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I’m sure resistance will hit up someday soon. It always does. How you handle resistance will determine your success.

It’s same for gym, life or any new habit you start for that matter. Resistance to go to the gym. Resistance to complete your project. Resistance to eat only healthy food. Resistance to study. Etc.

Resistance is inevitable.

At this point, I’m just wondering how well equipped I am at handling resistance now compared to a decade ago. There are few things I look upon people to determine how successful they are at life. One such element is overcoming resistance – doing things even when you don’t feel like doing it.

That’s the biggest predictor for success. If any person has that attribute my respect for them goes up automatically. This is the habit I have been trying to cultivate for a long time.

I have been successful at times but failed most times because of my fatigue issues. It hindered my ability to perform tasks on a regular basis.

Hence, I’m using gym as a tool to help me get past it. And the first step is going to the gym daily even when I don’t feel like it. Getting past the resistance first and creating the habit. After that, it should flow easy. Just worried I’ll give up when the resistance hits.

As I am writing this, a post by Sebastian Marshall comes to mind, “Punch that wall a few times.” He says, “You’re not stuck until you’ve taken every step up to the barrier, and tried to break through.”

Simply put, when any sort of barrier arrives between you and your goal, punch that wall of barrier few times before you give up. The most successful people do every action they can take right up until hitting a barrier, and try to break through the barrier at least a couple times before stopping to analyze or ask for help.

Often you’ll discover the solution yourself as you do the work. In the rare instances that you don’t, all the work and momentum you’ve built makes you credible — and makes it easy to ask and get a helping hand.

Remember this: if you see a wall on the horizon, march right up to it. And take at least a couple shots to knock it over before you’re discouraged.

Don’t ignore the barriers. Do give them thought. But never at the expense of doing the work.

Photo is of the gym I took early morning today while cycling. Didn’t exercise much since I had to leave early. Maybe 15-20 minutes total because I didn’t want to skip. Wanted to show up even when I didn’t feel like going. I would have skipped couple of months ago at this same condition, but not anymore.

What about you? How do you experience resistance? Have you been able to get past it? I would love to hear your thoughts on the comment below.

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It’s the same today. I feel good but it could just be because it’s the first day in a new place and environment. However, there are 3 specific activities that might have contributed to it.

1. Very low intensity exercise. I just hopped on elliptical for 15 minutes (level 10 max) as suggested by the trainer. Then cycle for 10 minutes (level 10 max.) Finally treadmill for 15 minutes (level 5 max.) I didn’t want to push hard on the first day and have sore body making it difficult to visit the next day.
2. Sauna. I don’t know much about the benefits of sauna but I feel like it helped my muscle relax. Also the hot air helped my sore throat and runny nose. Stayed there for maybe 15 minutes.
3. Showering after light workout exercise and sauna felt very different. My body felt lighter and fresh.

So I think these things contributed to a positive experience on the first day of gym.

Let’s see how it goes. I’m very much focused on being consistent rather than anything else. Even if I don’t feel like doing any form of exercise, I plan to at least go for sauna or steam and shower. So that way I’ll still be present on the gym regardless of my fatique problems.

It’s “Cage Total Fitness” gym . I didn’t have any specific gym in mind. My good friend Sareesha was already using this gym so I went through her recommendation. I’m more positive about the gym because of sauna/steam/shower. Usually the local gym just have equipments and I feel dirty walking out. Here I feel fresh leaving the gym.

I also enjoyed the friendly trainer who listened to my fatique issues and made plans for my workout accordingly. I haven’t asked his name yet. Need to learn to do that naturally when I meet a new person. It gets awkward as time moves on.

Last time I joined gym was back in 2010. I don’t remember why I left. And 13 years later, today I joined again. Let’s see how long I can keep this up. Just worried about getting sick and stopping it altogether. It happens very often, and I think for most people. You get sick & just stop going for couple of days and you don’t feel like going anymore. That will very likely happen with me, but I’m very much focused on not letting that happen. Even if i take couple of days break, I plan to go back as soon as possible.
I paid 5500 today itself as a commitment. Very less likely to miss if I have paid for something. 6500 with 15% discount through Sareesha’s recommendation. Just writing figures for future reference.

That’s it for today. I felt like writing something again since I started going to the gym. Let’s also try to continue writing everyday. Doesn’t have to be good to begin with. Just journals.

Thank you for reading, it means a lot.

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Until few years ago, I used to create a goal for myself and execute it. I wouldn’t succeed at all the tasks, but I’d at least reach somewhere close to it. It’s been couple of years that I’ve not been able to kickstart any projects or complete previous projects that I started. Nothing works.

My doctor recommended me to see a psychologist. I met psychologist few times and I’ve already started seeing some changes in me. This blog post wouldn’t have been possible without his help. He’s like a mentor and accountability partner for me. He asks me some questions, figures out my pain points and helps me solve those problems.

I meet him every week. I have set of problems that I want to improve upon. He helps me tackle all those problems one by one on every visit.

I’ve been struggling for a long time is waking up early. I tend to wakeup, but use smartphone on bed until I feel sleepy and sleep until late hours. My problem was using the smartphone. He asked me to come up with solutions for the problem.

Note that he didn’t provide solutions, but asked me to tell him the possible solutions. He’s making me think of solution which will be feasible according to me. That’s usually the problem with other advice givers. They give the same general advice to everybody and it doesn’t work because it’s not customized for every person.

I provided solutions: read book, deep breathing and counting backwards to fall asleep. That actually worked. However, I still fail at it sometimes. I’m more aware of it and that’s what matters.

After that, the next was occupying myself in the morning. Doing something productive. For me productive was writing journal, updating website and creating portfolio – photos and videos. Today I wrote on 750words and then started writing blog post on my website – this website.

I’m happy that it’s working for me and it wouldn’t have been possible without the help of my psychologist. Maybe you are struggling with something and you can’t get to overcome it. If that’s the case for a long time, maybe it’s helpful if you see a mentor or create an accountability partner.

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A ship in harbor is safe — but that is not what ships are built for.

John A. Shedd.

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Here are some of the random pictures from yesterday’s shoot.

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I’m doing many things right now being hopeful for the future. I’m trying to hang out with executioners instead of the talkers. I spent almost a decade hanging around people who don’t execute much. It was very difficult to accomplish anything.

Right now, I believe I’m around people who actually get things done, and I’m very excited about that. I’m just switching sides. Less of ideas and more of execution.

This has been a pretty hard journey for me personally. A decade ago, I thought I’d have accomplished something big by now. But I’m nowhere. That kind of hurts, but I’ve also learned to accept it.

I’m at peace now knowing that everything will work out in the end. However, some part of me is still longing for that accomplishment. So, it’s a difficult spot for me to explain.

Anyway, I just wanted to stay updated on that front. I’ll try keeping this place updated as my life moves on.

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Why would anyone want to end their life. I always thought about it.

I realized why they do it. This reasoning doesn’t include everybody, of course. Everyone end their lives in a different way for a different reason.

Most depressive people seek medical help and start taking meds. Understanding this is simple. They want solution for depression. They research and learn that they need to socialize more, be active and involve themselves in something particular. They start doing all of those things. It doesn’t work right away. Some people find no change even after they continue to follow those guidelines.

However, they still have hope with the meds. Most depressive people just feel low most of the time. It’s hard for them to change their thoughts and feelings. So meds help in some way.

They keep on searching for solutions. Solutions to help them set free from depression. They just want that feeling to end and set themselves free from depression. When all that fails, they search for the last solution to remove depression from their lives – to kill themselves. Once that happens, they don’t have to deal with depression anymore.

It’s not that they wanted to kill themselves. It’s the battle against depression that tried to win. When nothing works, they take that as the final option. And depression can’t bother them anymore. That’s how they think. Atleast from what I know.

Like I said, this definitely doesn’t include everybody. Just some part of the suicide cases. I just like to figure out why they do it and this is the closest I came to figuring that out. I kept myself in the shoes of depressive people and thought about it. I kept thinking until I found a solution. When everything fails, suicide happens to be the last resort to remove depression from their life.

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I shaved my hair and went full bald today: 1st of March, 2019

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