Fat-be-gone

Summer.......

2012-06-09T13:48:00.003-04:00

Damn George

2012-04-30T21:06:00.000-04:00

George is visiting this week.....I'm not a happy camper (George is what I call my monthly visitor for all those newbies to my blog)

I'm retaining water.....what else is new

I'm still eating well though, and exercising so that's all that matters. I'm staying on track, AND I'm staying away from the scale this week cause I know it will just frustrate and deter me.

I weighed myself on Saturday though before George and I was pretty happy with the results....

I'm coming along nicely I would say. Slow and steady wins the race. Speaking of racing I also took another sweaty pic for you all......this is after my run, and a ab routine on the floor.....I almost fell over taking the pic.....it will alllll be worth it one day (this is what I keep telling myself)

Don't judge.....

On another note....my 6 year old needed glasses. Now Adam is no regular kid, and he's like his mama when it comes to being ~~high maintenance~~, one-of-a-kind. Most kids wear wire or rimless frames....NOT MY KID...he wanted plastic frames like my Prada's.....so Adam scored himself a pair of Ray Ban's

Tomorrow is a new month, meaning new beginnings, warmer weather, some wicked thunderstorms......and Adam's 7th birthday.....

Winning Loser

2012-04-26T20:01:00.001-04:00

I like to win.....

I'm competitive like that. I've been busting my ass this week just to get a good head start. I don't think I'm doing too shabby....and it helps that Joe caved and had wings one night this week....hahahahah sucker!

Consider this another check in, to keep me motivated and accountable.....

The shirt I'm wearing in the pic below has the number 78 on it. This is significant to me as I was born in '78 but I also would like to lose 78 pounds......so I rocked it out on the treadmill with the shirt on yesterday for motivation!

Sweating, Glowing, Hot Mess

I stepped on the scale this morning and took a pic.....proof is in the pudding baby!!!

On an unrelated note.....some little ~~fuck~~ punk kid shot a bb gun at my front window last night and broke it.
Three police cars, 6 cops later, and no suspects.....lol
So help me God if I EVER catch the little shit that did it, his mother will be crying let me tell you. I am not above punching a teen in the mouth.....just sayin'

Check In

2012-04-24T20:32:00.000-04:00

Just wanted to keep you posted....it's Day 2 of the competition and I'm staying strong....lol

I did some intervals on the treadmill on Sunday for almost 5K, and I did 3.5K yesterday with a ab workout. I've been eating well, drinking tons of water, and I'm hurting.....everywhere

Regardless I am determined to win this challenge....I'm a competitor and I hate to lose.

Proof is in the pics baby.....look at this contender!!!

The Cult Challenge

2012-04-22T11:02:00.000-04:00

I am a huge fan of the band "The Cult".....the singer Ian Astbury's voice is fricken amazing. I have been a fan since I was 15 and discovered them through an ex-boyfriend......the only good thing I took from that relationship!

When I heard that they were going to be playing a concert in my hometown I was floored, so I obviously grabbed some tickets. Not just any tickets either, I payed extra for V.I.P....nothing better than being up close and personal with the band under the stars, and of course having access to a private entrance, private bathrooms and a VIP bar service didn't hurt either.

Now to explain the challenge part. If you notice in the above picture there are 4 tickets. The other 2 are for my dear friend Joe and his wife. Joe has been really supportive regarding my weight loss and decided to throw a challenge my way.

Being competitive in nature, any challenge whether it's big or small gets my blood going.

Joe wants to lose about 25lbs himself to get back into his "fighting weight" as he called it. He suggested that starting today we both work our asses off to lose that by June 2nd.

That's the day of the concert.

I told him that's crazy talk and there is no way I will lose 25lbs in 40 days.

Joe told me to try my best (he's such an awesome friend) and whoever loses the most by then gets to drink for free that whole night on the other (better save your dollars my friend)

.....and I'm not just talking about pop here people

p.s. I can drink like a fish, and mark my words it will be premium alcohol.

Challenge accepted....and if you're reading this.....

....you're a good friend

If anyone is wondering......~~and I sooo don't want to post this as I am totally ashamed of myself~~....My current weight starting this challenge is 245.8lbs. Up until this point I wasn't holding myself accountable by posting pics to the public.....well here it is....time to start!

Day 1.....AGAIN

A Note To All The Haters.....

2012-04-14T13:10:00.000-04:00

100 Reasons You Should Workout

2012-04-10T13:03:00.000-04:00

Ok…..I know I have been neglecting all of you, trust me I have been hearing all about it from close friends and family. I’ve fallin’ in a funk again. These 20lbs I put back on have been really nagging at me, and I’m sure Easter didn’t help. So here we go again with no holidays in sight to screw me up. I have been at this for over a year now and technically I should be at or wanted to be at 175 lbs. Well I’m not and I only have myself to blame. I swore last summer was going to be my last fat one, guess not, but at least I still have time to lose some by then.

I need to stop swearing…….

Anyways……

I came across this list on SparkPeople and I wanted to share it with you. I figure if I use 1 a day for the next 100 days to give me a reason to exercise or be active I could lose at least 30 lbs or more.

100 Reasons You Should Workout Today

1. Because it makes you feel confident

2. Because it helps you get stronger

3. Because exercise helps combat depression

4. Because you'll feel proud of yourself

5. Because you have goals you want to reach

6. Because you'll feel bad if you don't

7. Because you want to move forward, not backward

8. Because it burns more calories than not working out

9. Because it improves your heart health

10. Because you want a great butt

11. Because it prevents diabetes

12. Because you want to be a good example to your kids

13. Because you want to feel good in your clothes

14. Because it reduces your risk of cancer

15. Because your body was made to move

16. Because you want to be an athlete

17. Because you want to look better

18. Because it lifts your mood

19. Because you want to stand taller

20. Because it reduces back pain

21. Because it feels good

22. Because it makes you feel accomplished

23. Because you spend most of your day on your butt

24. Because swimsuit season is always coming

25. Because strong is the new skinny

26. Because dieting only works so much

27. Because it strengthens your bones, too

28. Because it helps you lose weight

29. Because it allows you to eat more food

30. Because it's the best way to spend "me" time

31. Because it helps you de-stress

32. Because it's cheaper than therapy

33. Because you want a strong core

34. Because you want to take care for yourself

35. Because you take pride in your body

36. Because it strengthens your legs

37. Because it helps your clothes fit better

38. Because you want to push yourself

39. Because you are capable of more than you ever imagined

40. Because moving your body feels good

41. Because it keeps your mind sharp

42. Because it helps you beat belly bloat

43. Because it helps you sleep better at night

44. Because it gives you energy

45. Because you want to stay healthy as you age

46. Because you want to look younger

47. Because you want toned arms

48. Because it improves your balance

49. Because it burns off last night's dessert

50. Because it boosts your immune system

51. Because sweat is sexy

52. Because you want to live longer

53. Because you want to get better at your game

54. Because you want to catch someone's eye

55. Because exercisers earn more money

56. Because you're more likely to eat better when you exercise

57. Because you want to shave time off your running pace

58. Because you want to breathe easier

59. Because you want to see the scale drop

60. Because exercise improves your sex life

61. Because you are worth it

62. Because being fit makes everything in life better

63. Because you promised yourself that you would

64. Because you deserve a better life

65. Because it'll help you drink more water

66. Because you want to do real push-ups

67. Because it reduces your health care costs

68. Because you'll miss fewer days of work

69. Because you want to create a new future for yourself

70. Because it'll help you like what you see in the mirror

71. Because it'll makes clothing shopping more fun

72. Because you want to look and feel incredible

73. Because exercising can be fun

74. Because it'll give your skin a glow

75. Because it's a good way to spend time with your friends

76. Because it'll help you prevent the middle-age spread

77. Because it reduces your blood pressure

78. Because you don't want to let yourself go

79. Because you don't want to squeeze into an airplane or rollercoaster seat

80. Because it strengthens your spirit

81. Because it's a cheap way to entertain yourself

82. Because you'll be able to reward yourself

83. Because you need a reason to wear those new workout clothes

84. Because you're tired of being tired

85. Because not working out is not going to get you very far

86. Because it's a great way to spend time outside

87. Because you made a commitment to yourself

88. Because you're tired of starting over

89. Because there will always be another wedding, vacation or reunion

90. Because you're not a quitter

91. Because it improves your cholesterol

92. Because it boosts your metabolism

93. Because it prevents age-related muscle loss

94. Because if you can do this, you can do anything

95. Because a fit body is a healthy body

96. Because it beats sitting on the couch

97. Because everyone has at least 10 minutes to spare

98. Because you want to be stronger than your excuses

99. Because not working out isn't working out for you

100. Because the only workout you ever regret is the one you skip

Happy St. Patty's Day

2012-03-17T12:58:00.000-04:00

Well good ol' luck of the Irish......I'm sure I have Irish in me somewhere as I'm one of the biggest mudbloods ever......

What's up with you all?

Me I'm down 10lbs....yup that's 10......back in my 230's and heading to where I left off my journey at 219.

I have been working my butt off and I'm back into my routine, with having Saturday's off of course, today being green beer!

So I have been back on the treadmill and working out with Jillian Michaels......

She's tough, but worth it.....I sweat like a mother.....

I am also back into my healthy eating routine.....the first week was tough getting back into it, but it was tough a year ago and I managed to do it then.

I also started to keep a daily journal. This is a new thing. It looks very similar to the pic below, with the tabs on top. I cut & paste, write how I'm feeling, and bitch about whatever. It's almost like my own personal blog that I can carry with me. It gives me the option if I want to share or not. I write down what I'm eating, no calories, or statistics. Just healthy eating and reading my body. Only weight....that's it.

As I raise my glass of green beer in salute to all my fellow bloggers......Have a safe & happy St. Patrick's Day!!!......and may your belly's be stuffed with corned beef and cabbage.....remember binging & purging is not allowed!

Hail Women Everywhere!

2012-03-08T12:43:00.000-05:00

Oh Happy Day Ladies!!!!!

I just wanted to give thanks to all the women out there. The one who made me the way I am today (Mom), the one that sends me emails to help me out on my weight loss adventure (Aunt Sheila), and all my blogger ladies that keep me going by all your comments and support. Enjoy today, we are all something special in our own way, and the men in this world would be lost without us!!!

15 Minutes of Fame....Almost

2012-03-03T11:05:00.003-05:00

So this past Wednesday I was at work checking my email when this popped up:

Hi Bonnie!

I'm an associate producer at The Dr. Oz Show, and we are looking for some huge fans of Hungry Girl in the NY/NJ/CT area for a segment we're going to be taping next week. Please shoot me an email at your earliest convenience to chat.

Many thanks,

(name withheld)

Associate Producer, "The Dr. Oz Show"

I was about to delete it when I though "Is this even real?"

So I sent this reply:

Hi (name withheld),

Thank you so much for the consideration, unfortunately I reside in Windsor, Ontario Canada. Feel free to send me a plane ticket though and I will definitley be there to root on Hungry Girl....lol....She is one amazing woman!!!

Bonnie

www.freckles-fat-be-gone.blogspot.com

I bet not even 10 minutes went by when I received another reply:

Well Bonnie if you’re available we might be able to make that happen! I just love your blog!! If it goes over with my producer, we could fly you in on Monday night for the show on Tuesday, and then fly you back to Windsor on Tuesday night.

Let me know your thoughts.

At this point I got a little nervous and excited all at the same time. So I replied again:

I would need to inquire about getting the time off of work before I could commit to anything.

Run it by your producer to see what he says.....

I am curious though how you came across my blog?

This is what he said:

Already did! My producer is in. She’d be willing to bring you in from Windsor!! I came across your blog via a google search on weight loss.
Give me a call tomorrow (Thurs) after you speak to your employer about the time off: My direct line is (# withheld)

I thought about this, spoke to my husband, and even facebooked about it. It was an amazing opportunity for me and I have never been to New York. Those were the positives, the negatives were flying alone, and asking for time off at work from a job that I have been at for 5 months, and leaving clients that are depending on me to staff for them. In the end I had to decline due to my work schedule.

I called the associate produce back and declined. He was actually surprised & disappointed, but assured me that he is a huge fan of my blog, that he will continue to keep in touch for future shows, and will give me more notice next time for work purposes.

So that's it folks.......I was this close.......

On another note, on the same day I got the email, I also received a delivery of flowers at work from a client. The note said: "Thank you Bonnie for all your hard work"......This was the best thing ever!!!!!

Definitely put a smile on my face....it's nice to be recognized.

B.Y.O.C.

2012-02-24T15:29:00.004-05:00

It’s Friday so that means it’s BYOC day – Bring Your Own Crazy….to questions we all answer in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blog brains a break! Copy and paste to your own blog and ENJOY!

1. If you were going to scratch your ass in public, which cheek would you start with?

What a question to start with, considering I haven't done a BYOC in ages. First off if I "needed" to scratch my ass in public I would be looking for a spot where no one would see me do the deed. I guess I would just scratch where's it's itchy, not giving any favoritism to any side.....don't want the other to be jealous now would I?

2. If you were a fashion designer, what's the first item of clothing you'd design for yourself and why.

Ohhhh this is a tough one since my first loves are shoes and purses. How about a nice, sexy bra....that keeps the girls perky, but is still sexy when you take your shirt off for the reveal. The underwire doesn't dig, you don't get third tit, there are no indents in your shoulders and it doesn't have 4 clasps. I know there are bra's like this for the little ladies, but I'm talking about my torpedos. I mean I have finally graduated to a smaller size (46G to 40D) but still.....

3. Turn to your family or anyone next to you and ask them to describe you in 5 words and LISTEN to their answers.

My Husband said:

Honest
Blunt
Trustworthy
Tenacious
Family

My Co-Worker said:

Boisterous
Happy
Determined
Fierce
Perceptive

My Good Friend said:

Smart
Intriguing
Beautiful
Aggressive
Humble

I really liked this question. Sometimes you wonder how people perceive you. I am a direct, forward, put it in your face kind of gal, so I think a lot of what they said about me gives me hope......lol

4. Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.

Real life has been crazy especially during my birthday week. I'm really busy at work (which is great) I'm back into my healthy routine with the eating right and working out, and I'm trying to make quality time for my family AND friends. I have been lacking in Blog land until recently but I really am trying to post more. Baby steps people!

Birthday Girl

2012-02-23T21:07:00.000-05:00

So yesterday I turned 34.

It's not so bad, I'm still closer to 30 than I am 40.

I was born in 1978.....

Dozen Eggs - $0.48
Cost of a New House - $54,800
Average Income per Year - $17,000
First test tube baby was born
Sony introduces the Walkman
Dallas Cowboys won the Superbowl

Here are some pics from my birthday party.....don't judge...it was me, my hubby and 25 of my closest friends....the end of the evening was a blur, as you can tell from the last pic!

Car ride and ready to party!

Still Sober....

Enjoying my Chocolate Peanut Butter Cheesecake slice!

Smashed with my BFF David, the other Birthday Boy

Then still rocking my clip-in weave I took a couple pics for work when I was sobered up.....lol

Notice Adam in the background....he kept asking me what I was doing....hahahaha

On top of this wonderful night with my friends, another one of my good friends provided me with tickets to a NHL hockey game for my family and I. This was Adam's first time at a hockey game so I wanted it to be a surprise. Now don't get me wrong my blood bleeds black and orange for the Philadelphia Flyers....but Detroit is just across the bridge so Red Wings it is......

We all had a blast, hotdogs included......

....and just in case your wondering, I'm back on track working out...getting up early before work to run and do my ab routine. I'm down 6lbs and going strong. I promise once I get back down to my 219 I will start posting my weigh in's.

At 210 I will tell you what I got for the challenge.

Fat Tuesday

2012-02-21T06:17:00.000-05:00

Happy Paczki Day!!!!

You didn't actually eat one of these things did you???!!!???

I got up at 5am, ran for 30 minutes and did an ab workout before work........

(and posted this....lol)

What did you do on Fat Tuesday???......lol

Alive & Well

2012-02-11T10:29:00.000-05:00

What's up???....Miss me???

Don't worry I haven't given up on you all.....

The challenge is in progress, just off to a slow start. If I jump back into it too fast I'm worried I might fall victim to my own devil that's inside of me. Trust me, that devil can be quite a sneaky bitch.

First off I want to wish one of my most dearest friends David a Happy Birthday!!!! We are both celebrating our birthday's together tonight at Foia. My Birthday is on Feb. 22nd, but since David is leaving with like 10 of my friends to go to Australia (bitches) on my actual birthday I am celebrating early. I personally think they all should have pitched in to buy me a ticket so I could go, that would have been a great present.....hahahaha

Apparently there is going to be a seating arraignment at tonights festivities. That's the beauty of having a gay BFF.....everything is always organized...lol....LOVE YOU JAY (David's better half)
He emailed this to me at work a couple of days ago and I laughed my ass off.....only he would do this.

So I will do my best to provide pictures.....if I stay sober.....when David and I get together we feed off each other....I have a feeling it will be a messy scene....Good thing the offspring will be at Baba's house for the night!

I also wanted to say that I totally missed my 1 year Blogiversary.....it was on Feb. 6th. So Happy Blogiversary to me!!!!.....I went out and bought some flowers for myself, and I liked them so much that every week I am going to pick up fresh ones. There is just something about having fresh flowers around.....

On a completely unrelated note.....I finally picked a new sink and faucet for the main floor bathroom. Still working on the granite countertop though.....there are so many choices.....but we are leaning toward one called suede brown.....here is a pic so far.....

So that's all I've got, work is good, life is good, I recently made a new friend.....I don't think I could be happier....well maybe when I'm down another 60 I could be....lol

Stay tuned for the Bday Pics!!!

The Challenge

2012-01-31T07:50:00.000-05:00

OK so yesterday my Aunt Sheila decided to give me a shout. She lives about 3 hours away and I don't see her often, but she is definitley my #1 supporter (other than my man) in the family.

Anyways she called because she was concerned about my previous post.. She has always been there for me in anything that I do or need support in. Well talk about a motivating speech she gave me on the phone last night. Then to top it all off she left me with something to tell my hubby...

"You tell Dan that he needs to buy you something, but keep it a secret, and then present it to you after you lose 20 pounds and can PROVE it with the scale"

So after I got off the phone with her, I called my husband upstairs and told him what Aunt Sheila said.

His response?

"I accept her challenge (with accent and finger pointed up in the air) but lets make it 30 pounds, so you really have to work for it. When you reach 210 lbs you can have it."

So I guess I better get my ass in gear.....

Did I ever tell you I HATE SUPRISES......

Missing : Motivation

2012-01-28T09:08:00.000-05:00

You know.....mojo, action, catalyst, drive, fire under my ass

I am coming up on my 1 year anniversary and I'm letting it slip all away. In one year the most I lost was 63 pounds. Now that may seem like a great accomplishment but that was as of October. I probably could have lost another 30-40 pounds by now.

Instead I have put back on damn near 20.

I mean it goes on fast when you aren't working out or giving a shit what you eat.

I'm not gonna lie, I have enjoyed every minute of stuffing my face, but now I am "facing" the reality.

Why have I done or "undone" this to myself? I'm still fitting in my 16-18 pants and my "L" shirts but I don't look as tight and don't feel as peppy.

I have officially fallen off the wagon, and I guess it was only a matter of time. I have said I need to get back into my grove, and attempted it a few weeks ago and lost 8 pounds, only to give up and gain it back.

I also have been neglecting my blog and you my followers.

HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?????

I mean life gets in the way, I get it....but I haven't made excuses up until now so why start. I guess realizing it now before I undo all the hard work I have put in, in the last year is a start. I don't want the last year to go to waste, so at least I can say I have lost some weight, and I need to lose more.

I have all the proper tools, I just need to get to work.

You know the rule, it takes 28 days (or something like that) to start a habit. So here's to Day #1 of starting over again.

I'm 238 pounds and 219 was my lowest in October. This is my first "mini" goal, to get back to that. Then I will go from there.

I posted this note on the wall at work above my desk to remind me......

My New Year's Promise

2012-01-08T10:33:00.147-05:00

Ok so I have something I really want to share with you guys. It's called My New Year's Promise and it's an AMAZING idea put together by a company called 3Gyros. This company sells zero calorie salad dressings....yes I said zero....Zero Calories, Zero Fat, Zero Sugar & Zero Carbs....what could be better than that....other than the fact that you can use them to marinate meat too....lol

3Gyros is a company that started in my hometown. They recognize weight loss challenges, and so they decided to do something about it. On top of the great dressings they offer, they decided to give something back to the community and I want you guys to benefit from it as well, and that's why I'm here today.

The best part about all this......IT'S ABSOLUTELY FREEEEEE!!!!!!

and before you ask, no I am not getting compensated for this post or any of my opinions. The only thing I'm getting out of this is HEALTHY. That's it.

Ok so back to the program......

My New Year's Promise has a blog and also a facebook page. It is a program with people that are there to support you on your journey to a healthy weight.....and they are there EVERYDAY. I have commented on both the blog and facebook page and have gotten amazing responses....and not just one liners. These ladies are serious and are there to help and support you.

Please let me introduce them......
*bio's taken from facebook page

This is Sarah. She is taking the journey to get healthy with you. She posts a video blog EVERYDAY, and is committed to this program. She's a mom of 3 and she dedicates herself to assisting others.

This is Angela. She is an award winning certified chef, and a nutritionist who travels all over the world teaching people how to cook and eat healthy. Angela posts a weekly meal plan designed by her that you can print out and follow. She also breaks it down into a shopping list to make it easy.

Next up is Krista. This woman is the devil.....lol....she seriously knows how to kick some butt and whip yours into shape at the same time. She is an Olympic champion who runs a very successful fitness gym, and is dedicated to helping people live healthier lives. Krista posts a new routine weekly, and I'm not gonna lie it's TOUGH.

and last but certainly not least is Kiki. She is the gluten free guru, who specializes in foods related to celiac disease.

Since I started back into my routine and My New Year's Promise last week I am officially down 8 pounds. Sarah herself is down 3. This is no joke it really works. It's just healthy eating, working out, and getting support. No pills, No gimicks. This is what I have been promoting since Day 1 of my blog.

You guys need to head over to the website and join. All the meal plans, and workouts are there from the previous week, so you can start right away. Make sure you head over to their facebook page and click like. They post tons of tips and trick on there as well.

I promise you won't be sorry.

Remember it's free. These people are dedicating their time to you and me just to help people get healthy. Thanks 3Gyros, and thanks Sarah, Angela, Krista & Kiki. It's people like you that I'm going to remember helping me make a change in my life for the better. All I need is a little help, support, and fresh ideas. You guys have managed to target all 3.

I have a lot of regular bloggers out there that are looking to get healthy, and you know who you are ;)
Please check this program out, and I want feedback. You know I love your comments, and opinions. They are what keep me going!!!

The End of the World?

2011-12-31T14:17:00.003-05:00

I'M ALIVE (transfusion not necessary).....just incase you don't know what's going on you can read my post here.......lol

OK I may be exaggerating a little bit, but it is the end of 2011. According to the Mayan's that's another story though. Funny thing is that I wear a Mayan calender around my neck at least a couple of times a week.

So I guess this post should be about my Greatest Accomplishments, Funniest & Embarrassing Happenings, Made you Cry Moments, and Life in general.

Greatest Accomplishments:

February - Decided to change my life for the better and lose weight, and get healthy.
April - 20lbs down, my first official "Bra & Panty" comparison pic.
May - 1st goal reached.
June - 40lbs down, my second "Bra & Panty" comparison pic.
September - 10 years married....and yes I would classify this as an accomplishment....lol
September - Completed the C25K
October - Won $100 in a weight loss challenge
November - 60lbs down, my third "Bra & Panty" comparison pic.

Funniest/Embarrassing Moments:

April - My pants fell down on me at the gym when running on the treadmill
May - 1st day of owning an iPhone and this is what happens.....

December - This was funny, but scary at the same time when the damn Christmas Tree started smoking and almost caught fire.....Griswold Moment of the Year

Made You Cry Moments:

May - Trip to the Hospital, this was the beginning of a very stressful, unknown condition that carries on to this day. Lots of tests, medications, hospital visits, and it's still undiagnosed. There are speculations though.
July - I found a lump in my breast and had to schedule a mammogram.

Life:

June - The ducks in my yard. This made me smile for weeks. You never see stuff like this in my neighbourhood.
July - Adam pulls out his first tooth!
July - Made a list of words that mean EVERYTHING to me. I even use this as my desktop picture. I refer to it daily, and it helps me to keep focused.
October - Got a Big Girl Job!!!
November - Quit a Little Girl job and got rid of all the "little girls" that went with it.
December - When Usher added me on Twitter

Well that pretty much recaps all the major things. The most important things though are my family, our health, and all my supporters (THAT MEANS YOU) in my life. That's all I need.

I am wishing you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR and may 2012 bring you everything you hope it will, happiness, success, and all of that good stuff. For all of you watching your weight I hope this year brings you the strength to continue and just be happy and heathy.

Mark my words, this will be "MY LAST" fat New Year!!!!!

Vagina

2011-12-20T18:35:00.002-05:00

Ok either I scared off all the male readers with the title of this post, or I attracted all the perverts.....probably the latter.....

Maybe I should have titled it Bloody Vagina.....hahahahahah

This post is about my neither regions. I am typing this from bed, and I am bleeding like a stuck pig. I have NEVER been like this before....EVER.

I am one of those women that roles my eyes when I hear a co-worker or any other female that bitches about having a bad time of the month, or the ones that take off 2 days every month cause "George" is visiting and they can't handle it.

I think I finally understand what they are going through. Mind you I didn't take any time off of work, and I have been drugging myself every 4 hours, but come on.....when will the bleeding end???

I feel like I'm being sucked dry by a vampire.....well maybe that wouldn't be such a bad thing if it was this vampire.....

I would totally be staining those sheets right now

I am definitely keeping "Always" and "Tampax" in business this month, maybe I can invest in some stock options......change every 6-8 hours my ass....how about every hour on the hour like clockwork

Why am I not dead yet????

In case you feel like donating some blood I am O-

So thank you Period Gods....I apparently pissed you off for being on the pill so long that I decided to go "O'Natural" and this is how you repay me......18 years of period pain saved up until now, might as well chalk it up to labour cause it's getting close......

If you guys don't hear from me by Christmas, please say a prayer as I have probably bled to death.

Christmas is fast approaching

2011-12-18T10:50:00.000-05:00

It's one week until Christmas Day, there is only a "light" dusting of snow (which is ok for me personally) and I finally finished my shopping.

Plus a few purchases for myself of course.....

no makeup shot.....lol

Now I neeeeed some snow to rock this hat, but I LOVE IT!!!!!

I also picked up some shoes.....to add to my collection of course

Yes they are a little understated but they are gonna look great with my new leopard print sweater

Size Large.....that's a long way from XXL

Ok I know your not supposed to buy yourself presents when shopping for other people, but why not? A sale, is a sale, is a sale I say....grab it when you can!!!

Anyways here is Adam's list for Santa this year, he is a spoiled brat, but he's my brat and the only one I have so he got everything on this list EXCEPT the iPad and he even wrote the 2 after it....I mean really??? What 6 year old writes that.....lol

Speaking of my brat...here is a pic of him and the old man...I was laying on the couch and they both decided to lay on me and crush me to death...but not before I snagged this

Tomorrow is a holiday for my family when we celebrate our Slava. If your not sure what that is I will try to explain:

Every Serbian Orthodox family has a patron saint. Each family celebrates the feast day of their saint with a unique Serbian Orthodox religious tradition Krsna Slava, on the day when their ancestors were baptized (Serbians accepted Christianity by families and whole tribes). This same saint is the family's saint from generation to generation through the centuries. Sveti Nikola (St. Nicholas) is my families patron saint which falls on December 19th

The Slava celebration includes:

• Icon of the family's patron saint, in this case, St. Nicholas
• A lighted candle, for Christ the Light of the World
• Slavsko zhito/koljivo, a boiled wheat dish, representing Christ's death and resurrection
• Slava bread (Slavski kolach), decorated with cross and seal, for Jesus Christ the Bread of Life
• Red wine, for Christ's precious blood that washes away sin
• A priest, who blesses the home and all present, offering prayers and the Thanksgiving Prayer (molieben) before the icon

Here is a pic of our icon St. Nicholas:

So with that being said there is about 30 people coming to my in-laws tomorrow and I need to spend the rest of the day today helping with the cooking and the preparation. One day this will be my responsibility as my husband is the oldest son so the tradition will pass down to him, then will pass down to our son.

This is definitely the worst time of the year to get back on track with my diet & exercise. God give me strength as I do not have any. This time last year I wasn't doing this, I didn't start till February.

On top of Slava, I still have Christmas & New Years to look forward to, then Christmas & New Years again because in our family we also celebrate the Old Calendar which is January 7th for Christmas & January 14th for New Years......I am realllllllly testing my willpower.

Lazy Sunday

2011-12-11T19:18:00.001-05:00

Friday I was driving into work after a light dusting of snow and I actually stopped to take a picture….there is something just so beautiful when the snow is untouched….it’s peaceful.

This put me in a great mood at work so I decided to take a picture at my desk for everyone to see how happy I was…..lol….besides it was Friday and the weekend was almost here!

Then when I got home I told my husband to take a full body pic of me as I was feeling kinda fat and I wanted to see myself in my jeans…..

…not to bad, but I definitely still need some work

So THEN my weekend began with me waking up felling like a bag of shit. Now if I would have been partying up the night before, I would have at least had a reason, but noooooo I woke up with a sore throat and a nose that was so stuffed it was giving me a damn headache.

I literally went through a box of Kleenex in a afternoon.

Fun Fact for the day…..did you know that the nose produces 4 cups of snot each day??? That’s right folks what you don’t blow or sneeze out the rest you swallow….we are booger eaters no matter what…..

So I pretty much have spent my weekend off in bed….at least I got my Christmas cards done and my tree up…..wanna see???

Funny thing was I was sick LAST weekend too…..but I managed to go to the Christmas Parade with my family…..here is my little elf.

Fast Forward to today……I’m am sitting at my in-laws typing away, drinking lots of tea, and working on “word families” with my son….you know when you pick the ending “at” and then you have to write all the words that end in that….cat, rat, mat….etc.

It’s a lazy day, filled with nothing, nothing and more nothing and a little bit of laundry here and there. Hopefully calgon will show up and take me away somewhere…..like a white sandy beach, with crystal clear blue waters, and a hot naked man.

This week I plan on getting back on track full force, since I got wayyyyy off these past couple of months…..I think I needed it though.

I’m pretty sure I gained back about 8-10 pounds which really sucks, but hopefully my body will burn it off pretty fast since I have been kinda dormant for the last few months.

Here is to kicking it into high gear again, and getting back into my groove. Oh how I have missed being in a routine……

I will start posting my weigh in’s again once I get back to my lowest weight which was 219lbs…..be patient my friends I will be back there in no time!!!

Usher

2011-12-05T12:17:00.000-05:00

Do any of you guys use Twitter? Well I do, and sometimes I find it less stressful and dramatic as Facebook, you can follow me at @Bonnanza..... anywho....so the other day I get a email saying Usher Raymond (you know the singer) is now following you.....EXCUSE ME?????

So at first I figured it was just a fake account, and someone was playing a joke. Apparently not. You see Twitter will place a checkmark on a validated account so you know it is the real person (they only do this for famous people). Did this Usher have a checkmark? You better believe it....lol

My Twitter profile pic must be working wonders......hahahaha

Fire.....well almost

2011-11-30T12:12:00.000-05:00

UNPLUG THE TREE...UNPLUG THE TREE!!!!!!!

I hear my husband screaming......

Holy shit the tree is smoking and I'm standing there like a fuckin' idiot not moving. I was paralyzed. I couldn't believe that this was happening.

Of course my 6 year old was standing right there to witness us yelling and swearing. So he chimes in with his cries of terror......or should I say cries of "I thought we were gonna decorate the tree tonight"

He could care less as long as we buy a new tree, and get to decorating, and then have a place for all the presents to go. That's fine I will make sure to take the $300 it's gonna cost me to replace the tree out of his "presents" fund......hahahaha

I mean all funny aside, this was scary as shit!!!!.....I'm glad it happened when we were putting up the tree. I never leave the tree on when we aren't at home, but what if we were all upstairs having dinner or something. This could have ended up a lot worse.

Now I have to go put up the lights outside......

Wish me luck!!!

Opinions

2011-11-28T11:48:00.000-05:00

Opinions are like assholes......everyone has one

I really don't care what you think of me, or my lifestyle.

This rage has been pent up for sometime, and I feel I just need to vent. Quite a few people have opinions on my weight loss & how I'm doing it, or how "wrong" I'm doing it apparently.

You're eating too many carbs
You shouldn't have a cheat day
Your eating too late

Blah, blah, blah.........

I made this change for me.....not you, or anyone else. If I want to eat a fucking potato I will. If it takes me 2 years to lose all the weight, then so be it. So what if I don't reach one of my goals by the time I set it? I will just make a new goal and try harder.

You think this is easy?????

I need the love & support of ALL my family, friends and fellow bloggers.....

Don't tell me I'm doing great, and then in the same sentence tell me I need to change this, or that.....

HYPOCRITES.......

Didn't your mamma tell you "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all".....

Keep your damn mouth shut and leave me the hell alone.....I don't need that kind of support fuck you very much!

I'm down 63 pounds since February. So what if I'm 30 pounds behind my original goal of 10 pounds a month. No one is perfect, I have had a stressful last few months.

I HAVE ALREADY LOST A SMALL HUMAN DAMNIT!!!!!

I am just going to continue on my adventure to ONEDERLAND and keep doing what I have been doing. That includes my cheat days, and carbs.

I will reach my goal eventually, whether your opinions are taken into consideration or not!

Bonnie's Back!!!

2011-11-26T09:25:00.001-05:00

As Jack Nicholson would say in the Shining, Heeerrrrrrre's Bonnie......ok fine it was Johnny but you get my drift.....

I'm back and here to stay......now don't expect me to be posting every day cause that ain't gonna happen. I will try to do my best in keeping you all updated on what's happening in my life.

Where do I start?

How about my resignation. I just quit a position (like within this week) with a telecommunications company that I loved and was with for 5 years. I'm hurt, but definitely tired of the politics/drama that is the Diva I was employed for. No training or qualifications that I earned while with this employer was ever going to help me move up. I was black marked and had a bulls eye on my back that just wouldn't go away. I was told that all the decisions that were made were business and not personal. Guess drinking with the boss after hours is a qualification with my employment that I wasn't aware of. In the last 3 months 4 people that were employed for the company for a minimum of 4 years has left. Do you see a trend here?

What I think I hated the most was that there were some people that I THOUGHT were my friends that I had worked with for years, only to find out that they were as fake & phony as Joan Rivers face.....and we all know how real that is.......

I could write so much more on this subject but I am so drained that I don't have it in me.

Fortunately for me when this was all going down I was found by my new employer. Within 24 hours I was interviewed twice, and offered a job. I kept the above mentioned position for a little over a month just to make sure this would be a fit for me. Well as it turns out I have found myself in the career of a Recruiter. My official title is Customer Account Representative. I staff for companies needing to fill positions, I pre-screen, interview and place candidates. It is still new to me, but I am totally loving it so far, and I get to work with ADULTS......lol

Next up is probably my weight loss.....

Ok so this has really taken a back seat unfortunately. I have been slacking on my workouts, not because I wanted to but I didn't have time. I REALLY didn't have time, that wasn't an excuse....I have been working 7 days a week and sometimes twice in one day. My weight has been fluctuating between 223-229 lbs. I haven't been drinking my water, but I haven't been eating THAT bad either. Now that I have let one position go I will be getting back on track to my next goal which is Onederland.
As far as the Shrinkvivor contest goes (if your interested) I made it to the final 3 in our team, but then (not telling anyone) voted for myself to be eliminated because I didn't feel it was fair to the other girls that I wasn't putting my heart & soul into the competition. They were working so hard and I wanted to see at least one of them succeed.

Ok now Drumroll please..........

So after all the waiting here is my new Bra & Pantie Pic!!!!

283lbs to 223lbs......60lbs gone!!!!

Not to shabby, but still a long way to go......

Next up my Gastroscopy.......

As most of my readers will remember my "heart attack" post, then finding out that I have a hiatal hernia on my esophagus, a lump on my breast, etc. this year has been full of health surprises. I swear I was healthier as the "Fat Bonnie." I never had any issues. Then I had to go and drop 60 pounds and BOOM.

Well the other day I had an out-patient procedure done for my hernia. They stuck a damn camera down my throat, and if that wasn't bad enough, they cut a little piece of tissue out of my tummy for a biopsy. This gives you cramps by the way.....and my throat felt like I have been sucking a huge......well never mind!

TAKE THE SEDATION!!!!!

Holy Shit eh????......lots has happened and you guys had no idea......well now you know why I have been missing and hopefully you'll forgive my absence. I'm glad to be back, and also starting back on my routine that I have actually missed so much. I find my life functions so much better when it's planned.

Now I just have to start Christmas shopping........FAIL

Oh and I would like to give a "HAPPY THANKSGIVING WEEKEND" shout out to all my American readers. I hope you are having a great time with your family and friends........xoxoxoxo