Family School

A Week of Poems

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Tue, 01 Feb 2011 12:37:00 +0000

A short list of what emerged while we wrote daily poems with The Poem Farm last week:

Attention to Description
Choosing the best word to capture something, the emotionally charged word, the word with the right sound

Efficiency of Expression
Words like turgid and cogent and concise came out while we talked about how a poem might express in one exact word what we might usually say in ten.

Meter
One of our kids hears meter easily. The other struggles to tell how many syllables are in the world struggle. But both could hear four strong beats in a line, and—at least some of the time—aimed for it.

Rhyme Schemes
The children did some rhyming instinctively. Then we looked at Amy's poems and old favorites from Shel Silverstein, and they experimented with trying to imitate more structured rhyme.

"Couplet"
A new word. And triplet and quatrain.

Voice
What it means to assume the voice of a hermit crab's shell.

Some Scientific Observation
Nathaniel did try to stay awake all night to watch his crabs. (Like me, he's an early-to-bed personality, and I don't think he lasted much past 10:00.)

A Little History
I'm not sure why Jessica is so interested in the first Fourth of July celebrations from Philadelphia in 1777, but we read about them together.

Editing
The satisfaction of seeing your work improve. Jessica was utterly pleased with herself when she sneaked references to red, white, and blue into her Saturday poem. "Isn't that clever?"

Nathaniel, who invariably resists editing, worked hard to hide his pride after he changed "I'm only one out of a lot of shells" to "the sea of my kind blankets the sand."

What a delight this was. And how grateful we all are to Amy at The Poem Farm for sharing her own work and encouraging us.

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Sunday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Mon, 31 Jan 2011 02:22:00 +0000

I'm very grateful to Amy at The Poem Farm for sharing her own poems this week and for offering comments so generously to Nathaniel and Jessica on their poems. We've really enjoyed participating in this group effort. I hope we try something like this again.

Sneeze at a Sparkler

by Jessica

On top of the fourth of July
All covered with fireworks
I lost my poor sparkler
When somebody sneezed

It rolled off my hand
And onto the grass
And then my poor sparkler
Exploded with pizazz

And then my poor sparkler
Rolled off of the hill
And there it grew into
A tree that grew sparklers

So here's a little tip:
When you're playing with a sparkler
Don't let anybody sneeze!

Watching My Crabs

by Nathaniel

Falcon-fast when in need of speed
These little critters don't need a lead

Sometimes hungry, sometimes not
Sometimes they leave their food to rot

Their constant love to explore
Is to the watcher sometimes a bore

Their tunnels are usually where they take their tour
If they meet, there might be some gore.

Scurry, scurry, scurry all day
They love to explore their life away.

Shakespeare in Our Kitchen

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 15:54:00 +0000

In sixth grade I thought I read Hamlet.

Shakespeare was a famous name to me, nothing more, and I think I saw some personal challenge in reading this most famous of grown-up writers.

When my book report came back, Mrs. Miller explained, very gently, that I hadn't read Hamlet at all.

I had found the wrong library shelf. My book was a historical study of the staging of Shakespeare. Seeing a title like Hamlet: A Performance History, I mistook it for the real thing. And there were bits of the real thing in there, but only bits, out of order, and buried among bits of other plays and lots of commentary.

A whole book about...another book? This was unexpected.

Skip ahead 30 years, and Camille and I have just read Macbeth aloud with our children, neither of them quite as old as I when I had attempted Hamlet.

Our kids are more familiar with how plays work, having seen many live dramas and musicals. (Homeschoolers buy tickets at the heavily discounted school rates.)

Initially wary, Nathaniel warmed enough to create costumes and two prop knives—a clean "before" and a blood-stained "after" version. Jessica embraced the role of Lady Macbeth a little too eagerly. Over the course of several nights we invited friends to read some of the parts, enlisted stuffed animals and dolls to stand in for characters, and compared notes from different editions while stumbling through the language.

We made delicious mistakes:

Banquo's issue, referring to his descendants, was read as Banquo's tissue. Sneezing jokes ensued.

That business in your bosoms became the more intestinal business in your bottoms.

The blessings that hang about the king's throne were, about our kitchen table, no longer sundry but sun-dried.

When I asked for ideas about what a hurley burley might be, Jessica looked offended that I should ask, then hulked her lanky ten-year old body into a bicep-flexing pose and said, "You know, a hurley burley! A big tough guy with muscles."

And we were victorious! I don't pretend that any of us understood every word. But we got through it, followed the basic plot, and even discussed a handful of poetic images and plot parallels. Shakespeare migrated from the mysterious unknown into something recognizable.

In college I was struggling to read Karl Marx when a biographical detail struck me. A fan of Shakespeare, Marx insisted that his children know all the plays.

Recalling my sixth-grade failure, I tried to imagine that. Were the whole family geniuses? Did other kids ridicule the young Marxes?

Above all, what sort of weird parents read Shakespeare with their children?

Now I have kids of my own, and the older they get, the more certain I am that homeschooling, well, weirdens them. I just hope it's in a wonderful way.

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Saturday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 03:16:00 +0000

I've been delighted and surprised to see the different structures and forms our kids have tried during their collaboration with The Poem Farm this week. Most surprising of all, perhaps, was to see Nathaniel take on the voice of a crab's shell or to see Jessica speak to a firework. I admire their imagination.

Philadelphia, July 4, 1777

by Jessica

Thirteen ships a-sailing

Among the waters so blue

Thirteen cannons shot out

As many people who had shed

Red blood for our country

Watched the crew

Thirteen American flags fluttered

On white sails as our nation grew

Hooray! All thirteen states are free!

And so are you and me!

What Would I Do?

by Nathaniel

What would I do if my crabs grew three times their size every day?

What would I do if my crabs started spitting up clay?

What would I do if my crabs killed each other in a duel?

What would I do if my crabs tore up my sheets while I was at school?

What would I do if they fell down the loo?

What would I do? What would I do?

The King of Pop and Taylor Swift

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 29 Jan 2011 19:33:00 +0000

On the way home from choir practice, the radio news played a report related to the investigation of Michael Jackson's death.

Jessica, still surfing the gregarious wave that an ocean of thirty girls roiling for two hours will kick up, started to prattle.

"Michael Jackson. I don't know much about Michael Jackson. He was a singer and he's dead now and he had five brothers and they were called the Jackson 5 and he had plastic surgery but I don't really know much about that and he looked kind of weird that is all I know I don't know very much about Michael Jackson."

Our kids really don't see much TV or Internet. I'm still amazed at what they absorb.

"And he kissed Mom," I added.

This is a fact. When Camille was a very young girl in an aisle seat, The Jackson 5 ran into the audience, and an almost-as-young Michael kissed her cheek. Camille's siblings validate the account.

"I KNOW! HE KISSED MOM! ISN'T THAT GREAT! He's like a sell-uh, what's that word, a sell-uh-britty or something, IT'S ALMOST LIKE MOM KISSED TAYLOR SWIFT!"

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Friday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 29 Jan 2011 01:46:00 +0000

As part of our participation with Amy LV at The Poem Farm, today Jessica pens an acrostic, and Nathaniel opts for a conversational poem.

Is there a word for a conversational poem—one in which two voices just talk back and forth? Some of Robert Frost's poems come to my mind right away, like The Telephone.

Fourth of July
by Jessica

FOREFATHERS
OATH
ULTIMATE SACRIFICE
REVERENCE
THOMAS JEFFERSON
HAIL!

OBJECTION TO THE KING
FAIR

JOHN ADAMS
UNANIMOUS
LOVE OF FREEDOM
YEAR 1776

A Conversation Between My Crabs

by Nathaniel

“I want to.”
“No, I.”

“I want to be held.”
“But so do I.”

“Oh, here he comes!”
“We’d better hide!”

“No, I’d better stand on this rock.
"Then maybe he’ll take me outside.”

“Get off! Get off!
"I want to stand there.”

“But so do I.”

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Thursday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Fri, 28 Jan 2011 02:06:00 +0000

What Do They Do at Night?
by Nathaniel

They make such a racket during the night
Sometimes I wonder what they do at twilight

Do they talk? Do they dig? Do they play hide-and-seek?
Oh how I want to take a peek!

If I Were You
by Jessica

If I were you, I would be able to burst into a million colors

And if you like me, you would throw your colors around me
As if I were dressed in a rainbow

You would lift me up into the deep indigo sky and keep me there,
So I could be a firework too.

In cooperation with The Poem Farm, Jessica has been writing every day this week about the Fourth of July, and Nathaniel about hermit crabs. (Last Independence Day we actually missed the fireworks. I'm starting to wonder if we scarred Jessica.)

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Wednesday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Thu, 27 Jan 2011 01:25:00 +0000

Sparklers
A Haiku by Jessica

Flying sparks, don’t touch.
Could burn your hand, ouch, don’t touch.
Be careful, don’t touch.

Pick Me
by Nathaniel

I'm shinier than the rest
I'm roomy and colorful

Clean and sturdy
I wait for you

I need you to come to me,
Little crab

The sea of my kind
Blankets the sand

I am only one in this sea of shells
Pick me

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Tuesday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Wed, 26 Jan 2011 01:50:00 +0000

Fireworks
by Jessica

Flying in the sky
A mile high

Green, pink, and red
“Holy cow!” I said

God’s men
Doing great works of art

Looking up at colors
You say, “Amen.”

I Am a Hermit Crab

by Nathaniel

I love to dig
Tunnel after tunnel
I love to dig

I love to climb
Everything in sight
I love to climb

I love to explore
Every inch of ground
I love to explore

Our Week with The Poem Farm: Monday

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Tue, 25 Jan 2011 11:44:00 +0000

Our kids are taking on The Poem Farm's challenge to write seven poems in seven days about one topic.

Observing a Hermit Crab

by Nathaniel, 12

Scuttling down the beach

And up a rock

Into the water

And out again

Up and down the beach

Day ‘til night

Up and down the beach

Day ‘til night

The Fourth of July
by Jessica, 10 and a half

Red, white, and blue
Banners passing through

Laughs and fun
Laughs and fun
All my chores are done

Picnics in grass
Tubas made of brass

Lots and lots of fireworks
Dancing in the sky

Moments of Childishness

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 08 Jan 2011 12:01:00 +0000

Jessica emerges from brushing her teeth to the kitchen where I'm wiping down a counter.

"Dad, look at me." She's cheerful and eager and slightly bouncing with excitement. "Is this my tongue or is it a piece of candy between your teeth? I mean my teeth."

She grins proudly. In the middle of the grin she's clenching hard on the tip of her tongue. Bright red from the biting (or is her new fluoride rinse red?) it looks almost like a hard candy stuck onto her front teeth.

I roll my eyes and answer "It's your tongue."

It retracts, and her eyes flicker sincere disappointment before she says in mock anger, "I can't believe you got it!" and stomps off to her bedroom.

Immediately I'm a little sorry I didn't play along.

Because these moments of true childishness—the ones that happen when she invents a funny face instead of brushing her teeth, or when Nathaniel mutters mechanically "God bless me" after sneezing, or when their first instinct as I approach any room is to hide and startle me—these moments are becoming rare.

Poise and self-awareness are still newcomers to our house. I welcome them, but I'm a little sad to see them taking my children away.

My Sippy Cup Habit

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 13:24:00 +0000

My switch to sippy cups wasn't planned. The kids were still toddlers, and I wanted some orange juice as I headed out early one morning, and the fancy travel mug that always leaks and dribbles onto my tie was dirty, and I was in a hurry.

I’d like to say there was a moment when I recognized the wisdom of the sippy—when I had to to avoid a deer on the snowy road, for instance, and my juice shot harmlessly out of my hand into the windshield as I swerved to safety—but in truth there was no such turning point. I just gradually came to appreciate that the sippy cup made a lot more sense than the stainless travel mug.

It fits in the cup holders. It doesn’t break if you drop it on the pavement as you get out of the car. And no matter how forcefully and awkwardly it falls, it never leaks more than a drop or two. Nothing compares: next time you’re in Starbucks, see how tightly that little white lid clings to your cup when somebody in need of caffeine opens a door into you.

I am a grown-up, and I don’t want to give the wrong impression. I don’t gnaw on the bit that fits into my mouth, so my sippies are free of tooth marks. My cup never has that slimy sheen that reveals its owner as someone who hasn’t yet adopted the fork. Those little vacuum plugs that prevent leakage entirely? Not in my cup—those are for babies.

Occasionally when I’m at a stoplight, head tilted back, cheeks pumping slightly while I suckle an iced coffee, I’ll sense another driver looking at me. At first I suspected mockery, but I finally confronted one of these gapers by peeking sideways around my cup. I took him in: the gleaming chrome chopper, the leather tassels blowing gently, the studded gloves working the throttle, the impossibly small, hemispherical helmet. When our eyes finally met, I saw only deferential respect, and sure enough he flashed the peace sign before roaring away.

Recently I set a sippy on the conference table when I joined a video call with some European colleagues at 4:30 in the morning. It was the green one with the hot pink lid, and I like to think it added some color to an otherwise dry meeting.

Our kids drink their milk out of glasses now, and for years my wife had been threatening to throw away the battered sippies. She finally did on Christmas Eve. A lesser man might have made a scene, but I trusted in my spouse’s love. In my stocking the following morning I found two new Gerbers: the top-of-the-line, 12-ounce models.

Cooperative Board Games for Families

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Fri, 24 Dec 2010 17:32:00 +0000

Learning to lose gracefully is a valuable lesson, but as my kids grow closer to competing with me as equals, losing stings them a little more, too.

I had heard that some cooperative board games lurk in the specialty stores beyond Target and Toys R Us. This Christmas I decided to do some research to locate a new family game for my lovely spouse and me to play with our kids (10 and 12) and any visitors.

Here's how I categorize games in terms of competitiveness and cooperation:

Competitive	The games I grew up with like Monopoly or Sorry. I include games that encourage self-interested alliances, like teaming up on someone in Risk.
Teams	Players on one team cooperate against other teams. A lot of party games like Catch Phrase (one of our favorites) fall into this category.
1 vs. Many	Games in which everyone else cooperates against a single player. Scotland Yard, mentioned below, is an example.
Cooperative	I think of these like group solitaire: all the players compete against the game itself. Either the team wins or the team loses. These are the games I wanted to explore this year.

The lines aren't always clear. Some games start with a common goal, but later compel players to seek their own interests. Many games that purport to be cooperative feature a "traitor mechanic," revealing mid-game that one player is actually working against the others.

A friend curious about non-competitive games asked me to share my notes, so here's my list, with the games I like best for our family near the top.

BoardGameGeek.com and Games Magazine are great resources, as well as many other online reviews and vendors. These personal notes contain mistakes, I'm sure. I'll try to correct any that are reported.

I included links to Amazon for some of my favorites. For the others, try my favorite online source for boardgames: House Full of Games.

Once we've played any of these, I'll post an update.

Space Alert

Players	1—5
Duration	Less than 30 minutes
Approx. cost	$39
Theme	The board is a schematic of a spaceship. Players move around it and respond to various threats, working together to keep the spaceship intact. It comes with a CD that announces alerts and keeps the game on schedule. The CD's a bit gimmicky, but fun, I hope.
I liked	Short play-length. It's hard to find blocks of 90 minutes or more, and it's very hard to invite guests to a long game, because it takes a while to teach it, and generally people can't enjoy a game fully the first time anyway.
I didn't like	I'm concerned it might be a little abstract for my 10-year old, but I think the spaceship-under-threat theme will appeal to her.

Forbidden Island

Players	2—4
Duration	30 minutes
Approx. cost	$14
Theme	Players struggle to capture treasures from a sinking, tropical island and to evacuate everyone to safety. The island is made up of tiles randomly arranged each game. The difficulty is adjustable.
I liked	Apparently Pandemic is hugely popular, so I take it as a good sign that folks refer to this as Pandemic-lite. It's also inexpensive.

Scotland Yard

Players	3—6
Duration	45 minutes
Approx. cost	$27
Theme	One player is a crook. Others are detectives. The board is a map of London, showing subway stops and train stations and the like. The detectives are trying to position themselves at the same place as the crook to catch him, but all they have to go on are clues about what kind of transportation he took.
I liked	I sneaked this game in because I remember it fondly from my own childhood. It's easy to learn, and I like that it supports up to six players.
I didn't like	It's not really a cooperative game; it's a 1 vs. Many kind of game. Is there a risk that one detective will dominate the other players and tell them where to move?

Castle Panic

Players	1—6 (best with 4?)
Duration	60 minutes
Approx. cost	$25
Theme	Players represent archers, knights, and swordsmen defending a cardboard castle as monsters close in. Players position themselves and trade cards that enable them to fight the monsters.
I liked	Very easy to learn. It's possible to play this in a truly cooperative fashion, although the primary game is designed to treat the most successful defender as "the winner."
I didn't like	I'm a little concerned the compressed-cardboard castle pieces won't stand up to wear.

Shadows over Camelot

Players	3—7
Duration	90 minutes
Approx. cost	$40
Theme	Players are knights of the round table. Various threats endanger Camelot and the players go on quests to defeat them. Cards are involved.
I liked	High-quality components. I've played some other games by Days of Wonder, and they generally do a nice job.
I didn't like	A little long for us. The reviews are mixed: people seem to love or hate this game, comparing it favorably or unfavorably to Battlestar Galactica.

Pandemic

Players	2—4
Duration	45—60 minutes
Approx. cost	$25
Theme	Players represent specialized roles in the Centers for Disease Control, trying to contain and cure disease outbreaks around a map of the world. Drawing and trading cards are involved. An optional $25 expansion allows for a 5th player and makes it possible to turn it into a competitive game in which one player betrays the others as a bio-terrorist.
I liked	This game is very popular with a loyal following. It's said to work well with just 2 players. The difficulty is adjustable. I think it might be a little educational too between its world map and epidemiological theme.
I didn't like	Camille wondered if the theme of deadly diseases spreading around the world is unpleasant and scary. After seeing that some players made big-eyed Sculpey figures to use in place of the wooden blocks representing the viruses, I'm not so sure, but I can see that the real-world setting might be scarier than Camelot or a spaceship.

Red November

Players	3—8
Duration	60 minutes
Approx. cost	$19
Theme	Players are on a sinking submarine with an over-heating reactor and a sea-monster outside. They cooperate to defend the vessel. The game board is a schematic of the sub.
I liked	The game seems to have a sense of humor; the art is simple and colorful. The price is attractive, and the components are said to be nice.
I didn't like	If the ship starts to sink, I believe the game becomes every-man-for-himself as players struggle to be first off.

Break the Safe

Players	2—4
Duration	30 minutes
Approx. cost	$100 new or $20 used?
Theme	The gameboard is a building blueprint—it reminds me of Clue—with a big plastic 30-minute timer in the center. Players have to cooperate to defeat booby traps and obtain the four keys that stop the clock.
I liked	Very easy to learn; good for kids. It's by Mattel—I think this one actually was in stores like Toys R Us.
I didn't like	It's out of print—so I'd have to find it used online. Serious game-players say this game wears off quickly because it's so simple.

Lord of the Rings

Players	2—5
Duration	60 minutes
Approx. cost	$35
Theme	The players take on the roles of Hobbits, each with a special skill, and proceed through some of the action from the books, attempting to destroy the evil ring.
I liked	It's very popular. Somehow the gameboard and goals vary from one play to the next—I'm not sure how this works.
I didn't like	As I understand it, if one Hobbit dies, the others continue to play. I'd prefer a game that we all win or lose together. Also I'm concerned the rules might be a bit complicated. Is this game really for Lord of the Rings fans?

My notes on the games below are less thorough because I dismissed these pretty quickly.

Vanished Planet

Players	1—6
Duration	60 minutes (possibly longer?)
Theme	In a science fiction setting, something threatens the players' home planets. They trade cards and manage resources in order to defeat the threat.
I didn't like	It had some great reviews, but the play time seemed long, and the game board, hexes on an outer space background, looked a little too abstract to appeal to our family. A review said the game appeals to "cerebral" players. Would it be too much work to enjoy or share with others?

Sherlock Holmes, Consulting Detective

Players	1—6
Duration	60 minutes
Notes	This old game (1981), looked really interesting: perhaps more like a Choose Your Own Adventure story or a How to Host a Murder mystery than a game. It comes with a detailed map and some books. I'm curious, but wanted a more traditional board game.

Betrayal at House on the Hill

Players	3—6
Duration	60 minutes
Notes	Looks great, but somebody always acts as a traitor, and I didn't want a game that would encourage us to backstab each other, or more specifically to impugn everything our little sister says.

Defenders of the Realm

Players	1—4
Duration	90 minutes
Notes	It's reviewed very favorably, but described as a longer, more complex cousin to Pandemic. I guess if Forbidden Island is called Pandemic-Lite, then maybe this is Pandemic-Heavy? My family aren't serious gamers yet, so I avoided this one.

Minion Hunter

Players	1—6
Duration	60 minutes
Approx. cost
Theme	Players cooperate to stop various supernatural creatures from taking over a map of America. Kind of like Buffy the Vampire-Slayer?
I liked	It looks interesting and has many fans.
I didn't like	A bit pricey and hard-to-find. Too much like Dungeons and Dragons with its tracking of statistics like "empathy" and "stalking" and "combat"? Nightmare-inducing?

Ghost Stories

Players	1—4
Duration	60 minutes
Notes	Popular and favorably reviewed, but said to be very difficult. I also wonder if the theme is a little difficult to share with new players, incorporating concepts like Taoist monks and Chinese myth.

Fury of Dracula

Players	2—5
Duration	2 hours
Notes	A 1 vs. Many game that is likened to Scotland Yard, but very long and possibly nightmare-inducing.

Arkham Horror

Duration	2 hours
Notes	This game gets a lot of attention and seems to be sort of an iconic cooperative game. But the spooky theme and long play time aren't right for us, and the rules are said to be difficult.

Saboteur

Players	3—10
Duration	45 minutes
Approx. cost	$15
Notes	Some players say it needs seven or more people to play well. I couldn't figure out if this game is ever truly cooperative, but at least some of the time, one player betrays the others.

Witch of Salem

I saw it compared unfavorably to Arkham Horror.

Space Hulk: Death Angel

A cooperative card game that seems reminiscent of the old Alien movie. I didn't want a card game.

London's Burning

A solitaire game in which a player controls aircraft attempting to defeat the Luftwaffe in World War II. I understand there is a 2-player option, but we want at least 4 players.

Descent: Journeys in the Dark

I avoided games like this and Doom because one player serves as a "game master," like in Dungeons and Dragons. I wanted a game that everyone could play without a moderator.

Somewhere in China

The reviews seemed unfavorable.

Maze

Supports two players only?

These games all shared play-times of more than 2 hours. I know some families who dedicate that much time to gaming, but we're not among them. (Secretly I kind of wish we were . . . )

Battlestar Galactica

Middle-Earth Quest

Thrilling Tales of Adventure

Dark, Darker, Darkest

Chill: Black Morn Manor

Magic Realm

These games seemed more suitable for kids younger than our 10 and 12-year olds.
Max

Caves and Claws

These games made my initial list, but a quick check led me to believe they weren't truly cooperative.
A Touch of Evil: The Supernatural Game

Duels of Ages

Last Night on Earth: Zombie Game (One vs. Many)

Princess Ryan’s Star Marines

Inkognito

Vampire Hunter

Republic of Rome

Doom (One vs. Many)

Shadow Hunters

Svea Rike

Battlestations

Upwards and Upwards

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Tue, 21 Dec 2010 12:21:00 +0000

When the batteries finished charging, Nathaniel came running. "I'm going to fly it now," he said with precisely the sort of confidence that prevents the army from hiring 11-year olds to pilot Apaches.

Outside the tops of the pines swayed, slightly but steadily. "I don't know . . . " I said. "It's pretty breezy. Maybe we should go out early tomorrow, when it will be still."

He sneered at such cowardice. "Dad." He pointed at the box. "It says 'Ages 8 and Up.' It's not going to be hard."

"Did you even read the instructions?" I squinted at the tiny paper and quoted to him: "Persons than fourteen younger should be precluded as piloting aircraft for crashings and dangerous."

Two minutes later I was hauling outside a sheet of plywood to serve as a landing pad. He put the tiny helicopter down and stepped back. His T-shirt billowed and rippled around his belly as he paused dramatically, the remote extended in front of him.

He pushed the throttle to full. The toy shot into the air, corkscrewing wildly. Before I could yell, he had released the control. The chopper hit the earth spinning sideways and fell over.

"Okay," I began to preach. "You have to be gentle with the controls. You should barely be touching them at . . . "

"Did you see that!?" he exploded. "It was FLYING! I told you it wouldn't be hard."

The second attempt went like the first: up eight or ten feet, then back down hard, spinning the whole time.

"Can I try?" I asked. "I want to go slow with it."

He looked at me skeptically, then shrugged and handed me the controller.

Very slowly I spun the rotors. Still on the ground, the body of the helicopter started to pirouette.

"Come on, Dad. Just fly it."

Ignoring him, I adjusted the tail rotor very slightly . . . the pirouetting grew faster . . . ah, the other way . . . yes, at last the spin was slowing down.

I hardly noticed a particularly stiff breeze until the delicate toy slid off the edge of the plywood. Its landing gear caught in the grass and a blade bit hard into the earth.

Sure enough, the plastic landing gear was split in two places. Now the helicopter couldn't even stand.

"I'm really sorry." I had broken his toy without ever leaving the ground.

He grinned. "Let's fix it!" I followed him into the house: super glue, hot glue, no success. Finally I cut a piece of packing foam, unscrewed the broken landing gear and replaced it with foam. It was bulkier than the airy plastic, but still small and lightweight.

Back outside, the breeze was an irregular wind now, erupting from different directions in unpredictable coughs.

He balanced the helicopter on our plywood. Before he even stepped away, the wind knocked it onto its side again.

I waved him away and righted it. I started to get up. "Okay, now this time try to—"

But Nathaniel wasn't going to miss his launch window. The helicopter sprang up inches past my face, corkscrewing slowly as it rose, the air batting it like a ping pong ball in a lottery machine.

At last I stopped talking. It was all up to him now.

Higher and higher. A gust sent it toward the house, but it cleared the eaves and the wind carried it over the roof.

"He'll bring it down to the driveway on the other side," I thought. "At least I won't have to get the ladder."

But he pushed on, spiraling upwards and upwards in a dizzying, wild, uncertain ascent—like the way Jules Verne imagined travel to the moon, or like how it feels to learn something new, or like the way a boy grows—over the house, past the driveway, accelerating away to the edge of the pine woods, a horizon of treetops dancing 50 feet off the ground.

We heard a crack of breaking plastic. I could just make out a splash of red swaying atop the green sea. Someday it might shake loose, but it was gone.

I turned to Nathaniel, warning myself not to lecture him but to sympathize with the loss of his new toy.

"That was great!" he beamed. "How are you going to get it down?"

Children and Chessboards

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 13:30:00 +0000

Last night we watched Searching for Bobby Fischer, the old, based-on-a-true-story movie about a chess prodigy whose parents struggle to support his genius while cultivating his humanity. I recommend it.

Our kids also liked it. I suppose any movie that portrays a child sympathetically and shows a father embarrassing himself time and again has an undeniable appeal, but I didn't expect Jessica to spring out of bed at 6:00 this morning and challenge me to a game of chess. The movie inspired an appetite for the game. All those close-ups of queens and knights slamming around to kettle-drum sound effects must have given chess a new allure.

Our kids are true beginners, only just knowing the rules. Last summer we befriended a serious chess player who taught them the basics. With infinite patience he kept maneuvering his pieces into peril. Nine out of ten times my kids would overlook their opportunities, but when they saw a chance, they beamed with triumph at having put one past him. As they captured, he would quietly shake his head in mock self-disgust.

He made an observation that stuck with me: "I like chess because I can't remember so well anymore. Playing cards you have to remember what's been played or what's bid or which card is wild this hand. But with chess, everything is right in front of you."

It wasn't so long ago that our children lived only in the present. And the immediacy of their lives still surprises me. How lightly they move past an argument! They can trade hateful words with each other, forgive and forget, and start playing anew--all while my pulse is still racing.

But gradually they're developing a more adult sense of time. They draw on a history of memories and make plans. After my son and I finished a Starcraft battle last weekend, he recalled in eager detail how his forces waxed and waned as our various stratagems played out.

I wonder if the immediacy of a game like chess holds a special appeal for the little child still in them. So much of childhood is waking up a new person each day, able at last to reach the counter-top or read the grandfather clock or recognize your name written out. Each morning you're effectively someone else.

My daughter has to live in the present. Her mind grows so fast that its memories belong to a person who no longer is.

For me it's the past that is inescapable. I'm confident I can speak in public because I've done so before, but afraid to leave my job because I remember too clearly my angst at being without a paycheck.

I'm like cards. They're like chessboards.

Their history brought them where they are, but it shakes off easily. They pursue today's goals with fresh ardor, yesterday's despairs and dreams so irrelevant that their old gravity is already forgotten.

Risks of Teaching the Old Testament

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Thu, 18 Nov 2010 10:52:00 +0000

Numbers 14:27

How long will this wicked community grumble against me? I have heard the complaints of these grumbling Israelites.

Camille was speaking to Jessica about what motivated the September 11 terrorists:

"There were a lot of reasons. They don't like America. They're mad that we support Israel...."

"I wouldn't support Israel."

I cringe. Are we raising an anti-Semite?

"Why not?" I ask.

"They're always grumbling and complaining."

Barbie and My Daughter on Math

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 06:38:00 +0000

I worked for Mattel when the Barbie doll was at its international peak, shortly after the Teen Talk Barbie notoriously proclaimed, "Math class is tough!" But really it was not her political gaffes but the Disney Princesses and their saucier sisters, the Bratz dolls, that dethroned Barbie.

When Jessica was almost seven, an English exercise required her to put the following words into a sentence: lettuce, magic, underground, and sweet.

Jessica's answers:

1. I ate the lettuce.
2. Math is magic.
3. Satan is underground.
4. I am sweet.

Camille commented, "I should be bothered by number 3, but number 2 is the one that really disturbs me."

Moonlight and Love Songs: Never Out of Date

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 09:41:00 +0000

I'm much too young to remember, but I seem to recall reading a line from Jimmy Durante. Somebody said to him "You're no Caruso!" and he responded with something like: "It's true I ain't. But sometimes I sing so pretty I could break my own heart."

I'm shy to a fault and can't carry a tune, but I've always sung to the children.

The first song I remember sharing with them was Dream a Little Dream, a good song for rocking a baby.

Sweet dreams 'til sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams, whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me.

Jessica has always wanted to sing, too. Before she could say her prayers, she struggled to sing Taste and See, her favorite hymn.

Years later when I walked almost daily to the library with kindergarten-aged Jessica, I turned her love of song to my advantage. She protested these trips terribly. But I would sing on the way, and she eventually stopped fussing and joined in.

I love you
For sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart

That one must have sunk in: I once overheard her explain to a doll that there's not just one, but "sanny many reasons" for people to love each other.

Both kids also protested at having their teeth brushed, and I fought those complaints with song too, picking disco or techno dance tunes in case Camille overheard. (I like to give my love a chuckle.) Many uninspired lyrics have I sung into Jessica's gaping, foaming mouth while she rolled here eyes helplessly.

Mostly our children are growing up on the lyrics to old standards. I didn't. My earliest memories include Mom listening to soft rock and Motown while driving, but by the time I was eight or nine she had shifted to non-vocal arrangements. When I finally discovered Cole Porter and Lorenz Hart, I was enchanted. In college I worked my way through my grandparents' LPs, and though I never cared for Tony Bennett or Frank Sinatra, I love the words to their songs.

Camille, on the other hand, grew up with a father who might at any moment erupt into clamorous song. His singing charms our children, too, and he introduced much older songs to them: counting songs and alphabet songs with a romantic twist.

One, two, button your shoe.
Put on your coat and hat.
I play a game like that
While I'm waiting for you.

Three, four, open the door.
Hurry for heaven's sake.
I count each breath I take
While I'm waiting for you.

and

A you're adorable
B you're so beautiful
C you're a cutie full of charm
D you're delightful and
E you're exciting and
F you're a feather in my arms

One December day a couple of our children's friends visited. At the piano I started my stilted renditions of some carols. The visiting girl, who could already read easily, sat on the bench with me and began singing along. Jessica, unfamiliar with the words, so young she could hardly remember an earlier Christmas, was agape with envy. Perhaps the green-eyed monster did more than picture books did to propel her to early reading.

When Nathaniel was two, I made up a Good Morning song.

Good morning! Good morning!
It's time to wake up. It's time to go downstairs!
Although it's still night, I can turn on the light
So sleepy-heads beware.

Good morning! Good morning!
It's time to wake up. Get up, get out of bed!
We can play with our toys! We can make lots of noise!
Too bad for sleepy-heads!

It has a sort of upbeat circus tempo. I'm not sure from where I stole the melody--it always reminds me of Herod's song from Jesus Christ Superstar.

An early-riser, he loved it. We sometimes used it to wake up Mommy who didn't love it so much. At night he would ask me to sing it. And instead I would sing these lovely lines from Harry Revel, softly and slowly:

Good night, my love, the tired old moon is descending.
Good night, my love, my moment with you is now ending.
It was so heavenly, holding you close to me.
It will be heavenly to hold you again in a dream.

Then Nathaniel would plead until I finally gave him the Good Morning song and put him to bed. In my heart I agree with him: we should always fall asleep to the promise of morning.

Though eager to trot out his violin in front of strangers, Nathaniel is terribly embarrassed about singing. Altar-serving appeals to him partly because it allows him to wear a silent, stoic mien while the rest of the church is in song.

On the rare occasions when he has sung, he has always been a one-trick pony. In diapers he struggled to sing Chim Chim Cheree. Then he switched to Holly Jolly Christmas, but nothing else.

Oh, by golly have a holly, jolly Christmas this year!

That last line was a tongue twister for him, and I used to love the way he plunged through it, tossing random consonants onto the words.

That was displaced by the theme song from the Mighty Machines videos (low-budget tapes of construction trucks at work). Nathaniel did a yeoman imitation of the singer's guttural voice, but I don't think he ever made it all the way to my favorite line:

Liftin' and pullin' and flyin' so high. Building a building up to the sky.
You can watch them all day and never know why. They're Mighty Machines!

I recall a brief period when the only thing he sang was from the Muppet musical of Treasure Island.

Shiver my timbers, shiver my soul.
Yo, ho heave ho
There are men whose hearts are as black as coal.
Yo, ho heave ho

It's as dark a tale as was ever told
Of the lust for treasure and the love of gold
Shiver my timbers, shiver my sides
Yo, ho heave ho

After pirates lost their attraction he prided himself on his public performances of the theme from Star Wars. It has no lyrics so, with charming earnestness, he hummed it.

It occurs to me that my memories of our children's music must differ from theirs. When I was small, my brother and I played a handful of albums hundreds of times in the basement. My parents were busy upstairs, and today they would probably be surprised that I recall all the lyrics to Mary Poppins and The Sound of Music. These were etched into my developing brain alongside Mr. Rogers' piano melodies, Joe Raposo numbers from Sesame Street, and even some awful tunes from a Chitty Chitty Bang Bang record.

My children still fall asleep to CDs every night, and I bet those lullabies, Disney ballads, Mozart sonatas, Raffi songs, and Taizé chants that repeat endlessly in the dark sit deeper in their memories than the songs we sing together. But as a parent, I treasure the songs that unite us, the ones that bridge a generation.

Last summer I picked up a songbook from an antique store. Camille's parents, in their nineties, recognized songs from their own youth like these lines Alfred Bryan wrote seven years after the Wright brothers took off:

"Oh! Say! Let us fly, dear."
"Where, kid?" "To the sky, dear."
"Oh, you flying machine!"
"Jump in, Miss Josephine."

"Oh! Joy! What a feeling!"
"Where, boy?" "In the ceiling! . . . "
"Whoa! dear. Don't hit the moon!"
"No, dear, not yet--but soon!"

Last night I was alone banging out very old tunes like that one, songs from my parents' and grandparents' times, when I sensed someone at my shoulder. Jessica peered to find my place in the music. I pointed, and she picked up the melody and started to carry it forward:

If you knew Susie like I know Susie
Oh! Oh! Oh, what a girl!

There's none so classy as this fair lassie
Oh! Oh! Holy Moses! What a chassis!

Out in public how she can yawn,
But in a parlor, you would think the war was on!

If you knew Susie like I know Susie
Oh! Oh, what a girl!

I bet you're smiling, Mr. Durante. Wherever you are.

Bossing and Begging

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 11:47:00 +0000

Me, from the driver's seat, engine running, car in reverse, foot still down on the brake: "Are you belted in yet?"

Jessica, from the back seat: "So where are we going to meet Mom and Nathaniel? What time are we meeting them? How far is it?"

Me: "Could you please just get strapped in?"

Jessica, reaching idly for the seat belt: "I'm just asking what time we're going to meet them."

Me, handing her a coupon: "And hold this for me. Don't lose it."

Jessica clicking the belt at last: "Well, I guess that's the way it is. The parents get to boss the kids."

Me: "I'm not bossing you."

Jessica, indignant: "Yes, Dad. You're bossing me. That was a command." In her deepest voice: "'Hold this for me! Hold this for me!' That was a command, and it ended in an implorative period!"

I think she meant "imperative." On the other hand, bossing the kids can sure feel like imploring.

A Chip Off the Old Block

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 01:15:00 +0000

From my lovely spouse:

As we were doing our writing exercise this morning Jessica asked how to spell the word pretty. This was about her fifteenth spelling inquiry, and it was really slowing us down. (Also, she's an excellent speller and was doing this for dramatic effect. But I digress.)

I told her we'd make all corrections after we read what we'd written and she said, "But I can't. I'd just die if I don't spell it right." I retorted, "Well, we'll give you a lovely funeral and on your headstone we'll inscribe, 'If only she knew how to spell pretty.'"

At this point Nathaniel popped up and said, "Yeah and we'll spell the word wrong just as a joke."

Consequences of the Fall

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 27 Sep 2008 08:00:00 +0000

Jessica, at the end of a long hike, was tired, thirsty, and impatient: "I wish everything was perfect," she complained.

I was about to remind her that nothing apart from God is when she added: "I wish when Eve saw that apple she just clapped her hands together and left it alone."

Taking Candy from a Baby

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:51:00 +0000

One-year old Jessica sat on my arm, her fingers prying into my lips, while I cleared dishes. She often used to touch me in the special way of someone who doesn't know what it means to poke out your eyes.

But soon her nails started scratching painfully at my teeth and gums while she peered into my mouth.

"What are you doing?" I laughed, holding her out at arm's length, knowing she would not answer.

"She smells the chocolate," Camille chimed in.

Ah, yes. I have a sweet tooth, and chocolate is my chief vice. Too often there's some in my mouth, and sure enough, Jessica was making for it.

At nine years old, Nathaniel's taste is finally broadening. In fact yesterday he made himself a ham sandwich that incorporated strawberry jam, cheese, pickles, peanuts, and barbecue sauce.

But as a toddler, he had mysteriously transformed from an omnivore to a fussy eater. Camille and I were exasperated with trying to feed him a balanced diet.

"Just try the asparagus," I said. "You don't have to eat them all, but you have to eat two."

"I don't like them," he said, tears coming into his eyes. We had been through this before.

"You don't know you don't like them," I insisted. "You've never, ever eaten asparagus in your entire life." I was pretty sure he hadn't eaten it uncooked, anyway.

"I know what I like," he said. "I don't have to try it."

"How can you know what you like if you haven't even tried it? Maybe you'll love it."

"I always know what I like. I like Mac and Cheese. I like Cheerios. I like chocolate."

Something dark crept into my mind. "You don't always like chocolate," I said.

Scornful disbelief. "I always like chocolate."

"No," I said back at him slowly. "You don't know until you try." I pulled a box of baking chocolate from the cabinet. Unsweetened.

I set a square ceremoniously onto a clean plate. Without hesitation he took the bait. He was so sure of himself that for a fraction of a second he actually gloated at me in triumph. Then he ran to the bathroom.

As he frantically scooped water into his lips, I sermonized at him, "You don't know if you like something until you try it."

He never did eat the asparagus.

We still control our children's diets, so treats are really treats for them. They greet a slice of birthday cake or a bowl of ice cream excitedly: Jessica has been known to quiver with heady anticipation.

Long ago I introduced the idea of testing for poison. How uncertainly she looked at me the first few times I carefully tasted a corner of a brownie while assuring her I was protecting her from possible harm. Now, even before a cookie hits her plate, she proclaims, "There's no poison in it, Dad! You don't have to test it."

Lately she's varying her routine. As I entered the kitchen yesterday morning, she leaned over her plate, spread her arms protectively, and called, "The Pop Tart shop is now closed!"

Among the many lovely things Camille does for me is to have the children copy and illustrate poems. Nathaniel recently chose Shel Silverstein's poem, "Poison-Tester." It includes lines like these:

. . . Mmm--it's OK, but these boysenberries--I'll make sure they're not poisonberries.
Mmm--no, they're safe, but that burger might be deadly.
Mmm-no, it's all right. And now I'll test your hot fudge sundae . . .

It's good to know I'm not the only dad who tests for poison.

Both children love to help us cook. Lately the path to pancakes is strewn with bits of eggshells, and I've become expert at extracting them from our mixing bowls.

The children now also occasionally cook for us. I mean "cook" in the sense of adding milk to cereal or microwaving leftovers, but it pleases me to no end.

If Nathaniel is awake with me early in the morning, he'll sometimes offer to prepare a bowl of oatmeal for me while I shave. He tops it off with yogurt and nuts, just like a fancy restaurant. Somehow his tastes better.

Situated between a Home Depot parking lot and the town dump, we have a wonderful local ice cream stand. Unlike the nearby Ben and Jerry's--understaffed, over-priced, and occasionally out of milk--it's a great spot. It means everything to Jessica that she can order her own ice cream.

Always I ask "Do you want to share one with me? We can get something really special." And always she answers "No, Dad. I want my own." And we buy her a "baby" sized cone, and she picks her flavor, and she's perfectly content.

Secretly I want her to share with me. There's some kind of a super-mega-ultra-lightning sundae on the menu, and I swear I'll buy it if she ever offers to share with me, just to make the point that good things come to those who share.

But I think I'll see her married first.

Tongue-Rolling Your Way to Your Identity

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 21:38:00 +0000

After finding a storybook character who could roll her tongue, Jessica decided she needed this skill.

The list of tasks Jessica can do better than her big brother is short, and it was a long winter for her sibling rivalry. Nathaniel, former seven-year-old-who-can't-read-as-well-as-his-five-year-old-sister, leapfrogged from being a competent reader to an avid one. Lately he pretends to be still asleep in order to steal half an hour with The Secrets of Droon before breakfast.

In ski lessons Nathaniel promptly earned the nickname "Dash." If Jessica had earned a nickname, it would have been along the lines of "Snow Bottom" or "Tearful."

Nathaniel can't whistle, but neither can Jessica.

She's the natural musician, but it's hard to gloat as she's on piano and he's on violin.

Only in winking and finger-snapping is she truly dominant.

The promise of beating Nathaniel to tongue-rolling meant a lot to her. She began to practice without telling him.

For days she alternated between the mirror and her mother, sticking her narrow finger of a tongue out and asking, "Ith thith it? Amth I lollin' it?" Even navigating our icy road home from Girl Scouts, I heard a plaintive cry behind me and saw Jessica craning in her seatbelt to make eye contact in the mirror, pointing at her out-thrust tongue, and shrugging her shoulders inquisitively.

"I don't think you'll ever be able to do it," Camille warned her. "It's genetic. For you to roll your tongue, maybe your biological parents would need to roll their tongues." (We've since learned that the genetic aspect of tongue-rolling is still a hotly contested debate.)

Jessica's contorted face relaxed and became thoughtful. "So . . ." she said carefully, "there's a woman in Romania who has brown skin and can't roll her tongue."

"Ah, the puzzle pieces are filling in," I quipped.

I spoke lightly, but that's exactly what was happening. Both children are becoming curious about their roots.

Recently they sat captivated in front of an old audio tape of a two-year old Nathaniel. At the start of the tape, I was singing to him: "Chim Chim Cher-ee" from Mary Poppins. After "Good luck will rub off when I shake hands with you," I had left the room. For the next twenty minutes Nathaniel repeated hundreds of times in a sing-song, "Good luck will rub oss!" among deliberate, guttural truck noises.

The children love this window into Nathaniel's toddler days. They sit rapt when Camille and I recall their strollers and one-sies. Jessica has become a regular reader of Camille's scrapbooks, poring over her own baby pictures.

Their earliest windows are the VHS tapes we received from the adoption agency when the children still lived in Romania. In the videos their foster parents coo over the infants while measuring their heights and head sizes.

On Jessica's tape, a family dog makes a cameo. Currently Nathaniel wants very much to have a dog, and Jessica knows it.

Sensing a new weapon, she began to fill unusually peaceful moments at dinner by intoning wistfully, "Oh, I wonder what my foster dog is doing now. He must be missing me. He loves me very much."

Then she would look pointedly at Nathaniel.

At first the speech upset him, but he found his comeback.

"That was seven years ago. . . . Dogs don't live very long." He looked pointedly back at her. "Your dog's probably dead."

Nathaniel's science curriculum has introduced genetics recently. That got both kids speculating about the traits they share with their biological parents. In third grade the details of heritability are still fuzzy, however, and the kids sometimes credit biology where they shouldn't.

Nathaniel and I were struggling to finish a wooden birdhouse in time for a fund-raising auction. I was starting the nails for him, and I bent one.

As I pulled it out, Nathaniel suggested that he could start his own nails.

"You might as well try," I said encouragingly. "You swing a hammer better than I do." He beamed.

I held a new brad. After hitting my thumb a couple of times, he drove it straight and true, finishing with the nail's head recessed just under the surface.

I was proud of him, and suddenly a little nostalgic for his discarded Fisher-Price hammer and workbench, and my thumb still smarted.

He looked up, and I was sure he was going to thank me.

"I guess my biological father was a better hammerer than you," he said.

The next day Camille sent Nathaniel to read his science lesson while she worked with Jessica. A short time later the door sprang open, and Nathaniel returned.

"Look what I can do." Effortlessly, he rolled his tongue. "I read about it in science."

Jessica's mouth opened, and she began to stammer and stamp her feet, but for once, her tongue failed her.

[This blog got a nice mention on Matt Langdon's The Hero Workshop a while back. Matt does a great job promoting heroism in everyday life. I'm grateful.]

Kids and Heroes, in My House and in Pakistan

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Fri, 04 Jan 2008 11:43:00 +0000

I had no childhood hero. Athlete and astronaut left me equally unimpressed. When Time Magazine pronounced “Generation X Doesn't Believe in Heroes,” they were pronouncing about me.

But I have one now. Since I first learned about his building schools in Pakistan and Afghanistan, I have increasingly admired Greg Mortenson.

They say the problem with heroes is the falling. You can adore Mel Gibson or Marion Jones, but where does that leave you when they go on a drunken tirade or admit to steroids?

Still, falling is a problem only in cases of hero worship. The risk of glorifying people is that they're people after all. They have faults.

I like to think that if some side of Greg Mortenson disappoints me, I will feel only crestfallen, not crushed.

Heroes also remind us of our failures.

You don't admire the chess-playing of someone who loses to you. To admire someone is to admit to your weakness. Maybe it was just stubborn pride that kept me from having heroes when I was a kid.

Greg Mortenson sold everything he owned and begged in order to build his first school. To this day, he lives in impoverished places and negotiates with dangerous people in order to teach reading to girls half a world away.

I can't think of any reason I shouldn't do the same. Instead I maintain a comfortable job in lovely New England and pride myself on Camille's success at homeschooling.

When I heard my hero was speaking nearby in Vermont, I immediately called my wife and told her I wanted to meet him. What I said next surprised me: “And I want the kids to come, too.” Camille, may God bless her always, bundled them up in spite of her flu and drove them out to meet me.

So I hurried them through bitter cold, at just about their bedtime, to meet my first hero.

Greg Mortenson really knows what it is to cherish education, and I admire him. And I'm in awe of him, and intimidated by him, and inspired by him, and indebted to him. I spoke with him that night in Bellows Falls, but I couldn't look him in the eye. I was too ashamed.

This is why it was so important to me that the children see and hear him.

The event was for adults. In a crowd of hundreds, Nathaniel and Jessica were the only kids. They fidgeted through parts of his slide show and looked to me for explanation when he fielded questions about American foreign policy.

I think I did right to bring them. My hope for Nathaniel and Jessica is that they will turn out better than I have. I want them to have the courage and the yearning to do tangible good in the world. I want their actions to emulate Christ's. I want them to love strangers. I don't want them to be afraid.

Maybe the evening with Greg Mortenson will influence them. Already they are collecting pennies for his schools. We keep some of his promotional photos in the kitchen, and I like to think they are starting to feel a kinship with these utterly foreign children half a world away.

As a child I had no hero; as a parent I do. My hero's achievements point to my failures, and my failures point to my hopes for my children. I want them to be a little more like him—and a little less like me.

All Games Lead to Chase

noreply@blogger.com (Michael Hardt) — Sat, 11 Aug 2007 01:16:00 +0000

Our children always loved to be chased.

Running exhilarates toddlers, and I suspect the mental challenge of navigating at speed excites them too.

Children never hide their need for attention, but in a game of Chase they feel wanted. They are actively, physically pursued.

Chase even lets toddlers delight in their independence. Running away from Mom is, ultimately, what kids are built to do. Darting away from outstretched arms might deliver an extra frisson because it's practice for the real escape.

And Chase is about love. Ultimately Mom catches the child, and hugs and tickles ensue. (Even if a stubbed toe ends the game prematurely, hugs ensue.) Maybe the promise of affection is the game's biggest appeal.

When Nathaniel and Jessica were first walking, I could start a game of Chase at any time. A fierce look, a sudden movement towards them, stomping my feet so they could hear me coming—any of these could cause them to look up suddenly—is he really chasing me?—and totter away in peals of laughter, abandoning whatever play was at hand.

A little later, whether we were playing Concentration or Construction Trucks, the kids began to initiate the games of Chase. That crazy foreman who always ordered his crew to dump the dirt in the wrong spot would run off in Nathaniel's hand, leaving it up to his dump truck, in my hand, to bring him to justice. Even Construction devolved into Chase.

Tag is Chase with rules. By the time our children played Tag with other kids, they were expert evaders.

Even so, Jessica, fearing capture, would sometimes give up and fall down laughing when no pursuers were near. The anxiety was just too much for her.

Nathaniel was always confused about “It.” No matter how often we told him otherwise, he believed that It was the quarry, not the predator. His goal was escape, not pursuit, and when another child tagged him and called, “You're It!” Nathaniel would zig-zag away. Sometimes the other kids didn't notice, and the playground would be full of frantic children, all running from no one.

I recently played Running Bases with Nathaniel and Jessica. Jessica can throw and Nathaniel can catch. I can't do either, so perhaps the game was doomed from the start. We kept at it for about fifteen minutes, until Nathaniel, about to be tagged, veered off the baseline.

“You can't do that,” I called. “You have to stay between the bases.”

He hesitated. Jessica rallied and took off after him. She heaved the ball at his back, still running wildly, and missed.

“You can't do that,” I called. “You can't throw at him. You have to tag him.”

He snickered over his shoulder. This fresh insult accelerated her.

“You can't do that,” I called. “You can't tag him now—you don't even have the ball.”

Nathaniel put his toe on a rock, and yelled frantically, “I'm safe. No tagging me here.”

“You can't . . .” Oh, what was the use.

Jessica surged towards him, but he darted again.

He led her around the clearing of clover and daffodils that serves as our lawn. Both deftly avoided the wide holes where I had pried out stones and the deep ones where I had spent a morning locating the septic tank. When they came close, I could see the muscles in their calves, and I marvelled at how untoddlerlike their running had become.

Finally they exhausted themselves. Jessica trudged back to me and panted “I'm going in. There's too many bugs out here.” Nathaniel jogged toward the house. “I need water,” he called.

Running Bases was over. No one tallied a final score. Chase had won again.