Diary of a Real Hotwife

An update - and an introduction to my new sex life

2021-04-06T04:40:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since my last post and a lot has changed since then.

First-off, I've started a new clips4sale page to archive all of our videos, they can all be found here.

We've relocated to FL and unfortunately lost contact with Lisa's steady bull. Since the move, Lisa has not had much interest in sex. She says she was so satisfied by her bull/boyfriend back north, that she feels she will never have it that good again. They had been seeing each other for 8+ years, so moving has left my wife with no one to satisfy her.

Around 5 years ago a package was delivered to our house, it was addressed to Lisa. She told me she had a surprise for me and opened the package. Lisa had bought a strap-on, and she said she had some plans for me, and she wanted to try something new. Soon after that, there was an evening where she would introduce me to my new sex-life. In retrospect, this was prelude to a new normal that was about to emerge.

I was able to video this indoctrination and the sessions that would follow, please send an email to me at swf34120@gmail.com if you would like a direct link to this video and the sessions that followed.

Before we left the north-east, my wife Lisa had been seeing her bull fairly regularly. For the last 2-3 years, Lisa and her bull had mostly insisted on meeting alone - which is why there were no videos of the 2 of them in recent years. They decided sex was better without my presence, so I was suddenly left out and there was nothing I could do about it.

Every few weeks, Lisa would get the urge and tell me to 'make a date' for her. I would text her bull, coordinate a date and time for them and reserve the hotel room. Most of these dates were over-nighters, where and I would drop her off at the hotel and she would be dropped off at home in the morning by her bull. At first it was very hard to be home wondering what they were doing in that room, but after the first few times, I accepted it and it became less stressful for me.

I will post more as time permits, meanwhile you can email me or chat with me on google hangouts with this address: swf34120@gmail.com.

I can also be reached on Skype with cuckedsubhub@gmail.com

Understanding and accepting Creampies

2018-11-03T13:02:00.001-07:00

If you are reading this blog then chances are you know what a "Creampie" is. As a cuckolded husband, I've experienced and witnessed this sex act many times with my wife and several different men she's been with. To say I have mixed emotions on this would be a ridiculous understatement. For me, it's both terrifying and wildly erotic at the same time. My hope is that writing this will help me (and perhaps you) understand why I have these mixed feelings.

If you've seen our videos, you know that when Lisa is with another man, she often enjoys them bareback. This is a matter of both her preference and sometimes the spontaneity of the meeting. Her sole focus is on having sex and the condom is often a discarded fleeting thought. Plus, after having a few drinks, her sex drive is in overdrive, and many of her inhibitions and fears are gone.

When she was of child bearing age there was always the fear of pregnancy after her trysts. Most of the bulls pulled out, but a few did not. This act is one that certain bulls thrive on. Some of them would chat with me afterwards and brag that they bred her. Luckily there were no miss-haps even though there were a few nervous moment over the years. Lisa is now 52, and thankfully we no longer need to be concerned about pregnancy - especially since she is so active with her steady BBC partner.

The first bull to cum inside her was actually the second man she ever played with. Lisa really liked him and seem to give herself completely to him. I watched helplessly as he inseminated her the first time. I had no idea he was going to do this, he gave no warning as he neared climax, there was no time to ask him to stop and pull out.

He fucked her for about 40 minutes and then suddenly he stopped and pulled out and rolled over. He was done. That was it. He emptied his balls in my wife, he had filled her with his sperm and there was no way to undo that now. I saw his sperm coating his big cock as he laid back on the bed, he then thanked me and told me how great it was. Lisa just laid there and then asked me to get her a drink. I was stunned and reeling from what I just saw.

In full disclosure, I must admit that even now, when I see a man enter my wife bareback, my stomach still begins to twist into a knot. A few years ago, while we were on vacation, she met a bartender at the hotel we were staying at. He was black and no more than 20 years old and Lisa told me wanted him. They became friendly when I went to spend an afternoon on the golf course.

The next night, she invited him to our room after he got off from work. She told me he was nervous and wanted to be alone with her, so she told me I needed to wait on the balcony. Then took she him into the bedroom, where he fucked her as I waited. I heard him slap her ass, I heard their bodies slamming together, I heard Lisa moaning and screaming with pleasure and within 20 minutes he was gone. Lisa stepped out onto the balcony to tell me what happened. She told me he fucked her so well and she came so hard, but she wanted more. He told her he needed to leave to pick up his friend and that also told me he did not cum. She was still aroused and not completely satisfied, so she invited me into the bedroom and pushed my head between her thighs. As I licked her, I realized that there was no doubt - he had silently cum inside her and then left.

After her bull cums in her they often leave shortly afterwards. After all, they've got what they wanted and they're ready to move on. As I lay next to her in our bed, my mind races. Lisa is usually exhausted, but I'm wide awake thinking about what just happened. I think about his sperm swimming inside her, making their way deep inside her.

Sometimes she or the bull will tell me to lick it. Eating another man's sperm from your wife is hard to come to grips with. Lowering my head to lick his seed is how they bull makes me accept that I've been cucked by him. The taste of semen is unmistakable. It is slippery and it is thick and sticky when it is freshly deposited. It becomes thin and runs out easily after only a few minutes. It's salty and pungent in taste, sometimes it is sweeter but it always leaves a taste in my mouth that takes a long time to forget. It usually tingles when I taste it. It makes me think that maybe the tingling is the sperm swimming around in my mouth causing this sensation, but I'm pretty sure that's probably not the cause.

I know sperm can swim for days trying to fertilize the eggs inside my wife. For days afterwards I imagine just that...this mans' sperm are swimming inside her as she makes dinner for our family. And so sometimes I try to lick it all out so that after he leaves I can feel better that the sperm is all gone and it's no longer inside her.

Showing me what he left behind

The bull undoubtedly thinks that by inseminating my wife, he has totally humiliated me, and that I am pathetic cuckold who can't satisfy his wife's sexual needs.

He would be right.

Thoughts and ramblings on how we got here

2018-06-20T14:41:00.002-07:00

I've seen Lisa with many men over the years, but her current bull has been the most frequent and favored of them all. She's been seeing him on and off for 6 or 7 years now and there is no indication that things will change. They both get what they want and need sexually plus they like each other a lot. While Lisa was curious about cuckolding when she first started meeting men so many years ago, he brought out and developed her intense interest in it gradually over the years.

My wife having a steady, regular sex partner is actually comforting to me. Before he became her regular partner, it was so stressful for me whenever we would meet someone new or even when she would go out. She sometimes would tell me to find someone for her, or sometimes she would go out and ended up meeting someone herself. I never knew how any of that was going to turn out, now at least I know and trust her bull.

But he has turned her into more than just a hot-wife. He encourages her to cuckold me and uses that to solidify his place as her sex partner. While we love each other very much, She's now convinced that only he can satisfy her sexual needs and that I'm sexually inferior. He did this slowly and subtly at first and then she just latched on to it. She began enjoying cuckolding me as much as the sex, and now it's a big part her sexual satisfaction.

He started changing her thoughts about me the first time we met him. We met for drinks and he was very nice to me. But when we got to the room, he would only refer to me as 'Cuck'. Lisa giggled at first, but she clearly was taken by his dominating attitude towards me. After a few dates, she wanted to spend the night with him alone at the hotel, and so asked me to leave and return in the morning.

I'll never forget my angst and nervousness that night. When morning came I texted her and she told me I can come to pick her up in an hour or so. When I arrived in the room, he had just left. I could tell from the look on her face, the wet spots on the bed and the still sticky sperm he left on her that he had satisfied her, and visa versa. I sat on the bed and she thanked me for not being mad for being left out. Then she told me he said next time, he was going to make me suck his cock. There was an awkward moment of silence, and then she said something that I will never forget... She laughed and added "and you're gonna do it".

Sure enough, the next time (and every time) after he would make me do it. The first time he came to our house, Lisa was upstairs getting ready when he arrived. We had a drink and talked a little in the kitchen while we waited for her to come down. Then he asked me if I had a pillow, which I thought was odd, but I went and grabbed one from the closet. He told me to put it down on the kitchen floor. Then he told me to kneel on it. This wasn't a request, and I felt I had to comply with his demand. I kneeled, he unbuckled his pants, and said, "Open your mouth cuck!"

I saw His BBC just inches from my face, he said "Look at it... and now suck it!". I just stared at it in shock, then he grabbed me by the back of my head and said "suck it", as he shoved it into my mouth. As I sucked, he was telling me what a fine woman I have and that I'm lucky to have a wife like her. He said he drank a lot of pineapple juice, so that his cum will taste sweet when I eat it later. He said he was going to fuck her good, and that he was probably going to cum in her tonight and that I'll be cleaning it up. He told me to look up at him as I suck, I hesitated and he pulled my hair back and shouted "look at me!". I looked up and saw him looking down at me, he told me, "Lick my black balls" as he lifted his BBC to expose them. He said, "I want you to get them both in your mouth and then look up at me".

As I'm doing this, I hear Lisa start coming down stairs and I started to get up so she would not see what was happening. He put his hand on top of my head and said, "Stay on it bitchboy, let your wife see you doing your job". I was mortified as Lisa entered the room, I wanted to just disappear, if only I could. She looked at me and just said, 'Hmmmm', then she went over to him and gave him a long deep kiss hello, paying no attention to what she clearly saw happening. As they kissed, I heard him tell her, "You see, I told you he would be sucking my dick...he's a good cuck" A few moments later she patted me on my head and said with a laugh, "You did good, we're going upstairs now".

They did go upstairs, and he did fuck my wife while I watched. He came inside her and I did clean up his sperm (the pineapple worked, so it wasn't too bad for me). I know now that the reason he did all this was to show my wife that I would submit to him, that he is the dominant male, that HE should be her sex partner, and ultimately, that I am her cuckold husband - not her sex partner. This would be a great erotic story if it wasn't all true, these are things burned into my memory, things that a cuckold husband will never forget.

After all these years

2018-03-31T06:12:00.002-07:00

You would think I would be used to this cuckold thing by now. I guess in a way I am, but at the same time my stomach is always in knots when I know she's meeting someone - especially if it's someone new. The 'not knowing' what is going to happen aspect always causes me anxiety in the days and hours leading up to a date.

Of course, I really know what is going to happen when she meets a guy. The bottom line is, my wife is most likely going to let another man fuck her. I know it, she knows it, and usually the guy is pretty sure as well. I suppose the desire for sexual satisfaction has many nuances, but I do still struggle to accept that Lisa gets her satisfaction from other men.

If you have followed our journey through the years, you probably know Lisa has had a steady regular sex partner for the last 2 or 3 years. Since she's been with him, I don't often worry anymore about who she is with or if she's safe. Her bull likes her a lot and visa versa and he would never do anything to her detriment. She met him when he was 28 and Lisa was 50, He's still only 31 years old now, he's a tall athletic black man with a very large cock and he absolutely loves fucking my wife. The two of them get the sexual satisfaction they both need and want and are otherwise not getting.

They get together alone a lot now. I'm not able to see what happens very much anymore. As hard as it was to watch it, it is sometimes harder to not watch - to not know. On the rare occasions when I'm allowed to watch, I'm not allowed to video anymore. He's very dominant with me, and he has decided this is how it will be. As you may have seen is some of our videos, He usually refers to me as 'cuck', as a means of showing Lisa he is superior. Lisa goes along with whatever he says, so there is really no way for me to change that aspect anymore until He changes his mind.

For most husbands, if a guy looks or touches their wife, they become suspicious and will intervene.
But I'm a cuckold husband and it's different for me. Cuckolds are conditioned to expect that men will look at and touch what's theirs. Over the years, Lisa has gradually conditioned me to accept allowing other guys to be with her sexually. I know, deep down. the reason for my 'conditioning' is that I was not able to step up to the plate. Unable to please her sexually, I gradually allowed myself to become a cuckold by not putting a stop to Lisa's many extra-marital conquests.

I wasn't able to put a stop to it because deep down I knew the truth. There was no question - I did not have the size and stamina that Lisa needs. I have only four weak inches to offer her and it is not nearly enough. But to her credit, she gently let me know it and She also came up with a solution - she would get the sex from men who had what she needed, and I would be there to ensure her safety, and able to watch.
By not stopping it right there, I became compliant and weak - to both Lisa and to the men she meets.

This is the slippery slope of cuckolding, for me at least. My acceptance of the bulls dominance over me has emboldened the bulls and Lisa. Many bulls feed off of my compliance and weakness and use it to gain the upper hand with my wife. They see it as their opening to show my wife that she should look to them for sex and not to me - her husband. This makes them even more naturally dominant with me. Lisa's current bull does this in several ways, first, he never calls me by my name. From the first night we met him for drinks at the hotel bar, he has only called me 'CUCK'. Lisa has never once defended me in this regard or asked him to call me by my name. Then again, although she often refers to me as a cuckold, she herself has never called me 'cuck' (which seems so much more demeaning to me) - so I guess I should be happy about that.

When I watch them, I am in a chastity lock, the key is usually worn by her around her ankle bracelet.
As she gets fucked, I see and hear the key and the locket dangling there, both are there to remind me that I'm being cuckolded.

Last year I started to put all the pieces of my cuckolding together into a video story that would make sense to me. Basically, it's an explanation to myself on how I became a cuckold husband. So far I've posted 10 chapters of this video 'book' and the most recent 'Chapter' is a good example of how the verbal and physical queues of Lisa's current bull change how she sees me. One must remember this is only their second 'date' but in looking back, it's so obvious to me now what he was and still is doing. By calling me 'cuck', ordering me to apply lube, or 'Put it in', he was able to change her perception of me from her 'husband' to the 'cuck'.

Here is the link to my video book where you can see how I became 'Cuck'

Realizations and rationalization

2018-03-05T13:12:00.003-08:00

After almost 25 years of living this unusual marital arrangement, I realize the affect it has had on both of us. Our marriage is very solid despite the sexual tension that I guess comes naturally within our cuckold relationship. Sex and intimacy are important to any marriage, and so it would seem that cuckolding might hinder that. Because I'm a cuckold husband, there is little or no sex for me with my wife. But we both understand why that is.

Lisa is a mature woman who has a strong sex drive. As she has gotten older, her desires have increased and she knows that I can't stop her from acting on them. She knows I've accepted all this - her desires, unfulfilled needs - some days that's a lot harder for me than it probably seems to you all.

I know I can stimulate her to orgasm with my tongue, but I know that I've never been able to bring her to climax through intercourse. This is a very difficult fact for a husband to realize and accept, but that is the truth. I've seen her climax with men who are unbelievably huge, and even men that are just adequately endowed - so knowing I can't possibly compete is somewhat disheartening. But she loves me, not them, we have a great family and a great life despite the sexual realities. After all, sex is just one aspect of a relationship.

Even at 54 years of age, I know Lisa is very desirable. I see it when we go out, guys look at her with lust. Her shape still invokes primal desires - she has big full breasts, a small waist and wide but proportional hips. An hourglass shape. It's a figure that make men naturally think of sex.

A Soccer mom by day

Approached by a guy 20 minutes after I took this picture

He fucked her later that night.

Her willingness to indulge in it, reinforces this is a very real way for me. In other words, I know she is sexy, she knows she is sexy and other men know she is sexually desirable - but she chooses to have sex with men who satisfy her, rather than me - her husband, the cuckold. That sums it all up.

Watching her with the other men allowed me to imagine what it would be like to please her the way they do. I fantasize about being them as I watched them fucking my wife, living vicariously through these men. As I watch, I remember what it felt like to be inside her. The warmth and wetness of her pussy, the thrusts of her hips as they rise to accept the thrusts as deep as possible.

Her current bull has told me that he feels her cum, when he hits 'bottom'. I had never heard this term, so I asked him what he meant and he told me 'hitting bottom' means his cock was rubbing up against her cervix. So his black cock could actually reach and press against my wife's womb. And He knew that he had made her orgasm that way and he wanted me to know. He is 10+ inches of 30 year-old rock hard BBC - I then I knew why she wants him and not me.

Met him online

Ultimately sex is about satisfying a need or a desire. I know, that Every man that Lisa has been with, whether alone or while I watched, was satisfied by her pussy. And every man who fucked her, made her climax with their cock. Except for me.

Filled

Witnessing other men ejaculating in my wife is something that has always caused me a great amount of anxiety and I know need to write more about soon. I will talk more about the moment of climax in my next post.

She knows what boys want

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Cuckold - unprepared for the unexpected

2018-02-15T10:25:00.001-08:00

It's been a while since my last post so if this is somewhat out of context please understand.

If you have followed this blog you know that my wife Lisa has gradually become more assertive about her desires. She's been with many men and at this point harbors no reservations about getting what she wants and letting her passions run freely. Meanwhile I've become accustomed to all this, from just watching, waiting for her to come home, being chastised, prepping, the cleanup and humiliation of knowing that I am a cuckold husband.

I've learned over the years that the men she meets can really fall into 3 categories:

Men who just want sex - These guys are normal red blooded males who are simply attracted to her and want to fuck her. They prefer that I'm nowhere in sight, but they put up with my presence to get the chance to fuck Lisa.
Men who like fucking other men's wives - These men are turned on by Lisa but they also like the idea of fucking my wife and having me see it and know it. They have often been verbally disrespectful to me, but I know this is part of what they want out of the experience. Fucking my wife makes them superior, they are the 'alpha male', top dog and they want me to know it.
True Bulls - These men have a high sex drive and large cocks, they not only want to fuck my wife, they usually also want to inseminate her - and they want me to see them do it. They want my wife to view me as a cuckold and as submissive to them. They want her to witness and be a part of how they dominate me, so that she will reject me and accept them as her bull. I realize that over the years, this has become increasingly easy for true bulls, because I 'm now conditioned to accept their superiority. They get off by Cuckolding me, just as much as they get off by fucking Lisa.

Lisa has a definite preference for True Bulls. The more dominant they are towards me, the more excited she seems to get. Experienced bulls instinctively know this, and I guess it makes sense, because she sees them as being my replacement in the bedroom. They are bigger, stronger, younger and better sexual partners than I am. They've taken my place and I guess I've allowed it. As the cuckolding progressed, and she met more men, I didn't realize that she would I would never regain my place as someone she wanted to have sex with.

A few years ago, at the urging of her bulls, Lisa and took cuckolding to the next level. I knew I was in trouble when her bull forced his cock down my throat when Lisa was in the ladies room. I mean, we just met him an hour earlier and as soon as she stepped out of the room, he unzipped his pants, grabbed my by the back of my head, slapped my face with it and then shoved it in my mouth. Then, after he fucked her, he did this again, but this time while she watched.

The bull

Lisa pushing

Feeding it

The guy was HUGE and I guess the combination of his size and domination turned my wife on so much that Lisa got on top of me and started forcing my head down on him.
It was the most humiliating experience I have ever had, but I felt I had to do what they wanted and I felt completely powerless to stop it.

Weeks later as I thought about what happened that night I realized it had nothing to do with bi or gay sex, it was strictly domination and submission. I submitted completely to him (and then to both of them) and I saw how this turned my wife on. The bull clearly reveled in how he turned my wife on, how he controlled me - and by controlling me, he actually gained sexual control of my wife.

If you are interested in my posts, and would like me to continue posting, please write a comment, email me, or reach me on skype with this address:
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I've chronicled many of our cuckolding experiences in video. I've created a page for those who want to learn more about our personal journey into the unusual world of cuckolding.

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The moment I became a cuckold husband

2015-12-23T07:47:00.002-08:00

The moment I became a cuckold
Lisa has had many men over the past 20 or so years. I've gotten over the most uncomfortable parts of this and I would say that our marriage is a happy one and otherwise normal. I get it, I understand why I've become a cuckolded husband. The thought of another man having sex with my wife is both gut wrenching and somehow exciting for me.

For me, being a cuckold means I've been rejected and replaced sexually. Another man has taken my place in this most intimate part of our marriage. Seeing her fully accept another man, knowing that he knows that I know that she wants him (and not me) is not easy to accept. I realize that most bulls goal is to fuck my wife and I know the bull couldn't care less about how I feel about that.

When a bull comes into the relationship, he alters an existing bond between two people. There is an emotional bond and a sexual bond in most good marriages. Lisa and I have agreed there should never be anything that interferes or hurts our emotional bond. We both feel that the strong emotional bond is required to give us both the comfort to include a third person in the sexual part of our relationship.

However, the sexual bond is entirely different. Not only CAN the bull break that bond, he MUST break it. Breaking our sexual bond, and then bonding sexually with my wife is the essential part of cuckolding and every bull must understand this. When it comes to sex, Lisa should think of her bull first and only.

So how does the bull break the sexual bond of a couple?

Believe it or not, in our case it happened when the bull suggested to Lisa that I should be involved. It can happen in many ways I suppose but no matter how it happens the bull must remain in charge. Have the cuckold suck his wife’s breasts or rub her clit when you’re fucking her. Have him grab her ankles and pull her legs wider apart when you’re pumping your cock into her. Have him go down on her before you fuck her, to get her wet and ready. Have him kiss his wife deeply while you make her cum. All these things have led to my cuckolding.

You can do anything you want, as long as he gets involved. At times when he’s doing something be sure tell him to stop and go sit back down. Show him that you’re in control. Another thing to do is tell him to take out his inferior dick out and masturbate while he's watching his wife get fucked. Tell him to cum while watching his wife getting laid. Again, use your imagination, as long as you’re telling him reasonable things to do. Remember, the wife will be watching too, and she will notice how much more dominant you’re becoming.

How does the bull ultimately cuckold the husband?

Once things have progressed to this point the wife should really be into you, and should see you as the Alpha Male. In her eyes, you should have completely replaced her husband in the bedroom. If she still seems to split her allegiance between him and you, or if you just want to take it to a deeper level, consider the ultimate step: making the husband put your cock in his mouth.

Believe it or not this has nothing to do with gay or bi-male sex. It’s strictly about domination. If you’ve ever watched wildlife footage of a wolf pack, you’ve noticed the body language of other males when they’re around the dominant Alpha Male. They maintain a low body stance, and even physically roll over showing their underbelly. They submit completely. Not only does the Alpha Male see this, all of the female wolves notice it too. That’s why the Alpha Male gets the females.

My wife Before, so pretty and neat...

Entry about to begin

He's inside

11 inches of BBC Balls deep

Riding him

riding

Aftermath1, the mess he made

aftermath 2

aftermath 3

Aftermath 4

If you REALLY want the wife to be “yours” sexually, let her watch you being dominant over her husband. When the our true cuckolding started both Lisa and I would have agreed there is no way you could ever get me, her husband to suck the bulls cock. But in our case, in the heat of her passion, this particular bull enlisted her help to get me to do it. When you did get me to do it, I saw how it impressed her and aroused her at the same time. It is truly a power trip for the bull.

In this case, we’re NOT talking about a blowjob. That’s for the Lisa to do. He did this because he wanted my wife to see her own husband take his cock into his mouth.

Once things reached this point, Lisa saw him as the Alpha Male and she saw that I submitted to him. He knew it, Lisa knew it and I knew it.

Here is how it happened to me on that day in 2008

Several years ago (2008) we met this very dominant alpha bull, 30 years old, black with a cock the length of my forearm. This video is our first meeting with him, In fact it is partially comprised of a clip I posted here back in 2008. In that original clip, I edited out the parts you will see here. They were too difficult for me to accept at that time, but after 20 years of seeing my wife enjoy other men, I have come to terms with my lot as a cuckolded husband, The clip begins with foreplay as usual, then my wife reveals his huge black cock and begins to orally satisfy him. I video as she pleases him, quietly watching as things unfold. Moments later she tells me i'm going to 'get involved'. Her bull strokes and taunts me with his 11 inch cock and tells me to look at it, he tells my wife to 'push his head down on it' and moments later he is pushing it into my mouth. My wife, gets on top of my back and pushes my head down on it, then she reaches around and begins stroking it into my throat. He then lifts his BBC back and makes me lick his big black balls in front of my wife. Moments later I think that it is over, as he has turned his attention to my wife again. But instead, he stands up and shoves it in my mouth once again, then lays back and has her feed it to me. She then cuckolds me further, she strokes it into my mouth, as she continues to smile and watch. It is a very rare look at the moment of complete cuckolding and humiliation by my wife and a true bull. It is the beginning of my becoming a full cuckold to her and sub to the bull. This is how a bull cuckolds the husband - once he has gotten the wife to witness her husbands acceptance of another mans' dominance over him, she no longer sees the cuckold as a sexual partner, the bull has taken that from me in this video. In fact it makes you more of a Bull, because dominance is the essence of being the Bull. You're taking charge and asserting your dominance over them both, by demonstrating your dominance over him. Remember one simple fact: The more dominant the bull is over the husband, the more naturally submissive the husband and wife both become. This is the key to the relationship! It naturally reinforces the bulls dominance, and my wife will sexually always respond to that more. Women naturally gravitate toward the most dominant male. Its a part of their instincts, even if they don't realize it! You see when the bull forced me to suck his cock in front of my own wife then he proved to everyone that he's confident, capable and in charge. He proved that I'm willing to submit to him, and that is what makes a bull and what makes a cuck.

You can see the full video of becoming a cuck here:
The moment I became cuckold

You can see all our videos here: Diary Of A real Hotwife

Cuckold Hub Gets Fed Bull Cum

2015-09-18T08:24:00.000-07:00

Cuckold Hub Gets Fed Bull Cum 1

Another hotel date, another night of cuckolding...Some background info first: The video is two parts of the same recent date. After fucking Lisa for several hours earlier in the evening, my wife and her bull sleep peacefully for several hours. I left the camera running and it captured the moments shortly before and after he left the hotel. Her bull needed to be at work early, so he set his alarm for 6 AM. When he woke, he also woke up Lisa and began to get his last licks in. He was laying next to her, both of them naked, spooning and soon began penetrating her. I lay next them, in my shorts, still locked in chastity and pretended to be asleep, but a few moments later, he noticed I had moved and he told me to lick her as he fucked her on her side. You can't see any of that part because we were under the covers. So this clip begins as he tells me lay on my back, Lisa quickly straddles my face, and her bull moves into position behind her to mount her doggy style. His black balls dangle near my face, he instructs me to "Stick it in...BITCH". I position his black cock at the entry to my wife's wet pussy and he begins to slowly work his way inside her. A few moments latter he is fucking her furiously, I can hear his balls slapping against Lisa's clit, as she moans with each powerful thrust of his BBC. He slows down, pulls her hips back towards his rigid member and drives his BBC deep, causing her to gasp as he reaches the opening of her womb. He continues fucking my wife passionately and he tells me to "Lick my balls...BITCH". I do as he asks, licking his big black balls over and over for him each time he partially withdraws his cock from my wife's pussy. His pace begins to quicken, Lisa tells him, "Do it, Do it, Do it!" He replies. "Ok, you got it" and begins to pund her furiously again. Moments later, he explodes for the second time inside my wife. the first part of the video ends there...

The second part begins just after He left our hotel room. Both Lisa and I were wide awake from what had just happened. Lisa asked me to open the black-out shades to let in the morning light and Lisa and I lay on the bed. She allowed me to remove my chastity lock and the second part picks up as I began to masturbate laying next to her. She told me to put my finger in her pussy to feel what he had left for me. I could tell she was getting aroused again, and Lisa unexpectedly gets up and straddles my face. She positions her pussy at my mouth, I know what she wants...so I begin to lick her. At first I did not detect anything very different, but within a few moments, Lisa begins to moan and grind her pussy against my face and mouth. Her full breasts heave, her hips, thighs and belly begin to tense. Seconds later, She leans back and orgasms powerfully. We can see her shapely body shaking and gently convulsing as she straddles my face.

At that moment, a flood of her bulls sperm is released from its' place deep inside my wife. I gasp, my arms flail as I struggle beneath her, as his seed seeps from her. Unable to move, I eat the meal her bull has left and she has just fed me.

You can see the entire move here Cuckold Hub Gets Fed Bull Cum 1

You can see all our video here: Diary Of A Real Hotwife

Pre-date night anxiety

2015-03-18T13:56:00.000-07:00

Lisa's BF contacted me earlier this week and wanted another date with her... tomorrow evening. He will be coming over around 8 or 9 PM Thursday night and although they've been together many times, I always feel an uncomfortable anxiety before the date. I suppose I should be used to it by now but I always feel a pit in my stomach before each date. I can't explain the reason for this and I struggle to understand it.

Lisa has been seeing men for over 20 years now. There have been random spontaneous one-nighters, planned meetings with men who she expressed interest from online contact, as well casual acquaintances, some semi-regular partners and in most recent years, the young man she considers to be her 'boyfriend'. I guess I'm happy that she has someone she feels comfortable with and who she trusts, but the thought of my wife giving herself to him so freely can sometimes bring me to the point of feeling nauseous, especially in the hours before they meet.

With that comfort comes some mixed feelings for me. He is very good for her in many ways. He is young, athletic, enthusiastic about giving Lisa what she needs and has a very large black cock - which my wife seems to love. Really everything she could ever want. Their sexual compatibility and chemistry can't be denied, even by me, her husband. I try to imagine how he must feel. He knows he is able to satisfy my wife, he knows I know that she has wants him sexually and not me. He knows he is 20+ years younger than her and I and I wonder sometimes what a feeling of power and superiority that must be for him.

Although I accepted my place as a cuckold husband, it is a retched place to be at times like just before her dates arrive. Once they are together I still feel anxiety, but I get to a more peaceful place of acceptance of what's happening. After all once he is with her, there is nothing I can do to stop what is happening. He will fuck my wife. Lisa will have orgasms with him. Then he will leave and we will go on with our normal lives until their desire for each other bring him back for more.

If you've followed this blog at all, you know that most of the men Lisa has been with do not cum inside her. That is the most humiliating thing another man can do to a cuckold like myself. Accepting the sperm of another man is the ultimate form of cuckoldry. There have been a few, who in the heat of the moment have done it, but most have pulled out. Her current lover has reached a significant place with regard to this. He has cum inside her several times over the past 2 years and most recently she actually asked him if he was going to do it - which of course he did. Accepting and actually wanting another man's sperm is a big step for Lisa. I accept that it is natural for him to want to do this as well. It is natural for a man to want to leave his seed inside a woman, but in this case, the woman is my wife and when he ejaculates inside her I am cuckolded to another level. Lisa is 53 years old and is going through change of life, nevertheless, I know His sperm will swim be inside my wife trying to find their mark for hours after he leaves.

Wish me luck, I will have a very sleepless and restless night especially after the text I exchanged with him earlier today.

Cucked again in my own bed

2015-02-01T07:54:00.001-08:00

These are some screen captures of a very recent date Lisa had with her regular partner. He has been seeing her on and off over the past few years and last week she invited him over to spend the night. The photos are self explanatory, the night began with drinks and conversation and then progressed to our bedroom. There, I was cuckolded by him while Lisa looked on, what followed was some very passionate sex and an evening no one will forget.

After many months of meeting solo, Lisa invited her black steady over for the evening. He has become Lisa's regular partner, she has been seeing him on her own from time to time over the past year or so, which is why we haven't posted lately. He is 29 years old, black and over 6 foot tall. Even though there is almost a 25 year age difference between them, they have developed a strong bond and sex between them has been improving steadily over time. I'm posting this video to show you the psychological aspect of cuckolding. Many think cuckolding is just fucking another man's wife. But a in our case, the most successful bull controls the sexual mind of both the wife and the cuckold. I'm writing this a few days after what you see in the video and I've had time to talk to Lisa, and most importantly to think about and truly understand what happened

Shortly after he arrived earlier this week, Lisa told me to help prepare the bedroom.

The first parts of the videos are posted here

Cuckolded in my own bed

and there is a short version below with some stills.

He texted me the next day

At least he asked...

Cuckolded on Vacation

2014-12-21T10:32:00.000-08:00

A very recent week away resulted in a completely unexpected night of sex for my wife with a local. What was supposed to have been a relaxing week at an island resort for just the two of us, turned into an opportunity for another opportunity for my wife to get fucked and to cuckold me. While I was out playing golf one afternoon, she decided to attend a cocktail hour hosted by the hotel management. She found one of the bartenders who caught her eye, she engaged him in conversation and made plans to see him that evening. She invited him to our room, asked me to leave them alone and had sex with him. He was around 22 years old - at most, he was black and she told him she was married and free to do as she pleased.

Since I was not allowed to stay in the room, there is no video. I did not expect any of this to happen so I didn't even bring our video camera, but the next morning she explained what happened, which I recorded and you will hear on this audio file. She explains how they met, how she peaked his interest, how she sucked his cock on the beach and then fucked her in our hotel room.

The conversation is over breakfast the next day, she calmly explains how she met him and why and how she ended up having sex with him.

She continues to see her black boyfriend here at home, mostly alone, every few weeks. She has told me she will include me as soon as he is ready to have me present again. She said they are getting more and more sexually comfortable each time. In the meantime, I just have to wait for her to come home after each of her dates.

I've Lost count...

2014-09-07T05:17:00.000-07:00

25 different men have fucked my wife since our marriage.

I was think the other day how I had lost count of the number of men my wife has bedded over the past 20 years. Many of the names and circumstances have become a bit of a blur, so I decided to try to list them all with brief details as best I can recall. I'm sure some of them are slightly out of order, but I tried my best. Any of the events described below that do not have photos or videos are trysts that either I wasn't present for, didn't have a camera or have lost the media.

Fernando December 2014 - Lisa got fucked by the 22 year old bartender at the resort we were staying at while on vacation. Apparently She was very horny and picked him up while I was out playing golf, she invited him to our room that evening. He wanted her alone so she asked me to leave the room while he fucked her, she called me an hour or 2 later. When I returned she was nude on the bed and splattered.

The men who have bedded her in the past...from the year after our wedding to most recent

Unknown 1987 - While she was on a 3 day business trip, Lisa went to the hotel bar for a snack and a few drinks after work. She met a man at the bar, they struck up a conversation and after a few too many drinks she went back to his room, where he fucked her. She told me about this when she returned home. She told me she was very sorry, but she said she liked it and eventually, over several months, convinced me that it was ok for her to see other men. This was the starting point of how I became a cuckold husband.

Bob 1988 - a former friend who fucked her while we were on vacation with him and his wife. This was the very first time she was with another man in my presence.

Jeff 1988 - a long time family friend and handy man, who fucked her in our home after making some repairs around our house. I was on a business trip at the time and I had asked Lisa to call him to see if he could take care of a few repairs while I was away. I never had any idea he would fuck her. She didn't tell me about this for many years. We attended many family and neighborhood events with him in our company and I often think back on what he must of thought about me during those times.

Todd 1991 - the captain of our catamaran while we vacationed in the Caribbean. She made it clear she was receptive while on the 3 hour cruise and then invited him out for drinks at a local bar and then took him back to our hotel room and fucked him while I sat waiting on the balcony.

Max 1992- Her first black man, who she picked up at a nightclub while we vacationed in the Caymans.

Here's are few captures from the video of her first black man...

Here's the Link to the full video of Lisa with her first black man...

Dave 1993- a young time share salesman she met in a bar while we were on vacation in the Cayman Islands.

Jim 1994 - a 28 year old, He contacted us through an internet add and he has fucked her many times since then. The first man to cum inside her and has done so every time they meet. He was her first really big cock, 9+ inches. He has fucked her many different times over the years, here are a few scenes...

Showing me what he's left behind

After he fucked her, they relax

Fucked her again in the morning

Here's a Link to full video's

Giving it...

And some of the other times he fucked her...

This is what I found when I got home

He filled her once again

John 1994 - we met him and his wife at a couples club, she invited them both to our hotel room, he fucked her for a few hours and then they both left. His wife was not interested in me, but we watched them together.

Holden 1995 - A young 26 year old co-worker of hers from the west coast who was her for a business meeting. She invited him to stay at our house the night before his flight back home. He fucked her and spent the night in our bedroom while I slept in the guest room.

Unknown 1998 - We met him at a casino while on vacation in the Caribbean, he was with a group of friends and Lisa took a liking to two of them. After an hour or two, and a bit of drinking, she told me she wanted to invite them back to our room for a nightcap. They both fucked her for several hours.

Here's the link to the full movie

Unknown 1999 - a 34 year old who worked for the same company as Lisa but in another state. She met him while they were attended a conference in Las Vegas. Lisa got a bit drunk and invited him to her hotel room. She dialed the phone and handed it to him just as he began to fuck her. He told me how naughty she is, how nice her big tits and pussy were. I could hear her moaning in the background, he handed her they phone and she told he how much he loved her body and told me to to start jacking off and not to cum until he did. He finally put the phone down next to her, so I could listen as he fucked her, our connection was lost shortly after that and she did not return my calls or call me until mid-day the next day. The audio below is not very good, but you can get a feel for what was going on that night...

Dave 2004 - her 2nd black man, a 29 years old from NYC. 6'4" tall, his cock is 11+ inches and he fucked her in a hotel room nearby after meeting us for drinks. He fucked her again a few months later in our bed. He was the first to truly cuckold me, having me prep him and cleanup in front of Lisa.

Here are some of the clips, he's fucked her several times

Clotis 2005 - a 30 something black man who she met at a local bar, I was too tired to go out so she decided to go out alone. She called me at midnight and told me he was big, black and had a 9 inch cock and he wanted to fuck her - and she was going to bring him home. They arrived in her car 20 minutes later, she told me they were going to our bedroom, she invited me in for a brief time but the kicked me out because he wanted her alone. She locked the door, he fucked her for several hours and then they fell asleep together. In the morning he fucked her again and then she had me drive him home.

Luc 2007 a 28 year old local bull who came to our home to meet Lisa for the first time. First experience of being cucked while I was in a chastity device she put on me before he arrived. She liked him enough to give herself to him alone in our guestroom. She took him there after much foreplay in our living room, he fucked her and didn't want to pull out while fucking her from behind, so he decide to cum inside her. He fucked her again in our bed a few months later.

Here's the video...

Keith 2007 - 2nd black man, very dark and muscular, 30 years old, he fucked her in a hotel room nearby our home after meeting him for drinks. He fucked her again later that year in our bed.

Mike 2008 a 33 year old former coworker of Lisa's who had since taken another job and kept in touch with her over the years. She invited him over during the day while I was away on a business trip and our kids were in school. He fucked her on my desk in my office and came on her ass. She had him take a few photos which she sent me on my cellphone after he left. She invited him back a few months later, (also daytime while I was away) and he fucked her in our bedroom and came on her pussy. He was the one of the few married guys she has fucked.

Nick - 2008 a 25 year old who she met at a bar here in town. We had a small argument and she went out with the clear intention of getting fucked. She met him at a bar and they struck up a conversation. He took her back to his house and fucked her there, she returned at dawn covered in his scent and his sperm.

Charles 2009 - 37 year old local black who she said had the thickest larges cock she has ever experienced up to this point. We met him for drinks and then went back to the hotel room, where she informed me they had planned on spending the night alone. She asked me to leave and pick her up in the morning. He fucked her all night and left several filled condoms on the bed next to her which She emptied them into my hand. She also went to his home several months later in the middle of the day and he fucked her and came in her mouth.

Nate 2010 - a very muscular local well hung 28 year black man who loved older married white women. He fucked her in a hotel room nearby and several other times over the years in hotels as well as in our bed. She really enjoyed him and plans to see him again.

How can it fit inside her

Every inch

Here's the link...

Virgil 2010 - 37 year old black bull, 11 inches of black power who fucked her in a hotel nearby and gave her many orgasms. He came on her pussy.

"I just fucked your Wife!!!"

Joe 2011 - I had given Lisa a gift certificate for a massage at a local day spa for our anniversary. She used it several months later and when she returned home she told me that they asked if she wanted a male of female masseuse. She chose the male, his name was Joe, a big strong man who was about 30 years old. She told me he gave her a full body massage and 'didn't miss a spot' and 'he was really into it' and 'was hot for her'. I brushed it off as just talk at the time. Then She told me she was making another appointment with him for the following month. Upon her return from that appointment, she told me during the massage, she could tell he was aroused and one thing led to another and he fucked her on the massage table. She said she sucked him and he eventually came while fucking her doggy style while she was bent over the table.

Marv 2011 - another black bull, 38 years old who wanted her very badly but also wanted to cuckold me in front of her. He had a massive cock and fucked her for several hours. After telling her he wanted to cum inside her while he gave her his full length, she said yes and that is just what he did, releasing two loads in my wife that night. After recovering, he made us both get him hard again and he told her he was going to make me eat his last load before cumming for the 3rd time in my mouth.

His message was received

'TR' 2012 a 23 year old black college student with a thick 9 inch cock. We met him for drinks and he fucked her in a local hotel while I watched. He told her he wanted to cuckold and humiliate me a bit, and after he took off her panties he told her to make me put them on. He came while she rode his cock and they both told me to clean up his mess.

he's working his way inside

She takes 10 inches balls deep

Marco 2012 - a 36 year old local bull, we went to his house to meet for drinks, they made out on the couch and then he took her up to his bedroom. I was told to wait until I could hear her moan before entering the room. When I entered 30 minutes later, Lisa was on her back, legs spread and he was pounding her. He came all over her belly and then he watched after telling me to clean up his load.

Do you see my big cock inside your wife?

Marcus 2012 - a 29 year very well hung old black man who Lisa now sees fairly regularly. He began referring to me as 'Cuck' which is now my name whenever they meet. She has met him alone at hotels and spent the night with him several times. He has completely cucked me and taken my place sexually. She sometimes allows me to have sex with her only after he has fucked her. Since 2012 he now provides her with sex whenever she wants or needs it. He is her current regular bull.

He fucks her a lot now...

So 24 different men over the past 20 years, having started when she was 32 years old. A little over one new partner every year. Lisa is now 52 and still loves the excitement of seeing other men for sexual companionship. I've been a cuckold husband since the first time she sought sex outside our marriage. Over the years, this has caused much angst for me, but I have come to terms with it all and I now understand my role. Lisa's sexual needs are fulfilled by young men who are more able to satisfy her. As she's gotten older she has become more interested in young guys because they excite her more and have more stamina than older men.

As for sex between her and I, well, I guess once I accepted her having sex with others, she looks at me more as a cuckold than as a sexual partner. In retrospect, I suppose I should have seen that coming. By allowing and accepting other men fucking my wife it has become a relinquishing of any sexual competency I may have had in her eyes.

Finally an update

2014-04-26T06:26:00.001-07:00

Haven't posted in a while due to various reasons but not all that much has changed. I left off explaining the mixed feelings I have being a cuckolded husband. None of that has or will ever change as long as she continues to see other men. Over the past few years her desires have not waivered, but she has been more selective and more interested in finding a steady partner to satisfy her needs. She has in fact found someone she sees regularly and I'll write more about that in a upcoming post.

Although by most people's standards I think Lisa would be considered a 'slut', my wife never considered herself that way - except after those occasional nights where she went out and picked up someone. There was a time she would go out and pick up a man and have sex with him and that was the end of it. Yes that is a bit slutty, but sometimes her urges overcome her and she just does what comes naturally. We both realize that this can happen at just about any time, but Lisa has made an effort to minimize these types of encounters. For her it was very exciting and ego boosting - meeting a new man, seeing and knowing how they desired her and all, but she would often feel some guilt and regret afterwards. So, it's been more selective and planned lately than spontaneous and random, and I'm very happy about that.

Lisa is just 5'1" tall, about 135 pounds and if you've seen her pictures and videos what you will notice is that she is very curvy and her hips are wide and thick. By nature, many men are attracted to this shape because it is a sign of fertility and femininity - her hips are wide to facilitate breeding and her breasts are large to nurture. This is all very subconscious of course, but I believe this is fundamentally why many men find women who are curvy sexually desirable. Lisa's desire for viral young well men with big cocks is in part, also based on these similar subconscious urges. It's a primal urge for both and it makes sense when I think about it in those terms. She is also a very beautiful woman, so of course I understand why men, young and old find her to be very sexually desirable. Since she has been doing this for many years, we are able to talk about her sexuality from time to time - although it's not a subject we discuss regularly.

While many women find men of size to be painful, my wife finds that size is what she needs to orgasm. It's the combination of length and girth, the feeling of fullness she has with a big dick inside her that somehow makes her orgasm most powerfully. I've known this for many years and I often wondered why it was so important to her, but I've learned that size matters to her because it's what she needs to climax. It seems that most women can climax either by clitoral or "G" spot stimulation, but Lisa is built differently. While she can orgasm by both clitoral and 'G' stimulation, she gets the most amazing orgasms only with deep penetration, when the man is able to stimulate her cervix with the head of his cock. I've asked her about this and She has told me that she can feel them pushing against the entrance to her womb and that feeling, for some reason, gives her massive orgasms. Mind you that this is far deeper than most men, including myself can reach. And this is why you will often see her holding and pulling her partner as deep as possible inside her. For me, knowing that I will never be capable of reaching this place and satisfying her needs is somewhat humiliating. When they are inside her, I wonder what it must feel like for them...I sit there and witness this and know that they are capable of giving her such pleasure. But knowing that she is unusual in this area, I've come to accept it and it's something I've been able to live with.

For now, Her interest remains with very well endowed unattached younger men. It sometimes puzzles both Lisa and I as to why young men have so much interest in her. We know that she likes younger men because of their energy and virility. They stay harder longer, they recover fast and they are capable of so much more, sexually speaking, than a man my age. But why are these young men interested in a woman who in many cases is old enough to be their mother. It turns out, most of them are initially attracted to her because of her curvy shape - the universal sign of female fertility. Many of them seem to also like her sexual freedom and her pure desire and pursuit of sexual gratification. She gets off on the fact that she can still attract young guys, and I suppose it's partially and ego thing, but the main thing seems to be that, unlike men my age, they excite her.

She has no preference as far as race goes, but she is attracted to black men in particular. It may be because ever since her first black male, none have ever disappointed her sexually and generally all the ones she's met have been well above average in size. I'm generalizing here but it also seems that blacks enjoy women with her shape, women who are thick, fleshy and meaty with ample ass. Lisa has all that and has used her assets to attract them when she wants to.

Over the past few years she's been with several black men and a few white. I'll start with one of the white fellows...This was about 3 years ago...

This guy was 29 and fucked her in our marital bed several times

She sucked his cock

He fucked her

She helped him get in

And then rode him

She spread her legs and Then he took her

on her back and gave her his full length

And then filling the void

The deed is done, It is finished
Videos from this night ....

Thoughts and feelings of a cuckold

2013-08-08T10:20:00.001-07:00

Sorry for the delay in posting but unfortunately it seems the photo/video upload feature on this blog weren't working, so it took a while to figure out what was wrong.

For the next 3 years Lisa was very active, playing whenever the opportunity and urges arose. During that time she really was looking for a regular partner but that proved difficult to find. Most times the guys we met would just disappear after they fucked her. This was strange and disappointing because they all seemed to really enjoy her. After fucking her we would wait for them to contact us on yahoo or by email or phone, and with few exceptions there was nothing. I put allot of effort into finding someone good for her and then I would have to do it all over again. We were trying to either find a steady for her or have a small stable of men who were reliable that we could call upon to meet whenever she had the urge. I was tired of asking the same questions, trying to see through the lies, fakers and picture collectors.

So over this period of time there were about 15 different men who Lisa enjoyed, mostly one nighters. One had her 4 times, the rest were one night stands really. They were mostly black because the reality is, they are bigger and size is of great importance to her. She also was turned on by the taboo aspect of having sex with black men. A middle aged wife and mother who had the freedom to have sex with anyone she wanted - this seemed to turn her on, and to indulge in interracial sex made it all the more exciting. She particularly likes their aggressive nature and animal passion.

My feelings about this are mixed. On the one hand I am deeply wounded and somewhat humiliated by the fact that I do not satisfy my wife's sexual needs. On the other hand there is a part of me that finds her promiscuity exciting. Before each date, I am always extremely excited, nervous and uneasy, there is a queasy feeling in my stomach as she prepares for the night ahead. I've actually hurled a few times as she primped and dressed for a date. Feeling sick to my stomach before her date is part of what I expect even after all these years. It's hard to explain this feeling, but knowing that in a few hours she's going to be giving herself to another man both excites me and makes me sick.

Although the men she meets are always friendly and cordial to me, I wonder what they must think of me. They are using my wife for sex. They have no other motivation other than to fuck her, yet this is the mother of our children, the woman I married and sleep next to each night, the woman I have a life with. And she chooses to have sex with them and not with me. It's pure physical lust but they take what should be mine, and that is a thought that I cannot get out of my head.

I also think a lot about the actual act when I am watching or videoing. I am in the room and a few feet away, there is a man having sex with my wife. I sometimes thing about how he must feel inside her. Before Lisa became sexually active with others, I had fucked her many times over the earlier years of our marriage. I imagine how he must be feeling with his much bigger cock buried inside her, how close the head of his cock is to my wife cervix and how, if he so chooses, he could fill my wife with his seed.

Although most times the guy will pull out before cumming, some have not. Once, she took one of her lovers to our guest room and he fucked her alone for well over an hour there. It was her first time with him and she was hot for him. I watched from the doorway as Lisa got on all fours and presenter herself for him to fuck her from behind. He was 26 years old and I guess my wife's womanly charms overwhelmed him and before long he came inside her. Some photos of that night are to the left and below here.

The next day, as Lisa and I sat in the kitchen, I kept thinking how millions of his sperm are still swimming inside my wife trying to fertilize her egg. Weird thought, but I think these are the things that must go through every cuckold husbands' mind when this happens. I asked her why she let him cum inside her and she just said she didn't know he was going to do it. He had just let out a moan and shouted that he came - his dick was still inside her and she knew he had inseminated her. Cumming inside someone Else's wife is probably the most personal and humiliating form of cuckolding. Since it is at a very fundamental level, the husband and wife's most intimate space.

I keep reminding myself that she is not a slut, she is my wife and a mom who just has needs that I'm unable to satisfy. I have come to understand this and I love her very much - despite my shortcoming as a sexual partner...

Bull filled

Below are some short videos and photos from other dates she's had over the past few years...

my wife was never the same after this night

Lisa filled by black friend March 2011

Lisa fucked again by BBC august20011 part1

My wife gets filled in the guestroom-as I watch from door

Dating at home alone

2013-02-14T06:54:00.001-08:00

Lisa asked me to arrange another date with her 1st partner. It had been a while since she had been with him because of distance and schedules, but he was very good with her and she wanted him again. He is about 10 years younger than her, and is very good at satisfying her needs. He was the first real planned meeting we had after she started seeing other men, their first meeting is described here http://diaryofarealhotwife.blogspot.com/2011/04/meeting-man-closer-to-home.html .

We had planned to meet him at a local hotel on Saturday night, but that fell through when we were invited to a family party out of state the next day. Disapointed, but undaunted, Lisa suggested I attend the party with the kids and she stay home and have her date as planned. She said since we would be out all day, she could have him over the house rather than go to the hotel. I was a bit taken aback by this, but we knew him pretty well and I relented when she explained this would be a comfortable thing for them both.

The afternoon soon came, Lisa took a bath and as has become her custom, she had me shave her for her lover. She brought out a few outfits and told me to pick one. They were all short sexy dresses and I picked a blue one she had never worn before. She put it on and it looked spectacular on her, she put on a pair of fishnet stocking and boots and was very excited for her date.

It was soon time for us to leave, I had butterflies in my stomach, not knowing how this would play out. A few minutes before we left, Lisa told me to get the video camera and meet her in the bedroom. She told me to pull down my pants, She pulled out the CB3000 chastity lock and told me she wanted me to wear it. I protested, but to no avail. She insisted, and after a few minutes, she had it on me, locked it and put the key around her wrist.

I asked her to text me so that i would know she was alright, to which she agreed. She said she would try to video the date for me, but she wasn't very good at that since I always worked the camera. A few minutes later, I was on the road, the kids in the back seat, my dick locked and my wife was anxiously waiting for another man to come and fuck her.

A few minutes after i arrived at the party, Lisa txted me a photo she had taken of herself, dressed for him just before he arrived. Moments later another text, saying he had arrived. My dick strained in the chastity device, when I got that message. Thinking back on it I realized this is exactly as she had planned it. For the rest of the afternoon and eveneing I recieved more texts, each briefly describing where they were and what was happening, but no details.

A few hours went by with no word from her, until finally I get a series of texts 'We are going to the bedroom', 'I'm getting fucked, I have your key', all meant to tease and excite me while I was locked, and at the same time let me know that she was ok.

On the way home she called me and since the kids were in the back seat, we had to keep our conversation to a minimum. She said he was still their but they were done, she said she would call when he left to be certain it was ok for us to come in the house.

When I arrived home we got the kids off to bed quickly and she brought me to the bedroom, where the room was still lit by candles and there was a wine bucket, and empty champagne glasses on the dresser. The video camera was on a tripod near the bed, and our other still camera was on the floor.
She handed the camera to me and told me he had taken a few photos for me, "take a look...".

I scrolled through the photos, pictures of Lisa, her dress hiked up, pics of her in her bra and panties, and posing for him in a few different positions. Then, photos of her laying down, her panty pushed aside. Then, more photos, her panties pushed asside, semen clearly visible on her pussy lips. Then A photo of her actually spreading her lips, his cum had splatter her and I thought I could see it inside her as well. She told me he took the photos after they fucked for over 2 hours. I had to ask, but dredded the likely answer...Did he come insider her? She told she was sorry, yes, he seemed to have lost control and "he just exploded in there". The photos bear this out.

She hiked her skirt and laid on the bed and said 'now clean me up'. Knowing his sperm was inside my wife was more than I could take. She pushed my head between her thighs, and told me to lick her. I felt somewhat repulsed by this but at the same time I wanted to get his semen out of her, I could not bear the thought of it swimming inside her as she lay beside me in the bed he had fucked her in.

Here is a short version of what happened that day, no lie...

You can see the entire video here: Lisa cages hub, then has a friend in our bed

Chastized, nuetered and cuckolded

2012-12-09T09:22:00.000-08:00

Self portrait, dressed for her date

A few men had contacted me in an effort to meet Lisa as well as Many "Wannabe's" - guys who wanted their wives to cuckold them. I really did not understand their desire for this and I always cautioned them on this. If you have been reading this block you know that what has transpired with my wife and I over the past years was not my doing, Lisa initiated this and she is the reason I'm cuckold. I am what I call a "reluctant cuckold". While there are now many exciting aspects of this for me, I have never had much control over how this has progressed. Lisa calls the shots, not me and in fact I have tried many times to reign this in to no avail. It seems that once I gave in and accepted Lisa's needs for extramarital sex, that I also gave up control over how this would evolve.

Many people who contacted me through yahoo IM wanted to see photos and videos of a real cuckold relationship. I would send short clips from the videos I had taken, or I would post them on some of the yahoo groups from time to time. But I could see that people were fascinated by this and one suggested I post full length clips on a site called clips4sale. I posted a few longer clips there after editing out faces and the response to these posts was very positive. I continue to post videos of our journey there and I feel like I am doing something positive by allowing people to see what it's really like to be in a cuckold relationship. So that is how and why the clips4sale page evolved.

One of the husbands on yahoo IM was a classic "wannabe". His wife had no interest in being with other men, yet he had an obsession with it and wanted to know how he can get his wife into it. My advice was, is, and will always be, be careful what you wish for. This is not something to enter into lightly and it is not something I recommend to anyone. Cuckolding must be initiated by the wife. Once it happens, it changes everything. By accepting it you risk relinquishing your place as your wife's lover. She sees other men as the object of her sexual desires - not you.

Through our chat's this "wannabe" seemed to begin to live out his fantasy of being cucked vicariously through our videos and our chats, where I would describe Lisas' various meetings with guys. One day he suggested that he would like to buy a Chastity device for me. I had no idea what it was, so he sent a link and I read through it. I told him I would be an idiot to have something like that, and that it would make this worse for me than it already was. The thing was over $100, so I thought he was crazy for wanting to buy this but he insisted and eventually i agreed just to get him to stop asking. While I accept my lot as a cuckold husband, I sometimes regret accepting this 'gift', as it effectively neutered me, gradually, in my wife's eyes over the next several years.

My intention was to take the device and never use it but unfortunately, on the day it arrived I was out of town and Lisa received and opened the package. To my great embarrassment, when I got home, Lisa asked me what it was and so I had to explain the whole thing to her. Her reaction was surprising, she was fascinated by it and told me to put it on.

I reluctantly tried to get it on. As I struggled with it, Lisa was reading the instructions. The device is called a CB3000. It required that my balls be inserted through a ring and my penis be inserted in a sleeve, all of which is designed to keep me from masturbating or having sex. I was totally humiliated as I struggled to put this on, but Lisa was all excited. Once it was on she inserted the lock that came with it and said something like, "this is going to be fun". She said she wanted me to wear it next time she played.

Locked, first time chastity

first time chastity

So this was clearly something that empowered Lisa and it gave her greater control of me sexually - all of which was an aphrodisiac for her. True to her word, from that point forward, whenever she met someone I was compelled to wear the chastity device.

Over the next several months Lisa was quite active, and she was inspired to cuckold me further by this device.

Her next date was with an old friend who was one of the first men to bed her. She met him alone, invited him to our house while I was out at a family function. They video taped some of it and took a few photos. I will write about that in my next post which I hope will be soon.
In the meantime here is the link to the clips4sale page if you want to read a bit about it:
Lisa cages hub, then has a friend in our bed

All video's of Lisa with her bulls can be found here: Diary-of-a-real-hotwife

She sent this photo showing my key around her wrist - just after her date arrived

While I'm away, Lisa plays

2012-11-30T04:34:00.003-08:00

Around this time I was traveling extensively for work and Lisa was often alone during the week, working and taking care of the household chores and of course the kids. I was on the west coast alot and would always call home each evening to see how things were and catch up on current events.

Lisa was still working at the time and although her job was quite demanding she did have a great deal of flexibilty so she sometimes worked at home rather than going to the office. One evening I called home, Lisa, she was in bed relaxing. We chit chatted for a bit and I sensed something was weird. A moment or two later, she said, "were your ears ringing this afteroon?...". I had a feeling something was up and she was about to confirm it.

She went on to tell me she worked from home today, and that "Mike" stopped by the house. "Mike" was a former collegue of hers who went on to other things, but had kept in touch with Lisa since leaving the company they both worked for. She explained they had been in touch via email and he was in the area and she invited him over to have lunch. She said he brought a bottle of wine...they ate and drank, she hoped I didn't mind... I asked the question that I already knew the answer to, "Did anything else happen?"

She told me she needed to use my office computer to look something up for him. While she was sitting at my desk he began to rub her back, and one thing led to another...She told me she never intended anything to happen, and it was totally unplanned and she would explain when I returned home. She hoped I was not upset.

When I returned home that Friday evening she spilled about what had happened earlier in the week. While she was sitting at my desk, Lisa had told him her back was stiff and he replied that he gives great massages and began massaging her back. Soon his hands were wandering past her back, to her waist, and around her neck. He unbuttoned her blouse and kissed her, she leaned over on my desk and he lifter her skirt.

In the end he said they had sex un my desk, she told me she was very horny and could not stop, especially after having a fwe glasses of wine. Since he was married and Lisa had met his wife, this was totally out of character for her. She never did anything with married men, so I assumed it was the wine tipped things in his favor.

While I was upset, I told her that I understood how this could happen, but we had an agreement that I would always be with her when she is with someone and that it seemed like that is no longer going to be the case. She just smiled, she kissed me, handed me our camera and said "it was as if I was there". Then she told me she had him take a few pictures - for me - and if I didn't want to see them she would just delete them.

When I looked at the photos it was apparent that He had fucked her on my desk, from behind and had cum all over her ass. Every time I sit at that desk I can't help but visualize this guy fucking my wife while I was on the other side of the county.

Although she said she would never do it again, he did end up fucking her again, several months later under similar circumstances. However, she took him to our bed that time and did not take any photos.

Here are a few of the photos.

The massage

2012-10-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

Lisa was quite stressed with the pressures of work so I bought her a gift certificate for a spa that Christmas. She decided to use it one day a few months later so she called for an apointment - She said they asked her if she wanted a male or female massuese and she told the receptionist she preferred a male but it wasn't that important. She left the house and returned about 3 hours later. When she came home she had a mischevous look on her face. She began to tell me about her afternoon.

She said her massuese (John) was a 32 year old who was very nice and very attractive. The massage started very normally, she was naked on the table, covered by a towel, John began by asking her what areas he should concentrate on and what she liked etc. He began massaging her and Lisa said he did a great job. As he worked on her body, Lisa told me she started to feel aroused, the towel accidentally moved, exposing her body to him. He appologized and reached for the towel, Lisa told him that she is not shy and she is very comfortable with her body.

She said the massage progressed normally, except he was now focusing on her private areas. He massaged her thighs, then her ass, and she felt herself getting excited. When she turned over, he massaged her breasts, then moved down. She said they did not speak, but she said she could tell he was getting aroused by his breathing. His hands moved to her pussy and he began to stimulate her. She said a few minutes later his fingers were inside her and she came very quickly.

When the massage ended, they talked a bit, she told him she was married but she was free. It seems he lived in a nearby town and they agreed they would try to get together again soon. she gave him her email address and told him to get in touch with her.

By the time she got home, she had an email from him. They went back and forth a few times but never were able to set a date to meet. A few months went by and she decided she would make an appointment for another massage, this time she asked specifically for John.

The day of the massage, she took a bath before hading to the spa. Before she left, as she was getting dressed, I noticed that she had shaved her pussy, I asked her about this and she told me she had asked for John at the spa...then she finished getting dressed and left.

She called me a few hours later and told me she had a surprise for me me when she gets home. She came home a few minutes later and I asked her how her massage was...She said it was wonderfull then told me to come upstairs to the bedroom with her.

I asked what happened? Did anything happen? She grinned and just got undressed. It was mid-afternoon and the room was well lit, she lay on the bed naked, she spread her legs and told me John gave her the BEST massage she ever had. Then I saw the dried white stains on her belly. She saw that my eyes had noticed this and she grinned and nodded her head, then told me to lay down on top of her. I began to get aroused, and she soon guided me inside her. I remember thinking that Her pussy was soaked like I had never felt before and I slid in with absolutely no resistance.She allowed me to fuck her as she told me all of what had transpired that afternoon...

Lisa told me the massage started like last time but this time she took the towel off at the very bginning, his hands quickly went to her breasts and he began to kiss her. She told me she felt his hardness through his pants, she unzipped him and he dropped his pants. She said his cock was rock hard and quite huge, she sucked his cock and soon he pulled a condom from his pants pocket, put it on and then mounted her in the missionary position on the massage table. She said she had a hard time remaining quiet as he fucked her deep and slow. As things heated up he said he wanted to fuck her in the doggy position, so she got off the table and he fucked her again in this position. She said he made her cum and then he laid her on her back again and fucked her some more, until it was obvious he was about to cum. She said He pulled out, he pulled off the condom and then came powerfully all over her tits and belly.

At that moment I also came all over her, and she seemed pleased with that. She told me she would be going for more massages with him and they agreed they would work out the dates through emails. I guess he eventually left the spa because when she called and asked for him a few weeks later, they said he was no longer with them. they exchanged emails a few times but I guess that was the end of it because she has not heard from him since.

Young black fucks her again July 2007, this time in my bed

2012-09-02T06:04:00.012-07:00

After her first meeting with him Lisa wanted more of his BBC. She told me to invite him over one saturday night when we had the house to ourselves. After a few glasses of wine, they went to our bedroom where he fucked my wife in our bed for several hours.

Watchin my wife getting fucked in our bed was like a cold, humiliating slap in the face for me. It brings it home in a way I can't describe. I always felt the marital bed was place for a man and wife. By taking other men to our bed, Lisa was sending me a powerfull message..."YOU ARE A CUCKOLD HUSBAND"

Here are a few photos from that night, you can see the whole video here:

Lisa fucks a black man in our bed

Lisa's sexual desires 2007

2012-08-12T06:18:00.008-07:00

At this point we are still back around 2007 and I'm realizing that posting the details of each of Lisa's adventures will take a very long time.
From 2007 - 2010 Lisa was very active, and there were many men, I will post them in the chronological order in which they fucked her.

Lisa fucks a black man Feb2007
Yes lisa likes her black men. Lisa has always been attracted to muscular classy young black men and the young man in this clip had been in touch with me for several years trying to arrange a meeting with Lisa. In Feb we had a free night and we met at our usual hotel lounge nearby. We had checked in several hrs before we were to meet him and she had me shave her completely in anticipation of what was to cum. We went to the bar to meet him around 8 and they immediately hit it off. Before long the bar got loud and crowded and Lisa told me she wanted to leave - with him - and go back to our room. She had me pour her a drink and went left the room to put on her outfit which was a green garter, hose and bra. When she emerged her new friend was ready and waiting. They start with kssing and petting then he gives her pussy and good licking and fingers. Before he fucks her he has her suck him while he kneels and stradles my wifes face. Then he fucks the hell out of her, first missionary and then doggy position. She tells him to cum on her ass but he has alot of energy and has my wife mount him and ride his BBC for a while. I was allowed to video tape and take many photos (including the one to the right) while he fucked my wife in this position. She moans and cums many times with this impressive young man. He fucked her from 9:30 till around 3 AM

Here are the links to the full videos and a short sample
Lisa fucks a black man Feb2007

Lisa fucked by BBC Feb 2007 - part2
It's obvious my wife loves her BBC. This is the second part of her first meeting with this young black man in Feb. In round 2 I bring her a drink as he spreads her creamy white thighs and licks my wife's pussy to get her ready. He gets on top of her and fucks her long hard and deep just the way she needs it. His bbc plunges in and out of Lisa's married pussy as she moans with pleasure. I think the hottest part is when he is on top of her and wraps his arms around my wifes thighs and puts his big hands under her thick ass. He's clearly excited by this and plows her deeply in this position for several minutes. With each stroke he pulls her hips up towards him, and it's clear he's in complete control of my wife as he penetrates her deeply. Later he cums on Lisa's juggs and she spreads and massages his seed all over her big white tits as she smiles in appreciation. They lay in bed sroking each other, oblivious to my pressence even as I reach out and touch and carress her ass. She later told me it was this meeting where she realized how much she is turned on by black men and how nothing is more exciting to her. She will never be the same.

A black man in my bed

2012-07-12T06:27:00.015-07:00

We seemed to be getting into a comfortable routine. Every few months Lisa would give me some sort of indication that her labido was rising and I knew that meant - I needed to arrange something for her. It was usually unspoken but it was always clear what she wanted. She was sparing my feelings by not comming right out and telling me, but I knew she was ready and wanting some action, and I knew that if I didn't supply her with it she would somehow find it herself...as she had done before.

During the time frames between each meeting, I would be chatting with men who had either seen her photos or had heard about her through our ad postings on swing sites. We considered this our pool of eligible suitors, men who had sent photos, Lisa had seen the pics and approved, and I had chatted with them and felt they were a good fit for her.

I told her I would arrange a meeting for her and asked her if she had a preference based on who we had in the 'stable', (which is what she called our list of potentials).Lisa made it clear that size matters and the young men were the most energetic and long lasting. She asked if 'Dave' was available, (he's the 30 year old black man with the 11 inch cock - see our earlier post to read about her first meeting ). .

I contacted him and arranged a date to get together. We were going to meet him at the same hotel lounge but on the morning of the date, both of our kids were going to be away for the weekend so she told me to cancel the hotel and invite him to our home.

That afternoon, Lisa had me shave her for him and told me to pick out what he might want her to wear, which I did. I picked him up at the train station in the early evening, around 6PM. Lisa was home waiting for us, getting herself ready. In the car he told me he 'was going to fuck my wife good', and that she is his slut, that she loves his big black cock. Basically, talking shit and verbally humiliating me as we drove back to our house.

At a red light, He unzipped his pants in the car and pulled out his enormous black dick, telling me he's going to hit places in her that I've never been. The size of his cock is almost freakish, and he tells me 'your wife is going to cum all over this BBC'.

When we arrive, Lisa greets him with a kiss, we drink some wine, Lisa is already a bit tipsy. They make out in the kitchen then she tells me to get some towels as they are going in the hottub. They take the towels and go outside, I can see from the kitchen window that they both take their clothes off and get into the hottub.
They are making out, he sits on the step, I see my wifes head between his legs, I know she is sucking his cock. She bends over the edge of the hottub, he stand behind her but it starts to rain and they soon return to the house.

Wrapped in towels, once in the house, she tells me they are going upstairs, and that I should bring a bottle of champagne up for them in a few minutes. When I approach the room he is laying in my bed, Lisa is sucking his cock. She looks at me and asks if I brought the champagne, which I did. She says, 'Where are the champagne glasses?' I told her I thought the wine glasses would be fine, but she did not agree and asked me to bring them proper champagne glasses. When I return with the glasses Lisa is still sucking his dick, she lifts her head long enough to tell me to pour the champagne, then goes back to blowing him.

I handed him the champagne glass and poured it. Now try to imagine how surreal and humiliating this was for me. He is laying in my bed, my wife is sucking his BBC and I am pouring champagne for him and her. At this point I am excited but I realize that I am being cuckolded by both of them.

She continued to blow him for a while, he wanted her to deep throat him but there was no possible way that could happen with his size, Lisa gagged a bit as he forced his cock as deep as he could into her mouth. A few minutes later he turned her on her back and she told me to put lube on her pussy. As I did this, he was positioned between her legs, his cock rigid and ready to enter. She told me to put lube on his cock, when I hesitated and he told me that for his BBC they will both need lube.
I finally summoned the nerve and did it.

He fucked her in many positions that night. Lisa orgasmed more than I have ever seen her with any man she had been with. They continued to have sex until Lisa needed a rest, she had had quite alot to drink and was a bit drunk really. He was still horny for her, running his hands all over her and telling her seh wanted her to suck his bbc again. Then she told him 'I need a rest, honey, come over here..., you're not tired are you?'

She held his black cock and stroked it gently, she looked at me and said quietly, 'Do it'. I knew what she meant but could not respond, she looked at me again and so 'go ahead, do it, I want to watch you do it'. She pulled me towards her, she stroked him and gently pushed my head and said, 'open your mouth'. The rest is a blur, it seemed to last a long time, but it was probably only a few minutes before she let me up. I do vividly remember feeling her hand on the back of my head, pushing me down as he lay there telling her to 'choke me with it'. To which she said in a sympathetic voice, 'No, I don't want to choke him with it', she really sounded like she felt bad for me. I was in a state of shock I suppose thoughout this time.
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Soon she was ready for more, he fucked her until about 3am, she orgasmed many times and he held out until the end, finally pulling out of her and positioning himself at her face and unloading in her mouth. She willingly opened her mouth and swallowed his seed, then she told me they both needed some sleep. They were sprawled out on the bed but she told me to come lay next to her, 'Dave' was on the other side of her half sleeping. I layed down but the sheets were wet and uncomfortable. When I mentioned that to Lisa, she said, 'why don't you go sleep in the guest room then?'

As I left the masterbedroom she told me to close the door behind me and she said she loved me. I barely slept that night but finally managed to get a few hours in.

The next morning at 8-9am I went to the kitched to make coffee and walked by my bedroom. It's then that it hit me...there is black man sleeping in MY bed with MY wife. There were no sounds so I just went ahead and made coffee for us all.

A few minutes later I hear moaning and banging coming from upstairs. I grabbed my camera and went upstairs, the moaning and banging getting loader as I approached the bedroom. I gently opened the door, I see lisa laying on her back, on top of Dave, who is also on his back, her legs are spread, his cock is pumping furiously in and out of her as he fondles her big breasts.

He continues to fuck her for another 30 minutes and finally explodes all over her face again. A while later, As I drove him to the train station, he told me how my wife is his slut now and she loves his big cock.

The whole night was a bit of a blur but I do know I had never seen my wife as satisfied with a sex partner as she was with him. When I came home Lisa was waiting in bed for me, she told me she loves how he fucked her so hard and deep and that he made her cum countless times. She told me she wanted me to try to make her cum again, she spread her legs and told me to taste her, I could taste him on her pussy and quickly moved away. She told me to fuck her, and as I entered she said, 'Can you feel how stretched I am?' 'He fucked me good, now you do it'. Her pussy was slick and loose, it was not the way it normally is, his pumelling had actually physically changed the shape of her pussy, needless to say I came in just a minute or 2. She later told me that this night was one of her favorite and most exciting sexual experiences.

Lisa in the guest bedroom

2012-05-05T09:17:00.017-07:00

Lisa is in every sense a typical housewife and mom. You would more likely expect to see her in the grocery store or at the mall then expect that she would have this intense sexual desire for other men. But there it is, and I've accepted her desires and needs and although I have pangs of jealousy from time to time, I know that we are happy together it's just that her sexual needs are being taken care of by other men. I often wonder what these men think about her, what they think about me. Do they think she is just a slut? Some do I suspect. Others I'm sure are just happy to have sex with such a sexually charged older woman. As for me, I'm sure some pity me - although I have gotten past that point already. I think many of them get turned on by the fact that they are fucking my wife right in front of me. They are superior to me sexually and they know it, and Lisa certainly knows it, and most important - they know that I know it. This does lead to feelings of inferiority and submissiveness on my part, which I am often struggling with at this time. We seemed to be in a pretty comfortable routine at this point. Every few months Lisa would give me an indication that her Libido was up and that I should arrange for someone to meet. Although it may seem strange to most readers, I was comfortable in doing this - finding men who my wife would enjoy having sex with. I didn't realize it at the time, but I was becoming conditioned to be a cuckold. Perhaps Lisa subconsciously realized what she was doing, gradually and subtly cuckolding me over time until which point I would completely embrace the arrangement until it became a normal state of marriage for us. Having had a taste of interracial sex it seemed to me as if this was going to be her preference from now on. I asked her how she felt about it and she told me that it was exciting to have sex with a black man, the taboo nature of it kind of turned her on. Lisa said it turned her on to give it up to a black man while I watched. We both have a traditional and conservative background and this was nothing close to traditional, so it allowed her to be naughty, but without being bad, because I knew about it and was there watching it. A few months passed and once again she gave me notice that she was ready for some fun. Several men had contacted us through yahoo instant messenger and one stood out as a good candidate. I have gotten very good at screening the men, weeding out the fakes and the wannabees from quality bull material. We are looking for assertive men, men who have some experience and of course size matters as it always has.

Her appetite for young men, boys really, was very obvious to me. As I would show her photos of possible candidates, Lisa would always rule out older men. The young ones, muscular with very large cocks are the ones that drew her attention. We had the house to ourselves one Saturday in March and we arranged to meet a young man who seemed like a good fit. He was 28 and Lisa was attracted to his photos, his cock was large and thick and Lisa told me to arrange to meet him. So we planned on meeting him for a drink to see if the chemistry was right for the 2 of them. Late that afternoon Lisa told me to ask him if he wanted to come to our house instead of meeting at the bar.

We called him and He agreed to come over at 9:30.

The next few hours were spent preparing for her date. Lisa showered, which is now always followed by a shave her private parts for her date. She is very meticulous about this, always making sure that I shave her clean and completely bald for her dates. As I do this, she teases me, saying things such as, 'how do you feel shaving my pussy for another man?' Lisa has a beautiful pussy really, there are 2 folds concealing a very full clit which is partially hooded until she is aroused. Once aroused it becomes erect for direct stimulation, her lips are inviting and open easily. The entrance to her pussy is tight, but it accommodates large cocks within a few seconds of entry. I feel this is some biological adaption to allow easy access to her G spot. Stimulation to her G spot and direct pressure to her cervix is what makes my wife orgasm. Indeed, when a man is able to reach her cervix with his cock, Lisa has the most intense and almost instantaneous orgasms. I have never come close to being able to reach that spot but others have and it is quite amazing. Lisa has wide hips and a 'thick' but incredibly curvy body that seems to bring out the animal instinct in many men. Needless to say, She makes very good use of her physical attributes to arouse her man. At 9:30 the doorbell rang. We had some wine in the kitchen and chatted a bit, they seemed to hit it off well. Soon she brought him into the family room and told me to leave them alone. I went up to our bedroom and watched unnoticed as they began to get comfortable together. I grabbed our video camera and started to watch and film as they began the night of passion. On the sofa they made out and fondled each other, his hands all over her body, under her blouse, and inside her pants. I could hear her heavy breathing and moaning as she become more excited. She suddenly sat up and took off her blouse and then unclasped her bra, I saw her heavy full breasts fall from the cups as her young Friend looked at her in awe.

She took off her pants, her round ass was clad only in a sexy thong she had me choose for her earlier in the evening. She sat on his lap and they made out as things heated up. A few moments later, Lisa was leading him up to one of our guest rooms. This was odd in that I expected her to bring him to our master bedroom to allow me to watch, as had been the plan. But without as much as a word to me, they went to the guest room and soon their bodies were entangled on the bed. As I was down the hall in our bedroom as they came up the stairs. I walked down the hall to the guest room to listen. The door was left partially open and I began to video what was taking place. Lisa had her hand and mouth wrapped around his cock. He was looking at her as she slowly and deliberately stroked and sucked his cock. After a few minutes Lisa was on her back, legs spread, as he licked and fingered her clean shaven pussy. Moments later, he positioned the head of his cock at the opening between my wife's legs and slowly thrust. She gasped. His thrusts began to gradually quicken. Lisa's had pulled him deeper, with each thrust I heard the slapping of their bodies and moaning. He pulled Lisa to the side of the bed, her ass and legs dangling off the edge, he stood up spread her legs wide and fucked her. Moments later, she positioned herself on all fours in the doggy position. Her ass high, her back arched, she invited him to fuck her. He took hold of her hips and slid inside himself my wife again. Anyone who has fucked Lisa knows that This position is almost impossible to maintain with my wife for any length of time. The combination of visual and physical stimulation seems to buckle most men in just a few minutes. Seeing her ass up high and her pussy devour every inch of their cock is more than most men can take. As I watched, I knew all this and this young man was about to learn what I already knew. After 5 or ten minutes in this position, he began fucking her faster and harder and I knew he would soon explode. He pulled her hips back against himself and held her there. I heard him say 'I shot it in you' as he continued to fuck her. All this happened as I watched from the doorway. As they uncoupled I moved away from the doorway and back to the master bedroom. A few minutes later Lisa came in, naked, she had a huge smile on her face. I asked her where she had been, (as if I didn't know), she said 'I've been getting fucked'. She straddled me on the bed, kissed me and said 'He's good!'. She creeped up onto my chest, then straddled my face and said 'Taste anything?' Indeed, I did. She went back to the guest room and brought him to our master bedroom where she blew him hard again and then he fucked her in several different positions. As he fucked her, he told me to hold her hand. It was as if he wanted to send me a message: "I'm fucking your wife, in your bed, hold her hand as I cuckold you". This message became chrystal clear to me when Lisa embraced it - she reached out her hand and told me to hold it while his cock was still inside her. I held her hand and felt her body shake as he fucked her, a few minutes later she ogasmed just as he pulled out and spilled a second load all over her belly. He looked at me and said, 'You can't statisfy her, but I can' as the last few drops of sperm dripped from the head of his cock onto my wife's soft white belly.

Here are 2 small clips from that evening.

This was a very exciting night for us all. From the the unexpected request for privacy, to the unexpected creampie and then her having sex with him in our bed while holding my hand. I realized that all these little things add to Lisa's excitement, and I must admit although I have feelings of angst when another man is fucking my wife, it does excite me to realize how much she turns them on and how much she wants them.

The Cuckolding excalates

2012-04-26T07:28:00.000-07:00

My wife is in her early 40's at this point and her sex drive is in overdrive. She has been having me find men for her, she has spontaneously met men while we were on vacations, and she gone out and found men on her own. In a previous post you will read that the last man she met was a tall muscular young black man - she basically met him at a bar, brought him home and took him to our bed and fucked him.

We talked about this afterwards...it was all very innocent when it started that night, she was restless and wanted to get out of the house. She had a few drinks, one thing led to another, he told her that he wanted her, she told him she was married - he didn't care. He invited her to his place but she didn't feel that would be a safe choice, so she brought him to our home. He made it clear once he got here that he wanted her alone, he wanted her in our bed and she gave in to what he wanted. She apologized for having to lock me out of the bedroom, but she said it was 'necessary' for him to feel comfortable.

She said felt that although she had been inconsiderate to me, he was very good and that she felt totally satisfied. I asked how he had satisfied her and she said he had 9 inches and was rock hard all night. She said she thought black men were sexy and she always was attracted to them but was not often in a situation where she could indulge her fantasy. That night she said she decided she was 'going for it'.

Over the next several months I continued to screen suitors who wanted to meet Lisa. Although it may not seem it, Lisa is very particular about who she wants to meet. Many of the ones who contacted us were black, it seemed that her body type appealed to them in a very big way. Her porcelain white skin, her meaty small frame, her curvy shape, wide hips and full breasts attracted them in droves. I would show her photos of the ones I thought she might be interested - they were all hugely endowed, every one over 8 inches, (some as large as 12 inches). Most were not her type, she likes classy men and many who contacted us just didn't seem to have that trait. Eventually after a few weeks, I found what she was looking for, she saw his photos and agreed to meet. He was 30 years old, very tall, medium dark skin and had an enormous cock, 11 inches was what he told me, and it looked every bit of it from the photos.

We agreed to meet at the local Hilton hotel which had a nice lounge area for the two of them to get acquainted. Lisa had been fucked there several times before so the surroundings would be comfortable for her. To make a long story short, we had a few drinks at the bar, Lisa leaned over and told me to pay the bill, and she said I should go get the room. The 3 of us went towards the front desk, I paid for the room, Lisa and her new Friend standing nearby.

I told Lisa the room number and started walking towards the elevators, when Lisa stopped and asked me to get her bag from the car. She asked me for the key, pressed the elevator button, said "Take your time" and gave me a kiss.

I remember turning around and seeing the look on the guys face who had just checked me into the hotel. He had clearly been watching what happened in the lobby - my wife was going to the room with the 6'2" black guy.

A few minutes later after retrieving her bag, I took the elevator to our floor and knocked on the door. Her new Friend opened the door, Lisa was sitting on the bed, still fully clothed. Lisa took the bag into the other room and said she was going to change into something more comfortable.

While she was getting changed, I sat on a chair while her new friend walked about the room, telling me how sexy she and saying he was going to fuck her all night. Then he walked over to where I sat, unzipped his pants, pulled his cock out and said 'your wife is going to love this big black cock'. Stunned at the size, I just stared for a moment. His cock was literally as long as my forearm and I began to think that this was going to be more than Lisa can handle. He stood in front of me, stroked his cock and said 'and you're going to taste it first cuck', he then reached behind my head, told me to open my mouth and he shoved his cock. As he looked down he said, 'That's what your wife is going to get', then he pulled away and zipped his pants.

Moments later Lisa came out wearing a sexy outfit. They chatted briefly and soon she was on the bed, their sexual passion for each other was clear for me to see. The rest of the night is sort of a blur. He fucked her in many different positions, she sucked his cock and they both came multiple times. He took great pleasure in showing me how he liked fucking my wife, he would slowly sink his enormous member into my wife and then alternate with hard deep thrusts.

After an hour or two they took a break and Lisa went into the restroom for a moment. He was laying on the bed stroking his cock, telling me what a good fuck Lisa was. He said she was his slut now and she loved his big cock. He stoked his cock and said 'Get over here cuck and keep this hard for your wife'. He pushed my head down on his member and said 'all that black cock was just in your wife'. Lisa returned and saw what he was doing to me and said to him, 'I see you are keeping him busy, Good Job!'

She grabbed the camera and video taped this and took some photos as well. He thrust himself up while pushing my head down, telling Lisa he wanted me to gag on it. This seemed to excite Lisa and she put her hand behind my head and told me to suck it. This lasted several minutes, until finally he pulled his cock out and slapped my face with it and said he was ready to fuck my wife again.

Lisa took the full length of his cock, which was somewhat hard to believe. She told me later that the feeling of the head of his dick pushing against her cervix made her orgasm. This is the feeling that she craves as I have since found out. Some women orgasm with stimulation to their clit, Lisa cums with deep penetration and stimulation of her G spot. These are all things I learned by watching her having sex with other men. They're able to make her cum because of their size, this is something I just don't possess.

He came on her face

They had sex until about 2AM, until they both were exhausted. They were sprawled across the bed, and I climbed in next to my wife, her Friend on the the other side of her. We turned off the lights and slept. At daybreak I was woken by the unmistakable moans of my wife and the shaking of the bed. He had Lisa on her side, her right leg lifted, his cock sliding in and out of her pussy from behind. With each thrust I could feel Lisa's body shake and soon got up and grabbed the camera. The room was still dark so I turned on the night setting and I could clearly see everything through the viewfinder. Lisa was riding him, sliding her stretched pussy up and down the full length of his rigid cock. She asked me to apply some lube for them and I did as she asked, coating the length of his shaft as it slide out of her. Soon she was on all fours, taking his cock until he pulled out and came all over her ass. I could see his cum drip down the crack of her ass and wondered if I should get her a towel.

He dressed and left shortly afterward. Lisa was worn out and tired and went to sleep for about 2 hours. She woke and told me she needed to be fucked again. Lisa pulled me close, opened her legs and guided me in. As I entered her she whispered in my ear 'How does it feel? He stretched me out for you, how does it feel?' Indeed, even though we had not had sex together in a long time I could feel the looseness. She whispered, 'how did you like seeing him fuck me like I was a slut? Now fuck me like I'm a whore, fuck me like a slut'. She saw that I became so excited by this and then told me 'I'm so stretched I can't feel you, fuck me deeper'. I began to think about his cock being inside her and I tried my best to go deep. As I fucked her as deep as I could, she said 'he hit places you can't even reach'. With that, she pulled away and told me to jerk off until I cum. As I masturbated she said 'You know he fucked your wife better than you can, how does that feel? How do you feel about that?' I came within seconds and Lisa smiled and said 'good job, let's try to get together with him again real soon'. And we did...

Below is a short clip of what happened that night, the complete clip and many others are available on our page at
Diary of a Real HotWife

sexually empowering another man

2012-03-09T10:32:00.014-08:00

After her last two meetings we talked about where things were going. Over the past 2 months, She had picked up and fucked a 26 year old at his house and had brought home a young black guy and had sex with him in our bedroom after locking me out.

Lisa explained to me how she felt sexy and excited by meeting these 2 men on her own. She said it made her feel good to know that younger men were still attracted to her and that they still wanted and desired her sexually. She told me how she often felt like she had lost her appeal to the opposite sex and was just a wife and a mom. As much as I tried to tell her that this was not the case, she needed affirmation from other men, and she sought it out and of course she found it.

She went on to explain what went on when she met them, and how she decided that she wanted them to fuck her. She was care full not to say too much and clearly wanted to spare my feelings but she wanted me to understand this for some reason.

She said the 26 year old had approached her while she sat at the bar and they made friendly small talk. He noticed her wedding ring and asked where her husband was. She said he was home, and that she was out by herself. He said that it was hot that

she was married and out alone and they talked about that for quite awhile. She told me that he seemed very intrigued by that fact that she was married, and this began to excite her alot. He started to flirt with her, telling her how sexy she was and touching her back and putting his hand on her bare leg. As this transpired she said she had such a feeling of excitement. This young man knew she was married and was obviously turned on by this. This, she said 'made her hot'.

He started asking provocative questions...how would her husband feel if he knew men were hitting on her? Would her husband mind if he knew she was with a younger guy? This type of conversation went on for about an hour with him. She pulled out her phone and sent me a text which basically said she had met someone, and would not be coming home. Then she showed him the text message she had just sent me. She said he paid the bar bill immediately - and they left together for his place.

Once they got to his place, they quickly moved to the bedroom. She told me that as they had sex he would say things about me...your husband can't fuck you the way you need to be fucked.

A big part of the excitement was the fact that he knew she was married, AND he knew that I knew that she was with him. She felt he was confident, assertive and self assured. He knew he was fucking another mans' wife, and it turned him on to do it. It turned her on to see him in control, and taking what was mine, but she knew she would return to me but didn't have to explain or apologize for what had happened.

I realized that she was explaining to me how I had been cuckolded that night. She was also telling me why she was cuckolding me. Lisa found it exciting to sexually empower another man over me. My wife felt empowered by giving herself to him. This is what I have learned about being a cuckold. For us it is all about sexual control and power.

Lisa and the men she beds have the control and power - and that is what excites her.

2006 or so

2012-01-21T11:00:00.000-08:00

Around 2006 - Although not completely on board with this, I now began to looking forward helping Lisa find great people to meet. I had a role, it seemed like it was something I could actually do to please my wife and I was accepting of the whole thing. So I placed some ads and chatted with alot of people. Most were douche bags, married cheaters, losers and generally men my wife would never be interested in. Some seemed to have a better understanding of the needs of a couple and were comfortable in the role of sex object. And that's all they were. An object of sexual gratification for my wife. She was not getting that from me, and as I went through this somewhat painful screening process I felt that I had some control. I was soon enlightened on just how little control I had. A few weeks went by. Lisa and I had a spat one Saturday afternoon. I have no clue what it was about at this point, but whatever it was, it was meaningless. The kids were sleeping at freinds house that night. Fter an afternoon of the silent treatment, at around 7PM Lisa disappeared, she showered, she blew out her hair, she dressed and came down to the kitchen. She was wearing black slacks, heels and a low cut blouse. I asked where she was going and she just said, 'I'm going out'. I asked where, she just said she wasn't sure. A few ninutes later, she was in the car pulling out of the driveway. At 11PM I called her. No answer. She called back at 11:30, she said she was at a bar, she had met someone and told me to strighten up the house because she would be home soon. She said he was driving her home and would be coming in for a while. We hung up, I straightend things up and waited. To this day I'm not sure what made me do this but I placed our camcorder in the sitting area of the bedroom and turned it on. At 12:15 the door opened, Lisa walked in and introduced me to her freind,he was at least 6'4, completely ripped and black. She told to pour them drinks and then said they were going up to our bedroom. I handed them the drinks, they went up and closed the door. I waited. I heard no sounds. After 40 minutes I knocked on my bedroom door and she told me to come in. She was sitting by the fireplace with him. They were embracing, sitting close to each other and looked like they had been interrupted. I sat with them for while, trying to make small talk but it was clear that I was not really welcome. Finally she took me aside, she said, 'He has a 9 inch cock and he's going to fuck me in our bed tonight' then asked me to leave, and to close the door behind me. I left them for a while then curiosity got to me and I quietly opened the door just a crack. Lisa yelled 'Close the door!' then came over to lock it. As she walked over, I could see she was wearing something very different than she had on before, it was a sexy light green bra, garter and stockings which I had bought her a few years ago. She whispered to me, 'He doesn't want you around, so please go downstairs'. Then she locked the door. I went to the kitchen which is just below our bedroom. For the next 2 hours I listened to this black guy fucking the hell out or my wife. I sat there litenting through each of their orgasms, and there were several for each of them, from what I could tell. I imagined what he must be feeling each time I heard her moan or scream, I began to masterbate, and in a way fantasizing and living vicariously through what he was doing with my wife. At around 4am the door opened, then footsteps down the stairs. He came over and shook my hand and said 'your wife just wore me out'. Then he left. I went upstairs. The sheets were completely off the bed, Lisa was naked and half asleep. She stirred as I got into bed then she rolled over. I saw the his dried cum on her tits and belly. The bedding was damp, with her cum or his, I was not sure which. She pulled me close and whispered, 'I'm not mad anymore'. Then she kissed me and then she slept. Below is a small clip which captured some of the initial part of the evening she spent with him. The rest occured in our bed and was not captured on film - but the sounds I heard are forever burned into my memory.