Diary of A Desperate Naija Woman

I Kid You Not.

2012-02-18T09:01:00.000-08:00

This morning, I woke up happy somehow. I was pleased to be alive and to know that those I loved were alive and well too but then soon, before I could sniff, my mood changed. I cannot explain how come. It just did. I hid my face in my pillows and spoke to God. I thanked him for waking me up and for keeping me and mine safe through the night. I apologised to him cos I had no real reason for my

In The Morning

2012-02-13T14:29:00.000-08:00

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Who Needs A Brain?

2012-02-09T10:24:00.000-08:00

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Literally.......

2012-02-06T08:00:00.000-08:00

My last born son is eight years old. I have three children and they are all wonders. Not only are they wonders, they will do wonders in their generations. If you are a mom, I hope you are believing same and shouting AMEN over your wonders too. If you are a mom to be, I still hope are saying AMEN too for your children waiting to be born. You better be. That is what faith is all about. Anyway, this

When Loving Gets Tough

2012-02-04T12:22:00.000-08:00

As long as God is still God and he is in charge of it all then I will keep standing. It does not matter what I see, hear or even what I feel. And boy, am I feeling pain right now. But after lying in the dark for close to 10 hours, just me, my God and my raving mind, I got up, put on my CD player and blasted the volume to the max. I did not even care what CD was playing. I just needed it to

Stolen

2012-02-01T11:05:00.000-08:00

You catch me like a thief in the nightYou hold me when I put up a fightYou chase me when I run from your lightBecause you love, you won’t give upTill my heart is stolen! (Lyrics of ‘Stolen’ by Brandon Heath)Listen to this awesome song! Please read the words up there over again. And again. Do you know of any human being that is capable (in the flesh) of loving like this? I mean, think about it.

A Letter to my Mother (a.k.a That's ALL)

2012-01-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

Dear Mom Is it true what I hear? That you would say that? And do this?Oh, I'm sorry mom, forgive me for not asking how you are.I have not lost my manners since you left. Just got a lot on my mindThat's all. But is it true what I keep hearing? Are you seeing and wondering?Was parenting or being a child this hard when you were living?I don't know mom but sure wish you were here with me.That's

Hope as My Light

2012-01-27T05:46:00.000-08:00

Today, I recognise God as the hope that leads me out of the dark. You know the kind of dark that screams.The kind you can almost touch. It’s so palpable that you actually stretch out your arms to ward it off. Dark so black that uncertainty and despair almost take on human form and you are sure that you can feel them breathing down your neck.Yes, when things get THAT dark, that is when God

Hot Today, Gone Tomorrow

2012-01-22T14:05:00.000-08:00

As I walked into church this morning, I could not believe the words I heard coming from the pulpit. Was this a joke or did God just truly wait for me to walk in to send me that message? I shook my head in amazement cos there I was internally worried about missing praise and worship cos I had promised God a serious dance offering only to come into his presence and hear: ''Do not worry about the

The Strife of Tongues

2012-01-21T10:21:00.000-08:00

First of all, I want to thank God for Life. Yes, Life. What would we be without Life? Nothing cos only the living deal with stuff. So, if I am dealing with stuff it means I am alive and I am grateful for my status. Alive DNW. Alive and well. Thank you Lord. I must confess though that before I rose to the level of gratitude, I was mad. Yes, I was really angry. Over the years, from time to time,

My Father's Eyes

2012-01-18T14:25:00.000-08:00

I have been trying to look at people through God's eyes more and more. I have failed more often than I have succeeded but I am not going to give up. The few times that I have kept my God lenses on, I tell you, its such a beautiful feeling. The wave of genuine love and acceptance you feel for the other person, regardless of what they have done or not done, is incredible. Almost to the point of

Tears on My Pillow

2012-01-16T06:13:00.000-08:00

I am crying happysad tears because I am missing my first born son. I am happy cos he was able to come home for Christmas but I am sad cos that's what we hallmark mothers do. We pray for our children to grow up and go to college. Then when they do, we cry cos we are sad to see them go. I am happy cos he survived Delta Airlines' nightmare flight experience! I was proud of the way he held it

True Confessions

2012-01-12T03:24:00.000-08:00

I did not write this today. But today, I felt a nudge from my PapaGod to post it. And so quite reluctantly but obediently, I am. God knows best so he must know someone has need of it. Plus, I think God knew ahead that I would be in a 'bright enough' place today to be able to share this conversation I had with Him with you. I pray that it speaks to you and gives you an insight into how God sees

Putting All My Eggs In One Basket

2012-01-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

I have always known that most of the time, with God, things never make sense. At least according to the world. Doing things God's way makes you look foolish and weak more often than not. I am used to it. And to be honest, I have ceased to care. Yes, I have ceased to care what people think about my actions. Especially when ''people'' means me, myself and I. For as some of you might know, the

Best Friends Forever (BFFs)

2012-01-09T08:11:00.000-08:00

First, I have to holla at my first two blog commentators of 2012! Ilola and Ibifiri! Girls! You both rock and my prayer for you both is that you not take one single step without holding God's hand in 2012. I also pray that you experience God's love like never before this year in Jesus name. Amen! Amen! And Amen! Betty? Thanks for standing with me.....Kandi? Right back at you! Right back at you.

I Am Salt

2012-01-07T06:28:00.000-08:00

I love the number 7 so when on 31st of December 2011, my blog basically crashed out on me, rather than explode because I was just a few key strokes away from finalizing my second to last blog of the year, I took a deep breath, exhaled and decided that THAT was it for me till the next year. I was NOT going to blog till 2012 came around. And I was NOT going to blog till the 7th of

The Five Things I Know For Sure As 2011 Dies Out

2011-12-30T09:31:00.000-08:00

I cannot tell you how glad I am to see the back of 2011. I have a love/hate relationship with this year and cannot wait for it to hit the road! Do not get me wrong, I am grateful for the many wonderful blessings from God that occurred. I am so grateful for God's mercies and faithfulness And so I love 2011. BUT I am so mad at how much territory the devil took from me as well (OK, maybe I gave it

And The Women Cried Out Some More...Rain or No Rain! (Part 2)

2011-10-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know, I was meant to post this yesterday but cut a woman some slack biko. Between the horrible internet connection I am having and my work load, I did not 'see chance' to do much online yesterday. Today, I had to lay hands on my PC and speak to it to let me post this cos a Part 2 posted 2 days after a Part 1 is just not good at all. Lol! So here goes and I pray once again, that it 'speaks

And The Women Cried Out Some More...Rain or No Rain! (Part I)

2011-10-24T10:06:00.000-07:00

I tell you, I could not believe my ears and eyes when I looked out the window of my bedroom and saw what was happening. What! Rain! All day, all morning, while we were all confined to our homes, this rain could not have fallen then? My mind went to Pastor B and I said a silent prayer for God to send his calm to her heart. And mine too for that matter for at that time I was not even sure how and

The Devil Wears Prada Too (Final Word Aka Don't Let The Devil Win)

2011-09-22T00:55:00.000-07:00

So here we are and this is the final part of my message and I really pray that God has helped each one of us women look into ourselves and see where we have missed it. Before I go on I just need to say a number of things to those of us looking to God for husbands and children. My love, you are looking to marry. But are you sure you are prepared for the sacrifices that entails? Being married is

The Devil Wears Prada Too (Part 2)

2011-09-21T00:29:00.000-07:00

So dear sistamine, who are you going to believe about who you are? The World? Or Your God? Cosmopolitan, Ovation, Glamour magazines or The Bible? I do not understand us women to be honest. Our God, the one who is ALL wise says you are already ALL THAT. Why won’t you trust him and his love for you? Why do we think that only when we have the right weave or bag or shoe or right stamps in our

The Devil Wears Prada Too (Part I)

2011-09-20T03:48:00.000-07:00

(So, as promised, here is the first part of what God gave me to share with the ladies at the Just Us Girls conference. I have tried my best to make it more readable as I wrote it a format that would help my sharing....being as I am not Obama, I could not share for 45 minutes with no aid! Lol!. As usual, it is conversational in style. I hope it speaks to you) I would like to just, first of all

Lesson From The "I Am Not My Hair'' Conference

2011-09-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

If you have read the 2009 Diary, you might recall how I was bragging on God when I was privileged to share with the women of my church. For some reason my dear Pastor's wife saw fit to have me do that. I told you of how over 20 years before then, a House Fellowship leader had seen a vision of me doing so - Sharing with a crowd of women. I told you about how I laughed a nice laugh within me

And The White Horse Came Calling

2011-08-31T17:17:00.000-07:00

Every body wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die. I speak for myself when I say this is very true. I love God with all my heart but this does not stop me from being afraid to die. Yes, I know that when I die, I shall go to be with God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit and my Mom, and my Uncle Joseph and my Pastor Eskor and my dear Joan and my buddy Shade and now....just today, my Uncle

Your Voice Must Speak!

2011-08-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

I do not care who you are nor do I care what you think about yourself. There is one thing I am confident about. You have a 'Voice'. Yes, God made you for a reason and gave you a voice. You must discover it and let it 'speak'. And do you know what I have come to realise thanks to my books, The Diaries? That your voice does not even have to be a loud, gen-gen, voice. It can be quiet. It can be