No small talk

This past week’s summary

TravisM — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 20:00:00 +0000

I don't think I'll ever eat a foot long sub sandwich again… too much. #
Going to make this my inspiration for the day, not much, but a lot all at once. http://twitpic.com/167tim #
Earthquake causes shorter days ahead? http://bit.ly/ciunrm #
Goodbye 11 hour day. #
Feeling the love today! First day of my 29th year. #
I love people watching, there's a lot to learn and be humble about when you simply pay attention to people around you. #
Both of my girls, sleeping in the car before church. http://twitpic.com/1728gu & http://twitpic.com/1728l7 #

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This past week’s summary

TravisM — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 20:00:00 +0000

God's is incomprehensible, good, and so amazingly wonderful. So much love and support. The church being family! Amen! And thanks! #
Life is beautiful, not clean, not perfect, but beautiful none the less; when life is anchored on the big picture and victory is already won. #
Wake up O sleeper…. #
Go for the victory we already have. #
The ability to not just do something for someone, but rather help them to help themselves, is an art. #
Feels good to pay off the government… kinda… Oregon you're welcome. #

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This past week’s summary

TravisM — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 20:00:00 +0000

Cannon Beach, who knew spontaneous trip to the coast would have sun! http://twitpic.com/139zp4 #
Sweet, eh? http://twitpic.com/13a3j6 #
I really should just go to bed when I'm tired – otherwise the humanity gets really ugly (read: I'm just a grumpy jerk). #
Waking up in the middle of REM sleep not recommended for attempting to work. #
The day flew by, but is long from over. #
When working late at night from home, nothing should go wrong b/c it can turn the best nights into very bad ones #
Yeah.. stop now. Change course, go, stop, decisions, plans, and all the work that comes with any of it. Exciting and tiring. #
Please be praying for Alexis and I & how to deal with the hardest family issue ever. Our stress level is at max. Details can't be shared. #
We can be so focused on pinning blame on humanity, that we forget there is an enemy who destroys, and who steals forgiveness and victory. #
Though I and my family have been violated & used, we have chosen the life that grace filled forgiveness brings. Bitterness won't destroy us. #

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This past week’s summary

TravisM — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 04:00:00 +0000

Wish I had a camera with me, it is beautiful downtown Portland, the sun's angle this morning was perfect! #
I can see the light at the end,of the tunnel! #
Enemy-occupied territory that is what this world is. C.S. Lewis I'm learning more and more the full picture. #
Need coffe to counteract; don't eat fancy green olives before getting on a nearly hour long bus ride. #
No complaints. #
Feeling a Blog post bubbling in my mind. Just need some time to compose it. #
Oregon needs much more stable tax infrastructure. Three areas which should never be cut: education, public safety, public transit. #
Simply tired. #
I wish I could take a week to do all the little things, tasks, planning, and dreaming for the future. Yeah, that would be nice… #
I do not have a choice but to see people through the eyes of my God, who is love. Including those that make offensive/rude comments/acts. #
Oh how I love working late a on Friday… but I'm done now, 3 day weekend ahead! #
Taxes DONE – and we come out ahead for the first time in 5 years! Although barely, no thanks to Oregon income tax! #
At seaside, oh so happy http://twitpic.com/138p4r #
Yes there is sun at the Oregon coast! http://twitpic.com/138q9m #
http://yfrog.us/eu5gxz #
Watchout for the sneaker waves! http://yfrog.us/eu5gxz #

we had a friend over today!

TravisM — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 03:00:22 +0000

This caught my eye while browsing my blog/news subscriptions today and so I thought I’d share it:

emma came to hang out with us all day! we had so much fun. the kids didn't know she was coming, so they were surprised when they woke up.

at breakfast, meshach asked what bug she should be. {i call them big bug, doodle bug and lady bug.} he came up with honey bee and called her that sporadically throughout the day. )

meshach loved to help take care of her and offered his hand to her on our walk.

it was such a beautiful day! after lunch we went back outside to play with chalk.

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Cringe

TravisM — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 15:25:38 +0000

Some thoughts from my Monday morning commute on the TriMet number 9 bus… mobile post, might not make any sense.

Do you have memories of things you’ve done or said that make you cringe? Maybe it’s just me that thinks back on the pas sometimes and wishes I could just erase some of these things. I know that it is these things which make me who I am, so in the end I’m ok with it. Although some of the following memories have some strong emotions of embarrassment, I’m listing them anyway because these are in the past and I need to just lay it down and be who o know I am, whether or not I’m embarrassed. Most of these things are little, but for some reason or another they have or do provoke some feelings that made/make me cringe.

2nd grade – kicking my desk when I got frustrated with math.

2nd grade – lying to a teacher about a jump rope being stolen, getting another (“popular”) classmate in trouble.

5th grade – Not understanding my math homework, and then getting a “white slip”, which was the highest in fraction, for not completing it.

6th grade – Crying after my English teacher mistakenly accused me of lying about finishing a book when indeed I had.

7th grade – being told by one of my best friends “to away, don’t sit here” at lunch on the first day of school and my very emotional response.

In more recent years it’s been a number of speaking opportunities that have haunted me, one was just last spring, mostly because I didn’t receive any productive feedback nor has anyone offered to have me speak again, total insecurity here, I know I need to just askand learn.

I always cringe when I don’t follow up on things I’m leading, I hate it when I fail in my own values, I know I’m just human In a mesed up world.

Love overcomes performance, that’s the bottom line, live it, think it, speak it.

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This past week’s summary

TravisM — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 20:00:00 +0000

Relaxing today… and Emma is such a good little girl #
How am I always on a MAX behind a train with "mechanical" problems, never mine. Sure seems to be happening more often. But I save $$, so #
On my way to pick Emma up, how shall we spend the evening? Hmmm #
Tonight consisted of watching Sleeping Beauty (this is the 2nd time this week now) w/ Emma, followed by snuggling b/c her tooth hurt #
Beautiful day in Portland! The Northwest is incredible! http://twitpic.com/1118n4 and http://twitpic.com/1118qj #
CAN'T WAIT FOR LOST TONIGHT! Am I really that excited??? YES #
Peeps in Time Zones east of Pacific, please no LOST spoilers! Can the Internet be quiet? #
I blame LOST on my late running morning. And the theory of the domino effect. #
Sweet onion teriyaki, random drink, coffee, I think I can complete the day on time and pick up Emma in time too! #
Don't let rushing get ya down! #
Problem! Need someone(s) to watch Emma tomorrow and Friday! #
THANK you Jesus for the @easthillfamily coming through! Emma problem resolved by 3 awesome peeps! #
Man, I have sympathy for single parents, always have, but now I have much more! #
I hate when good gifts get broken or lost. JawBone headset, missing. Amazon Kindle broken. At least the Kindle is under warranty! #
Can't believe we've been back for a week now! So much to do!! And so much to share! #
Really missing Alexis right now. #

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Lying to yourself

TravisM — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 01:32:42 +0000

I have a lot of principles, values, and priorities that I like to tell myself I live by. Things like honesty, loving others, being a good listener, integrity, authenticity, etc. Many of which are of course motivated by my relationship with God. However, I can say and proclaim as many of these things as I want until I’m blue in the face… none of it matters. None of it matters unless I’m actually doing these things, being true to them.. Now this sounds pretty harsh, even borderline religious or legalistic.

I don’t like lying to myself, I don’t like saying I am one thing, when really I am not. I’ll go as far as to say, if you call yourself a Christian, if you have a relationship with Jesus, and you’re not living out your values… then you’re probably experiencing some fairly stressful feelings and situations. I say this because every time I do something against what I value, I feel it, I feel the stress of being at odds with myself (normally by being grumpy, rude, mean to my wife). So, this is why I actually schedule my values into my calendar, so that I can live out my priorities, and nurture my values. In this structure I experience life, fellowship, friendship, love, knowledge, family, and all within balance. It’s freedom, even though at first it’s discipline, but discipline leads to freedom, trust me, I’ve lived it. Don’t lie to yourself.

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Just do it

TravisM — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 01:19:47 +0000

Nike got it right with “just do it” – I think the most effective way of learning (once given some proper guidance and with good caring mentorship) is to “just do it”. With the proper support, love, care, it’s okay to just do it – without fear of devastating failure, why not? I also believe (and from my own experience) just doing it/something is one of the best ways to re-train our minds (what Paul in the book of Romans refers to as “the renewing of the mind”).

I really can not recall a time where I “just did it” and regretted the learning outcome, I honestly can’t. Each time I have been rewarded with the fantastic feeling of overcoming fears, more confidence, and just good warm fuzzies. Of course having a good coach and cheerleader behind you is key to the success of “just do it”. Sometimes (just ask Alexis) I find myself saying JUST DO IT without the encouragement and support that I have been given…. um don’t do that to others, and don’t let yourself be in that place… it’s not fun, for either party.

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Always more

TravisM — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 20:09:15 +0000

I was just listening to “stop and stare” by OneRepublic, it’s the first time I’ve really listened to it closely. The line that catches my attention is “You start to wonder why you’re here not there”. My interpretation of this is similar to what I was thinking about earlier.

A lot of time, at least for me, is thinking about how I want to be “there” weather that’s about how people perceive me, how I’m performing, or even as vain as how I look, there’s always more… Sometimes I need to just stop and stare, realize what I’ve got is incredible blessings, promises, opportunities, and love around just about every corner!

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