emagarten, dream that flies

life in new milestone.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 17:30:00 PST

29/11/2011

farewell and new hope for meeting my girl Zhou nearby.^ this month i grew with my son, in pc games as well as in emotional difficulties. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, sites' owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, visited my QRRS dorm last Friday night, among cheers of my improved salary, which amount to ￥2500. his growing teeth in rotating period and sometimes funny when laughing with bare gum. his mom still hurt me when greedy upon my salary with which i promised totally cover our son's living and i wouldn't use a penny on my own after my new family forges. her dirty family, including the grandma recent months frequently appeared to lend hands to clean house, laundry or even bath my son. i wouldn't allow any insane persons approaching my brilliant son as usual, so sinful betrayal by baby's mother over her duty to care my son, like bathing him, really annoy me. after the occasion i witness my son bathed by the grandma, i urged my son to have shower in public bathroom, which he dislikes very much, with me, he changed his mind and agreed. direct parenthood means much in my family, since my grand father's influence, and in holy spirit. God, u see it.
next week will sees memory days for my parents. my mother passed on Dec 1, 2010, which my father, God in Heaven now, left the earth on Dec 18, 2008. in these days, i got to know forgiving common people's sins against my Royal of China, under Holy shrine. i knew God's setting to enrich my experience here on the ground, including of course the darker particles against void. in these days, China surveillance broke my stable fast lunch supply, and i now enjoy QRRS in factory canteen. i looking forward more chances to meet up my 3rd wife, girl Zhou, who ignite my burning seeking cry in cyberspace since 2006 and includes this blog. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, u attending the transition and gathering the moment that will catalyze our fate ahead predetermined, from ur catering in the years. God, bring my girls in our limelight. bring my son his seasonal gift u promised. dad, u see.

22/11/2011

dreamed of crusade.yesterday i had good time with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, with his favorite KFC food i borrowed from QRRS Dorms canteen to buy. my workday's lunch supplier went bankrupt, among sinful China surveillance which against me and my allies. in the dawn i dreamed of close combat with cold weapon, with my team against several enemies. God shows me again his gift on me when i pray in the dream, empowered me with people and followers. Its a bright morning now, save and gospels just arriving.
God, bring my girls sooner into my coming new marriages. save my Royal China, save my beloved. present my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, God of Universe, a dell game desktop in year end, as u promised. thx u, dear Father.

8/11/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh again.^got up around 4am to release bladder, then powered notebook to d/l, even later after got up found damned China surveillance broke sessions&hanged all d/l. dreamed of my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, owner of sites warozhu.com and wozon.net. my kid brother these years lingered in Guangdong, southern China, likely also appeared in my dawn dream. dreamed a hand itches, with a knife thrust the palm and turned the inside flesh out, found worms swarmed in the flesh&eating. Its not first time I dreamed of worms biting living flesh under skin, and quite disgusting scene but healing by exposing and eliminating the sick part of body. Its a golden sunny morning now, and also today lunar Winter beginning day, or 立冬. God, bring my new family with my girls in the celebrating year end, when joy seeking hearts clogging social meeting places everywhere, including the cyberspace on Internet.

From snow&winter 2011 among the growing global warming

From snow&winter 2011, among growing global warming

From snow&winter 2011 among growing global warming

View all

Get your own

See the full gallery on Posterous

View this post »

bell rings for new family ahead in late Autumn sunray.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 19:16:00 PDT

27/10/2011

God breaks me and slow my rhythm for full joy of life.^now is pale morning with frost in air. last night I planned to overnight download a pc game but near 9pm the lan in QRRS Dorms suddenly halted down. for I concentrated in pc gaming, and I also don't have much pals in the dorm to inquiry the cause, so I let it to resume automatically. but it didn't. I woke up near 4am and yet failed to fix it, likely the Internet access rule on the router changed. then I tried to sort recent photos, esp some of warrenzh 朱楚甲's works in last weekends in nearby park of his mom's house. God, u see how I enjoy the downstream from world of democratic, how the rotting PRC killing itself in incompatible and incompetent among new world's unleashed fresh era of collision and rebuild, inc riots in Libya or Chinese western neighbors, years of liberation theology re-track. God, allow my girls see clearer my joys in them, in every moment if our live together. rip them doubts and closer our backyard retreat in time. God, what I promised my girls u granted never changes. Royal of China in 1109 years in future arise dauntless brilliance. God, forever guide my life and faith!

15/10/2011

my sweet, a tall girl, first time appears in my dream lives me together.^last night peeking eyes pierced the relation between my son and me, the trinity, for quite some time. I had to buzz son second time to talk himself while first call received by his mom and rebuffed by son upon my message of the new half full moon first time in sky since the month. we enjoyed the direct conversation in air. in dawn I dreamed living with my sweet, a tall girl I can't point out either my girl Zhou or my Taiwan girl or my other beloved praying for me, we make a living by collecting rubbish, among some other pals in the same business on a huge wasteland. when we return to market or our habitation, a student sought through our collection and bought one old book. peace in my mind when I live with my tall girl, who first time appears in my living life, in the dream when dealing routine life. then dreamed of baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, again full of affirmatives. that reminds me an old game we recently reviewed, "Wall-E", which depicted current human habitation will turn into desert and dump. I got up a bit later, trying to describe the holy message and blog it while the sunshine outside turning warmer and brighter. God, my heart for my girls, with whom we unite in one, never open. pl grant our new family, Royal China, sooner during our prime light. God, even my salary improved to ￥2300 two months ago, with which I quite felt satisfying, still I pray u grant my son, warrenzh, a new dell game desktop in this year end by bonus! God, let down the insane spying around the holy family, and glory forever to U!

5/10/2011

dreamed visiting my parents' tombs in my hometown.^yesterday full of bliss. Holy message let me review sinister plot by son, warrenzh's mother's family in her kid sister's wedding ceremony. I felt trembling in angry. after a full load of work online&offline, I visited son after withdrew some of my new salary, which, thx God, increased to near ￥2400/month. I bought son some KFC he likes. I had to buzz his mom&waited some time for they just haunting outside. the woman again shown greediness and evil attempts to infringe my financial independence. she event threatened depriving my privilege to visit my son. this dawn I dreamed visiting my hometown, Zhudajiu, central China. 2 village folks, 朱洪全 and 朱中旺, accompanied me and introduced changes in the village. when I saw my parents' tombs, I felt pains in mourning, esp for my mother who informed her elapsing days before her end of life. my grandpa's tomb close to that of my dad, God in Heaven now. in the magic retrospect/glimpse, I know I am among my siblings the best heir that inherit my dad's merits and mindset, also well as his mission&vision on the earth. Its a brilliant sunny morning now. God, u save.

20/9/2011

dreamed of the Son and righteous of God.^dreamed of the most traditional business of Chinese society, bodyguard. in the beginning, I worked for a Chinese martial coaching club and witness it wax and wade. then dreamed Portuguese took over the business. the boss is mighty and stern, in the end of its doom day, his staff, mostly Chinese, betrayed him and even trying profaning his most beloved kid girl. I saw God's message and demonstration so clear that I felt saved after woke up.

From Autumn 2011&late summer memories

From faezrland天下主家@panoramio

View all

Get your own

See the full gallery on Posterous

harvest season sends son, warrenzh, into his first school term.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 18 Sep 2011 23:15:00 PDT

19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner!

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

also hell with PRC. core sin is the fake atheism, socialism imported from old crap of Russia and Germany. sinful engineers nowadays still an ally of communist partisan, all innocent Chinese will laugh with tears on the day the wrecked sunk shabby construction drains the last dirty and dark conglomerates on China mainland, the scarred land since the fall of Ming Dynasty, a treasure of my ancestor in title Zhu.
benzrad, the Son, here attest the fate of China as an Empire reset in his title for 1109 years in future.

为什么中国的程序员技术偏低 - cnBeta.COM

首先来说一个高级程序员并非靠自己读几本书写几万行代码就能练就的，我更关注于低层的环境，也就是程序员实实在在的工作环境。因为程序员的高低还得从实际的工作来衡量，而非其它。所以我想说的是，中国的软件公司的性质直接导致程序员的水平的高低。而我所说的软件公司，不是指某个或者某几个，而是指主流的软件公司，大众型的软件公司。所以我希望那些已经步入一个理想的公司的程序员理解我这篇文章的定位

14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son's mom's heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister's house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God.

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor's food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency's message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let's do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives.

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game "garteling gears", a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls' willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son's companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu's, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls' companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest!

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn't respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream.

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh's budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC's mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom's hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

benzrad conversation in cyberspace on the day.

benzrad zhu Aug 9, 2011 (edited)

in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia and dog system in nowadays PRC government.: RT: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。

Kaurana Nathalie Merle much divine energy to you in china! 8:11 AM (edited)

benzrad zhu thx, surely my happiest moment is in one with the Holy. 10:21 AM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle :))))) 3:43 PM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle could you explain dog system? thank you :) hope you have a lovely day....4:15 PM (edited)

benzrad zhu cops and bureaucracy, and undermined fake representations in governing or constitution bought from Red Revolution near a century ago, both prey common civilian in totalitarian nations, by monopolizing their gangsters (as an obvious characteristic of dog, on the contrary Christian prefers solitary redemption from God.), separating&dissolving normal social bandage into docile individuals, for the sake of their massive abuse of sole state power. 4:35 PM

19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays' visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma's custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son's visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts' joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God's promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From homeovie2RoyalChina

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

View all

Get your own

See the full gallery on Posterous

View this post »

family showered in weekend at home.

noreply@blogger.com (emark) — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 18:04:00 PDT

Download now or watch on posterous

DSCF6103.MP4 (44464 KB)

Its the last work day in the first week of baby's dad's return from his hometown in central China. baby's dad also suggested to buy a electronic bike, which a long time hunt for emakingir, baby's mom. the night baby bathed, so did his mom&dad at home at cost of ema who prepared&clean the lavatory.

Posted via email from emagarten, dream that flies

baby skate with his mom's help in family gathering before his dad's hometown journey.

noreply@blogger.com (emark) — Tue, 04 May 2010 17:14:00 PDT

Download now or watch on posterous

baby skate with his mom's help.MP4 (49008 KB)

2/5/2010
settled in dad's house, in hometown village Zhudajiu.^its has been almost a week since last blog. now, after 3 days on the road, i settled in the old house of my passed dad. my aged mom cooked for me, and i enjoyed the food very much as usual. the boardband likely will working next day. it has been sunny days since my arrival. yesterday i slept a lot, amid reckons from the shrewd folks in the village, whose inhabitant mostly in family name Zhu. last night it again hard for me to sleep, i felt God, my passed dad aside me, and all of sins in the folks, esp. their wives.
the journey on the train is the tour i babbled most. in thirst for my missing girl zhou, as well as my other wives, i searched every single girl for my beloved. in my dad's house these days sometimes those girls' friendly atitude toward me when i sought talk with them reappear in my mind eyes, and i was deeply touched by their tender hearts for me. on the distant bus from Wuhan to Wuxue, my hometown county, the movie on the bus is a love story, the endeared moment with my girl zhou in QRRS was called forth to my mind, i was more assured that love is immortal, and my new family with my girl zhou, is blessed even stronger.

album description:

Its a bright day after 3 series of the same. we haunted outside together, before my hometown journey which started on next Wednesday when i will leave baby and the city of Qiqihar. the sunshine is quite bright, even stinging. baby cried awhile after a elder boy broast his bravity&push baby's back&let baby fall for he is skating clumsily. on way back home, baby asked some problem with China's security in the world, and i glad to be a talkative lecture for him. its really a nice day.

Posted via email from emagarten, dream that flies

serving my passed dad, God, in hometown village.

noreply@blogger.com (emark) — Mon, 03 May 2010 22:29:00 PDT

videos description:

从网易163邮箱发来的超大附件

DSCF5033.MP4 (78.84M, 2010年5月19日 11:47 到期)

下载

Posted via email from emagarten, dream that flies

Links for 2009-12-02 [Digg]

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 00:00:00 PST

100+ Open Courseware Collections for Aspiring Web Devs
If you’re looking to break into the web dev industry, start your own development and design business, or learn a few new skills to remain a competitive force in your field, you don’t necessarily have to go back to school and pay for an expensive degree.

Links for 2009-11-27 [Digg]

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 00:00:00 PST

In The Age Of Realtime, Twitter Is Walter Cronkite
The year is 1963. It’s November. At 1:40 PM ET, CBS News anchor Walter Cronkite comes on the air. “In Dallas, Texas, three shots were fired at President Kennedy’s motorcade in downtown Dallas. The first reports say that President Kennedy has been seriously wounded by this shooting.”

Links for 2009-06-29 [Digg]

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 00:00:00 PDT

Best Free Weblog Software Other Than WordPress
We all know WordPress is one the most popular weblog applications. What other options can we choose? We have collected the following Top Quality Weblog Software Other Than WordPress for you.

Links for 2009-06-17 [Digg]

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 00:00:00 PDT

Construction of First-Ever Spaceport to Begin Friday [PICS]
This newly-released image shows the sun rising over Spaceport America. It hasn't been built yet, but construction starts this Friday. Spaceport America will be the first spaceport in history, and it will host commercial operations by private space travel companies, like Virgin Galactic.

baby bathed in lunar rain day

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 05:22:00 PST

started to bath.

talk with mom.

wash neck.

mom talking with me.

baby learned to skate

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 18:53:00 PST

its a sunny afternoon. baby's mother suggested haunting outside and baby glad to go. i dozed in the morning for boring, so i also join them. players not too many there, while baby dauntless stumbled on the ice ground. he learned to walk first, and indeed walked well. he in average can walk 100 m or so without falling. we really pround of him.

more about "baby learned to skate", posted with vodpod

View Album

Get your own

Merry lunar new year's day

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 17:08:00 PST

family gathered in eve of lunar new year

lunar new year's feast.

playful baby with his mom

benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 16:04:00 PST

posted with vodpod

happy lunar new year's day with all Chinese

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 05:21:00 PST

look upon the new year

gaming with food aside

look half way

first day of lunar 2009, outside of ema's house

Merry lunar new year's day!

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:50:00 PST

2 days passed since the beginning of the great holiday. its not a bad lunar new year's day for me. with the another bonus from QRRS, my long time employer superficially, i equipped my camera with a rechargeable battery pack, and a bag for my new notebook bought just before the holiday. God, i felt so contented! in the conversation with my home town folks online, i sensed some of them don't glad as me when i told them my news and how i enjoyed them. might as jealous as it can be as them felt, but i hope God didn't left them in misery without hope in this holy days.

as doubtlessly, i shot a lot with my new camera, including open outdoor scenes. even carry a camera as large as my FujiFilm Finepix s2000HD can brings passengers curiosity, i would try my best to bring it everywhere as my second brain and sight. i really enjoy photograph!

last night is the eve of lunar new year. the grandma, the aunt(the kid sister of baby's mom) and the uncle (the second son of ema's aunt) gathered in ema's house to celebrating the holiday. the grandma prepared a rich feast, and the aunt of baby left in time to free me of worry of letting me sleep with the uncle while ema's family slept with baby in our bedroom. last night my family, ema and me and baby son, warren zhu, first time since the curse slept together in bedroom. the grandma with the uncle slept in another room future for baby. baby lingered aside the uncle with pc games most of time. i hope he can care himself days after days. i in beset of God to let him do mostly what he likes.

its a nice day today, bright sunshine till afternoon. ema decided to buy a pmp to read ebook on it. she chose to buy it online. but she remit the payment directly to the vendor, instead through the bidding site, eachnet.com. i just too glad to see people around me enjoy their new gadgets.

ok, that's it. now please enjoy my works through my camera.

View Album

Get your own

a joyful weekends

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 01:37:00 PST

daily feed before sleep.

with my candy

with my ball candy i can be tolerate.

mom with me.

shots from baby's dad's first camera

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 18:56:00 PST

dawn and sunrise out of my house.

full moon over the city.

gaming on pc with baby.

playing pc games with baby.

first try of my first new camera, life with new eyes in deepth.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 17:10:00 PST

in thoughts.

beaming baby.

look down.

snack.

warren&me now have artistic avatar, with link&logo on it.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 18:19:00 PST

i prepared the photo sketching warez the night before yesterday. yesterday in the beginning of the morning i launched to edit our avatars. with the aid of powerful softwares it very easy to got a artistic avatar design. i included our name and website on it, which quite satisfied me. but the process uploaded to my websites uneasy. dog in China surveillance heavily blocked me.last afternoon before the end of work time i almost spent 2 hours vainly trying to upload to qq alumni or my gmail. in the night after i forcifully moved baby who watched dvds for 2 hours away from pc and continuted to upload avatars to qq alumni. uploading finished quite smooth, but when i attempted to set it as my avatar in my profile there, dog again jammed my surfing and forced me gaveup. and they deleted the icq blog of my baby, warren zhu, the hope of China, this 4rd time of deletation.

this morning i uploaded avatars to my picasaweb. but when i backup my files to my gmail, they blocked it again and cut off t he Internet access in lan. they peeking on the lan, and stealen almost all my confidentials. they then broke into my accounts and messed up and blacken/distorted my message under my compromised confidentials. God sees and laughes for the shaddow in the dark of China.

benzrad's avatars:

warren's avatars:

baby in China National Day

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 02:04:00 PDT

with my bread

fighting in game

ate my lunch after nap.

with my toy

baby finished Beijing journey, returned today

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 20:09:00 PDT

the uncle of my baby, stayed in ema's house for his study in junior middle school in the last year, due to visit his home in Beijing. so the grandma brought my baby son with the uncle left for Beijing on July 1st. the grandma has a large family, and quite some of them live in Beijing, mainly doing business of selling pump. we urged baby visit us online but he indeed seldom talked with us in the last month. the grandma likely brought baby visiting some places in Beijing. they lingered there after the 2008 Beijing Olympic game. the families there said attended 2 games there. today they returned. what disappointed me is that they didn't shoot much photos of baby, which underwent growth in the month we absent. here r the photos shot in the journey, only a single photo baby was left alone.

this morning i left office just after 11 am, in the aim to receive baby returning via train. but the route due to arrive on 1 pm. so ema and i retreated home and i tried to fix the ill working mouse. around 12:30 we launched again. we bought ticket to enter the railway station and received baby and his companions just aside the wagon. baby seemingly sound and in high spirit. he ride on my shoulders as usual to leave the station, till we reached a restaurant, with lots of baggage. i ordered 3 dishes and a soup. baby asked to change a restaurant but his mother managed to calm him down. we headed again to ema's house, where we played with baby while the grandma soon went to public bathroom and the uncle watched tv on Olympic game. later i left to computer market to buy a new mouse. on the way home i bought some cookies for baby and he accepted them gladly. then i powered pc and baby asked to watch movie "assembly" again. before dinner he asked to haunt outside and cried for his mom trying to refuse him. we hanged near the stadium where lots of young men gaming there. baby played with sands and we all enjoyed the peace. on the way home i bought a water melon. we drank a bottle of bear at dinner.

that's our happy day on baby's return. its a sunny day after cloudy days, even sometimes drizzled yesterday. can't be more perfect today.

the damned blog ware hanged in the mid of spell check. i had to retype all again. shit.

baby in Beijing with his grandma

dog in China surveillance heavily blocking my access to wordpress and livejournal, let my posting attempt since last night till this morning all failed. posting via diigo's service errs-prone, and painfully delayed.

baby now 3 years on the earth

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sun, 25 May 2008 18:11:00 PDT

lost in the delicacy

mouthful

sat near the earth

dad at guard.

baby in warm late spring dusk

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Mon, 12 May 2008 05:22:00 PDT

Watching movie on pc.

on my scoopter

mom at guard.

sneeze.

our humble Int' Labor's Day in Longsha Park

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Thu, 01 May 2008 01:21:00 PDT

On mini-train with dad.

aside the lake with mom.

dad at guard.

steer tank with mom.

bright afternoon on weekend

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 22:45:00 PDT

its a bright afternoon. baby recently got a cold and pumph and a doctor even warn irregular sound in his heart. yesterday i was melt in sorrow and mercy. but today he still so naughty and sound. he recently frequently demands cares with cries, which quite annoying,including his mother upset with his cries. i enjoyed the cyberspace presence very much. but after got wired the office pc, i sometimes on the contrast lose right mood to busy with the internet, instead, felt boring into doze and tears, resulting frequent doze in the morning.however, when i was full of energy, i enjoyed the web as usual and always be agile on posting and comment on web.

this afternoon was too bright to miss. ema busy with tutoring and earning all day while i dozed all the morning and sat in front of pc all afternoon. so ema suggested bringing baby outside before dusk. i didn't went outside with baby since i was sent to my hometown for ailment in the same month of last year. we visited the place around our home, the southern sports yard and south park. the scenery was the same except some folks refused to nod me for my illness. its almost half and a year after my brought my baby haunting the places in jungle of losing thoughts in the turbulent moment before i felt into asylum at my hometown in Hubei Prov. central China.

i love the game of being mad, and being recovered. i see God's call in it. i love my baby and my peaceful life so far. no matter what a thunder ahead, i see and under God's shine.

baby son on ride of his 3 years on earth

bright afternoon.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 06:49:00 PDT

bright day, turning windy and pale sunshine after noon.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 05:56:00 PDT

i still dozed a lot in office in the morning. last night ema told me she brought baby visited doctor, and was told likely baby's heart has some problem. my direct response was it can't be and i blamed her too fussy about baby's health. she retorted its none of my business. then i launched to operate on pc and my broking heart love for my baby, esp. in the view of cherished his countable time on earth let me sorry. i visited him who playing with his mother and felt we couples love him the same. then i doubting if we should not treating baby liking he was short of something comparing with other kids in the world. and i felt enough of ema's over-protect baby, just to show her tendering. i love baby strong and independent, cute and robust. i don't like to see his demanding other's companion, esp. his mother. but ema glad to drive him to ask for her cares. cares to his every cough with fussy padding, and every changes of body temperature with all kinds of medicines. too much fussy just to show her fragile cares. i would like to see baby silent and independent, enduring and sound.
this noon i returned home and found the grandma didn't cook as usual. i waited awhile then buzzed ema. she was with baby in another hospital, likely brought baby into medical check. i then left to office. on the way she buzzed but i can't listen clearly what she intends to do. after lunch in a nearby restaurant of the dorm i returned to office and buzzed her again and this time she had left baby in the kindergarten and returning to her working school. later when i writing this she buzzed me again and discuss the situation we faced.
i never believed my baby has any physical problem. he was just so perfect, so shiny under God's glow. if any problem calling him, that's from God's. God, let me take ur way and show me the peace of life of my family. i endured and took vow of loving the world u builds.

bright day, turning windy and pale sunshine after noon.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad zhu) — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 00:25:00 PDT