Daily Dose of Joy

My Life is Average eff that my Life is Weird

2010-08-18T23:18:00.000-07:00

I wake up this morning In a synagogue, No this isn't weird to me, i live here. Even though my parents are Crazy Born Again Christian (those jump around sing and scream Jesus people) Pastors, and remind me I'm heading an unholy road each day.

So to make my day more eventful, I decided I was going to take my brother to Chuck E Cheese, he's a fun one to take out, it's like unleashing the TaZ, whirlwind of fun.

Oh yes I am 15 years older than my brother, my brother will be 4 December 26, my mom got remmaried no need for further explaination. Took my neighbors with me to ChuckECHEESe, my non jew ones, fellow hispanics.

First of all I hate this RAT. We step in and my brother is fascinated by the black light. Like no lie made us stand under it to see those numbers stamped on our hangds in case we steal another Child.
Why anyone would want an extra child idk, if I were truly evil, I would leave mine there.So we spend about 15 of my brother standing under the black light in awe.

He sees the wonder that is Chuck E Cheese's and attacks runs like a madman around spending his coins like crazy! Jumps on everything unleashing a full day's hyperness. The little guy is strong so luckily we are in public and he has some decency to not jump on me as usual.

Time for prizes, he is so cute that the girl gives him the 300 or more SpiderMan bubble set for his 40 tickets, no fit or anything he just asks. I'm scared for when he gets older ooo boy!
Then off to Dunkin Donuts in search for Dorney Park Coupons, he spots Pink Frosted doughnut, wants, i buy as he steals those little Baseball hat bowls straight from the display stant. I pretend I can't see as to avoid a fit, and tell him I paid for it so he doesn't learn to steal.
I'm a bad person who lets my temp kid steal things, Honestly I dont wanna hear him cry.

No coupons, next stop Wendy's. Score! Oh no Issac wants a frostee, and I kinda do too, two frostys! "I WANT WATER" Sweet Lady gives him water, my inner hispanic automatically speaks spanish to her, but of course she is shes working at Wendy's.
Fast Food in urbanated suburbs = Hispanics work there. Deeper into the suburbs its okay for White people to work there.

"QUIERO PAPAS" Uh back to the line baby wants fries. The little kid is skinny, he needs food to hide the bones."NOOOO PAN!"- In Baby Issac Language this means he wants a Hamburger, plain no ketchup or anything else can touch it or he will throw a fit!

My friends see some old HS friends, Baby circles around them like a vulture eating fries in a creepy way, starting them down and showing them his burger.
The sugar has all caught up he runs around wendy's jumps on a booth Chair thing and pretends to ride it screaming "AYYY HORSEY, GO CABBALLO" in true hispanicness spanglish.
Then proceeds to hug me stick his hands down my shirt, i yell at him, he grab my boobs, great another guy obsessed with boobs! Second time hes done this.

Time to go! He tricks me telling me he has to poopie, he lied!

Gets in car and passes out instantly, even snores, ahh peace :)He is so cute when he is sleeping. I drive around for an hour in a borrowed car, Honda Accord from a fellow hispanic as all hispanics have old Hondas including Minivans.
I enjoy driving this small car, even though i must hold the high lights on with my finger, being as I am in the suburbs and might kill a small animal, again (oops RIP Racoon Parents). The windows must be manually rolled up, there is a puerto rican jersey that the passenger's seat is wearing,
I must individually lock the doors, and I covet this car that will make me a true ghetto hispanic instead of a true ghetto hispanic soccer mom who drives their parent's Honda Minivan.

Day has come to end, Park in front of synagogue, Lock all doors manually, hide key under mat for owners to drive away with, pick up sleeping baby, close door, SHIT! LOCKED CAR WITH KEY INSIDE!

Get home, parents get home from church even in connecticut, of course Church an hour away on a wednesday, its normal.

Trys on my sisters clothes to see what to wear for tommorow, my mother has had 3 kids is over 40, looks 27 maybe, 116lbs 5'6. I'm jealous. We are both jealous, Clothes fits her better than my 10 year old sister. who isnt fat at all, just has a weird Geicko thing going on.

Someone Farts, I think it was my sister, my room smells like shit :P. The room that got taken over and I now share with my little sister seeing as I have left for college

1 week, 6 days Own ROOM, Own BATHROOM

"Absence makes the Heart Grow Fonder" I need to Leave so I can go back to loving them....

"Out of sight, out of mind"- and forget their Foolishness

Word of the Day
- Fellatio - a word that sounds expensive and tasty(Like gellato) and could be ;)

credit to my future Neighbor Carlos, who shared with me his favorite words of the English Language, the second being Fallopian Tubes (although that would be 3 words) and to Christian who revealed to me my true Hispanic ways.

and poor Ruth and Andres who had to endure this night

"We Made Something Blow up"

2010-08-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

Tonight will entail me packing and watching Season One of . . .

MYTHBUSTERS!

makes me want to blow stuff up.

hmm an internship at MythBusters ?

That would be awesome.

I'm sure someone behind the scene is helping right?

In other news I want to have an at home Chemistry Set

bwahah "Dexter's Laboratory" - I envied him as a child

Why you may ask other than I am a nerd ? ? ?

Homemade Cosmetics :)

Recently I have been reading on how to make your own scrubs, shampoos, masks, conditioners on Cutoutandkeep.com

Why am I a Chemical Engineer major and not exactly look like a nerd (on most occasions)?

I WANT TO MAKE MAKE-UP, that was my motivation

Actually I rarely wear make up, just eyeliner, so the free makeup wouldn't benefit me much. So now I want to make perfumes and cosmetics such as shampoos, lotions, ect.

I hope to make this :)

Apartment here I come !

Freedom T minus 14 days!

Oxford Flats

2010-08-16T13:03:00.000-07:00

I want these badly, I mean it's not like i have over thirty pairs of shoes or anything. And probably have 5 that I wear the most, but these shoes would be an investment piece. These are everyday shoes and give it any outfit a special touch that makes it look chic and effortless. I saw them at the Store and fell in love, along with almost everything else at Urban.

Now for the plan, how to raise my bank account to $48 to purchase said shoes. Hmm.. step 1. fix printer,print shipping labels sell books to amazon, although that will only give me amazon cash, grr fail.......back to step one, keep playing on club bing and save up for tickets for camera, and take pictures of dresses I could make. Ignoring the fact that It would take me about 84 days to do so, and then I need to buy a sewing machiene. GRR FAIL! (again)

Oh I need my job back, and possibly a second weekend job back at Rochaca.

15 days :) .... crap then i have to buy stuff for apartment

xoxo,

broke college kid

Love at First Sight

UrbanOutfitters.com > BDG Slip-On Oxford

La Familia Mas Extrana que makes Total Sense ! :)

2010-08-15T00:04:00.001-07:00

Well summer has gone by pretty quickly and pretty slow too. My summer consisted of me being a bum being home in the suburbs, unemployed and being cheap basically. As of now 12:53am I have 16 days left until I move into my sweet new apartment. WOOT!

Although of course no matter how much I complain about them I will miss my family especially that cute little toddler booger that is my brother. But we must all grow up and move forward on our own and venture out into the world.

Luckily out in Rochester somehow I have been adopted into a new family that we have all created. I miss them very much. My family is very different and we may look a bit odd but whose isn't. It's the whole gang. I am the youngest child, I have two mommies and two daddies but only one is a couple, I have a Jamaican twin, a bastard child uncle, and somehow one set of grandparents.

Why am I writing about this odd family complex that apparently I have, you may ask?

-Well I posted on facebook about how suggestions for topics and my father commented saying "how much you miss me ♥" thus inspiration

Yes I know this is odd, thus I shall explain further and just try to keep track.

Honestly I do not expect anyone other than the people that are part of this family to read this, as it is odd and confusing to anyone who does not know them or get the little inside jokes and subtle hints.

I am the youngest child of this family and have my twin sister Tamika, "whom is NOT Black, she is just "Tamika"" [whatever that means]. She is the sister that will go crazy with you and go along with your silly antics, then do something good and make you look bad! That or do something bad, and still make you look worse, along with team up against you to poke fun of you. She is the bee that may stray and look for honey but shall always return to her hive :)

I have my original room mommy, my roommate Emily whom "Gringa" but has discovered her inner Latina. She is the responsible mommy type that will bake you cookies [[or get her mom to bake you cookies]], and make sure you are okay when your tummy hurts, then make sure you have learned your lesson from drinking too much um.... apple juice :) but all done with love.

My other Mommy, Yoem, is the mommy that will take you out drinking said apple juice and shall take care of you all night quote "The Drunk taking care of the Drunker" of course this referring to Apple Juice and not underage drinking shame on those people. But will always console you and be at your side no matter what, and will beat down someone if needed!

Father Jose, no not a saintly father,but close. He is paired off with mommy Yoem, whose love knows no boundaries {sniffle sniffle} as their love endures across the country. [see what i did there ;)] He is the father that will is the funny man, he will make everyone laugh and lighten up the mood, and always make you feel better about yourself, he is "caring, patient, and carefree" -Yoem. Alongside Mommy he will motivate you and push you to do things.

Alonso Father, he is the father that you go tell all your secrets too and he listens, then tells you how stupid you are in a way that you don't feel that stupid. He is the father that is always there for you and will always make sure he has something to say about everything and point out the stupid things you do in public and reminds you. Has a Fascinating collection of shoes in all colors and is the person you can depend on to go shopping with when your in the mood.

SIDE NOTE: Both my Fathers were inseparable and are like in my opinion that other other half everyone has, like the "guy form" your best friend basically, that are inseparable but their own person at the same time.

Of Course Shopping consists of Alonso, me and my Grandmama, Christine! who is actually the same age as us but wise beyond her years, we often forget. She had her children days old. Christine is the sweet old (jk your not old) grandmother who will go shopping with you and look at pretty shiny things and shoes! And stay up nights ordering pizza and playing games :) and makes sure that we get out and about. She took us little freshman under her wing and made sure we got the best of it.
She can be the sweetest person if she loves you, but will TAKE YOU DOWN if you get on her bad side.

*Tamika & Emily fit with the family because the Jamaican skipped two generations to Tamika and the white was inherited by Emily, see we make perfect sense.

Grandpapa Nathaniel, he is that member of the family that will pick you up and give you a giant bear hug until you are blue in the face. He is that guy that seems to know everybody and always has the hookup He looks like a really cool dude but really is a geek like the rest of us at RIT and a cool. And a very important quality of his is his sci-fi obsession, and "coincidence" that he is always the sheriff and wins at BANG! and I always lose ( I'm onto you, i know you have a secret to this!), and likes to drive Grandmama crazy , as it is the proper boyfriend way to do so. Always with his signature trademark "The Hat" (which is kinda of like a newsboy hat? ). He is the head of the family, as it is him and Christine whom original adopted Jose, then Jose had an unexpected child ME! the rest is history

Another important family member Is the bastard child, as every family has that one child they have no idea where they came from and must use for their entertainment, but yet love as their own and the family would be incomplete with out. The bastard child of Grandma & Grandpa, my evil uncle Jean Carlos, whom fuels everyone else's addiction to all things Japanese (ie: Pokemon & manga & language) *
I kinda want sushi now, California roll anyone?
Back to Jean, he is the evil uncle that threatens to burn me, yet no one but me ever catches him in the act! he is the scapegoat that we will all pick on and blame yet love and the family would not be complete.
Fictional Dialogue
"Fue JEAN, I saw HIM!"
"El no esta here! ahorita!"
SOUND OF CHANKLA Across lying child's head as Jean hides in a corner grinning to himself

Oh and Me.. hmm how do I describe me.. I've just the crazy child who does things like this, who might go a little crazy sometimes and do things I will regret but will always have my loving RIT family there to support me and nudge me.
* going back to how Tamika and Emily make sense, apparently me and Jean don't because I'm Guatemalan and he is Dominican, we are going to ignore this fact and not come to any suspicions that I may to be a bastard child.. ignore this side comment. no seriously stop reading this. I SAID STOP! okay thank you (ha got you to read that)

I am the the cherry on top to an ice cream, no not in a conceited way like i make it all better, but in the way that why the hell is there a cherry on top of a dairy product. Like if you think about it is weird, its red a little bit too noticeable in the ice cream , it sticks out. Not all ice creams have it always, but sometimes it does, its a bit chaotic and out there but its pretty good and adds that little oomph and surprise to the ice cream.

Somehow we all found each other in a school with over 13000 kids ( i think?). I like to think all things happen for a reason, that it was destiny that we all find one another. We are all a bit strange and might not make sense how we fit as a family at first glance but somehow we do, we all add a little bit to make an amazing family of friends that will always have each other's back. I am very grateful that I have found these people, that have helped me in more ways that they may ever know. I know that somehow they have a special part in my life and hopefully always will.

I'm sure more people will soon be added to this loving big family and they should really appreciate this love :)

<3

PS :Your all probably pissed that I wrote this much I know !
This is actually 4 pages in MS word...
oops I JUST LOVE YOU GUYS TOO MUCH ! he he

Thank you Swedes

2010-08-11T20:08:00.000-07:00

"I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams

I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,"

TO GET MY MEATBALLS!

So I have rediscovered this awesome place

IKEA!

they have cheap and chic furniture and essential house things

and MEATBALLS! in they're delicious Cafe!

yes IKEA the furniture place, i eat there

So when I am down on money, which is usually the case

I go to IKEA! to cheer me up

also it's one of the few places I can bond with my sister

we eat some delicious Swedish MEATBALLS and Gravy

doesn't that just look delicious! I opted for french fries!

with a side of Mac & Cheese extra creamy!

When I find a food i like I become OBSESSED!

"My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy"

Then when I am happy and stuffed i drink my Lingonberry Juice!

AND SHOP!

well more like wish I could buy everything....

nice looking things for cheap prices !

20 days til my own apartment!

Today I had the Honor of ...

Introducing my friend Patricia V. to Meatballs&IKEA!

BEST PART OF IKEA:

They sell stuff to make it at home!

Stocking up on this stuff before I go back to Rochester!

Ke$ha Please Check into Rehab soon,

although you are quite entertaining to watch being drugged up

Dear Bloggy,

2010-07-24T18:09:00.000-07:00

I am sorry I have abandoned you,

In the time, I have driven around, read some books

keeping a physical journal, well its more like a venting book

Collaging, OH and I have actually made my first dress

all i have to do is finish the edges

I have declared......

this shall be my summer as an Designer& Artist

just the summer, I prefer no boxes,

school is filled with too much chemistry and math and chemical enginerring GAH!

breaktime is called break for a reason.

I am making ME time,

Independance <3

Measure your life in LOVE

2010-07-11T20:53:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking I love driving aimlessly

... I kinda wish I could run over annoying people

& get away with it . . .

. . . Little Kids songs are catchy

But it piss me off how they are like 12

Darn it gave up on job search

. . . kinda like being a bum

kinda hate being broke

need easy money

I'm starting to hate . . .

how people get this look

how they are shocked...

"What are you studying?"

- "Chemical Engineering"

"OH you don't look like a chemical engineer!"

or. . .

"WOW you must be smart"

1. YES i know I am a girl

2. Yea I'm not a white man (Boy)

3. I think your trying to tell me I look stupid

Some Indian banker Chick actually said

"OH you look all abercrombie girl"

I think she called me... shallow?

I don't even wear abercrombie

... IT ALL LOOKS THE SAME

& over priced

.... wait actually the models aren't wearing clothes!

unless she called me a topless man... WTF

I'm don't consider my self smart...

I'm just good at Math & Science

remembering dorky things & Facts

yea nothing else really

I'm good at learning... not all around smart

.....

Confession:

Almost ran over some lady..

well backed up over here while pulling out

Then I think she heard me tell bryan

"Well whatever she's ugly anyways"

OOps...

Confession 2: Thought it was Funny

.. I steal cheetos from annoying little children

Then blatantly didn't give him a icepop

he had 4 already.. plus I wanted to piss him off :)

PS. Currently Playing "Seasons of LOVE" - RENT

Hot Summer Day

2010-07-07T15:59:00.000-07:00

Accomplishments of today

1. Go to TD Bank

& get coins into cashh :)

2. Walmart

supplies to make me dresses

3. Bank

opened an second checking account,

entitled "pay my rent money, do not touch"

3. McDonalds,

befriended a two year old & get fatter,

"That's not a big mac, that's like a small mac"

- sister whom I drove around with

Makes me feel a little less fat

4. Use my engineering spacial skills

to pack a dunkin donuts bag with books

Book Sale Wednesdays, Fill a Bag for $3

Buy some books fill up my brain :)

5. Go back to McDonalds

buy a Caramel Frappe

not for me :) for daddy

6. Clean room make it neat & Tidy

well kinda,

lofted my bed

made my own library

scared myself with how many books I own

& Shoes (again)... yet I need more

can never get enough

7. Babysit make dinner for siblings

Fail at dinner, make hot dog sausages cut up and fryed

Fail at finding toaster

Yes I am a realized how ghetto I am

Found my inner hispanic ghetto person

Exhibit A... can't find toaster

8. Organized Needle organizer thing and such

Found Cute scraps

organized buttons

Gonna make something...

9. Made this blog :)

Talk about my day

to the internet

ah good friend

.... I think i should stop hating people less

oops, lets be more social

10. Currently Made a Head band

hmmm creativity working again

me likey :)

OH , OH YEA I GOT MY LICENSE TODAY!

and drove aimlessly with my little sister

finding random errands we should do :)

Oh yea, it is just a reciept,

shall guard it with my life!

OH happy day

*regardless of the 102 degree weather,

this is when celcius sounds a whole lot better :)

**[or illusion of cold]

LOVE,

ME =P

#NowPlaying

2010-06-29T18:23:00.000-07:00

Soooo.....

This is what is currently playing in my head. . .

Watching The Secret Life of The American Teenager...

So I guess this is what is #NowPlaying

Seriously why does everyone get pregnant on this show???!?!?!?!?

Adrianne you shouldn't have had sex with Ben

1. YUCK

2. Seriously you wanted to be his first

3. If you are so smart of "Sex" why didn't you take the morning after pill

It's kind of ironic that your mom had you and could have had an abortion

Well you aren't fit to raise a child anyways

Really want to watch Pretty Little Liars

but damn Telumundo has taken over my tv

Today Driving I realized how much I dislike living in a town filled with HASSIDS

They are so freaking annoying

and need to stop jumping in front of me while I am driving to hitch a ride

Next time It's not my fault if I run you over!

This is my Gas Station, yup Hassi on a motorcycle

The Secret Life just used product placement Jack said

" You know there is an app that can map out where you are, when you are lost"

Seriously Apple must you invade everything??

Good News, got this really cute skirt I wanted :)

Came in the mail today in black and jean denim. . .

SCORE !!! Very pretty!

"If you wanted to do the right thing, you shoulda bought a Hybrid"

Adrianne The Secret Life of the American Teenager

yup this is what she said when little miss goody two shoes lectured her on keeping her baby

& seriously I hate this Madisson girl STOP TALKING!

He said he loves you doesnt need to get you a present

Oh goodness the teenage mother's kid sister has a thing for the baby's father

The mother is in NYC at a Music Program

and left her child at home while having her own apartment WTF?

If anyone is interested WATCH

This show is rediculous, yet I STILL watch it, idk why? But it is!!!

In other news:

I am going to make a CapriSun pouch :) & Collaging now bye

as seen on THIS PERSON'S blog

OUT :)

OH NO!!!!

2010-06-17T17:09:00.000-07:00

Worst Case Scenario

I always tend to look at the worst case scenarios just in case so I can be prepared.

So the other day as I was on the elliptical and then driving and thought oh Crap I am 18.

The leads me to the scenario....

My mother drives like a madwoman and makes me repent to God everytime I get in a car with her because I feel like those are my last moments on earth just in case I wanna go to heaven.

What happens if my mother & father God forbid cease to live??

I inherit those little boogers. I am legally an Adult and have no other family living here that could take care of those creatures. My little brother is three and my little sister is ten.

So I have a plan.

1. My parent's church would probably cover all the funeral stuff. Burying people is expensive. So people that want to kill them selves please dont. 1. Life is good & 2. It's actually alot of money for the people you left behind to pay for your casket and ceremony and transportation and all that. Caskets are not cheap which I do not understand its gonna be in dirt anyways.

2. I do not plan on dropping out of school and raising snotty children. My future and career comes first. Yes I am selfish but I will never have my children living how I did. I have goals and shall accomplish them. Than being said remember these are not MY children. If anything the little one I am more attached to since I basically babysat him at all hours 'til last august. So they are moving up with me to rochester.

3. Financial Aid will probably bump up my stuff because hey I have nothing else left and a desolate child. Take out some extra loans and find an apartment and enroll the midgets in school. RIT has a daycare the three year old shall go there until kindergarten pops its head. My little sister shall be involved in as much activities and sports to keep her busy and out of my way.

4. I shall get a weekend job and night job to pay for food because my little office job between classes is not gonna cut it. Or they shall eat noodles and mac and cheese. I shall find a Coop up in Rochester and successfully graduate.

5 .I will have to take on a full time job and go to graduate school at the same time. If it can be afforded and because I shall make my sister be smart and study alot. These children will not backtalk me as my mother did there SHALL BE CONSEQUENCES! She will get a scholarship to boarding school. She will thank me later because of the freedom she had and easy transition to college. The baby I can handle because by this time he shall be eight, he is more attached to me and isn't a sassy back talker like little miss.

I plan to send my own children to boarding school once they get too annoying so around middle school or high school. Get drunk, party, I dont care as long as you get A's, be a model citizen, and go to a good university to study something worthy & don't end up pregnant.

6. I shall send the little one of to college,and cry tears of joy, then baby is next. This will be seven years by then. Around that time I plan on getting married. My brother will be 13 by then and off to boarding school. Then I shall focus on me even more.

Okay so maybe I am not being realistic but this is the plan.

These little children will be whipped into shape, not literally I don't like hitting children, but no cookies!

My mother had us each in 7/8 year intervals big mistake, yes parents tend not to care as time goes on. I feared her whereas the little brat girl yells back at her. She needs a beat down

Today at dinner I told my mother to turn the tv off because my brother did not want to eat. Her response is uh then I have to hear him cry. I never had tv at dinner as a child, NOT FAIR! But seriously they run the show.

If they were my kids, OHH NO!!! Boot Camp it is!

On a side note, I have been deprived of Ice cream for over a week. I crave it now. it has repacled my other favorite thing. AND THERE ARE NO ICEES IN SIGHT!

NOOOOOOO!!!

YJoy Valerie

10 Confessions ...

2010-06-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

These are my Confessions... Part One

Okay So eh I don't have a cool name reference

So ten things not many people know

*with some side notes

1. I have recently discovered I have more than thirty pairs of shoes.

Up until recently discovering I am one of those people I judged them.

2. When I have money, it disappears, usually on clothes & food.

Shopping makes me happy, so does pedicures.

3. I had an obsession with Ice Cream at school. I have now converted it to fruit pops and Icees

I eat Ice cream when I am celebrating/happy/sad/depressed/bored... I have a problem

4. I am a klutz, recently as I was eating my hot dog the relish spilled on my phone. I can't hear anyone

This is my third cell phone (same one) in a year. #1. stopped working #2 .My mother washed it, then dryed it. I don't think I can get a new one.

5. When I was little I dreamed I would meet my true love when I was young

I hope I'm heading there :)

6. I wish I was thinner/had smaller boobs so I could wear flowy clothes with out looking pregnant/fat

I wish I could buy more accessories and clothes and get paid doing it, but for me no one else

7. I love looking through pictures/ photo albums. I think pictures all tell a story and it's just so eye appealing

If I see someone post some really cool pictures I like to look through the album. I'm NOT a Creep I swear. It's just pretty

8. Up until recently I still had the image of my mother knowing everything and everything she said was true. Even though many of her comments make me sound like I'm smart (yikes)

This summer I'm realizing she's been wrong alot, the lightbulb is not clicking, and memory is not all there. yea my mom is only 20 years older than me. This frightens me. '

9. My biggest fear is love, It's the best and scariest feeling to love so much knowing you can be so hurt. Actually I think the following are, because I trust who I love wouldn't hurt me.

Strong competetors

-Having a child before I have a finish college/have a career/go to Grad School/am married

- My parent's dying because I am 18, technically an adult, my brother and sister are 3 & . I could be their legal Guardian, oh gosh. . (hmm inspiration for other post_

10. I have discovered I am evil most of the time.

Sometimes I think of scenes where the people in front of me that are annoying trip and fall. Including the screaming little children

I laugh when people get physically hurt.

I am afraid to be a mom because I will laugh when my child falls.

Mannequins: I Want One

2010-06-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

So this thing... something I've always wanted

Before I decided I wanted to fry my brain with knowledge I had wanted to be a fashion designer, but figured it was too much work and engineering would be easier for me. (idk why i thought that). Anyhow, I have always wanted a mannequin.

Why? Why else to make my own clothes

It pisses me off when I go shopping and see a really simple dress that I want and WHOAH! that's more than it is worth. See I know this because my mother used to make all my dresses when I was younger. So that dress that says $50, yea it only takes about $10 in fabric to make.

This might be the reason I am so stingy when it comes to shopping and do not like spending that much on one article of clothing. Accesorries&purses&shoes that is another story, It's more like an investment. If you take care of it, It will last you a long time and make your clothes look more expensive :). Back to the story.

SO YEA, I have made it my goal to design and make some pretty dresses this summer.

Besides making my own clothes the way I want it exactly. I always have a problem finding clothes that fit correctly. God decided to make up what I did not have in bum bum in boobies. Sadly I have also gained those dreaded freshman 15, yes I know very sad RIP Skinny Me. But I always find something I want and cannot seem to be absolutely perfect.

If you want something done right do it yourself.
Thus I shall go fabric/zipper/button shopping soon.
Although I probably won't have a real mannequin until I have about $70-$150 to throw away.

Manage with what you got I guess :)

Summer= Crash Fashion Designer for Moi

Y Joy Valerie

I like your beard

2010-06-14T21:23:00.000-07:00

These things Make Me Happy :)

shopping

dresses

Bright Colors

fun accessories

pretty stud earrings

shiny bracelets

silver

white gold

chunky things

boots

chunky heels

high pumps

looking at expensive clothes knowing one day I will afford it

trying new styles

being a little edgy

bohemian things

hippie love

icees

slushies

popsicles

fruitpops [[especially coconut]]

reconnecting with old friends and picking up right where we left off

finding really cute clothes on sale

finding really cute clothes for under twenty dollars [[even better]]

SALES!

being with my love, Bryan Y

bHow webdings has cute icons as letters!

Being in Love

Being able to Love

Loving like I've never been hurt

letting go of grudges

kisses on the forehead

Cuddling in silence

being held

Knowing I have something special

Music I can just jump around and go crazy to

Dancing like a fool

Being a Fool with amazing people

Having nights that will make interesting stories

one day giving life lessons to children with said stories

never repeating some stories that were just to crazy

Taking random trips to nowhere

Ellipticals with built in teevees so I can work out for hours and not even feel it

Learning new random things

Learning how to play new games

Being good at things

when I weigh a pound less

Looking in the mirror and feeling pretty for once

my hair looking just how I want it

not having pimples or yucky scars

children having little/nothing to say

quietness

reading good books

designing clothes I want

being employed/ making money

Having Freedom

when freedom brings tasty liquid things ;)

having fun doing absolutely nothing

watching Greek/90210/Gossip Girl/DropDeadDiva/ Glee/ Bones/ Lost

Staying up at all hours watching aforementioned shows

sleeping until noon in summers

being tan

looking pretty

lounging in pools

the times when I actually had a backyard

the times when I actually lived in a house

New York City

being a child, not caring

when I get an A and don't even try

when GPA did not take over my life

finally reaching Goals

when I have those rare moments where I stop planning my life

but also planning my life and getting what I want

FRIENDSHIP

ps: "I like your beard" is my favorite part of 'your love is my drug' by Ke$ha & the best part

Y Joy Valerie

"Minorities" in Society, SAY WHAT????!?!? RANT

2010-06-13T20:26:00.000-07:00

WARNING:::

This started as a post about an RIT Women in Engineering Article and turned into a rant about how minorities and people want to represent themselves and lift up oppression and what not. I think its perspective is basically what I'm saying, I am equal I do not see my self as anything else.

Because I go to to a predominately Tech/Engineering School I forget that not everyone is all sciency/mathy.

Most of my friends through out my life have been girls, and I've always been somewhat girly but a geek at heart.

Now in college I have way more guy friends and have way more guys than girls In my classes. I have never looked at my self as different or beneath anyone else.

I went to Catholic School and High school in the suburbs so basically have always been surrounded by white people. Yet I did not feel the need to associate myself with only Hispanic people, or talk with a "g" accent and dress all miss ghetto fab.

Yes I did not fit in when I lived in the city and was called "white girl", which I did not understand I am TAN PEOPLE, kinda caramely colored.

Our society labels everything as acting "White" &"Black" ect. , where Hispanic people are expected to act all miss.ghettofab & whatnot I am sorry but that is not me.

I'm just fab & broke but I'm not gonna be acting like another stereotype..maybe just joke about it

RANT

Yes I speak like I am an educated person, yes I speak english damn it! Don't try to speak Spanish to me you ignorant non-Hispanic person!

[[Exception roomie Emily but she's not ignorant and actually knows how to speak Spanish, the honorary Hispanic **]]

No, I'm not gonna give you a discount because you tan, I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU!

....And NO I AM NOT DOMINICAN/PUERTO RICAN for the millionth & one time!!!

NO I don't extra money because I am a double minority in my field, I get more financial aid because I is very broke and am attempting to get a quality education regardless!

(parents are pastors nonsense, basically work as nonprofit, do the math)

& NO I am not bad at English/grammar because I am hispanic, I is bad at English because I like math and science, duh!

(also I talk exactly as I speak, I am hearing my voice in my head as I write or vice versa, damn it i confused myself again)

Not gonna lie, I tried to fit in when I lived in Queens, NY had my big hoop earrings and faux diamond name belt when I wasn't wearing my catholic school girl uniform. Moved to suburbs & made my own identitity did not conform to the A&F and Hollister (yea people it looks exactly the same because its UNCREATIVE)

I totally get this whole trying to represent minorities in more fields

I think the problem is not rooted in because "Oh we is minorities" nonsense, People have conformed.

It's like that thing they tell you in psych, minorities will not do as good on standardized test because it is statistic and it is now expected.

We have CONFORMED to societies expectations instead of placing expectations on ourselves and placing Goals for our lives.

STOP giving your fellow minorities a bad name and poor stats, just because statitics say that there are few minorities in college doesn't mean it's OKAY for you not to go.

Goals+Education=Career=Money$=advancing society and economy for the better

Its simple. [[explained in words & math I'm good]]

Back to Original Inspiration

RIT - RIT’s female science, engineering, and math students break stereotypes

Oh yes this is how we do :)....

We are awesome

Especially them ChemE Girls (chemical engineers),

Chemical Engineer Woman we will BLOW YOUR MIND!
(get it Chemicals,reactions, explosion (blow up)hehehehehe, okay not that funny sheesh)

LIES!

Yea we, women, are are brilliant&intelligent and look sexy doing it!

We solve problems & do it in heels, try that boys!

And we birth/raise your damn smelly children & cook your food& tend your house &have careers

Did I mention we know how to multitask

WE ARE NOT BENEATH YOU MEN, we are equal,

NOW CUDDLE WITH US & Tell us how beautiful we are :)

Y Joy Valerie

Chemical Engineer Woman we will BLOW YOUR MIND!

I am a Gecko not Geico

2010-06-13T17:42:00.001-07:00

Ahh Childhood, It was a beautiful time where all attention was on me I got all the toys. When I played basketball, dance, choir, karate, guitar, piano, and I'm sure many more and then just quit and my parent's were completely okay with that because I was a spoiled only child.

Then IT came came when I was eight years old. IT seems nice and cute and the idea was beautiful. I thought It would make my life so much better. IT lied and decieved me, IT was my little sister!!!!! (whom we shall we refer to as IT, seems appropriate)

It was hard living in my block all the kids were older than me, althought they liked playing with me and carrying me around until they became teenagers and too preoocupied with those icky things called boyfriend. It was a sad lonely time for me, then on a valentines day my parents told me I was going to have a little sister, yay a new doll for me to play with.

I bought IT the latest baby gap clothes so IT could come into this world stylish. It was lovely waiting. Then as IT finally came, my cousin Doug and I were so excited to finally meet IT.

"Ah how precious" - Family

"EW, what is that, it looks like a white monkey"-Doug

SLAP "That's your baby cousin!" - Aunt

"Gross"-Me&Doug

It was all a lie!!! IT wasn't here to make my life better and be my new toy! IT came to ruin it! Well little miss thing is now ten years old, and oh my goodness! The crying and the pooping and the need to pull on my long curly hair has turned into this never ending speaking frenzy. It is not the BIEBER and such other Disney& Child Stars. This girl has not learned the names the nine, oh I mean eight planets [[ RIP PLUTO ]] but she can tell you which Disney kid is dating which Twilight minion. She does not feel the need to do her homework even though it consists of looking up word definitions, gosh the internet is so difficult to use!.

IT's biggest worry is having the most styling clothes from Aeropastale and Hollister because P.S Aero (the kids Aero) is for little children. Her biggest concern is watching Glee and Lost [[yes shows I watch]]. She talks of boyfriends and shopping. But what irks me the most is this Little things attitudes. We live in the suburbs yet she feels like she is from the hood and does this head twist which makes her look like a bobble head.

As I have mentioned before I am Studying Chemical Engineering. I was not a complete nerd as A child but I did love learning about why things where the way they were and found math to be like a fun puzzle, I still do and love learning new things. Many may have told me I do not "Look" smart. Yes I in fact am like many girls obsessed with clothes and shoes more than technology, I said I like learning not knowing how to code In fact I shock my self when I use the internet for something other than this here blog/facebook/twitter and gazing at clothes online. Actually wait I rarely ever use it for anything other than that, lets act like homework counts.

Because of this is makes me it makes me sad that IT is lacking in the intellectual department. She has no interest when I tell her cool sciency facts but instead finds interest In the clothes and shoes I have bought and watching television. My greatest fear is she becomes a high school drop out and freelance artist. Or wost!, graduate in 4+ years at Rockland Community College.

Hmm, well maybe she will be the Fashion Designer I always wanted to be, but went with a career that guaranteed me a job. Maybe she will be a lucky artist and get her big break, maybe her flute will get her places. Maybe she doesn't need school and education, I would say she would be a Liberal Art major but reading,spelling, knowledge doesn't seem to be her thing.

At least I have hope, my little three year old baby brother, [[that's another story]] He is very smart although he seems to me leaning more towards the evil genius path, but at least there is the Genius path.

No offense to anyone

who is studying/working/going to community college for doing something you love and are talented at. I envy you all because

1. I lack artistic/musical/athletic/any talent at all and must rely on my brain [[which rarely works]]

2. you find joy in doing something you love and are good at that doesn't require extensive years of college/graduate school/ continuous cramming/lab

3. you love something that doesn't involve chemistry & physics. Which I love [[minus physics tests]]but stress me out and require lots of studying and long work.

I'm sure everything else is just as hard or harder that isn't science&engineering but hey I am going to think mine is the hardest just as everyone else does.

PS: My little sister is reffered to Geicko for her striking bodily resemblance to it.

PS2: My sister is actually quite entertaining, talented,smart and very pretty just lazy

Taking 2nd Year by the horns!

2010-06-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

So far this summer I've been bored at home jobless/carless and loaded with little children crazyness.

Due to my lack of exciting things to do I have been plotting my take over of second year at RIT.

I have declared that this year shall be filled with way more fun.

btw anyone looking to give me a job I'm desperate

Plan 1. Build an amazing waterslide

Plan One

This will consist of a water slide coming of the third story balcony apartment next year at the Province.

After seeing the homemade water slide it really got me thinking, well more like scheming.

As a child we all fantasize about having a water slide come out of our rooms into the pool, well I did anyways.

This shall have to reach from our apartment building to the club house pool.

Thus it will need to have a loop-de-loop, some spirals to extend to it, also my future neighbor suggested a RING OF FIRE.

It breaks off in one section passes through the RING OF FIRE where you fly onto the second portion of this slide.

THAT IS NOT ALL!

After a long day of studying & stress you will want to relax on this amazing slide but how shall you ever remember this adventure?

( RIT uses too much of our brain cells to remember such things)

Have no fear we shall take your picture for a small fee :) in addition to the ride. he he he

Help support

The Broke College Students Trying to Pay Off Their Sweet Apartment Fund

yes long charity i know just roll with it.

But what happens during those long Rochester winter??

It becomes a Ski/snowboarding rail of course!!

but what about when there is no snow??

Skate Board RAMP!

Yes I have a plan for everything :)

Plan 2: Taunt the Arizonan Police

Plan 2

Just to remind everyone:

I AM NOT, I repeat NOT MEXICAN!

I am GUATEMALAN, from Guatemala born HERE in USA

(THATS NOT MEXICO it's right below it in central america)

So in support of my adopted RIT "parents" and to mess with those Arizonan Immigration Cops we shall be riding dirty in these cars.

Me and my non-mexican/mexican/& hispanic friends shall ride in cars with the following suggested slogans

" I'm Mexican and stole this car, Pull me over"

" I'm hispanic so your probablly gonna pull me over too..."

""I'm Hispanic, but you probably think thats Mexican, Come Get Me!"

"Guess How many Illegals in here!"

[This is think would throw them off if it was driven by white people :) ]

Once pulled over BAM!

US Birth Certificate Pulled out of my back pocket!

Why yes, nowadays us tan people carry it around in our pockets just in case.

So be aware all you people who are slightly tan, yes you people that like to sit in the sun.

Possibly the Sicilians, light black people, all these different mixed people.

Yup we are all cursed for our pretty shade of skin now.

But seriously C'mon Hispanic people, stop giving us a bad name,

we wouldn't be in this mess If you just stopped making the white people's lawns all pretty!

Anyways onwards to plan three....

Plan 3. Make some beer, after all I am a ChemE

Plan 3

One of the very amazingly cool things about being a Chemical Engineering is ....

The beer making process.

[Personally I'd prefer the vodka making process thats just me.]

But I figure Hey I should know how to do this.

So this is something I need to learn with my fellow ChemE's on how to do just because we should.

Plus side , I could finally find a beer I like, [carbonation makes my tummy feel funny.]

Plus Plus side, making our own beer would be useful and more financially effective because

A: we are college kids aka broke

B: Kinda more legalish

after all it is illegal to PURCHASE alcoholic beverages under 21 no one said make right ?

Plan 4. GEEKtini's

Plan 4

I don't actually like beer as afore mentioned, so in order to celebrate my schemes and wonderful times at RIT Some Pi-Tini's.

I am at a Tech School, even if you are an Art student you have morphed and adapted to the Dorkness that is RIT (Sorry Gramama ).

Yes I think this is incredibly cute and adorable to have some Pi shaped Ices to decorate with.

If schemes go good, celebrate and relax. If schemes fail, enjoy and soak in refreshing PiTini's.

....

Well This is my second post so sorry if it sucks/is too lengthy got carried away

Thank you to my Hispanics :) for telling me I scheme too much

& My ChemE's for loving beverages with me!!!

Y Joy Valerie

Life with out Glee

2010-06-01T22:56:00.000-07:00

I want to sing

I get this feeling every so often when I watch a musical or a show like glee, which I can't think of any others.

But seriously I wish it was completely acceptable to just break out in song whenever you want

I also wish

a. I could sing very well

b. wasn't scared of singing in front of people

c. Be on glee

d. or a showchoir

I have followed Glee Since the beginning and now my summer has no more Glee to look forward.

GossipGirl doesn't come back until this fall :(

Trying to watch all of Lost has lost my attention

Solutions: aka my alternatives

download all the Glee Music to comfort me :) re-watch Glee on Hulu :) & Find new shows

I have been catching up on 90210 very addicting

Also The Secret Life of The American Teenager is back on. Yes the acting is terrible, the word SEX is mentioned 928372373653732312 times a show. Yet it entertains me

And Pretty Little Liars new show on ABC Family, not a very family show, but very intruiging and unexpected I am tempted to read the books but I don't want to know what happened.

Download more music to have as my background music of the movie of my life currently playing in of head.

Work out more woot! woot ! lost 5 more pounds.. bet I gained it back with the 5 slices I ate yesterday. Yes I am ashamed, very ashamed and will never eat Pizza again (lies)

Bought books on sale for $0.50 at Suffern Library, been reading Memoirs of a Geisha

Go on random excursions drives with friends as we are both bored

yesterday I discovered Peirmont, NY very cute quaint town :)

Not having a job gives me tons of freetime

too much free time idk what to do with myself .. thus blog

Goal of the Summer: Catch a Squirrel make it my pet train it to do sneaky things for me

Oh that and find someway to make money that isn't illegal

Till Next time :)

About Me

2010-05-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hello world :)

I have decided to start my own blog so I have an outlet to share my thoughts and vents for the day. I always tried to start a Diary or Journal when I was little and never got past the first page. I am going to try to write this as much as I can.

So a little about me. I grew up in Queens New York and moved up to suburbs for high school, now I am in college at Rochester Institute of Technology studying Chemical Engineering. I am the oldest of five my 10 year old sister, 3 year old brother, and 2 stepsisters. I have an amazing boyfriend Bryan <3>, we've been together for two years since my junior year of high school April 18th 2008.

I am a dreamer, I like to think that things are going to turn out beautiful and many times am struck my real life. I love to shop and which I wasn't so broke so I could shop more. I love bohemian kind of clothes, lots of colors, and unique things. I love accessories. I want to get a job working for a cosmetic company, preferably l'oreal making makeup and such, and a sweet spending money for shopping :). I am a complex creature, as many women, I am friendly, loud and shall express myself, I can be shy and afraid to connect to people, but love being around people. I wish I was artistic, I wanted to be a fashion designer but though Engineering would use my skills better since I tend to be analytical and love math and Chemistry.

My parents are Born Again Christian pastors which in turn I basically spent all of high school in church. I have loved being in college and have really found who I am and learned more about myself and everything about myself. I thank God for everything I am but I feel like the best way to praise God is to enjoy life and make the most of everything that is offered than spend tons of time in church. Maybe my views will change as I get older but for now thats it.

That is a bit about me :)