Fatty Bombalatti

DUDE

2010-06-01T11:47:00.001-07:00

New medication is kicking my ass - forget eating, I can't even stay awake.

Memorial Day

2010-05-31T11:43:00.001-07:00

I am going to try and remember to eat well - probably going to the movies and need to stay away from the popcorn!

Lost a little weight - still need to do more.

Blocked!

2010-05-30T20:23:00.000-07:00

So this site is now blocked from work, so my ability to post is a little hindered. Set a new goal with my trainer and my Mom helped me stay healthy for dinner.

Baby steps...

Since it doesnd't work..

2010-05-26T11:26:00.001-07:00

I am going to make myself truly accountable to you all.

Lost 1.1 lb from Sunday

I'm Back!

2010-05-25T13:31:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I think I have gained all the weight back - and the only excuse I have is that I was stressed and I gave up - totally!

That being said, the major drama in my life (sort of) ended yesterday. My bigger problem is, how do I keep stress from totally derailing me?

On that note, I'm super behind and need to get to work!

Great ideas

2010-05-17T18:55:00.001-07:00

Thanks Kathleen!

I have not been doing very well - between my debilitating allegies and work crap, I need to refocus (yes, again...)

Chemisty...

2010-05-10T09:54:00.000-07:00

I had been doing SO good, but I need some help - when I get SUPER hungry I fall off the wagon. Anyone have some ideas of snacks I can keep in my car that won't melt?

So, less than a week on Chemistry and I've already had one date and need to schedule 2 more. The one date was ok - he talked about himself the entire time which was irritating seeing as I am the most interesting person I know...

BUT - he did email me the next day, so I won! We'll see if we go out again - 1. I want to talk about me; 2. He's sort of shy, so he'll have to man up and ask me out again.

Not huge interest in any of the other guys, but hopefully I'll have a crappy date I can 411 for you all!

Let the Games Begin!

2010-05-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

Ok, so its on like Donkey Kong - am going through the "guided communication" with 9 folks - some scary, some not...

As for the weight lose - same problem different day - I do GREAT during the day until something come up at work in the afternoon and it goes to shit.

ARGHHHHH - what is my problem?

Anyhow - my tag-line is: "Nazis are Bad"

The Ellis women decide

2010-05-04T19:54:00.000-07:00

I had a three way tie, until I made my Mom and Kacy vote - now the clear winner is Chemisty.com. Ok - now the fun begins - help in the headline...

Any and all suggestions are welcome.

God I hate these things...

Leaving Las Vegas

2010-05-01T15:43:00.000-07:00

Soo - I'm at the airport waiting to go home and trying to get some work done. I wasn't very good - either at gambling or staying healthy - although I did go swimming while I was here.

I'm pretty tired and have lots to do before I leave for Texas on Monday - so I'm signing off for now.

Fun???

2010-04-29T14:40:00.001-07:00

Seems like its been forever since I've had that - after a week of ups and downs, I'm off to Vegas. Wish a few moe things were settled, but whatever...

Interesting...

2010-04-28T15:26:00.000-07:00

So only 6 people have voted, but chemisty and cougarlife are in the lead. I find this interesting seeing as I have no chemistry and I tend to go older....

But what do I know? - that's the fun of taking this out of my hands and putting it into yours!

As for the diet - had some VIPs in town to entertain, so I could have done better - but as opposed to focusing 100% on what I am eating, I am trying moderation and "living better"

Actually someone asked me something interesting recently - "What do I want to achieve?". I actually could not come up with anything - there are millions of things I want to do, but not so much I need to achieve (I could say weight loss, but I feel like I need to be happy with who I am while I work to be HEALTHIER - not stress eating would go a long way).

Anyhow, I came to the conclusion that I have achieved a great deal fairly young - so what do I want? To let life happen to me and not worry about my next achievement.

They also asked what animal did I want to be and why - Tiger of course. Because of their big paws.

This really did not seem to satisify - they wanted to know something more concrete about the nature of tigers that I wanted to emulate. So even though I want to be a tiger for the big paws, I added that they are pretty, mean and like to swim. Rrrrrrawwwllll!

Anyhow - VOTEY VOTE - website is:

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/2FQFKJF

No more excuses!

2010-04-27T10:11:00.000-07:00

So, a great driver of my stress has been my work-load - well I finally received approval for a Manager - this is SUCH a relief - I finally feel like I can handle my life. Its amazing how something as simple as this can help my energy level!

So, no more bad day excuses, no more my job suks excuses, no more if I'd only married rich excuses.

On that note, I was screwing around the other night and came across a whole host of milionaire match-making sites. Seriously - this is big business in Cali. If I ever do decided to go back onto the online thing, it might be worth considering. Don' get me wrong, I really don't care how much anyone makes, but I've got to believe that the HS graduate working on a factory line is not going to spring for the prime rib.

Is that snobby? I do only fly first class...

Actually, one of the most noticiable differences between DC and LA is that my success does seem to intimidate men. I guess in DC they are used to ball-busters. Here, its all about bra-busters. Women seriously looking for their sugar-daddy.

Oh - and I have not even gotten into the "cougar" sites.

Tell you what - in the interest of keeping things intersting - I'm going to institute a little reader voting. You decide which one of these I should join, then (once I do), I can entertain you all with how crappy they are:

1. chemistry.com
2. Match.com
3. searchingmillionaire.com
4. cougarlife.com
5. largeandlovely.com

I encourage you to do some research prior to voting. I will also take other suggestions. This is fun! I've never done this with the sole reason to report on the crappiness of it. If you don't want to post on my blog, feel free to email me directly.

The Monster of Cookies...

2010-04-21T11:50:00.000-07:00

So I went to my favorite salad place last night and I was salivating over a cookie! I ALMOST CAVED!!! But....there is this picture of Wynn and me on the couch asleep - it would be the most beautiful picture ever if I didn't look like a beluga whale wearing a crimson shirt and a black skirt.

I have to stay strong! I am feeling better too...

I did quit Jenny, though - my new plan is all yogurt, all the time - then, when I go out, I am allowed to eat SENSIBLY...

It seems to have been working (thusfar)

Ok, Ok...

2010-04-20T07:59:00.001-07:00

I thought no one was reading them, so I stopped.

Things are going well - kepping healthly and working out - will be in Vegas over the weekend, so that will be a test...

Is anyone looking???

2010-04-15T15:40:00.001-07:00

I thought that no one was reading, so I stopped posting - I guess I was wrong!

Done really good this week - in FTW and eating mostly yogurt - NO ICE cream!

YAY!!!

I did have some cookie cake today, though...

Soo....

2010-04-06T11:58:00.001-07:00

That was an April Fools Day joke - I'm still plugging along...,

Screw it - I'm getting the Lap Band

2010-04-01T09:31:00.001-07:00

Tired of this crap - have an appt. next week.

Sorry Mom!

2010-03-31T12:35:00.000-07:00

Didn't mean to make you mad...

Especially since I might be living with you soon.

Let me explain - part of what I have to do when being on a "diet" is examine what makes me eat. Its not boredom. Its not hunger. Its not even the overwhelming desire to get a seat-belt extender on an airplane - its that at the end of the day I am totally stressed out and don't care - about anything. My heath, my life, my cat, my barbies, Fish Wrangler - ANYTHING. So I figure - fuck it - might as well just eat what I want cause everything sucks anyways (this is usally the time that my brain TOTALLY forgets all of the sacrifices and hard work I have done over the past 2 weeks and reverse all the progress in one day by eating a pint of ice cream, 2 brownies, turkey sandwich, hot dog, chex mix, Reese's Stix and maybe a Kit Kat IN ONE SITTING!)

Who does that? Seriously, I feel like I am going to explode and have heart-burn all night - but while I am shoveling food in my face, it is a forgotten fact.

Anyhow, my point, if stress and work are my "triggers", then how can I fix that? Answer? I have a meeting in about 1 hour to try and get the resources I have needed for over 1 year. If I cannot get what I need, then I will seriously look at other options for my life, because I refuse to continue in a job that is killing me.

Now, don't get all excited, I'm not going to quit today, but if my job cannot make the same committment to me as I am making to them, then I will seriously focus on other options and work very hard to execute a career strategy that does not stress me out so I have to take 2 Xanax to fall asleep.

I'm sure that living with my parents at 35 will help reduce my stress - HA!

Hope to have good news tomorrow.

Whatever!

2010-03-30T09:28:00.000-07:00

Way to support Mom!

I know - I'm such a loser - I get hungry and its LITERALLY like I can't get food fast enough and I can't stop eating. And this is NOT an excuse or lie - when I get like this, I totally forget all the reasons and tricks to keep me from eating. Then, when I'm done eating, I remember - "oh, I should have waited 30 minutes, then given myself the treat if I still wanted it" or "Remember how hard you worked out and how you sacrificed, don't ruin it"

I remember these things about 5 minutes after I'm done eating, and unless I want to go bulemic, I just sit there berating myself.

Sorry - this one's whiny....its just hard when my own brain seems to be working against me

GRRRRRRR!!!!!!

2010-03-29T10:33:00.001-07:00

I'm working out, being good and GAINED 3 lbs. What's up with that???? My trainer keeps telling me its because I'm gaining muscle but this SUCKS!

My Head hurts!

2010-03-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

And its days like this that are hard to stick to the diet. But - I'm a wash even after all my bad eating - which is good. BUT - I keep thinking how much MORE I could have lost if I had just stuck to it.

So I am going to stick to it like GLUE!

My ring fits!

2010-03-25T09:32:00.001-07:00

That's right, I had gotten so fat that my grandmother's ring stopped fitting - but I can get it on again!

Slow, but visible and signifigant progress!

Thanks for the kick in the ass

One Day down

2010-03-24T07:17:00.001-07:00

A billion to go. When does this "lifestyle" change kick in?

I still suck

2010-03-23T14:37:00.001-07:00