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Total Woman's Show

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 18:36:00 +0000

On Saturday I attended the Total Woman's Show with my friend & her mother. I found it quite similar to MeFest as there were a lot of people offering information about doing direct selling through party-hosting.

As well, there were 3 stages where presentations and such were occurring. There were also people offering health and wellness information, posture checks, gym passes etc.

I had a complimentary styling done on my hair by Angelina Fitz-Henry from Cowboys & Angels (and I looked great!)

I grabbed the business card for The Nu Me Boutique, as my birth mom has shopped there since they specialize in products for women who have had mastectomies.

As well, there was a booth about Thermography, which is a non-invasive, radiation-free monitoring of breast health. And another booth offered information about mammograms and the Ontario Breast Screening Program (toll free information number is: 1-800-668-9304.)

Latasia - has cool jewelry. So did Stella & Dot and -- crap, the one place did jewelry, scarves & purses... but I am currently blanking on the name.

Wicked is coming to Centre in the Square - which is pretty exciting... though there are other events coming up too.

There were a number of booths that had tea products; my favourite being Distinctly Tea.

I saw a line up at the booth for Align-Right, as a lot of women were purchasing pillows.

I grabbed some information from two different booths about senior care, one was Home Instead and the other was Warm Embrace.

I grabbed an information sheet from Lotus Meditation.

My friend purchased some clothing made from bamboo from Yogainn Sakuja, who told us that he is working on a website and when it's reading it should be elaNela.com but if you are interested in his products, you could contact him at elanela7 AT gmail DOT com.

There was a booth for Spanner. I've never been there before, but my friend was keen on it as she's shopped there before.

The one talk we were able to attend was "Weight Loss Revealed" presented by Bruce Kahn, author of The Fat Fighter Diet. Afterwards, my friend's mother purchased his book & some supplements from the Fiddleheads booth. Now Bruce also gave out a website address re: his personal training, but I don't remember what it was. If I found out, I'll link it in this entry later.

There was a booth with sample shakes from the Body By Vi program. Two shakes a day and one healthy meal, but I am not into meal replacements.

I was given a day pass for GoodLife Fitness. Though I'm not sure how I feel about GoodLife.

I grabbed some information from some friendly house-cleaning ladies from Polished Expectations (which I plan to pass on to one of my friends).

I tried to get close enough to smell some of the products at The Body Blessed, but it was too crowded.

There were many more booths and representatives there but these are the ones I was given information from.

There was just so much going on, I found it challenging to take everything in but it was enjoyable and I'd have to say that I don't know if I could have handled being out that long without the medication I am on.

Baby Girl

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 14:07:00 +0000

I'm on an SSRI

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Sun, 05 Feb 2012 02:05:00 +0000

OK so I am taking Ciprolex as of today.

Too early to tell anything yet of course, but I thought I should make note of it.

Relationship/family update

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Thu, 02 Feb 2012 16:56:00 +0000

So Hubs and I had a *massive* blow-out on Sunday night.

Some things were said that we didn't mean and I said some things that I hadn't revealed before.

While it sucked in the midst of it and during the aftermath for a bit -- it was also very cathartic.

Since that night, we've actually been communicating better than we have in ages. And, the best part is that Hubs has even been initiating some of these conversations about how I am feeling about things and what we want to accomplish and work on etc...

It's more like the way we used to communicate in the earlier years of our relationship (we've been together for 5 years).

I think the combination of the Ciprolax and the Wellbutrin is working well for him.

We are trying to have a week of no yelling and we've made "time out cards" for each of us (except Baby Girl) to try to use when things are starting to get heated.

Hopefully it helps :>

Also, Baby Girl has an appointment at KidsAbility later this month to have her speech development assessed so I'm glad that is being taken care of (I put her on a waiting list in late 2011).

Little Man is on a waiting list for some ABA work. And he's doing well on his daily dose of 30 mg of Biphentin (to help him focus and control his impulses) plus 3 mg of Melatonin before bed to help him sleep.

Rhyme Girl is back in therapy and her mother has been taking her - though Hubs needs to push to find out what the counselor recommends...

I have an appointment with my family DR to discuss anti-depressants tomorrow and my next therapy appointment is on the 9th.

Right now I am drinking a protein packed smoothie and then I've got some tidying up to do.

Here's hoping everyone is well.

2nd therapy appointment yesterday

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 16:04:00 +0000

So I had my 2nd session yesterday.

She said that we will start doing something called EMDR in a few more sessions. Before my next appointment (in 2 weeks) I have to work on a timeline for her of positive and negative events in my life that I remember.

That may well be challenging because, frankly, most of my memories are negative as those are the ones that stick whereas the happy ones are harder to hold onto.

Yesterday I described the fact that, to me, happiness is transient whereas, in my ideal world, it would be a constant.

I think there were a number of emotional factors and stressors related to my unfortunate re-gain.

The counselor that I meet with told me yesterday that it is not her job to diagnose me or prescribe anything, it's her job to help me accept what has happened in the past and release all the negativity and fear that I hang on to.

Though she did suggest that I talk to my family DR about medication.

I'm still thinking about that.

If anyone reading has some experience with anti-depressant and/or anti-anxiety medication, feel free to comment or to message me privately.

weight: 247.6 lbs

a few pics

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 01:31:00 +0000

update

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 01:09:00 +0000

So, just had a fight with Hubs re: my anxiety/panic/PTSD -- he doesn't understand it and I try not to make a big issue of it all. But, I've been struggling with it lately.

I have my second therapy appointment tomorrow... am feeling pretty keyed up about it. I debated back and forth and back and forth on whether or not to write about it here and, as you can see, I did NOT detail the session.

I still find myself feeling somewhat "raw" from it in ways. Even though, overall, I think it went well but I have been having more times where I feel really disconnected as well as times where I am really emotional.

I suppose it's all part of the process.

In other news, I've made a new friend and her son and Little Man get along EXTREMELY well and that's really nice for both of them.

My appointment with Little Man's school was re-scheduled due to poor driving conditions re: my support coordinator from DSRC so hopefully the weather cooperates on Thursday which is also the day back in 2007 that Hubs and I really connected and started talking.

Have been working on saving money on groceries thanks to H's advice and Walmart's price matching policies.

Budgeting on a low income is a must - but is still challenging.

Am hoping to swing a discounted Y membership into February's budget so I have something to do to help re-motivate me.

Right now my one motivation is, apparently, house-organization. It's a slow, arduous process but worthwhile if we can actually get this place all sorted out.

Baby Girl is 22 months old today. I'll have to log in with one of my other email addys so that I can add a photo of her.

Happy New Year!

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 23:05:00 +0000

Well hello 2012.

I hope everyone is doing well.

I *finally* have my therapy appt on Friday (the therapist called in Dec and said she had to re-schedule) so I am excited and nervous and apprehensive all at the same time.

Xmas was alright - though we have one more to do on Sunday the 8th and then we will actually be done.

Still a battle with moodiness around my household. Some days it seems like we are all out of sorts and other days it might only be one or two of us.

But we are alive and we haven't given up!

Why all the nightmares?

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 15:11:00 +0000

Sleep is traumatic for me lately... filled with fear, anxiety, panic, horror, confusion, entrapment, confinement without escape.

I feel like a zombie, walking around, constantly exhausted - my motivation and get-up-and-go are virtually non-existant.

The biggest stand-outs with dream horror was a portion of a dream from last wk (the rest of it was OK but the recurring refrain was of me coming up to people and saying, "I can't believe my father died on Friday and my brother died at his funeral!")

Of course, my Dad died in 1993 and my brother is still alive.

It could refer to my birth dad and one of my half-brothers but I kept feeling like it was about my Dad who raised me instead.

Last night - every time I went back to sleep I was trapped in this nightmare that began with Hubs and I walking into a store that appeared to have been cobbled together by my subconscious from 3 of the places I have worked...

a Cdn Tire Gas Bar
a Personal Edge store
a Black's Photograpy store

I was dropping off a high school student I'd sourced out as an intern for the store and explained that to the manager (who in the dream was Mike, owner/operator of my fav place, Club Abstract).

Hubs was with me and we went out through the photolab and were in a garage and walked past cars up on the hoist and then we were outside, facing a mall.

We turned back and all the doors were closed so we had to make our way through the mall to find our car and get home to the kids who were being babysat by my son's godfather.

Suddenly we found ourselves out on a country road, with deep snow and no real landmarks.

There was a rundown rusted bus and we got on it to shelter ourselves from the wind. We checked for our cell phones but they were missing.

There was a phone and I called our house to leave a message and say we needed help but then there was a young woman in dirty clothes, holding the phone cord.

I began apologizing for trespassing but all she was interested in was if we had kids.

We were taken at gunpoint to a large barn where there were a lot of people and my immediate thought was "inbred rednecks" because they were like the movie/TV show stereotype of that sort of character.

They wanted to keep us as a fresh set of breeders.

I woke up, extremely freaked out and every time I managed to get back to sleep -- I was back there again. Without escape. Without surcease.

I still feel like I am on maximum alert.

Since Saturday, I've been feeling like there is some major doom awaiting me and I've left the house as little as possible because I kind of feel like I am going to have a heart attack out of sheer fear at the moment.

I *KNOW* this is illogical but I am not willing to try to force myself out of it, I am going to treat myself gently over the next few days and keep reading, "Depressed & Anxious - The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Workbook for overcoming Depression & Anxiety."

It could even be that reading the book itself is behind this wall of panic surrounding me... I really don't know.

If I can just make it through Xmas and get to that first therapy appointment on the 28th, I'm sure I'll start getting a handle on things again.

The other night I had to have one of those hard cries, the kind where it feels like there is a ball of steel wool jammed down your throat and your emotions have to slide past it, tasting of bile and blood and metal.

It's funny how I can manage to write things here when I get the nerve to do so but it's so incredibly hard and EMBARRASSING to try and explain in person to those I care about.

Though even writing this entry has my stomach churning like I am about to start projectile vomitting.

My head aches, my heart is pounding and I just don't want to talk to ANYONE right now...

Are things looking up?

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Thu, 08 Dec 2011 20:30:00 +0000

The good:

- Hubs started therapy this week
- I will be starting therapy on the 28th
- we are receiving some financial support (which also covers the cost of therapy)
- http://i-am-amused.blogspot.com/

Stuff in process:

- IPRC for Little Man

* this has been a source of frustration as we only have an IEP in place for him and as I understand it, an IPRC is necessary if we want to look into specialty educational programming. But I heard back from a nice woman at Developmental Services Resource Centre (DSRC) today and they meet on the 21st and I will be contacted after that about a service co-ordinator who could be someone to assist me with advocating for my son to get the whole process rolling.

The bad:

- though, as ever, there are some things that fall into "the bad" I'm not going to go into them as my mood has been very down and I'm actually feeling somewhat hopeful at the moment

I made these today...

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 19:46:00 +0000

Random silliness...

I am still alive - just struggling

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 12:21:00 +0000

So, instead of keeping my promise to post once a week - instead I got sucked further and further into depression, stress and anxiety.

My relationship with Hubs has been extremely crappy, though I am hopeful that a lengthy conversation we had the other night will keep us in a better head-space with one another.

I just could NOT come on here and even attempt to post with Hubs and I getting into multiple arguments per day.

Him still being jobless and constantly feeling bad about himself and life really generated a negative cycle with a life of its own that impacted me so that I also got worse and reactionary and really, it has just been a really tough time.

And what do I do during a tough time?

I find forms of escapism.

Eating, drinking, general avoidance of some things and throwing myself into things designed to distract me from my unhappiness and my pain.

If I don't stop this fucked up ride I'm on now - I'll keep re-gaining the weight that I lost and that, in turn, will feed (what a great word, eh?) my negative pattern cycle.

THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT FOR MY LIFE!!!

Surprisingly, I can still manage to feel hopeful.

Yesterday was the first day in AGES (at least a month, honestly) where Hubs and I did not have one single argument.

I'd like to repeat that today and let this be the beginning of a new, more positive and loving time for Hubs and I and our relationship.

I believe if I can reduce my negative experiences and feelings that I can regain control over my emotional eating/self-destructive behaviours.

And I am pretty embarrassed to post this.

But - there it is.

After I get the hang of this... I'll have a giveaway in the next week.

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Sat, 29 Oct 2011 14:39:00 +0000

I am messing around with My Memories Suite because I received an email offering me a copy of the software to try out and a giveaway (but I'll post that once I've played around with the program, which I received a copy of).

They've also given me a coupon code STMMMS64457 which is only good for the program I am using (My Memories Suite v2) though if you tend to be the impatient type, you have the opportunity to go to the site and by using the coupon code above, a $10 discount off the purchase of the My Memories Suite Scrapbook software and a $10 coupon for the MyMemories.com store (which is a $20 value!)

Once I get a page or two done, I'll screen-cap them and post them to the blog using one of my other google email addresses where I haven't used the maximum allowable photos and also post the official giveaway.

I won't be doing it today though, because it is Hubs' bday and we've got things to do! Plus I'm supposed to take Little Man for an autism-research testing session later this afternoon.

It's been a week

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 23:36:00 +0000

My mood is still decidedly depressed.

That being said, I had a decent day today -- Hubs and I went to Elora. He and Baby Girl went to the museum whilst I perused the archives looking for genealogical info on my ancestors.

http://www.wcm.on.ca/archives_arcollect.php

Tonight I am going out dancing with Baby Girl's godmother and Little Man's godfather.

Hubs is staying home with my kids (he says "as usual") and Baby Girl's godfather is staying home with his kids.

Other than that, not much to say but I did remember to post!

Saturday is Hubs bday. I'll have to make a cake on Friday.

Though Sat afternoon, Little Man is participating in an autism study for York university.

Where I'm at - mentally, physically and financially

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Thu, 20 Oct 2011 19:58:00 +0000

So what I tend to do when I get depressed is that I throw myself into something different.

I become less introspective and tend to internalize the things going on rather than dealing with them.

With that being said...

First things first.

Mentally - I'm still really out of sorts, unmotivated, depressed and frustrated.

Physically - I have only being doing the diaperfit class with Baby Girl and I've been eating complete crap. Ready for the horrible backslide confession???

I am appalled that I've done this.

But here we go.

*sigh*

Weight: 232.0 lbs

That's up 27.8 lbs from my all-time low of 204.2 back in April on this year.

:(

The things I've thrown myself into re: my main method of escapism...

#1 - genealogical research (which is actually pretty cool and is helping me feel more connected to the maternal side of my birth family.
#2 - online games - word games, yahtzee, FB games like who wants to be a millionaire and are you smarter than a 5th grader and family feud.
#3 - going out dancing with my friends (although I have been doing more drinking than my usual).
#4 - EATING CRAPPY FOOD!

Financially things are tight. Hubs has not found work yet, though he did attend a job fair on Saturday and he has had 3 job interviews this week so we're hoping something comes of it all... though he'd most like to hear from the job fair and that's the one he hasn't heard anything from.

He was 62 hrs under what he needed to qualify for employment insurance so we've had no income since he was let go in Sept.

If it weren't for the fact that we live in geared-to-income housing and that I receive the Canada Child Tax Benefit for Little Man and Rhyme Girl - we'd be completely fucked.

Hopefully one of these interviews turns into a job. Worst case scenario - we apply for Ontario Works (aka welfare) and I look into going back to retail part-time around whatever temp work Hubs can find.

*sigh*

re: the kids:

I've been having some real issues with Little Man and his temper... it's stressing me out a lot.

I've ordered a new book with some birthday money I received and once it gets here, and I read it - I'll either post here or on my kids blog about it.

And I'm still concerned about Baby Girl's speech development.

At her 18-month-appointment - she was not hitting all the milestones, but she was close. Our family DR told me to wait until she's 2 and see how she's doing then.

This is the same thing he said about Little Man so I've got Baby Girl on a waiting list at KidsAbility just in case.

She is communicative - but she still uses a limited amount of words.

Because Little Man has autism spectrum disorder and Rhyme Girl has ADHD - I am really trying to be proactive when it comes to Baby Girl because that places her at an increased risk of having one or both of these issues.

I really need to stop being self-destructive re: eating crap, not exercising, not expressing my feelings & just HIDING from the things that are bothering me.

I can't promise that I'll blog as much as I used to -- but I am going to commit to making at least one entry per week.

I hope everyone else is doing better than I am...

Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Sat, 08 Oct 2011 20:03:00 +0000

Well, the kids are driving me a little bit nuts...

I've been keeping busy with ancestry.ca and family tree related things.

And my period is being strange.

Blah!

I hope all of you are well.

Swimming lessons

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 12:30:00 +0000

Today is Baby Girl's first day of "Duck" swimming lessons.

from the activity guide:

To enter this level the toddler must be at least 16 months old and participate with one or both parents. Children will build confidence while enjoying the water through games, songs and active water play. Parents come prepared to demonstrate for your child. Please note Duck is determined by age. Your child may take this course several times. (Min 5- Max 11)

And then tomorrow is the first day of "Diaper Fit":

This registered waterfit program is designed for the busy mother/caregiver who finds it difficult to exercise while watching children. During this shallow waterfit class you will be positioned in the water with your baby/preschooler to provide the best possible workout using the resistance of the water. Each participant needs to provide their own flotation seat to place the child in during the class. An excellent,vigorous workout while watching your child! Due to age prerequisites you will register the child for this program.

I'm feeling anxious about being in public in a swim suit...

But I'll survive!

Some drinking and dancing

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 21:27:00 +0000

Yes, that's what I did on Saturday the 17th.

Here are some pics from that night. Some by me and some by a friend (the ones in which I appear far more intoxicated).

the latest

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 12:49:00 +0000

Hubs is looking for work. It appears that he does not have enough hours to qualify for EI.

Baby Girl and Hubs and I all are at varying stages of having a cold or reacting to allergies. Baby Girl has a very snotty nose and is sneezing. Hubs is coughing and achey. I have a snotty nose, the sneezes and a sore throat with fever (so I am definitely under the weather).

:(

In other news - Little Man received his green stripe belt in Kung Fu on Saturday and we are very proud of him.

:>

1G1D1Y is on her honeymoon and I miss her.

I have been all over the place emotionally. Sometimes I'm fine, sometimes it feels like the end of the world.

My exercise has decreased and my binging has increased.

I don't know why it can be such a challenge to harness and control my emotions/mood but it's probably because I have a ton of things that I still don't really deal with.

So it's been tough and I haven't been around as much because whenever I feel like my life is going downhill - I tend to try to hide from it, like an ostrich with its head in the sand.

If I can't see it, it can't be happening.

All that being said - I have had some great days. But more of them have felt like days I had to struggle to get through, or days where I'd have rather stayed in my bed and not come out for anyone.

That's the part that's the hardest to deal with.

I don't like being perceived as weak or vulnerable by others. So I have a hard time really sharing how I am feeling. Or I do share it, but I make sure I'm still able to laugh at myself or at the shit life throws at me to make sure that other people don't worry about me.

Also - I haven't shared pics in awhile - I'll have to log in using one of my other email accounts so I can back-date a pics post (because I want this one to be the most recent).

1G1D1Y's wedding (pics and video)

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 12:13:00 +0000

Here are some of the pictures I snapped at 1G1D1Y's wedding and I'll add one of the videos I took of her oldest daughter dancing with Little Man...

The wee dancing queen herself :>

The groom, our friend R. and the bride :>

Myself & 1G1D1Y (in her dinner gown)

It's myself and Hubs

1G1D1Y's youngest girl and Little Man

Myself and MoH, M.


And here are D., Little Man & MoH's daughter

My niece's wedding (PICS)

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 12:01:00 +0000

My niece's wedding on Sept 3rd.

This was an event on my adoptive side of the family... (some of these I took with my sister's camera - hence the date-stamping) and the others were with my own camera:

(the whole adoptive family was present except for my 2nd youngest niece).


The bride and groom

My 2nd oldest niece & her husband

My two nephews-in-law, 2 of my great-nephews, my great-niece, my sister & brother-in-law and my 2 oldest nieces

My youngest great-nephew


My 2 sisters showing me some love at my niece's wedding

My youngest niece and her grandparents (my brother's in-laws)

My Mom's rings reunited. My sisters and I each own one of these.

My nephew and his wife & my oldest nephew and his fiancee

My brother-in-law and my sister

Myself and Hubs

My brother and my sister-in-law

Another wedding and another reading ;>

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 01:50:00 +0000

So yesterday was the day, 1G1D1Y got married to the man I introduced her to back in 2006.

I've been told that that should mean they have to buy me a pair of shoes in some cultures.

WHERE ARE MY SHOES?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I was asked to do a reading during their ceremony but I couldn't find anything that really expressed what I wanted to say so I wrote something for them instead.

I have a video of it... but I am alarmed at the angle because I look WIDE and I think I look healthier than that in person. Perhaps this dress I love(d) should not be one I wear often if this is what I really look like in it.

Oh and the woman who did the second reading -- whoa, so glad I didn't have to follow her Neil Gaiman show-stopper.

Anyway, here's me.

Are you Effing kidding me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

noreply@blogger.com (FatAngryBlog) — Fri, 09 Sep 2011 23:03:00 +0000

OK so yeah... Hubs gets home today and there is a vibe and it's not a good one. Turns out that the new job decided that he wasn't going to be a fit for their company after all and he was let go. This is horrible! It was completely unexpected. The last time Hubs lost a job, he did expect it and he knew he wasn't fitting in but this time, it was a total shock. He felt he was doing good work and that he was getting along with the other people who worked there (though in his department there was just his supervisor and himself). The only theory I can come up with is that his supervisor (who has worked alone for 5 yrs... Hubs was the first assistant/employee to be hired in all this time) was perhaps too used to working alone? I really don't know. No matter the whys or what have yous -- this is not a good thing. I don't even know if Hubs has enough hours to receive EI this time around!! *sigh* I'm at a loss here.

A bit on Spell Crafting - yes, that's what I wrote... it's part of my belief system

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 17:31:00 +0000

Little Man came upon me as I was reading some advice on spell-crafting and asked what I was doing.

I told him that I was contemplating some spell work to help strengthen my will and resolve while I've been having a tough time, emotionally.

He said that he wished there was a spell that would help him make good choices.

That got me thinking.

So, I asked him to bring me his stones and I thought of the ones he has, that the green calcite was the best choice (after re-checking "The Crystal Bible.")

Each day he is going to take 9 minutes and hold the stone in his hand, imaging that he is having a great day.

He is going to hold it in his receptive hand and say,

"I will use this stone to balance my mind and soothe my soul, allowing me my self-control, counting minutes, 3 by 3, as I will, so mote it be."

And he will hold it for 9 minutes.

I think holding that intention will help and that is part of what I need to do for myself.

Am debating if a self-esteem/self-empowerment spell would be good on the night of the next full moon as well as a weight loss spell for the waning moon.

re: self-esteem/self-empowerment and general health and well-being, well this one is trickier for me to think of. I have to be careful with my wording and intentions and it's harder for me to focus on this while feeling the way that I do, if you know what I mean.

re: weight loss, I was thinking the most I'd like to lose would be 78 lbs in a 6 month time span (13 lbs per month)

I came across a spell I liked here and I can tweak the words to something that accurately suits me and my intentions.

Any thoughts?

Not in a good mood

noreply@blogger.com (A Caged Wench) — Tue, 30 Aug 2011 20:59:00 +0000

I don't know what's wrong with me... it's like my Seasonal Affective Disorder has kicked in early or something.

I'm moody, down, lethargic, having a very full dreamscape and waking exhausted.

I did have fun on the weekend - going out dancing with some friends while Hubs stayed home with Baby Girl and Little Man but then boom, I'm back to not wanting to get out of bed.

:(

I think I definitely need a new scale though. I had 216.4 then 214. 6 and then 221 and 218 all within 5 minutes or less.

Well, I guess new batteries might do the trick as well - but whatever - I've got to do something so I have accurate readings.

We had a tornado warning last wk. I was pretty freaked out since there had been an F3 tornado touch down in a town about an hour from here and there was a lot of damage.

Luckily things didn't get too bad here after all...

some pics: