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A Crossdressed Outfit for Spring

Vanessa Law — Mon, 15 Mar 2010 05:31:47 +0000

A Fun Confetti Dress for Spring

Just recently the sun decided to pay us a visit in Seattle – the first such visit in many months. Those of you who blessed to lively in sunnier climates may not fully appreciate the joy and anticipation that a few clear, cloudless days can bring. Spring is just around the corner, and is one of my favorite seasons (along with fall) for crossdressing. The weather is warm enough to wear fun skirts, strappy heels and breezy sundresses. The cloying heat of summer has not yet arrived to bring sweat stains and force frequent makeup fixes.

This week I thought I’d share a cute crossdressed outfit, inspired by the coming Spring. As regular readers of Crossdresser Heaven may know, Crossdressed Outfits are specially chosen to fit a larger frame. All clothes are available at the time of writing in XL (16/18), and shoes in size 11W and up.

Crossdressing in Spring

A wonderful Spring ensemble is this fun confetti dress with a pair of cute strappy sandals. The dress is on the shorter side, so this is a great opportunity to show off your legs – usually one of the best assets for a crossdresser. If you’re feeling a bit self-conscious try this outfit with a pair of tights.

Cute Strappy Sandals

The sandals have a shorter heel just over 2″, so you won’t find yourself wobbling all over the place. Tripping on the sidewalk is a sure way to put a damper on a beautiful Spring day

Don’t forget to put your head up, smile and share the light inside you with all those you meet.

My Most Embarrassing Crossdressing Moment

Vanessa Law — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 05:13:02 +0000

Have you ever had a moment when you wished your high heels would part the sidewalk beneath your feet just long enough to envelop you? A moment when time seemed to draw out like the never ending strands of your favorite silk blouse, and all you could hear was a wave of laughter slowly washing over you? It’s perhaps at times like this you wished, hoped, dared to believe that crossdressing would forever remain in your past.

I’ve been quite fortunate in my crossdressing career (my transgendered life?) to have had few moments of outright crossdressing embarrassment. Most people I meet in public are either friendlier than usual, or don’t notice me as they walk by in their own world. A few people share a look of dawning surprise on their face – one which is usually soothed by my friendly smile. At least I think it’s my smile – perhaps they figure I’m a crazy woman and don’t want to attract too much of my attention

My Most Poignant Crossdressing Embarrassment

There is, however, one moment which sticks out in my mind and still makes me blush. Though I find I blush more so at my reaction than the situation itself. One evening many years ago I decided – quite boldly – to apply a coat of nail polish before venturing out as a guy. Having once attended boy scouts, I knew to always ‘Be Prepared’ and “wisely” wore a baggy jacket with plenty of hand-hiding room. Perfect for concealing my painted nails, should someone choose to notice them.

I spent a nervous fifteen minutes browsing Circuit City, where I’m sure I spent a good three minutes with my hands courageously not shoved deep into my pockets. After mustering all the nerve left within me I took my purchase to the cashier. Just as I was paying a man behind me exclaimed to his friend in a rich Southern accent, “Hey, there’s one of them crossdressers”.

I was busted, and couldn’t very well finish paying with my hands in my pockets. I smiled nervously at the cashier, and felt my vision narrow as I tried fervently to hide in plain sight from the two men next in line. Time seemed to stand in awkward stillness as I rushed to finish paying and get out of the store. The cashier seemed to be embarrassed as well, as if somehow my crossdressing embarrassment were contagious.

Eventually I made it out the store and into my car. Apart from a few moments of furious blushing, nothing bad happened at all. I sometimes wish I could go back in time to that moment and do it differently. I imagine myself turning to the gentlemen, and with a warm smile extending my hand and saying, “Pleased to meet you.”

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The Last Crossdressing Poll

Wow! Almost 3000 lovely ladies answered the last crossdressing poll. Under-dressing was the overwhelming favorite for expressing your feminine side while dressed ‘en homme’. From panties to stockings, a cami or bra hidden underneath an otherwise normal exterior you ladies enjoy your well concealed feminine graces.

Crossdressers – Be Careful Out There

Vanessa Law — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 22:57:02 +0000

Before I get into this week’s article I wanted to let you know that I’m selling a pair of new D cup breastforms on Ebay. I bought them from the Breastform store a while back, but realized I prefer smaller breast forms. The auction ends this Sunday, currently the price is only $28, which is quite a bargain compared with the $169 they’ll cost from the store

After that brief prelude, on to this week’s article:

Of all the blessings afforded the crossdresser, few can compare with the Internet. Barely twenty years ago there was a dearth of information on crossdressing. We were doomed to live afflicted with guilt wandering alone in the barren wilderness. We eyed ourselves in the mirror feeling isolated by the shame of our “perversion”. Many took their secret to the grave, never daring to tell another of the feminine inside of yearning to be free. Unable to bear their own judgment, a few unfortunate souls hastened their own journey from this world.

The Internet is changing this…

I’m old enough to have spent my teenage years without the Internet – to have endured my crossdressing alone, wrestling day and night with feelings of shame and the unceasing compulsion to wear woman’s clothes. I was torn – I needed to talk with someone – to try and understand myself – yet I knew, I KNEW that what I was doing was so shamefully wrong I could never reveal it to another soul.

Isolation drove me to absurd conclusions, and made the crazy seem rational. It’s not a coincidence that solitary confinement is among the worst punishments a prisoner can receive. We’re biologically wired to need companionship – to draw strength from a familiar face, and seek community among like minded souls. So we join the local church, or woman’s group, or Toastmaster’s club. We find others like us where we can fit in.

For crossdressers, the Internet is the ultimate club. A place where we can find companionship while still retaining our anonymity. Where we can learn about our unique nature without mumbling a lame excuse in response to the librarian’s questioning stare at the “Crossdressing for Dummies” book in our hand.

But The Internet is Not All Sunshine and Roses

Recently a reader of Crossdresser Heaven found this out the hard way. Lucy (as we’ll call her) had submitted a crossdressing success story along with a lovely photo of herself in her feminine attire. A few months later she had the misfortune to break up with her girlfriend – a girlfriend who both knew about Lucy’s crossdressing and her story on Crossdresser Heaven. A girlfriend with a vengeful streak, who decided to use the story to out Lucy to her friends and family. Soon afterwards I received an urgent email asking that the story be taking down – a request I hastily honored.

As I said above, the Internet is a wonderful thing for crossdressers, the friendship and self-validation you can find will nurture your soul. I only ask that you think carefully before “coming out on the Internet”. Photos are stories have a way of getting around.

Be careful out there.
Hugs,
Vanessa

En Femme, In Stealth

Vanessa Law — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 16:31:27 +0000

Unfortunately we can’t spend every day presenting as our feminine persona. Whether it’s work, family or friends we all have occasion dress as a man. If you’re like me, this can be immensely frustrating. When dressed as a man I feel as though I’m wearing a mask that hides my true self. Yet there are many ways to express your femininity without letting your inner girl run wild.

In this week’s crossdressing poll, I’d love to hear how you express your femininity in stealth. If you have a way not listed below, please take a moment to share – I know that many of the readers would appreciate learning new ways to be the girl inside, even when circumstances don’t allow.

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Last Week’s Crossdressing Poll

The results from last week’s early crossdressing valentine poll are in. Almost half of you gorgeous ladies take the opportunity on Valentine’s day to buy yourself some sexy lingerie, while for a good number Valentine’s day is about spending a romantic evening with the person you love. Whatever you choose to do on this hallmark holiday – do it with all your heart and look fabulous!

Peace At Last

Vanessa Law — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 13:06:09 +0000

Dear readers, I think we all have something we can learn from Anne’s crossdressing success story this week. I’m particularly impressed by the patience, love and consideration with which Anne shares her crossdressing with her wife. Credit is also due to her lovely wife – she gave Anne the opportunity to share, was open enough to learn more about crossdressing, and accepts Anne for who she is. Truly this story is like oil on the troubled waters of our souls.

If you would like to share your crossdressing success story, please take a moment and submit your story here: http://www.crossdresserheaven.com/contact-vanessa/submit-your-crossdressing-success-story/

Meet Anne

I am early 60’s with a wife of 40 years, 3 children and 4 grandchildren. I was raised in a Christian family, spent most of my career in the aviation field, and actually pastored a small church for a few years. I retired 5 years ago and we live in BC, Canada. My interests include golf, boating, biking, gardening and learning more (from your pages as well as books etc) about this crossdressing thing.

Anne’s Crossdressing Success Story

The latest chapter of my life began just over a year ago (Dec 08) when I emerged from the closet (literally, as we have a walk in closet) with a bra on and asked my wife what she thought! We had just finished an evening of sex, and I had probably put on her nightie at some point in the proceedings, as I had done here and there during lovemaking over the 39 years of our marriage. She had always taken it to be just an extra turn on for me and had never really objected to these momentary aberrations on my part.

Little did she know that I had been crossdressing in secret over the previous 6 years or so, and that now I was making a statement about who I really was. She was totally shocked as I began to open up about my desires to wear women’s clothing, as she had barely heard of such a thing before, our family being good Christians where such behaviour would have been viewed as sinful.

But to her credit she listened as I poured out my heart, then she began to ask questions, then listened some more. We talked until dawn, then steadily for the next few days. I brought out my stash of clothes and she watched in amazement as I modelled for her right there in the kitchen. By then we were able to have a laugh or two over the whole business, and both of us began some research into the “condition”. We scoured the internet and bought Peggy Rudd’s book which shed much light on the subject, then to my wife’s great credit she consented to letting me dress while in the house, and to keeping a drawer and some hangers for my “stuff”.

It felt like I had died and gone to heaven and still does as I write this while seated at the kitchen counter dressed in a pale blue skirt over patterned stockings, and white knit top over pink camisole and rather nice, lacy white bra. No makeup or wig at present, and generally I wait until my wife is out of the house before doing all that, as I try to be respectful of her at all times. Sometimes we just know when enough is enough!

I do get out of the house a bit while dressed , but covered. This afternoon it was raining pleasantly, so I put my rainpants and jacket over skirt and top and went for a long walk. What peace was mine as I stopped in the woods to observe the birds, while being very aware of what I was wearing and the effect it had on me.

Who knows where I go from here, but I feel that the freedom my wife has given me to excercise some of my innerself has been a huge blessing. My secret has gone no further than her , and yet we both believe that I am a more open, compassionate person with all the members of our family. Over the years I have been a moody person and even diagnosed with depression, which I felt as a Christian I should have been able to overcome. Since I have been free to dress, whether I actually do or not, I have been of a more even and contented temperament. It seems amazing what a bra and slip can accomplish, and I believe that God might just have been waiting for me to discover that!

An Early Valentine’s Day Crossdressing Poll

Vanessa Law — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 15:54:36 +0000

For many men there are few holidays more dreaded than Valentine’s day. Between the prospect of spending the day alone for some, or forgetting and spending the day in the dog box for others one can almost lose the sweet romance. Yet perhaps because of all the Hallmark-hype love, togetherness and the tender touch of your soulmate are just the start. Gifts have become a staple of February 14th – flowers, chocolates, and perhaps even some sexy lingerie are all appropriate, expected or hoped for.

I usually start thinking about Valentine’s day the first week of February, but today my lovely wife surprised me and suggested that Valentine’s day would make for a great poll topic for Crossdresser Heaven. I wonder… do all woman start thinking about this holiday so early? Perhaps for the moment I’m still a man with the soul of a woman.

With this week’s poll you get to tell me: as a crossdressing valentine who buys the panties in your house.

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Crossdressing, Haiti and God’s enduring love

Vicki Stevens — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 20:59:46 +0000

Vicki brings us another inspiration for crossdressing Christians inspired by the devastation in Haiti, and the outpouring of love from around the world. Truly, God is there when it is darkest, even though His instrument may look to you and me like a caring person and not a flash of lightening from the sky.

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Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit; and there are varieties of services, but the same Lord; and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God who activates all of them in everyone. ! Corinthians 12: 4-6

The events in Haiti and some of the negative comments from certain religious and political figures here in the US and elsewhere certainly made me a little uncomfortable with sharing the label Christian. I’ll admit, at the beginning of this crisis, I tried to avoid the images. We’d just finished the season of Christmas and all of a sudden the sick stark reality of the world was trying to rumble back into my conscious. But Pat Robertson’s and Rush Limbaugh’s comments put me in a fighting mood and now I am riveted by the stories, and images emerging from the devastation. A local woman, Molly Hightower, a Catholic woman died in Haiti, trying to help a people already beset by poverty, disease, and suffering. Yet despite this and despite stories from people who have fled, they all seem united in one common thought. Let us catch our breath and then we are going back to help, to rebuild, and to affect lives in a loving and positive way. These people live the message of God. This morning I saw a news clip about how an Israeli rescue team had freed a man trapped since the quake nearly two weeks ago. What The rescuer said, when asked about the man’s condition was, “I don’t care, he’s alive.”

People from different walks of life, people with different talents and abilities, all are working to ease the hurt. That is God’s response, not one of turning His back, or rendering the destruction in the first place to punish an evil people and nation. So, where is the connection to this, and cross dressing life? Sisters, God gave us a gift. Though many may see it as sinful or an aberration, it is a gift that God gave and if we approach it that way, and live our lives that way, then the fruits of that gift can blossom with the aid of the Spirit. Those who look on us as sick or aberrant are missing the point that, for me at least, when I embrace my feminine side and let go of the macho mask I try to put up, my creative spirit, my empathetic spirit, my loving spirit is strengthened. But most importantly, I find myself actually coming closer to God. Rather than God turning from me because I like to express a feminine side of my personality, He seems to be celebrating with me that I have discovered He made me this way, and He has a plan to use me in the world.

At 54, I am still trying to discover exactly what God has in mind for me. But for the first time, I feel like I am finally on a path to discovering what it is. My heart aches for the people of Haiti right now, I want to do something other than sit with tears in my eyes as the images continue to play on my tv screen. A donation however small does not seem to be enough. Then I realize that perhaps it is enough, that there are talented people who DO belong at the side of the Haitian people. Their skills and spirit are well suited to the task at hand. Maybe it is enough to pray and do what little I can; God has something else in mind for me. God has something in mind for you too. God made you this way for a very good reason. Knowing that at this point may be enough, but be open to God’s call when it does come. And if it be in a skirt and blouse that He asks you to employ your talents, then know that it was always a part of His plan.

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Crossdressing in Spring

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My Most Embarrassing Crossdressing Moment

My Most Poignant Crossdressing Embarrassment

The Last Crossdressing Poll

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Crossdressers – Be Careful Out There

But The Internet is Not All Sunshine and Roses

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En Femme, In Stealth

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Peace At Last

Meet Anne

Anne’s Crossdressing Success Story

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An Early Valentine’s Day Crossdressing Poll

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Crossdressing, Haiti and God’s enduring love

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