Fat Chic Gone Healthy

THIS IS IT

2010-04-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

Just like the late Michael Jackson, "This Is It!!!!"

No, I am not abandoning my attempted, and I use this word very loosely, weight loss. This is it...like this is the magic number or something.

It hit me this morning, I believe, after I scarfed down three mini Easter cupcakes. I am an All or Nothing kind of a gal. I think, just because there is a little bit of choclate in the house, I can't workout or even eat well enough. After I scarfed down those delectable little treats I relized this isn't IT!!

I can't do the All or Nothing thing forever. Life isn't perfect and neither is losing weight. I am not on the Biggest Loser campus and can't pretend I am. I have four kids and a husband. I am a couponing queen, a stay at home mom and a fabulous baker!! Those things I can't and won't change either. My point is, in MY personal life there is no way I am going to eat perfect 24/7 365 days a year. That doesn't mean it won't evolve to that point, but for right now it's ridiculous for me to imagine I can do that.

So after scarfing those mini treats down, you know what I did??!!! NOOOOOO, I didn't eat another one, I put on JILLIAN!!!

I did about 20 minutes of The Last Chance Workout and I am just happy. Happy, I tell ya!!! Sure it wasn't 90 minutes, but it was a start. It's been 2 months since I have done anything remote. So for me to do this, its HUUUUGGGEE!!!

Then I realize, maybe...just maybe, I have not looked at the big picture.. I have not lost any crazy amount of weight, but maybe I need to take this slow and not worry about losing 8 lbs a week. Then, I look at what I have done in the past month or so!

* I drink a crap ton of water..I really don't like water, but I drink it like crazy now. I drink a soda once a week or so!! This is HUUUGGGEEE!!!
*I take at least one daily walk a day with my kids.
* I have been having smaller portions for dinner.

I am getting there and I am going to try to update daily so that I can keep myself accountable!!!!

Emotional Breakdown

2010-03-17T07:21:00.000-07:00

This isn't where I wanted to be.....

This isn't what I wanted to do....

I feel stuck....

No way out....

I feel like I am stuck, no breathing room, no where to go. Although I know I have the power to turn this around. I have already gained 5 lbs back and I don't want to gain all of it back. I am bloated and I hate myself. Maybe hate is a strong word, but close to it.

I am on the verge of tears right now!! I don't know exactly why or maybe I do. I feel disgusting in not just myself, but right now I have noone and I mean noone to turn to. I am always that person. That person that everyone else turns to when their life is in ruin. With that being said, it takes a lot for me to ask for help. When I do, I often feel rejected and this is where I am at!!! It doesn't help that I am PMSing so my emotions are effin crazy!!!

Its been close to a month since I have busted my ass!!! I haven't written my food down in a few weeks. Itss been one thing after another, but I hate excuses and won't use that either. I need to write a plan down, but never get around. I always put myself last. Last to shower, last to dress, last to eat, which may not be a bad thing, i just put myself last.

I have a plan of action!!!

This week I am starting to write everything down. The Good. The Bad. The Really Really Ugly.

Next week I am going to add in cardio at least three days. I have to start small and then work my way up.

I am not quitting on myself!!! Please don't quit on me!!!

Is anyone listening to my hormonal driven rant....

Short and Sweet

2010-02-24T19:43:00.001-08:00

I'm on a commercial break from American Idol, so this will be short and sweet.

Breakfast: egg white burrito
Lunch: boca burger on whole grain bread
Dinner: turkey chili, 2 tb low fat sour cream, saltines
Dessert: 2 small cookies

About 1200 calories...lighter side, but did 70 minutes of cardio and a
buttload of water.
Okay back to Idol:)

Tammy

The Good, the Bad and the Great

2010-02-24T13:36:00.001-08:00

It's weigh in day, friends....

Last week: 273
This week: 275
+ 2 lbs

It is what is!!! I did not do cardio one single day last week. Plus, I
ate whatever was in arms reach. Honestly, i am suprised it wasn't
more. So I am good with what it said. Plus, I use a mechanical scale
and lord knows they aren't the most reliable.

I started the day with 70 minutes cardio including a hard MMA and
Turbo Jam workout. I am already feeling it!

Tammy

Buring and Burning

2010-02-23T20:02:00.001-08:00

What a way to return to Cardioland!!!! Right off the bat, I completed
70 minutes of heavy cardio thanks to Turbo Jam mainly! It was such a
relief to sweat my butt off. I forgot to weigh in today, but
will,vhopefully, do that tomorrow:):)

Here are my eats for today:
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 flatout, 20 grapes
Lunch: tuna with diced apples, celery, egg whites and light mayo on 1
flatout, 20 grapes
Snack: 1 egg white, 4 crackers, 2 cheese
Dinner: chipotle citrus chicken, corn, biscuit, carrots
Dessert: coke:(:( 4 licorce

I was under 1600 cals for the day, but still happy with myself. I am
pleased with the yummy cookies i passed on and I am in good spirits
once again:):)

A letter to Cardio

2010-02-23T11:40:00.001-08:00

Dear Cardio,
I know I have neglected you over the past two weeks, I apologize that
I haven't partook with you. I sincerely apologize for your failed
attempts to reconnect. However, after our 70 minute discussion today,
I understand how vital it is to partake with you every day. But did
you have to beat my butt that bad and thank-you for bringing along
Michael Jackson, Beyonce,Kesha and Kanye. They really helped in
driving your point home. I pinky swear promise to see you again
tomorrow.
Love,
Tammy

Gittn' Back On Track

2010-02-16T08:02:00.001-08:00

Its been nearly two weeks since I have posted anything weight related.
HOLY SMOKES!!!

Some of you know that I had a family emergency. My youngest was In the
hospital for 5 days with pneumonia and RSV. He was dehydrated and loss
muscle tone. He came home Thursday night and his antibiotics are
finally starting ti work. He is stated to walk with assistance, but
still gets tired easily. He's doing so much better!!!

Needless to say, I haven't worked out since he first got
sick....almost two weeks ago!!! My eating wasn't horrible, but I felt
guilty if I ATE or took a breather. I KNOW I KNOW!!! HORRIBLE!!! This
weeoend, when he showed improvement, I made up for it!!! LOL!! I
wanted to start working out again since he's doing so
well...MOTIVATION PLEASE!!??

WEIGH IN TIME.......
LAST TIME: 278.5
THIS WEEK: 275(WHAT THE @#$%)
TOTAL: 25 LBS

OH YEAH OH YEAH!!!

TAMMY

My Love Affair With......

2010-02-03T10:14:00.000-08:00

GRAPES!!! YES, GRAPES!!!

I love grapes and after strawberries are my fruit of choice. I love
the coolness, the first bite past that crisp skin and the wave of
sweet coolness hits my tongue!

The best part is they are $.99 a lb.....so cheap and soooooooo good. I
just had a half cup and had to share my affair!!!

HOW DO I LOOK? :);):)

2010-02-03T07:00:00.001-08:00

My Day-Tuesday

2010-02-02T19:59:00.001-08:00

Wow!!! What a day! I started the day on a high with losing 5 lbs!!!
Shortly after I felt weird and only got 20 minutes of Cardio in. I
spent most of my afternoon in the bathroom or with my youngest as his
molars were coming in. Then felt better!! Even more so after I tried
on my fav jeans and they were a loose around the waist and butt. Even
my hubs complimented me!!!:):):):):):)

Breakfast: cherrios with 1% milk
Lunch: jello,fruit bar
Snack: jello
Dinner: 2turkey dogs on whole grain bread with 1/4 cup turkey chili,
10 oz cherry coke

Not a good eating day at all!!!!

Tammy

Death to Dieting

2010-02-01T15:37:00.001-08:00

DEATH TO DIETING!!!!

YUP,thats right. I say death TO dieting!!!!:o:o

Dont be alarmed, my healthier amigas/amigos!!!

DIETS DONT AND WILL NEVER WORK!! Its a lifestyle, Baby!!! We all know
this, but weeeee still-life say, every new year, new month, new
week..."gonna start that diet Monday" BULLSHIT!!! YEA, weeeee might
eat clean for a few days, at max, AND we get frustrated and throw in
three-dimensional towel. NEWSFLASH!!! THIS 'DIET' WILL continue for
the rest of our lives. There is no easy way out, but there is good
news!!!

The rewards aré soooo worth it. We are gonna mess up AND thats
okay!!!! We live AND learn!!!

Flat out pizzas

2010-02-01T06:49:00.001-08:00

This is an easy recipe for the flat out brand pizza. You cans find
these everywhere. I use the,original. I use low sodium pizza
sauce.....a tablespoon or so. I don't like too much sauce. I sprinkle
a little mozzarella. I add 8 slices turkey pepperoni, dived peppers,
onion, garlic,mushrooms,a little more mozzarella.
Bake at 350 for 12 minutes in a sprayed baking sheet. I like my crispy.
About 200 calories.
ENJOY!!!

Habits of a healthier chick

2010-01-31T21:27:00.001-08:00

I can feel myself making better food choices, without giving it a
second thought. It hit me today when I was with my whole family
running errands and such. You know most of us hit the drive thru and
order fat on salt on fat crappola!! My husband wanted to hit a local
Mexican eatery and I told him no. Yep that's right!!!! I stood up in
the name of health. Not only did I save myself from lard, but I saved
myself money.

He's soo hooked on my flat out pizzas, and so are my kids!!! It makes
me feel good about all this. My kids, for the most part, are loving
all the veggies I'm bringing home. LOVIN IT!!!

So took a 30 minute brisk walk with the whole family. I had around
1500 cals today.

Tammy

I AM BUFF!!!

2010-01-30T19:44:00.001-08:00

YEP THAT'S RIGHT!! I AM BUFF!!!

My husband even called it!! Doesn't it make you feel so good when
someone finally notices all your hard work!?! One word describes it.
SENSATIONALLY FABULOUSO!!!

So I bought three fabulous SLEEVELESS shirts. I'll post pics later,
but I am definately seeing changes in my body and loving it. Now for
some bad news...dun dun dun....

I haven't had a decent Cardio session in two days. BUTTTT I have a
session penciled in tomorrow, my usual rest day. Yesterday, I had 1600
cals and all craptood. It included a 6 inch subway chicken sub with
veggies, four small slices of pizza and two shots of vodka. The theme
carried over to today with turkey sausage, sloppy Joe, 8 fries,a
banana.

TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY!!!

Sales

2010-01-27T11:31:00.001-08:00

Here's just a little note. If you are on a budget. And hate clipping
coupons, heres an awesome site.
Www.denvermetromoms.com
Awesome recap of all major chains, samples and freebies.

Carbs

2010-01-26T20:51:00.001-08:00

Hey all!! Good day Cardio wise, bad day water wise and mediocre day
food wise. Cals were around 1600 and I. Am glad I got a higher calorie
day in, but not with my food choices.

Breakfast:1 cup rice cereal w/ 1/3 cup 1% milk
Lunch: 2 hard.boiled eggs and 7 saltines.
Snack: 1/2 cup natural applesauce
Dinner:11/2 flatout pizza, 1 soda :(
Snack: 15 pringles

I are too many carbs and salt, but I am looking forward!!! On the plus
note, I took a small bite of a.brownie and it was so sweet. I wasn't
even tempted. Funny, how our tastes change.

Tammy

BLUEBERRY MUFFINS

2010-01-26T15:30:00.000-08:00

If yall love blueberry muffins like I do, then you will love this. I
found this recipe via Hungry Girl and this recipe can be found we
hungry-girl.com. This recipe is fab and taste like blueberry pancakes.

1 cup whole wheat flour
1 cup.fresh/frozen blueberries.
1/2 cup light vanilla soymilk
1/4 cup sugar-free pancake syrup
3 TB non-packed brown sugar
1/4 cup egg beaters
1/4 cup Splenda
2 Tb light whipped butter
2 TB no-sugar-added applesauce
11/2 t. baking powder
1/2 t. Vanilla extract
1/4 t. Salt

Preheat oven to 400 degrees
In a medium mixing bowl, combine flour, Splenda, brown sugar, baking
powder, and salt.
In a large mixing bowl, combine thouroughly the soymilk, egg beaters,
butter, applesauce, and vanilla. It's. Okay if its a little lumpy.
Add dry ingredients to the wet ingredients and mix. Fold in blueberries.
Line 6 muffin cups with liners or spray. Evenly distribute.
Bake 22 minutes.

Serves 6...137 calories, 2.25g fat, 26.5g carbs, 4g protein

Tammy

Weigh Was Today

2010-01-26T13:14:00.001-08:00

The dreaded weigh in was today. Did I gain, maintain or lose?? The
numbers speak for themselves. DRUM ROLL PLEASE....

Last week: 290
This Week: 283.5
Loss: 6.5 lbs
Total loss: 16.5 lbs

Yeah me!!!!

A pretty face

2010-01-25T19:58:00.000-08:00

A pretty face. I have the cutest face. It was after my first son that
I realized how cute my features were. That if I played up my eyes, a
lil lipgloss and a flat iron, I was transformed into this pretty lil
thing. This way people were deflected from my body and were drawn to
my face and personality. This worked and in this way I became very
self.confident, but just unhappy with my body. Weird I know, but I
figure its what many of us do.

I had a really good day, just low in calories again, 1100. I worked 35
minutes kickboxing and downed the water.

Breakfast: 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1/2 cup peaches
Lunch: 1 flatout veggie pizza
Snack: 1/2 cup peaches,8 white corn tortilla chips
Dinner: 4 oz salmon with 2 TB light mayo/basil sauce, 1/2 cup squash.

Good Night Dolls
Tammy

The back view

2010-01-25T10:33:00.000-08:00

Myself at 290 lbs

2010-01-25T10:30:00.001-08:00

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Steven Pyron <sdppyron@gmail.com>
Date: Sun, 24 Jan 2010 18:25:41 -0700
Subject:
To: hisgoddesss@gmail.com

Black-Bean Burgers

2010-01-25T10:20:00.000-08:00

2 Tb olive oil
1 stalk celery, chopped
1 onion,chopped
1 clove garlic, minced
1 15-oz can black beans no salt added, rinsed and drained
1 large egg, lightly beaten
1 Tb cumin
1/2 cup bread crumbs
Salt and pepper if desired

Preheat oven to 375. Lightly grease a baking sheet.
Warm oil in skillet. Add celery and onion, stirring often for 3-5
minutes. Add garlic and saute one minute more. Set aside.
Pour beans un food processor or blender until a paste forms. Pour in large bowl.
Add veggies from skillet. Stir in cumin, egg and bread crumbs.
If desired, season with salt and pepper.
Use hand and form 4 parties. Place on baking sheet.
Bake 10 minutes on each side.

215 cals, 9 g fat, 1 g saturated fat, 28 g fiber, 9 g protein

Tammy

moi

2010-01-25T08:11:00.001-08:00

slooooowwww speed

2010-01-24T20:50:00.001-08:00

Have you ever had a day where the day is moving so slow? So slow, in
fact, that it seems like you are watching yourself in a movie? That
was so my day today. My kids. I don't know, seemed like they woke up
all sugared up!!! I have four kids all under 9 and weather here was
brrrrrrific!! I was using all my patience and willpower just not to
stuff my face full of crap so I wouldn't pull my hair out. However,
this movie had a happy ending :):) I am so glad and proud I am at a
place I care more about my health and well being than what a 12 ounce
can of corn syrup can do for me!!

I made black bean burgers tonight, but didn't make enough for me :(:(
I had Boca burgers, so its all good. I consumer so little today about
1000 calories. I know I know. I just had one of those days and it was
a rest day too. I might post the recipe of my black bean burgers.
Thoughts?

Breakfast: 3/4 orange, 1 whole wheat cini muffin
Lunch: 1 flatout with egg, Apple and light mayo
Snack: handful of chocolate chips, fruit bar
Dinner: 2 Boca burgers on 1 bun, 3 teaspoons of beans, 1 cookie

Good night, friends
Tammy

Faux Peanut Butter Cheesecake

2010-01-24T09:56:00.001-08:00

I experimented with this last night and its such a yummy ice cream
dessert. It's 200 calories a slice but sooo good.

1 cup Free whipped cream
2 cups low fat ice cream/ frozen yogurt- vanilla
1 packet sugar free Cheesecake pudding mix
1/4 cup natural peanut butter ( I use Smart Balance)

In chilled bowl let ice cream and whipped cream soften. Stir all
ingredients in bowl until combined. Pour in 8 x 8 pan cover and freeze
for 2 hrs.

Optional: add another layer of whipped cream upon serving.

Tammy