledge, intuition and mysteries of the life cycle. She is the connection of Birth, Death and Regeneration. She is represented by spider webs, full moon and stars as well as the spinning wheel.
God - Thoth he is an Egyptian God of magic, wisdom, medicine, astronomy and writing, but especially of music. Said to have brought all magic and wisdom into being with the power of sound. He is a great favorite with contemporary magicians who use incantation, drumming and song to invoke him. God of great knowledge. He is represented by the cresent moon and the eye of Ra (the sun).

Arianrhod by Emily Brunner

Thoth

Air
Gender - Masculine, Active
Colour - Yellow
Direction - East
Time of Day - Dawn
Season - Spring
Tools - Wand, Chimes, Censer
Tarot Suit - Swords
Qualities - Life, Faith
Animals - Eagle, Hawk, All Birds
Metal - Tin, Copper
Spirits - Sylphs, Brownies
Stones - Sand, Diamond, Adventurine, Mica, Pumice, Sphene, Topaz
Natural Symbols - Feather, Birds, Wind, Clouds, Smoke
Musical Instruments - Flute, all Wind Instruments
Magical Powers - Disputations, Moving, Travel, Weather working, Instruction, Freedom, Knowledge, Gossip, Theory
Sense - Hearing/Smell
Positive Qualities - Freedom, Diligence, Dexterity, Optimism, Joy of Living, Intelligence
Negative Qualities - Contempt, Slyness, Gossiping, Lying, Diffidence
Type of Herb - Airy, Intellectual, Mental, borne by the Air, Flowers heavy scented
Herbs - Spearmint/Mint, Mistletoe, Lemon Balm, Lavender, Orange flowers, Hazel, Mugwart, Cherry, Aspen, Sandalwood, Mastic, Slippery Elm, benzoin, Solomon's Seal, Eyebright, Star anise, Rose, Wormwood, Yarrow and Catnip

From Scott Cunningham:
Air is the mind, the intellect of the Witch. It is the element of movement of freshness. Magic of this realm is mental or inertia-creating. It is used to 'get something off the ground'

Offerings to this element should be thrown into the air!

Be sure to check back on Friday's

2012-01-05T00:50:00.000-05:00

Friday begins the 2012 Pagan Blog Project! Be sure to check out the blogs under my Wiccans/Pagans and More Tab to see more people participating in this awesome event! Still have more to add.

It's OVER!!

2011-12-26T09:07:00.000-05:00

Yah! Christmas is over for another year... it is so strange not having anyone home Christmas morning guess that is why the kids woke me 3 times the day before to do their stockings lol
They got their gifts at Yule so it didn't take long to do the stockings, but it sucked going into work with broken sleep I had a really hard time keeping awake.
Now to get through NYE at work, everyone seems to be so great about looking for reservations and shit early, but there are still those last minute people who don't get the fact at NYE is the same date every year but call or email at the last minute to get into restaurants and clubs that were booking 2 months ago for this last night of 2011. GET WITH IT PEEPS!!!

I am working the 31st to the 3rd then I am going to clean my house inside out! Do a major smudging of all rooms, closets, corners etc and welcome the excitement of what is to come in 2012.
I plan on going to Indiana again, this time for July long weekend and stay a few extra days, have the whole weekend off for Pagan pride in September and plan on driving up to see Shannon's family and spend as much time as I can with the new witch who will be born the beginning of April!!

Can't wait to start reading The Real Witches' Year by Kate West. It begins on January 1st! I am going to really start working with my Tarot cards and more with my pendulms, one is scary acurate and the other 2 well they seem to answer what the other person wants to hear. Have to fix those for sure.

Remember that, like nature, God and Goddess are always with and around you, as are your angels, all you need to do is acknowledge and love them as well as yourself! Many Blessings for 2012

Winter Solstice, Yule, Christmas, etc

2011-12-17T08:23:00.000-05:00

This year like so many of my resent past, I have not been in the mood for the tree, decorations, merriment etc for Yule/Winter Solstice. Money tight, working etc just doesn't seem the same as when the kids were little. Anyway, Mike and Rhonda decided I needed my decorations up, so they decided to use my Samhain tree (black with white lights) and it seemed fitting for my first Yule in this apartment so I said do what you wish. I sat at the computer trying to figure out what I was making my Mom, have my Dad's gift done, but not at that point and thinking about how I use to be able to afford to get my boys the gifts on their list. Then it hit me... RIGHT! I had a husband with a very decent job! I wasn't paying the bills alone, I wasn't trying to figure out how I was going to fix my truck blah blah and blah. So then and there I decided, Yule isn't about gifts and stockings full of fun, it is about the Winter Solstice! Goddess giving birth to the Sun God and new beginnings!
I love that my parents and I are having a home-made gift exchange this year, we are all 'crafty' in one way or another and it is going to be my favorite part!
Found out my adopted son is going to be coming home this year and I haven't seen him in 2 years so it is going to be the best part for me!
Below are pictures of the decorations and my mantle, but I wanted to add... no matter the tradition you hold in your family what is important is that you are together at some point and that in my case, I celebrate the re-birth of the Sun God and have a festive dinner with my children, some fun with some friends and celebrate the Winter Solstice with my meditation group!
So, that being said, I will start Sunday at Moot the them is 'Drumming in the Sun' and the Ritual Dragon Drummers will be there along with many of my friends from the wiccan/pagan community, my 2 son's and their girls will be here for a turkey dinner on the 21st, my meditation group is doing a ritual for Winter Solstice on the Thursday and then I am working Friday - Tuesday. I will get to see my other son Christmas morning and that makes me very happy! I keep Christmas for Joe who is my birth youngest and doesn't accept my Wiccan/Pagan faith, well not accept but doesn't acknowledge is more like it. So, they will get their gifts on the 21st and stockings on the 25th and whoever can be here before I go to bed is welcomed. I am sure it will be Ryan and Mike and his girl. Joe will go to their dad's to be there Christmas morning with their little brother.
So whatever your faith, tradition or mindset... have a very blessed time over the holidays! Be safe and feel love, I will miss my family this year since I have to work, but they are in my heart.
Pictures!

Tree 2011

The stockings were hung

Love my Mantle! Mike did a Great job

Mantle close up

Found this in Pinterest.com and thought it was very fitting, I hope you enjoy it and have a lovely time with your family and friends over the holidays!

May God and Goddess bless and keep you safe during the merry season,
~Blessed Be~

Sweet Mother Moon!

2011-11-26T21:22:00.000-05:00

I have been following this wonderful blog Becoming a Witch A witch's journal about living a magical life
I have found a real connection with WillowWitch's blog it is an easy read and I find it very magical!
To the point of this post lol I do tend to turn left A LOT as you well know LOL
She had the most amazing post called Daughter's of the Moon Lesson One and being the night owl that I am and the fact that I love the Moon so much it really hit home to me, I don't tell Mother Moon often enough that I love her and thank her for filling me with her energies every day. Now working nights I am usually outside smoking looking up at her smiling and saying hello etc and some days I do remember to thank her for filling me with her love and energies, but in her post she talked about setting up a simple altar to Mother Moon as a way to connect with her more often and even if it is daytime, I visualize the silver rays coming down and making the connection I feel when I am out in her beauty!
So here are a couple of pictures of my altar, it is just a shelf a friend made for me years ago out of wood, a tealight candle, my heart stone I found on the shore years ago my Buddha inscence holder and a small trinket box I found a Value Village with a picture of the Moon on it. I put a moonstone, amethyst, quartz crystal, and having a mental block to the others I place inside. Glued to the center of the shelf is a wonderful hand painted heart of a raven sitting in the moonlight and above the altar is the placque I bought this summer in Indiana of the Moon and Goddess. On the rest of the wall are the pictures of Mother Moon and Father Sun that my sister Shannon drew me and I also hung up the lid of the trinket box showing Mother Moon.
Here, finally are a few pictures YAH!!

Altar to Mother Moon

View of the wall, in the Blue bottle above is my Moon water I charge each
Full Moon, inside is my rose quartz sea turtle!

Isn't the Raven Moon Heart amazing and the Moon Goddess!

A quote from Willow Witches blog "I would ask that you find Me in the sky once a day or more, if possible, and pray to Me. I also ask that once a day you light a candle or two at your altar and do a brief ritual. If you cannot do one on a particular day, be sure to do the other".

Happy Thanksgiving to my US friends and family

2011-11-24T04:49:00.000-05:00

UPDATE on my last blog - son is on new medication and is doing much better!! Thank you for your love and support!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!

The harvest is ending,

the earth is dying.

The cattle have come in from their fields.

We have the earth's bounty

on the table before us

and for this we give thanks to the gods

Scariest day of my life

2011-11-14T01:51:00.000-05:00

It started out as any other day, slept most of the day trying to turn myself around for overnight shift. Had a lovely dinner made by my oldest Mike then it started he stood up reached for a DVD from the shelf and I looked over at him and he was GREY, clutching his chest and said he didn't feel well and proceeded to fall to the floor. I caught him in time before he crashed to the ground he kept saying his chest hurt like his heart was being squeezed tight and then his eyes rolled back in his head, he was sweating and said his left side was numb.
I was trying so hard not to freak out as he pasted out for a second time and I had to remind him to breathe. I had to call 911 and they hooked him up to a bunch of monitors and decided he needed to go into the hospital. The pain had stopped by the time they took him but they still felt he need to be checked out.
They decided it wasn't a heart attack as we all thought, they x-rayed his heart and it was fine other than he needed to slow down on his smoking and needed to be put on anti-anxiety medication along with his bi-polar meds.

I have never felt like I was going to loose a child before, but it felt so real and intense, I will never forget this night as long as I live. I am going with him to his doctor's on Wednesday and explaining all the problems he is having so he gets the help he needs. I don't want to loose him, I am suppose to go first!!
Blessings to all who read my blog I appreciate your love and support.

My precious Fur Baby

2011-11-09T21:49:00.000-05:00

Today my beautiful cat went to the Summerland to wait for me to arrive.
Gizmo was a loving and wonder cat, she didn't like many people but loved me no matter what.
She was given to me from a friend who said she was just to much for her family to handle and was never anything but loving with me. She died in my arms surrounded by those who loved her.

the week before she passed

hiding while we unpacked

Gizmo

always by my pillows

sitting with Torrie

not her kitten but she picked her from the litter

what a sweet face

lol love this

Why I have been Missing in Blogland

2011-10-26T06:14:00.000-04:00

Well HELLOOOOOOOO everyone! I hope I was missed LOL I have missed the world to BLOG!
After a month off work, I am finding it hard to get back into the swing of things, not at work but combining home and work.
This is my FAVORITE time of the year, both Autumn and SAMHAIN aka Halloween. I had big plans for this year, I was going to have all my seasonal cross stitches 'finished' into ornaments or pillows or wall hangings. I was going to put up my Samhain tree put out my wooden ornaments, put up my seasonal altar and yet all I have done is work sleep computer and play!
You see, there is this man, yes a man who is NOT attached in anyway to any woman except through divorce papers, which I might add the ink is long dried even if the divorce is still being finalized. He has moved back to his home province (Ontario where I live) and his step daughter and sister live and all his friends except for those he left in Alberta. He is a very smart man, was a science and math teacher, a principal of a school, taught survival training and has a degree in Eco something or other LOL
He was my biggest crush in highschool and I would cheat on anyone I was dating as soon as S gave me that look... ladies you know the LOOK he was the bad boy in highschool and I fell for him bad!
He came home last year to visit friends and family while the big D was trying to be worked out and we had an awesome weekend together getting reaquainted.
I can sit and listen to him talk for hours on end and still do, he will say he is babbling but I tell him to shut up and keep talking lol He is very intelligent and it is awesome to have someone I can debate things with and still want to cuddle up with afterwards. He is a great father to his step-daughter and to his son who he calls every single night, I got to be a party to a conversation or two and they have a great bond, him and J. (names removed for privacy)
Anyway we have been on a few dates, went to a fair, dinner, walks etc he calls because he wants to see me, not the otherway around for a change. It's very refreshing, although he is not ready to stay over or have me stay over and there is no relationship talk as we are keeping it on a friends with benefits level however he does talk of next spring, next summer etc so I am cool with that. One step at a time and for once I feel treasured and very happy in my skin.
I have been knitting more than anything, dishclothes and such and working as much as I can to get myself out of debt. It is a very slow process as I don't want to over work myself and end up nuttier than I all ready am.
I don't know where the whole S & S thing will go and I am not looking long term at this point, I just know we make each other happy we talk about our past and joke about it and we talk about our married lives and our kids and what makes each other tick and I LOVE every conversation with this man... I know slow down or you will be in love lol I tell mysel I don't love him all the time but a part of me does and as long as I keep that part quiet, everything will be fine. I don't think this is a love LOVE FOR LIFE love, but a love with someone who knows me so well he still can tell what is on my mind even when I don't say it.
holy shit I am babbling now LOL
OH I forgot I am addicted to Pinterest it is awesome! I think I spend more time there than Facebook LOL

Goddess Bless dear ones I have missed you all! Samhain post coming soon!

Eva my sister from another mother and country

2011-10-11T14:17:00.001-04:00

Have you ever bonded with someone so completely that that person is like a part of you?
I have! Eva is a beautiful tattooed mother of 3 beautiful and amazing daughters wife to a great man and has a pet ~~problem~~ addiction LOL 4 dogs 2 cats and huge assed fish.
It was 8 very long years inbetween visits, which will not happen again, 2 at the most from now on! We got together this summer and it was wonderful! I stayed for 10 days or so and enjoyed each and every one of them! I love this bitch like crazy! She can make me laugh out loud and smile in my soul so easily.
Her family is the greatest and I love them all so much and miss them even more.
I wish I was still there in Indiana, chillin' and laughing with the kids and her and the hubs!
I have already put away $10 us towards my next trip and I am hoping I can do that out of each pay until I have enough to visit again soon. Eva you are one of the great loves of my life, thank you for being you and for loving me bat-shit crazy and all!!

Build A Bear with Eva

2011-10-05T00:14:00.000-04:00

Part 2 - Build-A Bear!
I took so many pictures I have to do my vacation in parts or the blog will be horrible lol
I have never been to a build a bear in my life, and Eva works at the one in Ft. Wayne, so we went to make my witch bear! These pictures are going to be in as much order as I can remember LOL

At the Mall

Eva at the mall

First time in a build a bear

helpping with the stuffing

Picked out a heart each

part of Strange ritual of filling up hearts

no idea

again ???

adding our heart beats???

kissing heart

placing hearts in bear

sewing up bear

having to hand sew bear

first bear hug

hugging naked bear

washing bear

making sure bearbutt is clean LOL

finishing bear bath

dressing bear

making sure tail is out of undies

Autumn Turtle the Witch Bear

Paperwork

Packing her up and paying

Eva's Build-A-Bear Store, great service and so much Fun!!!

Ft. Wayne, IN vacation Part 1

2011-10-04T13:13:00.050-04:00

Beautiful Art done by Aniston

I, had the time of my life!
Eva, Rob, Katelyn, Taylor, Aniston all the dogs and cats showed the most wonderul hospitality and love while I stayed in their home for the beginning of my Sabbatical. It was most relaxing and fun! Thank you guys again for the wonderful time! Next time it won't take me 8 years to visit LOL Below are what I think are the best pictures of my trip, I am not posting all since I went camera happy.
I will post a blog on my first experiance at Build A Bear at another time, but for now here is my US family...

Front of house

back of house

Aniston's Art

Aniston Art

Talented Aniston

Aniston loves Sprinkles

Wow Sprinkles!

Taylor

Chef Taylor

My Gangsta Girls Taylor and Kate

Katelyn and Taylor

Kate aka Bubble girl doing homework/nap

Taylor, Rob and Indy watching TV

Kate and Taylor

Odie!

Ritz the massive cat!

Indy and Zeke

Everyone needs a bathroom dog like Jack

Pookieman!

Too Funny!

I will never look at nail polish the same after beeing painted up by Taylor

Now the Reason for these kids and animals... Meet the Oy's

Eva LOL

Eva feeding her little chickens aka birds

Says it all!

Rob

They are all about Family!

Well that is it for this blog, look forward to my Build A Bear experiance, and the Craftroom tour and Mancave tours to come!

On Vacation

2011-09-26T10:23:00.003-04:00

As some of you know I have been on vacation in Indiana with my BFF Eva and her family. What started out as a week's holiday has turned into 2 lol I love having a month off with no where to be and nothing planned to do! Who knew I would enjoy being away from home and my office so much? Certainly not me.
This is the first real vacation I have taken in years other than going up to visit my witchy sisters, which I always had to be home for work after, so I am really enjoying it.
I miss my cats and some of my friends and I really missed going to Moot last night, but I have been creating a bond with Eva's girls that is way better than being any where else.
We spent the first week shopping at Half Price books, OMG's that is an amazing store! Hobby Lobby, wish the Gods we had one of those up in Ontario! I have been to a scrapbook store where I bought her youngest Harry Potter paper and stickers for her, I had given her middle daughter one of each of our Canadian coins because she is so interested in Canadian money as well I made her a bracelet before I left out of these really cool blue sparkly beads. Her oldest is your typical teen who is wonderful but just not sure where or what she wants to be doing, I bought her a book to journal her feelings into. Wish someone had done that for me as a teen, you can put anything on paper just to get it out of your mind.
We went to Eva's work and I made a Witch Build-a-Bear and named her Autumn Turtle and she belongs to both Eva and I. Rob has made some of the most yummy meals I have ever had and I have tried new foods while I have been here as well. This is a true Italian family full of love and passion and I am so going to miss them when I go home!
I was introduced to 3 of Eva's work mates and they are just fantastic ladies, and sadly one lives in her broom closet still but she is pagan however in the bible belt it has to be hard to come out of the closet for sure! We had dinner with her friend and her boyfriend and being that Mabon was the following night she brought me a bottle of spiced red witches brew, I was so excited to be welcomed by everyone here!
We have had way too much rain however it has not put a damper on my trip at all. Saturday the 2 youngest and I watched, in the following order LMAO, Harry Potter 5, 4 then 6 lol it was wonderful and I truly have bonded with these 2 girls and one is not the type to accept people and told her oldest sister and dad that I am the coolest person she has met and she just loves me! I almost cried. I know when I leave for home Thursday I am going to bawl my eyes out, this has been the best time I have had in years.
Eva knows I have always loved her, but being a guest in her home and having the honor of meeting her children, husband and 4 dogs and 2 cats oh and the giant fish has been the BEST!!!!!
My dear friend Michelle who lives above me at home has been taking care of my cats and apparently my son and his fiance have just about eaten me out of house and home while I have been gone, not HAPPY there let me tell you! I bought Michelle a book and something really cool which I have a matching one too LOL not saying what it is incase she stumbles across my blog lol.
Well time to shower, today Eva is off so it is going to be a craft room day and I will finish the 2 projects I brought with me to finish one for Eva and one for Rob.
I can see me stitching things and designing things for the 3 girls, they are so awesome and I love them like my own!
OH!!! Yesterday Eva was working, her husband works nights so he was napping, the kids were doing their own thing and I got to watch the NH race on TV and was so excited my driver Tony Stewart won the race! Personally I believe it was because I am visiting his home state and he wanted me to know he loves me lol yeah yeah dreamer. However it was very exciting for me!
Well I hope everyone had a very blessed Mabon and I will put up pictures when I get home.
May Goddess bless and keep you all from harm!

Love me!

2011-09-15T04:35:00.000-04:00

Well it has finally happened, I work 2 shifts then I am off for an entire MONTH! Thank you Circles (job).
Going to visit my sister from another mother/country lol in Ft. Wayne, IN for a week and then chillalex and do a lot of reading! I am so excited I have a list of wiccan/pagan books I want and I will check into getting them while in the USA, they are cheaper there.
Going to visit my parents when I get back and my dear friend Michelle is going to watch the cats for me while I am gone, they love her to death, so it will be perfect.

The kids moved out AGAIN, this time into their own apartment, no friends just them so hopefully it will be better than last time, what a shit storm that was!

I forgot to take pictures at Pagan Pride this year, it wasn't as great as other years, a lot of the usuals wheren't there.

The kids and my friends Faith and Michelle are going to Moot with me on Sunday September 25th, so excited it will be Rhonda's first time and Michelle's so I am pretty excited!

Well the laundry is done, other than 1 more load so everything is clean before I leave then it is my passport loosing it's virginity into the states!!!

Love and Light my friends! May Goddess shine in your lives!

The wonderus Hecate! She has become my patron Deity

Hamilton Pagan Pride!!

2011-09-10T07:15:00.000-04:00

So excited for today! My witchy sisters and daughter are here for the weekend, will take many pictures to share later! Have a great day!!

Stolen from Pagan Culture... GREAT BLOG!

2011-09-05T04:45:00.000-04:00

B A S I C S

Do you have a magical/Pagan name? Yes
What does it mean? It is 2 of my favorite gifts from the God and Goddess
How did you find Paganism? Scott Cunningham first introduced me and I felt like I had come home.
How long have you been practicing? Five years.
Solitary or group practitioner? Solitary, but I like to mingle every once in while.
What is your path? I'm an Eclectic Witch; I learn, live and do.
Are you out of the broom closet? Absolutely.

D E I T Y

Who is your patron God? Pan and The Green Man.
Who is your patron Goddess? Hekate and Kuan Yin
What Gods do you worship? I honor many by learning about them.
Do you fear darkly aspected Gods/Goddess, or rather respect them? No, I find Darkness comforting.
Do you worship the Christian God? No.
Do you ever worship animals? No.
Or plants? No.

N A T U R E

Do you regularly commune with nature? I hug trees daily, I walk barefoot in the grass and the beach, as often as I can for a city girl.
Ever walked barefoot in the woods? Yes, tree roots can be a bitch!
Taken a camping trip just to talk to nature? And to talk to people too.
Describe the moment you felt closest to Mother Earth? When I gave birth to my children or when I am with my cats.
Do you have a familiar? Yes 3 cats, Hecate who is an outside cat I believe she is truly my familiar she comes when she hears my voice. 2 of my house cats are my familiars as well Torrie and her daughter Gypsy.
Have you ever called upon the powers of an animal in ritual? Yes Turtle, Raven and Cat.
Or a plant? I love lavender and lilacs.
Do you hug trees? Every day.
Give them gifts? Water, attention, shiny rocks, glares at people who want to cut them and so on.
What is your favourite flower to work with? lavender.
What is your favourite tree to work with? Willow

W H E E L . O F . T H E . Y E A R

What is your favourite holiday? Samhain.
What is your least favourite holiday? Imbolc for some reason it makes my depression stronger.
Have you ever held a ritual on a holiday? Yes.
Ever taken a day off work to celebrate a Pagan holiday? Yes.
Do you celebrate Yule on the 21 rather than the 25? I do both for my family.
Have you ever felt the veil thin? Yes I have, I think
Ever danced the Maypole? No, but would love to
Know what the Maypole symbolizes? Penis
How do you usually celebrate the Pagan holidays? Mostly, yes.

D I V I N A T I O N

Do you use Tarot? yes.
Do you use runes? Not in a while.
Do you use a pendulum? Yes I have one that is very intuned with me!
Do you use dowsing rods? No.
Do you use astrology? I have.
Any other form of divination? No.

S P E L L S

What was the first spell you did? I can’t remember.
What was the latest? House protection.
Ever done a love spell? No, I have to say that one could challenge free will.
A job spell? No
A healing spell? Yes.
What was the most powerful spell you’ve ever performed? Don’t know.
What deities do you usually call on? I’ve called on Hekate and Kuan Yin.

C R Y P T O Z O O L O G Y

Do you believe in Vampires? The ones that zap your energies.
Werewolves? No, but a sexy silver backed one would rock my world!
Shapeshifters? I have heard they are real, but I don't know.
Elves? No
Faeries? Yes of course!
Dragons? Yes, saw one at the zoo.
Nymphs? No
Sprites? friends of Faeries
Mermaids? I wish
Satyrs? I know a man who dresses like one!
Ever “seen” any of the above? In my dreams
Ever talked to any of the above? I talk to the faeries while in my garden and in other's gardens
Ever used any of the above in magic? No
Do you have one of them as a personal guardian? No

R A N D O M

Do you see a rabbit, a man or a woman in the moon? I see the Goddess
Own a cat? No but I am owned by 4, and babysitting 1.
When you meditate, what does your happy place look like? It usually has a river running through it, with lots of willow trees. Crystals and gem stones to be found by the water and a little bridge over the river and lots of green thick grass.
Do you work with Chakras? Yes
Do you believe in past lives? Yes
If so, describe a few briefly: this is a work in progress for me
Do you believe in soul mates? Yes, but I don't believe it is your life mate all the time.
Do you have a spirit guide? Yes, I believe everyone has one, a Guardian Angel and animal totems
Is it always love and light? I wish, but life happens.

September? Where did Summer go?

2011-09-02T05:09:00.000-04:00

Sitting on the porch Wednesday night with my witchy friend Michelle, we realized SHIT, it is now September! I feel like summer didn't even happen this year!

The Porch my Ass is usually on

should have read this!

Mike and his fiance moved out as planned YAY!! Although he has called 3 times, and been here twice LOL such a Momma's boy

that's my boy lol

I am so happy they are gone, they bicker like an old married couple and lay around on my couches or my porch swing every day!

now couches smell!

I now need to find a VAT of Fabreeze and soak the shit out of the couches!!

I miss the company sometimes, but glad as hell I go to work, have Facebook and have friends and of course witchy friends too!!

Working!

witchy friends!

I really do!

I Wish!

2011-08-29T03:43:00.000-04:00

Incase my friends and loved ones want to buy me something just for being a cute smartass... I am making you a picture list LOL Aren't you lucky! Or maybe I will be lucky!

WitchesStitchToo Homespun Elegance

VeryFaintLine My Big Toe Designs

The Raven La D Da

SpookySpotOfHalloween Midnight Stitching

SalemVillage Notforgotten Farm

RavenBewitched Blackbird Designs

QuakerWinterAcorns Midnight Stitching

QuakerMoon Bent Creek

OwlHollow The Stitcherhood

Not All Fallbrook House Needleplay

NativeRaven The Stitching Studio

MoonlitMidnight BlueRibbon Designs

LadiesNight Cross Eyed Cricket, Inc.

HauntedHillHouse Homespun Elegance

GoblinsOnParade Blackberry Lane Designs

FortuneTeller Ships Manor

CastingASpell Blackbird Designs

BoneCheeks Praire Moon

BlackCatsProwl Cherrywood Design Studio

Inspiration from an Email from my Mom

2011-08-25T05:06:00.000-04:00

READ THIS VERY SLOWLY... IT'S PRETTY PROFOUND.

Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those people on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word 'refrigeration' mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said , 'How about going to lunch in a half hour?' She would gas up and stammer, 'I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain' And my personal favourite: 'It's Monday.' She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because we cram so much into our lives, we tend to schedule our headaches.. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained. We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet. We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of 'I'm going to,' 'I plan on,' and 'Someday, when things are settled down a bit.'

When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord.

My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy.

Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to...not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting?

Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you.

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask 'How are you?' Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child, 'We'll do it tomorrow.' And in your haste, not see his sorrow? Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say 'Hi'?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.... Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

Show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND including me if you consider me a friend. If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a circle of friends.

To those I have sent this to... I cherish our friendship and appreciate all you do. We have some history together.

'Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!'

Day in Reverse!

2011-08-19T03:45:00.000-04:00

So I posted yesterday how I was going to get my passport and buy my ticket to see my bestest and her family in Ft. Wayne and wow that so did NOT happen!

I got my passport photos done, went up to the office and was told the person who signed my papers for me had to sign one of the pictures proving it is ME! I was but look it is ME and he said come back after it's signed.

So then I sat in the park for a bit and took some pictures of what was going on, and saw the scariest grossest thing ever! Some guy, I would say late 40's was wearing cut off jean shorts, 1970's short and it was split up the front and when the wind blew, behold... HIS JUNK!!! no gitch just gross looking JUNK!! With all the kids in the park I let an officer know so that he could be removed before some poor kid witnessed what I sadly did.

Then over to the bus station to buy my Grey Hound ticket. I get to the window and they are showing the date of when I am leaving but nothing coming back from Ft. Wayne. So I text Eva and tell her and she calls me saying there is a bus leaving on the 23rd so now I have to get Katie to sign the freaking picture and then go back to the passport office, then over to the bus station with the dates and buy my ticket on Wednesday!

I hate it when things don't go as I plan FML! OH, I forgot about the old man and all his birds! Here are some pictures I took, I love LOVE the fountain!

Today is the Day!

2011-08-18T02:43:00.000-04:00

I am going to go and file for my

Then over to the bus station to buy my ticket to

Then home for chores and some stitching fun!

A wedding, A baby and another baby

2011-08-15T12:17:00.001-04:00

Hello blogger friends.
A lot has been going on in my world and its kind of taken over my life right now.
Oldest and his girl are engaged getting married Valentine's day 2012, they are expecting a baby around April. Neither one has a job, they are living on my couches which is ending in 2 weeks because I told them they have to move, I can't handle the drama that comes with the 2 of them any more.
He is still not taking his bipolar pills on a regular basis and I can't handle it when he doesn't do it.
Rhonda is a very nice girl and I like her and I love my son but wow drama with friends etc is too much for this old bitch. I want quiet, peace and love filling my house, not drama and negative vibes. Oh and the other baby is my neice/daughter who is 17 and also expecting around the same time. Wow can we all say PROTECTED SEX!! WRAP IT OR DON"T DO IT!!!
Well it is time to go to work, love and peace to you all. Putting some pictures up to make me feel better.

Love this chicken

Native words of Wisdom

I want to live in this forest!

Love and Light