Denise's Thoughts

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2011-06-07T14:11:00.000-07:00

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CREATING THE BEST FOR YOUR LIFE.

2011-06-06T13:07:00.000-07:00

So here I sit in Maui. I looked over the list of places I have been to over the last many years of travel and each place I go to becomes a playground unique to the itself. I am thinking about how many people I have met over the years and how many I still speak to.

Places like ideas have their unique qualities and have their time and place. I know that when I was in my twenties I had many ideas that were not received with the enthusiasm by professionals at the time.They thought I was too young or the idea would not pan out. For instance when I lived in England I had a friend there named Richard Barnes. He had the idea of putting logos on t-shirts. I loved the idea came back to America went to a banker who I proposed a loan for a business. Well as you know t shirts and importing are the way to go. What did I do? I stopped and gave up.At the time I did not even know I had the power to just move ahead and do the project myself. I did not have the belief in myself that I do now. That was back in the day.

Big mistakes of the past make for valuable knowledge for the present. I had plenty of opportunities and some of them succeeded and some of them did not do so well. My Dad once told me,It's not how many times you fall down that counts. It is how many times you get up that count."

I have had partners in business be ,well, bad partners. You live and learn. Karma took care of almost all of them.Just the simple law of the Universe. I have thought revenge but realized that is a waste of energy and not worthy of who I am. I am not in charge of who they are I am only in charge of myself.Life has a way of straightening things out on its own.

Believe me there are so many things in life I did not know and still do not now but I never let that stop me. I have more plans and ideas than maybe I have time to live but, I will continue to strive for the dreams. You are never to old. Just look at so many champions of life they have never given up. It strikes me that when someone says they are too old to do something. What does that actually mean? I am blessed to be physically healthy and able to do what I enjoy. I really give thanks for that everyday. Do not take your life for granted. You will never get the moment back that you waste on being upset. Never ever.

Of course you need to take time to grieve and get over intense feelings that is normal. However, if you choose to live there and take up residence in "poor me" you will not be alone. You are where you are. Poor, wealthy, young, old, healthy, alone, married, engaged,just broke up with someone, etc.. That "poor me" hotel is overbooked with plenty of people for you to share your pain with.

If you choose to live in a place that says "Get up. Get up. You can do this. Get up and move on. It will be hard but just get up." Then you will be with others who have experienced life to the fullest and have learned probably harder lessons then you ever imagined possible but, they are still able to talk, walk and chew gum at the same time.

It is always about choices.Take inventory of your life and ask what you can change. Better yet what are you willing to give up that is holding you back. I know plenty of people who speak to me about the choices they have made in life and now are stuck worried about the future. Why not take stock of what choices you have now. Some of the choices are hard. Whether to sell a home so you are able to live somewhere you can afford. Some people do not want to make that choice and choose to sink deeper and deeper into debt and emotional pain. It is not easy.

I have never been so invested in material objects that I must keep them. Even the sentimental objects. I had to fight for my life so I was shown that objects vs quality of life lesson. There is no question what I value more. Its living.

We are not the sum total of what we own. We are the sum total of our beliefs and how we live. What we are willing to fight for. What we are willing to stand for. What we believe ourselves to be. Change your thoughts and you will change your world.

I hope you join me in taking the pledge work on who you want to be. I will assist you if you need an extra push. The work can only be done by you. Wish I had better news for you but you need to be the one who does the work.

So who is the best person out there to help you..you are. Now go get em and pick yourself up. Enjoy I believe in you and I believe you are able to do it. Write me let me know how its going.

The Web We Weave

2011-05-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

Recently I received an email from someone who I had written with. I had presented to him many years ago about a story of children who had the capability to go out and heal others. The story was told from various cultures and how children could change the world.He added a magic pony and the woman Mary Anne. I had put it on my old mac computer.

That was years ago. When he was going through hard times he reconnected with me. I shared my resources and knowledge with him and my writing ability. Then a couple of years ago he called out of the blue and asked if he could buy me out for a couple of thousand dollars. He wanted to turn it into a graphic novel. I thought about it and said no. I had suggested we get in touch with conceptual design individuals and made calls to many stations pitching our collective story. I had fun doing much of this. I had contacted a Canadian Children's Programming Network and negotiated with a woman in charge. I kept all the emails. I was very inclusive of my former co writer.

Then recently I received notice that he had printed the story we had copyrighted and is now saying it is all his idea. He went so far as to re copyright it exclusively under his name. Pretty amazing eh.Well this is life. Individuals who have little or no talent many times steal the ideas of others and walk away honestly believing it is their work and their work alone. This has happened to countless individuals I will not be the first and will not be the last.

In all honesty this experience has lead me to open up a whole new episode in my life and since many of the ideas I have had have been used by others it gives me a whole new book idea that will resonate with many people. It will really be a helpful tool told as a story. So what do we do when we encounter deceptive people. Well there are many ways to handle under handed people. First, you have to be strong. Do not let it control or run your life. If legal recourse can be taken go for it. Pick yourself up and know if you created the idea no one else did.

There are of course the laws of karma. Believe me I have seen it work over and over again. So know in your heart that nothing can be taken from you. It is the law of the universe. Forgive yourself as well. You cannot beat yourself up over being taken by a dishonest person. They more than likely believe their lies and think you are the one who is out of line. The truth always comes out eventually.

More than likely many of you can relate to this in one form or another in your life. I am sure you have lots of stories to tell. I can say this. I am pretty creative if someone wants to take credit for my original idea. Well the idea is not that original really its good vs evil but it is how you present it that counts. Pretty ironic the plot was children who try to help the earth. I guess you could say he helped himself to that. Well that is the story for today. Keep your head high. Brush yourself off and keep on walking tall. You do not have to do anything but breath and be the highest and best you can be. Shout it from the roof tops to create justice in your life. Let the world know who you are.

Before I go I also want to write about something else very important recently it was brought to my attention that if you or anyone you know has had cancer have them get a very indepth report from their oncologist about the medication they are given. Adriamycin and other related medications can cause heart disease. I had recently spoken to a cardiologist and he was very concerned that some of the cancer patients and survivors are not receiving this type of information. I have a list of amino acids, minerals and supplements that can help the heart. If you are interested I will post them in my next blog. Stay strong. Stay healthy and remember you are a unique and wonderful being. Be safe and God Bless.

The Best Is Yet To Come

2011-03-06T09:10:00.000-08:00

So here we are on a another wonderful day in paradise. The television has been off for most of the week and I have been more productive than usual. I have resumed working out. That is a big yeah. I enjoy the results.

Reading has been top priority and I have been inspired to continue writing myself as well as continuing on with my pursuit of helping others find ways to increase their prosperity while I enjoy the rewards of enjoying my day.

As I have discussed in my last blog entry the library has been a wealth of entertainment on so many levels. It is the place to discover new authors and reconnecting with those who are old favorites. Lately,I have been enjoying reading the works of Philip K. Dick. He has been the inspiration for so many classic movies. Most recently, he inspired the making of the film "The Adjustment Bureau" it was based on a short story he authored.

The library has saved me a substancial amount of money recently, again! I have been brushing up on my Spanish. My local library has an amazing treasure trove of language tapes and material that will assist anyone who is interested in learning the language of their choice. I personally am following up on my goal of fully understanding and speaking Spanish. My family is primarily Spanish speaking.So you would think I would be able to speak it. Well my parents chose not to teach my brother or myself while growing up. It was the time I grew up in. However, I am proud of my son who on the other hand is able to speak five languages. So I am determined to learn more than one language this year. Besides, I understand it to a point but want to be fluent in Spanish so I can join in the family conversations. As my mother used to say anyone can speak just one language. It takes mental dexterity to speak two or more. So the library is my laboratory for experimenting with my new found passion.

So another way to enjoy what is free and available for you if this is what you are looking for. Whether you are planning trips, taking a class, listening to music, watching the latest movies, reading magazines,books, and research material is all for free at the library.

Why spend money on a cable package for the movie channel. Go to the library and pick it up for free! It is probably just down the street from your house. Guess what? You pay for this out of your property taxes so enjoy it. Just for giggles I turned on the old boob tube and selected "The American" staring George Clooney as a movie to watch. The cost $4.99. It actually cost me ZERO. Took it out this week watched it while I cleaned the living room and then continued my exercise routine.

Oh yes and while I am at it. The gym. Mine cost approximately $250. The membership is free. I bought a bench and weights. The motivation is supplied by looking in the mirror. I save in fuel costs, and time. For my aerobic part either I open the front door and walk outside and if it is raining like it is right now I put on music and dance for 45 minutes or so. Again the dollar cost nothing.

One thing I did spend a few bucks on and that is audio. I have an IPOD touch that was included in the price of my Mac Notebook. Did you know that every fall they run a special that if you are a student or an educator you can receive an IPOD touch with your purchase.I love it when your buying power can give you so much more.

So what is so special about the IPOD touch well it is just like the Iphone but you cannot make calls. It has the capacity to act like a small laptop. There are plenty of places to find Free WIFI and use it for internet searches and pick up radio station around the world. When I am at home I utilize the IPOD as my radio. I have enjoyed listened to stations in New York City as well as in New Zealand, Spain,England (just to mention a few places) and lately, due to my friend Yvonne in Boulder, Colorado, I am currently listening to a great station out of Denver. The list goes on and on. What a great way to get first hand news from different countries and with different perspectives.

So I bought a Bose docking station, (only to find out that the SONY docking station that I purchased for my son, is just as good for a fraction of the price), and have placed my IPOD in using Safari as the web browser I listen to the radio all day long. It sounds awesome. Music in surround sound,lovely. What a better way to instantly pick up your mood than by listening to music that stirs your soul.

Travel is the next thing I will write about as well as taking great care of yourself physically as well as emotionally. The thing about prosperity is it is a state of mind. You can have ten cents and be as happy as a person with one million dollars who is miserable. Finance is the key to personal freedom but emotional and physical health is the true key to real freedom.

THE BEST IS YET TO COME.

HERE WE ARE AGAIN.

2011-02-24T10:43:00.000-08:00

I WAS LISTENING TO A WONDERFUL TEACHER WHO WAS DELIVERING A DISCUSSION ON COMPASSION. IN HIS DISCUSSION IT BROUGHT UP MANY DIFFERENT THOUGHTS ON ACTION AND PEACEFUL CHANGE. ALL AROUND US TODAY THERE ARE LARGE GROUPS OF PEOPLE WHO INDIVIDUALLY COULD DO NOTHING BUT AS A UNIFIED VOICE CONTINUE TO CHANGE THE WAY WE VIEW THE WORLD.

IT IS MY BELIEF THAT NOW IS THE A TURNING POINT FOR HUMANITY. WE HAVE SO MUCH AT STAKE. WE ARE FIGHTING TO BE HEARD AND FIGHTING TO EXERCISE OUR INDIVIDUAL FREEDOMS. WE HAVE TO LOOK AT HOW WE HAVE BEEN WORKING WITHIN OURSELVES AND ALSO ASK OURSELVES IS THERE CAUSE TO CREATE A NEW WAY OF BEING WITHIN OURSELVES.

RECENTLY,I WAS WITH SOMEONE WHO WAS EMOTING A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF ANGER. I WAS NOT SURE WHERE IT WAS COMING FROM BUT I KNEW HIS FEELINGS WERE NONE OF MY BUSINESS. IF HE DID NOT WANT TO ADDRESS HIS ANGER IT WAS NOT UP TO ME TO TAKE IT PERSONALLY. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT HE IS UPSET ABOUT AND DO NOT KNOW IF TALKING WOULD HAVE HELPED AT ALL.

THIS BROUGHT UP A LOT QUESTIONS FOR ME IN HOW I HANDLE MY FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I AM UPSET AND DO IT SEND OUT THE SAME UNPLEASANT ENERGY TO PEOPLE AROUND ME? THAT IS A SERIOUS QUESTION. THIS PERSON WAS TRUELY NOT A PLEASURE TO BE WITH AND I BECAME HAPPILY DISTRACTED IN THE LATEST BOOK ABOUT THE EIGHT STEPS TO HAPPINESS WRITTEN BY A BUDDHIST TEACHER. HOW IRONIC I AM READING ABOUT HAPPINESS WHEN I HAVE THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE SITTING NEXT TO ME. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT IRONY AFTER ALL.

THIS BRINGS ME UP TO MY FINANCES AND HOW I VIEW THEM IN A MORE ESOTERIC WAY. I HAVE LEARNED THROUGH THE YEARS HOW TO MANIFEST IF YOU WILL THE WAY TO WORK WITH MY FINANCES. IT IS THROUGH THE ADVISE OF OTHERS AND THINGS I HAVE LEARNED ALONG THE WAY. I TRUELY ENJOY SHARING WITH OTHERS WHAT I HAVE LEARNED.

THIS WEEK WHILE I WAS DISCUSSING WITH FIOS WHY I WAS GOING TO CANCEL MY APPOINTMENT WITH THEM TO INSTALL SERVICE THE CUSTOMER SERVICE REP HUNG UP ON ME. I WAS CONVINCED NOW THAT CANCELING WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. WELL WHEN I FOUND ANOTHER SERVICE REP I TOLD HER THAT I ORIGINALLY WAS GOING TO CANCEL MY FIOS (VERIZON:TV, INTERNET AND PHONE) ORDER BECAUSE OF THE INCONSIDERATE WAY I WAS TREATED. I EXPLAINED TO HER THAT I HAD AN APPOINTMENT BETWEEN THE HOURS OF 8AM AND 12PM. NOT ONLY HAD NO ONE SHOWN UP BUT I HAD TO MOVE MY CLIENTS AROUND TO WORK AROUND THE VERIZON SCHEDULE. NO ONE CALLED AND WHEN I WENT TO CANCEL THE SERVICE REP JUST HUNG UP ON ME.

SHE WAS VERY APOLOGETIC AND ASKED IF SHE TOOK AN ADDITIONAL $20 DOLLARS A MONTH OFF MY BILL FOR TWO YEARS AND INCLUDED A FREE DVR AND MOVIE PACKAGE WOULD I BE WILLING TO THINK ABOUT RECONSIDERING. I TOLD HER "NO" THAT I HAD RECEIVED EMAILS FROM VERIZON EVEN BEFORE THE INSTILLTION WAS COMPLETED THAT STATED I WAS BEING CHARGED FOR ADDITIONAL SERVICES I DID NOT ORDER. SO SHE TOOK IT OFF AND TOOK AN ADDITIONAL $20 OFF A MONTH FOR TWO YEARS JUST BECAUSE SHE DID NOT WANT TO LOSE THE BUSINESS. BE AWARE THAT IS HER JOB. THE PRICE FOR TWO SEPARATE PHONE NUMBERS, INTERNET, CABLE WITH TWO BOXES PLUS DVR WILL BE AROUND $79.00 A MONTH.

PLUS I HAVE JUST RECEIVED A LOWER PHONE PLAN FROM VERIZON BY STATING I WAS GOING TO T MOBILE AND I NOW HAVE THE UNLIMITED DATA PLAN WITH EMAIL FOR $9.99 A MONTH. THAT IS A SAVINGS OF AN ADDITIONAL $20 A MONTH. PLUS PUTTING EVERYTHING ON ONE BILL WILL SAVE AN ADDITIONAL $10 A MONTH. PLUS THEY PAID FOR ONE MONTH OF MY WIRELESS BILL FOR BEING A LOYAL CUSTOMER.MY BILL IS NOW LOWER BY $52 A MONTH. THIS IS A BIG SAVINGS FOR THE YEAR. ADD IT ALL UP YOURSELF.

SO THE REASON I AM WRITING THIS TO YOU IS THAT ANGER WHEN IT IS NOT SENT AT THE PERSON BUT EXPRESSED IN THE MANNER IN WHICH YOU ARE SUFFERING CAN CREATE CHANGE. IN MY CASE IT WAS NOT A CHANGE IN POLITICAL LEADERSHIP IT WAS A CHANGE IN THE WAY MY FINANCES ARE MANAGED. I BELIEVE THAT BEING ANGRY AT SOMEONE DOES NOTHING AT ALL. HOWEVER, IF YOUR ANGER MOTIVATES YOU TO STAND UP FOR YOURSELF OTHERS WILL LISTEN ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU TELL THEM IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU BUT THE SITUATION. THIS IS WHERE THE CHANGE IN OUR LIVES BEGIN.

REMEMBER, YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF YOUR LIFE! THE INTEREST YOU PUT INTO YOURSELF GENERATES LOTS OF EMOTIONAL INTEREST. DO NOT LET YOUR FINANCES DIM YOUR HEART, EMOTIONS OR IDEALS. I BELIEVE WE CAN ALL DO SOMETHING TO MAKE OUR LIVES BETTER. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW THE SAVINGS I AM MAKING WITH VERIZON IS GOING TO BE PUT IMMEDIATELY INTO MY BANK ACCOUNT. THAT IS THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF THIS BLOG IS TO SHARE WITH YOU MY THOUGHTS AND TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS AS WELL.

PEACE TO YOU ...DENISE

GETTING IT TOGETHER

2011-01-04T09:17:00.000-08:00

So how do we keep it all together. There are ways to work out what it is that you want to accomplish in our life. Journalling. I know it is not a new concept. Writing down things help you look at how you are planning your life. You are putting down the blueprints to your life and your life's journey. It will help with spending habits, eating habits, exercise or the lack there of, etc..
Let's deal with finances first. As stated before you need to see what you are spending money on. For one week write it all down (every last bit of change that goes out of your pocket-tips included). Then add it up.
While you are writing down in one column what you are spending gather up all your credit card bills, mortgage or rent payments, cell phone, cable, internet, land line, gasoline, electric, gas, life insurance, car payment, college loans, car insurance, property taxes, home owners insurance, renters insurance, and any other monthly bill that you pay out.Do not forget to include food, clothing and entertainment.
In another column write down your income for the month.If you are spending more than you make there is still hope. Keep reading.
Now on another page tally up what you owe on: mortgage, home equity loans,college loans, credit cards, car loans etc.. Be brave and put it all down. Then on the same page write down what you have saved in the bank, cd's 401k or 401b, savings bonds,IRA'S, money jar, etc..
Most of you will say this is torture. Some of you will be suprised at how much you actually owe, make and or spend. Hopefully all of you will understand that the only way to get a hold of debt is to know what you owe. It is like being in a relationship that either works or does not work. Sometimes you get into a rut thinking that it is just the way it is. I am here to tell you it is up to you to take control of your spending and take control of your savings.
So you see yourself swimming in money or do you see yourself drowning in debt. Maybe you see yourself just paddling wildly just trying to keep at the shore. However you view yourself just let it go.
Feeling bad is not going to do anything but just feel bad. Sometimes in life it just is. When the doctors told me I had cancer 8 years ago I thought to myself well I guess if it is the end of my life there is nothing I can do about it. Then I snapped out of it. In my case I was able to avoid the inevitable for a while. That is when I really understood there are no guarantees in life.
So how do you turn it around. Well first things first lets get off the credit card merry go round. It is hard I know but you have to get off it. If you are paying credit cards with credit cards you have to look at how to increase your income at home. Some tough decisions to make but, just for a little while. Once you are on your feet you will be making clearer decisions.
First look at your home. What can you change immediately. Phone, gas, electric, cable and internet. Really review your bills. I only had the stations I was able to receive with an antenna for years. Savings are endless there if you are paying $50 to $100 a month for cable that is a savings of $600 to $1200 a year. Put the money you save towards paying down your debt. Electricity. Well my bill went from $140 to $60 a month when I unplugged everything that needed a remote or did not turn off at the wall. Only things plugged in are the stove,microwave and internet. If is uses a remote it uses energy even if you think its turned off. My computer, washing machine, alarm clock etc are off unless I use them. OK now that is another $720 a year.
Continuing with that type of thinking review your cell phone plan change it do you really need all those minutes. You cannot possibly wait to talk to someone until you get home. Are you kidding. I have a plan with my son and dropped minutes and am saving another $240 a year.Plus see if your work place has a discount plan with a phone carrier. Mine is 18% off the bill. More money in my pocket
Next insurance. Not all plans are the same go over your car, homeowners, renters, and life insurance get a bundle or get a discount through lots of organizations. I utilize my college alumni status and get approximately 20% off. Get the picture that is close to $2400 more in my pocket and not in someone else's account.
Food is simple. Farmers markets. Coupons. No more processed food. Look at how much you spend on packaging. For emergencies its great but as a daily lifestyle it will save you lots of money. Coupons back to them. Only use them if you use the products.
Dining out cost most of us close to $200-$400 a month or more. Eat appetizers and go to BYOB. You will save tons of cash. Go out and enjoy but not if it goes on a credit card. More interest and more debt.One meal with family four times a week well thats close to $5000 a year. What a better way to save it and think about the vacation you always wanted but could not afford. Well here is the money. Before you go out think about what would give you long term satisfaction. A meal or memories of a lifetime. Or paying off that credit card, car payment, etc..
So how to reel it all in. First with a BUDGET. What you make and how to pay the bills you have. It will mean changing your habits for life. Really look to see what you need to change. Take control over your spending. If you are in the head you deserve to have everything your heart desires at the cost of you having nothing when you retire then do not read any further.
Most of us do not plan for the future. I was fortunate to have savings put aside when I was out of work and on disability for my long term illness. I had disability insurance. It has paid for itself in spades.
So this is just the beginning. Have great dreams and get it together. I will show you how to get ahead and do these for yourself and REMEMBER CASH IS KING. Use cash and put away the credit card. I know you can do it. Peace to you all and write me tell me how it is going. Denise

Price vs Quality

2011-01-02T10:38:00.001-08:00

You cannot put a price tag on life. That is the bottom line. In life we have to make decisions everyday that affect the quality of our lives. Our thoughts are the most important investment we have in life.

It is how we view ourselves and not how others view us is the first thing we need to get a hold of in life. If we allow ourselves to be ruled by how others will see us we may become paralyized or at worst never express our true feelings or be who we were meant to be.

This does not mean just shouting from the roof tops what ever is on our mind. Rather it means taking the time to reflect on who we are and what do we as an individual mean to us personally.

The following are types of questions you may want to ask yourself: What do I mean to those around me? What was I born to do? What do I want to accomplish? What talents do I have? What talents do I hid? What does the voice within wish to tell me?

Being a quality person is more important than being a person who is fixed on being a person who values themselves for their finances. In this blog I will explore money and ways to accomplish financial freedom, however, a rich person in the bank account does not ever equal a person who knows true wealth is being balanced in all areas of life.

So with this in mind I stated that to start the new year you could take advantage of writing down goals. Not just learning a new language and losing 25 pounds. Though those are great goals write down in depth catagories. Yourself, family, housing, transportation,travel,finance, health, spirituality, rest, etc.

This process is really free flowing. You do not need to write down how it is going t0 just write down what it is you would like to see happen over the year. You need to get an idea of what is important to you and you alone.

Over the next couple of weeks we will explore how really review your finances(other areas of life as well) and how to plan out your goals of independence. Understand it will take time. If you are willing to sit out a couple of years of work it will be worth it. I will work with you privately if you need help and will tailor a program to suit your needs.

This is a way to share with others things I have learned through study and through years of trial and error. Nothing teaches life's lessons like first hand experience.

So go to it write down your goals. Send me your comments. Let's move onto the new year 2011 by taking charge of your life. Whether you are employed, self employed, retired, or recently unemployed you can benefit from this exercise.

I wish you peace and prosperity always. Denise

Beginning the New Year- Frugal Living and Being Prosperious.

2010-12-29T09:03:00.000-08:00

2010 is almost over and 2011 is upon us. I have heard from so many people who are worried about the Mayan Calendar and what it may or may not mean. My take on this is to live your life to the fullest always. We do not know when the last day on our calendar of life is over. This past year was the passing of a friend or two for many of us. For some of you it was the death of a parent, child or sibling.

For some of you it was the change of life in various ways. The change of a career, home, or relationship. Every year brings changes that is for certain. One thing I might suggest to you is take inventory of your life in every fashion.

Take stock of yourself. Who are you really? Are you waiting for someone or something to change your life then I say STOP! The only one who has any power over you is you. I have been doing some serious soul searching this year and it always go back to basics. I am in charge of my thoughts and my beliefs. If I choose to incorporate beliefs into my life it will be due to the fact I have had insight to what I choose to bring into my life. Some of us still bring in the news and then drive ourselves into a frenzy over the news. I have also been caught up in the daily dishing of the news by the media.

Stop that as well. Educate yourself. Learn to take a deep breath. Investigate and then act. We are so used to reacting. Learn to re create for yourself your life. This is the only time you have to work on yourself.

Like it or not it is not anyone's job to see you are happy, safe, warm, fed, healthy or financially stable. I have made some decisions like everyone else that in the long run I was not thrilled with but, eventually I understood and took from the situation what I needed from it and left the rest behind. DO not think that you need to learn from everything. Some things that have happened in my life I still do not understand. I have to just let it go. Honestly, sometimes things just happen.

So for this year. Take control over your life. Learn to do things that you have charge over. I will be giving out information on how to live frugally and yet still feel prosperous. We all need to get control over our lives and the first step is being in charge of our thinking.

You need to write down what you honestly believe to be true about life, money, relationships, housing, health, family, the economy, your spiritual beliefs, etc.. All arenas of your life. Then write down what you would like to see happen in your life. Be organized in this part. Then one by one write in your honest opinion when these things will happen. See if this is too hard to do or if you are writing down what you hope to have happen OR what you believe will happen. This is the eye opening part.

Yes the economy is hard. This is a reality in the world today but, you are not always going to be out of a job. You are not always going to be out of anything. Go through your mind and see yourself as being calm. See yourself as being in control of your life. It does not mean controlling. First so this for yourself and see what you have.

This is part one of a series. Share this with friends and begin the New Year knowing that you will get control over your life. I will share tips in how to find hidden money in your life without changing your pay check or income. This is important to make your life debt free on many levels. You can do it. Denise

Another Day In Paradise

2010-09-30T03:53:00.000-07:00

Before I even start I know I am going to get a lot of kidding from people but here goes. I was walking past a mirror and went hmmm. So off to the gym I go. Working out sweating and imaging that what I want to look like is possible in one week. Ok if one week is in real time it would be a couple of months but to look that far into the future takes the fun away from the moment.

Well here I am in Hilton Head and I have accomplished only a couple of the things that I have attempted to accomplish. I have enjoyed the beach. Worked out every day. Met some interesting people and have rediscovered what I knew all along. Being social is a very important part of being alive.

We can get so caught up in the day to day we forget to live. We forget to just walk and be. I am here by myself and am loving every minute of it. There I was just looking at the blue sky and palm trees. The waves are crashing on the shore and the birds are flying by. I walk from the beach to the beautiful pool that is here at Surfwatch.

This wonderful woman who is glowing from the beauty within walks up to me and begins to speak to me. She invites me to meet her family. The family is amazing. Cancer survivors. Widows who have met new partners. Incredible uplifting people. Then this woman says to me grabbing the hand of her husband. She states she has been married for 60 years and would do it all over again. I was knocked over. What incredible loving people.

Then I went out to dinner. Again my voice said to sit at the bar and wait. Actually the hostess said it would be a half hour wait and sit at the bar. So I continue. At the bar were the most wonderful , funny and engaging people. I had a great time again.

This just screams to me that there are so many good people in the world all you have to do is be open to meeting new people. It is easy to sit and stay home and wonder why life is so bland. I no longer engage with people who just complain about how their lives are so what ever the slogan of the day is.

If you are open and love yourself and your life more and more everyday you will meet people who feel the same way about their lives. The funny thing about these great people. They were all from New Jersey. See its good to be a Jerseyean. So people. Get up get out and meet new people. You will be suprised. But do not I repeat do not work out so hard on vacation that you cannot not stand up straight without holding onto something. I have to laugh. Hope you are enjoying your day. The sun is coming up and I am getting ready to go out and hobble to the gym and enjoy the day. Peace

THE CREATOR WITHIN

2010-08-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

Individuality and emotional support end up being one in the same thing. Over the years my life has taken me through an incredible journey of hope and creative change. Through this journey I have experienced many hardships that have forged me into the person I am today.

Recently, I had the opportunity to see that the many ideas that had been shared with me over the years are taking root in main stream society. I remember way back when I lived in California there was a book that was old even by my standards taking about healing with light. This book was written in the 1920's. That is close to one hundred years ago. Imagine.

Recently I have picked up a book that has been very inspirational over the years and have been implementing most of what I had reviewed. Simply put we are the creator within. Or should I say the co creator of what it is we want and how we love. We you stand back and look at your life what do you see. Dreams fulfilled or dreams dissolved. I see many of my dreams still formulating and moving towards fruition much quicker than I ever realized they would happen before. I have only one thing on the mind these days. That is to experience life and make every moment count. My focus is on how to optimize my life and by doing so life is opening doors one after the other.

I had remembered that you cannot force change but if you are patient and watch life around you change will come to you. We really are drawn to the familiar. That is why history is doomed to repeat itself if we do not learn. We as finite beings are drawn to that which sometimes is not really the highest and best for us but it is familiar. If you are able to get outside of your comfort zone than maybe you would be able to achieve things that you want. Goals without belief in your dreams stay as dreams that just stay in your mind.

You have to be honest with yourself and project goals and dreams that you know you want. Not imagine things that you feel you have no right to or something you will never achieve. Lets examine what you need to look at when defining your goals. If it is self improvement. I say go for it. See what is stopping you emotionally. See what is holding you back in your mind. Listen to the voices in your mind and heart that say ,"You will fail anyway."

If failure comes up in your mind. You need to ask yourself when did it all begin. It does not matter that if you tried before you will fail again. You will only fail if you believe you will fail. Trying does not mean that you will win the Nobel Peace Prize but maybe you will. I do not know what your dreams are. I know what mine are and I believe it is possible. Some things are intangable so that means they will happen in their own time. That does not mean stop believing.

Belief is the only thing that keeps us going. Failure to accept the truth about oneself is another place in the heart that stops us from experiencing our dream. Whose rules are you judging your self by. We need to be gentle with ourselves and hold back from critical statements that prevent us from being the loving and lovable person we need to be. Now I am not saying becoming self absorbed is the way to achieve your goals. I am saying self aware.

So create your life and embrace your dreams what else do you have to lose anyway. It is your life and be aware that things that create for us failure and truly successess that want to come through a bigger door anyway.

Listen to music

2010-08-05T18:50:00.000-07:00

Listening to music right now and it really makes the mood. I love to enjoy my life. Music is the sound track to my heart and soul. So many of my clients do not take the time to listen to the music in their lives.
What do I mean. Go outside and listen to the noise or is it music. Everything in life has a sync and beat. Can you hear the birds. Can you hear the trucks going down the street. What do hear when you listen to your heart. What do you hear when you hear your thoughts. Is it the symphony that you love to listen to.
Take the time to make everyday a wonderful musical experience. Ask yourself what are you waiting for? Hey don't you wish your life was a little like the way it used to be. So make it happen. I sit and think that as long as I am alive I have to make every minute count.
My favorite music to listen to these days is anything Latin. It is the heartbeat of my parents. You know my mom is Mexican and my Dad though being born in Peru is Spanish and English. I love the music of the culture. You cannot be sad when you hear the beat and the tempo of the music. My new artist from Spain is BEBE she is awesome. Her words are just amazing. Who do I have to thank for this..well it my son . He has embraced the everything Spanish and it is great. He just came back from Spain. We were there last year Barcelona is just the the place to go if you want to feel alive.
What I am trying to say my friends get into music and let yourself open your soul. Dance in the house. Bop your head. Shake your shoulders. Shake your hips and feel yourself come alive. Enjoy every one enjoy

This is it

2010-08-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. This is it. I have made a command decision to continue and write. I have with all my heart wanted to bring out to everyone a book that really inspires and creates a way for you to think about what it is that you want in your life.

Well we all know that inspiration comes from many places. Well for the last few days. I knew that I need to get busy and start writing the book that I had meant to put out for the last year. Well today is the day I decided to put it out there to many people so that they would be able to help me with my goal and journey.

I want you to look inside of yourself and ask yourself what is it that you have been waiting to start in your life. What is it that is on the top of the list in your life that you need to accomplish. There are no guarantees in life that is for sure. We act most of us like we have more time than we really have.

I know what it means to live for today and plan for tomorrow. The issue here is that tomorrow never really comes we live in the present there is no tomorrow. The now is the only thing that we actually have on a day by day basis.

Most of us are waiting for the subway of our lives to stop on the platform in our minds to take us to the journey we are waiting for. I for one know that life stops for no one. Just look around. Everytime you pass someone on the street or see them in the store. You have not seen them before and you may never see them again. It is not that they do not exist but they have no meaning in your life except that they are in the same place as you.

Have you ever taken the time to wonder what another person is going through. Most of us have assumptions of what others are going through. You see a person who is cutting the lawn and with a lawn service. What are you really thinking? Do you realize that they have a life similar to yours? Do you see the doctor in the emergency room. Do you think that they may also be going through a crisis in their own personal lives? We have a great tendency to look at people and what I call "mind read." Except this type of mind reading is usually a projection of what we really believe deep down inside.

We have to open our minds to be able to be more creative with our thinking and how we see the world. Right now on the television and on the radio there is a lot of chatter about what is wrong with everything. What is wrong with everything? Do we not realize it is what we give power to is what shapes our world. What we believe strong enough becomes a truth for all of us. I travel quite a bit and in each country people have strong beliefs. That is why we laugh at different countries or people. We think their belief is very strange. Have you ever considered that what we believe to other nations is very strange as well.

What I am getting to right now is that the only world you can change is your own. We live basically very insulated in our minds. We share our beliefs with friends, families, cultures, religions, politics,,etc.... We are either labeled as women, men, husbands, wives, lovers, loners, workers etc... we are individuals who make up the whole of humanity.

Take the time to think for yourself. I have been taking time to just take time for me. Not tons of time but some time none the less. Be yourself. Think for yourself. Know yourself. When you get to know you . Then you will laugh . You will see how funny you actually are and be kind to yourself. You are the only you that you will ever really know. So when you see that person in the store or mowing the lawn know that as a fellow traveller on this earth they may be going through the same life you are just thinking about life on different terms.

Lighten up, Enjoy , and learn to do cartwheels like when you were a little kid...Denise

Walking with God

2010-02-25T08:56:00.000-08:00

The snow is falling and friends are staring out the window wondering when it will all stop. This is probably one of the more intense winters that we have shared in a long time. I am stopping right now to be able to give thanks for the fact I am in a warm home and have a way to convey my thoughts and ideas.

The comforting thing about snow is that is like a wonderful blanket that covers everything insight. I was taking pictures of the scenery in my backyard so that when the summer comes and the weather is like a furnace I can recall the chill of winter.

Unlike some people I enjoy the snow. I do not enjoy shoveling the snow but I enjoy the beauty of nature. We have a limited period on this earth and if we take the time to reflect on the time we have lived we will see that like a snowflake each day of our lives are different. They are only the same if we make them the same.

I have met some interesting people in the last few months. What strikes me about one person in particular is how they only seem to complain about everything in their lives. It is extraordinary to me that when you have perfect health that you would spend that time working at slowly deconstructing that health by constantly bathing yourself with negativity.

Lets face it folks at time life does get you down. It is not that you have to be a smiling Cheshire Cat all the time. Taking time to reflect in the good that is in your life is an important part of the healing process. I have seen people change over the last few months who have taken a hard look at their lives and realize that no one is holding them back but themselves.

The old adage thoughts will make you who you are is more true now then ever before. I know that for a few months I had been lost and felt like a boat without a sail. I still held onto prayer. I prayed like there was no tomorrow. ( I like that phrase think about that). Prayer and reflection upon the good that God has provided for you is very important. It does not mean that your hard time goes away. It is a healing balm that tends to the wound in your soul.

A burn victim will suffer countless suffering because without the skin on the body the nerve ending are exposed to the air and the pain is over whelming. The ability for the body to heal becomes compromised in the most horrible way. If the body is burned over a certain percentage there is certain death to follow.

Why bring this up? Well life offers searing burning experiences in life. Life offers beauty as well. If we use prayer and faith as the ingredient to heal us in our time of need know that it is a slow but steady recovery in our lives. Some of us have been burned by life's experiences. We feel disfigured in our lives. Have you lost a loved one to death? If you have you know that it feels like the world has come to a stop. Life around us moves in slow motion and we feel that we will never be able to approach life the same way again. Slowly and steadily if we are open to Divine Love we heal.

Relationships that do not work have a similar feel to them. Recovery of the heart is a slow and arduous process. We need to examine what put us in this place originally. Every relationship we encounter is a lesson that is for certain. The question I have for you is what have you learned and are you willing to change what you believe you deserve.

So back to what I started with the snow that is falling right now is beautiful and a gift from Nature. Behold the fact that you have vision to see it. Be glad that you have the ability to go out and either play in it or shovel it. Take comfort in the fact that you are not alone in this journey. Make yourself a really big cup of hot chocolate and put whipped cream on top when you want to . If you have a fireplace make a fire. If you are cold after being out reward and soothe yourself with a hot bath. Please buy some rubber duckies they are fun to watch. Be grateful for the fact you have a life.

Walk with God today. Take time to talk to God today. Hear the answers from within. You are a wonderful person just waiting to feel love enter your heart and life. Feel the peace of Nature. We are here for a short time so just enjoy. Let the hard words in your life fall to the wayside. Allow all the disappointments drop out of your mind like the snowflakes fall to the earth. Go outside and make snow angels. Enjoy and praise the child within your self. Blessings to you all Denise

Well what happens when you tell the truth

2009-07-14T05:32:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered what happens when you tell the truth. I will tell you that not everyone is ready to hear what you have to say. There are times when we tell the truth and it is seen as unwanted information because individuals feel that their feelings are being hurt. What lessons are we teaching eachother if we are not allowed to express our feelings. It is not from the perspective that we are speaking to hurt others. Sometimes we just have to get out what is in our heart.
For the listener it may cause confusion. For the teller there is a sense of relief. So how do we tell the truth without hurting others? I am not really sure how to do this but if it is done in love it will not hurt anyone.

Be love and speak love. Enjoy

Everyday and in Every Way Life is Getting Better and Better

2009-02-06T09:12:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone....it has been quite a while since I posted any messages and now is as good a time as any to resume my blog.

Recently, I have been receiving calls and messages from people who ask..."Where is my good? I have been praying and thinking about positive things and nothing is moving. Is this all just new age stuff and nothing is working?"

My answer is...New Age Stuff never works....plain and simple. The fact that you are praying and nothing is working...I have a question for you....If the answer is no or not now do you accept that as an answer?

Listen I do not think for one moment that during this time frame we are all re-evaluating what is important to us and our lives. I know people are struggling with their finances and struggling with their faith. This is the time we have all talked about for years. We are in full swing of the the earth changes. It affects every arena of our lives and every hamlet on the earth. Not one person will be excluded from the changes.

The very fact that you as an individual are questioning your beliefs is fantastic. All of us need to be true to what is valid for our thoughts and lives. The one thing I know for certain is that the only thing I have control of is myself. I have control over how I feel, think and what I say. Does that mean I am always filled with joy. No.

Life is hard folks and it is the way that you look at it is how you will make it through this wonderful time in our existance. I really believe in my heart of hearts that the world we have been used to is fading away. I believe that our thoughts and beliefs will get us through. I also know that some of you are going through some of the hardest emotional times of your lives.

I need to emphasis that you are not alone. You are being tested..I am being tested ...we are all being tested.

So what do you do? Seek help from within. Seek help from friends or family. Just seek help. Now is not the time to tell someone what to do. Now is really the time to listen and be compassionate with your friends. If they are hurting listen to them and agree that it must be hard for you right now. It really is very frustrating when people do not listen. We are not asking to be fixed we are just asking to be heard. Once you validate someone then they have the emotional support they need.

We cannot fix anyone but ourselves. You can pray and hold yourself and others in the Light of the Divine and see Divine Order in their lives. Again, it is not my will be done but, thy will be done. I do not believe we need to suffer but we do in life. I do not believe we need hardship be we do experience it anyway. I do not believe that we can always shoulder the burdens we experience but somehow we do. I especially believe that we do not I repeat do not call pain and suffering into our lives. I do think it is how we handle the struggles that makes the difference.

It is up to each and every person to take the time they need to work through their struggle. I do not know what the time frame is for you. Only you have the ability to make the decision to move on and I do not mean that in a pompus way at all. I have struggled and sometimes the decision to move on may be hard. We may want a pound of flesh...but in the end we are the ones who suffer by becoming bitter and hardened. That is more than likely the wisdom behind releasing and letting go.

We need to be able to hold onto the experience because if facilitates growth and let go of the emotion because is causes illness in our lives on so many levels. So my friends grow and be with God. Please feel free to share your ideas with me. I am praying for many now and would be honored to add you to my list. Peace to you all Denise

New Day New Thoughts

2008-09-30T06:56:00.000-07:00

What is it that you really want to do with your life. Let me share some of the things that have been going on in my world. I have new ideas and new thoughts every day..sometimes they work out and sometimes they don't.

What I have been doing is making a list of what I want in my life. Sometimes just speaking to a friend can bring out inspiration. We all need to be pushed a little bit to make our ideas into reality. Everyone right now is focused on the news and what the newsmakers are telling you ,"what we need to be concerned about." It seems that money is on everyones mind right now.

How is the change in the economy really affecting you? I cannot answer that question for you. You can only answer that for yourself. What is the cause of your anxiety over all of this? Please take the time to answer that for yourself.

I can share this with you, it is short but sweet. I really believed that I didn't need to follow my heart for the longest time. I believed that I had to be what someone else wanted me to be. I would sit and nod my head and be on top of the latest and greatest information in the industry that I used to work in.

I came up with ideas great ideas that others used. If I shared with you what those ideas were you would instantly know what I was talking about. I did not receive credit yet others reaped financial reward and awards. Then I came up with an idea for a story and shared it with someone he now wants all the credit for what was originally an idea I had based on dream.

So what do you do when someone steals your ideas? Do you continue on and come up with more ideas and then one day you will be the master of your ideas and your life? It is that when we believe that others deserve what we have worked for we give up our power. We hand over our
truth. When we stand by and say go ahead I cannot defeat you we defeat ourselves...

You have to be brave and strong in this world. You have to stand up for what you think is right. You may not always be victorious over people who have a skewed view of ethics but you are being strong in fighting for what is rightfully yours.

This has been called the world of illusion by many Masters. I know that at times the veil between reality and the shadows of the illusion part. I have seen the beauty of the Divine.
Right now is a call to arms. You need to be a part of new revolution. It is the revolution of the world of love. You have what you have. Your mind and your thoughts are all that you have. Do you hand over your opinions and thoughts to the workings of the media. Do you really take the time it takes to explore who you truely are? You my friend are a being of LOVE a being who was created by the Divine.

The world we live in is a classroom. It is not dictated by money. Sure money does pay the bills and supplies you with your daily needs. Money does not heal the soul. Money does not take pain and suffering away from your heart. It is your mind and thoughts that are stronger and more powerful than the stock market.

Without love and compassion in your life there is no life. You become an empty shell devoid of feeling the pleasures of life. That is all I am saying....Turn off the news. Be in the present moment go through your thoughts. Release and let go of those thoughts that do not help you. Find peace within yourself.

Remember you are Divine Love. Prosperity is a state of mind. This is the one thing that I can say for sure if you bless everything in your life things will change. Try it for yourself. Peace to you...Denise

The Beginning of A Story

2008-09-05T11:21:00.001-07:00

Today is the beginning of a new day. I will be posting my story Maryanne and the Majic Horse and the Band of Innocence.

Many years ago a story came into my head about children being so powerful that through their innocence they were able to change the way adults conducted business.

It goes with the old addage...a small child shall lead them.
Mary Anne is a young girl who is neither little or a teen ager...that is one of the hardest times in life if you remember...well. you wil be able to see the full story...in segments soon. Please share this with all your friends..it will inspire and bring joy to all who read it...The Story Begins...

Band of Innocence
MaryAnn and the Band of Innocence
Type of Work: Text
Registration Number / Date:
TXu000669463 / 1995-01-23
Application Title: Mary Anne and the band of innocence.
Title: Mary Anne and the magic horse : a story.
Description: 1 v.
Copyright Claimant:
Robert Agnello, 1953-, & Denise R. Cooney-Zajkowski, 1951-
Date of Creation: 1995
Other Title: Mary Anne and the band of innocence
Names: Agnello, Robert, 1953-
Cooney-Zajkowski, Denise R., 1951-
Zajkowski, Denise R. Cooney
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The Library of Congress
United States Copyright Office
101 Independence Ave., S.E.
Washington, D.C. 20559-6000
Female Narrator
Every story has its beginning. Tonight is no different. Stories from many countries and around the world talk about the beginning of time. Before I go any further you need to know the story of how it began. This is a story of Mary Ann and her Band of Innocence.
( Sounds of thunder can be heard in the background)
Fade to black
POV
(The camera swings into a circle.)
Clouds are swirling and lightning is flashing.
Shrouded figures are coming into view.
As the camera ( or scene develops)
Six figures are sitting around a fire.
In the fire are images coming into view.
Images of the creation of the earth.
The figures are of the elders
They sit in a circle Each time the camera
(or storyboard frame) zooms in on the character
Narrator:
Around the fire are the Elders who control
the world that you cannot see.
(The Camera or story board comes to the first Elder.
Each character will be drawn or seen as an element
of what they represent. In the scene will be
dramatic portrayals of each character)
Narrator:
The Fire Elder. The Nature Elder. The Wildlife Elder.
The Water Elder .
The Sky Elder and Mother Nature.
VO
The Narrator:
Many years ago before life began on our
planet the great Elders of Earth gathered
and decided how this wonderful planet
would be populated.
Scenes of the Earth forming
(Include shots of an ethereal matter
Coming into shape.
Dramatic scenes of water rushing in
Volcano forming and images of the four
Elders creating form on the earth)
VO (CONT’D)
Narrator:
The Fire Elder created the volcanoes that
made islands and valleys.
The Water Elder formed the oceans.
(Scenes of Oceans and Rivers.)
The Sky Elder made the sky blue, created
The wind and air for all to breathe
(shape of the wind and clouds
take human form in the sky.
Blowing and flying thru the
heavens)
Narrator:
The Nature Elder decorated the planet with
All that you know and see on the Earth.
(Scenes of flower, grass, trees, vines,
Forests and jungles being formed. )
Narrator:
The Wildlife Elder worked to bring from
Her mind all the creatures that you see.
(Camera pans to all fish swimming, inscets buzzing,
Animals coming out of the jungle and birds flying)
Narrator:
The Earth is thriving with life.
VO (CONT’D)
Then the Elders saw that they needed
Someone to guard all they created and
The spirits of the Elders were formed
to be guardians
The spirits of fire, nature, wildlife, water, and sky.
Mother nature touches each spirit that is the guardian
She is in charge of all who dwell on this earth.
All beings lived together without war.
Then the humans were born.
With that the spirits wrestled with what
They were taught to do.
There was an uprising and chaos ensued.
Shot of a man on a hill over looking a meadow that’s teeming with plant
and animal life. Close-up of his face shows a smile. A dark shadow slowly
crosses the land and comes over his face and his calm, serine smile
becomes a wicked grin.
VO (CONT’D)
There actually was a time when man and
plants and animals all could speak the
same language and live in peaceful
harmony.
Scene of people and animals walking and talking together
VO (CONT’D)
The guardian spirits who protected the
world were at ease now. They let man
multiply. To the four corners of the Earth
they settled. Agreeing to never take more
than their fair share of this wonderful
planet. Always protecting and respecting
the Mother which was this earth.
Scene of dark shadows falling across the ground
VO
With any lifeform egos ensue. What was once harmony
Becomes a place where people want power. Humans seem to forget
That they were created to be in harmony with the earth
And their brothers. What happened next was a day that created
The change in the world. The Elders knew it would happen
It has happened so many times before. This they knew would be no different.
They anticipated this and they gathered.
(Camera shot of the Elders meeting with a young girl)
When they gathered they laid out a plan. They put the plan in a safe place
It was with a girl. A child of 10. She had the innocence of youth. She trusted that when someone would not steal anything. She shared everything she had. That was what made her special. She shared her ideas and stories she trusted everyone. What the elders were about to tell her changed everything.
Fade to Black
Modern day shot
Here our story begins.......
.
Scene changes
United General Hospital
Labor and Delivery scene
HARAN KAZAN
Narrator:
(Haran Kazan is 6’ and strong
He is the considers himself
The wealthiest man in the country
possibly the world.
He is a ruthless individual.
He steals everything ideas
From inventor and says they
Are his own. He bullies
People into giving up their
Rights and takes over their
Businesses he only cares about
Money and power. The greater
The power the more he controls.
He is a dealer in fear and corruption)
Flashback scene
Camera zooms into his defense company
Shows him taking papers out of hand
(Shot of young man in an office standing by a desk)
VO
I had no idea you that you were willing
To corrupt our ideas . You wanted to
Work with me to develop technology
That would heal people
We never agreed to take these plans and
Make weapons and use this for destructive purposes
Kazan:
I do not care for you and your weakness.
Prove you had this idea first. I am the one
Who came up with the money to take this
Plan further. Leave with your good intentions
Money and Power are not for the weak.
Back in the hospital
He is seen
here talking to a very nervous
Dr. Kalish he is a Labor and Delivery doc and is half Kazan’s his height)
Kazan:
I really don’t care who is in the wing of
this hospital. Do you know who I am? I
could sell you right now to a country
where your family would never ever hear
from you again. I could do the same to your
family if you get in my way. My wife is
giving birth to my son. My heir. My legacy
and I don’t want anyone paying any
attention to anyone else. I want every
nurse and every doctor to make sure
my wife and child have the best, do you
understand, the best care they can get. And
if anything goes wrong
His voice echoes like thunder thru the halls of the hospital. The whole
staff has listened to everything Haran Kazan has said. Some turn to leave
but Kazan’s men are standing by the exits.
Dr Kalish
But Mr. Kazan Sir. I can’t move all the
patients from their beds just...
Mr. Kazan cuts him off. His voice is in a quiet rage.
KAZAN
Doctor, do you want your children to
always wonder what happened to their
father?
Kazan waits as four of his rather large employees surround the doctor.
Dr. Kalish
(Yelling so all can hear)
Please everyone listen up. We need to evacuate the patients from the E wing. We
can move them to the 3rd or 4th floor. The
chapel is also a consideration.
NURSE
But Dr. Kal…..
Dr. Kalish
Did you hear what was said here. Please
for everyone’s sake just lets get this done.
The whole hospital staff start moving patients into the hall. There’s
Confusion and orders being barked out. Security has questions but in the end the E wing is
completely cleared out.
Haran Kazan’s wife is now wheeled into a room at the end of the E wing.
She is hunched over and doesn’t seem to be aware of what’s going on.
The doors are closed immediately and after some time the doctor emerges
sweating and looking very worried.
Dr Kalish (CONT’D)
Mr. Kazan your wife is in serious
condition.
Dr Kalish (CONT’D)
The fetal monitor shows that the heart rate of the child is slowing down
We need to move quickly. You could lose the mother and child.
The doctor steps back Haran Kazan’s looks at the doctor with vengeance
In his eyes Haran stops himself he knows that his wife and child will not survive if he explodes. He has learned over the years to control himself in situations where he wants to be the most destructive. In his mind he wants to show the doctor a lesson but he knows a nervous doctor will kill his child.
KAZAN
I know you want to help my child. DO IT DON’T STAND HERE. LEAVE BEFORE I…..his voice trails off.
The doctor leaves quickly..he shouts…
Team lets get the mother prepped for delivery.
KAZAN (CONT’D)
He is thinking to himself
I care about baby. He is going to carry my name
and my legacy .A truly wonderful line
of humanity. This son will be the future.
My future. If anything happens to him,
anything,
Kazan looks at the clock. It’s 10:30 AM
Scene Change
.
MIDDLE CENTER HOSPITAL ACROSS TOWN.
DOUG LESO
(Doug Leso is a out of shape
of man. He is an ordinary person..
His shirt is half out
of his trousers with a couple of
the buttons not exactly buttoned right.)
Doug runs into the hospital he just about knocks over someone he looks up and sees that Doctor Pruden is waiting for him. Out of breath and bent over with his hands on his knees he whispers
Doug
Doctor Pruden you remember my deliver and she’s about to
wife.
Dr. Pruden who is Millys OB/GYN
looks at the old woman standing next to this young man. She
has the most electric blue eyes he has ever seen and
she’s leaning on a silver cane. A wisp of a smile crawls across her face and the doctor is in a
trance.
NANA (speaks up for doug)
I’m sorry my son is a little confused. This
is his first child. Milly is actually still in
the car but the poor boy is beside himself.
The Dr. Pruden shakes off the fog mentally
DOCTOR PRUDEN
Mr. Leso where is your wife?
DOUG LESO
She was, I can’t believe it I …geez….I
LEFT HER IN THE CAR!
Doug Leso goes running out of the hospital. The doctor waves to a nurse
to go with him. The nurse is following him as he goes thru the hospital
doors. As he goes out a very pregnant woman walks in.
NANA
Oh here’s my daughter in-law Doc.
A nurse gets a wheel chair while the doctor is looking for Doug to come
back.
NANA (CONT’D)
Dr. Pruden she is not doing well her water broke
about an hour ago and she’s in a lot of
pain. I think there is something wrong.
MILLY LESO
I don’t know but this doesn’t feel
right. There was lots of blood when the
water broke.
She is weak and passes out.
DR PRUDEN
Milly can you hear me? You are with me Doctor Pruden.
I am here and will help you will help you.
DR PRUDEN cont
Nurse take Mrs. Leso to the labor and delivery. We have an
Emergency. (He looks at Milly) Do not worry about a thing
I have a good track record and you have an appointment
With destiny….you are going to be a mom.
Dr Pruden looks around and says
Ok people lets get this show on the road ..we have a baby to deliver and a
Mom who needs our immediate care. Stat people this is not a dress rehersal!
The nurse is going to start and IV to help Milly get the medicine she needs to deliver.
DR PRUDEN
( says to Milly) You will feel a slight pinch and a tug. I am going to
Get ready to deliver your baby. I need you to focus look at me. Ready?
At that point Doug Leso runs in approaching a guard at the door and almost knocks him over as well. The guard grabs him.
DOUG LESO
Call the police. Someone delivered my
pregnant wife. I mean someone stole my
wife who’s pregnant. Oh no maybe they
kidnapped her for the baby? Maybe she
wandered off and she’s going to end up
having it on..
NANA
Doug, Doug, Milly’s up on labor and delivery
You had better go to her. You don’t want
To miss this moment. I will meet you upstairs.
Now GO!
Doug goes over to the desk sweat pouring all over his face with huge
sweat stains under his arms.
DOUG LESO
I’m having a baby I mean my wife well
were having
RECEPTIONIST
Sir, Did you register your wife? You know you have to fill out the papers first.
Doug fills out the forms Nana heads to the elevators.
NANA
I don’t like this. (she is thinking to herself). This is what was foretold
I only hope we are not too late.
Nana is about to step in the elevator but then decides to take the stairs.
People get in to the elevator but the doors refuse to close. Then they close
half way trapping the people inside. Someone hits the alarm and a
maintenance man comes running to the elevator just as Nana slides thru
the staircase door on her way to Labor and Delivery
NANA (CONT’D)
So that’s how they want to play it
Nana turns, smiles and stamps her cane and the elevator doors open then
she climbs the stairs. As she gets to the third floor she notices a cold
breeze following her.
NANA (CONT’D)
So your here but you can’t stop it
Something growls and laughs in a low distant voice.
Nana stamps her cane twice and smiles and the laugh is gone.
Nana waits for Doug. She is uneasy. She knows that Milly has gone into unexpected labor with complications. She sits with her eyes closed and goes into a world that no one can see. In the shadows she see figures that move towards the delivery room. She follows them in and with one word stops them in their tracks. With that the baby is born a beautiful 6lb 4 oz girl.
She screams and she has 10 fingers and 10 toes. Molly is tired as the nurses tend to her. Doug is weak in the knees and faints when the baby is born.
DR PRUDEN
10:30am time of birth. Good job mom and dad
Doug is weak in the knees and faints when the baby is born.
DR PRUDEN continued:
Nurse help the father. Everyone in the room chuckles.
Molly sighs.
MOLLY
Ah this is motherhood!
Nana is relieved they ( the spirits) are gone but she knows what she needs to do. She opens her eyes and waits for someone to tell her the good news.
Scene Change
General Hospital
Haran Kazan is standing with his men when the doctor comes out of the
waiting room. The dark shadow is still on the floor and the chill is still in
the air. The doctor notices this but ignores it. He has other issues.
DR KALISH
Mr. Kazan?
(Dr. Kalish is uncomfortable always in these moments he is avoiding looking into Mr. Kazan’s eyes. )
HARAN KAZAN
What happened Dr. Kalish
Is the baby alright
DR KALISH
I am sorry to tell you that there was a problem with your wife
HARAN KAZAN
(Voice softens almost as if he cares)
I asked about the baby. My son.
DOCTOR
The baby is fine Mr. Kazan He’s healthy
and alive but your wife I’m sorry..
As the doctor tries to tell Mr. Kazan that his wife has died Mr. Kazan
pushes him out of the way and enters the operating room. There’s blood
all over the table and his wife is motionless.
He rushes over to where the nurse has the baby.
He grabs the baby from her hands and looks into the baby’s eyes.
HARAN KAZAN
This is my son. Jason. I have waited for
you. You will be what I am and more. You
will have the life my father could never
give me.
(he thinks to himself) You will grow to be powerful,
smart and above all else a man. Of courage
and strength. Haran Kazan has his legacy.
His voice seems to thunder across the halls of the hospital.
Dr. Kalish tells the nurse
DR KALISH
Everyone handles grief differently. I feel sorry for the child he has a hard road ahead.
MIDDLE CENTER HOSPITAL ACROSS TOWN
Dr. Pruden comes into the waiting room to talk to Nana
DR PRUDEN
Nana you are a grandmother of a beautiful baby girl.
NANA
Thank you Dr. Pruden I know you did everything you
Could to help my granddaughter and daughter in-law.
How did my son do?
DR PRUDEN continued
Trying to hold back a smile.
He did not do so well he fainted
He is recovering nicely.
Seriously, things looked grim for a while but
Well. I am not sure what happened but
Things turned around and
She certainly will have an charmed life.
She is a special little girl. I understand
Her name is Thelia. That is a magical name.
NANA
She smiles.
You are so right Dr. Pruden You are so right.
Doug and Nana go into the maternity room. There is Milly and the baby. The
baby’s eyes are wide open and when Nana enters the room the baby starts
to coo. Doug goes over and kisses his wife and Nana moves closer to the
baby.
DOUG LESO
Honey I was so worried but Mom was right
MILLY LESO
Your Mom’s always right Doug
NANA
It was Doug that saw this Milly. He’s the
one that helped it along.
DOUG LESO
(looking at the baby)
Oh my I can’t believe it. She’s so beautiful.
NANA
Doug she looks like Milly. Doesn’t she.
MILLY LESO
Nana I think she looks like you
NANA
I don’t think so dear. She has your beauty.
(Milly interrupts)
Honey I knew you wanted a different name for the baby, But when they asked I said Thelia is that ok? I just thought……
DOUG LESO
Thelia? That’s my mothers name.
They both look at Nana and she smiles a smile that lights up the room.
MILLY LESO
Nana I owe so much to you. You are so
much a part of this family that I would like
to bless this baby with your name.
MILLY LESO
I love your Mom. Thelia.
Milly passes the baby over to Nana. And a wisp of a smile comes across
the baby’s face.
Over the next 10 years both Thelia and Jason live very different lives.
Jason is a bully. Typical underhanded boy. He is mean to everyone and never is found out because he threatens to hurt the kids if they tell. In school and around adults he is a perfect gentleman. He is a chameleon and a dangerous one at that
Thelia on the other hand is the champion for good and kindness. Her soft
touch and gentle words gain the respect of everyone from child to adult.
Her Dad is amazed at the understanding Thelia has shown to everything
and everyone except her brother.
EXT SMALL TOWN WITH ROW HOUSES 1982
It’s 1982 and the scene opens with a shot of anywhere USA. Sprinklers on
the front lawns, paperboys delivering papers and even a milk truck
delivering milk. In the background you can hear Eye of the Tiger playing
on someone’s stereo.
Camera closes in on two houses with RV’s parked in the driveways. These
are the homes of the Leso’s and the Parker’s. They are preparing for their
annual mountain camping vacation. Two woman are running back and
forth between their houses and the RV’s. They stop to talk over a small
row of hedges.
WOMAN 1
Every time we go away he gets lost on
some errand. This time it’s batteries. Last
time it was rope. Jeez I think he just makes these things up. And I’m left packing the cmper
WOMAN 2
That’s OK You’ll get a lot more done
without him. Bill went in to deal with the
kids. Every Saturday it’s the same thing.
Yelling and screaming. I told Bill let’s just
get Thelia a small TV for her room. But Bill
doesn’t want anything that could take her
away from her school work. I feel so bad.
She really misses Nana.
WOMAN 2 (CONT'D)
It’s just been over a month and I still can
see the look in her eyes. She holds onto
that silver cane like she’s waiting for Nana
to come back and get it. So sad. And I miss
her too. She was always someone I could
talk too and she understood Thelia so well.
They were like sisters rather than
granddaughter and grandmother.
WOMAN 1
It’s such a shame. She was so healthy. I
think this trip will be good for Thelia. Mia
has been talking about it all week. Maybe
she’ll really enjoy it?
WOMAN 2
I hope so. I don’t know what else to do.
Summer is almost over and I don’t want
her going into the school year with this
weight on her shoulders. She’s only nine.
It’s too young to have a loss like this. It’s
so senseless. One day Nana is gardening
and the next moment she’s gone.
Young Thelia and Bill Leso are arguing in the living room of their home
like they usually do on a Saturday morning.
Bill
“We always watch your shows Thelia why
can’t I watch mine. I never get a chance.
Bugs is coming on and you made me miss it
last week to watch Faerie Tale
Forest. I am tired of the same …
THELIA
(Thinking to herself she does not even pay attention to him anymore. She could play out what he says like a script…she curls up her nose and pretends to say what he says all the time)
.
I think I hate him. I know he’s my brother and I love him but I hate
him. He’s so annoying sometimes.
Scene of Bill hiding on a tree branch.
Like the time he hid in the trees just to scare me and my girlfriends or
when he taped conversations about what my friends said about the boys
and played them back at dinner. He is always around and bothering me
when I’m concentrating on homework or just trying to sit and dream. And
now since Nana passed away.... How long has it been.
(Shots of Thelia and her
Grandma)
It was her Grandma or Nana as the kids called her that practically raised
Thelia. But Nana is a whole other story.
THELIA (CONT’D)
(Still dreaming thinking to
herself)
Well today is the day of our family’s big camping trip. Every year we go
with Mia’s family. I’m just not in the mood this year. I love Mia and she’s
my best friend and everything but I can’t get into the week camping spirit.
I know Dad really likes Mr Parker because they both work at The Cookie Factory. Everything I do or see or hear or smell reminds me of Nana.
Even thinking of Dad and Mr. Parker. When Dad comes in to do career day
he brings in a sample of all the cookies he makes or has invented.
(Scene of Thelia’s Dad standing in a classroom with Thelia handing out
cookies.)
DAD
And here we have Thelia’s favorite Chocolate Chip Cookies
Thelia’s loved Chocolate Chip Cookies.
Nana used to talk about her young days in
Baking with her mom in London and it sounded so wonderful
Thelia could not wait to grow up and
go with Nana there. But now Nana is gone.
When Thelia’s Mom had told her about Nana passing away Thelia couldn’t
believe it.
Scene of Thelia’s Mom crying and talking to Thelia. Her Father stands
behind them with tears in his eyes.
Her immediate reaction was to cry but she had this feeling that
Nana wasn’t really gone. She felt no loss in her soul as Nana had told her
(Flashback )
NANA
She is holding Thelia
Remember Thelia when you love someone they live forever in your heart. Whether it is a person or an animal. Their love lives and stays in your life. No one really dies they just change. Just like when you dream you feel its real. I want to tell you even when it is my time….and that time will come…I promise you I will never leave you ..Just think of me and I will be there. I promise. Believe me.
THELIA
She did feel Nana was still around. She starts daydreaming about Nana and the stories she would tell. About the spirits of the earth and the spirit of man and animals. She’s jolted back to reality by her brother Bill playing his toy bugle in her face.
TRUMPET
“Blahhhhhh.”
Thelia screams and grabs the trumpet and throws it against the wall.
BILL (Screaming)
“Thelia I think you broke it,”
The two children start to argue.
BILL (CONT’D)
Dad Thelia broke my trumpet. My favorite
trumpet.
THELIA
Dad Bill almost blew out my ear drums.
DAD
(Entering the room)
“OK thats it. Both you guys go upstairs
and get ready we’re leaving in about five
minutes and I don’t want to hear
someone,”
Dad looks at Bill
DAD (CONT’D)
“Has to go to the you know what, to do you
know what. Understood.”
Bill looks down and nods.
DAD (CONT’D)
“I would like to hear how much you two
love each other or silence on a Saturday
morning but I could settle for a yes Dad if
you two will get ready.”
KIDS
“Yes Dad,”
Both Thelia and Bill run upstairs to get ready.
The Leso’s and Parkers finally make it to their campsite in the mountains
but only after a couple of pit stops. The night air was crisp. There were so
many stars that the sky looked like a blanket of snow. All around were the
sounds of the night. The adults and children finally settled into their tents
and were all asleep. Thelia was the only one who couldn't fall asleep that
night.
THELIA
(lying in her sleeping bag)
"Strange, I keep hearing voices. As if
someone’s calling me but I can’t make out
what their saying. Mom. Dad. I hear
something. The voice sounds so familiar.
Is there someone out there?"
Thelia again tries to wake up her mother and father but they would not
get up. Even her brother Bill, who was always around, was fast asleep in
his sleeping bag..
THELIA (CONT’D)
How could they sleep so soundly?
I wish we could have slept in the camper.
Thelia needed to find out what the sound was so she got up and walked
outside the tent to sit by the fire.

22.
THELIA (CONT’D)
"This is real weird. Something or
someone is calling to me”.
Out in the darkness beyond the light of the fire voices mingled with the
night sounds.
WHISPERED VOICES
A faint sound is heard
Out in the darkness Thelia could see shadows. Was it here imagination or
were they were taking shape.
THELIA
OK so if I can’t sleep maybe I can make a
game out this. Like Nana and I did with the
clouds in the sky on our picnic
Thelia stood up and tried to make out the figures in the night.
THELIA (CONT’D)
OK that shape looks like a lion, and that
one looks like a Navajo warrior with a
headdress. That ones easy that looks like a
Viking helmet. That’s a ninja sword and
there is a suit of armor.
She looked to her left just thinking that Nana would be standing there. But
no one was there. Only the shadows.
Her thoughts went back to the stories her Nana would tell her, of the
Great Spirits, the Ancient Ones and a group known as the Band of
Innocence.
Shot of Old woman reading to Thelia by a fire.

This is the best day of your life

2008-05-30T07:19:00.001-07:00

Hey folks this is the best day of your life.

I know that the world at large is stating that we have lack everywhere we go. That is what the media would like us to believe. Fear and suprise sells papers. It makes great news stories. It keeps the public mesmerized to the screen. Right now CNN is on the background and there is a facination with hearing about news that is riddled with pain and human trauma.

I want to say this to all of you ...."THERE IS ONLY GOOD." This is a simple statement. You have choices people everyday of your lives. There are choices to make decisions whether you will focus in on the good or the so called bad in our lives. We do have choices. I have found myself giving blow by blow images to friends of the so called bad that has occured in my life.

I heard a crash literally the other evening while I was in bed. I looked around the house and there was nothing to be found. I realized that it was a boom from the universe to make me become aware of what I was doing. It was ironic that while "I slept I woke up to the realization that my world was being formed and created by my words."

The more often I spoke about the state of my life. The more frequently things would be as I stated whether I spoke about the good or the not so good. I was created a chaotic life and living in a chaotic world. I know better folks but I got really caught up in the clamities of my life. I was truely awakened to the noise in my life by a boom at night.

Since that evening which has not been that long ago. I have noticed that my life is running much smoother. I am really taking responsibility for thinking and saying what I really feel I want in my life. I am not going to give a running commentary on things that need blessings in my life.

The amazing thing about blessings is that they create change in life. Please believe me. I have had so many blessings lately. Blessings are more powerful now than ever before. I do not claim to know why...I just know that it works.

Here are some steps to enjoying the bliss in your life. First become really serious about what is in your life that you know without a doubt that needs to change. Then take the time to talk to yourself about changing your thoughts....if you change your thoughts you have control over your world.

Take the time it takes to become very clear on what you want and write it down. Have a plan that you can look at and take it out often. Also take the time to clear your plate this is very important. If you are holding on to resentment this will work less effectively. You have to let go of thinking that resentment is important. If you do you will lose on the greater good that is waiting to come to you.

So take time to let God handle all the pain, frustration and sorrow that has put you behind the eight ball of life so to speak. I want to tell you honestly there have been a few things in my life that have been holding me back and it is time to let them go.

Then get clear about what you think you deserve...be big and be bold do not hold back on this one folks. What you allow yourself to let in is very telling...Let it all go and see what happens.
Take charge and control fo what you can eliminate from your life. Put your life in balance.

Then start focusing in on the good that is out there. Speak out loud and bless all things in your life it is an amazing process. You will see greater good rushing to you. Make lists of what you need and take them in your hands and bless them. DO not think about how it will get to you just know it will. Look at life with new eyes....Know that "everything in your life is in Divine Order."
Say that outloud especially when things make the appearance of chaos. It is amazing how much power you have in the spoken word.

Truely people your word is your wand. Also your words become your world....Remember the phrase.."and the word became flesh"

Those words were not an allagory they were the truth. The truth is all around you if you just are open to it. Well friends./////be happy and enjoy the day...contact me if you want...you have my address. I would be happy to help you in any way I can.....enjoy

Repeat often...I am Prosperity....I am Success.. Nothing can hold back my good....everything in my life is in Divine Order.....Nothing can be taken from me that is given to me by Divine Right..........Divine Justice creates harmony in all my affairs.....

Enjoy.......your day and enjoy your life...blessings and peace to you all.

life is a bonus

2008-02-13T07:15:00.001-08:00

Life my friends is a bonus. Today it is raining and yesterday it was storming. You just have to look outside and see how beautiful the day really is. Last night I was thinking about all the things that I have done in my life.

I have been a witness to so many things. I have seen acts of kindness, cruelty and indifference. There is no perfect world and there are no perfect people. We have our imagination to create what ever we want to create. That is a great place to be for the most part. It is in our imagination that we create who we are and what we believe our lives to be. If you focus in on cruelty and anger you can find it where ever you go. If you are in love and happy usually you see nothing but joy and good.

It is the ability to stay in that state of being that is the key to life that is able to bend and flex with the way life is. Life is ever changing. There are times in all of our lives that we wish we could press the fast forward button. That my friends is the truth. Someday I will pass from this earth and so will you. I am trying to the best of my ability to live every moment to its fullest.

It is hard to enjoy life when you focus in on what is wrong with life. It is important to deal with life on lifes terms. That means being in the moment and experiencing what ever is happening with detachment. Granted it is not easy to "be in the world but of the world"

That means to me to be an objective observer of your life and not let your judgement get in the way. How easy is that? Well it isn't. I have been so angry with a situation that I could not see straight. I have been so worried and anxious over a situation that I had a headache. It is only when I become centered myself that I can see that everything in life is truely temporary. Everything and everyone only is here for a moment in time. Even the greatest tragedy or happiest moment is fleeting. That is because in this classroom of life everything is a lesson to be learned.

In my studies of karma and in my private practice I notice that clients seem to gravitiate to the same issues unless they decide to grow. I notice that about myself as well. Recently someone dear to me said since he has known me I have always been just on the verge of some wonderful success only for someone else to take the glory.

I had to sit and think about that. Maybe it is true that a few large events have been given credit to others but I look at it this way. Without my intervention some rather large changes may not have happened. What would happen if all great ideas just stayed in you mind. Would these ideas be wasted? That is a good question.

Point in case. Many years ago Fran Peragine ,who worked as a VP at HBO. We were talking and pitched an idea to HBO to produce and promote for a concert for Africa. We put a company together and contacted many musicians. My partner at the time was working for a rather famous producer and I had worked with Bill Graham (Promoter) at one time. We made arrangements with PBS and talked to King Biscuit a syndicated radio show about doing this concert...well to a make a long story short...it became LIVEAID>

The reason I bring this to your attention is that at times things are meant to be in the world but maybe you are not the one to receive the acclaim. You myself are just the messenger. Being a messenger is not an easy pill to swallow at times. However if any of you have had a bad day and realized that the one who receives the reward for something you initiated leaves you frustrated-----don't be upset. Remember without you the world not be a better place.

enjoy your life and stay in touch.....

Learn to Laugh

2008-01-14T09:14:00.000-08:00

Hello it is the new year and I have not put out a blog for over two months. Well it is the new year and I want a blog that everyone will be able to participate. I will be working on joy and happiness. To add the fun I will be asking everyone to email me or post comments on how you are doing as a community.
First things first. If we are unhealthy then we are not living life to our fullest potential. I want to say that I am commited to improving my body and giving it the gift of strength and great nuitrition. In the following episodes I will be sharing with you time management strategies that work so you can be the best person you want to be.
I recently went to a gathering and it was filled with the most wonderfully engaging people that I had met in a long time. We talked of so many things that it was filled with laughter and joy. There was not one lull in the entire evening.
What makes chemistry and magic between people. It is the intention that everyone throws out to make life fun. We have to take a few steps back into our lives only to see what does not work. Hey I am guilty of getting stuck in a rut and having the same discussions over and over again. What do they accomplish?????????????????? Nothing at all. It is always the same impasse. I only say what I say because this time I will convince this person I am right. Guess what it does not usually work that way. I know because I know.
So what does work? Lots of things. First off learning to be patient enough to know when you need to act and when you need to be still. I used to just act and then all hell would break lose. I know now that even when things do not go as planned. Sit back and what the plan that is now unfolding before my eyes.
For example I turn on the weather and it says 10 feet of snow. I look outside and inspect what I see. Nope does not look even remotely like there will be a lot of snow. I have learned over the years that certain natural phenomena has to occur before weather changes radically. I will share that with you another time. For now lets stick at the matter at hand.
Our lives are like a weather report. For the most part we listen to well intentioned friends on what will or won't happen in our lives. They do not know what is in store for us they are using skills based on their own experience. Granted they may be right about certain things but, this is the big but you have been waiting for, you are not wanting to have their experience you want your own.
If you have a receipe for making bread you can pretty much bet that everyone will use the same receipe but each loaf will be slightly different. Even if all the ingredients are measured out the same it will be different. That is why when you are searching for happiness and joy what you want is always going to be different than what your friend or neighbor are searching for.
One of the gifts that I have is the ability to work with people to find out what their unique joy is. What is it that you are searching for. I am going to be working on the blog for the rest of the year. I am inviting you and all of your friends to be a part of this greater experiment in searching for the joy that exists within you. I will be having a workshop 0n March 15 in Oakland, New Jersey for those that can attend. For those of you who want to be a part but cannot travel...well I will be making tapes or cds...be a part of the new year resolution to make your life great.
First gift we are going to work on is the thoughts behind you stopping yourself from your goal. Remember each goal is different but the way to approach it will be guided by you. Weight will be addressed. Why weight? Well your health is important. In order to follow your dreams you need to be in the best health you can be. I know I overcame cancer and it is so important to bless that gift of life. So what do you think? Please feel free to post on the blog or email me denisercooney@gmail.com If you cannot attend in person we will be able to set up a seperate page and you will be able to be a part of this great experiment of life....enjoy your life and enjoy your world...Peace Denise

The beauty of life as we know it

2007-11-30T15:04:00.000-08:00

I am at the computer thinking about the weather. It is almost winter here on the east coast. Yet when I went riding around the other day I saw trees holding onto their leaves. Some were absolutely brillant they looked like a flame. Then it really hit me hard when I saw flowers blooming on bushes that should have long ago stopped blooming.

Global warming as it is really hits each and everyone of us while the weather becomes more and more intense in so many ways.. There are water shortages in the south. Fires in the west. Storms flowing in the north. Here in the northeast we seeminly are having the best weather of all. Regardless this is the life that we have. I am not complaining. I do not know what else to say about this other than this. The beauty of life as we know it is changing every day.....every day we have to get closer to what we really want to do in life.

Before there was the laws of man there were the laws of the universe. We live and then we die. Hopefully in between we enjoy every moment of every event. Somehow when life is not working the way we want it to it becomes a painful event. Through the pain we gain insight and learn how to do things a different way.

Sometimes we repeat over and over again the same mistakes...for instance do you ever get into a fight with a loved one and have the same fight over and over again...oh you do. Well that is the lesson you need to learn. Until you learn to say what you really mean then you are doomed to repeat the lesson over again.

For instance if you are really saying love me...but you actually say..."you forgot to do"...".you don't really care about me"..."how could you"...etc.....if you are really saying love me because I am afraid you may not....then say it....it is just like the leaves that linger on the tree long after they need to fall. They may be beautiful to look at but they remind us that things are out of sinc in our lives.

Nature they say is a reflection of how we as mankind are living our lives. If that is true then we a whole need to be in sinc with ourselves. I know for a fact there are plenty of people out there who do not have a conscious and it is a foreign experience for them to feel remorse or even be able to reflect what they have done to hurt others..

But I also know there are more people who do have a conscious and really are searching for the truth within themselves. It is the time to find out who you are and be grateful that you are on the path you are on...for the rest of you ...get into the holiday spirit...learn to release and let go...this is the time to forgive and forget the past and look forward to the future with an open heart and know what ever it is that you want you honestly will receive.

Re evaluate your life and look at the beauty of nature. Look at the beauty of your life. Change your thinking and you will change your world....peace to you...enjoy your life...Denise

The Flow of Life as we know it

2007-11-28T18:15:00.000-08:00

What is better on this earth than enjoying the sunset? So many pleasures we are given to enjoy and take in. Because it was just thanksgiving we had food to eat. Friends and family to enjoy. Weight to watch increase and laughter all around.

After the laughter and the gathering we are back to the business of living. All around us right now are thoughts of economic failure, enviornmental problems, war, domestic problems and where are we going with all of this?

The flow of life as we know it has not really changed. The way communication is distributed has changed but life as a whole has not changed. We breathe, we live, we die. There is nothing magical about that but that is what we do. The stuff we do in between is what counts. I once had a thought of ...what if the real meaning of life was to stay focused in on the now. The real now the time that just is right now even as you read this. Not the past which is every word that has passed but the immediate energy in which you are now.....the thing called life...what if being in the present and not having plans for a day was what it was all about.

Imagine just being. Imagine just feeling love. Imagine just knowing that you did not have to do anything but just be. In this state of consciousness you would be open to what is motivating you. You would be open to what it is that you are supposed to be doing with your life. You and me all of us on this earth truely have a purpose to fulfil. Most of us get bogged down with the nitty gritty of life and forget what our true goal is.

For each person it may be different but none the less we all have a job to do. Most of us are stuck on the commerical break and not working on the movie of life that is who we are. We are divine beings of light period. what does that mean anyway? That means we can create our lives to be what ever we want them to be. In this time frame it seems that people believe they are helpless in the world. The world is our responsibility and we are the guardians.

Wonder is a beautiful thing

2007-11-15T08:44:00.000-08:00

Wonder is a beautiful thing....what else do we have but wonder in this world. What else do we have but the dreams that make us get up in the morning....Without dreams our world becomes cold. It becomes flat. It turns into a pattern that we follow day in and day out. I am convinced that life as we know it has the potential to open and create for each and everyone of us a diagram of what our purpose is.

Sometimes we do not follow the inner voice that drives us to do what is right. I am sitting at my computer right now doing what I do best. Discussing life with myself and put my thoughts out to others about what life may have to offer.

I am not sure if my life is really at it fullest potential at the moment. I am sure that I am doing the best that I can. Have I spread my self too thin? Am I doing so many things that I am not doing for myself? These are the things I think about.

I went to a beautiful website today and enjoyed the beauty of Lake Quinalt in Olympic National Park. I took a quick vacation mentally soaking in the glory of nature. There are so many wonderful places to visit on this earth. When I use my imagination to visit these sacred places on the planet I feel rejuvinated. The smell of the moss. The coolness of the lake. The quiet of the forest broken by the gentle footsteps of the animals that remind us who is visiting who.

It is the mystery of the fog that settles like a blanket over the floor of the meadow that brings peace and stillness to my mind and heart.

So what do you do for yourself to take time out and enjoy your life. Daily living can really cause anyone to become bogged down and just through your hands up in the air and say "hey there is just not enough of me to go around!" You could do that ...I am sure at times we all do that. I do not want to become stale in my joy of living. There are times that I know I am not living to my fullest potential ...I know I already mentioned that but it is true. I do not want to be in rut.

Life is so short......so what is it that you want.....take time to look and wonder.....wonder is a beautiful thing....enjoy

What a Beautiful Life

2007-11-05T06:39:00.000-08:00

Ok so sometimes life is not so beautiful. Ok so sometimes you are bored and not sure what to do. Have you ever been in a place in your life that you knew instinctively that things had to change. Not that you wanted things in your life to be different but, you realized that if you did not change them they would be this way for a long time!

Well what did you do to evoke change in your life...let me ask you this....are you afraid to make changes in your life? Are you worried that if you change your life something or someone you love would leave?

I have heard of people who keep the status quo because they are afraid. Afraid of being a success, failure, alone, rich, poor, married, single, with children, without children, homeless, too much of a mortgage, not pretty enough, not smart enough, not young enough, not old enough, not creative enough....you get the picture. Well what is stopping you from receiving your dream of dreams...what is stopping you from being the very person you want yourself to be.

Are you stopping what you want out of life because you do not believe you deserve it . OR do you stop yourself because you do not know how to get what you want...I will ask this of you. IF you could have anything that you wanted (outside of asking someone who has passed away to come back) in this lifetime what would it be? Stop and think for a long while on what it is that you want out of your life. What did stop you.....?????? Was it because of what...what....money,,,,career,,,,,happiness,,,,,marriage,,,,choices what.....What stopped you? Let me say this....I have tried many things in life. I have been responsible for some of the largest events that you would recognize. LiveAid was called USA for Africa...I worked with many people to do the leg work on that...Bill Graham was my former boss. He worked with others and it became a legendary success. I have coined phrases that are now house hold expressions. There is a program in New Jersey that I worked on with Walter Borowitz that we put together that went to state legislature. It is for Fire and Ems personnel and their families to reach out for counseling....Did I make great sums of money for my efforts. NO but, I did reach the goal of many things that I wished to accomplish.

My time is coming to reap the rewards but for now I am happy to work and do what I want to do. This is one thing that I enjoy more than anything else. Writing and hopefully inspiring people to do what they want to do....with their lives....Life is short my friend and getting shorter all the time. I ask that you do not stop yourself from enjoying your life. I ask that you send this blog to friends and enjoy your lives....DO what you want to do always...it is a beautiful life after all....it is the only life that you will know so enjoy each second as if it is your last because you never know really when that day is.......go out and do good things and be the person you know you are...peace and lots of love to you....Denise

The Life We Live

2007-11-02T13:08:00.000-07:00

Life is short. You have heard that said over and over again.... What does that mean to you? To me it means not doing what I want to do and doing things that are required of me not what I want to do. Right now I am reworking my life and doing what I want to do everyday. I realize that the secret is how I allow myself to spend my time. How we spend our time is dictated by what we do. That is absolutely true.

There are certain things we cannot avoid. Paying bills. Working so we can make money to pay the bills. Cleaning the house. Shopping etc...etc...etc... What we have control over are our thoughts. I am working on stopping wasting my time on thoughts that get me no where. They are the thoughts about "what might happen if." They are the thoughts about people,places, and situations that I have no control over.

You would think that after surviving cancer I would spend each and every day in joyous celebration over having a second chance at life. That is how I spent many of my days following the end of treatment. Then life started to get in the way. I lost the vision of what was importanat. I started to think about things that I had no control over. Worry was the number one enemy in my life that prevented me from taking the time to re evalutate what was important. Even when I knew that life is as fragile as an egg shell I allowed myself to go head first into certain situations that did not promote my emotional well being and as a matter of fact I became lost in the emotional ocean of worry, anger and fear.

Then one day I said to myself, "Hey what are you doing? Do you realize that you are wasting the life that was given back to you!" I was amazed that I allowed myself to become bogged down with things that I could not change even for a second. There are certain things in life that you just have to accept. I do not think I need to give examples of this. I am certain we are all aware of what we waste time on.

I want to be alive and live life. I want to be in a state of joyful wonder all the time. I do not want to wonder and worry about life. I just realize that acceptance of life is greater. I have taken life by the horns and want to ride it for all it is worth. I know that I can do what ever I want to do. The trick is to know what to do....

That is what I am working on now. I want to be able to go out and lecture, write again, and just enjoy the day. Enjoy your life...you created where you are...if you do not like it then change it. Remember to take care of yourself....Enjoy the day