Inside the Loonie Bin...

All good things come to an end

2009-02-05T09:15:00.000+08:00

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

N. Furtado 08

gone baby gone

2008-10-20T11:22:00.000+08:00

I'll be gone for awhile....

so, I'll see you when I see you :)

Phone call

2008-10-15T09:07:00.000+08:00

Someone called me today.

And I'm in shock.

I need to a joke, right about now... hopefully someone from this place in where I am now, I will find someone who can make me laugh. :)

I need to laugh it all out.

Bear Hug

2008-10-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

I'm not even remotely feeling well today.

But I talked to one stranger today, and it lifted my spirit. I needed that. I needed a reminder that I'm trying my darn hard to do what I am suppose to be doing and what I should be doing. I needed to be reminded that I'm doing this for all the right reason.

Chinaheart and brain dead is too much right now.

But it goes on. The world keeps turning.

Breaking the silence

2008-09-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

I hate goodbyes.

So I don't really dwell on the subject far too long... and it's never really goodbye for me... its always just LATER :P

I started with the company with no clue or whatsoever with what I am doing in an IT firm... me??? join an IT firm??? i must be really crazy and bored at the house for me to try my hands on it :P

But needless to say... I gave it a try... I never really saw myself in an advertising world...in as much as it was what I studied for four effing years in college :P

I thought my boss back then would be someone who is tall, dark n handsome :P hahahahaha... or the exact opposite of that... someone is who is so geeky that I will definitely question his alliance with the Dark Force :P

He wasn't either... but he did have that Star Wars passion that became an instant hit between me, him and Chu....

He had the boys for big boys thingy with Chu, and he had the photography with me .... but we really clicked... all three of us. It was a good match... we didn't had the misunderstandings... like some people in the corporate world had the unfortunate fate of experiencing... it was a smooth sailing ride for the three of us... till Chu left and left me and him to continue on the journey and bring balance to the force :P

Now.. its just me :P both of them left me :P no more balance... I am now a full fledge alliance to the Dark Force :P hahahahaha... but don't worry Sir, I won't be a slytherin :P I cannot be associated to He Who Must not Be Named :D hahahahaha

Whenever I think about it, I get sad really... but that is life... I understood why he had to leave, and I accepted it with open heart :) because me too, I have grown to love his family like my own... his kid JoLo like my own little nephew :) He wasn't just a boss, he also was a friend... and that's what he thought me the best... work is only from 8-5, friendship we formed at work are unlimited OT hours :P

Don't worry sir nick... I will keep my promise :) i will teach them the same things you told me, always be late, drink beer at 5pm, blog from lunch till 5pm...then drink beer :P, tapos always leave work early for a good movie :)

Take care always po, enjoy your new life there :)

Live it. Love it. Treasure it.

-infinite x0x0's-

Distant Time

2008-08-22T09:30:00.000+08:00

I know not from what distant time
thou art ever coming nearer to meet me.
Thy sun and stars can never keep thee hidden from me for aye.

In many a morning and eve thy footsteps have been heard
and thy messenger has come within my heart and called me in secret.

I know not only why today my life is all astir,
and a feeling of tremulous joy is passing through my heart.

It is as if the time were come to wind up my work,
and I feel in the air a faint smell of thy sweet presence.

Light and Heavy

2008-07-19T13:09:00.000+08:00

Thats all there is to it.

Dream On

2008-07-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

Aerosmith's Steve Tyler is one of Rock's most iconic personality... and among the songs he has written... I am absolutely in love with this one...

The lyrics speaks volumes, and no wonder it became one of Rock and Roll's greatest hits of all time...

I love Aerosmith, as much as I love Sting and the Police, U2, Ac/Dc, Black Sabbath, Bon Jovi, Guns & Roses, Metallica, Red Hot and Rage Against the Machine... :P

Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Why do you?

2008-07-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

Why do you feed my sorrow?
With the words you borrow?
Why do you sing halleluiah
If it means nothing to you?
Why do you sit with me at all?

Crazy Wisdom

2008-07-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

See it in the eagle flying
See it in a snowflake falling
Feel the wind right through your hair
Now take a bow and have your share

See it in the children playing
See it in a steam of laughter
Memories might fade away
Let's celebrate a brand new day
cause life will call out and sing

Life makes it hard not to believe

And why should everybody need to know
every single why and how
Got no other, need no other
means to carry on

See it in the evening colours
See it in the open wheatfield
Swaying softly in the breeze
With all the grace and all the ease
See it in that crazy moment
When all is one and one is all

It's everywhere you'll ever go
It's everything you'll ever know
cause life will call out and sing
life makes it hard not to believe

Like a Stone.

2008-06-25T12:51:00.004+08:00

on a cobweb afternoon
in a room full of emptiness
by a freeway i confess
i was lost in the pages
in a book full of death
reading how we'll die alone
and if we're good we'll lay to rest
anywhere we want to go

on my deathbed i will pray
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan to anyone
who will take me to heaven
to a place i call
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised
the wine was bled
and there you led me on

and on i read
until the day was gone
and i sat in regret
of all the things i've done
for all that i've blessed
and all that i've wronged
in dreams until my death
i will wander on

in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

-- audioslave

en tid för allt en tid för förändring.

2008-06-24T05:02:00.000+08:00

en tid för allt en tid för förändring.
någon dear sa pass där tid för allt.
och även om jag lovade att jag aldrig kommer att gonna svika den personen igen, jag misslyckades.

jag ofta misslyckas, så varför är att lova en garanti.
Jag ska gå till en plats där ingen känner
så dont söker mig

Jag är ledsen. detta är det enda jag vet hur man kan hjälpa mig. och detta är det enda jag vet hur du låt mig veta det bara ilska, och det kommer att blekna. men nej, jag blev besviken. och jag straffa mig själv mer som andra människor någonsin kommer att göra. för i morgon kommer jag att vara borta.

Grey Room

2008-06-21T23:47:00.003+08:00

Well I've been here before
Sat on the floor of a grey room
Where I stay all day
I don't eat, I don't sleep.

Desole, if someone is praying for me today
Desole, even if I choose to scream and shout
nothing will come out better if I did.
Desole, for everything.

I'm all alone again
Crawling back home again
Stuck by the phone again
I have been here before

I stay at night with nothing to do but think
And then I would write about everything
Everything and nothing
Desole, for everything I wrote.
Sometimes I dont really think. I just write.

Pray for me
Coz even a smile will do for now
I'm all alone again
Trying to crawl back to my home again
Stuck by the phone again.

Have I still got you?
Have I still got you to open the door for me?
Have I still got you to be my sandy shore?
Have I still got you to cross this bridge in this storm?

Nothing is really lost.
Everything is just frozen in frost.
There's no words needed.
No one-liners this time.

All I know is that, you still got me.
You still got me to open the door for you.
You still got me to be your sandy shore.
You still got me to cross your bridge in this storm.

Desole, for everything.

If

2008-06-18T22:41:00.001+08:00

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master;
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run--
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it

R. Kipling

As to why my vote is for Clinton

2008-03-07T10:55:00.000+08:00

Alot of my friends before had asked me why I am so interested in the US presidential elections when I don't even vote in the Philippines...

Simple answer really.. What changes made in the US, affects the rest of the world. >>> see , no brainer :P

Since last year, my family has been supporting the Clinton campaign... actually, its slashed to 50/50... my mom and Achi supports Barack, while me, dichi and shobe supports and pledge our legion to the campaign of Hillary Rodham Clinton.

I am for change, but it doesn't necessarily means... Change is Barack Obama.

Nor I think that America needs another old guy like JoHn McCain the War Hero...

But who knows, they might probably just need a woman's touch on the whitehouse... and I don't mean just being the First Lady.

If for whatever discussion is at worth... Condeleeza Rice is the first Black American woman to hold the position as Secretary of State... and that is a tough job... dealing with men will always be a tough job for women... thats why I have a high respect for women being in position in a highly dominated men's world.

The small super power country Britain, under their first woman Prime Minister had become one of the most competitive in the business industry and the stock market... gain after gains after gains... and she did play her cards right.

And why Hillary???

Because she is a Clinton. Whether we like to admit it or not... former President Bill Clinton was a tough nut to crack. And Mrs. Clinton after the Monicagatescandal... handled the pressure with grace, unlike Princess Diana I reckon, who dealt the Rottweiller a bit less thought.

She was a symbol for women... back then and now.

Next to Jackie O., I think Mrs. Clinton as First Lady did a tremendous job on it... my grandmother adores her, and she doesn't like alot of people.

And why not Obama...

I agree with alot of people, that Obama can bring it on. His work ethics, his experience in the Illionois state made him the great other chosen one of the Democratic Party... but his time isn't now. It will come, but not now. Obama was focused on one state... he and Hillary maybe both "just" senators for now... but Hillary has the years of experience as being the right "political choice"

Alot of people didn't think she will Win in the Senatorial race in nY... but she did.

Alot of people didn't think she will be able to stay on the race... but she did... winning Texas and Ohio.

It's like... we never thought Bill Gates will be ousted as the richest man on the planet... but he did... (Buffet rocks!) :P

So my point here... is that my vote is for Hillary Clinton.

But it ain't over till its over... :P

How much of the Philippines have you visited....

2008-02-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

My Lakbayan grade is B!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

Death comes in Three...

2008-01-24T07:09:00.000+08:00

First it was my cousin, then come's Lily's friend, and just now...

My favorite "uncle" has perished.

I have nothing else to write, nor do I have anything to say.

In Memoriam

Antonio C. Medrano
1949 - 2008

Brad Renfro

2008-01-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine once asked me... who among the young Hollywood actors I definitely see as a character actor...

Nothing came to my mind except... BRAD RENFRO.

He's only year younger than me, and just like Edward Furlong, he started big even before he hit puberty. But unlike Edward Furlong, Brad Renfro is now dead at 25.

And like his Hollywood comrades... which includes Macaulay Culkin and again Edward Furlong... they all went through s phase of the Hollywood curse... being young, rich and untouchable by their parents simply because they bring food to the table.

His death wasn't a surprise, because he has been battling his addiction since he turned 17... but still, his sudden demise is such a waste.

I hope this is going to be a wake up call to young actors, models, celebrities out there... that however young, rich and powerful you are... you need guidance and direction... and these are not the ones you get from school, these are the ones you get from home. If your parents can't do it for you, look for someone who can. And stick with them...

I first saw Brad in the movie The Client, opposite Susan Sarandon and Tommy Lee Jones, since then... ultimate crush, before Leonardo di Caprio came alive as Romeo :P and stole Brad's thunder :D

He only did a few movies, but those few were absolutely worthy of cinema movie and DVD money... he's very talented, just like Dakota Fanning, and even Anna Paquin in The Piano... he's like that... he's a caliber actor...

So here's to you dear Brad... my former ultimate crush :D

Oh, for the time when I shall sleep
Without identity.
~Emily Bronte

On a BeYotCh mode...

2008-01-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

I haven't been on a beyotch mode for a loooooonnnnggg time now, and mainly because my oversized and overstressed heart won't allow it...

But... because of boredom over the last few days, I went to check a few celebrity blogs... mostly perez hilton and a few others...

I came across this photo:

Angelina Jolie...

My adopted sister Laine (whom we fondly call Unnie) says that in the US she's being called... St. Angie... Perez Hilton's blogs about her has nothing but praises... sure, her charitable contribution is giving alot of people nice things to say about her... but I'd be more happy if she stop flaunting it, like those kids are a trophy to be won.

I have always been vocal about my opinion on how she adopts like crazy... Yep the worlds needs alot of Angelina Jolie, kind hearted people who gives hope to those thousands of kids (orphan, victim of war...etc etc etc...)but for the love of them, must we be this showy? Why can't she be like Jodie Foster and Jaime Lee Curtis? or that Ally McBeal girl... very discreet, parent loving moms to their adopted kids... who as much as possible shields their children from limelight and not shouting to the world that they are indeed adopted... lets face it, some people are extremely protective, some are just like...well, like Angelina.

Look at her photo up there... SHE'S Deadly Skinny!!! she's scarier than Nicole Ritchie when Nicole Ritchie was already branded as Anorexic...

I still don't get on why they fail to notice that she's turning into a stickman, Perez Hilton certainly does not... I think America turned blind on this simple fact, because she is... St. Angie... nothing more nothing less.

Acceptance

2007-12-17T05:53:00.000+08:00

Acceptance means that you can find the serenity within to let go of the past
with its mistakes and regrets, move into the future with a new perspective,
and appreciate the opportunity to take a second chance.

Acceptance means you'll find security again.
When difficult times come into your life, and comfort to relieve any pain.
You'll find new dreams, fresh hopes, and forgiveness of the heart.

Acceptance does not mean that you will always be perfect.
It simply means that you'll always overcome imperfection.
Acceptance is the road to peace...letting go of the worst,
Holding on to the best, and finding the hope inside that continues throughout life.

Acceptance is the heart's best defense,
Love's greatest asset, and the easiest way to keep believing in yourself and others.

Insane

2007-11-28T10:38:00.000+08:00

Should I speak?
Should I bother to shake hands?
Am I considered weak, if I leave as it stand?
I have submerged
And I've faced everything with a blame
I guess, its no good because I am going insane.

Should I go, if ever no one calls out my name
And if I bleed, what shall I do? Shall I remain?
And if I am feeling too low, can I drown onto the rain?

And I hate it when you say that I never fight
I hate it when you say what good will it do if I ran away
I hate everything, because I know I can never really hate you.

Should I confess?
Should I tell you everything in my mind?
I think I will betray you once again
I think I will break my promise once again
Why should I climb, when we both know there is nothing to gain
This is no good
This is insane.

Orange Sky

2007-11-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother standing by
I said Brother, you know
It’s a long road we’ve been walking on

And I had a dream
I stood beneath an orange sky
With my sister standing by
I said Sister, here is what I know now
It goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies

But sister you know I’m so weary
And you know sister
My hearts been broken
Sometimes, sometimes
My mind is too strong to carry on

When I am alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I've lost all care for the things I own
That's when I miss you.

But Sister, I will wait in vain thinking
if ever you will stand beneath an orange sky with me.
So here is what I know now
That my salvation lies on the unknown.

(am)

I got bored...

2007-11-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

So I think... this time...I have no excuse that I deserve to be in the loonie bin :P

I miss everyone... hope even santa can drop by on the holidays

Have a good one guys... take care

Just another boy...

2007-11-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

You and I were a two of kind
I hate to say it, but you can never relate
What makes you tick?... it makes me smile

You said that I should just get away from it all
And bury my head in the sand if I want to
I think you, you should thank me now...

I never mind that way that I always want to see you
my working on a day shows never explain why I see you
and I feel your pain

I love to wear my work inside of my head,
I can't complain but you should never react the way you did
I feel your time

You were lying wide awake in the garden
Trying to get over your stardom
and I could never see you depart us
You're my baby...

You're just another boy

My christmas wishlist...

2007-11-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

I love Christmas... and just because its christmas, we need to not lie... so I am not lying... I am in need of the following toys... errr... I mean, gifts :P hahahahahahaha

I'm letting my friends buy me stuff for christmas... :P Guys... Im giving you a month and half to prepare and save up for me :D I love each and everyone of you :P hahahahahahaha....

1. PSP Slim ( I prefer color blue or black) :P with the Sims game pack
2. Nintendo Wii :P hahahahahaha
3. Spongebob toys...
4. Starwars "millenium falcon" replica by Hansbro
5. Carebear "Sharebear" stuff toy
6. Goofy watch (mine got broken :(... it fell after Ahole had to put some err... on my now frozen hand...)
7. Mang Larry's isaw... errr... can I ask for a whole plastic...that's like 1000pcs... and 2 pesos each :P hahahahaha...
8. Php. 110.00 pang bili ng Chickenjoy 2 pcs :D err...please add 15 pesos so I can order a Large Dalandan juice :P
9. Checkered colored band aid :P tons of them...coz I usually get minor accidents when Im at home...
10. Lava lamp... mine got broken... :( it's a gift from a friend...Kenny Wenny :( sowee Ken...
11. Tissue paper na cover design ay si Powerpuff girls... I saw them in Rustans before... hahaha... its kinda cute...
12. Php 50.00 pambili ng isang order ng Oddballs...
13. New alarm clock na M&M's coz mine was..err...left in...err.. :P hahahahaha... (I think you can get those, when you buy a bag of M&M's in Duty Free... :P)
14. Errr... DVD of StarWars...from 1-6 :P
15. Errr... DVD of Harry Potter series
16. Err... Hermoine's wand... :P available in Amazon.com :P hahahahaha... (lily...common, we both love her :P)
17. Jufran ketchup :P
18. Nesquick Strawberry drink (wons, in short ipag grocery mo ako :P) hahahaha...
19. Flatops :P and Mallows... :P
20. Chocnut or Hany...whichever is available, it doesnt really matter :P
21. Scanner? so I can scan my face? :P hahahahaha...
22. Wons...I think u owe me a digital camera :P hahahaha... im kidding po... I still have my ixus :P

hmmm...teka...ano pa ba... :P

oh yeah...

23. Bean bag
24. tshirt from herbench color blue... size M... Php 300.00
25. errr... ice cream... very rocky road from Magnolia
26. a new vespa? :P hahahaa.. omg! Im kidding noh... I can't go anywhere... Unnie will make me wear a mask... and be like vader :P hahahahaha
27. Yellow cab pizza Manhattan size 18'' and pasta...err... the spicy one.. :P i can't remember the name
28. Rollerblades :P that would be cool... i can rollerblade around the...errr.. mall? :P hahahaha... I can do that in Mall of Asia...its soooo big... I haven't even had the time to tour the place noh...
29. Anna...since you want to buy me this... I want a new... :P Poster of the Simpsons :P i don't have the movie poster yet... heck I don't have any poster anymore...it also went to... errr... you know :P
30. Microwave oven... hahaha...so I can finally try to cook a microwavable popcorn :P hahahaha...omg..im such a nutsy dudette :P

Gosh...my brains...hahahahahaha...

Before buying the expensive stuffs, guys I want the small and easier things to buy first...like the Jufran Ketchup...coz u know masarap talaga ang Max with the Jufran ketchup...so for example...lily wants to buy me the Jufran... she can err.. include a max's chicken...gc so I can buy a whole chicken...something like that... hahahahaha... just be creative dude... you know naman me...

and save mother nature... just place them in recycled SM shoemart na paper bag...hahahahahahaha... :P

remember... Save Mother Nature, Conserve Water... Drink Beer :P okies :P

I'll think more if I can... :D