De Ambibitions Holder's Mind...

of what she used to say

2011-04-07T12:54:00.001+08:00

A try on my new blogging tool on my iPhone which can consider as all my property on hand -.-

She used to tell me to drink honey to cure my sorethroat

She used to tell me looking at green stuffs like tree which is good for eyes

She used to tell me she wanted the stars, the moon, the sun, everything she wanted to love the world

She used to tell me how she wished both of us r staying near each others so we could meet each others frequently

Words never disappear, feeling to her is tho forever gone, now I'm here, doing things as she said, no longer everything the same, time changes everything...

Now hav to continue my lunch while did this post in 3 mins waiting time -.-

she's gone...

2011-03-04T01:00:00.005+08:00

i remember the day she was brought back home
the day she bullied the others just to reflect on how tiny the space she suffered
the moment i saw her surprised me with her aura that i believe it do really keep bad things away
i just know she;s one of most beautiful gold fish i ever felt from my own soul

i remember the day when the aquarium was full of chemical
i was thinking to bring her to other's place just to keep her alive

i remember the day my bro brought her to my sis in law's house
which end up she killed most of the fishes in the aquarium she stayed
survived in a water tank for one week

i just believe she brought lucks to me
guarding my family like a guard although in an aquarium

i did sometimes change the aquarium's water just to bring her fresher water
i worried when she;s sick

whenever i;m happy or down
i did really share the feeling with her

my heart was pain when she swim upside down or when she;'s sick
with the blood i could see in her vein from fins just hurts so much

it may be ridiculous but there was such kinda aura i felt from this fish which is uncommon

i had a bad feeling of losing her which i never want it to be true when i was not at home

and now i'm home
she's gone
she saw i left the house door
but i never had any chance to let her know i'm back when she's no more here

i still remember the day she brought all lucks from what i felt
i just can;t stand my tears from dropping for her

she's one of the gold fish who used to be in my home;s aquarium
she's one i treated like a family member
and now she's gone
i'm sorry
i'll never forget that any kind of fish that left the most memory to me even she's gone

she may have left for other reasons
i just hope she rest in peace
but she'll forever stay in my heart guarding my soul
and she'll always live in my memory, for the luck she brought i believe in

back to the old stage...

2011-01-23T13:43:00.002+08:00

the stage
somewhere i used to hav the happiest memory
it's now nth special but a normal sidewalk of a shopping mall

this is somewhere i passed thru everyday for this moment
and it's true i'm back to the old stage
in a difference of timing

life here is kinda bored i have to admit
for stupid reason to be independent here

i spend most of my time, surfing, watching movie on pps, playing with my phone
luckily i brought this antique notebook here for this boring moment

things i did on the first week here
i do meet a few friends from different classes
of coz i do meet up with some friends from kuching, and some old friends here
tried ice skate in sunway, been always wanted try this until i have the chance doing so nowadays
spent few times playing pool aka snooker here
went to genting in the midnight, enjoying expensive mcd there, viewing night view in the fog
it's been more than 10yrs even since i last been to genting
drove a car myself to 1 utama and witnessed a friend become malaysia champion of GT5 racing game

another problem i encounter is food n drink
how i wish i can juz cook instead of eating outside juz to save cost n for a healthier life
for drinks, i'm drinking mineral water tho nowadays

the only freedom that constrains my current situation, that is transport
how i wish i can have a car to drive here
the road here is just so smooth, but not those so called small roads
tho i;ve been searching for nice deal of cars around instead of bringing my small wife over

the old stage
used to be the place i wanted to come the most
it's now appear more than never even wake up from dreams
but the situation on the stage, is never like a fairy tale happy ever after
it's just another journey, under the fate's orders
for her happiness i know, i don regret for what really happened on this stage before

soon i'm going back home
truly a lovely place i would breathe happily

frustration cross the mind

2011-01-15T23:56:00.005+08:00

dropping the coins in the wishing well for wishes to come true
the beautiful dreams, i never dare to open my eyes witness how true will it b

i'm nervous for what i'm doing
i never stop ever since the day fate brought me to this route

it may b surprises o nightmares

life's always full of challenge
trouble visits like a friend no matter what
which makes life an interesting world

today i happen to know some new friends
a lovely couple, bringing a baby around
a dream that i would die for
how admire can this b?

value of life
who would really appreciate?

revenge may b a way to survive
it may never b a way to live

fate that leads to an end...

2011-01-10T17:39:00.003+08:00

i'll never know when will my last post here will be
as far as i know, i wont leave any regrets to this world

after life
to exchange the length of life, scarifies with the love from my family
a family that focus of money, instead of the future from the long term
that materialist is beyond than juz life

if i had died in juz another day, i may not know all these things
i juz happen to know, life's never been better ever since that day
human beings, congratulation to you all hav juz revealed of how a person u really r

step back home
nth but new bed, old bolster i used to hug for years, gone

i visited an old friend
i dropped my tears
for the tragedy happened to her

i thanked her
for telling me on how to appreciate life
tho i cannot promise when will i visit her again
i promised her, only to visit her on better tomorrows...

i never dare to know what will happen tomorrow
o even what will happen in the future
i will face it, i wont escape

live well, is always a greatest revenge
revenge for a better tomorrow

fate kept me away from death
chance leading me another place

life's always like a movie
good guys do not stay long
life's tough being a good man
at least i never regret to b myself for good faith

i've lost my ways
truly, i dono where to go
what to do
o even when death's after my shadow again

there is always a destroyer around
trouble visits like a friend
the reason that makes life interesting

an end is a rise of another begining
i'll live to a better tomorrow
til the days u deserved only to survive from worse future

even if i stop breathe one day
i'm clearly known as myself
i'm on a good faith to this world

the movie that tells...

2010-12-27T20:51:00.003+08:00

when in love
it's always like being in a sweetest dreams

when love ends
it's always like a nightmare until you wake up

the nightmare when u woke up
u lose everything but memory

the sweetest memory that result the saddest scar

life's always like a movie
i watched the movie twice
juz bcoz the movie touch my heart

it may not b a movie fully loaded wif super stars
but a movie with only 3 main actors

the 1st time i watched, i almost drop my tears
the 2nd time i watched, i dropped my tears

the story is purely a love story
a touching story
a story that tell how strong love is

i may hav hurted by the past, i may not see any future, but i cherish what's called present
that's what i realised from the movie to my life
tho in real life, we might hav the same happy ending like the movie
at least the movie do tells what means love

fate brought me watching this movie
七天爱上你 Love At Seventh Sight

truely a story, that reflect on how everyone felt in relationship b4

life, at it's ending point...

2010-12-10T19:16:00.003+08:00

operation flyover was a success
that the main objectives hav been well performed
another crazy thing i did juz few days b4 my exam
i teleported to KL, for a motor show, meet a friend, and carry my friend's present back
for slow process of pics, i apologise... as i din hav the chance for using my SLR these days

it was a 24hr mission i can say
i was lucky enough to save RM200 from booking the ticket last minute even the price has increased, guess it's fate that allowed me to do so

these days been focus my time on so called motorsport, for future rumor so called track that "heard will be appearing" in kuching starting next year
yes the project commence nx yr
so called big character said it is to "replace the current temporary track in the CITY"
and yes i never know the so called temporary track in inside the CITY
i tot the rumor was cancelled, hopefully it will come true

track will b somewhere in kuching between 15mile to 17mile
a track length of 3.8kilometers, slightly bigger than the track located in johor bahru
will this really happen in this borneo land where others known us as staying on top of the trees?

life's always packed with joy
yes i know there's few species that makes the world complicated, that i can feel their eyes being red
sorry to say i will never b yr revenge target
another day u proved yrself for not living a brighter future
never let life down, life never comes easy

being a MAN, we don prove to others on how weak we are
when your WILL isn;t stronger, strengthen your heart
there's always a window open, outside the window it'll always b an endless beautiful sky

it juz sad to know recently someone suicide juz for a worthless girl
it juz proved to them, that this ruined species has won

it's never the end of the world
hope will always b there waiting to be found

life is always up and down
that;'s what makes life interesting

on this stage, everyone is their own main character in lives
it all depends how they decide their ending will be

how valuable a person's life is?
depends on what the person has done until the moment the person never open their eyes

生命舞台

2010-10-12T22:52:00.003+08:00

路
是自己选择的
选错了，就没有回头的余地

幸福
由自己掌握，不是由他人决定

感觉
或许，会盖过理智
从而让人犯错

冷静
再冷静的我，也会为在乎的东西而失去理智

疲惫
或许，对身边的一切感到绝望

希望
一直没破灭，但从未被他人停止破坏

裂痕
做的再完美，也因为一点失误而成为无可原谅的罪过

后悔
或许，这是他人选择的纪念品
至少，我不会留下任何遗憾

爱一个人，好难
用心爱一个人一辈子，我做得到。。。
但往往爱上的，只不过是在眼前路过那最熟悉的陌生人。。。

我爱你，你爱他，他爱她，她爱他
或许真的，这年代的认真的忘了爱自己

有些人，选择来到这世上为钱作为机器
钱，真的能使鬼去魔。。。
也让人在这个年代失去灵魂

有机会来到这世上
就好好珍惜，也别让他人糟蹋自己的灵魂。。。
生命只有一次，结束了，一切都会消失。。。

别总以为自己是这生命舞台悲剧中的主角。。。
有许多人，没机会好好的生活。。。
甚至，不愿的离开这世界。。。

未来由自己选择，因为自己才是这生命舞台的主角。。。
别被判自己的灵魂。。。

may it desappear with the wind

2010-10-07T21:55:00.002+08:00

memories may be the only things it left
in this tough route

tears
for what i've lost
and i'm back to the very own same ground

i swear
for every relationship, i fully deposit my true heart
until the moment the feeling is killed
should i regret or not? i never, just because i dont do things i will regret for

life's tough
even tougher being a good man
no matter how tired i will be, i will never betray my soul

if i've hurt you, please forget about me
that;s the only way i may have to release both of us

words' truth, the more you loved a person, the more you'll end up with hate

i sincerely tell you, i didn;t turn to the astray way
for what you've chosen, i respect your decision from heart
because i've got no ways to keep your freedom

whenever you go, whatever you do, i'll be right here waiting for you
this phase shall wait until the right person appear

in my life, i only hope love shall appear for once and for all
to love one person in one life
and it's impossible to achieve
probably when i visit the new world

i look into your eyes, listen to your heartbeat
all because i want to know i'm living in this true world not only a dream
but it all end up a terrible nightmare

things i do to prevent the nightmares from happening
because eternity is never everyone's dream
maybe it's true, some people come to this world for happy life
of which they be with a person whenever they are happy, leaving a person whenever they're not

difference from me? i rather choose to love once
i'm always a lucky person
things hardly happen in a worse way
at least my life deserve to choose someone better
if i were to thank the chances i'm given all the time, i guess it would be god

i must admit, i live in a happy life
a life i always have chances to get things i want
a life i've been given many chances to avoid disasters
a life i do not leave any regret

like a song i've heard around, everyone love other but forgot to love themselves

no matter how my life will lead to
i will never lay low
because i can always enjoy my life like a movie
a movie that will never end until the day my last breathe

to love a person now? i rather choose to love my car, just for my own satisfaction
i'm always serious to my life, that's why i don;t do things i will regret for
if today i should feel regret? why not the others regret more?
all i can say is, i gain my luck in favor of being good faith

for love? i guess i'll just have to tell how a feeling of a gay
gay love another which is far beyond any others
they do not care on how others' views, even sex, they just fall in love with each others' soul
hard to accept? there's always a feeling stronger than anything, that is love
(don't worry, i'll never be a gay -.-)

life for not being a played puppet

2010-09-30T23:33:00.002+08:00

in life, everyone has their own decisions, route they choose
many people do make choices at their own will
but not the right choice that follow everyone's mind

i may have been caring about how a person should live with another in this so called relationship
of which i've forgot what i really wanted
of which my life been played like a puppet, that i never like being a toy

i would just fall in love with my car or others that satisfy me on road with joy
i rather spend money working every single cent just for them
at least i know they wont betray me, unless i just crash her

love's beautiful
that's what i believe in, as always
people who tend to destroy it, sorry
i hope you're right so you wont regret
you've just make this world uglier, not mine but yours
my will shall remain strong

i always wanted to say, i'm sorry, i'm never good for anyone
today, i just want to someone i should
life's hard being a good man

whether if i'm right or wrong
i just know, i wont do things that make me regret
i do things that wont make me regret for the rest of my life

i do things is good faith, not only for myself
because i'm not selfish,
but the ugly world do not appreciate for my efforts

life's short
i do know to enjoy the world til the last breathe
i do desperate for someone who will always stay with me, for someone special
i wont care about how others make their world an ugly place
all i know is, i wont let anything change my will

like i said, i hope you're right for what you've done
i don mind if i've made a stupid mistake
all i know is, i wont regret for the route i choose
because i'm not anyone's toy
of which, everyone deserve the word freedom for their lives

torn scars...

2010-09-05T19:52:00.002+08:00

is it time or is it not?
steps in fate lead to today's fair day
is this called fate/?

time is always thing i scared of
today as lovely couple loving each others as if cannot live without each others
tomorrow the most terrible nightmare brought to life

life's always full of miserable...
we planned and still we got nothing we really want
to be responsible to our lives, we live for a better tomorrow, to witness the world to treat us fair

my heart bleeds
ever since the first scar that has been torn
treating someone from heart, lead that someone to leave
had i really done wrong in my life?

who knows
time will just prove everything
right or wrong, it just tell me i'm not the one who should regret for unhappy past

to be fair
how many people around the world really be responsible to their world
how many people will tell the truth until the end of life

the world is just ugly
just because these peoples choose to live in their ugly world
they torn the world apart
they just prove on how a poor quality on their personality

i never hate someone until they make me hate them
it's not my intention to hate them
it's their low behavior to their own life makes me hate them

does life has to be like fireworks that has the brightest moment which last within seconds?
can;t we just stay above the never ending space like the star leading people who are lost in the middle of the ocean?

i admit i'm very tired from heart
which mentally sick
but i will never lay low in my life
i will just prove to this species how what a regretting mistakes they had done in life

you dare you may challenge me
all i know is, my mind will always stay cool as usual me
i never changed, i only go for the best in life
i never do things without hope
and i will never put my life in a result that has no future

you tear the world apart
your life will be torn by the world
for the ugly world of your cause

even if i bleed
my blood shall never meet the end
i have a true heart in my life, that's what i never give up

life, movie reviews...

2010-08-06T20:23:00.002+08:00

movie reviews, like i used to do

twilight saga : eclipse

this movie that makes the teen girls crazy, the movie that even beat avatar(if not mistaken)
what's so special bout this movie anyway?
long time ago, i watched the movie that i never imagine i can juz sit there n watch
reason? juz to find out what's girls' thinking -.-
i watched, the 1st twilight -.-
special thing i found inside
the guy, so called edward, look sooooo make up by many bottles of lotions (i'll tell u reason why later)
the gal, so unbelievable, not that pretty -.-, maybe that's the reason girls watched, they think they look better than BELLA
a movie only the coolest part is when the vampires play baseball
the movie is juz lame that makes me sleepy

new moon: i din watch so no review

eclipse:
i watched this, tot i could make someone happy, yet it bcome the last movie we dated
i almost fell asleep in this movie
inside, the gal, again, get much "not that pretty"
the movie, camera shooting skill like the 80s when bruce lee started perform in front of camera
the movie teach us bad thing, misleading info that ruin the meaning of original LOVE

why? the movie show how american love 3p i guess,
a gal in love between 2 guy, somemore immortals -.-
the gal juz couldn;t pick who;'s the most suitable
the gal did the only right thing, love someone from heart even if they r monsters
the gal tried to keep the pet dog so she kill another immortal

tell me, if your love one do like what BELLA did, how many of u going to giv up life o choose to go mental hospital? i guess the movie cause more disaster
ruined the meaning of love

fine, i'll go to another movie
this is how twilight should b... a truly better movie
ladies n gentlemen, let me present u

a nicely filmed movie, entertaining than the boring movie
creative than the original lame storyline

this is a movie, someone special(used to b) accompanied me

a good movie, that the story never ends, a good movie that reminds many of us, how childhood is, feeling even juz from toys, that show appreciations, quite touching

since i'm back to freedom as b4, a single life that time is not a wasted excuse for me
a change for my decision, watching every movie i wan, while i can

a movie that tell, how dream can change a ppl's mind

if only everyone know, where they r from, in the dreams
a good movie, almost spoiled the mood by a friend who told me it isn;t nice
luckily i concentrate enough else i'll end up like some ppl who watch the 2nd o 3rd times

then, another animated movie
a cool movie from a trailer

after watching it, feel like, juz a show for kids -.-

prevously
i watched this cool movie

movie that comes out from the steps of harry potter
guess more n more r coming out, a guy wif magical power, tell how ppl can dream to hav magic

last nite
i watched this
not for angelina jolie

overall, a movie telling u, beliv in your right, better than beliv in others
to fool the world but never lie to your heart

a good movie can always b watch again n again
it';s like memory, it's everything that keep in yr heart as souvenir
whether who u;re watching wif, friends, family, love one
good movie r always worth to watch the second time

life is not a decision making game, but the value a life should hav
emotion is always the greatest enemy
but the greatest enemy makes u stronger as well as patient

looking for more movies, juz bcoz my life's like a movie
the movie i move my steps

aug pic for haha purpose

2010-08-06T19:52:00.014+08:00

'it;s been a while since i last post these image
well i guess i spent lots of time juz to collect all of them to present them here

lol, if u know what that means

a fish back from surgery after watch salt, wanan hav lip like angelina jolie

a good way to boost the sales on watermelon

master of all photographing skill~ even a bird can't distract

awas = danger, sawa = regnad(they expect the word can turn when viewing from mirror)

good bmw advertisement when no one can handle it

what do u react if u happen to sit in such car?

how bout somemore? when a ride provide washroom publicly

WARNING: following contents may b harmful, especially for muslim friends
read at your own risk

i beliv many muslim has cat as their pet rather than they fated not to hav any dogs
what if the muslim pet love something alcoholic?

i guess these "friends" hardly giv a change

jackie chan can drive this way but not everyone can follow

when ur heart is gone, it juz look so bad which i remembered u as, the headache killar

a imitation of panda bear that MAYBE everyone can afford

it juz so cute

i guess this is done by hardcore friends from winnie the pooh

i wonder what happen if they happen to bcome more furious from the ORIGINAL skil

i guess this is a rejected imitation panda

this one's cute

hmm, mini panda?

now fish learn to smoke, smoke r everywhere

speechless -.-

6wheel car, normally featured on big truck o lorry

i'm speechless wif this also =.=

the direction is juz misleading

a great pic took within second i guess

a cooler? o a turbo?

this is the 1st time i think kancil is made for

i wonder if today audi really announce to hav such car

tesla tower, feature in famous game, red alert

her hair bcome fish? o izzit....

a good place to hide yr car other than car parks

another speechless pic

look more like a smile on a mask

local words -.-

mutant coconut

let's end wif a smile

when crisis strike like a friend

2010-08-06T19:35:00.002+08:00

i beliv many ppl heard of this song

well
true trouble visits like a friend
no matter how much u solve to enjoy the peaceful days
i guess that's what make like more interesting

a friend, recently faced a crisis on relationship

one day, he suddenly told me, his gf n secret gf bcomes friends in FB
the funny thing is, i laughed at him for his rolling stone act
his mind almost get crazy i guess
for a man, when face such situation, sure get panic n what

well, he said both the secret gf din add the gal
but his gf stil act cool n treat him good everyday
i told him if i were him, the normal the way a gf is if they knew everything, the more dangerous as if u're putting yr head in a lion's hungry mouth
he was scared that time i guess
what if he lost someone important in his life?
i did wish him luck

after a while
probably when i visit this friend
he told me, they did get well together
i was surprised for this happy happy couple, but how?
he juz told me, he juz dump the secret gf
his gf, maybe knows something's wrong
i guess many couple will ended this point for lost of loyalty
but his gf, a big view person, forgiv him
of coz i'm happy for this friend
envy them, a guy who was playful, been forgiv by a gal who appreciate everything

when i look back, i wasn;t so lucky for the very latest relationship
guess there's no need to mention since its no longer important
juz the lost of my relationship din cause more heart breaking moment around but more appreciation between couple
for my friends, whoever in love o not, appreciate someone who appear in your life
don ever do stupid thing to test how strong someone can love you
the result is never a best answer u're looking for...
love someone, appreciate from heart, not wif a narrow view, unless u can never see a bright sun above the sky, far far away...

Curse of the bleeding rose

2010-08-01T09:04:00.007+08:00

from the beginning, to say in an irresponsible way, we’re never suitable, her angel appearance made me to give a try on matching…

it’s hard to believe, or rather should I say, it’s hard to accept, when someone you loved, ask you to break with her, let love die in your own hand instead of your love’s one...
someone you love, tells you she decide when to break when you're in love with her...

I never want to believe, the day she wanted to break up, using better words, to return as friends…
The whole week god may had tear at the same time, while my heart is bleeding…

Her decision made both of us hurt very very much…
Expressing my feelings and sadness here, I hurt her and she cried…
That’s why I choose to let the posts disappear just to stop her tears…
I’m the only one to be blamed because I’m the one who wrote everything

I always hope she’ll regret for her decision she made
Grabbing little hopes, always wanted to started a new relationship with her
Breaking my rules, for things I’ll never do for a girl as promise to my own principle,,,

When I asked her to stop crying, apologize for my fault on the posts…
She said there are always things that we both can solve together…

I’m sorry I dig the past out…
All I was doing was to avoid any regret in the rest of my life…
At least I should be happy for her, she’s still living in her own life
Unlike my past friend, who never had a chance to make any decision to stay…

I’m not born to hurt anyone in this world…
I guess today is the pay back from the past…
For words never made her understand me more…

her decision to break, she said she ever think about me, but without reason only her satisfaction...

From the beginning, I was never perfect for her…
Not in age, personality, background, mind set, dreams and everything…
Even our love is different, I choose to love someone with everything it got to takes to stay with her the rest of my life…

For her, I guess everything for her depends on her emotion…
Her emotion result our relationship, like fireworks
Fireworks that bright the sky beautifully, but it never last long…
Ended with smokes, and disappeared…
We had loved each others very much, it just ended too fast…

For her happiness, I should respect her decisions…
I may be the foolish person in this world, knew I’ll never succeed from grabbing more hopes on her, I knew I would end up with more disappointments…

The love she had on made me do so…
When think of her smile, it’s just like generating luck to my life…

I won’t regret doing all this, at least I know, there’s always things impossible…
At least I knew, I appreciate the happy memory with her love…
whether everything worth or not, i guess this question is more important to her

she may be over protected by her surrounding, or danger hardly come to her...
she never had my complicated steps in life, or never know how ugly the world is...
trying to make life simple, live my life with a smile, i was told childish all because i solve things in simple ways, just because i ever solve more complicated stuff she never knew...
for me, i create future with my future, while she creates future from the past...

I’m always the same person, I’m cleared with my mind set since long time ago…
Decision I’ve made, rarely made me regret for what I did…

Things I told, rarely a lie, but may become a joke to my own life…
Everything I ever said to you, words I’d been repeating, are true…

That night, I dropped my tears in front of her…
I guess my tears are meaningless, that lead to an end for our love…
even i told her i knew my ex married, she said i still let go my very 1st relationship...

i’ll never find another lover sweeter than you, precious than you…
Thanks for the song, a good listening song that curse my life to your love very much…

loving someone who wont gives any promise on your love, it's like a time bomb...
loving her from heart and she tells you she hope to find someone who love her more...
Dreams may have taken control on my decisions, I guess this is the reality after the blind love…
Having all happiness in dreams, wake up losing everything in reality as nightmares…

its been a long time, had drinks that made my mind blank, let time forwards quickly while body was drunk...
heart bleeds with sadness...
sadness of love i believe in, never make love last for so called forever...

of which, her emotion is stronger than the love i had on her
i'm selfish i wrote all this, that i shouldn;'t deserve the chance to express my down life
she's right for her decision made
i'm blamed because everything i do made her step backward...

good bye, a forever friend...

2010-07-27T18:39:00.002+08:00

a friend, used to b my classmate when we were in secondary school

she used to teased me when i was kinda short that time
a cheerful gal that always smile n makes many ppl's school life a lot happier

she's someone i chased for 3 yrs, yes i failed to win her heart coz i'm never good enough for her as i'm always shy

i remember the time i was wif my 1st love
she accompanied me go n buy a diamond necklace

when my 1st love broke wif me
she even ask me to fly over to find her which she's willing to pay for me

i appreciate for what she did

i guess u would hav scold me stupid if u knew i juz destroyed my relationship
but thanx for being part of the memory in my study life

i paid my respect for her from tears
remember her as a friend as always
rest in peace my friend

life's short, i'll appreciate every moment i hav, so good bye...

the rose bleed before the world's goodbye

2010-07-26T21:20:00.003+08:00

i thank for friends who care bout between me and her
but my wrong decision on posting here ruin her life, together the chance i should hav

life's full of miserable...
i gav my last shot of words from heart
hurting someone badly
end up disappointment i knew
maybe life;s never deserve for a second chance for a change

emotional is always the greatest enemy than logic
my mind bcome sensitive and runs crazy bcoz the the love i had on her
life well, the greatest revenge... the word 1st came out from the battlefield...

tears i dropped never made a chance but lead to today;s end
i appreciate the moment with her, now i only can keep every memory in a fool's dreams
fading by time

all i did
was to prove how strong a love was
but love was too weak that cause the rose rotten
i tried juz to avoid more regret n disappointment i'll hav in the rest of my life
at least i've told everything
trying to revive the dying rose from rotten
but everything is impossible
when one's heart is no longer at the same place

her decision to break caused my stupid mistake
i tot i could lie myself in the disappeared posts to forget her
i deserved, for the wrong decision i can;t control like cold blooded mind i used to hav

i'll never blame her
i'll only blame for my past which my words never made her mind understand me more

i'll never find another lover, sweeter than u, precious than u...
it will always stay there like a song

i'm back to the same old spot
wif the lost of meaning of life i always never wanted to return for

i'm sorry to my friends, family...
i never post the pics i had wif her sweet smiles...
my phone broke down in just the perfect moment...
this is fate that fades everything after time being i guess...

life stil has to goes on
no matter how terrible a thing has ended
i'll never escape, bcoz i wont giv up on facing it...

today's dreams of holding hands together
tomorrow's nightmare of her left
somehow, this is the same old nightmare that always reminds me

whether a decision worth o not, i always hav a better answers...
for things i beliv from heart, a true love wont break even if the world ends...

爱之曲

2010-07-20T19:15:00.004+08:00

爱你，不是因为你的美而已。。。

看着时间别再让它流浪。。。
有爱就有恨，或多或少。。。
想爱就别怕伤痛。。。

找一个最爱的，深爱的，相爱的，亲爱的人来告别单身。。。

太多太多的激情，闯进尘封已久的境地，让我们失去选择的余地。。。
拥抱着时刻，这一分一秒全都停止。。。
在屋顶唱着你的歌，在屋顶和我爱的人。。。
就这样被你征服，却断了所有退路。。。
forever love, 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你。。。

我失去过，更珍惜拥有。。。

爱，我却不能够给你我全部，我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的。。。
尽管我细心灌溉，你说不爱就不爱。。。
我的肩膀，没有力量，肩起你建筑的美丽假象。。。
爱只剩下无奈，我一直不愿再去猜。。。
你要离开，我知道很简单。。。

是不是拥有以后就会开始要失去。。。
如果这就是爱，在转身就该留下来。。。
看你头也不回地走掉，心里向火烧。。。
我用背叛自己，完成你的期盼。。。

有一种爱叫作放手，为爱放弃天长地久。。。
转身离开，分手说不出来。。。
终于看开爱回不来，而你总是太晚明白。。。
精灵们冷冷目光，让我们坠落找彼此的脚下。。。
原来你，什么都不想要。。。
我们的爱，过了就不再回来，直到现在我还默默地等待。。。

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲，变成两部悲伤的电影。。。

结束无奈，承认失败。。。

是你决定我的伤心。。。
不是转身就能忘。。。
忘记你我做不到。。。
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖，只是一切，结束太快。。。

i will never find another lover, sweeter than you
all my life, i prayed for someone like you, and all thank god that i've finally found you...

how do i live without you?

this life is difficult but it's a real deal...

把回忆扛在肩膀，我贴上要小心轻放。。。
突然好想你，你会在哪里，过得快乐或委屈。。。
想念诗会呼吸的痛。。。
就请你给我多一点时间多一点温柔，不要一切都带走。。。
我想念你的笑，想念你的怀抱，想念你温柔的样子，和你身上的味道。。。
少了我的手背当枕头你习不习惯？

should hav post these pics in june -.-

2010-07-04T21:40:00.004+08:00

it's been a while since i last post here
don worry i'm alive n i'm still able to write here

a new product instead of WARM dispenser

new scenery of glow in dark river

a reason u shouldn;t drink sugar cane brought by unknown sources

terrible traffic light position that may only allows a kancil to pass

this is what happen when weather too hot (maybe)

new category, CHILDDREN

this is what will happen if yr brake jam o forgot to release of handbrake

fuel economy benz

korean cars r new horny targets

a creative name

love of the coconut tree

the best home friendly security guard, protect u from monster as well

a dream school bus

polis help polis

this would b a perfect wedding ride

speechless -.-

a way to live is like a way to die

2010-05-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

when u read the topic
u may think i'm crazy writting so
seriously in life, every step bring u close to death
that's why there's a song called "live like we're dying"
a meaningful song, asking everyone to appreciate life

for me, when u're suffering
living has no different from dying
or even a solution to die do benefit the world in the end
some said doom day coming, what should i do?
i answered, we'll decide when it really happens

is really doom day coming? who knows, maybe it's a judgment day from the order of god

everyone do face their problems
troubles do visit like friend, o even a close friend
things u never know do happen in the end
world do change every moment, probably a good supporting is their sunrise and sun set

when there's no hope, i will look for a new hope, hoping the old hope do comes back
when luck turns bad, juz find another luck that will leads u better

when having family problem, juz avoid it b4 things get ugly
argue with family do not earn in the end of the say
the one who understand earns the most in the end
why? ppl who argue is always short sighted
so called ppl who destroy the world rather than maintain it

when plan a fails, go for plan b o come out with new plan c
what to do? life's always up and down, a rolling stone
the faster o the further it goes, the more problems visit

even if u hate your life, appreciate everyone moment as a gift
when u feel that's enough, juz end it, save the resource for the others waiting for doom day

change what is changeable, accept what is unchangeable
life's tough that makes anyone feel stress,tired and pressure

we do not blame anyone for it
like it then you thank this world
hate it then juz leave this world b4 u suffer more

i admit somehow i do hate what life had lead to
o rather it's the order from fate
but i scare of losing this dream
even if no one can promise for their tomorrow
die silently, everything end
ppl who hav their life on, will frustrated on how to take all your legacy u left to this world
that's why ppl do say suicide is a irresponsible action

when there's dream
juz go for it b4 everything too late
giv up only when you die else DONT

movies' reviews may 2010

2010-05-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

recently being run out of idea i guess
n i was surprised that i din update my blog for the previous whole month
and OMG, i'm surprised time pass that fast

recently i went hong kong and macau, last month
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=409503&id=817180117

that's the link to the picture album i took during vacation
too many pics to share here i can say

b4 i went hong kong,

i watched How to Train your Dragon in 3D
the 3D effect is surprisingly amazing
the movie gives message of hope
such as u get to see how the injured dragon got to fly again
it;s kinda touching
the only disappointment for me is how can the main character lose his leg, it juz tell us how reality is.
overall a worth watching movie, glad i watched it in 3D

DayBreakers
a movie taken by the Australians, featuring from the hot trend of Vampire story
Yes, vampire, cold blood skin that farm n feed wif human blood
it's a pretty cool movie, telling how a vampire world can b
which type of blood they choose to hav wif their meals, pure human blood drinks, o even having "day vision" in their vehicles
the way some "savior" suggest the vampire to return as human, is a good reflection on a hot topic nowadays, asking human to become vegetarian and same mother nature earth
the only think i don like bout this movie, tremble(so called high frequency sharp sound) is kinda high that may cause yr ears sensitive wif this kinda effect

Ice Kacang Puppy Love
a movie directed by "ah niu", story edited from his first love, he even scarify to fund for the movie using his house as security
the movie has good story line, featuring malaysia 1980s life style, even can b a good movie for reference as malaysian;s cultural
from the title, i tot puppy love is for unserious love isn;t it? y don he named it first love o sth?
the movie does hav good movie shooting skill and background music
hopefully it's a good start from this new director
a worthy watching movie, characters that may reflect peoples around u

Iron Man 2
some called it AYAM man(west malaysia case)
some even edit it in IP Man 2 ;s poster which made a good LOL material
a long waiting movie, tho i may hav watch it later than anyone, it's still a worth watching movie
ppl do complain the storyline, the villains being too weak o even iron man only appeared 4times in the movie
for me, those r still acceptable, i like the funny parts inside, especially when the audi R8 was used as a suprising "transport"
there's a scene was missing if u all hav watched from the trailer, which pott(the female main character) kissed iron man's helmet n drop it from the sky, my guess is, probably iron man can;t navigate himself without the helmet's head up display.
a worth watching movie, for actions, mecha and funny parts that bright up your day

had an exciting weekend
hopefully tomorrow is always a better day

march~~~~~~~~~

2010-03-29T22:57:00.022+08:00

it's been a while since my previous post
similar post that i'm sharing pictures with my friends around

a skyline???? -.-

a burnt ferrari F430 -.-

don ever think to mess wif this car if u see what's on the plate

guess no one dares to bear the responsibily as it is a big offence -.-

weird looking car

a 10 wheels hummer?!

legendary ford GT40

no idea what car is this, looks sporty tho

a way to cure h1n1 huh?

a wrong use of company sigh -.-

Boss?!

the lamps looks familar huh?

the fish that tatoo wif numbers -.-

n another set of lamps that looks familar -.-

matt black vios, looks good

a new way to use wasted fire extinguisher

full of those signs gonna block yr eyes from driving -.-

bware of ppl wif JAWS~ -.-

sweet rides

spider man's parking o lizard? -.-

this looks terrible, can;t image if the passanger was inside

economic bath tub -.-

a cafe that serve with car lubricants? -.-

one of the longest plate around

wrong use of company name? -.-

terrible crash til upside-down -.-

dumb way in contruction -.-

another wrong usage of shop sigh

the head use a bicycle huh?

dog vampire??? o cat under the dog skin

tallest GT wing for myvi, reminds me of raymond

professional MOVER

the car seems like challenging the wood that stop the brick wall from falling

the bike looks like animal in zoo's cage

a new way to solve yr thrist? -.-

guess this does not attract malay customers -.-

guess the word is too big for the driver to spot

the chain cause the bump? o the car got chained after it was bumped -.-

the trailer's "neck" broke? -.-

a good parking skill hmm...

pity the austin's paint -.-

another professional MOVER

airasia's burger? -.-

the road was measured properly coz the car was there? -.-

hope all of you enjoy life

i'll b in hong kong from 3/30 til 4/4
go and hunting around~

juz to share around

2010-02-22T23:40:00.009+08:00

well i guess i happen to receive more pics from the same "supplier" luckily and to share around

hmm, can;t remember what is this for since my BM isn;t strong at all -.-

watch out for worthless watermelons

this car look fast, o rather eco friendly

the cab must hav failed to stuns -.-

a good idea of watch yr projector's display

i tot it should b bas sekolah :P

one of the reason y malaysia hav frequent accidents

does the time meets the requirement of 24hrs? -.-

way to post office?

this one i like it :P

ppl do get lost if we hav more of these road signs -.-

hm, what does this means -.-

funny tailor? lol

heaven is actually a close step above -.-

another reason that cause accidents frequently -.-

SAGA parking challenge? looks like it happen in sarawak

Wedding repairing huh :P ?

hmm, interesting parking skill

young coffee that using goat's milk?

the police car that got clamped -.-

this is real hardcore weight reduction car -.-

this car must b trying to climb over for a instant U turn

happy CNY, the lion dance perform on a bicycle -.-

an amazing house that has a plan on it

rare incident i can say since this hardly happen also -.-

polis o POILS!?

how i wish this is the way to present my love~

bus skeleton on road -.-

is this guy horny for the bmw :P ??
(actually it's the engine being kinda big -.-)

r they holding each others' hands o sharing cigarette -.-

tourism? hmm

juz some boring ppl =.=

polis parking at orang cacat place -.-

fancy name -.-

this pic make ppl misunderstand -.-

this lorry looks tired n laid on the ground -.-

Fireballs: The Best Possible Outcome When Straight-Piping A Lambo

2010-02-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

This is what Lamborghinis are supposed to be — flame-snorting, ridiculous, bombastic, outrageous machines worthy of the charging bull on the badge — machines that should be feared as much as respected. In fact, there's something very wrong about a Lamborghini not consumed with a desire to maim or incinerate its operator.

Click Next to learn more about this bumper-melting beast.

This work is the creation of Fluid MotorUnion, who designed a completely new straight-pipe exhaust system using computational fluid dynamics to optimize for back pressure, flow and system weight and then manufactured it in stainless steel.

At full chat, the dual tips will belch fireballs due to an unexpected quirk in the flow profile. They emerge with such explosive force as to produce a shockwave. Sweet.

The stainless steel system develops an additional 30 HP over stock 25 lb-ft of additional torque. Those numbers are great, but shooting fire is totally worth the undoubtedly high price of entry.

Since the car will live in the real world the system is fitted with vacuum and servo actuated valves from Hyperflow which mute the wild wail of the unrestricted F1 sound coming from the Lambo's V10. Here you can see the entire exhaust system with temporary vacuum lines running to the valves. At the flick of a switch or under agressive tip-in those valves open back up and attempt to set the world on fire. One please.

source:
http://jalopnik.com/5473181/fireballs-the-best-possible-outcome-when-straight+piping-a-lambo

note: all copy and pasted juz to share around :P

some jokes continue from a friend

2010-02-17T23:10:00.004+08:00

i hope you all like what i posted recently for the pictures
i hav few more to share here

if i hav a chance to build a car service workshop around, probably i'll build this creative thingy

i'm sure most of yoy heard of durian o other fruits grow inside the fruit itself, but then fruits in fruit?

a creative way to serve yr friends o relatives during cny

starbucks?

a mobile toilet that available for ladies only -.-

watch out for this kinda shop as there must b something wrong :P

a brave guy wo park his car this way

i din know this thing has halal o non halal different, non halal can save fire better o what?

the smallest roundabout found in sabah?

a creative way to avoid boring ppl -.-

does a roof top need water spray? -.-

i'm trying to figure how this guy part the car this way

that car looks familiar in kuching -.-

this lady must b hardcore driving til the kid stick to the front screen -.-

credit to mivec foo