Discovering My True 'Self'

Bye Bye 2011...

2011-12-31T23:24:00.001+05:30

Another year is almost over...

In 2011, We made many friends...

Some became Dearest...

Some became Special...

Some we fell in love...

Some went Abroad...

Some changed their cities...

Some Left us...

We left some...

Some are in contact...

Some don't contact because of their ego...

We don't contact some because of our ego...

Some left us alone in this world, wherever they are, however they are, we still remember, Love, miss and care about them because of the part they played.

They made MEMORIES in our lives and therefore are part of it.

So thank you all for being the part of my 2011.

A Happy New Year 2012 to all... :-)

Nice Quote

2011-10-01T00:24:00.001+05:30

Apologizing

does not always

mean that you are

wrong and the other

person is right.

It just means that you

value your relationship more

than your ego...

Strike Off Challenge

2011-09-25T01:11:00.004+05:30

I came across this "strike off" challenge on a blog and decided to do it for my blog too. What you do is, you strike off what holds true for you.

Appearance
I have many scars.
~~I tan easily.~~
I have a tattoo.
~~I want a tattoo.~~
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces.

Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry.
~~I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.~~
I’ve glued my hand to something.
~~I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.~~
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
~~I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.~~

Health
~~I’ve gotten stitches~~.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
~~I’ve had chicken pox.~~
~~I've had malaria~~.
~~I've had typhoid.~~
~~I've had jaundice.~~

Travel
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to US.
I’ve been to Europe.
I've been to at least one other country.
~~I've never been out of my country.~~

Experiences
~~I’ve gotten lost in my city.~~
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
~~I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.~~
~~I wish to slap someone.~~
~~I’ve kissed someone.~~
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
~~I’ve been in a musical.~~
I’ve auditioned for something.
~~I’ve been on stage.~~
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
~~I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.~~
~~I’ve pranked someone.~~
I’ve ridden in a taxi.

~~I've done parasailing.~~

Honesty / Crime
~~I’ve been threatened to be arrested.~~
~~I’ve never broken a law.~~
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
~~I’ve cheated while playing a game.~~
I’ve been in a fist fight.

~~I hate lies.~~

Death
I~~’m afraid of dying.~~
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
~~I’ve thought about suicide before.~~

Materialism
~~I own over 10 music CDs.~~
~~I own over 10 novels.~~
~~I own over 5 electronic gadgets.~~
~~I collected comic books.~~
I own gaming console(s).
I own a car.
I own a bike.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.

Random
I can sing low key.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
~~I open up to others easily.~~
~~I watch the news occasionally or always.~~
I like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
~~I’m a sports fanatic.~~.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well.

~~I think too much.~~
~~My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.~~
I would wear pajamas to school.
~~I laugh at my own jokes.~~
~~I eat fast food weekly.~~
I can’t sleep if there’s a bug/insect in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
~~I like chocolate.~~
~~I bite my nails.~~
~~I’m good at remembering names.~~
~~I’m good at remembering dates.~~
My memory sucks.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

People
...called me fat.
...say I’m skinny.
...have said I’m ugly.
...have said I’m pretty.
~~...have spread rumors about me.~~
.~~..force me to eat.~~
...say I eat too much.
~~...say I eat too little.~~
~~...say I eat too fast.~~
...say I eat too slow.
~~...have called me a genius.~~
...have given me gifts.

Eating
~~I’ve lost weight.~~
I’ve gained weight.
I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood. A lot.
I diet.
~~I’m vegan/vegetarian.~~
~~I don't exercise.~~
I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.
~~I’ve felt to run away from home before.~~
I’ve run away from home.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
~~I want kids.~~
I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.

Relationships
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’m a swinger.
~~I'm single.~~
I'm in a relationship.
~~I’ve gone on a blind date.~~
I have/had a friend with benefits.
~~I miss someone right now.~~
~~I have a fear of abandonment.~~
I don't like to depend on others.
I’ve gotten divorced.
~~I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back~~.
~~Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.~~
~~I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.~~
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
~~I’ve kept something from a past relationship.~~

~~I've had serious arguments with my best friend.~~

Sexuality
~~I’m a cuddler.~~
~~I’ve been kissed in the rain.~~
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times
~~I occationally drink.~~
~~I can’t swallow pills easily.~~
~~I can swallow numerous pills at a time with difficulty.~~
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have/had anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.
I’ve plotted revenge.

Try it out...

My Favourite Clicks...

2011-08-10T23:00:00.005+05:30

My Favorites...

2011-05-29T11:38:00.005+05:30

Pehla Nasha:

O Meri Jaan : Life In A Metro

Yaaron Dosti : RockFord

In Dino Dil Mera : Life In A Metro

Jal Woh Lamhey:

Alvida: Life In A Metro

Aadat:

My First Goa Trip

2011-04-24T12:42:00.001+05:30

This post was due a month and a week ago. Yes, I've become lazy and not spending enough time to blog. I just realized that I have not posted anything in about a month! That is insane!

The trip started from Vashi -> Mapusa -> Calungute -> Quegdevelim Beach -> Arambol -> Morgim -> Fort Aguada -> Parasailing at Sinquerim -> Sal -> Thivim -> Mumbai :))

Heres the video compilation of my Goa trip...

Dead vs Dying

2011-03-15T00:25:00.002+05:30

I came across these lines while reading one of the random blogs...

"A dead relationship is far better than a dying one.
The dead one spares you from the agony of hopes and disappointments."

True, isnt it?

Kala Ghoda Art Festival, 2011

2011-02-23T00:28:00.007+05:30

Sunday, 13th Feb, I went to the most awaited art festival of Mumbai - the Kala Ghoda Arts Festival. Its a 9 day long festival where artists, artisans, craftsmen, musicians, dancers, actors, authors, photographers, sculptors, etc come under one roof to showcase their skills. It is a platform for new talent.

The Kala Ghoda Arts Festival is an annual festival, held in late January or early February, in the Kala Ghoda area of South Mumbai, India. Started in 1999, the Festival has grown in popularity, attracting visitors and participants from other parts of the country, and the world. Entry to all events is free to all (only restricted by the size of the venues) and costs are met through corporate sponsorship.

Here is a glimpse of the festival.

This was my first time and I totally loved the experience!
For more information log on to http://www.kalaghodaassociation.com

Mixed feelings...

2011-02-01T23:51:00.003+05:30

Moods have been swinging all over the place! Mostly between sadness,

restlessness, excitement and frustration.

A hug much needed, with lots of laughter and love.

History behind 'The Ashes'

2010-12-24T00:51:00.005+05:30

As I am a big cricket fan, I would like to share some gyaan related to the ongoing series called 'The Ashes'. Now why the name 'The Ashes'?

'The Ashes' is a Test cricket series played between England and Australia. It is international cricket's most celebrated rivalry and dates back to 1882. It is currently played every two years alternately in the United Kingdom and Australia. Cricket being a summer sport, and the venues being in opposite hemispheres, the break between series alternates between 18 and 30 months. A series of 'The Ashes' comprises five Test matches, two innings per match, under the regular rules for Test match cricket. If a series is drawn then the country already holding the Ashes retains them.

The series is named after a satirical obituary published in a British newspaper, The Sporting Times, in 1882 after a match at The Oval in which Australia beat England on an English ground for the first time. The obituary stated that English cricket had died, and the body will be cremated and the ashes taken to Australia. The English media dubbed the next English tour to Australia (1882–83) as the quest to regain The Ashes.

The Ashes urn is reputed to
contain a burnt cricket bail.

During that tour a small brownish red urn was presented to England captain Ivo Bligh by a group of Melbourne women. The contents of the urn are reputed to be the ashes of an item of cricket equipment, a bail. The urn is erroneously believed by some to be the trophy of the Ashes series, but it has never been formally adopted as such and Bligh always considered it to be a personal gift. Replicas of the urn are often held aloft by victorious teams as a symbol of their victory in an Ashes series, but the actual urn has never been presented or displayed as a trophy in this way. Whichever side holds the Ashes, the urn normally remains in the Marylebone Cricket Club Museum at Lord's since being presented to the MCC by Bligh's widow upon his death.

The ashes urn alongside the
WaterFord Crystal Trophy

Since the 1998–99 Ashes series, a Waterford Crystal representation of the Ashes urn has been presented to the winners of an Ashes series as the official trophy of that series. England currently holds The Ashes after defeating Australia 2-1 to regain them in the 2009 Ashes series which took place in England and, for the first time, Wales. The 2010-11 Ashes series, taking place in Australia, is in progress and is currently tied at 1-1 with two tests to play (first Test was a draw).

Summary of results and statistics:
A team must win a series to gain the right to hold the Ashes. A drawn series results in the previous holders retaining the Ashes. Sixty-five series have been played, with Australia winning 31 and England 29. The remaining five series were drawn, with Australia retaining the Ashes four times (1938, 1962–63, 1965–66, 1968) and England retaining it once (1972). The win-loss ratio in Ashes Tests (up to and including the 2009 series) stands at 122 wins for Australia to 97 wins for England, with 86 draws.

Ashes series have generally been played over five Test matches, although there have been four-match series (1938; 1975) and six-match series (1970–71; 1974–75; 1978–79; 1981; 1985; 1989; 1993 and 1997). Australians have made 264 centuries in Ashes Tests, 23 of them over 200, while Englishmen have scored 212 centuries, of which 10 have been over 200. On 41 occasions Australians have taken 10 wickets in a match, Englishmen 38 times.

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Ashes

When will I be fine?

2010-12-20T00:53:00.006+05:30

I was completely stressed out, with so much of pressure at work, project deadlines and the office chaos. Frustration was creeping in like crazy. I couldn't figure out the reason behind this. But deep inside my heart I knew the real reason. I knew its because of the things that happened to me in the last 6 months(exactly 6 months back, yes it was 19th June).

So, last week I thought of taking a break from work. I felt like staying alone. I felt like going far away from the daily chaos.

I've spent my holidays TRYING to find my power and momentum back, TRYING to be in control, cherishing the wonderful moments spent with her which made me emotional and at the same time it made me cry because I was missing her a lot.

I know I am taking too much time to come out of this phase. I know I have to be strong enough to get out of this. But I couldn't see a way. It is said that "there is light at the end of the tunnel". Everything seems to be dark. I don't see any light. The only thing I can do is wait for the right moment and the right time. Now I understand the importance of TIME. There are friends who are supporting me for this, who are trying to make me come out of this condition, who are trying to make me understand that this is just a phase of life and it will soon vanish. Thanks to my friends for supporting me.

On my personal front, this break didn't turn out to be fruitful. But yes, it made me relaxed and stress free from my office work.

Hope I get out of this as soon as possible.

I'll be back to work from tomorrow. Hope everything will be fine for me in the near future....

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2010-12-06T01:06:00.006+05:30

Blogpost without a title since I don't know what to name it...

It is rightly said that "It takes few minutes to take any quick decisions, few seconds to hurt someone but a life time to forget someone". I am going through the same phase now. I was in love with someone whom I thought was made for me, for me alone. We had started discussing about spending the rest of our life together but things didn't work as we thought and she had to move to another city. Finally, we had to let go our relationship and now we are just good friends.

I still miss those moments we shared together, the time we spent together, the fights we had, the affection, the possessiveness she had for me. I am sure that she too loves me as much as I do. The love which I showered on her, could not be poured to the same extent on someone else. Deep inside my heart I am afraid of my future thinking what will come next.

The second half of this year has been the worst for me. Somewhere something is holding me back, not allowing me to come out of this difficult phase. A lot of time I act like I am fine, I smile for everyone's sake. There is a sadness behind my fake smile.

I wonder why things have to change. Why do people have to move away. Whats the point in being together in the first place if people are just going to be snatched away. I hate this. I feel like leaving everything and staying alone somewhere. There is so much pain inside. We aren't bad. Why did things have to turn like this then. Why does it happen that most of things we look forward to so much never turn out to be as much fun as we thought they would? And why is it vice versa all the time? Do expectations reach that great heights that they become impossible to meet?

Everything including my social life, my relationships went out of control. I am trying to take control of it but it seems to go on and on. It disturbs my heart, my life. Help me God, I seriously don't know what to do.

Accepting Change

2010-11-15T16:42:00.005+05:30

At some point of time in our life, we all had the feeling when we wished things didn't have to change? We all wish that we didn't have to let go of a healthy relationship shared between the two, our beloved didn't have to move to another city, our office colleagues who after becoming an integral part of our lives didn't have to switch jobs, or we as kids didn't have to grow up. At that time we feel that we are helpless because we aren't able to stop those changes coming our way.

We like familiarity and we like things the way they are and we wish that we didn't have to move on.

We don't like changes and at times feel difficult to adapt to any kind of changes because it throws us out of our most comfortable world into a less familiar world. That doesn't mean change is a bad thing for us. We know that change is good. We know that our society thrives on change and those changes are exciting and point towards a better future. We know that if we don't keep up with the society we will quickly fall behind and be left holding an empty bag. Also in the recent times the pace of change has accelerated tremendously. We all need to find ways to deal with this fact of life. One must learn to manage change in a very constructive way.

From all ups and downs that I have experienced in the last 12 months, I understood that 'to not to change is to quit growing', I have started seeing life much more seriously than before, I have my goals to achieve which I believe, would be possible only by accepting changes. People have to change. That's the only way each of us can grow, become the people we were meant to be. That's the only way we can get more our of life.

Things I love about myself

2010-11-06T01:14:00.006+05:30

Its 00:30 am and I am trying to list down things I love about myself. I must admit, this is a hard one. It is easier to find all the wrong things than it is to find something good, but since I have decided to list it down, here we go..

I have started knowing myself.
I have a purpose in my life and I am working to make up for my inadequacies.
I am feeling more matured.
I can make excellent friends.
I do not expect favours in return.
I am selfless.
I love freedom…I actually make decisions based on the amount of freedom given to me.
Friends can count on me.
I am always loyal to my true friends.
I know a little bit about a lot of things.
If I'm wrong, I will apologize.
Friendship is very important to me.
I have learned to say 'No, I'm sorry I can't ...."
I believe in God.
I believe that God doesn't have to be found in temples/churches/Mosques.
I can take pretty good pictures.
I don’t like to interfere in other people’s plans.
I am never jealous of anything.
I have a good sense of humour.
I always speak my mind, very much straightforward and don’t hold anything back.
I am optimistic and positive.
I am very faithful to the one’s I love.
I love to read books and learn things from what I read.
I have started to enjoy writing.
I am polite.
I respect other people’s feelings.
I am learning to let go things that are beyond my control.
I get emotionally connected to songs.
I have started learning from my experiences no matter if they are good ones, or bad.
I try to share my love to the best of my ability.
I am open-minded and I consider all possibilities.
I have a strong intuition.
It is very impossible for me to be fake.
I can make people laugh pretty easily.
My family is very much important to me.

Want to try this out? It’s harder than you think. I’d love to see your good things. If you participate, please leave your link in the comments here on this post.

My First Blog

2010-11-02T15:29:00.001+05:30

Hello friends, I am finally here. Welcome to my first Blog...
The pressure is on.
I am sure none of my friends would have ever imagined of me writing a blog. Its shocking for me as well...:-)

I have been following some blogs on the internet for quite some days now. I have started writing blogs for some reasons. Firstly, I am enjoying reading other people's blogs. Secondly, I have started to enjoy writing and the third I guess its time to share my weird, touching and random thoughts for all to read.
There are many things I plan to write about, hopefully it will come in the later posts.

I fully intend on regularly updating my blog. Check back again soon for another completely random sample of the things rattling around in my head. Hopefully, will come out with some nice posts.