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Janurary 3rd, WE SURVIVED!

2013-01-06T03:15:00.000-08:00

Ok, So it is now the sixth day of the New Year!!!!! Happy New Years everyone!!!!!

So, let me see.. I figured I would just tell you about my day, as a little ournal....

Today was fun! I listened to a lot of nightcore. If any of you actually listen to nightcore, then you know what I mean. I like someone of the one's you don't expect, like Lucifer, Calling all the Children, Paint it Black.... Which is your favorite? I think lately I have fallen in love with This is Halloween! I know that it isn't halloween time, but I can't help it! This is a song that has been sped up as well, but I enjoy it! Calling all Monsters is a good song too!

I think my new favorite book, "cookbook", is the "Unofficial Harry Potter Cookbook"! I really look forward to trying out some of the recipes! I think that the pies and the soups look the best. Though the fruitcake is something I am willing to try. In this book, they also give you some of the ideas of the cakes that Harry Might have recieved during the year when Dudley is placed on a diet. I think that is very neat! I think the best one is going to be the rock cakes though, I don't plan on following the instructions to make them exactly like Hagrid's but at least they will be similar!

I also have a boyfriend, his name is Malcolm. No, nothing like Malcolm in the Middle. I will assure you! He is not small, nor is he a genius with numbers.... hahaha. I like him, I can't really say I love him, only because who are we to say we are in love with each other? We have known each other for a while, so I guess I do really love him, I mean he has been there through everything that I have thrown at him, everything!!!! Hahaha.. I look forward to the rest of this year with him. Last year we went on our very first date! We first went to the Movies and saw, "The Hobbit" and then proceeded to go to Appleby's. That was great! We had a nice chat while eating dinner. Though I will admitt it felt weird to me, we got the two for twenty deal, and I got the steak and he got the chicken finger basket..... THE CHICKEN FINGER BASKET!! Hahaha. Welll

I guess I will stop for now, I know that no one is really reading this, but I hope that this year will be at least a little different and I might actuallly pick some people up!

Stay Real, Stay True!

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2012-06-20T20:49:00.001-07:00

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It has been a while

2012-05-27T13:07:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been awhile since I have posted. I can't believe how long though!
So I only have three half days left in school. I am excited, but they are filled with finals. Wen, I don't have to take either of the finals. That makes me happy.
I have a boyfriend and just to clear things up, I don't know how much longer we are going to last. It doesn't surprise me. I will stay with him as long as he wants me to. I am happy to be with him, I can't help but smile when I am around him!

The people I am living with, well I have been avoiding them lately just to cool off. I haven't really been in a good mood lately, and I somewhat know why. I am not completely positive. I now have a job, which is awesome, I am working at a store called H.E.B.

*Here
Everything is
Better*
Actually it is Howard E. Butt.
His wife is the founder of the company the early 1900's. I go for training on Tuesday at 2pm, after school(half days remember)

JROTC is going well. I wanted to go to summer camp but I can't anymore, and I only have it for half a year next year as well. I am going to talk to my mom and dad about taking the course that is holding my back online. The only problem is that I would have to dip into my savings and pay 155 for the course! That is a lot and it would be the same if I took it as a summer school class. I want to take it so that I will have a full year of JROTC, but I don't know if it is worth the money. I guess I will just have to wait again for the Nook and buy the class. It would be in the summer online as I mentioned and when i needed to take the final, I would have to get with the school to take it. I don't really want to take it again, but I might as well. The class is communications Applications. See I would have taken it this year, had I known in the beginning that I had to take it. See when I first moved to Texas, I had to set up my schedule for school. We picked all the classes that I needed and I asked, was there anything else that I needed, they said no, and then half way through the year, "Oh, by the way. Next year you will have to take Communication Applications."

Sorry, I got to ranting.. I have been doing that a lot lately as well and I don;t know why.

Well I will say goodbye for now.

Stay real, Stay true

Why? (Another Poem)

2012-05-27T12:42:00.002-07:00

Why? Why does he hate me? Why won't he talk to me? Why do I still like him? Why won't he listen? Why do I hide from him?

Why does he like me? Why does he try? Why won't he ever just admit that he will never love me? Why do I try?

Why does he sit with me? Why does he say things that aren't true?

Why do they even bother me?

I can't do it anymore(another poem)

2012-05-27T12:40:00.000-07:00

I can't do it anymore.
I can't hide myself.
I can't run away anymore.
I want to be perfect.
I want to make everyone happy.
I want to stay where I am but I can't.
I want those who attempt, to actually try, to see the faults.
I want my mom back.
I want to be accepted.
But I can't do it anymore.

It is there( This is a poem I wrote)

2012-05-27T12:34:00.001-07:00

Though you can't see it, it's there.
Though you think she is happy,
Though you think she's normal,
She's not.
She cries herself to sleep,
She holds her animals and creams.
She is angry all other times.
So what if she smiles?
It's all a play.
Though you can't see it, it's there.
Though you deny it, it happens.
Though she tries to hide it,
And believe it is gone, it always comes back.
Why fight it anymore?
Why hide it? It's useless.
No one wants a girl like her.
Why pretend?
Why try to be what I'm not?

Church

2012-01-11T16:15:00.000-08:00

Okay, so school was good, I got a 121 on my computer science final. I am soooo happy,

on the physics final I fell asleep after it...it was funny because some random person started to rub my back before the bell rang...I was happy for it becuase I was able to get lunch befoer leaving but I did think it was really weird.

I came home and cleaned up random stuff today and then I played the wii....I ate two tacos and am waiting to go to church. OH YEAH!! tODAY IS sports day so i am looking forward to that too.....

Tomorrow is my last day of school, and then on friday we are leaving for A trip with the church, I am a little sad because America's Got Talent is coming to Austin Texas this Sat and Sun, which is when I will be back... I am going to just submitt a video adition for it becuase there is not other way! :( Sad Face....

Looking forward to being called!! I am going to be positive.

Great Day!!

2012-01-10T18:44:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I went to school and I had an awesome day, I kissed Malcolm again!!! :) <3

In 6th period I was done with a lot of time left. I only got two questions wrong so I am really happy about that!!!!( JROTC)

I then was able to tickle bulldog or brandon, he is a short person in class but he is really funny....ahhahaha

he stole my feather I had and so I chased him in my boots of all shoes and I actually caught up!! I was soooo happy!!!

In 5th period, I took the test in there, it was only 60 questions and I feel really confident about that one too. I was able to come home and have three hours of being alone without anyone there!!! (SPANISH) Tomorrow I have to take 4th(Computer Science) and 3rd(Physics). This should go fairly easy. I am not completely sure about the Physics test but I am good on the computer science. I have been programming from home so that I do not get out of touch, but also to challenge myself to look it through without help so that I do not become to reliant on my teacher.

My computer science teacher is really cool. She warned us that is she gets mad, Rona, her twin sister comes out(her real name is Mona). We laughed at this because, well, it is funny!

I must say that today has been a really good day.

What I thought was really funny was when I was riding the bus home today, The boy who sits in the seat next to me, he was telling me that I won't have to waste all of that time going down the long stretch of road to his house, which is actually the end of his drive where he then proceeds to drive a car to the house. I asked why and he said that in Feb he will be legal driver, so guess what( we have the same birthdate!!! I think that is just plain akward, cool, and really just freaky,) I can't wait until I can drive, then I wont have to worry about anybody having to take me places, I could just hop into the car and go where ever.

Oh and a heads up, I am sketching an outline of a new story so be prepared y'all

Here is a link to my poems.
http://www.poemhunter.com/marsadee-flowers/

Better than expected

2012-01-09T19:06:00.000-08:00

Ok, so it was pouring rain today!!! YEAH RAIN!!!!

I got so soaked in the morning waiting for my bus that ended up staying wet until 5th period. It was fun today, I went to the library in the morning like I always do and I sat with my friend Malcolm. He walked me to my class as normal and then when he was about to leave he said how about a kiss for good luck!!!!! (We all had finals 7th period) We kissed twice and now I am really happy!!! I can't believe it,

so then I then had to got to class which I had a really good day after that, my physics homework wasn't being graded so that was good because I didn't do my best on that sadly, and then in computer class I did nothing but study for the final. I listened to music all day also which was pretty cool. Tomorrow is going to be long/short because I only have to take my 6th period and fifth period finals and then go home!!!! YEAH!!!

During sixth period I was able to learn some new things like that we might be wearing school uniforms next year and that all the freshmen will be going to Peet Jr. High, which is where my sister is at now....haha

But, again it was an overall good day, I even think I did really good on the final. I had 112 questions but I think that I did fairly well on it, I didn't rush it this time like I tend to do all my other tests which is why I always get less than 100%. :(

Again, if you have any story ideas hook my up, comment me on here and then we can send messages...

Today

2012-01-08T18:41:00.000-08:00

Today was okay. I woke up late again:) Haha, I was able to eat a sandwhich of peanut butter and banana before heading off to work. Boring.

I then listened to music all day before finally cracking down on some of my reviews. I have more of the History done, it is not really done yet but what can I do? I am not looking forward to it tomorrow, it is a full day before I have nothing but half days!!! :P I feel bad for my bros and sis, they have full days all week next week!!! :P

I watched the movie Contagious today. It was really good, I did not think that they would end it all like that... it is funny, it was all caused in China because people were destroying food supply and it all started because of the fruit bats....(KILL THE FRUIT BATS) hahaha not really. I think it is funny though, no one got sick in china until the pig ate the banana and then the pig didn't show symptoms.

Welll now I am blogging and drinking milk. I am about to program and start thinking about a story to write. I am not sure what I should write about, if anyone has any ideas, then please hit me up....

Today

2012-01-07T18:37:00.000-08:00

So today I woke up at 3 and had to put my laptop away and my mp3 player had died. I fell asleep...wow....

After waking up again at 9 something, I turned on my laptop again and resumed studys.....ugh.....
I then had about 3 minutes to get dressed to go eat because I had been listening to some spanish videos and did not hear mom when she told everyone to get dressed......I need a shower now.
We went to eat at a burger joint which was soooooooooo good!!!! Delicioso!!

After coming home I found that I had not recieved anything from my boyfriend so I call him to tell I love him and see how he is doing, well he doesn't answer to I leave a message. He calls back sometime later and says how can you leave me a message that you love me when you never answered my calls or texts.

Long story short-I am not on good terms with him....even though he calls me, he keeps saying I will call you later after five minutes....it is seriously getting on my nerves.

I was studying as always and he called again and apologized for yelling at me, then we start arguing about how he didn't have a good day and that since I am studying I should call him when I done, well, I would have never have called him or texted him earlier if he didn't call me first. I tell him that I won't because with my luck I will forget and get wrapped up in my studying, he then says yeah well I won't have my phone starting tomorrow,....he told me just call later...I won't call...I can't take it anymore.....

Time

2012-01-06T20:40:00.000-08:00

Wow, the time seems to just past by so fast. I have now gone from 2 SAE's to around 4-5. I am now a private in JROTC and have two ribbons and finals are next week. It is now 2012 and I can not believe it. This past year has gone by so fast that I can't remember it really ever being here at all. This year had it's ups and downs, I am now keeping a journal that I write my feelings in, I am hoping that this will help me in the long run so that I don't freak out on someone randomly because I am on the last straw and they don't know it.

Christmas was great. I got a laptop, class ring and a lot of clothes. I am really happy, they are all things that I really wanted. I really loved the class ring and dolls. Monster High All The Way Baby!!!! I have been successful in looking up a few scholarships today, I think that I might be awarded at least one of them. I have three essay's ahead of me and a few letters of recomendation too... :) I am going to hit the sack as they say and will continue to update everyone tomorrow!! Good Night Everyone!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Fun at School

2011-11-02T15:35:00.000-07:00

Ok....I officially have two SAE's or Students Achieving Excellence!!! I have a boyfriend and now I also have brought all my grades up to A's!!!!! I love it...I would really like to retake an english vocab quiz but all I would get at the most is two percent higher which is nothing....hahahahaha. I am now reading a new book I found by Ellen Hopkins. I love all her books and I also have the very first book I ever read by her...I believe it is a her...hahahaha...

I am bored and can't wait until this Saturday! NEW BTR SHOW!!!!!! Oh yeahWell...I will type to y'all later!!

Holy Cow!!

2011-10-19T16:01:00.000-07:00

Wow, I can't believe that it has been so long since I last posted!! Well I am in Texas and going to Conroe High School! I joined JROTC and it is going great so far!Today I had to run the mile and I did it in 8: and some seconds. I failed the pull ups but I am working on it... then school is going great so far anyway! I am loving my physics teacher, mr.crabtree is funny!! So I am looking at some colleges now and I found an awesome scholarship! NSA is giving a full ride to any college you want with a bonus check as long as you keept to the standards and you go for computer science or computer or electrical engineering. I really want to go for electrical engineering and my friend wants to go for computer science. I have made some really funny friends, they...I have no words for them, but then again most people don't!! Hahahahahaha Well I miss everyone in pennsylvania...:( but I will see them sometime in the next year! Hahahaha.... Tonight is Youth Group Night so I will talk to you guys later!!! Hopefully tomorrow!!!

So Far

2011-06-30T17:06:00.000-07:00

Ok, so far I have had a great time with Gwen....I am back at her house for one more day...I am leaving for Texas on Monday! July 4th! I know that it sounds weird but yeah....the family I am living with is already there and so it is just really great to finally get back to them! I miss everyone there....I miss amber, anthony, hadyn, mom, and dad! I am excited to go and I can't wait to see what seats I will be getting...I asked for a window seat so that I could watch the clouds while I am in the sky...Today everyone had burgerking for lunch together and I was able to get Gwen something else from the Dollar Tree... the last time I was there with her I bought things that I could use to make her a vase with flowers....it was fun and she liked it!!! I really liked making it...I get this creative side from my biological mother....she lives in Philadelphia...So I was to go to Manheim and help my grandparents with my great-grandmothers garage but they left me sleep in and I didn't wake up until 10:00!! So I stayed home and watched the rest of the episodes to my new favorite anime, "Gosick" It is really good...it is about this exchange student that they begin to call the dark reaper, and he goes to the library and finds a garden on the top floor and the person they call the Golden Fairy...these are all ghost stories and it is all about their adventures together to solve other ghost stories that start to happen at the school and in the city....I am starting to watch something called The World God only Knows...It is great so far...still confused about what it is about since I only watched one episode and nothing really happened! hahahahaha....I also like "Black Butler", "Ouran High School Host Club", "Fruits Basket" and I think "D-Gray-Man" These are all really great Anime!!! You should watch them!!

StayReal, Stay True...

Sadee Flowers

Free and fun

2011-06-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

Ok so I was eating my funnel cakes for breakfast when I realized I haven't blogged anything so here is an update. I have a new iPod as mentioned and it is really cool. I have been swimming everyday so far this week with Gwen, meandgwen have watched a lot of tv shows and movies allowed! HahahA. Everything is going great and I even hung out with my bio dad. He is really cool, they have two sons and they are really sweet to me. I can't wait to hang out with them again sometime, we want to go on a picnic and then a hike through the woods. That is about all except that I tried sardines and they are actually good.
Stay real, stay true, sadee heart

New btw viewer

2011-06-18T18:32:00.001-07:00

I just got a new. iPod today and the first thing I do is play btr video... This is soooooo cool

Gwen and Me

2011-06-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

Me: Okay, so last night we watched "The Nine Lives of Chloe King" and it is really good. I have been having a lot of fun so far with my friend Gwen, she will be typing later...hahaha....Today I wil be spending the day with my bio-dad...I am kind of scared, not quite sure how that will go over but looking forward to coming home again! Oh, and I found out that if you go swimming with your pants on, not good, Swimsuit, ok, nake- We'll See. Demitri......He if kind of funny. NewsBoys all the way! Now to Gwen...

Gwen: im super happy sadee is here.last night we went to the grocery store, when we got home i told her i wanted to show her somthing so i get on the pool deck and just did a huge cannon ball into the pool with my clothes on! She kept saying she couldnt belivie i just did that haha. then she jumped in too. then we ate icecream and played the wii for a while. im super super happy shes here! I love her :) ....... and big time rush....sorry just had to include them in there somewhere haha <3

Sadee: Will talk to everyone later!
Stay Real, Stay True Sadee <3

Excitement

2011-06-17T11:18:00.000-07:00

So, the world is going to end one day, but I hope it waits for just a little bit longer, like 5 years at least, if more!!! I would like to bring in a child to the world, get a job, have some money and be with the one I love... I mean I am definetly not ready to go anytime soon. I am to finish some dentistry in my mouth, duh and then go to trial for something in the past, and this has taken three years to get over. I am also looking foreward to going to Kenobels with my best friend Gwen!! She is really sweet and I can't imagine ever losing her! I want to go swimming again also, it is the best thing in the world to do with her....I would also like to go swimming with the one I love....hahaha... Life is short already, and all I am asking is that it isn't any shorter...please!?!?!?!?

Swimming Today

2011-06-16T18:07:00.000-07:00

Well, today was a great day...I start out with pancakes, eggs, bacon, and scrabble...it was the best of the best! Then at 10 O'Clock I went to Kendig Square to meet my best friend Gwen! We hugged a lot today. When we finally got to her house we had gone to her room and watched a show, Switched at Birth. It is a really good show and I really enjoyed it. We went swimming before and after dinner and played a lot of games with each other. I really like pushing them into it! I know I poked her a lot, I can't believe that I am here and they even offered to let me stay with them the whole of July if need be. She is currently playing with her ipod and I am typing this blog...hahaha...we just got done playing Cook or be Cooked, it is a really good Wii game that we like to play together, now we are going to watch some really awesome movies and so goodnight....
Stay Real, Stay True, Sadee <3

16 yrs.

2011-06-15T18:06:00.000-07:00

Ok, so far I have been 16 for about 4 months and 14 days. Let me tell you, it has been quite the ride. Everytime I look at the world around me I am surprised at what I see. I have learned that I love but hate time, this is because it is so slow when you are waiting for something or someone, and really fast in general. I can't believe that I am 16! I really don't feel that much different than I did last year or the year before that, I think that my likes and dislikes are pretty much the same so no harm there. I do like someone but I have to wait because of time again. I love to write poems and I am trying one out on time, see I am obsessed with time. Hahaha. Though the biggest change for me right now, is that I am living with a different family that is not blood, and I really love it, but they are in Texas right now, and I will be joining them soon. I am really excited but nervous because I never moved out of state, I did move around a lot when I was younger but never ot of state. This is going to be exciting and new.
Stay real, stay true, Sadee <3

Farm Day-first post, kind of long

2011-06-15T17:54:00.000-07:00

Today was an exciting day! I sartout by waking up at 6:00 O' Clock, go figure, a nice time to sleep in with school out and I still wake up early! Hahaha. I eat a great breakfast of a bowl of cereal, eggs, bacon, and pancakes with the best syrup, Kings Molassess. At 10:00 with have an appointment with the Mennonite down the street, they gave us an amazing ride around town on the horse and buggy, and I even got to drive the horse some!! It was amazing, when you really take the time to notice the world around you, it seems that much more interesting and beautiful. I know that when I am in a car, and I look out the window everything in the country seems so wonderful and relaxing to look at, but when I was just trotting along with the horse, it was even more majestic. I was able to see the other farmers around Ephrata. I was able to feed a horse, his name was Major, a carrot, it was his first. Did you know that their teeth go all the way to his eyes almost?! I think that was really cool, I learned a lot about horses and a lot about Major in perticular. When we were done with the ride, we were able to get dropped off at home. We also bought some fresh veggies from them, snap peas, asparagus, and red beets. Tonight for dinner I was able to eat some of the veggies, the asparagus and beets with a potato and sausage mixture. My nonnie, that is what I call her, she made the leaves of the beets along with the beets. i tried them with sea salt and apple cider vinegar, and the taste of the vinegar, the asparagus and the meat and potatoes just went wonderful together, it was like a feast of flavor and wonder was happening at the same time! Today is a great day, and one I will never forget!