Eternal Journal

I'm moving

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:32:00 +0000

Okay... after some thinking... I have decided to move my blog to Wordpress. It just has the features that I want right now... so!

If you still want to read what I write... and I will update after I finish my Wordpress blogs look. Click on the title of this entry. It will take you there. And for people who just want to know what it is. The URL is "serenaded.wordpress.com". I will most definately update there more than ever. If needed though. I will just update here and import the entries to wordpress until the time is right. So... stay tuned either here or there.

"Stay Zen."

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

SerenadedAbyss_Sky

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Wed, 14 May 2008 03:54:00 +0000

SerenadedAbyss_Sky
Originally uploaded by serenadedabyss

This is my latest work with Terragen... and will probably be my last for a while. Just so much has happened within these past few weeks... I don't know if I can keep up anymore... anyway... enjoy it.

There might not be a blog entry for a while... I'm not sure. We will have to see... so until the next post...

Stay Zen...

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

P.S: I dedicate this new picture to my friend Gary... I hope you love it. Thanks for helping me out.

Feeling much better now...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Mon, 12 May 2008 19:40:00 +0000

Yes as the title states. I am feeling much better and I trying to get back to the way I was before last week...

I'm going to scale back my experiment and not mess with Mac... at least for now. I will eventually I just don't have the money. So... I guess I should tell my readers that I have changed my mind about Safari... I have to say that Safari for Windows is quite laptop friendly display wise. And they have fixed the rendering issues for the most part... I don't like the built-in rss feeds feature. Or at least the way its implemented... But that is just my opinion. By the way have been using Zenwalk Linux all day today. I feel more calm when I'm using it compared to Windows... I don't know why.

Though I can't wait until they release a new version... the default install of Zenwalk 5.0 doesn't work with my sound correctly. But the wifi works perfectly. Though I broke it after upgrading my kernel (Which afterwards my sound started working... weird eh?)

And now I have four gigs of music on this laptops harddrive now... but its all on the Windows partition... Not a problem for Zenwalk. I just make it mount the Windows NTFS partition during boot and then I go to the music folder and add it to the music program in Linux and bam! All my music is ready for me in Linux.

... I'm going to stop this blog post before I get carried away. Stay tuned... for the next blog post... Until then...

Stay Zen.

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

Ugh.... what the hell? Change?

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 08 May 2008 17:57:00 +0000

Ugh... I don't feel fine at all right now emotionally... I need to get my priorities straight...

But I don't know what to do... just so far... this I don't know... with the way things are going... I don't know if I will be able to get out of this mood...

I have lost interest in everything at once... ugh... and I think that I will change my experiment a bit... and hold it off for quite a while until... the time is right... when... I don't know. But I do know that I will do it... I'm still mulling it over... because.... I'm out of ideas...

I don't know if I will even continue this blog... I just don't know I'm soo confused... and sad... and I don't know...

I guess I will have to see what happens later this week... because this week so far... has sucked... and for the most part...tuesday was waaay too eventful for me... and I am surprised that I didn't crack under all that has happened... I guess I'm stronger than I thought. Though... I don't know what I'm going to do...

I'm done for now... if anything else arises... catch it on Twitter. (http://www.twitter.com/serenadedabyss) Because that is were I'm most likely to post it... because its easier.

I'm outta here... and hopefully the rest of my week will be better.

Stay zen my readers... if there are any...

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

Time for an Experiment

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Mon, 05 May 2008 16:58:00 +0000

I know that I haven't really voiced my opinion about OS (Operating System) usage on this blog... but to be honest that because I really can't decide.

I would rather like to try them all and see if any of them suite me... To be honest... I have tried Linux. Just Ubuntu, Zenwalk Linux, DSL (Damn Small Linux), Puppy Linux, SuSe 10.1, Fedora Core 6, Red Hat Linux... I think that thats all of them so far. And I have to say... its different and I like them for that. But I keep reverting to Windows for some things... and for right now the only thing that is making stick to Windows is mmorpgs because none of the ones I play work in WINE. But anyway.... to get to what I want to write about today....

As with OS choice in my life I have been also has the problem with using just one browser. I first used IE (Internet Explorer) ... but that was in my middle to early high school years. And to be honest I am worried more with rendering accuracy and speed then compatibility with the OS. And so I have used Firefox for years but then I found Opera and it really surprised me and works quite well though... its speed proclaims really depend on your connection so whatever. But then.. about a year ago... I introduced myself to Mac and OS X a little... after a Apple store opened up at a local mall. And I have to say that it fascinates me and I have to say that I don't like Itunes or Safari that well... mostly because Itunes to me is a kludge. And doesn't meet my demands as a user... but I have seriously of late been thinking of buying a mac either a mac mini or a macbook... just because I like to test and experiment...

Now upon my mention of the word "experiment" I will finally get to the point. I as of today messed with Flyakite OS X since I like generally like the theme that OS X carries. I have decided that if I can use Safari on Windows for entire week without switching back to my old roots of browsing. Then I will stick with it. If I an survive that. I will then progress another step up and use Linux for a week straight. And if I survive that then I will use that more. I will then see if I can try and get a mac sometime soon. And use that for an entire month. Now I do realize that overall my experimentation is expensive and time consuming and I don't have enough money for a macbook let alone a mac mini. But I will probably just split this experiment up into sections to make it easier on me and my current situation.

I think that I have written enough for now so I'm going to wrap this post up and if anyone has any suggestions or questions please leave a comment.

So until the next post...

Stay Zen.

- SA (SerenadedAbyss)

About my new blog schedule...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 02:53:00 +0000

I haven't quite got used to it yet... so I haven't done what I said I would... but never fear... I will get the hang of this schedule... especially in the summer... since I won't have to worry about school...

Except a long blog post sometime soon. Until then.

Stay Zen readers.

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

Monday is...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 02:24:00 +0000

My new blog post day... so... expect a new blog post every monday... or tuesday... so yeah...

Expect one tomorrow that I had planned before this one.. but I had some distractions so...yeah.. enough... peace...

"Stay Zen"

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

Distant Tunnel Gaze

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 22:29:00 +0000

Distant tunnel gaze
Originally uploaded by serenadedabyss

I was listening to a song with the Rabbit Hole visualization on and the song I was listening to had hit a slow paced part.. I was enjoying the lack of extreme color soo much that I decided to take a screen capture of it.

Endless Neon Vortex

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 01:05:00 +0000

Endless Neon Vortex
Originally uploaded by serenadedabyss

I was watching visualizations while listening to music...more importantly "The Rabbit Hole" visualization (That visualization is featured in the blog post before this one.) while listening to the song: Beyond Good and Evil - Frame of Mind by SGX.

I saw this and I had the impulse to take a screen capture of it... and now I have the picture titled "Endless Neon Vortex".

Xmplay Visualization Test

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 22:47:00 +0000

I have been using the music player XMplay for the longest time... and I have found a visualization for this player that is the best that I have ever seen. It is quite far the best for just about any music from Trance... which it really shows its true power to rock music...

I loved it so much that I recorded a video of it... and here it is.

*The song I used while recording was Asyura Bamba by the artist m1dy*

Please note that the volume might be a bit loud so please turn down your volume before you play it.

Also the song that I picked was not the best song to use for it... but I kinda wanted to get this out there.

If you want to try out this nice player yourself go over to http://www.xmplay.com and either link there will lead you to the download file. And also just to let you portable app lovers. It doesn't leave anything in the registry and is really small just about a meg or smaller with the default unzip. And you can use it to access icecast, shoutcast and other types of streams. Its just an all around great media player.

Of course it does not have some feature like cross fading but that is a small set back for how good and solid it is. I have been using it for years now and I always revert to it because its small and gets the job done.

Alright... I'm done for now... I will blog a lot more often now... I just feel like I have more to say now... alright... to all my readers... if there are any...

Stay zen.

-SerenadedAbyss

Its Valentines Day.... this sucks...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:19:00 +0000

Thats right.. its valentines day... for me this day is going to suck... why?

Because I don't have anyone to share it with... no girlfriend what so ever... so I will be all alone.. again... for another year. I don't feel like writing a lot right now.. so I will end this by saying that I am now following twelve people on twitter.. and I am being followed by five people... a slight improvement I guess.. but not much of one...

To all who read my blog... happy valentines day... mine sucks...

-SA (SerenadedAbyss)

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Now playing: 30 Seconds to Mars - From Yesterday

Its... a new year?

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 15:42:00 +0000

Yes thats right.. the year of 2007 is long gone now.. and its now 2008... funny thing how people say that the next year is going to be different.. but then realize.. that not much changes.. because the expect it to change for them...

And don't recognize that they have to make it change.. other wise they are in an eternal rut... and eventually.. the cycle continues...

Anyway... I have started another semester of college and its interesting... I have met up with my friends but I can't hang out with them because I only have class on two days out of the week... and I find it saddening.. but I guess its for the best. They are fun.. but now I can relax if I want to. And even take a nap even though that doesn't happen. I have been online more.. but I have been blogging less even though I don't blog that much to begin with. I still haven't found anyone... and I am quite sad about that I feel like I have so much to give to my future relationships.. but I haven't been able to start a new one.
Another year and I am still frustrated... my cycle continues...

But on the plus side. I have signed up on Twitter.com!

I actually enjoy Twitter.com more than Facebook because its much more simpler. Of course I don't know any friends that have an Twitter account but I could make friends. I am already following eight people and I am being followed by three so who knows I might make some new friends. I like Twitter so much that I integrated it into my blogger.com account... its also on my Facebook.com account too. Weird... but none the less.. so now I can have more coverage with Twitter now. Its all over my sites that I frequent now... well at least the social sites. I also have signed up on Digg.com. Yes I know some people hate it.. but its an overall decent site. It have acquired some information I would have otherwise never know about. I even helped out a friend of mine because he got banned from Facebook because he is home schooled so he blogged about it and put a link on Digg and so I dugged it for him. It can help people a lot... apparently.

But I digress... *sigh* I don't know what else this year has in store for me... maybe I will die.. who knows.. or maybe I will finally get a job. But I will take it all in one day at a time. So here is me wishing all who read this blog an awesome year.

Stay Zen.

~SA (SerenadedAbyss)

P.S.: I will work on my writing style so it doesn't look like my entries are nothing but random thoughts slapped together.

.... Something isn't right...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 22:35:00 +0000

I don't know.. something isn't right in my life as of right now...

Recently I have found a girl I really like.. but she has a boyfriend so that has me bummed... but then again I have started to notice that I losing touch with my old friends.. the ones that I helped out and love and the ones that have helped me out in return... after graduating from high school I have had a major depression... I had them during high school but now I have the feeling of extreme loneliness coming... its about the time for me to be having a relationship... but I am afraid that I am adequate enough to be in a relationship with any girl... I want somebody to love me that isn't my family... somebody that will care for me... but so far.. nothing has happened with my wish... my eternal wish to be with somebody that can truly make me happy and be happy with me...

I just don't know... my life has been quite a blur lately... its been quite a blur for all of my life but now... I think that it is worse... I am so confused about what to do with my life... I feel like I have wasted it and I am only eighteen... I have so many emotions going all the time but not the one I want to be going off... by now whoever is reading this you should have guessed which one I am talking about... I don't know.. this is all quite mysterious to me.. but I talked to a friend a day ago and I agree with him... I need to get into a relationship... other wise I will never be happy... I will never be complete... my life is whizzing by now.. I cannot keep up... I guess that is why some people kill themselves.. because they cannot seem to get a hold of there lives and everything in that happens to them turns into a whirlwind of sorrow and the forgotten... I don't know... I might be right...

I have slowly started to notice that my old friends are drifting away from me as I advance in life.. and I really hate that... I love all of my old high school friends... it saddening... I cannot find out whats up in their lifes anymore... It has come to a point where I just want to drop everything right now and talk to everyone I use to know... but that would be impossible... I am just soo confused... I cannot do what I want to do... even though I am not sure what I want to do...

I have run out of stuff to type as of right now... I am not in the mood to continue... I will finish later... in another post... goodbye...

I have lost myself....

~SA

P.S.: I have decided to keep the music playlist... but I think that I will let my words do the talking instead of the music. So it is going to go away for a little way until I think of away to actually make it useful...

I am out...

stay zen...

Movie making bug...

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 00:12:00 +0000

A while back I had a vision while I was taking a shower (Why in the shower? I have no clue...) of chase movie... and while in the shower I had the thought "Why not make a two minute chase movie" and so I when I was still in high school at the time why not do it. I had already had experience editing video and making video for a broadcasting class... so I went with the project...

But I never got around to even starting it... mainly because it was my senior year I had Senior Projects to worry about and that took most of my time... but I did have some free time but I guess now that I look back I just put the project in the back of my mind...

But now that I am currently attending college I am reminiscing of old times... and now I am fired up to do it. I contacted my friend that I wanted to do it with and he still wants to do it so all I need to do now is get a couple more people and some cameras and someplace to edit the video... and I will be set and ready to go and then I can go write it down and shoot it...

I guess after watching videos on YouTube has inspired me after all...

Well I need to finish this post and get to contacting people to get some help...

peace

~S A

PS: I might get rid of my song lists... they are getting a bit hard to maintain... so It might dissapear I am still deciding I will have a decsion by the next entry... till then... stay zen...

Wow... I really need to post more frequently

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 21:42:00 +0000

Wow... well the title says it all... my life has been busy with random stuff... from graduating my high school to installing Zenwalk Linux... yes I decided on an distribution... finally... but yeah... anyway...

I am now going to college and so far so good... I am not having to many problems with it... it feels a bit like high school but with better classes... wow...

Anyway I have a problem... Guitar Hero has taken control of my life... some people would say it isn't a problem some would say differently because it is just a game... but the reason I say that is a problem is because I do not have a copy of the game or the controller. I just go to my friend's house down the street and play his copy and I really want a copy of it... so I stuck waiting until my birthday which even though is not that far off I really need to practice on hard... Yeah I finally got to Hard after being on Medium and Easy for months now... I think a about a year now... and there is already people who have been doing Expert since forever... it makes me feel a bit slow... but who knows.. I might get that orange button down faster than I think I will (My estimated guess of when I will master the orange button: 2012)

I need to finish this post I got a to go chill for a bit... and listen to some music on Pandora.com which in case you did not know is an awesome online radio station site.... check it out if you have specific tastes in music that normal radio does not play.

Peace...

~S A

Long time... no post

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Mon, 11 Jun 2007 19:41:00 +0000

Hello to anyone who reads this... I haven't the time to really post... but whatever... I am back... after not posting for a long time... and recently I found out that my account at where I have an mp3 playlist was wiped... why I do not know... but I have found new songs... and here they are:

**Music Player deleted by Blogger**

ATTENTION FOR ANYONE WHO REALLY CARES...

I will put the other songs on here as soon as I can... I have to find a couple.

Okay... time to get things in order

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 25 Jan 2007 21:10:00 +0000

Alright as the title implies... I am going to do this blog the right way...

For now on I am going to list the songs I put up and I am not going to put any new songs up... I am going to do the music once a month... and this blog is not going to have random posts... unless I feeling loopy...

This blog is going to have a log of my journey in linux. I am going to install Linux onto a computer of mine and I am going to do a series of entries about of my struggles and triumphs. But the music will stay... so yeah... this is going to be really hard but I am going to enjoy it... and of course it will have all the normal stuff to like my life and what is happening and stuff so if anybody looks at this...

Get ready to read some interesting entries in the future.

Update: In between this post and the last I have added two new songs and got rid of a couple... the new songs are:

Star Guitar- Chemical Brothers

Recurring- Bonobo

So here is the new list

Enjoy

~SA

... okay second post

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 23:18:00 +0000

Alright....

I now have a second post... I am going to put some more industrial songs this time... but I am going to keep some of the old ones... but I am getting rid of Eminem... I put that up there for a friend... anyway... there is going to be more industrial this time around... so ... yeah enjoy...

~SA

A start

noreply@blogger.com (SerenadedAbyss) — Thu, 14 Dec 2006 14:30:00 +0000

... well I have started this blog... for no apparent reason.... mainly because I have always wanted to... and mainly because my first semester of school is now... and I have been wanting to for a long time... now... that I have one... one of my many things on my to-do list can now be checked off

-YAY- ^_^

Anyway... with this blog I will have an audio playlist... it will be updated every month or week or so... with new songs... so if there is anybody who actually sees this blog pay attention to it... you might find a song you like and if you want it email me.

Enjoy...

and my email address is: rius09 [at] gmail [dot] com