Resolutions Of A Fat Lazy Guy

Watching My Mom Die.

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 19:50:00 +0000

Sometimes in life, you need assistance. Food stamps, welfare, afdc. The flaw in the system, is that it works on the idea that everyone either really really needs help, or doesn't at all.

Sometimes people close to that mid line, can't get the help they need. This turns unbelievably shitty when something is a matter of life or death. My Mom is in stage 4 kidney failure.They have tried unsuccessfully twice to get dialysis shunts (valves to connect you to dialysis) left arm,and right arm. Her dialysis treatments are going to start anytime. They are going to try another shunt in her leg.

She has type 2 diabetes, and cardiomyopathy.She also had breast cancer,and has to take ongoing treatment to prevent it from coming back. It's killing me to watch her die. She can hardly walk. Her conditions have all but destroyed her eyesight. She has very expensive medicines, that are critical.She needs a constant supply of these, and isn't getting them. Despite being over 50, unable to work, and having worked most of her life, she is just under the work credits needed for Social security disability, or SSI. Can't get Medicaid, or Medicare either. She can't get any assistance whatsoever. By now,you are probably wondering why she can't get any help.

Well.My Mom is married. Her husband makes a whopping 10 dollars an hour. He has crappy health insurance, and all that does is bring thousands of dollars in monthly medical expense,down to hundreds.(in short, it doesn't help.) He can't take on a second job, because he has to drive her to her appointments almost daily.

So as I continue watching my Mom die, it's frustrating to know there is nothing I can do.I put this out so I could get ideas from people. Maybe someone out there has advice that will change the circumstances. Something I may have missed.

Lastly, I place this Paypal button on here. it's a donation button. I had the idea late last night.
I figured I would put the overall general goodness of people to the test.You always see outlandish stuff online.The red paperclip,stuff like that.So I figured what the hell. I was going to put 99 cents as the donation amount, but I decided to let people who want to help do so in whatever amount they want. More than 99 cents, less, or nothing at all. I thank you for taking the time to read this. And look forward to your comments on here, and twitters. Retweet this if you have time. Thanks.

Chest Pain,Lightning and Rain

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 01:45:00 +0000

Well. today is my birthday. One less year I have. I was having some chest pain today, but it ended up being gas. I hate lightning because the only thing I really do is use electronics, and lightning makes me too paranoid. You know what I have a fear of ? Being poisoned. Think about how easy it would be for someone to stick some bad shit into your food. Just enough to get it into your system over a period of time. Some poisons or chemicals over time can cause cancer, not like carcinogenic things, that can take your whole life to kill you, but rare stuff. People used to put lead in food. Doctors couldn't detect it without really looking for it,which they usually didn't. The person being fed the lead would have dementia, see things, basically go slowly crazy. In "The Sixth Sense" the woman was poisoned with pine-sol. It's a big big phobia for me. Remain Happy ?

New medicine/masturbation

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sat, 30 May 2009 20:54:00 +0000

Ever since I started using my new anti depressant medicine I have been restless, but find my eyes getting lazy and crossing, because I feel tired, but I can't sleep. So the computer screen words jumble together, It's strange. Maybe I just need to force myself into bed early.
You know how out of shape I am ? I have actually run out of energy while trying to masturbate, and had to stop. Isn't that pathetic?

Still as lazy as ever. To pee or not to pee...

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Tue, 26 May 2009 18:04:00 +0000

Here I sit, having to pee. But I can tell it will only be a little dribble. So I don't want to get up until I know I have a full stream in order. I mean, why waste a trip ? A final thought. If you can go to the bathroom without touching yourself, do you still need to wash your hands ?

Here I am,

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Mon, 25 May 2009 23:10:00 +0000

Rocks you like a... well, small gust of breezy wind stuff. I don't ever remember being like a hurricane. I was inspired by a new friend to restart this blog. See how lazy I am. Haven't posted in forever. That's all for now. I can't think of anything interesting to say.

I am back with an interesting website

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 20:50:00 +0000

There's a good one at the end of this post, make sure you don't do any of the unwise things listed there. Comment and tell me what you think. By the by, sorry I haven't posted in quite some time. I had a nice hospital stay and then some other various problems, I almost ended back there again! Back a while ago I was talking about feeling like your parents can never get sick or die. Dealing with parents that are ill is very hard to do. My Mom has serious diabetes, stage 4 kidney failure, and as of yesterday, breast cancer. So depression has been a theme for me the past week or so. Oh well enough of my problems, thanks for reading. Comment if you can, Remain Happy ?

I am pathetic

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 02:54:00 +0000

I feel so depressed right now. Life is passing me by at a rate that is almost impossible to imagine.
My parents are becoming old. It feels strange to be concerned with my parents' health to me. My children are growing up and it seems like just yesterday I was changing diapers. Life moves so fast. There is only so much time. I heard a children's song playing a bit earlier and got terribly choked up. My babies are growing up. I think about all the time I didn't spend with them. Doing things children do, like listening to songs like that. I am full of sadness.
Remain happy ?

A great example of my laziness

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 21:02:00 +0000

See how long it has been since I posted? That' s grade A lazy right there. Sorry to all the people that read faithfully. Here 's some thoughts I have had and wanted to document.
Why don't I ever get junk mail ads for penis reduction ?
I am pretty sure dogs are not the only animal that penetrates sexually from behind. So who decided that position should be named after them. What about KittyStyle ? FroggieStyle ? Horsestyle ?
Oh well, enough of that. I guess "Juno" didnt win, so my prediction was off. I want to see "No Country For Old Men" I probably will before too long.
as always, remain happy ?

Sickness

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 21:39:00 +0000

Well, it's been quite a while since I posted. That's part laziness, and part because I have had a bit of a virus. I haven't thrown up this much in years. I think I tossed my cookies like 5 times. Feeling a bit better, enough to write on here anyway. I apologize to my loyal readers. I will do my best to make future posting more frequent. My bet is that Juno wins best picture. We shall see later tonight. Remain Happy?

Too Lazy To Order A Pizza

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 23:55:00 +0000

I actually find myself too lazy to order a pizza. I am sitting here, and realizing that I am going to get some food online, and I am procrastinating my ass off. Some people have issues. I have the entire leather bound book case collection.

Too Damn Long

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 22:21:00 +0000

Its been way too long since I made a post on here. I took a shower today. If you backtrack through my posts, you will see the last time I took one. I still haven't put that micro cassette recorder to any good use. I don't recall if I blogged about my computer crashing, but all in all I have gotten things back to where I need them to be. I found a cool blog that has some funny stuff. It's quite a bit outdated, but I am putting a link to it anyhow. Remain Happy ?

Click here for the post I saw on there that made me laugh.

Man it's been a crappy past few days

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 16:33:00 +0000

Ok, first my computer decides to crash, and I lose all my important data.

Now I feel like crap. I think I am coming down with something. It hurts to breathe.

It wouldn't be so bad except I only have one lung. So as you can imagine, Pain and tightness in my

chest is a major concern for me. Remain happy ?

Living in the lap of luxury, for a price...

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 19:10:00 +0000

Here's a thought. What if you could live for the rest of your days as a billionaire, with every wish fulfilled, a life of pleasure. Not a care. More money than you can spend. But, in order to do this, you would have to agree that you would only live 10 more years to the day you agreed, and you would have to die. Would you do it ?

How pathetic is this ?

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sat, 02 Feb 2008 20:37:00 +0000

I just had a massive panic attack while trying to change the freaking message on my answering machine. I kept running out of time, or sounding stupid, and I felt like all eyes and ears in the entire world were staring at me and listening to me. I feel like a prisoner in my own mind at times.
Pathetic.

Interesting photo

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sat, 02 Feb 2008 02:14:00 +0000

As we have established my laziness, you won't be surprised that while I wanted to have an interesting photo to include with this blog post, I was too lazy to look for one. So I decided to do a google search for "interesting photo", and post whatever came up first. So without further delay,

Too depressed for words

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 17:33:00 +0000

I hate depression, I know I have no real reason to be sad. I just am. This fucking sucks. This blog is never going to be successful. No one wants to read my crap. Ok, now I am feeling sorry for myself, which makes me feel even worse. It's like that time I tried masturbating with toothpaste.
The minty kind. Actually it isn't. I just thought of that though.

I took a shower yesterday

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 18:49:00 +0000

I was too lazy yesterday to blog about it, as it is pretty monumental. I am so stressed right now I could puke. Sometimes I want to fall over and die. certain circumstances in my life right now, are causing me great deals of headache. I think homeless people on the street take better care of their shopping carts and boxes and blankets, better than the people in this dwelling take care of their belongings. I just don't know anymore. Sometimes it's difficult to count your blessings in life. But you really should. I am having a hard time. Remain happy ?

My lazy ass day

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 23:59:00 +0000

I swear I might just be THE laziest person on the planet. I was going to keep a log of daily activities, hour by hour, but I don't know if I want to actually see my daily routine written down.
I woke up today about 7 am, got started on my internet stuff. I do this on my laptop, in bed. Except for getting up to go to the bathroom, I have been sitting in this bed. I get so little physical activity in a day. Taking into account that I sleep on this bed, I bet I spend a minimum of 22 hours a day with my ass in contact with this mattress. I'd hate to have the CSI crew look at my little area, I am sure they would puke.

I leave you with this, It is better to have loved a short woman, than never have loved a tall...

I haven't taken a shower since the last time I posted I did

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 03:16:00 +0000

Isn't that pathetic ? Hey in sticking with the sadistic themes, here is a pic I found! I know I am morbid. Cheerier next time, I promise. Remain happy ?

Think about this for a second

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 20:21:00 +0000

If you released a CD called, "Music To Slit Your Wrists By Volume 1"
What songs would go on it ?
I nominate "Time In A Bottle",
"Hurt" (Johnny Cash version)
Comment and tell me what you think.

On a side note, could you actually release a Volume 2 ?
First off, if the first CD was a success, who would buy it ?
Second, would it hurt sales of the first CD, because skeptics
would think it was ineffective ?
Discuss...

Feel a bit better today

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 01:58:00 +0000

I got an awesome link and comment from 2depressed2getdressed. Thanks for the love.
I like this picture, it struck me funny. I planned on also including a neat picture of a razor blade in action, but I guess that will have to wait.

I feel so pathetic

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 01:15:00 +0000

I am always afraid of people. Always have been. Even with all the medication I take, any sort of confrontation scares me frozen. Like I need to run and hide. To cover my head with my hands and duck into a fetal position and just roll up and become small, quiet, comatose,withdrawn. I am the most spineless piece of shit I have ever known.

I want to see the movie Untraceable

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:04:00 +0000

It looks pretty awesome. I have an idea what the twist will be, but I don't want to say anything as yet. If I am right, I think we might have another great movie ending on our hands. I love films with stories that make you think, and a great twist, that ties everything up, and comes at you unexpectedly. Saw, The Prestige, The Sixth Sense, Those type of twists. I love em. I wanted to fire off a post before midnight, so I wouldn't lose a day. Please comment and let me know of any movies you like that have really good twists. Thanks! Fathead.

A odd thought

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 18:46:00 +0000

What if to get a divorce, you had to get married backwards (reverse) ? Starting at the altar and returning to the aisle, all the way out the church into separate cars ?

Well this looks like it's going to be a futile effort

noreply@blogger.com (Fat Head) — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 17:29:00 +0000

I feel like giving up, doesn't seem like anyone else is going to visit me. I feel very depressed today. Slim Fast still doing ok, trying to keep that going, I am just too damn fat and lazy for my own good. I did take a shower today though! Yay me! Here is a thought. When you go to the restroom, how many times do you wipe after you take a crap ? The thought occurred to me today. I wondered if anyone actually thinks about this. Probably not but I am a dork. Remain happy ?