Diary of A Super-Mom!

It's been too long

2015-06-23T11:50:00.002-06:00

Oh my goodness!
Time has been so fast and Ive been enjoying/embracing every moment to the point that I have not updated this in what seems like forever. So grab some popcorn because this is bound to be a long, long post.

The last update was back in 2012, and so much has happened since!

All of the kids are thriving and doing so well!

Kayleigh is officially starting the 5th grade this fall, which is completely nuts to me. She's grown so much and is so beautiful. She is still so loving but the pre teen hormones/puberty have started and it makes for an interesting day, every day. She turns 10 in July (which makes me feel really old) and I can't believe it. So crazy to think i had my first baby just about 10 years ago. She loves her arts and crafts still but isn't so girly anymore. She's turned into a tom boy with such a spunky style in clothes. She reminds me a bit of myself at that age. She loves to make her siblings laugh. She does have a hard time sharing some of her stuff because, well frankly she's at the age where she is starting to want her own things/privacy. Completely understandable. However, she does still play with them on a regular basis...but only if it's by her rules haha. She is sprouting into such a beautiful little girl, Im going to have to get ready to question any boy that comes around her.

Abigail is about to start the 2nd grade. She is still the biggest tom boy out of her and Kayleigh. She loves all things dinosaurs, super hero, zombie...rough and tough stuff. She has a special bond with the boys because, well, she likes getting roughed up and dirty like they do. She seems to be going through clothes so fast because she always manages to get holes in them from the outdoors and even power sliding...yes..I am talking air guitar stuff. Abby is still the biggest goofball of the family. I absolutely love it. She makes everyone laugh on a daily basis and is so happy all of the time. The only struggle I seem to have with her is when she is too rough with the boys. she will fight for what she wants and won't back down. She's my little force to be reckoned with. I have no fears for her ability to stand up for herself should the situation ever happen in life. She reminds me that laughter is important though and never fails to bring a smile to my face and every one else's every day. I also can't forget to tell you that she was picked out of a ton of school to present her artwork at an art show! Go ABBY!

Micah...Is my other force to be reckoned with. Out of all of the kids, this little man has acquired more of my personality than i'd like to admit. He's fun loving but a real jerk sometimes and will not hesitate to tell you what he thinks. Thats my little man! Him and Max just finished their first year of preschool and Micah thrived. He made wonderful little friends (an a supposed wife he was going to marry) and his speech and vocabulary is absolutely on point. His expressions tell you exactly how he feels and it's hilarious. He is such a teddy bear but acts so tough on the outside. He still wants to snuggle me all the time, which i cannot complain and wants to be a cop so that he can fight bad guys. He has a bit of Abigail's traits too as far as being a goofball. Those two are the toughest of the bunch because they are stubborn. And when they have a stubborn mom, it makes things hard sometimes. But I've learned with all of them how to pick and choose my battles. Micah and Max will be 5 in October.

Max, or as abby and i call him...Maxi...is by far the sweetest, most well natured little boy I've ever met. He never fails to tell me 100 times a day how beautiful i am and how much he loves me. He gives me kisses freely and loves to snuggle. When the others are playing, he will join in too but is more conservative. He will play fight/wrestle but in the most gentle way. He's not rough and is very emotional when micah demands him to do something. He will stand his ground but doesn't like to be mean. There are times when i have to tell him not to hit his brother or abby...and he will tell me he is mad at me or he is not talking to me...and thats ok. I let him cool off and do his own thing until five minutes later when he is ready to snuggle again. He loves super heroes still and is similar to Kayleigh in nature. He does like to make jokes and be goofy also but has a bigger passion of legos. Anything that can be taken apart or put together..he will spend hours on. He is complex. He also has a lisp. It's adorable. He had speech problems because of a tongue tie but we are working on it with him and since preschool, it has improved a lot. He also made a lot of friends (although he wasn't interested in getting married like his brother) and is the true definition of a mamas boy.

all of them are blessings. They all have different personalities but at the same time, a lot of similarities. They all have huge hearts and are not afraid to show it. Nothing makes you feel better than when you see your kids thriving and enjoying life. They are all so well mannered and make friends wherever we go.

We took them to Disney world last March and it was the best time ever. Micah met his Idol, Captain America and Max met his...Spiderman. Kayleigh enjoyed roller coasters with her dad and Abby also met spiderman, wolverine, captain america...etc. They all had the time of their life and it was wonderful seeing them shine. They want another trip soon, so I have been working long hours to save up for something just as fun.

As for me, I am perfect. I couldn't ask for a better life. I choose not to post about them on most social media due to family and security reasons so I will most likely only be posting them on here. I just have to be safe and protect my babies and life. I hope you all understand. We are all doing wonderful though and couldn't be happier. I enjoy taking them places to experience things and create memories that they won't ever forget. Whether it be the movies, the lake, camping, car trips, museums, aquariums, zoos, water parks...movies...wherever..i am certain that they will carry these memories with them throughout their entire lives. as will i.

So thank you, if you still follow this blog. I will do my best to keep updating. However, as frequent as it used to be...It won't be near as much considering all of our lives are busy and we don't spend much time sitting down! I hope you are all well and I cannot wait to update you all again. Stay Super!!!!

much love,
Lia

Ready, set ,UPDATE!

2012-12-20T13:46:00.003-07:00

Oh HEY there!

I noticed it has been longer than "just a while", so I figured it is time to update this blog. :D

The last entry was about the boys birthday. Last year, I believe. That has given me TONS of time to snuggle,love and watch my kiddos blossom!

Gah, I am having sych a hard time starting this because it seems like so much time has passed but how to fit in everything? I shall try my hardest!

Max and Micah are officially at their "terrible two" stage. Now, I am not a firm believer in this stage because to be honest, kayleigh never got it til she was 3. Even then it was nothing compared to the stories I read or heard. Then came Abigail. She made me start believing in it because she was destructive at 2 and to be honest, can still be if you don't watch her close enough. But truly, what kid isn't???

Anyways, to finish my story...life has been so wonderful. However the last week has been somewhat hellish to me. Because after my starting to believe in this terrible two business..it happened right before my eyes in full force. Unbelievable. Not to mention, holy canoli because not only do I have it with one, i have it with...twins. Boy do they team up and destroy everything they can. No one understands team work unless they watch my boys in action. I don't trust a quiet moment. I am literally on my toes every second unless it's nap time. Whether it's a drawing contest on the walls or temper tantrums that last for a good hour...there are no safe, quiet zones for me to sneak into. So what do i do? I bare it I suck it up and remind myself of that lovely saying i once so proudly told myself. I now say it while pulling my hair out..."this too shall pass". Now don't get me wrong, i love my children immensely. however, i know this comes with the territory because I've been there before. The only thing i can even try to think of scenario wise would be just to tell you flat out...my routine. Ready to be scared?

I wake up in the morning and get the girls ready for school. As soon as they're good to go, micah usually awakens first. Demanding juice. So I grab him juice, feed him and get him settled in just when max decides to wake up. He will come down demanding juice as well as food so I will have his food ready by then. After they eat, its time to change them. Micah refuses any kind of diaper change. laying him down involved him running up and away yelling no...and laughing. I basically have to hold this lil sucker down...which is exhausting. Max, well he changes pretty easily. But then starts the chaos. nothing is off limits once their bellies are full. This means I am running around behind them picking up and taking away stuff they cannot play with. I hurry up and sneak to get coffee. I chug that shit. because i really have no time to enjoy it otherwise. Anyways, usually in the midst of all this i can sneak in a snuggle or two then its time to get abby from preschool. Did I mention it's a pain in my ass to get micah in the car seat now too? He's pretty strong willed.

After getting Abigail, I let them all play some more while I fix lunch. They all sit, eat...then it's the boys' nap time. HA! This part is a challenge in itself. I bet your asking, "how do you get two kids to sleep at the same time"? well my answer is, I don't. I start with the easiest...Micah. He falls asleep on my no problem in like 5 minutes. Meanwhile max is walking around devising a plan as to what he can get to while mommy is indisposed at the moment. So I set micah down in his bed, Then i grab max. Max likes to be snuggled...ALOT. This doesnt bother me because Micah rarely allows it anymore. So i hold my cheek to his forhead while I hold him and he will be asleep in no time. Abby continues to play quietly at this time which is usually when I make a yt video. HOWEVER, Micah decided as of lately that he doesnt want to sleep longer than 45 minutes. So I have to be quick!

I run my house by a pretty tight schedule after the boys have been born. It keeps things much more sane (if you can even believe that) and it makes for easier things. I find.
Not too tight where i cant go anywhere but i try ti keep them pretty close to their nap schedule. Why? because if you havent seen or witnessed a cranky toddler...I don't wish that upon anyone. Look out world if they don't get a nap. I don't mean that in a cute way. I mean that in a Look out world...shit won't get done and if it does you'll have to hold them the whole time while doing it. Or toys will be flying...whichever.

Now, i described this scenario of my every day morning/afternoon because i wanted to show you what I do. If i made it seem like my boy were hellions, they really aren't. It comes with the age of testing the waters...seeing how far they can go before mom snaps. Two is far worse than 1 at this age so I cant imagine triplets or anything more.

The boys really are sweet though. Max still will snuggle me as I stated before. He willingly gives me smooches still and hold my neck so tight when I hug him. He has this sneaky face he makes when he's about to test the waters with me. As cute as it is...I can't give in. Because the moment i do, shit will hit the fan (maybe even literally). Opening doors like that will lead it to an every day routine & problem.
Max finally has just about all this teeth and is the happiest boy. His hair is curly! I even think Abby will have a lil curly haired twin. He likes reactions out of people. even if it's bad ones. He is bonded with my mil. He loves hanging around her and will forget I am even there.He's very talkative and likes to tell me "mama cars" or mama...something.. although his tongue tie is preventing much pronunciation, he is doing way well!!!
Micah is my rough houser. He likes to play fight and wrestle. Lately, he's been tackling Max to do so. But max gets mad and smacks him. He will play fight with just about anyone. He's a goofball like abby. He finds everything funny and is so ticklish. Max is ticklish but he hates to laugh. Micah, is always laughing unless he's pissed that max took his toy. then, it's a boxing match.

they play well most of the time together..unless Max decides he wants what micah is playing with. He will get it. Same the other way around too. They fight alot but they will also tell eachother sorry if they hurt the other one. There's a major bond there. It may not be visible to everyone else, but i enjoy watching them conversate in their language and enjoying eachothers company. Micah is bonded to kayleigh. I think he sees her as a mom when I am not around. He was bonded to abby, and he still is when it comes to goofing off but lately he's been wanting kay to hold him when he gets a boo boo etc. it's very sweet.

Kayleigh is so huge now. Shes about to my boob in height. I am 5'7 1/2. I am not short. I have a feeling she will be taller than me. She is gorgeous though and already is starting the attitude thing. She's still the sweet ole kayleigh but watch out if she's in a bad mood. She's doing very well in school and is in the top of her class. She has a few best friends that she loves to play with. Most of the time she would rather play in her own room by herself with her dolls. She has a pretty wicked sense of style though and I love it. I love that she can express herself through clothes. Lately she pretends to be gothic with her makeup. I think she learned that from monster high. Which is her favorite thing ever right now.
I rarely get snuggles from kay. That kinda left with her age when she turned 5. In public she won't hold my hand anymore or hug me unless I ask. Its sad but occasionally at home she will come lay with me so I cant be too sad. She's growing up. Sad, but true.

Abigail,
Is talking up a storm. Like she has been since she started talking. She is pronunciating a hell of a lot more now from school and is loving preschool. Every one in her class loves her. I noticed especially the boys. That's still my tomboy. She dresses any way she wants with an exception to if it's appropriate for weather or what not. She has a best friend named gavin. They do everything together. She is very outgoing and has recently learned to write her name. She writes it everywhere. The boys follow abby around and she loves it. She loves taking on the big sister role when kay is at school. I let her pour her own drinks and help around the house to let her feel even bigger. She is also getting tall. She is built more like i was as a kid but hell, she is strong. She is so snuggly and loves to cuddle with me all the time. Kay is more of a daddies girl where as abby loves on every body. I am so grateful to have such sweet kids.

That folks is my summary. We are getting ready for the holidays- which i am terribly excited. Micah has been asking to play with ryan. We will see him the 22nd. The kids will all have so much fun. I love gifting people!! It's especially exciting to watch your kids receive from santa.

If i dont write soon, happy holidays from our family to yours. Happy new year and I will see you all soon!

Much love!!!

Lia and family

Did someone say 20 months old????

2012-05-06T10:34:00.005-06:00

I'm at a loss for words as I type this.
The title says it all! My twin babies, are FAR from babies anymore. Inching closer and closer to 2!
Yes, It's been such a long time since I've had a moment to sit down an update. I'm sorry diary& Friends! As all you now, life is hectic with small children. Let alone at this stage and this age. So, I left this blog a bit empty and growing with spiderwebs as I was endlessly chasing down two very curious little men. Now, well, at the moment I have time to update. So hell, I'm taking full advantage!

Where was I?
Oh yeah, 20 months old! This is the age I absolutely love yet want to pull my hair out. The fun, challenging age. I'm sure most of you moms that have children 2+ know exactly what I'm talking about!!!!
The boys are currently, not kidding, INTO EVERYTHING! Curious little hands make messes every where they can reach, grab every thing they can get their hands on and yes, even climb whatever there is to climb. Can you imagine the amount of heart murmurs I have within a span of...4 hours???!!!!?

This is also the age where I try not to take them out to restaurants for a long while because the simple term, "Kids will be kids". Kids this age, do whatever the heck they want. they are unpredictable and mostly save their bad behavior for days you are out and about. Heck no, we will not be eating out. haha I'll save my self the anxiety!

No really, they are fun. Way fun. I laugh a lot throughout the day because the new,funny things these two come up with or do. Here's a bit about each little man so you can get to know them kind of like how I know them. (weird, i know!)

Micah-roni
Such a joy. This little man reminds me so much of his dad. He even has his rhythm! haha. Micah loves to dance. If he hears ANY music, he will get up and dance like no other. Cutest thing EVER! He's a happy boy and such a mommy's boy. Such a snuggler. He will hold my face and kiss me until I am blue in the face. He's so loving. He loves his food. always. No matter how full micah is, he will not resist something you put in front of him. He talks A LOT now. He says "shoes, no,juice, uh huh,doggy,ducky,bug,this,daddy's car,mom, eww gross, nom nom,ow "and a few more. most of the things he says, are to Max. They have their own language going on. All he has to do is say something and then max will stop what he is doing turn around and follow him into mischief. I love it. For micah being such a sweetie, he has a tough side. He uses it on his brother to take toys away and even push him. Oh boy, sibling rivalry has started!!!! it gets insane too! they will go back and forth and push/ head butt the other until they get what they want. He loves hugging and kissing max and his sisters too.Micah has almost all his teeth now and loves to run and play outside. Did I mention he also loves to mess with bugs? If he finds one, he will either play with it for a while or play with it then squish it. Thank GOD he hasn't tried eating one yet. Yuck.

Maxi-
My other little joy! He's my goofball. He laughs at the littlest things and LOVES getting reactions out of me. He knows what he's doing but will do it anyways. He's my mischievous one. The one that talks micah into doing something and micah will. Max will smile while getting into something too. Such a little stinker! He's also a little snuggler but not nearly as much as micah! He'll give the girls kisses but Micah has to work for it. Max usually was the one to get pushed over by micah all the time. However, lately he has discovered how to fight back. He will head butt micah if micah takes his toy. It's intense. Did I mention he doesn't listen to the word no? He's a testy boy!He talks a lot too and says practically every word that Micah does. Along with the twin language of course.Max is pretty independent though and usually entertains himself. He'll play with Micah or pal around with his buddy Abby but for the most part he does his own thing. Micah loves to join in. He is finally working on 4 teeth. the top two popped through and now we are just waiting for all the others to come in too. So interesting! He also loves the outdoors and plays endlessly in the sand box or will play with a bug that micah found also. They laugh together an do almost everything together.Those two are definitely my two peas in a pod.<3

IT'S ABBY TIME~
She's almost 4. I am a bit sad that my baby girl isn't a baby anymore. She enters preschool in the fall. She talks so much and speaks SO WELL! She's so loving towards her brothers and kayleigh. She is my comedian. She makes me laugh all the time and is just a joy to have in my life. She is getting so tall and losing all her leftover baby fat. Such a little lady with such a GREAT sense of humor. I am so excited for her to make new friends and learn new things! The years with her have slipped me by and I cannot truly believe she will be 4. Rest assured folks that if anyone ever messes with Abby, she will hold her own. She can be fiesty and I love that little fire in her. Abigail is still my tomboy and my "I can do anything you can"girl. Her favorite color is still blue but now she's added pink to the mix. Her little inner girly side is starting to peek through a little and its adorable. She even picked out her own blue skirt. All in all, she's my little mini me.

Kayleigh<3
My first princess. My beautiful little kayleigh is a little lady now. Almost 7! Brings tears to my eyes because I still remember the moment when I first laid eyes on my baby. Such a blessing she is. She brought so much happiness and joy into my life. She's vibrant,Beautiful and just wonderful. Of course she's girly which I love. She loves frilly pink things, dresses,heels, makeup and just about anything you can think of thats girly. Kayleigh is very kind and has such a good heart. As do my other kids. I definitely pride myself in knowing I taught my kids manners and how to be a good person. She really is. Although she doesn't like to clean her room, she is the typical 6 1/2 year old sassy pants. She tends to have an attitude at times but she's fairly easy to talk to and teach. She loves her siblings although now she's entering the age that she would rather play by herself than with Abby. I mean,She will play with her, but most often gets aggravated and wants to play alone. Kayleigh is so smart and is doing wonderfully in school. Top of her class in reading/writing and even math. Oh yeah, and she likes a boy!!!!! He apparently likes her too. much troubles and stresses are ahead of me with that! Kayleigh is also about to lose her first tooth. we just looked up the tooth fairy online and she read all about her and is excited to get some money for that tooth!!!!

There you have it. A current update on the most important things in my life. My kids.
As for me I'm staying way active. Exercising every day, eating healthy and playing with my kids. I hope to update this again soon, hopefully before my boys are 2. ugh, I cant even think about that.
Thanks for being on this journey with me!!! Here are some pictures of my loves!!!!

14 Months and Always on my feet!

2012-01-04T11:54:00.002-07:00

Crap,
I apologize for not updating you all sooner! WITH THE HOLIDAYS AROUND AND ALL THE HECTIC-NESS OF THEIR BDAYS-MY LIFE WAS NUTS!

THE LAST THING I WROTE WAS COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS TIL MY BOYS HAD TURNED 1!
IT WAS A MAGICAL DAY. SO SPECIAL AND WE WERE SO THRILLED THAT MANY PEOPLE CAME TO CELEBRATE SUCH A HUGE THING. THEY BOTH HAD THEIR OWN CAKES. BOTH OF THEM WERE A BIT UNSURE IN THE BEGINNING WHAT TO EVEN DO WITH THE CAKE. UNTIL MICAH DISCOVERED YOU COULD MAKE A MESS. THEN IT SEEMS BOTH MADE A MESS AND DID VERY LITTLE EATING OF IT. WHICH IS EXACTLY THE POINT! WE TOOK PICTURES THOUGH. I MADE THEM SPECIAL SHIRTS FOR THEM TO WEAR. THEY MATCHED. HAHA OF COURSE BEFORE THEY WERE BORN, I WAS SO STRICT ON NOT WANTING TO DRESS THEM ALIKE AT ALL. BUT I FELL BACK ON THAT BECAUSE IT'S JUST TOO CUTE! THEY DON'T STRESS ALIKE ALL THE TIME AT ALL, BUT FOR THEIR SPECIAL DAY, THEY DID. THEY LOOKED AWESOME. (Sorry for the caps, i'm excited)Max is on the Left and Micah on the right!

Micah of course is practically nakey after making such a mess!

Max giving me a bday snuggle!

Besides their bday, everything has been ...crazy! It seems after the big day, everything just kept happening at such a fast pace!

Max is walking! Yes ladies and gents he is everywHERE! Of course with the walking, comes the climbing on high things! I am constantly on my toes with him! He knows how to crawl on his sisters beds, the toilet seat and the couch downstairs. He has no fear. Because of this, he probably gets a boo-boo at least once a day. His teeth (first two) finally popped through. Just a tad bit though and I'm working on them coming all the way out! Grrr, it takes forever! He is still such a snuggler and loves to walk over to me a pop a squat right in my lap. He communicates alot and can use a fork, straw and even make noises when he wants something. He says a few things and is such a smart boy. One of the cutest things he does is walk up to micah, takes his binky out of his mouth, kisses him and puts it back in. They interact so much I LOVE it!

Micah is almost walking. He's more content crawling, although hes perfectly capable of walking. He does it when I'm "Not looking" . Sneaky boy. He loves to test me to see my reaction. He is definitely a climber too and gets into everything. It;s funny because he'll tell me "danger" and hold his hand out in a stop gesture. He also speaks a few words. Perhaps a few more than Max and he has a temper. Although he is a sweet snuggly boy, if anyone tries to take a toy (especially his brother) he will make a huge deal out of it and hit then throw a tantrum. I'm in the process of teaching him hitting isnt nice. But he seems to think its funny when he bops max in the head. Such a little stinker. He also uses a fork and a straw while eating and communicates with max . they pair up and go everywhere together. However, it never fails that as soon as any music comes on, he'll stand up, stop what he's doing and dance. That is so my kid.

I have countless videos on my phone of them playing chase with each other and their sisters. I can't get enough of it. Watching all my kids play and laugh is just ...cloud nine. I guess thats a good word for it.

Kayleigh is on break. She goes back to school tomorrow. She's finally reached the age of being extremely annoyed at anything and everything Abby does. She wants her own space. They do play well together on some days but they just know how to get under each others skin. As do all siblings. She is growing so fast though and is SO DANG tall! Despite the constant bickering with her sister and the tattling, she is still a sweet little girl. She loves helping fix her brothers food and has started learning how to cook with me :D

Abby- Still fiesty. haha nothing has changed with her minus her height and her crazy hair growing!!! She loves annoying her sister. She thinks its funny and will keep doing it. She is hilarious though and loves making songs that include anything with the word poop...or butt. She has my humor for sure. She is helpful with the boys and loves giving them kisses and love.

Me-
I'm always on my toes. Whether it be pulling a climbing boy down from something, cleaning a trail of toys behind their wake, feeding the kids, playing or cleaning...I almost always have something to do. I've lost weight. None of my pants fit right. Which is good since I've been eating small healthy portions and determined to get to my pre preggy weight. I'm almost there. I'll probably do a vlog on all that soon. Everything else is just gravy. haha. Who says that anymore?
ANyways, thats an update...I'll leave with some pictures for you to enjoy. Thanks for reading as always and i'll talk with you soon!
<3

Hey!

2011-12-05T13:37:00.004-07:00

Hey everyone! Life has been hectic, so I apologize for not updating sooner! BUT,
I made a youtube video update on the boys so you can enjoy that until I can write again! (hopefully soon!)

www.youtube.com/ALadyNeverTells
xoxoxo
Lia

10 Days

2011-09-28T11:04:00.001-06:00

I'm pretty sure I am about to experience a heart attack at the ripe age of 26.

I have ten days to experience my babies...AS babies. Then I have to part with the goodbyes of infants and say hello to another adventure, TODDLERS! Yes, I'm updating this BEFORE the big birthday because , well because I can. haha.

My boys' personalities have come alive. They are amazing.

Max:
Oh man! how much this little mister has changed since I brought him home. He used to be the cryer. The serious one.The calm baby yet the one who always let you know when he was ready to eat. Not much has changed in that department. He still lets you know when he is angry or sleepy however he is the HAPPIEST little man. He is so talkative and will baby talk your ear off as well as show you everything. He is sneaky. He will look at you when he is getting into something to see if you notice,then smile as he is doing it. Such a sweet natured little man though. He definitely has eyes and love for his mommy and snuggles me whenever he wants. Which is usually non stop! I absolutely love and adore it. He is so in love with his sisters and has a blast playing with them. Max is standing all by himself right now. Not yet walking but he will cruise the furniture to get to what he wants. His new fascination is trying to stick objects into the vhs player. Such a curious boy. He knows a few things in sign language like "all done" and "eat/food". Although he has been teeth for awhile, I still have yet to see his pearly whites shine through...he is taking his sweet time.

Micah:
The moment I brought him home I noticed he was the most mellow baby I have ever experienced. He's perfectly fine and content just sitting there and observing his brother or anything else going on. I never (unless he is teething) really hear a fuss with this little guy. He is so happy and content. Just like his brother and all my kids he is such a lover. He will cuddle you forever! He leans in to give you kisses and nuzzles your shoulder with his head as he wraps his arms around you. He loves hearing laughter and he will join in too! Especially from his sisters! Like Max he has a favorite game of chasing either his sisters around or his brother. They go everywhere together. He mastered the stairs (going up, still working on down) and is cruising furniture but has not yet grasped standing upright like max. He has two teeth and working on his top two. I get cheesy smiles because of it and I loveeee it!. He is a chow hound and loves his food. I have yet to see this kid get full. He also knows those two words in sign language but only uses them ocassionally.

I can either sit here and say I was sooo busy and occupied taking care of all my babies that they just grew up too fast or I can just come to terms with the fact that life in general goes by so fast. I've sat here and watched 4 little infants grow and turn into well mannered, sweet children. I feel like I can accomplish just about anything because I survived the most crutial part of babies. The first year. Not just once but with 4 kids. That just makes me speechless. Can you imagine the amount of diapers, sleepless night, feeding times, story times, hugs,kisses and snuggles I have endured? Too many! Not one single complaint I have because despite all the not so great moments-I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
Yes, Im officially done with having babies. It makes me sad a little bit but most of all it makes me excited. Excited for the new chapter of watching them grow even more...learn about life and everything in it and just grow into amazing human beings.

I am so so so proud of all my children. I have been so very very lucky and blessed. So I guess here is a cheers to the future of toddlers! I have made it. In one piece no less. My heart is full. <3 Here's a trip down memory lane...

Kayleigh

Abigail

Max :

Micah:

--Such tear jerking memories...

xoxo
Lia

Precious moments

2011-08-05T18:20:00.000-06:00

Each day that passes by, I notice the littlest things that grow and evolve in each of my children.

  For instance,
  It seems that as soon as my newly six year old daughter got her ears pierced, she turned into a little lady. She talks so proper and just acts...grown. It makes me smile but also makes my heart breaks a little inside that she's grown so fast. It doesn't seem possible that my first born, my little seven pounder is now 42 pounds and in 1st grade. Her life up until now has been slow motion and I can remember every one of her stages like it was yesterday. As soon as Abigail came along, the world started spinning faster and time slipped from my hands.

Abigail, the chubby buddha baby weighing 9 pounds 6 ounces is somehow...3. Her stages passed me like the snap of my fingers. *SNAP* so quick. Although I remember a lot of her baby-hood too it almost seems that with every kid on board, the faster life seems to go. I mean, I went from 21 to 26 and I still don't know how the hell that happened. Abigail is such a little tom boy and gives me hell. I love it because thats the spitting image of me and what I put MY parents through. Holy hell am I in for a ride when she turns pre-teen. She speaks so well now . Just the other day she said "actually mom" and my mouth dropped. How did my kid learn all this so quickly? Just another one that aged so quickly...it keeps getting more and more depressing that they are entering these new stages and will never look back. No longer will they be my babies but my girls, preteens, teens,graduates, ....sigh...holy...toledo. Just when I think it'll all be ok and I draw in a huge deep breathe...oh yeah, anxiety attack all over again. My boys...they aren't quite my little preemies anymore.

Max- Such a vibrant little boy. the smile that reminds me so much of his older sister, kayleigh. His world revolves around me still. I cant complain because its really NOT that far away that the "I don't need you to do that for me anymore mom" stage will peek from behind the wall. I already see it with max. My once itsy bitsy 5 lb 3 oz preemie is all over the place. He NEEDS to pull up standing on everything and NEEDS to show me he can and will conquer those stairs. If I let him. No. I don't want to . I mean, I do but i don't want him growing up. It's inevitable but none-the-less it'll happen whether I like it or not. Max conquered his sippy cup also just a few nights ago and loves clapping "yay" or waving "hello" every chance he gets to.

Does he need help crawling over to that...heck no, he'll use his brother, Micah as a step stool. Poor micah. He hates that. I don't blame him. I'd hate it if another person my same age crawled on top of me to get to something without my permission. My dear sweet Micah-roni. He is such a lover and I don't think he'll ever be a fighter. He's got his dad in him for sure. Looking at him I see Abigail. Its funny how Max resembles Kayleigh as a baby and Micah resembles Abby. Micah learned temper tantrums and fake cries. Yes, this little theatrical display everyday he knows how to win me over. I spoil my babies. If there is such thing as to spoil a baby...ever. I spoil them with love and cuddles. Because a kid,baby, infant can never get too many snuggles. Micah crawls and follows max everywhere. It's like a train and caboose effect. If i go to the bathroom...there it is peeking out from the corner of the door...the M&M train :D . As cuddly as Micah is , he also has an independent streak of not wanting me to feed him anymore. He wants to do EVERYTHING by himself unless he's just feeling lazy.
  You would never think looking at my boys now that they were even preemies to begin with. in 3 days my babies will be 10 months. I hate saying it, i hate seeing it, i hate thinking that my babies are gone and these are the beginnings of them turning into little men. I've survived almost the first year with not only twins...but 4 kids. I feel accomplished. Who can say they've done that at 26? however, my body and soul feels older than 26. Shhh, we wont go there ;) We can go into how I am coping though ....

I am mixed. I have a mixture of emotions running around in my heart. Glad, estatic, blessed,sad, lazy and peaceful. I can break them all down too. None of it depressing in the sense that I'm "alone" because we all know with 4 kids that IMPOSSIBLE! haha (a little humor) . Im glad my kids are all so healthy and wonderful. Estatic that my life has been so BLESSED. I am sad that I will never again have the feeling of meeting a new blessing from inside my womb and holding a newborn to my chest again (until its my turn to be a grandmother). Lazy, well hell Im sure why you could figure out why i feel lazy. wouldn't you??? :D and peaceful because no matter the hardships, I feel on top of the world. I feel like I can do anything, and i will to the best of my ability. So I guess its no where but up from here...New beginnings on new stages. Life is so beautiful. With that said, here are some pictures for you all to enjoy <3

xoxo

Lia & fam

Just about 8 months!

2011-06-03T11:25:00.001-06:00

I've made it almost a year!

   I can't even , I just....there's no words for how fast time has flown and how much love i have for these little guys. They've improved our lives and brought everyone closer.

  8 months of sleepless nights, colds, happy smiles and cries. 8 months of...nothing but love.

WHere to even begin?

   Micah-roni: What a sweet boy. He has grown to favor his daddy. Although, mommy is still his #1 comforter, he just loves to be with his daddy. He smiles non stop and at the moment , has just about conquered the crawling! He loves his binky and will play with it and put it in his own mouth which is so cute to watch. His appetite is amazing and he loves every baby food I have tried with him. He laughs most when his sisters play peek-a-boo and smacks his hand on the ground or on my chest when im holding him. He's still completely mellow and rarely complains unless he is tired. He plays with his brother occasionally by pulling at his ears or sucking on his arm,elbow,head...Lately he's been saying dada quite a bit and found that he likes sleeping on his belly. All around he's a cuddle bug. Loves holding yourface and giving kisses <3

Maxi: Max is such a mommy's boy. He has to have me around 24/7 and if not, he'll cry "ma-ma". Pitiful! He loves snuggling with me too and is such a happy boy also. He also enjoy every baby food I have given him and his appetite isn't quite like Micahs, but he still loves it! He still loves playing on his back and playing with his feet/toes. He will talk your ear off with squeals and baby babbles. He's a mimicker. He also just got interested in playing with Micah. Although he tends to be a bully with him and steal his toys out of his hand or be too rough with him. But its mutual and it happens on both ends. The love he has for his sisters is amazing. They both love their sisters immensely. Max has gotten interested in crawling although he gets so mad when he cant reach something that he puts his head down and cries. He also brings joy to my life just like my other children.

( max is eating micahs toy)

Then there is my girls :D

KayBear Graduated kindergarten and is officially a little first grader. She loves holding the boys, popping out of corners and scaring them/making them laugh, you name it and she's the perfect older sister. She loves them to death and always has to tell them good morning when she wakes up. She's my dramatic little stinker and loves tall tales. She is getting so tall and so beautiful its unreal. Kay is quite the jokester and loves the spotlight.She's such a nurturing little girl and will be the best mommy one day.

Abby : Such a comedian this one is. Although she's at the "terrible 3's" and is very testy, she's a sweetheart. She also wakes up every morning and kisses the brothers good morning. Her and kayleigh love making them laugh and she's such a tomboy like I was. Leave her unattended for a few minutes and there will be quite the mess to clean up so Ive learned not to let her out of my sight for now. She starts preschool in the fall and is excited! Her and kayleigh play non stop practically til bedtime and she wouldn't have it any other way. Im so glad they have each other <3

Back when abby was a baby.

Me: My life has had many ups and downs lately. Probably more downs than ups but I've learned that nothing is more comforting than family. It doesn't matter what friends I have or who walked out/wanted out on my life, all I need is my tight knit family of 6 . They bring me the most sunshine ever and permeate my world with such love that I don't need anything else. To think a mothers heart can expand so much is just...well, there are no proper words to really describe or fathom it. They say things happen for a reason. I'll have to agree with you. My inner happiness is radiating like I never thought it could . Look at what I have to be thankful for!

My beautiful sister and the boys.

Grandma and Max

My beautiful niece and Abby <3

-Thank you everyone who reads this and follows me on my journey. My life isn't perfect , and i know I'm far from being myself but I am who I am and thats all that matters. I am a mother and wife first, friend always and just me. <3

Faster than a speeding bullet

2011-04-04T11:25:00.000-06:00

As I patiently awaited on the OR table for the arrival of my boys two things happened :

1. I,for the first time during the pregnancy, got uber emotional
2. Started being a little scared that the taking care of 2 babies was fastly approaching.

Then it happened...

I heard the tiniest of tiny cries illuminate my soundwaves. My son Max met the outside world.

then came

Yet another....

Micah arrived safely. I cannot tell you the overflowing emotions that wept through me in an instant. First, fear if anything that my undercooked boys were alright...then curiosity because I had to see who it was that occupied my belly for so long. Time ticked in slow motion until I got to see their faces. pure beauty they were. In a matter of 34weeks, I was a mother of 4.

skipping ahead and looking into my boys eyes now, it's hard to believe they've grown and defeated some of the obstacles they had.

6 months have literally flown by faster than I could've ever imagined. Bitter sweet it is considering they are the last of my babies. Time has changed their faces and I see their characteristics/personalities shining through those beautiful little smiles.

There has been many ups and downs in the process of them reaching a half a year old. Now that I look at it, the only down really was the sleep and getting them on schedule. Now, it seems easier. I did suffer postpartum depression and battled if for 3 months when one day it decided to rear its ugly head in my direction. I tried fighting it off myself but ended up getting entangled and lost in its darkness. I finally went to the doctor and am doing just fine now. Ive known from the past exactly what it was because unfortunately, I've battled it numerous times. No worries, I am ok now!

I'm gladly enjoying my boys. They are becoming so fun! They now notice each other smile frequently. Max is 13 lbs and 12 ounces and although you have to work on getting him to smile,once he does its a bashful/shy smile that just melts you instantly. He's very hands on and loves grabbing everything but mostly my face. He's perfectly content on laying on his back or his side to play with his toys. He used to be the one that would cry all the time but now he's so content and will just sit in his chair any play with his toys. He's such a mommies boy and has to have me in plain view or else he will freak. Max Loves baby food and is quite the wiggly boy!!!!

Micah is 14 lbs 2 ounces and such a charmer. You don't have to work much to get him to smile a huge smile and you. He loves just about anyone who talks to him and is extremely mellow. He entertains himself and is such a rolley polley. You cant leave him in his chair without buckling him in or he will wiggle his way practically out on the floor. He's working on perfecting rolling over which is awesome considering they are both technically developmentally only at 5 months. He showed us his laugh, which is precious and is such a daddies boy. He loves sitting on daddies lap and just chilling. He also loves baby food.

I've been making an effort to getting out of the house more and enjoying life with my beautiful children. Each and everyone is so precious to me. My oldest, Kayleigh is turning into such a little woman already. She loves changing her brothers diapers and helping me bathe them. She and Abigail kiss them good morning every single day and the way their brothers look at them is just precious. They all love each other very much. Abigail is doing great also, she plays well with kayleigh and is speaking great! She'll start preschool in the fall and that has me excited for her!
6 months have flown by and soon my little princes will be 1. I love having 4 kids and twins at that.
I'm sorry it has taken so long to get an update with everyone. Life is busy, I'm constantly on go and Its hard to make a video or blog. Now that they are getting much older it should be easier. Thank you all for sticking with me and feel free to leave some love or ask anything you are curious about!!!

Micah

Max

xoxo
Lia

4 months!

2011-02-08T18:19:00.000-07:00

  Holy moly it's about dang time I updated this! I apologize for not posting sooner like I was supposed to but stuff got crazy for awhile as you can imagine with 4 kids.

   The boys are officially 4 months old already and I am in disbelief that that much time has passed. It has gone so quickly and they have changed so so much!! They almost look totally different from when they first came home as tiny little peanuts with such skinny little limbs. Now, they are plumped out and completely healthy!
     My daily routine with 4 kids since I am sure you guys are curious!!! Well my morning goes like this:
Wake up at 6:45 and change the boys, pump, wake up my husband and kayleigh, feed the boys and put them down for a nap that lasts about an hour-hour and a half, feed abigail and change her diaper, (kayleigh is in school by 7:53, my husband takes her) and enjoy a cup of coffee and some breakfast. THEN they usually wake up for lunch, i do the whole pumping thing again because well, with two its easier. The whole "feed them at the same time on your boob" is...impossible. Let me tell you. I've tried every position possible and it just doesnt work for me. They will nurse during the night time though which is nice. Anyways theyll wake up and play before they eat then its basically non stop all over again! No time to rest unless they are sleeping...which lately it has been on me otherwise they wont sleep at all...yikes.
   Its busy but I dont mind it a bit. I am into a routine so stuff is slowly starting to get done. My goal everyday is to at least do one thing like laundry or dishes...or even sweep that way its not too disgusting in this house.

As for the boys:
Micah is about 13 pounds now and long!!! He has such an appetite and eats about 5 ounces every 3 hours! Hard to keep up with. He sleeps well through the night and only wakes up maybe twice. He loves sleeping on his side and coos and smiles constantly. He is such a happy, mellow baby!! He recognized his brother and his toes this month to which he loves staring and smiling at both. If you put him too close to max he will try and eat his arm. It's kind of funny. Micah has also surprised me by learning how to roll over from his tummy to his back! He almost mastered back to tummy but not quite yet!
Little Max is 11lbs and 12 ounces. He is not much behind is brother anymore and is also such a happy thriving baby! He smiles alot and although he doesnt coo just at much, I can tell within his smiles that he is perfectly content when mommy sings to them. He is a wiggler but loves to sleep on his back. He used to be very vocal but had mellowed out quite a bit. they are getting easier which is a blessing!!! He Hasnt showed interest in rolling yet which is kind of nice because with Micah alone, I cant leave him in a bouncer or on the couch without him trying to roll off! Two at once would just be nuts....Cant wait to start the crawling!!! AHHHHHHH!!!

The girls are doing great! Kayleigh is excelling in school and at a first grade reading level and Abigail is talking way way more now and is still...a pill LOL.

Here are some more recent pictures :D

Micah Up top

Mr.Max :D

Mommy and Max

Mommy and Micah

I hope you enjoyed this post as much as I loved writing it. I am blessed every single day and love my kids more and more each time I look into their eyes. I wouldn't change anything for the world and thank you for sticking by me :D

xoxo
Lia

Christmas Eve and the kiddos

2010-12-24T11:23:00.000-07:00

Figured I would be festive for this post and put it in red!

So here is an update on the boys (and girls of course) :D

I figured it would be neat to post pics from then til now just so you can see for yourselves how much the boys have changed. Let's start with Max <3

Out of the NICU

Max Now :

Quite the change, huh?
His beautiful eyes are blue. He weighs in at 9 lbs 8 ounces with mommies eyes,lips and nose. He's still looking blond haired and he's just precious.

Now for Micah:

Micah Now:

He's about 10 pounds 8 ounces, brown eyed and got daddy's eyes,nose and mouth. Such a cuddle bunny are both <3

As for the girls:

Ready for christmas!!!

And as silly as ever <3

I'll update a little more detailed posts after christmas.

So Happy Holidays everyone!!!!

Euphoria

2010-12-03T13:21:00.000-07:00

I feel Euphoric. You know that feeling? It's like no matter how many shit storms you go through at once there's a slight bubble you're consumed in. It's peaceful inside that bubble. so no matter whats going on in the outside- you're perfectly safe and content inside its surroundings. Make sense? Thats how I feel. The boys are almost 2 months old and honestly, there have been trials and tribulations this past month but I'm ok with it. I feel I was really meant to have twins. It comes naturally to me just when I thought I was scared and couldn't handle it. They are my blessings. All of my kids are. I still find myself in shock when thinking I have 4 kids at 25. I wouldn't change it for the world though.

The girls are great.
  Kayleigh has had it so rough this season. First she got hit with pneumonia that landed her with oxygen and treatments. Just when we thought she was healthy again, the poor thing caught not only an ear infection, but strep throat at the same time. The same time she also lost someone so dear to her- Her great grandmother. It's been a rough ride for her but she is sticking it out like no ones business. She's such a strong girl and I am so proud of her for hanging in there. She is fine now so I'm hoping she doesn't catch anything else. Her little body needs to build immunities again after all that.
  Abigail is a pill. No sugar coating that one. She is the exact replica of me at that age. Tom boyish, rough, and destructive. Oh yes, since moving into this house we have encountered much drawings on all the walls, potted plants being de-leafed and the dirt spread all over the floor, juice all over the walls, markers on the couch- you name it, it's been done and THEN some. I thought having twins would be trying my patience. Nope, leave it to my 2 year old to do that for me. I manage to keep my cool....sometimes. she's hard to handle but she'll come around. Kayleigh did and I have complete faith that she will too. I love that little booger though even though mommy and daddy can no longer have nice things haha.
  Max is getting big. He's my first and only blonde hair,blue eyed fair skinned baby. Beautiful. His personality is adorable. He's demanding. Not so much in the sense that he cries about everything...but he lets you know when he's ready to eat. He weighs about 8 pounds now and filling out. He gave me his first initial smile today also. It was amazing. Max will lift his head when he's on my tummy and look at me :D BUT, his "feed me" cry is the most pitiful thing I have ever seen. He loves being cuddled and hates being put down. I don't mind though- i have enough love and cuddles to go around. Micah understands that. :D
  Micah is my mellow chunky monkey :D He is a whopping 9 onus 5 ounces now and getting some chuggy thighs-which are my FAVORITE THING! He's perfectly content sitting in his chair and staring off into space or watching me as I talk to him. I'm surprised I have enough breast milk to go around because he does love to eat. Micah's hair is dark brown and his eyes are also brown. He will also hold his head up and look at me for a while. I love this stage...Smiles are starting from both and I love it.

  how's mommy holding up? I am surprisingly. Not an ounce of depression this time around and although I still lack in the sleep department I don't care. I don't lose my patience with both babies crying at the same time because they are my last ones and Im appreciating every little thing I can because I wont get to again. They are my everyday reminders of miracles. Not only because there are two of them but because I believe they were given to me for a reason. Here's what I mean...

13 weeks pregnant and I was told I was not only having two but that they were due november 16,2010. Such a blessing is two considering I have no twins in my family. I spent months wrapping my head around the reasons why I would be given twins. I was scared and terrified because I had no faith in myself or faith that I could handle 2 more. Months went by and I accepted it. However, I went into labor 6 weeks too early. Why? My pregnancy was perfectly healthy, so why would one small pain turn into full born labor way before I was due? I obviously over analyze everything...I know. But here were these 2 preemie babies in the NICU...not developed in their lungs yet. My heart broke for them. Thankfully they ended up just fine. skipping ahead- a week into november, my husbands grandma fell ill. No one expected this and being such a tight knit family-it was devastating. She landed in the hospital and as much as we prayed for her to be better, her spirit had other plans. She left us November 16,2010. The day my boys were to be due. had they not been born yet or born a few days before., she would've never had the privilege of meeting them. I think my due date was a sign. SOunds cheesy but i feel it to be true. Thats why when I look at them, i see their great grandmother in them. Life has so many ways of telling us not to waste a moment or take anything for granted...which is why i enjoy every moment of them right down to their screaming.

in ending, as hard as this month has been with the kids getting sick and the passing of someone very special to us, I feel blessed. everyone is fine and now we are just awaiting the holidays.

30 Days of BLISS!

2010-11-07T09:26:00.003-07:00

Special milestones require special font colors! 30 days = green!!!

Today marks exactly 30 days since I went into labor and brought my boys into this world. In hindsight it's interesting knowing and actually experiencing how fast time goes after you have them. They still haven't reached there original due date of november 16, but they are doing wonderful!

I finally have the groove of things and I absolutely love being a mom to not only 4, but to twins. It's so much fun. I get to experience all ages with my oldest to the youngest. Yes, I tend to get sleep deprived but it's ok. I just keep telling myself "this to shall pass" on the sleepless nights. The boys eat every 2-3 hours including at night time. Doesn't bother me because babies have to eat. They had 2 doctors appointments already which everything is wonderful! They no longer need oxygen during the day-only during the night time. Max needs to get an Xray on his hips at his 2 month checkup because he was breech. Just to make sure his hips are ok. Been there, done that with Abigail. She was lodged so tight in my pelvis, she had physical therapy FOR MONTHS! actually, it was more like a year...anyways, I've learned a lot about preemies that I never knew before also. For starters, they have to be seen every week for weight gain, have to see an optometrist to make sure their eyes are fully formed/developed, they have to have 5 doses of rsv shots (one a month for 5 months) since they're higher risk..Busy mama, huh?
   Max weighed 5 lbs 3 oz at birth and now weights 6 lbs as of today and Micah went from 5 lbs 13 oz at birth to ....7 pounds! That definitely shows me that they are eating and getting enough! ha. I go through at least 15-20 diapers a day. Gets expensive BUT once I pick up the boys birth certificates i can enroll in special discounts for twins! I'm waiting anxiously for that!
   The girls are doing wonderfully also! Kayleigh is doing great in school and keeps scoring high on her tests! She's such a smart cookie! She loves her brothers and tries to hold them every chance she gets. Abigail also loves her brothers but of course for a 2 year old, is more concerned about their toys lol. She kisses the boys on their heads and pets them if she hears them crying. I even caught her trying to shove a binky (pacifier) into max's mouth when he started to cry. Both have such nurturing personalities. I know that someday they'll make awesome mommies.

  as for me, my csection site is just about healed. I hate looking at it, but it's a reminder of meeting my boys. The fact that it is so low also doesn't bother me much because it wont be noticeable. Another scar, another story...right? and a beautiful one at that! My 6 week appointment is almost here and that means i'll be able to exercise soon! WOO! I am down almost 30 lbs and just need to rid myself of 30-35 more. I burn 1000 calories a day from breastfeeding alone so I don't think it'll take me too long to get rid of that excess baggage! Although I barely sleep, i feel wonderful and excited to see the kids everyday. It's funny how mommies are programmed to be able to withstand months without proper sleep. Even funnier that we actually love doing what we do. I do.

so that's my update. 1 month down...cant wait to see new milestones within the next month. Thanksgiving will be so fun and christmas will be special. They are my christmas gifts, all my kids are. I feel like since Ive had them, i don't ever need another gift again because I pretty much have all I want. A happy, healthy BEAUTIFUL family. Who could ask for more than that???

xoxo
Lia

Max And Micah 18 days old

2010-10-26T11:43:00.002-06:00

It's already been 18 days since my lil boys arrived from their womb-ly world to ours. Unbelievable considering it feels like I waited YEARS to grow and meet them. They are absolutely perfect and I can not stop thinking how beautiful they are and can't stop staring at them every second. Babies are such a blessing and to think back that those lil guys were in my tummy 17 days ago is insane. I wonder how the hell they both fit in there! I still don't understand!
Micah was the first to come home, he was in the NICU for a week exactly and he decided he wanted to come home. So, he bottle fed every feeding and they sent him on his way. For a week I got to snuggle him and learn his personality. An entire week that he came with me everyday to visit his brother. Let me say out of all my babies, Micah is definitely easy. He never fusses when he poops or when he's hungry and he seems to always be content. This is amusing to me because I have to be the one to wake him for feedings or diaper changes. He was the total opposite in my tummy. he wiggled everywhere and was always so active. I learned him very well and when he was reunited with his brother, it was like the world all came together and he was whole again. The most precious sight I have ever seen...

This was literally within minutes of bringing Max home October 22nd. The moment I took him and Micah out of their car seats I put them side by side to they could feel each others presence again. That was the reaction. They molded together so quickly and feel asleep holding each other. It melted me in ways I cannot even explain. It's got to be tough having someone grow with you every second in the womb and then having that being taken from you for 2 weeks. They shared everything in my belly and occupied the space together...they were one. Now, they are one again!
   Max, like I said, came home October 22nd. That was the one of the best minutes of my life. Not having to see my lil guy hooked up to wires/tubes anymore and to actually have him home with us. The moment I had been waiting for since I was pregnant to begin with. Having had Micah home for a week, I already figured him out. Now, it was Max's turn. Boy, he is a character. For him being the reserved one that didn't move much in my belly, he is mellow like his brother but with the exception that he WILL let you know when he is hungry or he has pooped. When he does, it usually wakes his brother and then I have double duty. It's cute. He's just as beautiful as Micah and I love them from here to infinity. Just like the girls. All of them are my world.
   Both boys are pretty much up to their birth weight give or take a few ounces. They are both still on oxygen although it is the lowest grade. Max has blond hair it looks like for now and Micah is dark haired like his mommy :DThe girls love their brothers and are very sweet and nurturing...
   Here are some more pictures :D

Max is on the right, Micah is on the left <3

The girls with Micah, before Max came home <3

The boys holding hands!

Micah Sleeping soundly

Max wide awake and curious!

So far, life with twins is great. There's not one bad thing I can say about it, i love it all and I feel entirely blessed that this gift (or shall I say gifts) was given to me. I love every minute, even when I get no sleep and I'm looking like a zombie. To think I was scared is weird because for some reason it all makes sense, my mommy instincts kicked in once again and I enjoy every minute with my boys and of course, my girls. Life is beautiful! <3

Beautiful Gifts

2010-10-10T01:24:00.001-06:00

In case you find yourself wondering what the title means, it's the arrival story of my beautiful boys. I wanted to jot down everything I can remember for something not only to share but something I can look back on a remember as vividly as I can.
   My last doctors appointment was thursday, October 7th. I didn't talk to my doctor directly, I was scheduled for a full ultrasound scan to evaluate the weight/anatomy & positioning of the boys. This was followed by my weekly non stress test. Now, for a non stress test, this is just them finding the heartbeats of the little ones and placing a heart rate monitor as well as a contraction monitor over my stomach. It measures and counts the movements of them in the womb as well as measures how well they react to my contractions. Fairly simple. It usually last about an hour. This week I noticed it was a bit longer because I had a few big contractions. The boys reacted fine however. The nurse said i was ok to go and also said she would see me next week...if those big contractions didn't take over first :D This gave me the indication that the boys were probably coming soon. How soon, I was NOT expecting...
   Friday was a typical day with a few exceptions. A few days before I was nauseas and feeling not myself. I felt normal thursday but woke up friday in the same kind of funk. No nausea however, but I did feel yucky. Food didn't sound good to me but I made it a point to eat anyways. I found myself wanting to nest and clean the floors but I was also extremely tired. More than usual. Every so often I noticed myself getting an occasional side cramp kind of feeling on my left side that would hang there for a few minutes then disappear. Not the typical contraction I was ever used to so I ignored it. It only happened 3 times if that all day and not really close together. No biggie. I had a hard time remembering a true sign of labor anyways since my water never broke by itself and I haven't gone into labor since...well kayleigh back in 2005. Abigail was different since I was induced so it was hard knowing signs of what to look out for besides the obvious.
   My husband has a job that has a lunch break everyday from 230-4:30pm then he heads back to work until about 930-945. Unpleasant shifts but someone has to work. He was heading out to work about 4:10 and I was planning on taking the girls to blockbuster to grab a few rentals to enjoy on a friday night. Especially since on fridays, he works until 1030 so we needed something fun to make time pass. He left, I got everything ready to go, we headed out the door when suddenly i was hit with the worst strong,sharp pain in my left side next to my belly. It scared me because I couldn't walk, breathe,talk,lay down without it going away. I thought it felt like an intense version of a walking cramp + sciatica mixed in one. I also thought it would go away so, I ran by the bank drive through before it closed thinking it would be gone in a sec and the boys just shifted wrong. I got to the drive through and the pain intensified. Something wasn't right. You can automatically tell when something isn't right either when it's your own body...the thing that sucked the most is by the time I received that feeling, I was stuck in the line with someone behind me and someone in front of me. I had to wait 15 minutes to get out of there and head home. Driving was intense so I brought myself right home and kept telling my husband to come get us.
   He had a hell of a time trying to get off work so I called family and tried to see what the possibilities were of someone grabbing the girls and i and dropping us off at the hospital. Meanwhile doing this I was lying down on my couch HOPING the pain would go away if i swifter weight. I had to be brave in front of kayleigh because she was worried about me and any sign of me in any pain, she would flip. I couldn't have that because then it's just 3 females freaking out. I couldn't do that to them. I managed to get jared to get his butt home and come get us. About halfway to the hospital my pain shifted and radiated from my side to my uterus...shit, I was having contractions and they were about 6-8 minutes apart. Well, this just might be it.
   We go in, they monitor me like a non stress test for about an hour and see that they were indeed contractions. My parents came and got the girls,took them home with them overnight and the nurse was off calling my doctor. He wasn't a fan of me delivering just yet since I was only 34 weeks and 3 days. He wanted me to hold off for two weeks at most so they gave me a muscle relaxer called pericardia (spelling?) so relax my uterus and stop contractions. They also decided to give me a steroid shot in my thigh (worst shot ever, it burned so bad) to speed up the babies lung development should I go back into labor the next week. I stayed on the monitor for about an hour and a half and the contractions started not being as frequent but intense when they were around. We all figured it was doing it's job until about 30-40 more minutes later my contractions were practically starting to be back to back and pretty knarly. Mind you, I haven't had any pain meeds from the whole time it initially started till about 9pm at this time. here's a picture of my contractions...the bottom green mountains are them and you can see exactly how intense they were:

   The nurse looked a bit concerned and said she was going to call the doctor again to see where it was going to go from there. He came in, did a mini ultrasound to see where the boys were so I could choose what labor I wanted to go with if that were the case. My baby A, typically the lowest one,was and had been head down for 2-3 weeks; decided he was going to not engage in my pelvis anymore but let his breech brother instead. SO, after thinking for weeks I had a choice in either a vaginal delivery or a csection...it came down to one thing only. Baby B was the lowest one and he was feet first so a csection it was. I was a bit scared since that's the one thing i was trying NOT to get...The plan? hold out on my contractions until I absolutely needed any meds. That was the sign that i was having those babies after all and that they would hook me up and wheel me in.
   Sure enough 930 rolled around and it was completely unbearable. 5 1/2 hours of contractions and NO medications takes its toll on people. Especially nerves. I felt like screaming at the nurses to give me some "fucking drugs" I was going nuts. Which was amusing to my husband because I've NEVER been like that during any labor. He doesn't realize at that moment that I couldve easily strangled every nurse and given myself a shot of morphine...anything to stop it lol. They told the doctor I demanded drugs and couldn't tolerate contractions any longer without (which were about 1-3minutes apart by then and never died down, just went into the next contraction) The brought in my lovely stylish cap, had me take out all my facial/body jewelry and told jared it was time for a csection and to change. He did just that super quick. within 10 minutes I was wheeled into the O.R. and jared had to wait outside till I was given a spinal tap. Man that stuff is amazing by the way. Instantly i was numb from the chest down and felt like heaven. They strapped my arms out and hooked me up to monitors and made me a nice little "tent" to cover me and hubby from seeing anything. Then it all started.The only thing that will never go away in my head is the smell of my own cooking flesh. Not pleasant. It only lasted a second until they made an incision then all i could feel was light tugging. Then I heard Max (mr.feet first) Max decided to mark his territory and pee all over the doctor as he came out apparently. That's my boy. haha. They dried him off and started performing an apgar etc on him like normal. Then came Micah who was also pissed and didn't want to come out yet.
   Out of all things I felt i couldn't handle in life, the worst feeling is hearing your babies cry and not being able to hold them,see them or touch them. Jared got to participate while i laid there like chopped liver. It was hell. Ive waiting months to see them and dreamt endlessly of holding them and here I was...strapped down and not able to do either. It was hell. I was a wreck at that point and couldn't stop crying. They let jared carry Max to the NICU and they wheeled Micah back as well as I was left in the room being fixed up. I didn't see anyone for about an hour and a half, then jared came back. I had to spend about an hour and a half in this enclosed room while the nurses filled out paperwork and checked on my numbness. Finally on the way out i begged to get them to push me by the NICU so i could see my boys. I saw them but couldn't touch them since they were hooked to breathing monitors called CPAP. which is forceful oxygen to get them to breathe better. Max, who weighed the smallest at 5 pounds 3 ounces was having trouble breathing on his own while his brother was doing better but still needed it. Micah was 5 pounds 13 ounces and a bit healthier. Both were ok though. I lost it on the otherhand. They pushed me back into my room where I still was crying because I wanted to fix them and make them all better. I felt guilty for not holding them in longer...
   I wasn't able to see them again until 10 am the next day. I got to hold them and man I was instantly in love all over again. They are both so precious and doing much better with the oxygen. It doesn't need to be forced into their lungs anymore they are working on doing the breathing themselves. The nurses said they are pleased but that it can always change so I should expect them to be in NICU for at least a few weeks. Such a hard thing to grasp knowing that you can go home in 3 days and you cant bring your babies. So I'm bummed about that. I know they are getting the best care though and as selfish as I am for wanting them home to myself-i have plenty of time to do that after they get healthy themselves. That's most important.
   So that's my long birth story and where I am standing at as of right now. I will be leaving by monday and my boys cant come with. Now, I have to schedule me coming down and snuggling them a well as bringing them breastmilk for them to get them started on feeding. This will be a bit tough but in the end i am so thankful that they came out safely. I already love them more than the world and am ready to start this new chapter and including these little sweet peas in our everyday family life.
I'll keep you updated if that's what you'd like. If not, i'll still keep myself updated so I can always look back at their progress. Now, I should probably sleep. It's almost 130 am and I have not been so good at that part.

xoxo
Lia, Jared,Kayleigh,Abigail
Max and MIcah!

My boys

2010-10-07T20:22:00.000-06:00

Update on their weight after todays appointment!!!

Baby A: 5 lbs. 11 oz! flipped, head down and low into the pelvis

Baby B: 5 Lbs. 5 oz! breech, and will stay that way most likely

Non Stress test was great. had a few strong contractions so I might not be pregnant for long!!!

:D

Ready to meet my boys.

Showing signs at 34 weeks!

2010-10-04T17:26:00.005-06:00

It's a bit funny seeing myself go from this (24 weeks)

TO...

Voila! This...34 weeks.

Wow, look at that expansion.Such a huge difference. I still find myself wondering everyday how the HELL they even fit two in there? They must be super uncomfortable and contorted...poor lil guys. It's fascinating that the human body can make more human bodies...and they are grown in a belly...Is it weird that that stuff amuses me? Meh....It's the miracle of life.

If you haven't noticed in the last pic...I have dropped.Here are some more from earlier last week to see if there is a visual difference...

Above was only 33 weeks. I grew out a ton in one week!

and this...was 32 weeks. *sigh*

I'm really not too sure at this point how much further my stomach can go/stretch. I however have a feeling, I am about to find out. With the dropping of my boys, I have only felt one thing darn close to this feeling...when Abigail dropped. Seeing as i am carrying roughly around 9-9 1/2 lbs OF baby not including the placenta(s) and the liter EACH of amniotic fluids i can uncomfortably say This is extremely painful. The dropping happened about 11 a.m. on saturday...out of no where. One minute i was standing/walking/sitting just fine, the next minute I couldn't do any of those things without wanting to scream. It felt like they were going to fall out. It's what a lot of people describe as carrying a huge watermelon between their legs...that's how you end up walking.Nothing I have read had explained the pain of carrying multiples when they drop though. I have a small build, and my frame does not feel like it can hold this for very much longer.

With the dropping also came some mild cramping etc. I've not been able to sleep more than 1-2 hours at a time at night and have trouble/pains rotating from one side to the other at night. I haven't really been too hungry because it just seems like my appetite has ceased minus a few snacks and small meals throughout the day. I experience more frequent braxton hicks contractions that last longer than i have been having but nothing too close to consider real labor yet. I have also been frequently urinating, which is more proof they dropped. I haven't had to get up during the night to pee during the whole pregnancy...until two nights ago. After googling, since googling is like my besets friend, I read that most of those symptoms are indeed symptoms that are getting my body ready for the big day. It can happen at any time and as excited as I thought i would be to get them out, I am scared shitless for the labor and now kind of want them to stay in.

Baby A is finally head down (thank god) since he likes to squirm and sit in various positions. Baby B however, is breach. Which sucks because he hasn't changed and to be honest, with multiples there really isn't time to change so he will probably (unless a miracle happens) will stay that way.Bummer. This gave me the most difficult thing to decide on:

1. Opt for a csection

2. Try vaginally but deliver baby B feet first

now, the csection isn't bad, so I've heard. However, resting and healing from that would be VIRTUALLY impossible with 2 kids under the age of 6 and twin boys added to the mix. the delivering of the baby feet first scares me. It's a risky procedure and if done wrong or if baby shift, they could possibly damage my boys spinal cord.

so...What would you choose? Opt for a csection with baby B or try both vaginally? Personally I'm stuck on this decision because I DONT want my boys hurt. Period. I also don't like the thought of my stomach muscles never being the same again and being sliced and diced open THEN trying to recover whilst taking care of 4 kiddos...but when it comes down to it, It's not time for me to be selfish. As long as they are ok, that's all that matters. I'm guessing this is my mind telling me I am to opt for a csection.

With all that said, I mentioned earlier I haven't had a huge appetite. My cravings are really minimal and really only one thing comes to my mind all day, every damn day. Rootbeer. I have to have it. No idea why. I drink my tons of water still but when it comes down to it, mama needs her rootbeer too. Not much else has me drooling. I'm pretty much over the food thing right now. Although, i do make sure I eat. :D

did I mention I gained 2 lbs. in a week. 2! From what??? I have no idea...hopefully the 2 lbs were divided and went to each boy equally lol.

So that's my update. I have no idea when I'll be able to update again. If i will be pregnant for my 36-37 weeks update...no one knows. I'm going day by day. Heavy nesting and packing the bags for the hospital. They really can come any time. Either way, I'm excited to write my next update a few weeks from now regardless. I might even be able to redesign it with my new boys. We will just have to wait and see. 3 cheers for the waiting game!!!!

xoxo

Lia

32 weeks and pain is an understatement

2010-09-21T17:25:00.002-06:00

30 weeks vs.32 weeks

Can you tell why exactly my hips are hurting? They've shifted downward and out...compared to two weeks ago!

-I've completely outgrown all shirts (minus a few).

-My hips feel dislocated

-The arches in my feet feel like they're breaking

-I am a walking furnace.

-My belly is a never-ending itchy

-Finally got some stretch marks! (not bad though)

- I am peeing 20 times a day

-I have to force myself to eat a decent sized meal

-I cannot breathe very well and have frequent anxiety attacks

-I am a hormonal maniac!

There's some key things I am going through right now...Sounds pleasant doesn't it? ON the other hand, I am moved in to our new house. It's lovely and the girls love it. I am constantly telling myself to rest now though because every little misplaced toy or mess and I go into OCD cleaning mode. I can't be doing that. It's ok to have a little mess for now...32 weeks and technically I could go into labor in 3+ weeks.

I go to the doctors now every week for an ultrasound/non stress test and to evaluate and keep a track of the boys' weights since I have a high concern of having 9 pounders...

Today was one of the appointments, the next is sept.29th. As of right now though twin A is 4 lbs 4 oz and the other lad is 3 lbs 11 oz. not too far behind and good sized babies. Now is the time I will hopefully NOT be doing some serious weight gaining...I have 10 more pounds to go till i hit my target weight. 10! which I have to learn to put the cookies down. seriously. haha. The boys are now gaining fat and filling out every week. This is getting insanely surreal. The fact that they are almost here has me in a panic attack everyday. These are the last few weeks that we will be a family of 4...my two princesses have NO idea what's coming...

As for cravings right now I really have a few and one of them is coffee. Still, i always want noodles. That's really about it.

I have a hard time sleeping and haven't experienced good sleep in I don't know how long. My arms always fall asleep and hurt so bad during the night so that wakes me up. ALong with my never empty bladder and hip pains. I cant rotate from one of my sides to the other without a huge POP and pain afterwards...no bueno! I just keep telling myself to enjoy my last pregnancy. This one is tough though and no where near like it was with the others.

We chose names...I'm debating on telling everyone till after though because i want it to be a surprise and it'll seem more real that way. That's really all there is to my pregnancy as of right now...I'm tired, anxious and just ready to meet the occupants that have been living in my stomach for so long. Hopefully i can gather enough energy to make a video soon..but with the exhaustion that I have had lately, I don't know if that's possible...we shall see. <3 until another day

xoxo

Lia

2 Days shy of 30 weeks!

2010-09-05T19:52:00.000-06:00

HOLY CANOLI! I am almost done! technically 10 more weeks till full term. However, since full term doesn't happen often with multiple pregnancies, I can honestly go anytime in the next 5-10 weeks. Goodness thats insane. I cant believe i've made it to this point already. I'm still sane too! Well, for the most part.
Everyone who's had a child knows exactly how difficult the last two or so months are. They are miserable, long, and exhausting! This is the moment where I start gaining a pound or so a week. With that also comes the edema (swelling) of the feet, extra large belly, slowness if that's even a word, and being just plain uncomfortable all day and during the night. Sounds like fun, right? This is the most challenging part of the pregnancy. The finish line till you get to see your reward. As horrific as it sounds, its the best feeling and totally worth every stretch mark, swollen toe and finger and every pound gained when you finally get to hold the new addition. in my case, new additions! :D I'm trying to enjoy this last half seeing as it is my last pregnancy. It's a bit bittersweet. I am relieved it's the last time but also sad that I wont again ever have little babies in the household after these two. I hope it goes slow so I can enjoy newborns for the last time till I am a grandmother (NOT even a thought in my mind FOR A WHILE!!!!!!!!) or an aunt again!! ;)
-With that bit of jibber jabber, Here is my current belly:

Beautiful isn't it? I quit telling myself that I am huge because lord knows I hear it every day I leave the comfort of my home. No joke. It's unreal how many people will actually have the balls/guts to come up to me and actually say this " Oh my god honey, I feel so sorry for you. I hope you don't have too much longer to go." Yes, that was a real comment. Who says that? even better, who says they feel sorry for you when your pregnant? I always feel like turning around and decking somebody when they say things. SO, that's why I try to make it a point to tell myself I look beautiful. I avoid mirrors on my lower extremities and stop worrying that my shirt size is xl or that my feet are swollen and that I feel miserable. Because when it comes down to it, being pregnant is beautiful. Who cares what I feel like as long as I can give my babies everything in as well as out of the womb. Right?

with all that said lets skip ahead and finally talk about my symptoms and cravings

Symptoms:

Lower back pain

Sore hips

Mild edema

Trouble breathing

Exhaustion (spelling?)

Increased clumsiness

On and off appetite changes

Hard time sleeping

Frequent urinating- more so than before

Cravings:

Nachos

Rootbeer

Cereal

Jelly donuts

Milk

Coffee

Clemintines

Lobster

Steak

Oodles of noodles

-I have a feeling after fully listing my cravings that the "gain a pound a week" rule wont work for me. But I am eating everything in moderation and sadly I cant and have not been able to have a full hearty meal. There is no room!

About my boys:

I just had my baby shower yesterday. It was thrown by my sister. The turnout was not too bad. I always hate/stress about baby showers because i always have at least 3 people tell me they will be there, then flake out. Because of that, i was mega worried that I wouldn't get near to anything that I really truly needed. I was right. I had 7 ladies show up and about 5-6 ladies who flaked out when they rsvp'd. That hurt my feelings but regardless I was happy of the people who came to celebrate my boys with me. I got quite a few things but am still mega stressed because the main things I needed I actually didn't get. So money is a huge factor right now. By the way we are moving saturday. between paying bills and rent I am scared that we wont be able to afford the things for the boys. Somehow we will manage. Nestng just sucks.

Anyways so yes, just about 30 weeks and the boys are getting bigger by the day! They should measure at about 17 inches from head to toe and both weigh about 3 lbs now. Right around now they will start to turn head down and stay there (hopefully) until labor.It's getting pretty crampy in there and not a lot of room so I feel them roll more than kick and jab now and its hard to distinguish who is doing what. As long as they keep moving we are perfect. :D

In ending, I have an ultrasound/appointment on the 13th.After we move in, I will do a video showing the nursery and talk more in depth about the boys and such. Like I said, we move saturday. This means the internet will be gone friday and i can only use it on my phone till we set it up again :D Hope this entertains you until you hear from us again, thank you for following me on this journey!!!!

xoxo

Lia

27 weeks +3 Days

2010-08-20T17:03:00.003-06:00

Doctor's appointment was again successful today! Went in for another ultrasound and then a follow up :D
The boys are looking very good! Both weigh 2 lbs. 5 oz each and are neck and neck in the length/size measurements so they are doing perfect! They are laying like a ying-yang exactly and looked really cramped in there!!! Twin A (the lower lying one) really doesn't like to show his face...ever. Every time we go in for an ultrasound he must sense it because he starts hiding and no one has seen his face yet!!! I wanna see the profile so bad, it's killing me!!!!On the other hand, Twin b is a spotlight kinda guy. He loves posing and we found him smiling ALOT into the screen today. We even got a glimpse of him opening his mouth really wide!

Baby B

He's smiling!

Baby A (If you look closely you'll see his head on the left)

   I've gained a total of around 40 lbs and it's still pretty much all baby and padonky! I have about 5 lbs. total of baby weight right now and the doctor said I was measuring about full term size for a singleton pregnancy. Makes me hella nervous for the next two months if I'm already that big. Like I said in earlier entries- Once I hit 30 weeks I am definitely not going to be seen by anybody...I don't want anymore comments on how huge I am...I really cant stress that enough. I don't ever want to hear how big I am again.really.

   Ok so more on the bouncy,healthy baby boys!!!
this week they can see light and hear sounds just like last week! I have 88 days left until my fullterm pregnancy is complete. Hiccups are more frequent and noticeable now and I actually have been feeling them from twin B all week!!!! It's like a non stop timed twitch. In the next few weeks though he will gain fat to fill out their appearance and the immune systems are still maturing :D

On the ultrasound it was neat seeing how big they are now compared to 23 weeks.

Now to me and my changes/cravings/peeves...whichever!!! lol

-I am not really swelling besides in my fingers
-I am sick of food. SOunds weird but nothing this week sounds yummy,everything sounds disgusting
-My hips hurt during the night or if I lay too long on my left side
-Still have complete numbness of both arms occasionally during sleep
-My sleep schedule still sucks, I've been waking up around 3-4 times.
- My lovely shirts no longer fit because my belly is falling out of them lol
-I have been craving non stop beer, which is ok because as of today my doctor said I can drink O'douls!!!! This sadly, makes me excited because Ive, like i mentioned, been craving it everyday!!!!
-I cant put shoes or socks on because i cant even reach them!
-I am done working in 3 more shifts
- i am tired yet again...quite frequently especially since my oldest is now in school.
-I waddle like no ones business
-my hips are sore
-All I want for breakfast/lunch/dinner is either egg sandwiches (weird, i know) and captain crunch cereal. That really cant be healthy for my waistline!

   My belly

My feelings this month are...anxiety ridden. With work coming to an end I'm worried about affording bills as well as the new house (which we move into in a little more than 3 weeks. I am stressed about packing, what TO pack/what to sell and mostly meeting and taking care of these babies. Everyone says it'll be ok or that I will do just fine...but that doesn't necessarily mean i will or that I can do it and satisfy my other kids "mommy needs". There's got to be a reason that I am having twins to add to my already hectic life.i am terrified. No one knows this feeling either except those who have multiples. So, i end up bottling it all up inside and trying to enjoy the time i do have with my girls before life gets even crazier. this is why I am full of anxiety. Not even my husband can understand it.
Hopefully next week i'll be better...until we move and set up everything perfectly it probably wont lol
On a side note- Im debating on belly pictures with my updates. If you like them, i will do them. :D
My next ultrasound is in 3 weeks. after my baby shower and the day before (literally) that we move. I wont have internet right away so this update will have to do until I can get set up at the new place.Thanks so much for reading and i'll talk to you all soon!!!

xoxo
Lia

Emo...tional

2010-08-17T17:15:00.001-06:00

My oldest starts kindergarten tomorrow. I went tonight and met her teacher & saw her classroom. This is going to be such an emotional day. I was looking around the classroom and saw all the things she'd be learning...it made me proud but sad that she won't be hanging around with me all day. She'll love it, and she'll make good friends but it's just surreal how big my first born is. Next is first grade...then eventually middle school.
It'll be quite a shock to make her dad wake up with me at 6:45 and get lil kayleigh butt up for school and there by 7:50. that's friggan early. Even for me!!!
What's also cute is that she'll have gym class, every other day. That little stinker doesn't realize how worn out she will be by the end of the night...especially with gym class!!! It was so cute. I am such a proud mama...but tomorrow marks the first day of my beautiful first child growing up and starting school. Let's see how I hold up.
<3

26 weeks +2 Days

2010-08-12T10:29:00.000-06:00

Welp, I made it so far and obviously I am carrying larger than 2 weeks ago. I have 96 days (not that I'm counting or anything) days until I am 40 weeks. Although, I have a feeling that I won't be carrying that long...
   I'm sure you're thinking something to the effect of "damn, you've gotten so big, I bet your back is killing you right now..." Yes, It sure is. I can't stand on my feet in one spot for longer than 8-10 minutes. Otherwise the lower mid part of my back is in pain. Also, My lovely sciatic nerve is bothering me EVERYDAY again. I can't even sit down indian style or with my legs directly in front of me without getting stuck there for a moment when I try to move/get up. It shoots all the way down my leg and causes me to freeze. Little boogers must think it's funny to sit on that nerve but It's horrible!
  Work will end in exactly 6 more shifts for me then I'm finito for...well let's say a long while. Which, I am ok with because I need to give all my kids as much love as I can. Sheesh, I feel like the 19 kids and counting lady by saying "all my kids" .Thankfully, this is the LAST pregnancy and I am no longer lending my uterus out for rent anymore.
   Movement is insane. It feels like they fight each and every day. It starts with one of them slightly moving a limb them BAM it's a full on kickboxing tournament in there. It's pretty amusing to watch my belly move like ocean waves and shift numerous times during the battle for space. That is, until one of them does a running jump on my bladder. Then, it's a race to the bathroom LOL. They feel pretty strong already and I can definitely tell the one laying closest to my lungs is going to be energetic, just like kayleigh was/is.
   My sleep cycle is terrible right now. Worse than my last update, I wake up about 4 times a night. From various things like charlie horses, stiff legs, sore hips, hunger, and just plain i dunno...
I know my body is pretty much preparing for me to wake up around that many times when the boys come so I guess it's better to get used to it now although, i'd love to have 1 peaceful nights sleep. I look terrible with my eye circles taking over. Makeup is now a must when I leave the house.
   My hunger has gotten insane. You know when you read those vampire books and they describe this hunger being really intense and overpowering?? Not to relate to a vampire by any means, but that's the best way to describe how I feel about food. It feels like i literally HAVE to eat all day (small snack remember) in order to make the boys happy. Which is ok by me, only sort of tiring when I am trying to rest and not necessarily good for the bank account.
   My feet haven't been swelling nearly as much this week so far but I've been doing my best to prop them up all the time as much as I can to prevent the whole edema thing. Normally, like with the girls I had edema terribly bad. When I carried Abby, it was the worst. This time round I can actually still see my ankles (for now) and my legs are about the same size. Its just the rear and belly that are growing.
   Heartburn/Indigestion is still terrible and on some days I feel like I have a fire in my throat that lasts for up to 4 hours. Nothing helps. I'm getting used to it although I don't think that's a good feeling to get used to. ha.
  My circulation is definitely off. I cant bend my arms without them going to sleep and losing circulation quickly. I'll have to get that checked because I've never experienced it before and it freaks me out. Especially when I am trying to sleep and I wake up with 2 dead arms...

I spotted a faint line of the "linea Negra" down my belly last week. I was sad to see that stinker return since I loathe it so much. If you do not know what that is, it's basically a dark pigmented line that goes from the top of your belly button all the way down to the pubic bone. Slightly unattractive if you ask me and it makes me feel like I have a happy trail (like on a man)...Luckily it disappears after a few months post delivery. It hasn't gotten much darker, it's till pretty faint for right now but just the sight of it coming back made me sad lol. I also found like a cm stretchmark on my belly. I knew that would happen but it's ok- I'll still keep lathering up on vitamin E oil 2x a day and I should hopefully prevent more to come around. :D
   Now, about the babies and enough about me-
The boys should be about 2-2.3 lbs a piece. Pretty good growth considering I'm only 26 weeks and about 13 inches long. They can now open their eyes in the womb.The boys can turn their heads away if something appears brighter in some spots than others :D &The Brain and lungs are much more developed. I don't know if I said this in the last post, but they can officially hear me as well as outside noises...like My girls screaming. I bet that's scary! I do find myself singing to them (cheesy I know) But I want them to get used to the music i listen to or like so when they're born they can be soothed by it.
   I'm getting really excited to meet them, but nervous as hell for labor. Yes, I know how a singleton labor is but adding another one to possibly push out the va-jayjay is somewhat a scary thought...to say the least. Then there's the dreaded csection. I'm not scared about that- I just don't want to have to try and recover from that when I have two kids (one in kindergarten and the other a mess maker)..I don't think that would call for a speedy recovery if I'm having to hold both boys in my arms and chase abby down the hall telling her to put something down...sheesh, could you imagine? So hopefully I can push them both out. I shouldn't think so hard on that one though...it'll happen the way it's supposed to.
   Anyways, enough of my blabble- I pretty much talked about all my symptoms in the beginning and then a lil something informational about the boys development in the last half. I have a doctors appointment on the 20th for another ultrasound and the dreaded strep B test...Yuck.
   Until then, I say farewell :D
xoxo
Lia

24 weeks and 2 days.

2010-07-29T18:39:00.000-06:00

-This month is severe growing time...I'm talking "big MAMA " status now. Even what my husband likes to call, "panda bear". Cute right? Way Better than "damn huge elephant woman!"
   Since my last post, Quite a few things have been changing with the boys, and no so much me :D To start they should weigh about hmmm, I'm going to guess and say 1.6-1.8 pounds each. Terrific growth! They should be about the size of corn on the cob, which makes me wonder every day how the hell they are fitting into such a tight space...but that explains the uncontrollable bladder.
-This week alone the babies have rapidly developing senses and are able to sense upside down and vice versa. They can also hear my voice as well as others...Like my daughters/husbands! This would be the perfect time to start singing and reading to them although,I always felt weird doing that part so I just cranked up the music I loved and hoped they would do a jig or learn to love what I love as well. They are also producing "surfacent" if that's spelled right. This is like an oily substance that will help expand their lungs and kick start them once they are out of my tummy :D It's just amazing the many transitions and things they go through just to bake perfectly :D

   As for me this week, I finally had what us preggy people or already existing mothers like to call...Sausage toes. I am no longer able to stand for long periods of time or walk without getting those beautiful puppies. Ha, beautiful my butt. So uncomfortable! Gladly, I can officially stop working august 30th. Sounds way far away but I need to try to pay down my bills before husband has the job of doing so...oh and buying all the baby stuff.Sheeeesh, I always forget how expensive that stuff is.
OFF subject, sorry...lol
where was I? Oh yeah...
I can breathe, but I tend to get short of breath a lot and feel my blood pressure go up. I need to keep it down so I don't have to end up doing the dreaded bed rest. Especially since that is virtually impossible with 2 kids already!
  I also have a terrible symptom I don't recall with my girls. That is my arms going numb when I sleep at night. Weird right? I can't seem to figure out why this is. Bad circulation? Doubtful. Could it be part of carpal tunnel syndrome? VERY likely considering I've had that twice with both girls. Never the numbness though. We'll have to wait till my next appointment to see :/

Here are some other ongoing symptoms I still have though :
Round ligament pain
leg cramps at night
Glow of pregnancy
Change in sexual desire...TMI..sorry LOL
Hearty Appetite
Sleep Changes
Fatigue
Heartburn like a bitch.
Now elephant feet
Spine curving due to my huge Padonky.

other than that, everything else is a piece of cake. MMmmm cake, why do I do this to myself!

Cravings this week
Obviously that scrumptious cake
Milk
Soda Soda Soda
Popcorn
STEAK!!! I need it.

not too much different than other times...
My next appointment is...very soon. Another ultrasound as well as checkup. :D Until my 25th week, I'll talk to you all later!!!

xoxo

It's finally done!

2010-07-25T18:13:00.001-06:00

As Much as I love throwing birthday parties for my lil princesses, It gets tiring and stressful!!!
Luckily, That day was yesterday. It's over and done with now but the turnout for the girls was awesome and the party was successful!
   I tried to sleep in for once (HA!) Saturday morning, but I was woken up by a really quiet, small voice singing something to the sorts of..."Today we are going to art sports for my birthday party..." right next to my ears! I turned around and noticed my now 5 year old, kayleigh all dressed with shoes AND socks ready to rock the day out...
"Kayleigh ,hunny...what're you doing?? It's only 8:30?!" To which then she proceeded to remind me yet again that it was the big day!!! So cute. It's funny, I cant get them dressed fast enough for anything else, but hell- when it's a bday party I can expect them up earlier than me. Adorable.
   The party wasn't until 4pm, so we just hung out and went to lunch before. Abigail didn't want to take a nap. I didn't think that was a good idea, but then again the other mommy part of me wanted to wear her out for an early bedtime. Is that wrong? Poor munchkin! she is so persistent and did not fall asleep once...
   Once we got there-kayleigh and Abigail were both ready to play play play!! I had to stop them and get everything organized and situated. The kids from her class started showing up, one by one...How exciting considering past bday parties with my kayleigh were a fail and no kids showed. That warmed my heart to see her so happy to see some of her friends from school. They both started running around, ready to go jump on trampolines and fall into pits of foam (totally fun if i wasn't an elephant) . They played with their friends for about an hour and a half then it was time for cake and the much awaited...presents!!!
   The two didn't care for food much because hell, being a kid the only thing that matters is presents...who cares about food unless it's cake!
  So they went at it,and got loaded on some really cute things. Thank god (emphasizing this part) that we cleaned out kayleighs room beforehand and rid the room of unwanted,unloved toys...Because now..we are going to have to reload it with all her baby dolls etc! Insane how spoiled kids are!

  Anywho, needless to say the girls had a wonderful day. I am thrilled that they did but also very worn out. It was worth every minute to see them smile and have fun though. :D Now, that July is officially over, the next big thing I really am awaiting is the day I pop these lil ninja boys out...November 16th. That is, if I don't go beforehand.<3

xoxo
Lia

23 weeks +2 days

2010-07-22T11:44:00.000-06:00

My appointment was today!
   Woke up at 630 to get everyone out the door on time. I was scheduled to do an anatomy ultrasound, glucose test, and follow up with my doctor! Everything went great. I watched my sons squirm and fight already! Son B was kicking Son A in the head...I guess that means sibling rivalry is starting early after all!
   The reason behind not saying names yet is because we are in the process of still choosing the best possible names for our sons. It's harder than you think. To find something that will stick with them for the rest of their lives is difficult because you don't want something that can cause them to be made fun of and you want something that fits the family perfect. Nicknames also have to be picked out with both to make sure they don't sound dumb as well. For instance Kayleighs nickname is Kaybear, Abigails nickname is Abby or Abby jae. They fit perfectly.
   Besides finding their names, I already got to see their shiny little faces. Son B was up by my lung area and was more than willing to give us the perfect side profile. He has his daddy's nose already. I can see it.

and son A (the lower sitting son) wasn't too sure he wanted to be seen yet...He was being shy. However, he did decide to show a part of his personality already by grinning at the screen like he was saying "HA HA" Like I said, you'll have to look closely, his face is on the left :D

Can you see it? My boys seem to have a since of humor already!

They both weighed great! one at 1 lb. 5oz and the other one 1 lb. 3 oz. So not too different which is perfect.

before the ultrasound I had to guzzle down the not so yummy glucose drink. Yuck! Thank god they've added more flavors to their selection compared to 5 years ago. I had to literally chug it before I went in and then wait an hour for them to draw blood. Let me just say that this pregnancy does not like sweet things...at all. Besides the cake,chocolate I mean. The fact that I had to consume it within that time limit as well at 830 am almost made me hurl. But...it's over and done with now. Hopefully good results, considering multiple pregnancies tend to have mommies carry high blood pressure or diabetes. :/

It's always nice seeing the growth and knowing everything is going smoothly. I noticed pregnant people tend to worry a lot AKA Me. What better a gift than to see my two boys play/fight on the ultrasound tv today for my anniversary!

Nothing much has changed minus my circumference yet again. I popped out into what my sister in law and I call a torpedo shape. I cant wear much of the same clothes and I am burning up in this weather. My hips hurt really bad at night during my CRAPPY sleep and although I still use a preggy pillow, it doesn't seem to help in most cases. My meal portions have been cut down to snack portions and I can no longer eat a huge meal. Otherwise horrible indigestion will accrue and what feels like acid reflux. I haven't swelled up anymore and total weight gain is 21 lbs. Not too shabby. And that my friends is my update!!!

I'd better go snack on something now so the lil stinkers can continue to grow, I'll update soon!

xoxo

Lia