[HT: Ben Terry]

This coming Friday (and for every Friday after that for the next few months), we will be going through a new curriculum put out by Desiring God ministries (resource ministry of Pastor John Piper) titled Your Word is Truth: A Study for Youth on Seeing All of Life Through the Truth of Scripture.

Here is the goal of this new curriculum, as stated by Desiring God ministries.

The goal of this study is that, through the work of the Holy Spirit, the authoritative Truth of the Bible might be understood and embraced so students may see and interpret all of life through the Truth of Scripture.

I am really excited to go through this new curriculum for several reasons (some of which include):

• This is the first time using a curriculum which I feel comfortable with theologically.
• The content is absolutely relevant and necessary (especially for those of us who are seniors and will go off to college next year).
• This curriculum is designed differently than any of the other small groups curricula that we’ve tried at GFC.  The format will be one which will integrate (in the same lesson) lecture and small group activities.
• Multi-media files included.

Our Friday night meeting will start promptly at 8 PM.  Please make sure to be on time; bring your Bibles and something to write with.

One last thing:  Every lesson in this curriculum loosely builds on the previous lesson.  And so, it is imperative that you try to make it every Friday.

Hope to see y’all there!

[25] It (Christ’s wrath-absorbing sacrifice on the cross on behalf of sinners) was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins.

[26] It (Christ’s wrath-absorbing sacrifice on the cross on behalf of sinners) was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.

(Romans 3:25-26 ESV)

It may be because of the fact that ever since I came back from China, my immune system has been getting progressively worse by the year (it started off with only a few colds and headaches in the beginning, but now I’d be lucky if I went one month without getting sick).

But all to say, lately when I’ve been getting sick, the thought of death and dying has been coming to mind (a lot) … and it’s been bugging me.

Now, I know that none of us are going to live forever and that death is an inevitability (that is, unless Christ returns before God takes us).  And so, it’s not as if I’m in denial.

Rather, it’s quite the opposite; with the increasing number of times I’ve been getting sick, I am reminded that death is more and more a certainty.

However, what has been bugging me is just the shear uncertainty of what happens after the fact.  That is to say, how does anyone know what happens after we die?

I recently came across this fascinating blog in which Rachel Barkey, a woman who knew she was dying of terminal cancer, wrote letters, chronicling her spiritual and emotional journey through her battle with cancer until she died on July 2, 2009.

In her second to last entry titled, “Dying is hard,” she wrote the following:

I’ve never done it before and there’s no one around who’s done it before to ask how to do it well.

She articulated into words what I had been thinking.

Undoubtedly, some might wonder at this point: “But John, you’re a pastor! You study the Word of God!  Shouldn’t you, of all people, be confident and hopeful of the glory that comes after death to all those who are in Christ?”

And herein lies the dilemma – namely, yes, I should be hopeful… and yes, I should be confident.  But, contrary to popular sentiment, pastors do struggle.  And for a while now, this was an issue that I was wrestling with for quite some time theologically; emotionally; practically.

But, in the end, God is merciful.

Today, I picked up a copy of J.I. Packer’s book Knowing God and God spoke powerfully through it, as I couldn’t put it down.

Without going into all of the details, one thing I felt God speak ever-so-clearly to me (not audibly; I feel I should always qualify this, why?) through the book was this: “John, you don’t know me.  You may know a lot about me.  But you don’t know me.”

This diagnosis was spot on.

The reason I was so uncertain (and if I had to be honest, even fearful to some extent) of death was because I didn’t know God.  Of course, that’s not to say that I didn’t know Him through the sacrifice of His Son, Jesus Christ.  But, in the end, I didn’t know Him.

In the book, Packer makes the point that theology (the study of God) must be seen only as a means to an end – with that end, being to know God.  Only insofar as theology helps us to that particular end is it useful.  Any other use of theology is simply vain idolatry.

God was gracious to reveal to me (yet again) what a wicked idolater I am.

Reading this book has stirred in me a passion to know Him (as opposed to simply knowing about Him).  I can firmly say now that one of my deepest desires now is to truly know God (as He has revealed Himself through Scripture).

I now picture a day in which, God-willing, I will be on my deathbed - not uncertain or fearful of death – but rather, excited to finally see face to face the One I had been getting to know little by little everyday.

God, be gracious to me, a sinner, even in this.

“… meditation is a lost art today, and Christian people suffer grievously from their ignorance of the practice.  Meditation is the activity of calling to mind, and thinking over, and dwelling on, and applying to oneself, the various things that one knows about the works and ways and purposes and promises of God.  It is an activity of holy thought, consciously performed in the presence of God, under the eye of God, by the help of God, as a means of communion with God.  It is a matter of talking to oneself about God and oneself; it is, indeed, often a matter of arguing with oneself, reasoning oneself out of moods of doubt and unbelief into a clear apprehension of God’s power and grace.  It’s effect is ever to humble us, as we contemplate God’s greatness and glory, and our own littleness and sinfulness, and to encourage and reassure us – ‘comfort’ us, in the old, strong, Bible sense of the word – as we contemplate the unsearchable riches of divine mercy displayed in the Lord Jesus Christ.” (p. 19)