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Inspired after watching Friends, Long Vacation and No Reservations

2014-04-22T08:48:00.003+07:00

Earlier last week, I was very bored and needed something to lift up my mood. Therefore, I re-watched these 2dramas and 1movie to at least, made myself better and it worked. Somehow, I felt re-energized after watching those due to great and inspiring story. All were about never stop in chasing your dream and made it came true although you have to fight and struggle for it.

Cultural differences (friends), age gap (long vacation) and contrast character (no reservations) are nothing, or reserved no excuses when it comes to finding a soul mate, a best friend, a compatible partner who would support you in any cost while going after your dream. After all human can not live by themselves entirely for sometimes they need a hand to hold on to, a shoulder to cry on and a mind to share your vision with, which in the end, helping you to transform through the process before finally reaching the finish line.

The thing is, are we going to be brave enough to believe in ourselves and patiently hold on to it without ever doubt the possibilities of the success. People may say whatever, but the one who let it all got to you is you not them. No matter how sad or painful, they will always say things that might discourage you,always.

A wannabe film director (friends), a talented pianist (long vacation) and a self-centered chef (no reservations) almost gave up their dreams and put themselves up to a point where they are limited, not limitless when it comes to shaping their dream into reality. However, one closest person who understand is enough to push them back in to the right track.

In the end, it will all depend on one own self to make one dream come true. I'm so lucky to have that someone by my side and accepting me for who I am while trying to pursue my dreams. Hopefully I will have the same happy ending as those characters on the stories in achieving the dreams.

Myung Wol the Spy drama(2011), & That Winter, the wind blows(2013) )

2014-04-13T17:28:00.002+07:00

Myung Wol the Spy
I can only say one thing.This drama totally does not worth your time to watch. Although the first episode is quite promising but the next one up to the end is a total mess.Inability to show a good chemistry, good acting and most of all poor plot/storyline are very obvious.I can't quite catch what the writer of this drama tried to pull to make the audience interested to follow it til the end.

It revolved around a clumsy spy and also an army member of North Korea Han Myung Wol, to help her colleague to retrieve the four joints ancients book and kidnap Halyu star Kang Woo.

Myung Wol then fell in love out of her curiosity during her mission towards Kang Woo. There was also a love triangle or rather nonreciprocal love from the side characters as the typical mainstream of Korean drama. Anyway, all I need to describe is everything felt wrong all over.

If you want to watch this type of drama/spy thing, then I recommend other drama instead, such as Iris or Sweet spy. Those are better than this one.

That Winter, the Wind Blows
This drama was quite good and memorable for me. I like everything in this drama starting from the casts, the story, the background views and chemistry.

It was about a gambler who was abandoned by his mother in the young age, Oh Soo, who has similar name with a brother of a blind orphan girl Oh Young, who inherit a large corporation from recently deceased father.

Their destinies came across with each other based on guilt and need. They finally depended on themselves to survive the situation which rather getting more difficult.

The drama was another interpretation of Japanese drama Ai nante irane yo, natsu (TBS / 2002). I kind of wondering, should I watch the Japanese version as well.For sure it will be different due to cultural and mainstream of the country.

It is 8.5 out of 10 for my personal rating as a recommended or watchable drama.

I Miss You / Missing You

2014-04-02T10:56:00.001+07:00

I watched this drama almost a month ago. I like it very much and cried a lot especially in the early episodes where the young characters were well-played by the young actors. Great chemistry and good story line for the entire episodes.

However when the characters grew old and became adults, it did not carry the same 'feel' as before. The chemistry is lesser than before. But it doesn't really matter anyway. The story was revolving a bitter childhood life of the main characters, then finding the first and true love and also tragic-desperation but happy in the ending.

It was good and I have no regret watching it. I give like 8.5 out of 10 for this.

The Heirs, Man from another stars and Prime Minister and I

2014-04-02T10:29:00.001+07:00

I've watched these three drama almost in a row for last few days.

The first one was the Heirs.Out of curiosity due to overwhelming reactions from drama fans and news on the net, I want to know what it was all about by watching the drama. Unfortunately I have to say that I wasn't that all pleased after finishing all the episodes. The drama has many flaws and reminded me too much of Hana Yori Dango or BBF in Korean version.

If I have to make a list of it, it will be: 1) Storyline and climax which were too stereotyped and predictable.Actually it was quite promising in the beginning but gotten so boring through the end. While basically, it can be explored in deeper and bitter plot. 2) Acting and expressions of Kim Tan and Cha Eun Sang were disappointing with lack of chemistry. 3) No inspiring aspects for the audiences, but only a parade of wealthy living style and miserable life of being poor. 4) Portraying reality less than it should be. Finally, I give only 6 out of 10 for the rating or recommendation to watch list.

The 2nd one is Man from another stars/ You who came from the stars.This one was created and wrapped in a better way to entertain me as the audience. I personally like almost all aspects that stored in this drama. The storyline was quite good, the acting was good and especially the special effects used in it. I like Do Min Joon and Cheon Song Yi characters which well-played by both actors.Although it was not as amazing as Moon Embrace the Sun or Shining Inheritance.I give 8 out of 10 for this one, and quite recommended to watch.

The last one is The Prime Minister and I. I just finished watching it this morning at 1AM. I thought it will be something heavy and deep like Karei Naru Ichizoku or Change! -both are Japanese dorama played by Takuya Kimura (the drama also portrayed what I think of the Heirs would be) but sadly it was not. It was merely another drama comedy without something too heavy and bitter to think about. It also shared similarity with the heirs which can not decide whether it would be purely comical, humor-comedy, political based or pure family drama. Lack of chemistry, full awkwardness, and looking-good-on camera expressions instead of good acting. I need to be more selective next time when it comes to spare some times for watching drama again.I give like 6 out of 10 for this.The only thing I like about it is the marriage contract which remind me of Full House or Sassy Girl Choon Hyang.

I don't know why, but for me personally, Korean drama these days is similar one another. I hardly find something I love and very memorable like the old days were.

Temptation of an Angel, Temptation of Wife and El Cuerpo del Deseo

2014-03-11T11:23:00.002+07:00

I just finished watching Korean drama with the title: Temptation of an Angel (ToaA) about two days ago. At the beginning this drama provided a very promising story, although it was called as the male version of previous drama titled 'Temptation of Wife'(ToW), but along the way it was too disappointing to continue. In brief, the story was about revenging one another between the main characters for ruining or destroying their families and lives. However, the ToW was much more interesting compared to ToaA, in terms of developing the characters, arranging the storyline/plot, and most of all, the ending.There were many flaws in ToaA, starting from the unexplainable part of every reason why the 'bad' wife did her revenge, meanwhile in ToW, everything is explained thoroughly.

In addition, I don't know for some reasons, I took side of the bad wife rather than innocent sister who helped the guy to plan his revenge. It is just too annoying to see the sister whether from her expression or acting compared to the bad wife Jo Ah ran who played her part perfectly. The husband, Hyeon Woo, was good enough played by the actor before he was 'operated' and replaced by Bae Soo bin. His mean and hurtful expression was too fake to be believed.Anyway, basically it was not entertaining at all for me until I have to press the fast forward button to make it end sooner.

The interesting fact is, when I suddenly remembered that this theme was once brought by the Spanish telenovela titled El Cuerpo del Deseo (Second Chance) that was once aired in the local television a few years ago, long before these two dramas. Revenge and giving lesson to those who did the crime was all the same except the fact that the soul of the old guy whom murdered by his wife and his attorney was not rest in peace and chose to enter a young handsome man and started his revenge. Unfortunately, the local television didn't finish play all the episodes, but based on the review on some sites, the story was quite satisfying.

Therefore, my conclusion is, these 3 story shared a lot of things in common or probably the Korean version was inspired by the telenovela, who knows. El Cuerpo and Temptation of Wife were good enough to watch but leave the temptation of an angel alone if you don't want to yawn and sleep half way.

The MIND

2014-03-07T03:36:00.000+07:00

What's on my mind? I wonder about it myself too actually. I have a lot of things circling around on my mind and I don't have slightest time to think about any unimportant things since my life is not included in bothering myself with it so much. However, I've found out and realized that there are some people who exist to still very 'attached and fond' of me in an amazing way by telling a fairytale drama using their very unique and creative imagination to the level of becoming a skilled story teller to their seemed-to-be-naive audiences.

All I've heard is a made up story about me (as if I were a famous person, meanwhile I'm not) with all the added hush hush gossip spices to make it more 'yummy and delicious' no matter what were the ingredients contained inside. I'm not a talkative person instead I'm a very private person who prefer to listen rather than let my tongue out on the loose uncontrollable. I think a lot what did I do wrong? what did I do til certain people bothered to spend their time on me? well, I can't come up with any answers but merely a thought.That if I did wrong things to achieve my purposes, God surely wouldn't let me get what I want. But the fact showed me differently, I'm grateful and feeling so blessed for being able to achieve my goal and put a smile on my parent's face. I believe if I do good things, the reward will be goodness and if I do the opposite, the payment is also equal or even worst. Some people call it karma.

I work in art where imagination solely to the satisfaction of the creator without disturbing other people on purpose. And as far as I know, that noble job called 'sensei' is far better on the impact towards the people, the next generation. Unfortunately some people who claimed to be better and had this noble occupation are those who point their fingers right at me for their personal issues. I believe that there are good people, good teachers who knew very well and carved inside this thought inside their mind that being a teacher is a role model of life especially in good things and good deeds.

I've worked so damn hard to reach everything not by lazying around and talk about people.So, in the end I've come to a conclusion for my die hard fans that ' jealousy is the act of someone's incompetency to achieve the same accomplishment.' Start to shut your mouth and get your logic and hands to work and prove you are as capable or even better than me.I'll be more respectful toward you if you do.

Accomplishment and New Plan

2014-03-05T09:27:00.002+07:00

Last year of 2013 was a very memorable year for me personally due to a lot of things that had happened, a lot of memories that were created both in good and bad. Nevertheless, I'm grateful to still be able to breath this fresh air and stand on my own feet.

Thank God, I managed to reach the final goal as planned with a little delayed and obstacles here and there.I believe with the spirit and determination without neglecting to do the right thing will provide me a good result and it did.

There are some people who dislike and envy of what I had achieved, but I couldn't care less since it was not important although truthfully quite bothersome. They just saw it with their uncontrollable emotion without using their logic to blurt out some horrific dramas and weird imagination of how they perceive things about me in their filthy minds. They would never know the real truth, they will never learn when they just stuck in their little empty space corner of mind. There were not enough words to describe it, well lets just say, jealousy is the act of someone's incompetency to achieve the same thing.

Now that I had finished the goal, I will start to plan what is the next step to be arranged in my circle of dreams about the future. Although I would never know what the future will brings, but a keen preparation would somehow helps. At least that's what I thought. I have written in my mind a few options to choose. It will be being faithfully devoted artist - from either designing, writing or drawing comic, or trying new challenging field such as teaching and probably translating. Let me put some thoughts about it after refreshing my mind better. I still hope God be with me along the way.

Time slip Dr.Jin, Queen In Hyun's man, Faith and Rooftop Prince reviews

2014-03-05T09:04:00.000+07:00

A few days ago, I watched Time slip Dr.Jin not until the very end because I was drop dead bored. I was kind of losing my patience and interest in continuing to watch.All of this nonsense and weird things I found along the way were too distracting to ignore.

The themes of these drama are one of a kind with the 'time machine' theme where the characters jump up to the present or go way back to the past. The thing is, not all of the stories worked the way it should be. At least that's how I perceive this in my mind. Most of them are sort of 'forced' into the storyline/plot.

Take an example, Dr.Jin. This drama is based on Japanese manga with the same title.I haven't read the manga yet, but I can quite imagine typical Japanese storyline which turn into this drama with a total mess. No chemistry, no cultural/time shock, so many unanswered questions due to weak storyline, and what made them made less to comprehend is the equipment, especially in health hygiene that can not be tolerated. Not to mention the surgery procedure just out of the mind. Oh well, just leave this one out, unless if you really like the casts who played the characters.

The lead actors were failed to bring it out or maybe the story was too awful to be tolerated.

Another case happened with Queen In Hyun's man. It's less disturbing as the first one though. The story or the idea was interesting since its related with magic. However, still, I can't somehow accept the adjustment acts to the time shock by the main character. It seems far too easy and enjoyable. Given by the fact that he's being told as the clever scholar, it just too much to be understood. The chemistry worked just fine although to be honest I sometimes bothered by the facial expression from the main actress, which probably was the effect on her 'obvious plastic surgery' face. The story did not provide a deep and heavy thought to the audience but merely a light love story with a little additional conflict here and there. It's quite OK for entertaining yourself with some romance.

Faith, hmm what can I say about this one. I lost interest in watching fully til the end. I don't have the problem with medical things but the again this one probably shared the same problem with Dr.Jin. It was just ridiculous although the casts (again) were promising due to the fact that I like the actors who played the characters.

Last but not least, Rooftop Prince. This one, so far, was the best interpretation of time slipping combined with good storyline, acting and chemistry. A great lost to be missed in each episode and pretty entertaining with some comedy, drama and romance all at once. It's recommended to see and spend your time with, if you're looking for a good entertainment.

Getting close to the final goal.

2013-08-18T13:35:00.000+07:00

Well, it has been quite a while since the last time I wrote something in this blog. Frankly speaking, I don't know what to write and barely have time to do it anyway. However, since today is my last day of long holiday, I will try to at least share something by writing a post.

In the next few months,(hopefully within 3months or less) I would be able to achieve the long lost dream and make my parents proud with it. I hope everything will go on smoothly without any obstacles that matters. I have been through a lot during this half year of 2013. It wouldn't be appropriate for me to describe what had happened but for sure it was not something easy to deal with.

Right now, to be honest, I'm quite anxious with things that I will face in front of me. Will I be able to do it? I pray to God for it so much that I will. I'm on a verge of facing my biggest fear in socializing myself to certain situation and community. I have to find the strength to added up my confidence, backing up my motivation and sole purpose.

I'm thinking to finish the whole thing as soon as I can if it's possible. I want to continue working on something I love rather than putting myself in an awkward situation with the burden of helplessness and weakness. If only things were as easily said as what I can write here, I would be very pleased. It's unimaginable for me sometimes to face certain people who did nothing but taking some advantages from my disability to fight back due to the circumstances and situation. On the other hand, dealing with them is a must to finish where I want it to.

I just hope to God it will be over soon and I can continue my life as I want to and do things as I planned on my mind for the sake of the future.Ameen

Life is not only a bunch of miracles, is it?

2013-03-28T11:11:00.001+07:00

Well, it happened again and again. It’s irritating and annoying but what can I do? simply nothing. I ‘m already weary, exhausted with all I’ve seen for the past 2.5 years. All I have in mind is just putting my first priority and goal to be the only top list that I have to concentrate on for the rest of the time I have here for my parents’ sake. Actually, I’m truly eager with the need to take some fresh air, fresh environment, fresh and bright aura and damn; I really miss my time with my imaginations, my solitude art life which stores nothing but honesty without mask on. I don’t have to hide what I have in mind and only becoming who I am. I don’t want to pretend to be someone else, put a fake cheerful face and friendly smile; hence I’m not a role player. In brief, I just need to put my mind in the right place comfortably.

My mom told me to be responsible in everything that I do, I have been taught to do what’s right and it doesn’t change just because I grow older, busier, and lazier for I have no right to use those as excuses. I’m not being righteous, I’m a mere human who try to make her life easier. I don’t think life is a bunch of miracles which give us nothing but fun, happiness or success no matter what we do. No, it’s quite the opposite, there are always balances that I might not get what I want but it always sucks when I lose after trying my hardest especially to those who by all means, do things necessary to smooth their way through even if its wrong, and meanwhile only in this place that possibility ever happens almost continuously not anywhere else and never happened to me in other places either. Only God knows why. I just wish there will be a huge wind of changes that wipe it all straight away and I can smile lightheartedly without any worries left. I just hope for this one, time flies…

It’s not that all of the things are worst; there are still some people that exist with their senses but just not good enough. Someone’s capability can’t be measured only by their attitudes, by not kissing the almighty someone’s butt. If the authorized person do the job properly, I don’t it the misjudge act will occur anyway. Dislike me for telling what’s on my mind? So be it, I write to express not to impress or kiss some …

(insert pic is mine-the death of Andy Warhol)

Our wedding anniversary

2012-11-01T14:00:00.000+07:00

Today will be the last day before celebrating our wedding ceremony tomorrow. It brings me back to the old time memories of our story. I met him, we barely talked and we got married. All I keep in mind is that I believe in God's destiny for me. I have faith in everything that I have decided for my life. Spending my life with him is one of those decision that took a lot of efforts to hold on to.It's not an easy thing indeed to keep my marriage life steady, cause it took tons of times and energy to tolerate, understand, appreciate, accept and sincerely devote everything for the sake of it.

It occurred to me that some of my friends have lost it along the way.They didn't care anymore about the commitment, trust, honesty, intimacy which once they've shared in the beginning of their marriage. They often excused themselves for being not in love or unable to love their partner, although they already have children among them. They also blamed every single thing they could think of as a prerogative right, which is actually wrong, to cheat and find another love interest outside their own spouses.Up until know, no matter how I think about it by re-listing their reasons, I can't find an acceptable one to grant their attitudes. I feel sorry for them as they didn't appreciate what life's stored for them.May God always protect me from such things.

Aside of them, I remember all the good and bad times between us - me and my hubby, all the sacrifices, the tears, joy, sadness, anger, happiness we've shared through these years.I have always been grateful for God has sent him to me. I could never think of anyone else than him to be by my side. He who understands me more than others.He who always be patience with me, accepts me for who I am. I can't think of any other reason but one thing that he's truly the best-ever-God-given blessing for me. I wish we can get through the rest of our life together until the death do us part. Amiin.

my wish

2012-11-01T13:25:00.002+07:00

I wish this world would appear in definite black and white but no,unfortunately it isn't. The shade of grey will always be in between.

I wish I can see clearly the people whom I can put my trust to, but no, unfortunately I can't distinguish between the sincerity and lies anymore.

I wish to live in my beautiful imagination, so that I wouldn't have to see the rotten part of this real life has stored for me, but no, there's no such thing ever exist.

I wish to see the real faces of my friends along their real attitude but no, faceless unknown friends seems to put my heart content more than they do.

I wish the innocent and honest children would rule everything instead of some adults who are wagging their tails to get what they want in every way possible.although it means by breaking all the rules and hurting others.

I wish nothing but God to always be with me in every step of the way.

Prinsip atau Fanatik

2012-11-01T13:24:00.001+07:00

Sudah sekian lama hal ini bersemayam dipikiran saya. Ada yang bilang bahwa terdapat beberapa rambu yang tidak boleh dilanggar dalam hidup ini terutama untuk urusan keyakinan karena itu telah menjadi hak asasi setiap orang semenjak lahir. Tetapi ketika ego dan emosi sebagai sifat alami manusia yang seiring perjalanan tumbuh menyeruak lalu menguasai hati dan pikiran seseorang, maka yang ada ketika mereka berbicara dan berbuat akan selalu berdasarkan dua hal tersebut tanpa mengindahkan faktor lainnya seperti logika atau akal sehat.

Setiap orang tentunya tidak akan mau dihakimi atau didikte hanya karena pilihan atau keputusan hidup yang mereka buat, tetapi bukan tidak mungkin mereka juga akan memaksakan kehendak mereka pada orang lain disekitarnya. Agama adalah hal sakral yang menjadi pilihan penting pertama bagi kebanyakan orang sebagai penuntun dan pedoman hidup dimana setiap individu akan mempunyai pilihan yang relatif berbeda dalam hal selera dan implementasinya dalam kehidupan sehari-hari.

Ketika kita telah menentukan apa yang menjadi pilihan kita, prinsip yang akan kita pegang teguh, seyogyanya atau bahkan seharusnya dan sepantasnya lah kita berpedoman pada hal itu dan berusaha menjalankan sesuai aturan yang ada. Tetapi itu tidak melegitimasi hak kita untuk melakukan invasi pd hak pribadi orang lain. Saat kita ingin mencoba menanamkan dan menyebarkan hal yang baik tentunya bukan dengan cara provokasi yang menyulut perpecahan atau pertengkaran tidak penting dengan mereka yang kita anggap tidak sefaham dengan kita. Akan lebih baik apabila kita menunjukkan hal positif dan berbagi pengetahuan dan pengalaman dengan mereka yg memiliki prinsip berbeda. Dengan duduk berbicara dari hati ke hati bukan dengan menuduh tanpa tahu alasan sebenarnya dibelakang sebuah tindakan yang diambil seseorang.

Setiap manusia atau individu pastinya ingin dan selalu merasa sebagai pribadi yang paling benar tetapi manusia bukan malaikat yang tidak pernah berbuat salah. Memperjuangkan prinsip kita pun bukan dengan cara yang akan menimbulkan kontradiksi berlebihan tetapi lebih kepada pergaulan yang baik dan penjelasan dengan prinsip saling tenggang rasa. Karena bila mereka tertarik dengan sendirinya akan ikut dan mencari lebih jauh informasi yang mereka inginkan.

Saya punya teman berbeda jenis dari kulit, ras, suku, agama, kebiasaan bahkan tempat tinggal walaupun untuk segelintir orang, mereka dengan santainya melempar persepsi bahwa saya sama saja dan tidak punya prinsip hanya karena berteman baik dengan teman2 saya tanpa tahu hal yang sebenarnya. Sayang sekali bila mereka tetap berpikiran seperti itu.Memang ada sebagian dari teman saya yang memiliki kebiasaan hidup yang bertentangan dengan prinsip yang saya pegang karena kami memang berbeda tetapi bukan berarti saya harus seperti mereka dan saya memaksa mereka hrs spt saya dengan serta merta. Sebagai contoh ada teman saya dari luar yang minum alkohol, berpacaran diluar nikah, atau apapun itu yang bertentangan dengan prinsip saya bukan berarti saya sama dengan mereka karena sy tidak mengikuti kebiasaan mereka, sy hanya sekedar menghormati hak mereka walaupun terkadang melontarkan pendapat pribadi tentang hal itu sesuai dgn prinsip saya.Mereka pun menghormati saya dan prinsip yang saya pegang. Bandingkan dengan orang yang rajin dan sering datang pada acara ibadah ditempat ibadah tetapi masih melakukan hal yang buruk diluaran seperti mencuri, memfitnah orang dan menyebar kabar bohong kepada org lain. Tidak pernah ada ketetapan pada hati seseorang kecuali dia sendiri yang berusaha meneguhkannya.Tidak akan pernah ada rasa syukur akan sesuatu sampai kita kehilangannya.Lagipun kita bukan orang barbar yang memukul dan berperang dengan fisik tapi dengan otak cerdas yang sudah dianugrahkan tuhan kepada kita.

jadi intinya janganlah menilai seseorang bila tidak tahu secara detail seluk beluk orang tersebut secara pribadi dan membentuk asumsi sekenanya.Kita tidak akan pernah bisa mengetahui semua hal dialam semesta ini karena kita bukan Tuhan.tetapi tetap Kita sendiri yang menentukan kearah mana kita memilih jalan.saya pastinya pun punya banyak salah karena saya hanya manusia biasa, karena kesempurnaan tetap hanya milik Yang Diatas..

(renungan pribadi bukan terinspirasi kasus Lady gaga :P)

Fishy

2012-05-08T09:08:00.001+07:00

I don't know whether I truly live in reality or somewhere in the dreamland rightnow because I can't differ those two worlds anymore. I used to be an optimistic person in which somehow having that belief 'I can achieve the best if I do the best', but not anymore, especially in terms I'm having now.

Oh how I really miss those days in my previous schools where everything seemed to work out just fine when all I do is only studying and try my best without cheating, sucking up on someone shoes and giving fishy gratitude signs. I could determine where I wanted to be, what I wanted to be. either to achieve the best or ended up being a fool. However in this 'education world' I'm living in at the moment, such thing does not exist. As much as I try my hardest, almost all ended up in waste land. The people that I look up to, those who suppose to show me great examples of being noble, high dignity, responsible, honest and sincere, most of them have failed to do so. I was forced to accept the bitter facts and realities of how cruel and unfair the world is, without ever given a chance to stand up and show what I can do without screaming out loud so those ears would hear instead of listening to me carefully.

All my life, I 've never been in this kind of situation before. I always have this thought of 'may the best be the winner' but it doesn't work here.The potential or talent have failed to show some effects for some people, money did. As if nothing would be achieved without money had to do something with it. I may sound desperate or angry but this is how I truly feel. My spirit to keep fighting slowly fade away as the time goes by. There's no excuse in living this life, some people once taught me, but this is my excuse for not doing so well no matter how hard I try. They just don't want to see me as me but merely as an object. In addition to this 'lovely' environment, I have such lovely friends who would only think how to survive themselves by all means necessary even if by sacrificing me as the black sheep for all the trouble for fighting something good.I can pretty much see what's so good and unforgettable side about this school. Above all that, I still have some true friends, great teachers, but that's just not enough to help me deal with all troubles I'm having right now.

May God keep me in good mind and never let me go insane because of this.

Do you believe in Karma?

2012-04-24T21:22:00.002+07:00

Have you ever heard the words of wisdom ' what you reap is what you sow'? Have you ever imagine when you do something, it will indirectly have impact on you later on as the result? you may have or have not. However, for me personally, it's about some kind of chain reaction. you start something good, you will eventually rewarded with the same amount or maybe more goodness ahead of you. On the contrary, when you reverse the action, the result would be much worse than you could ever imagine.

I believe in one of God's virtue in the Holy Book of Alqur'an and Hadits, that a prayer from a tormented or tortured innocent people has no barrier to Him to be refused.In other words, it must be granted as it is. I've been in that certain experience, when unknowingly I've been threatened for no reason for more than a year. Along that tiring moments, not only one time that I almost snapped it out and lost it, broke the wall of patience, but no, luckily I was stronger and sensible not to accept the shallow challenge. Instead of doing the same horrible thing, I hoped and prayed to God to help me and my prayers were granted. Without me noticing and realizing what truly happened, those people had met the equal payment somehow. I cant laugh of their misfortune but I was relieved that the misery was finally over.

Lately, I 've been facing the similar situation in which I have not expected in the very beginning. As always, I will only do what I need to do as I did back then.I ought to be smarter than that. I will not let it drag me down that low for I believe God's on my side as long as I'm in a good and honest way.I believe I will have God's hands on me when I need it for I afraid when I do something bad it will backfires on me in a much more horrible way.Just to remember,' you can never hide a stinky corpse forever no matter how tidy you wrapped it up, someday somehow people will sense and smell it even from a far'. By then, the consequences are waiting in front of our face to deal with. So,please do remember(including reminding my own self), when you sacrifice everything just to save you own self or your own accord/interest, even if it means by ruining other people's life or creating troubles, disadvantages, problem, whatever it is, please prepare yourself for greater surprises in front of you sooner that you would've expected. And surely it won't be something beautiful.

my drawing 'sad wings'

I knew it!

2012-04-05T16:11:00.002+07:00

Today, I've learned another lesson that I hardly swallowed with my clear logic.I barely can stand with this kind of bulls*** any longer. I've never expected to be like this, to be difficult like this when I try to be who I am. I'm not the kind of person who love or enjoy herself in kissing someone's shoes just to get good grade that I deserved to get in the 1st place. Life is unfair I know, but how stupid can they be when they just allow such thing to happen? especially in terms of 'respectful' job they're doing. I don't like to show my respect to those who are full of themselves, think of themselves as the all high and mighty people. I won't give to such nonsense, but I put my mind now that I might not take a look another way to that path anymore. I don't want to be another hypocrite, I just want to be who I am.

My parent raised me in a proper manner, and I will just let it go. I just had enough already.

sincerity

2012-02-02T08:52:00.001+07:00

Just yesterday I watched on TV someone quite famous has died of his sickness.It got me thinking of something crucial about human being, about being sincere. It reminded me of one Korean Drama I've watched before, 49days, especially the part when the soul reaper showed the lost soul of a coma girl one funeral scene and taught her about sincerity based on tears. There are tears of happiness - happy because of someone's death, symbolized by black colored tears.Questionable or mixed feeling tears-between sad and happy, sad because of losing someone important and happy out of greed because of the insurance policy or the inheritance s/he will get, symbolized by colorful tears.Tears of courtesy or as act of manner, just because of the situation and being polite someone shed the tears without feeling truly sad,symbolized by red colored tears. The last one is tears of sincerity, whereas usually shed by family member like parent or siblings who has true love towards the one who passed away, symbolized by crystal clear tears.

As i saw it on the news, i kept thinking the tears of his friends, was it real or fake? was it truly come from the heart or just another act of modesty to gain some sympathy?well i would never knew that anyway, cause the depth of one's heart can never be discovered by other but only him/herself and the Mighty God. I just hope I can always be sincere and honest to everyone I love,always return their feeling, their trust with the same amount or even more and never betray or hurt them as long as I live.I hope they can feel it, cause nothing really matter the most but share the true bond of affection that comes from sincerity.I do believe in karma,it's like getting what we deserve, if we do good deed it will return to us the same way or even better, however if we do bad things, then just prepare ourselves for the consequences, even the worst nightmare we'll ever get.

the princess man, 49 days (Korean Drama 2011)

2012-01-04T11:28:00.000+07:00

The Princess man

Synopsis: It's a Chosun dynasty version of “Romeo and Juliet”.click here for complete info.

49 days

Synopsis: a lost soul search for a sincerity.click here for complete info.

Review after watching: First, the princess man (tPM), The beginning was promising and I thought the story line would be lighter than all the previous dramas I've watched before,such as Iljimae, painter of the wind, etc, but I was wrong. This was the exact mainstream of Korean drama with old time setting.In the end, the protagonists who had suffered a lot gained a little bit of happiness meanwhile the antagonists didn't get what he deserved. I know revenge is not the solution, however its not the best choice either for the ending of the story by making the protagonists became so wise and forgiving toward the enemies who have killed his family members. All in the name of love, what a tiring love story, quite predictable,although the chemistry built rather nicely between the main casts.Overall, quite nice about the love story but so so for the whole plot.

And now about the 2nd drama, 49days. Actually my sis offered me to watch the DVD a few weeks before its aired on the local TV(currently still airing) but that time I wasn't interested. After I watched several episodes, I decided to borrow it to watch the whole episodes without waiting everyday for it. It was interesting, also offered some funny parts where we can laugh but on the other hand, cried a lot because of some devastating scenes. It worshiped the divinity of love, taught us the real human figures and personalities, ambitions,etc. We may see what we want to see, but not what we need to see.I may expect the ending to be different but its also reasonable with what they showed anyway.

sungkyunkwan scandal ( Korean drama 2010)

2011-12-13T15:08:00.007+07:00

synopsis: Sungkyunkwan Scandal is a story of friendships and love among 4 main characters together with all the conflicts inside the school .click here for more.the link is the original source of the synopsis article,I just want to share it with the reader aside to my personal comment.

comment:It's a good drama, although somehow reminded me of 'Painter of the wind', when the prettiest gisaeng had a crush on yoon hee who pretends to be a guy.Overall it's a good drama and enjoyable to watch. currently airing in local TV.Inside the story the writer of the scenario cleverly mentioned about the forbidden love between the same sex/gender. Well, in the end it will be other than that, a happy ending of a normal couple.

pink lipstick (korean drama 2010)

2011-12-13T14:48:00.006+07:00

synopsis: Another vengeance to be made for the sake of her deceased father and brother towards her ex husband and ex-best friend.click here for more info.the link is the original source of the synopsis article,I just want to share it with the reader aside to my personal comment.

comment: currently airing in one local TV. quite interesting,but the pace is too slow. the plot should be tighten and faster.It's pretty similar to the drama I've watched before,'wife temptation'; although the drama I've mentioned just now shared great intrigues, faster plot, good ratings, acting and unpredictable scenario. The only thing that catch my interest is only because I'm wondering how they wrapped the end of this story.
Something I learn along the way, there's no end to greed over money or revenge, it can never satisfy our soul or bring peace to our life, for God has a secret plan for us behind every disaster we've been through.

pretend to be blind

2011-12-03T17:02:00.004+07:00

When I read this article, I was like waah, how exaggerating the leader of my country was. He spent a lot of money by closing his eyes of how poor most of the citizens are, just to celebrate his 2nd son's wedding.

I had enough of this shitty news about the government, the parliament, the politics, especially their life style. As if they were greedy rats who eat out all, everything even if it means killing the rights of millions of people.
They should be ashamed of themselves, for they were to be claimed as well or high educated people,but the reality is, they act as bunch of people who'd never taste the sweet life full of luxury. They have been turned themselves as shallow-minded pygmies who act like the devil after consumed the corruption and gratification money. Not to mention the money laundry to feed their disgusting appetite of wealth and power.

I wonder where their consciousnesses have gone? are they no longer human for they have lost their humanity towards other? or their brain are just too stupid to think too much but only about their own.

I'm sick of them, and never felt proud of them even a bit. They have put money above everything, turned it as their mighty God.What a silly and stupid people. True God won't see how good you are about money, power, education but your devotion towards Him.

Vantage point (US movie 2008)

2011-11-29T21:00:00.004+07:00

synopsis :A several parts of the story connected with each other. click here for more. the link is the original source of the synopsis article,I just want to share it with the reader aside to my personal comment.
comment: I watched last night, and this one was a very good movie :). recommended to watch. Just to add a little bit more, when we're watching this movie, it would be better if we don't miss every single scene cause it will be confusing if we do.fast plot, quick moving from scene to scene, every angle carefully built and taken. It's one good movie for people who seek the quality and not only entertainment.

suckseed (Thai movie 2011)

2011-11-29T20:54:00.004+07:00

SuckSeed is a Thain teen comedy movie about love and friendship.click here for more info.the link is the original source of the synopsis article,I just want to share it with the reader aside to my personal comment.

comment: I watched this on local TV channel about a week ago. The movie was interesting and funny, I truly enjoy watching it, although at some points it reminded me of Korean drama 'Dream high'. Its recommended for teenager to fill their youth with something useful rather than waste it for nothing.

the hangover 2 (US Movie 2011)

2011-11-29T20:41:00.004+07:00

synopsis: Another chaos before Stu's wedding in Thailand.

click here for more info.the link is the original source of the synopsis article,I just want to share it with the reader aside to my personal comment.

comment:I have to say i like the 1st one better than this one, because this one is full of blood/gore, vulgar scenes,etc. Nonetheless, this one is a good movie to watch.

it's all in your head

2011-11-29T20:35:00.001+07:00

Hello!

are you there? are you alive?.If you try to talk to someone whose not even understand what you mean, then it's useless. Hey I'm not ms perfect, I don't even try to be one, not at all, just try to do the best.That's all.

If I have new friend, I will always being cautious not that I don't trust them but never want to let anyone get into my personal life that easy.However, one thing for sure, I will never make anything that will cost anyone's damage.If I start to trust them I will slowly reveal the real me.

I divide my personal life which is the real life in the real world and my professional life,including my hobby which is mostly connect to my imagination. I never put a limit to my imagination cause it's not something I've done in real life. I respect and appreciate my life very much to the point of keeping myself from being influenced by other that easy. I believe my religion wholly, I never had any doubt in it, and I never let myself intentionally drown in sins or things that forbidden by the rule. Take a simple thing, shaking hands with a man, watch a movie in a cinema,etc. I'm a very conservative person concerning my personal life.Even my ex-bosses whose coming from Europe appreciate my principles.They never force themselves to shake hands and we respect our own religion our own way of life.I don't care if they as western people, drink alcohol or live together without marriage, I don't care as long as I didn't do the same and stick to my own believe.I respect and appreciate their decision and they do the same with mine.

As for my professional life and hobby, I've never restrained myself to do things that I like.I've never set a limit to my imagination because imagination is not something real, it's an idea, a fiction.I've designed so many clothes, short pants, daring clothes or tend to pervy comics but I didn't do that in real life, I didn't even wear tight pants and clothes for crying out loud.

How unfortunate if some people judged me only for what i chose.I'm a person who love peace, and I try my best to fit in the society without making them uneasy because of my existence.I thought every one I knew is the same as they suppose to be,a mature and grown up person who would kindly and willingly accept to be criticize.Hence, I often let myself being criticized if it makes me better,but I was wrong. Some people still trapped in a mature body with a childish personality from years ago.

Yo! wake up! good friends will tell you the truth not the sweet lies.I didn't act to be nice with hidden purpose, I just want to help if i can help as a friend.I don't know who the hell are you for God sake, but if it's a bitter criticism that will make you a better person why don't you just take it or leave it,just as simple as that, period.Not by trying to make quick analysis on something you hardly knew. I've been through a lot but you'll never understand since we don't speak and comprehend 'the same language'.It's all up to you now, I don't care with whatever you do or want, I will never bother to care anymore.it's your life, and it's my life.we live it our way. Don't expect anyone would understand you always when you don't try to do the same.