DADDYAGNE

BIRTHDAY

2011-09-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

If you are reading my thread you will notice that I have been notifying you on the birth of my 2 lovely children. Now I want to share the birth that I have been promising myself. I want to change many things about my life. There are many things I want to learn and unlearn and I hope upon writing this, the plans that have been running on my mind will be made into action. I want to be BORN again.

I believe and understand that a goal should be specific and definite. This way I will be focused on the things that will be important to me and prioritize things in accordance to its effect on my preferred destination. But I think I should keep these dreams up to myself for now, I prefer to show it to you first. Please give me up to December 9, 2011. I will be back what definite goal I achieved so far: D

Tomorrow, I plan to wake up early at 5:00am. I want to exercise and jog. I will eat healthy breakfast. I will love my work more. And I will deal with BIG negotiations because I am a BIG man now.

I am born. Yes, indeed.

Working Hard!!!

2011-06-16T03:39:00.000-07:00

I cried. Yes I cried today because of a defeated negotiation for a certain sale.

I don't exactly know why I act that way. I am sure I am sad. I am sure I want to have that sale to start the good deals and earn a lot. Maybe it hurts because I worked hard. I always believe in a law of balance that when you need money for something you will earn it because you deeply think and pray about it.

But for almost 3 years now, i keep ends meet for a while. It's not a joke to think and look for money specially when it is a must to produce. You see I have two kids to feed.

Honestly, I am ashamed of myself for the last few days because I was not able to give financial support. When exactly can I earn enough and live decently with my children?

I have to fix this asap. The clock and money is ticking!

I am sure that it is just so near that money will push themselves to touch me :)
God, teach me to handle money properly....Please.

Missing You

2011-06-12T08:41:00.000-07:00

I miss my children. They are away from me now. Their parents are not responsible enough to settle things out. And talk about the welfare of their children. It's all complicated now.

It was sad that I saw my little princess just for sometime. She will be 2 months on the 16th. She is a healthy girl. She has fair skin, and actually looks like me. She has dimples too. She is not always smiling but looks contented sleeping. She is actually sleeping all the time:) She's ok as long as she has dede on her side. She will cry if you will not carry her while awake. So when I was the one looking after her, its a little bit hard compared to her kuya. Her name is Yane, She is like a princess to me.

Axe on the other hand is already walking fast like a pro. He would play a lot and scatter all his toys. He would smile a lot and hug me all the time. He is active and provokes boxing with his older cousins. After hitting them hard, he would be proud of it and smile. Good thing his cousins love him so much. Axe is a good dancer too, he would dance to any music he hears. He also has interest on computers. He would act like a certified computer wizard.

I am proud of my children and I miss them so much.

I am working hard, but not enough to support them. I promise to be with them all the time. But right now I am helpless.

Maybe I need to pray a lot and consider my options :) All I know is that I really miss my FAMILY :(

A Baby Again - a girl this time

2011-04-08T12:55:00.000-07:00

Haizzz... I am refreshing this page. I almost forgot I made this blog 2 years ago. I can't also believe I will be a father of two babies anytime sooner.

It is just so funny that it is only lately that I am learning to appreciate my parent's effort on raising us siblings. My father just died last February 17, 2011 and I still feel nothing.numb.

Realizing that life seems harder as we go along because of money... I am thankful that I also unlearn it fast... that my priority is to be with GOD.

Growing in our family is a great challenge because our foundation on showing affection or priority is not our trait.

As a parent to my children, I will do my best to show my love by kissing and hugging them. By saying I love you to them everyday.

I dont want that there will come a time that I want to hug them or kiss them and I can't anymore. Happy Holidays!!!

November 18, 2009

2010-01-04T04:00:00.000-08:00

FYI, I sent my fiancee in Bicol last November 7. Her due date is on December 2. Her mother will surely take good care of her. So I permit her to go. It's a relief for us because I work and I usually got home late. I know I will miss my "mag-ina" so badly.

The title of this blog is actually the day my son was born, it was unexpectedly early. I'm very happy with the good news.I am thankful that my burden was lessen. I know that giving birth is not a simple operation!

Actually, when my fiancee had been rushed to the hospital, I did not know. It happened that my phone was out of reach while I was in work. And after getting home,I received a late message from her sister that she already gave birth. That message was sent at 4 pm and I received it at 7 pm.

I quickly dialed the number, but nobody answers the phone. It is unattended for 30 minutes so can you imagine how worried i was then? The feeling was surreal, numb!!!! I dont know what to expect. I am thinking, asking, and praying so much...

Thankfully after a long agony, if I may say, a non-familiar number is calling me...I answered it while my hand is shaking. It was my fiancee. And she told me that she has already given birth to a healthy boy. A little voice caught my attention, it was my son. I quickly packed my things and went to Bicol right away. Unfortunately I can't use paternity leave since we are not yet married, I can only take a leave for 2 days:(

Last new year we held his baptismal in a Christian church. His name came from the combination of his parents. Dont worry it sounds great. You can call him AXE...

Now I am in Manila, working again. I miss my mag-ina already. It will be another 5 more long-days before I could see them. I just hope to earn a lot so I can get them and live with me. Indeed, it is a happy new year for me.I hope for you too.

Name

2009-10-28T19:21:00.000-07:00

The week was a good one. Let me start with a good sleeping times with my girlfriend. Her sour mood, as all pregnant women are, was a little bit toned down lately:) I also had some good time reviewing technical lectures related to my work as an engineer. It made me feel like a super-engineer and a nerd at the same time.

Well, enough of these, my blog for today will be about my son's future.

I am convinced that our names play significant influence on our lives. Some people even change their names legally and pay a lot of money in court.So let me start with the name to choose for my fist-born.

The first thing that comes on my mind is to look for a Bicol language. I'm a proud Sorsoganon. A trait such as "Maboot (kind)", "Maisog (brave)", "Maugma (happy)" would be a nice choice. But I realized that these words may not sound good for others. I think it must be more universal.

So I decided to consider names of prominent people like my favorite singer- "Ely of Eheads", businessman- "Henry Sy", and saint-"Vincent". But I am hesitant that these names are so common nowadays. They lack originality. I guess I will look for more unique one.

I found myself reading materials from my private book shelf. It contains engineering, bible, inspirational, newspapers, and sports magazines. I viewed some intersting words and tried to jumble it. Well, in fairness some entries are quite interesting. The problem is they lack meaning. I think, the name should mean something more extra ordinary.

Hmmm hay gulay. Now, I understand why I was given a name just like my father. Not necessarily because he wants me to become like him, as what I have been boasting to my brothers. But maybe, he was running out of name to give. I am the youngest. I can't blame him. Now I know why my older brothers have more gwapo names than I have. lols.

I never thought that it will be this hard to give a name to a person you love the most. I think I have to take a rest on thinking about it for a while... But if you have any ideas please don't hesitate to help me.

Incoming baby

2009-10-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

My girlfriend is pregnant. We will be having our first child this coming December. Yes I am excited. Specially everytime her tummy would move a little bit, ang kulit! It makes me very excited everytime. It means a lot to me. Life. Smile. He is a boy, according to the doctor . That makes me even more happy about it :)

But before the baby, her mother and I agreed to get married and have stable jobs first. Who would have wanted to be parents so early? But unfornately that did not push through. A baby is formed. Maybe, Its my fault. I always wanted her to be mine. I am not contented with the love-letters, the rings, the songs, the puppets, the cakes, and the other stuff which we treat as the symbol of our growing relationship. Maybe I want it more special and more meaningful. Maybe because I am afraid of losing her. Maybe I am insecure?

But I have no right to regret now. I hope I am ready to take the responsibility. The sooner the time comes that the baby is coming out, I am also starting to cherish my life even more. I will be a good father to him no matter what happens. I will make him a better man than I am.

This blogsite will be about my incoming baby. I want to share the joy, the blessings.

See you later.