Earth & Human Energy Grid

DESTRUCTION

2012-01-24T12:36:00.005-08:00

I've never been so completely exhausted over trying to explain how to change the ideologies of the 'human condition,' in my entire life. When people who call themselves human beings purposely harm another, without ever taking the time to SEE the 'other' clearly, their own 'belligerence' stands in their way, and they can't enjoy any other, or themselves, for stepping on their own two feet.

In my own life, I find myself endlessly paying for my pedophile 'stranger' & my mother who set it up, & allowed it, and for every single other person connected to my family, who happened to receive the 'energy' of my murder alive by a pedophile thief of my soul. I am also as an adult finding myself paying for the whole Catholic Church who practices pedophiliac harms as a way of life, in order to 'balance' those souls who wish to do evils at the expense of all good souls, & when they find a cache of an overly good, knowledgeable soul, scape-goat that soul to the maximum penalty of PAYMENT for all evils on this earth. Then there are the souls who have 'successfully' managed to 'switch sides' out the the Catholic paradigm, that is planet-wide, who also have reason(s) to commit atrocious evils of theft of others souls & hard-won personal soul-work. In all of this, it is not possible to even approach 'paying the bills' for mankinds BLINDNESSES. Human beings have LOST THEMSELVES COMPLETELY IN DOING HARMS TO SOMEONE, AS A PERCEIVED NEED FOR 'JUSTICE,' or 'VENGEANCE,' when in fact, they've missed the point and purpose of SELF-REFLECTION ALTOGETHER. Their evils have the audacity to say, 'What are ya gonna do about it ?' The answer ? NOTHING CAN BE DONE ABOUT IT. You can commit evil & harms to others until you're blue in the face, & it won't CHANGE YOU. Only YOU can CHANGE YOU. But the MINDS of these who insist on traditionally harming others have been DAMAGED. They can no longer THINK from point A to point B & SEE IN ADVANCE THE RESULTING point C. At the highest levels, it stopped being practiced & taught, LONG AGO, I guess, which is why it is so lost, buried & hard to find these days. Instead, the 'game' afoot is purposeful back-stabbing, and totally un-nurturing BLAME. And LAME IT IS.

It is a fact, that everyone is born 'innocent,' or unknowing of the harms they do. The more harms done, the more 'evils' & harms repeat themselves, to the point that humanity has LOST the ability to be reasonable. To have no redeeming qualities is nothing to be proud of, & yet it is found in top places by those who have an energy they did not earn, but over hundreds of years, garnered by the 'raping, murdering, secret, racist, 'rules' that have been set in motion... And that as I can see now, cannot be stopped, unless humanity itself were to choose to make the valiant effort to stop it. I don't see that they will. They NEED a 'leader' and that 'leader' is box-following for all the idiocy & insensitivity they've created, along with their 'leader,' the devil his-ugly-self, who LOVES this 'power' he weilds over the stupidity & insensitivity he has 'created.' THIS IS NOT CREATION. THIS, IS NOTHING BUT DESTRUCTION. Personally, I won't ever stand for it again myself, when they make the attempt to LIE to get me to reincarnate to 'help' them solve the STUPID PROBLEMS of non-loving, non-tolerance, over-taking all good that would flower, were it left alone, & intact to do so. I'd have never thought 'humanity' was too STUPID to have this ability. But in the Babylon we have now, I KNOW WE ARE TOO STUPID TO CHANGE IT... And it's quite sad, because DOING CREATION, is so much easier, so much more universal, sets all souls free to real freedom, and real goodness. Were we ever to go there again, we just might find ourselves absolutely astounded... In Sincerity, Truthfulness, Benevolence, Equality & Courtesy, lost-alive-lights of who we really are, Love & Learning & Nothing But Those Are Required.

Guru Gita

2011-03-26T21:43:00.001-07:00

It took me a very long time to find the information in the Guru Gita, my whole life, in fact... "Gu" means 'dark' & "Ru" means 'light'... GURU is the most powerful mantra one can repeat, and the only mantra each of really needs, because, we all are 'dark>light', as individuals... So, whenever your mind feels afraid, 'GuRu, GuRu, GuRu.' :)

WHAT EACH ONE OF US CAN DO

2010-09-05T09:24:00.001-07:00

EVERY ONE CAN HELP ME TO RE-BALANCE THE EARTH ENERGY GRID, ASAP... NOW...

Since Earth & Atmosphere are ONE Living Entity, that we are not only IN, but WITH, our sounds, hearts, LOVE are magnetically connected with 'it.' Magnetic Grid of Earth, IS US ! All world Pyramids are aligned to various Star-points in the Cosmos, as part of the connected Grid to EARTH ! We can help to re-balance ourselves 'magnetically' with Earth and the Cosmos, by way of SOUND, because it is also 'Light,' & Heart.

The ancient name 'Ra,' is the name for our Living Sun, the source of our life here on Earth. So when we call it aloud, in timing with our breath, it synchronizes & harmonizes our breath, body, mind, heart-beats with Earth-Sun magnetosphere. For the next YEAR, we can EASE our transition, if we HONOR IT BY DOING THE FOLLOWING MEDITATION, each night as you go to sleep, or each morning when you arise:

USE 'RAHHHHH' on your out-breath & 'RAHHHHH' on your in-breath. This makes us each at One with our Sun, Center of Earth, Central Sun of Milky Way, & BEYOND, realigns EVERYTHING to BALANCE, & ONEness. Believe & receive the inner unconditional love that is coming our way. It is all good with no evil in it, pure heart love from center of cosmos, connected to us on Earth. In this way, we will BREATHE, WITH the Cosmos.

How The 'Illuminati' Torture & Rape the Great Pyramid "Jesus Star" Souls Born on Earth

2010-08-04T21:31:00.000-07:00

This Torture & Rape IS Being Done so 'Rulers' can climb the Ladder of Baby-Lon Without DOING ANY OF THEIR OWN WORK, Because, "THEY CAN'T" Do It... And don't want to do it for themselves, ANYWAY !

Welcome to Earth's Incompetent & Murderously SOUL-THIEVING, 'Leaders'

Hiya

Between You (in United States) and

David (in Ireland)

David August 4 at 3:55pm

Hey (me), how are you? are you on msn, I would like to talk to you there x :)

Hope the operation went well.

Love and light to you
David.

me: August 4 at 7:13pm

I'm so sorry David, I'm using Linux Free Software / Operating System, & have NEVER HOOKED UP 'VOICE' at all. [ MicroSoft Vista was nothing BUT horror, hackers, messing with me, so I've spent 2 years with Linux... ;( ] Send me your phone number, now, and I can call you FOR FREE TO US BOTH ! I'd be glad to hear ya, and talk ! :))

August 4 at 7:38pm

me: WHERE ARE YA, DK ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? I'm at *-***-***-****. (From Ireland, you might have to use a U.S. code prefix) Call me, or I'll call YOU ! living love 2u, me :)

August 4 at 9:33pm

me: BTW: My Bruce-Wayne-Janet-Michael 'Family' made me go through INFECTED oral-surgery with NO ANESTHESIA, except 'novocane' that DID NOT WORK. It was a real 'war,' the EVIL BABY-RAPER BIRD-FINGER ASSHOLES of the 'Annunaki' HORRORS FROM HELL, ON EARTH, blaming the WRONG 'party,' here. Nothing but 'Caveman F- - K.S.' (that's me k.s., the 'graal blood' they are all so afraid of, & hateful toward, and raping me to death alive... Fuck the cat-jew EARTH... and that's ALL of them...) but thx, for askin'... ;(

August 4 at 9:42pm

me: How's THAT, for a girl whose vicious, ambitious father, over 3500 years, has made himself BOTH Vatican Pope, Spanish Pope, and Federal Bank, & who forces his OWN daughter to be raped by her brother, with HIS OWN WIFE'S 'babysitter finger-NAIL,' while they have a nice time with all my karmic soul-work, and FORCE ME TO BE WORLD BROAD-CAST LIBRARIAN, with no love, no money, no car, no friends, BUT cave-man rapist masterbater, 'D.K.,' Troll-Reptilian, and who can't tell the truth about it, or EVEN self-reflect AND STOP HIMSELF from psycho-sexually-raping me unless I END our friendship... So I DID end our friendship. That leaves me with NO ONE in the whole world to care about me, or help me, now. CAN U SEE THE ILLUMINATI NOW ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ;/

BTW: 'Charles' Chase is my adoptive grandfather, of my 'born of rape' mother, who raped her daughter with a 'babysitter,' named Donna Rice, satan's Troll-Reptillian DEVIL, for the 'don-donna' Church of SOUL THEFT rape & murder of BABIES, by the British Crown.

me: This 'Zom-bee' came and stole 'black serpent' from my eyes to his 'eyes,' while I was resonantly praying with Rainbow Serpent of the Sun, during Summer Solstice month 2010 (6.21.10 - 7.21.10)... I'm SO TIRED OF THE SATAN NEEDY 'Rulers'.... ANY BODY WITH ME ? ? ? ? (i'm tired of being murdered for nothing but theft and greed, and no love given to me either...)

Presidents, Popes, 'Leaders' Stay in Power, Based on Rape of Babes, Especially those born under ANY Numbers of the Great Pyramid, or World-wide Pyramids, which ALL POINT AT STARS. They are raping ALL OF US, as the 'heavens' and murdering us alive, to do their work for them: = BABYLON MONSTERS. HAIL, SATAN, THEY DO, MURDER FOR MONEY and soul-work, they could NEVER DO... ;/(( [This & ALL 'Presidents' & world 'leaders' (since 1959, have been based on my child-rapist and any sexuality in my life, accesses MY SOUL for their Whims & Desires), and then specifically based on my first boyfriend, a Greek, I met in Birmingham, Alabama in 1974, who was the Paul Simon song, curiously, "If I was the President," and SINCE then, the Illuminati have made themselves 'Leaders' ON ME, BEHIND MY BACK. [cunt-stabbers with demon-dyke fin-ger-nail... Can U see the real CUNTS of Satan's 'illuminati' RAPISTS YET ?]

Magdalene Murdered Alive On Earth, & Endlessly Repeating

2010-07-22T22:06:00.000-07:00

July 22, 2010, Thursday

The fight to tell the Real Truth, never ends...

All Time is One Time. All Love is One Love.

My own personal 'sacred' and psychic connection with 'Rainbow Serpent' who showed itself to my mind's 'eye' in Lucid Vision, between 1-3 pm on Saturday, January 9, 2010, as a Giant, Light-Being, ALIVE, Benevolent, Smiling, Joyful, Balancing of All Colors of Human Chakras, as a 'yin-yang' curve up the middle of our own Sun ! I was absolutely surprised, amazed, and overwhelmed by it's hugeness, intense colors, beauty and complete sense of immediate, loving, joyfulness.

My 'psychic' enemies, laughed at me, that day, for my 3 months of magnetic enslavement, inability to move my body, due to my personal 'thermometer' (thyroid gland) being broken (in the dead of a very cold winter in Colorado), and my absolute physical paralysis from all the magnetic aberrations that humans have caused over the last 3500 years, especially.

Here is a video report of the Science of 'Rainbow Serpent':

The viciousness and 'violentia' of Rome IS STILL GOING ON, but the 'Magdalene's' of Earth, are barely included in their own story, since it is 'not known,' or more likely, just not EVER told, or even acknowledged, for the politics of the patriarchal 'orders' sake...

What follows is an Article about this date, 7/22 being the Magdalene's Feast Day. It just so happened to turn out that this Article mentions ALL the Numbers of my own Life, murdered alive by Child-Rape from the Catholic Church with its 'Guenevere' as 'Magdalene,' instead of the 'Real Blood' of the Magdalene's bloodline revered, and understood as a larger Earth - Physically & Psychically connected BEING, but rather, is raped in murder alive, and swept beneath the carpet, where no on can hear, see, feel, or even notice her enforced murder alive, OR more is the case, all CHOOSE not to understand, or care, much less, believe, even if backed-up with photos, and facts, all is ignored.

(My doctor's, dentists, and social workers are letting me die of my '17' infected, rotting teeth, that are poisoning my blood and organs, due to the complication of Graves Disease, an over-abundance of Thyroid Hormone that attacks the fine calcium in the body (first the Teeth, and then the Bones, prior to treatment.) The treatment, Radioactive Iodine 131, takes about 2 years for the body to stabilize, and Thyroid Hormone must be replaced by prescription, thereafter. This is now a 51 year process of their killing of me with child-rape, causing pituitary trauma, and subsequent long-term Hyper-Thyroidism, which when it is long-term, causes the more severe 'Graves Disease.' My teeth complication is reparable, but since I have been unable to work, due to radioactive treatment sapping all of my energy, regularity of sleep pattern, headaches from the prescription, and blood-infection from the teeth that have been attacked by too much Thyroid T3 & T4 hormones, I have no money to pay for the teeth being extracted and fixed with dentures. All inquiries on my part, have met with ignoring my pleas for help, & ON ALL FRONTS, nothing but hatred, mistaking me as my child-rapist, socially, and forcing me to 'write the book' they broad-cast from my 'in-k,' (magnetically), as all of my pens have become their female child-rapist 'fin-ger,' and outright lies and stupidity, toward me socially. And their incessant, unrelenting RETRIBUTION against me for attempting to Tell the Truth, of ALL of this, Publicly. I would guess these are the SAME NUMBERS utilized to 'identify' and kill ALL 'Magdalene' Bloodline Beings / Entities on Earth, if they incarnate here. At the very least, they are the major 'numbers' of my own life, and the murder of all my own joyfulness, and genocide of all my soul-connections that I brought into this life.)

To me, from a friend, Thursday, July 22, 2010: Magdalene's Feast Day

Walking On Water:

She came and spoke to me for the fourth time in my “knowing being”. I know her as Mary Magdalene. Her voice like silk through the ether's. She said to me; “Gloria.....
Magdala..... Amygdala.”

This is the story of my life and the events that brought me to this sacred place, where knowledge, divine wisdom, and unimaginable love is freely shared. I have had many, many mystical experiences in my life, including my own death at the age of 17, and subsequent return to this good earth upon my own request.

I invite you to join me now, as I begin to share with you the series of mystical events that opened up the Kingdom of Heaven, on earth as it is in........................

.......and so it is

The Fish, (Age of Pisces, that Earth is now transiting from, into Age of Aquarius.)

Have you ever wondered why there are so many different ENERGETIC disorders around now that either did not exist or were extremely rare - as little as a decade ago? The number of cases of people diagnosed with Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, Lupus, and depression in every shape and form has grown exponentially over the last ten years. There was a time no one had even heard of Fibromyalgia, a crippling myofacial disease that strikes mainly women, and now 1 out of 20 women can expect to develop the disorder at some point in their life. Have you ever wondered why so many women (one out of every two) are taking an average of 1.5 psychotropics? Or why the number of cases of autism in children has jumped from 1 in 10,000 to 1 in 100 in a mere 20 years? Why all the energetic disorders?

I asked myself these questions – and more – to the point that my being became on fire. I knew there was a connection – a common cause or source for the myriad of energetic disorders that are crippling the human race at this point in time– but I couldn’t connect the dots. What is it that we are doing to ourselves to create the first decline in life expectancy? My body felt as if some electrical current had gone past the limit it could safely contain – as I strained toward that “knowing” I couldn’t quite reach. Couldn’t quite taste. Yet, it was at the tip of my comprehension, nibbling around the periphery of perception like so many fish on mossy dock pilings.

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I decided to pray and meditate about it. Over the years I've learned how to 'ground’ myself when my being becomes “all fired up”: I anoint my body and inhale the oil of Spikenard, the same oil that Mary Magdalene used to annoint Jesus at the

home of Lazarus. This time, as always, the oil helped me to

anchor me being so that I could process the light body of information streaming through me.

That is when “she” came and spoke to my “knowing” being for the fourth time. She spoke to that part of me – which is in all of us - that receives and reveals information that is heard, felt, understood, and treasured - through the spiritual senses. From underneath – outward. I know her as Mary Magdalene. Her voice is like silk through the ethers. She said to me, “Gloria, Magdala. A m y g d a l a “.

That was all I needed to hear. Like Columbus’s ships sailing to shore in clear view, yet invisible to the natives because they lacked the matrix of consciousness needed to process the information – there it was – right in front of me all the time. The relationship was now clear. At first my body rocked with the profundity of the obvious. Amygdale literally translates to “almond shaped”. The Vesica Pisces formation, Holy of Holies, as is the Song of Solomon, or Soul of Man, the sun and the moon. This sacred geometry is the blueprint from which all other geometries spring. AMM-GD-ALA, My God Ala, or AM. OHM, Brahma, God, Allah, the trinity of spiritual belief systems in ONE. There is nothing we should be fighting over on this planet.

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The word “amygdala” (almond”), accurately describes the set of nuclei that neuroscientists refer to as the source of “divine inspiration”. Part of the limbic system, the ancient region of the brain that began to develop in fish over 500,000 years ago and then fully emerged in reptiles (also referred to as the “reptilian” brain) , the amygdala is the only area of the brain that has direct access to external stimuli through the sense of smell via the olfactory. All other brain functions process information from the senses only after it has been “filtered”.

Amygdala; Balance / inbalance; Secrets – truths revealed, symbols etc. – and why now ? Then tie it together with the
last paragraph.

Poor amygdalic functioning has been associated with anxiety, autism, depression, narcolepsy, post-traumatic stress disorder, phobias, and schizophrenia. Lesion studies with monkeys have shown that when the amygdala is impaired before six months of age, individuals have difficulty adapting to social life. This is because the amygdala is necessary not just for experiencing emotions like fear, but also for modeling and quickly recognizing the presence of these emotions in others. Thus a damaged amygdala has become associated with the condition of autism, or social-blindness.

“Magdala– AMYGDALA”

Here I insert some of Margaret Starbird's work on the Magdalene (In my opinion, anyone wishing to know more about Mary Magdalene, must read Starbird's groundbreaking and devotional work.)

At one of Margaret's workshops, she regaled the audience with the story of "153 fish" and the gematria for the Magdalene.

Mary Magdalene presents us the archetype of the "Earthen vessel filled with the Spirit," and her feast day, 22-7 reflects that understanding of her importance.

Now we will do the calculation for the area of the circle with the “7” radius. The formula is “pi” (22/7) times the square of the radius (7 x 7 = 49). 22/7 x 49 is 154. If you use the alternative decimal version of “pi” (3.14) the result 153.86 is even more obviously connected to Mary Magdalene, because the Greek gematria of her title, “H Magdalhnh” actually adds up to 153. So, using principles of sacred geometry in use at the time the Gospels were written, by virtue of her feast day (7/22)
and the gematria of her honorific (153), she is shown to be the “Model” or embodiment of the human person as “sacred partner” of the Divine.

The "153" is highly significant as a symbolic number in the canon of the Greek geometers. It is the denominator of the ratio used to represent the square root of 3 (265/153) and is a numerical abbreviation for the "Vesica Piscis" ()--the "Vessel of the Fish" or "Measure of the Fish." This shape is the shared space when two circles are drawn together so that the edge of one passes through the center of the other." ~See: http://www.margaretstarbird.net/circles_.html

The Blue Rose....Alchemy

[ Insert: by this Blog's Editor: Reference: See works by Paschal Beverly Randolph (October 8, 1825– July 29, 1875) was an American medical doctor, occultist and writer. Randolph is notable as perhaps the first person to introduce the principles of sex magic to North America, and, according to A.E. Waite, establishing the earliest known Rosicrucian United States [1] (from Wikipedia)

I thought his book was called, 'The Rosicrucian Enlightenment,' in which it is told how women eventually do die from the germs associated with sexuality, especially those who are child-raped, and then reapeatedly 'whored' by the so-called 'men' in their lives, who have no intention of taking them seriously, and who cheat them out of real, mature, loving behavior. (Do many men EVER 'mature,' I wonder ?) Child-rape victims are not only physically, and psychically abused, but SOCIALLY ABUSED, not to mention, the bio- and magneto- and SOCIAL Parasiticism, that occurs to those who are child-raped. (What gentleman these days would love a woman enough not to kill her with their togetherness sexually ? Just THINK of those 'politics.') ]

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I have been sharing this information with my students now for several years. In the class I teach called: “Total Sensory Integration” ™ ©

We utilize the skills of Polarity, wonderful healing work by Randolph Stone. We learn to balance of the pairs of opposites. The amygdala being two almond shaped groups of nuclei located within the medial temporal lobes of the brain.

Why is this so important? Let's look at a little Greek mythology.

"Plato wrote in his Symposium that humans have been looking for their soul mate ever since Zeus cut them in half. In his mythic story, Plato describes a world where there were men, women and people who were both men and women. Apparently, humans began discussing how they could climb up to heaven and replace the gods. The gods were upset by this and discussed what should be done. The simplest solution would be to destroy mankind, but Zeus came up with a better idea. He suggested cutting all human beings in half. This would serve two purposes. First, it would immediately double the number of people making offerings to the gods. Second, it would weaken the humans, so they would not be able to carry out their plan. Zeus' idea was accepted, and the humans were all divided into two. Naturally, the humans were upset at this, and Zeus decided to enable each half to have intercourse with their opposite, symbolically creating a whole. Consequently, the males sought their female half, and the females sought their male half, allowing them to reproduce."

I quickly realised that in balancing the pairs of opposites, becoming ONE Whole person unified....also required something called, Embedding,. I found that in my own life, embedding took place in my being, the 'knowing' and IN-sights came from caring, from the open heart. Every time I was given an insight, it was because I CARED AND ASKED FOR ANSWERS.

It was an open heart. It was the greatest of these, it was LOVE.

During another meditation, I saw the earth come spinning at me, while the narration in the background (hers) told me: “and the last shall be first and the first shall be last”...around the earth was written the name; EARTH (Just like the Universal Studio's Logo) and the H at the end spun off and rotated around the earth and became the first letter, now spelling HEART.

Then she said: The original name of earth was actually heart, until the 'key' fell out (here I am shown a triangle) and fear and chaos swept in.

In the gospel of Thomas, Jesus states: Jesus said, Many are standing at the door, but it is the solitary who will enter the bridal chamber. We must enter the BRIDAL CHAMBER? The heart is known to have 4 chambers. Once we enter in Love and service, in reverence, we stoke the flame in our heart - h entering the upper heart chakra which has the same resonance as the Earth. Entrainment.

This opens up the pineal gland or third eye, and yes, the eye becomes singular.

This is the doorway into inner dimensions and the central sun.

We have the two almond halves of the amygdala and the pineal, the trinity of the singular eye piercing through the veil of illusions, the 'key stone' to the Bridal Chamber, holy of holies.

“In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you.” John 14:2

Once one has the 'key', one can enter the Kingdom / Queendom of Heaven.

Jesus said to them, "When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner like the outer and the outer like the inner, and the upper like the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male will not be male nor the female be female, when you make eyes in place of an eye, a hand in place of a hand, a foot in place of a foot, an image in place of an image, then you will enter [the kingdom].

During these times, it is important for us to balance the pairs of opposites to navigate through our entrance into the age of Aquarius, the age of the return of the fisher king, the return of the Magdalene and the divine feminine.

The Magdalene is known as the patron saint of Alchemist's. The Baine Marie is named after Her.

Our limbic system, is the alembic to distill our base materia into alchemical Gold. I'm a genie in a bottle, baby. Look to the Tarot card, 'The Star' to see the alchemist of the Aquarian Age, queen Magdalene in her distillation process of turning us into 'angels of man', on the fixed cross

Next: The Astrology of the Ages

Vesica Pisces

Editor's Note: It is my belief, that it is the stories themselves in spiritual traditions which were important, not any one particular belief or faith. All traditions teach us how to access our highest self. <3

The Holy Grail

My Comments For This Post Given to Me, 7.22.10, Thursday:

1) Kim: It is a blessing you gave this to me, Gloria. These are completely, ALL the major NUMBERS in and of, my own life, that have been completely and totally torn asunder, in TOTAL. All of their natural progression has been Usurped & Destroyed, for theft, selfishness and Use. I cannot Care-y the 'inhumanes' who have done this, since they are using the energy as a 'commodity,' in total oblivion, disrespect, and thoughtlessness of the One, in All.

2) Kim: The Catholic Church are voracious, vicious killers,
in fact, murderers, of the 'sacred' for their Use, dissemination, and excuses to Continue in the Same manner. Why shouldn't One do ALL the suffering for mankind's misperceptions, and outright misbehaviors at the 'top.' Shall we call it that ?

3) Kim: My choices have been Only: 'enforced suicide,' or 'murder.' And that is STILL, all I have right now, amidst the 'powers that be.'

Gloria's Reply:

Kim, you are welcome and very glad to hear that you feel it was a blessing. As for the church, well they are an interesting breed, especially with those pretty red leather shoes and I agree that it is criminal to have hidden the truth of the divine feminine to create such a state of imbalance on planet earth and in us. I don't think all are criminal, I don't think they even know themselves. I am not sure what you mean about suicide...not liking the sound of that at all. Blessings to you Kim, I hope all is well with you. ♥

4) Kim: Yeah, 'In' ME, my body, with their criminal 'guenevere' Fin-ger, german, germs, and I'm dying from it, their 'fin-ger-NAIL,' of a demon-dyke 'guenevere' look-alike, when I was only age '3' (for 3rd dimension), with nothing but hatred from ALL of their 'doctors.' The Pope visited me today, again, glaring me down, and me glaring back... 'Family' that are Stupid, and Care Not. All of them are criminal Pedophiles, and That is how they look for 'proof' of 'god,' with Murder, By The Numbers, NO LESS... (And they make SURE it can't be heard, and is swept under the 'car-pet.' Talk about 'oil,'... They know Exactly what they are doing.) ;(

Gloria: Are you ok?

July 22 at 6:57pm

5) Kim: No Gloria, I'm NOT OK... They are enforcing my murder-suicide because they won't pull my 17 teeth left, complication from Life-long Graves Disease, caused by child-rape, (Pituitary Trauma, causing HYPER-Thyroid), of which they have been letting me die for 10 long years, even after treatment, the rotting teeth, now poisoning my blood, and infecting my vital organs. I visited the DDS for 3 roots-left-only, yesterday, and the 'music' made her put me off for 2 more weeks of pain and penicillin, after 2 1/2 years of trying to find and get help for the teeth. I'm in so much pain, I can't leave my room. The Pope is NOT 'spiritual,' he is ONLY Psychic, and an imbecile of torture, at that. [He's so stupid, he put 'W' in my face 6 months ago, showing me why his nickname is 'W,' because he can commit infanticide with a 'flick of his 'Wrist.' I was horrified... And 'W' is one of the few 'gentlemen' they've got, but ALL of them are So In-The-Box Stupid, FOR MONEY & 'Power' that is Stolen via their Murders and Rapes of Babes, over CENTURIES of 'blood-line' fighting, and cross-breeding. (I'm a real 'throw-back,' much to their ignorance & even chagrin, being born under the 4 Equal Side 'numbers' of the Great Pyramid, (756.2 cubits each side,) & pointing to the 'Jesus Star,' (! ! !) as I was, and WHY they raped me with 'Guenevere's' 'fin-ger,' to avoid blame for WWII... when I, as 'Amelia,' was already 'dead' for the whole of WWII. AND THAT I HAVE FOUND ALL THIS OUT, as a result of 2 solid years of searching for answers as to Why they would rape me, such a good soul, and doing SO MUCH WORK FOR EARTH 2012 transitions, magnetically, and psychically, that has taken ALL my time, energy, effort, with no pay or recognition AT ALL from any of 'them,' except compassionless hatred, and insistence they have a 'right' to murder me alive, without any remorse, or restitution.

I've had to put up with Psychic HORRORS from them ALL. It's been UN-Believable. Them, (dark 'pope,' light 'pope,' Donald Trump, 'W,' Dick Cheney, Obama stealing my sacred prayer with Rainbow Serpent 2 weeks ago, ETC. It's been nothing short of Satanic. Them, NOT KNOWING wtf I am, a gold-space ship, that they want to stick their 'finger' in, plunder, and I flew off, 10 miles into 'space' to prevent their thieving, grasping, finger in me... This has been going on with them and me solidly since they 'elected' the current pope, presidents, ON ME, via 'sex magic' 'dick' via their 'fin-ger voodoo,' for me consciously, since 1992. No one CAN, or IS helping me... And no one KNOWS, But Me... There's the rub. How many lifetimes must I suffer and die for their PARTY ? ? ? ? ? ? ? Control, and NON-Benevolence ? I CAN NOT CARE-Y Them. They must Change. I have no resources. I have no recourses, but to endlessly do the spiritual / material / universal balances and corrections FOR THEM, where they REFUSE. They crucify the 'sacred' on a daily basis, and HIDE THE FACTS that they are using our souls for their False 'Power', 'Control,' & Especially, their Materialities. I apologize to U, Gloria, for spilling these True, but Awful 'Truths'. [I am their 'gladiator,' and Russell (he looks like my own brother, and we are quite alike in similar predicament with this 'Church' of Hell, depicted in 'Gladiator,') helped me as much as he could, yesterday. The 'light' Pope, 'family' tho' he may be, is still a rapist of his own 'daughter' with a demon-dyke, so they can continue their False World Bloodline Rulers...). But they are MANY, and they are such evil stupidity, that I am unable to cope, on a daily basis, much less face coming back here to Earth to work for them, in endless rape and sorrow, ever again.] ;((

Gloria replied:

Kim,
I am so sorry to hear that you must suffer through all this.
This may not mean much, but we are eternal beings and this is a 'flash' of time, this life we all have.

I agree, the pope is evil, there is no question in my mind.
I pretty much agree with most of what you said, but will have to reread this when I have more time to think.
AS it is, I am late for an appointment already and must run.
I will pray for you.

There is the light, the truth and the WAY, it has been obfuscated and diluted and far, far worse to be sure.
Until I can return to read this,
I send healing/reiki energy to you.
Blessings
glow

July 22 at 7:44pm

6) Kim said: He is 'Ben' as our father, (my Nephew, 'Ben,' by my father-brother 'Bruce-Wayne' in real life), are BOTH Catholic 'Ben' & Federal Ban-'K' Jewish 'Ben,' not realizing they are killing their own daughter and son, ALIVE... over ALL these centuries of fighting over 'bloodlines,' and because dad's ambitious, forced to be so, amidst all of them, has forgotten himself in these 3500 years of Ambition, and is himself, in their Illuminati Games of 'survival of the inner-circle,' while they rape the 'Magdalene' to Mars, Saturn, & Neptune... and don't EVER clue her in, NOT EVER. (Over the 3500 years since my enforced murder-suicide in ancient Japan, and from which, in this life, I have re-met the same 3 souls who enforced it then, now full-on ass-covering Catholics, and raping me INTO the Catholic Church now, after 2,000 years of keeping me OUT of it. And YET, they are STILL my murderers ? ? ? ? The male of the 3 souls (the other 2 are female), is 'The 7th Son of the 7th Sun', Lou Reed AS Louis Carroll (!) 'Alice-Guenevere,' (while I kick her rapists out of the Sun FOR HER ! Do you think she could ever do me the same favor ? ?) AND Buckingham-Nix, AND 'The Buckingham's,' ALL as Bart Buchalter, back-stabber to my whole adult life...) Do you think they did not spend the last 2,000 years STEALING the ease toward 4th Dimension from 3rd, and BEYOND from Mankind on Earth, and without Heart ? ? ? And are NOW CONTINUING IT by murdering, and genociding me AGAIN ? ? ?

'Dad' is enjoying himself with his own daughter's 'grail bloodline' 3500 year old murderers, who laugh at us, and care not one single iota for our suffering, and ALL are in TOTAL CONFUSION, while 'partying' on our souls very WORK, and LYING TO US, confusing us on purpose, and shoving us into a hell-hole to work for them FOR HOW MANY LIFETIMES TO
COME ? ? ?

Thanks for the u-nderstanding, Gloria. It's taken me 51 years to figure out why they tore Tibet asunder, with my Rape, and then force me to sit here doing 'magnetic monk' for them, husband-less, child-less, mother-less, father is an Imbecile-Murderer, who does not know himself, doesn't WANT to, 'can't know himself,' and all my 'friends' look like, and stupidly, insensitively, unthinkingly, ACT like various versions of my child-abuser. Then, this Pope told the Dalai Lama it was MY fault, in their soul-trading, child-RAPING Dyke-Fin-ger LIES, when I was personally BORN looking 'Chinese' and DOING the Flower of LIFE for myself: 1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness,
3) Benevolence, 4) Equality with all of Life = Justice, 5) Courtesy, WHICH THEY NEVER DO. 'Bart' currently, wants ME to personally PAY for ALL the past 3500 years of Asian History, TOO. (So he can keep his position with Sirius, and other connections. Do you think he will EVER stop stabbing me in the back ? ? ? I don't think he even COULD STOP. He certainly won't stop his black & white 'Milky Way' Ownership of the Great Central Sun, with Demon Cabriolet-Taxi's, who don't want 'taxes,' while we have NOTHING, and they have EVERYTHING, because they raped and murdered us...

And no one is stopping him, or her. And I don't have any strength or even social understanding to stop him. He's a USER, all by the numbers, no feelings at all, and constantly stealing 'love and 'sexuality' from me, with nothing BUT endless hatred, and non-tolerance for MY preferences, which I am not allowed, and can't even FIND in this enforced genocide of myself, my fellows and our resonant frequencies they are stealing, and murdering from us...)

How can I care-y them, when even the simplest word, 'sincerity' makes no SENSE to any of them, Especially NOT BMW 735, silver Alfa Romeo, turned Z3-4 Bart, and Especially not Dumb 'Dad,' who's so self-important, so deeply ensconced in ALL directions of this EVIL, that he's got himself into enough confounding trouble that he wants ME to Explain 'Satan' Bart, to all 'gods' in the sky, and Sirius, who are the result of this 3500 & 26,000 year old murder of me, BY Bart, who conveniently, 'doesn't remember' ? Yeah, and I'm supposed to argue all 'Ben's' cases, in 'heaven,' while Bart & unwitting Dad and Brother, let 'mother / babysitter - strangers' stab me in the u-know-what, with 'Guenevere' on Earth... And ALL of these 'Races / Blood-lines' FIGHT over WHO can ENSLAVE &/or OWN, the REAL Blood of the Magdalene on Earth, YET HIDE THE FACT, even from the Real Magdalene Blood that they are Usurping and USING for Wars, Weather, Politics, and everything inbetween... I'm sorry too... ;/ k.

Kim said: For the Record: I did NOT come into this incarnation, all the way from 8th Dimension, and 3500 years of work, that is now resulting in repeated confusion and clean-up, for me, and everyone else from here to Sirius & Andromeda, NOT TO tell the whole TRUTH, stop my own suffering, and that of Earth's, and be finished with it ALL, IN ONE LIFETIME. I've had enough of my personal enslavement, and torture and murder, and enforced suicide, absolute horror, without any compassion or feelings of Love toward me from anyone in my life. I did NOT spend 51 years retracing 26,000 years, NOT to FINISH THIS Evil, Hateful, Story of Falsity among humans, IN TRUTH, Once and For All TIME, and in All of my own 'dimensions.' I've had ENOUGH of the misbehavior of this planet, toward itself, and toward me, that IS affecting everywhere and ALL 'Dimensions' of Peace, with hateful non-doing of their OWN WORKS, and raping it from others INSTEAD, to 'advance' themselves where they have not earned. I have been ILL with FEVER from this infection of these '17' teeth, with NO HELP, NO CARE, and NO CONCERN, NO Finances OR resources, and nearly unable to even THINK, due to ALL THE PSYCHIC INTERFERENCE IN MY LIFE FROM THE 'Powers That Be.' They are daily threatening me with homelessness, as I write THIS. It has been a Horror, BEYOND my WILDEST DREAMS, a Repetition of a 3500 year old enforced murder-suicide. When WILL IT END ? When will the FALSE 'his-her-story' and the rape-murders & endless inhuman(e) wars OVER, & among 'blood-lines' and 'importance' without reverence at all for anyone, or Earth, END ?

Sincerely yours, kim (embarrased beyond BELIEF, but telling the truth, ANYWAY...)

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Funny Names For Duat / Dwat / Bardo Monsters Who Are Part of God-Self :)

2010-06-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

Or, laughing at who's not who ! ar-ar-ar-ar-ar :)

Shut-up ! NOW ! infinite monsters :) lol ! How dare you think so highly of yourselves ! I've no time to give for these lying, magnetic abherrancies ! You are absolutely abhorrent to yourselves and me, you liars and thieves... :) What's sa matta u ? Lost your vocabulary ? Bring IT, you sssssslithering filth... We'll see who's got the kinder snake...

One is BOTH feminine and masculine... Why ? Were you planning to steal one ?

Huh ! How pretty ! :) Stay just where you are ! I'll keep my ground, too ! No more fuzzy, soft, white lights... I don't NEED another 'life' ! hmmf-hmmf :))

Big-Black-Hole-Eyed Hairless Monster, lol ! Here's some flyin' gold-needle-lights for your big-black-lightless-selfish-psychotic-eyes... Heyyyy, you can see the light now ! :)

Brass-Knuckles upside Both Your Jaw-Bone-Cheeks, You Hapless, Godless, Faithless, Freak ! :)

Keep Your Fingers To Yourself, YOU THIEF ! :) Hey, Need a Nail-File ? lol, lol, lol :)

Earth ? It's full of liars, who forgot how to tell themselves the truth and face it, and forgot how to be kind to one another...

Knock, knock ! WHO'S THERE ? Bigger Love Than You, my Friend...

I may be you, but you are definitely not me ! hmf-hmf-hmf, hmf-hmf-hmf... Too bad... Strike at will... :)

OHHHHH ~ aNother, disHonorable, neEdy, infinite taker-raper and not to mention LIAR ! What ? You were tryin' to think ? I'm tired of waitin' already !

~ curly: from larry, moe & curly :))

Fearless, Fearless, Unconditional LOVE ! Now, THAT'S MY kind of 'god' ! :)

Hi, Funny ! lol :))

3D: I don't need your psychopathic physicalities and confused social imbalances anymore. Don't call me... I'll call you... ;/

One doesn't mind being alone... Just gets a little lonely, sometimes... Better than an hellish, ignorant, CROWD ! And a lot quieter, too. :) Ah, real truth and oneness: INTERNALLY. Fine by me, light-stones so big, extending on forever, definitely not 'mo' better, just more peaceful...

One's finished proving somethin' to nothin' ! Go find yourself some other patsy, IF YOU CAN ! Ah'm just fiiiiine and happy... let 'em blow themselves to smithereens, nazi queens... hmp-hmp-hmp-hmp-hmp... one day they may find they've awakened... but then, one day, may NEVER come to them, hell-bent on blame, and infinite cruelty... They Don't Need One... And One, DOES NOT, need them... ;/

One sees simple joys: flowers, dragonflies, and honorable, royal lions who don't bite, and who are not cowardly, floating waves, in both directions, peace symbols up and down, figures of 8 and infinities going on forever, reptile skins, orwellian, rectanglian glasses that never SEE enough to become tolerant and loving of self, and toward other as best one can, tolerant of feelings, instead of misperceptions, and destructions... One no longer needs to see 'tangles' that One must untangle, for these imbeciles, who put their own shoes on One's feet, any more... One will NEVER FORCE ONE... if One has no loving freedom, and gives none... 'Orwellian's' don't need their glasses, nor black-hole eyes, if they still can't see through to tolerances toward all with non-harms, anyway... Remove One from Earth FOREVER... Her people have been so unpleasant and so intolerant, for so long, they've lost their way... One will always remember her real nature, and nurture, to one, with love; she's always in One's heart. Life and Love are Forever. >|<

Thanks to Andrew Monkman, on Facebook, for his wonderful depiction / drawing of an extended 'Flower' of Eternal Life: You & Your Preferences, DO MATTER. They are the Love you were created with. Let it BE.. And do not interfere with another's self-love seeking, when you know you are... It's pretty simple... Look for the good in yourself, see the good outside yourself, do the good within, and out, as best you can. Love who and what you love, and walk away from what does not love you back... :~)

One can utilize this for Contemplation / Meditation, and utilize the 'mind' to scoop it transparently through all 3D objects, (solids, liquids, gases), and beyond, Orbs / Planets / Stars, or places on the Earth, for healing them. :) Place Bright Chakra Colors in this Flower Of Life for any specific uses. (Thanks Andy Monk for this wonder-filled drawing ! :)

all my thanks go to my friends at facebook, blessings to all of you, and your preferences, for you.

~lotusalivelight

The Emerald Tablets of Thoth

2010-06-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

Why I'm ASHAMED TO BE ON EARTH !

2010-05-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

May 14, 2010, Friday

Alright, I've Had ENOUGH

of Being USED
by the Nazi Regime

of Child-Rapers

AND
POLITIC WORLD DISORDER

Let it be said for the RECORD, that I despise the CATHOLIC CHURCH OF NAZI SEX-MARAUDER RAPISTS FOR THEIR WORLD POLITICS OF RAPE AND MURDER.... I am so sick of this life of BULLSHIT, of mine that has become WORLDWIDE PROBLEMS, and THROWN ON MY BACK, and all the rotten Political AND Social HORRORS, including my murder alive, that has been going on with regard to me: A Mother (J-Belligerent-BullShit-Scorpion-Janet-J-fucked-K, kim, me, with a 'bang-finger' jfk, FILTH, killing me with him...), who rapes her daughter with a 'stranger-at-MY HOME, demon-dyke finger' causing ME to be forced to face the 'karma' of the abuser, instead of my OWN, and a Father and Brother who none-the-wiser, carry on their Bruce-Wayne-Robin-Ben (my families NAMES) lives, while spending 50 years unknowingly raping their own family member ALIVE, to DEATH, in denial and FALSE HIS-HER-STORY; a brother and father, who continually rape their own daughter & sister, FOR External / Material POWER, stolen from INTERNAL 'Power' that has simply CHOSEN to align with Creation, NOT Destruction, and who CARE NOT, 'SEE' not, that they are doing this: (Satan's LIES AND RAPE are represented in my life by ALL German & Italian Cars, & ALL 'Foreign' Cars, especially, SAAB-Social-As-pen-penis-social-rape after the 1996 failed Election, in my life), and the effects of the child-rape that started it. I am FINALLY here, now telling ALL OF YOU the CRAP that has gone on with regard to me, AND that has caused TONS OF WORLD PROBLEMS TO BECOME SO BLATENTLY APPARENT TO ME, so that perhaps there is the hope, that one shining non-world-order-day, it will become apparent to YOU, enough so that YOU can help me STOP IT, ALL OF IT, with your Honor (Honesty), Care (Benevolence toward all of Life, in Balance & Wisdom, NON-USURPMENT), and your Trust that doing these things brings LIKE RESPONSE from Nature, the Universe ITSELF. Your RESPECT OF ONE ANOTHER'S LOVES, and LIVES, and YOUR NON-FOLLOWING OF BABY-RAPE REGIMES, of theft of personal soul and LIFE-ENERGY, REAL LIFE-ENERGY, MAGNETICS, that NONE OF US CAN SEE, BUT THAT IS THERE WITH ALL OF 'Creation' as we experience it in 3D, IS REQUIRED, to stop harming YOURSELVES.

I'VE HAD MORE THAN ENOUGH OF THIS DISHONEST BULLSHIT ON MY BACK WITH THIS GENERATION OF INHUMANE BEINGS, TO LAST ME A THOUSAND LIFETIMES...

Over the past year alone, I've been forced to deal with the following personalities PSY-KICK-LEE (psychically):::::: The current 'Ben' Pope, (both the White 'Light' and 'Dark' Popes), Donald Trump, Ben Bernake, 'W': George W. Bush, Dick Cheney, Tom Hanks, Russell Crowe, (and his wife who looks and behaves like my child-abuser 'female'...and Russell himself, who looks like my little brother...), Andy Garcia, Andie MacDowell, (two twittering canaries, that they are...), Gwyneth Paltrow, (pirhana chewing on my FACE), Kevin Spacey, Viggo Mortensen, NASA, The Moon, The Sun... and this is, not to mention, my mother, the chief of police who brought her, and my own two lovers, who have caused catastrophies with their mis-perception of ME, and infidelity toward me WITH that misperception, that was caused BY the INFIDEL of their own DISHONESTY TO BEGIN WITH (!): 1) the Iraq War, with his infidelity to me, and the other lover who caused BOTH the 2) T-SUE-U-NAME-I (Bart's-crap), and 3) Her-Rich-Rick-Anus Hurricanes, with HIS infidelity to me, AND HIS GIRLFRIEND, the horror IDIOT bitch, as well, and ALL COMING FROM THE SUN, Sun Valley Corporation, and Sinclair Oil, a problem that began for me in 1992. {Do the 'St. Clair / Sinclair's' SOUND FAMILIAR TO ANY OF YOU TEMPLAR 'Scot' FANS ???} And none of YOU seem to be TALKING, and TRUTH-SAYING, which is what the Sirius-Rising Blue Throat Chakra IS FOR ! ! ! ! ! ! WHY THE FUCK NOT ? ? ? HOW COME IT ONLY FALLS UPON ME, TO TALK TRUTH ? ? ? Could it be because NO ONE is doing TRUTH to Belligerence, because they don't want to give up their positions, to REAL TRUTH ?
That seems to be the TRUTH.

And it's been SO FREAKING BUSY, that I don't even remember if that is ALL who have visited me PSYCHICALLY OVER THE PAST YEAR. (I will correct this, if I remember any more.) It's NOT FUNNY, and I'M REALLY ANGRY ABOUT IT... MY MURDER ALIVE, AND NO ONE STOPPING IT, YOU IGNORANT, LOW-LIFE, FILTH ON EARTH, who allow lies, live in lies, and with lies, and who do not protect the weak, that thereby causes YOU to receive unseen, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, and TOLERANCE, because you have GIVEN IT = 'Power.' That kind of 'power' is UNIVERSAL... ALL LIES, lead to social and physical aberrations IN 3D, and that's just physical LAW.

(My 1st Nephew is 'Ben,' and my 2nd Nephew is 'Jack,' by my brother, Wayne. I have no husband, and no children, thanks to child-rape.)

It is the result of my child-rape that has caused these occurrences in my life, and for NO GOOD REASON, other than I have psychic abilities to kick satans hordes out of the Sun, and did so last week, kicked out one of his rapist demons on a gold throne OUT, anyway... And he 'FELL' to earth, boo-ga-looing, like an ancient Mayan Tribal murderer... It was a joke that I should HAVE TO DO THIS FOR OTHERS, when these are NOT MY OWN DEMONS ! ! ! ! But he's 'baaack' as the Satanic FORD CORPORATION, as the Catholic Church. Who else would own the Tesla Patents, except FORD, the magnetic, Catholic Church of 2000 years of Patriarchal baby-fuckers...

Unfortunately, it SMACKS of the filthiest of SEXUAL MARAUDERS AND LIAR, TRICKSTER, SEDUCING RAPISTS, AND LIAR BACK-STABBERS, WHO HAVE NO HONOR, AND NEVER HAVE HAD ANY HONOR, THE CATHOLIC CHURCH, who DO BROADCAST THE RAPE OF SOULS, and incredulously, almost all the people in the world are 'FOLLOWING' THIS RAPING MURDER OF THE GOOD, BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO, for Money and mere Survival ! ! ! The Rapes and Murders ARE MAGNETIC, AND SO IS THEIR BROAD-CASTING, AND SO IS THE EARTH, GET IT ? ? ? And ALL OF YOU FOLLOW THEIR NAZI BOX OF THIS ENDLESS RAPE &

FALSE HIS-HER-STORY, FALSE 'LEADERSHIP' & GENOCIDE & MURDER ! ! ! Call it whatever you will... blame, retribution, IT'S ALL FALSE, AND YOU ARE KISSING SATAN'S ASS FOR ANOTHER ROUND OF HAVING TO PAY SATAN BACK. If you don't think it's true, you're fooling yourselves, YOU IDIOTS. And you ALL better knock it off, and start trusting and caring about ALL of one another, ON YOUR HONOR, and NOT ON SOME NAZI BOX-FOLLOWING RAPE AND MURDER, OF BABES NO LESS ! ! ! GET IT ??? [I hate this earth of complete and total MESS, and THAT is NOT LIKE ME, AT ALL. I was WAYYYY too advanced, joyous in my work, AND in self-made FREEDOM, for the Demon Rapist Filth on this planet...] And all of who I was, was made jealous of, rather than EMULATED. All joys are PERSONAL. 'God', the Universe and beyond, IS PERSONAL. If you steal from it, the Law of 'Equal and Opposite Reaction' results eventually, and inexorably from your own ACTIONS. Treat it all with Respect, as best you can, then you begin to understand what Respect IS, as 'IT' comes BACK... UNSEEN... AND GREATER... Always relinquish your love to the greater physics of the Universe... Doing that is humility to Unconditional Love, or 'god.' It will NEVER HURT YOU, if you are TRUE.

I couldn't possibly even BEGIN to FOLLOW the satanic-360-degrees of FINGER-DYKE NAZI RAPE, PANDAMONIUM OF IGNORANCE, and it's subsequent BROAD-CAST murder THAT HAS BEEN HANDED TO ME BY ALL OF YOU WHO DO FOLLOW THEIR CRAP... AND KISS SATAN'S ASS... DO YOU THINK YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO PAY HIM BACK ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? AGAIN ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

I tried once to 'follow' the 'lead' but it ENSLAVED ME TO WORK FOR IT, THE LESSER, and ALL I EVER GOT FROM IT FOR THE PAST 22 YEARS, SINCE the 1987 'Harmonic Convergence' I MIGHT ADD, IS RAPE AND LIES, AND PEN-IN-K-WRITE IT DOWN, ITALIAN- J-Jesus-James-Joseph-Jew-Janet (my mother's name) as the WHOLE CONSTELLATION OF SCORPIO, clean up our mess for us with your Chinese Taoist Works and Karma, ENFORCEMENT OF SAME with - BillVeeck-PeterVeeck-WillVeeck-Ellen-ChuckVeeck-CharlesChase & WilliamMerrittChase (a teacher to Georgia O'Keefe, and who has a painting in the White House, no less, -ChuckCherryDianeDianaWoodson-HelenChuckReevis-HelenDickTonnemaker-DickAnderson-Tony-Michael-LauraLaNasa-Donna 'Rice' INCEST FILTHY DYKES of the CATHOLIC theft of MY WEDDING, TRUE LOVES, AND WHOLE LIFE, with nothing but CATHOLIC RAPING MURDERERS, who BROADCAST IT, and LIE ABOUT IT, and then, rape me with Saab-Social murder and theft of my WHOLE LIFE as 'ZERO,' by satan-BartBuchalter-Andrew-As-pen-penis-ViggoDen-MarkLaw-Social-RUIN, of not only MY LIFE, BUT THE WHOLE WORLD, WITH ME. Bart look-alikes are EVERYWHERE (V-isa) THAT I GO. HE FOLLOWS ME AND BACK-STABS ME, EVERYWHERE. CAN YOU SEE THESE NAMES REFERRING TO WHAT 'SATAN's' WANT ? ? ? (RICH-($), DICK-(sex), and then the (BILL-(For Satan's PARTY,) no less, am I, and YOU PAYING, with 'Fart-wind' Dick-Daley-Daily Chicago-Endless-MAFIA'S of corruption, to boot, and ON ME, of ALL PEOPLE.) How do you like the Helen-Diana FINGER-DYKE-CULT, SO FAR ? ? ?
Everywhere I go, my child-abuser accuses me of her own SINS, which DON'T EVEN REGISTER WITH ME, BECAUSE I DO NOT THINK OF DOING THOSE
THINGS ! Case in point: It has taken me 50 YEARS to figure OUT THESE EVILS, and THEFT of my goodness, for their 'materiality,' power that is NO POWER by degradation, of themselves and ME, and the Universe of unconditional love, ITSELF.

THIS IS CRAP, AND COMPLETELY UNJUST, that I have been raped and lied to repeatedly, by the lowest of the low of imbecile 'women' on this planet. And ALL OF YOU NEED the INFORMATION, but nothing CHANGES MY PLIGHT, shall we call it THAT ? ? ? Nor, does anything ever turn my unconditional love, back into LOVE for myself, and toward all other human(e)s... AND I have been forced to WASTE MY WHOLE ADULT LIFE ON THIS BLOODY BULLSHIT ????????? FUCK YOU ALL YOUR HARD-HEARTED, BELLIGERENT, IGNORANT, STUPIDITY...

I HATE THIS EARTH, AND ALL OF YOU WHO PLAY THEIR STUPID GAME WITH THEM, THE SATANIC CATHOLIC CHURCH OF NAZI HELL ON EARTH. Many of you don't even realize, or CARE that you are helping them to murder ALL OF US, by following them, their FILTH AND STUPIDITY that RAISES SATAN ON HIGH, that has caused ALL OF US to reincarnate with troubles NOT OF OUR OWN MAKING. This Regime kisses Satan's-ruling ASSHOLE, just like you are helping them to do... Bart-Mark-Law-Finger, IS the satan who is putting 'leaders' in 'power' with the child-rape-theft of my own soul by FIN-GER, (German ass-covering), and I and TIBET, have been MURDERED BY BART-MARK-LAW-DYKE-FINGER 360 degrees of 'world dis-order' SINCE 1959, when I was aged 3, and raped FOR their '3D'... control...

First of all, the Catholic Church and their current Nazi Regime, who are STILL RAPING ALL OF US on this Planet, accessed MY soul with child-rape by a 'female,' if you could call her that, and a VICIOUS DEMON she was, when I was age '3'... [signifying 3rd Dimension Physicality, and the up-nose triangle of 3D EQUALITY...] But then the question for me became, EQUALITY WITH WHAT ? [Rape can NEVER cause 'Equality'...]

The Answers have been horrifying to me physically, psychically, and IN TRUTH, nothing short of exposing the Nazi Regime of Soul-Stealers for WHAT IT IS: A never-ending, reincarnating, raping-blaming-hell-on-EARTH, and in the WHOLE UNIVERSE, because one-bad-apple-DOES-spoil the whole BUNCH. Not protecting babes, begets MONSTERS...

Is this what all you egomaniacs WANT ? I don't. And I won't be back to help you, again, EVER... Not if I can help it. I took on the problems of the world, as it was my nature to do. And for it, I have received nothing but ENDLESS SATANIC HORROR. And I'm really angry at all of you who think your shit doesn't stink and it is your right to behave in a nazi-box-following manner of IMBECILES, who have no honor, and no brains, no heart and no care, at all, and laugh at same.

I found out this past year, that my birth date is the SAME NUMBERS as EACH SIDE OF THE GREAT PYRAMID, 756.2 cubits, and THAT was a HUGE piece of the puzzle for me, as to WHY I was being forced to be involved with the 'Illuminati' psychically, at the TOP LEVELS, PAPAL TWELVE, FEDERAL BANK, PRESIDENTS, and EVEN SATAN HIMSELF... regarding things that I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ! ! ! And FULL OF 'Hollywood STARS' TO BOOT...

Naming 'Satan' has been done here, but no one can catch him... He's in too, too deep, and at the SUN, where he's made all his problems MINE, so that everyone blames ME, NOT HIM... and who IS the real nazi of Earth, who back-stabs me with 'Panama' finger-mommy, and Rhett, my first sex, Gone With The Wind, NAZI'S, and Rhett was GREEK, on top of it all, and he was the Paul Simon Song, "If I was the President," in Birmingham, Alabama, and Panama City, Florida.

Do you believe in the FEMALE GRAIL, being raped by SATAN, 7th SON OF THE 7th SUN, NOW ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

YOU FUCKING IMBECILES.

See, 'Satan' WANTS TO BE BABY-SAT, and have a BABY-SITTER FOREVER, so 'he/she' can be free to do ALL THE EVIL AND LIES AND STEALING THAT THEY WANT TO DO, UNIVERSE-WIDE, instead of the WORKS required FOR THEMSELVES.

SO, THEY RAPED ME WITH MY BABY-SITTERS: Donna Rice, Todd Keys, Linda Foley (who committed suicide by stabbing herself on a San Francisco Street when she was about age 20, and I was 18), Cindy Cole who got in trouble at age 16 for 'phoney phone-calls' and harassing my parents' Real Estate Agent neighbor family, which I NEVER KNEW WHY SHE DID THAT ! ! ! And I told her it was MEAN of her to be doing that. But I AM THE ONE WHO HAS BEEN FORCED TO PAY FOR CINDY COLE'S BAD BEHAVIOR, toward the 'Richard (Dick) Tipton' family, who was my classmate, (his elder brothers were Cindy's classmates), and when I was finally telling my friends at school about Cindy's bad behavior, Richard over-heard me, and I did not know him well enough to tell him directly, and so I was BLAMED for not telling on Cindy to my parents sooner. I had NO IDEA CINDY HAD GONE SO FAR AS TO SEND THEM A WHOLE SHOE-BOX FULL OF PHONEY-LETTERS... It HAS BEEN A COMPLETE NIGHTMARE OF ENFORCED 'WRITING MY LIFE IN DIFFERENT NAMED IN-K DKYE-RAPE-FINGER-DICK-PENIS-PENS, because of searching for these ANSWERS as to WHY there is no JUSTICE FOR THE INNOCENT, ONLY FOR DESTROYERS OF INNOCENCE.

Even now, I take care of someone who is mostly my own dad's energy, but within him is ALSO, my DEMONIC-CHILD-RAPIST-dyke-ignorance-of-a-soul, and he also contains my own mother's energy, and my little brother too.   HOW COULD THAT BE ? ? ? WHEN HE IS 20 YEARS MY SENIOR ? ? ?   AND NO BLOOD-RELATION TO ME, UNLESS THE SATAN CHURCH OF BLOOD-LINES HAS BEEN DOING THIS MANIPULATION of putting Satanic Imbeciles, in bed with whomever they can trash, who is of the 'good,' and reverberating upon ALL OF OUR SOULS, AND WITHOUT LOVE, GENETICALLY, SPEAKING, FOR CENTURIES, AND MAKING ALL OF US PAY SATAN'S WAY, WHEN ALL ARE SATAN FOR LETTING THIS GO ON ? ? ? ? ! ! ! !
WHY IS THE CHILD THE ONE WHO HAS TO TELL ON THE 'BABY-SITTERS' ? ? ? AND STILL, FOR A LIFE-TIME, NONE OF IT EVER GETS ALLEVIATED,
NOR IS JUSTICE TO THE INNOCENT EVER
ACCOMPLISHED ? ? ? And in fact, the Innocent are made to look as if they are guilty for HAVING FEELINGS, and for DOING WHAT IS JUST ? ? ? Not to mention, are we completely torn asunder with EMBARRASSMENT AT EXPOSING THESE FILTHY LIAR RAPISTS. FUCK THIS SHIT.

I AM NOT GOING TO 'BABY-SIT' THESE SATAN RAPIST FUCKS, ANY MORE.

WHAT A HORROR THIS EARTH HAS BEEN FOR ME. AND I DO BLAME ALL OF YOU CATHOLIC IMBECILES FOR THIS WORLD OF SATANIC BABY-RAPE, BROADCAST-FOLLOWING FILTH. AND ANYONE ELSE WHO FOLLOWS, is only pandering to the LIFE-stealing, SOUL-stealing-AND-broadcasting RAPISTS OF THIS PLANET. You're IDIOTS, and you think it's okay to be so. It's INCREDIBLE.

I'm ASHAMED OF YOU ALL FOR LETTING YOURSELVES BE FORCED INTO FOLLOWING ANYTHING. AND NOT LIVING UPON YOUR OWN HONOR TO ONE ANOTHER. WHAT HONOR ? THERE ISN'T ANY ON THIS EARTH... I've LOOKED FOR IT, and never found it. Except in a VERY FEW. HAVE MANY OF YOU HAD THE KINDNESS TO BE HONORABLE AND HONEST WITH ME ? HARDLY ANY.

In ALL of my re-incarnations on Earth, I have NEVER been any part of the Catholic scenario, AND was even KEPT AWAY from their scenario BY THEM ON
PURPOSE ! ! NOW, I KNOW WHY... Portions of the 'Holy Grail' DO EXIST IN HUMAN FORM. WE DO NOTHING BUT THE GOOD, and PSYCHICALLY, which is what the Catholic Church KNOWS about us, our UNCONDITIONAL LOVE TOWARD EARTH, makes us work FOR THEM, psychically removing 'evils'... But it does not last for long, because no one is HELPING US... IT IS NOT OUR NATURE TO BE DESTROYERS, OF ANYTHING, OR ANYONE, EVER, AT ALL.. But the stakes have been so high in this incarnation for THEM, that for me, it has been nothing short of HELL to do all their work FOR THEM, ESPECIALLY ME being FORCED to work for my sexual-back-stabber, BART, and his Catholic HORDE, THE PIGS. And COMPLETELY UNTRUSTWORTHY FEELINGS THIEVES, who make no feelings, no love, and STEAL IT FROM THOSE OF US WHO DO MAKE FEELINGS, and who DO CARE, AND WHO DO LOVE.

EVERYTHING THE ACTUAL GRAIL-BLOOD DOES ON EARTH IS FOR THE GOOD. THAT is NOT SO of the Catholic Church of Child-Rapers, who have done THIS particular evil for so long, they do not CARE WHAT they have become, and THIS LIFETIME HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT A PURE HELL FOR ME, and the CHURCH IS CAUSING THIS HELL ON THIS EARTH, by allowing 'satan' to rape and lie to everyone with sex-theft of souls... AND EVEN BEYOND OUR EARTH, IS BEING AFFECTED BY IT, A HELL FOR EVERYONE, EXCEPT 'SATAN'S' who don't care if they mislead and steal SOUL from the Innocent. It is affecting EVERY STAR RACE... Nor will they EVER CARE, as they do not want to FIX ANYTHING, EVER, as their 'gods' only wish to WIPE THEIR very ASSES WITH ALL OF US, FOREVER. And YOU ALL are DOING IT, and EVERYONE I KNOW IS UNAVOIDABLY HELPING THEM TO DO IT, TOO. I have not seen one, single, FREE, SPONTANEOUS SOUL in my WHOLE ADULT LIFE SINCE 1987, 22 YEARS. They are not spontaneous, because they are playing a game of one-up-man-ship, that NEVER ENDS, and with NO FEELINGS IN IT. They despise those who have feelings, because TRUE FEELINGS ARE WHAT CARRIES US WHEREVER WE WANT TO GO IN THE UNIVERSE. And they STEAL FEELINGS by accessing souls with LIES FOR SEX-RAPE.

Over the last 200 centuries of their warring, raping, positioning, power-mongering, money-mongering, in-fighting FILTH OVER POWER, MONEY, AND 'BLOODLINES of BULLSHIT,' no less, they have affected almost EVERY SINGLE SOUL WHO RE-INCARNATES ON THIS EARTH, and that is ALL OF US. And they DO NOT give ANYTHING for the GOOD of us, but ONLY UTILIZE OUR SOULS in THEIR collective, that INCLUDES and 'balances out' their EVILS, FOR THEM... NOT, FOR US... AND ALL, to our endless torment and torture whenever we reincarnate, and ALL OF US DO SO, the liar Catholic Church of FILTH ON EARTH, who have kissed satan's ass for so long, they don't have a god, OR a christ, except the one's who are swept beneath the carpet-baggers...

My first 'sexual encounter,' AFTER the child-rape, was with my first boyfriend in 9th grade, SCOTT. It was only kissing. The music associated with SCOTT was Elton John, especially the song entitled, "YOUR SONG." He was blonde, his mother was red-headed, and his father had black hair. He was not adopted.

In 1996, I realized WHY my mother had introduced me to our neighbor SCOTT, BECAUSE OF the film 'Braveheart,' and the subsequent Presidential Election, that I FAILED MISERABLY TO BE ABLE TO PRODUCE NEARLY EVERYONE'S DESIRED OUTCOME, upon me, and that had fallen SOLELY UPON ME, with WHAT PEN-NAME, AND COLOR INK I WAS TOLD TO USE FOR SCHOOL THAT SEMESTER, 'THE CLASSIC STIC BIC'... After I failed at the pressures of the election upon me, Bic no longer made the pen called 'C-LASS-ic' but changed the name to 'Cristal Stic.' ['Crystal' had been a child-hood school-mate, who taught me to read the word 'chair' in first grade... And that name 'crystal' and the word 'chair' became clear to me much later in my life, TOO, but it is a 'secret' and I am not allowed to tell it, as I have been punished life-long for it, and it's not worth it to me to be punished again, for what I am not guilty of, which is NOTHING, for THAT matter...] In 1998-99, when I had nearly finished writing my whole life again in 'Cristal Stic' In-K, Princess Diana DIED. The 'Diane's' in my own life have CAUSED me RAPE, or in one case, one raped me psy-chic-ally, to my shear surprise and disgust.

In my life, From Wales, Tom Jones, was a particular favorite singer of mine, and who my father once brought me an autographed head-shot. But a mortal enemy to me, also from Wales, 'Alex McGowan,' (Irish name from Wales...), the name, has caused me NOTHING BUT TROUBLE, and HARM, in his original, blame of me, hatred toward me, FOR NO REASON that I can figure out, causing me a terrible LUCID NIGHT-MARE of HIMSELF BEING A TORTURER, one night, and then in the real, the next day continuing it, (with his red-headed Irish ice-skater student 10 year old Whitney,) even SAYING THE WORD 'nightmare' AT ME, he did, and his following behavior of LIES... (In the Lucid Nightmare, he was lobotomizing 3 men with a Robotic Arm, in an Oxygen Tent, and promising to do my 'surgery' which he never did... He was the 'J'anitor' of Hospital in the Dream... (Janet, my mother, and gate-opener of the demon child-rapist... My mother, born of rape by Norman Baldridge, her 'father,' who non-forcibly raped his wife Viola Schnelle's younger sister, 'Florence' (Italy), at age 16 she was, who knew nothing of sexuality, begatting my mother, and Norman, IMBECILE and RAPIST, died in Mussolini's Italy. Even the Old Testament warns of souls who are born of rape, as UNTRUSTWORTY, and Janet has been that to me...

In fact, I no longer love my family, which for me, is nearly impossible to have happened to me. I no longer love anyone that I have met on Earth, another impossibility, for me, as I used to feel a sense of love for everyone, unconditionally... And EXPECTED it returned from ALL OTHERS. IT HAS BEEN TOTALLY DESTROYED, not only in me, but in ALL OTHERS TOWARD ME ! ! ! ! It's UNBELIEVABLE. I have a few friends, but there is almost NO LOVE IN IT FOR ME, ANY MORE... AND NO LOVE COMES TOWARD ME THAT MEANS ANYTHING TO ME. The only reflection I can see, is my own, and THAT I DO LOVE, AND DO KNOW WHY...

But I don't love anyone here on Earth, unconditionally, anymore, as I used to... And if it came down to it, and I can't hold onto the balancing of Earth for 2012, I will let it fall... Because I should NOT HAVE TO BE DOING ANY OF THE HUGE LIGHT WORKS THAT I HAVE BEEN FORCED TO DO, FOR THE CATHOLIC NETWORK OF RAPIST, BROADCAST, SEX-MARAUDERS & SATANIC POLITIC WORLD POWER LIARS...

My mother was friends with SCOTT'S mother Francis (Scott Key ? ? ?, who wrote the Star Spangled Banner ? ? ?) and in MY LIFE AS Todd Keys, who was also a "baby-sitter" child-rapist to me AND my little brother when I was 6, and Wayne my brother was 4, and who I had to tell on, and who tied his testicles / 'balls' in red rubber bands and made us TOUCH them. Maybe THAT'S WHY I was FORCED TO meet Lucille 'BALL' when I was age 11, and who was with the Italian Henri Mancini when I was forced to 'meet' her... and WHY I've been forced to write down my life at least 20 times over since 1991, FOR THE PAST NINETEEN YEARS REPEATEDLY FOR SURVIVAL, in 'ball point pen' for their LIAR, MAGNETIC, BROADCAST, WORLD, PLANETARY FUCK UP. God DAMN YOU CATHOLIC NAZI'S AND ALL OF YOU WHO FOLLOW THE SATANIC BABY-FUCKER BY DYKE-BROAD-CAST SCREW-UP WORLD OF DISORDER and FILTHY 'Leaders' who are nothing of the SORT.

[I HATE YOU BIRD-FINGER SHIT-RAPE, and THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE, AND WHAT I MEAN. Do you know that this ONE LIFETIME OF RAPE WILL cause me ANOTHER 3,500 YEARS OF MYSELF BEING RE-INCARNATED TO REPEAT ALL MY WORK,
AGAIN ? ? ? AND WITH NO HELP FROM THE 'POWERS' that BE ? ? ?]

This Catholic Church is THE MOST HORRIFIC BROADCAST LIAR SATAN I HAVE EVER WITNESSED ON THIS EARTH, IN ANY OF MY MANY INCARNATIONS HERE. I'LL TEAR IT DOWN IF I GET TO... WATCH ME. AND ALL OF YOU BETTER STOP YOUR BABY-FUCKING WITCH HUNT TOO, you IDIOTS.

SCOTT'S father 'John,' was pretty intolerable to both SCOTT and his mother Francis, as he drank and beat them on occasion, I heard, but never witnessed, thankfully. SCOTT grew into a 6'5" giant by the time he was 14 years old, the last time I saw him, when our families met up to ski for a weekend. I never grew to more than 5'1.5", so we were not even close to a likely match for any future, in MY opinion, when I last saw him. And we had nothing in common to talk about by then, as my family had been living in a different state from his for the previous 2 years. The next 2 years we lived in different states further, and when I was 17, at the University of Alabama, Tuscaloosa, 1973 Homecoming weekend, (where Gov. George Wallace was at the Football Game that I did NOT attend, feeding a squirrel alone, I could only 'HEAR' him introduce the game...) My parents and brother met me for the Concert that night of, Peter Yarrow (of Peter, Paul & Mary, who'd known my real father, deceased in 1971...), and Liza Minelli Concert that Saturday evening. My mother told me that SCOTT had died, right before the concert started, hit by a truck, while pushing a motorless go-cart up the street, that broke every bone in his body, is what I was told. I cried, as the lights came up on Peter Yarrow singing, "That's enough for me, that's all the hero I need be..." [Big heroes in my life, ehyyy ?...]

My second boyfriend was GENE, parents were Mormon Latter-Day-Saints, but that didn't stop GENE from being his playboy self... [And THIS is where the Genetic-Manipulation of the GAME, BEGAN, ON MY LIFE, AND TO THIS WORLD OF WHO-TELLS-WHO WHO-CAN-BE-FRIENDS, AND WHO-CAN-MARRY-WHO, FAT BULLSHIT, WITH NO LOVE IN IT. And TONS of LIARS.] The summer before 10th grade he used to fire-up the Doors, (James the 'brother's of the brown-anal-fucking Catholic Church, 'brother' of Jesus, and 'Joseph' of Arithmea. I was born at St. Joseph's Hospital, in Kirkwood, MO.), Jim Morrison, the Charles Manson look-alike, LA Woman LP, to make out with me at puberty, as we were... Basically, before I consciously remembered that I had been child-raped, GENE did what my child-raper had done, used his finger. And later in my life, I can NAME THEM, THE RAPISTS, so did Bobby Cooper (1989), and David Webber (1991)... [How do you think they GOT 'coupe's' and the 'world-wide-web' ? ? ?] And it is STILL TO MY COMPLETE LIFE-DESTRUCTION AND EMBARRASSMENT. I HATE THIS EARTH, FULL OF SHIT.

SO THERE IT WAS, TWO FINGER-FUCKERS as the first TWO sexual experiences in my life, FIRST AS 'FEMALE' and THEN AS 'MALE,' so that all I EVER GET IN MY LIFE IS BIRD-FINGER-DICK RAPE BY BOTH SEXES, no matter where I turn SOCIALLY... And screwed to 'mars' on TOP of the Satan-360-degree of FINGER-DYKE, by my parents not caring about me, not one iotta.

AND my father's last name by his adoptive parents with TWO 'F's' in it: SHEFFER, and NO BLOOD RELATION TO ME, AT ALL. I never knew any of his family, except his twin sister Maxine who married a Catholic Italian, and YET was divorced by him after 3 children, due to his finding a younger, prettier woman, etc. His name was Tony LaNasa, and their children were Michael, Laurie, and Tony, my first cousins. Michael turned out to be 'gay', and when my father died at his friend 'Mike's' house in 1971, Michael Jackson became famous, the same month, and both my Cousin Michael AND Michael Jackson were from St. Paul, MN... When I first wrote this fact on the internet in my website last year, Michael Jackson died within two weeks of my post... Where do you think the 'Tony's' of the world-order of games COMES FROM... the grail-blood of my father, and his twin sister... that also has fallen upon me... And my brother's sons, my nephews are 'BEN,' and 'JACK...' Do YOU THINK THERE IS NOT A REAL GRAIL BLOODLINE ? ? ? I would never have believed it myself... Not in a million years. These ASSHOLES.

All the real, blood 'Sheffer's' whom I have met, have been BLONDE. I have no blondes in my heritage, of the 2 generations that I know of, except perhaps the German Schnelle's, who were my Mother's mother, and her Irish, Baldridge father. That makes me 1/2 French Canadian on my Father's side, and 1/4 each of German and Irish on my mother's side.

I CANNOT BELIEVE THE AMOUNT OF SUFFERING AND STUPIDITY THAT HAS GONE ON IN MY LIFE-TIME OVER THIS GOD DAMNED CHURCH OF BABY-FUCKING, SATAN ASS-KISSING LIARS. AND ALL OF US FORCED TO KISS THEIR EVIL, ENDLESS, FOLLOWING OF DISRESPECTFUL FILTHY RAPISTS ON EARTH. I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU ALL, and the imbecility with which you go about your nazi blame. I'm not one bit sorry for any of you who think your shit doesn't STINK, because it DOES. AND YOU YOUR BABY-RAPING, BROADCAST - FOLLOWING SELVES ARE TO BLAME. SATAN IS YOUR NAME.

Results of Experiences with Pediphiles and Politics

2010-04-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

Results of Experiences with Pediphiles and Politics

First of all, it's thick, and not at all easy to understand, much less, figure out, when you have been an unwitting 'victim' of child-rape / satanism for 50 years, and NOT KNOWN IT. But once I became aware of the 'satanism' and 'power of politics' behind what was happening to me, there was NO ONE to tell, and NO ONE to BELIEVE ME, much less, UNDERSTAND ME.

Finally, since 1987, when my life pretty much blew up in my face for no reason, there is now somewhat of a break in the factors that have aggravated my telling of the TRUTH. These are the FACTS of the results of child-rape, incredible coincidences that have gone along with it, and some of my own speculations as to WHY it has happened this way...

I may not have the time to finish this blog in one sitting, and will attempt to get back to it as often as possible, as quickly as possible, to get the facts out, so that everyone will be able to deal with it in their own way, and perhaps we will be ready for 2012, in such a manner as to be at the very least, presentable to the CENTER of our Milky Way... Right now, I'm very ashamed of how this planet is operating, being run, and behaving. I'm ashamed it has fallen upon me and so many others like me to be forced to hurriedly chase our tails, to clean up the mess. I know we are all trying in our own ways... But we do need to get on the same page, in order to be effective and ready.

Second of all, a whole lot of my child-rape results, became quite telepathic with other humans. It is something very few of the public know is a REAL phenomenon, and the Illuminati have more or less kept it that way, because there is so much confusion over 'blame' about wars, and why it all has been so difficult FOR ALL OF US to survive, understand ourselves, understand 'society,' and history.

Everyone chases the 'devil,' no question about it, but not all of us can see clearly, 'who' the 'devil' is, since the 'devil' is mixed in with so many things we think are straight, true and good, and which our livelihoods depend upon. Since livelihood is dependent, we are required to have courage, and that is an extremely tall order for all of us, in such a confusing 'satanic' situation that child-rape causes.

A word about magnetics: The Earth is a Magnet, with a magnetic grid, in perfect geometry. Light, all stars, like our Sun, other planets, and even space are ALSO magnetic. Life energy, our very souls which animate our physical form is magnetic, and is our brain and body operative functions, thinking, are based in magnetics. Electricity is magnetic. Sexuality is magnetic. Murder / War is magnetic. All of Life must use other forms of 'life' to survive... Then it becomes the ETHICAL use of life-forms for survival that is the real question for humane human beings becoming stewards of a planet and its ecology, that must be maintained, if we are to clean up this extremely over-populating mess. It cannot be done with war and murder, since that is UNETHICAL, and against the 'laws' of nature. Nature does only the all-positive, and we must learn to emulate it, or be destroyed, since it will not tolerate our misbehavior much longer, as we are all suddenly becoming aware.

I DO NOT LIKE being a tattle-tale. I don't like naming names. I don't like hurting people, not even those who have hurt me... Nor those who are confused.
It has only become necessary to become a whistle-blower because the whole thing is SO HIDDEN, since MAGNETISM IS MOSTLY AN UNSEEN LIFE-ENERGY, that creates LIFE, and people do not pay attention to it unless their jealousy is piqued by seeing another person who is enjoying themselves too much, shall we say...

None of us can ever truly enjoy ourselves with child-rape and its resulting satanic-voodoo of sexuality and true magnetism in the mix. It is a genocide beyond belief, and a recipe for planetary disaster, due to the physical laws of perfect, geometric MAGNETICS. The ecosystem of the physics of our planet will not tolerate evil results, and confusion about same, all over itself, with over-populating, ignorant mankind, much longer.

I will leave it at this, for the moment... I would be grateful, if all of us could find TOLERANCE for a situation that is greatly out of ALL OF OUR CONTROL, UNLESS we begin at least, an attempt to quickly STOP FOLLOWING 'the machine' as best as humanly possible, and NOT BLAME ANYONE, unless you need them to understand to back off of your personal MAGNETICS. LOVE ALL, but respect your personal energy field.

For myself, that has meant celibacy, in order to stop the effects of child-rape from getting into 'the machine' anymore...

If you can do the Natural Law of Creation:
1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness, 3) Kindness (Benevolence), 4) Equality (Respect for all of Life), and 5) Courtesy (when we disagree)... Even if you must be a 'hooligan' for yourself, once in a while to shake off the falsity, strive for these truly humane behaviors, and you will be able to set yourself, and the planet, free of 'following' that causes harms to others that you cannot see...

If I feel there is more to TELL, then I will post with further information.

All of these images are thanks only to my very kind friends on Facebook who have been so good as to put up with me, OUTSIDE of the 'machine,' and I am eternally

grateful to them all.

~lotusalivelight

Light-Time, Why 'History' Repeats

2010-04-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

In 1975, when I first began to work for a Planetarium as a Tour Guide for the next 3 years, I learned something in the process that I thought was the most profound fact I'd ever heard, and was extremely surprised that over the years, it was not profusely proliferated throughout science and social being on Earth. It is also something extremely simple. (Perhaps the simple truths are the most stupefying to mankind, who seems to enjoy making everything more complex for a plentiful plethora of reasons.)

Simply put: 'Light ALWAYS returns to its point of origin,' is the fact I learned that seemed so profound to me then. Space-time is precisely curved, perfectly geometrical in every way, such that it would be impossible for all beams of light, departing from stars in all directions, NOT to return to their point of origin, precisely ! I thought this fact was profoundly impressive for the Universe to be doing. Of course, this concept is 'pure' geometry, obviously, in that some beams of light-time are intercepted by other objects, in reality, and therefore cannot arrive back at their point of departure. [All Time is measured in mathematics by the Speed of Light Constant, fastest known Constant in our material reality: 300,000 kps / 186,000 mps, slightly varied by the various strengths of gravity based on the size of each star.]

The part of this fact that has enticed me the most over the years, is that it seems to in effect 'be' history, as well, as geometry. How could it NOT be, if the very stars and planets are repeating their orbits so precisely. It made me think of it as a giant 'Karmic Wheel,' such that the same souls would return to the same places, people and events, perhaps individually gaining a greater perspective upon it. It is a rarefied view, to realize this, something that Eastern philosophies have mentioned, but that we in the West generally disregard as irrelevant. It is also the reason why it is said that everything is pre-determined and nothing can be changed, and it always repeats itself, no matter how hard any of us may attempt to stop it. [Personally, I'm excruciatingly bored with the repetition, find it sad, tragic even, and completely without merit for an 'intelligent' Source !] It would seem the only intelligence is US, and yet, so far, we have been unable and even unwilling to prevent its inexorable repetition, of 'dark,' within 'light,' within 'dark' springing from one another 'from out of nowhere,' are the FACTS of 3D, this WHOLE UNIVERSE: 'light' and 'dark.'

It would also seem that a willingness to attempt to be Benevolent and Tolerant toward one another at all times, would actually 'create' a stable civilization, but we would have to be completely aware that the karmic cycle DOES in fact coincide with light-time, and we would also need to be aware that the same souls are returning to it. ('They' are 'us.') If we could understand this much, living within our truthful honor, to ourselves and one another, we might then truly give future generations, (which is really ourselves), Benevolence and Tolerance, without repetitions upon repetitions of ills. We might also find we have then 'created' a real 'civilization' that can sustain and last throughout Earth's 52,000 year cycle, instead of falling 'asleep' through half of it, and digressing into hurtful behaviors toward others.

A video for your potential interest, that might help you to understand and feel these wishes could come true for yourself and all others, that personally, I have sought, in earnest to remove myself from the inequities of '3D,' (or 3rd 'di-mentia, as I jokingly call it): Prime Matter, is as big a realization, that the non-material is 99.9% of our Universe ! It ALSO is an organized 'neutrality,' (magnetically speaking), perfectly in tune with EACH ONE as a 'positron.' This is most likely why 3D is 'subject' to creation, rather than being 'at cause' with it... We're 'slow' to catch on ! How 'IT' behaves is EQUAL BALANCE with itself, for EACH ONE (positron), with perhaps, nuances of unfathomable 'dimensional / dimensionlessness', all at relative peace. We would perhaps perceive this balance of 'IT' were we to actually be behaving LIKE 'IT' in 'tolerant' knowing that we ARE already AT PEACE, without need to one-up another, for any reason.

This IS the 'NATURE' of OUR OWN INDIVIDUAL, 'ALL-POSITIVE' BEHAVIOR, toward 'self' without harming 'other,' as is noted by Taoist master observers of internal / external 'nature.'

(I received this video thanks to my Facebook friend, Fedge No IV. :)

NWO Needs To Know

2010-02-04T11:26:00.000-08:00

My Facebook Post for 2.4.2010

I call the 'Great Way Human' or the great Tao, 'Flower Power,' (an old '60's term), but in this case, after consciously doing it for myself over the past 5 years, it absolutely scares the sh-- out of the 'powers that be' and, stops the NWO in their tracks, because they KNOW that if they kill truth, love and benevolence for self, they absolutely will be dooming themselves. Those who cannot THINK, but are forced to only FOLLOW, also benefit from our doing it FOR them. What is 'Flower Power' ?

1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness, 3) Benevolence, 4) Equality (respect ALL living creatures as one's OWN Life = Justice), and 5) Courtesy (*especially if we disagree.)

IT ABSOLUTELY 'works' for everything because the whole of the universe of planets and suns are 'caused' by this unconditional love of itself, behind, and invisible to, our material reality. When we do it WITH Source, we become LIKE Source, and it is irrefutable 'Power,' to all 'evils' or 'live' spelled the 'wrong' way... [This 'dark side' of this Universe, must NOT do 'evil' BUT THE FLOWER, TOO...] lol...

My Undeniable Amelia Coincidences

2010-01-30T06:07:00.000-08:00

This may very well be the MOST DIFFICULT piece of honesty, truth-telling, and 'proof' of 're-incarnation' that I ever make. It's so very compelling and unbelievable for so many of us. And at age 14, even after my first 'past-life memory' of a life I lived in the late 1800's, I still did not really believe...

But now, after all the coincidences are so clear as to be nearly undeniable facts, I'll show you the 'unicorn,' so that you may judge as you will... It's all true.

The Amelia Coincidental Facts & Likenesses In My Life:

1) Born 7.2.56, 2pm, 19 years to the day of A.E. disappearance on 7.2.37, and 9 years from the day of Roswell, 7.2.47. ( This date is now changed on the Internet to: 7.4.47, sometime during the past two years since I've been online, 07/2007- Present ).

2) 756.2 cubits, is the length of each side of the Great Pyramid, if you can wrap-your-mind around that bit of numerology... It has something to do with the Earth-Human magnetic field, and resonance, as scientists are finding out... and hopefully using BENEVOLENTLY...
(In my personal case / life scenario, it was NOT used benevolently, not toward me, anyway...)

3) Congenital space between two front teeth, same as A.E.

4) Initials, K.S., and A.E. from Kansas (KS), Atchinson (For the sake of noticing details, I've always thought my 'chin' was too pronounced for my tiny head, frame, and facial profile... :) Also, 'a. c.' was a helpful figure to me in this life...

5) A.E. attempted to be honest to a fault, exactly like me.

6) I was given a World Globe as a gift from my mother for my 7th B-day, same as A.E. got a World Globe from her father, for her 7th B-day... And as all children probably are, I was amazed by it, so much that I whispered to myself on the inspiration breath, 'huuhh !, a globe ! :>O)) !' And I had peeked, so I was alone when I found it... Later, to my mom's disappointment when I told her the truth after I opened it... telling her even, how much I was amazed with it... but she was still sorry at missing it, my reaction... She would not have seen it anyway, because I hide my truest amazements from the whole world, in self-protection... as I know now... Even tho' in this life, I have been forced to attempt to share my inner-most personal joys... Words just don't do them justice: not in feeling, understanding, or truth...

(Everyone takes so much for granted, that it's impossible to hold the sacred, even within one's self, without somebody trying to tear it out of you, to prove themselves to themselves, and enforce the 'objectification' of 'reality'...)

7) I was given a soft-aqua-blue leather 'Amelia Earhart' small overnight suitcase when I was six, by my godmother, and it was the favorite possession of my whole life. It gave me a sense of personal privacy, even tho' that is something of which I have had NONE in this life.

I expected gentility, socially, from my family, and amongst my generation in this lifetime, and found almost absolutely NONE... also. It has been a post-wwii horror for me, as well as for almost everyone else, as we all seem to be feeling it... (I was 'dead' to earth during it...) Yet, I think I understand what it was really about: the theft of human-soul, unseen magnetics... (and not just 'humans' from 'humans' EITHER...) And that competition for unseen 'magnetics,' is STILL going on...

Life is magnetics. And so is the Earth, Light itself, and our brain / nervous system processes... Even our souls are magnetic... If that 'magnetism' is stolen with rape and murder, then the hope of a benevolent earth or sky, is impossible...

I wonder if we as a species and a planet can ever recover ourselves from it all... I wish we would... and could, and will...

8) I was terrified at having to learn to swim at the 'Pacific' Coast Club huge, indoor, olympic-sized, choppy, pool, when I was age 7. I cried doing it.

9) My father had flown with the u.s. airforce in korea, before I was born, and when I was very small, about age 4, my parents took me to a Blue Angels show. I fell in love with it, but had no desire to 'fly' in an airplane, whatsoever, although at age 6 mos, I received a certificate from American Airlines for having been a young flyer, for our move from MO to AZ. I saw another Blue Angels show at Edwards AFB, felt very uncomfortable in the wind there all afternoon. Chuck Yeager was at that show. I saw a B52, how huge it was, but did not, and never could relate to its purposes... was unfathomable for me...

11) All flights in my life have been extremely 'intuitive' for me. I'm almost always 'right' about them, and can 'psychically,' FEEL them, and even have a sense of psychic 'control' over the safety of flights with my feelings during the flight. (Don't really enjoy it, although its safety is so much improved...) I enjoyed Richard Bach's books about barnstorming more than any actual flights, except perhaps the flight I took from HI back to CA, was exceptionally beautiful... That leg was the last one, that A.E. missed by two legs...

12) Once, recently, the most confirming of my A.E. experiences to me, was an aerial photo of an area of the So. Pacific, pillow-clouds everywhere in perfect geometric formation, as far as the eye could see, over the whole of the ocean that could barely be seen beneath them, was so dizzying to me, like an exact body-memory... Every single time I looked at it, I was absolutely so surprised how dizzying it made me feel.

13) What's been one of the most important things to me personally and privately in this life, is how the sun feels, ozone feels, and the amount of oil-burning, coal-burning, and explosions we have done over the past 53 years of my life-time, and during the 72 years since A.E.'s lifetime. I can't believe how BAD the atmosphere / air FEELS to me now, compared to how great it felt to me as a child in Arizona. (1956-1962)

I wish to God, we could remedy it

IMMEDIATELY, but no one seems to be willing or able to overcome the oil industry, due to 'finances,' world-over.

It's a very sad state of affairs. I wish the whole planet of people's would immediately come together to find a solution, or we will be absolutely doomed from our own carelessness. DREAM, LIVE, BUT ALSO DO WHAT IS RIGHT. It is NOT right to NOT be able to properly feel the sun and the atmosphere due to too much oil and coal burning... It desensitizes us all to the real, incredible, beauty that we are standing IN, and upon...

14) The funniest (and also worst) coincidence of A.E. in my life, is of the Nut Tree Restaurant, between San Francisco and Sacramento, CA, that now, no longer exists, shut down due to fast-food and rising costs to run the wonderful place. It was (is) a farm for Fruit and Nut Trees, and had an airfield. I first visited the place with my friends when I was 15, and felt so comfortable and in love with it, that I never, ever felt like I wanted to leave, and in my mind, never did leave... Years later, I revisited the Nut Tree, before it was forced to shut down. I was alone. I spent about 2 hours inside the upstairs portion of the gift shop, which was dedicated to Amelia Earhart. It hadn't been there as a museum to her when I was 15... well, 'fruits' and 'nuts,' you get the idea... Right after that visit, my car was taken in 're-possession,' and the bombs flew THE NEXT DAY for Desert Storm... Who do you think they are 'possessing' ? Why did the Navy's vessel Itasca not have absolute assurance they would be able to track Amelia ? I submit, it was not her fault, but theirs. And there could also be underlying 'political' reasons for not letting a woman be the first to circum-flight-navigate the 'globe...'

Talk about the magnetics of the magnanimous, 'sacred feminine' being compromised by politics: (jealousy, control, hate and murder...). Talk about soul-theft: theft of magnetics and joy, used for 'war' and killing instead... I submit, this has now been going on with me for 3,000 years, and I am f-kg tired of it, endlessly repeating itself, and on top of it, then being BLAMED for it. )

15) Another factor: Amelia could have just decided she would acquiesce to the government's, et al, 'request' that she not complete her world circumnavigation flight, because she was tired of the 'fame,' as this is more than suggested in the latest documentary, (2009) that she did live on quietly, under another identity. One of her friends claimed to 'recognize' her, and he was jovially positive. The woman in question would not submit to fingerprint tests, and denied she was A.E., publicly to the press, when she was pressed.

I have probably forgotten something, and may have to return to tell more here...

16) In 1974, when I was 17, I was visited by 3 UFO 'Light Ship Saucers' outside my house. I did not believe in UFO phenomenon at that time, but within two months of my stating to my mom that I thought sitings were a 'hoax,' I was 'visited.' It wasn't scary. In fact, it was quite pleasant, but a bit over-the-top experientially, as there is not much one can do with an experience like that ! Within a year and a half later, I was working at a Planetarium, and had breakfast with Dr. Werner von Braun as a freshman in college. (My website has greater details of these two experiences, under the 'Spiritual Experiences' Article.)

16) O' yeah. Same as A.E., the 'elders' around me for my child-abuse, receipt of my souls energy were even the same names as those in A.E.'s life: Frank & Eleanor... (of all the possible names, that could be included in my life...) And later childhood friends: George and Gene, no less...

The ruling 'powers' or blood-lines on this planet KNOW the sacred in humans exists. It is our inherent ability to transparentize experientially and with our environment and even our own consciousness, that we are largely unaware of its Truer Nature, WITH Nature. It is EXTREMELY subtle, and not letting it be such, DESTROYS IT... That 'consciousness' that we are unaware of individually and collectively: We are connected ONLY BY the Flower of Life behavior, IS what they are stealing from us, and using to maintain themselves... It's just that they rape it, physically, in order to access and utilize the 'magnetic soul resonance,' for their own sense of 3D stability and CONTROL of the planetary eco-system AND humans, and their own 'paradigm,' of life... Their 'control,' obviously, seems to be far beyond their own endless attempts to 'control,' and that are now far, far, out-of-'control.' And yet, they insist that it is ME who is 'out-of-control' for exposing them, their MURDER of the same soul endlessly, and absolutely, wiping their ass with me...

How I deal with it, is to attempt to be magnanimous, but unwaveringly truthful, but it mostly falls on deaf ears, who do not see the purpose of emulating such behavior... If we all did this, perhaps we will all be able to come through 2012 without pandemonium, on the part of the 'controllers.' (It does 'work,' I have noticed.)

sincerely and truthfully yours, lotusalivelight
(to ameliorate...)

More on the 'Philistinian Philosophy':

1) It is based on John Stewart Mill's edict of Manifest Destiny, "The greatest happiness for the greatest number,' and 'Man's 'right' to conquest of Nature / Indiginous People's,' which should sound a lot 'crazy' to us these days, but which is STILL going on in Science... Since they did NOT KNOW how to do the Flower of Life, Equit-ability with 3rd Dimension, AND STILL DO NOT ! ! ! So what that means, is that those whose souls are closer to full-attainment with self-realization, and self-actualization, must PAY with their bodies, lives, magnetics, souls, for those who are not yet at 'self-with-others-realization.' THIS IS nothing more than 'FALSE WITNESS' unto ALL, if it is done to one, hence endless in-equit-ability, that can never become balanced. WE MUST DO IT, and BALANCE WITH IT, and PARTICIPATE with IT. The greatest of humilities is required from humanity, FOR humanity. It is what the ancient 'Egyptians' did have: RESONANCE with 'peace for all.' This realization, FOR ALL, allowed for the ultimate human / and humane resonance. We could at least attempt it.

Manifest Destiny has caused the greatest of ego-maniacal disrespect from humans, toward humans and toward the planetary living eco-system where even the inanimate, has consciousness, and maybe even GREATER consciousness than 'ours,' but which we have turned up-side-down, in our stupidity and fears and neediness of one understanding of how we are to behave in life...

If you have read the Art of War, by Sun Tsu (Tzu), it is NOT the art of war they are discussing, but rather the equitable sharing / rationing of resources in common sense toward survival / benevolence toward ALL humans, and WITHIN the confines of ALL of their personalities being SUBJECT TO THE FLOWER OF LIFE BEHAVIOR. If we CARE about our culture, then we will need to nurture, understand, and work at it, or IT, Earth and Sky, will ALL be unreasonable toward us...

(The ma-roon dodge die-nasty, just took its piece of me. How can I possibly continue to pay, lifetime after lifetime for these hateful ills of humanity, when nothing ever changes, and the 'devil' does nothing but laugh, and steal, party, and murder those of us who have trained ourselves enough to be BORN, automatically doing this
work ? ? ? How can the FEW continue to PAY for the ignorant, because they are 'jealous' of our 'power,' that IS the whole of the material universes 'power,' that we have simply been willing to WORK AT aligning our own personal selves with ?)

If we expect 'the goddess,' then we must BE THE GODDESS, and the GOD. No one seems to believe it is so... anymore...

Ah well, I already know I'm falling on insatiable denial, that will never stop its
insistence that it is right to rape, instead of do... It's easier that way, for them. And 3,000 years of rape has not been enough...
It's not THEM who are hurting, by any means. (Har, It's a question of degree and magnitude as to who is 'hurting' the most, the ignorant or the 'wise,' har...) And never will they even notice their OWN 'hurt,' much less ours, as long as they control someone like me, (and all who are like me, thereby, and therewith...) with rape and murder alive, knowing where and when and who is re-incarnating 'for them...' and 'to possess.'

Do you know that I cannot even spend anytime zoning my mind in rest and peace without this 'bird-finger' PUSHER BITCH-RAPE Nazi Filth ALL OVER ME, threatening my whole life on a daily basis?   It's so ludicrous, it's incredulous, and impossible, for me...

IF I DON'T TELL THEM OFF, WHEN WILL THEY EVER STOP HURTING ME, AND THEREBY, THEMSELVES ? ?

[Get off me forever, bird, satan dyke murder FINGER, you demonati of hell on Earth, dirty works, magnetic murder ENDLESS BIRD FINGER SHIT. CEASE AND DESIST YOU FILTHY RAPIST NAZI DYKES, Cher the 'cherry' thieving FILTH-FINGER !]

Do you know, they are ALL SO STUPID and SO COMPLACENT, and SO EGO-RIDDEN, and self-confident that they cannot be caught in this endless repetition of murder and rape, that is now 3,000 years old, that even they are afraid they will be 'blamed' for wwii, and all these wars... And so, they rape, so as not to have to face the far-out ACTUAL TRUTH, that they have endlessly pushed me to death and raped me, with their own Fascism ! And then, they threaten my whole life with a 'female-demonati' 'bird-finger,' and refuse to even acknowledge it on every account, much less, ADMIT THE FACTS, and sit there in endless devil of denials ! ?

I don't want to defend myself with these imbeciles who endlessly rape me, ANYMORE. This 'sh..' is coming from 'the prince and princess of darkness, baby-raping liars, 'on high,' since no 'bird' has this kind of endless harassment 'power.' And apparently, no 'bird' has the power to STOP the endless harassment against me, either. No one wants to ADMIT THE TRUTH, NOT ONE. Except me, and I, of course, look like a fool against their all-powerful magnetic media of 'broad ' - cast crap.

They think all my lifetime's worth of work is easy for me, and just a joke. Why ? Why is because what you have just read here is INTANGIBLE, cannot be 'objectified,' and made MATERIAL, which is all 'they' are concerned with, GREED... not FAITH, and right behavior... NON-DESTRUCTION... They have made ALL of life a sex-murder JOKE. And all they do is LIE about it.

~l.a.l.

DO THE FLOWER OF LIFE, HUMAN(E) ! :

1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness,
3) Benevolence, 4) Equality: (equal respect with all living things, 'thou shalt not kill,' not even an insect if at all possible !) = JUSTICE, 5) Courtesy: (*especially if we disagree !)

And yes, I am from Bob Marley's neck of the woods in golden Andromeda, and Jah loves me as a light-flyer ! WE FLY THE LIGHT ! WHEN, and only WHEN, we do the Flower of Life ! 'As above, so below: As below, so above' ~with love from Ta-hote !

Ego & False Witness

2010-01-29T13:33:00.000-08:00

What we call the 'Ego,' is a defense mechanism of physical beinghood. When 'the ego' does not know how to solve a problem, or what an ultimate answer is, the 'ego' must come forward for defense and survival.

Sometimes, it even seems like 'ego' cannot see itself, because the raw reality of 'physicality,' cannot be faced, by 'ego,' but can only be 'faced' by the true inner self who knows peace and eternity are more real, than external reality.

So, because the 'ego' does not know peace, it makes something up, for it's own survival, and 'truth,' in order to deal with the problems of 'the now.'

When one meditates on 'death,' or even on 'birth,' the ego can do nothing about it ! 'Death' and 'Birth' are one point of POTENTIAL in EACH of us, the 'zero-
point' !

If you are equitable with true inner-self, and with your own mental-peace, the 'reality' of internal self becoming 'externalized,' becomes more apparent, and effortless, and the 'ego' is less necessary.

The Lotus Flower Petals, the thinking and doing of Human / Humane Behavior brings one to the inner self, and is always flowering. Doing these behaviors allows one to understand the truer god is within, when one aligns one's mind, heart, brain, and sincerity of seeking, WITH IT...

It is a very quiet, and egoless place, and it does not bear false witness against others, because it has NO NEED to 'make things up,' in order to survive.

I find myself surrounded by people who are impatient, unwilling to talk, help, feel, or seek true INNER compassion for themselves. And they continually make the mistake of 'false witness,' for the sake of survival of the very 'self' whom they are NOT giving enough attention to, by doing the meditation of 'formal reality,' which IS 'birth and death,' the one point of potential WITHIN the Lotus Flower Petals:

1) Sincerity, 2) Truthfulness,

3) Benevolence, 4) Justice = (Equality, not rape. Love all life as your own, is true justice...), and 5) Courtesy, (especially if we disagree.)

Doing this work for 'inner' self, allows one their own understanding of the more true / right / greater, 'inner' desires, that eventually DO manifest outwardly, into material reality, and is NOT just for selfish purposes. That is what we might wish to re-train our own thinking, and our children's thinking, for a better 'future' world, which is also for our own 're-incarnating' selves...

We ALL always come and go from Earth, as needed... WHY ? ? It's because we love ourselves enough to see that if others are confused and suffering, then we also, are affected by it. And so, we love them, too. Eventually, you get to a place, with all souls, that there is UNDERSTANDING among those connected to you, and even peace. Perhaps even peace enough to never have need to again reincarnate in physical reality. Re-incarnation only occurs due to a personal soul need to UNDERSTAND things. Problem is, everybody wants just to party, and the whole foundation of life on earth, is BUILT upon that EXTERNAL 'desire.'

Our 'society' is NOT currently built upon the foundation of inner truth, inner personal peace, and acknowledgement of ALL 'others' needs as one's own. This is the need of Earth. If we ALL begin to continually make dents in our own Internal Realities, by doing this behavior of the Flower of Life, throughout our External Reality, then our COMPLETE reality WILL CHANGE, AND FOR THE BETTER.

If we are true, faithful, and abide, no angry god can steal our personal, inner, private joy. Then, there can be, no over-blown, angry, 'gods,' not in the sky, and not on the Earth...

Halls of Amenti 'God/dess' video, that inspired this blog post is thanks to Romik Kimor on Facebook. (A double-click on the film, will take you to youtube.com, to view.)

End Inequality, Unbenevolence, and Injustice FOR ALL

2010-01-24T11:31:00.000-08:00

http://www.thecrowhouse.com/aw1.html

http://www.nvisible.com/1111/VideoMudras.html

Some Unbelievable Life Experiences Or 'poor little rich girl' who barely cracked an ice berg... but who tried to, anyway...

2010-01-17T05:42:00.000-08:00

A friend gave this photo to me for Christmas 2009:

I have had the luxury of an unbelievable set of life-experiences. The fact that I have almost nothing to show for it, in the material world, has many reasons, I think... One of them I learned tonight... It is that we are not always in complete control of our own destiny, because greater forces of Universal Balance are concerned in our lives. Yes, yes, yes, our own blind-spots do 'program' the learning experiences that we go through in our incarnations in the material world... All of the negative ones are unnecessary, in my opinion, since I truly know that universal creation / consciousness, can only 'create' consciousness, or even 'be' creative, IF it is all good, with no evil intent in it, as described by Chang Po-Tuan (Tzu Yang), in his Classic / Path-way, Understanding Reality, Taoist Classics, vol. 2, translated by the wonderful Thomas Cleary, PhD. If each one of us is NOT doing as the Universe itself DOES, then consciousness itself becomes meaningless and causes needless suffering... For me, that's straight deductive logic, with no argument. The Universe has all the power, we are just its seedlings. We can either choose to move WITH it, or thwart ourselves by bucking it... I suppose you could say, I chose 'The high road,' in this regard, in that I have made many choices to move WITH the Universe over many lifetimes of experience... Doing that, causes an unexplainable, and unseen 'power,' that is no power, but a conduit to what the Universe is already doing...

I always claimed my own privacy and personal doing of this work, throughout lifetimes, because I could NEVER explain it to anyone else. Finding the Taoist Classics in the Summer of 2004, finally gave me the WORDS to explain what my soul was already doing, as FACTS of the Universe, undeniably. I found it in the short and powerful Commentary on the Classic on Yin Convergence, by the incredible, be-loved scholar Liu-i Ming, Taoist Classics, vol. 3, trans. Cleary, PhD. What I did not know about humanity, is that for the most part, they had not known of these truths, forgot them, did not believe they work, or, they were hidden from humanity, because humanity is so faithless and belligerent toward even their own material reality, that they can cause extremely unfathomable harm to humans who are attempting to become 'real humans,' as the texts explain, or attain an at-one-ment with internal and external 'nature,' of the 'self' that 'nature' has 'created,' and in Taoism, attempt to get out of our own way, so that the greater good of ourselves and natures own 'mysteries,' may carry us like dandelion seeds in mid-summer, to where we truly belong... It's a soul dream. And it never has an end... It is eternal love, as we are, or, eternal merciless, faithless, 'damnation' as we each are. To harm another, IS to harm the 'self' that creation has created... Taoism does acknowledge 'destruction' as a 'result' of material creation... But 'destruction' is not the 'creator,' so it has less 'power,' and as one goes deeper into the acts of creation, the effects of 'destruction,' lessens and lightens up a bit... beyond 3D, for example. But the 'leap' of faith is required, or one will not be able to manage self WITH creation, at higher levels than 3D... (just the facts, jack !)

We are each a 'christ,' and we are each a 'heaven,' as we are 'below,' so may we find ourselves to be greater in our goodness and faithfulness of benevolence, 'above.' No one can 'SEE' this 'attraction,' and 'magnetic' to Universal Law, in 'physical' reality. (They might be able to 'hear' it in frequency as I sadly found out in this lifetime, and be threatened by IT...) In fact, I recently realized, from befriending a psychic 'werewolf,' of all the most amazing surprises to me, that 'anger,' 'blame,' 'manipulation,' 'evil,' causes a 'density of consciousness,' where one cannot at all 'see' beyond one's own highest level of incompetence, and all of us have that trivial problem at every level of working with the Universe... The reason is because it is unfathomably deep inside the figurative and literal black hole of the 'subconscious' one-true-mind, from which all 'creation,' or unconditional love is drawn out into being. All of it is love. Once you know this, you begin to do it too. Why wouldn't you ? Well, the harsh lessons of physicality, do teach us not to burn ourselves, for one thing. It's just kind of universal in that way, 'teaching' us that no one is to 'blame,' really, for anything, except our own non-understanding of the love and tolerance that is freely found within the 'self,' when we learn to align with our greater goodness. Into the 'self' is really the only place you can ever 'go.' (It sounds really boring to those who have no desire to work with it this way, which is fine. But it is definitely NOT BORING... :) The words that become actions are just a guide-post for humans to follow, to learn not to burn themselves... at all levels. Either we learn, or we don't. Always know in such a 'yin-yang' universe, to keep at least one eye on your back, as dragonflies do... And always keep working through the best you can, with where you find yourself, and who you truly are. Your sincerity will become so delicate, that you would never take it out and try to explain it to someone else if they had not done the work for themselves. Who would believe you anyway...

Finally ? Finally, the 'power' of the universe becomes so good upon you, that you do not need 3D, but you realize it wants to keep you, because it needs you... But you are learning not to burn yourself... Why would you let a reality that mistreats your self-knowledge, and completely misunderstands what you are doing and who you are, EVER 'burn' you again... Your 'power' becomes great enough in 'good,' in order to let go of what EVER has the potential to harm you, if you really WANT to. You will. Your 'love' for people and things, what you might call 'beauty,' or 'personal love' for example is what will bring you back, in order to realize that 'beauty' is only a perception of the inner self seeing itself in the outer reality... That's the dangerous part of external 'beauty.' It is not the 'real,' rather it is your perception that is the only real reflection of the 'beauty,' i.e., your 'love' for being able to recognize 'beauty.' Who's perception is it ? Well, yours, but also the greater creators, all of it. If you offer equally back to 'the creator' what you call 'yours,' it returns ten-and-more-fold... That's just 'faithfulness,' and humility before the ominous universe. Let it cradle you, if only you will learn how to let it do so, by getting out of your own way, and giving mercy and love to the real self, not the 'thinking' self... Turn on the auto-pilot of the Taoist Flower. Practice it, and it will turn itself on FOR you ! When you begin to fathom its real depth is already in total, inside you, it has a tendency to kind of blow the lid off of 'reality' as we know it. It deepens love for self, which is all the creator 'wants,' your conscious recognition, that triggers friendship, loyalty to faithfulness, and finally a trust in your own benevolence toward 'your' self, that is exactly like it... Then, 'you,' can let go of everything, and just be in it, with this very real, very loving creation that actually does respect you, if you respect it...

One exercise that helped me with this was learning to put the feeling of my physical body inside my heart chakra: deep void rectangle darkness, an emerald crystalline rectangle, a hot pink 'something' (don't know what / j'en sais quoi) rectangle on top of the green, and a steaming deep purple mist heart-shape on top of that, is what happened to me. When I put my physical body 'in' that triple 'fire' of light within me, it brought the mind and body much closer together, less 'separation,' or 'un-reality.' I don't think I can explain it anymore than that.

For me, I still feel there are great mistakes, or selfishnesses in this universe by the less-conscious ones who wield great 'power' OVER others. It's sort of like me out in nature, suddenly not wanting to kill even an ant with my bike-tire, and realizing how impossible that might be for the rest of my life. The good part is this: It's your INTENT that actually does it. Right intent, or intent NOT TO DO ANY HARMS, is what causes right subconscious ACTION, AUTO-PILOT 'goodness.' (The subconscious is a programmable, maleable, 'substance,' but ONLY will it behave easily, if you program it with 'right desire' for your individual self... Other people's desires are not 'yours,' so the subconscious won't do that for you...

We are all in process, and we are all at different levels, so don't worry or want what others 'have,' or say you 'should' want. I was a 'truth-seeker' in this life, and that is ALL I came for, for me, and every single action I have ever made in my life was for that purpose for me to grow, and learn what I needed to know, and it was terribly confusing at times, but I abided, and I actually got somewhere with all the social dilemna's around me, personal and public, to my extreme surprise... It did take a long time, and all my best efforts, even more than I ever knew I had in me... I did not 'do it,' IT DID IT for me... because I strove for 'why's' and for 'self-love,' and against harm toward myself from 'others,' which I still do not understand. But I try not to look at what they are looking at, because it is their truth, and their 'desire,' to see it their own way, and not my own, and their truth can never be true for me. First and foremost because it was never the truth of reality to begin with... I tried to make that clear to every single person I have met in being who I really am... Some, thankfully, completely understood. Those who did not, I could do nothing about, anyway...

I was going to also write about my incredible life-experiences, but after saying all that, I think it's incredible enough to know that much, about the great Tao human... I'm in awe of it. But I do not 'chase' it. When you do the 'work,' it exponentiates itself, and amazingly, IT comes to find you... It's a whole lot to take on, I know... But it makes you know, that you are always in process of right process, at least...

~love, kim / lotusalivelight

IF THE 'LIGHT TRAJECTORY' / HISTORY HAS BEEN THIS OVER-POWERINGLY MURDEROUS FOR THIS LONG, AND WE HAVE THE ABILITY TO SEE IT, AND CORRECT IT TO INCLUDE, 'THE SACRED FEMININE,' INSTEAD OF JEALOUSY THAT IS IMBECILIC, WITH ANGRY MALES HIDING BEHIND WOMEN WHO RAPE THEIR DAUGHTERS, SO AS TO MAINTAIN 'EGOIC' UN-REALITY, THEN WHY DON'T WE AT LEAST TRY TO CHANGE THIS LIGHT TRAJECTORY / HISTORY TO ONE THAT INCLUDES OUR TRUST AND LOVE. THAT IS THE ONLY WAY IT WILL EVER CHANGE: FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

ALL BLAME IS RELINQUISHED IN THIS WAY.

Also, doing this, changes all 'light / colors / and even space and 'darkness' into benevolence and justful equality with Nature and Life. When it kicks in for us, all, after we do a little bit, altogether, we will have done no harms, and we will find it loves us back... (for once.) (Hang on ! It's gonna be really fun, when WE can LET it do the greater positive...)

San Graal: Missing Puzzle Pieces

2010-01-15T18:27:00.000-08:00

I'm in tears everyday. There's no one to tell. There's no one who cares. There's no one who knows. There's no one who loves.

My father's look-alike was sitting on Pierre Plantard's lap, the Priory de 'Zion,' in the book Holy Blood, Holy Grail, that was given to me for Christmas in 1992. At age 2.5 to 3 years old, I was raped by a vicious vampire named 'Donna Rice,' with her finger, that made me sick with 'Graves Disease' ALL OF MY WHOLE LIFE. It was 1959, the year the Dali Lama was FORCED to leave Tibet, and I am a Taoist, who lost her 'country,' love, marriage, children, family, simple joys, and karma, for a whole lifetime, too... (Is this not the Illuminati, taking over the world, with child-rape, magnetic theft, and from the Magdalene and Jesus, and doing it with belligerent RAPE, of babes, no less, so they can continue to hold MATERIAL 'world power' with rape, and maintain themselves as 'ruling,' hateful imbeciles ? ?)

From what I have experienced SINCE 1992, and seeing the photos in Holy Blood, Holy Grail there are TWO MAIN BLOODLINES that the Illuminati USES: One is 'James,' the brother of Jesus, and the other is the 'Magdalene's,' that seems to be the one that there is the most FIGHTING OVER, especially 'feminine' jealousy, and an inability to come to BENEVOLENCE and PEACE amidst the 'royalty claims,' because worldly power and money are attached to the claims of their 'goodness,' and genetic manipulations, by marriage, over the centuries... Everybody thinks they are the 'good side,' even if they DO rape children, to find out why their Illuminati paradigm of 'following behavior' has caused them to fail in WORLD RULE and WORLD OWNERSHIP... (see my website for further explanation of my HB,HG photo-experiences: www.enlightenevolution.webs.com I believe it is explained under the Article 'What Happened To Me.')

ALL of my sexuality, has been turned into HER FINGER, every 'pen' and as every 'penis,' (sounding stupid, I know, but this is how they 'think,' as I found out over the past 22 YEARS of my adult life being forced into dealing with this hell-on-earth they have created... For me, it is endless rape, and no one can SEE ME; they only see 'HER' ! The hateful, evil trickery and filth that she directed toward me as a baby, has caused everyone to treat me, as if I were HER ! ! (No wonder some child abuse victims 'go crazy...' It's NOT THEIR KARMA they are having to face...) When people 'see' me, whom they DO NOT SEE, at all, they think that it is ME who is 'evil' and NOT my child-abuser ! ! ! (They are faithless in 'god,' and I am courageous in my faith in 'god's' benevolence, is the difference between me and 'satan' or those who do not feel, nor do they want to even TRY to feel, 'FAITHFUL' in trusting themselves to BEHAVE BENEVOLENTLY toward their OWN self-behavior, much less Nature's, or 'god's,' but instead, rape it, hide the fact, and use it for material world stability and gain, in order to 'have' it...) And ALL of her demons surround my whole life, everywhere I go, her look-alikes, her belligerent, imbecile, hateful, worldy-concerned men and women... (I always thought spirituality came first in life, and that everyone was doing it that way... HOW WRONG I was, and have been, with regard to their 'royal' behavior of 'save us, won't you ?'... And they have enforced upon me, with their abuse, me, to continually suffer their party of ignorance, that they insist upon...)

Not my own karma, and not the people who are LIKE ME, are around me... It's been horrific, years of tears, years of unjustified rape and destruction of my life, for no reason, but THEIR PROBLEMS, THEIR HATE, and THEIR IDIOTIC, IMBECILE, INSENSITIVE, JEALOUS, THEFT and MURDER of who I am... totally undeserved, and totally unjustified, since I DO NOT ACT, AT ALL, LIKE THE COUNTLESS WAYS THAT I HAVE BEEN MIS-TREATED ON THIS EARTH, BY THESE SO-CALLED 'HUMAN BEINGS.' (HAR...)

Why should I, or anyone else, have to pay with our whole lives, for these hateful, denier, belligerent, thieving, soul and life murderers and rapists ? ? AND STILL, THEY DO NOT CHANGE THEMSELVES ! WHY SHOULD WE PAY ? ?

Doing the Flower of Life, creates an unseen 'power,' for ones self, that moves in tandem with the whole of 'good' or 'creation' in the Universe, because those are the only behaviors that create 'light,' or 'clarity of understanding,' or 'love and tolerance.' The Illuminati have had trouble with me, because I have so much personal 'power' as a result of doing this work over my incarnations on earth... But it is not 'worldly' power, and they are clashing with ME, because THAT WORLDLY POWER is all they want from me, and all their paradigm of following behavior SEEKS... They don't EVER want to make their own leaps of FAITH. They want a simple seguey from 'the material' to 'the spiritual...' but it ONLY works if they do it for themselves, which they have not done... Blame, is only good for one's personal power, and not to be put upon OTHERS physically, if at all possible. But to outright, belligerently harm the innocent, is a faithless, godless act of inequity, that can never be justified... not to the innocent, and not to one's self...

FACT IS, we ALL have 'Holy Blood' WHEN WE DO THE FLOWER OF
LIFE ! And when we ACKNOWLEDGE
one another as the variety of souls doing it... It is NOT EASY, but it is
the ONLY worthwhile, humane PATH.

The 'Grail Blood' does have abilities, but they are not of the kind that can be SEEN... And each one born of 'Grail Blood,' IS DIFFERENT from their counterpart others... The effects of these 'abilities' can be known, tho' as I experienced myself doing them last November 2008, when I transmuted my own fears of the 600,000 year old Yellowstone Volcano going off. I did this by facing my fear squarely everyday for the whole month of November 2008, until I no longer FELT the fear of it, in my mind, nor in my Yellow, Middle, Third Chakra. When I no longer FEARED it PERSONALLY, I somehow knew without a shadow of a doubt, that if it ever did go off again, at least, it would not be my fault, and I would not be the one who was responsible for its having done so, just because of my own fear of it. EVERYONE CAN DO THIS WITH THEIR FEARS, if only you will do it with every fear you have, you will find they cannot exist when you have shined your Conscious Light upon every nuance of each fear, and looked at it as squarely as you can. Doing this DIFFUSES the unconscious ignition of FEARS becoming REALITY...

For me, Psychic Reality, did not begin CONCSIOUSLY until I was 32 years old: I was driving on the Southern-most mountain road of British Columbia toward Vancouver, BC, when about 3 a.m. I chanced upon a baby-mountain lion trotting along the road alone, to my left. He was so happy and unconcerned with harm, that I immediately melted with 'love' for him ! (*Who was I really seeing in him ? It was my own true, happily oblivious-to-evil, self...) But just as immediately, his mother, unseen, flew her rage and anger into my brain ! I immediately knew THAT IS NOT ME ! When her mental contact with me REALIZED that I meant him no harm, she 'spoke' to me telepathically in English ! This is what she said,
"OH ! I'm so embarrassed that I'm a big, ferocious mountain lion who would kill for him ! But I love him so much ! " Then to her cub, she said, " Ya STUPE ! " And then she left me to say to myself, "Of
course ! Telepathy is second nature to animals because they do not have speaking ability like humans ! " What can one DO with a realization like that ? ? Well, for me, whenever I am around animals of ANY KIND, I now am aware that they are talking with me telepathically, and they are also aware of it, and love me for knowing it. All animals who are strangers are usually very kind to me for my recognition of their own 'telepathy,' which for most animals is really only their simple needs. We ALL know what they mean. But in some cases, doing this 'translation' for them, is noticed and appreciated, even wild ones. In this way, we can all walk the world in peace with animals, because they are not usually just out to kill... (It's only humans and child-rapists, who do that...)

I NEVER SEEK TELEPATHY, personally. It is not even one of my interests ! But, it finds me, because I have, over many lifetimes, done the Flower of Life Lotus Petal Behavior FOR MYSELF, at least, if not for others: Sincerity, Truthfulness, Benevolence, Equality (Creates Justice with all Life), and Courtesy. Doing THIS is HUMANE for self, and does affect others, even if they are not conscious of it. Why ? It is because the whole Universe is already DOING THESE THINGS FOR ITSELF... YOU are NOT SEPARATE from the Universe from which you have sprung into SELF- AWARENESS ! ! !

In fact, at a later time, a young male mountain lion made contact with me, mentally, and I called him 'Voldmort,' because he was so sneeky and hypnotic, that it took me six weeks to realize he'd been mentally connected and 'tracking' me since he 'met' me. He knew what his name that I gave him, Voldmort, meant, because he had telepathically listened to and 'seen' the movie ! ! That was a surprise for me ! ! I liked him, and he liked me, so I planned to coach him along mentally, into being a better being, knowing more, about life... We were just honest friends, walking together... He said he liked me because I was different than most humans, because I was HONEST
and TRUTHFUL, which he almost never found in stupid humans, who STINK, he said, meaning both Literally AND Figuratively speaking... That made me laugh, and I agreed with him. I liked him, because he NOTICED the real me, instead of seeing my child-rapist as myself, the soul-trader whore that she was, and unfortunately, still is and has been for 50 years of my life, a torturous murderer, worse than Voldmort would have ever been to me, because he was smarter than she could have ever been to me... And he would never have taken a bite out of me the way she did. (Talk about a 'MONSTER ?' My child-rapist looked like 'the blonde' in the film MONSTER... Don't they all want to be 'blonde' ? How about 'Blondie and Dagobert' ? ? Does that sound like a familiar 'cartoon' needing to balance all these 'earthly,' 3D, iniquities ?)

Another time, a Tiger danced his powder-puff paws upon the earth for me, and then he let me see him laughing ! ! His whole body rippled with joyful fun when he "Laughed" FOR ME ! ! ! I laughed back, in profound disbelief at his fully self-conscious joyfulness of being 'stealthfully sneeky,' and telepathic in his 'tiger-ness' !

Telepathically once, a HUGE six-foot long, white, Tiger layed his whole body upon me one morning as I awoke, and claws poised, but not striking my skin, showed me Complete Physical Stillness... It was such a REST for me. (It was completely and totally non-sexual, by the way.)

I cannot walk the earth with most humans. Most of them see me as 'Donna Rice,' the opposite and anti-thesis of who I am... I mostly walk this earth, completely alone, but helping the abherrent illuminati to see their errors in behavior, judgement, bad decisions, and to correct their absolute insensitivities toward themselves, because they have evil INTENT toward others... It has been such a mess, such a mistake, that I am in tears, and alone, every day. It's not right.
I'm usually SUCH a happy soul.

I don't want to wake up in another hell, again, just because these so-called 'humans' have the need to catch-up to, and 'balance' 26,000 years of their own rape of innocent goodness to 'balance' their party of idiotic, selfish, thieving, bad behaviors... denial of same... continuation of same... (Why is 'Jamba Juice' the ad on this page, as I post, if this world is NOT FULL OF EVIL LIARS, hiding the TRUTH, and IN FACT, Raping it ? Oh, shall we 'Pass the Buck' for one more generation of 'satan's' denial-pineapple-upside-down-cake of theft of SOULS, and INJUSTICE, 'yellow piss and brown feces' murder of babes with RAPE ? ? Come on, shall we not call a spade, a SPADE ?)

MARY Magdalene's Contrary Christmas ! 2009

2009-12-07T15:28:00.000-08:00

'Tis the Season, ONCE

AGAIN ! It's 6.7 degrees Fahrenheit here in Boulder Valley, Colorado, at 4:37 PM ! And it's supposed to snow again tonight, Santa !

We have icicles an inch thick on the INSIDE of our living room windows this afternoon, where we are short one space heater ! (Two of them burned out last year, and we only have two left...)

Well, I'll tell ya why I'm happy... The lights are up, in the shape of a HEART, multi-neon: pink, green, blue, orange, and red. The HEART has a SQUARE around it, too. The first day I put them up was about November 1st, and do you know, NONE of my same neighbors have YET put up ANY LIGHTS to shine back for ME ? ? ! ! (It's alright. I remember the white-light deer from last year, across the wide garden lawn between my apartment building and their house. And the man across the street had nice multi-lights around his front door last year too, but not yet...)

The first morning I woke up under my Heart-In-A-Square Lighted Window, I could ACTUALLY FEEL the love pouring into my body from

it ! ! I was really surprised ! It worked. Eureka ! Sacred Geometry Really Works ! Buuuut, it's a VERY SUBTLE THING, the 'light,' the 'love,' the 'joy from tears,' poverty that is undeserved, and no forseeable future... I live on the razor's edge of death everyday, without going into all the gory details... Don't we all ? It's a relief not to worry about survival, on the days we actually have enough peace to forget about it !

It has been my Taoist Practice over the past FIVE YEARS to do as the Masters have admonished, a meditation practice that really has worked, to make me realize truly, that I am an eternal being, with an eternal soul, and eternal free will, even UNTO DEATH ! Death IS Birth, and Birth is ALSO 'Death.' Realizing it, is how one is able to smile at ALL THINGS, and LOVE ALL THINGS, even more than if one did NOT meditate on the great ominousness of 'death' every day.

Most people have no inclination for this kind of 'Meditation' ! But they seem now, to be doing it anyway, with all the modern Vampire, War, and Killing Movies out there these days ! Do you know what 'FEAR' does to us as human beings ? It makes us BE HONEST with ourselves, at least for a moment. It also makes us think about our greatest fears MORE, until we are no longer afraid of them. Or at the very least, fall short of our best self, and just 'allow and accept' our greatest fears.

I have no death wish. I have a LIFE wish. I love life, BECAUSE I love me, my consciousness, and what I now recognize as 'the more' of myself to always be becoming with the Source that gave me who I am ! Free, joyous, and in love with the greater LOVE that has given us all a chance to meet up with and visit with one another, and that we all are learning to stumble through this thing called 'survival.' IT does only the Flower Of Life, and I BETTER SEE THAT AMIDST HUMANITY, OR YOU'LL BE PASSING OVER YOURSELVES, next time, same as THIS 'time.'

I haven't much enjoyed the people here on Earth, as individuals, nor was I allowed to, with child-rape, soul-trade. (What is it to 'trade / barter' ? Bart 'Buck' has been repeatedly raping and back-stabbing me for the past 22 years, SOLID, since I became acquainted with him as 'Pete,' then 'Peter,' then 'Walt,' at the beginning of 1987, and met Bart PERSONALLY in the Fall of 1989, and the Bart Simpson Show began in the Winter of 1990, and $300,000,000 later (minimum), while I am now destitute, and carless for 10 years, this February, by a liar named 'Jim' and another named 'John Show-walter,' (Bart and his Irish henchman 'Bluto' having stolen my Nissan Pulsar in August 1990, the day before the Bombs were unleashed for Desert Storm... How's that for 'lost Amelia planes' and 'soul-theft' re-pete-ing for 3,000 years of Bart Satan ? ? ? BY THE BY, STAR SYSTEM SIRIUS, HAS A REAL PULSAR... Usually, Sirius is not so stupid as to Rape me... We usually get along GREAT !) And no one has even NOTICED TO STOP HIM AND HIS HORDE OF HATE AND RAPE OF THE MAGDALENE AND JESUS BLOODLINE... NOT ONE, NOT EVEN MY BROTHER'S SONS BEN, POPE AND FEDERAL BANK, and JACK, the youngest, have STOPPED BART & HIS WHORES of "Donna Rice" AND HORDE FROM MURDERING ME ALIVE, NOT ONE... Can you TELL ME 'WHO' is 'St. Bartholomew' in this PICTURE ? Take a 'stab' at it... (Hint: He's the ONE LEANING ON THE MAGDALENE'S SHOULDER, and has

a KNIFE at the TABLE, BEHIND HIS BACK TO BETRAY HER 'BLOOD,' and in my case, HE HAS, OVER, AND OVER, AND OVER, AGAIN... MY WHOLE LIFE IS ONE BIG BETRAYAL AND LIE... THESE ARE THE BILDERBERGER, SHIT FOR BRAINS, NAZI'S, AND NONE OTHER... THE SOUL-TRADING, UTILIZING, ABUSIVE, MONSTERS... Talk about SHIT FOR BRAINS, IT'S BART...)

Bart-Denier of the Peter-Church, and Magdalene-me who has never been IN the 'Church' of Ostracism of the Magdalene... Bart-Satan-Church-Peter-Finger-Dyke, has been the murder of my whole life, 50 years now, and for 26,000 years TOTAL, and 3,000 years of murder-suicide, SOLID, and totally undeserved...

(I was a part of Amelia's flying into the Dragon's Triangle, in my last incarnation. In fact, I was born 19 years to the day and time, 2 p.m. of her disappearance, and 10 years to the day of the Roswell Crash...) Nor did my own family really give a shite... to know me, nor give me equal standing with them as a human being, BECAUSE I WAS NOT BORN PART OF THEIR CHURCH ILLUMINATI SATAN PARADIGM... So, they raped me, with the WHOLE CHURCH of BART 3,000, & 26,000 years of SATAN MURDERERS on THIS EARTH. Demons have incarnated EVER AFTER my rape of 1959. And Bart has never done ANYTHING FOR ME, EXCEPT WIPE HIS ASS WITH ME. (Do I mean COVER HIS ASS ? You better believe, I do.)

Born 7.2.56, I recently found out that those NUMBERS are the measurement of EACH SIDE of THE GREAT PYRAMID: 756.2 CUBITS... No wonder their excuses for raping me were: "We're not ready yet," "We're looking for the Beast," and "You were moving too fast..." You BET I was moving too fast for Satan, but THIS Satan, is a genocide baby-raper, 3,000 year old, and 26,000 year old sky-ripping, DEVIL MURDERER. Who could EVER catch him without ME ? Who has EVER been able to stop the RAPE and MURDER OF ME ? They wouldn't even let me do it for myself, this lifetime, by finger-whore-genociding me, AGAIN.

In fact, all my 'Bosses' have participated in my rape and murder, as 'Bruce S.' my father, 'Wayne,' my brother, and 'Janet theft of all my names,' as my 'mother,' a satan born of rape, as she was, told to me by the Old Testament, no less... But I did have a good time most of the time, anyway... WHY, you ask ? It's because I brought my substance to it. I gave it my very best self, my very best passions, my very utmost joyful self, my sincere pursuit of interests and happiness. Most of who I was, surprisingly for me, met with chagrin from ALL others, especially later in my life, say from 40 to 50 years old.

(I am a 53 year old female now, whose whole external life has been denied, and OUTRIGHT LIED TO AND WASTED, for no reason but selfish baby-rapers' theft and murder of MY SOUL and HARD-WON PERSONAL SOUL WORK AND KARMA, and to cover their own liar asses for 2012, against an onslaught of TRUTH from their 3,000 years MINIMUM, OF LIES, RAPE OF BABES, RAPE OF ADULTS, RAPE OF INNOCENCE, AND THEFT OF PERSONAL SOUL, AND COMPLETE, OUTRIGHT, MURDERS ON THIS EARTH.)

I later realized it really did not have anything whatsoever to do with me, but rather because the whole paradigm of human civilization has been based on people being taught to be afraid of themselves, and afraid of the truth, and so they end up coming back, lifetime after lifetime, forgetting they are doing it, forgetting themselves, and NEVER getting the chance to find out who they really are ! And also, this occurs because of the stuck and unequal box of behaviors that human beings insist on continuing, and worse, insist is REAL.

Allow me explain to you as I have experienced it, and even already knew, coming into this life as a child, that the ONLY thing that is REAL, is the LOVE you FEEL in your heart, and your mind, for yourself, and for as many others as you can muster a care for. It is not 'sexual' love. It is instead an unconditional love, for the sake of life and consciousness itself, and it has NO AGENDA. It has no other boundaries than those you must choose under this formal imperative of survival, where it is AN IMPERATIVE to love yourself JUST AS MUCH AS OTHERS, AND EQUALLY WITH ALL OTHERS, as best as possible. THAT EQUI-LATERAL TRI-ANGLE AND SQUARE of human behavior CAUSES 3rd and 4th Dimensions to BE OUR HEAVEN... That is our only job as human beings. If you can do THAT, then you have done Equality with 'self,' and with 'life.'

There are physical limitations in life, and even mental / spiritual stumbling-blocks, emotional stumbling-blocks, that WE ALL FACE. But if we LEARN to see them for what they are IMMEDIATELY, label it, let it go, look at it as squarely as possible at the time, we find that our growth into greater beingness REALLY IS A NATURAL OCCURRENCE, and there is NEVER any reason to fear, even if we still DO feel fears... That is love... unconditional.

Freedom ? If I can't be myself here on a blog that I write for INFORMATION TO THE WHOLE WORLD FOR FREE, and am forced to write for free, anyway, then where in this whole world will I EVER get to be who I really am ?

This world has stopped valuing individuality, Christ and the Magdalene, for at least as long as I have been child-raped, 50 years... When they threw 911, Iraq, Tsunami and Her-rick-anus (cabby-lay-dyke-rape: Taxes, ANYONE ?) on my finger-murdered 'pen' ('penis IS pen' to them) and my finger-murdered SACRED sexuality, I finally realized what they were doing, and became a celibate monk. None of them has even bothered to apologize, to me, much less, to the WHOLE WORLD. (I take that back, their apologies were the lame WORD only, not actions...)

So, Bart, Satan-Catholic-Church, and his co-hort devil "Michael" along with bitches who rape their daughters with Catholic DEVIL CHILD-ABUSER-DYKES, can just
LIAR AND RAPIST 'juicey-bloody-dyke-finger' someone else, other than me... Ah, but there IS no one ELSE, is there, Bart the LIAR, RAPIST, SATAN OF HELL ? ? I will never help any of you on Earth, with my rape and murder, ever again. Your world of Denial, is the worst part of all of this I write, that IS THE TRUTH.

Freedom IS truly within, and sometimes, if you are NOT raped, other people can join FREELY with you in it, externally... THAT is Freedom: The Freedom to Love, or NOT to Love. Bob Marley once sang the best songline of all: "Your life is worth much more than gold..."

( Is it ANYONE'S RIGHT to RAPE ? NO MATTER THE REASON ? IS, PERHAPS, RAPE, the REASON ?

Why don't all my picture .gifs

work ? Could it be racial discrimination and hateful theft of SOUL and LIFE , by Satan himself, the party-hearty Ruler of Hell ?

or, How dare I recognize my Magdalene / Jesus self, much less have the audacity to TELL anyone ?

(Tom Hanks psychically visited me this week, for the second time in a month, and admitted he was EVIL... I told him, as my 'brother,' to get the h... out, same as I told Russell Crowe, who looks like my own brother, and his wife, who looks like my child-abuser, no less: Incest or Bust, last week when he tried to 'seduce' me, and when I said NO, he gleefully mocked me... Incredible devils laughing at rape, he and his wife... Next morning, he was on his knees with confoundation... Wonder WHY... (Har) How much more of these evil ones, who are my 'brothers' and 'sisters,' must I be forced to endure for all of you ? ?

Bart-Michael, are the SAME PROBLEM, Prelude to a STOLEN LIFETIME, and a STOLEN WEDDING, and a sister-rape-with-'sisters' who are nothing but lying murderers.

How DARE I remember that I am an Eternal Being with many lifetimes, and as it turns out, they are all the same 'lifetime,' endlessly repeating Bart-Satan MURDER OF MY SOUL ! AND absolutely NO ONE on this whole Earth, to help me STOP IT FROM ENDLESSLY RE-PETE-ING ?

The Sacred Feminine, of me, is a 26,000 year old murder victim, when Bart came through and RIPPED ME OUT OF THE SKY, for his Fallen Party, and STILL, he is raping me to death alive, FOR his ASSETS, of which I Am truly, the ONLY ASSET... But what does his Satan-filthy-self tell me ? 'Get a Life.' When Bart & Michael and Diana-Helen-Isis already have stolen my whole life, for LIFETIMES, who could ever be the wiser, except me ?

It was one 'richard allison' who lured me into this side of the universe, SATAN IN ANDROMEDA, no less, for this lifetime on Earth, and I freely came through the Gate, to WORK, AGAIN, not knowing they had planned only to ENDLESSLY RE-PETE, and NOT SOLVE ANYTHING... It was my 'mother' who lured me with 'stars,' to her womb, which is what I was doing 26,000 years ago for this side of the Universe, as a feminine energy, maintaining REAL stars in the sky...) ALL OF THIS LIFE, FOR ME, HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT A LIE. All this, so Satan, can take over the BOTH SIDES of the Universe, and belligerently murder me FOREVER ?

What a sorry lot of Bart's 'brother' 'sister' raping, belligerent, imbecility that WILL HARM and ENSLAVE ALL, with the endless repetition of 3,000 YEARS on Earth, IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE. What a sorry, spineless, idiot, lot, is this side of the Universe... Soon enough, to be a WHOLE UNIVERSE OF BART RAPE & MURDER SUFFERING.

(Basically: don't EVER come back, Dyke-Vampire / Bird-Finger Whore of Dick, Peter, & Willy, Bart-Michael Satan of the Church of Hell on Earth. It's BEYOND trickery... It's outright murderous FILTH, I'm sorry to REPORT.)

Merry Christmas to ALL, WITHOUT RAPE OF ANYONE...

ALL Children are important.
ALL Children are our only Potential.

YIN YANG TRUE MEANING

2009-11-05T07:27:00.000-08:00

Above Photograph obtained from http://www.osirisisis.ning.com/

This is a minimum of a 5K (5,000) year old 'symbol.'

Many of the subtleties of a Sacred Symbol can be lost on the masses, or made into something which the symbol is not. This is the case with the Yin/Yang Symbol. The true meaning of it has been lost on modern mankind. The Yin / Yang Symbol represents the activity required by humans in order to become interdimentional and self-activating co-creators with greater Creation. It also represents the Chinese REALIZATION of 'The Absolute.' We have no similar concept, or understanding in the West. 'The Absolute' is a Proof of

Physical Law: It is a Fact, and an Absolute Physical Law, absolutely, that 'Light' pierces 'Dark,' and 'Dark' invades 'Light' no matter where one is in all of 3rd Dimensional 'reality.' INBETWEEN 'Dark' and 'Light' is a Yellow-Gold CURVE, or the actualizin of 3rd Dimension INTO greater dimensional being. It is where 3rd Dimension transparentizes with you in 3D, and even implies yourself 'beyond' it. Therefore, to walk the Middle Way Human, is the greatest of gifts, if one can grasp it, and, DO IT. By joining with the essential nature of 'reality,' you become ONE, WITH IT. What is 'Essential' is LOVE, the CAUSE of the 'dark' and the 'light.' You can only steal 'love' temporarily, if you rape children, or anyone at all... To let ones body naturally be the Yin, Receptive, 'Dark' Cauldron that it is, and allow ones self to 'look' at all of its parts, practice stillness, and let motion naturally occur, will also fill ones body with 'light,' that IS the LOVE of Creation. It requires your SINCERE PARTICIPATION with your INNER and EXTERIOR 'Self,' who is all you ever really SEE...! (*This is true only if you are not a rape or murder victim, which seems to be all we have on earth these days, as humans.)

This is not something anyone can FORCE to happen. Striving for it sometimes results in the receipt of light, or greater personal clarity and love from the greater universe of beings with whom we learn to align ourselves in equal balance with them and Creation itself, the same as we do on Earth. As long as we ourselves are working toward our own equality with 'Creation' by doing our own Sincerity, Truthfulness, Benevolence, Equality and Courtes for self and all others, we help to maintian the balance of Creation, itself ! Why, because we ourselves, are part of IT !

Consciousness itself is not 'dark' or 'light,' but instead, it JUST IS ! That's the joy of it ! In 3D, you yourself are BOTH, the 'Dark,' and the 'Light,' of consciousness. Your 'consciousness' is the vehicle through with your soul perceives 3D reality.

Your soul is not 'dark,' nor 'light' either, but instead it is an Eternally Living vehicle for you to manifest your 'self' in order to learn that you are a creator, made greater only by your aligning and learning how to love yourself and others, without grasping, as best as is humanly possible for you, in order to make

greater your 'creation,' or 'your own heaven,' as Eminent Taoists DO SAY. We each 'become' and ARE our own heaven, individually and collectively, when we do the Flower of Life, that is right thinking and right behavior toward self and all others...

When you practice the Lotus Flower of Life, or Great Tao Human, or Middle Way, of Being and Doing, you naturally become ONE with it !

Then you can count yourself among the 'Real Humans,' or 'Humane.' Your practice of being humane leads you to what it means to receive greater truth and even assistance from Real Humans, who have themselves already joined with the REAL, or the ETERNAL of LIFE, and immortality of consciousness.

i.e. In your practice of this, you will never 'forget' yourself in the experience of 'death' !

The Curve inbetween 'Dark,' and 'Light' means you have accomplished 'the Middle Way Human,' by being and doing what is humane, and thereby, you are no longer subject to being too much in the 'dark,' or too much in the 'light,' but in equal balance between them, WITH THEM, which allows you TRANSPARENCY TO 'dark,' and 'light,' or 'becoming' one with 3D, implying yourself beyond it as well. You must become faithfully responsible, or you won't remember how to maintian yourself, and your balance within it !

The Yellow-Gold Curve in-between the dark and the light of the Yin / Yang Symbol or 'duality' of 3rd Dimensions two seeming 'sides' is actually created by you, for you, when you do as physical law does ! 3rd Dimension has a 3rd side, which is this gold-curve, and which allows for 'depth' that is also a transparentizing capability with yourself and formal Nature into '4th' Dimension and 'beyond.' This only begins to happen for you with practice, and personal peace. This is WHY, 'DO NO HARMS,' as best as humanly and humanely as is possible for you to do !

THE CURVE IN YELLOW-GOLD,

IS YOU !

YOUR PATH !

YOUR TRUTH !

YOUR GOLD !

YOUR ENLIGHTENMENT !

NO ONE ELSE

CAN BE YOU,

EXCEPT YOU

IN THE FLOWER OF LIFE:

SINCERITY,

TRUTHFULNESS,

BENEVOLENCE,

EQUALITY (JUSTICE),

AND COURTESY.

THIS IS OUR GIFT FROM CREATION !

[ Above Photograph is from YouTube.com, video entitled, Galactic Federation of Light, Salusa, May 6, 2009, on Komurosan
Channel ]

To mis-treat ANYONE, is to ignore this GIFT, from Creation, to YOU.

The Yellow-Gold Curve is almost NEVER represented in the modern Yin / Yang Symbol, AS IT SHOULD BE... So all the subtleties of it are completely lost knowledge on modern humankind, as to HOW all humans should be taught to behave... And self-police their own mind and actions, as best as is possible, given the nature of rapists and liars, and the subsequent and resultant overt and subconscious trickery that is going on in our society, rape from BOTH women and men toward BOTH women and men... And NOT rape... Not FORCE another to be someone or something they are not, and not forcing yourself to do so, either ! And each one learn to take the consequences of their own actions, so they may learn their own soul-lessons, and not steal someone else's karma with rape, or thwarting, just because they 'DON'T WANT TO' do it, CAN'T do it, or just plain WON'T do their own karma / soul-lessons, for whatever reason.

To take someone else's karma and soul-lessons from them, as if it is the perpetrators own karma, is to do the greatest of harms and wrongs, not only to their 'victim,' and unknowingly to themselves, but to the WHOLE SYMBIOTIC OF SOCIETY ON EARTH ! It causes BOTH perpetrator and victim, AND SOCIETY to become 'lost for myriad eons,' as Taoists say, in the searching for the truth of 'Self.' Ultimately the greater 'Self,' you will notice that already belongs to Source, but is still you !

The inherent human condition of aloneness and loneliness, allows us to notice, that in the striving against it, we CAN create true feelings of love, and understanding of WHY to Love, but not to Grasp, for ourselves and for others. And even greater than this, CONCUR with Super-Consciousness itself in the faithfulness OF DOING IT, THIS LOTUS FLOWER OF ETERNAL BEING, without faltering, as sincerely as we are all, individually, capable of doing.

The 'Illuminati' sex-theft, dishonors ALL OF US, through lying and raping trickery that is so totally EVIL, against LIFE, or LIVE spelled backwards... And 'backwards' and 'upside-down' usurpment is how lies and rape makes 'life,' or 'live' into 'evil' for ALL... Or, a 'Death cult' versus a 'Life cult,' endless soul-raping war-filth on this Earth...

Rape effects EVERYONE adversely, BECAUSE we are ALL CONNECTED by the Earth's Magnetic Energy Grid, and the Lotus Flower of its Super-Conscious Perfect Balance.

We ALL need to be our own truest selves, within the Lotus Flower of Behavior for ourselves and for Earth to STAY IN BALANCE, and not steal it from someone else !

No one should be FORCED to be around anyone they don't want to be with... And all should work to totally curb jealousy that causes unthoughtful blindness for ALL CONCERNED... since 'plenty' is created by our DOING SO, IN the unseen, balanced, void.

This may seem like a mere idealistic concept, but it is a reality, when it is made into reality, BY ALL OF US ! It is accomplished by our Sincerity, Truthfulness, Benevolence, Equality (Justice), and Courtesy with one another... Our Humane Human Social Flower of Eternal Life. If we all make the SINCERE AND TRUTHFUL effort to help one another think for themselves in this way, we are THEN, CREATORS WITH GREATER CREATION, ITSELF, AND THIS IS DONE THROUGH OURSELVES... And in this way, there is no need to EVER thwart one another !

In non-forcing of others, you will find non-forcing toward yourself...

Child-rape, forces the child to be with those whom they have not chosen for themselves. And it harms not only the child, for life, but the perpetrator, and ALL connected to each one of them, no less.

The Middle Way Human, or Golden Path, is based on these actions for self, that effects one's balance within the society of 'all others':

1) Sincerity 2) Truthfulness

3) Benevolence

(Kindness and mercy

toward 'Self,' who is 'Others...')

AS MANY AS ONE CAN HUMANLY,

HUMANELY INCLUDE.

If no one listens,

then it is ONLY for you

to find mercy for 'Self,'

the most difficult 'love' of all...)

4) Justice (Equal Respect

and Equality

WITH ALL living creatures.

Treat ALL LIFE

AS IF IT IS YOUR OWN,

because it was created that way,

and already IS that way !)

5) Courtesy

(especially if we disagree...)

To Do this Flower of Life, With Self, For Self, AND For All Others, IS to take responsibility for ones own Life. And to honor all other creatures, especially, IS Courtesy, OR Namaste: such that this is really meant, when you say it, as your Sincerity, "The god in me Recognizes, Acknowledges, and Respects the 'god' in You..." IT IS THE ONLY WAY THE LOTUS FLOWER OF ETERNAL BEING 'WORKS' OR EVEN, EXISTS, is by our recognition of it, and doing of it.

Do the Flower of Eternal Creation for yourself, and all others, who are ALSO YOU, to varying degrees, UNTIL THERE ARE NO VARIANTS...

Only when we all do this Lotus Flower of Eternal Life, are we true human, humane beings together, and with our Earth.

Another reason to Practice & DO the Flower of Life, is that many Masters of the Light and greater dimensionality, cannot carry us, our weight, literally, if we do not practice becoming our own Light, our own self-hood of self-sustenance and golden sun.

This is the 'reality' of 3rd Dimension, and how to shift from it, and beyond:

THIS IS A TRUE PURPOSE OF LIFE,

AND FOR LIFE.

Photo above is from Galactic Federation of Light, SaluSa, May 6, 2009, Komurosan Channel at YouTube.com

~lotusalivelight

SATAN'S UN-ILLUMINED-ATI

2009-11-04T21:57:00.000-08:00

Hall-o'-Weenies & Witches

Hi All,

Since both you and I know I go 'round the world, and am forced to FEEL YOUR SNIDELY MAGNETIC RAPE, and I end up talking to nothing but denier, liar, idiot demons and devils EVERYWHERE I go, all year long, I thought I'd give you a piece of your own imbecile mind(s), on my own behalf ! :)

First of all, you all know you have raped me, IN ORDER to hear what I have to say. Yet STILL you demons murder, yourselves, and me, and call it 'free will.' I personally, am done with you, and will never return to this low of a world with the lowest-of-life on top, you soul-thieving, baby-f'ers !

I'm disappointed at how little true Living and Loving of yourselves and others, ALL OF them, you have done. You have missed the whole point of LIFE, completely. Your excuse is you are 'weak,' and 'NOT READY...'

I'll say ! You refuse to abide, or LOVE. Only thing you have ever done, is thwart for power, and deny that you are doing it. Will you EVER be ready to SHIFT ? I doubt it.

You know, you fuck your sisters, rape your daughters, sleep with your mothers, and kill your own loving behavior, the 'christ' in you, when you allow children to be RAPED... 'Christ' is whom all were given to become. ALL then, have become deniers of the 'GRAIL OF HOW TO LIVE' in Sincerity, Truthfulness, Benevolence, Equality and Courtesy. And you deny this GRAIL (SAN GRAAL & SANG RAAL) who DOES LIVE among you, and who IS you, and DOES BALANCE YOUR 3D FORMAL REALITY WITH THE ONE 'GOD.' You deny this GRAIL, even your assistance... This 'GRAIL' HAS DONE THE WORK, AND IS STILL DOING ALL THE WORK of balancing your formal, 3D Earth, FOR YOU, Now, For Centuries, Milleniums, and Aeons, and who is in me, the SAME as it is in YOU.

Little me, who lives on the other side of this Universe, your 'twin' Universe, in this particular Yin/Yang Curve, came all the way down here, and through to you from Andromeda's golden love, and whom you have raped IN ORDER to tell you this, you deniers and non-doers of the ONE true love of LIFE.

You all are a sorry lot, 'ken,' you stupid imbecile, fascist, jap. Are YOU the one where all of this denial has come from, and IS, COMING FROM for the past 3,000 years ? ?

You thieves deserve your plight. You truly deny yourselves your own true love, and light, in your denial of your 'betters,' your BABES IN ARMS. O' WELL. I guess you all WANT & DESERVE your wars, you idiot, liar, denier, war-horde of lords, murdering your own daughters / sisters, WITH your lovers, and then 'forgetting' you have done so...

SHUT UP. Your 'free will' means nothing, if you do harm.

Lest god sees fit to spit on you.

happy halo wed evening

~lotusalivelight,

and my brother-healer from Andromeda, Mr. Marley to you too, Scrooge... :) (I feel SO MUCH better.,,) (

CHAKRA ASCENSION

2009-11-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

VISUALIZATION:

YOUR OWN PHYSICAL
AND ETHERIC BODY
IS THE ENERGY GRID OF EARTH.

WE ARE ALL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE 2012 ALIGNMENT OF EARTH WITH THE GREAT CENTER OF THE MILKY WAY, OR GALAXY, IN PEACE AND JOY WITHIN OUR OWN BODIES AND WITH EARTH. THIS POST IS ABOUT HOW TO PERSONALLY, AND COLLECTIVELY DO THE 2012 ALIGNMENT FOR OURSELVES AND ALL OTHERS.

WHEN WE BEGIN TO SEE OUR OWN BODY IN FULL, CRYSTALLINE, CHAKRA BALANCE, WE WILL PROTECT OUR EARTH, AND OURSELVES FROM ALL HARMS.

WE ALL ARE THE ENERGY GRID.

FIRST, BALANCE YOUR CHAKRAS IN THE CORRECT ORDER, AND INDIVIDUALLY FROM ONE ANOTHER. BEGIN TO SEE THE 'CRYSTALLINE' QUALITY OF THE CHAKRA COLORS THAT YOU ALREADY ARE !

START TO 'SEE' THEM !

ALIGN YOUR CHAKRAS IN THE CORRECT COLOR ORDER FIRST, SINCE THAT WILL HELP YOU TO SECURE AND HOLD YOUR OWN INDIVIDUAL CHAKRA SYSTEM IN BALANCE WITHIN YOUR OWN BODY, AND 'GROUND' YOUR INDIVIDUAL
MAGNETICS TO EARTH, WHO IS A 'SUPER-CONSCIOUS' PLANETARY BEING AND WHO IS ALREADY A GIANT, MAGNETIC, 'CRYSTAL DRAGON.' BECOME LIKE THE EARTH, AND YOU SHALL ASCEND WITH EARTH !

THIS POST WILL ASSIST YOU TO 'ASCEND,' UTILIZING THE EARTH'S SUPER-CONSCIOUSNESS AS A 'SPRINGBOARD' TO HELP YOU !

(HINT: IT'S REALLY FUN ! :)

BEGIN AT THE ROOT / SACRAL CHAKRA: LOCATED AT THE BASE OF THE SPINE. SEE IT AS 'RUBIES,' AND ALL RED COLORS, ESPECIALLY THOSE RED COLORS THAT YOU PERSONALLY LIKE !

ABDOMINAL CHAKRA: CITRINE. ALL ORANGE COLORS.

SOLAR PLEXUS CHAKRA: ALL YELLOW AND WHITE / IVORY COLORS. THE ACTUAL SUN AND MOON EXIST WITHIN YOU AT THE SOLAR PLEXUS POINT ! SEE THEM AS DISCS ON TOP OF ONE ANOTHER, SUN WITH MOON ON TOP OF IT.

HEART CHAKRA: EMERALD GREEN, AND PINK ROSE COLORS. VISUALIZE A RECTANGLE SHAPE FOR THE HEART CHAKRA AND UTILIZE ITS ARRAY OF COLORS THAT YOU 'SEE.' USE THE EXAMPLES OF EMERALDS, ROSE QUARTZ COLORS
AND TOURMALINE, AND 'SEE' THEM AS RECTANGLE, SPHERICAL OR PYRAMIDAL (TETRAHEDRON) SHAPES, SINCE THESE SHAPES ALREADY EXIST AS PART OF NATURE, AND WILL ASSIST YOU IN BALANCING ALL CHAKRAS FROM THE HEART !

THROAT: ALL BLUE COLORS. SAPPHIRE, AQUAMARINE. ALL BLUE AND BLUE-GREEN COLORS ACTIVATE WHEN YOU SPEAK WITH TRUTH, AND HEART.

PITUTARY: AMYTHYST AND TOURMALINE INSPIRE THESE COLORS
TO BE 'SEEN' INSIDE YOURSELF.
ALL PURPLES AND LAVENDERS.
THIS CHAKRA DIRECTS YOUR WHOLE SYSTEM.
IT IS THE SEAT OF YOUR HIGHER-SELF AND SOUL
WHILE IT IS CONNECTED TO YOUR PHYSICAL BODY.

CROWN: BOTH BLACK AND WHITE ARE THE CROWN CHAKRA, SINCE ALL COLORS EMANATE FROM BOTH BLACK AND WHITE.

YOU COULD CHOOSE TO 'CRYSTALLIZE' YOUR VISUALIZATION OF THIS CHAKRA INTO TWO CHAKRAS BY VISUALIZING THEM SEPARATELY UTILIZING THE COLORS OF IVORY, WHITE JADE, DIAMOND, CLEAR QUARTZ, AND BLACK AND WHITE OPALS.

CROWN CHAKRA IS TRANSPARENT WITH BOTH BLACK AND WHITE AND THEY RUN VERTICALLY THROUGHOUT YOUR WHOLE BODY AS BREATHING TUBES, ELEVATORS, UNIVERSAL RECEPTORS.

AFTER YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SEEING ALL CHAKRAS AS CRYSTALLINE FROM ONE TO THE NEXT: RED, ORANGE, YELLOW, GREEN / PINK, BLUES, PURPLES, BLACKS & WHITES, LET THE COLORS MOVE FROM ONE CHAKRA TO THE NEXT, BUT DO NOT FORCE IT ! THIS WILL BALANCE ALL THE CHAKRAS.

ALL IT TAKES IS A LITTLE OF YOUR CONSCIOUS EFFORT THROUGHOUT YOUR DAY.

YOU CAN BE READY FOR 2012, TO RECEIVE, PROTECT
AND BALANCE WITH EARTH.

"AS ABOVE, SO BELOW."

~ FROM TA-HOTE'S EMERALD TABLET

"AND, AS BELOW, SO ABOVE."

~ WITH LOVE FOR EARTH

FROM LOTUSALIVELIGHT :)