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Bali 岛之旅 Part 2 ~ 住宿

2013-09-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

自这次的巴厘岛之旅后,发现了先视察后订住宿时很重要的~ 这次是我生平第一次出国旅行,已经被兴奋冲昏了头脑,根本没想到那么多,结果就......其实没那么严重啦,就只是去的地方不多咯~ *忏悔中*

这次所订住宿的住宿位于Kuta区,算是蛮城市的地方,一出门就是两条大马路,购物商场就在对面,要过去对面买什么或吃晚餐都很不方便~唯一幸运的是,我们酒店隔壁还有一间便利店~

虽然如此,但这间酒店始终是4☆的,无论是他们的服务态度还是酒店里的装潢都是无可置评的~

第一天到达酒店check in 时,服务员就体贴送上Welcome drink~ 不懂是什么,但是好好喝哦~ (好啦,我承认我贪喝啦 XP)

ღ Welcome Drink ღ

过后就来看看我们的房间吧~

很不错对吧,唯一不好就是一进房里就有一股怪怪的味道~我也不懂怎样形容~@@

当时整体来说,里面的设施是不错的~ 喜欢~ =)

ღ Reception counter ღ

ღ Breakfast beside swimming pool ღ

ღ 泳池另一边 ღ

ღ Spa Room ღ

ღ 对面就是spa room 啦 ღ

不错吧? 但是如果要来巴厘岛接触多一点大自然的话就不建议住这里咯~

但是这里来回机场是蛮靠近的啦~

如果到达巴厘岛太夜了而又找不到住宿的话是可以考虑这里,相信这里的职员可以帮到你~

Grand Mega Resort & Spa

Jalan By Pass Ngurah Rai No. 234, Simpang Siur Kuta-Bali 80361 Indonesia

Phone +62 361 767672

http://www.grandmegaresortbali.com/

ღ Bali 岛之旅 Part 1 ღ

2013-09-25T13:20:00.006+08:00

Day 1 Schedule: Changi Airport → Ngurah Rai International Airport (Bali) → Grand Mega Hotel → Dinner in Hotel → Walk at Hypermart (opposite @ Grand Mega Hotel)

这是我生平第一次坐飞机飞出国外旅行, 可以想象我是多么的兴奋~

在到达新加坡樟宜飞机场,就忙着找counter check in, 过后趁时间还早就我们两人一人背着4kg的包包到处走走逛逛,拍拍照~

ღ After check in~ ღ

ღ With my baby~ ღ　

时间到了就准备登机咯~嘻嘻

飞机起飞当时真的超期待的~ 起飞咯~

过了两个小时半的行程终于得到达Bali 机场咯, 加上入境时有大排长龙,搞得我们在机场折腾了一个小时才可以出去跟我们的司机见面...话说,一踏出机场外有好多司机举着牌找人,顿时有点大明星被一大堆粉丝接机的感觉~呵呵

我是没拍到那壮观的场面啦,因为我当时都被吓得目瞪口呆了,哪还会取出相机拍照?

我们的司机很好人,等了我们那么就还笑容满面的迎接我们,给我的话,我看我一定脸黑跑人!哈哈!

到了酒店,就有人接待我们,给了我们四人一人一杯welcome drink, 真的好好喝,尤其是我们都快渴死的时候~ 呵呵

Check in 了就来看看我们的房间咯~ 酒店就下一回再介绍好了~

放下行李,拍了照就想到出去走走,吃晚餐或买一些零食或饮料来解馋或解渴~ 怎料到一出酒店门口就是大马路,还是车来车往的,虽然在malaysia已经习惯了过马路,但起码还有一个行人天桥或红绿灯的, 但这里的未免有点刺激吧? 幸好酒店有守卫人员带领我们过,不然到天黑我们都过不到马路呢~

既然对这里不熟悉，出外用餐也不方便，就只好呆在酒店享用晚餐吧～还是烧烤大餐哦～

ღ BBQ night ღ

很吸引对不对？服务也超赞的～但很快我们就梦醒回到现实了～这餐我们两人总共花费了610,000rupiah!!!在外面两个人可以吃两，三餐了～ Service charge & Gov Tax 就已经占21% 了！*心痛中*　终于了解为什么有些朋友在外国宁愿去吃快餐也不吃酒店的晚餐...

吃饱饱就过对面的Hypermart 买sim card 和万能插头，因为这里的插头和我们的不一样！走着走着看到一些东西例如电子体重计蛮便宜的，换回来才新币20+~但是我并没有带一个很大个行李箱来扫货，所以就忘记它吧～下次有机会来的话在扫回家，呵呵～

买完了就回去酒店看电视节目和休息咯～

－第一天巴厘岛之旅完毕－

Mori Japanese Restaurant 14/09/2013

2013-09-16T12:11:00.002+08:00

今天，他很罕有的，在一起两年了第一次的把我带进了日本餐厅~

其实前几天已经他已经说过了这星期六会带我去吃日本餐，但我以为他只是讲讲罢了，因为童年阴影使得他对日本餐尤其是寿司的wasabi有恐惧感... 虽然我很爱，但为了他，也就不敢奢望他会带我去吃的一天...

所以当我塞车回着家当时，他一再打电话来说“快点回来哦，我们去吃日本餐"时, 可想我是多么的难以置信...

到家时, 回家放下包包,当时累得像倒下就睡的我又被他拉着出门了.. 在我们家外面有几家日本餐厅,我们本想去一间每次经过都好多人的那一间,但奈何,到达时已经是2.59pm,人家午餐时间到3pm而已啦..简单来说就是关了,要等到6pm才开哦...

没办法,我们只好去别一间吧,希望又不会关门了吧.. 我们就来到了这间Mori Japanese Restaurant, 就位于Permas Jaya, (在连续三间连在一起的宠物店同一排店)

走进去时,服务员就用日语跟我们说"欢迎光临", 那时顾客不会很多(相信是时间问题,人们都不会在下午三点多跑去吃午餐..)

坐下时,服务员放下了menu,转身就递给我们一条热毛巾擦手,服务蛮好的哦...

首先上菜的是这个~

Chuka IIdako RM12.00

Ebi Mentai Mayo Maki RM17.50 (Original Price RM25.00)

Tonkatsu Tonkutsu Ramen Set RM25.00

Miso Ramen RM14.00

我个人最爱还是第二道 - 寿司

配搭wasabi + soy sauce + 腌制过的姜片, 味道真的很赞哦!!!

Tonkatsu Tonkutsu Ramen Set 的拉面汤底稍微偏淡,三层肉片好吃,炸猪排就偏瘦,不会肥腻,要减肥的美眉应该会喜欢吧..

Miso Ramen的汤底较为浓厚, 有好多的冬菇片和芽菜,蛮爽口的~ 而Chuka IIdako 的小章鱼,酱汁蛮甜,一入口就有冷冷的感觉,相信不是每个人都可以接受..

这餐花费了RM68.50,再加上sales tax & other tax 总共是RM79.46.

店名与地址如下:

MORI Restaurant
108, Jalan Permas 10,
Bandar Baru Permas Jaya,
81750 Johor Bahru.
Tel: +607 3883108
Business hour : 11.45am - 11pm

虽然下一次的日本餐不懂在何时,

当好吃的东西久久吃一次就好了啦,

很感激他特地带我来,

也很感激他什么东西都以我为主...

最后是我合成的照片~ ^^

11/09/2013

2013-09-11T14:11:00.001+08:00

我又到回来了，可以说我是无事不登三宝殿吧，如果不是憋的辛苦也不会来这里发泄。
好吧，就说说到底是什么事令到我emo吧～

朋友篇：
话说下星期五，20/09/2013约了朋友和她男朋友，还有我们这里两个一起到Bali 旅行，
想必应该很开心，但在安排方面出现了一些意见分歧，搞得双方男朋友都不爽了，也搞到他们那一对因为一些问题一直吵架。
现在说真，我也不懂可以说什么了，也不敢说些什么，
对这个旅行也没什么期待了，但愿两个大男人见到面不会“擦出火花搞到不欢而散就谢天谢地了...”

自己篇：
对吧，又是我有心事了。不用说，又是家庭和学业。虽说我上次很潇洒的停学了，一句话也没多说，跟男友跑到新加坡做工赚新币，当然，朋友和亲戚方面也没多少个知道这件事。（可以说是隐居了吧）

虽说时间可以冲淡一切，但对我来说这句话好像是没作用。每当我在面子书看到同学去哪里实习，有关学业之类的话题都会引起我的注意，然而就想起有的没的，越想就越低落，越想就越不服气。

就前几天看到我之前护理系的学哥学姐终于毕业了，带四方帽，我真的真的很难过。无论什么时刻，一想起就眼泪流不停。为什么我就想想别人那样好好读书都不行，我知道家里经济负担不起，我很努力的向教育部申请贷款，也很努力自己去做part-time来赚零用钱等等。我都很努力的靠自己好让在学业上不让你们操心，为什么同时也要把家里的负担放在我身上？我真的很辛苦，我受不了了，我也是一名学生，还是一个没有学位的学生。每当我想起这个就忍不住眼泪了，对，我很爱哭，就是为了一点小事都会哭的女生。

好，我放弃了，我去工作。我一心以为只要爸爸的公司没事了我就可以读回书了，但事实上告诉我是错的，我又失望了。来新加坡工作也已经一年了，在加上之前的一年，整整两年我爸的公司都没发过薪金。试想想，一个月没发薪金都已经很难熬了，何况是两年多？！！
他老板在做什么？我爸说的是真话吗？我不懂，也已经不想懂了。如果有人要我体谅他老板，那谁来体谅我们的心情？！
事实上我就是向政府借了一笔钱来到最后一无所有的人，我可以说什么？

我想读书，
真的很想读书．
不想就这样遗憾一辈子．．．

24 - 25/10/2012

2012-10-29T14:54:00.002+08:00

24/10/12
今天放工在等他来接我～
我上车然后他u-turn时看到我工作过几间，位于转弯处那里有一只狗狗打喷嚏，
刚巧那一幕被他看到了，
他就笑着指着狗狗告诉我它打喷嚏，
结果激怒了狗狗，
被狗狗追着～
吓死我了，
因为我坐在后面啊，
我最怕被狗追，因为我怕它们会跑跑下扑上来==
但另一方面，我们笑到很够力～
哈哈哈
惨了，
下次狗狗一定记住我们了～～

25/10/12
今天是公共假期，没有上班
打算吃了早餐就去打保龄球然后再去看2.20pm的电影-《太极2》
但是打完保龄球后去到KSL那里，已经是差不多2pm,
心想找到parking 来都买不及票了~
因为当天是公共假期，相信人山人海的了~
那就唯有回家，等下下午5点多再出来看6.20pm的那一场吧~

下午5点半差不多要到KSL 时，
小白他们打来问我们在哪里，
要约我们一起看戏吃饭喝茶~
还是on the way 那种~
好吧，我们自己去买我们的票先~
过后买了没多久他们还没来，我们就到处逛逛~
过没多久他们就到了~
但我们没一起看，因为我们看的戏是第2集，
他们也没看上一集，那就唯有各有各看咯~
记得我们进场时他们还在买着票~
怎知道看完的时间差不多一样~
然后我们就一起去吃东西~
吃吃聊聊很开心，我们那桌可以说是笑声连连~=.=lll
但是一聊到我读书的事，我就有点脸色变，
竟然想哭！
他们也有给一些建议我啦~ 但我就是有点控制不到自己~
然后他竟然跟他们讲：不要再讲啦，再讲她又不舍得又要哭的啦~
他几时变得那么了解我啊?=.=lll

过后10点多我们就回家咯~
因为小凉, 小只他们还有下一场~

希望下次再见到他们咯~
怎么说身在远方有朋友比没有朋友好吧~ =)

我怎么到现在还是放不下,

还那么爱哭啊?

真的有点讨厌这样的自己 =(

24/10/2012 =)

2012-10-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

昨晚冲凉我洗头了，

然后就像平时那样用吹风筒把头发吹得70% 干，再让它自然风干～

但是到我要睡时头发还有些些湿～

心想到第二天早上头皮一定发痒了，给我抓到掉头皮屑之余就是肯定头痛了～=(

在家的话一定被我妈妈骂，说这样会头风~

但是睡觉时间我又不想再拿风筒出来吹头发～

就想到趴着睡等头发干咯～

他就问我怎么这样睡，我告诉他过后被他命令吹干头发才可以睡～

我不依～就吵他帮我吹～

吵下吵下，他真的拿风筒来帮我吹干头发～

这真的令我很窝心=)

到今天早上也没有像平时洗头后的头皮痒和头痛

呵呵，爱死他了～哈哈

少说话，多做事

2012-10-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

今天跟你说了我做工的事

得不到你的安慰，反而被你说我怎么什么事都往身上扛？

我听到了觉得很不是滋味～

心想，我想的吗？我也很累啊~

顿时觉得很委屈，不想再继续讲了～

我学会了，

我不会再向你说有关工作的事了～ =(

不开心了。=（

2012-06-15T10:14:00.000+08:00

很多时候我不喜欢投诉来投诉去，
因为我不想那么多事。
也就是像其他人说的什么事都放在心里。
可以的话，我是希望可以大事化小、小事化无；
但一旦我投诉的来，我就会越来越厌恶...
所以为了避免这样的事发生，
很多事情我尽可能可以忍就忍、可以忘记就忘记、可以不说就不说，
免得越来越多误会或不爽发生。

有时我真的很不喜欢你跟我说话的语气，
每当你说了我之后，
我就会当下很没有mood的感觉，
生气吗？不爽吗？无奈吗？无言以对吗？都有...
你每次都说不喜欢看到我愁眉苦脸的样子，喜欢看我时常笑的样子。。
但你懂不懂我不开心的原因？
我不说是因为我怕我会忍不住当你的面前哭起来，
也有些是因为你的关系，我不想说的那么明白令任何一个不开心，
所以我才会不想说。

就像你昨晚突然对我说的那句话，
我当下很错愕，也没想到你会对我说这句话，
顿时什么mood真的没有了，
或许你会觉得我很记仇，
但我偏偏就是很在意这句话，
我几时不体谅你了，我几时闹过你、勉强过你为我做你不想做的事了？
如果是这样那我就再也不要吵你了。。。

你知道吗？

“有时候语言比拳头更伤人”
这句话是真的。

怎么办？

2012-04-11T15:33:00.001+08:00

从我开始实习那天开始，
我就开始发现我越来越不平衡。
不知怎的，就开始想放弃了。

没错，我曾经是喜欢过它，
觉得以后可以学以致用我感到很伟大，很有成就感。
但现在，我越来越觉得不对劲了，
我开始厌倦了，也开始发现到这个中我接收不到的缺点，
第一，我不喜欢不定时的工作时间；
第二，感觉上越来越多人看不好份工；
然而要命的是这些都不是重点，
最主要的是将来，这份工工资对我将来来说可说是入不敷出，
有人大概帮我统计过，如果我日后工资是两千多，
我既要还贷款的钱，也给家用，然而在扣除我的生活费，
我已经没什么钱剩了，更甭说存钱买车，日后结婚组织家庭的钱。
光想到日后的生活，我就开始感到害怕。
就算现在也好不到哪里去，
没错，我的学费是不用烦了，因为我有贷款，
但可笑的是，我的贷款既要还我的学费，也要津贴一些家里费用，
感到用处很广是不是？想到都觉得可笑，
我还跟别人说如果不是贷款我早就生存不到了。
现在还好，只是我一直又一直的支出，
再满的水缸也会有缺水的一天，
那我接下来最后那学期的钱怎么办？
我又怎样一口气吐出我用了那么大数目的钱来还学费呢？

我一旦选定了的事可以很不顾一切的做，
也会很固执的忽视别人的说法，
就像我决定了要修读这课程，除了吓到很多朋友之外，也有很多人不鼓励我进这一行，
因为毕竟工钱少而又不被看好，总而言之就像别人说的没前途“钱途”。
然而我却一直告诉自己要凡是都往好方面想，船到桥头自然直，就可以了。
直到现在我越来越把持不住了。
就算我现在想要放弃也做不出决定，
我觉得很矛盾，也有些不舍得，
也要顾虑到很多事情，不是说想放就放。
好的就说我是经过深思熟虑，不好听的我就是婆婆妈妈。

我真的好想找个人陪，找个人聊，
就算不说话都无所谓，
我只是很不想一个人 =(

无论如何，只要我做得出决定的，
就一定是最后决定，
不会再改变的了！

I dislike the way you talk to me

2012-02-27T00:01:00.011+08:00

How many times I feel like to say this.
I think it's almost every time we have some argument,
and after that sure I feel bad in mood then cry~
After cry then tell myself it will alright soon when talk nicer to him later..

Somehow, every time no matter how I feel bad, sad, unhappy after the argument,
I will choose act like nothing after that and find you back.
Because I don't feel like to quarrel with you just because of this.
I thought it may reduce the chance of quarrel or any unhappiness between us~
who knows it's just my thought,
and it just make you more unhappy,
some more you think that I'm not care you as you care me.
You dislike that I just keep quiet when we have some argument;
You dislike that I didn't say something good to coax you back when you're angry/unhappy after the argument;
You dislike that I act like nothing as normal after the argument.
Therefore you said that I didn't care you.

But then did you think that, do you accept what I said during the argument?
Okay, I admitted that it's my fault I didn't coax you back after the argument,
because I also don't feel good and unhappy after that.
some more I don't know what to said.
I thought that find you and chat properly when you feel better after this.
And it might be nicer...
But seem like you dislike it too.
Of course I will angry and sad on what did you said;
Of course I care what did you think~
Just that sometimes I really don't know how to talk to you~

Just now, you make me really feel unhappy~
And finally I show it to you too.
You know why?
As what I wanted to say it out for long time ago and finally I did told you just now
"I DISLIKE THE WAY YOU TALK TO ME" and "IT'S REALLY HURT ME" =(

Feel bad in mood.. =(

2012-02-14T00:34:00.006+08:00

Yesterday when I having my 1st lecture class in morning..
suddenly my phone rang~ (luckily I put it in silent mode, if not~~)
after that followed by a message~
I'm wonder who will call me at this early morning.
It's him? I think impossible, because he need to work at this period of time.
Family? maybe.. Friends? Who else?
Keep on guessing during the whole class~
After the class over, quickly take out the phone,
saw a message and miss call from him~
What I saw in the message is he get into an accident!
Ha fall down from the motorcycle while going to work!
Then I quickly call him back~
And keep on asking how's with him~ bla bla bla~
I don't even remember what I have been ask..
Just know that luckily he get injured with his right hand and leg..
Overall the most importantly is he's still alright...

After that, just know that all my study mood gone and become very very bad in mood..=(
Feel like to go back and see him immediately if I'm able to do so.
But then I know I can't..
Still remember that it's so difficult for me to stay at uni for whole day long.
Somemore the next day was valentine's day...
All mood gone.. realize that it's not important whether how he celebrate with me during the valentine's day as long as I hope that he's safe all the time..
At night he show me the picture of his injured hand..
Although it's not serious and worst as I think..
But I'm sad and unhappy coz can't with him when the time he need me.
Anyway, thanks god for blessing him and hope that all his bad luck over after this.

新年期间~

2012-01-30T22:44:00.003+08:00

今年的新年有些平淡得来但又有些不同~
呵呵呵

除夕夜，
本来他说会来
但因为一些原因又说不来了
初三从怡保来载我去新山
当时是有点失望的咯
但不用尽啦，再等多几天吧~
就这样忙着在家帮忙打扫，洗衣~
然后晚上和伯伯一家人出去吃团圆饭~ =）

年初一，
本来是说好一早十点多上rawang去叔公家~
怎知我跟我妹很迟才起床，因为前晚整晚都有人放烟花
兵兵砰砰的~ 整晚都睡不好咯 @@
结果十点多起来煮面吃了，
十二点多才上rawang~
去到被叫去吃午饭咯~
吃饱过后就看戏，玩狗狗~
其实当时我真的很想倒在沙发睡觉的咯~哈哈哈
因为很无聊咯~
我就闭目养下神，发现要差点睡着了~
就爬起来吃下零食好分散下注意力咯~哈哈
心想这下我完蛋了，肥死了T_T
然后晚上跟他们吃完团圆饭没多久就回家咯~

年初二，
跟年初一一样睡到十点多才起来~
感觉上还是睡得不够~@@
然后有时煮面吃饱了就准备好等姑姑来载我们上rawang去姨婆家~
没办法，我爸跟我妈都是rawang 长大的~
去到那里也是吃午饭的时间~
所以还是吃~我总不能说我在减肥不可以吃吧~
就牺牲下咯~
吃饱了~就坐在那里看戏~
我姑姑跟表姑（她表妹）就一大堆东西讲~
我们这些小的就负责看戏咯~
然后四点多就回家了~ 哈哈~
晚餐我妈妈没煮，竟然买pizza回来吃~

年初三，
本来是要跟姑姑他们去大姑的酒楼吃午餐然后捞生的~
但是我今年没去~ 因为要陪他~ XD
幸好我妈没不爽~
他早上十点多就打来说他在半路了，就快到了~
然后就立刻爬起来准备~
十一点半到了，他还搬了个礼篮来我家~ 见了我家人~ 哈哈哈
由于十二点多我姑姑要来了，所以我们要在她没来之前就要走人~
所以他坐一下我们就走了~
本来直接可以回新山~
但他厉害，把新山家里锁匙留在怡保的家里~
所以吃饱早餐就轮到我驾车回他家拿锁匙~@@
拿了锁匙我们没地方去，而且又很晒~ 就去他朋友家坐坐~
然后呆到六点多就去吃晚餐~ 还叫他另几个朋友出来给我见~ @@
他们在那里聊天，我就一直拿他的iphone来玩游戏~
我一边玩一边笑，他朋友看到我都觉得好笑~@@
然后八点多天黑了就起程回去新山咯~
我们两个轮流驾车，
他由于整晚没什么睡到，一开始驾到出怡保highway最近的休息站就换我驾了~
然后我一口气驾到马六甲~@@
而他就在车睡觉~马六甲过后就换他驾回去新山~
真的有累到咯~可怜他每次找我时都要跑那么远的路程~
心痛他咯 =（
回到去都已经凌晨一点~冲了凉聊一下就睡了~

年初四~年初六
这几天他都一直带我去看戏~
初四我们去看《阿炳》~ 看完后时间还早我们就去逛supermarket~
因为他要我煮粥和煲汤给他喝~哈哈
回到家我用了两个小时煮了鸡粥，煲了个包菜汤，煮了个asam鱼，还有两个鸡腿~
没有错，我们是吃不完~
结果我们十二点多在家看完了dvd又继续吃~ 还是吃了就睡觉那种~
肥死了~T_T
然后初五就厉害，一口气看了两套~
一套是《Journey 2》，由于他姐姐和她男友回来了，晚上我们又看多一套《大魔术师》，
这次是坐 Beanieplex couple seat! 哈哈！
之前时常听同学说，以为只有Sunway 的戏院有~我没想到在JB 也有机会坐到~ XD
然后初六我们就去看《Underworld》，看完了后就去吃晚餐～
以为去吃一下就把我的小包包和钱包放在车上～还是放在车位底下那种～结果在短短五到十分钟就被人爆镜偷了～
当时什么mood都没有了～也反应不过来～他反而还好奇我怎么那么冷静～==
看来他的损失比我还大，但回到他家反而是他安慰我～　>.<

年初日，
我就回家咯～
他还一直叫我不要回～＝＝
回时他还给我一些钱防身～
天啊，不要那么好可以吗？
我会想哭的咯～！='(

虽然只有短短几天，
虽然发生了一些不开心的事，
但讲到尾还是开心的～
希望可以尽快看到他咯～XD

Emo Again =(

2012-01-22T01:13:00.006+08:00

Finally I have start my Semester 2 in IMU on 16th January..
Sounds so frustration that I suppose start my degree life for 1 and the half year and now only in Semester 2. ==
Well, it's suppose a more challenging life than in Semester 1..
Actually these few days I seriously tired + stress + frustration + ..... anyway it can considered as COMPLICATED minded again!
Tired is due to I have to took few hours on travelling go and back from uni.. since my classes almost everyday start from 8am or 9am like that TIL 5pm!
So you can imagine how is the condition of packing with other peoples inside the train and how does it getting worst especially when the train was delay...... T_T

Well, suppose these few days I'm very very unhappy~
Got lots of thing happened on~
First is I found that I've lost interest on study anymore...
I don't know is me think too much or it's too long time I didn't touch my book or what..
Even myself also don't know how to describe~
I just feel like to work and earn money and it might be a better way for me and even my family..
Plus I totally can't imagine about my future~
I started to understand how's some people feel when they took the course that they're not interested in~
I scared that I unable keep up with progress in learning~
What I think now is even in sem 2 also feel that, then what about the following sem I need to go through??
Sounds irony right?
Okay, no matter how I know that I need to continue~
Maybe I need time to adapt with that and hope so it's just a temporarily minded.

Second is my dear said he might not came to house on today.
He told me 2 days ago. But he said will still find me on wednesday night.
Seriously I got bit disappointed.
Because I still need to wait for few more days only can see him.=(
But I just can act like nothing and said "okay okay, no problem, as long as you okay with that. =)"
Then today when he call me,
and don't really forget what I've said, (just some kidding as I remember)
he got bit unhappy with that and said want to go sleep.
Suppose I don't feel like to end-up the call so fast..
but no matter how I coax him he just said don't want and want to sleep already..
Like that I really don't know what I can said to him anymore.
So I just can said bye bye to him.
Actually from here I got bit unhappy and frustation.
What I can think is just maybe he too tired so he want to sleep!
Normally when he slept in the afternoon he can sleep for 3 hours like that.
but today after 1 hour he woke up and sms me.
I asked him why so fast get awake, and he just said because I bully him, he feel unhappy so he can't sleep.
LOL~ after that don't know it's me think too much again or what.
Feel like his reply just short and nothing to say to me only.
Aiks.. again..
Sometimes I really don't know what I've said and make him feel unhappy.
I really hate of my stupid!!! =(
But luckily normally this won't lasts for few days,
normally the next day like that will be alright.
Although like that, but it also make me think much for whole night.
I really dislike this feeling. =''''''''''''''''(

Grrr... I don't want emo come to me again!
What I can do now??? =(

失眠夜~~~@@

2012-01-15T04:56:00.003+08:00

突然又想到这里了~
不懂为什么，就不想给人知道我现在的心情~
对，我失眠了~
而且还是连续差不多整个星期都持续这样的情形~
之前还说可以勉强睡过去，最多半夜会一直醒来而已~
但今晚，我简直睡不下去！！

怎么会这样？
是我太多烦恼了吗？
告诉他，他说可能是我要开学了太兴奋所以睡不着，是这样吗？
我都不见得，就是完全没有睡意~
最近都很少更新面子书或叉包了~
写在面子书上被我最不喜欢的人看见了，她一定会第一时间报告我妈~
然后一定说一大堆“你女儿什么都写在网上~当然不告诉你啦，不怕你讲她咩~”等等之类的废话~
然后我妈一定问我为什么什么事都要写在网上一大堆事情~
想起来还真的多亏她呢~
叉包上呢？
其实那里是一个蛮好的地方，
朋友都不错，也没有我不喜欢的人~
只是现在我也不敢什么事都写在那里了~
一旦我有什么不如意的事写出来，又或则当我真的有想不通而又不懂怎样告诉别人的事写出来的话~
他，看到了一定会问我什么事~
当我说没事时，他就会说我什么都不告诉他~
我知道他是因为关心我才会一直追问我~
我知道他是想替我分担一些我面对的烦恼~
我知道除了父母和朋友以外，他就是唯一想听我诉苦的人~
我知道，我都知道~
只是很多事情不是想要说就说得出来~ 不是想要说就说得明白~
而且我知道他自己本身也很大压力，也有很多烦恼~
我不想再增添他的压力和烦恼~
不想他替我担心~
我只是想当我/他不开心时都有对方陪着就心满意足了~
可以的话我想在他面前永远都是那么开心的，
我不想给他看到我不开心的样子~

现在不知不觉已经是5.17am，
我还是超精神的~
烦恼吗？没有。
不开心吗？还好。
想太多吗？应该是。因为突然很多事情涌上心头来~
希望开学时有事情给我忙我就不会想太多吧~ =)

怎么啦？

2011-02-07T22:23:00.007+08:00

有时我发觉我是一个什么是都藏在心里的人，
不是我不说，而是我发觉就算说了也没人可以帮得到我；
有时是没人会听我说...
所以一旦我忍无可忍时一说了出来，
就不是每个人都可以接受得到。

对，我承认我的处理方式不是每个人都可以接受的。
我开始不会怎样去做人了，
也不懂该摆出一个怎样的脸去面对别人。

最近我做出了一个很不理智的做法，
就是隐瞒。
为什么我会隐瞒呢？
第一是，我不想让我那位朋友想太多；
第二，就是不想让太多人知道这件事；
第三是，说太多惹得我朋友不开心，到最后就变成我是惹事的那个人。
但是很明显的是，我又做错了。
以为不说，就能瞒天过海；
以为避开她，待我处理好思绪后再找个机会慢慢说给她听；
很不幸的，被她发现到我的不对劲，惹得她想的更多，
我不懂她有没有说给她男友或她的好友听，
如有的话，惹出这件事的人又是我。

但当我好不容易说了出来后，却得不到任何答复。
现在换我来想她在想什么？她怎样啦？还好吗？生气吗？还是什么啦？
我每天都在想。
甚至还在想，我们还算是朋友吗？？

以为我隐瞒，隐瞒到很开心吗？
我连身边的朋友都没有说出来...
你又懂一个心事憋在心里说又不敢说出来的痛苦吗？！
如果你是我，你又会怎么做？？？

complicated complicated~

2011-02-07T12:44:00.007+08:00

First of all happy Chinese New Year to everybody~~
but hor.. don't know why I'm not in cny mood at all! Ish...
why ah?
just know that these few days keeping on followed my parent went to relative's house "bai nian" only...
boring man...=(

and yea, don't know is me think much or what...
I found that the distance between me and another person getting far and far away..
why ah? I don't know why too..
still remembered one of my buddy yen asked me before, why I can be so good with that friend..
and now even me also found that I'm not as close as with that friend anymore...
can anyone tell me why ah?
I just know that is me always try to find that friend for keeping in touch with each other.. but if I didn't find her, I think she won't find me at all...
Under this condition, I think this relationship can't be stay long lo...
Hmmm.. I don't know how to say too.. maybe it's my problem too??

Between, I starting to try to put down some negative thinking...
Coz I found that when I'm feel that I'm the unlucky one, there might be someone more unlucky than me on the another hand..
If compared with them, I think mine one just a small matter..
plus, I should try to make some changes from mistakes, to make it more better..?

不正常的我

2011-02-01T00:52:00.006+08:00

有试过好像类似一无所有般的感觉吗？

有试过好像类似人间消失般的感觉吗？

有试过好像迷失自我般的感觉吗？

有试过好像欲哭无泪般的感觉吗？

有试过突然同时间有完以上的感觉吗？

怎么突然觉得自己变得很可悲般？

突然有种不正常的感觉，到底是什么呢？？？

那就是......突然想去上班！！！哈哈哈！

尤其是那种忙到不可开交那种！！！我无所谓！！

开始又变得不正常了！哈哈哈！！！

To the one I hurt... =(

2011-01-29T00:33:00.009+08:00

I know it's my fault for suddenly leave you away...

I can guarantee that this time not all of your problem...

I seriously glad that you have found your happiness...

I'm not going to hide any secret from you..

but just don't hope to make you think much more unhappy things only...

Yea, I'm not saying I want to reject you as my friend..

It's because you're really my friend then I only seriously hope to settle it well before appear in front of you...

At last, I just hope girl you stay happy with your love one...

Just give me some time to settle my problems first ok?

If you really hope to know what had happened,

I promise I will tell you at the future time when I able to leave it down.. k?

Why I want to do so, I have my own reason..

Sure, I can understand that maybe my way was wrong and also not fair to you...

Yet, I know you might be think that I'm selfish enough..

Yea, I'm sorry for doing such thing on you...

I'm sad too.. because I can't tell and share with anyone..

Plus, I seriously sad when I found that you've blocked me from fb too..

Lastly, really sorry la girl... ='(

If you really hate me to do so on you, I can understand how your feel.. seriously..

Thinking much again...

2011-01-27T00:07:00.006+08:00

Don't know why these few days there are lots of changes in my minds..
Hahahah, sometimes really think that I "sendiri cari pasal"..
at the end is "padan muka"..

Alright, lets talk back what I did in these few days..
22th and 23th jan:
worked as crew for feng shui seminar and astrology at KLCC..
from 7am to 6pm..
quite tiring actually, need to wake up at around 5.45am.. ish...
luckily my job not so hard actually,
just need to sat in a room with others colleagues and print those bazi chart.
yea, those chart with customer's date and time of birth.
quite a easy job..
but then when my friends who worked with me (but in different area) heard that I can print out the chart ,
so they keep on ask me to print out the chart with their date and time of birth.
they said want to ask those feng shui consultant lo..

When I'm still in first day, I don't dare to walk around la..
but in the second day, mean the last day of seminar,
plus under with my friend encouragement,
I really ran to consultant area there, show them my bazi chart and ask them about myself.
and of course, lee wei was beside me..
she is the one who keep on ask me go there since she worked as time keeper with consultant..
Not only me, lot of crews and colleagues also ran to that area for asking consultant about their future things.. the most important thing is the consultation was FREE!!!
*of course, only available for us who worked as crews only!

Seriously, I don't ever think that what the consultant said was so true for me.
no matter on my behaviour, personality or anything about me,
it totally.. true!
Not bad not bad..
I can learned lot from this event, and yea if there is any event for this company,
sure I will join again!

24th and 25th jan,
these 2 days kinda unlucky..
I get sicked for these 2 days after the event, ish...
some more this point really same like what the consultant said that day,
he keep on mentioned and asked me better drink more water,
since my immune system not so well..
so this point bingo again! haiz...

and yea these few days, I really feel stressed..
stressed until don't know how to said...
I don't know why there will be lot of things happened on me..
I don't know how to handle it, and how to accept it..
yet don't know how to said it out..
these few days I keep on thinking why I become so unlucky?
Where is my luck? and when it will be back to me?

Between, sorry to my girl..
I'm not going to escape from her..
but just I don't know how to talk to her.. and even face to her...
Will it help if I said it out?
as I know, it won't..
I think just will make her think much more only..
Aiks.. it's okay then..
Since her luck has starting, then just don't want to disturb her..
just let it be..
I know she was trying to help me..
just like that day purposely go sing k with me..
when sing til half way, my tears still coming out without control..
Useless me...
Of course, I think she will thought that I'm hating her or what..
seriously no.. but just... aiks..
I don't know how to said...
For her own good, I think I better disappear for temporary...
to avoid me and her think much more...

Maybe really like what the consultant said,
sometimes too over on helping others at last will bring lots of sadness and trouble to your own.
Yet no one will understand and appreciated for what you've did for them..
Meanwhile, talk too much may hurt other peoples only..
So, since no one can help me..
then I just keep quiet better..
Hope the time will help me to forget it...

Bye..

2011-01-15T19:44:00.007+08:00

I have to said bye to my coursemates due to the mistake that I did on my EOS exam and re-sit...
Because of the mistake,
=> I spent around RM500 for the re-sit fees..
=> I cried for the whole day since I unable and don't know how to accept the truth..
=> I need to said bye to my course mates, I have unable to continue with them in the journey anymore..
=> I have to re-start for beginning again.. just because of ONE subject.
=> I don't know what I should do now..
=> I don't know whether I should continue or not..
=> I need to spend more no matter money and time than others..
=> and a lots I don't know how to describe here..

Just I feel like I'm very very useless..
although my parents didn't blame on me, but still encourage me to start from beginning..
but I unable to forgive myself..

I seriously hope that I may pass..
I really did put lot of efforts on preparing the paper..
I really tried my whole best to put in all the answer that I remembered..
I really thought at least I can get pass..
But the truth told me that I'm failed...
Such a big joke on me..

When I think back and look back on the notes,
I found out I missed out lot of main points and did lot of spelling mistakes on the paper..
I feel like I'm really useless enough..
WHY I BECOME SO CARELESS?!

What I do now is just know to cry, stare blankly, think and doing nothing...
Although now I'm not crying anymore,
but when the school day coming near, I just can cry...
because I knew that I was unable to continue with my course mates anymore...
and this is the truth happen on me currently!
Even my colleague saw me also keep on asking me why my eyes become swelling..
Who can teach me how to answer?!

Now I have to understand,
course mate become my senior, and my future junior become my course mate..
WHat to do?!!!

LOL...

2011-01-13T10:49:00.010+08:00

This week suppose the last week I stay in LYS agency...
and I can't even imagine that I can stay and hold for one month...
Hahahhah... such unbelieveable for me...

Hey yea, I got something feel like share here..
One of the unit manager, Mr Jacky la..
so far as I know he is the one quite closeness..
still remember when I'm worked as general clerk at there,
my another colleague, ms chong and I always said he's very "ugly"..
Of course at here "ugly" this word not mean for his look, but his "behavior"..
This is due to both of us can't tahan his closeness!

He won't simply waste and spent money on others, even to himself..
But then the most admirable is,
to his wife, he can provide the best to his wife,
especially during wedding time..
no matter on take photo, rent for wedding gown, wedding dinner, honeymoon and etc...
He really spent lots as long as his wife happy..
remember he told me about himself when he was young,
very poor and work for many jobs yet this include worked as cleaner too!!!
so he understand the important of money in this world,
and that's why the person he most appreciate is his wife!

Back to the main point,
this few days he keep on ask me to make a cup of tea with his tartary buckwheat.
Then I kidding and said that then can I make a cup for my own after his one?
He said no problem and I thought he was kidding la..
and didn't bother him la..
who knows just now when I watching video,
he came and ask me help me make a cup of tea,
then I said no problem la and he quickly bring his cup and the tartary buckwheat,
after put the tea on his table, he ask me whether got cup or not then make a cup for myself..
I said I didn't bring la,
then he borrow me a cup and pass me the tartary buckwheat,
Seriously I get shocked because I thought he was kidding!
Although this is not the first time he treat me drink la,
but then this time my identity was different, I'm helping an agent work but not an general clerk who can help him before leh!
Plus hor, this can of tartary buckwheat not cheap lo~

Here is the picture~

However, a big thanks to him lo~ ^^

Gathering

2011-01-12T10:50:00.004+08:00

Last night, I went to Moe de cafe again...

I even didn't realise that they will choose that place...

But this time is different, it's due to this time is with different people...

Although the place is same,

but there are few different than before no matter on feeling, peoples and their uniform...

we spent almost 2 hours in there..

chat lots and laugh lots...

especially when we play the play cards,

totally out of control...

Hahaha! nice!!!

心情复杂的一天

2011-01-11T01:12:00.007+08:00

今早一早考完试后，
其实应该是松了一口很大的气，
毕竟终于考完了，
问题其实还好，
不会很简单，就幸好有准备到，
应该比上次还好一些而已，
因为起码我还想到东西写进纸上。
目前，该烦恼的应该还是成绩，
虽然我没有遗漏任何一题，但毕竟有一些答案我还是不肯定的，
所以就很担心......

第二，应该只是一个小问题，
对我应该也不会有很大的影响，只是......我也不懂怎么说。
起初我收到一个男同事的短讯，希望我考试顺利，
我当下只是想到的有两个：怎么用英语祝我啊？（当然我的意思不是说他连一些英语也不会啦，只是我们之间交谈都是习惯于华语）
然而就是:怎么突然那么好啊？也很意外，过后就谢谢他咯。
但是回复却令我当下愣了一下，原来是我朋友用他的手机来传短讯给我。
我当时第一个反应就是：庆幸我刚刚没乱写些什么，不然岂不是尴尬死？
虽然我也不会写些什么不见得光的秘密，但毕竟对待每个朋友的方式，
无论是交谈还是对待态度都是不一样的...
明明以为是那个人，但到后来才发觉原来是另一个人，感觉不会很怪吗？
再说，你也不懂对方会不会以你们的交谈当话题......我知道她不是这样的人啦，但......就心里始终会觉得很奇怪咯.......
所以说，通常在用别人电话传短讯时，习惯上都会表明自己的身份，免得别人的误会，不是吗？
再说，当你在跟一个不是用着自己电话的人传短讯时，都会有所保留吧~
感觉就是.....我也不懂怎么形容这件事~唉......

第三，就是一个最令我光火的，同时也发飚！
话说晚上七点我帮我妈接我表弟和妹放学，因为刚补完习嘛......
Metro prima那里通常这个时候都会很塞车的......
Flat 那里有停满了车，心想没办法了，就只好停在路边等他们下来吧，
我是自认没阻碍到交通啦，但这时在塞车期间，竟然有一辆警车从我车旁走过，
还按喇叭示意我把车驾走，那我就只好假装出信号灯要走咯，
刚好有红灯了，所以我也出不去，就一直赖在那里吧~
好不容易看到警车开走了，那我也不用把车移开咯，因为我一旦移开就必须绕一个大圈回到原位。但心还是会担心警车倒回来吧~
我想打给表弟他们，但又担心他们在上着课，就为由继续耐心等待咯。
没多久，我就看到他们两个出来了，但就一直谈天，而且他们前面还停着一辆车，所以就没留意到我啦……
我就想到打电话给他们，怎知各别打了一通电话给他们，他们还是没留意到，还一直在高谈阔论。
我这一边就着急得如热锅上的蚂蚁，一直在想着怎样才能吸引到他们注意力，按喇叭吗？他们一定是以为是别人按的，毕竟那里那么多车；派人下车叫他们吗？车上又只有我一个人；下车吗？我怕阻碍到别人，毕竟我是停在路边......
在无计可施之下，我惟有立刻管掉汽车引挚，立刻跑下车过去喊他们吧~怎知就在我也匆匆忙忙过马路时，竟没留意到有辆摩托向我的方向驶来，就差那么一点就被他撞到...
说真的，我当时也吓了一跳。
幸好最后也没事啦，但这令到我更为光火，我过到去一见到他们就直接对着他们大骂一顿！！！
我知道我是有点过火，但当时我真的是气到出烟！连他们那么多学生同时放学之中，我也认出他们两个；他们就看不到我的车吗？！
哼，他们要讨厌我就讨厌够吧！我也很生气！什们心情也没有啦！哼！=(

What I did on year 2010?

2011-01-01T22:09:00.010+08:00

1st, I'm glad that finally I can further study at Uni's life~
although the tuition was expensive enough, but those lecturers, doctors and professors are nice~ ^^
but the most sad thing is, why I still can get failed in exam? somemore BMS related to bio term.. ish.. how comes huh? eventhough I've skipped for one year study, but it shouldn't be a good excuse for me to get failed right?! Ishhhhh!!!
Alright, still one more chance for me to re-sit, hope this time I can get passes lo~ =D
** not kidding, I must get pass!!!!! Please pray hard for me although I'm praying hard for myself everyday now!!!

2nd, seem like always get emo~ =(
Why ah? Somemore serious than last year~
Ishhh~ it should not be anymore~
Must try to avoid it in this whole new year 2011!
Life is getting better but not getting worse! =)

3rd, glad that there always lot of friends around me when I'm unhappy......
Always consult me when I take things too hard;
Gave me opinion when I get confused;
Taught me when I did something wrong;
Support me when I need it;
Help me when I'm in trouble;
Listen to me when I got lot to share; and etc...
wow, it's really lots to share when talking about them!
Do appreciate them lots for being with me always besides my family!
Thanks and love you all!! =D

4th, I have to work more hard on both study and working in this year 2011...
Study hard for not wasting money on re-sit anymore,
yet don't let my family and lecturers get disappointed on me!
While working hard for earning more and more money,
try not to let my parents stress about financial problem,
although I can't help much but I willing to try my whole best to help!
At least must be better than last year!

Anyway, should throw away those unhappy and start the whole new year with hope and happiness!
And yea, I should be more mature in thinking and not to easily get influence by others! =D
See yea! ^^

内疚

2010-12-31T10:55:00.006+08:00

昨天，让我发现了一个我一直以来都没发现到的问题。。。
而这件事到现在就一直困扰着我。。。
而让我再次失眠了。。
为什么要让我遇到这样的人？
为什么要让我觉得内疚？
为什么要让我觉得之前的我很过份？
为什么我一直要不知觉的伤害他、令他难堪？
为什么他要一直这样容忍我？

现在的我已经没颜面再出现了。。
我觉得别人在说我时，我会觉得很没脸；
而他呢？面对我的无理取闹，仍然嬉皮笑脸。。。
这是我最不能原谅自己的。。。

我突然很讨厌自己，
也很恨自己。。
讨厌自己的看不开；
讨厌自己的小气；
讨厌自己口无遮拦；
讨厌自己在说话时没顾虑到别人的感受。。。

为什么？为什么我要变成这样？！
我情愿现在有一个人可以把我骂醒。。。
我也不想这样。。。

现在的我，到底该怎么办啊？？？ =(