distorted mind frequencies

The Dreamer!!!

2011-01-20T01:16:00.000-08:00

Life doesn't lead u anywhere imagining uaself as a super hero or a secret detective or a crazy millioinaire. WRONG!!!!! Not every life ends at a dead end. Steven spielberg, c.s lewis, j.k rowling and a there a lotta others who got great outputs for their tremendous imaginations. Narnia, harry potter, transformers, jurrasic park and a lotta other awesome stories that they imagined were loved by many people all over the world! So imagining takes life to another level, it recreates a person and takes him/her to a greater heights! WRONG!!!! Not every life ends up as great as the lives of these marvels! There is an another category. There a are a few who imagine and make these imaginations their reality….

Siddarth was a hyderabadi, there’s this thing bout hyderabad that makes people fall in love with it, and fo the same reason even sid was in love with it. Sid had a very normal life, and normal meant, school in which he was smbody who cud speak gud english, high school where he was a nobody and engineering which he hated except for the few frnds he had! so what bout him? Well, imagination had been his life. All the life he had all he did was imagine, he imagines everytime 24*7. OK! That’s too much! Ok lets take it as an expression on how much he imagines. U might be thinking I mite tell the story of a guy named siddarth who is from this third category I mentioned, well ua wrong siddarth is a guy who wants to know if this third category even exists, to be precise siddarth is me! Ok stop ua conclusions rite there people. What I meant was Sid is lyk me or lyk u or lyk every other person who wants to know if chasing dreams is actually possible in this so called demonic competitive world. Its every persons journey that this guy named sid takes up as his!

My Story- Chapter 3!

2010-02-19T21:16:00.000-08:00

Of TIRING pleasures & insane TRANSITIONS....

The city outskirts never looked so scary! Or let’s say, the fear inside me made d journey scary! I was sweating like hell... it was around 3:30 am & I was almost a hundred kms away from my comfy home!! I never missed my home, my room, my couch this much!! After I dreamt d same! After my 8^th dream i couldn’t sleep again or rather I dint want to!! Mabbe that was a very bad step that I took... I had no dreams... I din want to have any... but do I regret now? Mabbe!! Mabbe not! Coz it helped jus for few days, after which thing worsened! My condition degraded day-by-day!

Forget dreams I started going into Trans! Things started happening in front of my eyes.... while i was bathing, while I ate, worse even when I was driving, I missed just a few accidents, ya hell I JUST missed 26 accidents! And these continued my dreams to make my dream count 28!
Viren at last started paying attention to my bloody dreams or my visions, Whatever! Were they some illusions beyond my imagination?

He dint allow me to drive anymore! He pestered me to go to a psychiatrist! He was behind my ass and finally took me to one!
D doc said it was just a psychic imbalance syndrome due to my over watching of horror, thriller and sci-fi movies!! He asked me to stop watching ‘em for few months! Also, asked me to reduce boozing!
'f**k him' thought me and Viren while coming outta his clinic! We went, bought beer and some more horror flicks and spent a scary boozy evening!
After getting home that evening, i started googlin bout people who dreamt this way and also bout d info on d missing islands. Huh. Few more islands went missing in d vicinity of the first missing island... the US was doubling its army in size! And the Japanese and Russians are thinking that the Us is doing this to destroy em! F**k em!
As I was reading this stuff, someone rang the door bell...

It was Deepika... with her baggage! "What d f**k r u doing her with all that luggage u witch?" said I with a petrified expression on my face!
Took a lotta courage to tell her about my strange happenings, she was worried a lot about me when i told this to her that morning! She said that she was going on a tour with her friends and she would come back real quick and asked me take are! But here she was! Why wouldn’t i be bewildered?

She pushed me aside, leaving her bags & got into my flat! She fell flat on d couch shouting 'bring em in'...and I, like a very dutiful servant took em in and shut d door behind me!
'May I know what’s happening?' I asked her!
She said, rather shouted in a very hyper excited tone 'am staying with u and taking care of you for a while'...
Now I shouted 'What? I mean wow! Is this true? U & me! Me & u! Together! All alone! Together! Wow!" I was jumping with joy now!
"Oh yes baby!" she said as she got up and checked out my pc! The monitor had d news bout the islands on it!

"So now, temme all" she said!
I asked "everything?"
"Yea everything! Your dreams and all" she said lying down on the couch! She looked sexy! Umm! I felt a twitch!
But then I sat on a chair beside her told her all from the beginning till my docs visit., she laughed, gasped, sighed., let out few f**ks by d time I was done with it...
Period.

"So what do u think it is?'' she asked!
I gave out a sigh & said "Like I know!"
"Dipps, things r becoming hard for me to take"! I said... She got up and hugged me then! I hugged her even tight and felt her aroma! Umm!!
"Why do u smell this good' I asked her! She pushed me, and said "keep all your ideas to yourself... don’t turn em into actions!"
I grinned! Got up and held her by her waist! Ran my hands on her neck and pulled her closer and we smooched! The kiss was never this intense! Never this passionate! In seconds we were on my bed... kissing, biting, and groping for each others things! I ran my lips on her neck, on her whole silken body! Minutes later we were under my blanket! Naked! And together!
Hour later strained, I lay beside her! And she resting her whole silken abode on my chest! I still felt a twitch!

"am tired and dozing!" said she! Kissed me again and slept!
The thought f dozing off, brought my thoughts closer to me! My soul...

So I took my beer can and went into my balcony! As I went into the balcony, the bright sunlight hit my eyes! ‘Strange!’ I thought. Checked my watch and it was 8pm! It is strange!

As I looked down my flat, my eyes popped out!

I saw few people carrying dead bodies into the building, I peeped into my flat and i didn’t find my room, didn’t find Dipps! The room turned into medieval period one! Weaponry, armoury, some paintings, the light from the sun got reflected on something and hit my eyes! Got near it and it was a sword, believe me it was awesome, golden handle, the sharp edges had encryptions on some unknown language, at least unknown to me! Somebody pushed open the door!

It was Viren! ‘It’s time we do something man!’ he shouted! He looked pissed off! ‘They’re killing our people like hell!’ he continued! ‘Let’s end this brother! End this rite now! I’m going with or without you, at least I’m gonna try ending this!’ saying this he went straight through the balcony....

I started running towards the balcony, suddenly somebody stopped me, looked around t’was Deepika. I looked around and everything was back to normal. I got scared and hug Deepika hard and started shouting her all that i saw! She took me to the bed, the whole night i hug her tight and slept!

My Story-Chapter 2

2010-01-24T09:46:00.001-08:00

Chasing my death…

‘Dreams stay dreams, they can never be real,’ that is what I always thought about them. But here I’m chasing my dream following a digital machine which is a size of my mobile set by a person whom I don’t even know. ’Dreams seem interesting only when they’re dreams but they turn scary when they come real in our lives’ I thought. U might be wondering what dream this guy is talking about,, the only dream he talked bout is he running mad on a bridge and jumping off from it as if he is in Olympics. You are right but I already did mention you that my dream count is 23.

Dream no.8 and that night:

Got a harsh treatment from my boss and then from Dipps (Deepika). First one for not completing my project in time and the latter for not being in time for the dinner. It was our anniversary, year 2 after we got into a relationship. I’m like always late (fashionably late), as my bloody boss doesn’t leave me so soon. I did get used to her bragging me around for being late, but she didn’t get used to me being late. So the result she brags me even today. Our favourite dinner place is ‘Our Place’. The food, the ambience, everything is edible except for the prices, which weren’t digestible. But as we loved eating there, we had to sacrifice something and it was our salaries. Just a glimpse of her would take out all the pain in the heart ‘bout the money. She wore a blue shaded jeans starting just at the beginning of her nicely carved butt and a white tee that ends just at starting of jeans and as usual she was awesomely hot and cute at he same time and only few girls have that greatness in em. Lucky me!

We ate, went for a long drive along the city outskirts, ( I choose this part of the city at nights coz it is pretty advantageous if u wanna stop the vehicle by jus to check if u r still good enough at IT to pull ua girl’s jeans off!). Dropped her home and I dropped by Viren’s place, and all we did chat bout was my fucking boss, my strange dreams and Megan Fox’s new flick. Viren’s a big fan of her (even though he knows she’s he turned she) crazy guy huh? He didn’t give a damn to my worry bout my dreams, and I had no other go except to listen to his stupid descriptions of Megan. ‘Maar daala… allah… maar daala’ was how I was feeling. After a lotta convincing operations of mine we agreed to watch a movie, but for my bad it was again a new flick of Megan, Viren got a pirated version of it. One thing I loved him for is he always had a stock of beer. Had some of it, got home and hit my bed and the dream starts.

Dream no.8:

Its 2:00 am and I was lying on my terrace and I get a call asking me to pack my bags and move outta my flat, get in a car that is in front of my apartment building and follow the gps set in the car. I did it and in a while I was driving out in the city outskirts in a black Audi a4, pretty cool rite. The guy who called me really knows how to pull me into this. Who wouldn’t love to ride in an Audi, whateva the reason maybe. I keep driving following the gps, till I got the call again.

Same person ‘how’s the ride?’

‘Cool?’ I said though I wanted to shout ‘what the hell’s going on u asshole,’

‘Your questions will be answered soon, don’t worry……..’ he said as though he read my thoughts, ‘for now’ he continued ‘when you reach your destination, open the bag that’s in the rear seat and wait for me at ‘King’s dhaba’. You might get some company in the meantime, try using the stuff in the bag and try handling them.’ He cut the call without any more info, as he did before.

I reached my destination which is jus in front of king’s dhaba. Got down checked the bag, which had two guns, pistols to be specific as in counter strike (it’s a game for those who doesn’t know what counter strike), a laptop, a mobile and an id. I was bout to check the id, I heard gunshots, apparently one hit the car door and in a reflex I took a pistol and hid behind the opened door.

There were bout six to seven people, they looked similar to the people I saw in my first dream. I shot two of them at some part of their body, or I think I hit em. I got up to change my position, y did I think I was a part of a swat team, I tried moving like one. Then, some guy hit the spot. I was hit. I didn’t know what happened, I fell flat on the ground……………..

Startled by that I got up and couldn’t sleep after that, I went on to my terrace with a vodka bottle in my hand, sat in a bench and started glaring at the stars and the unlit buildings.

Back to the present:

That was the last day I slept…..

If my dreams are coming true, I’m gonna die today. Even after that I’m still going, don’t know y but I’m. its like I’m searching my death or chasing my own death and I’m pretty positive about it. Maybe because I’m sick of my unexciting, boring life which is daily eaten up by my boss or I’m sick of the sleepless nights and meaningless dreams.

3IdI0T$

2009-12-29T22:56:00.000-08:00

guys thanks for visiting my blog, was really encouraging....
so one good book turned into one good movie, ya i'm talkin bout five point someone turned into 3idiots. Though the changes weren't that good, the takin of the movie was really good, with a good meaning.... the director was absolutely rite, huh the system has to change, every dad wants his kid to be an engineer, and the kid gets confused on what to do, faded he leaves everything to God's hand he leaves all his dreams as dreams and gets into pursuit with the dreams of his parents, most of the times fails in that tooo..... whats the solution,,,,, nothing! either u fail and take care that atleast ur kids win or u win and let ur kids take u as an example,,, its in ur hand friends.... u decide ur life..... its in ur hands all the time, the thing is are u jus looking at it and go on with ur pursuit sayin all izz well, os wait a sec hold to the thing u have in ur hands and go for It............. u decide.......

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My Story-Chapter 1

2009-12-16T08:46:00.000-08:00

The call!!

Its 2:00 am and it’s been weeks since I’ve slept in this time of night. My terrace has got a plush garden with a few benches here and there. Thanks to the apartment maintenance people. Am getting used to stare at the stars and the unlit buildings…. It’s been my night duty in the recent weeks.

Everything was normal with me a month ago, but lately things began to change. It all started with a dream, never understood if it’s a dream or a vision. Or let me say it’s beyond my comprehension. A night…… a night that changed everything… and after that night strange things started happening around the world. I still remember my first dream and the things happened that night.

Dream-1 and that night:

That night I’ve been to a movie with Deepika, my girl. Movie is never interesting when she is around, coz she is the only interesting thing. Such dark place, with the coolness from the conditioner takes us to a different mood, and the romance starts.

So after the tiring movie experience, I dropped her miles away from her house, took a beer, got to my flat and hit the bed. The dream starts by me running on a bridge, people chasing me, I keep running and running and suddenly stop running seeing some more people coming from the other side too. They did look like normal people but something was strange with them. Then maybe I was scared of being, I jumped from the bridge into the water, I didn’t even get in contact with the water, I startled and got up.

It may not seem scary to you but the dark ambience with no moon or stars which means no light and the eyes of the people chasing me red in colour and 100 to 200 of them carrying weapons in hand seem scary to me. One thing I didn’t understand is if they want me dead, with the weapons they had in hand it was pretty easy for them to see me dead coz they can just kill me in one shot. If they don’t want me dead then why the hell am I running from them?

I got off my bed, washed my sweaty face, gulped in some beer and hit my bed. Couldn’t sleep after that dream, my mind started its stupid analysations. That dream wasn’t that strange rite! Nope not even for me. Dreams have always been that way, especially for me. I thought maybe t’was because of the movie, maybe its haunting me for not watching it properly. But how could I, my angel was looking so hot that neither could I take my eyes nor my hands off her.

Slowly I dozed off coz I’m a professional at dozing off. Had to get up at 7:00am as I had to go to work by 9:00am.

I already told you that things around the world started changing from that night. The news that day morning showed a strange thing. An island near the west coast of U.S has been lost from the radar and the government is worried as every aircraft and ship that’s going anywhere near the island are going missing too. They showed pics of the island, it is actually one of the group of islands present there each connected with bridges to the other one. The bridge that connects this island from the others is the same one, I ran and jumped from in my dream. Now don’t tell this isn’t strange.

I was so damn glued to the news that when I got my mind outta it, I had 10 messages and 7 missed calls from dipps, 2 missed calls from Viren (my best friend) and three from some idiots from my work place. Called back all of them, got ready and head to work. That was when my actually faded and confused life turned even more confusing.

Present (chapter time):

It’s been about a month since I’ve got my first dream and till date my dream count is 23 and my dreams were never this strange. They got even scarier every night.

I got outta my dream analyzing and got back to my star alighting. I got a call, number isn’t being shown on my mob. I lifted the call much outta interest on who’s calling me at this point of time. I picked and said hello and the person spoke,

“Sorry no time for instructions, pack your bags and move outta your flat. There’s a car waiting for you with keys inside. Follow the GPS and it will take you where you need to come.”

Saying this, the person cut the call and I a bit confused called up Viren thinking maybe he was playing pranks on me, but when the call got picked up it was the same person again and said, “stop wailing around. Now move!”

coll3Ge L!fE

2009-12-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

CoLLeGiAnZ ArE So aMazIn!!
V cRaM, V CrY & V FiGhT fO A SiNgLe mArK. .
V tRy oUr bEsT To kEeP Up oUr pRoMiSeS Bt aLwEz iN VaIn. .
V r fOrCeD To tHiNk bOuT D fUtUrE. .
V R sCaReD & CoNfUsEd!!
V R SiMpLy DiStOrTeD. .
V LoVe NiTe oUtZ & LoAtHe oUr CoLLeGe. .
HaPpInEsS SeEmZ To bE LyK An iLLuSiOn DuRiN LeCtUrEz!
So V BuNk oUr cLaSsEz. .
iMpLiEz dAt V R aLwEz LoW On aTtEnDeNcE & gO HiThEr-TiThEr fO A MeDiCaL CeRtIfIcAtE @ d eNd oF OuR SeM. .
V wAiT fO D SeM BrEaK & vEn d bReAk ArRiVeZ, V WaIt fO D CoLL tO ReOpEn (jS To mEeT Up oUr fReNz). .
V cRaVe fO MoRe pKt mNy & sPeNd AwL oF It oN A SiNgLe oUtIn. .
V LoVe DoMiNoZ. .
V LoVe D rOaDsYd PaNiPuRi. .
V eAt AwFuL FoOd (aWfUl fO HeAlTh & yUm tO Us) & fAll SiCk dArN SoOn. .
V sOrT OuT OuR MiNdZ ViCh r aLwEz FiLLeD ViD StDiEz, pRoBz, wOrRiEz, eMoTiOnZ, LoNg LoSt mEmOrIeZ. .
V tHiNk bOuT OuR PaSt. .
SoMe wAnT To gO BaC & SoMe dEsPiSe dEr pAsT. .

Bt @ D eNd Of d DaY, V WaNt tO ReLaX, SpEnD SoMe qUaLiTy tYm ViD OuR LoVeD OnEz, LiStEn tO SoMe gOoD MuZiK & cHaT AwL NiTe. . Nw dAtZ LyF Fo Us!!

V iMaGiNe. . V dReAm. . DrEaM A LoT. .
BoUt d hApPy mOmEnTz!!
DrEaMz kEeP Us gOiN & DeY aLwEz vL. .
HoPe oUr dReAmZ CoMe TrUe!!

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2009-12-09T19:44:00.000-08:00

Dz Z mY FaVoRiTe sOnG (By pInK FloYd) aNd dEsCrIbEz mY StAtE Of MiNd rItE Nw. .

N nO ItZ Nt d LyRiC F D sOnG. .
:0

aM TrEaDiN In d DaRk!!!
DuNnO VaTz gOiN ArOuNd mE. .
My MiNd Z DiStOrTeD!!
My LyF Z JaDeD. .
VeN MuZiK SeEmZ LyK A NoIsE,SuMtHiNz tErRiBlY WrOnG ViD Me!!!

MaNy a FrEnZ I'vE LoSt. .
sLiPpEd & sTrAyEd aWaY!
Fo AwL D FaKe fReNz wHo hAtE Me. .
   ;jS FcK OfF
I hV MuCh bEtTa PpL DaN U In mY LyF. .

Fo AwL D FaKe fReNz wHo aRe jEaLoUs oF Me:
   ;tHaNk YoU!!
mAkEz mE fEeL MuCh bEtTa!!
AiNt u jEaLoUs cUz aM MuCh bEtTa dAn u.??
Be iT In dEeDz oR VaTeVa!!

Fo AwL My fAiThFuL FoEz
   ;tRuStWoRtHy fOeZ Ua
cUz i kNw dAt mY FoEz vL B FaItHfUl tO Me TiLL D EnD!!
Umm!!
Am cOmFoRtAbLy nUmB. .
a
(MiNd U dZ AiNt d LyRiX F CoMfOrTaBlY NuMb bY PiNk fLoYd)

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abusin thoda zyada toh nai!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-05T10:26:00.000-08:00

Heard that Mtv, was actually started for viewer group of age 17 to 20! But the recent shows like roadies, splitsvilla and etc have a lotta stuff which can b given either an A rating or an U/A rating!

lotta 'F'words and 'B' words which are indirectly bein taught to kids!!!! what do u say? is it fine fo kids around u sayin fUCk and bitch!!!!! lemme knw ur views guys!!!!!!!
And explicit content that isnt good fo kids to watch tooo!

and pretty dangerous stuff that shouldnt b tried by kids or teenagers!!!!!!!

su's lyric!!!

2009-12-04T23:18:00.000-08:00

You said the most horrible things,
bout us, bout me.
and yeah........I heard every word.
L'il did you know, i was the fly on the wall.

Yes, I heard everything.

No, you cannot get me ne'thin,
No, you do not have to take anywhere,
and no, we cannot sit down and talk bot this........

Dont try to prove yourself now,
Although i give u a thumps up for the effort.
You are too late.
You say you'll change, that u've made a mistake.
Please, stab me in the back again.
Lie to my face.
It felt so good the first time.

             We are through.
Do me a favour and turn around
I wanna see ur other face as i walk away.

I take bk the thumbs up, for effort.
Lets make that a finger.

            The Middle One!!!!!!!!!!!!

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jus to take the confusion off ur heads

2009-12-04T02:01:00.000-08:00

guys, a few people got really faded (confused) on who's blog this is! currently me ( u can call me sid ) and a very good friend of mine ( call her su) are the authors of this blog!
so u would find posts both from us signed by us!!!!!
so done with ur confusion!!!!!

2009-11-25T02:18:00.000-08:00

TwO StAtEz By ChEtAn BhAgAt HaS ReLeAsEd jS OnE & HaFf MoNtH Ago & WhOpPee!! It Hs AwRdY ToPpEd d NaTiOnAl BeStSeLLerS BeAtInG D LoSt SyMbOL. . I goT To LaY My HaNdZ On D BoOk jS AfTa 2 DayZ Of D ReLeAsE (ThAnX 2 My DaD. . InSpItE F D sCaRcIty, hE GoT D Buk fo Me)! D Buk Describez D Love Stry F Krish (chetan bhagat) & ananya swaminathan (anusha bhagat) starts @ IIM-A. . ThE BuK DeScRiBeZ HoW DeY BeCoMe FrEnZ, MakE OuT In D CaMpUs ( ;-) ) , cRy, d GuY GeTz pLaCeD @ cItIbAnk (wOw!). . AnAnYa geTz PlAcED @ HLL ( Hindustan Lever Limited, fo D Schmuckz Who Dunno Vat HLL Z), GeT DeR DeGrEeZ & So On. . D BuK Z A MusT Read. . It PeRFeCtLY stRiKeZ A cHoRd. . AnD Yo ThAnKz tO ChEtAn BhAgHAT.. CuZ Hs BuK HaS InSpIrEd Me QuiTe WeLL To PrEpArE Fo CAT To GeT InTo IIM. . AnD YeaH, Me & My BeSt bUdDy aRe GoNnA Go Fo CAT ClAsSeS FrM D NeX SeM. . N Fo AwL D bOoKiEz wHo HaVeNt rEaD D Buk, pLz BuY It & rEaD It. . BuY D oRiGiNaL BuK & SAY NO TO PIRACY. . . Three Cheerz To Chetan Bhagat!!!
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Bout MeEe!

2009-11-20T23:57:00.000-08:00

Namez Sunaina!

Muzic & BooKz Make Me Go Ga-Ga!

Me Shud B & WuD B Vid My Mobyl.!

Rain Z My Season!

Rahman & Greenday R D Onez I Worship.!

cAppuchino Z mY Kinda Coffee & Chetan Bhagat Z mY FavoritE.!

Muzik Z vAt Definez me &

Engineerin Z vaT ~~SuCkZ~~ Me!!!!!
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Me!!!!!

2009-11-20T04:12:00.000-08:00

Engineerin is a complicated term and a complicated study! and so is the life of an engineer! This, i understoood in the first months of my engineerin itself! (thank god the day ended) is my expression after every day of college. days just went like wind, two bunks, one leave(ya leaves and bunks are seperately counted in my account) and three days of head hittin my class bench is my weekly schedule and poof(!) my first year done in no time! and fuck the exams yaar!

i flunked in two of first year subjects and then came my first semester of my second year! the year is 2009 and for this b'day i got my first bike, every guys dream PULSAR (its in red coz my pulsar is red)!!!!!!! hope time takes a u turn and i go back to my school days! I'm gonna open more of my life to u in the coming days!!!!!!
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