Dedication

Interests of an old life :)

2014-07-24T23:20:00.001+05:30

What you cant see and feel it is Air, what you can see but but it has no color its water, what you think but cant express is called feeling, what you do always but without knowing the reason is "Bakkar", what you expect and the level of expectation keeps increasing , its called dream, what you stick to whole life without a reason is called faith. All the above questions can have one single answer, you might know that :P

Well I was thinking of the beautiful work culture of software industry having 2 days of holiday a week and a very good city life and so on.. Still sometimes the fun of scolding the superiors and sometimes showing lot of unreliable interest to work, sometimes forcibly appreciating some crappy work are really part of it. although they are not directly related to fun but yes you will always try to accommodate the fun inside that because you would be forgetting what was actual fun! May it be serious teasing of your roommate, may it be mimicry of a professor, may it be post match counter-strike-nth-umpire-analysis, may it be connecting some so called beautiful girls name to somebody and keep vomiting those throughout the night . As if those days are really outdated even if we are still young :P are we! the individual lives are becoming a bargain or a settlement which place we can lessen our problem and that really we call now "Fun". May it be a cafeteria-tea, may it be a roaming around a building, may it be a compressed team lunch( suddenly for the first time though everybody will remember what work they will do while eating :D),or may it be a informal unfamiliar language meeting.. In every aspect of these situations you are bound to find some funny rituals to make yourself happy for some amount of time. A stretched period of happiness is somehow missing and we are blaming others for making our life work on a Modi-type-routine.

Suddenly i saw some beautiful things around which i was not taking a look. I thought of finding newness inside an old surrounding, looking same things differently. Though the thought is somewhat fuzzy, but it can be done coming out of your own lovingly comfort-zone, which has become a sticky note posted by your manager everyday. I see hope and i see pleasure i see attraction i see the other part of the life. More or less life may not be funny but yes it looks tasty and interesting.

Politics is Related to Personal Growth!

2014-05-24T12:03:00.001+05:30

In the morning when i woke up i opened facebook,, its quite normal for most of the people in this current time. I was watching the speech of Mr APJ Abdul Kalam when he was addressing the European Union , he explained more on mutual peace and harmony and developing individual character rather than economy,growth and environments. Still everybody who was present in that grand gathering clapped and appreciated saying they had just got the "Best Speech ever". I was thinking why is that. Is a normal person in this messy world becoming so much away from personal growth in terms of sincerity, discipline,social consciousness. If we introspect it very closely it is very much true,Now a days when a child is born, parents start thinking about which school to take them in so that the competitive nature of the child will grow to cope up with the hustling world. The child will grow with tremendous IQ and will get settled easily in a very renowned place. Some how we miss the personal development skills like how to interact with people and relatives, how to behave with the elders,how to face emotional challenges, how to grab absolute enlightenment of bliss out of the busy world. These things really sounds odd to practice everyday, but every human being is after this absolute satisfaction but do not really make out what he wants. Various problems of this current time like corruption in every stage, war among countries , the newly emerging naxalite strength is nothing but are the results of misled destiny of the individuals. I feel Each and every problem has a solution which is closely bound with every individual. It is the personal spiritual growth of each and every individual to stay together and finding happiness in others growth which in turn will be converted to harmony in the society and hence peace will prevail over war.

I have been following Dr Subramanyamswami, I seriously feel his political opinion about any other party like congress and AAP is absolute crap, but yes i again respect his view over re-boosting our broken economy of the country and religious views over Hindutwa. Though i was not a big supporter of non-secularism, But seeing the difference between the approach of a random Hindu spiritual leader on love,peace and prosperity and religion and the approach of a random Islam leader to address the JIHADIs, I feel better future with the tolerant nature of the Hindu culture. If we take the political environment of the country in to account, Mr Narendra Modi, who once used to be a RSS Volunteer seems to have better knowledge of the spirituality than the earlier ones. That is one of the key reason why people appreciate his personality more! There I feel if a person is developed as a leader from spiritual background there is a high probability of consideration of peace and harmony if we take the foreign affairs into consideration. Seeing at the abundant amount of budget for the military for our country, we really lack considerable amount of budget for the development in other areas( again the corruption money is not taken into account here). If India will have better relationship with the neighboring countries, hope it will surely have a direct and positive impact on the economy and tourism of our country. Well its just a view from a citizen of India :)

Need of Spirituality in the Current Society

2013-10-27T02:02:00.001+05:30

When i read daily news paper everyday we found the similar things like a new corruption issue or one continuation of some Scandal or some rape victim's interview or some criticism-article of one leader on the similar Scandal or Price-rise issue. These issues have become so familiar to the modern public that people started adopting these as very normal and robustly acceptable. The mentality of this kind of unacceptable acceptance of the descendants of those Aryas who used to live only on values, is really pathetic. But the utter ultimate strangeness comes when we still know these things are wrong and unsocial but still we keep on watching it without trying to obstruct these unsocial and unpolitical behavior by any means. I had a deep thought on this topic and tried to figure out what made us so motionless and inactive and passive to these issues? is this the missing spirituality in our mind ? or just a habit of seeing wrong deeds ? or some other?

I found the answer is missing spirituality among the people.Spirituality is the most subtle dimensions of our awareness, where we sense ourselves belonging beyond our ego image to a larger, more valuable horizon of the reality that impinges on all we are and do. Yes, as a human being we still feel we are in a certain amount of progress all the time, for which we call this nation as a developing nation.But are we aware of the exact trajectory of the competitive development we are going through. I guess in most cases the answer is "No". We are sitting on a racing train which does not know whom to chase and where to overtake. How can we be ensure that we are progressing. Progress is a very fuzzy idea which most of the politician and leaders talk about on everyday basis. Their talk is based upon economical development, educational system change, urban development,sanitation, transportation and blah blah. But no body talks about after so many talks, so many plans and hopefully so many implementations still we are "A Developing Country" but not a "Developed one". Until when we keep on saying this,is there any target? is there any specific target we are following? and what is the reason we are not getting the required pace, what is the friction that is making the progress very much tired and restless. I remember the very familiar "Snail problem" in mathematics, if a snail goes up 3 meters a day and comes down "X" meters in the night when it will reach the top. In our case we are unable to find out the "X", is it less than 3 or more than it. The answer to our tired progress lies in the value of "X". In our case X is nothing but the function of (overwhelming corruption,rapid reduction of trust among political parties ,compromise of values and unawareness of the society and most importantly passiveness of the society to the above problems due to lack of enough spirituality).

Why i am stressing on spirituality? The reason is this society knows what is right and what is wrong, who is corrupt and who is not. but does not try to stop is unless some push.The moral values is so much low that it seems it will become starvation of salvation. Until and unless the society is raised to a higher level of moral values ,higher level of spiritual maturity,higher level of humanity people wont understand the legacy of their political right and they wont fight for it. So the real flaw of the system lies in the "lack of awareness and lack of a push to fight" which is achievable by a mass spiritual development. It might sound odd to achieve but not impossible by any means.

A midnight dream!

2013-09-16T17:40:00.003+05:30

Alone we cry for no reason,
pat on my back or throw me off the cliff,
Pull my hair or slap on my face
have some time.. but to explain in brief

Say in the silence, act with a blink
Do not close the eyes, until i something do ink

Neither do i leave , nor you will sleep
i am not the onion!can't see you weep

trying to write the midnight dream
pondering goes on, shit i finished a ream..

Hands are tired and mind is blocked,
allow me in the space and leave the door unlocked

waiting since morning, will wait till night.
this used to be useless, not is it wrong, but is not the right!

Watch the TV Series....

2013-09-14T23:56:00.002+05:30

In the last two month i have watched and followed a lot many variety of English TV series not because of keen interest but because of need. Some of them are a specific idea centric , some of them are a character centric and some of them are just for fun. But with all due respect the related episodes have one thing in common, and its the shuffling of relationships in a continuous manner. Some has this occurrence in a single blow and some has this idea in a very residual manner. The very idea is not to summarize the seasons i saw but to focus on the very fact how the series places itself to a position which becomes an addiction to the followers. Actually this addiction which is nothing but an wastage/utilization of time made me think over this idea very keenly.

In a character-centric series people expect the involvement of the character with a relationship more than required. And what happens is the relationship break or vanishes due to multiple reasons and actions and here the Story becomes nothing but the drag and drop of various scenarios which supports the up and down of that relationship. In an idea centric series what i saw the idea of the team and the opinion of the team members play a very crucial role for the run and success of the series. Because in general the flow of the series always depends not much on the idea but on the conflict of opinions , race for position and sometimes building and breaking of relations. Not to say here, its very difficult to judge unless and until you see a lot of series in a row :)

But I am totally confused on the idea of the relationships in Hindi series and the English ones. Interestingly in general hindi series always keeps the important idea of making up the relationships of the Hero. But in the other way around the same thing matters to a very less extent - as in the central character can sleep with any number of girls even he is married or in a relationship. But it is not even little awkward for the spectators. Not because they are used to this idea but because this generation starts accepting the flow which they see in the western culture. I never denied they do not appreciate the great indian culture but the difference is between the ideology and the fact! Which means respect the book but follow the trends. The bridge between the theoretical thought and the practical deeds is yet missing. Its not a mistake, but a fact that everybody has accepted to keep them with.

Greatest things do not come So Simply..

2013-05-20T23:02:00.006+05:30

There is a saying when you are happy you listen to the music and when you are serious you actually make an ample effort to understand the lyrics, a precious creation of the poet. One day I was a little bit high and i listen to the famous creation of Pink Floyd " Coming back to life.. ". I could not believe how wonderful the creation was, how unique the thought of the composer and how realistic the music is when it comes inside. May be it wont happen for all for all situations for all time.. it is not at all expected. but yes the synchronization of his bits and the music tells the level of highness of the piece.

I started thinking at what point of time this unique creation may happen. Might be in deep sorrow, might be while chasing an unconventional dream, might be while feeling the loneliness while being together with someone, might be while emphasizing on the past that was never truthful, might be while drinking to avoid the fact of an unfinished journey, might be while feeling quite disabled even if your organs are fine.. might be while smoking a piece of cigarette on the balcony imagining the failure of the flights to chase a bird.

Human nature is to think almost all possibilities of an outcome from all possible reasons and i am making a small effort to analyze the same.So many fantastic possibilities, so many uncomfortable situations..so many undesirable thoughts.. so many unwanted crazy times.. but one fine creation that makes the world feel great. Is the peace is the result of so many sacrifice, is the satisfaction a result of an fake encounter of some valuable past time, is the ecstasy the implication of dumping the old and appreciating the present. The idea is not to make puzzle of the poem, but to analyse the state of mind of the creater. :)

such Graceful..

2013-05-14T13:54:00.004+05:30

Here opens an unconscious library... to start with a random wizard... random Questions and random Answers.. unexpected explanations and unproven arguments.. unimplemented facts and blissful lies.. speaking turns to listening and to fro. All happens just to enrich the graceful moments to an extent that teaches you to walk in air and never look down. the storm seems like a breeze, summer becomes autumn, water becomes irrelevant.. noise becomes music and you started loving Metallica when you used to close the doors when it was playing. Illusions makes you create a mystery.. some precious times makes you a poet.. some moments of joy makes your unwanted dreams very admirable. denial becomes insistence..your bike driving turns into a healthy-unending walk..a walk to remember! you bath with a handful of strawberry crush and you look obvious pinkish.. you heal each other.. you restore the grace.. you find grains to harvest your upcoming.. you prevail the rest and you advise the needy.. you gain confidence you deliver the quality. And the most importantly you start smiling every moments without reason without any external force. you feel you are generating a lot of pleasure and you are under photosynthesis... you have all reasons to live to like to love and to fly.. you become an embrace of ideas- an acceptor of words and advices..

And hopefully not.. a small twist and all boomed..

A Lesson from my dream

2013-03-16T18:25:00.001+05:30

After a very long time i had an afternoon nap today and came across a very dangerous and fearful dream and i was so much frightened with it i roared literally in my room. Three pink dressed girls killing me inside the lift very brutally on the first floor of my building. Think of the state of mind i had at that moment. And it is not usual that i have this kind of dreams very often. Again I have a very deep thought on how and why this happened with me suddenly with me. I don't want to describe the scenes of my dream but i can share what i need to do to avoid these situation. What I will write now may not be quite logical, but from some point of view I have experienced these. Everybody in the world has experienced the similar feeling at any point of time. And normally we ignore or let it go as we can not waste a ample amount of time on a thing that has a quite less chance of existence.

Here is the idea..

Each and every human being has two types of feeling. In one way they are "Confidence, love, inner strength, ecstasy, belief"- which shows a big amount of positive powers in it. And some times we have some paralyzing states like "Confusion, depression, fear, sadness, anxiety and frustration" which in a way lead us to a powerless state. And every day to day life we interact with the physical world in various ways to face these very obvious emotions and we react subsequently to these, either actively or passively. And automatically the reaction becomes your behavior. And in a long run the similar regular behavior becomes your attitude and nature for the 3rd person and perception for yourself. In simple language your own thought-feel-reaction becomes your own nature and perception. An example : You have anxiety in office for a very long period of time, then you become upset and inactive in your mindset for even longer period of time.. and that feeling defines your characteristic to the rest of the world.

what i feel we need to change..

We will go to that point from where the emotions are really generated.Call it an Originating point or root cause. Most of the time we consider the root cause are some situations, some experience, some interaction , some discussions or some thoughts. I used to believe what i said just now. But for sometime forget these things and what can be the other things which actually affects your emotions and feeling directly? Many physical attributes affect our state of mind as well as our experiences, words, actions and even things like your diet. I believe some way or the other we can have a minor or major control over our mind by controlling such activities as below.

Breathing - Slow deep breathing does a lot of things for our health and delivers oxygen to the brain which ultimately changes the state of our brain.

Facial Expressions - if you are actually sad and you are still trying to smile.. there is a change that you will smile. But without it you will be inside a boredom from where it is difficult to be out. I got this idea from each and every person i met everyday. No offence some people really smile and make others smile and again smile. Ignoring the inner thought of that person we and he smile and we find a time where we become happy which is a positive attitude.

Energy - Whenever we have very higher level of energy level, we internally feel brave and confident. which directly affect your day to day life at the workplace and the other. And Normal energy level is enhanced by daily exercise ,yoga or therapy.I suggest never to ignore it. We always forget our physical body and mind are bound very closely with each other.

Diet - No need to explain the difference between a hungry and full stomach :) And yes good and controlled diet always affects our mind. I have seen people discussing the food so interestingly after a very tasty food.( may be ice-cream, Halwa, ladoo,faluda,Paan etc..)

Body Posture - the way we sit while working, the way we walk to an interview, the way we give a hug, the way we shake our hands, the way we show interest to talk, the way we be involved are always part of the physical postures which directly affects your own state of mind as well as the 3rd person. Keep your head high and put your shoulders back , you can feel what i intend to.

Environment - The surrounding and friend circle always have a great deal of impact on the state of one's mind and activity. So be sure about it, it may lead you to a place where you get heaven and may be to a place from where you cant return and you be in a temple of no doors. So yes environment matters more than we think.

There are a few more points i am still thinking of... will publish in the next one.. :)
keep reading...

Unavoidable Emotions :(

2013-03-12T09:24:00.000+05:30

It was a busy Monday afternoon. I was blessed with a small good news . After a very few moments I shared it to one my very close friends. And off course he becomes happy.. but after sometime he suddenly said "Don't unconditionally fall in love, do not get attached". I was totally shocked at this statement by a person who never had such type of obsession with unusual and undefined relationships. At that point of time my self formulated persuasion and words of assurance was quite obvious and intended to make him feel good. As I knew I could convince neither him nor myself. As a firm thinker i started thinking on this very unavoidable situations that come to our life even if we do not always want to face.

From my deep thinking i found the unconditional love usually happens with the parent-children relationship in a duplex manner.Obviously question can not be raised on the heavenly love our parents have towards us. There is no expectation.. there is no desire.. it is so peaceful. Secondly another instance of this behavior comes when you actually respect a person right from the core of your heart and he/she does not know about it. It is purely on way unconditional love. In this case there is expectation, there is spontaneous followups. But there is not at all any emissive intention. And there comes the rest where there is always conditional love which involves expectations. if these expectations are independent of three criteria like Acceptance, Understanding and Appreciation, we call it worship which is nothing but an example of "the Story of Mira bai". And usually the instance is not frequent but it is so beautiful and holy like the scene of the horizon of the sun-shining. The idea is not to judge the word "Love" but to speculate it on the basis of some real-unavoidable-constraints. Second thought is the attachment towards an undefined relationship. Every human being at some stage of life solely understands the meaning of "attachment" and vows to control it at some point of time. But As I see,for a normal human being it is not at all an easier task to block the emotion inside, but my personal perception is to let it flow naturally until you get something best or something worst.

Patterns of life obstructing your Freedom

2012-12-09T21:35:00.000+05:30

All animals in the world seeks the optimal freedom in their life. Some of them find it while performing their daily motions and some of them keep on trying for it even if they are already bound to an unavoidable pattern which i call coffee-care :) . Well i consider the first scenario occurs with most of the animals who reside not inside a n-storied building, in short they are non-human-animals. They are so much habituated with the same pattern , they never get bored, and they find there freedom and liberation very easily. Tigers keep on killing by chasing the weak, the mosquitos chase human for blood, cats for rats, cocks for insects and so on...So they can go through these patterns infinitely without even being aware of it. It satisfies their need, and never provides boredom.

On the contrary, the social animals always get bored on the pattern that repeat it self. they start suffering while being obsessed with the rotation of that pattern and being unable to come out of it. but what is the cause of this restriction from this liberation! A small cup of tea in the morning creates so much of bondage with an individual that without this it undesirably creates an aching sensation in mind. And the whole day goes in vein unknowingly for the sake of a cup of tea! I will say the simplest way to avoid the situation is to feel the importance of being an human-being and not an animal. This very thought automatically gives you a sense where you will feel the sense to fight with the challenging situation where you fight with your own inclination towards your habit. A small wakefulness in your mind will definitely eradicate your weakness towards the momentary sense of pleasure, a tea. Well, the tea is the smallest example of our weakness, but there are more and more pleasant habits which always needs focus of your own time, to terminate. All these sleeping-seekness is always related either to your sense, your touch, your look, your commitment. These things are very rarely related to a third person. But in a general scenario, we always blame the third-person to be responsible for our disaster. It is not always the answer. As already said, a little sensibility with an individual can always make him pleasant and lead him/her to freedom and liberation from the weakness. We just need to know the barrier between the point where we feel pleasant of the habit and the point we unknowingly fall into an addiction to a habit.

Leisure and Timepas...

2012-11-19T15:05:00.002+05:30

Ques : what do you do for living?
Ans : coding
Ques : what do you do in the evening?
Ans : facebook
Ques : what are you doing in the weekends?
Ans : Bas.. movies, khana, peana aur sona.. :) as simple as that

And Still we are proud as we belong to the group which is properly educated and is expected to change something. We strongly comment on each sensitive issue of this country, the growing corruption, the diminishing democracy, economic growth and many things. But are they really gona change if we keep spending our time with the above manner. The straight answer is NO.

Well the topic is not to improve the nation with changing our life , the idea is : are we spending our leisure or utilizing our leisure? Usually the leisure is always meant to lessen the mind and body and be relax and cool. When you come home, tired and stressed and partially shot by the manager, the last thing you do is think. You want to relax and cut loose. As I have seem from my experience this means three or four normal things.Put your ass in front of an idiot box or make yourself chemically stimulated( I mean ) or think think.. you have no work why to leave office, lets spend some more time there only. And we claim we are good enough to spend Quality time during whatever leisure we have! Really!

We are so much addicted to the digital world that we hardly think there are things beyond it. When we are quite upset we sit still thinking of the same things again and again. The actual reason behind it is we really do not want to explore what else can we perform during that time? That is the reason we either hit the keyboard or hold a bottle or rub the hair.. and nothing. So the ultimate reason of the boredom or the anxiety of the current e-world is the inability to escape from the digital world and ignorance, what to perform in the leisure.

Well, how to solve the problem? I have identified some of the really interesting, rather beneficial timepas work.. :P. Lots of people love eating delicious food, how about making each of them at home and inviting your close friends to have them and having a fruitful time :) In my college time we used to spend lots of time on "Post match discussion" , where we used to discuss what went wrong and what can be corrected in the next match and well the so called strategy-making-process . We can do similar time pass taking some current-related topics in to our discussions( like office, games, society, girlfriends, breakups, cooking, hobbies, travel-places, storybooks, marriages, future-planning, internet sites, forums, gossips). In a group ( or with another special person ) it really lessens the burden of thought and gives courage to perform. In between we can read books of our interest and tell others about it. We can travel new and again nearby places and have time pass and dinner! Sometimes we can opt to spend our time to go to those places where the poor and the distressed are there, we can take a look at the current situation which we always ignore. We can manage to arrange small functions or hangout-picnics together which always gives fun and takes none :) At last , we always have options to watch movies, go to the malls, facebooks, chats, g-hangouts, twits .. which are really the least priority to have quality time.

Well the small but important idea is that "Always Be involved in some activities that helps you and that makes you feel free :) "

The Attitude Towards A 3rd person

2012-09-07T23:11:00.001+05:30

When we talk about someone so eagerly we already have one judgement on the person. The first thing is which group the individual belongs to! Either he belongs to "Us" or "Them". Then usually it begins How is he/she different from others, how much wrong is he as compared to us and why is he not in the Group 'X' and why is he in group 'Y'.if he were among "Us" then at this moment he would be with us to discuss about another person of "Them".

Well the idea is what else differentiates us from them. I am not defining the necessary parameters rather its more or less focus on how most of the times due to some assumptions , notions we actually behave differently for a particular person. Our psychology towards an individual changes mainly due to our ignorance of his/her ways of thinking and living. We always create our notion on the basis of our own thought including the buzz of the surrounding which often creates an unreal image of that individual in side our brain and heart. Well the suggestion can be this way, We will not make our notion as our judgement so early, even before talking to him/her. Without giving ample amount of time towards the culture of one's life directly or indirectly the direct conversion of our notion into judgement is completely unacceptable. If its seems useless to spend such time we can just leave the person and go.But if it somehow interests us positively or negatively, spend some time with some two way activities like-living together ,working together,argue together..etc Now we bridge the ambiguous gulf that once used to separate us in feeling and imagination :). Now we can be sure of the judgement we do for him/her. By spending simple hours we start to appreciate where we would have to blame, we start to love where we would have to hate. Moreover we make allowances for his/her weaknesses or strengths. And who knows there are better results of this activity which is beyond my imagination and scope. But for sure we get a better picture of a person by this and we serve the idea socialism in between :)

Dependency should not stop us "thinking"

2012-08-07T23:16:00.003+05:30

Different interests and different expectations always make a new path for an individual to go on. the question is How. Well these are two different prospects of different individuals but in a way which leads to the same destination of the same individual. Simplifying it, each and every work we do, we do either we actually need or we have keen interest in it to do. And again when we do work in our workplace also sometimes we stick to the activity which we love to and that becomes our path where we are going into the future. Again everybody does not have the same opportunity or luck to continue on the interest, And here comes the second propellant in our life : Expectation of another individual!. Most of the instance somebody's expectations becomes your path, which you follow- either by own interest or by being insisted to choose the compulsory option or by being blind to expect the better future .But most of the times we run the rat's race just to chase somebody which is actually somebody's intention but becomes our routine. And We never find a single moment in that routine to configure our personal interest anywhere. But interestingly we claim, we are working for some people due to a lot of unavoidable dependency, but always hide that we are never fit to fulfill our "own simple interests".

Anyways the idea behind the post is not at all to stop anybody from working for an expectation.The world is a very huge space to think of self only. People have to fulfill someone's expectations and that person has to fulfill some other's. So the dependency-network will not allow us to be free completely. But it is not at all advisable to ignore own interest and hobbies and work for the other. If we can't make ourselves completely satisfied how can we be eligible to come up other's expectation :)

It needs tremendous effort and dedication to be a girl

2012-07-04T18:26:00.000+05:30

Well i am not pointing to change the sex of a boy by SRT :). Keeping an eye on the current sex ratio,the priority and intensity of girls keeps on increasing each day and each moment. Now a days it is becoming a blessing if you are a girl, you get attention, you get observation both from family and others. And the society, now-a-days is building up in the same way. And some how I see the change in attitude of both girls and boys in each generation.For some it is diminishing and for some it is rising up.. And from this attitude here it generates improper mapping of ideas among the same group of people( may be boys and may be girls). Well I am not in a position to find a solution until everybody is aware of the real scenario which exists now.

The normal tendency now becomes like this. One group will have an attitude and the others will bow down and tolerate.Because there is rarely another way I found! Some people feel it if they analyse and some don't ans some ignore this and let it go on :P...But Now Question is why the hell it needs a lot of dedication to show an attitude and carry on the same. Not being a girl I can explain in short.

It is always difficult for a person to ignore than to answer, and they have to do it.
It is always difficult for a person to deny than to agree with someone and they do it.
Well everybody knows its difficult to wait and always more uneasy to make someone wait.

well, it is difficult for them, is n't it?
Explanation is clean and clear, No offence it was an idea I got, should not hurt anybody :)

Why do we have a break in nested loops!

2011-09-20T18:29:00.004+05:30

Interesting fact is that this post is not at all technical as per the heading we have. The truth I found is more or less related to the life of a normal human being. In the society we catch a very few number of people who get an undesired and unanticipated success and they keep on doing it again and again. And we meet few more people who always face speed breakers in each path of life they walk on.. which not only discourages our journey to success but keeps on disheartening us a lot even after a long run and even after non-estimated loss and even after losing those precious time to make those painful efforts real.

Some gentle men ideally say human being learns from his so called continuous BREAKS and takes those experiences to generate better and qualitative efforts. Its really very light and ideal to read these words which says failure-experience-efforts-maybe-success. But fair enough the human life is not that much long to keep on experiencing. The youth is not that much receptive to experience the broken heart. The dependents are not going to stay with you to watch you keep on experiencing failures. The idea behind this is only the particular person knows how much he pays and repays in terms of time, efforts, care, dare, stare,share for everything. Nobody understands but only few people have some words of reassurance to keep your wounds afresh till you try to forget it. it's like a match is abandoned due to rain when you are at 199* run. Neither you can do anything nor you can take any experience. And yes, it does defined as a failure for which you cry on your bed and nobody listens.

But the answer to the question that how many times and how much time a normal human being keep on sustaining this kind of unwanted strain is always remaining either un-answered or fuzzy.

Undefined Relationships matter..

2011-09-04T20:23:00.000+05:30

Everybody knows human-being always seeks for a society, not to prove himself a social animal but it's a necessity it can't deny to. He creates numerous relationships inside the same sphere. Someday everybody knows it all that everybody is connected to each other in someway either by co-incidence or through partial unprepared incidence or an occasional planned incidence. Obviously your parents, blood relatives are not gonna fall in this huge set.

Personally I experienced various close, important, touching relationships which are quite difficult to explain and even to forget. You cant explain how an unknown person in a Mumbai local guides you the whole Mumbai in a moment. Wherever you go..you always seek a trusted guide - Auto driver, without pay without thank you!

Remember the vocal-chat with Panipuri wala... about college about prof about girls about Games about night canteen about all which he has least idea in. Still he listens, smiles and so as we do. How do you explain when you spend your whole cold-night preparing a person for an interview and next day you miss the class. And you hardly talked to that person before or even after. In a long train journey you become a trivial part of a discussion on a random Insurance domain and you keep on trying to relate to it with your ever different Software-Code-Design-Domain. Still you make friends out there! How?

I cry out when I think about my pet whom I love so much.. and can't call it .. can't chat with... can't even see for years :( . Nice to explain about a dream that you carry for a girl to marry and you listen a interesting news.. she is gonna marry but its not you :P Also you think about a girl you think about day and night.. But Reverse is not true which I would call a prison of dreams.

Anyways I find such fuzzy rather very efficient, neat, priceless relationship really important to me at any instance of my life. These undefined relationships are so unique, so close to heart, so instant, unestimated, frequent, and someof them so illogical and unexpected. I hope every single person should think about this once to value this valuable but volatile relationships...

Do not leave me alone...

2011-08-22T01:36:00.002+05:30

Hey, Come over, forever
I won't ask you again.. any further.
Let the tears flow for me
Let the music blow for you..
You dance with joy, don't be afraid to fall
Always I am there, For you..
Let the mistakes , happen again.
Would I be punished! Won't refrain..
As if it were the best paint
Let me watch you a moment..
I feel it in eyes, feel it in heart
be it an ecstasy, be it a heavenly scent..
I become an addict, of your flavor,
Dear, I don't regret, such ever-needed tear
Gimme your small time
Waited a lot, will wait for more, to live it in ..
Don't just go away, everyday,
Don't let the day off and eve come
Time says , it is still to come
Promise me, don't ever leave me alone..

What is the reality after a party or get together!! Here it is....

2011-05-29T00:57:00.000+05:30

Lots of things happens in every moment of life, and those may be either quite worthy or just worthless. But A human being always expects that the moment that is to come should give him/her a lot of joy at least for that moment.for example we plan trips or journey with our friends to share time and joy with friends and all if it will be a ememorandom to make evrybody together forever. And next step of our motive is that the journey or the activities on that day will be remembered by everybody. And the utmost expectation is We will remember the infamous rather unforgettable time as a precious chapter of everyone's life. We see photos, we poke activities on videos, we make fun of various unique and stupid activities.

And We walk out some days.. Here is what comes the reality....

Hardly anybody opens the folder of the pics which had made some of our moments really worthy. Memories become deam and diminished. No offence its all depends on th love and affection and attachment among the friends. the idea is everybody wants peace at every moment he lives and he tries to perform it as his best. But sometimes some confusion and some complexities obstructs him from this special occasions that come on every moment of life only on his own permission and choice. So I will say your peace becomes your own choice depending on your ability to enjoy it cleanly with the fullest. But you might be confused what is the point of explaining this idea with the idea of journey or trip. What I want to explain is, May be it( the moment of joy that comes from the trip/get together) hardly matters how its going to affect your rest of days of your life as a whole ,but this Now which you live brings a lot of "nows" thats gonna come in the future for sure.

You may or may not open the folder that contains these unforgettable pics or you may/may not maintain a private diary But at least one day we all remember this moment which we once enjoyed. And on that day We create a great deal of pleasure, but of course not all of the friends would be lucky enough to be there to get a share of that pleasure.Anyways again it is of personal interest to make these things really happen. And I personally choose it to happen for me and with my friends :). What ever it may be I always suggest live the present with so much of joy and ecstacy that future bows down its head before you. Just a reality, Your present makes your future on every aspect of life. So do not ever think to waste the present only for future that is often uncertain and unreal.

Some Personal Lessons I Have In my Small career...

2011-05-08T21:24:00.002+05:30

In the past 10 months of my small corporate career I have gone through many team projects and many team outings and met many team leaders. To be frank and truthful enough I have learnt a very little technical knowledge but more knowledge on handling different adverse situations. When I came out of my B tech era, I heartly expected some big hardcore coding in a company like Amdocs. And in the very 1st month of the career I feel it would happen for me. But that never happened and may be it wont in the near future also. Some friends say never go deep in to your expectation which gives you utter disappointment and agony. yes its true.

I have never said expectation from your daily work is wrong, but we spent so much our time thinking for better job life that we hardly find time to enjoy the current one that we own on that moment. So I would say 1st lesson for every one is to concentrate on the current job you are having and try to enjoy that one instead of wasting much of the hours behind hope-expectation-complain.

Some people love to relax and some people love to work during the same working hours. Ultimately it depends on two important aspects of the approach you have for the job. One is the strictness of the goal that your manager sets and second one is the smartness of your work to complete a task before time and enjoy the rest of the time with your own flavor. So ultimately it becomes only you who can control your work hours either bowing down to what your manager says or implementing the second aspect which is quite helpful and invariable for the rest of the life.

One important lesson I want to share here which I came to understand now only even if I heard it many times by my colleagues and seniors. My mentor's first sentence was "Always try to identify what is the business logic behind what you code" . Now I start to know what does it mean. Its not always important to code like a freak, but it's important how to code as per the requirements even if it might end up with a low performance and high profit. Because it is business and it is not a drawing board of a child to scratch anything.

Most importantly we know everybody is always inclined towards his comfort-zone, his own friend surrounding. But believe me when you come out of this zone and try something more you may feel awkward to situations but definitely you learn something different. For example But still I would say keep on sticking to your zone of emotional compatibility for better life. I do not find much difference between personal and professional life when I take my close friends into consideration. So I am pretty satisfied and hopeful when the current colleagues and culture of the work is concerned. please don't mind If I said anything wrong, I just say the way I think....

We Don't Perform According to our Responsibility...

2011-02-12T23:53:00.002+05:30

We are so proud to be a part of the group of ethically diversed youth of the glorious computer age.It's nice to hear when some great persons respect us as the GenNext. Suddenly we feel really proud to be someone who carry the current generation to the next level. In the mean while the expectations from our superiors and inferiors increase which might lessen the progress of the flow of attitude of a young man to perform. I feel its a wrong idea to consider the expectation as a burden for us.

Its always quite obvious when somebody delivers the whole life behind someone he has rights to expect something from the GenNext. We, the youth always give the negative judgment being a part of the genNext with a lot of excuses like lack of time, over work, over expenditure etc... I will explain in a bit simpler manner.

In the world there is always a communication gap among different generations and it will always be The idea is how to make an environment where everybody has satisfaction and respect being at their own generation. We, the youth are always sandwiched between two unintersected generations. If we will not support the threads of the relations between the generations then the progress of human race just stops due to some unjustified and unprecedented reasons. So I conclude, our generation should take the responsibility to merge all the missing links between generations. I will give an example.Our parents and grand parents always
prefer to have physical communications among all. But We know , having very small amount of time for family
in a day its difficult even to have a digital communication. But Its very difficult to make our parents understand.
But it is also true that thinking of the expectation and dedication they spent behind us for years, we never give a small amount of pleasure to them in return. We spend so much of our time behind thinking for future, which is quite uncertain. I am never against it, but in the mean while I would always regret if I will miss some beautiful moments of now only due to the useless intentions of planning for future.We are meshed up so much under artificiality and complexity that it becomes habit not to have a perfect to two way communication with our parents even once in a month. Which I not only consider as an unfair behaviour but a social offense that may inherit to the next Generation. And unluckily if it happens then the relation, love, faith, respect will all be rare in future. So the serious responsibility of making a healthy world is with us. We should not let it go for a failure.

Dedication: A Journey, that will never come again, -for Convocation

2011-01-18T20:46:00.000+05:30

Dedication: A Journey, that will never come again, -for Convocation

A Journey, that will never come again, -for Convocation

2011-01-17T23:22:00.000+05:30

When story begins with a journey and ends with the same.. Restlessness for convocation and the inquisitive spirit was so much intensive that the delay of 5 hrs of the punctual indian railway when did not bother a single fellow.After all evryone was on the way to get an rare opportunity to use those suitable jargons at the institute premise. 27 hrs of travel and you get a two days of invaluable memory to carry for the next 27years.

Memories get refreshed when you see figures and postures that was once familiar every next day during the college era.The famous sutta dance which unites our batch on every memorable occasions of the isti-era. The act of GMATism and the corresponding actors both were like at one place to receive the medals and to
watch people receive the medals. No matter what it feels being a perfect GMAT,but it has always created
humor and enthusiasm among people who enjoy as well as hate it. It is an refreshment of "the delay to class at 8 o'clock " when I was getting late to go for registration for Convo and I was enjoying samosha at famous Raju's open air Resaturant. How come the day starts without breaking a rule. Students again broke rule clapping at Mr. Director's "Convexion","ETC DOT","INS-TUTE" and many other. It was more like an appreiation the new Director and a brief testimonial to the end of Sarangi's era. Anyways, the event of rehearsal was pretty memorable as that was the informal meet of most of the old friends at one place altogether. As usual we spent the maximum of our time in Rengcol with khattis and majjjas and mimicries, Sry No CLASS this time.The day ends with the dinner with the juniors and hunt for formal shoes and shirt-pants. Thank god, aww thank Juniors I attended the Convo with your dresses and all.

The morning starts with toilet with no tissue toilet papers and with no water heater.Huh... lol. It seemed as if we were running for an job interview again but we know the Job is ours. Formals everywhere with least act of formality, a rare view It was to observe so closely. Quite interesting to hear the Quotes " which company r u in, how is our Gf 'X'". People never forget friends Gf' name but forget the company name!! lolax... And the hangover of the night was still on in the auditorium with around 30% of the degree recipients were on their dreams on the chair. Anyways thank god they managed to go up the stage and snatched their belongings with "BAWWWING DOWN" their heads. We all Know how GEEK nd JAATA took their revenge on the stage itself, in public. The official convocation ends with ever memorable opportunity to have a pic with our famous Prof SKRUTH(while Roaming on the street Only).

Really none can explain convocation was a mixed experience for him even by mistake.It was really an once in life time opportunity to meet so many close friends at once at on place.Thank you Insti, thanks all who made the return journey so memorable with sayris and insti-jargons that has always remained undecrypted by the OTHER'S. Hope We will proceed with the "KILL-HER_STUDIO-3" in the near future, guys tough luck this time, ALL the best...

Always we Go for the Better! Why!

2010-12-17T23:15:00.001+05:30

Better, Better and better. That's what we used to hear from our parents and superiors. We keep on working on different objects to make things better, to go things better and better. Because we think that is the destiny we have set in our mind. Thing is that human being never tries to go against his restless and inquisitive spirit. He always have an tendency to go for better and choose the better and search the better. I never go against this optimistic behaviour of the human being. Sometimes searching for better gives frustration and failure which always lead to various mental agony. What is the solution. here?

Simple it is. Compromise with your run for the better objects. Stop the process of searching sometimes to enjoy the stickiness of the idle time. Spend sometime to really enjoy the things that you have acquired till now. Because we have leading life not always to make it better, but to lead it in a way that we love. I feel ,pleasure not always comes by effort but always by the way you live for yourself and for others. The word Better does not always mean to enrich your account or enhance your perfection about a domain it particularly does include your life partner you choose. Some people get a lot of choice, some get few and some get none. Those who get a lot of choice always try to compare things like a bargain in the daily-market and spend their time to find the better one. But it never stops for which there occurs mix up among all.

One thing I want to advise strictly not to believe the coincidence you find in your life. we always mistook the coincidences as God's gift which is not always true. I have met a lot of coincidences which I really expect to happen. And also on regular basis. But that never worked or will never, because they are just the overestimation of the emotions we possess. Remember coincidences never lead to your fate.

Somethings About Crossed Palms...

2010-12-04T16:43:00.000+05:30

I know this topic is quite unusual topic to discuss, but I feel the essence of the topic is very interesting and sometimes useful also. All through our life sometimes we must have heard about the body language, behavioural analysis and all those HR related stuffs. I analysed some real time facts when a human being is in a position when his/her hands or palms crossed one over the other.

I had this idea when I observed Amitabh Bachhan having so much of experience of presentation and starting the KBC with deep sigh and long breath with opening the crossed palms lightly to open the presentation to the audience. What I refer from it is that the change of amplitude of the excitement and interest of the presenter matters a lot during any promotion or presentation, which I saw the opening of two palms by Mr. Bachhan in KBC. I often see The U.S. president Mr. Obama starts his speech the same way as above.

During one to one conversation with a new person closing your palms one over the other shows reluctance of the person to listen to the other. But my observation says it shows politeness and obedience of the person.

So the conversation with this kind of behavior gives complements to both the party.

And most importantly every one will agree on my point about girls giving their shots(poses) with either one palm on the other hand or one palm on the other palm. And interestingly and compulsorily those pics become their so called matrimony-eligible pics. I will again explain the reason behind this. Girls having conservative nature , polite behaviour and somewhat possessive attitude generally give shots like this. They do respect the existing culture and fashion of the country. Again I will say my comments are only based upon my observations.

Well crossed palms have their own importance in many part of life.Well I don't want to discuss the palm of the bride on the palm of the groom during marriage which is a quite usual culture of our religion and all.

Dedication: Some Serious Things I Feel...

2010-11-27T23:21:00.000+05:30

Dedication: Some Serious Things I Feel...